#it's weird to me I'm kind of fixated on this game bc it's like the opposite of escapism fnfjfjdk

[psystirene]

people drawing their cotl guys more furrylike has me wanting to do the same, honestly I feel like i'm severely in the trenches whenever I try to do anything like the game style (and then I feel kind of weird about how it looks, on top of that, lol)

game style-ish

the (very cursed tbh) furry sexyman edition

idk i'm more used to drawing "regular" anthros, not a huge fan of drawing chibis, it's not as fun to me as it used to be </3

fun fact i tried to make a cotl sideblog but i deleted it bc my cotl hyperfixes don't tend to last super long and i don't really draw cotl unless i'm actively playing the game and fixated on it

[holytrickster]

also I really want to make haunting ground fan dragons now (except really only of fiona and daniella tbh because as creepy as the other stalkers are in the game i just don't like them enough to bother) except idk how I would put purple hair on an fr dragon lol

[unexpectedbrickattack]

Ngl I'm kind of dillydallying around my own SDV fixation and i'd KILL to see what your brain is doing to this game like i for one would eat up dat stuff UP . . .

I love the way this is phrased; genuinely 😭💖 like im a force of nature tearing through any new interest like its made of wet tissue paper 💥💥💥

I thought about it some more and i will (eventually) make an sdv blog. Its going to be a mess having all my interests on one dashboard (im lazy and i dont want to sign in and out all the time for diff accounts lol) but i need sdv stuff in sight or ill explode. For now tho i will ramble about random hcs rattling around in my brain

- The valley is FULL of magic, but not alot of Magical Beings that utilize that magic. If the residents of pelican town knew more about magic, there would be alot more wizards than just. The Wizard.

- Everyone in pelican town has some kind of latent magic, or at the very least, an affinity or sensitivity to magic. I like to think that magic builds in very secluded corners of their world and the area including (and surrounding) pelican town is simply one of those places.

-(sorry, i am just obsessed with Places and Magic) I like the idea of your farmer being drawn to pelican town bc they have a bit of magic in them. The letter is just A Letter, but it is the desire to see this town that makes them leave their old life behind. I am obsessed w the idea that the magic in the farmer craves the valley bc it sees the valley as its home, and by extension, the farmer sees the valley as their home. The people of pelican town rarely leave bc the magic in them sees the valley as their home always. The biggest examples of this are Kent, Demetrius, Evelyn, Emily and Shane. The huge exceptions to this (still workin on it) are lewis and sebastian; lewis bc i see him as a normal, non-magical being trying to wrangle the weirdness of this town, and sebastian bc his feelings of isolation and not being understood propels him to crave the world outside of the valley. (That changes a bit if u befriend him/romance him)

-(shane is weird bc hes super depressed and lonely but his happiness comes from his new ‘ragtag family’ (his words) and his very Not Normal chickens. The animals of the valley love him bc he loves them and he becomes tied to the valley bc of it. Marnie has always loved the animals of the valley and some of the love they had for her definitely rubbed off onto shane, who very openly admits he loves the chickens 💙)

-I wasnt very fond of the idea of purple=magic but i think that was bc i often saw it as a way to tie-in the wizard and abigail. I am still trying to get through the friendships for everyone but rn it doesnt feel like theres any connection between them (and caroline). But. I do like the idea of odd, unnatural colors coming through bc of magic. Alex and Pierre having normal brown hair; Haley and Sam being true blondes. BUT. Shane and Jas having purple-ish hair. Emily and Caroline have blue toned hair. Even vincent have pinkish hair 🥺💖 (and dare i say….sebastian with purple/black hair like shane 👀…maybe he has more magic in him than hed like to believe). Abigail doesnt count bc from what ive seen, Caroline laments about her daughters dyed hair. “When she was younger it used to be chestnut brown” which…awww she took after her dad lol.

- LAST THING. This is not an hc i am just mad about this. I cannot believe the game doesnt allow u to befriend Marlon. What the fuck. What the fuck !!! I love him!!! I want to be friends w the chill monster slayer! Im a monster slayer too!!! Let me give him gifts !!! Fuck ! 😭😭😭💥💥💥💥 Also. I know how to write old man yaoi. They shouldve let me do a romance path for willy, clint and marlon. And the wizard i guess but someone already did that. Linus doesnt count bc hes ascended the need for human romance; hes one w nature (read. aroace). And we (linus and willy and the farmer) already co-raise leo so that counts for something i think 🤔

[d3df1zh]

HIIIII!!! my name is clover and this is my intro post. i WOULD make an about page but i really don't want to bc im lazy keep reading if u wanna know thingz abt me bc this will take a while trust

okay so, i go by he/she/they. I am a minor and i don't know if i'll post a lot but i got some heavy fandom opinions i might share bc i get kind of passionately rage-filled at some things.

i'm also aroace!! interests!!! ☆ there's a lot so be warned

any colored, bold interests are ones im REALLY into so you dont get bored reading - if you havent gotten bored already

only bold interests are ones i adore but aren't fixating on at the moment my interests are ANYTHING cuphead related (casino cups, etc.), gravity falls, splatoon, idv (i dont play the game bc i suck but i love the lore + chars), undertale/verse, HORRORTALE ESPECIALLY, silent hill, rdr2, resident evil, lego monkie kid, jttw, any mythology really, scott pilgrim, heathers, coroika.. kind of?, tmnt (2012 & 1987), white day; a labyrinth named school, the path (videogame), sonic, FNAF, madoka magica, serial experiments lain, MY OCS!!! (I HAVE DOCS ON ALMOST ALL OF THEM PLEASE ASK ABOUT THEM!!!!), um jammer lammy, hollow knight, fictional horror, PETSCOP, luna game, cookie run kingdom, REGRETEVATOR!!

i have more interests but they're more minute so its unnecessary to name ALL of them also theres already a fuck ton of text soooo ! oh i also like making my own versions of aus (especially problematic ones or poorly written ones (ofc im not bullying any creators of aus by saying them and their creativity sucks, they don't suck, but some popular aus are just..... ugeeeeehhh. also some creators are bad people so they kind of deserve it. I just want to make a better space for fans of said aus.)) byf ☆

i am anti-sanscest, i find it weird, im sorry

i really do try not to be super mean in a rant/opinion but i will be passionate and stern about it

i am somewhat a spicynoodles anti? i just don't like it, im sorry ^same with purecacao

i make sexual jokes sometimes, not very often in public though

i block whatever and whomever i want /lh

i dog on mischaracterizations of my favs a LOT (or just mischaracterizations of any character) (staring at you 'horror' sans fans) (i'll made a small rant on my main abt the mischaracterization of horrortale sans and i'll do it again. it'll be on my queue and be way firmer stg!!)

if i accidentally interact while im on ur dni list, PLEASE feel free to block me! I like posts mindlessly so I don't often check dni lists unless i want to follow someone!

dni ☆

basic criteria, vivziepop supporters, hazbin hotel/helluva fans, dsmp/qsmp fans, zionists/pro-israel mfs, pro/comshippers, whitewashers or ppl who think blackwashing is real, i think thats it just don't be weird

that might be it, i'll freely edit this if i want to make any changes!! :3 hope i can make some quality content (i will not)

[galaxae]

if youre still doing the ocverse ask game, 3 and 19? 🥺

ougghhh i so totally still am. i'm mainly fixated on my stupid ass video game idea (working title is gods don't bleed but i want to change it bc it doesn't fit as well anymore)

forgive me if this is incoherent, my boyfriend dislocated his knee so i have to care for him, and work has been terrible and burned me out, so i'm definitely leaving some stuff out of my answers :(, but whatever!!

3.) any recurring images/elements?

absolutely yes. lots of imagery of plants and animals, for one. fire vs. ice too, yes i know it's a very commonly used trope but i like playing around with those two things, especially when i get to kinda subvert expectations with them. similarly with light vs. dark. and also colors vs black and white, both in terms of morality and in terms of actual visuals

19.) describe the sillies you think about but that dont go in the story.

in my mind, charity and fabian (the first two playable characters, and close friends) are exes. it's probably not going to be canonized, but it's also not going to be explicitly denied, so...

their first date was incredibly awkward, by the way. fabian was an ignorant rich kid who loved to pry and stick his nose in others' business and not let up until he knew everything about a situation, while charity was freshly in the "my mom and i were homeless, got taken in by a man, and then that man turned out to be very very bad so we had to flee the state and come to this small piece of shit town where no one realizes how privileged they are, and this all sucks, and i don't want to talk about it" mindset. they were also both 14-15 which is the worst age to be. they broke up so fast after this but now they've got a really solid friendship going a few years later, and charity has a different (cooler) partner

also, so many silly bits of dialogue that... i'm not sure they'll go into the game at all, or if they do, whether they'll just be optional bits. but some favorites include (formatted sorta like they would be in my script document):

KIMBERLY: Oh, hey, Fabián, you're in French 2 with me next semester. JAMAL: Wh... what? People actually take French? I thought that was a myth. FABIÁN: Well, I already know Spanish since everyone on my mom's side and, like, half of my dad's side speaks it. So I thought taking Spanish would be way too easy. CHARITY: You stupid son of a bitch. That's exactly why you should take Spanish.

ACE: Holy shit, I just got stung by a bee! FABIÁN: Are you ok??? Ace pulls the stinger out of their face ACE: LOOK! It's still pumping venom! That's so cool! CHARITY: What the fuck is wrong with you? ACE: What's wrong with you? Lookit!

JAMAL: Hey. Kimbie. KIMBERLY: Don't call me that, please. What is it? JAMAL: Spell ICUP. KIMBERLY: "ICUP?" JAMAL: Spell it. KIMBERLY: That's not a real word. Fake words don't have spellings. JAMAL: Can you at least try? KIMBERLY: Oh. Wait. I see. I-K-U-P. JAMAL: ... KIMBERLY: Does that suffice? Jamal looks as though he's about to cry. [Later that same day] JAMAL: Hey, uh, hey Kimbi-- Kimberly. Is it just me, or is your outfit kind of, uh, "updog?" KIMBERLY: What? JAMAL: Your outfit's kind of "updog." KIMBERLY: What does "updog" mean? JAMAL: ........Can you........... rephrase that, please? KIMBERLY: ? No. JAMAL: :/

also, there's a period of time when kimberly is in 9th grade where she gets really intensely into astrology. specifically so that she can Know A Lot About A Thing that other people don't know as much about. she'll see someone doing something, walk up to them and be like "what are you, an aries venus?" and when they don't understand the reference she'll be like "never mind :)" and feel smart. she no longer does this in the game because she realizes that's so cringe. and she has OTHER science to do, dammit!! (like proving the Weird Kid at school is a literal alien)

another fun fact: kimberly (resident genius) and jamal (who does not give a shit about academics) play chess together one time and jamal wins because kimberly is so perplexed by his newbie moves that she doesn't know how to respond to them.

oh... i didnt realize i had this many sillies... cool :)

yall are encouraged to send more asks if you want i love these blorbos

[heartc0ffin]

*sees an ask game* Allow me to jump on the opportunity~

📝,💞,💘 and 💌 for your Black Butler s/i!

By the way, I remember sending you a similar ask about the lore behind your selfship with Undertaker… about a year ago, during summer. I don’t think I ever saw the reply… Did you answer it and I somehow missed it, or did it get lost in your drafts?

– villain-in-love

Yes, I definitely received it! It's been in my drafts on my old account, still about halfway through being answered :'3 Then I went through a weird life change and a bunch of my interests changed for a while. But now I'm slowly focusing on my Black Butler insert again sometimes, I still want to get around to answering it! I was just struggling for a while to answer it because I wasn't as fixated on them as I used to be. But I will defo get around to posting them because you brought up a lot of great points and questions!

Also little sidenote, this does contain some manga spoilers, specifically with certain events that are on-going.

📝: How would your story in canon go? How would you influence the events of the original story?

It's a bit of a WIP because I haven't totally figured that out yet, and it subject to change as the manga progresses! This manga's plot is so massive at this point, but I really want to fit my s/i's arc in with canon as much as I can. I can see it being shown in two ways... One being their place in the overall story (working with Undertaker and his plans) and the other perhaps being a look into their backstory before they met Undertaker, and how they came to be (which is still so messy and needs a lot of work bc I'm unhappy with it :'D). Kind of like with Finny, Mey-Rin and Baldroy got.

But yeah... As I said, it's complicated rn because of how massive the plot of Black Butler has gotten. But I think my s/i does have stronger roles in certain arcs, like the Book of the Atlantic, the school arc, ect. There, they might start showing how they have a hand in Undertaker's plans.

If I had to grossly generalise it right now for the sake of this question, they're heavily involved with the 4 Stars/Lords. Particularly, they work as a sort of guardian for Lord Vega, similar to how Undertaker is like a 'guardian' for Lord Sirius/R!Ciel.

💞: Aside from with your f/o, who else would you commonly be shipped with? Why?

This is quite interesting, I've never thought about this before! I had a relationship chart with my s/i and the other Kuro characters that I don't think I ever posted...? (Maybe I can update it and post it). But I'm looking through it because I think it would be quite helpful for this particular question...

While I don't see my s/i being exactly interested in anyone else romantically besides Undertaker in their story, if I had to look at it from a purely fandom perspective... I would say perhaps they'd be shipped with other grim reapers, Ran-Mao, or maybe even Gregory Violet.

I say this because in the grim reapers case, it's pretty self-explanatory. Chances are my s/i would have to have common run-ins with the other grim reapers since they're working with Undertaker. And this way, I think there's bound to be a chance of her building some sort of relationship with the other grim reapers, whether it be platonic, or more than that. Or in a most-likely case... rivalry.

I actually had an on-going inside joke with an irl friend about Ronald in particular. Basically, for a long time I didn't like Ronald for some reason, I can't remember why *shrugs*. But it started this joke about Ronald perhaps flirting with my s/i or showing interest in her, but it's completely one-sided. My s/i can't stand him tbh lmao, she'd shut him down completely.

As for Ran-Mao and Gregory... My s/i does admire Ran-Mao for her strength and skills, so this could blossom at some point into a small crush on my s/i's end - but I don't think Ran-Mao would necessarily return the same feelings or even know about my s/i's crush on her. And while in my s/i's 'canon' story they never like Gregory Violet in a romantic sense, they both share a lot of common ground and build a platonic friendship in the school arc at some point. I think I could see a fanbase dubbing that as 'shipping material,' but again, I wouldn't consider it ever actually being anything more than friends.

💘: Why would people love your ship? Why would people dislike your ship? How might it start debates?

I think people would be very split on the topic. On one side, I can see people perhaps liking it because my s/i represents hope, and new start for Undertaker. He's been amongst humans for so long, and working on his reanimated corpse plan for decades. I think he's actually very miserable despite his cheery facade... He's been isolated, not just from most people, but from supernatural forces as well (like the other grim reapers). So when my s/i comes into his life and they eventually start seeing him past this wall he's built for himself... his vulnerability, his past, what motivates him, ect... I think they'd really start to build a connection, even if Undertaker denies it himself. It would lead to an internal conflict where Undertaker might start questioning his plans, and want to focus on building a new life for himself with my s/i.

I think Undertaker wants to believe that my s/i is more like a tool in the grand scheme of his plans. Another person he is indifferent towards and will discard once he achieves his goal. But there would be little moments that contradict this. Like him rescuing them in extreme moments of danger, refusing to abandon them by a split-second, even though it might have looked like he was going to, and even if it put him at great risk. Because in actuality, even if he himself doesn't want to acknowledge it, they're becoming more and more important and valuable to him. And I think those moments would be what people might find interesting about their relationship. Because on one hand you've got an antagonist/grim reaper who is old enough to think he's seen it all, and who probably thinks hardly anything can get to him now. And on the other hand, someone who has extreme abandonment issues and relies on him, and could perhaps bring out those 'human' emotions in him that he thought he'd forgotten long ago.

But as for the other side... I think I can see people disliking the ship too, of course, for a few reasons. But I think the main complaint would be that it 'gets in the way' of the Undertaker x Claudia Phantomhive ship. And I've actually had run-ins with actual fans like this since being in the fandom for the last 10 years. People who are mean to self shippers/oc x canon for this exact reason (not naming names ofc but... *coughs*).

Listen, I totally get the reasoning behind this theory and if you ship them, that's cool. But you know what? IMO Undertaker deserves to be happy and have a new relationship. Why should he have to obsess over an old relationship that led to his misery, destruction and the countless deaths/sacrifices of other people? Why should he stew in his own self-hate and do nothing think over this past relationships mistakes? The answer is... he doesn't have to. There are literally no rules saying he can't. Him being in a relationship and building something new with someone else doesn't take away anything from his past relationship with Claudia.

Anyways, sorry, I'm getting heated so I'll leave this can of worms to be opened for another day. I just have a lot of feelings about this topic because of run-ins with toxic fans in the past lol. It's still something that agitates me.

💌: How would your dynamic be portrayed? What might people focus on most? Any misconceptions?

I think they're dynamic shifts through the course of the story, and is often messy and lop-sided tbh. With Undertaker, you can expect anything but a linear relationship.

I think in the beginning, it very much starts off with my self insert relying on him and needing him to survive (abandonment issues go hard). But as the story progresses, it will gradually switch around between them needing him, to him needing them.

I think misconceptions would pop up because this change would be subtle and might not be noticed by some. My s/i would grow more confident, but I think it would be like a 'blink and you'll miss it' kind of way since they're naturally mostly passive and quiet. If that makes any sense. They don't suddenly become out-spoken or an unbeatable force. But they pick up on Undertaker's vulnerabilities and traces of humanity in him that are still left as they grow a deeper connection to him. I think they'd actually be smarter than most give them credit for, especially when picking up on the emotions of others. Undertaker would perhaps have moments where he reaches out to them, and seeks out them for help, instead of the other way around. But because it would be subtle, people might think that my s/i just constantly relies on Undertaker throughout their entire character arc, which isn't true.

[restlesscrow]

random thought dump bc new hyperfixation alert

TW for death and frightening/distressing elements below!

Since I'm fixated on the idea of Pokepasta (pokemon creepypastas) and just video game horror in general, we need to expand on some of the ones that exist already outside of their source material.

Let's take the 'Faceless' glitch in Genshin. Sure it's a graphical glitch or a weird occurance of Ayato/Itto/etc found in a 'pirated' copy from a sketchy site, but what if it could be a virus that could infect the REAL copy of Genshin?

Imagine. You're playing and you come across a random, t-posing character you don't have, but when you go near the entity the game crashes or all background ambience/music just...stops.

There could also be a story a la Strangled Red with Ayato and Itto. Some sort of betrayal leads the oni (rather than Ayato) to strangle his best friend to death and occasionally break the 4th wall.

My other thoughts involved a weird screenshot of Kaeya I found that I drew, along with a glitch my lovely friend Foxy found with Aether. I'll be making art/writing of that soon (note: MY WRITING IS NOT THE BEST, but it fits the cliche creepypasta format. lol)

As someone who has loved internet horror since they were a wee lad on the internet, I adore finding other ways to make things horrifying moreso than they already are.

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Cutting that ramble off, I have a few ideas for these! Since I have the time lol

The Faceless is a virus group that eventually hacked into Genshin's master copy and infected thousands of new users and old users via 'update' that fixed certain things with Ayato. However, it gave Ayato self awareness, and they also released a fake patch involving Itto. These copies of the two characters often cannot render with their head model in the game. The story follows an unsuspecting Genshin user downloading this patches and experiencing the horrors that ensue.

Disintegrated Kaeya is based on that weird screenshot I found. This follows a user discovering an odd document in the game files and using it to their advantage, causing (again) Kaeya to notice he's just a game character and eventually killing off the main cast in frustration that only he came to this realization.

Alternate Aether (YES THAT KIND OF ALTERNATE) is a glitch within one of the quests (I think it was Albedo's first one? I don't remember) where you see an Aether without the glowy elements of his outfit. Slowly, this Aether impersonates the player and eventually makes the game no longer playable for the player.

If anyone would like to contribute ideas PLEASE tell me. Be it via message or askbox! Especially for Honkai Star rail good god.

[caixxa]

A1,A 2, B6, B9, BASICALLY ALL OF THE C QUESTIONS! PLS I WANT TO KNOW! (if you feel like responding lmao) thank you, love you and hope you are having a really nice day! <3

Sorry that it took so long to answer! I had a hellish day and we live on almost opposite time zones, so.

A1: When did you start reading fanfiction?

Summer 2016, after Euro 2016. As an adult, well past 30, I rediscovered the fun of being A Fan.

A2: How did you find your first fic?

I googled, learned new search phrases to google until I found the stuff I really liked. I think the first searches were like "Gareth Bale fan fiction" and the really effective one that I think finally led me to Ao3 (I have no idea what the first sites were) was more in the way of "Cristiano ronaldo gareth bale m/m slash" lol. I read only as a guest user for months, I didn't make my own account until I wanted to write and post my own work.

B6. What is your favourite story trope? Why?

Friends to lovers with sexual exploration on the way. Seductive younger man developing in a twisted power balance/imbalance relationship with an older man. Stuff with sexual tension and a vibe of something forbidden.

B9. Who is your OTP?

I'm such a multi-shipper! I always say it's Aho/TT because they are soulmates and the Finnish connection and two cherubs who share a brain on the ice and fly together and are stupid codependent bros. But I've come to think that the true OTP is Sepe/mentors and authority figures. I came to that conclusion when I heard on the Canes Corner podcast that in his first interviews, he always mentioned Ron Francis, and I couldn't but nod along. Of course he did. A franchise legend who drafted him, of course. He still mentioned him on the Siim Liivik podcast like last summer, you know. He loves Rod, he loves Pekka, he loves Justin Williams, he was so into Burns being traded to the Canes. He's a fireball on the ice but off the ice, his daddy kink can be seen from SPACE.

THe C section:

What trope are you tired of reading? Why? Self-harm or suicide as a romantic plot point. It should be self-explanatory, I detest all variations of the trope where romantic counterpart saves the protagonist from shit they should figure out with themselves first, especially if there is a "love as a miracle cure" element to it. I feel similarly about th "you deserve better, let me save you from your abusive relationship by making you mine". No. If this happens from a base of friendship and they develop love later, that works, but falling in love as a cure because The One Sees Your Beauty When Others Don't is yucky. Elaborate proposals in front of an audience gathered specifically to celebrate the occasion as peak romance is so weird too, maybe I just don't get American wedding culture. (These tropes are more present in m/f imagines than m/m rpf, tho)

What word or expression always makes you cringe when you read it? "Too" when it's supposed to be "to" is the only one of those that I often see in fic writing, but in general, "Their" when you mean "They're" or "it's" for "its" when native speakers do it... IT'S YOUR OWN LANGUAGE! HOW CAN YOU NOT GET THE EASY ONES RIGHT?

Is there anything that makes you nope out of a story? What is it? Double spacing between each paragraph. I know that it's mostly because the Ao3 rich text editor doesn't copy/paste google docs right. I will have to be REALLY drawn into the story and want to read it really bad to struggle through that.

What thing that fandom loves do you actually kind of hate? Why? Hockey fights. They're so unnecessary, they're just an example of the American fixation on violence and vigilante justice. It's okay to me that hockey is a rough game, cross checking and body checking is absolutely fine by me, but dropping the gloves.. it's such a stupid, primitive thing to do. Hockey does fine without it. I know this is unpopular bc y'all love violence. I see all the wrestling posts y'know, and all the "hot" tags in hockey fight posts. *points at all directions, staring judgementally*

What character that fandom loves are you just kinda “meh” about? Why? Hockey players: Anthony Beauvillier. This is just about his looks, I don't see what most people see, he looks so plain to me.

Is there anything in canon that made you want to quit the show? What was it? Why did you hate it? Are we still talking hockey/sports because all i read is sports rpf? Well, I used to like F1 but Ihave very little interest in it now. I just don't think that a motorsport that is done on vehicles for no other use than driving on these extensive tracks made of concrete and asphalt just for it is just gross. In rally, there is at least something organic (lol) and relatable. Also, the last Cristiano Ronaldo fic I read was after his transfer to Juventus, after that I think he's made a fool of himself.

Who is your NOTP? Sepe/Seth Jarvis, Sepe/Jordan Martinook. I think it's bc I have zero attraction to the other guy haha, plus Jarvy only gives me goofy little brother vibes, not ship vibes. Also, Cressi was the big ship when I entered football rpf and I could see the two superstars, rivals, el clasico etc etc intellectually but I just sensed no chemistry between cr7 and messi whatsoever so it's always been kinda NOTP for me.

What is one plot twist you wish people would stop using?  Do all the plot twists your heart desires, man, writing is supposed to be fun! But what I said in C1 counts here too.

What show did you really try to watch, but you just couldn’t? This happens with all the shows. I watch a few episodes but can't find the time to finish them. I also skipped a lot (most) of NHL games last season because I need to sleep.

What book could you just never get into, no matter how hard you tried? I don't try hard with my reading, if I don't like the book I quit. The hardest I've tried was probably War and Peace which I read so slowly that I eventually forgot what had happened before and kinda drifted off it after maybe 20%.

Thank you for the ask and have a super duper fine summer!!

(the ask game post is this)

[l0gitex]

💕💔💎 for the hyperfixations asks

media hyperfixation ask game!

💕 tell us about one of your favorite characters and why you like them!

leut me tell you about.... OH

kimimaro orz............ i like him so much because 1) he is very cool 2) his design is good 3) his powers freaks me out. bones.. 4) ...HE IS ANOTHER REALLY SAD CHARACTER WHOSE LIFE IS JSUT......TRAGIC! thwarted by the narrative..... he was just born into a life of misfortune the way i see it, because had he even just not run into orochimaru so quickly he might have lived a normal life, maybe been a powerful (notfuckedupevilthatway) shinobi. something about him that sticks out to me is his extreme politeness, one that even mirrors lee in a way. another thing is .. a sort of low self esteem, judging by the personal pronoun he uses (this for the politeness as well, aand another thing he has in common with rock lee) & just the way he pretty overtly sees himself as worthless, having run out of "use" for orochimaru. his loyalty is something i feel like if he had been able to learn the world a more natural, less schewed way might've been his greatest asset; even as he was it was, only it also became his downfall. i think he had great potential to be somebody incredibly kind, but his worldview and values were warped entirely having grown up under orochimaru's care, going pretty literally from one dark hole to the next..lol :o( i like to think of an alternate way things could've gone, where kimimaro survives and leaves the village of sound, gets to become a person and.. live. i had the impression he never really saw the world at all there, and he deserved it as much as anyone. it's a nice thought for him to have slowly made friends, learned to really trust others, enjoy the simple things in life. see himself as more than a means to somebody else's goals. thinking about him makes me very sad. like a lot of nart characters the world and people around him were not kind to him, saw him not as an equal, not even as a person, but as a weapon, tool, asset. this is true for a lot of characters, but his story to me is one of the saddest ending ones. at least others with kekkei genkai or* great power (neji, sasuke, *gaara..) had some chance/success at learning there's more to their worlds than the narrow view they had, kimimaro however never had that chance at all. hurts.

💔 tell us about one of your LEAST favorite characters and why you dislike them.

sasuke 🧍

OK HEARME OUT i do not DISLIKE him as such really but i kind of care infintely more about every other characters' fucked up backstory so far than i do his LOLL. i attribute this largely to 99% of my knowledge of naruto until last year having been through jokes&memes, many of those having been sasuke-related i just cannot take him seriously almost at all. I'M SORRY SASUKE FANS....... i do get the tragedy of his upbringing and The Incident and everything but at the same time like he's just funny to me i can't not make fun of him. he's perfectly justified in being a brooding edgelord but he is still a brooding edgelord all the same. gaara had it way worse besides. LOL. <- JOKING!!!! MOSTLY!!! I'M JOKING

💎 are there any fun facts or trivia that you would like to share?

now this is my paraphrasing of it and i'm sure that among nart fans its common knowledge but when asked which of his characters kishimoto would want to marry*, if any, about the girls he said none bc 'he made them after all :)' and when asked the same about the boyz he had his answer locked and loaded. shikamaru. kishimoto has some kind of particular fixation on him and thats reallyreally funny to me and hilalrios. *i'm assuming this was asked by the time the characters had grown up and stuff so not mega weird although kinda it is but yknow

[redgemwink]

random midnight fe rant

i feel like i'm less of a fire emblem fan and more of a mercedes von martritz fan these days.. it feels weird bc i've been into fire emblem since i was a teen but i rlly feel like the interest just isn't there for me anymore.. but i do still love mercie. she's still my ultimate comfort character and one i see a lot of myself in. but idk, the series itself i just don't find myself enjoying as much anymore,,

even when engage came out i could tell my spark for the series wasn't quite there anymore, i literally could not push myself to do a second playthrough bc i just was not having fun.. i kept getting distracted and did not care at all. i'm sure i'll still play fe games as they come out and stuff but i guess i'm just sort of.. exhausted of it. and don't get me started on the constant fandom discourse. i've never seen a fandom quite like fire emblem's lmao. the fandom is full of talented artists but god, the discourse is always so miserable when it pops up. and people are always so toxic with said discourse, 3h especially just had SO MUCH discourse, even abt the most random pointless things and i think it rlly soured my feelings for the series. the main problem though is that i just don't enjoy playing fe games anymore, and that's okay! i just wanted to get my thoughts out bc this is kind of a big realization for me, like wow i'm rlly not an fe fan anymore sdfkdfk but yea go vote mercie for cyl8 <3 :33

tbh though i guess most of my friends won't even be shocked abt this revelation bc i,, kinda don't talk abt fe much at all anymore?? i've been way more fixated on d4dj and sun haven for a while,, even smt games which i just tend to pick up and play at random, even that i think myself more of a fan of than fe.. it's rlly wild tbh dfskdfskfds sorry fe oomfs, but i'll still yell about mercie and lapis dw <3

[sk3tch404]

(Is that a new pfp I see 👀👀 looks nice 👌)

On the topic of Creepypastas, I'm still astonished that they never gave me nightmares. Which is funny, because I used to have like, an average amount of nightmares per sleep, but during my Creepypasta Phase and also after it, I never had nightmares anymore 🤔

Kind of at least, sometimes I had dreams that are very obviously in some sorta horror setting but I never felt scared, a bit unnerved at most, but I usually felt more curious and a bit cautious. Heck, sometimes I get attacked in my dreams but I actually manage to counter the Attacker and come out victorious (Rip to that one Jason Voorhees whom I K.O'd by bonking him with a metal bat, u tried 😔🙏) ngl, I think the possibility of having nightmares terrified me more than my actual "nightmares" ever did, as strange as that sounds O_O

I think the closest thing to a creepypasta nightmare I've got was that one dream I had about The Rake.

Okay so picture this, the setting and atmosphere of the Slender game, in that dream me and my friends went camping there for some reason and we decided to split ways so we can explore the forest (like true horror media protagonists 😔) and I found like, an abandoned silo that was low on the ground with a ladder. So I decided that I wanna see what's inside it and climbed into the silo.

It was empty, I noticed that my flashlight was pretty weak, but before I could do anything else I heard the screams of my friends in the distance, I turned around of course and lo and behold, The Rake was standing right behind me, to be precise, he was blocking the way between me and the silo exit. So I was kinda panicking about how I should proceed obviously, if I did nothing he would probably maul me, but if I tried exiting he would probably maul me too. So we were just having a stand-off there for what felt like an eternity, before The Rake decided to leave out of its on accord for some reason.

I waited for a while after it left and then hurried back to camp to assess the damage. After I found the corpse of one friend, I immediately decided to GTFO of there and ran blindly into the forest to find some way out.

In the midst of running a police officer actually found me and told me that I had to leave (no shit Sherlock) because he apparently found the corpse of my other friend. He ended up taking me to his police car so we could get out.

Except, that wasn't the end, before we could start the car, The Rake's hand broke through the car ceiling and tried dragging the police officer out of the car by his neck. I ended up just moving over to the drivers seat and frantically smashed my foot onto the gas pedal. The sudden acceleration caused the police officer to be dragged out of the car completely, but at that point I was solely focused on my own survival so I didn't give a shit. I finally escaped.

It suddenly cut to a newspaper report about the dead police officer and the ~mysterious forest creature~ that could've caused his death.

I woke up not exactly scared, but just mildly confused and concerned about wtf I just dreamt and why was that ending so jarring- (insert Man Door Hand Hook Car Door reference lmao)

Anyways, have you had similar experiences with creepypastas and your own dreams?

(Also did you ever get my ask with the link to the creepypasta AMVs that I used to watch? I fear it may have gotten yeeted into the abyss by tumblr)

-Ren'py anon

Nightmares per night? I didn't have many nightmares when I was younger, so I don't really have much background knowledge on em 😥

Maybe bc u were super fixated on it, it effected your dreams? Idk that's been happening to me lately.

In normal dreams you don't have a lot of control unless you realize you're dreaming? Personally I just start waking up when that happens (I WANNA STAY IN IT DAMMIT)

Any weird shit could happen and u could just be like, "Well goddamn, ain't that a shame. Anyway-"

That loss kf fear is definitely strange 😭 some dreams are way more lucid for me, sooooo

ALSO YOU FOUGHT JASON???!?!!? NONNY I'D BE SO SCARED. I'VE ENCOUNTERED RISOTTO FROM JJBA AND CHROLLO FROM HXH, AND MY HEART LITERALLY FELL TO MY ASS BOTH TIMES.

Don't make eye contact with Chrollo. Just don't.

But you won SO AYYYYYYYY LET'S GO

And yeah same! The nightmares I've had scared me so bad that I fear that I MIGHT have them.

Have you ever seen some yakuza guy stab a dudes face with a white colored pencil over and over again? God I hope not 💀💀💀

NOT TO MENTION I HATE THE RAKE. IT'S SO UGLY AND CREEPY. IT AIN'T GOT NO CLASS 🙄🙄🙄

Gosh your dream should be a game itself. That camping intro and the, "Come on you guys! Lets be brave and rebellious by searching this big dark forest!"

The stand off with the Rake was scary enough, but the CAR DRAG OUT? AW HELLLLL NOOOO YOU HANDLED THAT WAY BETTER THAN I COULD

SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST I GUESS 😭

And can I just say I hate weak flashlights? LIKE WHAT HELL ARE YOU USEFUL FOR? NOTHING.

Ah yes, the newspaper ending. Are you dead or alive? I like em, and this dream of yours knows EXACTLY what it was doing.

Waking up from dreams is always confusing, but you always get to piece the story together through that confusion! It's like a cute little mini game after you've been subconsciously traumatized 😃

Man Door Hand Hook Car Door? Is that the one with the girlfriend in the car and the boyfriends blood dripping on the top of the car? Idk but it sounds spooky >:D

The only 'creepypasta dream' I've had is with Chucky (Yes the serial killer doll, that one) I was like 6, and my mom let him in after he knocked on our front door. He asked us if we wanted to play AND EVERYONE THOUGH IT WAS FUN??!!?!?

I was so terribly scared and cried when I woke up lmao

And yes I did get your ask! I'm just waiting to copy and paste the thing on a computer.

The only computer I use is my school computer and my mom is gonna bark at me for my missing schoolwork if it she catches me using it while school isn't in session 😃 BUT I PROMISE YOU I WILL LISTEN TO THAT DARN PLAYLIST WHEN ITS SAFE AND CLEAR

I also have writing burn out, so that's there too :/

Don't feel guilty for sending in asks though! I'm just glad you're still here to stick around Ren'py nonny :)

God I love talking about dreams because I've had a ton of 'interesting' ones. Especially my most recent one.

[white-tulips]

what are ur thots on the fandom-typical depiction of the sunny-basil fight, specifically the whole ~yandere~ basil thing + depicting basil as having overpowered sunny at ANY point in that fight (which is soo weird to me bc like. he takes like twice as much damage as he deals). ig i should say ur thoughts on the fandom approach to basil in general bc aside from the 'soft uwu baby' approach (which is more fluff than substance imo but aside from that harmless), there seems to be a lot of people in the fandom with this INCREDIBLY weird fixation with violence and overwhelming hostility being directed at the gay mentally ill child (specifically from hero for some reason??) and its so 😐

............................. PPL STILL THINK BASIL IS A YANDERE..............................???????????

I'm sorry, anon, this just took me the fuck out I really thought people were past this but I guess the fuck not. I don't involve myself in the fandom that much since I mostly stick to my solitary bubble so I really miss this shit, huh

but to answer your question, the way people interpret and characterize Basil generally tends to annoy me lmao. like you kind of said here, there's this sliding scale of extremes where one side is "uwu pure soft flowerboy" and the other is like "crazy obsessive violent terrible awful" and it's so fuckin' wild.

the Basil and Sunny fight is such a great scene, so the fact that people spin it to be a moment of Basil overpowering Sunny in a yandere fit is. strange, to say the least. it's true that Basil has an actual weapon while Sunny doesn't, but his original intent wasn't to hurt Sunny at all, it was to kill himself. Sunny just happened to walk in the room while Basil was having a total mental break, and had a horrible impulse decision that a double suicide would be preferable to their miserable realities. like, it's definitely not a good thing, but that's leagues more interesting than "Basil yandere"

and yeah, I reeaaaally hate people's tendency to direct all of the hate and blame onto Basil. I think people are just looking for a scapegoat, and they're obviously not going to want to have any negative feelings towards Sunny because he's the protag and he gets a heartfelt resolution for his guilt. and, unfortunately, Basil kind of willingly turned himself into the scapegoat in canon, but the problem with that is there was never any.. actual.... resolution for Basil, so it's a lot easier for fandom to continue treating him like a punching bag because that's just how he was written throughout the entire game lol. (I'm not actually laughing though). but, big agree on the fact that all of it being directed at the one implicitly gay character is 😐😐😐

though, I haven't seen what you're saying about it mostly people portraying Hero treating Basil like that????? I must be dodging the biggest bullet because that sounds weird as hell

[fates-theysband]

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-selfshippery

@selfshippery thank you for the ask!!! im gonna answer for fate because im fixated and thats everyone else's problem

🥩 Texas Chain Saw Massacre: Can your f/o cook? If so what's their favorite thing to make? If not - what's their favorite food?

it's all but directly stated that he doesn't need to eat (nor does anyone else in the game bc they're all undead or immortal or, to quote the god-being himself, "basically magic") but weirdly enough i feel like he does have some skills that would translate well to actual cooking because he can make like. Beings And Entities in a cauldron.

that being said most characters in dnt do enjoy consuming the occasional beverage and he's no exception. i feel like he enjoys fancy teas.

🪓The Shining: If your f/o could go on vacation anywhere in the world without money being an issue where would they go? What would they do there?

perhaps fittingly for the movie this question is based on they would immediately fuck off to the mountains where nobody from the office (except me because i'm like. With Them on that trip obvs) can find them so they can work on their novel. although it would probably be like. some kind of mountain hot spring place.

🕷 The Collector: Does your f/o have any "weird" hobbies or quirks? What draws them to that hobby?

well he is a corporate ceo who left on business and put his cat in charge while he was gone so that's definitely A quirk.

more seriously he canonically enjoys playing Go which is like...harder to wrap one's brain around than chess (or at the very least i have trouble wrapping my brain around it but i also don't get chess). i think deep down he gets a kick out of being an inscrutable bastard (affectionate)

🌕 American Werewolf in London: If your f/o was an animal what would they be?

im now litchrally always thinking about that reblog game that immediately government assigned them an owl plushie because like. it works as an animal association for them. not a direct death omen like a crow but definitely a symbol of wisdom/leadership and also a bird of prey

[sootonthecarpet]

What faction do you usually pick in Fallout 4? It kind of sounds like you have beef with the Minutemen but the Brotherhood are bigoted trash, the Institute are bigoted trash who can't even accomplish anything productive, and the Railroad are super fixated on their ethically dubious synth liberation quest and do pretty much jack all for everyone else, so I'm curious as to which one you went along with in the end.

i havent played it thru to the end yet full disclosure kkfdksgf the main questline has been underwhelming so far, so i’ve been dragging my feet even tho i have like multiple playthroughs going. but i’m siding w the railroad because while there r heavy criticisms to b levied w/r/t their methodology, it still feels good to do literally anything to impact any of the game’s like, stilted in-universe bigotry subplots to even a small extent hahajfdsgf. plus i like most of the individual npcs, i end up more annoyed at my own lack of flexible dialogue options than i do at the characters themselves. (it’d be chill if the game had more RPG elements and i could like, influence the politics and idk ‘destiny’ of the group more overtly instead of just being Assigned Grunt.) some of their sidequests are actually pretty fun, or at least are no more bothersome than unguided exploration would be and give me a bit of character development to tide me over.

i guess i do kinda have beef with the minutemen but for the most part that’s my beef with the actual writers showing thru bc of how the game’s like. colonialist fantasy gameplay loop and its unironic fetish for revolutionary war imagery intersect hEAVily when it comes to the minutemen (obvs). in all honesty i’ve never wanted to dip too far into that questline or even take preston along much even tho he seems chill and i like him so far, bc i know the writing (or, best case scenario, the way the gameplay will inevitably actively subvert any good writing that sneaks in there) is just gonna end up seriously pissing me off.

there’s no like, group in fallout four that suits my political views bc even the vaguest whiff of real-world radical politics were very carefully kept out of the vaguely liberation-aligned groups in the game. like, goodneighbor is kind of implied to be SOME kind of socialist outpost right? shared resources, anyone is welcome etc. but wait! it’s a new reno esque hedonistic crimefest where you can get anything for the right price and the only language they speak are bullets! but wait! they have a mayor who they love and respect very much. or is he a de facto monarch? or is he just a mayor? (actually, he’s my lover.)  i don’t think it’s like, especially new or inventive of me to say this, but any theme that made it into the game was thoroughly stripped of meaning and made broadly palatable to like. the right-center, reactionary white gamer demographic. like, uhhhh, this was def a high budget game for a post-gamergate market. so honestly i take what i can get with the railroad. any moment im not cringing is a moment of good gameplay. (usually those moments are like, jumping into a lake in far harbor to get a better look at the non-interactible fish models for ecosystem lore, but again, i take what i can get.)

would have really liked a plot where the pre-game massacre of most of the railroad’s outposts allows the PC to like, optionally restructure it into an organization that’s actually involved with the ppl it’s set up to help (and nix the policy on mindwipes as a shortcut around trauma recovery/safeguarding of the vulnerable, and the--HOLy SHIT--disgusting attitude towards bodily autonomy in general, both of which seem to be there more for player convenience than for a well thought out story purpose), or even like. to see just a LiTTLe followup on some of the shit deacon says abt philosophical infighting early on out back of the slocums joe? but it doesn’t seem like we r going there and like, eh. i can keep my head down and grind out a few boring quests if it means avoiding the risk of total disillusionment with preston garvey and not having to listen to brotherhood anti-ghoulfucking PSAs or whatever godforsaken shit happens when i finally close out the act and let the institute beam me up ahaha.

oh yeah also like every guy who works for the railroad is weird-hot in one way or another (and also they sell me armored, combat-ready versions of casual clothing items so i can look great and feel safe, & make sure anyone whose inventory i can access has some armor on em without heavily impacting their look) and ultimately im shallow enough to let that tip the scales. plus its so nice to come back to the cave at like four AM after a long string of sidequests n see these totally random npcs who dont even like each other, all spooned up on all them mattresses. at the end of the day they deal w each other bc it’s cold and nasty. that’s a way more compelling vibe than i get from any of the actual faction related cutscenes in the game.

then i ruin it immediately by waking up tinker tom to buy more bulletproof dresses.