#im tagging coz a lot of you might not like this

[tiodolma]

Forgot to add this to the other ask!

In summary, Morgan and Merlin from up until episode 9 end up in BBC Camelot's world and Morgana and Merlin from season 3 end up in Starz Camelot. King Arthur Pendragon is lost in translation with the younger Merlin and Morgana, while Prince Arthur Pendragon is crying bloody murder at the disappearance of his manservant and his foster sister and thinks these two strangers are at fault.

Morgan is gleeful that the rules of magic are different in this world. She's also making plans of getting rid of this Uther Pendragon. On the other hand, Merlin can do nothing by use his knowledge to not only keep the woman at bay from her machinations, but also help this Arthur become the king he's supposed to be.

In the other world, Merlin and Morgana learn that magic has rules that have consequences, so they have to use other skills to survive. It doesn't help Morgana is better than Merlin at this court life thing and that King Arthur genuinely likes this version of his sister.

LMAOOOOOOOO

Starz Merlin and Morgan in BBC Adventures of Merlin

Morgan: 2nd time to murder Uther here we goooooo

......................

Meanwhile Merlin overhearing Arthur

Arthur: where is merlin i need him to polish my armor, muck out my stables, laundry my clothes, write my speeches and go with me on a hunt

Merlin: if this is how you treat someone like me, then you are not worthy of my service, you are not my king! (walks out)

Arthur: ????

.............

Morgan: Merlin! have you tried the magic here yet?

Merlin: nope

Morgan: IT DOESNT GIVE ME PAIN

Merlin: you must be joking

Morgan: i shapeshifted into a cow yesterday and i didnt sweat blood

Merlin: goes to a lake and freezes the whole thing

Merlin: oh

Merlin: no wonder that other idiot is like that.

.......

Merlin: Are you going to kill this world's Uther too

Morgan: Are you going to stop me

Merlin: (sigh) this Arthur is already 25, my Arthur is already a king at 16. Honestly I dont even know why his father is still alive. My visions for this place are saying that Arthur will only take over when he's 40. By my initial calculations that's already too late.

Morgan: so....

Merlin: (shrugs)

.....

Arthur: How dare you speak to me like that! You are just a servant!

Merlin: know your place boy. You are only on that throne because I kept you alive

Arthur: hah no way! You?

Merlin: is this familiar (trees falling on theground using magic)

Arthur: You... you have magic

Merlin: I was born with it and my task has always been to keep you on the throne

Arthur: SORCERER! THIS IS TREASON! I WILL NOT STAND BY THIS!

Merlin: Your fear and hate is causing more suffering. Just like your father. You are making me regret everything I have done for you. If you don't shape up and repent then I will be in your service no more.

BBC Merlin and Morgana in Starz Camelot

Merlin: You are... actually younger than me.

Morgana: You are younger than us?

Arthur: ????? what.

Merln: This camelot is so... rural.. and needs work

Arthur: well yeah, we just started out. You were the one who found these ruins and established this encampent though. But it's okay we have an armory, we built this really nice table, we have a library, it's my favorite part you know? I get to conduct trials twice a week, etc etc, we're gonna put a roof over here soon so I'm learning different roof systems. Merlin often leaves for long periods of time so we've set up defenses and taught ourselves lots of stuff

Morgana (with tears in her eyes): YOU CAN READ?

Merlin: (openly sobbing?) THIS ARTHUR LIKES BOOKS... AND DOESNT NEED ME AT ALL TIMES??? I AM NOT A MANSERVANT???

Arthur: NO??? YOU ARE MY ADVISOR! Plus I grew up in a farm so why do i need a servant? And you have a whole penthouse deck at the top of the ruins where you do your magic stuff.

Arthur: But my sister lives in a Castle Pendragon...which is faaar better than this one, no shade at all... i love the startup nature of camelot tbh. Also my sister deserves to rule there anyway, coz that is where she grew up. It is a day's ride away from here. She manages that side of the kingdom for me. She's really good at it. Or I mean you are really good at it. We should all go there. The feasts you host are always the best.

Morgana: (clutches merlin) she actually gets her own castle

Merlin: ...THEY HAVE A LIBRARY HERE AN OPEN LIBRARY WHERE EVERYONE VISITS. AND I HAVE MY OWN ROOM

.........

Sir Gawain: HEY MERLIN DO U THINK U COULD PATCH THIS TREE UP WITH MAGIC

Merlin: ....how... what...

Morgana: Magic is not banned here???

Sir Gawain: it's rare but useful

Morgana: let me try

Sir Gawain: OwO

Morgana: my... stomach hurts

Merlin: tries to fix a broken chair

Merlin: ...i feel weaker..

Morgana: OH NO

Merlin; OH NO

......

Merlin: Are you still going to Usurp this arthur

Morgana: ...he doesnt hate magic, he's just, he lets me have part of the kingdom and also the better castle... and he says we always have dinners every two weeks

Merlin: even if you are the elder sister in this world?

Morgana: ...are you really trying to put ideas in my head

Merlin: i'm just making sure

Morgana: it's technically my right by order of birth

Merlin: but this is the kind of world we dreamed off

Morgana: a world where we are free.. and arthur understands me.. you can be honest here too.

Merlin: so you dont need the crown to be yourself in this world

Morgana: we'll see.

[patrophthia]

mini skirt | theodore nott

pairing: theodore nott x reader

wc: 3.5k

genre: smut (minors DNI), fluff, best friends to lovers, meddling blaise zabini just coz, they’re in love 🤢🤢, self indulgent im so sorry for the person i am

smut tags: dry humping, coming untouched, (very little) oral sex, come eating, unprotected sex (don’t do this!!), fingering, size kink, breeding kink, bulge kink, cream pie, so much dirty talk oml, big dick theo 😞, reader being shorter than theo, reader wearing a mini skirt, lots of cussing

summary: blaise zabini’s idea of how to play matchmaker might be different from the traditional way of doing it but at least you ended up getting dicked down, so you guess his method works too.

Blaise Zabini's idea of playing match maker is whispering to you —in a not so quiet way, that he'd heard 'Nott's got a big dick' and though you swatted him away. Face disgruntled, mumbling about how you did not want to know about your best friend's private parts. You're terrible enough of a person for your eyes to drop to his crotch when he sat down on the couch opposing yours.

There's a call of your name, once, twice. Before Theodore leaned forward, his voice loud enough for your eyes to tear itself from his thighs to his eyes. You gulped, hoping —hoping that he thought you'd blanked out and just happened to be staring at a very unfortunate spot. "Hmm?"

Theodore's held onto your gaze, lazying back onto his coach. "You okay? I asked if you wanted to head back up but you didn't answer."

"Head back up?" You repeated. "Head where?"

He eyes you suspiciously. "To your dorm?" Theodore gets up from his seat and leans down to crouch beneath you, staring up at you. "Or mine?"

You blink. Mind running in all kind of ideas —save for the ones you knew he meant when he asked you this question. You shift slightly in your side, scanning the Slytherin's common room as the party rage on; it's nothing too big, a get together between all seventh year supplied with alcohol —that Draco definitely did not buy just to impress the golden boy, not at all.

"I'm pretty sure I saw Draco take Harry up to your dorm, and neither of them look like they're exhibitionists." You say off handedly, looking down at him. "Besides, I'm actually enjoying myself here."

And to prove yourself, you get up from your seat; pulling your mini skirt low enough to cover your ass. Theodore, despite having every chance to peer underneath it, remains respectful as he plays with the hem of your skirt. "You are?"

"You aren't?" You ask back, trying not to squirm from the way his finger brushes against your thigh. Salazar this was your best friend for shit's sake, knowing that he could hypothetically have a big dick should not turn you on as much as it was.

Theodore shakes his head, slowly, almost as if he was in a haze as he quietly tells you. "Not really."

"Let's head up then," you tell him, and though both of your voices are low —barely even audible considering how loud Mattheo decided to play his music. Theodore was able to understand you perfectly, picking himself up as he used your waist as his guide. "Come on."

His pinkie finger catches onto yours as he gets onto his feet, him towering over you the slightest bit. And though, Theodore and you leaving a party early to turn in for the night was a sight your friends were used to by now —knowing that nothing ever did came out of leaving the two of you alone to your own devices. Something about how Theodore was looking at you makes them think that that might just change tonight.

But, they regress and bid the two of you goodnight with a few sporting playful frowns on how you never stay with them until the party actually ends.

You only smile, leading Theodore up the stairs to your dorm like every other night. Once in the comfort of your room, you sit yourself down on your bed, patting the spot for besides you for Theodore to take. He did as told, melting into your touch as you brush his hair back. "How much did you drink?"

His eyes are shut, face leaning into the palm of your hand as his own grips onto your skirt, tugging you closer to him. "Just those two shots we took when we first went down."

You hum, letting him pull you to him. "Did you smoke?" Theodore shakes his head slightly, before opening his eyes back up at you. You laugh lightly. "Then what's up with you tonight? I'm always the one dragging us back."

"Just tired, I guess." He murmurs.

"You guess?" You ask him, standing up —letting his hands fall where it'd been trailing up your skirt back to his lap, lingering slightly on what sits above it. "When are you ever not tired?"

Theodore laughs at your words, eyes crinkling as he did so. "When I watch you play quidditch," he says, pushing himself up to press his back against the head of your bed. Watching as you shuffle towards your wardrobe, picking out a pair of sweats along with two shirts he'd left at your room. "Or when you're drunk out of your mind and I'd to have to play pretend as your boyfriend and take care of you."

You snort at his words, picking out a pair of shorts for yourself. "You don't have to pretend to be my boyfriend to take care of me."

"Mhmm," he hums from his spot, lounging lazily as you walk up to his side, the change of clothes in hand. "But it's more affective that way." His hand finds its way to your hips, pulling you closer to him. "And I like it. I like pretending to be yours."

There's a split second where his eyes falters, looking at you almost nervously as he waits for you to respond. "You do?"

"Mhmm," he hums, pushing himself up to sit straight. "More than anything."

It's nauseating to see him look at you —eyes lacking their usual stoic and disinterest to instead be replaced by lust and adoration.

Without thinking twice, you leaned down meeting his lips halfway as your eyes flutters shut. And though seated, Theodore was still tall enough to kiss you back with ease. Letting you melt into the feeling of his soft lips moving slowly and desperately against yours.

"Fuck," Theodore mutters breathlessly, he pushes against your hand; dropping your (mostly his) clothes to the floor. "You have no idea how long I've wanted to do that."

"What?" You giggle, letting him pull you onto his lap. "Kiss me?"

"To kiss you again," He murmurs, attaching his lips back onto yours; a soft whimper slipping out of his lips when his clothed cock brushes against your core through his swift movements.

Fuck, Blaise was not lying.

In between your legs, underneath beige slacks, Theo's giant cock ruts up to you. You gasp into his mouth. "Ah—" you try to catch your breath. "—fuck, Theo. You've been wanting to kiss me since we were thirteen?"

"Mhmm," he hums, long slender hands gripping onto your waist before he slides one underneath your shirt and lays it flat against your tummy. His free hand, resting on your thigh, guiding you down onto him. "You're the only girl I ever want to kiss."

It's silly, you know it is —especially when his cock was pressing into your cunt, only separated by a thin layer of clothing— and yet you can't help but smile up at him, almost giggling when you ask him. " 's that why you asked me to be your first kiss?"

"Mhmm." He's smiling when he kisses you. "Can you blame me?" His tongue licks at your top lips, quick and gentle, trying to gauge on what you tasted like. "Prettiest girl at Hogswart and she was willing to be my first kiss."

His hand moves grips onto your waist, his touch blazing hot. "... Flatterer," you say, a playful pout prominent on your lips.

He chuckles, pressing his lips back onto yours, hand moving from your thigh to tug at your shirt. When you nod, Theodore pulls away just enough for him to take your shirt off and toss it Salazar knows where.

He doesn't even try to hide his staring, canting his hips upwards as he held you down. "Can you feel that?" He asks breathlessly, almost whining as he humps against you. "Can you feel how hard you make me?"

You could only moan, nodding dumbly as you rolled your hips. "Fuck—" he says against your lips, "—how'd you get even prettier, baby?"

And despite how hot —how nauseating it is to feel his boner pressing onto your wet cunt, you can't help but giggle at his words, at how turned on he got just at the sight of your tits. "It's just boobs."

"It's your boobs." He hand goes up behind you, making quick work at the clasps before kissing your chest, licking at your nipples; his hips not halting in its movement. "So so pretty."

His hand slips down, going underneath your skirt to knees at you thigh. "Shirt—" you roll onto him, breathless each time you feel just how hard he was. "—shirt, Theo."

Though incoherent, Theodore still understood you enough to pull his shirt off of himself before attaching his lips back onto you. His tongue glides against yours, swallowing your moans up when he bucks particularly hard.

It’s humiliating how the simple act of humping, combined with Theo’s hand playing with your tits, pinching and rolling your nipple between his long fingers with his tongue exploring your mouth has you writhing on top of him.

"Theo, ah—" you whine, hands gripping onto his shoulders to steady yourself, a familiar warmth building in your stomach. "— wait, fuck!"

Theodore's hips coming to a halt, as he watch you cum on top of him —in awe, without him even having touched you. "Did you just… ?"

You whine, pressing your face against his bare shoulder to hide just how embarrass you were. Theodore pulls you back, looking at you with what you could only assume was love. "Did you just come, baby?"

You nod bashfully, hands going to cover your face just for him to pin both of them down. "So cute, so so pretty." He kisses you roughly, rutting up to you. "Gonna fuck you nice and full, how’s that sound?"

Theodore only frowns when you nod, always having been the talkative one in your relationship. “Words, baby. That sound good to you?”

“Ah!” Your panties stick to your cunt uncomfortably, feeling all too messy when he grinds his cock onto you. “Good,” you whine, “ ‘s good.”

Theodore smiles, pressing a quick kiss onto your lips as a reward. His hand trails down to your thighs, flipping your skirt up before groaning at the sight of his beige slacks soiled by your slick and cum. "Look at the mess you made, didn’t even have to touch you.”

Sliding your panties to the side, Theodore runs two fingers down your slit. "Even your cunt's pretty," he murmurs, bringing his finger up to his mouth to licks at your juices. "You taste even better."

You're pouting as you watch him play with your pussy, fingers pressed onto your clit, going back in for another taste before you finally move down his crotch, just enough for you to palm at his cock.

"Fuck—" he whimpers, hips bucking onto your hand.

Feeling proud you pulled such a reaction out of him, you reach for his belt, lifting yourself up off of him as he helps rid himself of his slacks. Pulling back his boxers, you will yourself not to drool over the sight of his long and thick cock, milky from the precum leaking from its tip.

Your hand moves on its own, wrapping around the base of his hard cock only to find that your hand was too small to wrap all the way around him. "Why didn't you tell me your dick was huge?."

"You want me to —fuck—" Theodore whines, cock twitching in your hand as it begged for you to move. "You want me to tell my best friend about the size of my cock?"

"Yeah?" You move your hands up, thumb running along his tip. "Biggest dick I've ever seen."

"You never told me you had —fuck, baby— never told me you had a perfect cunt either." Theodore moans, the sight in front of him feels like it came straight out of a porno. His best friend and her small hands playing with his cock, tits out with only her tiny skirt stopping him from fucking her into the mattress.

You giggle softly before leaning down to take him inside your mouth. "Fuck!" Theodore choked out, hips roughly thrusting into your mouth. He's too big for you to fit in entirely in your throat and he knows it. And he's too close to cumming in your mouth to keep you were you are.

His hand pulling your head up and away from his cock swiftly. His eyes are shut, head leaning back against your headboard as he breathes heavily.

Your eyes are teary when he opens his eyes back up, and he wills himself not to think about how it's the result of him fucking your face. Theodore brings you up to sit between his legs, kissing you desperately, groaning when he tastes himself on your lips.

Your hand goes back to grab at his length and he whines, pressing his face into your neck and squirms underneath your touch. "Wait, fuck—" his hand goes to stop you, brain going dead as you pumped his cock. "—fuck, fuck wait."

Theodore moves away from your touch, pressing your hand down onto your mattress as he heaves heavily. "Shit— Next time," he whines, "we can do all that next time," he murmurs against your neck, pulling his head away to look at you, he adds: "but I need to fuck you. Please, just let me fuck you. I'll do anything to feel your cunt and fill you up nice and full, please baby."

And when he pleads for you so nicely, who were you to deny him anything? He kisses you again, laying you down on your back, whispering soft thank you’s as he presses open mouth kisses down your body. Slender hands roaming around as he tries to map you out. It's only when Theodore flips your skirt up, ripping away your panties to give himself a full view of your throbbing pussy did you realize what he's about to do.

"Hey, I liked those!"

"I'll buy you more, baby." You're dripping in front of him and he think he might be losing his mind. "Need to eat you out first."

"Thought you wanted to fuck me," you whine, gasping softly when he slides his fingers over your pussy, "why can you play with —fuck."

You pout at him, not expecting him to slide his finger inside you while you talked. "Why can you— ah! —play with me when I can't play with you."

"Not playing baby, just stretching you out," he tells you with a soft smile, leaning over to kiss your pout away. "Not gonna fit unless we stretch you out."

" 's fine," you whimper, feeling him slip another finger in, fucking into you slowly. "it'll fit just fine."

"You sure?" He picks up his pace, long fingers reaching places your own never could. "Don't wanna hurt you."

" 's fine," you moan when he slips a third finger into your cunt, "don't care if it hurts, just wanna feel you."

Theodore pulls out, bringing his fingers to his lips to taste you once more. Moving back up, Theodore grabs at a pillow, placing it beneath your lower back to elevate your cunt. Slowly, he guides his dick into you, gasping at the feeling of his thick head stretching you open.

"Fuck—" Theodore pushes in deeper, pausing when he feels you clenching impossibly tight around him "—your cunt's sucking me in so good."

The burn is delicious, his cock tearing you open from within, stretching you out to take him into you. "So full," you whine, pressing your head into your sheets as he slides in even deeper into you. " 's too much."

"I know, baby," he murmurs, rubbing slow circles onto your thighs, "just a little more, I know you can take it."

You whine pathetically, feeling him fuck the last few inches snuggly into you. "Ah!" He hasn't even moved and you're already breathless, feeling him in your stomach. “Fuck me, Theo. Fuck me nice and full.”

“You want me to fuck your small cunt nice and full?” Theodore pulls out entirely, leaving just his tip in your cunt before roughly thrusting back in, hands on your hips as he pounds into you. "I’ll fuck it nice and full for you, maybe even put a baby in you."

And when your pussy grips his cock at his words, Theodore drives into you even harder. “Put a baby in me, please.”

“Yeah? You want that?” He watches as your tits bounce with each harsh thrust. “You want to carry my baby? Have your pretty tits grow bigger? You want that?”

“Yes,” you cry out, eyes screwed shut, the pain of his cock splitting you open mixing with pleasure. “Yes, ah— want it.”

“Fuck—” Having just about enough, Theodore pushes your mini skirt up your stomach giving him a full view of how well he's fucking his thick cock into you. The mound of your pussy bulging as it makes room for his dick to spear into your cunt.

"See that baby? See how good your cunt’s at taking my cock?" He asks, his hand grabbing yours to press down below your navel. "See how good I'm fucking you?"

You can only moan, crying out his name when he presses your hand down onto the bulge in your stomach, pushing his own dick out of your pussy. "Feel how deep my cock is inside of you?"

“Gonna be so easy for me to breed you,” he murmurs, wrapping your legs around his waist to fuck himself even deeper into you. “Want me to breed you, baby? Hmm?”

You nod desperately, too cock drunk to speak. Jolting when Theodore presses a harsh finger to your clit, circling it as he fucked deeper into you. "Theo, I'm gonna—"

"I know baby," he says, his cock getting impossibly harder inside of you. He presses another finger onto your clit, rubbing tight circles as you squirm underneath him. "Fuck— you're pussy's so good. Need you to come on my cock."

Theodore leans down to kiss you, pushing his length even deeper into you. You moan into his mouth, fucking you through your orgasm, your legs trembling as you try to squeeze him in.

Theodore fucks your cum back into you harder and faster, chasing his own high. One quick glance at his cock coated with your cum, followed by the bulge in your tummy was sends has him rutting into your tight cunt, spilling his warm seed inside you.

Theodore thrusts a few more time just to savor the sight of you spread on his cock before finally pulling out of you. "Fuck Theo," you whined, his cum leaking out of you, making a mess all over your bedsheet. "Were you just never going to tell me your dick is huge?"

Theodore only smiles bashfully, pressing a kiss onto your forehead. "We're still on this?"

"You expect me to not be on this?" You say with a slight pout, Theodore only half paying attention to you as he grabbed a random shirt from the floor to wipe at you thighs. "It's almost like you don't even think of me as you best friend."

"Pretty sure best friends don't go around telling each other about how big their dick is, baby," he replies.

"Blaise can know about your dick size but I can't?" You murmur. "Talk about double standards."

Theodore pauses his movements, hand hovering over your spent pussy. "That fucker."

"Hmm?" You're curious now, confused as to why he was suddenly cursing out your friend. Never having been one to use curse words unless —well, unless he's fucking you.

"He told me that you liked guys who begged," he says with a slight front, going back to cleaning you up nonetheless.

"Is that why you begged to fuck me?"

"No, that was all me," he answers truthfully, ears tinging red in embarrassment,"just wanted to fuck you."

"And they say romance is dead," you say playfully before your eye zeroes into what's in Theodore's hand. "What about the whole breeding thing? And ‘s that my shirt?"

Theodore, freezes with his hands between your thighs, feeling you stare him down as he did so. Slowly, he unravels the shirt he'd use to wipe you clean only to realize that yes, that is your shirt.

"You ripped up my panties, messed up my skirt, tried to put a baby in me, and used my shirt to wipe up your cum," you say, frowning, "I'm never having sex with you again."

Theodore's quick to apologize, peppering your face with kisses, mumbling sorry over and over again. "I'll sneak you out of Oxford street, take my black card with you, how's that sound?"

— from bee: this is my first time writing smut be nice to me 😡

[last-c2usade]

ABOUT

Mun's name is Mal! 22. Pronouns are he/him. only. Copying my bestie's profile to a T btw so if you recognize this yeah. you recognize it.

FIRST! 18+ ONLY PLEASE AND THANK YOU

so some facts!

i'm in psychology and i have an issue where i really enjoy writing my characters super realistically and i'll be a nuisance about their psychology and reasoning for why they do what they do

i love shitty fictional people. i mean it. the shittier the better. be wary of this. when i mean shitty i mean SHITTY terrible awful people

im EXTREMELY good at forgetting to keep up with shit. i dont even read webcomics anymore coz if shit takes too long to update i lose interest. if this blog dies its coz i forgor

i try to be friendly and nice! you can talk to me about movies and writing and psychology. i'll try not to infodump on you but um. if allowed i WILL

please for the love of god, i appreciate you, i empathize, etc, but do not traumadump on me without asking. i will feel too bad to say stop/no bc i dont know you well enough to tell you know and i WILL ghost you

Main guy here is S. Adamantine! He prefers you call him that. Alien, ex-member of the court. Has a huge ego he's trying to work on. Extremely patient, clingy, a little neurotic (I say this as lovingly as possible. it's true tho. he's like me. we're both fucked in the head). Loves books! Loves bikes and mechanics (don't mention it's a lowblood thing or he'll Have you), kinda' shy! Awkward as fuck.

pronouns are HE/HIM only

>types like this! usually with p2ope2 g2amma2. likes to think his qui2k is a sign of cultu2ed thinking<

Rules and Things to keep in mind!

tags are! #((ooc for ooc stuff, #>pix< for ic pictures, #logs. for written stuff, and #>dia2y< for any talk posts mars makes ic

i tag for tws/anything general i might find sus but thats about it other than the above!

if you wanna' talk about anything, message me on @theymakemedreamyourdreams ! you can also ask for my discord

open for shipping! though he's a little iffy on romance. ping me n we can discuss!

open for anyone! you MUST BE 18+ tho

can also dm this account for ic dms!

dont think i wanna' do m!as! but feel free to ask and i'll see!

gifts are ok! welcome even

nsfw comments allowed!!

both ocs and canon for any fandom is okay! keep in mind, he's troll and WILL be mean towards aliens

keep ooc and ic SEPARATE! i dont condone any of the sus shit my guys may be up to btw! ada is a little more well-behaved, but his opinions do not reflect mine.

open for plot! i like plotting. i also like rps. i may forget about them. or lose interest. but schemes are always welcome! (i may be picky)

ada is kinky as shit. he can get REALLY nsfw if you let him. fair warning

i LOVE dark plots and dark shit. and realistically terrible people. i love serial killers and nsfw shit and guns and fictional gun violence a lot of dark stuff. and angst. just fair warning!

lemme know if you want certain things tagged!

feel free to remind me about open threads / plots / etc! i am prone to ghosting if i lose interest tho

feel free to lemme know if im doing something unintentionally incorrect btw! i may be unaware of shit

i block deliberately. if something makes me uncomfortable and i feel left out of shit or whatever, i'll block to keep myself contained! i dont want anything to do with drama!!

i like to say swear words like fuck shit cunt piss bitch. adamantine does too

[transgender-eichi]

ibatomo: a rarepair so rare i invented the tag for it lmao - part 1

let's use bogie time as an intro

ibatomo dont necessarily have a lot of interactions, but the ones they do have are important

these are a good baseline for tomoya's personality:

he's level-headed and calm when he needs to be, and therefore acts like a "rock" for ra*bits- he stabalizes them. he knows when its time to focus and reigns everybody in. he's also blunt- he doesnt sugarcoat his words, he says what needs to be said. he's also an actor.

all of this will be important later

one of the few times in the story they exchanged words- it just felt relevant

i'd like to preface this by saying i'm a pretty new ibaraP, and i havent read a lot of his stories. feel free to correct me if i get anything wrong, coz i'd love to talk about these guys more!

i also havent read flambe yet. i want to so bad but i'm sadly only an eng player and only have read those stories so far. but bear with me because my points still stand

i'm a big rarepairshipper and multishipper, and i base most of my ships off of how compatible i think they would be regardless of how much theyve interacted in canon.

!! im also not implying ANYTHING in this to be sexual. im acespec and i dont like the sexual aspects of ships. i mean this in purely a romantic way !!

so let me introduce you to ibatomo the ship, and why they work together

1. Personality

As mentioned before, Tomoya is a Guy. he's stable and blunt and calm when he needs to be, but he's still adorable and flustered and a little guy at other times. Him and Ibara are almost complete opposites

Ibara is a two-faced, admittedly pathetic snake of a man. he uses others to further his own agendas even if it hurts them. he is in his own best interest (yet i love him still)

but deep down, he's just a broken guy. he has so many layers of fake and manipultion that under all that he doesnt even know who he is.

but also there's small reflections of each other in their personalities

tomoya is blunt when he needs to be; he says things as they need to be said, even if it might accidentally hurt the other's feelings. this doesn't happen often, but he's got his own insecurities and sometimes says what needs to be said. he's also an actor- he's truly an innocent and adorable guy, but he can also put himself into roles. he's not considered one of the best actors in the story for nothing. sadly he hasnt had a lot of acting related cards in !!, but there's plenty in !. he fits the roles as he needs to and does it well. he's innocent and cute, but there are also the very small reflections of ibara in him if you look closely.

and then ibara. he's a cold and manipultive person. but also, he's slowly beginning to have soft moments. eden and hajime most notably have been able to drag his soft side out- he tries to keep up a facade, but sometimes his weaker side slips out and that's okay. he does have a soft side- he doesn't like getting close to others because he knows that they'll get hurt by his plans.

both of them have grown so much, and i do think that them as opposites mesh well together. ibara is not a stable person; tomoya is. tomoya could stabalize ibara, and i feel ibara would feel safe opening up to tomoya after a while. because tomoya just doesn't take anyone's bs. he knows what acting is. he's the kind of guy that would be there for others when they need it most and be there for them.

i can imagine ibara in a soft moment, laying his head on tomoya's lap while they're on the couch, tomoya petting his hair and them just being in a soft moment together, because ibara can let his guard down around tomoya.

[k1ll3r-k4rg0]

About (18+ Blog)

she/he / he/she | unnamed | aromantic bigender transexual | dni if you support communism (or do. i cant stop you.) | dni if minor or no age / mention of 18+ listed.

NO MINORS. ageless or unmarked as 18+ blogs blocked

blogged. this blog is for my character thoughts and my art and my writing. if you want character related reblogs, art reblogs, and complaints go to @k4rg0-f1l3z

i post sexual shit, gore, and other r rated heavy topics. my stories and ocs are r rated. if you don't like heavy topics, dead dove do not eat, whump, gore, violence, suicide, stuff that deals with mental illness problems, don't follow.

if you don't like it, don't follow! i post for myself and my friends! i post what i want! my writing is an escape and a way for me to process my own shit in the world i live in as well as a way to cope. if you don't like it LEAVE

i do a LOT of art and a LOT of writing. however. i forget to post it. so this blog's kinda dead!!! if you want to see more shit from me or of a specific character, don't be afraid to ask and i'll gladly share

ask box always open

about me? im 23, prepping to apply for a phd program in school psychology with a bachelor's in fine arts in screenwriting. i write prose and draw pictures of my ocs with backgrounds coz i love drawing backgrounds

check out my bestie's blogs @yeenteefies for main and @honsebeasts for his really cool awesome neat ocs who i have many stories / ships with

i also play dnd! every week!!! with my super cool awesome dnd friends from college. i play a conquest paladin aasimar (that's warren). he's too much. the tag for stuff related to the party is just #yeehoes

i have bpd, autism, & adhd. if you don't like that, don't follow. i'm unmedicated, but i'm more under control these days.

I do not tag others art or the fandoms the art's from. I only tag for gore (#gore, #blood), flashing (#flashing), spiders/insects (#spiders, #insects, #bugs), or unreality (#unreality). If there's any you want me to add, lemme' know and I'll consider it (I'll probably say yes unless its SUPER specific coz i might forget).

OCS + favorite books, music, movie, etc under the cut.

Trivia: —half Romanian, half Texmex (czech/german + mexican) —fave movie is Fargo —my space sci-fi shit is largely inspired by the tv show The Expanse.

Fave Bands: —Muse (favorite songs are In Your World and Dead Star) —Linkin Park —Amigo the Devil —Nine Inch Nails —Calexico —Brown Bird —Rammstein —MCR occasionally

Fave Books: —American Gods by Neil Gaiman —We Need to Talk about Kevin by Lionel Shriver —Blood Meridian by Cormac McCarthy —maybe Pet Sematary by Stephen King who is my favorite author

Main OCS:

Vini + Quinn (#vini.png, #quinn.net, #d3m0litionl0v3rs): besties who kill together. vini's quinn's guardian angel. quinn's vini's little death. they've died for each other countless times and their bond is unbreakable. not human anymore

Elliot (#elliot.png): shitfaced. hurt. fucked. broken. pissed off at the world for the shit it's put him through. wishing he could kill them all Derek (#derek.png): strange. alienated. scared. scared of everyone for treating him like another. wishing they'd see how above them he is. Elliot + Derek (#code voltage): besties. too much. freaks. human sometimes. there's an 80s au where they're monsters Derek + Jordan (#prince.png, @/honsebeast's) (#strange&unusual): what you get when a god finds another god when the first god thought he was the last of his kind. They click. They understand each other on a completely different level. Elliot + Kalani (#kalani.png, @/hurrl's) (#chocolatestrawberries): he'll die for her. she'll kill for him. she taught him a lesson and he learned better. now he's as obsessed with her as she is with him. She loves him so much, but it's okay because he needs her love to survive.

Mars (#mars.png): rocky younger years have lead to a chiller middle-aged life. trying to gather the pieces and learn to live again. how you kill the monster? love the monster. human Mars + Danny (@/honsebeast's) (#armada): i love you when no one else will. you love me despite all my flaws. you make me human again.

Warren + Jay (#warren.png, #jay.png, #4m3r1c4nm4n14cs): the fire the flame and the burning smoldering ember. a serial killer and his priest, a god and his follower. two of the same. die for each other to live again. human unless angel.

Cody (#cody.png): broken bruised forgotten sore, too fucked up to care anymore. that's what happens when you back a kid into a corner. he bites to kill.

Other OCs that aren't that important right now that you'll occasionally see tagged but that I won't link are as follows: Ryfraf (whore), Riymah (scary clown goth gf), Derwood (taxidermist), Blue (hacker), Pork/Porkrinds (the happiest merc you've ever seen, @/honsebeast's).



[pebsterino]

Lara Hawke appreciation post because i love her a lot T_T)/

[aromantic-enjolras]

Do you read fanfic often? How do you choose what to read? Do you browse specfic tags/tropes, read from the more "popular" authors, check the latest uploads...? Id love some tips, coz im new to reading fics on ao3 and have no idea where to start!

I don't have a lot of time to answer right now, so I won't go into a full list of tips (dear mutuals: feel free to add stuff!! Maybe I can learn some useful tips too!), but yes, I absolutely read fanfic often. Very often. Concerningly often. ;)

Disclaimer: this is going to be exclusively about my Ao3 browsing.

So, how do I choose what to read? Well, let's start with the neutral way. First things first: I select the fandom, I sort by Kudos, and I ask for only Completed fics. I also go on the Exclude section and cross out the Archive Warnings I don't feel like reading about. I then go on the Exclude Tags section and add my most prevalent squicks (I have typed "BDSM" more often on Ao3 than anywhere else, it's the first thing I usually exclude). Once I have that baseline of "fics I wouldn't dislike on principle", I scroll down through summaries and tags until I find something I'm interested in. (Pro tip: don't hesitate to go back and add more Excluded tags if there is one trope that appears a lot that you hadn't thought of and don't wanna read!)

If I'm looking for something in particular and not just scrolling, I might go to Include and add a tag or a pairing I'm craving. Also, if I know I don't have the time and energy to read something very long or complicated, I use the Word Count to set my limit (5K if I'm looking for a short short fic, 20K if I have less than 30 minutes but I still want a story with a plot).

And lastly, if I read a fic and I really like it, I usually click on that author's page and go through their entire catalog. Yes, I'm one of those people who leaves six kudos in a row. And if the rest is as good, I will probably subscribe so that I can read whenever they upload new stuff. And if they write something I don't see much or I don't know how to navigate (a rarepair, or a fandom I'm new in) I will sometimes browse their Bookmarks. It's more hit-or-miss as a method, but if you trust the person's taste and you want a hand on the picking, it's a good starting point!

And of course, friends' suggestions. ^^

Voilà. That's my way of doing things. i hope you find something you can apply to your own browsing that works for you!

How do you all do it? Do you do something similar? Do you find my methods absurd? Tell me, I'm curious!

[savoies]

drawings of you - braden schneider.

summary: finding braden's drawings of you that he did before you guys started dating.

word count: 1k.

warnings: will make you want artist braden to be a real thing, maybe one bad word.

a/n: credit for the idea goes to @three-headed-monster and yes this is also based on this moodboard. this is like a past present type of fic where it goes back and forth so italicized + bolded is past. lastly this is a highschool au where all the boys mentioned are as they are in q's moodboards so take a look at those!

taglist: ​( send in ask if you want to be added) ​@hartsyhart @nhlpetey @mitch-slap ​ @frostythegoalman @kirbysdch  @aria253264 ​  @josty ​ ​ @kaitieskidmore1 ​ ​ @kiedhara @laurenairay ​ @teenagekook ​ ​ @alxvlasic ​ ​ ​ @hockeyallthetime @barzy-baby ​ ​ ​ @bowenbyram ​ @martynecass ​ @joshsandersons ​  @connormcdavo ​ @maattamatthews ​ ​ @pierreslucdubois ​ ​ @selenophileangel ​ @boqvistsbabe @ana-maa @stars-canucks @quinnhughxs @sidscrosbyy @2manytabsopen @wh0r3forpatrick

​tagging some buds: @npatrickz @beauvibaby @heybarzy @tkachuk-yeah @cozycozzy

Braden was the artistic friend. That was just what he was known as. So he was always sketching whatever he could. Whatever was in his peripheral view of vision.

You were currently helping Braden clean out his drawings since for his art class he had to gather his three best works for a showcasing.

Both of you sat criss-crossed on the ground with a bunch of different drawings sprawled out around you. Ranging from his surroundings, your friends, and finally some of you.

Braden dated all his work, his way of being organized he would say. So as your eyes fell on the date a small smile appeared on your face since they were dated a few months before you actually started dating.

"B, why have you never shown me these?" You faced your boyfriend as he quickly snatched them from you and put them behind his back.

"You weren't supposed to see those." He said as he let out an awkward laugh.

"But i love them." You said as you reached over and placed a soft kiss on his lips as he let the drawings go and you grabbed them.

"Hey not fair." He said as you grabbed them.

"Why don't you want me to see them? I think they're amazing."

"Isn't it kind of weird that i drew them before we were dating?" He asked.

"I don't think so, " you said as you continued to look through them.

~~~

Braden sat in history class as you sat a few rows in front of him. Him sketching the way you had your baby hairs tucked behind your ears or the way or the way your hand rested on your face as you copied the notes on the board.

Now from anyone's else point of view this might seem odd but something about you brought a smile to his face and after many years of going to school together he fell for you. It was as simple as that. Well as simple as it could be since it seemed that you never actually paid any attention to him or so he thought.

~

"Dude your fucking whipped." Dylan spoke up as he put his skateboard in his backpack.

"Yeah dude not even i do that." Kirby said as he put his camera away before any of them could spill anything on it.

"I think it's kind of cute." Bowen said as he looked over his friend's shoulder.

"Of course you'd say that." Jamie said as he pulled the strings of his sweatshirt.

"Huh what." Braden looked up at his four friends. "Did you guys say something?"

"Oh just stating how we talked to Y/N today. Turns out they actually know you exist." Dylan spoke up as he faced Braden and saw his eyes widen.

"What did they say?" Braden asked as his full attention was now on his friend.

"you're such a jerk." Jamie said as he slapped Dylan on the shoulder. "He's just fucking with you, why don't you just ask them out dude."

"It's not that easy." Braden said as he put his sketchbook away and he turned to face you and you were already looking up, both smiling shyly as you made eye contact.

~~~

 Bringing you back to present day. You and Braden dating for about six months now after his friends finally made him ask you out after pinning against you for so long.

"Are we studying for history today?" After so many drawings of you instead of paying attention in class Braden was falling behind so you guys would study after school some days when both of you were free.

"Depends. Kirby wants help with getting some prints he took. But I think i can make it home before five." He said as both of you walked hand in hand to the lunch table.

"Stop the lovey dovey crap we get that you're in love." Dylan said as he skated around the lunch table.

"And this is where Bowen says I think it's cute." Jamie said.

"I was gonna say that." Bowen rolled his eyes and bumped Jamie's shoulder.

"You guys are so weird." You said as you let shook your head at their antics.

"Y/N remember when you used to sit over there." Dylan said. "That table is still open if you want to escape us now." Dylan added to his previous sentence.

"Honestly i'm not sure why it took you guys so long to get together, it was literally like oh y/n i love you so much but im scared to tell you so im just gonna draw you." Kirby said.

"And then y/n would look over and be like oh Braden i'm just gonna throw longing glares at you and hope you notice i feel the same way." Dylan added fluttering his eyelashes for effect.

"It was not like that. You guys exaggerate." You said.

"No yeah it was exactly like that." Bowen said.

"See and Bowen never lies." Jamie said.

You looked over at your boyfriend who had his sketchbook open, sketching away from you.

"Oh can i see what you are drawing." You said as you scooted closer to him.

"If I showed you it wouldn't be a surprise." He said.

Him handing it to you once he was finished with it. All of the guys crowding around you to see the newest creation their friend had made.

"You know Braden if you sold these you could get a lot of money." Coz said.

"I'm not gonna sell a portrait to my girlfriend." He rolled his eyes at Dylan.

"No, I mean to other people." 

"So you're saying if i sold one to you you'd buy it?" Braden raised his eyebrow at his friend.

"Well i mean no since i am your friend and i can just ask you nicely."

"Yeah sure." Braden said as all of you guys just laughed at how fast Dylan's idea fell and continued to enjoy each other's company before the school bell rang.

[snackles-maniacals]

I had this thought I feel like misha wrote 'the mother of learning' when he was with Jensen when they were staying together. Im just connecting the dots vinyl record = jensen 'parts of your body' just saying and top of that misha tags this in spnfamily for the first time in all his poem posts. Then jensen sees this poem and realises he misses him so much and immediately cancels for Sunday panel and definitely makes himself available on Saturday, which is essentially misha days on convention days . Im just perceiving cockles at this point.

I woke up today and your ask was the first thing I saw—

Misha never before tagged any of his poems with spnfamily, and yes this was the first time he did it which is unusual and if you check out his ig even the other posts about his book which were made after the recital post, Misha did not tagged any of them with spnfamily which raises the suspicion.

Although he did mentioned that there are also poems from Cas' perspective (x) and we can't overlook the fact that the mother of learning could be one of them because let's be honest someone asks him if Cas' gonna like his poems and few days later he recites a poems and tags it with spnfamily for the first time. That would be it but then few hours later Jensen comes up with professional reason to shift his panel, I wanna tell Jackles, man, that wasn't subtle at all.

Maybe that poem was the thing that made Jackles realize how much he misses Misha and vice versa cause Misha just released a poem about him and I'm still wearing my cockles glasses along with the tinhat cause this sounds fanficy to me. Who know there could be some deep hidden meaning in the poem which is about Jackles (what else that vinyl stuff could be about?) and none of us could decipher it coz it could be something personal or about one of their memories together and Jensen must have understood it which caused change in the panels.

I am saying this because in the book there are many poems about people who shared a part of Misha's life, there are poems about vicki, love poem and poems about friends and family. There is a whole a poem about Darius in the book but nothing about Jackles, if Misha straight up publish a poem about/for Jackles then it will cause a lot of chaos and impact both of their image as an actor so it is only logical that if he release the poem about Jackles he might as well keep it under cover that no one else except Jackles will know the ture meaning behind it.

These are one of the times when the line between Dean Winchester and his vessel becomes thin and Jensen being a dean girl made things right with his professional reason. And I can't say about ‘when’ Misha wrote “mother of learning,” and if he was with Jensen at that time or not but the poem was indeed written with those memories in mind and his time with Jensen. Wheather the poem was about cockles or destiel we will never know but if you ask me the poem surely has something to do with Jensen. (Otherwise how would you explain the change of panel within few hours of Misha recital, and vinyl. I'm not going into "contour" but from the poem it seemed like misha is talking about freckles. P.S. But idk we could reading too much into the stuff and it could have nothing to with Jensen or panel shift maybe just some decision Jensen made)

[sexysilverstrider]

Hello, first and foremost I'd like to say that I'm a big fan of your writing - you really helped fill in that empty void that was left behind in my heart after I finished Pokemon Black all those years ago and fell in love with Ferrishwheelshipping. Your stories really lit up my life then.

Secondly, I have a problem and really wanted to ask your advice about it - I recently became invested in Legends: Arceus and somehow came out of it liking the idea of Volo x Akari, for a lot of reasons, but basically because I don't think Volo is entirely as evil as parts of the fanbase make him out to be, I think he has light in his heart and deserves a second chance.

I mean he has not one, not two, but THREE friendship evolutions, all three evolving from baby Pokemon, and during a time when Pokemon and humans were at odds with each other. And has a photo of himself and his egg baby.

(And I read there's a possibility that Giratina might have had some influence on him going totally bonkers)

Anyways, I've been a longtime fan of Pokemon and your work, and I've written several stories before, but this is the first time I've wanted to write a Pokemon fic this badly - a Volokari story (not sure what their shipping name is yet). But I'm worried about receiving backlash because in my story Akari (who is actually Hikari) is an adult when she's whisked away to Hisui, and I don't want to receive hate messages over something that's supposed to be emotional and fun.

But at the same time, I really, REALLY want to write this story sometime, how Arceus not only brought Akari to Hisui to save the land, but also Volo, and how the two hold Cynthia's existence in the future in their hands...

But I'm so sensitive, especially these days, I don't think I'd know what to do if I received hate messages over something I worked so hard on and put all my soul into, especially when those messages are calling me terrible things that make me feel like I should be burned at the stake.

hi hi!

first of all. omg. aaaaa thank u! im happy to u know love my fws esp my fws fics aaaaaaa all the stuff ive written in the past are quite dear to me so its nice to know people enjoy wm

second, regarding your problem, i solely believe in Write For Yourself. make your own food. cook your own feast. make the characters alive through your eyes for YOUR viewing pleasure. i know getting validation from others is great but it also risks the unnecessary backlash from ppl we never asked opinions from. so what i can say is start off by writinf for yourself. trust me. years later im still in a soulsilver n ferriswheel rut n all the fics ive written in the past are for my own benefit. it helps on the long run.

if u hv ao3 u can post on ao3 w proper tags! usually the readers are nicer coz it takes actually googling and filtering to find what one wants. no asshole is tht desperate to do so just to spread hate.

if not u can post here too! if youre still nervous, switch off replies or turn anon off. theyll be some useless bastards once or twice unfortunately but think of it this way: your life is way more vast, way more important and these useless things are barely worth your time or notice.

it might sting to get one. bt trust me, there are SO many people who support n love u. outside and inside the internet.

so i hope youre passionate enough to write vlkr! i knw im still super interested in them n years of doing what i love make me so desensitized by some backlash from people i couldnt care less coz the internet is just a small part of my big big world lol

[lightns881]

so im kinda studying the dt ao3 hivemind rn coz my goal is to write a fic which will be in the top 10 for kudoes (in dt). ur crazy good with stats, hmu if u have anything ur can share :)

Haha, I'm flattered that you think I'm good with stats. Truthfully, I'm more of an expert on dnf than overall dt, but I'd assume they follow a similar pattern. I haven't done much research into it, though now you've made me interested in it so I might dig into it a little when I have time, so this is just plain intuition I'm leading off of.

Funny enough, I only scroll through completed dnf fanfiction, so I've only been familiar with the finished top ten fics. It's surprising to see a lot of the top dnf stories aren't even finished, so it looks as if newer stories are actually pretty successful in reaching those high numbers.

Now another factor I noticed is not all of the authors at the current top ten dnf spots are super popular, but they are established. They likely have previous works in the Fandom which likely brings in more viewers due to familiarity. The author taking up the two top spots is pretty established, and if I'm correct, I believe they are also on Wattpad so that could play a role on popularity.

Longer fanfictions in general with relatively good pacing I say have a better chance at reaching the top because they don't get lost in the sea of one shots, and if they don't fizzle out in terms of writing, decent enough to keep the reader's hooked, you're likely to get more exposure and thus more kudos if the story is good. So the key here is to write a good multi-chapter story that keeps the reader hooked, whether through cliff hangers or other means. You also have to time your updates. Often enough that the same readers are returning to your story and separate enough that readers who are coming in and out see your story and click it.

You need a good summary too. If you're aiming for good stats, your goal should be to get as many people clicking on your story as possible, and if you're writing is good and your hook is strong enough, they're likely to stay and leave a kudos. In order to get clicks, your summary has to be intriguing enough yet also not super long. Tags are pretty important too. Don't overdo it with them, but make them relevant and unique enough. If you offer something new to the community, they're more likely to be interested in what you have to say.

This one is not one I have looked into, so you might have to spend a few days looking through dt new dt fics and looking into times when they're most uploaded, but time is a key factor. You need to upload at a time you know people will be actively scrolling through the new tag. The wonderful thing about mcyt fanfiction is there's a plentiful audience and not too many writers because it's rpf. So you're likely to get kudos easier, but finding the best times when new stories are getting most kudos will certainly help.

There's a lot that goes into it, but I can't offer much besides that atm. I might look into it since you made me curious, but good luck on your goal! I'm sure you can make it! It might take a few tries, but it's possible!

[eunbinppap]

tag games....now that’s a name I haven’t heard in years dhshkjdhskdsah

tagged by the lovely @hekatos-mist xx give him a follow will ye?

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rules: tag 9 people you want to get to know better/catch up with and then answer these questions.

last song: "BOCA” by Dreamcatcher (absolute banger of a song. Hold Up! I’m a geek, the big paradox!)

last movie: pretty sure it was a bit of Jurassic Park with my bf. only got to watch half of it but its good

currently reading: n o t h i n g : ( jk i restarted ‘Toxic Parents’ by Susan Forward and Craig Buck. Read the first half of it 3 years ago at the height of a lot of family drama and it made me feel less alone. Gonna finish it bc the second half of it was dealing with it as an adult and i was 15 when i first read it.

currently watching: “Science Fell In Love So I Tried To Prove It” the main couple are nerds. literally, theyre graduate phd students! nice to see an anime romcom with adults and not high schoolers. very funny and sweet so far (im on ep 5). Also poor Kanade

currently craving: so many things. noodles or sushi foodwise, the fenty lipgloss coz i ran out of it last week, and just......kisses. i miss my bf a lot. i might be seeing him next saturday and hopefully staying the night but im impatient and want to see him nowwww

working on anything right now?: confidence and self-image mainly. just trying to be more confident in myself......wait yall meant like art oh oops. atm no, but i’ll see if there’s any writing competions that i could partake in. i want to write again

currently playing: ducklife 4 lolol i had the sudden urge to play it yesterday. its alright, still prefer ducklife 3. gonna play papa’s sushiria later. just basically childhood flash games bc flash will be gone by december and IM NOT READY

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tag 9 people ;_;....i barely know 9 uhhhh @canihavesomebacon @deadcereus @riisaru @roses-for-jonghyun @roselucksky and anyone else who wants to join in ^^

[unproduciblesmackdown]

The opposite of your last post for the ask meme! Like 1, 5, 9..

thank you lol sorry it took me a minute to get to posting these answers......i also skipped a couple that got asked previously via answering all primes lol

1: What inspires you?

hm well just basic stuff like “being in a good mood” lol or “being hyped up by friends” or “having reason to be particularly excited about something” which is all like, factors that Contribute Energy......learning about stuff / trying something and discovering like oh i’m Into this thing, or that for whatever reason something turns out to be more within reach / doable than i might’ve thought, like, hey i wanna get on this maybe.......~creatively~ it’s great to like, see other ppl’s art, and while i’ve sure been Inspired by professional artists, overall i’m more like, influenced and motivated by seeing the styles / specific works of Online Randos like me.......i also Draw to create [self-indulgent (usually fairly) niche fanart which is also probably gay and is all the time of characters i like] so like, the Stuff I Wanna Make Fanart Of (which has Whatever characters i specifically would like to draw lol) is sure directly Inspiring in that way. i’d say i never had that experience of like, ppl being kids and seeing some [distributed work in a certain art medium] like oh i want to make my own [distributed work in a certain art medium] as in like, i wanna publish a book, i wanna make movies, etc, but i guess i Did b/c i was like elementary school age in the early-to-mid 00s and experienced some instances of online fanart like :o :o wow damn ppl can do that?? just be a rando drawing fanart and sharing it w/ other people online???? and today i am living that dream, so good for me lol. and also i’d like to shoutout marge simpson anime, which is a particular piece of Online Art (technically fanart even lol) which was like, unusually Motivating as a single work of art lol, i made a notes app fanart like immediately and then a way more “painterly” piece of fanart that was v directly inspired by it lol.......and i was sure Drawing It Up last last winter when bmc 3.0 was impending / happening, b/c i got into like Just in the dec before, so that was Fresh, and then bam the Content is happening concurrently and as soon as we even just learned that jeremy has glasses i immediately spent like honestly 25 consecutive hours making fanart for that exact Inspiration. we didn’t even know abt the hello kitty shoes yet!!! and naturally im not out here for stats or clout but it is Inspiring when ppl enjoy the stuff i make and let me know one way or another. [tag comments that express enthusiasm in any way.....Appreciated]

9: Do you trust people easily, or do people have to earn your trust?

i have to say i am wary! that’s in part just like, a default anxiety defensive mode lol. but it takes me a hot minute (aka weeks....or months.....) to realize when someone like, would like to be friends or something, so while i can be Friendly and Outgoing w/ people like, immediately, i’m not picking up relationships left and right that are close enough that i’d particularly talk about “trust” or whatever. i’m not necessarily Distrustful either lol, it’s more just like, again re: the constant wariness thing. it is not unlike a cat lmao i vibe with them lol i Get that [approach]....and there’s been times i’ve been like “hmm i sure do Not vibe with this person ever and am not comfortable around them / interacting with them to any extent beyond occasional casual interactions that i don’t super enjoy. that’s me being overly anxious and failing to be personable i guess!!” and then that person Does give that reason down the line like oh, actually, that eternal uneasiness was warranted :/ damb

21: How does someone become friends with you?

yknow i was like “didn’t i Also answer this one previously” but it turned out the question i was thinking of, which i Had answered, was “how does someone become important to you” lmao.....same diff

tbh it’s kind of an arduous process lmao like. first of all i am Bad about initiating shit, and a lot of times will like, be wary of Directly Interacting with people for a while b/c i am also Bad At not being too passive / unwilling to assert anything so like, if someone’s regularly interacting with me but i’m not into it / Eventually Realize i’m not into it, it’s that thing again where my main strat is [v gradually sidle away] lol and just find it difficult to extricate myself from interactions / relationships and so that plays into me really feeling like i have to have some real confidence that i’d get on with / vibe with someone Before i start significantly interacting with / getting involved with them which....is also difficult natch lol like. can’t rly get a great feel for what someone’s like w/o talking to them.......but then if i Distance myself at all at any point will that be taken as rejection or whatever.......and then anyways say i Am talking to someone, then it’s like, also i’m just not fantastic at casual conversation always and that stage where you don’t know someone too well and talking is mostly a Polite Ritual and it’s like oh god don’t mess up, respond Normally lmaoo......i am nervous. and i also have a tendency to just naturally try to make an interaction go smoothly than immediately prioritize / feel comfortable busting out My Personality lmao.....so then even if ppl are responding well enough it’s like ah jeez i know we’re all performing always but have i shown them What I’m Actually Like to any significant degree, am i just masking it up / mirroring the crap out of how they talk?? and also it then takes me quite a while to put together “if someone keeps talking to you / choosing to interact with you for like, weeks, it probably means they want to / are interested in doing so” lol.........and then i’ll take ages more of trying to consciously Be More Myself without *also* feeling like this is too much of an act lol, and gradually picking up like oh they’re still not like, annoyed or disinterested or something..............what i am trying to say is it sure takes a minute lol

also when i Am attempting sometimes to like [initiate interaction] with people my version of being Active is still not all that active lmao i will be like [occasional Like] or [even more occasional reply] or [tag comments or no comments coz it’s twitter and im rt-ing stuff] and it’s like oh wow if we’re not having more regular interaction i suppose i’ve failed or something?? does this mean anything further lol, did i do anything.....but welp gotta have that perspective that Not Necessarily lol and i’m not the only person in the world who might not make friends or even friendly acquaintances easily / at the drop of a hat and u can’t necessarily read way into shit that hasn’t Actually been communicated to you.......naturally though it is easier to have some ~perspective~ and Serenity about all this sort of thing when you do already have some Friends lmao........been feeling (and consciously nudging myself towards feeling) More Chill about say like, friendly acquaintances i have who aren’t raring to interact with me on the reg.......ppl i’ll go months or half a year or more between having a convo with and then we’ll be like trading dm’s for a couple days and then it’s back to not really talking, and that Is What It Is, not necessarily a tragedy, and really it feels “rude” to acknowledge to myself like oh i’m not sure that me and whomever even Vibe well enough that *i’d* be raring to talk all the time either, but hey, it’s also true, i don’t have to be Validated by ppl who know me having me in their friend circles in any significant way......i be out here on the peripheral / outer orbits and i can appreciate that for what it is, even if, again, easier to be more Cool with that when i’m not Only in ppl’s periphery...........i appreciate the pal i have who like, 99% of how we Communicate is occasionally sending each other pics of our cats, not very intimate but also back when i was offline for months on end they eventually went out of their way to find someone to get in touch with to verify i hadn’t like died or anything lol........i appreciate the Gestures of Caring that ppl have and do extend, even if we do not actually talk regularly. 

and like also i’m bad at like. idk the main way i talk is again, At Some Length and often about real specific shit lol so im like woop aware that many ppl are not into that, or they might be down for having an exchange like that for a day and then they’re done.........not at all like wholly Against more lol Conversational conversations but i gotta say that’s more of a struggle lmao..........so let’s say befriending me takes some Patience. i kinda operate on [cat] rules. jellicle

25: How do you stop yourself from going back to toxic people?

i absolutely am Refraining from launching off on a ted talk of a tangent that is also me being the [the guy about to throw down a card on the pile on the table and that card pile is like “any conversation” and the guy is labeled “me” and the One Card about to be played is labeled “it’s capitalism” or smthing like that and also it’s all in spanish].jpg.......

anyways idk just try to keep things in perspective, right......i generally am pretty Passive about gradually sidling away from relationships that are bad and so by the time i Have exited them it’s pretty overdue lmao and i get to be quite confident that it was The Right Thing........and just when looking back on stuff it’s like, well if you remember the Good or “Not That Bad(tm)” parts maybe consciously think about the whole of it And specifically the Bad parts / the reasons for peacing out.......also the other day i was mulling over some standard [conflicted / complicated feelings about having cut certain ppl out entirely] and it also occurred to me that a lot of the [conflicted] feeling part came from sympathy for them, whereas from the perspective of Entirely My Own Feelings On The Matter minus that “how do/would they feel about it” consideration, the thought of never interacting w/ these ppl is like. fine with me lol........stuff like this is always Complicated and Individual and there’s certainly no like, one-stop simple Guide To Navigating All This Kind Of Thing, Cmon It’s Easy........another consideration i saw the other day via a graphic on twitter, which is probably most relevant re: say, controlling / abusive Partners, was how like, to think about how someone is acting if they’re saying you should Take Them Back b/c they’ve Changed their behavior, but to pay attention to if they’re trying to guilt you into it / justifying or downplaying their previous behavior / shifting blame and otherwise manifesting the inherently harmful and controlling patterns that are supposed to be gone now........anyways yeah complicated stuff and also just p.s. (and what would’ve been the jumping off point for the It’s-Capitalism tangential essay lol) ppl shouldn’t be blamed if they do choose to let someone back in their life like oh now they’re responsible for bringing their mistreatment upon themself.....no better than blaming someone for, say, having a harmful / controlling romantic partner in the first place like oh well they should’ve known better than to have gotten involved with this person..........ppl are in control of their own abusive behavior and shouldn’t be considered Forces Of Nature no matter how intransigent they are

33: Do you have someone you know you can always rely on?

tbt question 9 lol there’s defo some people that i do trust! love it....

45: Do you consider yourself creative?

another #tbt to question 1 lol.......i mean Yes i am creative in ways but like, who Isn’t, really.......think sometimes “creativity” means “do you like, do Art things” which, yes i do, but then within that there’s art that’s deemed more ~creative~ or w/e......not to mention that i don’t think something has to be definitively labeled an Art to be creative. like, for example, Science and Art aren’t opposites / the antithesis of each other, and anytime defines ~science~ as like, people just memorizing and outputting Facts and Numbers and considers this a distinction from Being An Artist.....wild and i Will fight you lmao. i tell you i can v much remember times i have had to completely disengage to keep from losing my cool at people arguing about “why i respect science but could only be an artist :’|” or “why Art is actually harder than Science and also we’re the underdogs b/c society values science so much more :’|” like.....mf...........anyways scientific pursuits may certainly have a different Methodology (see: scientific method) than art but lbr it still requires creativity and science and art are friends you fucking fools................and then also just zooming in on the Art-Making business here, i also like, have never had any interest in coming up with Original stories / characters and the like, and i don’t enjoy trying and it just really is not my thing, and it’s Funny or something when people wanna say that creative fanworks have value b/c they let ppl cut their teeth for what really matters, inevitably making their own original content(tm)......that isn’t inevitable for me lol and certainly is nothing i aim to do ever, and when there’s the suggestion that if you’re Good enough at ur medium you gotta manifest some of that original the character do not steal shit.........anyways i’m not pressed to claim i am an Artist(tm) or Creative(tm) lol like i guess technically i am both but i have no professional aspirations and my brain does not Do [generate original content] so it’s all like, i’m just out here.........s/o to this time i was trying to do my fuckin thing drawing on a tablet in a cafe and some random annoying guy is trying to talk and i happen to mention like “lol i don’t exactly call myself an artist really” and Guy goes “OH REALLY??? WHAT’S WRONG WITH ARTISTS? WHAT’S YOUR ISSUE WITH ART” like please cool it lmao but god p sure it was a guy who was just. very Around and very annoying in general

49: Do you feel like you’re a good person?

yeah i think i’m alright but really what is the use in like considering there 2 be achievable Good or Bad Person Statuses for everyone........let’s say it’s an ongoing, active state to be in the process of consciously choosing to be Good and working towards Better. especially considering that We Live In A Society which tries to teach everyone and continuously imbues our existence with Bad Messages about how to perceive and engage with other people, and being A Good Person is a lifelong effort and it’s unhelpful to feel that if you’re already Good or well-intentioned enough you can just dust off your hands and be like “well my work here is done” and be unprepared to examine your beliefs/actions or deal with the might-as-well-assume-it’s-an-inevitability that even if u have some noble-ass beliefs you’ll fail to live up to them at some point/s.......so like yeah lol again i feel like i am a pretty good person but can always be better and ought to be aware of / willing to work on that at any point

[salty-af-ace]

Quarantine Tag Game

I was tagged by @basmathgirl thank you for keeping me going during this lockdown!

1. Are you staying home from work/school?

Not particularly. My course was online (I recently graduated) and I was job seeking but this all this hit the fan so now I have no education and no job.

2. If you’re staying at home, who’s there with you?

My parents, uncle and cousin. Don’t ask how That’s going.

3. Do you have pets to keep you company?

I tried uploading a photo of my dog wearing a dust mask to keep this themed but tumblr is an asshole. So instead here is ANOTHER photo of my dog not allowing me to study and another at Christmas. Her name is Lexie and she’s 11 and if she’s sitting in my lap likes to jump up on my computer table and rest her head on my hand stoppping me from doing anything.

4. What do you miss the most?

I miss a lot. I miss my friends. I miss the waterfront on a nice day with a cup of gelato. I miss my friends and I stupid little competitions when the price is always who buys food. I miss the freedom. I miss having a purpose and a job. I miss my mental stability. I’m somehow missing my internet friends. So basically I’m missing spending time with my friends.

5. When was the last time you left your home?

Technically I leave everyday to take my dog for a walk but other than walk wise it would be yesterday to pick up my prescription but before that it would have been a month.

6. What was the last thing you brought?

Escape room tickets and food. Just before NZ went into lockdown it was my birthday so I shouted my friends to an escape room and we went for dinner afterwards.

7. Is quarantine driving you insane or are you finally relaxed?

I’m being driven absolutely insane ask any of my friends. I cannot handle it. I have a very toxic relationship with my cousin atm and I’m stuck at home with her so that’s making it worse. My safe space isn’t even my safe space anymore.

8. Are you a homebody?

Absolutely. But the people in my life are also very important to me so I tried to see them at least once a month. Even if it was just going to each other’s place or into town or to go sit by the river.

9. What are movies you have watched recently?

Honestly I play games more than watch tv but:

- Maleficent 2

- Aladdin (the one with Will Smith)

- Frozen 2

- JoJo Rabbit

- A dogs purpose (I’ve read the book series)

And I’ve rewatched doctor who series 5.

10. An event that you were looking forward to that got cancelled?

Armageddon. (Comic con in NZ) it might not be big but I just want to nerd out ok.

I’m extremely lucky though because all festivals and concerts I had planned was mainly in February.

11. What’s the worst thing you’ve had to cancel?

A funeral coz we can’t travel out of our city.

12. What’s the best thing you’ve had to cancel?

Literally nothing.

13. Do you have any new hobbies?

Not new but I’m back into coloring in and reading.

14. What are you out of?

Iced Chocolate and serotonin.

15. What music are you listening too?

Mainly whatever my game is playing. TWAU start up music be getting me everytime.

But when I’m cooking dinner or baking it’s the same old music of Imagine dragons, Twenty one Pilots, Queen, ABBA etc.

16. What shows are you watching?

Documentaries and breaking dad (the one with Bradley Walsh, it just started on NZ TV)

Same old build up of Holby City, NCIS, Charmed and 8 out of 10 Cats.

17. What are you reading?

I have this giant book of DW history that I read, and of course fanfiction but I’m also reading The Art of Racing in the Rain atm.

18. What are you doing for self care?

A weird self care but it helps, but I’m matching my socks (I have a lot of themed socks) to my shirts coz even though nobody sees me it helps me stay sane a bit coz I’m not the kind of person who can stay in their Pjs all day and putting some effort helps me feel better about myself.

19. Are you exercising?

I’m going for a walk around the block everyday but unfortunately my dog has had leg surgery and she has heart problems so she can’t walk more than that. I’m not doing more than that and feeling shit.

20. How’s your toilet paper supply?

Normal amount like it should be. Stop stock piling. Yes I’m looking at you twits posting videos of dogs jumping over piles of them and all that.

21. Have you made any changes to your hair during quarantine?

Well my hair was already dyed blue but I didn’t have any dye at home and can’t go out and find more. I do have an under cut (my hair is very thick) so we’ve shaved that back down, but believe me when I say, I have thought about shaving it all off nearly everyday of this isolation. It’s always up coz it pisses me off.

Im tagging

@werealljustwinginit @beckaaay @crazyrichfilipinos @biwindblade @milfrandaotto coz these unfortunate souls have fallen under the category of friends and or close mutruals in my mind so sorry you get tagged in everything but those them rules.

And anyone else who needs a distraction!

[shinsoups]

for the anon ask game!! (ur theme is soo cute and soft!!!) - the simp list on ur theme does that change every week?!!!!😂 - is that only applicable to haikyuu characters or not??!?! - will u write some scenarios/drabbles for this halloween? - i agree with 🦉anon ur tags are w a c k and since u dont have any specific anon taglist yet im just going to pick this 👻 hahaha

im guessing its not the mobile theme coz i never bothered changing it haha but yes the theme i had is soft right? RIght? im glad u like it 😔💚

♡⊱ kskdkskwk the simp list changes every week 👻.anon yes yes lmaooo it actually depends on the posts/fics i read (im heavily influenced by what i see hahah)

♡⊱ my simp list? 🤔 i never thought about it haha but i think it will be purely hq!!characters but we'll never know since i read a lot of other fandom fics here 😅😅

♡⊱ now that you mentioned it, i think i might. depending if i have enough brain cells to come up with proper drabbles for some characters hahaha

im glad i entertain u both with my messy tags and comments hahaha i type whatever comes into my mind whenever i reblog posts so yeah but most of the times im incoherent so forgive me hahaha

[hellofuture]

thx for the tag..... @1aehyun <3

Rules: Answer 21 questions and then tag 21 people who you want to get to know better

Nickname: bo :3, clown probably

Zodiac Sign: virgo <3

Height: 167cm.........idk in ft.....5′5″..5′6″ ??????

Last movie I saw: uhhhhhhhhhhhh i dont watch anything coz im at uni.....litrally might have been casino royale or something a few months ago

Last thing I googled: not to be like on brand or anything but it was literally just ‘shinee’ .....thats so funny

Favourite musician: again not to be on brand but shinee >_<..... fav solo artist is jjong, naturally.......terms of other music i honestly listen to anything im not picky at all so i dont rly have favourites aslkgjkkafs

Other blogs: i have like 50 other blogs honestly....sfkgdlskgdflgf mostly for aesthetics nothing too interesting so i wont link

Following/Followers: 568/795

Do I get asks: not often :’’’’’’’’’’’’( 

Amount of sleep: on weeknights abt 5 or 6 tbh....weekends abt 8

Lucky number: 7 :) .....prehaps its 22:22 since i always look at the time at that exact time coincidentally

What I’m wearing: ik its 2am rn but jeans tshirt and shirt

Dream job: i dont have something specific in mind :^/ kind of sad but just seeing what life has for me rn

Favourite food: food.......................................................... fruits.......pizza..........cheese............chicken...........noodle..........etc

Instruments played: i used to play violin (want to continue) and got my grade 1 lol, also used to self teach myself the keyboard for a bit. 

Languages: only english........sad....... im doing latin classes rn but i dont think that counts

Favourite songs: this is am impossible question that i refuse to answer...................... some songs i have been listening to a lot recently tho are i wanna be/show me by key, orbit by jonghyun, desperate by vixx, etc

Random Fact: a cat went to space in 1963 called felicette

Tagging: @changminanti :)))))))))))))))))))))))), @angelhoseok @keyyshinee @taemingetspegged @yiikesmin @toujourstae @stelium @2baekxing @ringdingjjongs @j-nki @taem-in