#jared misha and jensen saved my life

[redneckangelsdrinkmoonshine]

The tickets to the SPN convention in Germany in May have been sold out... I am not okay dude, I am most certainly not okay.

ONLY AVAILABLE TICKETS THEY HAVE ARE FOR JARED FUCKING PADALECKI DUDE, WHO THE H E L L WANTS TO SEE JARED, I WANNA SEE MISH AND JENSEN MAN!!!!!

Like, Mark Shepherd is gonna be there as well, I'd be happy to see him too, but J A R E D??????

[angelsdean]

Been thinking abt the finale + potential reboot plotlines and I've really come to the conclusion that TO ME the last thing we actually see from Dean's POV in the finale is him getting into the Impala to drive. Which then segways into the plot of The Winchesters and all the universe hopping and evading Jack / God to stay out of Heaven (and searching for Someone).

The brothers meeting on the bridge however is Sam's POV and crucially Sam is....not actually in heaven. He's still on earth, still the same age he was when Dean dies, and he's stuck in a dream state. Which is why his whole life flashes like a blurry montage. This is a djinn-dream-esque scenario (he did Not cope well with Dean's death) or a Chuck won / Jack corrupted by the god power purposely putting him in a dream state to get him off the playing board, either way, he's dreaming but not actually dead. Which ties into how the other characters still on earth like Jody, Garth, Donna, etc will eventually find him and realize Something Is Up. Also I think it would be pretty sweet if Sleeping Beauty Sam gets woken up by Rowena for a full circle parallel moment with their arcs, how Sam was meant to kill Rowena and cast her down to Hell and now Rowena is the one to break the curse and essentially bring him back to "life" and out of the fake Heaven in his mind.

Meanwhile, Dean is still out there on the run, universe hopping and searching for a certain portal. He eventually crashes the Impala into the Empty (actually in the cold opening of the reboot, bc we got a Lot to get through, we are Starting with the Empty Rescue). And he finds the Empty in chaos. Since everyone is awake, Cas and Billie have formed an alliance and are leading a rebellion. Lots of familiar faces of dead angels and demons. Dean ends up being less a knight in shining armor and more the getaway driver (the magic tardis Impala can open portals for them). Dean, being dead, also can finally glimpse at Cas's trueform and oh boy. He falls even more in love, if that's even possible. (And horny. He saw tentacles.)

They make their escape, along with other angels and demon allies, (Crowley, welcome back!) And then....they have the rest of the season for other plot shenanigans. Rescuing Jack from the god power, saving Sam, universe hopping and fighting more Chuck fail-safes, and of course, destiel things<3 Pale coconuts will collide. Passionately. Multiple times. In my reboot at least.

This also all works perfectly with 1.) Jared saying he doesn't want to do a long reboot season, that's ok dude! You can be asleep for half of it! 2.) Misha not wanting Cas to be sidelined to the Empty for most of it and just be "rescued" as the main plot and 3.) Jensen's continual desire to be Dean again for as long as they'll let him

[archiveofvirtue]

pov: you are in a secret relationship with jensen ackles ᡣ𐭩

youruser

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youruser in aspen it’s snowin’ ❄️

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girlblogg y/n living her best life

vixen67 why can’t I be y/n??

yourbestiesuser so sad i couldn’t make it, but have fun you two

youruser we definitely are 😎

anonuser who is this secret hottie @/youruser

modelzdaily gotta fbi my way into this atp

randomuser there’s been rumors that she’s dating @/jensenackles

spnfan726 stop spreading lies

ari4president isn’t he married??

randomuser he’s been divorced for like half a year now 😬

jensenackles

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jensenackles 🏂

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hellraiser666 oh he been livin’

spnfan618 a vacay with jensen would make me go sane again

forjackles you’re so real for that

randomuser getting all cozy with @/youruser huh

j2indahouse can u not? nothings confirmed

randomuser please its so obvious

gibson-g1rl he looks so good..im going feral

superstarmisha bark bark

youruser

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youruser yeehaw 🤠

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anonuser it’s giving summer camp and im here for it

hottogo dreamy

yourbestiesuser my favorite cowgirl

youruser smooches 😽

tvdstan3 helloo?? I wanna know who she’s with all the time

genpadalecki the hat’s been made for you 🙌🏼

youruser duh i had the best shopping partner !!

spnfam67 *shook*

daddycas123 a duo we didn’t know we needed

jensenackles

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jensenackles pretty comfortable up here 😁

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beanwinchester this man aged like fine wine fr

youruser save a horse, ride a cowboy

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joywithin oh..OH-

spnultras SHE DID NOT

jacklesmylove ohgod he liked her comment

jaredpadalecki why the long face? 🤣🤣

winchesterbros no jared..nope

randomuser i wanna ride (not the horse tho)

youruser

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youruser about last week 🍝

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dailyfits ohh she bougie

mishabear THE TATTOO?? THATS JENSEN

spnfan123 yup, definitely him

sammygirl why is no one talking about this??

girlzzz444 face card never declines

jesswinchester jensen carrying her shoes? 😫

sirenshay such a gentleman,,im so jealous

belovedregina serving cunt in all possible languages

supernctural they must be dating atp

hope u enjoyed this, i always wanted to do something like this 🎀

feedback and requests would be appreciated.

got inspired by the lovely @gibson-g1rl !!

tags: @gibson-g1rl @nuemanfilms @angelicjackles @nxptvn @pinkgic @nourties @alluvthegurlz

[eisforeidolon]

Hi! Sorry if i'm bothering you but i needed someone to talk. About what happened recently with Destiel and Misha and the fans that believed in the things he said. I am new to Supernatural fandom, but i loved the story in an instant, thanks to Sam and Dean and their unique relationship. Then i became interested in Jared and Jensen too and i think that if Sam and and Dean are the heart of Supernatural then Jared and Jensen are the soul of the show because to me no other actor could have played Sam and Dean like they did. Now, returning to what i wanted to say i am really TIRED about Destiel, some Destiel shippers and especially Misha. I know he said some stupid thing about how CW is homophobic and how Destiel would be canon if they weren't homophobic. I don't ship Destiel because sincerely i don't see romantic love between Dean and Castiel, but this doesn't make me an homophobic person. His words are said with malicious intent. He also said some thing about how Jensen is attracted to him. I find this disgusting because he says this things only for his Destiel fan, knowing that his words are lies. Also Jensen not being there can't reply to his lies. Like i sad i'm new to Supernatural but some Destiel are making the experience in the fandom a constant war. They say that if you don't ship Destiel you are homophobic , that if you don't ship Destiel you are not a true Supernatural fan and the most stupid one... They say that Supernatural is about Dean and Castiel and their love. This make me really angry because Supernatural is about Sam And Dean, how they care for each other,how they save the world again and again and how they hunt monster and ghost and other things. But to me Supernatural is the unique love story of two brother and how they did everything to protect each other. I ship Wincest, but When i say love story i mean that Sam and Dean are Platonic Soulmates in Supernatural and even the show always remind us of that. I don't understant how Misha can say this thing without facing consequences because his words feed some Destiel fan that became hateful like him and whose mission is hating people who don't think think like them. Sorry for the long post and for the horrible english but it's not my first language. Sorry if i bothered you but i needed someone to talk to because sometimes i feel like leaving the fandom because Destiel hate and their war against everyone. I hope you will always have love and kindness in your life.

You really don't need to apologize for anything.❤️ You aren't bothering me and your English is fine - maybe not perfect, but hell, neither is mine some days! Thank you for the lovely sentiment, and I wish you the same - and that you do what is best for you in regards to this sometimes dumpster fire of a fandom.

If it helps, you're absolutely not alone. I've been in this fandom for years now, and some days it's sheer stubbornness against hellers obvious attempts to browbeat and drive everyone else out that keeps me here. They didn't get to take over the show through being loud and obnoxious and they don't get to monopolize the fandom by doing the same - and they can be butthurt forever over it.

I actually didn't mind Dean and Castiel as a ship at first. I'm always interested in what people take from a canon and then create entirely outside of it, and I read quite a lot of fanfic. Even then I was baffled by shippers insisting it was a thing in the canon, though. There was a brief period where I wondered if I'd somehow missed it, because I'm not generally really looking for romance stories and there were so many posts that were so insistent? So I actually did a rewatch focused just on Dean and Castiel's interactions - and came away with the impression they weren't actually even as good of friends as I'd originally thought, let alone anything like interested in each other romantically. The more I thought about it and the more meta I ran across and actually considered the details of? The more obviously baseless it was. I mean, some of it really is just genuinely so stupid it's hilarious. Cake. Bacon. Negative space. Widower arc. Bisexual lighting and/or plaid. But even the theorizing which wasn't absurd on its face? Always looked silly in comparison to how much more obviously and easily it had meaning in relation to the main story that plainly actually existed instead.

Meanwhile, I kept seeing more and more of those posts you mention insisting anyone who didn't ship it was a homophobe and they really pissed me off. Even if Dean and Castiel were a canon couple who spent half of each episode doing couple things and saying I love you back and forth instead of the entire show revolving around Sam and Dean's crazy tangled up lives with Castiel occasionally wandering in and out of the background with some angel nonsense or whatever? Not shipping it would not make someone a homophobe. Shipping is very subjective and any individual pairing can not appeal to any particular fan for a million and one reasons that have sweet fuckall to do with how they generally feel about LGBT+ relationships. Attempting to bully people into supporting a single very specific fictional relationship by trying to make them afraid of being branded a bigot if they don't is ridiculous as hell, regardless of how canon or not it is. How absolutely fucking disrespectful to all the people who have to deal with actual homophobia versus just being butthurt they can't force two particular fictional characters to kiss. It's so goddamn juvenile I can't even.

The longer I was in fandom, the more brain dead and divorced from the show the meta claiming Dean and Castiel were going to hook up any minute got. The more annoyed I became at all the absurd stereotypes about masculinity and sexuality they would parrot as gospel truth if it could "prove" Dean was into dudes and eventually the angel. The more obviously transparent their every cry of ~*homophobia*~ was when they tried to turn every real life LGBT+ issue and every canon LGBT+ character primarily into proof and/or justification regarding D/C. They're a bunch of entitled shitheads who not only feel like they should get to dictate what SPN is despite hating basically everything it actually was, but who are perfectly fine with co-opting serious real world issues to try and do it. I have no beef with normal D/C shippers who aren't assholes to everyone and mad at the show for not bringing their fanfic to life, but I can't stand the pairing at all even in a fandom sense anymore.

The evolution of my feelings on Misha followed a similar path. I liked Castiel well enough as a supporting character and I didn't actively dislike Misha, though after I'd seen a couple of panels where his answers were flippantly irreverent or unnecessarily raunchy, I wasn't really much interested in him. Then, over time, at the same time Castiel's character was more and more blatantly just eating up screen time to give J2 time off, he started getting worse and worse about ship-baiting. He'd act like everyone behind the scenes was talking about D/C - but then they (Jensen and Bob Singer most notably) would say that was untrue. He'd slyly hint about upcoming scenes in a vague way to imply D/C and then it would be something else entirely. He'd tell shippers about things that had been pointedly removed because they could seem leading and that was not the authorial intent, but without pointing out that was exactly why they were excised. His stories would change when he got a bad reaction - he went from saying he shipped wincest to pretending he'd never heard of it, he went from claiming Jimmy was going to appear in the original Roadhouse finale to it being Castiel, etc. Then there was framing horsing around with Jared as if he was a victim and not a participant and the incredibly inappropriate objectifying sexual comments about Jensen and Dean. All of which caused the fans falling for it to loudly and angrily attack everyone but him while they kept buying his ops/books/cameos/whatever. No matter how blatantly he queerbaits them and how upset they get over it and take it out on everyone else, he does not stop. He's an ungrateful creepy narcissist who will throw literally anyone or anything under the bus if he can get a buck out of it. Who also will proclaim he doesn't want to co-opt LGBT+ causes when he's desperately trying to keep his career on life support doing exactly that in the most skeevy, backstabby way possible.

Jared and Jensen put their hearts and years of their lives into this show bringing Sam and Dean to life, episode after episode, week after week, season after season. Telling an important story about platonic and familial love that you really won't find anywhere else.

Misha and the hellers have spent years trying to co-opt that to their own ends out of gross entitlement. They deserve each other, but the show and its actual fans don't deserve to have to put up with either of them. Unfortunately, we have the fandom we have, not the one we deserve.

[i-believe-in-melinda-may]

As someone who has been attending supernatural conventions since 2013, I just have to say that people who have been watching SPN or attending conventions only since after Covid have NO IDEA what it used to be like.

Just a few things that still effect how i act at conventions that people need to understand:

You could not ask ANY question that even hinted towards Destiel, (volunteers would ask you to tell your question and say if you could ask it or if you had to ask something else)

If anyone was brave enough to try they were booed, and OTHER FANS blamed them if an actor didn't give a 'perfect' answer, and were told 'see that's why you shouldn't ask that,'

there was a wall between Fandom and the actors, and people were attacked if they dared to try to break it down.

I was warned by another fan not to tell anyone that i shipped Destiel at one of my first conventions, that it was for the best. (i was 19, they were trying to look after me)

I once asked Mark Shepard a question about Dean/Crowley friendship and he turned it into a shipping question, and I was told by other fans that i shouldn't have asked that.

Misha was who started to make people feel comfortable (going back far enough Sebastian too and he was blackballed from conventions for a while) (I would also say that Mark S helped too)

I have amazing friends from my first convention, friends who have literally saved my life, but i still can't mention Destiel or even being a Misha fan to them because they are old school 'two brothers' fans.

Despite what it seems conventions are still very much attended by older straight women who use Jensen and Jared as their fantasy so it can make it very hostile to queer fans.

And as an addendum to the above, people still want the same men to keep attending cons rather than adding new women guests because they don't want pictures with them. (I hate this so much as there are SO many of the SPN women i want to meet- this effects conventions outside the US rather than ones within)

Basically I am saying, i am so glad that things are being more open, but you CANNOT make judgements about how 'older' fandom members act because you don't understand the trauma that still effects how we act. Don't get me wrong I love that I have spent over ten years attending conventions and it's still my happy place, but there are things you can only understanding if you've been in the fandom for that long and have seen changes that are now taken for granted.

[samsno1]

TODAY IS JENSEN'S BIRTHDAY !!!!

happy birthday to one of the most talented actors i know, i hope you have a great day, you deserve it.

little moment here, you dont need to read if you dont want to

as much as jared and misha, jensen and his characters have helped me get over a lot of issues within myself and see the way i am with kinder eyes. i know it seems corny and childish but i can pretty much say these guys saved my life

so, jensen ross ackles, you deserve the best birthday ever and much more to come, thank you for everything, ly 🫶❤️💞

some pictures that make me go "awww"

[lightofraye]

An Open Letter

Hello Danneel,

I suppose it had to happen, right? A “letter” to you. After all, I’ve written two to your husband. I had been pondering this for some time. I imagine your “stans” believe that I dislike you because you’re in a position that I wish to be in—the woman married to Jensen Ackles.

Perhaps.

Perhaps not.

See… when my life became chaotic and I lost track of a number of my favorite celebrities’ work and career, I became unaware that Jensen moved onto different shows, eventually settling in Supernatural for fifteen years.

By the time my life arranged itself in a way that I could begin to track down information—some easy to find, some next to impossible—I learned of the tail end of Supernatural. However, my provider was being ornery and refused to carry CW. So I just let it go.

My family, my life, was my primary focus for a time. Then I found a good internet provider, dropped my satellite provider, and began adding streamers. That’s when I came across The Boys. Then Big Sky. Then Supernatural on Netflix.

I became a new-old fan. I remembered Jensen on Days of Our Lives, after all. I remembered talking about him with one of my best friends. I remember talking about his unusual name—Jensen. And I remember talking about his acting.

Then I saw you. Longtime married, three kids. All the news articles kept raving about how great you two were. I saw the older videos of you two together, that livestream with Misha in the Impala….

I felt the sting, just a bit, of what I assumed was jealousy. I sighed, set it aside. I would follow Jensen’s work, I told myself. Jared’s too. Others that I admired. Just added to the list.

Something kept bothering me. I kept going back to it. I couldn’t quite pinpoint the problem. Mere jealousy couldn’t be it. I’ve had that sting before, grew past it. (Henry Cavill, anyone?) So why couldn’t I get past this?

It was pure happenstance, me coming to Tumblr. I was feeling very dissatisfied with Facebook, didn’t like Twitter. Reddit was not my thing. There were other, smaller, options, but damn if I didn’t keep coming back to Tumblr, largely because of the hilarious memes I’d see snipped and shared.

Why not? I told myself.

Let’s see how it goes. Signed up, picked a few areas of interest and I was off.

Boy, was I off.

Discovering the subsections of the fandom left me reeling. Destiel? Where the hell did they come up with that? Wincest? Yikes. And then—

Tinhat?!

COCKLES?!

Needless to say, it was… phew. I found a few I liked and focused on them. Then someone mentioned YOU. I rolled my eyes; you hadn’t been active in acting other than a few teeny-tiny but parts. What could they possibly say about YOU?

Then I read the post. And another. And another. I would spent a good few weeks carefully devouring everything I read. There’s so much, I may never cover it all. But I saw enough.

I would fact-check as best I could. Some were completely lost. The Wayback Machine could only do so much. Not everyone saved the sources. 

But I saw enough.

Then I sat back and it CLICKED. It wasn’t jealousy that waved hello to me. It was the personality traits, the behavior, the way you spoke to him, that all matched what I knew and learned in my several decades of life.

You are insecure.

You lack confidence.

You lack any outside interests.

You are unsupportive.

You care for nothing and no one outside of money. Oh, you have your children—you just don’t care about them. You have your husband—all you see are dollar signs.

There is no love. There is nothing genuinely GOOD in how you view Jensen. You don’t want him home; you push him out. All you want is the constant stream of income.

I see what you’ve done. All the acting in the world wouldn’t change the rest—you’ve an empty heart, a black soul.

Let him go, Danneel.

That’s my best advice to you. Let him go. Get some therapy and grow as a person.

Maybe then you could actually like the person you see the mirror.

In discordant tunes, Raye

[volturialice]

my favorite thing about supernatural is that I think if it were any other show, I would have learned a lot about it by now, even against my will. but because it's supernatural it's like, I know their names are jensen and jared but I could not tell you which is which to save my life. also misha collins isn't bisexual

[sapphyreopal5]

https://www.tumblr.com/sapphyreopal5/725042982731071488/its-interesting-that-your-divinities-cant-read?source=share

Hi, I've sent you a couple of asks before and found your answers really insightful. Even though I don't care at all about Misha I found the last few lines of your answer really interesting, how you mentioned that he is headed down a very lonely path.

I firmly believe that to be the case as well since obviously his long term partner ended things with him and even though the SPN con life keeps him busy enough, nothing can beat that hole in his life not even a new relationship. Their is so much history there. Clearly something huge happended that they (or she) couldn't get past. It can be myriad of things which I don't want to speculate about but I definitely think that he feels extremely guilty about it.

He has clearly alienated Jared n Gen, even when it comes to SPN cast ecosystem where like most others he sided with Danneel hoping to win some favours. They are still civil but that's about it. Nothing professionally will come out of it.

Misha's demand in cons is also going down despite the handful of his fans inflating his M&G prices. The strength in numbers is just not there with most of them gravitating to other fandoms. Serves him right since he sold his friends over.

I also think Misha isn't as financially secure as J2 who obviously were leads that negotiated their own pay cheque but he was clearly paid only the series regular rate even at his best; so clearly cons is where he made his money. The fact that he wasn't able to make any big investments like J2 also points to it.

For his sake, I hope he learns his lessons and evolves into a better human being.

Hello Anon, welcome back to my inbox. My guides do not speak about Misha much but when I started getting these asks and such is more or less when I started to look a little more into him. As I've said before, I'm relatively new to this fandom and therefore haven't really followed the cons much or watched many videos of the panels unless a friend brings up something specific they heard or a summary here on Tumblr catches my eyes and I feel a nudge to go listen to the video myself. I saw some other Tumblr blogs talking about how his autographs and photos demand has been declining. I do find it a little amusing he kept asking people to watch his show Gotham Knights, which was naturally cancelled earlier this year. Is he struggling to maintain his relevance outside of the fact he played Castiel for years, and is he worried about becoming a starving artist yet again? My thoughts and the few readings my guides gave me regarding Misha point to yes...

Since I haven't followed the cons for long and joined the fandom side like I said, I kind of have to take their word for it as far as physical proof goes, unless I start digging into the last 10 years or so ha ha. Based on the things friends of mine here have kindly shown me from things they have saved or bookmarked, my guides have been very spot on with everything they've been telling me. I myself hope Misha changes for the sake of his family but I have a feeling that may not happen unless something extraordinary takes place.

As for those reading this and saying I have nothing better to do with my time, when I sit and do divination to speak with deities and such directly they often bring up a variety of topics along with whatever it is I ask them about (which is a wide variety of things). A lot of the things they choose to bring up in my divination readings is often times them choosing to do so, not because this is all I ask about. As for why J2 and others are a big topic amongst my guides and why the main deities who speak to me are Jensen's and Jared's higher selves is a long story that a few friends know about. I've done more divination readings with my pendulum than I care to admit ha ha... thank you again for the ask :)

[bythegraceofcass]

Who I Am

I never really write these introduction type of things... mostly because I'm afraid for people to get to know me, and also because I'm so tired of being bullied. In short... I'm afraid. I'm afraid of judgement, I'm afraid of hatred and I'm afraid of the truth I'm about to write here. My name is Andrea. I'm 22 years old and have done nothing with my life. The reason for this is because I have multiple illnesses which prevent me to put mind over matter. I have RSD which is basically the most painful disease known to medical science. I also have Gastroparesis which means my gut is paralyzed and causes me the inability to hold down food, eat, causes chronic vomiting due to undigested food, awful pain, etc., Severe Fibromyalgia, Asthma, Endometriosis, Interstitial Cystitis, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Chronic Migraines due to a neck injury I received from my abusive father and step mother, who I no longer live with. I have had seven surgeries, in fact I'm actually recovering from one right now: a spinal cord stimulator implant in my spine to help me walk due to the RSD affecting my left leg. I'm so critical of my life at this very moment; simply put: I hate my life right now. I hate that I can't work and have to amount to constant judgement and nasty attitudes from some family members. Last year, I wanted to die. I wanted to end it all because I was so tired of how much pain I live in on a daily basis, I was so tired of constantly being exhausted, I was so tired of the guilt, depression, anxiety and PTSD, I was so tired of being ignored by my father and step mother.. to them, I don't exist. I was so heartbroken due to a break up I went through with my then boycriend of two years. I was tired of the way my biological mother treated me; she in short told me she hopes I'll die alone, I deserved the abuse from my father and step mother, she said I'm a truly miserable and awful person. Even though I saved her from her alcohol addiction by putting her through rehab which caused her to meet her now husband, get my half sisters back in her custody, have a dog which I gave her... she hopes I die alone. So, last year around December I truly wanted to end my life. Then, when I had a cholescystectomy, I decided to give Supernatural a little look see.

I was immediately enraptured by the story of these two brothers and their Angel. Of all of the characters, I found myself relating Castiel and Bobby the most. Castiel because i do nothing but try. I try so hard to regain my independence. I fight and fight but, even if I have good intentions, I'm beaten down, tormented by my conscious, shunned by some of my family and always seem to end up losing. I feel just as broken as this beautiful creature.

Bobby, well, when Bobby was dying we got to see his abusive childhood, his father. Bobby so desperately wanted to be as far from his father as he could, so he shot him just so he could protect his mother and himself. Bobby's fear was always clear: He would never ever end up like his dad. Which is why he refused to have children of his own. Same goes for me. I love all of these beautiful characters, however I love Castiel and Bobby a little bit more, only because they struck a chord with me. More specifically being Castiel out of them all.

As I continued to watch I began to find my place, a fandom I could call home and family. Being sick, I lost all of my friends, I lost my independence, my future career-wise, I had to drop out of college. Instead I spend my time seeing doctors, inside hospitals and emergency rooms, in my house locked up in my dark room day after day alone (my grandmother works, which also makes me feel so utterly guilty and worthless due to my lack of contribution) with my cat and three dogs. Thanks to this show, I have a family. I have people I can lean on if I ever need the support, I have people I'm close with. One, in particular: my best friend who, even though she lives in Canada and I in Texas, we speak every single day. This show has done so much for me and more.

Misha Collins... Where do I begin. This man saved my life. Yes, the show did most of it but the moment Castiel walked inside that barn on my tiny MacBook Air screen whilst I was doped up on pain medication and struggling to breath from my gallbladder surgery, I felt safe. I immediately wanted to get to know this human, the actor behind the Angel. So I started looking him up on YouTube and watched his conventions so many of you are so very kind to post... for that I thank you. This man is the epitome of kindness, love and compassion. I know he'll never know of my existence but, because of him, because of the Angel he is both on and off-screen, I decided to stay. No matter how much I hurt, no matter how guilty and worthless I feel, watching Misha's conventions on YouTube, seeing the charity work he does (My, what fame has done to this beautiful man), the fact that he loves poetry, is so passionate about humanity and equality, his quirkiness and weird antics, his laugh, his smile, his eyes... him. Everything. He was the final reason I needed to stay.

Because of this show and it's cast, I finally discovered who I am. This is the first time I have ever written or admitted this aside from my best friend, but I'm ready. I'm ready to make peace with it and embrace it. I'm bisexual. For years I hid it, even from myself. I just shoved and pushed it aside but deep down I knew I was bisexual. The only thing that stopped me from admitting it was my father, who is very homophobic. I refuse to allow him to force me to lie to myself and hide who I am, anymore. I'm afraid to put this out there, but at the same time... I'm ready.

So, I believe thanks are in order.

•Thank you Misha Collins for simply existing. Thank you, sir, for saving my life. You don't know I exist, but because you exist... I choose to stay.

•Thank you Jared Padalecki, Misha Collins and Jensen Ackles for all you do for our family: from charity work to conventions. Thank you for being there for us.

•Tina, if you're reading this. I love you, bitch. Because of you, I feel loved and needed. I feel accepted. Because of you, I finally came out and expressed who I really am; no bars, no filter. All me. Thank you for being my sister, I'll always be here just as you're always there for me. You mean everything to me.

Finally, thank you so much Supernatural. Thank you for helping me find my place in the world. Thank you for helping me find a family full of psychotic weirdos I can feel comfortable with. You guys are so accepting and kind... it just makes me feel so loved anytime I log on to my various social media accounts. Thank you so much Supernatural. And thank you SPNFamily.

[yourdaddy-calls-me-daddy]

i don’t think i’ll ever fully be able to express how much you have changed my life. thank you for dedicating 15 years of your lives to this. we love you.

SPN Forever.

[a-longer-love]

Seeing as supernatural has officially wrapped, that Dean and Sam have hung up their jackets and boots (for now) and I’ve seen so many wonderful and heart wrenching and heartwarming posts explaining what this show means to everyone, I figured it may be cathartic for me to do the same.

Now, I’m not an emotional person typically. I like logic and tend to live on that side of my brain, I don’t deal with emotions well, and that’s why this week has been so damn difficult for me. Trying to figure out why the heck I’m crying over a stupid tv show! Well, I’ve figured out, probably because it isn’t just a stupid tv show.

I started watching this show on day 1, I was 14, life had not been kind up until that point. The only thing I knew was that Dean from Gilmore girls was in it, and that Jensen guy was super cute. I never even fathomed that 15 seasons later I would be hardcore mourning the loss of this show and these characters.

Over the years I lost touch with the show, high school, sports, jobs etc. got in the way. Then I moved away for college, I was alone, homesick and didn’t know anyone. I happened to see something promoting the season that year, and immediately grabbed back ahold of this lifeline. A little older, not much wiser, and a lot more jaded, I related to Dean so much. I was able to understand so much more about the internal struggles and inner demons they fight on top of those externally they deal with. I immediately figured out how I could catch up and watch the seasons I had missed. This was also around the time I found this lovely hellsite that is Tumblr. I found a community and a family when I had no one and for that I am eternally grateful. My eventual roommate for the next 3 years was also a huge fan, and we watched religiously for the next few years.

Then again, life got busy, I graduated, started working, found a man who I somehow convinced to marry me and moved away from home yet again, and I disengaged from supernatural again. Then cue 2020 and the quarantine. About half way through I was not in a healthy head space, I was depressed, anxious, and just not doing well. I was regressing to old unhealthy coping methods and that’s how I stumbled back onto Tumblr. It just so happened one of the first things I see is something for spn season 15...once again...the show, the fandom, the characters were there for me at my lowest. I decided to start watching from episode one, and catch up. I will be caught up just in time for the final 7 episodes to air. I’ve become emotionally invested again, and now that I’m older have been able to reflect and appreciate really just how much this silly little show with the cute boys has literally saved my life a few times.

Not only the story but the actors who give so much of themselves to us, who share their struggles candidly and openly and foster such a welcoming and understanding (and sarcastic af) community that will no doubt live on. Reading through the plethora of posts today it really hit home the eclectic group of weirdos this show has touched and brought together. And not only impacted, but did so in a most profound way. Literally saving lives. It’s a hard thing to say goodbye to for very valid reasons. We know this was something special, we know this doesn’t happen normally, and we know we have been blessed with literal angels on earth with this cast and crew.

All in all, I guess what I am trying to say is thank you supernatural for being a lighthouse, informing so many lost and wandering souls of a safe haven. A place to rest and replenish when needed. For teaching us to always keep fighting, and to fight for the important things. That family doesn’t end or start with blood, and that nothing ever really ends.

[tehjojo]

Feeling emotional

[jayxcollins]

new tag dump #1

[maddiepants]

I couldn't imagine where I would have ended up if I hadn't of found this show and everything that came along with it ♥️

[speedypeter]

ADAM MILLIGAN DESERVED THE WORLD OKAY

THE FACT THAT I LOVE ADAM SO MUCH TOTALLY HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY LOVE FOR JAKE ABEL AT ALL....