#it’s all just So Much to unpack at all times 😔

[poptartmochi]

why is it every time I have a mental breakdown, I also have a breakthrough with miss gioia. she and the illness are linked your honor 🆘

[elodieunderglass]

You posted the link to thing encouraging Asks so...

I wanna know about the boat you're buying!

Thank you so much! You might have seen an older post. From about 2012-2016 I lived on a narrowboat and moved around nomadically on canals around England. I wasn’t on tumblr much at the time, but sporadically tagged using #i live on a boat Then we bought a house, had a lot of children, and took on more respectable careers and an allotment.

While my nomadic era is over I am still interested in the politics and pressures around travelling lifestyles and I’m still unusually knowledgeable about narrowboats.

I liked living off-grid, being nomadic but still have My House, being in nature, and didn’t mind the physical challenges of everyday life.

I secretly hated moving the boat, which always felt like the most stressful parallel parking you ever tried, and frequently involved me having to do things like jump off a moving boat with a rope 😔 I don’t mind walking a mile to the car to go to work everyday, or hauling wood and water, but I did mind having to jump off moving boats with ropes while Dr Glass piloted the boat and shouted things like “the other left”. This sounds very gendered, and actually he was much better at jumping, except that when I piloted the boat I did not enjoy him jumping off it.

I should clarify that the boats move, like, 4 mph. It is generally considered an excruciatingly slow paced lifestyle. I am just extremely bad at platformers. I have never successfully enjoyed a video game that wanted me to jump onto a platform. Doing this regularly, to get water to live, was something I was happy to walk away from. I hated locks a little bit too. And swing bridges. What it comes down to is that I loved all the boating except for moving the boat much, which is a reasonably self-limiting lifestyle in many respects.

I loved my boat (she was my girl) and the kingfishers and the swans laying their heads in my lap and bringing me their babies to see. I didn’t like the jumping and the stress of the Canal And River Trust never having a coherent policy around liveaboard boaters. That’s a whole thing to unpack but the British have basically made it harder every year to be a legal nomad and it was stressful enough with the jumping.

[the-ninjago-historian]

New Dragons Rising Article!

(EDIT: I blurred out the episode title last minute. I was feeling paranoid about it. Lol. And I made some last minute grammer fixes. Enjoy!)

The episode titles and descriptions for Season 2 Part 2 just dropped today! There's TONS of new info and lore to unpack. So let's get started! *SPOILERS BELOW THE THE CUT!*

1: So first off we have The Shape of Motion. (This title is clearly parodying The Shape of Water. Lol.) It seems they will be picking up a new baby dragon! Riyu is gonna be a big brother! How cute!💖 I hope Arin finds his parents too. Poor guy.😔

2: Now we have Enter the City of Temples. The Ninja must have found out about the tournament and decided to go there. But why? We're not sure yet. I would think they would want to stay away from the tournament, considering what happened in the last one.😅 Also, Kai and Bonzle are attempting to escape. So that's cool! You guys will get to see them too!

3: Next is Gathering for The Feast. Some how I get an ominous feeling about that title for some reason. Lol. Also, looks like the Ninja's earned their invites somehow and are now in the tournament! And it looks this is the episode where we'll see the return of some old Elemental Masters!

4: Now we have Inside the Maze. This episode is VERY interesting. So much to unpack! Because it's the first mention of some new artifacts. The Horns. Specifically, The Dragon Horns. Arin and the others must have heard about them in the last episode. What are these horns exactly? Are they like instrument type horns? Or literal dragon horns? We'll have to wait and see. We also have a new character called Frak! And finally, something ALL you Jaya shippers have been waiting for...

JAYA TOURNAMENT BATTLE WITH AMNESIA JAY!!!⚡🌊⚡🌊⚡🌊⚡🌊⚡🌊⚡🌊

This is gonna break y'all hearts, I know it.🤣

5: Next is United We Fall. Oh boy! It's named after one of my favorite TSFH songs! Haha! Just kidding! Anyways, poor Wyldefyre is pitted against CINDER?!?! The guy who broke her leg?! Yikes! Looks like it didn't go well either. And the Ninja will have to win they way back into the tournament through a race!

6: Now we have Truth and Lies. Finally a Wu mention! But it doesn't look good. I have a feeling Ras is lying though. Or not. And we'll get some racing action from the rest of the ninjas!

7: Next is The Shattering Sword. Sounds like something from Lloyd's vision, huh? And we get to see the new character Roby giving Arin a museum tour and some new info on the source dragons! (It would be hilarious if Roby was working for Ras the entire time.😂) And here's how to pronounce Roby's name, if you're curious.

8: Next is Clues and Suspects! Tons of cool stuff in this episode! Roby has a way bigger role then I thought! There's a new character mentioned named Bleckt? (I wonder if that's a typo?) Also, FINALLY A ZEATRIX MENTION! And they're transferring her powers for some reason? The how and why are unclear. Also, this new character Bleckt is somehow connected to Arin's investigation. And possibly part of The Administration, since they mention he has an office. My guess is that these Dragon Horn thingies were confiscated by the Administration or something.

9: And here we have The Final Game. That doesn't sound good. Arin learns a "Devastating Secret about the Merge" Uh oh. Cole stays behind to protect the Dragon horns! What??? Oh no! Sora faces off against Nokt and Wyldefyre is too late to stop the "Manipulation of the Games!" OH NO. Yeah, this one is gonna be pretty chaotic. Yikes.

10: Finally, we have Elements of Betrayal. THAT'S AN EVEN WORSE TITLE! It's making me more nervous than the last one!

There's a new location called The Monastery of Gates. That I guess these Dragon Horns are at? Arin, Zane, and Cole seems like a fun combination. Should be a cool fight! And it looks like the elemental masters have lost their powers once again are going to be fighting Ras and his wolf warrior army. NoBoDy SaW tHaT cOmInG. Pfft.

Aaaaaaand, that's it for now. Wow! So much stuff! Sounds like it will be a very exciting collection of episodes! Hope you had fun reading this!

Bye for now!

[niabang]

Only Me and You

Continuation of The Summer it Came True

Previous chapter

Chapter 7

Pairings: Bangchan × black female reader

Disclamer: This chapter contains smut. MINORS DNI. Soft dom/service top chan, protected sex (don't be silly wrap your willy.) Well ig that's it.

This is my first time writing smut so please take it easy on me 😔. Feedback on how I can improve is very much appreciated btw ♡

More under the cut!

You woke up in desperate need of your boyfriend, and you had not gotten over what you guys started yesterday.

You sat up on your bed and started packing up your things. You were going to move into his room. You guys always slept together anyway.

You brushed your teeth, packed up your bags, and made your way to his room. When you got there, he was in his bathroom, so you didn't announce yourself and just started to unpack.

"Wow, what's all this?" He asked when he came out.

"What does it look like to you? I'm moving in." You answered.

"I thought you didn't want to share a room with me?" He said with a smirk.

"I mean, there's no point. We sleep together all the time anyway, so just be quiet and let me do what I'm doing." Chan gave you a defeated "okay" and sat on his bed with his back resting on the headboard, and he was doing something on his phone.

While you were still trying to arrange your things in Chan's wardrobe, you heard him complain about the weather being "too hot" and before you could register anything, chan took his shirt off right in front of you.

You were starting to believe that he was well aware of the effect he had on you, and he wasn't so innocent.

You finished arranging your stuff and got in bed with Chan. When you did, Chan dropped his phone and faced you.

"Come here." He said while he pulled you onto his lap. You were wearing one of his shirts that you stole from him with nothing but panties under it.

"Is this my shirt?" Chan asked, smiling at you. 

"Yeah, why?" You were trying to sound as collected as you could and ignore the fact that you were already getting soaked just from straddling him.

"You own a whole fashion line, but you're always taking my clothes." He said, and moved his hands from your waist to your hips.

You couldn't even say anything and just maintained eye contact with your boyfriend.

"What?" He asked you when he realized you weren't saying anything. 

"I want a kiss." You didn't even realize when those words left your mouth.

"Say, please." Was he being serious right now? There was no way you were about to beg for a kiss no matter how much you wanted it.

"No." You told him simply.

"Then you're not getting it." And he went back to his phone like it was nothing and completely ignored you being on his lap.

"Channn." You whined and pouted.

"All you have to do is say please, and I'll give you what you want." He said, sounding unbothered. Was he not suffering from the same extreme horniness you were?

"Chan, please, can I have a kiss?" He dropped his phone when he heard that and looked up at him.

"That's more like it." After that sentence was made, you guys proceeded to have the nastiest make-out sesh ever.

While you guys were kissing, you tried to grind your hips on Chan, looking for some friction, and Chan seemed to notice that and used his hands to guide your hips.

You could feel his bulge under your clothed cunt, and you were sure you had left a wet spot on his pants.

Chan's lips were so soft and warm and his tongue moved so well against yours. The room was silent except for the smacking of lips, the occasional groans from the chan and your whiny moans.

Chan had slipped his hands under your, well his shirt and he froze when he realized that you were barely clothed underneath.

He pulled away from the kiss and looked at you, then you whined from the loss of contact.

"Can I?" He asked, holding on to the hem of his shirt. This was you and Chan's first time together, and you realized that he had never seen you naked before. You were kind of shy. 

You nodded and let Chan take his shirt off of you, and when you were completely bare, he took some time to look you up and down. Your skin probably felt boiling hot.

"Baby you're so beautiful." And after he said that, he flipped you over, so he was on top of you. The necklace that you got him was still on his neck and was now dangling in your face.

Chan went in for a short kiss and then pulled away to move to your neck. He sucked down on your flesh, and the only thing you could say was, "Oh my god."

He moved down from your neck and took one of your breasts in his mouth. He was so skilled with his tongue, and when he bit down a bit on one of your nipples you couldn't help but arch your back at how good it felt.

Your hands went up into his hair, and Chan groaned. After showing your breasts enough love, he placed kisses on all the other parts of your body till he got to the hem of your panties.

"Chan, take them off, please." You needed him to touch you. You felt like you would combust if he didn't.

"I will, baby, but you have to be patient, okay?" He was really taking his time.

He proceeded to kiss your inner thighs and nibble on your skin upwards until he got to your clothed entrance.

You wondered how long he was going to tease you for, and you were full of excitement when he finally started pulling your panties down.

When your cunt was finally revealed to him, you swear you saw his eyes darken.

"Fuck baby you're so pretty." His compliments made your skin burn up.

"I'm going to stretch you out, okay? And I want you to tell me if it feels good." You nodded your head at his words and Chan removed his attention from your face to your cunt.

He inserted one finger into you, and you swear you saw stars. It had been so long and Chan just knew what to do and how to do it.

You were a complete mess by the time Chan was steadily thrusting his finger in and out of you, and you were even more fucked out when he put in a second finger and slightly curved them. He was hitting all your spots so well, and you were sure you weren't going to last any longer.

Chan didn't stop there and used his thumb to stimulate your overly sensitive his clit. He was so good with his fingers, and you were already starting to cry from the pleasure.

Your moans and whines filled the whole room, and chan obviously enjoyed hearing them, so he went even faster, which made you instantly arch your back and hold on to the sheets for dear life. 

You picked up a pillow and put it over your face to muffle your screams and Chan instantly took it from you and tossed it to the side.

"Don't do that again. I want to hear you and see your face." He said that and wiped the tears from his eyes.

He was still going with his fingers, and you felt a knot in your stomach which caused you to lose it.

"Chan plea-, oh my god, fuck." You couldn't even make out a full sentence. And Chan instantly knew what was coming.

"Baby do you want to cum?" He asked you as if you could even answer him.

"Chan, please don't-, don't stop, please." You managed to get those words out, and you heard Chan saying something about how you were clenching around his fingers.

"Chan I'm going to- ah fuck." Your legs went numb for a bit and your release hit you like a brick. You didn't even realize that you were sobbing all through.

Chan slowed down his fingers to help you down from your high. And when he had successfully helped you through your orgasm, he pulled his fingers out of you and came up to wipe your tears and kiss you.

"Chan please I need you." You told him when you had regained your senses and noticed that he was still in his pants. 

"Are you sure you can take it?" He asked you  and you assured him that you could, but your words came back to bite you in the ass when you saw the size of Chan's cock.

He was a healthy 5 to 6 inches, but he was so girthy, and you could see the veins pulsing around his cock. You changed your mind. There was no way it would fit.

Chan got a condom from his drawer, put it on, stroked himself a few times and positioned his tip at your entrance before slowly going in.

"Chan, I can't take it." You might have been a little too confident.

"Yes, you can." He told you, and you both gasped at the same time when he was finally in you.

You winced at the mixture of pain and pleasure of your walls being stretched out. It You felt so full

"Fuck you're so tight, kel, this is going to be a bit disappointing." You understood him pretty well because you knew how long it had been for him too.

"Give me a minute." Chan stayed still buried deep inside of him, trying to stabilize himself. You just wanted him to move already.

Chan started moving, but it was an agonizingly slow pace, and you just wanted him to fuck you dumb.

"Chan please can you go faster?" And he rammed into you hard and fast at the sound of your request.

You let out a stream of yeses as Chan continued to go in and out of you.

"You're taking me so well, baby." He lifted your leg and threw it over his shoulder so he could go even deeper, and you had to hold onto him for support. He was making you feel so good.

He lowered himself onto you, used his hands to cup your breast and started to kiss you. He was so unbelievably deep, and you dug your nails into his back.

Chan started to thrust into you faster and deeper, plus he was becoming more vocal, so you knew he was about to cum. He pulled you closer to him, and you felt him harden up and pulse inside of you before you felt his warm cum fill the condom, and then he pulled out and disposed of it.

When he got back, you had gone under the sheets, and he joined you in there and gave you lots of cuddles and kisses.

He showered you with compliments too and told you how much he loved you. You swore you were about to cry.

"Thank you for making me feel good, Chan." You said and covered his face in kisses.

"I'm not going to give it to you so easily next time, just so you know." He told you.

"Hmm, is that so Mr. Bang?" You were already thinking about a next time, and you couldn't wait.

You guys stayed in bed with each other for a while till Chan said to get you cleaned up so you guys could eat.

[olderthannetfic]

Saw an infuriating post and I just need to vent

Solas dragon age is a very flawed character. He's supposed to be. He's a well-intentioned extremist planning to, in his own words, destroy the current world so that he can bring back some semblance of the one he destroyed himself. He's also just straight up racist to you if you aren't an elf and is only sort of convinced to be less racist by the end of the game. If you romance him he will break up with you in a wildly humiliating scenario and then just stonewalls you unless you pay $15 US American Dollars to get the end of the game in which he gives you more mixed signals. The fact that he's a complicated anti-villain with a lot of prejudice to unpack makes him interesting. I personally love this horrible man so much and have written hundreds of thousands of words of fanfic about him.

I saw a post the other day that made me want to hit my head against a wall. You cannot just decide that a character is "neurodivergent-coded" and then accuse anyone who dislikes him of being ableist. I mean you can, but it makes you an asshole.

"people hate this character because he's neurodivergent-coded--" NO they hate him because he's a mean old bastard! Because he says everyone who's not an elf is a mindless brute! Because he dumps your ass in a swamp and ghosts you after he tells you that your very significant cultural tattoos are slave markings!!! Because he killed his subordinate for even suggesting that the people of this world might be worth saving!!! Because he keeps telling everyone he's going to destroy the world!!!

And then when someone gave the op of this travesty a very small and polite amount of pushback, the op made the truly incredible decision to imply this person supports slavery. No! What the hell is wrong with you!

Like yeah I know, someone in the dragon age fandom is being toxic, must be a day ending in y. But this one in particular got under my skin because of how adeptly the op used social justice language to justify being a shithead over a fictional character.

"solas is neurodivergent-coded but Cullen and Dorian aren't so that's why people like them more" you think cullen is neurotypical??? Why, because he sucks?? You can be neurodivergent and suck ass, trust me, I do it all the time.

Anyway rant over thank you for this space to scream into the void 😔

--

Ah, Dragon Age. The... uh... gift that keeps on giving.

[velvetjune]

Alan Wake Night Springs DLC spoilers and thoughts:

This is very vague, but this really was the most Remedy thing to ever exist. My brain exploded at some point from Everything. Good game—you can tell those developers had the time of their life making all this. looking forward to the Lake House as something more serious and similar to the main game/tone.

Episode one with Rose was the best! Stunning from the start until the end and had the funniest moments in any Remedy game. [Rose voice] “𝖎 𝖜𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖕𝖗𝖔𝖙𝖊𝖈𝖙 𝖞𝖔𝖚”

That fanart was SO good and could’ve been drawn by any irl Alan Wake fan. I can’t even say another or act like it’s embarrassing because I also think Alan is hot. So. Same Rose.

Bad boy Scratch being a werewolf.. Cat boy Alan (and the fucking Nightmare on Elm Street crop top fanart of him) being comically weak and in distress.. Rose dipping him at the end was unbelievably hilarious. Reject alpha male Scratch and embrace wet cat Alan. Every few minutes I had to remind myself that Alan technically wrote this,, his mind,, his perception of himself is incredible

That episode also was fun all around to play. Endless ammo and fun effects with the automatic shotgun. Rose slowly getting covered in blood. She’s already one of my favorite characters after this—she’s cringey in the best (and scarily realistic) ways. I support her

Episode 2: wish this one was longer because I missed Jesse and her awkward and aggressive conversations with others. I thought Dylan would pop up at some point, but of course Alan wrote himself into this twist ending. Couldn’t stop laughing with that. It felt just like the Night Springs eps of Alan Wake 1 lol.

I had the most trouble with some of the sections of this game, but it was fun, mostly just felt like a fool for not initially understanding it. The secret agency and clear references to the Board and FBC were everything. It was just Control: Coffee edition.

Episode 3: Death Rally Tom !! I was beyond happy seeing this. Always nice to see more Zane.

I’m not very familiar with Quantum Break outside of the general story and beginning, so the last episode was So Much. Initial thought: Please no Jesse and Tim in Control 2. It’s almost certainly supposed to be because of Quantum Break, but that version of her waiting for Tim came out of nowhere for me lol (also 😔 because I either want her to be with Emily or not get with someone at all—Control Jesse is so far from Beth Quantum Break/Lisa imo). The “but maybe…” multiverse romance was. whatever. cheesy but in a more negative way.

Another thing that makes me somewhat relieved this is the whacky DLC is that it does address a lot of the vague unanswered questions of the game in the typical sci-fi way (and probably a big win for theorists), and I want to keep that away from most of the main games. I like not knowing things lmao. It’s not a huge deal and I love all the crossovers/realities, but I want future AW (if 3 happens) and Control games to still largely focus on the mysterious horror without anything too definitive or distracting. I’m mostly okay with it here because this is Also an episode written by Alan and hosted by Door, so it’s not reliable—even if I’m sure this is what Remedy envisions when writing these games.

^ something something “In a horror story the victim keeps asking why, but there can be no explanation and there shouldn't be one. The unanswered mystery is what stays with us the longest and is what we'll remember in the end.”

However looooved how the third episode changed the style of the game repeatedly. The very last scene where the words form the writers room and Alan before it abruptly ends was great and the standout of the ep.

I’m not going to try to unpack all this, but it’s interesting how Alan and Door present themselves as being these largely antagonistic forces in this DLC. They’re an underrated duo (the two Masters of Many Worlds). Everything felt like it was Alan purposefully trying to imprint on these realities and influence things in his writing, making certain things parallel his life and circumstances. Reminded me of him attempting to get the irl Koskela brothers to kill each other to get out of the Dark Place. Hard to tell what’s really the truth.

I like Door too much to be scared of him. The jump scares were nicely paced throughout and the echoes of Tim/Shawn/Jack fighting him were interesting.

The tribute for James McCaffrey at the end was emotional and lovely.

[verdemoun]

does sean ever worry about what darragh would think of his relationship with lenny if he could see him now? i love darragh but ofc it was the 1840-90s he was alive so he’d at least need time to understand 😔

oh so soft and sad yes the gang is so lucky in a sense they all happened to find each other like the classic gay kids in high school. yes they were problematic as all hell in terms of mocking bill for being in a transparent closet but the gang are very relaxed for 19th century values regarding homosexuality

darragh loved his son but it simply wasn't a thing that crossed his mind. he absolutely joked about sean meeting a nice irish girl most of sean's life

another thing sean has to unpack is not only what darragh would think of lenny being a man, his husband (if darragh would even accept gay marriage or actually argue for the sanctity of marriage) BUT also how would darragh feel about interracial marriage. would darragh see his husband and just see a black* man* despite raising sean to judge people based on their character not their race?

sean also hates himself a little for how much he thinks about it. what would darragh think? what were his da's values when it came to homosexuality and interracial relationships? was it something he would disown his son over? would he have defied the odds and just been supportive because seeing his son happy meant so much to him he died for the chance for sean to live a better life?

also lenny not being catholic. like oof one day he offhandedly asked if lenny was catholic and lenny just stared at him and laughed before realizing how important it was to sean. he offered to go to a church service with him and sean almost cried not only because lenny was willing to go to service with him but also he's been such a bad catholic he hasn't gone to service since reform school.

papa hosea to the rescue as usual sean does eventually talk to hosea about it and hosea thinks on it and gives him a proper answer about how his own childhood and experience of being queer and having to challenge his own values over time

he also assures sean that he's certain that darragh macguire, the genius outlaw who sean remembers so fondly, would have tried his damnedest to support sean because sean only remembers darragh so proudly, so affectionately, because of how much darragh absolutely loved his son

if darragh did have the chance to meet lenny, he would love him. can you imagine the ideological circles those two would talk themselves in? playfully asking what a bright young man like lenny sees in his irish terrier of a son. and as much as sean loves his da he would have been jumping down his throat correcting him for referring to lenny as his friend when that is his husband.

darragh would be more annoyed at sean for not going to church and lenny not being catholic than sexuality or race, though very guilty of passive homophobia genuinely unfamiliar with concept of a man referring to another man as his husband. gets one day to see how happy his son is in modern era with his perfect daughter and spectacular, wonderful companion (husband, da!!) and instead drags sean by the ear down to church while absolutely tearing into him in Irish.

[plagalkey]

i’m such a big fan omg i would buy all the f1 art if only my mom didn’t scold me alrdy 😔😔but butbut i need NEED your opinion on ur head canons if atsuoikage omegaverare, what’s everyone’s secondary sex? like atsumu alpha slay but the other two??? are they just both omegas???? no we have to unpack this.

okok and second of all the half blood camp au for atsuoikage omg i might just PASS AWAY i love you and your sexy brain SO MUCH. i would make an alter of all ur art in a room for me in my house next time to go into and every morning just to chant plagelkey and atsuoikage and just ADMIRE UR ART. ALSO STREET RACING AU omg OMG. ur art with ally’s fanfics, I WAS ABOUT TO COMBUST. i love you and u deserve the universe, not just the world, EVERYTHING. <33

Oh you're so sweet thank u so much for the support with the prints and sorry to ur mom hahah 😭😭😭

Omegaverse: TLDR My peak fave scenario for the OT3 is both atsumu and kageyama as alphas and oikawa as the omega

Oikage: my default is kageyama alpha and oikawa omega... but I can fuck with alpha/alpha (i am enthusiastically looking and enhance zoom 200%) or omega/omega (less interested but i am watching from afar... you can hook and bait me easily as long as it's oikg lol) I'm quite partial to kageyama being an alpha bc i enjoy kageyama having the one up on oikawa in like... talent / genetics / whatever system of the universe they are in bc it gives oikawa more reason to feel inferior, fight against the odds, and resent kageyama at the beginning of their relationship LOL it makes it all the more sweet when they bridge that gap... and also bc I like kageyama admiring oikawa soooo much and being obsessed with oikw regardless of his status (especially if it's considered lesser) in any world haha.....

Atsuoi: Atsumu I can be flexible on as an omega sometimes, I'm less solid on him... like I like Atsuoi omega/omega... and I like Atsuoi alpha/omega where either of them is the alpha i like them both ways haha... I also like Atsuoi alpha/alpha!!! I love all forms of Atsuoi!!!!! give me any Atsuoi I will probably die and cry and treasure forever

Atsukage: I'm only interested when theyre alpha/alpha!!! I don't care for the alpha/omega or omega/omega dynamic between them it doesn't tickle my brain personally I like them when they are fighting u know like bark bark head empty

Also ally and I appreciate the love and support on street racer AU so much I can't believe it sometimes haha it started as a simple idea for me bc I just wanted atsuoi to have car sex lol and now we are here... with lore and everything and sunaosa and ot5 with atsuoikg/snos alas LMAO

[gelataisa]

I'm not delusional, right? When I read other people's thoughts about Squalo and xanxus's ship, they say that it is not real 🫠, and if it was real , it would be one-sided, which are Squalo's feelings🥲, and it is just a relationship between Boss and his captain, who admires his ambition, but I feel that it is illogical if that is the case? There is something beautiful, but they ruin it, but if what is between them is not real, especially xanxus’s feelings for Squalo, this will not become beautiful, but rather a nightmare. Squalo’s interest is clear, but xanxus does not, and this is what makes me not sleep, and what do you think about xanxus’s feelings for Squalo? I don't want to be delusional lol.

I want something that eliminates my doubts so I can live in peace😔helppp

My dearest anon, finally I have the time to answer you. This ask has not left my mind since you sent it, im sorry it took so long.

At the same time though, I am glad it took so long cause i can answer you calmly.

Your ask really angered me. And dont get the wrong idea, none of that anger was directed at you.

There are many layers of wrong in what you reported on your ask, and i'll try to adress them properly. Under the cut cause its gonna be long (and i hope i wont bore you) - i will answer your direct question in the last point, in case you want to go straight to the point. But for real, there is much to unpack here.

We have people bashing you for a ship that you really like, to the point you think that you are delusional. And that is fucking nuts. Every ship is legit. Every single crack pair and rare pair is legit. Cause we are all losers who spend their time thinking about puppets kissing. There is no higher ground to stand on. And this applies to ships that we see no fucking point in as well. And i am not saying this as a person that loves any ship. I am the pickiest shipper ever. And i am not a good person either, there are many ships which i loathe. Yet, i have the decency not to go to the people who ship such ships. If i complain it is privately and with the right people. If i dont like a thing i block (and i have blocked people because of what they ship). Everyone has the right to see only the stuff they want. No one has the right to make others feel bad for the stuff they like.

Personally, i firmly believe that there are ships and ships. And I hope i was not too italian saying that. the point is: i think some ships are basically written in the source material. That is to say, regardless of whether you pair the people romantically or not, the dynamic is deep, complex and (especially) apparent. You dont need to add much of your own to make it work. Other ships, on the other hand, need more work to be "justified", to gain substance. They may require filling in a lot of gaps, or looking at details scattered in the story. Now, both kind of ships have their own dignity (as per point 1), we dont get to choose the things we like. Still, i believe that at the same time we allow anyone to enjoy their thing while we enjoy ours, we need to also realise that some ships have more substance in the source material than others.

I know that the first two points may seem unrelated to what you asked, but i needed them for now. ive heard many the complains you have mentioned in your ask. and they angered me particularly cause usually they are brought up by people that try bring forward their own ships, and that know to do so only by bringing "competitor" ships down. I know you have not explicitly said so, but i believe its whats going on in this case, and it makes me incredibly angry and - honestly - sad. I believe that people that do this realise their ships are not as solid as XS (or some other ship) is (back to point 2), so they bash on it to advance their own. This is what angers me. Now, what makes me sad is that while doing this they also terribly mischaracterise the characters to the point they are not themselves anymore. Indeed, what a pity

Now, about XS: most of what i think of them i have said here. And about Xanxus, as you asked... one thing is clear: people that say that he does not care about Squalo have not spared one thought for him. And if they have, I am sorry, but they have not understood a thing about him. Xanxus is a very complex character. His most apparent trait, once you read the manga, is that his actions most of the times dont reflect his thoughts. and what he thinks is masked, and very well so. he was raised with the pressure of expectations, and hardened a lot because of it. he wasnt allowed to show any weakness, or maybe it was just himself who got convinced of it. but any feeling he has, apart from his anger, he suppresses. it took him one whole arc to express his motivations (and i dont even remember how much of his past was revealed to the cast) and to show emotional weakness. it took him 10+ years to defend his family and show he cares, and even then, he still didnt admit that he accepted Tsuna as tenth. after 10 years. How could anyone expect him to show love for someone? Or that he cares for anyone? That is the only gap you need to fill in XS, a gap named "Xanxus Vongola and his multiple issues".

To conclude, my dearest anon... you are right to say that there is something beautiful. Dont let anyone ruin it for you. And especially, surround yourself with people who share your interests and dont even look at those that try to bring you down instead. You deserve better than that.

And i know im not the best one in interactions, whether it is answering asks or messages or else (thanks anxiety and constant exhaustion) but i truly am glad when people interact about xs. You are more than welcome in my inbox, or if youll ever want to add to my posts and reblogs. to build a xs community is my dream on here, i hope ill have the energy to do so

[rontra]

yknow it’s occurring to me that I just sorta skated past Red Helena and I haven’t got a single fucking clue what her deal is. Sleepwalker? Was she named sleepwalker? You tagged ONE post with sleepwalker and that is unironically an S-tier villain name. I miss her (didn’t ever know her)

SLEEPWALKER MY BELOVED!!!!!! she's a rotten little freak (affectionate) yes that is her name! a bit ago i went back and tagged the other posts under "sleepwalker" as well but tbh she doesn't have that many posts to begin with MFDHJBF

UM yea Sleepwalker (also Batman but primarily "red helena" "evil helena" and "freak helena" if you will) is the main acting villain of CTDE arc 3 ...!!!

arc 1 is focused on a PG problem, arc 2 goes to a SG problem, so arc 3 is helena's turn in the spotlight (despite trying so so hard not to get into the spotlight if she can help it). and to suit the formula obviously the villain has to be some kind of helena (famously pg herself is the antagonist of arc 1 and red lantern soupey for arc 2)

😭 she doesn't like it but honestly she should've seen the formula coming for her. babe its YOUR turn to unpack stuff about yourself while defeating the antagonist. who is also you

Sleepwalker is from a different place in the multiverse (Third Known CTDE Verse!!! (or Fourth i guess since carrie's is mentioned first)). in the CTDE, things like "the multiverse" aren't really Known except in very niche cases (eg. kara and helena obviously know about it since they are From A Different Earth) and power levels are generally hard-capped before reaching Close to multiversal levels. even the strongest characters can't affect anything beyond the boundaries of their own universe yknow. obviously this makes Sleepwalker an anomaly because she's very much breaking into the primary CTDE world and using Weird Powers about it too

well but okay so, she's basically, Helena Wayne From A Different World, more or less. her world roughly follows the same backstory as helena's, up until the day the big dumb apocalypse war is lost & the girlies get transported out of their universe (you know—this day)

in Sleepwalker's world, the war is lost as usual, but kara disappears Without Her. she's been left behind in the bad ending and had to make it on her own on an earth that's already fallen. it's kind of hopeless and there aren't a lot of pockets left for survival to exist in...

she picks up the Batman name ofc. and she also picks up a lot of new lessons in efficiency and brutality. it's rough out there so she's had to learn to play rough in return... she doesn't have a gadget guy or anything so most of her weaponry is scavenged tech that's barely safe to use, but when you're fighting out of a cornered position like she is, 😔✌

obviously she wants Out. this shit sucks. and she's bitter and jaded about a lot of things and holding on to a lot of grudges. shes not having a GOOD time. even less so when a brand-new bit of multiversal awareness shows her that it didn't have to be this way at all and there's Another Her that's living a way better life (WITH the girl who vanished no less)

basically once she's in play it's like. Sleepwalker is not stranded on primary earth. sleepwalker is loose. and shes making it helena's problem 😭

AND SHE HAS A GUN? AND NEW WEIRD MULTIVERSAL POWERS?

yea so there's a Plot Woman who exists in the CTDE solely to facilitate the plot of arc 3 (and then fuck off once it's done). she's sleepwalker's sponsor who's giving her the power required to not only transcend her home territory but also to affect things on the primary earth on a level no one inside the universe can overturn

as a bonus for being an interesting little bug, Sleepwalker has been given a minor restricted dominion over dreams and sleep (hence the overall Theme and Name). her swag new powers are the reason Arc 3 opens with both peegee and soupeygirl falling into an unnatural sleep that no one can disrupt. because it's a state they were put into by power of a scale and nature no one can approach, because we're working from inside the house. yknow?

the weeks leading up to Arc 3 had people increasingly gripped by nightmares until one day the karas don't wake up anymore. that's Sleepwalker, baby! the backfire is that sleepwalker is also extremely haunted in her own dreams but that's probably fine for her mental wellbeing i think

so you have like helena and raven fussing about their respective favorite karas and trying to solve all that while sleepwalker is out Lurking and like theoretically the league is free to help out for once in their lives but the sleep powder is in a universe-bending weight class so its like "superman finally showed up just in time to do fuck all"

as for how to deal with sleepwalker and the sleepy bitch situation i completely trust helena to take her out back and Handle It. but this post is getting long + solving it is what Arc 3 is like About so suffice to say

(thank u for asking i love when people are interested in my AU. -the rambler MDFHJBDFSG)

[sebstanismyspiritanimal]

Here's chapter 5! Sorry for the late update but I work full-time and am getting ready to move so I've been super busy! But this chapter is extra long to make up for it 😁

I would like to apologize in advance for Uncle Wayne 😔 he is one of my favorite parents to come out of Stranger Things, but I honestly really love making my characters feel so much pain only to make them heal and become stronger later. There's probably a term for that 🤷🏼‍♀️

As always leave any suggestions or comments as you please and here's chapter 4 if you missed it :)

The case was closed after three days in Nebraska and the team was quickly packing up files and papers at Quantico to hand in to Hotch and take the next two days off.

Spencer hadn't mentioned the radio to Eddie or the voice on the other end, and she hadn't either. He had watched her the next day and she didn't seem tired or worse off for most likely having spent a night up and talking to someone else.

She didn't bring the radio out in the day time and so Spencer let the matter drop, who was he to say someone was acting weird?

"I'm thinking a night out with drinks and dancing to decompress, anyone else in?" Emily was asking as the agents were crowding in the bullpen to leave. JJ, Derek, and Penelope all quickly agreed and they looked to Spencer and their newest member for their answers.

"Ah, no thanks, crowds and flashing lights aren't really my thing." Eddie sheepishly grinned at the boos that were starting.

"Besides ive still got an apartment to unpack and that is taking ages." Penelope seemed to perk up at that and grinned brightly.

"We can help! It'll go a lot faster with more hands helping!" Everyone else around her started making noises of consent, making Eddie start to protest, "No, you guys go have fun, I can handle the unpacking myself." But they fell on deaf ears, "I'll bring pizza!" Derek said as he started calling someone on his phone, "And I'll bring the drinks!" JJ threw her hand up to volunteer.

Spencer gave Eddie a small grin, "There's no point in arguing, but we are rather efficient. If this FBI thing doesn't work out we could definitely start a moving company." His grin got wider as Eddie let out a quiet laugh, "You all just want to snoop don't you?"

She gave everyone her address and they all dispersed in the parking lot, walking to different cars.

"Do you mind if I just catch a ride to your place? I don't see the point in riding the metro twice tonight." Eddie told him to hop in and they were smoothly driving out of the parking lot.

The ride was silent for a while before Spencer started to talk, "So what made you join the task force? You said you joined right out of high school, right?" Eddie's grip on the wheel tightened before she deliberately relaxed her hands.

"It wasn't my decision, not really. The other members of the team were my friends. We were all approached and recruited together and they decided to join up so I followed them."

Spencer was pretty shocked by her answer but before he could ask anything else she was pulling in to a parking lot, "You live in the sister building to mine!" Spencer exclaimed before he could help himself.

"Yeah? The taller one right there?" He nodded at the building she was pointing at.

"Seems silly for you to keep riding the metro everyday then."

"Oh, you dont-"

"Spence, literally it takes no extra time in my commute, your building shares a parking lot with mine." He blushed as she laughed brightly and began the trek up her stairs.

Not even an hour later and JJ, Penelope, Derek, and Emily were in various parts of her living room organizing and unpacking from boxes, asking questions about things they found and laughing through their own guesses if Eddie pretended she couldn't hear them.

Penelope opened a new box and let out a large gasp, "Guys! I found the nerd box!" Everyone gathered around her to look at the contents. Figurines and banners and tshirts from multiple different franchises spilled out and on top was a large stack of DnD Manuel's, notebooks, loose paper drawings, etc.

"Munson, you weren't kidding about the DnD stuff, what is all of this?" Derek whistled as he started leafing thru the large stack.

"Hey I never kid about Dungeons and Dragons. I was DM for the club I started in my highschool. I met some really good people thru that group." Eddie explained shuffling thru the pile and smiling slightly.

Garcia gasped and dove her hand in the box pulling out a stack of frames with various people in them.

"Look! Baby Eddie!" She cheered and showed the group the top picture of Eddie surrounded by a large group of people, are varying ages. They were all smiling but it seemed that most of everyone had been crying right before the picture was taken.

"Who are all these people?" Emily asked her, touching the faces of a couple of them.

"That's my family. That was the day we left for training for the force." Eddie whispered, smiling gently at the picture.

She cleared her throat abruptly, "This is Jonathon, Steve, Robin, and Nancy" she pointed to each individual person, "they were in the task force with me."

The group looked thru the other three pictures, the same people sprinkled thru each one except the last, the last one was just a selfie type picture with a teenage Eddie and an older, greying man that hadn't been in any of the other photos.

When Penelope uncovered it, Eddie took it gently from her.

"That's my Uncle Wayne, he took me in when i was 11 after my dad got sent to federal lock up for the last time."

"Is he still in Hawkins?" JJ asked her, noticing the sad smile on her colleagues face.

"No. No, he died my senior year, earthquake took out the trailer park we lived in and he was home, got caught up in the rubble." Everyone looked away to give her some privacy to wipe the tears gathering in her eyes.

The crackle of a radio turning on broke the atmosphere of the apartment and made everyone look at the dining room table.

~Jonathon and Steve requesting roll call.~

The voice on the other end sounded strained and tired, making Eddie walk over to it immediately and put the speaker to her mouth, but she paused before she said anything.

One by one different voiced came over saying different names, obviously replying to the roll call.

~Lucas~

~Dustin~

~Robin~

~Nancy~

~Mike~

~Max~

~El~

~Will~

~Erica~

Finally Eddie clicked her button

~Eddie~

At that the radio went silent, until Eddie started talking into it again.

~Jon.~

~He's okay. It was another terror, but I brought him out and he wanted a roll call. He's back asleep already, I gave him some medicine so hopefully we can avoid a migraine in the next couple days.~ the answering voice was tired, it was the same man who had requested the roll call but it was whispered now, trying to be quiet for someone.

~Okay, let me know if he needs anything.~

~Will do.~

When Eddie turned around to face her team she had to turn back around so she wouldn't cry again.

They were silently unpacking boxes again, not one person looking at her confused, waiting for an explanation, but letting her have her moment with her family, as strange as it was.

[celestie0]

HSLLLOOO HELLO ELLIE??!!!!! Hru doing? Hows ur vacay been? I hope all is good cuz YOU🫵😡 deserve only the bestest. When are u gonna be done with ur lil holiday?😏 I personally love LOVE packing for vacays but coming back home n unpacking it smh😔 I always feel like an extra couple of days wouldve been better 😞😞 BUT I HOPE UR HAVING FUN HAHA!

Anyways, I’ve been thinking extra hard about ihm AND kickoff gojo’s ugh pls they need to be kicked into outer space 😒 So annoyingly sexy like how can a girl be normal about this 😔 I re read IHM n plzzzz ur characterisation, ur writing, the setting EVERYTHING is just too good I have no words at alllll!!! u are so amazing 🥹🫶🫶🫶

Take care of yourself ellie!!!

zuro anon

HIIIII zuro baby!! i’m okay!! vacation is okay!! we are driving back home from roadtrip now :) i have been suffering from Chronic Tummy Ache the whole time we’ve been on the road which has sucked but i’m feeling better now hahah. and HAHAH nahhhh i want to go HOME 😂😅 no extra days for me plsss. but i hear ya ive def had vacays where i wish they lasted longer!! how have you been bb?? hope you’re enjoying your summer so far!! also I’ll be back home on sunday!

AAAAAAA i will eat u omg. youre gonna make me sob tysm for the love for ihm :”) PLS i miss writing for ihm so bad i cant wait to get home n work on the next chapterrr. YOU ARE AMAZING!!

so much love from me as alwaaysss <33

- ellie 🔥

[zipstidbits]

zip's tid bits | sunday, may 19, 2024

i accidentally slept through all four of my alarms and woke up when the memorial service was starting ;-;

(my brother was also late so that made it better, lmao)

the service was held at the church i grew up in, and i'm not religious now so it was an interesting experience. things seem to be better there now (in terms of equality and stuff) and while i'm happy for the young members of the church, i kind of wish that i had that chance too and i could've left religion only for being an atheist, and not for being barred from experiences and treated differently

(it's fine. i'm over it.)

i hung out with family at the service for a bit which was nice!!! and i successfully avoided the one old lady who always gives me trouble for not being married, lmaooooo

after that, i drove back to the city and chilled for a while before accidentally falling asleep and taking a four-hour nap, whoops

i didn't have much else to do today other than that so i've just been hanging around, killing time, dealing with a small bit of hives. the usual 😔✌️

the to-do list:

✔️ go to the memorial service + brunch

✖️ unpack everything from my weekend stay at my dad's

✔️ text a few friends + make plans with people for next week

✔️ daily spanish practice (podcast, duolingo, writing)

✖️ exercise

✖️ go to bed by 1am (it's 2:30am now, lmaoooooooooo)

currently:

📚 the black hand by will thomas // dracula daily

🎧 coffee break spanish // sherlock & co

📺 sherlock holmes (1984)

credit:

image

dividers

[mybiasisexo]

Entangled - Part 7 Snippet

I feel soooo bad for the delayed update 😭. I want the next chapter out as much as y’all do, but this chapter is hard bro 😭. I’ve literally rewritten it like 6 times and even still I’m not satisfied with it 😪. So, here is a little treat!! Will this be in the final cut?? Shoot, idk tbh 🤷🏾‍♀️. But alas, for your patience ✊🏾😔. Appreciate y’all real bad!!! 💕💕💕

“Are you just going to stand there?” He asks. It takes you out of your hyperfocused stare and you blink up at him, catching the way he grins. He must know what he’s doing.

You clear your throat and start taking off your heels before walking over to him. He remains standing stalk still, his breaths controlled as you slowly prowl over to him.

You watch the way his irises blow out, darkening in a way you haven’t seen in years, but know all too well. When you’re about a foot away, you abruptly turn and sit on the edge of his bed.

He takes a deep grounding breath, running a hand over his face as he lets out a tortured groan before falling onto the chair holding his jacket.

A silence falls over you, but it’s not awkward like it had been in the elevator. If anything, it’s heavy with the weight of your attraction you both have for each other. That attraction is somber though, with the pain you both carry as well. With him so near after so long, the pain in your chest feels ten times heavier. You aren’t sure if you’re going to burst into tears, or maul him–you’re sure either option would lead you to regret. So instead, you stare at your lap, where your hands knot almost painfully into each other. He’s not making matters worse. If anything, you’re getting more self conscious with the way you can feel his heavy gaze. You find it a bit exasperating.

“Can you stop that?”

“Stop what?” He asks in confusion. The way his voice has deepened doesn’t pass you.

“Staring,” you clarify, lifting your gaze up to him. Once your eyes lock, he turns away shyly.

“I can’t help it,” he reveals quietly. “I just… can’t believe you’re really here. That….” He pulls gently on his earlobe, face turning pink. “That you’re in my hotel room. I feel like I’ll blink and you’ll be gone.”

He sounds so sweet, so sincere, so…heartbroken. That constant push and pull you’ve been feeling towards him this past few days hit you simultaneously. Part of you wants to dismiss him and try to deflect, but another part–that’s a lot bigger than you’d be honest about–wants to fall into his arms. You’re reminded again of last night, of how close you were to giving into him completely. If it hadn’t been for Yerim….

No, no. You can’t go there right now, not with you alone with him in such small quarters.

Time to change the subject.

“Why did you invite me here?” You ask.

“I wanted to apologize,” he reveals.

“For what?”

“There’s a lot to apologize for, I’m sure,” he begins, sinking more into his chair and leaning his head back so that he can stare up at the ceiling. “But I think the biggest thing right now is for last night.”

“You remember?” You ask skeptically. He was really drunk and, well, a lot happened in a short amount of time. A lot that you both need to unpack to be able to do…whatever it is you’re trying to do. You aren’t really sure. Closure, definitely. But what after that? You guess you’d just cross that bridge when you got to it.

“Trust me, the boys refused to let me forget,” he grumbles. That brings out your first grin since the wedding. They really are Team You, and are incredibly insufferable with it. You can only imagine the things Sehun said to him. Damn, maybe you should apologize as well.

“I don’t remember everything,” he says. “But they let me know how I made a complete fool of myself. That I…that I kissed you?”

The tips of his yoda ears turn an endearing shade of red, letting you know that he does indeed feel embarrassed over what the others told him he did. You wonder if he knows what he said to you. How he was practically begging you to take him back.

“You did,” you confirm.

[sunyandmony]

"ꋊꏂꅐ ֮ϐׁυׁׅtׁׅ ….σℓ∂?" |Cato and Reader drabble(?)|

Cato but if he was a… Mer? Fish? Dunno- I'll see what I can do- The design comes first though- So yep- that's why it comes out very badly and late 😔

Just to be safe, I'm gonna add extra trigger warnings..

Tw:body horror(?), implied gore, potty mouth author/reader, self-harm mentioned(ig??)

B̶i̶g̶ f̶i̶s̶h̶ a̶r̶e̶ d̶a̶n̶g̶e̶r̶o̶u̶s̶ no̶w̶- B̶u̶t̶ a̶l̶s̶o̶… V̶e̶r̶y̶ s̶m̶a̶s̶h̶a̶b̶l̶e̶- I M̶E̶A̶N̶ H̶U̶H̶?̶!̶- D̶O̶N̶'̶T̶ L̶O̶O̶K̶ H̶E̶R̶E̶ D̶A̶N̶G̶-

Start reading under cut ⬇

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You were NOT gonna make it out alive, not out of this one, nope, all the instructions did not tell you about a humongously tall half-human and half-fish, dangerous and about to probably rip you into pieces creature who currently had a staring contest with you, scarlet eyes glowing straight towards you, pentagrams sending daggers(?) your way as you prepared for the worst yet to come..

╰•°`°•>3 𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑡ℎ𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒..<•°`°•╯

You finally managed to get out of that ridiculously uncomfortable seat, your mind trailing with thoughts of how your life is changing so fast, it hasn't even been that long since your parents handed out this house to you, and you knew they weren't poor, but neither that rich, you might've been wrong about that- What you're looking for was right in front of you as soon as you looked up from your phone and compared the screenshot to the actual thing.

The house itself wasn't much of a house itself,..a beach house? Could it be considered one at its size? Probably- But you didn't really care, this was now your new home, along with your dog of course, who's been following you all along, practically trying to get your attention to feed them, but you can't right now, it's too much to unpack now and so, she'd have to wait for a bit, you already gave her treats not long ago before getting out of the taxi.

Your dog was mostly fluffy and pretty friendly towards everyone, mostly children and especially you, the owner, the fur on her body being like a rough, colorfully coat. Black, brown and white adding to her fit, her ears dropped over her head as if acting sad from your denial for more treats, slowing down her rhythm ever so often while running off to the docks while you opened the door to your house, a key you almost forgot you had in your jacket that lazily draped over your persona.

This was much better than being locked in your apartment 24/7 working from home for the stupid makeup company your mom told you would be 'best for you' even though you barely liked makeup in general, not phased by it or anyone wearing it, because unlike everyone else, your parents just sent you off and said that it's fine to just retire all of a sudden, and not even bothering to tell you why, just 'waving' you off the best way through a call at midnight.

It wasn't new for them to ask you to do something, but this? You surely haven't expected things to go out this way, not when they planned on you being the one to take over their company when you're older, no not the make-up one, that's just another job you rather forget about now, because you hated every moment being there, not one moment did you enjoy working with uncooperative people at your side and trying to get projects done before they're overdue, so you took it pretty well actually, a chance to start fresh.

You slowly unlocked the door with a click and looked inside, the curtains having been left closed from the last time someone was probably, which you doubted was recent due to how private this part of the town was, nobody even stepping here and just going another way to avoid this place as if they couldn't step on the beach near this house, and you assumed it's your parents who bought this place for sure, because unlike your cousins you're not that easily gonna gloss over it and just, enjoy the kind of wealth? Not quite though, and the beach beside it, how do they have the money? A total mystery you don't ever wanna find anything about.

Ever so slowly, you set your bags near what looks like a desk with many drawers that had already been here for a long time, the dust having gathered onto it, the way this place looked like couldn't be described better then a abandoned house, a whole bunch of old garbage and dust laying around for who knows how long now, bookshelves full of books that somehow fit in the shelves for how many there were, old furniture somehow still intact as well but as everything else here, dusty, but overall organized. Huh, it seems whoever was last here at least left less chores for you to do, you assume that they're more responsible than you are though.

As soon as you hear the creaking of the porch behind you, ever so slowly getting closer, you open the door as your dog, which you so decided to call 'Jua', since the name fitted her pretty well. After she got in, you shut the door closed, making sure to check if it would budge before groaning to yourself, your thoughts running a mile an hour for whatever reason as you slumped towards the middle couch, letting yourself fall on it face first and not thinking twice before closing your eyes, trying to get some good night's rest.

… Turns out that's just impossible the moment you got your phone out and started scrolling through media, again, trying to pass the time and looking through 'Tuza', a popular app today that mostly had everything you could wish for, aside from the hackers, that's something you'd rather not get involved with, yet… At least if it's not necessary..

You didn't realize just how much your eyes hurt until you blinked once, finally coming to a stop from scrolling through Tuza, closing the app and then closing your phone, the screen turning black as you set the said device on the coffee table next to you, closing your eyes and uncomfortably shifting on the couch, trying to find a comfortable position to fall asleep in, but none of the positions helped one bit with your sleepy state, you wanted to sleep so badly, yet couldn't, shifting eve more, as if it would help at all.

You grip your already messy hair and pull on it, the silence abruptly cut short as droplets of water started pouring down from the sky above on the roof of your house and everywhere else outside. You have not watched the news for a while, so you weren't expecting rain at almost 4 AM in the morning, and to say you were tired was a lie.. You were exhausted, spent and done staying up just because of your thoughts, stupid, awful thoughts..

What thoughts were they to be so bad? You don't even know, all you know they're so bad they keep you awake, and a bonus with that constant scratching noise from outside, and you already forgot what you were even talking about a moment later. You slowly loosen your grip on your hair, looking up to be met with the said rain outside that kept on pouring down on your windows. It was actually pretty quiet except the sound of your breathing and Jua's on the floor next to the couch, somewhere in the pitch blackness in front of you.

A deep sigh and you stand up, strolling closer to the window and looking outside, it was all normal. The palm tree ravishing with the violent wind outside, leaves thrown around by the force. You squint your eyes, and then you're met with another, much bigger, much weirder face staring back at you. You scramble back, breathing heavily. What is that? Whatever it is, it's not human, but it wasn't gone even when you looked back out, it started almost right through you.

You gave it a small wave, more out of curiosity than anything, and it returned the gesture, much to your horror. Yep, so it could see you through the darkness from a distance of at least a hundred yards away. Great. You understand why your parents had so many books about mythical creatures now, given one is staring at you. You come back to the present and skip back to your room, picking up a few clothes and changing into them. They were soft and somewhat comfortable on your cold skin, but it wasn't time to think. You put on the hat and then throw a raincoat around yourself, plucking the buttons on it close and putting on the hood before putting on some much needed boots and putting your phone in your pants pocket under the raincoat before running outside, bursting the door open and then closing behind yourself.

If you were gonna see a creature, you would see it up close to make sure it is real and not a trick or your imagination. Humid and wet sand crunched up under your feet and the wind blowing past you so rapidly made it impossible to concentrate on the current mission. Mostly because you forgot to bring a flashlight, so you had to base yourself at the bare minimum that you could see outside in the rain with the bare moonlight slipping through the heavy clouds.

A particular hard swoosh of the wind almost knocked you off your feet, but you grounded yourself, breathing heavily under the collar of your shirt, trying to warm up your breath somewhat before continuing on. You weren't seeing anything as of yet, given how low you are on the ground at the moment, and it felt like forever but you hit somewhat of a checkpoint, a rock in the middle of the beach that you sat down behind to rest on the sand, the wind not as effective now as it was before.

Were you seriously risking your life just to prove a thing to yourself? While it would satisfy your curiosity, it could also satisfy your death wish. A shiver ran down your spine. No, you were not going to die, if it was dangerous you knew you could run, some creatures of the ocean couldn't always stay on the ground before needing to go right back into the water. But given the rain right now, it didn't count, but they could still be out given the chance, and you weren't taking a 'no' as an answer from your brain.

A few more deep breaths and you got off the ground, steadying yourself with the help of the rock given at hand before walking around it and continuing your adventure towards the rocky hill, trying hard to not fall over because of the rain picking up and the wind blowing past you becoming much, much colder and harder to ignore.

A particular area nearby the rocks started rocking along with the wind, and the moment you got too close to it, the wind picked up and the boulder on top fell over, rolling off its spot.

You were so focused on it that before you knew it, darkness ate at your eyes and you collapsed completely under the boulder that continued to crush your body. You were too weak, too stupid to defend yourself against a rock, much less an unknown creature. It ate at your thoughts.

. . .

And suddenly, you took a deep intake of breaths as something heavy was lifted off of you as simply as a feather, you shot up and held a hand over your heart, trying to calm yourself. Your back was most likely not gonna help you, and neither were your most likely broken legs, well, not that broken, you still could move them, given your stupid attempt to get up off the ground.

A harsh gasp came from you, and you sat back down, feeling with your free hand at your ankles and lower leg, trying to see if it was fractured. On the inside it felt intact, on the outside however it felt like it was all scratched and bruised, for both legs had the same problem, but your right leg aches more given the weight that was put on it the most. More thoughts came about and then you raised your head, looking up to be met with what you could describe only as some sort of mer or even, leviathan. It couldn't be put in words at how silent it was, it was leaning close and stabilized with two hands on the ground, holding its body upwards.

You couldn't help your curiosity growing even more, despite the dread you were feeling, knowing that you were probably just prey in its eyes. It inched closer to you, and you had to hold back the shiver that ran down your spine once its immense, wet face was right in front of you, blocking out everything else, all you could see were the obvious scarlet, glowing eyes. To say you were one second away from running wasn't a mistake, but even if you tried, your legs would've given out the moment you get up, given just how much damage has been done already to your body.

The moment you took in a deep breath, it seemed to back away just the slightest bit, you were sure it was more scared of you then you were of it, even though it obviously had an advantage over you in most things. The first obvious one is the height, given you're about the size of an ant to it at this point. You weren't sure what to do, this was just a long staring contest between the both of you.

While most people would've run for their life or fight back, even do as much as flinch, you barely even took in a breath when it inched much closer to you than before. Not to mention it had an unreadable expression on its face, which, from your point of view, looked like a crescent moon and the variety of curves on its face couldn't give it away better than that. You wish you knew more about…Whatever this thing was, so as to know at least what would trigger its fight or flight response.

More harder given how dark it still was right now, and the fact it was still raining, but the creature's body somewhat loomed over you so much it blocked out the rain drops, it was probably trying to trick you into thinking it wasn't dangerous and then just finish you off without a second thought.

It was more than frustrating to think you would be done so easily, given all your life built up to this point, the silence is deafening, it's not a good sign, neither is the way it's inspecting you so closely. You forgot you were still in danger, given it hasn't moved a single bit, well, except for its head, but its body was as still as ever. Was it having some sort of debate on what to do with you? Okay, stop thinking that way, this creature is definitely not as dumb as you thought it would be, it's more like the smart type amongst its species. It's weird to say that too, you don't even know what it is.

It then shifted, leaning away all at once, and you once more had to hold back your breath, though that didn't prepare you for it to smirk at you. The sharp, razor teeth didn't help the matter much. It literally looked like it was about to eat you alive, not like it would be different from when you tried to do it to yourself, but glossing over that- You squeaked the moment the ground left you, and your raincoat not being helpful anymore, given how far off the ground was, you didn't dare look down knowing it would make it worse.

A sound revertabrated from its chest as you didn't move a muscle in its hold. It was so, SO, slippery and wet, yet it had such a hold. The grip around you tightened and your breath was taken away. It slipped closer and closer to the water, using its other hand, clawed tips dragging along the sand, dragging you along against your own will. A momentary midair view of the stars and then darkness.

Water surrounded you the next moment almost instantly, luckily for you, it wasn't as cold as you thought it would be, it was actually pretty warm water. Would be logical, given how hot it was outside not long ago. You blinked several times, adjusting your vision and looking around your surroundings, yep, confirmed you're being dragged deep into the ocean. It wasn't so hard to guess, seeing as many fish started to appear the more your vision cleared, yet your lungs didn't appreciate being so abused, bubbles left your mouth in an attempt to breathe.

Wherever you were being dragged to, it wasn't your home any longer. You covered your mouth with your palms, not doing much but giving you some sort of feeling that gave just the slightest bit of hope you wouldn't drown while being carried away. Was this really a reality? Or is it a dream? It feels too real to be one. The thing holding you was more than real, given that it looked at you from time to time. Your lungs didn't last long, and you started to lose consciousness, your vision blurring out most things around you. It was too much silence.

Wherever you were going to get dragged to, you just hoped it would have some air pocket space. This was the least you could think about before everything suddenly went dark, a warm embrace amongst the sudden cold in the deeper sea. It felt…Comfortable… The light was getting far too close for your liking….

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@artistkeval , your blorbo.

FEESH, am I right? 🤔

[catboyolli]

I was thinking the exact same thinky thought!! 🥺 because from the vlog it's very clear Olli arrived at the airport in that hoodie, and maybe Olli felt cold that morning but he had already packed all his hoodies in the bottom of his suitcase and he made the 😣 face at the thought of unpacking and packing again to find his favourite one because that was the only way he could do it and Aleksi felt pity for the man and maybe they also didn't have time for that because the taxi to the airport was already waiting for them and so Aleksi gave Olli his own favourite hoodie, the one Olli had borrowed from him before so he knew he liked it and because Aleksi could easily just put on any hoodie he had at home, and so Olli was comfortable again because now he was not only warm but also surrounded by Aleksi's familiar smell and now that's Olli’s favourite hoodie 🥰

yes yes yes yes to everything you said!!!!!! 🥰💗💕💕💗💗💖

besides, if Olli had to unpack and pack his stuff again they would miss the flight because what if he forgot to pack something and he has to check again???? and again and again, even if he has a list of all the stuff he packed 😔 nawww that won't do

of course the only solution is to wear one of Aleksi's hoodies (who is being a very good friend and doesn't have any other reasons to lend Olli his favorite hoodie, like seeing his crush wearing his clothes haha 😳 or knowing that it will smell like Olli once he gets it back 😳😳😳) and Olli is happy wearing it because it's very very comfy and it looks good on him (obviously not because it smells like Aleksi haha 😳😳😳)

(Aleksi wears that hoodie once he is back home from tour because he misses Olli so so much 🥺💖)