#in case anyone wanted to know how their pronouns worked? tho you could also just use they/them if the neos are confusing lol

[torgwn]

something i made last month (id in alt)

pronouns are xe/xem/xyr or xey/xem/xyr or they/them

[autisticwizardwritings]

HI HI HI HI HI :D

Can i get a total drama request about the contestants meeting Chris’ niece/nephew(gender neutral tho) preferably for world tour but any are good :)

Thamk you!!! :3

(Wasn't sure if you wanted younger, same age, or older, so I'm doing all three. If you want ALL of them, tell me! I just did these 3 for now since they're the only new appearances in World Tour, but I'd be happy to write more of the cast! I say it at the end too, but if you want this written in a proper paragraph style too I'd be more than happy to try to do so, just let me know!!)

Probably OOC 💔

Alejandro, Sierra, and Blaineley meeting Chris’s niece/nephew (no pronouns mentioned) (gn)

Younger (8-12)

Alejandro:

Extremely confused

Also fairly concerned

Why would Chris bring his own niece/nephew on this show at such a young age?

Even if they aren't competing. Should they really be seeing this sort of thing?

After finding out you're not part of the competition, he relaxes a little bit.

Apparently you're here because your mom/dad had to go on some big work trip, and since you were so young, you couldn't be left alone for that long.

Convinced that your parents don't watch the show, because no responsible parent would allow their child in that

Probably tries to talk to you, to get to know you.

Maybe even ends up seeing you as some sort of sibling after a while.

Will defend you if anyone else (*cough* Duncan *cough*) decides to be an asshole

Genuinely cares about you.

How can someone so sweet be related to *that?*

If you're a trouble child however

Makes sense how you're related to Chris

Still makes an effort to be nice to you considering you're only a child

Little minds are influenced by family, they can't help it.

Does tend to keep his distance more though

Probably pulled his hair at some point and that was it for him

Always ponytails it if you're there now.

Either way, if you get hurt somehow, he'd help.

Again, you're only little.

Even if you're 12. 

A little less worried in that case, since you're old enough to kinda look out for yourself

But still makes sure you're alright.

Sierra:

She already knew of your existence. 

Found your mom's Facebook page for info on Chris

Found you there too

Doesn't question the fact that you're here

Immediately wants to become friends with you

Probably smothers you with hugs

Suuuuper friendly

Constantly saying stuff like "Chris your niece/nephew is so sweet" even if you're basically the devil himself

"They could do no wrong ♡"

She's doing it because she genuinely thinks this, but also partially because she wants some "brownie points" or whatever the fuck they're called

Also trying to prove to Cody that she can "be a good mom."

He apologizes for her

If she wins a reward challenge, she'll 100% share whatever it is with you if it's child friendly

Even if you're getting the same good food as your uncle

Will make you dolls out of anything she can

And will want to play with them with you

Blaineley:

A child? Really?

What was Chris thinking?

No one wants to see a child on a show like this

Not to mention the grubby little hands

Doesn't want anything to do with you

Or she makes it seem like that, anyways.

If you get time where it's just the two of you, she's actually surprisingly nice.

Genuinely good with kids

Treats you like her own child

As soon as someone walks in she's back on the other side of the room glaring at you

Will deny this until she dies

If she finds out the fans like you 

Then she starts acting all nice and buddy-buddy on camera too

Not very genuine though

It's just like that when she knows she won't get poked fun of for it

Same age as (still younger than Blaineley)

Alejandro:

Couldn't really care less tbh

Another contestant

Another obstacle

For now

Still makes the effort to talk to you, to make you like him

Like he does with everyone there

The more allies the better right?

May possible try to woo you

With the idea in mind to get you eliminated

There's a possibility he does come to genuinely like you over time

But he'd never admit that

(Platonically or romantically depends on how you wanna read this)

Keeps you around for a little while after

Really not a fan of you at first though

Mainly because you're related to Chris

Who wouldn't?

With the reputation that man has, he's got every right to assume you're like he is

Hopefully that's wrong

If it is? Like I said, definitely starts to genuinely care for you

Actually tries to befriend you

Not just an alliance 

Not just for a scheme

Maybe a little schemey 

But not only for that.

If you ARE like Chris?

Not a fan of you then.

The whole robot thing hasn't happened yet since this is World Tour

But even then

He knows what an ass Chris is

That's an understatement

Really doesn't like you that much

But he still makes the effort to "befriend" you

Just to get rid of you, of course.

(Cannot write for this man to save my life, sorry if this is absolute dogshit)

Sierra:

Again, already knew about you.

Very excited to meet you, too!

She's the self proclaimed Total Drama Superfan, she HAS to know everything about you!!

Talks your ears off

All with good intention of course

She is absolutely ECSTATIC

You know in those cartoons where they shake someone's hand extremely excited and they just. It's almost violent

Yeah

Like that

That's how she shakes your hand when you're first brought on the show

I'd imagine you weren't brought immediately

Because like

Idk

I have no proper reason

Just for funsies

Before any proper eliminations 

(But after Zeeke's)

But yeah!!

Her Cody obsession is… off-putting to say the least

You stay away from her, or at least keep your distance at first

She keeps talking to you, being all friendly

And if you're not too scared of her

Then you guys could become friends!

If you keep talking to her on your own without keeping any distance?

Makes every day so much better for her

Probably used to people being weirded out by her

So you actually talking to her because you GENUINELY LIKE her? 

Bouncing off the WALLS

A friend! Yay!

Obviously Cody is still her #1 priority

But if you prove yourself, she miiiight let you in on a couple group hugs

Maybe

Blaineley:

Doesn't give a shit

Just like the younger version

But without the sweet bonding time

Doesn't like you very much

Might put on her fake little buddy-buddy act to stay on the good side of the media

Since you're probably "great for the ratings" 

Being related to Chris and all

Idk what else to put for her sorry

Older than them (17-19) (STILL younger than Blaineley)

Alejandro:

..why are you here?

Probably assumes you're an intern at first

Or here to help run challenges/watch them

If you're in the challenges, he finds it to be unfair

You're older, probably taller and smarter, and he's CONVINCED Chris is giving you some sort of advantage

Still does his whole thing

But like. Not romantically.

If you're not in the competition?

VERY confused as to why you're here

You're not competing, but you're still back in the plane with them?

It just doesn't make sense to him

You're probably there to help out with challenges

If you're 17, and I'd assume still in high school, you might be there for volunteer hours or something

Since you're probably not getting paid either way /hj

Might attempt a flirting thing once or twice (if you're not older than 17)

Probably doesn't do shit though

Sierra:

Genuinely have no idea what to put here I'm just repeating myself

Again, already knows who you are

Basically just like the second one but more "respectful" (not really) 

Blaineley would've probably been suuuuper boring (even worse than her "same age" (technically still younger) one) so I didn't include it.

I'm sorry this is so shit lmao I'll probably try redoing it as a proper paragraph written fic/one-shot instead of this. That'll probably make it better. If you want that, please tell me so I can start it soon!! xx

[juannaflippa]

random total drama reboot sexuality headcanons (made these while listening to laufey)

priya is pan, she just kinda knew she loved any and all genders. demiromantic, falls in love at first sight but always thinks twice about if its a crush or not (it never is). uses she/they. scared to tell her parents

millie gives lesbian tbh, never felt attraction to a guy. had crushes on girls and always brushed them off until she was like wait. holy darn i'm gay what the flip okay. also demiromantic, just like, never has crushes but knows she can

julia's bi. idk she just like, likes girls. she's never dated a girl but she lowk wants to, never told anyone

hear me out. mk, aromantic. always joked about how she was too busy with her tech to be into romance, then she realized she wasn't joking. also lesbian and nonbinary

nichelle is THE closet lesbian my god, straight on air but lesbian off set. got caught on a date with a girl once and literally had to make a whole 10 page insta slide explanation (everyone skimmed it, no one even cared, literally everyone still thought she was still straight UNTIL she made the post.)

axel is just so lesbian to me idk. her and ripper get together in season two tho so idk but i still live by the lesbian hc tbh

scary girl is just. scary. idk man she's not a girl or boy they are just an essence. unlabeled, asexual, probably uses any pronouns because as long as you're scared she don't care

emma is so transfem to me she is just a trans girl trust me. she's also bisexual and uses she/they. chill about telling people she's bi, but doesn't really bring up that she's trans unless she trusts you

raj is obviously gay. felt more free when he realized. lowk forced himself to have crushes on girls to fit in, like just thought you could choose someone and be like "yup ur my crush now"

wayne is either the BIGGEST straight ally ever or aroace. idk he just gives aroace vibes to me, also faked crushes. raj and wayne would LOWK be jealous of eachother for actually having crushes on girls ☠️

bowies gay of course. always just kinda knew, very very open about it. get's bullied for it sometimes but he doesn't care (the other person always get BODIED by his insults if bowie feels like it)

damien is transmasc and bi, pretty open about it. he doesn't mind telling people cause he doesn't care if they hate him for it. always shocks people when he comes out, he finds it funny

chase is so transmasc oh my god he has literally never told anyone and he is scared to. also the HARDEST bisexual closet case my god

zee idkk like maybe genderfluid bisexual asexual and uses any pronouns.

ripper is an on the low bisexual. wants to held by a MAN

anddd caleb idk probably straight ally

non sexuality related but

emma listens to laufey!

emma and chase havent come out to eachother about being trans. emma told chase about being bisexual and chase just kind of ghosted her for a few days

raj is autistic and wayne has adhd

damien listens to tyler, the creator

axel is def hispanic, she got that puerto rican blood in her i swear

damien got snake bite piercings

chase still payed for all of emmas subscriptions after they broke up ☠️

chase was buying tampons for emma and deadass asked her "babe what size yo pussy". she blocked and ghosted him for a good week

emma is an avid minecraft player, lowk got chase into it (they had a hardcore world for THREE YEARS and chase got them killed by a creeper when they were making a bakery for emma because he SWORE emma was paranoid for wanting to wear armor)

bowie used to be a track kid

emma tried to go vegan for like a week before she quit

damien is probably autistic

chase used to work at one of those kiosks at the mall that sell shitty overpriced sunglasses

priya has watched total drama more times than she can count. her parents didn't let her watch any other shows until she could memorize all the lines to island, action, and world tour if she was LUCKY

chase is a kpop stan

that's it. that's the post. same time next week guys???

[cebwrites]

hey! i'm a gnc trans gay dude who uses she/her and recently ive been feeling kinda insecure about it like im faking or something 💔 also im tired of pretending fem she/her reader is about me. can i get hcs/scenarios of law, zoro, yamato, and one other character of your choice bragging about their gnc pronoun nonconforming boyfriend? only if you're comfortable ofc

dw pronoun anon we champion gnc transmasc solidarity in this house, fuck yeah expression doesn’t equal gender 🤝🤝 admittedly i've never used neos or interacted with anyone who does before so here's my preemptive apologies if i mess up ;0;

oh also i changed the limit of characters from 4 to 3 a while ago, just updating for anyone who isn't aware! :] love this all trans lineup tho 🤭

bragging about their boyfriend who doesn't use he/him pronouns (Law, Zoro, Yamato)

he/they law, trans zoro  reader’s pronouns: they/them, she/her, it/it's, ey/em/eir, ve/vis word count: 0.6k

Law

Being a he/they bitch himself, there’s no way in hell that Law would ever question your pronoun usage and anyone who does is getting their head swapped with their ass

He’s hardly the braggy type though, mostly leaving that to the chorus of his crew to pick on if you ever needed some extra support - of course, not a single one of them would bat an eye at it, either

They do, however, make a concerted effort to use your chosen pronouns more when Law gets a hint that you’re feeling out of it

“Tell ey to bring these to my office later,”

“It’s their turn on dish duty today, don’t let them out of it,”

“This is eirs, right? Toss it in the wash,”

All just slightly within earshot and casual conversation - once the captain starts, the rest of the crew is sure to follow, too

They don’t mean to be obvious, but the moment the Heart Boys (genderless) are tipped off that you aren’t feeling too hot, you’ll also be accosted here and there throughout your slump to conveniently do all the things you loved or at least enjoyed in their company 

Even your partner themself is a little bit more cuddly in private during that crummy self-doubt day or week, not that he’d ever mention it, but that’s neither here nor there

Zoro

Zoro’s a bit (a lot) confused as far as neo pronouns go, but he’s got the spirit 

He’s as transmasc as the next feral swordsman you’d find on the Grand Line, but pronouns have never really been a thing that he’s had to put too much thought into (in Zoro’s mossy brain: he/him is typically used for guys, so he’ll use he/him because he’s a guy, easy)

Zoro knows that’s not the case for you, though, so he’ll make adjustments to his vernacular accordingly

He slips up every now and again grammar-wise, using the wrong subject and possessive forms here and there, but it’s nothing that a quick correction can’t fix - he’s always at least a little guiltily pouty too, so you can’t really stay mad at him, honestly

Bragging, though, is an artform that Zoro is clearly familiar with

“In your dreams, Swirly, I’m clearly going to win because ve has my back!” (”Oh? So it’s not your own power then, Mossy?” //insert loud queer squabbling)

“Hmph, its MY boyfriend and it could kick your asses any day!”

“Doesn’t matter, this is vis and cause we’re dating I get half a dibs, ve’s a lot cooler than you all anyway,” (”That’s really not how that works, Zoro”)

A lot of these brags have to do with your power, forgive him, Zoro’s a very simple man-

There’s a very minor learning curve that some of the other Strawhats have to adapt to, too, but again it’s no real issue after the first week or so

Yamato

Yams is your BIGGEST cheerleader, he’ll bulldoze ignorant assholes out of the way for you and howl about how great you are and how much he loves you from the highest rooftop without even asking

He’s 100% supportive of your decisions and won’t stand for anyone who doesn’t (if you don’t want to cause a scene you may have a little trouble holding him back or have to discuss it with him beforehand because Yamato absolutely will call someone out on their bullshit when he sees it)

Sometimes you even get a little flustered or overwhelmed with the intensity and vigor that he supports you (very much the ’guns blazing’ type) but it’s all with an endearing air and the knowledge that Yamato only wants your best interest at heart

“Have you met her? She’s my boyfriend!”

“My boyfriend’s so handsome today, isn’t she handsome everyone?? <3″

“I love my she/her boyfriend!!! She’s so fucking HOT!!” [yelled from the tallest building in the Flower Capital]

Yamato is so embarrassing and openly affectionate the Akazaya are sick and tired of him, someone PLEASE leash this puppy and take him home, preferably away from them

[theovergrowth]

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER. REPOST DO NOT REBLOG !!

NAME: Rob/Robert/Robbie

PRONOUNS: He/Him

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION: I like DMs through tumblr, it’s kinda the only way to contact me for RP lmao

NAME OF MUSE(S): Titus Macrides (aka The Overgrowth)

RP EXPERIENCE/HOW LONG (MONTHS / YEARS?): uhmmm since about 2015 so like 7 years almost??

PLATFORMS YOU’VE USED: Tumblr mainly, discord in the old days, and irl if we count DnD sessions

BEST EXPERIENCE: Hard to say, but I think it would be when I was in high school, I did a few shippy threads with my mad scientist character and a kinda rough around the edges mean character who was nice to her. It made me really happy to write!

RP PET PEEVES/DEALBREAKERS: if you’re a pro-shipper I get kinda uncomfortable. I’ve seen lots of real-life cases of incest or pedophilia, being from a small rural town. I’ve seen lives ruined, so it just upsets me to see people using those in positive or “fun” lights. Also, if you don’t read my rules page or if you try to guilt-trip me into replying more often I’ll be very put-off.

FLUFF, ANGST OR SMUT: I like fluff a lot. Something about making characters who are really fucked up by the world finding people who are compassionate and understanding is really appealing. Angst is also good, but I like there to be a bit of positivity in my angst plots. Our characters against the world;;;; I can’t really do smut?? That could change someday tho

PLOTS OR MEMES: ok so here’s the thing. I love memes. I prefer memes. But I am always so scared of overstepping or boring rp partners that I end up plotting lmao

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES: somewhere in the middle?? I usually just try to match length

BEST TIME TO WRITE: when I’m at work lmao. I also like doing replies while watching TV on my weekends! Tbh, I like doing Titus’ replies while watching king of the hill because it makes his accent really clear in my mind.

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S): in a way! Titus and I are around the same age, we both live lifestyles that involve lots of travel and moving around, we both live in the wilderness, we both feel like there’s a horrible monster inside of us that can only leave a trail of destruction. Like father like son (even tho he’s a year older than me rn)

Tagged by Stolen From: @scxrytxles

Tagging: Anyone who wants it but pls tag me so I can read your answers!!

[macaxie]

Timeline moments (Flo ver!)

(OC interactions have a / surrounding each sides /example text/ )

IMPORTANT!

Flo was a experimental creation by LBD in an attempt to create 'a loyal servant' before LBD was trapped in that box thing. But something screwed up and Flo ended up getting freedom and a big case of amnesia (doesnt remember LBD).

Flo no longer lived anywhere but china.

Instead of being just an axolotl demon, Flo is an axolotl dragon hybrid demon.

Flo still has water magic and is a mess with it, he also still lost an arm but it was probably due to being a fool. The arm is replaced with a water one.

Due to still being LBDs creation, she can control them, not too much but still control. (But yes when possessed!SWK in S3 happens Flo gets more control over themself, but we'll get there when we get there)

Flo's chill with any pronouns

S1

This is when Flo first meets everyone.

In the intro episode:

Flo meets everyone while theyre trying to train with their magic and accidentally does a water warp straight into Mk while Mk was training with SWK /also Kito being there/.

Flo introduces himself and Mk is like

"WOAHHHH WATER POWERS?! THATS SO COOL!"

And offers to introduce Flo to all his other friends :D

Main character arc during the season:

Becoming everyones friend ig? And just, learning that others wont hate you for being a screw up with ya magic?

A character focused S1 episode but with Flo (that isnt the intro episode) would probably be about:

Flo working with Mk, Mei, /and Kito/ to finally master his water warp ability!

S2

Flo gets a small little crush on uh

Shhhh dont tell anyone

Its Mk

Shhh

Main character arc during the season:

While she doesnt know that the feelings shes feeling towards Mk is love, they slowly figure it out tho (doesn't confess tho)

A S2 character focused episode for Flo would be about:

Mei helping Flo to feel less insecure about their missing arm and focus on having fun

S3 (oh boy the big one)

OKI SO remember when I said LBD has some control over Flo? Haha yeah, LBD basically kidnaps Flo in ep 1 of the season so that she could force Flo to 'help' Macaque hunt down Mk and the gang.

There are some times when during some kind of confrontation with the gang, Flo manages to push back LBD for a bit and yells at the gang to run away because he really doesnt wanna hurt them.

Also, when LBD has total control of Flo, hes not a fool with his magic and instead is a master of his magic.

Main character arc during the season: UH WELL he sorta mind controlled for the season so uh Ig, getting his freedom back?

Finale:

O boi

Oki so, with possessed!Wukong going on and taking more power, LBD has less control over Flo, but just barely enough to keep them doing what she wants.

Mk /and Kito/ use this to their benefit and go and attempt to get Flo back.

Flo immediately jumps to fight upon seeing the two, Kito is the main one that fights back while Mk tries to figure out how to kick out LBD for good.

After realising what might work, Mk yells for /Kito/ to retreat, Mk runs towards Flo with no fear and hugs him.

Flo doesnt respond, instead freezing up. And then uh, this bits a little cheesy but its cute, Mk (who also had a crush on Flo) gently kisses Flo on the cheek and reassures him that no matter what he loves him.

And that certainly breaks Flo free from LBDs control.

Character relations:

Mk - love, romance, little crush, *kissy sounds*, yes they are dating now shut up

Mei - Like siblings

Tang - alright

Pigsy - also just alright, doesnt like his noodles tho (not bc the noodles are bad no no, Flo just doesnt like food in general)

Sandy - pretty cool

Redson - I feel like Red is just a little bit afraid of Flo bc water beats fire

Swk - never really believes that Wukong knows what hes doing

Macaque - chill with eachother, neither of them wanted to serve LBD afterall

LBD - Hate hate HATE

/Kito - Friendsssss amazing friends :D /

/Yina - Also friends :] /

UwU

[retroaria]

BIPOLAR READER HEADCANONS

cc: dream team!!

pronouns: gender neutral

warnings: obviously mentions of bipolar disorder and mental illness, this was a request but if anyone wants me to take this down i absolutely will.

here’s my masterlist ^o^

george:

i feel like george would actually be able to handle both depressive and manic states pretty well

he’d be down to just lay in bed all day and comfort you but he’d also try his best to keep up with you in manic states

he’s a great listener and talking to him about things is so easy for you

i think he would be the quickest to get used to it out of all of them

just wants to make sure you’re happy and content as much as possible. he’s a sweet little understanding boy :3

sapnap:

sapnap would be a little unsure of what to do at first and how the best way to be there for you is especially during depressive episodes

eventually with your help he’s able to handle both manic and depressive states pretty well :)

for him, he really just sees it as a part of you and if he loves you than he loves all of you ya know :]

would absolutely stop everything to make sure you’re ok

always right there if you need him, great at being a supportive bf

dream:

he’s a bit stubborn so i think he would jump into it thinking he would be totally fine and because he loves you it would be easy to handle

gets really upset seeing you in depressive states :(

eventually he realizes that even tho he’s upset you’re the one going through it so he has to be there for you

tries his absolute hardest, definitely puts in the most work out of all of them but it’s because he had a harder time getting the hang of things

protective boy to the max, if anyone tries to say anything that could hurt you he would defend you in a heartbeat

i hope this is good :] i don’t have bipolar disorder but i did look some stuff up in order to write this!!

once again, if anyone (more specifically the requester!!!) wants me to take this down i absolutely will. just in case i got everything wrong or it felt offensive in anyway.

LET ME KNOW!!! i’d rather be educated than leaving one of my readers uncomfortable. i love you all so much and i would never ever want to do that :(

MUCH LOVE. STAY SAFE. BYEEEE.

@fantasy-innit @joyfullymulti @k-l-a-w-s @crackityy

[fyodorsteacupblood]

Bsd yandere headcannons (ADA edition)

(S/o= significant other,

Gender neutral pronouns aswell)

There will be spoilers for anyone early into the show-

tw- kidnapping, murder, stalking and general yandere stuff

Dazai Osamu:

ADA Dazai is a little less likely to be a Yandere than PM Dazai though they would be very similar

ADA Dazai would most likely be less unhinged

I'd imagine ADA Dazai taking his s/o to work with him so that he can keep an eye on them, though he keeps them on a tight leash(not litteraly-)

he'd probably just be very protective due to what happened with Oda and he's most likely got some insecurity deep down about how he's "not very human" and how he baisicly thinks his s/o would leave him for someone "more human" though that's most likely not the case

PM Dazai is very likely to kidnap his s/o due to his career(yknow mafia things🙄)

I think that ADA Dazai might try to manipulate his s/o into living with him if they don't ask to early on, honestly I think that's the furthest he'd go about it since he seems like he wouldn't want his s/o to hate his guts

tho both ADA and PM Dazai will be stern with creating and enforcing rules ;-;

In terms of affection its pretty obvious that Dazai would be all over his s/o so they better like being touched-

PM Dazai won't hesitate to have a "talking to" with anyone who looks at his s/o too much for his liking, these "talks" end with said person in a ditch

ADA Dazai would just shoot them a glare and causally touch his s/o as much as possible-

He would probably find his s/o in the most random place and be like: I want that one 😋 and then proceeds to go and stalk you

Yosano Akiko:

With the amount of shopping she does I'd assume that she would spoil her s/o rotten(only if they have behaved ofc🙄)

shes also not exactly unhinged, just a little sadistic

Like ADA Dazai she would also manipulate her s/o into moving in with her

She would enforce her rules alot ofc that depends on how troublesome her s/o is

I can imagine her being very affectionate too

She would probably find her s/o in a shop and fall in love instantly, she'd then follow them home and start stalking them

She also might tell her s/o that they have some kind of illness and that they better stay by her side so that they don't die or something

like her s/o would tell her that they have a headache or something and Yosano would pull a google and be like: omg darling your dying😟

I'm not sure if she would go as far as murder for her s/o, after all she is a member of the ADA, so she would simply "rough them up a little"

If anyone looked at her s/o the wrong way she would probably just stare at them coldly and raise an eyebrow

Overall she wouldn't be that bad of a yandere to have, unless her s/o isn't obedient.

Doppo Kunikida:

It would take a looonngg time before he becomes a yandere for his s/o

He wouldn't fall in love at first sight, seeing as he has so much criteria for his dream s/o

First he would pick out someone who has the physical appearance of his dream s/o and then awkwardly slide into their life

He would then take his time getting to know them and then see if they fit all of his criteria

If they do then he will start in his romantic pursuit

His s/o would probably find it adorable/funny due to how formal he is about it

He would become a yandere while trying to develope a romantic connection with his s/o

Once he wins them over he would politely suggest that they move in with him

His reasoning is that they could spend more time with each other and that his job can put them in danger

He would show his yandere tendencies a little at a time so that he can ease his s/o into his rules

He would make a strict routine for his s/o to follow daily

Or else they will get his famous lectures

He is the kind of person to only express affection privately

If anyone looked at his s/o the wrong way he would probably have the same reaction as Yosano

Also he wouldn't physically hurt anyone for his s/o, I just can't see him getting violent easily, he might just lecture the person until their soul leaves their body

Overall he's a very mild Yandere, he'd more or less be the "I need to know everything about you darling😊" kind of yandere

Edogawa Ranpo:

This man has a superiority complex, this means that he will most likely demand affection/attention from his s/o

Oh and due to his deduction skills he will know every single little lie his s/o tells

Since he's a man who practically lives at his job his s/o most likely works there

He would pay extra attention to them

And he would pull some strings to make sure that his s/o goes with him to his cases

Since he's not able to navigate public transport (cough cough trains cough cough) He makes sure that another member of the ADA suggests that s/o should go with him

I can see him planting tracker's and secret camera's on his s/o, it would would be done very subtly

He would check up on you every now and again this way and just munch on his snacks while watching you😋

By "very subtly" I mean him putting it on his s/o while clinging to them like a little kid

There is no way in hell that he'd confess to having any romantic feelings for his s/o

He would much rather manipulate them into loving him and then make them confess on the spot

He would then insist that his s/o move in with him because "we're together now so we should spend as much time as we can together😌"

Just like Dazai this man would be all over his s/o and want them to be all over him

He doesn't necessarily have "rules" it's more just "listen to me because I'm the best detective to ever walk this earth😊"

If anyone looks at his s/o for roo long give them affection right then and there because why not?

Like Kunikida he wouldn't hurt anyone physically he would simply overpower them with his words until the person begs him for mercy

Overall he doesn't really harm his s/o he more or less just manipulates them

Nakajima Atsushi:

He's more on the "I won't let anyone hurt you, your my reason to live, I love you so much" kind of yandere

Baisicly he's overprotective and suffocates you with his love🙂

He would also know his s/o from work, like he probably thought they were kind and attractive so he would get all flustered around them

He would ask his s/o if they needed anything/any help

He would also daydream about his s/o and end up staring at them-

His s/o probably confronts him about him being nervous around them and he ends up caving in and confessing

If s/o says yes then they automatically move in with him

He seems like he'd be too nervous to show physical affection for the first month or so

He also doesn't have rules he just starts making his s/o paranoid due to his constant "don't do this or else this will happen" etc etc

If anyone looks at his s/o the wrong way he would probably give them a little glare and squeeze his s/o's hand tight

He wouldn't hurt anyone physically or mentally, this boy is too nervous for that

Overall he's just suffocating so it just depends on what his s/o is like

[gubler-me-up]

Friendly Competition

Request: Ok so the bau reader and Spencer aren’t dating but have been like hanging out and going for dinner and doing movie nights and such (not calling anything a date tho), and then on a case an officer is all flirty with the reader over the few days that they’ve been there and spencer gets all moody and jealous and is kind of a jerk and has to apologize but it also pushes him to finally ask the reader out on a real date

A/N: Thanks for the request, anon! Sorry this took me so long to publish like tf I could have finished this yesterday, but I took a lil (two hour) nap and then goofed around on my laptop for hours a mess i know. All that being said this was a request I loved writing because who doesn’t love a jealous Spencer? Enjoy! (side note: I wrote this fic without specifying a gender/specific pronouns to include readers who do not identify as female/woman/she/her. I’m trying my hand at it here because the request only said BAU reader, so I thought it might be nice to make this request more inclusive. To whoever sent this in, I hope that’s okay with you and that you like it!)

Couple: Spencer Reid/Bau!Reader 

Category: Angsty fluff

Content warning: Slight mention of murder

Word count: 2.3k

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You and Spencer were sitting in the conference room in the Dallas Police department. You and the team had been called in to investigate a series of female bodies popping up in a river bed. It had been two days since you had reached Dallas and the case was making a bit of progress.

Hotch had assigned you and Spencer to tackle geographical profiling. Geographical profiling wasn’t your natural talent, but the dynamic energy you and Spencer had at work was undeniable. Outside of work it was even better. Recently you had found yourself going on outings with Spencer. Whenever he wanted to do something you were the first person he would ask.

It was quite fun hanging out with Spencer after work. Whether it was a movie, dinner or stroll through the park, he made it the best time for you. You found him entertaining and charming on these special occasions. You hoped he would want to ask you out on an official date.

In the meantime though, you two worked diligently on solving the case at hand. You both were looking at a map of the area and pinpointing spots these women were last seen alive. Your mapping was interrupted by a knock on the door. You both turned around to see officer Mark Lucas at the doorway with his hands behind his back.

He had been around during the several conversations detective Frederick had with the team. Every time he looked at you with star-spangled eyes. He would repeatedly ask you if you needed anything as well. The day prior he asked if you wanted anything for dinner and the both of you could go get it. You politely declined, but found it cute how intrigued he was by you.

Spencer on the other hand found it quite obnoxious. Every time Mark would compliment you, touch you or stand slightly too close to you, you could feel Spencer’s blood pressure rise. Mark’s admiration for you was for sure overbearing and he made it known loud and proud. He would take any opportunity to flirt with you and every time Spencer would make sure you knew he was upset.

He smiled at you. “So, what’s that beautiful mind of yours thinking of?”

You tried to hide your blush by looking away from him. He definitely had an undeniable southern charm about him. You looked over to Spencer to see him roll his eyes at what Mark had said. You could tell since day one he didn’t like Mark’s presence. He would always look at him weird or roll his eyes.

“We’re just doing some geographical profiling,” you explained.

“I thought you were hard at work. Bet you’re pretty hungry,” he said and then revealed what was behind his back.

It was a white paper bag. He placed it in front of you and eagerly awaited as you opened it to inspect what was inside. It was a sandwich, bottle of water and fries from a local diner you had mentioned to him yesterday. He was definitely a good listener.

You smiled. “Thank you, Mark. I really appreciate it.”

“A man like me couldn’t bear to see you work so hard as you do and not supply you with food. It’s the minimum I could do for an extraordinary person like you, Y/N,” he said.

“There are women popping up dead down the road and you can’t bear seeing Y/N hungry? Makes me wonder where your real priorities are at,” Spencer bitterly said.

You were taken aback by his snippy tone. You had never heard Spencer talk to anyone besides a suspect or unsub like that. You were starting to wonder if he had the same hatred towards Mark. You didn’t get why though. It wasn’t as if you two were exclusive or anything.

Mark smiled at him. “Don’t take this gesture as me not caring about the crime, agent, because I do. I just thought you folk would be hungry doing all this hard work.”

“First of all, it’s Doctor and if that’s true then I guess you must have left my lunch back at the diner,” Spencer said as he got up from his seat.

“Where are you going? We still have to finish this geographical profile,” you said.

“I’m going on a lunch break as well. More than one of us needs to eat,” he said as he started walking towards the door.

“Well, if this spot’s empty, may I keep you company?” Mark said as he took Spencer’s seat beside you.

You smiled at him. “Go ahead.”

“Don’t you have some paperwork or something you have to do?” Spencer asked.

Mark looked at him with a playful confused face. “I thought we were on lunch break?”

Spencer opened his mouth to say something back to Mark which you knew would be vicious. You looked at him and shook your head, discouraging the bickering from going any further. He rolled his eyes and walked out of the room. You and Mark watched as he walked off. You sighed and shook your head.

“Don’t worry ‘bout him, darlin’. He just needs to take a break to cool off,” Mark assured you.

You shrugged. “I guess, but I hate seeing him upset.”

“He just needs some space. After he gets something in his system he’ll be brand new. Maybe if you start eating too you’ll feel better as well,” Mark said.

You smiled. “I guess so.”

After having lunch with Mark, he had to go back to his patrol duty for the afternoon. It was nice having some company while you ate. Spencer hadn’t come back like you thought he would since he usually only drinks coffee for lunch anyway. It was probably for the best since Mark was taking every moment you two spent together to shower you with endless compliments. If Spencer was there he would have definitely had a few words to say.

You walked down the hall to go to the kitchen to fill up your water bottle. Before you entered you saw Spencer walking your way with a coffee in his hand. You smiled and waved at him as he looked at you with a smile as well.

“I see you needed a bit of coffee to brighten your mood,” you said.

“I think I needed a break from seeing that officer drool all over you,” he said.

You rolled your eyes. “He wasn’t drooling over me.”

“He’s been drooling over you ever since we’ve got here and you eat it up. No need to deny it, Y/N,” he said.

“Whatever, it’s not even important right now. We’ll get back to work as soon as I fill up my water bottle,” you said as you walked into the kitchen.

You heard Spencer’s footsteps follow you inside the kitchen. To both of your surprise, Mark was in there getting ready to take the trash out. He saw you walk in and instantly smiled.

“Hello, beautiful. Don’t you have some work you need to be finishing up?” Mark asked with a beaming smile.

“Yeah, I’m just filling up my water bottle before Spencer and I get back to it,” you said as you approached the sink.

He walked up to you. “Allow me. Can’t have you working too hard on little tasks like this.”

“Y/N’s capable of turning on a tap and filling a water bottle,” Spencer snapped.

“No need to have your knickers in a knot, agent. It’s just some good ol’ southern hospitality I’m offering to Y/N,” he said.

“I’m flattered, really, Mark, but I don’t want you to miss your patrol duty and get into trouble,” you said.

“No need to worry, gorgeous. I had to clean the kitchen up a little first anyway. I don’t mind making your day a bit easier,” he said.

“Okay, you know what, whenever you two are serious about finding this unsub, let me know,” Spencer said as he turned around to walk out the door.

“Spencer, are you serious right now? You don’t think we’re serious about finding this unsub?” You asked.

He turned around. “I know you somewhat are, Y/N, but the southern hospitality oriented officer isn’t. I’ll finish the geographical profile on my own. Hotch needs some help with interviews anyway.”

You looked at him in shock. “It’s one thing to be a jerk, but to reassign me to do something else is another thing.”

You turned around to quickly fill up your water bottle and then stormed up to Spencer. You could tell by his eyes he started to feel bad about what he had said. You didn’t care though. If this was how he was going to deal with his jealousy towards Mark, it was time to give him some space. He needed some time to find the real reason why he had to make his jealousy go so far.

“I’m going to Hotch now. Talk to me when you decide you don’t want to be a child anymore,” you said.

Before Spencer could say anything to you, you stormed off. You didn’t want to hear him explain himself because you knew it would be some weak excuse. You soon shed what had occurred in the kitchen, so you could focus on interviewing with Hotch. The case was more important at the moment than immature boy drama.

The next day you were out on the road with Hotch, JJ and Rossi as all of you went to the areas the victims were last seen. The geographical profile Spencer had finished was handy, you had to admit. Would have probably been even better if you could have helped finish it.

On the way back to the police department, you thought about if Spencer had gotten over his jealousy. You had never seen him act so viciously to another man before. You guess Mark was coming on a bit strong, but Spencer and you weren’t much more outside of friends. His actions made you wonder if he saw you as something more.

When you and everyone else arrived at the station, you decided you wanted to use the washroom before helping them deliver the profile. Hotch had allowed everyone ten minutes to prep before they delivered the profile. As you made your way towards the washroom, something caught your eye in the conference room. You saw Spencer sitting in there alone. He looked as if he was in deep thought.

Your curiosity got the best of you and you walked into the room. He hadn’t noticed you since his eyes were still focused on the table, eyebrows still furrowed. You slightly cleared your throat to get his attention. His head immediately shot up and when he saw it was you, his face soon softened.

“I wasn’t expecting you guys to be back so early,” he said as he sat up in his chair.

“Well, we have everything we need to deliver the profile now,” you said.

“I see. Do you have a few minutes to spare before then?” He asked.

You shrugged. “I guess I have some time to spare for you.”

He smiled as he pulled out the chair to his right for you. You walked over and took your seat. You could already tell by his face how sorry he was about yesterday. He looked adorable as his face was slightly pink with embarrassment and you could tell he was searching for the right words to say to you.

“Y/N, I’m sorry about my behaviour yesterday. It was out of line and I shouldn’t have said you didn’t care about the case,” he apologized.

“Why were you so angry? Is someone a bit jealous of Mark?” You asked.

He looked down in embarrassment. “Yeah, I guess I am.”

“What? I can’t hear you with your face to the floor,” you said.

He looked up into your eyes. “I guess I am jealous of Mark. He shows you this undying admiration and love and I thought you were enjoying his company more than you could ever enjoy mine.”

“What? That’s nearly impossible, Spence. I love your company the most,” you assured him.

“Again, I wasn’t thinking rationally for the past few days. I thought about it last night and I think why this jealousy flared up so much is because I thought I was too late.”

You raised an eyebrow. “Too late for what?”

“Too late to actually ask you out on a real date. I’ve been meaning to, but I wasn’t sure if you wanted to.”

“Why did you think I didn’t want to?”

“Because I didn’t think you saw me more than a friend, so I built an irrational sense of jealousy over that assumption.”

You sighed, but it soon turned into a giggle. “I thought Doctorate graduates had to do labs before publishing their research? You’re out here making all these assumptions without even testing it first.”

He chuckled. “I know, it was stupid of me to do and I’m sorry again.”

“No hard feelings at all.”

He smiled as he eagerly looked at you. You looked at him confused as you didn’t know what he was waiting for. Then his face turned into a worried expression which made you look at him worried.

“What’s wrong?” You asked.

“You didn’t answer if you’d actually want to go out on a real date or not,” he said.

You laughed. “Spence, actually ask me in context. What you said didn’t count as a question, it was a confession.”

He chuckled. “Okay, okay. Would you want to go out on a real date with me?”

“Only on one condition,” you said.

He looked at you confused. “Anything. What’s the condition?”

“I get to revoke your Doctorate until you prove to me why they gave you three again because I think they need to reevaluate your critical thinking skills,” you joked.

He laughed. “Almost anything.”

You both laughed as you two headed out of the conference room. As you both headed out you saw Mark walking towards you two. In a second Spencer grabbed your hand to hold it. You looked at him and saw him beaming with pride as you two walked by Mark. You rolled your eyes. No matter how smart a man was, a man in love would always be dumb.

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MASTERLIST

[serodev]

Hello!!! I am new to tumblr and this is my 1st time requesting so I'm sorry if I got anything wrong! English is my 3rd language as well and I don't speak the language that much 😭

I'd like to request a match up! 😁 ( if those are even open I'm sorry in advanced if it's closed 😅)

My name is Mary tho my friends call me Mar-Mar since I have 5, yes 5 other friends named Mary as well 😭

I am pansexual and I am okay with any pronouns :DD! ( fun fact in my dialect we refer to everyone as they/them which I find very cool!!)

I am still unsure on what I identify as but at this point I let anyone perceive me as whatever they see me as!

I like the cold weather more than hot weathers! I also like to drink lots of coffee or as my friends like to say "ungodly amounts of coffee"

I doo have a really bad sleeping schedule most of the time I sleep at 2-3 and have to wake up at 7 😅

My hobbies are anything art related really! I most love anything that involves painting and charcoals! I like to collect shiny objects and pretty things in general. Outside of my hobbies I spend most of my time studying since I want to get out of my house as soon as possible. I also used to work a part time job tho I had to quit because of the pandemic and my family is overprotective since I'm the youngest and my three other brothers have already moved out a long time ago.

I'm a top student in my class and English is actually the subject I most suffer in 😭 those darned essays! My friends find it weird that I prefer math and science over English 🤣

My close friends and family would describe me as shy, quiet and reserved. Tho once I get close to them I manage to open up! My friends clame that I am "innocent" and that even in my age I am still oblivious to dirty words. Tho I'd blame my overly religious family for that. My friends also tell me that I am sometimes too kind 😅 I am an INTP and my horoscope is libra :D

I relate to a worrying amount of bungo stray dog characters 💀 ( Akutugawa, Ranpo, Kenji etc etc) my friends call it kinning I think???

I don't spend much time on social media. Really the only reason why I know some of the lingo is because of my friends explaining it to me aaand urban dictionary. The only ones I frequent are Facebook, discord ( if you could call that a social media? Idk it's where my friends chat so I downloaded it to chat with them!) and YouTube!

I am now only getting into anime and one of my firsts was Attack on Titan blame my brother for that. Bungo stray dogs being my second anime and it was recommended by a friend!

One thing I am proud of myself is how open minded I have become! Trust me, I was very ignorant and close minded back at 6th-7th grade. As in I was generally homophobic and every other bad thing. My friends helped me understand tho and later on I had just realised how toxic my family is 😧 even if they clame to be Christians. I'm very grateful for everything and especially my friends! They have helped me so much and are just the most understanding people that I know 😁

One thing I'd like to do is to get closer to my brothers! We've been chatting lately actually and if things go well then we might actually be able to hang out next year!

Thank you for reading! And have a wonderful day/night ☺️

Note(s): Don't worry! The matchups were still open when you sent in this message. You're also doing a really good job speaking/writing in English even though it's your third language! Anyway, I hope you enjoy your matchup! (Dw, I noticed your other message as well <3)

I match you up with…

Giyuu Tomioka!

» I know that it's sometimes hard to get along with other quiet people, especially when you're quiet/shy yourself, but from time to time, they can bring the best out of you, and I believe that's the case with you and Giyuu!

» Giyuu doesn't share too many hobbies with you (he's not good at drawing), but that doesn't mean that he won't partake in them! He likes to spend time with you, and it isn't usual for the two of you to do something together in this comforting quietness.

» He also understands your family situation 100%, even though his family wasn't exactly the same as yours. The things he does to make you feel better can be unnoticeable at first, but trust me when I say that he's going to take care of you and love you a ton!

[spencstan]

Cemetery boys re-read

(by Aiden Thomas)

(idk if anyone's gonna read this, honestly i'm just doing it so i can have all my favourite quotes from the book in the same place and in case i want to remember something from the plot (i have a bad memory))

spoiler alert under the cut but if you haven't read this book yet,,,,,, what are you doing with you life???

first line of the books in case anyone was wondering:

Yadriel wasn’t technically trespassing because he’d lived in the cemetery his whole life.

ok but this is one of the best first lines from a book i've read

"Leave the concha," Tito added

this is akward.... concha has a completely different meaning where i'm from

anywaaaaays

"You know wuo you are, I know who you are, and our Lady does too." She said with fierce conviction. "So screw the rest of them!" Maritza grinned at him.

i love her

this made me want to hug yadriel

"I can't carry the responsibility of the family black sheep on my own."

a true mood

me to my sister every time she leaves me alone in a family reunion

the spanish in this book makes the bilingual in me very happy

It was easier to hide behind their traditions than to callenge their own beliefs and understanding of how things in the world of the brujx worked.

so fucking true and so fucking sad

i do love how in the book they show how traditional latine culture often is misogynistic, binary and heteronormative. but it also shows that things can change without compromising the culture

this book omg

HIS DAD TOLD HIM TO STAY WITH "the rest of the women"

i'm legit crying

we are not gonna unpack why this shit hits so hard tho

that's a problem for future me am i right

"Your father is under a lot of stress right now, nena"

ok bitch no (nena means girl btw)

Navigating pronouns was a minefield when language was based on gender

yuuup spanish is so binary and gendered it's annoying

QUE HIJA DE PUTA LA ABUELA QUE LE DICE QUE SIEMPRE VA A SER LA HIJA

PELOTUDA VENI QUE TE CAGO A PALOS

THAT BITCH JUAT TOLD HIM HE'LL ALWAYS BE HER LITTLE GIRL. TRANSPHOBIC BITCH

ok i knoooow the uncle is bad

but like he's almost the only one who's not transphobic here so i can't hate him

i love that maritza ia trying to set him up with julian already

aka a fucking ghost

wrong spirit but at least he summoned one? it's the thought that counts here

can julian just fucking marry me

"Back up a sec- are you trying to prove to them that you're a brujo, our that you're a boy?" (...)

"Not enough for who, though?" Julian questioned. He wasn't being pushy about it, not on purpose, anyway. He just seemed curious, which only irritated Yadriel further. "Not enough for them, or not enough for you?"

daaamn julian it's to early for existencial questions like that

"Left!" he told Julian when he got to the end of the block.

Julian veered right.

julian is the most relatable character ever

when they say he yells too much but like he doesn't even realize?? me

julian and luca's friendship gives me life

i want a whole book on just the two of them (and yadriel obviously)

"You don't need anyone's permission to be you, Yads"

Yads

i died

YES JULIAN ENCOURAGING HIM TO GO TO THE BOYS BATHROOM

YO CAN DO IT YADS

He gave everything and expected nothing in return.

Yadriel's heart ached.

No, none of them deserved Julian Diaz.

so true king

we stan julian diaz in this house

Julian was the most alive person he'd ever met. Even as a spirit, he was bright and full of constantly moving energy. A sun crammed into the body of a boy.

*ugly crying*

if someone described me like that i would marry them instantly

julian doesn't speak spanish bc it's too intimate baby

"¿Me dejas robarte un beso?

*high pitched scream*

THIS IS THE BEST LINE EVER

UDVJSHDUUJAISBKAKA

"How could he possibly recover from falling for Julian Diaz?"

if you figure it out pls tell me

JULIAN IS DYING AND HE'S ONLY SPEAKING TO YADS IN SPANISH

like yads says something in english AND JULIAN FUCKING SPEAKS SPANISH

THE LANGUAGE THAT WAS "TOO INTIMATE"

YADS IS SACRIFICING HIMSELF BABY

MARITZA IS SAVING HIM she broke my heart yelling at lady death tho

that truly destroyed me

As if there were any force on earth that could tear Julian from Yadriel's side.

baby

"Is Yadriel your friend?"

The word burned. "¡Mi querido!" he snapped viciously.

my beloved

i-

kinda cringe tho but so so so cute

JULIAN BLUSHED OMG CUTE

Jus because Yadriel had forgiven them didn't mean he did.

YES EXACTLY

I'M STILL PISSED AT HIS FAMILY

Julian bit back the urge to knock their hands away as they touched Yadriel's cheeks, his pulse, his forehead. He was unconscious and vulnerable. Julian had to keep him safe.

THIS BOY

he really is perfect

NOW THEY HAVE TO TRY AND KEEP HIM AWAY FROM YADRIEL

BC HE'S TRYING TO GO AND SEE HIM

AND NOW THEY ARE KISSING I LOVE THEM

HIS MOM

this is so sad and so beautiful at the same time

i'm so proud of yadriel

god this book is so fucking good

[bciwasinlove]

how would you analyize or interpret the song walls?cause i‘ve heard a lot of people say it‘s a break up song as it‘s written in past tense and basically saying he‘s stronger now after a break up (maybe even from a toxic relationship), he‘s risen above it and it doesn‘t really sound like a love song about an ongoing romance, does it?

Hi anon this is going to be a long one bc there is no quick answer to this so just know you asked for this.

First let's get one thing straight the ones who claim Walls [the album in general] is a break up album are the "Rads" short for Radical Louies. Essentially they are toxic louies who once were a larry shipper [not even a real larrie] but now hate Harry bc their mad Louis hasn't gotten the same promo and solo opportunities Harry has and some how in their eyes that's Harry's fault. They don't see it was Syco trying to sabotage Louis and in no way is Louis being sabotaged Harry's fault. Rads try to twist the truth and believe Harry left Louis for fame so since they hate Harry they have twisted the meaning of Walls to in their head a break up from a toxic relationship. They also really want LT2 to be a HUGE SHADE break up album which is 100% not the case so don't believe their crap.

Tho I heard you may have sent this same ask to others [who probably ignored you] so there is a chance you are a rad trying to find out what larries believe. Either way if you are a confused larrie or an undercover rad you probably need this info that no one else will bother giving you the time of day to tell you but I myself thought why not I'll answer you.

Second Louis and Harry have been happily in love for 10 years and have not officially broken up. Yes they have had issues like any couple does but it did not stem from eachother their issues stemed from them being forcibly closeted, the stunt gfs and their labels thus their songs are not break up songs but songs about not being able to be free and forced to fake date others when all they want is to publicly be with the one they love.

Now that that is out of the way here's why Walls is about Louis loving one person and one person only since he was 18. I'm doing the whole album [minus TOU] bc it is impossible to state why Walls the song is not a break up song without mentioning the others like Too Young [which rads also claim as a break up song] bc the album as a whole paints the whole picture.

Bree's analysis on Walls

Kill My Mind:

You kill my mind, raise my body back to life and I don't know what I'd do without you now.

KMM is definitely the sexual song of Walls [not No Control type sexual but just we click right from the start sexual] It has the I just met you and we are figuring one another out vibe [both physically and just as people] and how right from the start Louis craves Harry and his attention. It has a similar vibe to Watermelon Sugar which Harry said is about the euphoria of falling in love and the way the other person makes you feel right from the start. Louis in KMM is saying I've just meet someone and they are now all I think about, crave and I don't know how I would be able to live without them.

Don't Let It Break Your Heart:

And I know you left apart of you in New York under your bed in a box, but your doing better.

Flashback to HS1 "Ever Since New York" seems like they both love to mention something happening in NY with their lover. We may never know what happened but it's always a funny coincidence when they mention the same places in their songs almost like their singing about the same situation.

Life gets hard and it gets messed up when you give so much, but it's not enough when the highs to high and the lows to low when you love somone and they let you go.

As I stated before their issues involved the stunts [fake dating women] so when Louis says love someone and they let you go he means when his lover gave into what they were being told to do for the sake of their careers. As young as they were when this all started it's hard not to think they may have fell for the lies being fed to them. So Harry let "Louis go" by being seeing with a ton of women gaining himself the brand of "lady's man" while also being forced to watch Louis be with someone else [Eleanor] and publicly act like that was the one he loved. Harry wrote the song Just a Little Bit of Your Heart which is a prime exactly of those feelings. Harry loves Louis so much but he only gets to love him privately while Eleanor gets to loves him publicly and as Harry wrote a little bit of your love is better then none.

Were driving down a one way road to something better. What hurts you is going to pass you'll be doing better.

This shows they know the pain all the bad things thrown their way won't stick around forever. They will overcome this and one day they will see the light at the end of the tunnel or the rainbow after the storm.

We Made It:

Cause we made it, Underestimated and always underrated. Now we're saying goodbye waving to the hard time yeah it's gonna be already.

Do I need to explain it I would say the title alone and this chorus makes it very clear. Break up who when where how? They had hard ships but NOT from their own doing. WMI is about how decpite all they were put through they made it. Flashback to Harry HS1 tour with Kacey in a rainbow dress at MSG in front of 36k people singing "[their/where] still together still going strong." They want you to know nothing will break them apart no matter how hard anyone tries. We are keeping the bad in the past and moving forward to a better tomorrow.

Share a single bed and tell each other what we dream about. Things we'd never say to someone else out loud.

This reminds me of their Xfactor days or early 1D tour days bc in 1D interviews it was always made clear they would share rooms and also how on the bus Louis bunk was filled with his junk so where did he sleep then? Also there are many former Xfactor contestants that have come out and said they were forced to be in the closet on the show. Flashback to an article claiming the people in charge of the 2010 Xfactor season tried to hide and keep a same sex couple apart wonder who that was? That line is about when they were young and the late nights they spent together wondering how their future was going to go. They were still just big smiles, wide eyed, oblivious young boys when they imagined only good things to come of the future with them and the band.

We were only kids just trying to work it out. Wonder what they'd say if they could see us now?/ Don't know why they put all of this on us when we're so young. Done a pretty good job dealing with it all.

We were only kids [when Louis fell in love with said person] and we're so young reminds me of Harry's song To Be So Lonely where he says "Don't blame me for falling I was just a little boy." They both mention falling in love at a young age and both mention how after all this time they are still just as in love as back then but just a little less naive/oblivious. They are both hinting at a higher person [their label/management] who didn't approve of their love and telling them it wasn't going to work out. Harry going you can't be mad at me I was only a boy and Louis going wonder what would happen if they saw us now meaning look we didn't let you win. They tried so hard to separate Louis and Harry but it didn't work and Louis wants us and THEM especially to know they are still very much together, they handled it as best at they could and they weren't going to let them keep Louis and Harry apart.

Meet you at your uni, cheap drink, drink em all night

This is what we call a stunt line to push a narrative. Harry does stunt songs [Carolina and Cherry] while Louis does stunt lines. This line is suppose to allude to the album being for Eleanor [bc she went to Manchester Uni] but the rest of the album is so clearly not for her. If this song was about a break up from Harry then why would they bother adding in a stunt line about Eleanor when the public story is El and Louis are happily still together with Louis planning to marry her? Unless Walls isn't a break up album and it's very loudly Louis declaring him and Harry are still happily together and they wanted to try and force the image that Louis is happily in love with Eleanor. Also funny how this album is gender neutral and has no she pronouns in it unlike Zayn's new album having she pronouns.

Too Young:

We were to young to know we had everything. Too Young, I wish I could've seen it all along. I'm sorry that I hurt you, darling, no we were to young

This song is all about how when Harry was only 16 and he was 18 [Louis himself saying the song is about meeting the one at 18] he was to young to realize he had the best lover he was ever going to have, he had it all. As I said before issues in songs = management/stunts and this is Illuding to how Louis let them minupulate them and do what it was they wanted aka stunting and forcing Louis to be with Eleanor and Harry have a "lady's image" since he was only 16 and Louis now looking back and realizing he should have fought harder. Louis at the time didn't realize how much all this would hurt Harry having to share Louis [once again Just a Little Bit of Your Heart is Harry's feelings about that] and its once he's older he realizes what he did to hurt the only one who he ever truly loved and it pains him to know he put his lover through that even if it wasn't Louis fault Harry went through that.

I've been looking back a lot lately me and you is all I've ever known. Oh I can't believe I gave in to the pressure. When they said a love like this would never last. I didn't know no better now I realize yeah I realize.

So similar to before he's saying Harry is all he's ever known and him giving in to the pressure was about agreeing to fake date Eleanor and allow them to be heavily closeted. Reflecting back on those days he regrets so much what he agreed to do. They said a love like this wouldn't last is their management/label not agreeing with them being together and how two boys in a boyband marketed towards young women won't last, they won't sell records as an out gay couple with Louis believing their lies for a bit and he now regrets ever thinking they were right. This is a reflection song of not understanding what he had when he was so young but he sees it clearly now and he will never let THEM win he loves Harry and won't ever let him go ever.

Walls:

These high walls, they came up short now I stand taller then them all. These high walls never broke my soul and I watched them all come fallin down for you.

The high walls he refers to is all the assholes who tried to break him, break Harry and tried to ruin his career out of spite. This is towards the ones who told him they would never succeed being as they are a committed gay couple. Louis for a time believed them when they said their love wouldn't last, no one will want to listen to their music as a gay couple but eventually he realized they were wrong and those walls he had up filling him with doubt and insecurities were broken down. He allowed his "high walls" to come down because Harry was worth the effort it took to bring them down.

So this one is a thank you for what you did to me. Why is it that thank you's are often bittersweet? I just hope I see you one day and you say to me, Oh.

This is what one calls a metaphor he does not mean a physical person he means the walls he had up for a long time making him feel so insecure bc of how some of the people around him that made him feel so worthless crushing his spirt for so long. The metaphorical person he is thanking for helping him become the person he is today is the wall he broke down. The hardships he dealt with when he was younger got him to where he is today.

For every question why you were my because

Why am I still fighting?

Why have I not given up yet?

The because to his question is his lover HERE is where he directly refers to his lover. Harry is someone who is worth fighting for and will always be one of the reasons he hasn't stopped fighting. He loves Harry more then anything and will fight until the day he can publicly hold his hand, publicly post pictures of them together, publicly go on dates and publicly declare his love for him.

Habit:

You're the habit that I can't break, you're the feeling I can't put down, you're the shiver that I can't shake, you're the habit that I can't break, you're the high that I need right now.

Written over and over throughout the song these are some of the most important lines he wrote about Harry. It's Louis way of saying even if he wanted to, even if it would be easier for him and Harry he can never let him go. Harry's version of this is in Adore You when he sings "You don't have to say you love me, you don't have to say nothing and you don't have to say you're mine. I'd walk through fire for you just let me adore you like it's the only thing I'll ever do." Harry is saying even if publicly you can never say you love me I know you do and I will do anything for you because I am madly in love and could never let you go. They both would go through hell along side each other then being partially happy and the other not being by their side. Harry is the only one he ever wants to spend his life with and no matter what hardships they are put through there is no scenario where being without each other is a better alternative.

I took some time 'cause I've ran out of energy of playing someone I heard I'm supposed to be but honestly, I don't have to choose anymore

The line of all lines he took time away bc he was tired of the facade of faking what makes him happy, faking loving some girl, faking being anything but himself. He's back now and knows without a doubt who he is and is proud of it. No more confusion, no more lies he loves a curly haired dimpled boy and no one will tell him he can't love him. Harry's version of this is the chorus of Lights Up "All the lights couldn't put out the dark, runnin' through my heart. Lights up and they know who you are, know who you are. Do you know who you are? Shine step into the light, shine so bright sometimes, shine I'm not ever going back." They both tell you they have figured out whi they are and are very proud of who they have become and no one will tell them they can't be anything but themselves. They WILL scream it out loud and proud letting everyone know who they love one day [as if 16 and 18 year old H&L didn't already do that.]

And it's been ages, different stages come so far from Princess Park. I'll always need ya in front of me, in front of me

Oh the line that shocked every larrie I know. When he first sang this song and we first heard this line at a live concert everyone was shocked because we all knew what their was only one meaning to it. It was such a drastic line that the Elounors tried to claim he sang Starbuck [until the official lyrics came out.] Princess Park is the name of the apartment/flat complex all of the 1D boys lived in after the Xfactor BUT Niall, Liam and Zayn had their own apartment/flat while Louis and Harry shared one and they always made it very clear to everyone they met that they lived together.

So in a love song Louis sings about how him and his lover have come so far since their Princess Park days and his lover will always be the one he needs. Putting Harry's fav love song Sweet Creature plus Louis line about his lover together it would read " And, oh, we started two hearts in one home, come so far [since] princess park. I'll always need you in front of me. Wherever I go you bring me home" you do the math here. Their lyrics sink up just as much as their tattoos do.

Always You:

I went to Amsterdam without you and all I could do was think about you and oh-oh-oh I should've known

The Amsterdam line one of those lines that can be fact checked and proven to not be for Eleanor. So Louis took Eleanor to Amsterdam for her birthday at a gay bar no less back in July/August of 2017. Then a week or two later wrote the song Always You leaking a snippet of it to us where the lines of him singing about how he went to Amsterdam without his lover and his lover was all he could think about were heard. If he went with Eleanor then clearly that isn't his lover but we know this. Fast forward 2020 Walls comes out and we FINALLY hear the full song of Always You.

Louis said he only put the song on the album because the fans wanted it but if it was just because of us and the song wasn't THAT important to him why did he leak those lines back in 2017 that could easily be fact checked that the lover he sings about isn't Eleanor? It's like he wanted us to know it's not for Eleanor this line is important. So the fact that almost 3 years later he still put the song out shows the song means a lot to him and even in 2020 the meaning of the song still resonates with him and how it will Always be THIS one person that means everything to him. Funny though how his loudest, easily fact checkable songs [to not be about Eleanor] are the ones he downplays the most about importance to him.

I went to Tokyo to let it go. Drink after drink, but I still felt alone I should've known

When it comes to this song the Amsterdam line is Louis speaking [because he went to Amsterdam without Harry] while the Tokyo line is Harry speaking [because Harry went to Tokyo without Louis] and after Harry came back from Tokyo, Japan Louis was seen wearing a ton of new clothes from Japanese clothing brands. This is both of them saying I may be in a wonderful new place but it's not the same without you here. They are sad and alone and would rather be with each other then traveling around the world.

I'm wastin' my time when it was always you, always you. Chasin' the high, but it was always you, always you

I think this is self explanatory he sees no reason to even think about being with someone else because he knows without a shadow of doubt [thinks he always knew deep down] it was always Harry. There was never going to be anyone else for him but Harry.

I went from LAX to Heathrow. Walked through my door, but it felt nothing like home cause you're not home. Waiting to wrap your legs around me

LA and London are their two main residences and places they tend to go back and forth a lot. When he "goes home" if Harry is not there Louis feels as though it doesn't really feel like home because home to Louis is wherever Harry is. They can travel all around the world, meet a ton of new people but no place and others will ever make them feel fully satisfied unless their lover is by their side.

Fearless:

Cashin your weekend treasures, for a suit and time a second wife. Now I'm not saying that you could have done better just remember that I, I've seen that fire alight.

The first line is a nod to the industry itself and how to get your "weekend tresures" [be famous and earn a lot of money] you have to put up a fake facade, acting and looking the way they want you to because in their eyes if you are not the conventional person Hollywood wants they believe you will not make them the money they desire because we all know they only care about money nothing else. At a cost of the real them they must put on a fake smile, go out there sing doing nothing unconventional and they will get money and fame.

The second line yes they are happily together and Louis doesn't want or believe Harry will find someone else but he has seen Harry when all of this gets to be to much and when Harry puts up a facade of I've never had an issue with all of this Louis reminds him that I've seen you when your not fine, it's ok to not always be fine and I am here for you when things are not rainbows and sunshine.

Tell me do you still remember feeling young? And strong enough to get it wrong in front of all these people? Just for tonight, look inside and spark that memory of you.

Refering back to Xfactor and early 1D days he's asking Harry if he remembers those days together back when they hadn't really gone through hardships yet and all the strength they had during their youth willing to take on the world together. He's asking him to bring that strength back and remember the younger version of himself. He's asking him to not give up because the younger him wouldn't want him to. It's been 10 years and they are still fighting, fighting as hard as they did when they were merely teenagers not knowing what lied ahead but wer happy as long as it meant they had each other in the end.

Now if happiness is always measured by the life we design, the car on the drive then you should feel better then ever but you know as well as I it's all lies.

This line speaks volumes as stated before with Fearless we have references to the industry and even just life in general. From the outside looking in they got money, fame, material things, they have it all and if deciding who is more happy in life was based on those things then they would win but Louis is telling Harry we both know that isn't the case. The industry isn't sunshine and rainbows, they treat people like shit and strip away everything about a person if they don't think their real self will sell. They only want to make a profit off them and don't care about how they feel about any of it. Everything is a lie the truth must be counseled.

Perfect Now:

You say to me your jeans don't fit, you don't feel pretty and it's hard to miss. I wish you could see my point of view as someone staring back at you.

This song is personally underrated to me I love this song. This song is so uplifting when you are feeling insecure and negative about yourself. Louis personally had a certain curly haired boy in mind when he wrote this. He's talking about Harry's insecurities with himself and Louis wishes Harry could see things from his view and how amazing and perfect Harry is to him.

Cause everybody is looking at you now. I guess some queens don't need a crown and I know why. Even when your tears are following now still someone, you're perfect now.

One of those it's definitely not for Eleanor moments. We all know [especially during fine line era] everyone was talking about Harry, knows his name and eyes turn to him when he walks in the room. Louis is so proud of Harry and is happy everyone else sees what he sees but Harry doesn't always see what others see in him and during those times where he is not already Louis is saying I will be right there with you. I am with you through the good and the bad because even when tears are running down his face Harry is still perfect to Louis.

Cause you're the only one when it's said and done. You make me feel like being someone good to you. Even at your worst you steal the scene.

No matter where life takes them, no matter how hard it gets Louis is reassuring Harry he will always be there by his side. At the end of it all when the final act is over and the curtain is closeting he will still be there because there will never be anyone else he wants to be next to at the end of all of this. Louis looks into Harry's eyes he watches all he does and is intrance wanting nothing more then being the one to be there when he is down and always being the who makes the pain go away even if for a moment.

Defenseless:

I hate to say, but I do we're sleeping on our problems like we'll solve them in our dreams. We walk up early morning and they're still under our sheets.

*Sigh* this is reality setting in things aren't perfect. In their line of work, being who they are, being a closeted gay couple things aren't going to be perfect 100% of the time. Most of the time they would rather ignore all the shit they are forced to indure but Louis realizes just ignoring it all won't make it go away he will wake up each morning next to Harry knowing those issues will always be around by neither fault of their own. He hopes one day they will get to be a happily open couple who posts pics online, goes out on public dates and gets to live the domestic life they always wanted but right now that just isn't their reality. Their reality is I can only look at you for more then 5 seconds or touch you when no one is around to notice.

Been up all night, all night running my lines but it's only the truth. Been up all night not sure how to say this right got so much to loose. / You just keep on building up your fences but I've been so defenseless.

Another metaphor here Louis wondering how to bring this up to Harry and not upset him. The last thing Louis ever wants is for him to be the reason Harry has a frown upon is wonderful face. Harry is more the one to bottle up and ignore the negative things while Louis is the more practical one and he knows he has a ton to loose [Harry and his love] if he doesn't go about this situation right.

No you don't have to keep on being strong for you and me acting like you feel no pain I know you do. And I can't get inside your head when you're lost in your pride but you don't have a thing to prove.

Harry is the one who bottles up his pain, puts on the fake smiles, and makes everyone believe he is perfectly fine. He acts like he can handle what he is forced to indure 100% of the time but Louis sees through that and just wants him to open up more. He knows Harry feels just as much pain as he does and wishes he wouldn't hide it and pretend everything is always fine. Louis wants to be able to help Harry through the pain and to let know he will always be there for him no matter what so don't pretend your always fine just to make others around him, make Louis feel better.

I hope I'm not asking to much just wanna be loved by you. And I'm to tired to be tough just wanna be loved by you.

Louis is tired of pretending, wishes everyone understood, wishes what he is asking for wasn't to much. All he wants is to be loved by Harry and live the domestic life he always invisioned with Harry and no one else but his live is not that simple.

Only The Brave:

Pour mercy, mercy on me, set fire to history. I'm breaking my own rules, I'm crying like a fool. It's a church of burnt romances and I'm to far gone to pray. It's a solo song and it's only for the brave.

I'm sure you understand Louis is gay but if you didn't this line right here is all you need to understand that. No straight man is going to write or sing those lines. He's gone down a path of self discovery and figuring himself out he knows he is and he is to far gone to turn back now but he has no desire to even if he could turn back. He is proud of who he is and doesn't care what anyone else thinks of him.

If the truth tell, darling, you fell, like their ain't enough dying stars in your sky. It's a tell tale and it's only hello, hello, no goodbyes.

It's only hello no goodbyes meaning the confusion, the is this for life between Louis and Harry questions are gone. They aren't turning back, they aren't saying goodbye, they are only saying hello to what lies ahead. The truth is clear, their story is clear, they fell for one another and Harry metaphorical speaking fell for Louis in a way where his star shines brighter then ever just by being with him.

Pour mercy, mercy on me, I'll fall upon my knees and they'll say, I told you so come on when you know you know. All the lonely shadows dancing from the cradle to the grave.

When you know you know they knew right from the start it's me and you until the end. Some won't agree but in the end that does not matter to Louis because he only cares about Harry being by his side. He will not apologize for falling in love he loves who he loves and that is it.

We Made It Directors Cut MV:

If the lyrics alone don't tell you the full story then the music video mini movie should. It sums up everything I explained. Louis being forced to do things he doesn't want, it effecting his relationship to the point their drowning [Harry in Falling MV] but manage to survive. Louis lover never speaking but the girl with ties to the evil one in charge does until eventually Louis breaks free from the man in charge controlling him and Louis finally gets to run away with his lover because he made sure they would make it in the end.

Ending:

Walls is about self discovery, learning to overcome your insecurities "breaking down your walls" no matter how hard it may be and Louis understanding he met the one at 18 and how Harry will always be worth fighting for, THEY will always be worth it bc they knew even as young as they were they were going to get married, have kids and grow old together. So you still want to tell me how any song on Walls is about a break up or Louis moving on from Harry because I certainly don't see it. Walls is Louis perspective on their 10 year relationship and his support and love towards Harry if you want Harry's perspective and his support and love toward Louis you would have to dive into HS and FL but that's a whole other analysis.

They have not given up on each other even if at times it would have been easier they didn't so I will never give up on them. They continue to fight I have been in this fandom supporting them for 10 years watching their continous fight and I will be here another 10 years supporting them if that is how long it takes for them to get the life they knew they wanted when they were only 16 and 18.

[pillow-anime-talk]

witch!s/o.

request: so since shinigamis are really we can asume everything supernatural exists in the dn universe,, any hcs you have for l and near (separate) discovering and then interacting with a witch!so (fem pronouns pls!) like sabrina spellman type of witch (if u don’t know the show it doesn’t matter ajssdcna,, ur idea of a witch is ok tho!!)

# tags: headcanons; witch!au; strangers/?; light!comedy; fluff; bif of angst

includes: female reader ft. l lawliet & nate river {death note}

author’s note: yes, unfortunately i haven’t watched anything with ‘sabrina spellman’, but i hope that my knowledge of the ‘harry potter’ and ‘ahs: sabat’ series will be good enough!

— LAWLIET

↘ I imagine that you two get to know each other during the ‘Kira’ case, so Lawliet is... I can’t define it correctly, but he will probably be very speechless for a while, because he discovered the existence of Gods of Death a two weeks ago, and suddenly it’s not all, because there is also you, a pretty young witch.

↘ He will look in your direction blankly for a while and also look for signs of a joke in your behavior or face expression, but when it don’t happen, he will simply nod and go back to his work.

↘ When you get closer to each other, he will be delighted how intelligent and gentle for animals and plants you are. He will be curious about all your powers and abilities, it’s obvious, but he won’t ask for it directly. He will wait patiently for you to present them all to him, along with the history of your nationality, life and family. He just wanted to get to know you better, it’s normal.

↘ You will do this, for example, by pulls his chair to the bedroom to make him rest a bit. He’ll probably think it’s hallucinations at first, but then he’ll notice that it’s just you and your moving, small hand.

↘ Then he will start asking you to use his power to... make cookies and cakes... and other sweets.

↘ I think it’s a canon. 

↘ Just imagine Lawliet sitting in front of many monitors and a white keyboard, and suddenly staring at you with his tired eyes, begging you to make him a cake with your powers. He’s convinced that your abilities will speed up the baking of the cake and its overall making.

↘ Sounds silly, but it works. Lol.

↘ When the case of ‘Kira’ is still in progress, I think that you will offer him some help. Of course, he will smile at you and sincerely thank you for your concern, but at the same time he’ll decline, adding that it’s his own job and he doesn’t want to expose you to anything dangerous.

↘ He will worry about you like as if anyone could kill you. After all, you are not human. Shinigami and the Death Note cannot defeat you so easily.

↘ So this means that you will conduct your own investigation and give him clues from time to time.

↘ I am also sure that when he puts himself in danger, you will save him right away.

— NATE

↘ I imagine that you two met at Wammy’s House few long years ago. You were then one of the last children who join the orphanage to be a successor of a worldwide detective, L. Then he saw that you be able to play with fire without the need for matches or a lighter. He would be really surprised and at the same time so interested in your person. Normally, he would never approach the other child first, but this time there was something about you that he couldn’t explain rationally.

↘ He will act almost like Lawliet, with the difference that he will immediately ask you to show off your all powers (or at least some of them). He’ll be just curious about what you can do.

↘ You would be friends and then partners like Mello and Matt.

↘ I am convinced that you would be a main element that would help him to solve the ‘Kira’ case.

↘ At first, you were unconvinced about the idea of using your ability to predict the past, but eventually you realized that your powers would save Japan and the rest of the world.

↘ Anyway, if it was okay to use the Death Note, so why would your abilities be a bad thing?

↘ You agreed quickly.

↘ After the case is over, Nate will be extremely grateful to you; also that was the first time you will see him so happy and smiling.

↘ Then he will breathe a sigh of relief and simply ask you to destroy the Death Note. When you do it, he will thank you with sincerity in his voice once again and give you a small peck on the forehead.

↘ I also have the cute thought that if you have a black cat, Near will go to sleep more often because his calm and lovely purring calms him down so easily.

[angeltrapz]

oosdkk dude im sorry ur mood dropped too.. i hope u feel better soon <3 but like i wld love 2 hear more abt ur thoughts on Art in general bc Boy Is He Interesting, and also a lil more abt Daniel coming out as nonbinary to his dad (whether he knows Eric is trans or not at that moment skjdfhdskf)! + if ur feelin it just more abt Mallick in general ESP cuz we agree that Brit doesn't make it thru V

djhfjdks thank u sm <3

okay Art first. I genuinely wonder abt him so much, something in specific I think abt is that aside frm Amanda (+ Eric, obviously, but talkin abt disciples) Art is one of the only trap victims EVER 2 be tested twice and it’s like... what’s that abt? Why? as u’ve said b4 it rly depends on how you personally view his character: whether he’s a disciple or not. fr me, both options are equally plausible, n honestly I don’t rly confine myself to either; it sorta depends on what I’m feeling/writing. if we’re talking abt art being a disciple, then the Spinecutter not going off (one of my BIGGEST questions) makes total sense, as Hoffman’s side of the trap was never set up to work either, + Jigsaw disciples have a history (aside from Lawrence) of appearing as victims in other tests/traps. if he were not just another pawn and was in fact a disciple himself, then the Spinecutter was never meant to go off - it was there just to make Eric think it COULD go off/make it look convincing to outsiders. which brings me to ANOTHER question: what does Art know abt Eric? does he know anything? what does he think of Eric?

(lil side note: if Art is a disciple, then I kinda wonder if it’s a lil bit of a Hoffman + Lawrence situation where Hoffman didn’t know abt Art either? just bc he looks so shocked when he sees Art’s face fully fr the first time... that could’ve just been acting on Hoffman’s part but IDK. food fr thought)

personally, I feel like Art probably does know a lil bit abt Eric - at the very least, he’d know tht Eric had been previously tested + failed by John’s rules, but then I feel that he wld also know Eric didn’t rly have a chance in his second test. that is why Art trying so fucking hard to keep Eric alive is interesting 2 me: what is his motivation 2 do that? like he’s been told Eric’s basically just there to get Rigg to participate, he doesn’t have any personal obligation or anything like that. sure, the aim is to keep Eric alive + see if Rigg can pass his “test,” but nobody said anything about grabbing a man you barely know around his ankles to keep him frm hanging himself w a noose made of chains. nobody said anything abt speaking to him so softly, not even raising your voice beyond saying “hey,” and asking him do you understand? when you tell him to keep still and prevent him frm killing his counterpart (which, if Art is a disciple, he knows it won’t, but he still speaks to Eric so softly, so compassionately, doesn’t he?)

nobody said anything abt grabbing him around the waist and steadying him again after being punched by said man. but Art does that. he stabilizes Eric’s feet on the ice as best he can and he keeps his hips straight and he basically says “look, we’re all stuck here, you need to keep it together ‘til that clock counts down if you want us to live, but I’m giving you a choice,” and he presses the gun w the single bullet into Eric’s hands and tells him it’s up to him. nobody said Art had to care but he does, I think, and it’s just like. he really didn’t have to keep Eric alive over the course of Rigg’s test. he didn’t. but he did and I just,, where does it come from? why does he care? this is even going beyond the fact that we’ve talked abt them being together after their test in a scenario where they both survive - I just think that Art at his core is a very stubborn but very compassionate person, whether he wants 2 be or not. like he HAS to know that kind of involvement cld prove to be extremely detrimental but he cares. I feel like that says a lot abt him (even if he does call Eric an asshole a couple times while doing it,,).

plus I also just. I think his reason for being tested (as it seems to be in most cases) is extremely flimsy. he was doing his job. he’s a LAWYER. often times it has nothing 2 do w personal feelings; they’re there to do their job and sometimes, unfortunately, that is defending possibly reprehensible people (in cases like Rex’s & Ivan’s). + John was already upset w him regarding their argument abt the urban renewal group so like it just feels So Very Petty, y’know?? even in the scenario where he IS a disciple, testing him twice seems entirely like John having a personal vendetta against him. Amanda is the only other person to be tested twice aside from Eric, so like. what. is that abt Mr. Kramer.

like I’ve said b4 in dms one could argue that Art is grey morally, bc we never rly see anything of him outside of flashbacks + acting as a test controller in IV, esp given that he... rly doesn’t seem too bothered abt it all? which is fair. but I also feel like the concern he shows towards Eric is smth to be considered as well.

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+ YESS NONBINARY DANIEL I know I’ve mentioned it b4 but for reference, I read Daniel as masc nonbinary (he/they)! so I feel like Daniel wld b pretty comfortable w his identity, he’s never rly had a reason not to be (it’s rly anyone’s guess here tho bc we never see Eric + Daniel + Kate... as a family unit, for obvious reasons), so I feel like he’s vry chill abt it? and in the scenario where Eric survives n is dating Adam, I feel like Daniel wld talk 2 him abt it first (Adam is an adult they quickly come to trust + he’s vocal abt being trans himself so there’s that added layer of understanding - other than his mom maybe Adam might b the first person they come out 2). they’re just kinda like “so I wanna tell my dad I’m nonbinary but like I’ve literally never thought abt coming out what do I do” and Adam’s just like. Aha. bc he knows Eric is Also Trans so like, he doesn’t tell Daniel that bc it’s not his info to share, but he’s definitely like “oh it’ll totally be fine. trust me you have no reason to worry” so Daniel’s just like Okay. I Got This

+ I know I mentioned this in dms but Daniel wld absolutely wear those floral ripped hem skirts over jeans, so I feel like on one of his visits to his dad’s, he just. wears that combined w a completely random niche graphic tee he bought when shopping w Adam (I adore this hc n I am Holding Onto It) n is just like. not super open abt it bc he doesn’t know what to expect? he just kinda waits fr Eric to comment on it but when he doesn’t, Daniel gets nervous n is like “do I look okay?” and Eric’s rly chill abt it, like “yeah! it looks vry cool, vry alternative.” n like Daniel is relieved, of course, but also he’s just like God Pls Say Something so he just comes out w it like “okay this is not working. I’m nonbinary.”

and he’s COMPLETELY SHOCKED when Eric is just like “oh why didn’t u say so? do u have a different name u wanna go by? is Daniel still okay?” bc he wasn’t sure how much Eric knew, so he’s just like “uh no Daniel is still good, he/they pronouns though” and Eric’s just like alright cool but internally Daniel’s just like ??????

n THAT is when Eric asks him 2 come sit out on th front steps w him n is just like. “I don’t think I ever told u this but I’m trans. I transitioned during training in my early 20s” n Daniel is nodding while internally he’s like Adam I’m gonna throttle u. he worked himself up fr NOTHING. he just kinda laughs abt it and Eric is like “are u good?” ‘cause he’s a lil worried but then Daniel just smiles and is like “yeah I’m fine! just realizing I had nothing 2 be worried abt” and it’s a rly good moment fr them. they sit out there together talking abt their experiences for quite a while n at some point Adam steps outside 2 find them deep in conversation + he just smiles n goes back inside bc he cares abt them both so much and seeing them talk like that makes him so 💞💞 (Eric is SO PROUD u can see it on his face)

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ohhh gosh Mallick,,, I spend a lot of time thinking abt him actually. he’s just one of those characters I feel vry connected to (me 🤝 Mallick: Ambiguous Disorder 💕) n one I got surprisingly attached to? hello (he IS one of my f/os)

I feel like Mallick is a very lonely person at his core. the way he sort of clings to Brit (w out the whole like. adrenaline of being in very very real danger w ppl trying to kill u SEVERAL TIMES) somewhat confirms this fr me. this is someone who has no reason to look out fr him, no reason to keep protecting him when their fellow captives hit him over th head w a club or attempt to push him into a bathtub to ELECTROCUTE him, but she keeps doing it and he’s just. in awe of it a little bit? ‘cause she could just let Charles knock him tf out or let Luba push him in but she fights for him, some1 she has no obligation to n met fr the first time literally when they woke up.

the moment they share b4 they stick their arms into the saws to activate the 10 Pints of Sacrifice is so very vulnerable and maybe even a little tender. yes he calls her a monster, yes she calls him one back, neither of them deny it. it’s an admission and an acceptance. they’re monsters, sure, fine, okay. but they are monsters and they are in this together. Brit tells Mallick it’s okay when he says he can’t do this alone. she says okay, okay, it’s okay, we’ll go together. and they help each other secure their tourniquets and they stick their hands in together bc it’s the two of them, literally hand in hand, fighting for their lives n for each other n they’re in so so much pain but they are doing it TOGETHER. I lose it thinking abt it!!! they even have a head bonk moment!!! I very much feel like it has some cinematic parallels to Adam & Lawrence’s moment in SAW 2004!!!!

+ as u mentioned, we both share the thought that Brit likely died since she wasn’t present at Bobby’s meetings, and. I want to touch on how fucking despondent and lost Mallick looks when we see him again in 3D. lights on but no one’s home. I feel like for Mallick, losing Brit was losing the first chance at a real connection he’s had in god knows how long - and for him, that’s just very shattering. he’s been thru hell, he’s watched three people die right in front of him, he sawed his ARM IN HALF, n the person he went through all of that with didn’t make it. but he did. and I feel like for Mallick that’s just like... he doesn’t understand it. but he feels even lonelier than he ever has b4 because the One Person who was there w him thru it all, the one person who could ever possibly understand what happened that night, is gone.

the Mallick we see in V would NEVER sit down n willingly listen to Bobby Dagen’s bullshit abt loving yr scars n taking pride in the fact u survived. he wld hate that man with a passion n I am very much sure of this. the fact that he’s sitting in that chair looking numb and glassy-eyed and silent? Mallick is trying to find some1 to connect to, find a place where maybe he belongs. trying to fill that hole that losing Brit made. why else wld he be sitting there, listening to someone he would ordinarily tell to shove his self-love bullshit up his ass? he’s lost. he’s just trying to keep his head above water and find a way to shore even though everything in him is fighting not to. he’s adrift without her.

+ ALTERNATIVELY, bc the reality of that is just. crushing n maybe not where I needed 2 go, in the scenario where Brit survived + just doesn’t want to put up w Bobby’s bullshit, I imagine them to actually move in together after a lil bit of time getting 2 know each other better w out the pressure of “oh god we’re gonna die.” she kinda helps him build up a sense of self-worth bc GOD it’s practically non-existent n thinking abt possible reasons why makes me sad. she’s definitely just like “no, you do deserve to be cared for and you deserve help when you need it, you deserve good things n to be happy.” she just kinds shuts it down while still making sure to talk 2 him abt WHY he feels that way (she’s not dismissing, but she’s trying to nip it in th bud) n Mallick is just like. huh. bc no one’s really done that fr him before. but it rly does end up helping in the long run, even if it is a very slow pace toward actually getting 2 a place where he recognizes his own worth + realizes he deserves all the things he wants Brit 2 have too. they’re there for each other thru thick n thin and if they made it thru their game, they can make it thru anything.

[chordata-on-alterhumanity]

Alterhuman vs Trans: Why r they compared so often?

I'm about to use 'alterhuman' as a shorthand for otherkin and otherlinkers. I don't think plurality is ever compared to being LGBT+ ... ? And I'm not knowledgeable enough about other experiences that fall under the alterhuman umbrella to speak on them. I just don't want to write ''kin and 'link' all the time. If anyone else can speak on other alterhuman experiences and how they compare to being trans, I'd love to hear!

Also, I'm about to use 'transgender' as an umbrella term for every non-cis experience.

Having an alterhuman identity is sometimes compared to being transgender. It brings up a lot of controversy, i.e. the discourse about species dysphoria being compared to gender dysphoria. I'm not about to make arguments for why the comparisons are or aren't valid. Instead, I want to present a thought about why the comparison happens so much.

Being alterhuman is about your internal identity, not necessarily related to what you do or what you're surrounded by. Being trans is the same. Of course, our environment influences us, but they aren't identities that are dependent on your environment.

I’ll talk about other types of identities I can think of before I circle back around to my point.

Identity based on actions: Career titles

You might be an engineer and identify as an engineer, but I don't think most engineers identify as one as deeply as they identify as their gender. Why? I can imagine it's because that title depends on your actions. Is someone an engineer when they're not putting their knowledge to use? I can learn to be engineer and then become a painter and never touch my engineer know-how. I won't identify as an engineer unless I actually feel like one (which requires working as one, be it as a job or as a hobby), and in my own and society's eyes, you need to do a job in order to be labelled as a job-do-er (You gotta do engineering to be an engineer). This sounds very rambly, but the point I want to get to is: A career title can be taken away. You need to work as the thing to be a thing. Because of that, we tend to not identify as strongly with our jobs.

-> action-dependant, environment-dependant

Identity based on environment: Nationality

This one’s a tricky one. I hope I can illustrate my points well enough. The country where you grow up has an effect on you. It's what you're familiar with as a child, and it'll stay with you probably for your entire life. Lots of people hold pride for their country. It's usually something very inherent to a person, because of how deeply connected it is to one's upbringing. So why isn't being trans ever compared to national identity? It seems like a weird question at first, since you can't feel about your nationality like you can feel about your assigned gender (nationality dysphoria?), right? But actually some people do feel very uneasy with their nationality, and you can (if you have the means) move to a different country. I think the inability to compare the two might have something to do with how immigrants, no matter how hard they try to fit in, tend to be viewed as foreign in their new home. The bottom line, tho, is that we generally don't view nationality as something a person can change. And the experience of not vibing with your country is very different from not vibing with your assigned gender or human-ness.

-> not action-dependant, environment-dependant

Identity based on actions and environment: Relationships

Someone might identify as a family person. They put a lot of value on spending time with family. Someone might identify as an extrovert. They're outgoing and feel good spending lots of time with people. To an extent, these examples depend on action. The family person isn't really one when they never interact with their family. The extrovert isn't really one when they never talk to people. These identities depend both on actions and environment. Someone can't be a family person without a family who spends time with them. Someone can't be an extrovert if there's no people around. Would they still identify as that if they lack those things? It's not fully an identity that comes from within.

-> action- and not action-dependant, environment-dependant

Identity based on actions: Dietary choices based on personal ethics

I present myself as example. I'm vegan. I identify as vegan, sure. But of course nowhere near as deeply as I identify as genderqueer. Why? I guess because, if I start consuming animal products tomorrow, I'm no longer vegan. It's action dependant. I could say because of that it's not as inherent to me as my gender, but that's not quite true. I feel very strongly about being vegan, and pushing myself to be not-vegan would hurt me a lot, as would pushing against my natural gender expression do. But, even so, it's an action dependant thing. Gender, on the other hand, isn't. No matter how I dress or act, I remain genderqueer and prefer male pronouns, because gender isn't linked to any sort of action. The same goes for alterhumanity. My linktypes aren’t dependant on any actions like my veganism is.

-> action-dependant, not environment-dependent (unless in case of circumstances like illness or food shortage)

Let's go over gender and alterhumanity in a similar observation style.

Gender

You're your gender, no matter how you dress and act. Gender doesn't depend on your actions. It also doesn't matter how you're treated. It's nice to be recognized as your gender, but a lack of validation from other people doesn't make you not-your-gender. Gender identity may be influenced by our environment, but it's not dependent on it. Gender may be fluid over the course of some people’s life, but this fluidity can’t be forced (that would be conversion therapy). A person can’t force themselves to change either.

-> not action-dependant, not environment-dependant

Alterhuman

For some people being alterhuman changes over time, for some it doesn't. This change can’t be caused by force (neither by the person themselves or the environment) without hurting the person. Being alterhuman isn't related to any actions or the environment. An alterhuman identity might be influenced by both those things, but it's necessary. I'm sure there's some birds out there who identify as birds because they're pilots, and birds who identify as such because they have behaviours that they categorize as bird behaviours (I’m thinking, like, having a frequent urge to flap your arms like wings or ‘pecking’ stuff with your mouth), but there’s also plenty who don’t undertake any bird-like actions. You don't have to do anything to identify as a bird except identify as the bird. You're the only person you need to make comfortable about the identity. It doesn't matter if other people don't validate you - it won't make you not-a-bird spiritually/psychologically/metaphysically/etc.

-> not action-dependant, not environment-dependant

I feel like I rubbed my point to mush by writing so much for smth I can wrap up in just two sentences. Being alterhuman and being trans are very similar identity aspects to each other because you're the only person who can judge their validity. Neither your actions nor environment dictate who you are for both.

[jazajas]

okay so i finished love, victor a while ago and i saw some other reviews and thoughts about it here so now i've got a pretty good list on my thoughts and feelings.

tl;dr: it has some issues, yes, but im gonna hold out and hope it gets better later on because the same thing happened with the first few eps, i wasn't that into it but then it got good, and nothing is ever great with the first season, because at that point we're getting used to those characters.

⚠️caution: spoilers ahead (im on mobile, i cant get an under-the-cut)⚠️

1. while a leah on the offbeat movie would have been amazing movie sequel (even tho i havent read the book yet, im just here for the wlw content) i am kind of glad we got this instead. mostly because I've seen book series where one movie was good, so they decide to do the rest, turn out bad (hunger games? divergent? percy jackson? the hobbit?) because so much was cut from the book-to-first movie writing, that other scenes wouldn't make sense to future movies if they had those in while cutting others. however, i am sad that i didn't get to make the choice of deciding whether what was cut was wrong etc. about future movies, but i'll take what i can get.

2. LGBTQ+ POC as a lead! that's amazing! as a ace/bi lantina that's close to home (it also is great that victor's from texas and so is ya gorl) and even then it's a mixed latinx family! i think pilar mentioned that at least the grandmother left Colombia and i saw the Puerto Rican flag in victor's room. also the salazar's are definitely from small town texas, even without knowing the name. (church barbeques, the use of the words "such a diverse city" in regards to atlanta)

3. a lack of actual lgbtq+ main storylines (so far) is kind of sad for a show like this. i was getting serious bi/pan vibes (as a lot of other people) from victor from the beginning, and when it was implied that victor was actually gay (while great, not shaming) as it has been brought to my attention, there was a lot of looking at a lot of straight relationship problems (please let us know more about benji)- edit 6/18: upon further consideration, it very much is a show about questioning your sexuality, I'm speaking about the other straight relationship issues, not mia and Victor's, its just the first season.

4. let us talk about cheating for a sec. never okay, in any circumstance. i feel sorry for mia that she saw victor making out with benji and the fact that he was doing any of that in the first place. victor made a choice to lie about the espresso machine and then kissed benji at the hotel and then when benji was fighting with derek, basically confessed his love and mistakes, then proceeded to makeout with benji after he broke up with derek, he built that grave and now he must lie in it. i get having feelings for a guy when you are in a relationship with a girl, and not accepting yourself enough to end that relationship but you really want it to work so you can be "normal". really, he should have told mia after he got back from the trip tho. i get being in highschool and doing stupid stuff and making dumb decisions, but for a show aimed at teens i think we should also remind said teens to make good choices even if we have to lose some realism within the character choices.

4. pilar and her decisions based off her brother pissed me off. because i honestly think that if she'd kept her mouth shut about what she knew or confronted victor about it in the first place we could have avoided a LOT of mess. did she not learn from snooping around her mother's business about her relationships that going behind a person's back doesnt end well? i did, however, like the pilar/felix friendship and was really kind of hoping that they'd get together during their coffee hangout (although now im glad that didn't happen) because they had a deeper understanding of each other. same with wendy/felix, although they do seem to much alike to work out in the long run but i still feel bad for wendy.

5. i don't know how i feel about lake and andrew, as people separate from each other. both seem to be the way they are from their upbringing (not confirmed why andrew is such an ass, but if his comment about his dad is anything to go by i bet it's got something to do with attention) but andrew seems to be less, idk, superficial? like he turned down mia because he didn't want to be a rebound, he didn't out victor, he actually stood up to early teasing the other dudes in the lockerroom were doing at victor (with teasing of his own obviously but that interaction had him on my nice list until much later). lake? lake. i honestly don't have an opinion of her? not really. i mean after hanging out with pilar i was hoping felix wouldn't go back to lake. is her name laken? i feel like her full name is laken. but they also played the "im only like this because my mom is really superficial about stuff and i do like the geeky nice guy but appearances" to "actually screw the norms im gonna makeout with him infront of the whole student body". i honestly thought she was gonna be bi because she kept hitting on mia when she was helping set up for her "date" and "big night" and there was one point where i saw her face fall at something mia said in relation to her and idk i was hoping she'd be bi (i figured early on that victor/mia wasnt gonna work and was like "oh mia/lake would be cute" but now idk.

6. okay on to the "big night", i have one word. NO. i didn't like the peer pressure into having sex. i agreed with felix when he said "your body your choice" but im also disappointed that victor made out with mia and when lake was talking to felix after victor left he didn't try to stand up for victor.

7. on to age gaps because i hadn't really thought of this at first. we'll start with benji/derek: WHAT GRADE IS BENJI?! because that determines my thoughts. if he's a sophomore that meant that he and Derek started dating benji's freshman year and thats eugh, don't do that, don't care if its a gay couple that shouldn't be happening because the maturity of the two characters is DRASTICALLY different (this is also a reason i am not a fan of cmbyn) but that would explain why they were so rocky. hoping the event at the gay bar was open to anyone not just for drinking, but not liking that fact that not one of the adults with victor were like: hey, this is a 16 year old, that's kind of wack when that dude was hitting on victor. that made me question some stuff. although i figure it might be making up for the lack of a gay bar scene in love, simon. but even then, in svthsa it's a restaurant with a bar that some people go to just to drink at, it wasn't just a bar, simon could be there but should NOT have accepted drinks from college kids, not matter how attractive.

8. i loved how bram and simon and their friends helped victor out though. i like how bram was like: hey i know my friends are a lot so here's a gay basketball league becaue there's no one way to be gay. i like how Simon talked about needing help himself just to help victor and how he said his friends were cool with it because it's a community. i like of justin(?) mentioned how being what his parents wanted was putting on a mask and pretending, not him doing drag. my favorite lines from that ep are: "and before you ask my pronouns are they/them/theirs" "'they're all gay? even that guy? he's like [insert really tall number]' 'yeah. you should see him in heels'" "or in simon's case: really unathletic" "and also because bram said that if i wore [the jean jacket] one more time he'd burn it". also katya was there. and the group hug too!

9. the back hand homophobia in relation to family is sad, but realistic and i sincerely hope his parents are kind enough not to be too harsh on victor because of it. anything they say that isn't positive or supportive of victor is bad but i hope they realize that there is more to him than that and that they can come to terms with it because it's not always that hard to be a part of that community and super religious. i am biromantic and catholic. and while there are some things i wont agree on my mom with, i know that it's more of a strike against God for kicking out gay kids from families than it is to be gay, because those parents were given trust by GOD to love those kids no matter what, and be good parents. so in the end, the parents are wrong and harmful and in the case of christians against jesus's teachings to love everyone.

10. this is fan speculation but dont think simon/bram are going through a rough patch? i honestly think it'd be a little cruel to the characters to have on of their actors be producing but then not have that relationship stay. and while it's not set in stone and obviously things happen in the real world, we have no proof script wise about there being a rift. all we have are bad photoshopped ig photos and scenes where two characters are never standing next to each other probably beccaue schedules never link up correctly for minor characters. who knows, maybe nick robinson was filming for a movie where is does have an even more major role than victor's gay guru in a series about victor so his filming time was around that. im gonna keep hope that things are okay.

11. that being said: we need more mainstream wlw content, because someone said it earlier and it really does seem to be catering to straight girls. i'll admit i did freak out when benji played call me maybe which is something i associated with him and victor but then kissed a guy because who wouldn't? we get that serenade and sweetness and then it'a ripped from us. but i did mellow out. if i flipped later it was because victor was making dumb decisions and i had to give myself a moment of compsure before i continued.

in the end, i'd say that there is a lot of growth this series needs to go through, but i also know that some people just aren't going to like it and i get that. but i also know that sometimes the best of stories have rocky starts, nothing is ever perfect from the beginning. and besides, further seasons are on hold until we figure out this covid thing, which means that you bet they're gonna be looking at our feedback. they saw what we thought before, they can do it again

i really did like it but we need more ACTUAL lgbtq+ relationship stuff from this series and better decisions on what we are teaching the younger generations, as well as what we want to focus on and realism within characters. i'm giving it an 8/10, because there is always room for growth and i really hope we get better things out of this than what we have been given in season 2.

edit: someone mentioned it really seeming like it was meant for Disney+ and i felt that. also to anyone who reaches the tags agter reading ALL OF THIS: i am sorry