#it does really feel like holidays now
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEWART!!!!!!!
The amount of talent and musicianship you have are simple as unmeasurable. I had never seen someone so bright and energetic, and your unique way of being and thinking are something I admire and respect like in very few people. Thank you for having had the crazy idea of having a band that could never sell a gig at the time it was formed, and, please, keep surprising me just like you do💜💜💜
P.D. Congrats for your Grammy!!!!
#HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!#stewart copeland#the police#the police band#I'm so happy im spending his birthday with a friend and I'm here just explaining it all to him and aaaa#it does really feel like holidays now#80's#music
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While learning to control his powers under the guidance of Clockwork, Danny accidentally curses his own bloodline with the Curse of Sentient Food several centuries in the past. Originally, a witch was supposed to curse his family. Oops. Well, the Fentons were always adapting, and technically, either way, he'd end up battling dino nuggets at three am in his underwear, no matter who the curse came from. So he shrugged and continued on.
Unfortunately, this also means that out of nowhere, the timeline shifted, and some of his very distant relatives are now battling their food into submission at every meal because Danny is ultimately way more powerful than some mortal witch from the 1600s. His version of the curse reached literally everyone he could ever be related to for the last few centuries. Even if they were adopted into the family!
So, returning to the present time after training, Danny is a little startled to see some news clips of people's dinners coming to life and beginning revolutions. Wow, John Fentonightingale really got around, didn't he? He felt a little uncomfortable that now all these random people had to deal with their share of Fenton luck, but from some of the interviews, everyone seemed to be handling it pretty well!
Especially his so-distant-they're-on-another-tree cousins, the Kents, who contacted his family directly, asking how best to prepare a zombie turkey. Their son was coming for Thanksgiving with his new wife and some coworkers, and they just refused to make the guests fight for their lives on a holiday!
They invited the Fentons to join them, of course.
#dpxdc#pondhead blurbs#sometimes i wonder where the fuck this stuff comes from#which snail is responsible for this#but if it wasn't clear danny curses his bloodline and fucks it up because of course he does#so literally every single relative he's ever had is now suffering directly from fenton luck and sentient food fights#ma and pa kent are the only ones who reach out for advice#how did they figure out the fentons were the source? like they'd tell you those are family secrets you nosey bitch#so now the fentons are invited to spend the holidays with their distant cousins in Kansas#and meet their adopted son clark! who was just married! :D#side note the timeline changed right as the cake was cut at clark's reception so that was interesting#they had to pay for so much dry cleaning#clark's coworkers (fellow jl members) are a little worried about the sentient food but so far it's not really a big issue?#they can definitely take time off for the holidays to relax!#and they totally won't get dragged on any interdimensional adventures with a dead teenage godling as their guide!#feel free to continue#idk how many kids bruce has when clark marries lois but feel free to just throw some in#like JL members and their kids#just toss them in and watch the kids go feral#fighting your food is enrichment <3
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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little rich boy sirius who gets disowned and can barely survive without his expensive brands and the basic human need to eat at least once a day meeting the entirely too generous james potter who just falls for the vanity and sincerity of the reformed rich boy and decides that once sirius stops caring about brands and status and rich boy things and just cares about what matters in life he decides to spoil his boyfriend to pieces because he’s secretly sitting on a fucking fortune
#idk i just think it’s funny#like james would find sirius when he’s struggling with money because he’s so bad at saving and prioritising his spendings because he’s never#had too before and so james would teach him how to do all that stuff and emotionally support sirius through it all and sirius just falls in#love with this beautiful guy who’s just so generous and who teaches him so many things and finds value in kindness and sincerity and#compassion and all that jazz and james falls in love with sirius helplessly because he might be stuck up and vein and kind of selfish and#is stuck up and cares all too much about status but he’s trying so hard to be better and he finds empathy because sirius got kicked out for#the worst reasons because he’s always been the black sheep of his highly cultist christian family or whatver and he’s also outwardly queer#and james decides that he wants to give sirius everything and loves the way he looks in expensive makeup and designer faux fur coats and#heels and divine jewellery and all that jazz but makes sirius sell it all and learn what it means to be human and not rely on money and#status and brands and stuff and sirius learns what it’s like to be decent and in touch with humanity and only then does james take sirius on#a surprise luxury holiday for his birthday or something and then just buys him thousands of dollars worth of all these glamorous looking#things and sirius is like omg what the fuck jamie and then he just becomes sirius’ sugar daddy because he can’t help himself but they’re#also in love and much better people because of it and when sirius buys things now it’s not because of brands or because they have big price#tags like he used too. he now buys things with james’ credit card he keeps in his own wallet because he thinks he’ll feel pretty in them or#because he thinks james will loose it if he sees sirius walking around in it or if he sees a really cute toaster that sends him into a#frenzy that has him spending all way too much on an impromptu kitchen renovation but james doesn’t care because as long as his boyfriend is#happy and actually paying attention to the price of things and calculating the best value and taking james’ opinion as well and just being#happy and safe and accepted in his new home and family here with his jamie#please i think they’d be so cute ugh!!!#prongsfoot#bambibelle#drabble#fic idea#marauders#james potter#sirius black#jay talks
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[ID: a digital illustration of Luz and Hunter from the owl house. Luz sits on the right with her hand on hunter's shoulder. Hunter sits on the left facing Luz. They're both in their designs from the end of Thanks to Them. Hunter has his eyes closed and is crying with a pained expression, while Luz looks on with tears in her eyes. The background is dark and the scene is dimly lit. The second image is a variation on the first image where a spectral version of flapjack sits on hunter's shoulder and Manny's hand in on Luz's shoulder. End ID]
Felt like posting something devious today. Do you think they'll ever talk about what they've lost? Bond over it? Mourn??? Grieve????
#the owl house#toh#hunter toh#luz noceda#hunter noceda#flapjack toh#(BARELY i did not put the effort into that bird that i should've)#manny noceda#(also barely but I feel like it's more obvious here)#i sketched this out months ago when TTT first aired but the lines were giving me trouble and i shelved it#until now when i really just wanted to finish something but wasn't happy with any of my sketches#it was inspired by the interview dana did where she said grief would be a major theme of season 3#both bc it scared me and also bc it made me start thinking ''hm okay. which characters are grieving rn and how might they interact?''#my money's still on darius if hunter does get to talk through some of his grief in the next few eps#(just to tie a nice bow on their relationship and maybe dicuss the previous gg a bit more and flesh darius' motives out)#but like. luz is his sister. grief is sooo central to her arc as well it's like. even if they don't get time in canon#(which is understandable. they do not have a lot of time rn for extended fanfic-esque character exploration conversations)#but that doesn't mean i can't rotate the idea in my mind at terminal velocity until i get sick#i would apologize for not posting festive art at this time of year rn BUT YKNOW WHAT. I'VE HAD A ROUGH COUPLE OF HOLIDAY SEASONS#THIS COUNTS AS FESTIVE FOR ME!#it's getting better this year though. slowly#anyway this piece isn't perfect and there's a few bits I'm not happy w/ that i could've spent more time on#but to my own credit i pushed myself to use reference and do a (albeit simple) pose I don't normally do!#so props to me in that sense#anyway happy holidays! think abt these devastatingly sad children with me please!
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a sneak peek for an upcoming (timeline tbd) update 😊
#holocene.txt#hlcn: story extras#consider this a thanks for the kind words on gratitude day :)#i wanna respond to everyone individually when i have time and also wax poetic about how much every comment means to me#it really does mean a lot#it's been a rough year and a very lonely year like i'm genuinely just so :/#i lost both of my grandmothers this year very suddenly and the holidays feel empty now and i'm dealing with scary health issues#i finally had a brain mri after waiting for it to get scheduled since JUNE and now i have to wait on results and undergo some other testing#and i'm losing my mind a little because i planned a nice christmas gift for my mom and it feels ruined because the post office lost it#and my dad ruined the whole surprise of it by calling customer support on speaker phone with her in the room...and she ofc heard everything#i just wanted something nice for my mom :( she deserves it and although i have other gifts for her still it's not all what i planned#i don't mean to rant but i just wanted to add context when i say it means a lot that anyone even remotely likes my pixels#i may not know most of you very well *yet* (trying to fix that!!) but it's nice to feel a little support from somewhere :) beyond nice#and sorry for being absent a lot this year but i swear i have so much appreciation for y'all and i love you and your pixels dearly#i always feel bad like maybe it doesn't seem like i care in return bc i'm offline a lot now but i really do!! i care a lot!! love y'all xox
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^me when i am a sensitive person
#ramblings#i hate feeling lonely#it literally hurts my heart#i have such a hard time forming connections both irl and online#idk how many times ive cried just this past month bc i felt lonely#and even when i am included in things im always an after thought#its been months but im still thinking about stupid christmas#i know the whole point isn't to get gifts#but i got one present. while i spent hundreds of dollars getting my family gifts#they even asked me what i wanted too#helped my cousin decorate for her christmas party and last minute i found out it was a secret santa#i got invited but was the only one not included in that#so yeah....#i dont have anyone to celebrate holidays with#my birthday was sad#i cried then too#not looking forward to tomorrow either#and i try to make friends and talk to people#but i feel as though i always initiate#and nobody seems interested in talking to me#which... i dont expect everyone to like me#but it really does hurt and it makes wonder what's wrong with me#also why cant my brain focus on something else#like doing something productive#its been ages since ive drawn anything#ive just been sad. that's the whole post.#bye now
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Kaeya oftentimes wonders what it must have been like, living in Khaenri'ah. Reading the tales of Khaenri'ahn heroes Jean's shared with him, of things he remembered his father mentioning, helped him picture it all. As did knowledge the Akademiya has of Dahri ruins he managed to get his hands on one way or another years later, during his visit to Sumeru.
#hc; kaeya#//It was really after meeting Dainsleif that the thoughts increased exponentially; and became almost painful#//Thoughts of what it could have been like; had he grown up a 'proper' Alberich; surrounded by family & the culture he'd been wrenched from#//Of what Khaenri'ah looked like in her heyday; of the countless people lost because of the Cataclysm living their daily lives#//He wants to learn so much more; no matter what it means#//He loves Mond dearly; but it hurts feeling that emptiness from being denied that connection#//Of losing his mother tongue the longer it went unused; of not knowing the traditions he ought to have celebrated#//Rites of passage he must have missed in favor of Mond traditions; holidays; family customs#//Could he have had siblings? Cousins? Aunts; uncles; GRANDPARENTS???#//What would his upbringing have been like? Strict? Lenient? Would they have accepted him as he was? No mask necessary?#//Could his father have truly loved him so closely; instead of keeping him at arms length like he KNEW they'd have to part soon?#//That he didn't want to grow too fond of his own child because he could lose him any moment? (is it a wonder kae does the same at times?)#//What would it have been like; being a Knight of Khaenri'ah? Surely he would have given Khaenri'ah his heart; like he had for Mond#//If Khaenri'ah still stood to this day...would he; Diluc and Jean have still been friends? As fond and close as they once had been?#//Logically; he doubts that; but his foolish heart likes to think the three were MEANT to meet; one way or another#//MEANT to have that friendship they'd once shared (before he went and ruined everything with Diluc)#//Surely they would have found a way to make it work; no matter the distance from Khaenri'ah to Mondstadt#//Maybe they could have bridged the gap between the godless nation and the people of the Anemo Archon#//Ahh; but that's wishful thinking; now wouldn't it be?#//He likes to wonder how it would have felt; having that certain loyalty to his nation; not torn between his family's past & his current on#//Would he have been happier; had he been born to and raised in that nation? Rather than left to live in this one?#//Though he'd have to wonder if that would be true; considering the Archons' treatment of them in the end#//No doubt war would always be looming on the horizon; and if Dahri records were right...Celestia wasn't their only issue#//Still; he can't help but dream; and with a certain; aching longing at that
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Ah…. There it is.
#benevolent#all in all I think it could have gone worse#like I feel that even the horror was nice and cozy ykwim?#it’s always good to have Kayne around so im really not complaining#he’s the kind of entity to have your average protagonist grabes by the collars and smooshed together while screaming NOW KISSS yk?#I love him#my boy#kayne malevolent#john doe malevolent#arthur lester#malevolent#malevolent pod#malevolent podcast#happy holidays in deed now that Harlan has fed us so well#or should I say#happy horridays#I’m sorry I’ll see my self out
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Saying you can host Thanksgiving when you're the planner in your relationship and you work in a retail-adjacent career is really just digging your own grave.
#i did this to myself#my partner is southern-ish (don't tell him i said ish but he's from virginia it hardly counts his mom is from south carolina though)#and he's got the whole hospitality thing and he loves hosting stuff#so i was like yeah sure we can do thanksgiving here#because i want to make sure he feels like moving to my small hometown was worth it right#but also i forgot that he just is NOT good at planning things#which is weird because he is a project manager so it's all he does all day#also i've been sick for like 5 days now? so i didn't even pick up on the lack of a solid plan until today#i don't have time for this#it feels like i've been in meetings for two weeks getting everything for work set up#and now i also have to plan out this menu 2 days before the actual holiday because no one knows what's going on#listen he TRIES to do the planning he really does but he gets too excited and things spiral lol#personal
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I’m feeling deeply unhappy with everything and I’m unsure if it’s due to stress or if it’s the depression
#or maybe it’s a mixture of both#:/#this has probably been the shittiest holiday season ive had in a long time#definitely not the worst. but no where close to one of the best#i just want to curl up and disappear for a while#im so tired of dealing with my partner’s mom and sister#theyre so high strung. i cant deal with it#not with everything else going on#and now i have news that my mom’s husband is having really bad medical issues to the point where#they’re discussing what happens if he dies#and im like. idk. half numb to it half super upset#i like him ig but it’s more i like him because he makes my mom happy#im mostly just upset with the idea of my mom being widowed twice#i probably need therapy for how i feel towards him since 90% of it is ‘keep him at arms length so i dont get attached to#and lose another father figure that my mom is with’#what sucks is if he does die i’ll have to do that whole funeral without my partner since he cant travel due to recovering from his own sur#gery#god. fuck. can i catch a goddamn break?#anyway thanks for reading if you made it this far lol#i just needed a moment to vent#they speak
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hey can we like. can we go back to celebrating things when they actually happen instead of 4 months in advance. i've been seeing halloween shit for a month and a half. halloween hasn't even HAPPENED yet and now im seeing christmas stuff. they got the back to school stuff out the second week of july
im just. im so sick of getting holidays and events shoved down my throat for months and then there's not even any time to enjoy it bc the next fuckin thing is being shoved down your throat. can we just go back to actually celebrating holidays when they happen. pls
#i'm so tired#i'm pretty sure this bothers only me#but like i really don't need or want fall being sold to me all fucking summe r#bc now fall is here and i'm getting winter shoved down my throat#like can we fucking stop#please#calm the fuck down#also this ain't about people getting excited about holidays#this is about corporations ruining everything by making EVERYTHING about profit#i was the biggest fuckimg christmas bitch as a kid#i would never shut up about it#i was the christmas in july kid#and now i fucking hate christmas#bc it's about Prove Your Love By Buying Gifts#i don't let people get me gifts anymore#bc all it does is stress me out#christmas is about love and celebration and family and community#being there for each other#celebrating all your wins of the year#stop making me feel like an asshole bc i can't afford 3k in gifts#that people probably won't use after 6 months anyways#like i just#i can't with the corporate take over of the seasons#i'm begging you please let us go back to just enjoying things#the world is a fuckimg mess#i'm fucking tired#ignore this#persoanl rambles#stick is ranting again#not stargate
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tonight is my last night sleeping in my bed. possibly for the rest of my life. and my last time in my room possibly for the rest of my life. and i want to just get a good night’s sleep to be ready for a long day tomorrow but it’s really not working out like that.
#my family is still up in the air maybe selling this house within the next month#in which case i will never be in this room ever again. otherwise i will be back for the holidays so there’s still a month of this bedroom#if we sell the house in the spring instead (only rational option there’s no way we can empty it in time)#especially since i will not be in this house whatsoever until after that sell date. my mom all by herself can’t empty it all#anyway i’m struggling a bit. saying goodbye to my home of 14 years????#i’ve been through a lot in this place and most of it is bad memories but like. every good memory i have is from here too….#and everyone i know irl is staying local i’m the only one who’s leaving. one irl friend is going to the same school as me but we had a fight#within the past month and i don’t think we’re ever going to recover because she just kind of never treated me like a person#so i’m starting from scratch and it’s really.. like fuck i want to get out of here but i’m also not at all ready to actually leave#i’m just going to miss all the stupid little things so much. even my online memories are tied to this place#like the woods down the street where my deer friends live and the ditch i fell into back in the day and all the places i’ve gotten lost#and they’ll be right here waiting for me and i’m SO excited for college i am but why does it have to feel so sudden????#i dont know how anyone does it.. and all my friends are going to colleges in their hometown so i don’t even have anyone to compare with#i found out today that if we keep the house through the winter my mom is planning on using my room as a guest room and office. and of course#that makes sense and everything but now i have the most crushing guilt for not cleaning it up well enough. i thought it would be okay and#i’d just have to deal with it when i come back and i didn’t know she wanted to use it and she’s going to box up all of my things without me#and i feel guilty that i didn’t do that and i feel scared and upset because it’s my things and my room i don’t want it to change#i’m just really anxious and sad and scared and i don’t know what to do. school is going to be good but none of this feels real or normal#and i just feel sick and scared and i don’t know what to do. waking up at 8am and leaving at 9am and moving in at 2pm and that will be it#my mom and sister are staying for a couple days and that will be good i hope. i dont know i feel so conflicted about everything#and i’m tired and sick and angry and overwhelmed and i just want to take a week off and come back alive again#and i guess that’s what i’m about to do.. after i move in there’s eight days before college starts and all i’ll be doing is moving in#(and welcome week activities. and a lot of sleeping. but hopefully i’m gonna get a rollator through a loan program and that will help a lot)#anyway here’s what’s going on. i’m going to maybe try to sleep i guess. but if anyone has advice or encouragement about moving to college..#now is the time i really need it. it’s just so strange and conflicted and everyone i know has been telling me i just need to get out of here#and myself included i really want to get out of here. but how can i start anew when everyone i’ve loved is shattered. and what have you#think i have to listen to that song for long enough to remember how badly i want to leave….#i’m just really not feeling well. i’m angry that i never got to have the childhood i deserved#because now i’m leaving and that means it’s officially over…. i’m just really not feeling well. i think i’m running out of tags….#i hope you all are well. i’ll be around in the morning maybe.. i’m not sure. hope everyone has a good night
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I'm. Overwhelmed
#i have too many blogs i think i need to cut down a Lot#im thinking make my general multi again#and cut down to kurt/jase/pearl ridge and Very low activity multi#having ben/jackie is super fun i love them and yj currently airing adds so much muse but i. i dont have time#and starting new blogs is. hard and i dont know how to. start things#i love ben and i want to write ben but i dont know what to write. or how to write. does that make sense#I'd move kurt and jase to the multi but in the past that has#not worked out they just. they have too much lore for a multi i think and it overwhelms people or they dont care enough to read it#which like. to be fair still happens a lot on jasons solo blog#idk i just. i have had a Lot of muse and desire to write and plot lately for all my muses but. something is. something doesnt click#and actually writing on here is just. not possible for some reason#something about tumblr is#its too much right now#which is weird bc like i dont. i dont have anything really going on its school holidays rn#but somehow theres just. im constantly overwhelmed and being here usually helps but it hasn't lately#i feel like. has the energy on tumblr shifted over the past few months#it feels like it has#like community wise?#like i dont think the new editor is to blame i prefer the new editor#i dont know. i don't know#something is different#and i don't like it
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now that the holidays are over i feel like maybe perhaps i hate this job lol
#im stuck doing the job i hate most of the time#while everyone else does the things I've been talking about wanting to do since starting#them when they 'let' me design nothing i design gets used bc the owner just wants to ultimate use her own designs#but ik my work and designs are good#ik my worth#n i feel like im pushed down to grunt work#plus im not working enough hours anymore now that the holidays are over#n feel like i should switch to salaried even though i don't really want to :/#personal
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Wishing I could have joined the protests in London for a General Election tonight but I was working. Happy Bonfire Night! Manifesting an Election and the Tories gone 💅
#Bonfire Night#Guy Fawkes my beloved#'We all like a bad boy don't we'#'Not a ter-' He is the only exception.#Remember remember the 5th of November#Proud of everyone who went. I hope it does something. I've already signed every petition I can find#I really wish I was doing something but I don't have any friends tbh at my new uni so I ordered food#Craving a bonfire and a chocolate apple. I wish I was doing that right now.#When I was a kid my family was the one in our area to always host Bonfire Night because our house was next to a public footpath#So we were the ones that always did the bonfire there. Holidays are some of the few good memories I have from then#Halloween Bonfire Night and Christmas are very special to me and I'm kinda sad I haven't celebrated either this year#I might watch V for Vendetta. I've been meaning to. I feel weirdly sad rn#I just. Wanna go back and hold some sprinkers and eat a chocolate apple#And sit in my garden as my dad builds the bonfire and my mum makes treacle and Scottish tablet#Anyway#Feeling nostalgic#Apparently
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