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[vellecann]

win for all sports fans

[halsteadlover]

Exam Buddy

*Gif not mine credits to the owner*

• Pairing: Jay Halstead x Female!Reader.

• Requested by anon: Hi! I saw that your requests were open and I was wondering if I could please request a Jay Halstead x Detective Student Reader (she’s in her last year of her uni/established relationship) stressed out with her exams and Jay just comforts her kinda like a fluff to smut path? Thank you inadvance! :) loved your writing so I decided to request for the first time!

• Warnings: mention of nudity, oral sex (fem receiving), fingering, unprotected sex (always practice safe sex you guys), cursing, ugly ass writing (yeah that’s a warning too).

• Word count: 5182.

• A/N: PLEASE READ THIS ONLY IF YOU’RE 18+. That’s honestly so bad I don’t know what to think 😭 I hope you’ll like this piece regardless, please let me know what do you think, like, comment and reblog if you want. Thank you so much for your constant support, I will never shut up about it but I’m so grateful for all of you.

“Baby I'm home!”.

Jay announced as he walked through the door of the apartment you two shared, frowning when he got no response. There was an almost deathly silence in the house and he even doubted you were home for a moment.

“Baby? Where are you?” Jay spoke again placing the bags containing dinner on the kitchen table and then heading to your bedroom. He opened the door and a smile was born on his lips when he saw you sitting on the bed, your back to him. He went out in the afternoon and found you in the same position as he left you in the evening.

Without seeing your face, he already knew you had a pen between your lips as you chewed it in frustration. Your hair was tied up in a messy bun and you were wearing a t-shirt, obviously Jay's.

Numerous papers and notes were scattered on the bed, a sign you were still rehearsing and studying for your next detective exam. Jay walked over to the bed, realizing you hadn't even realized he was there yet.

“Hey,” he said placing his hands on your eyes, roaring as you literally jumped in fright.

“Are you out of your mind?! You scared the shit out of me!” you exclaimed raising your voice, your hand resting on your chest as you waited for your heartbeat to return to normal. “Go away, don't touch me,” you pushed him away when he, while he was still laughing out loud, tried to hug you. “You're a piece of shit you know that? You can't pop on me like that fuck's sake!”.

“Sorry love, I didn't mean to scare you,” Jay tried to justify himself, smiling at you. You rolled your eyes and returned your gaze to the note sheet you were trying to memorize. He removed some papers to make space and sat in front of you, so he could have a good look at you. “Why aren’t you looking at me?” he chucked.

“I'm mad at you now.”

“Why’s that my sweet princess?”.

“Because you almost gave me a heart attack!” you exclaimed looking at him not amused at all.

Jay tried to hold back his laughter and pulled you by your hands, wrapping you in a hug. “In my defense, I called you several times and you didn't answer me,” he kissed your forehead as he stroked your back “Can I make it up to you with dinner? I brought some Mexican, your favorite.”

Your eyes lit up when you heard those last words and in that same instant your stomach rumbled. “Mh, maybe.”

Jay chuckled and squeezed you tighter. “Now woman, are you going to give me a kiss or not? I missed you so much today.”

You smiled and lifted your head, placing a hand on his cheek and drawing him to you in a kiss. He almost moaned into the kiss, having no idea how much he'd missed your lips until they were pressed against his.

His hand stroked the side of your face, and a sigh escaped your lips as he let his tongue slip in your mouth, deepening the kiss and completely taking your breath away.

“Come on love let's go eat, I can't waste time, I still have to study,” you murmured once you pulled away.

“Since when is kissing your boyfriend a waste of time?” he asked rhetorically, raising an eyebrow.

You jostled him playfully. “Don't say that, you know exactly what I mean. I have the exam in three weeks and I'm literally not even halfway through the program, Jay I can't...”

“Hey, hey, hey, stop,” he soothed you placing his hands on your cheeks, “My love, everything will be fine, I know how you feel and I know you're under a lot of stress. How about we go eat now? Let's talk a bit and if you want I'll help you study later mmh?”.

You and Jay sat on the couch eating dinner and talked about how your days had gone. However, your mind was not at ease and you couldn’t stop thinking about the amount of pages you’d have to study and how little time you had. Anxiety was gripping your stomach and by then you couldn't concentrate anymore on nothing else but this damned exam.

Jay was trying to be as close to you as he could. His heart ached to see you so stressed out and worried, and God, he would’ve taken all the anxiety you felt not letting you worry one second of your life. He knew how you felt, he too had been there, but seeing you like this wasn't equally easy and not being able to do anything to make you feel more serene made him feel helpless like few other times in his life.

It felt like your life revolved around this damn exam. You couldn't think of anything else anymore. When you woke up in the morning the first thought was to go to study and when you went to sleep the last thought was how much you should’ve study the day after. You knew it wasn't healthy and you knew you were on the verge of loosing your mind.

It was just after midnight when Jay woke up.

He didn't realize he fell asleep and when he touched the side of the bed, he wasn't surprised to find out you weren't there. He sighed before sitting on the bed and standing up, walking towards the living room where – as he suspected – he found you.

You were sitting on the sofa, countless papers scattered around you as you stared at the notes resting on your legs. You went there to let Jay rest after he fell asleep while you studied. At that point, though, you couldn't even understand what you were reading anymore but you didn't want to give up, you couldn't.

Jay approached you from behind and was careful this time to make sure to let you know he was there. “Baby,” he said, placing his hands on your shoulders and starting to massage them. God, you were tighter than a violin string.

That pleasant touch made you close your eyes for a few seconds, throwing your head back and touching Jay's bare abdomen.

“What are you doing awake? Go to sleep honey, it's been a long day for you,” you muttered, eyes still closed as Jay's hands worked their magic on you. He looked down at you and a small smile was born on his lips when he saw the expression of contentment and relaxation on your face.

“I can't go back to sleep knowing you're here,” he replied and leaned over to give you a kiss on the lips “Why don't you come to bed with me? You need to sleep baby, you can't go on like this.”

“I know, but I can't,” you sighed and then opened your eyes, reality hitting you full in the face again.

“Of course you can baby. Do you really think it's good for you to stay up late? I know for a fact you can't even concentrate right now,” he spoke. He let go of your shoulders and walked around the couch to kneel right in front of you, “Your brain needs to rest now, it needs to assimilate and process the information absorbed so far, it can't do that if you keep bombarding yourself with new notions.”

“I know honey but I don't have time... I still have so many things to do,” you murmured, your voice breaking with tiredness and on the verge of crying. Jay lifted his hand and gently stroked your cheek, smiling when you leaned against his touch.

“I know how you feel but this is not good for you my love. If you don't understand what you're studying, if you don't focus on what you do instead of how to do it in the most appropriate way so you can remember it, believe me, the moment you’ll take the exam you won't remember anything because you would’ve bombarded your brain with so much information and haven’t even given yourself time to make it your own,” he stroked your hair, tucking a strand behind your ear that escaped the bun “Don't think about how many things you have to do, it's the most destructive thing you can do baby. You can’t do anything without the constant thought that you have to do this and that, or am I wrong?”.

You slightly shook your head. He was right about every single word he said.

“Better two things done right than ten things done wrong, always remember that.”

“What if I'm asked eight of the ten things I haven't done?”.

“Y/N you underestimate yourself and your abilities,” he spoke softly as you stared at him and listening carefully to what he was saying, “You are one of the most talented people I know, I know you’re strong and nothing will stop you. If anyone is able to pass this exam, it's you.”

“What if I don't make it?” you whispered, your eyes watering.

“Who gives a fuck,” he replied “If you don't make it – which I really doubt – you'll get another chance, and if you don't make it either then you'll get the next chance. I'll still be proud of you like I've never been of anyone else, because I see how much you're committed, how much you're giving your all. But don’t forget this, you mustn't lose yourself, you mustn't sacrifice your health, your well-being for a stupid exam, it isn’t worth it and it will never be, okay? Nothing is more important than you, you understand me?”.

You nodded, trying to pry every ounce of your being to not to cry. You threw your arms around his neck and hugged him like you've never done before. “God Jay, I don't deserve you… I'm so lucky to have you.”

He wrapped his arms around your hips, pulling you close to him and hugging you with all the love and affection he was capable of. His hands drew imaginary circles on your back as he stroked you gently and tenderly in an attempt to soothe you and make all the anxieties and fears that tormented you go away.

You left kisses on his shoulder and then on his cheek, hugging and squeezing him again as if your life depended on it.

“It's okay baby, it's okay, I’ll always be by your side no matter what,” he whispered and your heart made a small jump in your chest, starting to beat wildly. God, you loved that man, so damn much and so intensely you couldn't even describe it.

“I'm so sorry,” you muttered so softly you didn't even know if he heard you. But when he pulled away slightly from the hug and looked at you with confusion, you realized he had heard you instead. “Why, love?”

“I feel like I've been neglecting you these last few weeks because of this damn exam and I feel so guilty… You… You’re so nice and understanding to me baby and I don't deserve you…” You didn't finish the sentence because Jay covered your mouth with his hand.

“Quit this bullshit, okay?” You nodded your head and he removed his hand from your mouth, then placed it on your side. “Don't ever say those things again, do you hear me? I don't know what assholes you used to deal with in the past but it's not a burden to me. God baby, I would kill to make you feel better and get all this weight off your shoulders.”

You smiled. “I love you so much, you know that right?”.

He giggled and he gave you a kiss. “I know and I love you too very much my baby. So how about you come to bed with me and get some rest now?”.

You wrapped your arms around his neck, your fingers stroking his hair. You took few moments to admire him, observing every single detail of his face, something you felt you hadn't done for a long, long time.

Jay's hands stroked your lower back as he smiled tenderly at you. His eyes sparkled as they looked at you with so much love you felt overwhelmed.

“Y/N don't look at me like that,” he whispered.

“Like what?” you whispered back, while your gaze alternated between his eyes and his lips and occasionally even on his bare chest.

“With these doe eyes, you know what you do to me.”

“I'm not doing anything,” you licked your lips and that was the point where he lost his mind. He sighed deeply, trying to stop the blood flow to his dick.

“Oh baby you know damn well what you're doing,” he retorted, that panty-ripping grin on his lips. Without saying anything else, you grabbed his face and pulled him into a deep and passionate kiss that left you both breathless within moments.

A confused look came over your face as Jay let go of you, standing up. He went around the sofa and positioned himself behind you, then placing his hands on your shoulders again and starting to massage them carefully.

“Mmmh,” you let out a moan as your muscles melted under his expert and careful touch. That little moan went straight to Jay's dick, he tried to keep his composure and not act like a horny twelve year old but fuck, you were so hard to resist.

“Oh baby, this feels so good,” you moaned as his fingers continued to work their magic on your muscles.

“Y/N. Stop it,” he warned you, not thinking he could keep his cool any longer and not literally fuck you right there and then.

“Doing what?” you asked innocently, smiling even though he couldn't see you.

“Moaning like that. You’re driving me crazy.” Before you could answer he leaned close to you, leaving a small kiss on the bare skin of your neck. That simple gesture was enough to send shivers down your spine and make you forget everything.

“How about we study for a little bit honey?” he whispered and another moan escaped your lips as Jay began to leave small and languid kisses down your jaw, your neck where he lingered and began his intense torture. His lips sucked your skin, his teeth nibbled at it, his tongue licked it making you completely lose your mind. “Come on baby.”

“I… I can’t…” you stuttered, not able to function properly.

“Why not? Wasn't that what you wanted?”.

“God Jay… You drive me crazy…”

“And you know how crazy it drives me to see you in just my shirt? It's been so long since I touched you.” Jay's hands slid from your shoulders onto your chest, then onto your abdomen, with an unbearable slowness you couldn't even keep yourself still.

“Can I?” he asked in a whisper and the speed with which you answered was embarrassing. “Yes, oh my god, yes.”

He chuckled and as his lips started nibbling your ear, his hands slipped under your/his shirt, reaching up to cup your breasts. He started massaging it, pinching your hard nipples with his fingers. “Goddamn baby, I love your breast so damn much... So fucking perfect.”

“Jay please…”

He took off your shirt, thus leaving you with only your panties in front of his lustful gaze. He walked in front of you again and didn't even try to disguise the audacity with which his eyes devoured your body. From your shoulders, to your breasts, going down your sides, your pussy - still for a little while - covered, up to your sinuous legs.

On the other hand, you didn't spare yourself either. Jay was there in front of you and he looked like a fucking Greek god. His muscular arms, his chest and abdomen sculpted as if by a sculptor with a hammer and picket, his V-line that disappeared into the gray suit which did nothing but highlight his throbbing erection. Everything about him drove you crazy and the more you looked at him the more you couldn't wait to have him. God you were so lucky.

Being with him was better than winning the lottery.

“Come here,” you said, when you finally brought your eyes back to him. However, though, you couldn't help alternating them between his face and his erect dick that you so ardently wanted inside you.

“Impatient baby?” he smirked, approaching you. He leaned towards you, placing one hand on the arm of the sofa and another on the backrest, effectively trapping you in his arms. You were intoxicated, mesmerized by his scent, his body, by him.

You placed your hands on his chest, feeling how his skin was on fire. He cocked his head to the side, looking at you with such intensity you almost felt like dying. But the way he licked his lips, like he was the predator ready to devour his prey, God, that completely took the breath away from your lungs.

You leaned in to kiss him but when he pulled back a bewildered expression appeared on your face.

“You don’t even want to kiss me?“ you asked with a raised eyebrow.

“Oh believe me baby, kissing you doesn't even come close to the things I want to do to you. I want fuck every single thing you studied out of your brain,” he replied, making you wetter than you already were. By then you were a complete mess and your pussy was throbbing with the desire to feel his fingers, his tongue, his dick inside you. “But I thought about what I said earlier.”

“Jay please touch me, I can't take it anymore,” you blurted out, not caring in the slightest how pathetic you sounded.

He chuckled, further building the frustration and anger inside you. He kissed you but as you tried to deepen the kiss he pulled back, making you huff with impatience. “I'm hating you so much right now. Stop teasing me like that.”

“Oh my little princess is so impatient, don't worry love I'm not going to leave you like this, fuck, god knows how much I can't wait to have my dick inside you, but I've been thinking about something.”

You rolled your eyes, frustrated and eager. “What?”.

“I think you should continue studying.”

“Wait, what? Are you serious? I'm half naked in front of you and all you have to say is 'you should continue studying'?”.

“Exactly,” he smiled at you, taking the notebook you were studying from and placing it next to you “I'll help you repeat and maybe give you an incentive.”

“Incentive?”.

Jay reached down and placed his hands on your breasts, massaging them vigorously before wrapping his lips around your right tit, sucking, licking and biting your nipple.

You moaned, arching your back to meet his movements. Your hand rested on the back of his neck, as you stroked his hair. A groan escaped your lips when he pulled away from your breasts but your body vibrated with anticipation when his hands descended along your hips, then taking off your panties and throwing them in an indefinite point of the room.

At that moment you were naked, completely at his mercy and you couldn't wait to be used as he pleased.

Your breath died in your throat when Jay, without ever breaking eye contact, spread your legs wide enough to have a perfect view of your wet pussy after settling between them.

“Now you're going to be a good girl and study like you wanted to do and I'll be here to listen to you okay?” he spoke while his hands caressed your thighs as a sign of provocation “In the meantime I will entertain myself by licking this gorgeous pussy of yours.”

“Jay c'mon please. You know very well that… Oh fuck…” you finished the sentence with a loud moan when Jay stuck out his tongue and gave a long, slow lick of your folds.

Just licking you after what he felt like forever was enough to make him moan. The expression of pure ecstasy on your face, God, that vision alone was almost enough to make him come in his pants before you even touched him.

“Shit baby I missed this pussy so damn much,” he murmured in ecstasy, as if he'd just stepped through the gates of heaven, his eyes locked on you as you squirmed under his touch. His thumb drew imaginary circles on your clit, making you moan uncontrollably as pleasure coursed through your veins. “C’mon. Study now.”

“Jay… I… Oh yeah fuck just keep going…” you moaned, your hands resting all over the couch in an attempt to give you some support. Jay, however, suddenly stopped and an unsatisfied groan escaped your lips. “What did I just tell you?”.

“Baby please it's not fair… I can't…” you whimpered like a little girl whose sweets had just been stolen. He nodded at the notebook next to you and, letting out a long series of profanities that made him chuckle, you took it, opening it to any page.

“Now read, I want to hear you talk.”

You did as he said, wanting nothing more than to have an orgasm, and you started reading even if your mind didn't have the slightest idea of what you were saying, too focused on his tongue which then started licking your pussy again.

Jay pressed his nose against your pussy, inhaling your smell, that smell he missed so much, burying his mouth in your folds, making you a mess of sighs, moans and groans, making a mess on his mouth, dripping with your wetness.

Jay never took his eyes off you for a second, licking, sucking on your clit and all your fluids. His tongue alternated slow movements with faster ones, making you lose you mind.

“Keep going. If you stop, I'll stop too,” he spoke but you seemed to be on another planet. He grabbed your thighs, wrapping them around his neck as you spontaneously squeezed him between them. God, he couldn't have been in a better place, he could’ve choked to death like this and still be the happiest man on earth.

You tried to read, you really tried, but it was impossible. Your vision was clouded with pleasure, you couldn't utter a single word without a long series of moans escaping your lips. At that point you were sure that everyone heard you, but you didn't care, you were only focused on Jay, his tongue and the finger he was fucking you with.

“Oh yeah baby you make me feel so fucking good..." you sighed, now out of breath.

“Keep going darling, you're being such a good girl,” he murmured as he ate you as if he was a hungry man who hadn't eaten anything for days. He replaced the finger inside of you with his tongue, fucking you with it. As his tongue went in and out of you, his thumb continued to massage your clit, making you completely lose all ability to think.

You threw your head back, arching your back as you began to feel the orgasm building inside you, your notes now completely forgotten. Your body seemed to go into spasms and you didn't know how much longer you would be able to resist.

“Jay…” you moaned his name and it was so fucking sexy that Jay wanted to record it and put it as his cell phone ringtone. He knew you were close, after a long time together he had gotten to know your body and knew when you were about to come. Your legs were shaking, your breathing was heavy as if you were running, your movements against his face were impetuous, messy. He didn't stop. He started to fucking you with two of his fingers, and as he sucked your clit you finally exploded into an orgasm so intense you thought you were dying.

You didn't know if you could die from an orgasm, have a heart attack because of pleasure, but that's exactly what you felt in that moment and, fuck, it was so beautiful. You felt your vision blur, your body fluctuated as if you were in space and for an instant you lost the space-time conception.

You remained for a few moments with your eyes closed, trying to recover and come to your senses.

Jay was taken aback when after a minute you pulled him to you, kissing him like your life depended on it. His lips and beard were still wet with your fluids and you could feel your taste in his mouth while you deep kissed him.

Your hands pulled down his pants along with his boxers and he kicked them off, standing naked in front of you in all his glory. God you wanted nothing more than to feel it inside you.

“Baby… Oh, holy shit,” he hissed as you wrapped your hand around his dick and started stroking it. “Fuck yes,” his hips began to move in sync with the movement of your hands and his arms struggled to hold him up as the pleasure flowed freely through his veins.

“I need to be inside of you baby, I can't take it anymore,” he groaned, as he tried to leverage all of his strength to try not to come after even a minute.

He settled between your legs, grabbing one and placing it on his shoulder and with almost excruciating slowness he penetrated you, slipping inside you and finally filling that void you felt.

A guttural moan escaped his mouth and he didn't know how he managed not to come instantly. Jay remained in that position, still, trying to enjoy every single moment, feeling your pussy clench, soaking wet, around his needy dick. You started to get impatient, feeling the need to feel him moving inside you growing more and more. “Baby please, fuck me… I need it so bad,” you started moving underneath him, slightly moving your hips to seek some relief, to hit that magical spot inside you and Jay almost had a heart attack, already on the verge of losing control.

“Jesus Christ… Fuck Y/N…” he cursed “It feels so good to be buried inside you… You make me lose my goddamn mind…”

Finally, he began to move his hips, with slow, decisive, calculated movements and the moans you began to make were so hot they could compete with a porn film actress. His dick masterfully fucked you, tortured you and with every single damn thrust he left you wanting, craving for more.

“Jay please… Faster…” you cried out, your hands on his chest. One arm was around your leg while the other rested next to your head on the back of the sofa. Your eyes were fixed on each other, the green of his irises mingling with yours. You never took your eyes off the other even as his dick came out and disappeared inside you with more vigor, more strength and decision this time.

It was a higher level of intimacy, you seemed to be a whole and not only from a physical point of view because it was not only your bodies that made love but also your souls.

“Oh yes baby… Just like that fuck…” you moaned loudly, completely lost in the pleasure Jay was giving you. Your fingers pressed more firmly against his skin, causing him scratches that you didn't even realize at first.

“Baby I won’t last any longer if you keep clenching around me like that,” he breathed out, his eyes alternating between yours and your parted lips. “Please kiss me.”

You lifted yourself slightly and without having him to tell you twice, you fulfilled his wish. It was a messy, wet kiss, both totally lost in each other as he continued to fuck you. You couldn't kiss each other without stopping and moaning into each other's lips, as the sound of your skins filled the room.

“My god… Ah yeah… I love you so fucking much Jay…” you whispered as your faces were still so close, your mouths touching as you swallowed each other's breath and moans.

Jay didn't expect to feel what he felt with that simple statement. It wasn't the words, it certainly wasn't the first time you said you loved him, but it was the way you said it, so vulnerable, in the throes of uncontrollable pleasure while his dick continued to mercilessly fuck you, so sensual but at the same time whispered so softly it made his heart melt.

“Y/N…” he moaned your name like a little prayer “What the hell are you doing to me baby, I love you so much too… Ah… So fucking perfect, shit.”

Jay felt he was close and by the way you clenched around his dick he knew you were too. His movements began to be faster, more disorderly.

“Yes baby you want to come for me mmh? Do you want to fill my pussy with your cum?” you sensually beat your lashes driving him further crazy, while your fingers touched and stimulated your clit.

“Fuck baby, fuck, fuck, I'm coming... Holy shit!” he gasped and with one last thrust he let himself go into an overwhelming orgasm, releasing every single drop of his cum inside you. You came almost immediately too, rocked with the waves of pleasure that continued to course through your body and make you toes curl.

Jay collapsed onto the couch next to you but before you knew it he was pulling you onto him, wrapping his arms around your body and hugging you tightly against him.

If the sex was mind blowing, the cuddles after sex were almost better. God only knew how much you both loved being embraced like this, one on top of the other, your naked and hot bodies in contact.

“Shit if this is how you study for an exam I won't even get up to go to the bathroom,” you murmured, your eyes closed from tiredness. Jay chuckled, his chest vibrating under your head.

“I'll be happy to help you baby, I won't back down you know,” he replied too with his eyes closed as his fingers caressed the bare skin of your back, up and down, from your shoulders to your lower back. “Babe?” he continued when he got no answer. He lifted his head slightly to be able to look at you and a smile crept onto his lips as he noticed you immediately fell asleep.

“My sweet baby,” he whispered, leaving a kiss on your forehead and stroking your now messy and disheveled hair, at the same time letting out a sigh of happiness and contentment. “You are the best thing that ever happened to me you know that? God, I will never stop saying how lucky I was to meet you and have you in my life,” he continued softly giving you another kiss on the forehead, cradling you in his arms, “I'm so proud of you, you can't imagine how much. Now rest okay? I will always be here by your side. Sweet dreams my love.”

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Traditional Symbolism in Jujutsu Kaisen Opening 4 - Specialz

[⚠️Warning: Possible small spoilers⚠️]

Hata-jirushi (旗印)

The white banners seen in the background of this scene are most likely Hata-jirushi (旗印). Hata-jirushi were the most commonly used war banners on medieval Japanese battlefields. The kanji used here “旗印” literally translates to “symbol flag”, “marker banner”, etc.… These war banners were generally simple streamers attached by a horizontal cross-piece to a shaft, unlike the later used nobori (幟) which were stiffened. Later, some hata-jirushi were hemmed on their sides and tops to better attach them to their poles in such a way that they were visible from the front. The purpose of these banners was to help identify and distinguish different army sections and regiments.  The use of them in this scene helps to set the tone of this arc which is essentially the start of a war between jujutsu sorcerers and cursed spirits.

Torii (鳥居)

In this panel, several characters are seen passing through a torii (鳥居). A torii is a traditional Japanese gate mostly found at the entrance of and within Shinto shrines. Torii gates are where kami are thought to travel through and are welcomed to the shrine. It is customary to walk to the side of a torii gate when passing through instead of walking down the center—as it is believed that only kami may pass through the center. The word torii derives from the term “tōri-iru” (通り入る) which roughly translates to “pass through and enter”. These structures mark the transition between the mundane, secular world and the sacred grounds of the shrine. Thus, passing through a torii gate can be thought of as “crossing into another dimension or entering into spiritual communion with nature”. Torii gates act as both a physical barrier and spiritual guardian separating the profane from the sacred within its boundaries. Therefore, it is believed that those who pass through one, are cleansed of their worldly worries and enter a realm of tranquillity and peace. Aside from their religious significance, torii gates hold other more abstract meanings such as providing good fortune, hope, purity, and protection from evil spirits. In this panel, as the characters pass underneath the torii it signifies their crossing from the physical to the spiritual world—which could refer to them traveling down the path to enlightenment or death. Since torii are also believed to provide good fortune and protection from evil spirits, the characters passing under one could be a sort of send-off ritual before the battle to ensure their safety.

Ōnusa (大幣)

In addition to more hata-jirushi, we can see an ōnusa (大幣)—also known as a nusa (幣) or a Taima (大幣)—a wooden wand used in traditional Shinto purification rituals in this panel. Ōnusa are embellished with shide (paper streamers). The wand is also referred to as a  (祓串) when the shide are connected to a hexagonal or octagonal staff. It is believed that impurities are transferred from the person or thing to be purified to the ōnusa by waving the ōnusa left, right, then left again. The usage of them in this scene adds to the traditional imagery and the idea that something significant is about to happen that will require the characters to purify their minds and steel their resolve.

Nokotsudo (納骨堂)

In this scene, Itadori is seen standing in front of a nokotsudo (納骨堂) which is a Japanese ossuary. A nokotsudo is known as a “nokotsuden” or “reido” and is a building in which the remains of cremation are kept. Nokotsudo are generally built in the precincts of temples and are equipped with lockers to keep the remains and are occasionally equipped with Buddhist altars above these lockers to place Buddhist mortuary tablets. This scene portrays Itadori breaking down in front of a nokotsudo. This could either refer to him facing the ashes of the people Sukuna killed using his body—or perhaps more improbably the scene depicts him being confronted with the fact that his grandfather's wish has inadvertently led him down this troubled path.

Joss paper (金紙)

The rounded pieces of paper falling from the sky in this scene are likely pieces of joss paper (金紙). These are typically sheets of paper or papercrafts which are used as burnt offerings in ancestral worship as well as the veneration of deceased relatives on special holidays in Asia. Joss paper is typically printed with various representations of worldly goods such as money, houses, cars, credit cards, etc.… Joss paper is burnt at Asian funerals “to ensure that the deceased’s spirit has sufficient means in the afterlife”. In wuxia and xianxia C-dramas, joss paper is often seen falling from the scene during scenes in which the reanimated and ghostly beings invade the world of the living—which is somewhat similar to the setting in this scene with Megumi meeting his reanimated father. Additionally, it was partly Toji's pursuit of money that led to his death, taking him away from his son, so it is somewhat ironic to have joss paper raining down on him.

[P.S. A few people have been analysing this opening on other platforms, but I wanted to touch on some of the more obscure cultural nuances... I am not Japanese, so this is based off of my own research, so I apologise if I miss anything or get anything wrong. Feel free to make corrections or additions in the comments and reblogs respectively.]

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Robron Fanfiction Recommendations (Jan-2024)

The below were recommended in January 2024 on Twitter. Enjoy!

Memories at Midnight (2016) 2.0K words, robertsaaronsebastiankurt

It’s New Year’s Eve 2015 and there’s a party at the pub but Aaron’s not in a party mood especially since dear ol’ mum invited the vile one to it. Enter Robert who is still a bit off recovering from his shooting. What better way to celebrate the approaching new year than to have Aaron unloading to Robert about the vile one and more.

Robert Flippin’ Sugden (2016) 2.8K words, SugdenLovesDingle

Paddy can’t think of anyone worse than Robert for Aaron as we all know. But that perspective begins to very slowly change between Robert and Aaron participating in the pub quiz to their legal wedding taking place in Apr-2017 with a surprise guest. Yup, clearly an AU 😂.

Blue Eyes and Kiss Red Lips (2017) 4.8K words, iwillsendapostcard

Once upon a time, Robert lost his family and his home to the Whites who turned him into a one man servant in order to allow him to stay in the home he grew up in. One day, a grand ball was announced for the prince… Aaron… to find a match for him. Well, we all know the story of Cinderella so the only question is… how will Robert and Aaron get their happily ever after?

These words are all we have (2018) 3.6K words, their_dark_materials

The insults book… we only heard it brought up once and never again (unfortunately). But why, how and when exactly did this insults book come about? It’s been a ‘thing’ for longer than any of us thought actually. And who exactly has been an active participant in those pages. Well, read on and find out the answers to all these questions.

The Sunshine Show (2017) 4.1K words, NotForOneSecond

When Robert becomes Aaron’s co-anchor on the morning show, it’s dislike on first sight for Aaron. Soon after, Ed gets a job at the station showing interest in Aaron. When a caller comments about their on screen chemistry, Aaron’s gobsmacked. But that does appear to be the turning point as Aaron begins to have a change of perspective about Robert…

Wedding receptions and a wake (2018) 5.5K words, nothing_much

Aaron’s a waiter that is helping his friend (Vic) out on weekends with catering gigs. During the course of four weddings and a wake, Aaron comes across the ‘beautiful blonde” Robert (who’s engaged to Chrissie) and the two of them wind up fooling around on the sly during each of these events, never knowing if they’d see each other again. Over these gigs, Robert will need to stop hiding from the sister he hasn’t seen for nine years and also figure out what makes him continually seek out the ‘gorgeous waiter’ as his own wedding looms.

Oh but darling we are meant to be series (2017) 12.3K words, softlyspoken

Three stories in this series. Aaron has been in love with his ‘almost’ boss Robert since he’s started in the office and never thought he’d have a chance with him until an awards night. From there the stories focus on the office figuring out they are together and the big final story that concentrates on confronting Jack when he shows up on Robert’s birthday and how childhood secret coming out affects everyone around them including Robert’s relationship with Aaron.

Cut to the feeling (2018) 9.9K words, their_dark_materials

It’s 2018 and Aaron’s birthday. He’s having dreams of Vegas with Robert even though he’s with the boring pointless one. To top it off, he’s feeling off and grumpy about the day and dreading what’s planned. When he gets the pressies from the dull one, it ‘seems’ to indicate that maybe he does KNOW and SEE the REAL him after all. But really, he should have known better. The only one that’s ever known him fully is Robert which the pressies clearly go back to him. So what now? Basically, let’s get rid of the pointless one sooner rather than later 😀.

What Might have been (2016) 6.9K words, rayrod67

It’s a Wonderful Life and that’s exactly what Robert is gonna learn after he wishes he hadn’t been born after inadvertently taking on a dodgy (and dangerous) haulage deal that could land him in legal trouble. Enter a guardian angel who takes Robert’s wish seriously and shows him how things would have been for his Sugden family and especially later for Aaron if he hadn’t been around. Robert will learn some deaths were always meant to be but others…

Almost lost you (2016) 11.2K words, jamesm97

It’s the vile one’s trial and all see red, especially Aaron, at the performance he presents related to his physical condition. This leads Aaron to take a combination of whiskey and sleeping pills which Robert gets to him in time before the worst could happen to Aaron. What follows is Robert and Aaron growing closer while they wait for the verdict while Chas reluctantly accepts Robert as he makes her son happy and steps aside from interfering. Also, there’s a secret from their past year that gets a strong reaction out of Aaron.

[teutaranaway]

i dont want helvetica in my askbox please remove h8m. i dont wanna see him . thanks inadvance

[hotguycomiczine]

Hi, i wanted to ask if it's possible to collab with someone we know? I precised in my application that i wanted to collab with someone that didnt applied yet cuz he dont know if that's ok to ask this or not. thank you inadvance for the reply :)

Hello! We don’t see an issue with that if you’re both accepted! If there’s somebody applying that you want to work with, we request that you write the username of the person you wish to collaborate with in the comments so we’ll know in advance!

Thank you as well for asking, and good luck!

[negative-speedforce]

3, 4, 7, 11, 13 for Nora?

3. whether or not i have any merchandise/objects with them

Nope, but solely because I am perpetually broke.

4. what about their personality i like

I love Nora's 'brightness'. Idk, it's hard to explain. She has her dad's spirit, his relentless optimism. I also love her duality, how even with that bright, optimistic spirit, she's still kinda morally grey at times, especially with her working with Thawne and stuff.

7. the moment of theirs that made me the happiest

When Barry taught Nora to phase. Idk that was actually really cute to me.

11. my favorite relationship they have with another character

Nora and Iris, actually! It's so messy, but so sweet as Nora slowly learns to understand her mother after the trauma that Iris inadv inflicted on her by hiding the truth from her.

13. what i dont like about the way the fandom portrays them

Mostly it's just that no one else really seems to get her. As someone who's never met my father, I would 100% make every single one of Nora's decisions if I was in her place, so maybe, somehow, I'd have a chance of a relationship with him.

I feel like a lot of people take that stuff for granted, and just chalk her up as immature and annoying.

[tokwattoge]

Alam niyo ba, gusto ko naman din mabili yung sarili ko ng nice headband or bagong lipstick kasi paubus na pero ayun wala naman akong pambili kahit ang mura lang naman nun.

I know kasalanan ko rin naman to, nung maluwag pa kami parang twice kami nag eeat out. Parang halos everyday kami nagssplurge sa meryenda kasi I was pregnant at the time tapos nung nanganak na ako siyempre para malaban ang post partum lalabas every now and then tapos kakain. So in a sense, yung "rewards" ko sana for today inadvance ko na. Hahhaha just looking forward to christmas. Skip na lang yung birthday ko kasi alam ko naman na work work work pa rin non haha. Feeling ko hindi ko lang accomplishment ang makabawi sa pagkakabaon sa utang kasi shinashare ko sa inyo. eme.

[daramdarararam]

Happie New Year guys! Inadvance ko na kasi matakaw ako

[tunabesimpin]

Ahaha just a head up im gonna be scheduling the event asks for through tomorrow and the next day so- sorry inadvance for flooding the tl ahahaaa

[gendy-endy]

I hope the first big run happens during October because A WHOLE ASS CITY BEING INVADED BY RUTHLESS, BLOODTHIRSTY CREAURES IS A PERFECT HALLOWEENY THING FOR THE GAME TO PULL.

im going to talk about datamined stuff under the cut so keep that in mind.

so for what I've heard the whole plaza will change in a way? (Vauge I know)

Like how?

Is the plaza going to be heavily borded up and you can see salmonid out side some chain linked fence? Is it going to be smaller because of the salmonid?

Are there going to be some shops that we can't even enter because of the salmonid?

Salmon run is probably going to be closed during this time, but like how is this going to contribute to Mr grizz/Lil Judy's story?

How many days inadvance are we going to know Ingame, like I have a feeling that we're going to find out out of game before it game.

Like I have a feeling the in-game anoncement will be a few mear hours before the big run starts, like every disaster type thing.

Like how are the idols going to work with us?

Also from the same datamind thw big runs will be like a reverse splatfest of sorts

So that brings up the question: is there away to lose these?

what happens when we lose?

Dose the fact we lose affect salmon run in any way? Or just the outcome in general.

[halsteadlover]

Hi! I saw that your requests were open and I was wondering if I could please request a Jay Halstead x Detective Student Reader (she’s in her last year of her uni/established relationship) stressed out with her exams and Jay just comforts her kinda like a fluff to smut path? Thank you inadvance! :) loved your writing so I decided to request for the first time!

Hi!

First of all thank you so much for your request and I’m sorry for taking so long but here it is, Exam Buddy. I hope you’ll like it, let me know what you think ❤️

[dailyaudiobiblechronological]

12/25/2022 DAB Chronological Transcription

Merry Christmas! 

2 Timothy 1-4 

Welcome to the Daily Audio Bible Chronological. I'm China. Today is the 25th day of December. Welcome. Merry Christmas to you, to your family, all your loved ones. You made it. We're here. Happy birthday to Jesus our Savior whether or not today he was actually born, we don't know the likelihood of it, I don't know. But this is the time that we commemorate his birth, that we honor his life, and we've been building up for this. We've been celebrating Advent for four weeks now, and here we are. You've made it. We're here. So I hope you are having a great Christmas. Whether you're listening to this in the morning or in the afternoon or in the evening, just pray that there's many blessings with you. The peace of the Lord would truly be with you, that you will have so much joy and laughter and peace, if nothing else. May the peace of Jesus rest with you and be with you. And yeah, it's a sweet thing. As I've been reflecting on Advent, I've been thinking about the heart. The purpose of Advent is the coming of Christ. And so to wait in that anticipation and we know that we celebrate Christmas on the 25th, but could you actually imagine being around Mary or even being married or being Joseph? And I know what it's like to be pregnant and waiting for your baby to come and being like, okay, this is kind of the expected time. They may have measured ETA days. That's what I call them. Instead of due dates. They may have measured them differently than we do now, but could you imagine, hey, this is the week, probably, or this is the month. We're not sure, but everyone's just excited and expected and waiting. And if you're Mary, you've had this probably inner dialogue going on of like, okay, so he's not going to look like Joseph, or is he going to kind of look like who is he going to look like? Will he just look like me at all? Will he look like god. Will I get to actually see characteristics of God through my child who they didn't have ultrasounds back then? So could this really be a boy or like, okay, his name is Jesus. Do we do a middle name? I don't know if they did middle names. I don't think they did middle names back then, but just even just all of that that expectation. I remember those feelings when my daughter was born, and she was born 42 weeks on the dot. So I was pregnant forever. And so just that expectation of, man, I don't I don't know when, but I'm excited and I'm expecting, and I'm ready, and you know, you're uncomfortable. Like, the expectation isn't always joyous. Sometimes it's uncomfortable, and sometimes it has sleepless nights and there's tears, and there's I can't do this anymore. I'm ready for this to be over. That's kind of the process of life that's kind of the process of things, of life, and especially with pregnancy. I can definitely vouch for that. I've only done it once. But I just have been thinking about Mary and if we were in the leading up to Advent, leading up to Christmas sorry. An inAdvent just that expectation that she would have had she would have had the last days of being pregnant. She would have had the last few weeks of people asking, Mary, are you feeling anything yet? Or you still pregnant? All of those things. And yet she was so expectant for exactly what the angel had spoken to her. And so all this to say, and I know that the second that your baby is born, you forget how long you've waited, you forget how uncomfortable everything is. You're so excited, you're so in love, you're so tired, you're so enamored and you're trying to process it all. So if you're feeling any of those things today, seems like you're right on track. It is. This is the glorious mess of birth. But Jesus is born. He's Emmanuel. He's with us. We celebrate his life. Thank you, God, for giving us your son. Thank you, Jesus, for coming. Thank you, Mary. I think we got to give Mary a little bit of thanks too. She did birth the Son of God. Shout out to Joseph. Thank you, Joseph, for sticking with her. Wow. Did not go down the way you thought it was going to get it. We're here. So Merry Christmas to you. Today we actually will not be reading the Christmas story. We are in Second Peter 1 through 3 and Jude 1. And this week we will be in the New International version.

Commentary:

Simon Peter. Go all the way back to the beginning of Simon Peter's letter. I just want to reread this because I think it's really good. This is talking about confirming one's, calling an election. His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of Him who has called us by his own glory and goodness. Through these, he has given us his very great and precious promises so that through them you may participate in the divine nature. Having escaped the corruption in the world caused by evil desires, for this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith. Goodness into goodness, knowledge into knowledge, self control into self control, perseverance into perseverance, godliness into Godliness, mutual affection into mutual affection, love. Or if you possess these qualities in an increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. But whoever does not have them is near sighted and blind, forgetting that they have been cleansed from their past sins. And this is so good. And this is why I wanted to go back to it, because I looked up what does effort even mean? Like, what does that mean? I'm in this space of life where I'm just like, okay, if I'm going to say this or if I'm going to encourage someone to do it, I want to know what it really means. If I'm going to believe this, I want want to know what it really means so that if someone's asking for an example, I can actually explain what it is instead of just being like, oh, just do what it says. Go on, don't ask any more questions, but actually to know what it means. And so by definition, effort is the use of physical or mental energy to do something exertion. And so if anything that we have in our physical or mental energy to do something based off Simon Peter's words, what he's saying is, in every effort or make every effort to add to your faith goodness. And he goes down and he's saying to add more to it, add more to it. So anything that is physical or mental, he's saying, make every effort, use all of those efforts to add to your faith goodness. And he continues to get on. Goodness to knowledge. Knowledge. Self control. Self control. To perseverance. Perseverance to Godliness. Godliness mutual affection. Mutual affection for love. And I just feel like that's a great homework assignment to do because I I don't know that, like, would just come to my mind, you know? And so to read this, I'm like, this is great. Like, this feels like great homework for me. And that's just what kind of works for my brain. I don't know if that works for you or not, but I like to just have these little things. I'm like, okay, Lord, show me what you want me to improve on. How do I become more like you? What are some things that need refined? What are some things that need sharpened? And what are some things I need to die? So something like this and being given a practical step of it and everything that we do, let us add to our faith goodness. What does that look like? Ask the word. What would this look like to add to my faith goodness and then knowledge. I know that these things are gifts from you, and I want these to be gifts from you. I want to receive these. I want to look like you, Lord. I want to hear your voice. And I think it's really powerful when we create space and we cut out the things that feel like distractions to us. I know there's things in my life that I feel like are just kind of like, go to and really loud and can just be that very thing distractions. And the Lord's like, hey, I would like to talk with you about this. There's constants throughout my day, whether it's busyness or trying to get everything done in the house or, like, spending time on my phone. And the Lord's like, hey, I want you to be present because you're missing what I'm doing in front of you or you're missing this with Reagan, this moment with Reagan, or the house doesn't have to look perfect or, you know, you don't have to be three steps ahead of yourself. You can enjoy this. And, yeah, I would like to spend time with you, you know, and from that comes with adding on to my faith, just like Simon, Peter was saying that I thought was so good and so encouraging and so propelling.  

Prayer:

Father, I thank you for your word today, and I thank you for the goodness that it brings. And I thank you for Simon's letters that encourage us and nudge us and lead us to goodness and that we would add to our faith all these things that he spoke of. And God, I thank you that you're not asking us to do them in our own strength or to do them on our own, but if anything you are saying, I will do this with you. I'm in this with you and I'm for you and we're going to do this together. And so I pray God that, one, we wouldn't be checked out of this year and be like, oh, it's Christmas. We're done seeing New Year's. But we would really just continue to press into what it is that you are speaking and what it is that you have for us and what you want to do together before this year closes out. And Lord, I also just pray that you'd be with your people today as we celebrate Jesus your birth. You're coming into this world, you were humble and innocent arrival into this world and I pray that we would rejoice with great cheer and with great celebration for your life and all that it brings and the fact that we now have life and life more abundantly because of you. And so I thank you for the gift of your life and it is in your name we pray. Amen. 

Announcements:

That is all for today. I hope you have a very merry Christmas and that you are enjoying your day surrounded by all the people that you love. And if it's not able to look like that this year, and I pray that you feel surrounded and loved by Jesus and by your community, your family here at the Daily Audio Bible. That is all for today. I'm China, I love you and I'll be waiting for you here tomorrow.

Community Prayer Line:

Hi, I'm just calling in to pray for I believe it was Adrian from the December 19 recording. My name is Jenna calling in from Saskatchewan, Canada. Father God, I would just like to lift up Adrian to you now, Lord. Lord, I just lay all the worries that she has in Your hands, Father. Lord, I pray that you would protect them on their trip. Lord, I pray that angels would surround the vehicle and just I pray that she would know that you are with her. You never leave or forsake us. Lord, I pray that your hedge production would be around them during their travels next Friday. In Jesus name, Amen.

Okay, guys, this is Ashley from Texas. I just listened to the December 20 podcast where Jill spoke a whole word and it was about she talked about Peter. And all I could think about was at the beginning of the year when I found myself pregnant out of wedlock, essentially almost homeless, at odds with the father of my child, away from home, away from family and friends, totally alone, feeling very worthless. And I decided to give my life to Christ. And even in that, I was not suicidal, but I would have been okay with getting out of here. I was distraught. And in my mind, Peter must have been like that when he denied Christ and he hears the cockroach. I wonder if Israel ever felt like that. It's hopeless. I'm hopeless. I'm worthless. All I do is hurt God. God over and over and over again. And what Jill said is, God still chose Israel as his chosen people, even though he knew what was going to happen. He still chose Peter, even though he knew what was going to happen. And he still chose me and you, even though he knew the sins that we were going to commit. I do not know why this has struck something within me. The word says we don't need to live in condemnation. And that is something I have to accept. And I just had to tell you guys, don't live in condemnation. God knew whatever it was you were going to do and he still chose you. I'm praying for you, my DABC family, you guys have been a whole blessing to me this year, and I thank God so much for you. Blessings.

Hi, everybody, from Daily Audio Bible C, this is Scott Campbell. I like to wish everybody from Daily Audio Bible C, even Jill and China and Brian Hardin. Merry Christmas and a Happy New year and happy birthday, Jesus. I'm glad it's Christmas.

[moneyguhidgf]

Day 7, bossing 🫡 ako namaman pero sa panibagong araw. Etong araw inadvance ko na ang pagkuha ko sa baon ko kase ramdam ko ang malamig at maulan na panahon.

Lessoned learned pag naramdaman mo na malakas ang ulan kuhain mo na baon mo para hindi na mabawi pag wala kang baon HWHAAHAHHAHAAH

[pearbody-squareheads]

21/05/24 (344 words)

8.831 words, 31 pages

My parents think I'm a moneywaster, because there was a period I'd get home with food from Tiger almost every time I went in the city, but they don't know that for every euro I spend for my own enjoyment, I have at least ten stashed in my pink turtle purse. Last year I had started hoarding them for a tattoo, then I got invited to the trip to Barcelona and there they went. Now, I had began hoarding them again inadvance for... I didn't even know what yet. Something. And to the top concert they went. I'm proud of my money management.

Day 21) if I could tell my past self one thing, what would it be? Let yourself be stopped in 9th grade. Repeat the year with the new class. You'll be happier.