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gibbearish · 7 months
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hm one thing im not happy with on the original post is i said the staff hate campaign has been going on longer than the transandrophobia debate and then immediately talk abt matt maybe being the source, but i don't actually know how long he's been CEO, nor do i have the best sense of time regarding how long the transandrophobia thing has been going on, i was just going off of the fact that it just. feels like that's the order of events as i remember them. but also i mean i guess that is. actually just how remembering things works now that i think about it? i may be overthinking this
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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year
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#so i survived my 1st week as a phd student. it's interesting. im not sure how i feel#the negatives are that i forgot how much stress being around people causes me. as a research assistant i was able to be on my own schedule#and go into the lab at odd hours so i never had to see anyone. but now im in classes and teaching and have a shared office#classes are tolerable stress wise so long as im sitting on an edge. i only feel a lil like im dying. teaching makes nauseous beforehand.#which is odd bc im not really worried while im doing it or before im doing it. i thibk its just that i have to interact ans i kno im a#mediocre teacher bc id rather die than do the back and forth of asking questions and u should teach interactively#i like to break down complex idea and help people with problems but i was not build to teach in classrooms. i get knocked off points when#i give class presentations bc i cant make eye contact lol. so that'll b annoying this semester. and its just so hard to function in an#office space. idk its weird like i dont even feel it that much while im there its just like a flashing *i need to leave* alarm. and then#when im alone its like a physical weight off of me. and i cant tell if thats what's draining my energy or if ive just cycled into a low#energy lul bc im just like. i wanna sleep. and for me thats always a sign that somethings wrong. i dont feel that bad mood wise but its#like there's a rock weighing me down as im trying to tread water. so those r the big negatives. the positives r that#i do enjoy being back in school. i love the structure of it. but im also self destructive abt structure so well see how it goes. but my#lab mates seem nice as does my advisor. i feel a bit bad bc ill have to learn genome stuff from the ground up. and today i was trying to#convey ideas to him like an insane person. bc i dont have enough background to talk fluidly abt my prospective project and i have a picture#of what i mean but not all the details. hopefully i made some sense. i think the idea is cool. and thats the other really positive thing.#the papers i have to read associated with this project r waaaaaaaaaay more interesting than anything i ever had to read for my masters. like#they're the types of papers i would force other ppl to read for lab meetings. so im optimistic abt not hating it by the end haha#yay for being excited abt science. but i guess thats the other thing i feel bad abt. like im interested but haven't read a lot to prep bc#i cant express how difficult dyslexia makes things but also i cant control how interested in things i get so i bassically banned myself#from reading papers im actually interested in like 3 years ago bc in retrospect i was prob going thru a hypomanic episode#and i was like reading papers abt microbes in Antarctica all day and not working on my stuff. and i just remember walking into the lab at#like 5am to trasfer alage with tears streaming down my face bc i was just like. i cant have this nice thing and b functional. it has to stop#so i just created this weird barrier in my mind where im not allowed to read fun papers. so its odd to b reading them now for work. its odd#also i was walking to my office worring abt things and then i saw some moss growinf around the edge of the sidewalk and it made me wanna cry#bc i am an extremely normal individual. i have normal feelings abt photosynthesis. but anyway yeah. its been interesting#hopefully ill stay optimistic. next week we have a orientation for new grad students. and i might have to drive like an hr away. hate that#the driving i mean. not the orientation. that should b fun#unrelated
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lizeon · 10 months
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wth why would i suddenly not be able to watch a live stream on youtube? i dont think its an adblocker thing? i was watching a different live stream like 2 hours ago, i can watch regular videos and vods. but now when i bring up a stream it just goes gray and says "Your browser cant play this video". never seen this and having a hard time finding an answer online that is about a live stream, everything so far is for videos that dont work for anyone else either
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skxrbrand · 2 years
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300+ hours in Warhammer (600+ total between all 3 games), and 80% of that time is just me ogling the models
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toastsnaffler · 9 months
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I have to be up for work in 3 hours and I'm gonna be real I think ive hit the point where I might not be getting any sleep at all. for fucks sake.
#ive survived all nighters before ill scrape through the day itll just be Rough. at least i dont have much in my schedule#im not gonna take the dose this morning bc i think thats a really bad idea to do on zero hours sleep#and i can't risk two consecutive all nighters. like I have done that before but not while working full time 💀 its not worth it#drafting an email to my doctor to let her know im skipping day 2 + ask advice re. whether its worth resuming again on day 3#bc she did list 'trouble sleeping' as a common symptom that often passes but i need to know a) how long it usually takes to pass and-#b) if this is unusually bad + would she rec supplementing with a sleep aid or just switching tack entirely and trialling a non stimulant#by this stage of the night i dont think its actually acting anymore bc i took it at 7am and its now 3am. it shouldnt last that long#i think its more just triggered my preexisting insomnia. my ability to sleep is very very sensitive sometimes + hates routine changes#just so fucking frustrating bc ive spent the past 2 months nailing my sleep routine + ive had a couple weeks of being able to-#go to bed like 9:30-10 and it only takes an hour to get to sleep and i get usually a good 7 hours sometimes 8 only waking once halfway#and i dont feel like utter shit like yeah im tired but from work not so much lack of sleep.... and now thats all fucked lmao#whatever. maybe i should just take the next dose anyway#ill see. gonna try to sleep for another 2 hours but once it hits 5 im not doing this anymore ive been trying for six hours already man#i cant even remember when i last pulled a full all nighter. it might be longer than 6 months ago... i was doing so well :-(#im so mad i was so hopeful it would have SOME good effect like ik its not a miracle worker + these things take time but so many people-#seem to have an immediate positive response even if its probably a placebo. and i got fuck all except This.#i was searching on the reddit for sleep issues and other ppl only seem to report bad ones on higher doses or years in..#like damn. do i even have adhd then. ik thats a stupid thing to think bc obvs everyones body metabolises meds differently etc but still#it is ALMOST HALF 3 and i am FUCKING TIRED#UGH. alright bedtime round 189447383#.diaries#.vent
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sleepyjim · 10 months
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first night without taking benadryl to sleep and Uh its bad again what the fuck man context and also giant rant in da tags
#basically for several weeks before leo benadryl era(tm) i could not sleep at all for many days at a time i was just Not Tired At All#and my sleep schedule was so fucked up and bad and terrible i would sleep for a whole day then go many days without sleeping over and over#And It was Bad so like last week i got sick of it and took like a billion shots of benadryl juice(tm) and Slept and it waswonderful#so ive been doing that every night since then and ive gone to sleep at 10 and woken up at 8 every day and world was so beautiful forever#cept like four days into leo benadryl era i figured i had gotten into a routine so i Did Not take anything that night and#didn't feel tired. At All . ruined everything for a whole day#so i continued#but now we're out of benadryl cause ive drank it all#and im not allowed to buy it myself cause its a drug#and i cant tell my mom cause she doesnt understand#and im like . Stuck Now lmao i really really dont want everything to suck again i was doing so well this past couple days#its 2 am an im not even sleepy and if i dont sleep tonight then i will during the day and then everything will get fucked up bad again#idk!!!!!!#i dont know what to do man#i think i either got like too uh relying on the benadryl maybe or perhaps theres Sonething Wrong With Me#while we were in the RV i was scared for like a day thatmy body just straight up forgor how to sleep#and idk if that's actually possible but . :/#i have to go to a thing with my mom tomorrow too so im sposed to get up along with everyone .at like 6 in the morning and so i have#like 3 or 4 hours to sleep and im so Eugh man cause thats like a third of the amount of time a sleep i need to function#i am suffering !!#i cant even sleep if i tried tho Fuck my baka life forever#anyways#text#jason rambles
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badass-sunshine · 11 months
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ohtobeleah · 9 months
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Was It Over? // Jake Seresin
-> Chapter Four: [Parental Guidance]
Summary: Jakes Mother simply cannot understand what he saw in you, your mother simply cannot comprehend why you left Jake.
Warnings: Sick!reader. Breast cancer diagnosis. Jake Seresin x F!reader. Angst, hospital & medical inaccuracies. SLOW BURN ROMANCE/ Inaccurate medical information. Relationship turmoil. Overbearing mothers.
Word Count: 4:1k
Author Note: Mothers…Especially boy mothers can just be the worst when they’re in LOVE with their sons.
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November 1st 
Bradley Bradshaw never thought he would be the person Jake Seresin called when he was in a situation and needed help, but here he was. Sitting in his Bronco outside the house of a woman he didn't know in the early hours of the morning watching Jake stumble down the small overgrown cobblestone path. The Halloween costume Rooster had seen Jake in early that night was long forgotten as the fighter pilot wore nothing but a pair of boxer briefs with his wallet and keys in the palms of his hands. 
Immediately as soon as Jake sat in the passenger's seat of Bradleys pride and joy, he could smell the liquor trying to expel itself from Jake pores. 
“You smell like a distillery and we have a HOP at 8am.” There was a very evident disdain for Jake's current state in Roosters' tone, Jake wasn’t drunk enough to miss that. “Why are you calling me in the middle of the night to pick you up anyway? What did you do this time to warrant getting kicked out?” Jake didn't respond right away as he kept his eyes staring blankly out the window, the two had only just recently been given new orders to remain in North Island permanently. But when he did speak up, Bradley's heart ached. 
“I accidentally said my wifes name while uh–yeah.” Jake didn't think he needed to explicitly tell his wingman that, during one of the first and what Jake would consider the last one night stand he’d engaged in during your separation, he’d called out your name. “Vanessa didn't really like that.” 
“Yeah, no shit.” Bradley agreed as he drove down the street. “That's rough dude.” Bradley knew of yours and Jake's separation, Jake had told him one night at the Hard Deck after he’d asked how the family was. The two hadn’t always been on good terms but Rooster liked to think you and him were close enough to send Christmas cards to. When Jake had told him you’d left? Bradley didn’t reach out—he assumed it was for the best all things considered. 
“Yeah—but you know what’s rougher?” Jake sighed as he let his head fall back against the headrest. 
“What’s that?” 
“Knowing your wife won’t ever believe you’ll change.” Bradley knew without even looking at Jake that between the mix of alcohol and his desire to win you back that the naval aviator sitting with slumped shoulders beside him was holding back tears. “And proving her right by sleeping with some badge bunny who looked an awful lot like her.” 
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Your home had never been so quiet with all three of your children gone. You stood in the foyer of the entryway just looking around at the mess that had been left behind. Forgotten toys yet to be put away, discarded shoes, dirty plates and cups. Pine needles that fallen from the faux Christmas tree that was essentially hanging on by its last thread. The reminisce of three young children that were allowed to be children inside the safety of their own home. 
As you wiped away the tears that you had let fall freely down from your puffy eyes, you made an effort to tidy up the house you’d be leaving in only a few short hours to leave for the hospital stay you had planned. Tiny shoes with no feet to fill, toys left unattended over the holidays simply to be replaced by newer shiner ones. 
Between now and new years while Jake had the kids in Texas your treatment plan would increase tenfold. You were scheduled for aggressive rounds of IV chemotherapy that you knew you’d have to stay in hospital for to go through, your body was barely tolerating the oral medication as it was. You were scheduled for a double mastectomy in your time at the hospital which would hopefully stop any cancerous cells from spreading to more lymph nodes and areas of your body that remained untouched. Did you have high hopes? Not particularly. But you were ready and willing to do just about anything the oncologist assigned to your particular case had recommended. 
It was going to be a rough stint, but hopefully by the time Jake returned with your children, you’d still be able to mask your diagnosis. How you were going to explain the symptoms like hair loss and suddenly having no breast tissue to Jake was something you had yet to come up with. 
But ‘New year, New me’ was looking like the best possible explanation. Maybe the new look would get him off your case a little when it came to working on your marital issues. 
As you put things back in their rightful places and tidy up, you felt your phone ringing in your back pocket. The call ID immediately made you want to cry even more than you already had been. 
“Hi mum—“ You cooed softly as you stood alone in your empty home. “I uh, I just got home.” 
“How was Jake?” Your mother asked as she drove over to yours, you could hear the difference in her voice because of the shitty ass bluetooth system she barely knew how to work properly. “Did the kids kick up a fuss?” 
“Jake was–” You would never be able to find the right words to describe your husband, well, ex-husband. “Jake was Jake mum you know how we are right now.” Your mother knew about your diagnosis. She had been the one who urged you to see a doctor after you told her you had found a rather large lump on your left breast. “And no, actually the kids were super excited to go with their dad for the holidays, I think they still don't really understand that I'm not gonna be there at all, maybe they just think I won't be there for a day or two, but uh–yeah, they were good.” 
“And how are you feeling?” It was surprisingly a rather hard question to answer as you sat down on the lounge. For the longest time you had always put your family first, made sure all their needs were met before your own. From your kids to your husband they always came first, but now? Now you had to focus on your health and put yourself first if you had any chance of getting through the next few weeks. 
“I threw up this morning–” It was your way of saying you werent travelling well at all. “After I slept with Jake–” You knew your mum would be shocked at your admission, so you closed your eyes and braced for it. The scolding, the “never sleep with an ex speech” But it never came. All that came was a sigh you couldn't tell was laced in disappointment or approval. 
“You need that man in your life darling, he's a good man, the two of you just need to work on your differences.” Your mother had always had a soft spot for Jake Seresin, for a few weeks after your initial breakup he stayed in her spare room. Jake loved your mother like his own and you knew that if you ever gave her a moment on the soap box, your mum would scream it to whoever would listen just how much you and Jake were made for one another. 
Which in your opinion was a little shitty. Jake had his own mum. You needed yours. 
“I know he's a good man mum, that's why I married him to begin with.” You sighed heavily as you laid on the lounge to ward off the dizzy spell that was threatening to throw you off balance. “But I haven't been his priority in a hell of a long time, and I owe it to myself to not go back to being a married single mother.” 
“Okay okay, well–” You knew your mum was only trying to help but it felt like the two of you had this very same conversation every time you spoke, it was like deja vu. “He won't wait around forever darling.” That fact you also knew, according to Jake himself her name was Violet or Vivian or Vanessa. Something that started with a V. Either way you knew very well that Jake wouldn’t wait around for you to take him back on his hands and knees begging. 
But at the end of the day you weren’t sure if you even wanted him to wait for you. Of course you loved Jake, with your whole heart. But right now nothing made sense to you, you were dying after all. 
“Trust me,” You rolled your eyes thinking about how Vanessa or Vicky or Veronica looked. If she looked anything like you or maybe completely different. If she had blue eyes you'd surmise that he probilby date her. “I know he won't, but he's not the priority right now, my health is.” 
“I'll be there in about an hour or two depending on traffic.” For a split second you wished it might take a little longer. Although you loved your mum dearly and appreciated everything she ever did for you, her favouritism towards your husband made your blood boil. 
“Okay, I might have a bit of a nap while I'm waiting for you, I'm feeling pretty shattered.” No word of a lie was spoken, you were exhausted to say the very least. Finally being alone and not having to be in constant caregiver mode for three young children truly had your body calling it quits. You needed sleep and so much of it. 
“I'll see you soon alright?” You mum spoke through the bluetooth that crackled and broke with the failing reception, but you heard her just barely. 
“Alright, bye mum.” You paused hesitantly as you let your eyes close “I love you.” It had been a while since you told anyone you loved them besides your kids, and for a second you wished it was Jake on the other end of the line. You did love him, probably more now than you ever had. Everything was just so messy, it wasn't fair. None of this was fair. 
“Bye Darling.” Your mum replied. “I love you too.” 
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“My babies!!” Janeen Seresin was in Jake's opinion, one of those women who never should have had kids, let alone four of them. Jake was the youngest of four Seresin children and the only boy. His father, Rodney, was a hard task master who no matter what Jake accomplished in his career or personal life, never seemed to be proud of the man he had become. 
“Hi Ma.” There was a pretty simple explanation for that, Jake never took a beating without getting a few punches in himself. He wasn't the kind of guy who you could beat into submission even as a teen. “Merry Christmas.” 
“Jacob oh my boy it's so good to see you.” Janeen took her youngest child in her arms in the threshold of the Sersein estate. Lavish gardens surrounded the old exposed red brick home that had been in the Seresin family for generations. Jake knew when his parents died it wasn't going to him, but to his eldest sister Julies. “Come in come in! You guys must be so tired after your flight.” 
Jake, despite being a fighter pilot who had flown some of the most suicidal missions, was a nervous flyer when he wasn’t in total control. Commercial flying wasn't something he typically enjoyed. It made him anxious at the best of times and whenever he added his children to the mix he was sure that the way his heart pounded inside his chest during takeoff was early signs of an underlying genetic heart condition he probably inherited from his father. 
“The kids are definitely a little tired, I think Sam's ears haven't really pooped either.” Jake cooed as he and his kids entered the house Jake grew up in, the overly eccentric, far too big, the annoyingly in your face house he knew you always hated. It always seemed to exemplify the two worlds you and Jake grew up in as children. 
“Grandma!” Lucy interrupted. “Mum said that Santa will know exactly where we are if we put out cookies and milk for him and carrots for his reindeer like we do at home.” Janeen chuckled at her granddaughter as Jake placed Sam on the ground to walk off with his brother to explore the mansion style home that was far bigger than the one they were used to. 
“Your mother would still have you doing those silly little things wouldn't she?” Jake bit his tongue as he watched his mother soothe a hand over his daughter's head. “Of course we can put out cookies and milk, but if I get ants you better be ready to clean them up little miss.” Lucy simply smiled and nodded in response, the dig had gone right over her six year old head. 
“God Ma you'd think you never had kids of your own before.” Jake argued in an attempt to remind his mum that his kids were only young. The magic of Christmas was important to you and him. “I'm sure Santa won't leave cookie crumbs all over the house.”  
“Santa isn't who I’m worried about making a mess–” Janeen tried to say the loud things quiet while around Jake's children, but the intent in her words was still as loud and as obnoxious as ever. “How is your mother Lulu? I’m sorry she won’t be joining us for Christmas and new years.” 
“She’s been sick the past few weeks.” Jake frowned at his mothers smile, she left little to the imagination about her opinion of you. “But she’s better now.” Jake wasn't so sure of the statement his daughter made, the way you were only on your knees this morning throwing up into the toilet bowl made him frown in response. Jake had this gut feeling he couldn’t get rid of it no matter how hard he tried not to think about it. Was something wrong with you? Like, more than just a long winded flu? Who even gets the flu for three weeks these days? 
“Oh I’m sure she is dear, right before her big trip away hey?” Ever since you and Jake separated, Janeen Seresin had been pushing for Jake to file for divorce and full custody. No one got to leave her perfect angel boy. In her eyes Jake could do no wrong, he was her angel, her precious baby boy that no woman could ever be good enough for. 
“Yeah! She’s going to the snow with a bunch of her friends Grandma.” Lucy replied, she didn’t understand her grandmother’s resentments just yet. That or it went right over the little girl's head, either way Jake was thankful for her innocence. 
“Oh I know your dads told me all about your mothers grand plans.” Janeen rolled her eyes pretty heavily at the idea you were off whoring yourself out on a ski trip out of the country while her son was tasked with looking after the three children you had with him. 
“Ma, drop it will you?” Jake urged. “She’s allowed to go away for the holidays, she’s pretty much had the kids all year.”
“And why is that?” Janeen retaliated as little Lucy walked off to find her brothers. Jake followed his mother into the dining room where festive decorations dressed the dining table. Perfectly set and prepared. A stark contrast to your old chipped four seater dining table that had soggy cheerios spilled on the top just this morning. Jake much preferred the cheerio-covered table to his mothers perfectly decorated one. 
Fuck, Jake thought to himself the more he looked around. His kids were about to mess this place up. He knew deep down that would bring you a little solace. You knew Janeen was sour on you. The idea of the kids making her life just a little more chaotic would normally make you chuckle.
“Because I live and work in North Island now, I don’t have the proper work schedule to take three kids on by myself.” That was the appropriate and only answer, but Jake knew his mother saw it differently. “I don't have to means to look after them myself–Y/n does, we both agreed on that when he split.” 
“She’s keeping those kids away from you sweetheart.” Jake couldn’t have rolled his eyes harder if he tried, he’d been home for all of what? five minutes and already his mum was disrespecting you. “You don’t see those kids nearly as much as you should and it’s her—“
“Don’t you think that’s more on me then it is on her?” Jake argued back. “Come on ma you know exactly why we separated, I wasn’t putting in what she was giving and it damn near killed her. The last thing she needs is a custody battle.” 
“What you ever saw in that woman I’ll never understand sweetheart.” Janeen cooed as she reached up to touch her son's cheek. “I always knew she was never good enough for my baby boy.” 
Jake wanted to argue, he really did, but it was Christmas and his entire family would soon be filling the Seresin estate. So Jake pressed his lips together and leaned in to press a kiss to the top of his mothers head. He didn’t want to ruin yet another family holiday. He didn’t want to be dubbed the family disappointment because of his separation. Although he knew that's exactly what he was. 
He just wanted to be loved. And at this point Jake was gonna take that love whenever the hell he could get it from. 
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“Y/n–” At first you didn't respond, but as your mother shook you as you slept on the lounge and called your name a few more times, you finally woke up. “Y/n, babe jesus have you been asleep since we got off the phone.?” It took you a moment to come back into your body as you wiped the dry drool that had leaked from your mouth onto your cheek. The discombobulation was clearly evident to your mother as she stepped back a little to give you some space. 
“Yeah, I guess so.” You mumbled as you sat up. “I'm just really–” The all too familiar feeling of bile rising came hard and came quickly. “Oh god mum, get me a bucket!” The look of panic written in the tired lines on your face was enough for your mum to realise what was going on. 
“Oh shit hang on.” Your mother hurried into the laundry nearby and searched high and low for something you could use, but you decided soon thereafter that it was quicker if you booked it into the kitchen and puke right into the kitchen sink. “Y/n! Oh god are you alright darling?” 
For a single mother of two children, yourself and your older brother Carson, your mother did alright for the hand she was dealt. On the younger side, your mother always seemed a little ‘Childish’ in her nature and mannerisms. But she was your mum and you wouldn’t change her for anything. 
“I'm fine–I just–” You couldn't keep anything down to save your life right now, so when your body wanted to expel any form of bile it was just stomach acid and remnants of whatever you had most recently eaten. Your mother did her best to comfort you as you coughed and splatted your gagged in the kitchen sink for dear life, she could tell your body was weaker than it ever had been just from the way you trembled under her touch. 
It broke her heart to see you like this, so sick and fragile. You did well to hide it though, for what it was worth she thought you looked relatively healthy still. But it was still early on in your journey. 
“I'm so scared mum.” You cried out through gags as you stayed bent over the sink coughing and crying. This wasn’t fair, you had a family to think of, kids to watch grow, a husband to hopefully fall in love with all over again. How could whatever god was up there do this to you? Why did this happen? Why you? What had you done so wrong to deserve this untimely fate?
“It's okay I've got you baby.” Your mother cooed as she rubbed circles into your back with her open palm. “Im here, I’ve got you now, let's get you ready to go up to the hospital hey, you wanna take a shower or?” 
“Let me just brush my teeth–” You sighed as you spat into the sink to clear your throat. “I should ring Jake, make sure they got in safe.” 
“I'm sure they’re just fine, he’d call if there was a problem, let's just focus on you for once.” You didn't want to feel like you were neglecting your children but you already felt like you were. They were your entire world, putting yourself first just wasn't in your nature. But as you thought about calling, thought about just sending a text, you looked at your phone to see a missed call from Jake about twenty minutes prior and a few text to follow. 
:Lover: “Kids and I are here safe, ma’s on her fuck the ex campain already and dads nowhere to be seen.” 
:Lover: “Hope you're enjoying your kid free afternoon, safe flight tonight, text me when you get into Calgary.” 
You couldn't help but to smile as you pocketed your phone, you'd call Jake later once you were settled into your hospital room. Right now you just needed to finish packing, brush your teeth and get over to the hospital for your admission time. 
“He loves you so much.” Your mother reminded you as she followed you up to your room to help you finish packing. 
“I know he does.” You really weren't in the mood to be discussing the state of your marriage right now. “He deserves better, someone not riddled with cancer cells.” 
“Is that why you won't even consider the idea of getting back together?” Your mother was nearly flawed when you silently nodded in return. “Y/n, don't you dare–” Again, you didn't want to talk about it. Between Jake's mother not being your number one stan and your mother playing devil's advocate what seemed to be twenty four seven, you were just over everyone having an opinion. 
“Mum! He didn't care about me enough when I was healthy and happy and his wife! What makes you think he’ll care now that I’m literally dying!” You shouted as you threw a pair of extra soaks into your luggage bag. “It's not fair, none of this is, but I left him well before I got sick and me getting sick doesn't change the reason I left.” 
Your mother didn’t respond, all she did was stare at you worryingly from across your bedroom room in silence. It looked as if she was trying to figure something out, read your face, understand what was going on. Then, after a few short moments of silence she spoke. 
“Your father and I went through something very similar before he died.” Your parents had been divorced for three years before your dad died in an awfully unexpected car accident. It shattered your mum, you knew it did. “We never did get to a point where we could resolve our differences.” She explained softly as she walked over to help you pack the last few items. You let her help you fold some T-shirts, Jake's old T-shirts, as she spoke. “This past year watching you and Jake go around in circles about how much you both still love each other and how desperately he's willing to change in order to keep you is so infuriating because you, my baby girl, have already decided you're not worth loving because you’re unfortunately going through something I can't even begin to comprehend.” 
“He couldn't love me before mum.” You simply sighed in defeat, god it was like you were going around and around on a ferris wheel. “What makes you think this changes anything?” 
“That man has never stopped loving you Y/n, he just got a little lost, we all do.” 
“If you had a chance would you take dad back?” It was a question you'd never asked before purely because you were afraid the answer would be no. now? As you tried to navigate the best thing to do for yourself, you desperately hoped the answer would be yes. Perhaps then you wouldn't feel so torn about hating to love Jake Seresin and his ability to captivate your entire being. 
“Without a shadow of a doubt my dear.” You’d never seen your mother have to hold back tears so hard before in your life. She was watching her only daughter go through a battle she wouldn't wish on her worst enemy as well as trying to help you through your separation. Although sometimes unwarranted and unsolicited, she was still your mother. 
“Without a shadow of a doubt.” 
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shiny-crocodile · 3 months
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the best person ive ever met
lucy bronze x ona batlle
Summary
lucy and ona origin story; semi-slow burn, semi-quick; multi chapters that will get a little smutty
chapter 1, chapter 2, chapter 3, chapter 4, chapter 5, chapter 6, chapter 7, chapter 8, chapter 9
CHAPTER 10
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chapter summary: bikinis, blue and beaches
chapter notes: thank you to the anon for the private beach suggestion x
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As this was the first time Ona had been in Lucy's flat, it was only right that they kept to tradition and christened every room, some multiple times.
Their breakfast sat uneaten in the kitchen while they recovered from morning sex in the bedroom, Ona's head resting on her lover’s stomach after she couldn't quite resist chef Lucy.
"Can I get you a coffee?" Lucy asked, playing with the younger girl's hair.
"Mmm not yet," Ona responded, wanting to live in this moment a little longer.
The Spaniard added this to the list of cute things Lucy had done to make her feel welcome in her flat.
Not a coffee drinker herself, Lucy had stocked up on coffee and even bought the same machine Ona had in her Manchester flat.
Not stopping there, the English girl had cleared drawers and wardrobe space for her, bought chocolate, pancake ingredients and even got Ona her own Barcelona branded toothbrush. A sweet nod to the fact it was almost certain they would be playing with each other next season.
They soaked up each others company until Lucy started to move slightly, met with an annoyed mumble by Ona.
"Sorry baby, l've gotta go," Lucy said, needing to be back at the Barça training ground in 30 minutes for their celebration parade.
"Nooo," Ona moaned as she clung onto Lucy like a monkey, trying her best to stop her from moving, with little success.
"I'll be back soon," Lucy said, standing up to throw some clothes on.
"Oh shit, I forgot to pack," Lucy remembered, having planned to do that before leaving but she had got a little side tracked.
She looked around the room for her suitcase, panicking as she was on a tight schedule to get to the airport after the parade finished.
"Lucy, go," Ona said, sitting up to watch her stressed girlfriend pacing, "I can pack for us."
The English girl hesitated, preferring to sort herself out but she didn't really have a choice.
"Ok," Lucy conceded, slipping her trainers on before walking over to her naked girlfriend, bending over to kiss her deeply.
"Thank you," Lucy said, "I can't wait to see you in a bikini.”
"I'm literally naked right now," Ona said, laughing as Lucy hurried out the room. "Bye!"
"Bye, see you in a few hours," Lucy called back, shutting the door behind her.
Ona started to get moving, kind of liking being in Lucy's flat alone and having a nosey around.
There were some photos of her niece and nephew, signs of Narla who Ona didn't get to meet this time, and out of the corner of her eye she saw a framed version of the photo booth photos Ona had on her fridge. Her heart soared imagining Lucy going and getting them printed and framed.
Now in an even more smitten mood, the Spaniard got to packing.
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"Umm Ona!" Lucy called from the bedroom of their rental villa. The place was massive, so she had to raise her voice a little louder than usual to be heard.
Ona strutted in, wearing a neon pink bikini that made her tan pop.
It was Lucy's first time seeing her since waking up. They got in late last night and Lucy just flopped into bed and didn't wake up for another 10 hours, exhausted by the last days and weeks.
"Firstly, wow," Lucy said, looking her girlfriend up and down, admiring her six pack and the way the bikini barely covered her. "Secondly, where are all our things?"
She was rummaging through the wardrobe where Ona had hung up their stuff while Lucy was sleeping.
"What do you mean?" the Spaniard asked, collapsing on the bed to lay on her stomach, her bum doing its best to distract Lucy.
"There's barely any clothes in here," Lucy pointed out, signalling to the complete lack of items packed for both of them. More bikinis than actual clothes.
"Who needs clothes?" Ona asked, slowly teasing the tie of her bikini undone, causing Lucy to bite down on her lip.
"They're also all my clothes," Lucy pointed out, fully distracted now as she crawled along the bed towards her girlfriend.
"Mhmm," Ona hummed, turning on her back to let Lucy climb on top of her.
Lucy ran her hand up the younger girl's side, removing the bikini that was now barely covering her girlfriend.
"Well we don't want to get our limited collection dirty then do we," the English girl said, pulling her own top off, leaving only football shorts on.
Ona pulled the older girl in, mouths merging in a filthy kiss to kick off their make out session, hands and mouths running all over each other as they rolled around, making the most of the massive bed.
"Wait," Ona said, trying to sit up and halt things but not being able to as Lucy pinned her back down, sucking on her neck.
Temporarily thinking of giving in, Ona moaned at the sensation as Lucy gave a soft bite to her shoulder.
"No," Ona said, firmer this time as she actually managed to wriggle free, "we have to pick up the car."
Lucy groaned, laying back, hands on her head as Ona hopped off the bed and over to the wardrobe.
As the English girl finally opened her eyes and sat up, realising this make out session was only going as far as that, she saw Ona pulling on some very familiar shorts and shirt.
"Looks good on you," Lucy said, not minding after all that the Spaniard's packing meant she would exclusively be in Lucy's clothes for the holiday.
Clothes were chucked at the English girl to encourage her to get ready.
"Hey, who am I?" Ona asked, doing a Lucy-esque organising of her hair, followed by a Lucy-esque pulling her top up to show off her abs and rearranging her shorts.
"Shut up," Lucy responded to the teasing, instantly recognising those mannerisms as her own.
Still not able to resist the flash of the abs, even if it was a joke at her expense, the older girl moved forward to pull the Spaniard into one last kiss before being pushed off again to get ready.
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"So where now?" Lucy asked as they drove off in their new convertible.
Ona had been to the area a lot as a child, so the English girl was leaving the activities very much to her for once, and the driving as well.
"Surprise," Ona said, not wanting to give anything away, "but we need some stuff from the supermarket first."
Once the girls had got some picnic supplies and drinks, they headed back into the car for Ona to drive them to the surprise location.
"Ummm," Lucy said as they pulled up in an empty car park with not much going on around them except for dirt roads. "Have you taken me here to kill me?"
Ona scoffed, "patience please."
The Spaniard held her hand out to drag Lucy out the car, then leading her down a path, things not becoming any more reassuring for the English girl as it seemed to be dirt as far as the eye could see.
She never usually let go of control when it came to holidays and activities, and she was starting to remember why.
Twenty minutes later the scenery still hadn't changed.
"Sure you know where you're going?" Lucy said, drawing an eye roll from the younger player.
"Yep," Ona said as they stepped onto the top of a hill, looking out at the most pristine white sand beach Lucy had ever seen in her life.
The English girl was speechless, which Ona took as a good sign after her constant moaning.
"I used to come here when I was younger, although I cycled so it was much harder work but so worth it," Ona said, dragging Lucy down the hill and onto the beach.
"It's amazing," Lucy finally managed to get some words out, “how is it so empty?”
"Honestly I think I'm the only person who knows about it," Ona said, laying out their towels as Lucy dumped the bags of food and drink. "Well now one of two people."
"You've never taken anyone here?" Lucy asked, knowing how many times Ona had been in the area with family, friends, exes.
"No, I kind of like it being my special place. I used it to escape really," Ona said, sitting on her towel and running sand through her fingers.
Lucy was completely flattered that Ona would share this with her.
"I love it, it's the most beautiful place l've ever seen," Lucy said, sitting and leaning over to peck the Spaniard's cheek, "thank you for sharing this with me."
Ona hadn't really thought about Lucy being the first person she was bringing here. It was a no-brainer to come here after a few years away and of course Lucy would be part of that.
As Ona stripped down to her bikini, she got out the suncream to start applying it to her arms.
"Excuse me, what do you think you're doing?" Lucy asked, making Ona more than a little confused.
"Umm, putting suncream on," she responded, looking at the bottle to make sure it actually was suncream.
"That's my job," Lucy said, yanking the bottle from Ona, much to the Spaniard's amusement, and applying a large amount to her hands.
She started off on the back and shoulders, massaging into Ona's tight muscles as she went, laying kisses over the younger girl before moving on to the next spot.
"Let's take this off," Lucy said after effortlessly turning Ona round, removing her bikini top. She knew the girl would want to sunbathe the European way anyway, so she was only keeping her safe.
After covering her hands with suncream, she started at the collar bone, working her way down to Ona's chest.
"Lucy," the Spaniard mumbled, her girlfriend giving an excessive amount of attention to her boobs.
"It's very pale here, don't want you getting burnt," the older girl said as she kissed her chest goodbye.
She made her way over Ona's abs, tucking her hands down her bikini line before turning focus to her limbs.
She took each arm and leg and put it over her shoulder as she massaged the suncream deep into her skin.
Ona was loving this, not only was she getting an insanely good free massage for her tight muscles after a long season, it was also her favourite hands doing it.
As Lucy started on her final leg, she made sure to pay extra attention to her bum, taking things as slow as possible as she rubbed extra close to Ona's bikini bottoms, which were significantly damper than they were 10 minutes ago.
After fully working up the Spaniard, Lucy placed a soft kiss on her inner calf and placed her leg down.
"Think I got everywhere," Lucy said cheekily, standing up and leaving Ona flustered on the towel. "Swim?" she asked, holding her hand out to pull Ona up.
The younger girl knew full well her suncream won't have soaked in and they would have to do that all again when they got out, but she didn't mind it one bit, letting herself be pulled up.
The girls walked out into the sea far enough that Lucy could still stand but Ona was struggling a little, a great excuse to wrap her legs around the taller girl's waist instead.
Lucy secured the younger girl by wrapping her arms round Ona's hips, while the Spaniard's arms hung around Lucy's neck.
"I'm so excited to be at the same club next season," Lucy said as they bobbed together in the water.
"So am I," Ona said, admiring the way her girlfriend's eyes shimmered, reflecting off the sea, "before the most exciting part of it was being back home, but now by far the best part is the thought of being with you all the time."
They nestled their heads into each other's necks.
Lucy sighed, so content with where they were in that moment, as they both let their minds drift off in unison to being in the same city, finally.
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Back on the beach, Lucy downed the dregs of her second glass of wine.
"Top up?" Ona offered, holding the bottle.
"No, but you can, I'll drive on the way back," Lucy said, moving her empty glass behind them.
"It's ok, we can finish it later."
The sun was starting to set, the girls having spent the last few hours in and out of the sea, soaking up the sun, even building a few sandcastles at Lucy's insistence.
"Come here," Lucy said, Ona shuffling towards her on the towel, the older girl pushing the stray piece of hair behind her ear.
The younger girl leaned in to kiss Lucy passionately, sea salt giving her lips a perfect sting.
"I might have a little surprise for you too," Lucy said, pointing over to her bag behind Ona, who turned over to have a rummage.
"No way!" Ona gasped, pulling out first a strap and then a bright blue dildo.
"You brought that to the beach?" the younger girl laughed, looking at the cheeky smile spread over her girlfriend's face.
"Didn't know where we were going, did I? Gotta be prepared for everything," Lucy said, taking the surprise items from Ona.
The older girl could sense some hesitation as Ona laid back to face her.
"We don't have to use it here," Lucy said, not wanting her to be uncomfortable.
Ona's nervousness was due to how open and outdoors it was, but she quickly remembered that she'd never seen anyone else on this beach in all these years.
"I want to," Ona said, because she really did. This sunset, this girl, how could she not?
"Tell me if you change your mind, we'll stop yeah?" Lucy offered, shuffling towards Ona as she attached the strap to herself, placing it over her bikini bottoms and leaving a soft kiss on the end of the younger girl's nose when she was ready.
"I will," Ona confirmed, and with that Lucy's demeanour changed, taking control as she positioned herself over Ona.
Arms either side of the younger girl's head, Lucy lowered herself to kiss her, sliding in a tongue to up the messiness.
Exploring each other's mouthes as they picked up their make out session from earlier, Lucy was confident she could feel the girl get more and more relaxed. She slowly untied the Spaniard's bikini bottoms to expose the girl's wetness.
"Yours off too," Ona said, if she was going to be naked on the beach, so was Lucy.
Usually the English girl would have resisted being told what to do when she was controlling the situation, but she would allow it this time, wanting Ona as comfortable as possible so she hurried the pants off, rearranging the dildo so the base now knocked against her clit.
The English girl slipped her fingers through the Spaniard's soaked folds, earning a moan.
Everything was heightened with the excitement and fear of doing this out in the open.
Lucy started easing her fingers into Ona, one at a time as she stretched the girl out, kissing over her collarbone and chest as she went.
"Ready," Lucy asked, bringing her face up to meet Ona's, who nodded but Lucy could still sense some hesitation.
Usually their favourite position for this was the younger girl riding the older, but Lucy could tell they had to mix it up this time, letting Ona stay on her back as she moved her cock towards Ona's entrance.
"So tight," Lucy groaned, practically feeling it as she pushed herself into Ona.
"Open wider," she said, pushing the Spaniard's legs further apart, wanting more space to push herself into the girl as she bottomed out.
The younger girl held her hand out to interlock fingers with Lucy, a tender and supportive grip as she got fucked on a beach.
The sound of waves crashing in the background combined musically with the slaps from Lucy's thrusts deep into the Spaniard.
The older girl upped the pace, distracting Ona with sloppy kisses all over her face and shoulders.
Feeling vulnerable but loving the feeling of the sand beneath her and the sea air washing over her, Ona was hit with a wave of emotions.
"Luce," she said softly.
"Yeah?"
"I will only ever want you," the younger girl said, tears pricking her eyes as she approached her high, her words pushing Lucy closer to hers.
As Lucy rearranged the dildo slightly to put more pressure on her own clit, she responded, "well that's good because you've got me forever."
Both girls stared into each other's eyes, breathing into each other's mouths as Ona was the first to come, spurred on by Lucy moving a hand to rub on her clit.
As Ona crashed through her orgasm she was breathless and sensitive, but she could tell Lucy was close.
Leaning her head up she pulled at the English girl's lower lip with her teeth, sucking it and instantly sending Lucy hurtling towards her high.
"Fuck," Lucy said as she slowed down her pace, not removing her cock from Ona just yet. "You're so amazing."
"You know how much I love you, yeah?" Ona asked, really wanting reassurance herself while feeling quite vulnerable, the dildo still inside her.
The older girl stroked her girlfriend's sweat and suncream soaked face, "you know you're the love of my life, yeah?"
With that, Ona's vulnerability was out of the window, she pushed Lucy to the side, keeping the dildo inside her as she positioned herself on top of the girl, legs either side.
Lucy was taken aback but she wasn't complaining, she definitely had the energy to go again.
She grabbed Ona's thighs as the Spaniard took control, moving her hips to grind down, rolling her head back as pleasure took over.
Not satisfied with parts of their body not in contact, Lucy sat up slightly to wrap her arms around Ona, chests flushed against each other.
"Fuck, Ona!"
"Feels so good."
"No, Ona, look!!" Lucy said, Ona's head spinning round to see two middle aged kayakers passing in the sea. Only about 100 meters away, perfect distance to see just about everything.
"Shit," Ona said, quickly removing herself from Lucy who ripped off the strap, throwing it in her bag.
Both girls collapsed on their side to hide themselves, Lucy throwing a towel over Ona to cover her.
"I'm so sorry," Lucy said, feeling terrible she had encouraged this and Ona was the one most exposed.
"Don't be," said Ona before bursting out into a fit of laughter, much to the relief of Lucy.
The English girl peered over to see the middle aged couple quickly paddling away, unable to stop herself joining Ona's laughter.
"I can't believe that just happened," Ona said through laughs, "that poor couple."
"Poor couple? Baby they are gonna get home and have the best sex of their life now I promise you," Lucy said, making Ona laugh more as she nestled herself into the older girl's embrace.
Lucy placed a soft kiss on her temple as they voted in favour of saving the next activity for the villa, and the rest of the chaos for a a “time flies” instagram post of their first trip together.
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tengritexas · 5 months
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Candle Light Meditation: The Peculiar Treatment for Insomnia, Irregular Sleep Patterns, and ADHD
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Hi everyone! Today Im writing about a new meditation trick Ive been testing out and Ill be sharing how to do it if youre interested.
Why I chose to do it
While I may like to do old man things, sitting at home and watching candle lights werent really my idea of a good time. However in the past few weeks Ive had really big issues maintaining a healthy sleep pattern and Ive always struggled with ADHD and getting school work done. I was told by a buddy of mine about mindfulness meditation and that has helped my adhd in the past so I figured this was worth a go!
Candle Light Meditation Craze
If you go to google or youtube youll certainly find all kinds of gurus and spiritualists suggesting this meditation will "decalcify your pinal gland" which would be something impacting most of us around the age 18-30 depending on diets and things like that
Here is the issue THERE IS NO RESEARCH TO SUGGEST THIS PRACTICE DECALCIFIES YOUR PENAL GLAND. So to say if that happens or not is not my place. Im a dude who posts bangers on the internet, not a neuro scientist.
What it did do
Despite the research not being there. I can tell you in the few days of doing it I have noticed my focus has sharply improved. My fatigue isnt so bad either. My sleep schedule hasnt improved to much yet but hey! Im a college student Im busy chatting and making friends (doing essays lol).
I believe some of these symptoms are associated with the pinal gland but again, I have no idea. All I can tell you is I do eat frozen foods often and this did help. I dont have a CT scanner in my room so beyond that I have no idea lol.
How to do candle light meditation
Grab a candle, light it and turn off as many lights to get the room as dark as you can. Try to use a candle with a still flame and turn off fans aswell.
Try to focus on the most solid part of the flame for a few seconds up till 3 minutes. You ideally want to do this until you feel a fuzzy feeling in your head.
Turn away from the candle and close your eyes, you should see the imprint of the flame, stare at that for as long as you can until it goes away.
Try to do repeat process 3 times a day (in one setting) for 5 days. Usually by 5 days you should begin to feel a strange tiredness in your mind. This is what your looking for. You are overloading that part of the brain because its not really being used. Much like trying to run for the first time in a few months.
The end result
Around day 5 you should find yourself being able to focus more! Ive also heard some people report it helps them with creative writing aswell but I cant attest to that.
Let me know what you guys think! Hope it helps :>
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dirtybitfic · 1 month
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Company pt5
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(last part to this series)
The next morning we had woken up and spent most of the day going to different wineries and vineyard tasting many different flavors and soaking up the sun and the beauty of France.
Me and Matt have grown so close over this trip and i'm so happy but I still have that small voice in my head telling me that this relationship is wrong and that it's not going to last.
The last couple of days we had left of our trip were spent lounging around on the beach , going on boat rides, eating delicious food at there most beautiful restaurants, amazing sex like A LOOOT of amazing sex , and deep conversations about life and past things we've been through .
Today we are headed back home and honestly i'm sad , if I could stay in France for the rest of my life I would . We're are settling in on the jet when I get an email from the producers of the campaign video . " Matt come here I just got an email from the campaign producer" I say patting the seat next to me. " That was pretty fast" he says kind of shocked how quickly they had pieced it together. " I know god I don't know why i'm so nervous to watch it " I say as I play with my necklace nervously. " It'll be great now come on I wanna watch my girl look beautiful in a commercial" he says making me blush and smile .
I open the email reading over it . The producer said it's almost fully done but wanted to get our input before finalizing all the details and releasing it . I watch in awe as Les filles desir by Vendredi sur mer plays through the speakers . We both watch as the video plays out , the scenes look so perfect I still cant get over how I actually pulled it off but I couldn't be more happy with how the commercial turned out. It ends and we both look at each other smiling " wow that was..." I say shocked " Yeah I mean wow its amazing" matt says and I nod in agreement . " I honestly have no feedback its perfect" I say and he nods " Yeah me neither I think its as perfect as can be" he says and I smile "great ill let them know its definitely ready to go" I say as I shoot and email back to him and thanking him for being an amazing producer.
We both fall asleep through the flight watching a movie . When we land we get our bags back into Matts car thats waiting for us and drive back to my apartment . The second I get in we both throw our bags down and I hop onto my bed laying down on the plush comforter smiling as I sink into it. " Im exhausted " I say as I yawn . " I know this jet lag is going to kill us both" Matt says as he flops down next to me . I look over at him smiling and he smiles back. " I really enjoyed being in France with you Matt it was truly an amazing experience " I say and he smiles wider " Im glad you enjoyed it and i'm glad we got to spend time together you're an amazing woman" He says and I blush burying my face in the comforter. " How about I order some food and we can watch some movies we won't be working for the next week so we can realign our sleep schedules " he says and I smile and nod " That sounds perfect" I say as I get up and start unpacking
Skip 8 months
Me and Matt are now fully dating , Ive sadly stopped working as his assistant strictly because of company rules and policies that would be effected and broken by our relationship. I've moved in with Matt and have a night job working as a bartender at a club . Matt said I didn't need to work because I mean obviously he has more money than he'd ever know what to do with but I said I needed something to keep me busy . I enjoy bartending its fun especially the people watching . I work with one of my best friends Ella which definitely makes it more enjoyable , we just fuck around and talk while working .
I just got off a shift when Matt pulls up in the parking lot opening my door for me to get in. " Hi gorgeous how was work ?" he asks I smile "Good my feet are killing me though these heels may look good but they definitely don't feel good" I say as I slump into my seat . " I'll give you a deep massage when we get home how does that sound?" he asks and I nod my head quickly " Yes please , but how was your day?" I ask and he shakes his head " My new assistant fucked up a couple of my meeting schedules today and it was a mess so I had to fire her " he says and I shake my head " i'm sorry I mean no one is ever gonna be as good as me you know" I say jokingly and he laughs " Your not wrong about that" he says making me smile .
We get home and take a long hot shower before we're in bed and Matt is rubbing oil on my body giving me the best massage Ive ever had. He slowly makes his way up to my thighs really working at the sore mussels . The higher he gets the more wet and horny I get for him. "Someones getting a lil excited " Matt jokes as his finger ghost over my soaked pussy. " Fuck sorry it just feels so good " I say and he smirks "Don't ever apologize for getting wet for me " he says before he slides two fingers into my entrance making me gasp . He finger fucks me as I hold a tight grip on his bicep moaning and whimpering in pleasure . I release on his fingers before he's shoving into me fucking me so hard I see stars. I could never get tired of this . Having Matt forever would be amazing I mean if he asked me to marry his tomorrow I would in a heart beat.
*skip 6 months
Today Matt and I are leaving for a 3 day trip to France . Im so excited I can barely sit still . Were going back to the place we stayed for the campaign shoot and i'm over the moon.
We land and i'm practically sprinting out of the jet to take in the beautiful scenery i've missed so much . I see the older man standing with a large smile on his face watching me practically bust my ass from excitement . " James its so lovely to see you" I say as I greet him in a warm hug. " Ahh belle fille ( means beautiful girl) i'm so happy to see your face again" he says as he places a sweet kiss on my cheek . James and Matt greet each other happily and talk to each other in French sadly I cant understand a word they are saying .
We makes our way up the penthouse suit and set our bags down and take a quick power nap before getting ready for a surprise Matt says he has planned . I just finished my hair and makeup when Matt comes waltzing into the bathroom holding up a beautiful dress . " wow matt that dress is beautiful " I say as I get up and glide my hand over the shiny material. " It'll look even more beautiful on you especially with these" he says holding up a pare of beautiful of jimmy choo heels." Matt ... my god these must have cost a fortune" I say in shock . " I would spend every cent I have on you , you know that" he says making me smile endearingly up at him . I give him a hug and thank him before I get dressed and walk back out into the room grabbing the last things I need and slipping them into my purse.
We hop in a car and the driver takes us to a helicopter. I look over at Matt who's just smiling and ushering me out of the car. " Where are we going?" I ask in excitement since he's been keeping it a secret all damn day. " You'll see , come on" he says smiling widely at me and ushering me into the helicopter. " Bonjuer" the pilot greets and I great him back. Matt helps me buckle in the gets himself buckled and then were off . Ive never been in a helicopter mostly because it always seemed so scary but its actually pretty amazing.
As we fly over the beautiful scenery we get closer to the ocean and i've never seen anything more beautiful . Matt grabs my hand and point over to something in the distance . I follow the line of his hand and look out to see what I think is and island . " Thats where we're going " Matt says and I smile . The closer we get the more I can make out home beautiful the island is . " Wow" I gasp as we get to the spot we're landing in. " Welcome to lies Lavezzi island" the pilot says and I smile and thank him for taking us here . I get out with matts help and he takes my hand leading me down further on the rocky train to a cliffside by the water. " Its so beautiful " I gasp as I let go of matts hand and look around at the crystal clear water surrounding us . I get confused when he doesn't say anything so I turn to look at him .
I turn to see Matt down on one knee smiling at me . I gasp as I out my hand over my mouth and tears start to form in my eyes.
" Y/n , when I first met you the day you walked into my office I thought you were the most beautiful woman I had ever seen . As time grew I slowly started falling for you , I knew it was unprofessional but I just couldn't keep you out of my head . The last time we were here I finally got to have you and ever since then I've known I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. Every second I spend with you I find new reasons I love you and never want to let you go ... so y/n will you marry me ?"
The tears stream down my face as my entire body shakes with joy and my head nods so quickly it might fall off " yes yes yes matt " I say smiling as he gets up and slides the beautiful ring on my finger. He hugs me as we look out at the water smiling like the happiest people on earth. I take a look at the ring on my still shaking hands . " Do you like it?" he asks and I nod " I love it , it's beautiful matt" I say as I smile up at him and bring him into a kiss .
*skip 7 months
Our wedding was beautiful , having our family and friends all in one room was amazing . Ive never been this happy in my life , as I look around at everyone smiling and talking , having drinks and dancing the smile that spreads upon my face is so big my cheeks hurt. " Mrs. Sturniolo , may I have this dance?" Matt asks smiling I nod as I take his hand " Wow Mrs. Sturniolo ... I cant believer thats me " I say as we both laugh and dance close together to the slow song . " I love you so much" I say as I rest my head on his chest " I love you more" he says as he places a kiss on my head .
After a long night of talking , dancing and drinking . We're are finally off to our honeymoon . I chose Greece and our first destination so thats were we are headed . We sleep on the jet and once we finally reach the end of the flight I buzzing with excitement. We take a car into Skopelos , I watch out of the window taking in the scenery , I specifically chose this part of Greece because of my love for mama Mia and this is where they filled it. As I kid I dreamed of going to Greece after watching mama Mia , its crazy to actually be here it all feels so surreal.
After a lovely week in Greece filled with amazing food , people , boat rides and swimming we are off to Matts pick of a honeymoon destination Paraty ,Brazil . I was overjoyed when he chose Brazil since its so beautiful but especially Paraty becauseee one of my favorite movies was filmed there . It was specifically in the second to last Twilight movie when they were on their honeymoon .
The second we reach the house we will be staying at my jaw drops at how beautiful it really is here . The house is on a secluded part of land and we can walk right out onto the beach from the back porch .
We spend most of out time tanning , swimming , having a lot of rough veryyy rough sex and just enjoying spending our time with each other somewhere so beautiful.
We are finally heading back home today and to be honest Im sad but i'm ready to get back home and get back into the groove of things . Matt has insisted I stop working and this time I obliged , I love working but honestly I don't mind being a stay at home wife but only because Matt makes so much money on a daily bases that I genuinely do not have to work .
*skip 2 years
Today is our daughters first birthday , I've never felt so filled with joy and contentment . Our daughter is the light of our lives . Seeing Matt with Sage makes my heart flutter every single time . She got his eyes and nose, two of my favorite features on him but she got my wavy/ curly hair , my thick dark eyebrows and tan skin . She is truly the most beautiful thing i've ever seen and I cant wait to watch this family grow.
Crazy to think that my hot boss is now my husband and father to our beautiful baby girl but I couldn't ask for a better life .
The end.
( I know this shit has been long overdue trust i've been so busy this summer I haven't found much time to write but i'm getting back into the groove )
❤️💋
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muffinsin · 7 months
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Hey Muffin! Ive had an idea for a while. Some CassxDonna goodness request ig, i dont fucking know how to request shit
I also have like this vison in my head of Donna working on a doll or some other commission. Like super stressed out cuz its not going just how she wants it*Perfectionist Donna ofc* And rambunctious Angie is being chased by Cassie, tryin to have her steer clear of Donna when she is working you know? But somehow Angie gets in and ofc breaks something *that Donna had just finished* Angie just giggles and runs out will Cass is like 0_0. Leaving Cass with a very very angry and rather pent up Donna who has been working countless hours, no sleep, and ofc that means no hot sex with her lover. SO how would Donna react to this? Lets say Cass has on one of the dresses donna hand made for her, maybe one of Donna's favorites.
I'd love to see ur HC's on this
-Flyin Rizz
This is interesting!👀 and would you look at that! Some Cassandra x Donna content! XD (No smut in this but some suggestive phrases here and there)
Let’s get into it!🙌
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It’s not uncommon for Donna to get very invested in her work. She crafts things on a daily basis, whether this is dolls, clothing, accessories, or toys
Everyone at the beneviento manor knows of her tendency to get really into her work, abandoning her regular sleeping schedule, most mealtimes and just about anything outside of her work until her piece of finished
In this case, a doll. A beautiful one, dressed in a light blue summer dress, according to the blueprints and sketches the dollmaker has messily drawn
Agatha, if Cassandra remembers correctly, a future play-partner for keeping Angie entertained
She, like all the dolls residing at Donna’s manor, is very much aware of how meticulous Donna works
And how badly she wants this doll in particular to be perfect
She brings her food and tea occasionally when she worries her lover gets too into her work, her posture straightening when Donna, even in her focused state, scolds her for the blood coating her and daring to slip down and mess the beautiful dress she is put in
While wearing her signature black dress at the castle and on hunts, her attire is quite different when visiting her girlfriend at her manor
The dress is to be discarded and replaced nearly immediately whenever she visits, instead replaced with one of the many Donna likes to craft for her
Whether light pink, lilac, yellow, red or white, they all share an older, more elegant aesthetic, so that Cassandra often feels as if dressed similarly, if not nearly the same way as most of the dolls sitting tight and proper for Donna
Not that this is entirely inaccurate in her case, in most scenarios
While Cassandra has learned not to disturb her girlfriend in such times, lest she wants to face dire consequences, Angie’s mindset is a little different
Fuelled by her excitement and anticipation of getting a new friend to play with, and her boredom stemming from Donna’s lack of attention during the many hours of the day she sits locked in the workshop, she likes to stir trouble
Trouble, which often consists of multiple things
1), to steal one of Cassandra’s weapons and force her to chase her about. Once or twice she has fallen for it and followed the mischievous doll outside, only to receive proper punishment after getting her dress muddy in the process
2), making a mess of the house and playing god while she watches other dolls clean it up again. She especially enjoys putting some of the blame on the Dimitrescu and watching her clean her mess off the counters, a sour grimace on her face
And lastly, a good old chase around the house, which usually, sadly, comes with many broken decorative plates, vases, flowerpots, paintings off the walls, and carpets curling in on themselves
Normally, Donna is capable of handling this. And normally, Cassandra couldn’t care less
However, with her girlfriend on edge after more than a week of intense working and perfecting her craft, restlessness and no true stress reliever, she knows it’s best not to test her
Naturally, Angie thinks differently
And as such Cassandra finds herself chasing after the little doll, frantically trying to keep the vases from tipping over and the paintings from falling from the walls
She chases her through the kitchen and dodges the many, tiny handfuls of flour thrown her way, yet when she reaches out to grab Angie, the doll only blows some of the flour in her face
And as such their chase continues
Down the halls, through the office where Cassandra throws herself against a wobbling shelf to keep it from falling
She knows, she would pay bitterly if Donna had to reorganise and put all the books and files back in
Yet, golden eyes widen when Angie nears the workshop. With a mischievous smile nonetheless
She slips through the small gap at the office, and Cassandra has no choice but to follow, swarming fast through the small tunnel and manifesting again at the other side. She barely still catches Angie’s veil as she rounds the corner
More and more, she catches up with each second
Then, she freezes when both of them stop dead in their tracks in front of the large, wooden doors leading into the workshop
“Angie!”, she hisses quietly, her hands fisting at the embarrassingly sweet dress she is put in
She doesn’t quite notice the state it’s in after her swarming through the dirty gap at the office, yet is soon about to find out about it
With wide, horrified eyes, she watches the door open just a crack for Angie to slip inside
Naturally, she follows
Her posture automatically straightens when she sees Donna across the room, her back turned to her and her fingers working meticulously on what seems to be the sketch of a dress
Cassandra gulps and hurries to the other side of the room when she sees Angie stand next to one of the dolls sitting on the shelf
It hasn’t get been brought to life, yet Cassandra knows it took her lover days to craft and paint it
As expected, it’s given a small push, and the brunette throws herself forwards to catch it. She sighs, her eyes closing for a mere moment when she manages to grasp the precious doll just before it hit the floor
Then, she flinches at the sound of broken porcelain. The torso, one of the few parts of the doll Donna has- after days- finished
Before she can act or even consider her next moves, the mischievous doll slips away behind the other dolls and Cassandra feels strong, thick vines shoot out from the plant pots next to her and tangle around her wrists, seemingly automatically
She hisses when her lower face is grabbed, then gasps upon realising her girlfriend stands in front of her, her free hand twitching in anger, her dark eye set on Cassandra
“I didn’t do it! It was A-AgnmMm!”
She can only whine and whimper pitifully when a slip of paper, the one containing scribblings of the dress, is crumpled and shoved in her mouth to gag her
Wide, dark golden eyes look up at a dark, nearly black one, as though begging for forgiveness. As though to protest: she didn’t do it!
Yet, there is one found. Donna is painfully riled up, and this seems to have simply pushed her over the edge
Cassandra’s shriek is muffled as dark, auburn hair is grabbed and used to yank her head to face Donna. She watches when the broken torso is raised to her face and whines in discomfort when its sharp edge is dragged alongside her cheek
For a moment, the dollmaker doesn’t talk. Her dark eye bores into Cassandra, her face sporting an angry frown
She whimpers when blood begins to drip from the cut and runs down her pale cheek. Before it can drip to the dirtied collar of her dress, however, it is caught with a fingertip
“Have you got any idea how long it took to craft this, doll?”
Her head spins at the low, raspy voice of her lover
All she can do is shake her head. With Angie gone and having left her in this compromising position, and the paper in her mouth keeping her shut up efficiently, she can only listen and whimper occasionally
Donna’s jaw clenches, and Cassandra jumps in surprise when the porcelain is dropped again
The vines around her wrists ease their hold, yet the one on her hair only tightens. She groans lowly when a skilled, pale hand wraps around her throat and strong, careful fingers dig into her neck
Perhaps, she shouldn’t be enjoying this so much. Yet, she can’t help it
She can’t help but melt into the touch, to push herself against the hand around her throat and to look through thick eyelashes to meet Donna’s dark eye with her golden ones
Then, she shrieks when the fingers suddenly yank her hair, tugging and yanking as though it was a leash making her follow like an obedient mutt
Naturally, Cassandra immediately attempts to protest and talk about the small doll when she is tugged along, across to the workbench and pushed hard against it
Of course, Donna has nothing of it
“You’re a brat today, doll... If you will not admit to your guilt, you will not talk at all”, she hisses
Her hair is released, and her eyes still follow every move of her lover’s skilled hands. Petite as they may look, she knows of the strength they possess, and the power they wield
Cassandra’s eyes widen in realisation when she finds her lover taking in her appearance
Her dress, so lovingly created, filthy of blood from her hunt and the dirt from the gap. Her face, partly covered in a fine layer of flour and blood, only adds to her messy state
She gulps when Donna’s hands grasp her collar tightly as it is cleaned. She is manoeuvred rather roughly, until some of the dirt is brushed off again at least
Her wrists are grabbed next, tightly and in a nearly bruising grip. Cassandra, was it not for the paper in her mouth, would grin widely at this
Ah, she loves the beautiful marks her lover leaves on her on a regular basis
“You’re filthy, doll”, Donna hisses, her low voice pulling Cassandra from her thoughts. “Must you always make a damn mess!”, she adds through gritted teeth
The Dimitrescu resists the urge to moan when her arms are tied by ribbons and yanked upwards
She is not treated sweetly or gently, and her body betrays her excitement regarding this
She knows, Donna too notices her rock hard nipples and quivering thighs
And she knows, having spent so much time among the plants at the manor, that her girlfriend is very well aware of the naughty thoughts and feelings she causes her to experience
Alas, it seems the dollmaker doesn’t yet grant her any of this special, painful kind of pleasure. Cassandra could whine in irritation at this
She watches her girlfriend move the tied hands to the hooks meant to hold and lift dolls, then gulps when a hand is held in front of her stretched mouth
Her arms are tied securely and held above her head, and with her legs spread slightly to allow her to sit comfortably with Donna’s body between her knees, she has almost difficulty adjusting to feeling this exposed
Not that it’s new, really
The underside of her chin is tapped impatiently, before Donna holds out her palm again
“Out with it. But I better not hear a thing from you, doll. You’ll start earning your right to talk back by helping me.”, she clarifies
Submitting to the obvious command, Cassandra’s lips spread apart wider and she allows the wet, crumpled paper to fall back out of her mouth
She stays silent, as commanded. She truly tries to
For a mere moment, that is, until she spots the mischievous doll that seems to take immense pleasure from getting her in trouble
“There! It’s he-MGM! Mhmm!”, Cassandra’s eyes are wide when a hand is clasped over her mouth, golden orbs flickering to Angie’s mocking face on the shelf behind Donna
Another hand shoots to her throat, and all she can do is whimper breathlessly when warm breath hits her skin and soft lips move across her jawline
“Did I not say, not. a. word?”, she hisses, each word delivered with a squeeze of Cassandra’s throat
The woman moans shamelessly at this, her eyes pressing shut and her thighs pushing together
With a proper squeeze of her neck, she whines. She feels lightheaded for a mere moment
Then, she whimpers when her lover leans in, her lips and teeth ghosting over her neck, all the way up to her ear
“What was that, doll? Must I put you in your place again?”
She shakes her head quickly, as though overly aware of the beautiful, carefully placed mark of the beneviento symbol carved into her back
The mere feel and thought of it has her attempt to subtly rub her thighs together
She wonders; if only she acts out enough, will Donna renew it for her?
“That’s what I thought, principessa”, the older woman husks out, and again she feels as though her head is spinning from her words
She shivers when the dress is peeled off her, Donna’s hands careful and precise in their movements
“If you’re so keen on sabotaging my work and setting me back-“, Cassandra attempts to protest at this, blame the doll, but at another squeeze of her throat, all her words die on her tongue and only a throaty groan slips out
Donna’s expression turns almost sour at her repeated misbehavior, before she closes her eye for a moment
Upon opening it again, she smiles
“You will be of good use to me, doll”, she whispers
Cassandra tries her best to stay quiet as the woman moves from her, golden eyes following her strong, veiny hands and slender fingers as they shimmer over her workspace
Scattered on the table are scissors, ribbons, wood and porcelain dolls, knives and sewing needles, and much more Cassandra can’t quite catch a glimpse of
She tenses when she hears a breathy chuckle from Donna. The woman’s back is turned to her as she organises her desk, yet Cassandra hears the smile in her voice as she talks lowly
“Seeing as you are so keen on setting me back, you will make up for the lost progress”
For a moment, she doesn’t understand
How can she make up for it? Cassandra doesn’t know how to sew, or craft dolls. Nor is she about to learn it
When Donna holds up her sketches however, realisation dawns on her
She practically sees the gears moving in her girlfriend’s head, her mind coming up with a punishment fit for “her” crime
She knows, her girlfriend is already calculating the amount of fabric and time she will need to craft the light blue dress in Cassandra’s size, rather than the doll Agatha’s
Yet, when her lips part to protest and blame Angie yet again, she feels a hand slap over her mouth again
She jumps at this, not ever used to her girlfriend simply turning and moving in the span of seconds
Donna hums as she regards the tied and bratty woman in front of her
“Whatever will I do to you?”, she hums, a smirk curling on her lips that makes the brunette Dimitrescu’s thighs push together and has goosebumps overtake her pale skin
“Hey! Fly face! Here!”
Cassandra groans, a bright pink blush on her face as she pours some more tea into the doll’s cup
Really, she wouldn’t do such a thing, participate in such a tea party with the doll, if it wasn’t for the tight collar hugging throat and Donna’s watchful eye on her
Both serve as a reminder to do well, she knows
The dress she’s put in is tight, yet elegant and fits her well
She’s careful not to dirty it with every move, and can’t help but bite her lip to hide a grin whenever she is praised for just that
Longingly, she stares at the doll, Agatha, laying unfinished on her girlfriend’s table
How much longer will she need to endure such humiliation of being Angie’s “doll” friend? Dressed up sweetly and made to serve tea and biscuits to the doll and Donna herself, all for something she didn’t commit in the first place!
Yet, the doll, Agatha, is hardly finished. Not even nearly done, even
It seems, Donna is taking her sweet time finishing her
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poxy-domain · 1 year
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big fat May post, my main sve farmer!!! art is May over the years, ive talked about her here before briefly but not much
rest of the post under the cut is essentially her backstory, it ended up being WAY longer than i thought it would be though so be warned lol
basic run down of her life pre-farm, is she was average in every sense of the word essentially. she basically had nothing exceptional going for her. she lived in the suburbs outside of zuzu city for a majority of her childhood before going to a cheap 2 year college and eventually working at joja. however, she knew nobody at zuzu city nor was she good at socializing at all. it basically caused her to become a hermit, she would hardly ever go outside aside to go to work and she had a terrible sleep schedule as well as diet, she was overworked and underpaid at joja so she couldn't afford much good or healthy food (she also picks up sign language as a way to avoid social interaction after a while). after basically 4 years of this, she decides to read her grandpa's letter and boom!!! stardew plot happens
she started off kinda terrible at farming ngl, like may legit grew up in peak urban area and she saw barely any plant life, now you expect bro to be a farmer?? LMFAO funny joke bro. having a hard time breaking out of her former hermit lifestyle, she barely talks to anyone outside of small talk with lewis, marnie, pierre, and robin, and those 4 are only because its essential for her job, and lewis is because he knew her grandfather. yippie!!! she went out to the country to start a new life and it really isn't that different from her lonely, sad, former one!!!! may was initially hoping this move would be a cure for all her problems, but seeing that she's still the same person as before, and doesn't have a magical effortless personality glow up does go thru a sort of arc of resenting herself. other villagers try to talk to her but she doesn't really try to manage anything further than small talk. She does have a sort of mutual understanding with sebastian because of both of their introverted natures, as well as geeky interests that may especially got into over her years of being a social recluse. 
This all changes when she gets into the adventurers guild, and i mean actually get into it, when marlon first offered for her to adventure into the caves full of monsters, she initially brushed it off thinking he was exaggerating. “monsters were just some made up story that only existed years and years ago, they’re practically extinct now!” which was basically may’s thought process, as the city intentionally covers up any news coverage related to any magical or monster related topics. may learns this is very much not the truth the hard way. rip bozo, deserved tbh. After this encounter, she starts frequenting the caves much more often for the adrenaline rush, a way to escape the thoughts plaguing her that she really needed to fix herself, not just her environment. She frequents the guild for more supplies and ends up talking (generous term for her nods and hm’s) more to marlon and gil. At first the two of them do wonder about her quietness, but they’re both used to eccentric characters from other guilds so they’re not too bothered by it. marlon even picks up on some sign language for her to use with him when she doesn’t want to talk. The wizard also becomes quite used to her behavior, being even more accustomed to unconventional characters, he even knows sign language so she primarily uses it to talk to him!! may finally finds people more like her in the form of adventurers and mages, it sort of clicks in her head when she starts to learn a bit of magic with rasmodius. her love for the adrenaline rush of adventuring turns to a genuine love of adventuring itself. She also meets krobus and IMMEDIATELY clicks with him, and spends a dubious amount of time in the sewers because of it (the villagers start giving her weird looks for going into the sewers so much so she starts going in through the forest entrance). bro smells terrible. by her second year in stardew, krobus and may end up becoming roommates. he doesn’t mind her silence, though she does become comfortable talking to him more often. 
Also i wanted to show in the art of her getting progressively more muscular from her work as well as tanner, if any y’all notice her scars forming over the years kudos to u lol. She also cuts her hair year 4 but decides to grow it out again by year 7.. i should also prooooobably address her relationship with lance, considering she does get married to him later on. but i kiiinnddaaa wanna write a small fic about that ngl. i will work up to it or write another post on this later lol. but this is getting too long so i’ll end it at year 3. also she totally fucks with isaac. she may be quiet and socially inept but she fucks with people sooo much. devious in nature
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lovelytsunoda · 2 years
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ironic // george russell
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summary: george and y/n are finally tying the knot, but trust everything to go wrong that weekend, in all of the right ways. inspired by a selection of verses from ‘ironic’ by alanis morrissette
it’s like rain on your wedding day
pairing: george russell x wife!reader
warnings: dramatic irony, mentions of omens from the universe. I do a little bit of projecting. alex and charles are the reason george is almost late for his wedding. ive only ever had a proper manicure once so its probably unrealistic as hell.
authors note: welcome to the end of the cozy collection 2022 !! i hope you enjoyed it, and im really looking forward to bringing you guys the christmas collection later in november.
reference points: (wedding dress) (george's suit) (the altar)(the song she’ll walk down the aisle to)(engagement ring)(blanket station)(wedding cake)
kings lynn, norfolk.
george russell was on top of the world.
it was a feeling better than winning the formula 2 championship, or getting pole position in hungary, or even when he was signed to mercedes. because in just forty-eight hours, the love of his life would become mrs. russell.
what he was not looking forward to, was when she would leave. keeping with radition, the bride and groom were to spend forty-eight hours apart, sleeping in different beds and not allowed to see each other under any circumstance, until they saw each other again at the outdoor ceremony.
"baby, lily's here." y/n murmured softly against george's lips. "i have to go."
"i don't want you to leave." the mercedes driver responded, chasing the kiss. "i want to stay here with you, for the rest of my life."
y/n giggled, pulling away and gently tapping geroge on the end of his nose with the pads of her finger. "its just two days, and then we have three whole weeks together on the french coast."
"two days is too long."
"but you'll be with charles and alex, having a bros weekend."
"it's a bros weekend every time i go to a race, darling." george persists, trying to get his bride to be to stay with him. "do you have the dress?"
"lily has it, and alex has your suit. i really need to go, georgie."
"okay." the brit relented, giving y/n a tight hug before letting her go. "i miss you already."
"see you soon, husband."
its a black fly in your chardonnay
they were in a pub in norfolk, a secluded table by the back, large bottle of chardonnay in the middle of the table. lily he and charlotte sine sat at the head of the table, left in charge of planning the entire schedule while their boyfriends kept george occupied. a few of y/n's college friends were there as well, but just for the dinner rather than the whole weekend.
"i propose a toast!" charlotte proclaimed, popping the bottle open. "to the future mrs. russell!"
the girls around the table echoed that sentiment, y/n hiding her face in her hands as she laughed. "go ahead and tell the whole pub, won't you."
"so," taylor, one of her roomates in college was the first to ask "are you nervous for the wedding."
"a little. it's a little scary, you know. the whole 'commitment for life' thing. not that i see george and i ever having problems, im just thinking 'but what if we do'?"
"sweetie, if i can deal with charles for as long as i have, you can spend the rest of your life with george." charlotte joked. "i've never seen two people more made for each other."
"can i get an amen?" lily quipped, raising her glass to the ceiling.
"amen!" the table chorused, also raising their glasses.
"to y/n and george!" taylor added, clinking glasses with the bride-to-be.
when y/n brought the glass to her lips, a small shape floating in the chardonnay stopped her. scrunching up her nose, she lowered the glass, eyes zeroing in on the the dark shape in her wine.
"there's a fly in my drink! this is an omen." she panicked, placing the glass back down on the table. "something is going to go wrong at that wedding, i can already tell."
"sweetie, i think you're overthinking this." lily frowned, rubbing her hands up and down y/n's arms. "let's just get you another glass and get shitfaced."
"that sounds like a really good idea."
it's the good advice that you just didn't take
george could be a moody bastard when he wanted to be, and alex and charles were learning that very quickly as they stood at the tee of the golf hole, waiting for charles to hit the small white ball.
"you guys have been apart for six hours. it's not a big deal, george. goddamn, are you whipped." alex remarked, clapping the groom on the shoulder.
"i can't remember the last time we were apart for more than a normal workday. or woken up without her in the bed next to me, inhaling the scent of her shampoo." george whined as charles finally took the shot. "i miss her like hell, give me a break."
"i told you this was a bad idea." alex insisted. "i knew that you couldn't stand to be away from her for this long."
george rolled his eyes. staying apart hadn't been his idea. after enlisting his mother to help with the wedding planning, mrs. russell had insisted on good old british tradition, and he was too much of a mama's boy to say no.
he figured that it was the least he could do, and that it would all be worth it when he got to hold y/n again, or when he saw her walking down the aisle to the song they had picked together, an acoustic cover of ‘mr brightside’, the song that was playing in the pub the night that they had their first kiss.
"even when she's at work, we still text each other. we've grown attached."
"as all couples do." charles agreed. "but she has you wrapped around her finger tighter than that engagement ring, mate."
"if you hadn't told charlotte to confiscate her phone for the weekend, i wouldn't be so miserable right now."
"may i remind you that i also have your phone? no contact, remember? not until the wedding."
"not until the wedding." george mocked in a high-pitched whine as he stepped up to take the shot, balancing the small plastic golf ball on the metal tee. "you're evil, charlie. pure evil."
the mercedes driver swung the golf club, using it like a walking stick to rest his weight on as he watched the golf ball soar across the course.
behind him, still leaning against the cart, alex checked his phone, reading through a message from lily.
"i bet you're going to wish you took dear old dad's advice and decided to move the ceremony indoors."
panic shot through geroge's veins. "what?"
"lily just said that the chance of rain on saturday just shot up from 10% to 25%. if it rains during your outdoor ceremony, it's not gonna look good."
"fuck! does y/n know?"
alex shook his head. "lily hasn't told her."
"she's already worried enough, tell lily not to say anything. besides, there's still only a small chance of rain, right?"
"whatever you say, buddy." charles laughed, clapping george on the shoulder
life has a funny, funny way of sneaking up on you
the salon had an airy, yet energetic feel to it as y/n sat perched in the white leather chair, a table between her and the esthetician as the young woman delicately painted her tan french tips.
"this still feels so unreal." she remarked, one hand still underneath the blue light fan that would dry the clear base coat on her fingernails.
"i guess life has a funny way of sneaking up on you, doesn't it?" charlotte said knowingly, around the same time as an alanis morrissette song began to play in the background.
'ironic', which was ironic since the sine girl had just inadvertently quoted one of the lyrics.
"seriously, guys. i didn't think that this was ever going to happen for me, that i was going to go through life not knowing what romantic love was, what it felt like to love and be loved, so to speak. never on earth did i imagine that i'd meet someone like george. because i didn't think little old me was the kind of girl that would attract someone as incredible and beautiful and sweet as him."
"stop selling yourself short, sweetheart." lily said softly. "the past is in the past, and george is everything you ever wanted."
y/n sighed. "i just feel like tomorrow i could wake up and realize that this has all been some cruel dream, that i'm going to wake up alone and miserable."
lily took her hand out of the blue light machine and reached across to y/n's seat, with the golfer pinching the bride's skin between her fingers. y/n jumped, the esthetician tsking as she used a q-tip coated in acetone to fix the nail design.
"lily muni he, what was that for!?"
"to make sure that you're not dreaming and remind you that this is real, and you're allowed to be happy now."
y/n's face softened, some of the anxiety subsiding as she grounded herself in the moment.
this is real. i've found the one.
"thanks, lily. you truly are the best bridesmaid i could ever ask for."
"hey!" charlotte shouted in mock hurt, a smile on her face. "what about me?"
a traffic jam when you're already late
george russell was woken up by harsh sunlight and yelling. and then hitting, as alex albon ran around the bad, battering the groom's body with a pillow as he encouraged ( well, more like threatened ) the mercedes driver out of bed.
"what the hell is wrong with you guys?" george said groggily, looking over at charles, who had just ripped the drapes open
"we overslept." the monegasque said simply, striding over the the walk in closet. "alex, where did you put the suits?"
george sat up, exhausted and still half asleep. falling asleep the night before had been hard. after just forty-eight hours, y/n's side of the bed had already started to lose her signature scent, the smell of warm vanilla and cinnamon in the bath and body works lotion that she lathered on before bed. they had spent so long together that it had been two years since the driver had slept in a bed alone.
"how did we oversleep? you wankers were supposed to wake me."
alex shrugged. "that couch you have in the den is mighty comfortable."
"so is the guest bedroom." charles agreed, exiting the closet with three garment bags in his arms. "put this on before we go, we can do your flowered pin thingy and your hair in the car."
approximately half an hour later, after a rushed breakfast and some spilled coffee as charles tried to keep everybody organized, the wedding party was on the road.
until they weren't.
"bloody hell, alex!" george shouted from the backseat of the mercedes. "we've been stuck in traffic for forty five minutes! y/n is probably pacing the altar, scared half to death that i've left her there!"
"the gps said there wasn't any traffic!"
"what have i said about trusting that thing! half the time it doesn't even work! google maps said there was traffic, the news said there was traffic! but because the gps system said there wasn't, you thought 'why the fuck not'?"
"stop moving or you'll ruin your hair!" charles scolded the brit, trying to work the hair gel through geroge's amber locks
alex switched gears on the car, reversing slightly and pulling off of the country road onto the grass, tentatively pulling ahead of the traffic while other commuters who were stuck in the fray turned to look at the sports car pulling off the road with anger, shock and a little bit of envy.
charles looked around nervously "alex, mate, what the fuck are you doing?"
"getting georgie boy to his wedding on time." alex grinned. "hold on to your seats, this is going to be unpleasant." he said simply before gunning the engine.
it's like meeting the man of my dreams, and then meeting becoming his beautiful wife
"stop pacing, you're going to ruin your shoes!"
"my shoes are the last thing i care about right now, taylor! where the fuck is george?"
they had been waiting at the venue for almost and hour for george to show up. the guests were sitting in their outdoor chairs, humming nervously with each other as they wrapped themselves in the blankets from the baskets placed at the end of each row. susie wolff was sitting near the front with her husband toto and their son jack, and she turned around to look at y/n sympathetically, the entire wedding wondering where the groom's half of the wedding party was.
"i'm sure he's on his way." charlotte insisted. "he's with alex and charles."
"forgive me if that doesn't instill me with a lot of confidence."
"alex isn't answering his phone." lily frowned. "knowing him, that means the radio in his car is on the fritz again. he probably listened to the gps and got them stuck in traffic."
"why don't i call charles?" charlotte offered
y/n opened her mouth, about to charlotte that it was a wonderful idea, when lewis hamilton's shout carried across the setup. "they're here!"
eyes widening, lily ushered y/n back into the tent where they had spent the morning getting ready, and where the reception for the outdoor wedding would be held, despite her insistence that she wanted to see her husband-to-be, with lily claiming that she would see her groom soon enough, after her father had walked her down the aisle.
soon enough, after some floundering around from the groom's part of the ceremony, as well as the time it took to get the audience to quiet down, the ceremony began, with the acoustic version of mr brightside echoing through the field, none other than lando norris behind the table, cell phone in hand as he tried his hardest to be a dj given the limited supplies that were outside of the tent.
george walked down the aisle first, followed by charles and alex, with the four boys taking their place at the altar. lewis hamilton stood behind the lectern, honored to be asked to speak at his teammates ceremony.
the bridesmaids came out first: charlotte, lily and taylor. george sucked in a breath, nervously smoothing the front of his earthen brown suit as y/n came out of the tent, arm linked through her father's. the audience promptly rose to their feet, and george's eyes were glued to his bride as she walked down the aisle, nervousness evident on her face as her father looked like he was holding back tears.
her mother took the bouquet from her as her parents sat down in the front row, music fading out as y/n stood in front of her bridesmaids, resisting the urge to reach for geroge's hands.
she'd only been to three weddings in her lifetime, she was the first of her friends to get married, so how was she supposed to know what she was supposed to do on her special day, standing in front of the man she loved more than anything.
george broke first, taking his bride's hands in his. her hands were cold, probably from being outside in the cotswold cold. as lewis began to speak, he locked eyes with her, mouthing 'i love you'.
she smiled, blowing him a kiss back.
it's like rain on your wedding day
two hours later, the ceremony was over, and everyone had gone into the tent to thaw out for the reception, space heaters turned on and lando behind the dj booth, while the wedding party plus lewis all stayed outside for wedding photos, trying so many arrangements and configurations that they were all fed up with the photographer by the time it was time to just take portraits of the bride and groom, with the sun dipping behind the clouds.
geroge twirled his bride around, pulling her in close for a sweet kiss, a stupid grin on his face.
"my beautiful mrs. russell." he said dremaily, holding her close as they stared lovingly into each other's eyes, the photographer snapping pictures behind him.
"i love you." she smiled, kissing him softly as the photographer took another shot. "and i can't wait to spend the rest of my life loving you more and more every day."
and that's when the first droplet fell, hitting y/n right in the forehead. she recoiled, george following suit as a droplet broke apart on his skin.
"is that rain?"
"you said it wasn't supposed to rain!"
alex cleared his throat, already stripping out of his suit jacket to hold over lily's head as a shield. "yeah, about that.."
the rain just kept coming down, the happy couple too stunned to really do anything until susie came bounding out of the tent, blazer in hand, eager to get the bride inside before her tulle dress was ruined.
they ran across the field, y/n bunching up the dress in her hands as she stumbled along on her heels, giggling and laughing as george followed, laughing equally as hard and using his own suit jacket to cover his head.
the photographer was behind them, snapping pictures all the way.
it’s like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
once they were safely inside the tent, space heaters warming up their insides, a cream coloured hoodie with the date embroidered on the hood and ‘mrs russell’ printed on the back pulled over the upper half of her body to keep y/n warm, it was time to divvy up the wedding cake.
they stood in front of the triple-tiered cake, y/n carefully removing the two ceramic owl toppers that were on the top of the cake, gently setting them down on one of the ikea plates. she kissed george gently, and lando began to play my chemical romance’s ‘bulletproof heart’ in the background as the groom began to look for the knife.
“toto!” he shouted, turning his head to try and find the mercedes team principal. “you were with the caterers when they set up, have you seen the knife?”
the austrian looked up from the table he was sitting at with his son. “is there not a knife up there already?”
“would I be asking if there was?”
susie shook her head, smacking her husband in the shoulder as she got up, rushing over to the rolling cutlery cart behind the table where the cake was set up.
she rooted through the cutlery for a good five minutes before turning back to the shoulder couple. “there aren’t any knives, loves!”
y/n rolled her eyes. “susie, just give me a spoon. nothing else has gone right today, so I’m just gonna say fuck it at this point!”
the tent cheered, and susie smiled as she brought over a large golden spoon. george stood behind his wife, his warm hands over hers as they used the edge of the serving spoon to make the first cut into the soft pastry of the cake, camera flashes going off in front of them as they laughed.
“I love you, mrs. russell.” george said softly, kissing her cheek.
“I love you even more, mr. russell.”
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! hsr headcannons for several characters ! [modern au]
♪ In-ter-net-o ya-me-ro ♪!
Y u m i - c h a n i s n o w o n l i n e !
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Characters : Dan Heng, Serval, Blade, Gepard, March
Plot : no real plot, just headcannons about honkai Characters in a modern au setting
Tags : modern au, headcannons, fluff, slight crack, wrote this at 11pm while heading home from a road trip
authors note : omg got a steam deck for my birthday (may 30th) and I. AM. IN. LOVE !!! I could talk abt it for hours and hours but i have my discord for that ehe. Anyways, ive been having fun rediscovering my old childhood games and thats when i had an epiphany. Hsr or genshin boys in a ddlc type scenario!!! Feeling so swag abt the idea. Also i got out of school so more uploads yaya. Thank u all for the support on my intro page yippee. I promise not to let you all down
╭( ・ㅂ・)و ̑̑ enjoy !
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DANHENG
Now playing : Scrawny - The Wallows
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He definitely dresses like with collared shirts and kinda has that accidental soft boy look
English major frfr
definitely listens to lovejoy/wilbursoot and bo burnham
Water drinker enthusiast (even tho he forgets to drink half the time-)
burnt out gifted kid
messed up sleeping schedules
Hes that quiet guy everyone has a crush on to some extent
He looks cold and serious during lectures, but hes actually just daydreaming and has his head in the clouds
Probably stays with the same group of kids he met in middle school because he cant socialize
I think said kids would be march, stelle/caleus, himeko And on ocasion blade, kafka, and silverwolf
Welt would be a chill english teacher that would let Dan Heng sit in his classroom during lunch
he likes going to concerts a lot
Learned to play guitar in middle school but doesnt like playing in front of people
Consider yourself lucky if he plays in front of you
Extremely oblivious to romance
Girls will try to flirt with him but he will just have a blank and confused look
Spends his free time in book stores shopping for records
Ps5 gamer frfr
Theater kid (had a hamilton phase)
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SERVAL
Now playing : Shut Me Up - Mindless Self Indulgence
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Shut me up by mindless self indulgence on loop
Like its probably to an unhealthy level
Always has headphones in(that gepard gave her for her birthday)(And so loud to the point you can hear the music standing next to her)
(went deaf at the ripe age of 13, after that it was all "huh?" /j)
Shirts from old bands, baggy jeans, fishnets, etc
Had an alt phase
Bad habit of smashing guitars
Dropped out of college after first semester
Had a band in highschool with Blade and Dan Heng that received noise complaints on a regular Basis
Really extroverted and easy to get along with
Loves going to concerts (especially the ones that get crazy like halfway through )
Probably gets in fights during black friday
Addicted to coffee (gepards needs to step in and help her drink something else)
Likes bitter stuff more than sweet stuff
Cares very deeply for her friends
The type of gal to go on road trips with friends and go Camping
Goes to protests every other tuesday
Probably banned from several places
very passionate about things she loves
Loves scary movies and Rollercoasters
The six flags employees have memorized her name
(shes just so cool i wanna be like her fr)
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BLADE
Now playing : Consequences - Lovejoy
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Theater kid (would never admit it tho)
Kafka teases him about it so much
met kafka and silverwolf in detention
The teachers hate the three of them
Alt kid and never got out of his emo phase
Besties with serval, change my mind
Kafka probably pushed him to join boxing to get his anger out in a less…destructive way
Loves the sleepovers he has with kafka and silverwolf
Broke silverwolf's tv while playing wii sports
Goes to college, no clue what he wants to do so hes just doing liberal studies
Adopted a small stray cat he saw on the ground during a storm
he tries to be tough and mean, but hes a big Softy
Loves the Beetlejuice musical(and mean girls but we dont talk about that)
has probably been on probation on multiple occasions
Probably vandalized the car of someone he didnt like
Kafka has to sweet talk everyone out of getting blade in serious trouble
Hes really good at basketball, he just doesnt like it so he never pushed it further
Doesnt really like or understands sports
probably listens to videogame osts 24/7
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GEPARD
Now Playing : Pretty Face - PUBLIC
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Getting serval out of trouble isnt a choice, its a lifestyle
Which is ironic, as he is a criminal justice major
But he still will always be her biggest supporter
Dresses (like a costco dad) soft boy by pure accident
Completely oblivious to anything and everything
Enjoys gardening and has a lemon Tree
Cave Town enthusiast
Lemonade Enthusiast
Sends people those "reminder to drink water and be happy" messages
Straight 4.0 GPA student. The teachers loved Him
Was really shy so he didnt have many friends growing up (Serval had to help him out)
Hates rollercoasters, serval drags him around six flags and he screams his head off
Poor guy :<
Still loves it since he loves hanging out with his sister
Student council secretary
No clue how the internet and technology works
Strong sense of justice
That has gotten him involved in several issues
Which ironically, serval got him out of
Wholesome cinnamon roll, pls protecc
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MARCH 7TH
Now playing : Cupid - FIFTY FIFTY
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That one girl in class that no one could hate
Class representative and student council public relations officer
Photography major (duh)
Social butterfly and very easy to talk to
Want to go out to go eat something sweet while having fun? March has you covered !
March Makes friendship braclets and sells them so she can go shopping
has a secret stash of candy hidden in her dorm
March has a babysitting gig and comes to peoples houses with candy
Shes a little kid magnet, they all love her so much
had a club penguin phase with Dan Heng and they both shudder just thinking about it
learned all her profanity from watching Dan Heng play Call Of Duty
sucks at english, fries her brain like a hashbrown
k-pop girlie
dresses really cute with cardigans and pastel pinks
(watched aphmau, Her favorite one was a mermaid tales and mystreet) [submitted by someone on my discord who wants to stay anon]
plays overwatch and says things like "Hey, thats not nice!"
lowkey kind of a teachers pet-
Loves webtoons and collects the physical releases
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and thank you for reading ^^
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TRAVIS! (HI!)
My brain decided to suddenly give me Jodie brainrot at 1:24 in the afternoon, and as the "recommended "jodie mutual" by 9 out of 10 dentists" I was wondering if you had any Jodie fic recs (please)? (/gen)
hi!! sorry for such a late response, your 1:24 pm is my 7:24 am so i was dead asleep LMAO <- horrid sleep schedule
im gonna be honest, i dont really... read much dndads fic if its not written by my friends XD and also i tend to avoid fics about jodie by default just because i am very particular about his characterization. so i dont have many suggestions, but heres a few that ive read and enjoyed!
Misplaced Heroism by @silverlistenstothings - Scamster, a fic where the writer actually remembered that Jodie loves his son (RARE!), and while Silver and I are buddies, I actually read this way before we were introduced. I love this fic, it rules
i need to let you know (you don't have to go it alone) by @nickclose - Nicky-centric fic about him coming out as a kid. Very very sweet, starts with a nice Glenn and Nick scene with the same premise, just a nice goodfeel fic :]
Bits and Pieces by @silverlistenstothings again - JODIE IS REALLY COOL IN THIS ONE. IDENTITY CRISIS TIME!! Haven't read the rest of this series, but it's Silver, I trust xyr writing.
Come Home by @isadora-greenhall - This is a Nicky fic, so Jodie is more there to fuel his angst, but Dora is my beautiful wife and I love this fic so!! Read it.
doing this has made me realize how much ive been slacking at slapping kudos on fics i like. im usually so good at that HJKFGHKJFD tugging at my collar. ahaha. yikes. fixed it though
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