#introjects cant enjoy their source!!

[milos-journal]

The Asher Family (TW: TribeTwelve)

Ok, long post, I'm gonna talk a lot. scroll on by or just skim for art if you do not care. Second, TribeTwelve post. TW for that. Lastly, I want to say that this post is a character analysis/my opinions on the Ssher family (Milo, Mary and Robert) so this kind of thing is gonna get gross in subject matter. TW for talks of abuse (specifically marital abuse and child abuse), cults (fictional), drugging, suicide, self harm, and a potential plethora of other topics. tread lightly.

Ok, now that that's out of the way, hello! This is just me babbling about underrated characters and giving hot takes that may cause debate or not, we'll see. It's also me showing off the designs I did for each of these bastards. VERY self indulgent, just something I wanted to make. If this post does well, I may do a post on Noah (or rather, the Noahs, plural) because I have a lot to say on him as well. I don't know how to cleverly segue this.

Milo Asher / Mr. Scars

I feel like it's important to start with Milo, half so that people can decide if I'm insane a quarter way through these paragraphs and either keep reading or scroll, and half because a lot of Mary and Robert's notes are going to elaborate on Milo since everything in TribeTwelve is tightly linked together.

From a writing perspective, Milo is one of, if not the character in TribeTwelve with the most depth. We get an almost whole life read on him and we see the trauma that made him the person he is and what lead to his suicide. However, what is interesting about the journal is the Noah notes, and moreso, how dismissive Noah is.

Something Adam does in his writing that I'm not a huge fan of is explain away all potential mental illness Milo and Noah certainly have and goes "It's from slenderman!! Collective influence!!" when a lot of it is much more nuanced. Milo at the least has PTSD and anxiety, and that's the least. Given the childhood trauma of being thrown into cults as a worshipped being, or given the drugging, or being beat as a kid and watching his mother get beat, he definitely has something wrong, whether or not it wants to be admitted.

Milo being "completely fine" despite overdosing on anti depressants and consistently shown with fresh SH scars feels like this weird glorification of mental illness.

But with that amount of trauma and horrific occurrences, something that is not exemplified enough, is Milo never fully heals from this trauma. He instead internalizes it (which, within his scenario, is his only choice) with no outlet, which makes his moral compass towards the end of Milo's Journal very interesting to say the least.

Milo Asher is absolutely a morally grey character. However, being from Noah's perspective the whole story (to the point where all the Milo centric content is literally annotated by Noah with his own thoughts on the matter) he is a consistently praised character. A lot of the story parades that Milo has done no wrong, simply because he's troubled and traumatized and Noah holds him dear. However, I feel like the entries "Mockingbird" and "Institute" are perfect examples of how unhealed trauma manifests unhealthily.

While many may argue Mary deserved every bit of what happened to her, which, in some ways she did, I think the best way to see everything is to pretend Noah Maxwell isn't there. Which sounds weird, but try to read everything wholly unbiased. In Institute especially it feels almost dirty the way its written, all of Milo's words are covered in this grime he has no guilt for. Did Mary deserve it? Yes, kinda, we get more into Mary later. Is it alarming how Milo had no regard for his or her safety, ruined a marriage, grinned as his mother got hit and swore at by his step father, and then beat the shit out of her and went "Well, she deserved it, so.."? Absolutely, it's very alarming. And, because of the fact everything is from Noah's perspective, not only canon but Tribetwelve's active fanbase puts Milo on this weird pedestal of martyr, how he can do virtually no wrong. I don't know, I'd love to see more of Milo Asher in this grim light, but not exactly demonized. But, this talk of moral greyness and unpacked trauma brings me to my next topic.

Milo's Journal almost entirely focusses on the topic of generational trauma in the Slenderverse, which I find very interesting. Within Slenderverse, there are a couple occurrences of protagonists wanting or even having kids, but often something happens that blocks them from having kids or something happens to said kid. However, Milo's Journal explores this concept of what would happen to a kid being haunted by Slenderman with a parent of the same affliction. It makes me wonder what a fully fledged Milo who ended up with a partner and kids would've been like. With none of that trauma unpacked and all choked down, would he end up just like Mary? Somehow better or worse? With the amount of trauma brought onto Mary (more on that later) that trickles onto Milo, it makes some very interesting writing.

Really quick I want to talk about Mr. Scars, just as a character, and how much wasted potential he is. I genuinely wish he had one of two routes, he either was a full and complete villain, creating this psychological horror by being haunted of a lost loved one who literally wants you dead, or for him to be a villain for Mary when she was younger. The villain for Mary route is interesting because it explains why she so desperately wanted to know who Mr. Scars is while also keeping up this theme of generational trauma. I feel like so much potential for both Mr. Scars and Milo is completely unused, and honestly, same goes for the rest of the Ashers.

Do what you will with my thoughts, have the design I did for Milo. I think I didn't do half bad. Tumblr MURDERED my quality, hopefully clicking on it will do it better.

I did not plan on writing this much, so I'm gonna put a cut here. If you're curious about Mary and Robert, that'll be under it.

Mary Asher/Cursor

Alright, this is deep shit now, and mostly speculation. Most of my writing from here on out will be VERY reliant on some of the old Milo's Journal and Sebastian's Journal leaks. You can find those here. (Yes, it's a download. It's a PDF file.) You don't need to read them to enjoy this post, but it's good for if you want a source on a lot of my opinions on Mary and Robert.

Actually into the bullshit now, I want to start by saying I do not think ANYTHING Mary did was okay, and almost everything she did was volatile and inexcusable. Holy fucking shit she's an underrated villain. And so many people brush her off and go "She was mean to Milo, she's the worst!" in the same breath as sucking HABITs toes, so I feel like it's only fair to give her a chance.

She, unlike a lot of the villains in TribeTwelve, has motive. From what we know about the journal Mary kept herself, she went through some TOUGH shit. A lot of her actions can be seen as preventative measures in her mind, a lot of it probably felt like simple protection to her. This does not make her actions valid, of course, but she probably was going through logical steps in her mind, especially since at the same time she was manipulated by a cult.

Need to sacrifice someone and the cult demands it? Have a kid! Kid's experiencing inexplicable paranormal activity that aligns with a cult messiah? He must be special, take him to meetings. Kid exhibiting disturbing behavior she had when she was a kid and at the same time the cult conveniently has pills to help it? It's natural, Milo needed to be protected.

My point is, a lot of her logic is there, even it doesn't track to most. And of course just because there's logic doesn't make it right, I just wish people thought on Mary more. Saw her as more of an interesting villain, y'know? Thought of her with more dimension past cruel and abusive.

I also forget to note, just putting it as a one off note, she was abused by pretty much all of her partners in some way with exception of Robert and John, or what we know of them. It doesn't connect to anything, just wanted to say it before I call it quits on the rant yada yada here's Mary. Quality got eaten.

Robert Asher / Scriniarii

I love Robert Asher as a character despite the fact we know NOTHING about him, and the fact we don't is a literal crime because what we know is so intriguing.

First, we know that Scriniarii is in his archival position without want, when he joins the TribeTwelve discord and nobody is helping him he exclaims "LOOK I DONT WANT TO DO THIS FUCKING JOB. I DID NOT ASK FOR THIS SHIT!" So, Firebrand or someone else forced him into this position. This doesn't help that he mentions he'll be "punished" by Firebrand for talking out of term. Here's the screenshot in question.

Second, we have no idea if Scriniarii is just a pen name or Robert ascended. Whether or not he is a collective member is very ambiguous. It's heavily implied he's ascended and outside the loop but still he could be some guy also.

Third, we know Robert is in the Order. In a screenshot I sadly do not have, he talks about how the order took his family and ruined his life. It is further confirmed in Wizards, when it says "I asked mommy why we have to go to two churches now and she says it’s to get closer to Daddy and closer to God."

All of this information together is so interesting. Did him and Mary meet through the order? (Update, apologies on misinfo for that question in specific, we have canon confirmation they did not and met beforehand) If so, was he on board with the child sacrifice? What about his command under Firebrand, how is he "punished" and how much control does Firebrand have over him? For those who were not part of the TTD while it was running and really wanna know more, The SCRINIARII Code is super useful for a good summary. I swear I had a good archive of the discord screenshots but apparently I don't, so thats the best you get.

Congrats! You got so far into the bullshit you get the final piece of art. Quality looks like he got chewed up and spat out.

That should be it for now. Again, if this post does really well and/or if people are interested, I will TOTALLY make more. Do what you will with my takes, write weird fanfic, call me dogshit, I don't care. Thanks for even reading this far. It means a lot.

[twylas-plural-positivity]

heres a positivity post for those in in-system relationships! hope you enjoy!!!

divider by @/cafekitsune

— shoutout to alters who've known each other for years, whos bond runs deep.

— shoutout to alters who just met recently and thought dating might be a fun thing to give a try.

— shoutout to alters who've spent months or years with feelings for another alter they havent voiced.

— shoutout to alters who know their time out is limited and so confessed quickly- maybe even earlier than they would have liked, so they didn't run out of time.

— heres to alters who just cant shut up about their in-sys partner. to alters who everyone knows is with someone. (pt: someone)

— heres to alters who cant ever talk about their in-sys relationship, no matter how much they want to.

— heres to alters who can only express their relationship through art or fandom, but can't genuinely discuss it with others, as their real relationship. (pt: genuinely)

— heres to introjects in in-sys relationships who use fandom to express that relationship, whether it be through selfshipping, ocxcanon, fanfiction, fanart, reblogging every post about you and your partner you can find, etc.

— heres to partners of introjects who like their partners source, or hate it but love them. to the alters who selfship with their partners source. to the alters who have to see their partner being shipped with someone else All The Time.

— heres to non-introjects in in-sys relationships, who cant really use fandom as an excuse to talk about it.

— shoutout to introjects dating introjects! whether from different sources or the same one. heres to alters in relationships completely different than their source. and heres to ones whos relationship looks exactly the same as it did there.

— shout out for people who are going to marry their insys partners or already have!

— shoutout to the alters who have just started dating.

— shoutout to the alters dating multiple people in their system.

— heres to the alters who have relationships both in and out of their system!

— heres to the alters in complicated relationships with each other.

— heres to the alters whos relationships may be judged because of preconceived notions about the alters involved, whether its based on an alters appearance, species, source... i hope youre well!

— shoutout to nonhuman alters dating other alters!

— heres to alters in queer relationships! to lesbian alters, gay alters, bi alters, aro alters who partner with others, etc!

in-system relationships are so beautiful, to me. i wish they weren't ridiculed so much. for us; they have been essential to healing and learning to care for ourselves.

[theblurrysystem]

rant // dont fucking complain in the comments if ive offended you

//

I am so fucking over seeing posts where people enjoy having fictives. where their introjects long for their partners or family or anything. I will be the first to admit that yes some of our introjects, specifically fictives, have felt that way. but it really fucking rubs me the wrong way when you see said introjects posting so fucking often that they miss their partner and wish they split those that they miss.

are you fucking serious?

this is a fucking traumagenic disorder where splits happen because of fucking trauma. they happen from stress. they happen from your brain having some kind of need that isn't being met.

literally fuck off. you want to split more? grow the fuck up and touch grass. no you fucking dont want that. i fucking promise you.

we recently had a split. we just so happen to have that alters partner in our system. you wanna know how thats going? they aren't fucking talking. because splitting isn't fucking fun. splitting people from your source isn't all fun and games. the alter we already had, while yeah they missed their partner, they dont fucking want them here. why? because DID is fucking hell and who the fuck would want to have more alters? who the fuck would want to split?

dont even get me fucking started on "source calls" or anything to do with an alter requesting sourcemates to interact. are you fucking kidding me? do you know how fucking easy it would be for anyone, literally anyone, to pretend they are your source partner. to say all the right things. to manipulate the fuck out of you.

not only is requesting your 'partner' or 'family' to interact, dangerous. but even if they are a genuine fucking system who has good intentions. they aren’t your fucking partner or family dude. they are an introject alter. they are what their brain needs. they will not be your partner. introjects aren’t their fucking source, and you are going against that entirely if you go looking for sourcemates.

i dont care if you miss your family and friends. but no random ass stranger online (or even irl system friends tbh) can fucking replace that.

now there is nothing wrong with having alters within your own system be dating. im not saying you cant. and im not saying you also can't happen to be dating someone who is your partner in source, in another system. im just saying it is fucking dangerous and anti-recovery if that is the reason you are dating them.

you are fucking using each other.

again, genuine connections can form. but i swear to fuck if anyone tries to twist my words i will lose it.

tldr; its fucking dangerous and anti-recovery to seek out your "partner/family" in another system. or to want to fucking split in your own system so you can have your partner there. that is fucked up and im sick of people acting like its not.

[problematicfactive]

Shoutout to the problematic factives that are just trying to live their lives.

Shoutout to the problematic factives that have learned, despite everything, to love themselves.

Shoutout to the problematic factives that can't help but smile when they hear their name.

Shoutout to the problematic factives that can't help but wish they looked physically more like their source.

Shoutout to the problematic factives that enjoy looking at art of themselves.

Shoutout to the problematic factives that engage with their source or medias based around their source.

Shoutout to the problematic factives that don't or cant feel strongly about the things they did in source.

Shoutout to the problematic factives introjected from personal relationships and not popular/infamous medias.

Shoutout to the unknowns out there currently questioning if they're a problematic factive.

Shoutout to the problematic factives that are so fictionalized they don't identify as factives.

Shoutout to the problematic factives that engage in fictional media relating to what they did in source.

Shoutout to the problematic factives who have similar interests to their source.

Shoutout to the problematic factives who love true crime.

Shoutout to the problematic factives who hate true crime.

Shoutout to the problematic factives who would never harm anyone or anything.

Shoutout to the problematic factives who can identify with source a healthy amount and still be their own person.

Shoutout to the problematic factives who don't hate themselves.

Shoutout to the problematic factives working hard to accept themselves.

Shoutout to the problematic factives.

I love you all

[blake-va]

Alter Intro Post~❤️

《Name: 💅💅💄💄👠👠Junko Enoshima👠👠💄💄💅💅 》

《Age: 20(Same as body❤️)》

《Pronouns: She/Her(♀️)

《Source: Danganronpa(😨 scary ik)》

《Sourcemates: 3 others but I'm not sharing their names cuz idk if they are comfy with it.》

《Role: Introject, Protector(I tend to front to protect our main host when she gets really stressed or triggered by bad memories. I alsl hold a lot of childhood memories that arent so great of ours.》

《Likes: Fashion(wow no duh), Horror Films/Games, Ghost Hunting Videos, Psychological Horror Acting/Theatre, Psychology, The Owl House🦉, Bad bitch core music🔥》

《Dislikes: Hope(🤢 gag. I genuienly cant say it without feeling gross.), Boredom(always been my worst enemy ngl. made me do something real stupid once in my source. still deal with that feeling sometimes tbh), Marinara sauce(That's just shared between all of us for some reason.)》

♡Preface♡

(before anything, I want to say that I'm not my source. I'm not dangerous or gonna like idk hurt u to feel despair or something stupid. I still do enjoy despair to a certain extent but I'd never hurt someone to feel it anymore. I experience despair thro fiction and media now.)

[phantompupz]

i’m glad people are hyper critical these days maybe theyll stay the hell away from slow damage when it releases bc if i have to deal with 1 more fandom discourse i swear to god.

 as badly as i want it to succeed in the west despite jast’s so-so translation attempts, so jastblue will hopefully give us lamento 

edit: i realized i didnt finish this thought

as badly as i want that so nitro+chiral can succeed because theyve worked on slow damage a long time, western audiences can be insufferable due to being overly critical (not talking about being rightfully against horrible shit) and it can just ruin the entire concept of anything due to performative stuff tbr 

nobody knows how to take things with problematic themeing or writing and digest them without having a boiling hatred and lashing out at others who, acknowledge how horrible it is and dont support it but still choose to consume it due to (whatever reason, highly depdendant) 

like i dont get it  in 2013 everyone was critically aware of what was wrong with (series) but they still made fan content for it and bettered it and talked with each other but  oh man  nobody can hear youre a fan of (x) anymore without being assumed youre a terrible person

but i also have the DID experience which comes with uncontrolled introjects of questionable sources. so im regularly targeted for things i cant control and ive relegated it all to just allowing myself to enjoy things within reason because man oh man . modern internet is a lot wilder than a decade ago

[thesfam]

I feel like when people in systems come in from different sources it can finding things to watch harder. Especially is it's a show or a movie. Having comfort shows is hard. Especially if your system splits easily or other things happen. Some of us cant watch certain things because it makes us all uncountable. Our host has trouble letting go and enjoying new things.

Finding new things that you have been relaying on for years feels scary and like a defeat. But it's not. Your just trying something new, and that's ok. If it makes someone uncomfortable, dont do it. Dont force your introjects in the system to sit through seeing themselves everyday. That's pure torture. It's ok to disconnect with your source as much as it is to be around it all the time. Just find the balance.

Seeing a different versions of yourself on a TV that dosnt even know you exist is painful. It hurts to know that you will never have the life that they do and you have to simply live on in a different meat suit. It feels shameful to tell others your name because what if they judge you? What if your name dosnt go with the bodys race? How can someone who isnt you understand what it's like. All of that is fucking difficult and kudos to anyone who going through a hard time with that.

Even if you aren't ashamed, your host might be or other people. I still am trying to come to terms with it myself. Even with people who fake claim systems were afraid to say "hey, this is me and this is who I am" because other people might not understand. And all that is bullshit. I shouldnt have to be ashamed of who I am. Or what I like. I just want to exist haha. That's a lot harder then it sounds. Eh, I make it work. We all do. Theres a certain joy to simply trying to find yourself and being your own little thing. Dont force yourself to fit into your blueprint (it's also ok to relate to your blue print!). It just depends on the perosn. All is good and well when you feel at peace with who you are.

-Jaiden

[brinesystem]

man

lifes bittersweet

and im gonna go on a rant? but like, a happy one???? idk man

ill put it under a cut or somethin

uh warning for like trauma mentions, if you skip the first half which is all like solid paragraphs you should be able to move right over it.

okay, so for a summary of my life real quick, and this will be p quick...

born, had no dad, lived in DC when 9/11 hit (like, walking distance to everything, IN the city DC), gained a marine dad, moved around on bases a lot, found out that im autistic and have adhd, bullied a lot in school, moved around more, got two sisters, bullied OUT of middle school, re entered a new school, bullied there too, and tHEN my memory actually starts, cause i started existing in hs?

hs also sucked though? and i was abused and became a csa/grooming victim but only online so i feel weird even taking that label, but i AM one in the end? and was so young somehow??? tbh its worse than im putting it but this is the quick version. was abused more emotionally/verbally, physically threatened at home and bullied in school right? almost lost our house too cause we were MAJORLY BROKE. Like, SUPER badly broke.

We get out of there, my mum actually gets our dad to knock it off, i fail out of hs because they changed the grading rules MID-YEAR and didnt tell me until it was too late to fix my grades for it.

cue mental breakdown, which included losing the ability to read for years, and trauma processing, etc etc. this also includes me becoming disabled, because prior to that, i actually wasnt???? i had some issues, but i wasnt disabled. now i am.

got a service dog, the dad ruined that too because he scared him a lot as a puppy and when we finally got to get him to Stop Doing That, it was too late. then the dog gets attacked twice. in home service dog only i guess now.

and then i realise, “oh fuck wait i have did”

forget about it for a year, realised/remembered it like last year and finally start doing some work with the system, finds out ive basically been fronting for like, 10 years straight at this point. only this year managed to let alters other than Fae front more, because i knew about Fae for years? but i didnt know he was an alter?????? look im dumb okay its fine.

anyways.

point is that like, i dont REMEMBER most of this? this summary type shit is what i remember, and then everything else is either a blackout, or just... blurry.

like theres some details and whatever but its mostly just snapshots, and then before hs theres even less blurry and less snapshots and its mostly just black space.

but.

im here?

like, were all here.

my system, we made it. and were alive?

like, none of us thought wed live to 20 but here i am at 24 and im actually usually happy????

its not been EASY at all, but like... i dont know?

my systems my family and i adore them more than i can put into words. the ‘scary’ ones? love them. im not afraid of them because theyre here and in our system with me and are here to help. ones been helping for longer than ive existed, like??? thats amazing? good job???? fuck.

anyways.

we werent doing okay for a long time, and then we split a lot during trauma processing pt.1 because like. no therapist. i dont recommend doing that btw dont trauma process without a therapist its not worth it.

but like.

a lot changed and i know i split shit and lost some of the memories i used to have. i KNOW that happened, because i remember remembering things that i cant recall now.

which is a weird feeling but im sure you get it.

but like.

im glad we did? like i get it. and i know that some of those alters dont front much/at all/ever anymore, but i think theyre still in there somewhere... and i love them?

theyre great. and they helped us a ton.

and two of the alters that split from that (or the trauma before maybe? idk) integrated and the result is another alter (and a completed fragment) and theyre both amazing too???

i know a lot of people complain about getting more alters or splitting or fragments and such but i just...

i dont know. maybe im just really fucking lucky... and i wouldnt put that past this tbh. but i dont mind it? we function a ton better like this, and its... so nice to see them be able to interact with people?

also theyre both introjects who LOVE interacting with others alters from their source and like

its so nice to know theyre here and happy and found the people they love again?

and i have feelings on introjects and i know theres a lot of drama going on for some reason but like. a part of did is that your relationships from the beginning of your life arent stable, right? and these introjects, they not only have those relationships in theory, but they managed to find them again?? here and now?

they have what we werent able to before, and im so happy for them and theyre delighted about it and its just...

idk.

im really happy sappy and emotional and i just am kind of writing a love letter to my system right now i guess.

cause we made it. were here and tbh this year? sucks ass. the past four years have sucked ass. a LOT of shit sucks ass. but we’re still here. were standing and fighting and enjoying life and just...

one of the alters who integrated is the one who managed to stop us from being suicidal, because he convinced me that like... “if you hate your life, that means youre not enjoying it. so, if youre not having fun, its not a life worth living to you. so have fun.”

and that was life changing for us?????

for ME?

and hes Honey now and honey is joyous and enjoys life to the fullest

but the other alter who made up honey wasnt able to do that.

and now they both are? as honey?

and thats fucking amazing????????? like????

i dont feel like i lost either of them. theyre just Honey now. and hes loving life???

i mean yeah hes got a full range of emotions now which means he can feel sad and angry while the others has more limited but like... isnt that better?

isnt it so much better to feel those?

it feels so much less shallow when youre overjoyed when you know what sorrow feels like. its so much deeper because theres that bittersweet tinge of “it wasnt always like this”

and i think thats what im getting at.

it wasnt always like this.

and it wont always be like this.

but we made it this far...

so i want to keep going.

[scoobied]

2, 8, 10 for introject asks !

sorry it took so long, ty for sending

2) what's your favorite part of your source?

😬 it's very relatable which is why the people answering this ask exist (ian & mandy). it's funny and uh hm. well, we enjoy it even tho it's objectively bad

8) what's your favorite song to front to?

mandy: personal songs and i cant remember their names sorry! ian: unsteady - x ambassadors or water under the bridge - adele or white trashing - nicole dollanganer

10) do you feel comfort in seeing yourself in your source or do you get tripped out?

mandy: whatever the exact opposite of comfort is? that's what i feel :) i hate it so much

ian: I feel perfectly fine with it, it feels normal and real to me

[silentiumlitwicks]

2 3 9 12 20 39

you sent two asks so there all in this one

2. what was life like in the early days of realising you were more-than-one?

Really bad i was desperately trying to repress it more than before i knew what it was. i lost a lot of time because everyone who was present was desperate to interact with the world freely and there’s just weeks that i don’t have any memory of even though it was nothing i wasn’t used to, being aware of it made it a lot worse. com6ing to terms with the fact this started when i was 5 was hard too because i never accepted it until after i was aware of what it really was when i was 16

3. Describe the funniest thing you’ve seen happen between two alters.

Definitely Back when Teribot formed and roxy and terezi were fighting like children and terezi went out of her way and taught teribot to say yiff and think her purpose was to collect a database on the different crunches dry leaves make so Roxy and terezi got in a fight with dildos, i still don’t think they get along. 

but the cranberry sauce thing between me and terezi is a close second followed by “Terezi im gay” “shut the fuck up scourj im trying to die”

9. Describe what happened when an unusual fronter had a day in the limelight.

i wanted to go with the day Guzma wrote an essay about planned parenthood being important and listening to africa for 10 hours straight but. I really have to go with that week with lapis because i cant pin it down all to one day but its all important.

Im really sorry but when she roasted you for 3 days straight about your constant avoidance and everything wrong in our relationship, kept us emotionally stable and passed all our exams all while realizing she stems from our fear of drowning/ being submerged in water because of tortuous shit my bio sister did when i was young. i really envy her ability to remain calm even when she knows it would be ok to be emotional over it and complete important tasks.

12. Do you have any introjects (fictives/factives)? How are they similar to their source? How do they differ?

When it comes down to actual honest to god fictives? not just alters adopting an id because they can’t make their own image? 

Only Joey,Centi,Nebby, and Marceline!

I used to say Amethyst Otherdot and Terezi but they really aren’t, they’re just their face claims!

the four above are the only ones who truly genuinely believe that’s who they are and they couldn’t be anything else if they tried, they all seem heavily connected to their “canon” except nebby with a  weird exception of learning to talk. remember “lucio is a god”? yeah nebby 

Nebby used to not speak and only make sounds when fronting.

uh no factives though.

15. Describe some of the kids!

Rylyn: always going though That 10 year old edgy/emo phase always listening to punk and metal and literally wearing a MCR shirt in the headspace. would probably ask you your blood type and try to steal your social security information

Beth: the meek shy abide by all rules kid. Constantly tattling about something rylyn did to any adult alter that will listen. She enjoys quiet and reading scientific articles and sometimes anthropology.

Sora: really loud and creative, super expressive and active. loves climbing no matter what she climbs is. Very protective of her twin alter Selene.

Selene: Sora’s Mute twin who communicates through doodling and body language. she may be quiet but she is just as active and rambunctious as her sister.

Scourj+Anarcy: two more twin alters that i don't remember when they split or why. they're what happen if you let 7 year olds watch stuff like supernatural, CSI, and law and order. They do not get along with each other unless their trying to burn a crudely made effigy (do not ask)

Jo: the clingy one, extremely picky with food and the most likely to throw a fit if they don't get what they want.

Vinny: the hyperactive fast talker. she made herself a peridot oc to use as her identity. definitely the the original character do not steal kid with the questionable technicolor cat ocs. let kids have their fun though, it hurts no one.

Lucio: named himself after lucio from overwatch, just a really sweet kindhearted kid who wants to do anything he can to try to improve the world.

18. Elegant, suave, refined. Who did I just describe? 

I'm not entirely sure? i think maybe Dianne or Bea (blessed pearl) neither of them front much or interact with me often so im not really sure but everyone else is a disaster.

20. Angry, spitfire, vicious. Who did I just describe?

Ruby to the core she really stems from an inability to express anger properly without it turning into sadness or apathy. she lets it out but tries hard not to be destructive. She used to be pretty ruthless to other people and had to spend some time barred from the front until she could learn to know when to stop on her own.

22. Free-spirited, active, protective. Who did I just describe?

Marceline, she does what she wants within reason without a care about what someone else thinks. mostly reliable when something bad is happening and does what she can to keep us from harm, unsure if active means like constantly moving or fronting a lot but both fit, she really loves going for walks to clear her mind and listen to jams.

33. Describe what switching fronts feels like.

sometimes a sudden cutoff and everything goes black the body has a like minor spasm  followed by a few seconds to a minute of staring and blinking before who ever switched in is fully there.

39. What’s something you’ve managed to create as a team?

i honestly only can think of Me terzi and mae’s vent pages in a notebook full of doodles about what's bothering and fucking with us 

there is an old like system wide pic that never got finished that me, cal, and terezi started.

that's really it because my memory is bad and we haven't communicated well since the move.... 

WAIT FUCK THE TINY MS PAINT PIXELS OF EVERYONE 

they're not done but we all work on it