#immposible

[taran-chan]

i'll bring her back at 9 // your daughter calls me mommy too

Jeon Do Yeon at Paris Fashion Week 2023

[optimus-crime]

i made a quick drawing on my phone while waiting for my bus to arrive

[bluehairedemon]

I am once again dysphoric as fuck

[13keithxpidge13]

I CANT STOP LAUGHING AT HOBIE WANTING MILES PREGNANT DESPITE EVERYONE SAYING ITS NOT POSSIBLE

Hobie: I'm GONNA get my boyfriend PREGNANT damn it!

Peter B: What?!

Hobie- Did I fuckin' stutter?

Miguel frustrated: Hobie that is Biologically immpos-

Hobie with air quotes- "BiOloGicaLLy ImMPOSible" you know what else is Biologically impossible? Being bit by a radioactive spider and gettin' super powers from it but fuck that logic yeah? Mr. Pissy Vampire scrub. I WILL get Miles pregnant and I promise you my kid is gonna take their first shit on your desktop Miguel.

"and I promise you my kid is gonna take their first shit on your desktop Miguel" I FUCKING SPAT OUT MY WINE LMFAOOOOO

[xaiblood]

Traning

"What the hell?" You felt your jaw dropped, "Wait, wait, wait! You're joking, aren't you?" your eyes looked up at a boy, he was Seong Taehoon.

Taehoon raised an eyebrow, "Joking? Nah, I'm serious. You can punch me, try it." he said, while he stared at you with his calm face. But still, you still stood in front of him with your disbelief face. "What? Still not believe me, Bookworm?"

"Probably, yes is the answer," you nodded.

Taehoon sighed, "Listen, you're practice with me, Bookworm." he looked at you, then he walked toward the sandbag. "Since your teacher is busy for a week, you're will be my student when you're in this dojang, got it?" You nodded in agreement, made Taehoon a bit relieved. "Well, Bookworm, I still can't believe that you're an athlete of Taekwondo, and since when?" he kicked the sandbag. You just hummed then you spoke, "I learned the Taekwondo since I was in elementary school," you shrugged. "Why? Are you---" "That's a bit impossible for you, especially you're always read your books in the class," he cut your dialog. Your eyes are narrowed now, while you stared at him, you kicked the sandbag several with your the strength of your leg muscles that have often been trained.

"That's not immposible, as you can see, we are both professionals." You rolled your eyes, "But I never participate in the UFC like you."

He heard Taehoon chuckle, "Yeah, yeah. It's up to you, bookworm."

"Yeah, yeah, Mr. 500 Won."

You two glared at each others until Hobin, Jjiksae, and Gaeul entered the dojang. When they entered the dojang, your attention focused on the three of them.

"Uhh ... Hello?" said Hobin smiled at you two.

"Ehh? Who is she?"

"She's [Name] right?"

"That young athlete of Taekwondo?!"

"Hey, she's with Taehoon."

"She's hot!!"

"Dang, the viewers looked a bit brutal when the camera at [Name]," said Jjiksae. He was right, the chats were be surprised and amazed when the camera was pointed at you. And they could see you in their screen.

You smiled at them, "Hi." you said while waving to the three of them—the viewers of the HTF channel also saw you because Jjiksae pointed the camera at you. While Taehoon just silent beside you.

"Hey, you guys have sparring, right?" Gaeul looked at you two. You just nodded as a respond.

Taehoon glanced at you, "Aren't afraid if I kick you, Bookworm?" he snickered at you, his smirk turned wider. Mocked at you.

You grinned, "Well, maybe I'll kick your head, Mr. 500 Won." said you. You fixed that black belt around your waist. You flexed your hands, "Since we're both pro, I think we don't have to wear those protector, right?"

Taehoon just looked at you smugly, "It's up to you, if your hand can't hold the book properly after this, don't blame me, Bookworm."

▪︎▪︎▪︎

Whack!

You could avoid his kick, but your level wasn't higher than him, you were one level below Taehoon, just one level. Yeah. But it made the strength he put into his foot stronger than you could imagine.

You almost got kicked by him. Thank goodness this was just training.

You could hear Taehoon mocking you from the way he talked to you. "Heh ... Even though you can attack me back, why don't you do it?"

You chuckled in annoyance, "You're so fast, damn it."

While you guys were having small talk, you forgot about the three people who were there, in the same dojang, and the viewers were watching the two of you.

A/N: Tap here for next part.

[memesandmusicalss]

english lyrics to 'liebesleid (die liebe kommt, die liebe geht)' !!

your kiss brought me the spring

think about you by day and by night

think about you, think about you always

all my dreams are just you

and if you left me one day

my longing would leave with you

autumn wind would blow away the leaves

our love would persist

i love more and more so i only belong to you

that i completely fall for you, that all i desire is you

i hear your light laughing, and it hurts my heart

tell me, what should i do, so i dont waste away with longing

love comes, love goes, as long as theres a star in the sky

as long as the roses blooming on their stems, a heart will glow with love

and if you feel loved, then dont ask

and if youre saddened once in a while, dont despair

because it will always be like it is today

because the joy of love follows heartache

your kiss brought me the spring

as you smiled at me

lay in your gentle gaze, a whole world of luck

only you are my life to me

cant be without you anymore

i want to give you everything

because i belong to you, to you alone

love comes, love goes, as long as theres a star in the sky

as long as the roses blooming on their stems, a heart will glow with love

and if you feel loved, then dont ask

and if youre saddened once in a while, dont despair

because it will always be like it is today

because the joy of love follows heartache

just like today, for the rest of time

AHHH i fucking finished itt this is. not completely accuratw but i tried my best and uts. really difficult or immposible to find direct translations for a lot of these phrases so. yeahh ANYWAGS what song ahould i do next?

[vaicomcas]

I think a story where Jack brings back att the angels and most demons, and Empty let's them go cause they want to sleep, but takes Castiel's memories because they are still angry at Jack and Cas would be amazing.

Like Cas has memories somewhere before pulling Dean out of hell but everyone else around him remembers all that happened.

I wrote a really long ost about this fic idea byt tumblr ate it, so I am going to try again, I am sorry if I miss any details this time around.

There is an old post, about Naomi and Cas, I don't I will be able to find, but one person in the tags said, (paraphrasing) 'It would be intresting and kind of hillarious if only Castiel was mindwiped after his rebellions or disobidience and others rememberd.'

Cas loosing his memories after his lastest visit of the Empty would be as you said very messy.

Imagin, Jack goes to empty, after getting Chuck's powers, and Cas is not happy with the situtation but he also know they don't have much time, the Shadow is angry about everything. So Castiel helps Jack make a deal with the Shadow, to get most of the angels and hamdfull of Demons, who would actually help rather than messing them up evern more (Like Crowely, Rowena, Meg, etc), they deal with the rest and seasl the void so that the shadow is never disturbed again.

But before the leave, The Shadow takes Castiel's memories, or something happens, but Castiel does forget everything that happened.

So, as he comes back the last thing he remembers is planning a seige to hell, to pull out Dean.

And everything is a mess, right?

Hell is cahos, Deamons don't know who to obey, Rowena and Crowely are at eachothers throats.

Heaven is worse, Angels are hostile towards Jack, he is Lucifer's nephilim, raised by the Winchesters, he took Godhood from their father. They don't know if they want should trust him. Even Cas himself.

It doesn't long for everyone to realise something is very wrong with Cas, either. Like Cas then thought Balthzar is dead, and now when Cas doesn't remember, Batlh who is still angry doesn't know how to tell his brother, who is so happy to see him, he was the one to kill Balth. Similar interactions goes for Anna, for Samandrieal, for Racheal, and others.

Like all the angels are angry at Cas, but blowing up gets only confussion from him. And like he doesn't want to belive what they are telling him, because its too much and its disarterous for him.

Jack comes to realise, he doesnt know shit about Castiel or the angels or heaven and hell. He has no idea what to do and how to help

Like Cas is the one being who could have conneted all the frayed edges of Heaven and Hell, but he can't do that.

Its immposible to write this concept in way that would do justice to everyone, but it has a lot that can be explored

Wow, that really is a spectacular mess, isn't it? (in a good way) It is super interesting, but I can't even get started on how one would try to resolve it to satisfaction.

So then I started to blow it up even more:

In Hell, not only Rowena and Crowley would have unresolved issues, but Meg and Crowley too. And Crowley surely had issues with all the remaining demons, who first of all chose Lucifer over him, then also became loyal to his abusive mother while they were never truly loyal to him. I have no choice but to conclude that he would become an outcast of Hell in this situation (unlike almost everybody except one, I don't buy "redemption" of Rowena for suddenly become a loving mother after Crowley died).

Now onto Cas. I really hope that when Cas was in the Empty making the deal with Shadow he didn't let Naomi out, or the archangels. Because that would make Heaven as fucked up as before.

But do the angels who get out remember all of that past oppression? Do they, now free of Chuck's (the show's) narrative and Naomi's mind control, begin to think for themselves? Do they put the blame in the right places, and not just make Castiel the scapegoat of their enormous misfortune like the show made them do?

Assuming (probably too optimistically, but I can't bear the alternative) that this is the case, Castiel would still be under so much distress, as you described, hearing all the horrors, not wanting to believe, not remembering any of it, yet couldn't not believe.

Then I really don't want him to recover his memory; because it would just be so devastating, especially, also, if he remembered Jack, and realized that his son had learned about all of his "crimes", and understandably became disturbed, if not traumatized by that knowledge.

Whew, knives in the heart at every turn in this story, isn't it?

So then I can only come to one conclusion. Castiel, heartbroken, not knowing who he was anymore, banishes himself from heaven, meeting Crowley who was on the run as an outcast from Hell. Castiel may initially distrust a demon, but he thought himself in no position to judge anyone anymore; while Crowley remembered his fondness for his old friend, and welcomed the clean-slate they were given. Castiel and Crowley found the only source of solace in each other in this new world that was no longer theirs.

What happened to Jack through all this? I have no idea LOL.

Thanks for elaborating on this idea! You blew something up and I followed the ejecta in one direction, but there are a lot more ways to go.

[neil-perrys-suicidal-tendencies]

haiiiii i’m bored sooo if u want:

favourite food?

last song u listened to?

if u were a bird what type would u be?

favourite lgbtq flag based on colours?

a smell that’s nostalgic to u?

would u do the worm (dance move) in public for 100 of whatever ur native currency is?

is there a song that always makes u cry?

a really bad song u can’t get enough of?

something that makes u love humans?

feel free to tag moots n make it a game :3

HIEE MAXX ( the carrot assasin )

1. Any form if Asain Noodle Soup ( slurp slurp )

2. River Flows In You - technically an instrumental but ehhhh

3. Raven - love em, my fav birds. Or maybe a red breasted robin. I read about them in The Secret Garden when I was a child nd had an inkling to them. Either of these :D

4. Lesbian flag - It's so pretty!! ( I may be biased ) another pick - Aroace flag - absolute banger

5. The citrusy notes of yellowed pages of an old book. Abd petrichor

6. ₹100 is less than a 1£ but I'll do it if the public has never seen me nd i don't get recorded.

7. An eye for an eye by alex nikol or Nothing New by Taylor Swift (ft. Phobe Bridgers ) or Kyoto by Phobe Bridgers or Fouth of July by Sufjan Stevens or No Suprises by Radiohead. Uhh I cry a lot ( it's an art )

8. Kisses by Tate McRae. Fucking despise it but oh my god, it never leaves my head.

9. Oohhh I love this question. We domesticated wolf-like creatures to dogs. Throughout civilization, fossil records show signs of healed femurs, something which is immposible without compassion and care. Cave paintings. The proclamation of I was here. We make art. We gathered around fires to tell stories and dance. We sculpt, we paint, we write, we read, we sing, we dance, we cook, we create, we love.

THIS WAS SO MUCH FUN. THANK YOUUUUU

1st tag - you ofcourse!!

@neil-perrys-reincarnation

Tags /nf

@lv3buzzz @sensationalstardust @wilsons-three-legged-siamese @take-me-to-the-rooftop15 @noctilucaa @joonof1989 @anhonest-puck

Whoever wants to join, can please do so!!

[mondstaub1]

hord fanfiction

Title haughtiness comes before the event

I am annoyed with Alicent so I made her suffer

Rhaenyra know Alicent like to judge others. She always had. Even as a little girl, the daughter of the hand had delighted in passing judgment over others, while painting herself and her only life as picture perfect, pouis and clean of all sin. Once they had sat in the gardens and talked about their futur husbands and how they should act. Alicent wanted a knight who would adore her. She would obey him and give him as manny children as he wished and he would defend them from harm. Rhaenyra herself did not like the idea of obeying a man and poping out babies. She wanted a man who would see her as his equal, who would put her safety and confort before that of any children they may have. She wanted to make her own choices. Alicent had laught and told her it was immposible and that women couldn't decided their own future. It was their duty to obey their husbands, if they wanted to be trieded well. Rhaenyra remembered looking at her in confusen before denying that. "My uncle Daemon says that as a true Dragon I don't have to bow down to anyone. He doesn't either." Alicent had scoffed and told her, that her uncle was a bad example and that she should not be around him so much. That had angered Rhaenyra and she had stormed off.

As the years passed Alicent became more hypocritical but Rhaenyra could not tell if her friend even noticed it herself. When she told her uncle about Alicents behavior he chuckeled and told her that Alicent was just like her father and that she should be careful. Those who snear at warriors often prefer the poisen. So the princess took his advice and when Alicent began to act strangly, she started to keep an close eye on her. Once she found out about Alicents visits to her fathers champers, late at night Rhaenyra was furious. She had trusted Alicent but that bitch betrayed her trust. So she begann to make a plan to ruin Alicents life. She know the pouis bitch better then most after all. She know all of Alicents dreams and would destroy each and ever one of them.

First she needed allies. This would be way more fun together. So she send a raven to Driftmark, inviding her cousins Laenor and Laena to court, under the excuse of getting to know her family better, which was not the complite reason but a good bonus. Once they arrived Rhaenyra brought them into the fold. The Velaryon siblings held somewhat of a grudge agaist the Hightowers. Since a while ago Laenor had been caught kissing a serving boy and Otto had used that to humiliat the boy for quiet a while. Spreding the word with the help of his oh so pouis daughter, who had the audacity to claim she just wanted to help Laenor find his way again. So naturely both were on board with her plan to bring Alicent down. Next was her uncle. It was easy to get him to return to court, a letter from her was all it took. Getting her father to let him stay was nearly as easy. A few tears and the plea for her family here to support her in this difficult time and her uncle was welcomed back. Seeing Ottos bitter face was just a bonus.

Together they planed. They had quiet a few very amusing ideas but her uncle had an more ruthless approch. Rhaenyra grinned. It was time to teach Alicent what happened when she played with fire.

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Alicent had always been an obiedent daugher. She had never believed herself jealous or sinvoll. But something about Rhaenyra had alway rubbed her the wrong way. The princess shricked her duty at every turn. Paraded herself around shamelessly yet got everything she wanted presented to her. The princess belived herself above everyone and most just went along with it. Maybe that was one of the reason why she found herself in this situation she was in right now. Naked laying on the kings bed, prepering herself to became queen and possible getting pregnet with the kings son. But bevor the ling could take her maidenhead the door purst open and an enraged Rhaenyra stormed into the room, follow by a smirking Daemon. The princess raged at her and the king. Calling her father out, screaming on how he dishonered her mothers memorys by sleeping with a whore so soon after the queens death. The she turned to her and started calling her every name under the sun. Before turning to her uncle and demanding that the get her out, so she could talk to her father alone. Daemon gladly agreed, ordering his loyal gold clocks to drag her to the stocks to be wipped for her disrespekt. Alicent pleaded with Rhaenyra to stop, the she turned to the king who protested weakly but when Rhaenyra gave her father an ultimatum, he fell silent.

So Alicent was dragged through the keep, naked as the day she was born, followed by a laughing Daemon Tagaryen, calling out her shame for all to hear. Everyone from small coucil members to servents wittnessed it. Alicent wanted to die.

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After everything was said and done, Rhaenyra had gotten her fathers word that he would not take on another wife and that she would be allowed to pick her own husband. Laena was made her new lady in waiting and Alicent was soon known through the seven kingdomes as a whore, who was found in a grieving mans bed (Laenor and Laena delighted in spreading the word). Her dreams of marrying a handsome man were distroyed and their would be no sibling to contest ehr claim to the throne.

[androidboy]

Unhelpful for you but for me this discussion has made me feel alot better about the dumpster fire of a summer fling ive got going on rn. You🤝me having to make a immposible choice between a relationship that youll maybe never be ready for or wait around for health that may never improve in time.

Its rough out here, sending supportive vibes

i’m glad me puttin everything out there had a positive effect for someone ❤️ we’re navigating some strange terrain

[hiimtracher]

Could you tell me something about Bebe? I like their design :]

Ok, so basically, Bebe is one of the biggest mysteries especially to Erick. You see, every souleater ever was created by Erick with him using the books spell called "shape life", but Bebe wasn't one of them he really just kinda appeared out of nowhere. Another mistery about Bebe is that he is a child, which should be immposible as souleters can't make children. And the last one is that he shouldn't have any powers but he does, as he isn't hurt by the daylight just like Max, and i say shouldn't becouse he has never eaten a soul before, and the first power comes with the first soul.

[confusedkittensposts]

Misha talks so fondly and softly about cas. all the appreciation and love we have for the angel he does too.

and I hate it when people take his credit away. castiel is an amazing character and Misha put his heart in him. Cas is so relatable because misha played him that way, the three episode role had a twelve years arc because of Him

even I don't agree with all the opinions misha has about cas, I have few different headcannons and my own versions, so do many other people and so does Misha. everyone has a right to have an opinion, Misha even more than us.I have seen people right nasty things because they don't like the approach Misha had in his mind while a scene. which is, I don't know why people think they have a say in it

you have bolgs based on that character, you use for art for edits and for your ships and then you can't take the credit away from the actor

J2 get away with setting cannon about their characters, but if it comes to Misha and castirl its suddenly a knife fight, to a point where Misha stopped talking about his opinions.

I love Castiel and I love Misha and there is soo much hate against them, it effects me.

I agree its almost immposible to agree with everything someone says or does and I know that no one is all good/flawless but just don't suddenly turn someone into a villian just because you don't agree with one of their opinions or they misspoke once.

and also neither Misha or Cas have done anything worng.

[walkingwiththegods1]

Pagan Misconceptions Clarified: Why Maat, is NOT "Only The Egyptian Goddess, that appears in The Weighing of The Heart; to decided if that Soul deserves The Eternal Life?!"

     Well... The answer?!... Is, Yes! (...And, No!)

     Maat, (Or, Ma'at) really is The Goddess that appears during that key event; according to The Book of Dead, BUT... Maat, have other functions as equally as important; as deciding the fate of the weighed souls.

     Maat, is too: The Goddess of Order and Balance, The Goddess of Harmony; The Goddess of Morality, The Goddess of Truth, and... The Goddess of Law and Justice!

     According to Wikipedia... Maat, is the daughter of Ra; that existed after the Beginning of Creation, and he put her in the place of Isfet; (Chaos) and since then, all the Pharaohs had to keep order and balance in the nation, to ensures the survival of the People; their Kingdom, and... Of Egypt. She is the wife of Thot, (The God of Wisdom, Knowledge and Magic; with the head of an Ibis) with which she have a daughter, called Seshat; and her cult, included her own temple in Menphis; a santuary in Karnak, and... She was venerated, in all the temples dedicated to other Gods and Goddesses; in all the cities of Ancient Egypt!

     And now... The other domains of Maat!

     The Goddess of Order and Balance: Without Order, only exists Chaos and Confusion, which will make immposible that we could make; even the most basics of tasks. And, without Balance; we could be living in a world where we will have too little or too much of anything we need: Clothing, Food; Water, Basic Services, Anomalies in Temperature the same day, More or Less Money for your job every month... Ancient Egyptians, got it: Without Order and Balance, Life will be very hard to live; and all around will be lacks of common sense; so this is one of the key importance of... The Goddess Maat!

     The Goddess of Harmony: And of course, the result of an ordered and balance world; is... Harmony: Everything is proporcionate, balanced; and in its ideal amount, in The Universe; The Earth, and... In Human's Life! Also, is relate to Peace and Understanding; between two or more people: Only with Harmony, can people in a nation get along together; to work for the common good, or at least; don't be wasting their energies in fighting to each other, when they should reserve the same to fight; side by side, against invaders... (Another reason of why is important, to keeps the favor of Maat!)

     The Goddess of Morality: For to keep Order, Balance; and Harmony in The Human World, The Goddess Maat created a set of rules of behaviour, called Morality: Is a set of costumes and norms that are taking as good, to directs or judge the behaviour of persons in a community; like for example, don't sleep with somebody that is already married with somebody else, which was in Ancient Egypt, one of the most grave things a person shouldn't never do; because he/she will losed the favour of The Gods, and... Of the whole society! Maat, is the one that demanded that every man or woman; in behave in a way that they doesn't cause harm to their community, or; to another person.

     The Goddess of Truth: This atribute of Maat, is very evident during the ceremony in The Egiptyan Underworld; (Duat) called, The Weighing of The Heart: When the recently deceased, enters into The Hall of Maat, the soul said all the wrongdoings he/she never committed in their life; and once was confirmed the soul is pure, the heart of the soul must be place in one plate; while in the other plate; is a Ostrich's Feather, that represents to Maat: The soul that was in the same level as the feather, or was lighter, Thot recorded the result; and will be presented to Osiris, which will admitted that soul, in The Kingdom of Osiris, and... Became an Immortal Soul! The ones which heart is heavier, well... Will have a fate, that is much worse; than Death!

     The Goddess of Law and Justice: Sometimes, it wasn't enough that Ancient Egyptians knew the moral codes; and try to be as honest as possible... Sometimes, people in Ancient Egypt transgressed the moral roles they learned since they were children; so, they had to they create laws to protect to the offended... And punishes to the offenders. The Law, is the set of rules established by a superior authority; than regulates in accordance to Justice, some aspect of the Social Relatioships. In equal way, it has to being created persons that persecute to offenders; (Ancient Armed Forces) to defend to the accuse to avoid being punished unfairly, (Lawyers) the one that defends that the offence made happened and has to be punished; (Prosecutor) someone that has to decided the luck of the accused, (Jugde) a group of people that are not judges but help to The Judge to takes the final decision, (A Jury) the appropiate procesing of all this, (Trial) people than may talks in favour or agaisnt the offender, or offended; (Witness) and... The place to makes The Trial, as long this may lasted. ( A Court)  All of this elements, ensured the application of The Law against the offenders; and avoid that innocent people ended in jail, or punished. For all of this, Maat was the one that presides everything related to Law; and/or Justice!

    Curious Fact: Some kings, added the name Maat into their own names; be it as a probe of devotion; or, as a way to show their seriousness in keeps order and balance on earth; day by day, and being called after this; as Lords of Ma'at, or... Beloved of Maat! In fact, when Hapshepsut; (One of the first female pharaohs) rised to power, she put herself the name of Maatkara before her own name; because Ancient Egiptians believed, that if a woman ruled Egypt; that would disrupt order and bringed chaos and destruction upon Egypt! (Funny: I thoughted, that cruel and corrupted rulers; civil wars, a climate of religious/social intolerance, famine, droughts; deadly rivalry inside royal families, losing wars against invaders, poor administration of The State, spending carelessly the money of your subjects; and constant attacks from States that are your enemies... Is what brings Chaos, and Destruction: ...How Silly of me!)

    Maat, keeps the harmony and equilibrium in the Cosmos; by regulating the movement of the stars, the seasons and the accions of mortals and deities alike; so... There you go: She is a Goddess with a great amount of power, if she can manage everything; from The Universe and Deities, than bringed order after chaos... Until the actions of Humanity!

    In conclusion: Maat, is one of the most important Goddesses in Ancient Egypt; and her relevance, goes beyond The Trial of The Souls; because, she was present too with The Ancient Egyptians; everyday of their lifes, while they were alive!

    This is all, about The Egyptian Goddess of Order and Balance, Harmony; Morality, Truth, Law, Justice; and... The Goddess of The Fair Trials, in this World; and in the next: Maat! 

Have a nice, harmonius and balanced Life; where you will be fairly judged... So Be It!

[ypipie]

even worse ouwld be if my evil shadow self. but we all know thatds immposible

[naleestakdrinkingteatilldeath]

TL;DR just nightly rambling

So... i've been trying to write this for the past 6 or 7 months...

Do anyone else have this... feeling of been unconfortable to share almost anything personal in a post? in any platform? I just...

I'm capable of reposting, it's... easier (for the lack of a better word), but just if i filter it, for example, i post different things in ig, in twitter and in tumblr, it's like when you put your family persona, your work persona, the friends one, and so on.

Yes, it is correlated to the fact that my family follows me on some of them, or that i only open some apps in their presence.

But even outside of that! i'm more... real, personal, here in tumblr than in my twitter where i'm followed only by 2 really close friends, but here...

Look, nobody that knows me irl follows my tumblr, i know, i checked, but even then i'm pretty scared? anxious? of posting. i've been trying to corrrect that, i've been making posts on twitter (never posted before, only rt) of certain opinions or interests i have, that many people know about, so they are kinda... safe?... But at the end of the day i'm looking at my phone at 3-5 am feeling anxious and frustrated about it, and wanna delete it, but i know that not sharing is bad and is nothing really personal and...

I've been feeling pretty bad lately, i idk where the nerve of writing this come from, but a few hours ago i felt that i had to do this and is like i dont want to but at the same time is like is i stop rn i'll never get there and have been writing and rewriting this once twice thrice and so on and i just dont know now how to stop this part cuz i feel like if i even correct it it's gonna be worse... but i barely remenber english grammatic in the moment i write cuz is my second language, but fuck, it'll be REALLY imposible to get this on spanish, cuz i'm unable to think of myself seriouly in my own language in my own head.

i mean feelings? in my mother lenguage? immposible.... imm? im? whatever if i stop now i won't get there.

So... i left this without posting about 2 or so hours ago... i needed something warm and went for some tea... and got distracted. i don't think correcting the above would do justice to the fact that i was finally CAPABLE of putting it down, but i have to add to it.

I never got to the point, it's just that it feels WRONG to share personal things to me, even in a platform where i'm not popular, no body knows me really, and i engage in another language

It's a little more... complicated that what i put down, but i lack the words to explain it clearly

Since already decided to share, should i ask people for opinion? or just let it there? it's weird to just post, even more without expecting some kind of... answer? idk, never done this before

i feel like i should know what to do in this case, i'm an adult.

[goma123]

MOM STOP BEING ANXIOUS AND START YELLING AT ME AND PUTTING PRESSURE ON ME CHALLENGE IMMPOSIBLE