#imma go ahead and put this under...

[banggyu0308]

genre: internet strangers to lovers, idol au, smut

warnings: nsfw under the cut, not very coherent, slutty yeonjun, dom!yeonjun, sexting, choking kink, pet names (baby), praise, drinking (they don't get THAT drunk, alright guys?), one night stand-ish, degradation, unprotected sex, breeding kink, handholding, cursing, dacryphilia, yeonjun lurks on social media TT, reader is bold ASF, not proofread

wc: 2.5k+

an: tysm for the username help @itgirlgyu TT + this is just for the delulus + @beomsl MEL YOU REMEMBER WHEN WE TALKED ABT PART OF THIS???? + i might title this later but who knows!!

taglist: @full-sunnies , @agustdiv1ne

yeonjun who likes to wear his tank tops to show off, loves heading onto moa twitter and tumblr after lives just to see the fandom having a meltdown... especially hard stan social media, watching all the comments and photos of himself show up. he likes being in control like this, having the power to make everyone else go crazy just by wearing something else that day.

he scrolls and scrolls and one specific post pops up, it's community labeled and when he clicks 'keep reading', he can see why; pretty tits on display from the original poster, comments in the tags all about how she's all his, and he's not very surprised to feel himself growing hard in his pants. yeonjun eyes the username, ready to click the blue-fonted 'follow' button, but it's already gone, and his eyes widen to see that it's an account he's been following and interacting with for a while. that fact only makes it better, and he's clicking to his chat with you before he can even think it through what he's about to do.

yawnchoi you look really pretty in that new post...

yn what can i say? yeonjun brings out a special part of me 😭

yawnchoi im very sure he feels the exact same

yn in my dreams 😭 don't fuel my deluluness

yawnchoi i'm being very serious right now

yn mhm mhm sureeee and how would YOU know? 😑

yawnchoi ajksdbwsjdhbw maybe this wasn't a good idea

yn WHAT wasn't a good idea, hm? 🤨

yawnchoi baby all i'm trying to do is figure out how to word that i'm yeonjun 😭

yn i do not believe you for one moment

yawnchoi i'll send a pic that i would never, ever post and you can even reverse image search it or whatever or i could send a video, im not messing around baby

yn go ahead then ;-;

yawnchoi [sent a photo]

yn alright so yeonjun would definitely never post a photo of him in his boxers in bed so imma need that video 🙏

yawnchoi [sent a video]

yn oh. oh holy shit choi yeonjun has seen my tits- NOT ONLY HAS HE SEEN MY TITS HE LIKES THEM- one sec imma need to process haha im totally not hyperventilating haha

yn alright im back hi haha

yawnchoi helloooo 👋

yn wow. alright. so. uh. how do i ask this- you wanna see more tit pics?

yawnchoi THAT WAS SO BOLD HELP ME- but yes pleaseeee

yn [sent a photo]

yawnchoi oh baby- holy shit you're so pretty 🥺

yn thanks jjunie kwsnbdwjkd im still like- going crazy rn yawnchoi thats cute baby :((

yn wjhbswhjdhj so- since you've seen my tits i wanna see you again :(( preferably your dick but haha

yawnchoi yeah? pretty baby wants to see my dick?

yn kjwbshwjdbhe yes please?

yawnchoi asking so nicely... alright baby~ [sent a photo]

yn oh 😳 oh fuck alright sjbdsewjh wanna touch :((

yawnchoi me or yourself, baby?

yn well, both, but only one can happen, right? so me-

yawnchoi go ahead, can i see? yn alright 😳 [sent a video]

yawnchoi baby's so pretty :(( wanna see you cum for me <3

yn [sent a video] would be better if you were here :( want you to touch me so bad wjbwjhdbe

yawnchoi can fly you into korea if you want...

yn YOU'RE KISSING *KIDDING

yawnchoi i'm notttttttt dekjbdekj pretty cunt's got me all horny :((

yn i don't even care if it's a one night stand choi fucking yeonjun's gonna fly me out to korea to fuck me heck yeah

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and he does. books a flight last minute for the next day, from your country to seoul, puts on a pair of sunglasses and his least conspicuous outfit, and drives to the airport. he isn't THAT nervous- it's not like he thinks you're gonna murder him.

and when you walk out of the airport building with nothing but a backpack with you, looking around and waving slightly when you see him, his heart quickens just a little. (and NOT just because he's seen you naked).

you decide to sit in the back of his car for no reason other than you want to, and maybe a little bit because you can't exactly handle looking at him straight on quite yet.

to your surprise, there's no awkward small talk, just him getting straight to the point and saying all the members are out of the dorm currently, but, ever the gentleman, he says since you flew a long way, you can sleep a little bit first and he won't bother you.

your whole body is on alert and you find yourself thinking that there's no way you'd be able to sleep now. it's one thing to sext someone knowing they're an idol- another to actually be in the car with them, on your way to where they live, and knowing you're going to actually fuck them.

yeonjun politely takes your bag when you get out of the car, and when his fingers wrap around the strap, his hand brushes yours slightly. you internally feel like you might faint- you hadn't actually prepared yourself for this, and now he was touching you and he feels real and you knew he was real but now it just feels extra.

holding your bag, he opens the door to the dorm, leading you in before following, taking you into his room and placing your bag down on the floor next to his bed. every single action that takes him closer to you makes your face grow hot, the bed dipping slightly under your weight when you sit down. the sheets are soft, but your mind barely registers it, focusing instead on the fact that you are in yeonjun's bed.

he opens his mouth to say something, and you panic, cutting him off quickly with a wry grin and a statement. "i might need some alcohol in my system before we do anything else."

yeonjun raises his eyebrows in the slightest, a little surprised, but he also gets it. he's pretty sure both his body and his mind want you way too much right now, but he's so nervous he might not do anything. his hands are twisted in his lap and he quickly realizes and sits on them instead before standing.

he leads you to the kitchen, getting himself a can of beer and letting you pour yourself a couple shots of vodka. you know your limits- it's just enough for you to get a little tipsy and stop overthinking everything.

knocking one back, you enjoy the burn in your throat before taking the second. the slight buzz under your skin makes you smile slightly, leaning against the counter while he takes long sips of his own drink. it's obvious he wants this to pick up, so you busy yourself messing with his shirt just a little while he drinks. you slip your fingers under his sleeve, mindlessly rubbing your fingertips back and forth over his skin. you can tell he remembered your comments the previous day about his arms, basing his outfit around that.

he has another tank top on today, arms flexing when he brings the can to his lips to take another sip, and you move your hands a little farther down to rest on his chest. this time, when he lowers the can, his lips are a little wet from the drink and you can't help but press a messy kiss to them, licking the liquid off. yeonjun lets out a slight hiss when your tongues meet, left hand reaching behind him to place the can on the counter.

the alcohol must really be working already because you're both stumbling to his room, messily tugging each other's clothes off, and yeonjun leaves a line of wet hickeys up your neck. each and every touch of his skin on yours makes you feel fire burn a trail across your body, but it's in a way that makes you almost absolutely sure that it's not just because he's one of your celebrity crushes, or because you're a little drunk.

yeonjun's movements are so rushed that in seconds he's on top of you, his own shirt off, pants quick to follow once you tug at them. your hands find way to his newly-lightened hair when his lips and tongue meet yours again, a different kind of intoxication weaving itself up and over each of your limbs, the kind of intoxication that makes you want to live and breathe this man.

"want you," he whispers, cheeks pink from the alcohol, his eyes slightly glazed when he looks into yours, and the way he says it makes your cheeks grow hot again.

"go ahead then, 'm all yours," you exhale in response, trying to ignore the way your heart twinges at your own words. this is just a one time thing, you have to remind yourself.

but yeonjun's eyes light up and he presses another kiss to your lower lip, one hand moving between your legs to part them. his eyes lower to your cunt, and you can feel the way your underwear are sticking to your pussy. you'd chosen to wear white underwear today and you're pretty sure they're see-through by now, drenched completely from all the feelings yeonjun's touch is sending through you.

"all mine?" yeonjun mumbles, eyes wide. and when you nod, he smirks slightly. "love your cunt so much, i might just take you right now." your own eyes widen and yeonjun can feel your breath hitch. "but you'd like that, wouldn't you? pretty slut would love her jjunie taking her raw, would love to have me cum inside..."

you suck in a breath through your teeth at his words, nodding quickly, spread out on the bed beneath him. your mouth tastes like alcohol and yeonjun, and your brain tries to forget how he so flippantly called himself your jjunie.

"jjun, just, just fuck me, please?" you whimper out when he rubs a fingertip over your clothed cunt.

"baby asked so nicely, might as well give her what she wants," he coos, tugging off his boxers only once he slides your underwear down your legs. "promise you'll let me taste you next time?"

you nod, too distracted by the fact that he's already planning a 'next time' in his head to realize that he wants to eat you out, but by the time you understand, he has the tip of his cock pressed to your entrance, other hand holding yours as he slowly pushes in. the gesture feels sweet, romantic even, and you let your eyes fall shut when he pauses his movements.

yeonjun's body is pressed flush to yours in a way that allows him to brush his fingers over your neck, skin smooth against you. his hand wraps loosely around your neck and his breath is hot on your cheek when he whispers, "is this okay?"

you nod once more, only because the combination of the alcohol and his body on you is making your brain so fuzzy you can't think clear enough to speak. yeonjun hums lightly and experiments with his grip, making you gasp a little when he also hits your g-spot. he lets out a hiss when your already-tight walls tighten further around him.

he'd had a feeling that you'd feel like heaven around him, just because of the fact you had stated you were only able to fit two fingers inside yourself, but he had obviously underestimated all the sensations that were going to overwhelm him like they are now. every movement of his hips towards yours makes him fight to control the tremble of his body. your hand is linked with the one he doesn't have around your neck and every time he buries himself completely inside you, your hand tightens just a little around his.

he's losing himself just a little, hand still laced with yours, pace quickening until jolty, broken, high pitched moans are the only sound leaving you. yeonjun can't help but smirk at that, hoisting one leg over his shoulder. "fucking pussy is so perfect, almost like it's made for me, taking me so well... might just keep you here, my personal little cumslut, could bring you on tour with us, fuck you every night in the hotel room, how'd you like that, hm?"

his rhythm is so brutal you're choking on your words by now, broken sobs slipping through your parted lips, tears filling your waterline and then slipping down your cheeks, mixing with the slight mascara you'd put on this morning and making your face a mess. yeonjun likes it too, the way he's so easily able to get you like this, just a few words from his lips and you're crying.

he can't help but tell you this with a mocking pout on his lips that turns into yet another smirk, chuckling when all you can do is whimper incoherently. yeonjun kisses you gentle enough to make up for his harsh words though, he's only trying to make you feel good, and he knows you like it when he talks down to you.

one hand still around your neck, the other moves from your hand to your waist, and he's only fucking into you harder when you whine out that you're close. his lips catch yours again when you gasp out his name, gummy walls fluttering around his dick as your whole body shakes from the force of your orgasm, yeonjun's fingertip rubbing at your clit making you convulse under him.

yeonjun bites back a little moan and lowers his lips to your ear again. "can i cum in you, baby? let me make you mine?"

you can't tell if he's just saying it in the heat of the moment, but you nod, wanting nothing more than to feel him inside you.

he bites his lip slightly, only losing control completely when you lick up the side of his neck and bite a splotchy hickey onto his neck. his warm cum fills you as he mumbles out a string of curses mixed with your name against your neck.

yeonjun practically collapses on you once he pulls out but lets himself take a second to marvel at how pretty you look right now, mascara leaking down your cheeks and neck, his cum and yours leaking from your swollen, abused cunt.

you let him wrap his arms around your form, cheek against his chest, both your bodies hot and sweaty, his bangs plastered to his forehead. there's a question on the tip of your tongue but he answers it for you, mumbling in your ear, "will you stay? for longer than just today?" yeonjun pauses slightly, then continues. "i'm not sure if i want you to be just one time. i know that this part of our relationship is new but we've been talking for so long and yeah, i don't want you to go back home and for this never to happen again."

you purse your lips, alcohol fogging up your brain and making you a little too sleepy to respond. "we'll talk tomorrow, hm? it's late and i had a long flight and i'm tired, jjunie..."

he nods slightly, running a hand through his hair, and presses a kiss to your forehead. "goodnight, yn."

"night night, yeonjun," you exhale.

you're almost half asleep when you hear him whisper, "the others'll be home soon, if they see us like this, i'm blaming you..."

[defectivefanboy]

Hi darling! How are you? How have you been? Sorry for bothering, I wanted to request! You really write very well and keep up with the good work! So anyways.. Can I request smut for Alastor, Lucifer & Crimson reacting to their girlfriend wear a lingerie?

Thank you so much! Have a lovely day/night!!

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Imma go ahead and ignore that icky word that's in there and make it S/O because I want to write Alastor. Here is my request page for anyone who wants to in the future. Please take a read before you come into my inbox :D

Can I request smut for Alastor, Lucifer & Crimson reacting to their [REDACTED] wearing lingerie?

Overall notes: Stories written on this blog are GN until specified. While this story uses they/them pronouns, and while I don't mind female readers on my blog/interacting, love my girlies, hey girlies~, but I do not write female reader, and if you are a fetishizer. fuck off??? ew. How would you even do that on an x reader???

C/W: NSFW topics, Each character will have their own respective warnings, Sexual content, duh, no pronouns used, Bottom! reader favored, Established relationships. OOC?, I mean this would never happen, so yeah ooc

Notes: the giggle I had to stop when I got to Alastor good god, but Lucifer was honestly the funniest and most enjoyable to write. I had a smile on my face the whole time

Crimson ♧︎...

C/W: Slight Voyeurism (mention of his right hand man Alessio), Degradation, he def has a sir kink, don't lie to me, mention of stealing/sugarbaby (hes an asshole) mention of stalkers? admirers?? idk he just mentions people leaving you gifts,

For being an old (mafia) man. He's not opposed to a little dress up

Only if its you though. He would NEVER

He would be into something with a little more class.

Never will his darling look like some 2 cent floozy

So none of that crotchless bull honky. While he wouldn't be mad at it, he would rather leave more to the imagination. Something to work for, y'know?

And he would certainly work for it.

You really wanna get him going? Accentuate your hips. That's something him and Moxxie can agree. They like their darling with a little bit of width~

If you are gonna wear something for him, you best put on a show while you're at it.

He waits to do business after dinner, so why not let him enjoy his meal

For an asshole he has some manners now

Always making you cum once or twice before even taking your outfit off.

It likes to wait before unwrapping his gift <3

But once he gets more accustom to your interest

He's definitely going to be the one buying you the set

well its his money that's being used, Al is the one who goes and picked them up. Poor baby...

"You're so needy, baby. But did you need to go and make yourself out to be a whore in the middle of a meeting?" Crimson said as he placed a hand on your waist. His desk might not be the most comfortable place, but it will do for now. It's not like he can ignore you when you got all dolled up for him.

"I don't remember buying this one. Alessio leaving you gifts now too?" His fingers slid under the thin fabric as you let out a soft whine before answering, "I got them,.. custom made, sir." you said, trying to steady your breathing as his hands wandered between your legs. You let out a yelp as he spreads your legs out more for himself.

"And where are you getting this money from, huh? Hope you're not stealing it from me, brat." He gives you a soft glare and a questioning look as his eyes scan over the fabric that covered you, before his spotted the embroidered 'C. Knolastname' on the front of the waist band. With his index finger and thumb, he hooked them around the band and traced the deigned. Crimson gives you a smirk and placed a kiss right under your belly button before moving down.

"Hmm... maybe i do have a use for that ring then after all, but i should repay this favor before hand. Right, (Y/n) Knolastname?"

Lucifer 𓅰...

C/W: light choking, another one with a superiority kink, mentions of god (he calls himself it), size kink for the fact I thought this man was like 5'8-10 come to look up his like 6'2-3, slight crack fic (because he wouldn't take anything seriously until truly needed, he giggles when you change in front of him, it's always a crack fic with him)

HE HAS A MATCHING SET!!

god how my perception of these characters have been warped

but he has most definitely bought you outfits before, probably the only one to go out of his way to get matching ones.

Even got a few custom ones made, you can always tell by the little duck embroidered somewhere on them.

He's game for anything you wanna wear. He isn't gonna stop you, if anything he's gonna encourage you to wear more.

He's helpless for you in such a pretty outfit and it's all for him?

He feels loved and he's sure to pay that back ten fold in the bedroom.

You might not allowed to be in heaven, but he can show you what it was like~

I maaay..be a bit delusional, but in private I feel like he's all giggly and shit.

Oh an he definitely was the first time you pulled this from your hat of tricks.

Almost a little to giggly i'd sat, to think the ruler of hell would be this flustered over an article of clothing is beyond me

But once he starts to become use to it. He starts to expect it. What? He is the king of Hell after all.

And he truly expects to be treated like one. (He's a brat when he doesn't get attention)

Be it sinner, hell-born, or even the 'perfect OC/that everyone loves who is half angel half devil/stronger then god/etc' he's gonna ask you one thing constantly...

"Please, my angel of death? Just one time, for me? Then i'll never ask again. Promise."

"I'm not wearing a duck tail while you fuck me. When- Where in hell did you even get these made?" you asked as you held up the pair of yellow lingerie with a duck tail sown on the back of the waist band.

"You shouldn't need to worry about that, my love. All you need to worry about is wearing them for me." He said with a light sigh and a shrug of his shoulders, a soft smile resting on his face.

"Again, I am not. fucking. wearing. them, you prick-!" As soon as you got the name out you felt yourself against the wall. The soft smile gone from Lucifer's face as a dark look pooled in his eyes, an unsettling stare never leaving yours. Before you could apologize, his hand wrapped around throat, his index finger pushed your face up to his as he spoke with a low voice.

Almost like that cheery devil was just a front...

"Oh, how far from grace you have fallen, my dear. Seems you already forgotten your god. But that's no trouble at all, for tonight..." His grip on your neck got tighter as he got closer to your ear and a sinister smile made itself at home upon his pale face. Y'know, you really only notice how big he is when he gets like this... oh that wasn't a complaint. Not when his presence alone encaged you against the wall, let alone the possessive grip that he had on you.

"I'll teach you how to praise my name once again."

Alastor 𐂂...

C/W: Teasing, sadly abo mention, WHY ARE YOU BOOING ME I AM RIGHT, blood mentions, possessive behaviors, light choking, mentions of cannabalism, duh, playing more into the abo, uhm, sniffing? idfk leave me alone its late. oh ft: a guest at the end.

Another man with class, just not as much. I mean, come on, he's still a sinner~

though when you present yourself to him in your outfit, he can't help, but raise a brow as he tried to keep down his smile at the sight.

Definitely a big tease, a BIG tease

Especially when you look so cute for him, squirming under his indifferent gaze. Oh how he wants to squeeze your cheeks and leave you begging for release~

He's also one for a game of cat and mouse.

so when you go out into town with him make sure to slip his favorite pair of lingerie under your clothes

And if you're one wear revealing clothes, then I hope you're ready for a possessive (and bloody) overlord, ad pray for anyone who thinks they can touch you, let alone come near you.

oh AND OHHHH wanna know how you really got him? How you really got to him??? When the static cuts out and that Louisiana drawl' comes out of him. (I would die. again.)

(If I say he has a rut would that be considered A/b/o? I mean he is a deer demon, same with other demons in a similar case)

but WHOOO WEE

for someone who normally has a distaste for touch that isn't initiated by him, He'll enjoy a night or two (on the rare occasion) where he lets you indulge yourself

though, do be careful now, he's a gentleman up and foremost, but he's not always a patient man at that. He's always willing to return the favor tenfold~

And if you already couldn't tell, he loves the color red, basically lives in it. So it's safe to it sets something off in him

be the cannibal in him, or maybe he just likes the color a little too much

but at the end of it you'll more marked up then a rough draft <3

"Bless your heart, Dear. Did you think I wouldn't notice... your little getup? His clawed fingers trailed your sides as he leaned down to whisper in your ear. His frame trapping you in your seat and god, would it be terrifying for any mere sinner in this position, if it wasn't for the playful twitch of his ear that told you otherwise. Someone was enjoying this more then he let on...

It wasn't the first time you had teased him in public, but it was the first time people really had the courage to come talk to you. To give the poor souls benefit of the doubt, you were just sat at the bar talking to husk. Though, you would also think the red pinstripe outfit and microphone that rested at your side gave itself away.

"And it seems i'm not the only one. Now, if I were to kill everyone in this god forsaken hotel. Whose fault would that be, hm?" A clawed hand made it's way around your throat as it softly pulled you back, letting him have full access to your neck. Burying his face in your neck, he took in a deep breathe as static radiated off him.

"Or maybe I should have you for a meal tonight. You do smell quite... appetizing, my darling. Such a shame I have to ruin that pretty little outfit of yours." Before you could even gasp a grumbling and angry voice rang out, bringing you both back into reality.

"Can you two not fuck at my bar please? You are just as bad as that damn spider."

"Oh of course Husker! We'll get out of your fur right now actually! Wasn't like these pathetic things were going to get a taste of you anyways."

[evnovaa]

Blame | Chris Sturniolo.

Chris Sturniolo x reader

“I feel stripped of my skin and alone.”

Genre: angst

Warnings: slight anxiety and swearing

a/n: alrightie cuties enjoy!

“Chris you are seriously starting to piss me off can you MOVE.” Nick says to his brother as he stands in his way from getting into their shared apartment.

"Kid, you can walk around me you know that right?" Chris says in an annoyed tone.

Nick rolls his eyes and pushes past him "fucking imbecile, I swear" Nick said mumbling under his breath.

Chris was standing in the door way mainly because he was trying to get a hold of his girlfriend who doesn't seem to be answering the phone. Recently she's been distant and he has been assuming the worst either she is cheating on him or she's hiding something that she might be enduring without his knowledge.

Chris ⭐️ : y/n can you please just respond to say you are okay

Chris⭐️: y/n I don't know what's been going on with you recently, and I'm not fucking akinator this shit is getting annoying.

Read at 9:59pm

Chris is still getting no response from y/n, she's clearly reading his messages which now indicates that she's ignoring him.

"Dude are you gonna stand there there the whole night?" Matt says to him coming down the stairs.

Chris goes ahead and ignores what his brother just said to him, in that moment it sounded like nothing but gibberish as he is still staring at his phone.

"Before Christmas Christopher." Matthew says to him awaiting a response.

Chris sighs and puts his phone in his pocket and walks into their apartment. He shoots straight to his room and shuts the door behind him.

Next morning

Y/n pov

I can see my boyfriend texting me and I know he's gotten irritated with me, but right now he is the last person to be irritated.

Me and Chris have been together for almost 3 years now, he is really amazing and been amazing all these years.

What has changed you may ask? Well all these years he has been amazing but like everyone else their boyfriend may do something they dislike but don't have the heart to say anything. For me it's him and his never ending friendship as he'd like to say with his ex-girlfriend

Earlier yesterday

"She really is incredible, but y/n hates the mention of her, l've noticed anytime I mention Lola around her she tends to get quiet and isn't present in the conversation anymore" Chris says venting to his friend Larry.

"Chris imma have to be honest with you, it is lowkey weird that you're so close to Lola while dating y/n, I don't know the boundaries surrounding your relationship, but usually girls don't want their man parading around with their ex-girlfriend."

"But listen she's more of a friend to me, dating her was like something I did because I felt alone, and needed the reassurance of a partner, but Lola and I grew into friends more than a couple, hence we broke up" Chris knows what he's saying is true in his mind but in his heart he loves Lola still, but refuses to come to terms with it.

"I don't know chrissypoo, you're gonna have to figure that one out with her." Larry says knowing this conversation will be far from productive if anything it was moving in retrograde.

“But Larry nothing is going on with me and Lola so I don’t understand y/n’s avoidance with her.” Chris tries to sound convincing but deep down he know he is spewing utter bullshit.

Chris’s phone stars to ring and he sees it is his girlfriend, he answers the phone as if he is trying to cover up something.

Larry gives him a look of “why do you sound guilty” but they let that moment die silently

“Hey baby!” Chris says

“Oh hey babe…why do you sound like that” y/n says chuckling lightly, but laced with concern and curiosity.

“Oh no it’s nothing I’m just kickin it with Larry, uh do you wanna come over maybe? I miss you.”

“I mean sure I just left the nail salon, but you won’t believe who I bumped into”

“Huh? Who? Was it Aaliyah?” He says mentioning one of their best friends

“No unfortunately, but it was your girlfriend Lola.” Y/n says sarcastically and laughing, hoping Chris would return the same reaction.

“WHAT? Lola is NOT my girlfriend, you are baby why would you say that.” Chris says shocked, mainly because Lola was the person they were talking about not too long ago and the conversation being about y/n’s feelings toward Lola.

“Chris are you okay genuinely what the fuck are you on about” y/n says slightly taken aback by his erratic response.

“Baby I have no idea what you’re talking about, actually let’s talk more when you get home alright?” Chris says quickly, now he knows he is being weird but is trying his very best to play it cool, newsflash it’s not working in his favor.

“Oh uh okay…” y/n says before ending the call not even exchanging goodbye’s and I love you’s like they usually do.

Y/n always had suspicions that she might be Chris’s rebound for Lola but they have been together for too long for that to even make sense in any kind of way. But again y/n is anxious by nature, she overthinks everything. Well tonight she decided that she was gonna go through his phone, she’s hoping and praying to find absolutely nothing to suggest that he’s doing something he shouldn’t.

She gets to the triplets apartment and they all exchanged greetings and ate their brunch together, Larry left a bit earlier so y/n was bummed she couldn’t see him but she continued with her early afternoon with her boyfriend. Chris went with his brothers to film their Wednesday vlog.

Y/n got bored and decided to go to Chris’s room and stay there for a bit, she decided to also watch some Netflix on Chris’s MacBook. She’s done with the episode of her favorite show and as she is about to close the laptop she sees a new IMessage notification from Lola.

Lolaaa👩🏽‍❤️‍👨🏻 : I’m almost there!

Chris : alright hurry tho😭

Chris: oh also we can’t hang for too long, told y/n I’m out filming with Matt and Nick

Lolaaa👩🏽‍❤️‍👨🏻 : lying to your girlfriend to meet me🤭 should I be honored?

Chris : should be she would flip if she knew what was happening

Lolaaa👩🏽‍❤️‍👨🏻 : where are Matt and Nick if she thinks you’re with them?

Chris : oh yeah they are in the area, thrifting lol

Lolaaa👩🏽‍❤️‍👨🏻 : ohh okay, also parking rn so see you soon 💋

Chris : ight

Y/n wasn’t crazy, she couldn’t believe what she just read. Everything Chris has ever promised to her has become a lie,

“we never hang out without you around.”

“She’s not even that important to me anymore.”

“I’m glad the friendship is drifting, gives me a chance to focus on us.”

everything he has ever said to her about Lola starts to ring in her head like a bell going haywire. Her vision gets blurry and she couldn’t hold it in, she broke down, she felt like her trust with him is broken and things were going wrong. She doesn’t think straight and decides to call him.

She starts calling him as her tears stream down her face as she sniffles.

“Chris?”

“Hey uhhh I’ll call you back alright? I’m just in the middle of something I promise I’ll call you back”

“Oh okay” before she could finish her sentence he hung up.

Her heart shattered, she was picturing the worst, Was he cheating? Was he out doing things couples would do with her? How many times has she been lied to regarding Lola? All these questions were in her head and she didn’t know how to cope and feel in that moment.

She broke down even more in Chris’s bed and in his hoodie that she wears all the time. She feels her chest closing and her head spinning.

minutes pass and y/n is on the edge of the bed facing the floor and she has never felt more alone in that moment. Chris knew y/n wasn’t social, she didn’t have many friends, if not all her friends were his friends so we’re they actually ever y/‘s friends? She wouldn’t think so.

She gets her car keys and she leaves his apartment.

The drive home felt almost like an out of body experience. She felt like her whole world just ended, she never had trust issues with him till recently, he would mention her more than he should. she didn’t realize it but she was becoming distant in her realization and overthinking when it came down to Lola.

Chris pov

“I missed you a lot y’know” Lola says to Chris with eyes that show yearning and slight sorrow.

“I missed you too, life has been weird without seeing you as much, but I’ve adjusted I guess.” Chris says genuinely, he meant every word, in all seriousness he didn’t know if he still liked the thought of himself with Lola.

“I mean, you’re in a relationship and it made me back off, I didn’t want to but it was out of respect.”

“You shouldn’t have done that, I need you too Lola.” Chris realizes he said the last part of his sentence out loud, if anyone was there they would say that was the worst freudian slip ever.

“You need me? Since when? y/n was all you ever talked about day in and day out.” Lola says looking up at her best friend.

“I mean you’re my friend right? Friends need each other.” Chris says trying to save himself.

“Chris do you still want to be with me? I can’t tell and I need to know I can’t keep sneaking around to meet you.” Lola says pleading with the boy.

Chris has major whiplash in that moment and looks at here with shock, as if she almost read his mind.

“I- no, I’m with y/n, we broke up for a reas-“ Chris gets interrupted by Lola’s lips and he cannot stop it, his lips melted into hers and they shared a moment that only they will be able to describe.

Lola pulls away first from the kiss and is the first to speak.

“You can’t keep lying to yourself Chris, the way you just kissed me contradicts everything you just said does it not?” Lola says looking at him knowing she’s right

“Lola what the fuck was that? You can’t fucking do that I have a girlfriend, I don’t fucking want you!” Chris says yelling out of guilt

“Tell me you don’t want me, say it.” Lola says

“Lola-“

“IF YOU DON’T WANT ME FUCKING SAY IT CHRISTOPHER”

“I CAN’T SAY IT OKAY? I CANT!” Chris yelling at Lola, her eyes enlarged and his eyes were filled with tears and he was filled with guilt and distress.

“I can’t fucking do this Lola.” Chris says as he walks away from Lola leaving her in the middle of the empty parking lot.

Chris calls Matt to tell him to come get him, which he does, Chris enters the car without a word to either of his brothers.

“You okay kid?” Matt says concerned

“Yeah I’m fine, fuck I need to text y/n.”

Chris calls and texts to no response, they arrive at home and still nothing from his girlfriend.

They arrive at their apartment, see y/n’s car isn’t there, sends Chris into a panic.

Chris ⭐️ : y/n can you please just respond to say you are okay

Chris⭐️ : y/n I don't know what's been going on with you recently, and I'm not fucking akinator this shit is getting annoying.

Chris feels nothing but guilt and anger in his body, and he has no idea how to deal with it. His night is filled with crying and silent suffering

He in this moment only has himself to blame.

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A/n: well! That went well didn’t it 😟 #prayfory/n free you my heart 😭🙏🏽 lmk if y’all want pt.2

[chrisevansonly]

oscar dad fic now. fluffy as hell.

WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO PLEASE?!🥲 jk jk imma blurb this 4 you <3

olive was quite the timid little girl, just like her mother she never really loved being around other kids or putting herself out there like her classmates did or the small group of friends she had did. She’d much rather spend time with you and oscar than she did with kids her own age

“momma can I sit in daddy’s car today?”

she held your hand gently as you walked through the paddock making your way to the mclaren garage

“well we’ll have to ask first okay little love?”

“okay! i hope he says yes…i want to be just like daddy”

you couldn’t help the smile on your face, oscar was her hero in every single way, olive was her dad’s biggest fan, it really was the sweetest sight to see

“i see daddy and lando, can i go please?!”

making sure they were insight you nodded

“go ahead my love, i’ll catch up”

she smiled before dropping your hand and running towards her father and his teammate, who she was also close to

“daddy!!!”

hearing his daughters voice he turned and smiled, bending down for her to run into his arms

“hello my darling!”

she squealed happily as he picked her up, peppering kisses across her face and lando laughed noticing you not far behind

“she left you behind again?”

shrugging your shoulders at the brit you smiled

“she usually does, besides she’s much faster than me..nice to see you!”

giving lando a hug you then turned to your husband, hugging him as well before pressing a kiss to his lips

“hi lovie”

oscar smiles stroking your cheek gently

“hi angel, thanks for coming down”

“of course, we wouldn’t miss it for the world”

olive laughed as lando put his hat on her head before she peered up at her father from under the brim

“daddy?”

“yes darling?”

“can i sit in your car…?”

you could hear how nervous she was to ask her father, even though she had him wrapped around her little finger

“of course you can, i’m sure lando will let you sit in his too after”

“really?!”

she exclaimed happily, looking towards lando who smiled

“of course! wouldn’t be right to only let you sit in your dad’s would it?”

seeing how olive was with both her dad and lando made you so happy to be apart of the mclaren team, who at this point were more like family to you than anything.

“momma i’m going in two cars!!!”

“yes you are baby! lucky lucky girl aren’t you?”

“mhm!”

standing near the car you watched oscar place her gently inside, her little head not even peeking over the steering wheel, her eyes looking around as she gently touched the steering wheel and the sides of the cockpit

“just like daddy aren’t you honey?”

“yeah! i wanna drive now too!”

oscar laughed leaning in to see her

“let’s start with something smaller first baby, how about that?”

“okay daddy, smaller first than this one!”

olive would come to find out eventually she’d be racing karts for a while before she could graduate to a bigger car, but seeing the excitement and happiness in her little eyes was enough reason for you and oscar to give her the absolute world.

[punksdoll]

Okay after that last enemies to lovers one with Rhea where reader is abused imma really need one where Rhea finds the bruises

~~~𝑨𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒅~~~

pt.1 of Always Loved

pt.3 of always loved

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𝑹𝒉𝒆𝒂 𝑹𝒊𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒚 𝒙 𝒇𝒆𝒎!𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓 ^owner of gif

𝒔𝒖𝒎𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒚: 𝑰𝒕 𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒓𝒖𝒊𝒔𝒆𝒔

𝒂/𝒏: 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒐𝒐𝒌 𝒔𝒐 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒚𝒆𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒐 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒕? 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔𝒔𝒔𝒔, 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕 𝒕𝒘𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊 𝒉𝒐𝒑𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒆𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚

𝒘𝒂𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔: 𝒂𝒃𝒖𝒔𝒆, 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒅𝒓𝒖𝒏𝒌, 𝒓𝒉𝒆𝒂 𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒐𝒌, 𝒓𝒉𝒆𝒂 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒔 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒐𝒐, 𝒇𝒍𝒖𝒇𝒇

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“I love you…”

Rhea pauses. She stares at the road ahead as she slows the car down. Y/n, out of her mind, doesn’t realize what she has said and simply chuckles.

“Why’d you freeze…” Y/n mumbles drowsily, feeling her eyes give up on her and close completely.

Rhea swallows the lump in her throat and speeds up the car, heading to her home.

•••

Y/n whines as she feels herself being shaken away, “no.” She mumbles as she pushes herself against the seat.

“C’mon we’re here.” Rhea sighs as she tries to get the drunken girl awake.

“no.” Y/n says and slowly falls back asleep.

Rhea sighs and rushes towards her door, to open and unlock it before rushing back to her car to get Y/n. She puts her arm under the drunk woman’s head and her other arm under her legs before taking her out slowly and steadily.

Y/n whines as she feels her head loll back before she catches herself and shoves her face in Rhea’s neck, her breathing slowing down.

Rhea feels a chill run down her spine before she shuts the car door and makes her way towards her open door and walks inside her house. Rhea closes the door and makes her way up to her stairs and towards the bathroom.

“I need you to wake up for this process, y/n.” Rhea says softly as she settles Y/n down on the toilet seat.

“No…let me sleep.” Y/n whines as she furrows her eyebrows in her sleep.

“After this you’ll be back to sleep quickly, it’ll be quick.” Rhea pleads and Y/n reluctantly opens her eyes slowly as she stares up at Rhea with low eyes.

Rhea grabs the makeup wipes, “i’m going to take off your makeup, ok?”

y/n shakes her head immediately, “you’ll see them…”

Rhea frowns, “see what?”

Y/n takes in a slow breath, “the bruises…”

Rhea narrows her eyes before slowly wiping away Y/n’s makeup. As the wiping goes on, the bruises start to show. Rhea can see the purple with a hint of yellow as she wipes away at the heavy makeup that y/n took so long in putting on.

“Oh y/n…” Rhea frowns as she wipes the last bit of concealer off to reveal what was behind it.

Y/n stares up at Rhea before looking at the mirror, seeing the bruises. In her drunken state, she tends to be more emotional and seeing what her boyfriend had left behind, took a toll on her. Y/n feels her eyes watering as she stares at Rhea then back at her reflection.

“I’m ugly…” y/n whimpers as she covers her face, “he makes me more uglier everyday…it never stops.” Slowly, the sobs of y/n start coming as she starts crying harder.

Rhea rushes to throw away the wipe and stand in front of the mirror so she didn’t have to look at herself. She crouches down and cups y/n’s face gently and forces her to look at her, as she tries calming herself down.

“Look at me, ay. Look at me…” Rhea says softly as y/n sniffs away and stares at Rhea with such a heartbroken look that makes Rhea’s own heart ache. “You are not ugly. You will never be ugly. The only ugly thing is your boyfriend and those bruises.” She says calmly as y/n evens out her breathing, “i will help you to get away ok? we will do this together ok? we will leave whatever we had behind? I will never do anything to hurt you like he did ok?”

Y/n stares at Rhea and feels herself slowly smile, “You love me?” Her question catches Rhea off guard. “Only someone that loves someone else would say that…I read it.”

Rhea slowly smiles and lets out a laugh, “yeah…i do love you. I loved you for a while now. I just tend to show it differently…I’m sorry.” Rhea sighs.

Y/n leans her forehead on Rhea, feeling herself slowly but surely sober up. “I accept your apology. I’ll only forgive you if you take me out to eat…and cover these bruises up for me tomorrow.” Y/n smiles.

“I promise…” Rhea whispers, “I also promise to protect you from that filth that you called a boyfriend. We will be reporting this to the police and I will get my hands on him, I promise.”

“You’re making a lot of promises you know?” Y/n cheeses as she rubs her nose against Rhea’s. “Do you tend to keep them?”

Rhea leans in and gives y/n a soft passionate kiss. Rhea could feel y/n slowly smile even more in the kiss.

“Does that answer your question?” Rhea pulls away and asks as they stare into each others eyes.

“Absolutely.”

[hotchs-big-hands]

HI ADA 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

okay so do you think Aaron would hit you or choke you or anything like that during sex? THIS IS SO STRAIGHTFORWARD IM SORRY 😭

I mean it in the way that he sees so much in his line of work that it's sorta out of the question for him. Like he couldn't do what he sees others do, let alone to you

Ykwim? If you talk about it and you tell him it's okay and you enjoy it, maybe he'll start slowly (and end up enjoying too maybe 🤭) but at first this sweet ass man would be so shy and afraid to do so i love him 😭🫶🏻

JSJCWJFJSJ helloooo anon thank yu for sending this ask!! Yur fine being straightforward LMAO💅

Okay so! I have thots (thoughts) abt this! Imma put them under the cut cuz obvs it’s nsfw and also it’s not everyone’s cuppa tea which is understandable and okay!

Minors dni 🔞

Short answer is: with sitting down to do some research with him and educating him about choking/slapping different areas and how to do it safely, he would definitely be up for giving it a try and I think he’d be quite into it. But ion think he would do choking/face slapping when he’s like. Angry fucking you. He would draw the line there.

Now the longer answer!

At first he’s like um. No. That’s abuse. He isn’t too well versed in BDSM culture and many kinks, so he thinks choking as in cutting off your windpipe, rather than applying pressure to your pulse point. And slapping as in assaulting you, rather than slapping sensitive areas like your ass, breasts, pussy and light face slaps. So you ask him if he would be willing to sit down with you sometime to do some research into it and if he still isn’t into it then that’s that. He agrees.

Now if it were me I’d make a whole fuckin PowerPoint presentation LMAO but whatever means of introducing and showing him these different kinds of play, you’re gonna have him taking it really seriously. Explaining to him about the pleasurable benefits of such play, how they could be incorporated into your sex life, but also the risks that are needed to be aware of. And if he tries something and doesn’t like it then you stop and don’t do it again.

Introducing them to the bedroom would be one thing at a time, and only doing one each time at first. Spanking your ass first, then breatheplay choking you the next time, then slapping your breasts and pussy. And finally face slapping. Every time you’d introduce something you’d do a tester for each thing to see how far you want to go with it, the pain level, the amount of pressure to your pulse point.

He’d only slap your face enough to surprise you, rather than actually hurt you. Slapping it when you don’t tell him what you want fast enough, or if you don’t call him sir (or daddy hehe) and accidentally use his name (during those sessions). He likes the dazed look on your face, the way you whimper and whine, the way your eyes roll back when he’s fucking you hard and choking you. Over time you start incorporating them together in one session, and it’s safe to say he enjoys how fucked out for him you become.

But also after these sessions he needs a lot of reassurance that you enjoyed yourself, that you were more than okay with the choking and slapping/spanking (which is true to irl as well. Always give your dominant partner their own aftercare and reassurance). And he’d become more confident with it, initiating such play with you. Perhaps you’d wear an item of clothing or accessory that tells him subtly you’re okay with him going ahead with initiating without asking beforehand.

Ofc this is just my opinion about it and ik it’s not for everyone/other people may think he wouldn’t be into it. And that is very valid! But yeah that’s my thots on this :3

[sturniololoco]

Can’t hate you pt 2

Sturniolo Little Sister (SLS) X Nathan Doe

Warnings: Cussing, hitting, mentions of SA later in the series(and no, it was not Nate), etc.

ᡣ𐭩 . ° .° ᡣ𐭩 . ° .° ᡣ𐭩 . ° .° ᡣ𐭩 . ° .° ᡣ𐭩 . ° .° ᡣ𐭩 . ° .° ᡣ𐭩

SLS/N’s POV

I woke up this morning to what felt like a monkey on my bed, only to find out that it was Chris, jumping up and down.

“Get up loser, we’re going to get food!” He yells, giving me a wet-willy before sprinting out of my room.

“Aw-you mother fucker!” I yell, jumping out of my bed to chase him down the stairs.

I see him up ahead, rounding the corner to the kitchen. I do the same, but instead of finding Chris, I find myself running straight into what felt like a brick wall.

“Fuck…” I say under my breath, rubbing my head where I made contact.

I hear Chris laughing from behind the island, and I shoot him the middle finger.

I look up to see what I made contact with, only to be met with the grey-blue eyes of Nate.

He hold out a hand to help me up, but I scoff, ignoring his hand while stand and brush myself off.

My head still hurt immensely as I walked into the kitchen, giving Chris the biggest side eye I could.

“Well isn’t someone just a bundle of joy this morning?” Nate says, resting his chin on his hand while he leans on the island, looking at me.

I roll my eyes, scoff again, then walk upstairs to get ready.

-

I walk downstairs, hair curled, makeup perfect, and dressed in a pair of cargo jeans and a baby tee.

Yes, I feel like a boss bitch, and yes, everyone knows imma boss bitch.

“Okay sis! I see you!” Nick says, giving me a twirl. I laugh then look to the living room to see Chris and Matt golf clapping. But Nate is just staring, his moth half open.

What the fuck is his problem?

I ignore him and follow my brothers to the car, him close in behind.

"SLS/N, just sit in the middle today, there's no point in putting the seat down for a 10-minute drive," Matt says, climbing into the car and starting it.

Oh my fucking god, why is this happening to me?!

Not wanting to start problems, I sigh then get in, ick on my right, Nate unfortunately on my left.

The whole ride there his thigh was uncomfortably close to mine, so it was a huge relief when Matt pulled into the IHOP parking lot.

We got out and then got checked into a booth near the back of the restaurant. Before anyone could argue, I called sitting in the middle of Matt and Chris.

We got settled in our booth, and then Nick started to pull out his phone and make an Instagram post.

it said, What poses do you want for our next photo shoot?

"We're doing a photoshoot?" Matt asked, already not looking forward to it.

"Yes Mat. and you're not gonna have a Mattitude about it," Nick said, giving him a stern look. I giggled at how well he knew my brother.

Before Matt could come back with an answer, our waitress came over, asking what we wanted to drink.

"I'll just have water please," I said quietly, then she walked away.

Chris poked me in the rib, using a baby voice while he said,

"Aww, is somebody a wittle shy?" The whole table burst into giggles, all but me, whose face had gone hot and was now punching Chris in the arm.

"Ow, SLS/N!" He whined as his laughing stopped.

"Aww, does someone need me to call the ambulance?" I asked, giving him a baby voice of my own.

Now it was his turn to go red, as Nick reached across the table, fist bumping me. What can I say, I learned my comebacks from the best.

-

As we climbed back into the back, we were all deciding what to wear for the photo shoot.

"I think we should all wear merch," Chris said.

We all nodded in agreement, heading home to get ready.

-

By the time we were all ready, the camera was charged, and we were ready to go, it was beginning to get dark. We drove to McDonalds, grabbing some drinks before driving around to find the place to shoot.

We decided to head the the parking garage down the street, as it had the best lighting.

We found a spot where there were no cars. Nick scrolled through his responses, looking for poses.

We took alot of photos. some with just the triplets, some with one of them individually, and then some duets.

One of my favorites where the one where I was on Chris's back while he was racing down the drive.

Nate got some as well, posing with Chris and Matt, then some individuals for his own Instagram.

Then Nick said the worst news I ever wanted to hear.

"Alot of fans want some pics of SLS/N and Nate. We should do those real quick."

I whipped my head around to stare at him, giving him wide eyes. He gave me a pleading look, begging me with his eyes.

I rolled my own, mumbling,

"Let's just get this over with."

We took a few next to each other, our arms around each other's backs in a side hug.

Our next pose was us standing back to back, holding up our sweet teas,, while death staring at the camera.

"These are so good! Hold still for two more seconds." Nick said, getting lower to take the shot.

Matt and Chris sent knowing smirks in my direction, making me angrier and angrier by the second.

"You better smile, kid. Wouldn't want people thinking I look better than the princess." Nate said under his breath, in my direction.

That sent me over the edge.

I pushed myself off of his back as I whipped around. I tore the lid of my sweet tea and threw it at him.

He was completely soaked.

"Fuck this shit!" I yelled, walking towards the stairs leading to the sidewalk outside of the building that led to our house, leaving the boys there to stare at my retreating figure.

-

I walked all the way home and up to my room, slamming my door before collapsing on my bed. My face was still burning with anger,

or was I blushing?

OooooooOooooooo!!!

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[foxboyqweer]

Hi, this is about to be a long, embarrassing, rambly yap session, so imma put it beneath a cut aight? Aight. There's gonna be medical terms for anatomy, talks of transphobia, and talks of perceived / fear of being perceived as fetishizing ahead as a warning folks

I'm starting to feel more "comfortable" in my identity as someone who, while being genderfluid, also identifies as being simultaneously man and woman all the time.

But at the same time, I think I might be hitting a weird impass that isn't necessarily as big as my brain is making it out to be, yet still feels big, so 😭

I've been looking at my gender and how I would make my body layout if there were no restrictions due to current medical abilities and I've started looking at sexuality as a factor in how I would want things to be.

I've known I wanted both a penis and vagina for a while, a knotted one (holothere moment), but at the same time, I can't help but feel like looking at sexuality at all for these things is like me fetishizing my own transness?

Realistically, I know that sex isn't that surprising of a thing to take into consideration for things like transitions, but at the same time, I feel like being trans is always so disconnected from sexuality as an attempt to disprove transphobes views of "trans people are just fetishizing [women/men]! It's a crossdressing fetish and nothing more!" to the point it feels like looking at my transness through any sexual light is going to bring the validity of my identity down.

I think also I worry that my desiring both sets of genitalia and looking at it with the context of sexuality in mind might come off as fetishizing intersex people. Especially since, for a lot of perisex people, I think if you were to ask them what being intersex is, they would most likely reply "having both private parts" even though that's not entirely true, and there are a wide array of conditions that fall under being intersex that have nothing to do with physical genitalia.

I already know my being transspecies as well is, to a lot of people, a mockery of "real trans people," but it feels like even just this, without mentioning wanting ears and tails, is still "too much" to be grounded in reality enough for people to ever really see it as something that isn't just fodder for cringe compilations

I don't really know if this has any real point it's working towards, I mostly just want to get this all off my chest and I guess if people comment on it, then people comment on it? I think I'll probably just cut it off here because I know I've already yapped enough.

[evnovaa]

Blame | snippet

Chris Sturniolo x reader

“ I feel stripped of my skin and alone ”

a/n: hi hi stars!! soooo here’s a little snippet from blame 😚 promise full fic will be out in a day or two! Prepare its gon be a long one lots of shit we gon feeeeellllllll💔💔💔 but lmk what y’all think so far 💋

“Chris you are seriously starting to piss me off can you MOVE.” Nick says to his brother as he stands in his way from getting into their shared apartment.

“Kid, you can walk around me you know that right?” Chris says in an annoyed tone.

Nick rolls his eyes and pushes past him “fucking imbecile, I swear” Nick said mumbling under his breath.

Chris was standing in the door way mainly because he was trying to get a hold of his girlfriend who doesn’t seem to be answering the phone. Recently she’s been distant and he has been assuming the worst either she is cheating on him or she’s hiding something that she might be enduring without his knowledge.

Chris⭐️ : y/n can you please just respond to say you are okay

Chris⭐️ : y/n I don’t know what’s been going on with you recently, and I’m not fucking akinator this shit is getting annoying.

Read at 9:59pm

Chris is still getting no response from y/n, she’s clearly reading his messages which now indicates that she’s ignoring him.

“Dude are you gonna stand there there the whole night?” Matt says to him coming down the stairs.

Chris goes ahead and ignores what his brother just said to him, in that moment it sounded like nothing but gibberish as he is still staring at his phone.

“Before Christmas Christopher.” Matthew says to him awaiting a response.

Chris sighs and puts his phone in his pocket and walks into their apartment. He shoots straight to his room and shuts the door behind him.

Next morning

Y/n pov

I can see my boyfriend texting me and I know he’s gotten irritated with me, but right now he is the last person to be irritated.

Me and Chris have been together for almost 3 years now, he is really amazing and been amazing all these years. What has changed you may ask? Well all these years he has been amazing but like everyone else their boyfriend may do something they dislike but don’t have the heart to say anything. For me it’s him and his never ending friendship as he’d like to say with his ex-girlfriend.

Earlier yesterday

“She really is incredible, but y/n hates the mention of her, I’ve noticed anytime I mention Lola around her she tends to get quiet and isn’t present in the conversation anymore” Chris says venting to his friend Larry.

“Chris imma have to be honest with you, it is lowkey weird that you’re so close to Lola while dating y/n, I don’t know the boundaries surrounding your relationship, but usually girls don’t want their man parading around with their ex-girlfriend.”

“But listen she’s more of a friend to me, dating her was like something I did because I felt alone, and needed the reassurance of a partner, but Lola and I grew into friends more than a couple, hence we broke up” Chris knows what he’s saying is true in his mind but in his heart he loves Lola still, but refuses to come to terms with it.

“I don’t know chrissypoo, you’re gonna have to figure that one out with her.” Larry says knowing this conversation will be far from productive if anything it was moving in retrograde.

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a/n : Chris an idiot that’s all imma say but will he be able to explain himself to y/n and fix what she’s actually realized? Ion knowwwwwww🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫 okay bye stars!!

[hiccupbutpurple]

Wip Game

RULES: post the names of all the files in your WIP list, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it. And then tag as many people as you have WIPS!

Tagged by: @howtowhumpyourhiccup :D

I don’t think I can realistically do that many but @reallyprofoundkryptonite @worldwhightnight @sorushing @violet-moongem @amyrafierceblade if y’all haven’t already been tagged and feel like sharing! Of course anyone who see this and also wants to participate go ahead!

Imma put all the ones I’ve at least started writing for because we’d be here all day if it was also the ideas that just have a few dot points or things. Some have actual titles some are just random description type things lol. I put the general ship name or character in the title so I can easily find it but it makes it less vague ig but eh. (Also sorry this is kinda long so I’m putting in under the cut lol.)

- How Time Has Transformed You

- To Rediscover An Old Self

- Some Things Shouldn’t Be Admired

- Preparation – Vigcup

- Tired – Vigcup

- Hiccup and Gobber self-care reminders

- Searching – Hiccstrid/Heathstrid

- Knock - Hicclegs

- Improper use of Maces and Talons - Vigcup

- Swordsmanship – Dagvigcup

- Accidents - Hiccstrid

- One inspired by entertain – Vigcup

- Room Where It Happens – Hiccstrid runaway Hiccup Au 1

- Put on a show – Dagcup

- Lusty Confidence - Hicclegs

- So You Wanna Marry Hiccup – Dagcup

- Naga Viggo one – Vigcup

- Hypnosis – Vigcup

- Love it When You Hate Me – 3 Versions (Hicclout, Vigcup, Dagcup)

- Honesty – Hicclegs

- Hiccup comes out to Gobber

- God Au drabbles (Starts with when lighting strikes) - hijack

- Finding Wounds – Hiccstrid runaway Hiccup Au 2

- Survival confessions / Hiccup tells Viggo about savages ship – Vigcup

- Heather period blood insanity – vent fic + Heather

- Projects – Hiccstrid

- Jane Doe / Heather’s soliloquy

- Borrower Au

- Venomcup Au drabbles

- Humiliation – Vigcup + Heather

- Thrall - Hiccup

- Snotlout and Small Hiccup drabbles

- Finding Trinkets – Hiccup and Toothless

- Toothless and small Hiccup

- At a Spa - Vigcup

- Making Up For Lost Time – Stoick and Hiccup

- Viggo and Hiccup + Dagur on treaty signing day

- Rock me in - Hijack / Hicclegs

- Mala/Dagur/Hiccup

- Lovefool – Vigcup + concerned Stoick

- Hard Hitting – Hicclout

- Constantly on the Mind – Hiccup

- Half Runaway Au – Vigcup

- Viggo and Hiccup in bed talking

- Sex Puzzles – Vigcup

- Forever suffering for other people - Hiccup

- Spying – Vigcup + Riders

- Ghost hunt – Riders

- Hiccup see’s ghosts

- Ride - Hiccup/Jack/Astrid

- Obstacle Courses – Zephyr and Hiccup

- Who is the hottest – Drunk Hiccup stupidity

- Survivor – Vigcup og day one fic

- When the smoke clears – Dagcup

- ‘What if I have that berserker insanity inside me?’ ‘I want that Berserker insanity inside me.’ – Dagcup + Heathstrid

- Panic attacks – Heathcup

- Paints - Nuffink and Hiccup

- Burns – Hiccup

- Tango – Vigcup

- Saviour – Heathstrid

- Expendable – Riders

- Ships and Anchors – Valka and Hiccup

[ratlordsarah]

another will wood dream

this is another long one, so imma put a read under the cut

so basically, the dream starts out with me, will wood, Chris dunne, and 3 gen alpha kids go on a “camping trip”, but that camping trip is my dead grannie’s house who hasn’t been alive since 2017, and the house was comically larger than what it used to be, and 2 extra stories were added too 💀

anyways, on the first night of our “camping trip”, will sleeps on the couch, and Chris sleeps on the couch of the second living room, while I am stuck on the second floor with 2 of the gen alpha kids, who are making tik toks on their iPads, and made me do tik tok dances all night long (torture💀)

anyways, I finally go to sleep, and I wake up to be a German guy on a boat in the middle of the ocean, with a really big bird on my lap, that I named “Becky the great”. as it turns out, everything that happened in that last paragraph was actually a dream, inside of this dream.

anyways, me, the gen alpha kids, will, and Chris all decide to start the day by going to this hospital because it has a lake right next to it, and it’s clear water like a pool, so it’s actually more like a lukewarm spring.

but this trip also counts as a class field trip for my history class I used to be in, so a bunch of my classmates are there too, and will is tryna strike up conversations with my teachers, while smoking weed which is really funny because the teacher the entire time just has the face of a raccoon for some reason, and kept begging will to let her have a hit on the weed 💀.

anyways, the rat that house keeps (his name is Steve McQueen) is on a random island, so I am on this raft made outta sticks in the lake and I pick up Steve McQueen, and I just dance around with the rat.

anyways, lake time is over, and will insist we just go around and explore the hospital for a while, so we do that, however this wasn’t just any hospital. This is the hospital that is ran by house himself, and despite his leg, he is running on all fours at us, while barking 💀

our group is obviously put off by this guy chasing us and all that, so we are screaming in unison while running from him, and Chris randomly says “I guess schools it for the summer” in between screams, while winking at the imaginary camera. Will right afterwards screams “dude, this is the apocalypse 😟”

One of the gen alpha kids falls, and gets eaten by this new black hole that is chasing us instead of house now, and we somehow make it out right afterwords.

now, we are at a party set up by some random guy who used to go to the church I went to, and two children are left unsupervised, and drown in a pool, and are basically left there for an hour before anyone notices, and I end up pulling one out because at this point, it was really strange how no one was doing anything, while this other guy decides pose heroically while getting the other 😭

anyways after that happens, we rent out 2 motorcycles, and a car to get home, but the car only fit 3 people, so will is driving the two gen alpha kids back to where we were staying at earlier, while me and Chris ride a motorcycle.

the funny part is that me and Chris were way ahead of the car that will was driving, and there was a boobie trap in the middle of the road, that was bacially a huge rectangular hole (it was a dirt road) and because I was way ahead of everyone else, I fall in first, and about 2 minutes later, Chris falls in the hole too.

we don’t have our phones on us, so we are basically just waiting for will to come by with the gen alpha kids, so we have a lasting conversation about bananas, cigarettes, the queen of England, and Batman.

will finally comes about 30 minutes later and yoinks is out the hole, but because the car is full with will and the gen alpha kids, me and Chris are tied down to the roof of the car during the ride back to the house we are staying at (again, my grandmas house)

anyways, the second night goes by, and we wake up to go to Disney world, and we don’t necessarily stick together, we all just meet up at the exit at the end of the night, so we have the whole day to ourselves, and I spend that time going on every roller coaster , and there was this random plate spin y thing, where you basically have to hold on to the sides while you are in the middle of this circle, and it spins so fast you fly in the air.

anyways, there is this building there called a scary Sherlock homes building, where it’s bacially a place that gives you the heebie jeebies while you are trying to find stuff, and there is a guy there who swallows a knife and is choking on it, but it’s already below his ribs (dream is not anatomically correct at all) so after a while of trying the heimlich Manuver, I just yoink the knife out from under his ribs, and it’s got some of the most nasty stuff on it that I chuck it away to another floor of the building and run out half way across the park 💀

anyways, we have some more fun, and we meet up when the park closes down, and we ride home to catch some z’s.

once we are home, Chris is nearly asleep on the couch in the second living room, and will tells me to go over to him in a gravely 👹👹👹 voice, and say something random as a joke, so i go behind the couch he’s on and say “radioactive zaxby’s chicken nuggets” in the goblin voice, and he laughed so hard, he woke me up 😭

guys, never listen to life in the world to some right before bed 💀

[mariusroyale]

I found my people.... I found Raph obsessed sweeties 🥺 I love you.

I want to hear everything you have to say about him, thank you for this blog. It's full of food. Imma start eating

AAAAAAAAAAAAA

GO AHEAD

FEAST

IM A RAPH STAN TO THE VERY END *salute*

i have so many things to say about raph ESPECIALLY after season two + movie

garbled, nonsensical rant ahead:

because I’ve seen SO many posts about how the change in leader would have caused a rift between him and his brothers (worsening it, really, considering how he treats them enables them to behave poorly in the show)

pizza puffs is RIGHT THERE

like all through out, his bros are always reassuring, always saying ‘raph will take care of it’, just always relying on raph

AND RAPH LITERALLY BEATS HIMSELF UP OVER IT

HE LITERALLY HITS HIMSELF IN HIS CONFLICT (yeah sure haha funnie) BUT STILL!!

one could imagine the sudden change strains his relationship with his bros because despite how it, in THEORY, would have lessened the weight—

HE STILL HAS TO SHOULDER IT!!!!!

HE STILL HAS TO SCOLD LEO AND BICKER WITH HIM BECAUSE HE KNOWS THE CONSEQUENCES OF NEGLIGENCE AND ARROGANCE AND IT DOESNT GET THRU LEO'S SKULL UNTIL HIS BROTHERS AND THE WORLD ARE FUCKING DYING

BC LEO’S SELF ASSURED THAT IT WOULD WORK OUT LIKE IT ALWAYS DID EVEN IF THEY DIDNT RUMINATE ON THEIR ISSUES

(i will literally fall to my knees hearing Omar's voice in the movie in how well he portrayed Raph's desperation when he realised they needed to retreat, like he sounds so fucking distraught-- LITERALLY GO WATCH IT RN, THE WAY HE SHOUTS 'im not gonna argue with you!' is so fucking sad bc he doesn't!!! THERE'S SHIT HAPPENING AND I LITERALLY DO NOT WANT TO FIGHT WITH YOU RN--)

WHICH NOT ONLY WORSENS THAT RIFT

BUT THICKENS WHATEVER GLASS BETWEEN HIM AND THEIR YOUNGER SIBLINGS!! he and mikey used to be so close!! and it was to be explored that they distanced BECAUSE of raph’s smothering!! IM FOREVER MAD WE DIDNT GET THAT EP so you can imagine how Leo n Raph constantly bickering would have strained their relationships worse!!!

I can imagine how trying to recover it would be SO difficult, especially with Leo because seriously, causing the end of the world because of your own pride isn't some shit you can put under the rug, I can literally feel the cogs in my brain about how raph would be ambivalent on saying how he feels because it cost everyone so much

and because he picks his silence I can imagine Leo being all like 'be mad at me! be upset! yell at me or something, because you haven't said anything to me at all!' or some shit urhghghghr

and raph wouldn't want to upset him, doesn't want to fight, or yell, or make a repeat of the last few years because

hes fucking tired

he doesn't want to put more on Leo after almost losing him

also!! bad future:

raph’s the biggest!! and he’s so used to carrying that load that i can imagine it fucking KILLS him in the bad future!! ALL THAT- TO BE THEIR PROTECTER, ENDING UP DYING FIRST

BECAUSE OF COURSE HE WOULD

BECAUSE HE LOVES THEM SO MUCH AND IT HURTS HIM

when he shields Donnie from shredder in BN:NY, UGRHDHDH

when he shields both Mikey and Donnie when the Krang pulled that anti mystic bs!! he didn’t even think about what it would do- he just wanted to PROTECT

AND OFC RAPH SHIELDING LEO FROM GETTING FUCKING STABBED

RAPH. DIDNT. KNOW. WHERE. IT. WOULD. LAND.

a few inches lower and he would have fucking DIED!!!

he was LITERALLY doing the thing he knew best and it cost him his own autonomy and COULD HAVE LITERALLY FUCKING KILLED HIM—

BUT GOD FORBID HIS BROTHERS GET LETHALLY HURT, HE’LL TAKE IT HIMSELF BECAUSE HES JUST LIKE THAT

and that part of his character gets me so

BECAUSE he doesn’t HAVE to be such a caring overbearing worrywart like that!!!

all that parentification and the separation it left- he could have really just distanced himself entirely or just become jaded and bitter about how he didn’t get his own big brother treatment

BUT HE LOVES ANYWAY

HE'S STILL JUST A BIG GOOF

AND ITS SO 😭😭

HE CAN GET MAD AND UPSET AND STRESSED OUT AS MANY TIMES AS LONG AS IT MEANS HIS FAMILY IS SAFE AND CARED FOR

AND ITS LIKE *sobs*

i wanna know what a raph ep would be like if he just.. got a break

no really, i was so pumped to have a solo raph ep and then MY BOY GETS THROWN IN PRISON FOR LOOKING LIKE A CRIMINAL?!????

i would have gotten so violent, ong- he deserved a better solo ep >:((

and that ep after insane in the mama train, where he goes to his happy place

HES A SHOOTING STAR LIKE D’AWWJDHSJ

I WANNA SEE THIS BIG BEHEMOTH OF A TURTLE GET A BREAK FOR A LONG TIME AND HE JUST GETS TO CHILL

that being said, i am writing a fic on ao3 called ‘Red Angel Perpetuating Harm’ and i plan on uploading it once i fully manage to encapsulate raph’s trauma and what he deserves to treat it bc this fandom i stg….

guys

i get it, Leo’s there, yeah sure

RAPH IS RIGHT HERE. Y’ALL KEEP MAKIN UP SCENARIOS WHERE ITS JUST MADE UP TORTURE FOR LEO

WHEN RAPH IS RIGHT. THERE.

PERFECT. ATTENTIVE. LOVING. HIMBO.

raph’s trauma does not get addressed enough and i for one am DONEEEEE

HE GOT MUTATED. THERE WAS A SCRAPPED ENDING WHERE HE STRAIGHT UP LOST HIS EYE

HE LITERALLY ALMOST KILLED HIS BROS

RAPH ‘RED ANGEL OF PREVENTING HARM’ HAMATO ALMOST KILLED EM

AND IF YOU DONT WANT PHYSICAL ANGST-- HE'S GOT A HELLUVA LOT OF EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE TOO!!!!! HE'S RIGHT THERE!!!!!

and my fuckass fyp on tiktok is like ‘you want Leo edits?’ NO!!

whenever i get vids of raph, focusing on his loss or just cute edits im always like

bECAUSE HE DESERVES MORE ATTENTION!!!! HE'S SUCH A GOOD CHARACTER AND I ADORE HIM!!!

the fic I have rn + the outlines I've made have so far focuses on:

what happened after he got IMPALED (I really liked writing this one)

deeper into interrogation (im contemplating whether or not to write his savage self considering he is alone but idk how to implement it bc the rise Krang are insanely strong, goddamn)

and making his interactions with his bros as a Krang zombie worse

+ recovering his bonds with each brother (trying to figure out how to put all my feelings in their dynamics with raph together)

and splinter + April too, I want him to be able to vent without feeling GUILTY or BAD abt himself!!

the Leo parts of the fic I feel like u can literally smell the way I feel abt him bc JKSBHLJFBHLGBLHJFLBHJ

(no seriously, idc why fics keeps saying 'its not his fault!!' bc YES TF IT WAS.)

hoping to dive deeper into the aforementioned rift too, because god this fam needs some help but RAPH CENTRIC FIC MEANS HE GETS TO BE THE ONE TO CRY AND BE ANGRY AND UPSET TOO BECAUSE GODDAMMIT HE DESERVES TO

someone pls write other things I haven't addressed bc I wanna write em in the fic--

tldr; he best. the best big boy

here's a tiktok

[masochist-bob]

i over heard about imaginations of Smile HD x Pizza Tower.

now i tried to do this on my own and it looked........ uhhhhhh......

SOOOOO! i wanted to get some culture in here and see if anyone

wanted to help with this project! ill go ahead and tell ya how. imma put under here what parts are open, and what are taken! easy pezy imma kms lemon squeezy!

the warning for gore/blood + starting credits: taken via me :)

start of the song and first death: open!

second and beating part: open!

third and fourth death: open!

gus and peppino fight: open!

ending part where earth goes AH-: open!

i hope i get some people on this! remember to:

gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss! and ill see you in 1 week or more :D

[wcrldcfvtlvs]

mini update: affiliates/mains

For starters; I want to apologize for the back-to-back ooc posts, I have writing things to do now that the blog is complete but I need to put this out there before I forget and make updates!

If you have a character that is actively involved in The Atlas', The Blackwoods & Donatello's lives as a platonic dynamic, consider yourself an affiliate of the blog! Friends are just as impactful as romantic connections and I want that a priority first before romantic connection!

As for the romantic connection, I only have three people who are considered a mains/affiliates under that category and they know who they are but for context I'll update in this post and tag them/shameless promo them:

Tyler & Jung 'Minnie' Minsoo ( @indigodreames ), along with Victoria & Kang 'SUN' Seonho are the main ships, therefore anymore romantic connections will be verse exclusive!

Kalmiya and Cal Kestis ( @tapalslegacy ) are a main ship, any other romantic connections will be verse exclusive

Harrison & Fable Vaughn ( @godmona - Desdemona Godfrey's Doppelganger / his high school sweetheart )

Friendships are always fair game and the more the merrier! This just means to other characters ( and as a shameless promo unless you're uncomfortable with it ) my characters with mention their friends on top of their childhood friends!

SO GO AHEAD AND SMMMASSSSHH THAT LIKE BUTTON; Multi-muses this is the only time Imma ask you to tell me/specify which one of your characters you want to be friends with the Atlas' so I can work on the dynamics page for the site. Also if we already discussed dynamics/have threads don't worry about liking the post i'm already trackin'

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

Halloooo again!! I’m thinking about songs again so here’s another handful of contributions that are mostly Muriel-centric with like one exception lol.

(Also forgive me of some of these songs have already been mentioned😅)

(also, also, future Paper here, I ended up linking a whole bunch of songs here— 8 to be precise. Please don't feel obligated to listen to all of them lol. If you do intend to, go at your own pace, and I'm very very very sorry for the rambling essay I'm about to subject you to)

Imma start with the exception: Six Legs (Tippy Tappy Toes) by Scrawny & Madilyn Mei reminds me of the main six in general and that climb from being small children to who they are at the end of each upright route. Like it’s really audible in that first part of the song with the trumpet. The lines “Now, it remains a dream, a distant memory that itches my brain…” really feels like it holds that sentiment of having a difficult childhood but being able to grow beyond it. And then the trumpet bit—I LOVE THE TRUMPET BIT. Ugh, the confidence the uplifting sound of it, that just screams, "I am here, I am alive, I am strong as I am now because I am happy." hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I swear this song is just so sweet. Idk I often imagine the M6 encountering children who act a lot like, or are in a similar situation to how they were as children, and they reflect on their past struggles which spurs them to take action and help, to be the guiding hand to help them through their hardships and try to do all the things for that child that they wish they had when they were struggling.

For the more Muriel-centric ones now, I can't help but listen to Let's Fall in Love for the Night by FINNEAS and think of Muriel, believing MC to be in love with Asra, despite them constantly coming over to visit him. And he just really likes the company he gets from them so little by little he lets himself grow close, and familiar with them, but he holds himself back from feeling anything deeper than that because "I know better than to ever call you mine"

Ok, ok, I took a quick precursory glance through the youtube playlist made by Tetsuooooooooooo, and I just... I'm astounded to see that no one's recommended AURORA yet??? Her songs scream volumes for each of the M6 I swear. But like for Muriel specifically her songs feel so overwrought with life and greenery, and that dichotomy between what it means to be strong, what it means to be kind, and most importantly what it means to love and be loved. Like, Runaway??? The story of being separated from home and separated from the people who made home a home. The feeling of having "no other place to go" Not to mention how "I kept running for a soft place to fall" captures that tendency of Muriel's to be so avoidant, and to flee into shadows and being forgotten rather than confront anything???

(I'm so sorry this is going to be many more songs than I expected lol)

And then Running With the Wolves, besides the obvious wolf allegory, highlights the darker more violent edge of Muriel from his background as a gladiator that had killed people, and paints it in such pretty and protective melodies and notes. It's the lines "There's blood on your lies/The sky is opened wide" It makes me think of his ties to Lucio, and how it's implied that Lucio lied to Muriel about harming Asra if Muriel didn't comply. A lie which forced Muriel into spilling blood for Lucio.

Also, the Seed feels so interconnected with Muriel's route, specifically the under-utilized element of the heart of the forest, and the sheer rage and agony Muriel must've felt at it's death. Also though, the lyrics "suffocate me, so my tears can be rain, I will water the ground where I stand, so the flowers can grow back again" Just screams at Muriel's quiet self-sacrificing nature. He's willing to put himself into harms way to protect you, but he hates making a big deal about it the way Julian does. It's suffocation. A death of silencing.

Now, not to get to far ahead of myself I'll limit myself to two more songs & mini rants before I end up writing an essay for all of Aurora's songs and how they link to Muriel lol.

Warrior is another song that focuses a little on Muriel as a fighting force, but this song places emphasis on what you're fighting for, as AURORA sings about a "Warrior of Love" the first verse of the song describes a person in tears at the state of the world and the people around them and how they "built a cage to hide in" which I think really reflects Muriel's tendency to be really caring and empathetic to others, but also how he holds himself in Literal chains while hiding from people and his past. The second verse, however, I think actually reflects Lucio of all people, which, dear death I could write an entire essay on the interesting reflectivity between Muriel and Lucio and how you can reflect their parallel redemption/healing arcs in a few choice AURORA songs. (another one of those songs being Winter Bird which I just stumbled on looking through her songs lol)

Anyhow, for the final song, Daydreamer, I think song is more for Asra instead of Muriel. I'm including it because well, I love this song tbh. I think it fits Asra 'cause it has a very float-y vibe to it that also seems very... Grounded somehow? It's AURORA's expression of wanting to use that imagination and tendency towards daydreaming to save the world and save the people around her, which I think reflects Asra's upright route, where they choose to help and protect the people around them that they care about, rather than just skip town again. But like, they still hold onto that feeling and desire of being loose and floaty, or, in a word, magical. And then of course, the last few lyrics, that I really think just sells it for them the lyrics "Nothing can die while we are here," just feels so potent with how Asra seems to defy the death of everyone they care about. Their parents' disappearance was not from death and they were able to return, MC was able to be brought back from death, Julian enters and returns from Death's realm. Nothing can die while we are here.

Ugh. Sorry about this whole mess of stuff lol. It's probably insanely long and is probably awful on mobile ahaha, sorry sorry sorry mobile users. Also I know I said that Aurora has songs that really fit each of the M6 so I'll try to maybe send the rest of the M6 & my arguments for them in a reblog or something lol

Oh, WOW, these all sound so good!! And @paperstarwriters your lyrical analysis is so tied to the plot and characters UGH I feel like I'm plunging back into the world of the arcana all over again! :D

I am definitely putting these on the playlist and the tag! Your hyperlinks all seem to be working too, so I'll leave them be. Thank you so much for these friend!! ^.^

[forthesanityofstorytellers]

WHG 19 - Prompt 1

Since this is supposed to be my blog for actual writing, Imma put my written bits here but I'll be reblogging them to my main 😁

I might be a little slow, but I'm hoping to at least do a prompt for all three of my submissions, Jake, Hansel, and Lyra. Yay!

Tagging @concealeddarkness13 @ratracechronicler, @maple-writes, @pen-of-roses, @drabbleitout, @clocksandchaos, @knmartinshouldbewriting

lmk additions or subtractions 😁

Jake settled himself on the edge of the waterfront. Flicked a bit of rock out and watched it hit the waves before going under.

Just like him.

Why he had been playing around with those damn portals, he’d no idea. He’d landed in this place where things seemed…similar to home, but not quite the same. He’d done his best to learn the history, keep his head down, find the others. But they’d landed in different districts, it looked like, and so he’d done his best to fall in line and plot how best to escape.

The best he’d come up with was either hijacking a boat or just jumping into the water and swimming until he hit somewhere else.

He adjusted the settings on his boots, the edges set with runic stones he’d made and powered himself with what he’d managed to pry out of the old dusty books of his library, half of which had been stolen from an old friend.

Well. Frenemy.

He adjusted his density to make him seem a little more solid, adjusted his gloves to do the same. He’d landed in some kind of fishing village or area or town or…oh, right. District. That’s what they were calling it. Seemed to be decently healthy and operating at a good pace economically. But he’d also found some of the younger kids using some of the larger fish as punching bags, set up in sheds and gutting rooms and places that wouldn’t normally be found. So preparing for these…’hunger games’ seemed to be against the rules, yet these kids managed to do it anyway.

He wondered what the other districts were like. If they were all like this.

Either way. He should have been okay, he reasoned. There was an age limit, and he seemed to be on the older end. He’d managed to make out that the older you were, the more times you had to put your name in for being a tribute…but seeing as how he was new here, he’d never actually had to put his name in at all.

He looked up as a roar began to be taken up closer to the central square. From what he could gather, he was supposed to get there before the actual ceremonies started.

He stood and brushed off his jacket, scratching at his chin as he walked. Hopefully the others could partake in the games and he could find them. Maybe work out a way to activate the portals wherever these games were and the three of them could get out. Get home.

But he knew better than to try and plan too far ahead. He’d learned early enough on that doing so only tempted fate in a way that she couldn’t resist.

He grumbled and worked out the magic in his head as he walked, trying to sort variables and make plans for his next steps. And only his next steps. Get called. Find the others. Escape.