#impeding doom

[hum-tittle]

I have OCD, and I don’t think there are a lot of great media examples. So, I am going to post examples as I find them! Also, if you find any examples, please share!!

First it is important to understand what exactly OCD is. OCD is an anxiety disorder with a cycle. It starts with consistent intrusive/unwanted thoughts. (Everyone experiences intrusive thoughts but people with OCD it is much more intense and frequent. I personally have multiple a day.) Now intrusive thoughts are anxiety inducing thoughts. These thoughts are things you do not want to do/happen. People confuse intrusive thoughts with impulsive thoughts Impulsive thoughts are things you may have some desire to do and do not trigger anxiety. Both kinda “pop” in your head but are very different. Wanting to flip someone off for cutting you off is impulsive while running your car off a cliff is an intrusive thought.

Intrusive thoughts aren’t always a specific action either, it can sometimes just be a feeling or a memory. I deal with “impending doom” now and again, it is awful.

The next part is the fear and anxiety being too much from the intrusive thought and they keep thinking about it, or the obsession.

This is where we get to the visible part of the cycle, the compulsion. Compulsion can look so different and sometimes you can’t even tell. (Also everyone can have compulsions!). Someone double checking the door is locked seems totally normal to the outside, but in their mind if they don’t double check it someone will break in and kidnap their family and it will be all their fault because they didn’t double check the lock, even if they know they locked it, what if someone unlocked it, or the lock is broken, or they’re crazy and never locked it.

The compulsion does help self soothe but is usually temporary. If the obsession is still there, this can cause the compulsions to become more extreme. Getting really sick> intrusive thoughts of getting sick again> excessive hand washing (cleaning them to the point of bleeding)> relief> compulsion is no longer helping> agoraphobia (fear of leaving their home)

Here are some graphics to help understand!

Anyways I am also writing a musical about this and will share about it when it's closer to being done!

Graphic sources

https://www.ocddoodles.com/shop/p/the-ocd-cycle-digital-print-clinic-use

https://calocd.com/pure-o-ocd-2/

[sealimpredicativity]

O, lord... 'Tis but a sign of imminent doom.

They are upon us; creatures of flesh and marrow, but devoid of any miserable remnant of benevolence.

Grins and googly eyes permeate the snow, laying in wait for a minimal slip in concentration.

Only death could bring salvation from this nightmare...

[andhumanslovedstories]

I try to answer other people’s call lights if I’m not busy, because if my work is done and I’ve helped out with other people’s work, I can fully commit to slacking off guilt free. And usually what people want is bathroom, snacks, and/or pain meds, all of which are pretty easy to address and if there’s anything too complicated, I can always call the nurse. Anyway, I go answer this call light, and it’s for a patient I don’t know and have never spoken to before. I pop in like “hi can I help you?” as I feel so quietly smug about how Helpful I am being, and the patient goes, “do you know if I’m dying tonight? If I am, I should call my family.”

To be so clear. I was expecting like. a request for a ginger ale. I was not prepared emotionally for a very sick stranger grappling with the angst of potentially imminent death. So I go, “UMMM. I DON’T KNOW. LEMME CHECK WITH YOUR NURSE AND SEE IF SHE KNOWS.” This seemed heinously inadequate in the face of their obvious despair, so I added, “probably not in the next ten minutes if you’re able to sit up and ask, but I can’t make any promises.”

Don’t think that was the ideal follow up sentence. But it didn’t seem to make the patient any sadder than they already were. I used to really live in fear of being the nurse in someone’s anecdote about a wildly inappropriate thing said to them by their nurse. It’s not so much as I’ve gotten over that fear as I’ve accepted that my job thrusts me into a lot of situations where I have to talk about extremely intense topics to the people most intimately affected by those topics, often with no time, no prep, and no information. At this point, I just try my best to ground my inarticulate fumblings in as much genuine care as I can express, and thank God I don’t fuck up worse and more often.

[bawlawr]

stupid 2

[metanarrates]

watched a majora's mask analysis earlier today with my fiancee. my verdict is that I actually really enjoyed the op's interpretations, but that I wished that they talked more about mm's literal level and what one can get from it, rather than talking about those events as if they are strictly metaphor. yes, of course the metaphorical layer of the game is rich to dig into, but it's also such an open-ended and surreal game that it's difficult to nail down every single distinct metaphor that can be derived from its events. which is why I consider it necessary to discuss the way the literal layer presents itself and what sort of motifs and ideas exist there as a baseline before you begin looking at it as metaphor

[buonaseranatasha]

Finally Gwen and Alice worked it out on the remix <3

[zaine-the-cat-meme-generator]

[purrfectlycontent]

i just made the worst discovery

[bluecoolr]

Couldn't stop thinking about his Murica jacket

[creamo-for-primo]

happy 'impeding sense of doom' saturday everyone :)

[silentalltheseyearsnomore]

omg braaaaainnnn

she is married

she doesnt even live in this country right now!!!

she is MARRIED

stopppppp crushycrushing!!!!!

[drewlyyours]

MAYBE THEY WEREN'T HIRING NANCY

[eeveegay]

so today we are out of groceries and really need to buy stuff but like hm my health kind of sucks and I cant stop crying lol i could barely get out of bed tbh

but then guess what happened?

THE loudest rainstorm, farelos is terrified the poor thing (i kind of am too but im putting on a brave face for her)

i guess its good we didnt leave?

[marciliedonato]

Can't wait to wake up and get straight up blasted into the fourth dimension instantly by the sheer cuntiness of new Gimages....

[faggotcitosis]

the critiques of the usamerican dream and how it relies on cheap underpaid labor to exist are all very valid and real, of course. but i personally feel like people see this as an inherent characteristic of western nations when it's like, a direct result of globalization? the reason we also have stuff in the global south is because chinese workers are being ground up and worked extensively hard, vietnamese seamstresses are being ripped off and paid pennies, children in ivory coast are forced to pick cocoa beans, etc...

the entire current consumption model is propped upon absurd human rights abuse that is not sustainable now, wasn't back then and will not be in the future because that's the only way to justify the extremely low wages (+ extremely low cost of items). we got used to things being "cheap", so when we look at an item at face value and see how much it actually costs we refuse to accept the reality of it - and most of us cannot afford a sustainable ethically made item either

and if you try to do things "right", you cannot reasonably compete in the market. a sustainable white shirt in 2019 was costing around 40$ versus a fruit of the loom 10 pack white shirt from walmart costing you less than half of that

[undergiants]

Ah manic episode, hello, how are you nice to see you? How ya doing, buddy? Look, I don't mind your presence all that much, but can we chill a little on the paranoia part. Thanks babes 😘