#jfc man im stressed

[crxw1ey]

what i want to be under vs what i am under

[perilegs]

ok but has a man ever told you you have a dainty rook piercing area? i don't think so 😌

[cherry-bomb-ships]

Hey, Baby!

Miss me? Betcha do! I miss you!

Hiking up the remote Ojos del Salado mountains to rescue a billionaire's pet vicuña sure isn't glamorous, but who else is gonna do it? Sure does sound like a job for the world's greatest pet detective, eh?

Anyway, I happened upon this really pretty red stone while I was hiking, and I just had to send it back to you. The way it sparkles and shines, just like my favorite Ruby! It made me miss you even more!

I'm hoping we can come across this vicuña sooner rather than later, but there are a lot of them here. I'll be trying my best to get home to you quickly, though! I have all kinds of Chilean souvenirs to give you, but mostly I'm just excited to see that smile of yours again!

Say, if this letter makes it home before I do, why don't you send me your favorite picture of us? I forgot to bring one with me, and I'd love to be able to look at you whenever I feel lonely.

I'd say I hope you're doing well, but I know you're rockin' whatever is going on! You've got it in ya, baby. Can't wait to hear all about it when I get home.

Love always,

Ace

OH MY GOSH. OH MY GOSH OKAY 😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖😭💖 I'm sorry I've been saving this in my inbox for over a month cuz I love going back to read it, this is hands down the best f/o letter I've ever gotten 🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖 Idek how this answer this just, AAAAH GOD 🥺💖🥺💖🥺 Ace I love you so much and I appreciate the faith you put in me that I'm doing well in whatever I'm up to. If you believe in me then I better live up to that!! 🥺💖💖💖💖💖

[coelakanths]

so fucking nervous im going to vomit

[foreverxdaydreaming]

/neg

pretty much just a vent, you can keep scrolling and go about your way, nothin important here tbh. all the tw's are in the tags; always remember to filter the shit outta things, kids.👍🏻

[theloveinc]

Same anon about putting pussy on the phone- it’s 11:43 pm and I can’t sleep LOL.

Flip the script. You have to get surgery- bakugou is LITERALY waiting around for you like a FUCKING dog. He’s so stressed it’s not even funny. It kind of is tbh can’t he looks like his normal too big for the waiting chairs self but he’s low key freaking out. He can’t lose you- he’s too scared to lose you. He would literally get a medical degree so he could just do the surgery his damn self so you won’t die. (He’s dramatic)

The moment he can see you he’s literally not leaving your side. Need to pee but you’re a fall risk? He doesn’t care that bed alarm is off because you’re up he’d be damned if you get a uti on top of this major surgery. Hungry? He’s not letting you eat the hospital food- hes calling his old man and making him make you food since he won’t leave your side.

When you finally get to go home hes the one to push you in the wheelchair to his all black sleek car. When he opens the door the passenger seat is already set up for you. It might as well be a bed from how many blankets, pillows, and anything plush is in that seat. He would LITERALLY TUCK YOU INTO THAT SEAT HOLY SHIT LIKE HE LITERALLY IS ACTING LIKE YOURE DYING. JFC BAKUGOU IT WASNT THAT BIG OF A SURGERY.

You’re so doped out you’re just smiling like crazy while you’re head rocks back and forth in the seat while you watch the cars pass by. You keep trying to reach up and play with his ears since they’re big but in a cute way and he keeps smacking your hand away and mumbling under his breath angrily. You’ve always loved his ears- they come out some and he has them pierced! A little chunk is missing from a accident when he was younger which has caused him to go deaf as well in that ear and he also does this cute thing when he’s stressed where he will tug or mess with his ear -

IM RAMBLING IM SORRY

(i'm just jealous of you for even being in bed at 11:43pm smh, but) I LITERALLY ADORE THIS? ALL OF IT??? AND it's so accurate, too????? The medical degree part is sending me... sooooo, so true bestie. He's such a fiend.

AND getting Masaru to cook, too sadhjfkadj. Waking up from a nap and seeing both him and his dad fiddling with the little, hospital room mini-fridge. You're like, "Masaru-san? You didn't have to cook!!!" and he's just smiling and shaking his head because Bakugo would've ended his life if he hadn't (and if he's an even BETTER cook than Katsuki, you don't say anything.)

(Also laughing at the thought of Mitsuki coming too, and heckling the doctor about the most random shit. Sitting next to your bed, her magazine on her lap, all, "You haven't changed my child's pillow case in TWO days? And all your tea is _ brand? What the hell do we pay our insurance for???

Like... CHILD? Tea????? And you'd think Bakugo would tell her to stop but he's just nodding right there along with her LOOOL.)

God, I wanna add onto everything but you talked about it all so perfectly already😭Bakugo adjusting the pillows against you 100 times before finally starting to drive. Getting so flustered by your tickling because he wants to respond and tell you to stop overexerting yourself but he's gotta keep his eyes on road. AND USUALLY, he's so nippy when you play with his ears cuz they're sensitive... but he just can't bring himself to get mad because you're injured and it's, it's... cute.

(Plus, I love your little headcanons about this!!!)

And overall, too... he love all your doped-up sleepy kisses, and the way you play with his fingers when you're bored in bed... and getting so antsy when he has to leave you for work, he calls once an hour AT LEAST, even when you're fine resting in bed or almost fully recovered. Screams at the neighbors when they do something irritating for "bothering an injured person..." skjdflkajsdhfajksd...

Literally... this whole thing is the best. Thank GOD you rambled. I swear.

(ANd Bakugo thanks you, too. He never thought he'd be so into caring for a sick person😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨) (iN A GOOD WAY)

[wildmelon]

i wrote this like two months ago when i finished, but im posting it now for my own record lol.

MAJOR SPOILER WARNING FOR CRITICAL ROLE CAMPAIGN 1

scrambled critical role thoughts and opinions after finishing c1:

oh boy i cried through vax's goodbye scene in the last episode, but holy shit i fucking sobbed through his appearance in dalen's closet. how the fuck was liam so perfect at playing an altered version of vax that was still him at heart. every interaction was perfect. cannot describe how i felt when he addressed scanlan, how the fuck could he come up with such a perfect ingenious opener, i was in tears immediately.

i would not have believed you if you told me when i started that scanlan and grog would have been my favorites at the end of the campaign. (well maybe a little bc i am a confirmed travis stan but seriously i didn't anticipate the level of depth, comedy, and heart he brought to grog). grog's kevdak speech is a campaign highlight for me-- no, a 2023 highlight.

i obviously found scanlan somewhat annoying but funny if often outdated. i kind of just wrote it off as something i'd ignore but sam really made a comeback like damn, i was very happy and surprised when he apologized to pike.

scanlan leaving discourse is old news but for me personally it reminded me of myself in really dark times and the ways poor mental health can make you kinda self-centered. not mad about how any of it went down or how it was resolved, and i love how his and vex's relationship became a highlight for me after his return.

i honestly loved the super high emotional stakes of VM, felt like someone was always mad at someone else, i'm a sucker for inter-party conflict and intense emotional scenes. these guys have so much angst and i love it.

i really enjoyed the tight pacing and goal-oriented episodes. i tend to get stressed out when there's too many broad choices about what to do next in any sort of media lol. this campaign also rly showed me how much i love watching high-level play.

i don't fuck with percy??????? lmfao i don't hate him or anything, i literally can't put it any way besides idfw that man. 😭 he's an interesting character ofc and i do like his friendship with keyleth

keyleth was my fave for most of the campaign. her growth was so rewarding to watch, she made me laugh so many times, i love seeing her become a leader, just adore her and she's such a comfort character to me. bought myself a simple ring with "I have passed through fire" engraved on the inside to celebrate my didn't-kill-myself-aversary this year bc that letter was exactly what i needed to hear 😭

kiki and vax never interested me thatttt much UNTIL they became eternally star-crossed lovers jfc. that is my catnip. tbh it's interesting to me that VM is held up by some as having superior romance to TMN, but i didn't find any of VM's romance super compelling.

since it's been a couple months since i finished, i can add that vex is who i've thought most about since i finished?? i always liked her, loved the grey hunt, adored her relationship with vax, but didn't know i had strong feelings until after i'd finished watching. funny how that happens.

the mighty nein start out fucked up and end up pretty good, while vox machina start out pretty cool and then get super fucked up 😭 much as i love outcasts finding family, it was really fun to watch all these archetypal fantasy Cool Guys just go through so much emotional damage lmao.

[ahagisborn]

Jfc this book

So in its favor— the author isn’t a bad writer. (The bar is in hell for romance novels.) I genuinely like how she seems to write a lot of Jewish characters and explores different pairings and dynamics beyond what a very traditional romance novelist might. Not a duke in sight thank christ. Also character descriptions that are just a lil more HUMAN which I very much appreciate.

Now to the bad— a lot of the time a romance novelist will have a scene or two with VERY specific historical details about god only knows what Special Interest they contracted while writing the book. (Lemon ices? Mystery plays. Railway manufacturing.) It adds a nice lil flourish and depth to a book when it’s done well but this book is just literal pages of MARITIME LOGISTICS and that’s the whole plot of the book. It’s excruciating.

ALSO so like the conflict of the book (I guess it’s technically supposed to be that this man is in love with another man in 1813 London but) is that the main character is a naval agent (so he does bookkeeping but also sells stuff to sailors on credit) but he’s a hot mess and he hasn’t divvied up this prize among the crew because he’s done some creative bookkeeping (like selling stuff to the object of his affection at below cost? and covering the difference himself just bc he loves him? He seems like a really shitty accountant?) and it’s all gonna come to light I think once he gets the account current I DONT KNOW IM SKIMMING A LOT OF THIS.

So anyways every time he sits down to do his fucking job he gets distracted or falls asleep or goes to a public bathhouse with the guy he’s in love with but doesn’t fuck him, just thinks about all the work he has to do, like what is the POINT. I can’t tell if it’s a plot device that’s meant to be a kinda hamfisted ADHD representation or a character “flaw” that’ll be overcome by the power of love but it’s stressing me the fuck out. Idk if meth has been invented yet but I’m just like can someone please get this poor man some stimulants so he can complete his Tasks. THAT CREW NEEDS TO BE PAID BEFORE THEY MUTINIZE. Black sails dufresne would never let something like this slide.

Also I’m at 69% and they haven’t boned and I think that says it all.

[fandomrouletteburrito]

Me reading chapter 109

AINT FOC RUJEJAJURFEBDKAHAKAMAK

AINT NO FUCKING WAY - my brain until we get to the next chaoter

kndkanana I KNOW HES GOING TO BE FINE BUT OMFG IM SO STRESSED THIS MAN IS GIVING ME A FUCKING STROKE

Like i knows hes going to be fine

BUT JFC DAZAI WHY R YOU LIKE THIS

YOU SHOULD BE LIKE CHUUYA AND NOT BE THIS FUCKING STRESSFUL JFC

God i hate fyodor sm tho LIKE CMON GIMME THE FUCKING CONFESSION

Destined TO WHAT

Omfg

And we got Dazai being genuine too for like a few seconds

AND DAZAI WAS MAD ABOUT ALL OF THIS

[star-firework]

if twit is gone, i will have to use a blog like a real blog.

so anyway,

im a warehouse manager now and i got an employee who i feel like im in an abusive relationship with

he out of nowhere said "so some fat, ugly Samoan man won a miss america pagent and he identifies as a woman and you KNOW no one believes that shit!" and that caught my ear and made me stop and ask him why he brought that up cuz there was just no relation to what we were doing

he got defensive and when i asked him to not talk about things like that (cuz we just hired a new guy we dont know his opinions and also its not allowed int he work place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) the moterhfucker yelled at me and told me that IM "the problem and silencing" his opinions

i asked him to not use combative language and then he said "YOURE using combative language!!!" like a toddler yelling at his mom

i felt like i was on fox news or something, dude listened to so much joe rogan, he just melted in front of my eyes?

i was especially 'triggered' because my recently viral-on-reddit-infamous-homeless-attacking-ex-boss deany boy used to go on long, endless, anti trans rants when i was the only one working with him and i waslike what the fuck!!!!!!!!!! the fuck you care so cuking much about trans people in everything, shut up you old bastard dean

your donuts made my stomach hurt and you keep cream cheese in the fridge so long it turns green and when i went to throw it out, you told me to wipe off the green mold and put it back. you also keep the raw bacon on the top of the fridge of everything definitely not raw. you reuse gravy for days on end to the point i think theres weeks old gravy still being eaten. your wife broke 3 crock pots out of anger for some mundane thing and acted like a high school mean girl when she was in charge and made us remop a floor up to like 4 times because she didnt like how there was a "sheen" on the floor.

anyway

my employee just fucuking blew up at me and then he walked out and didnt return for 3 hours, i was at the point of thinking "well ok, guess he actually just quit?"

He returned and didnt talk to me and left without a word. The next day he called out and only said: "Sick. Out. Indefinitely."

What the hell does indefinitely mean after a blow up?

Poor choice of words or a bad way to vaguely quit?

i told HR and made them call him after he didnt text or show up the next day

i was ready to move on and already got an interview set up to fill in when we are already in crisis mode at work lol

then the bastard texts me at 5 when im about to go home and he is furious that HR was calling him. he said "if you have a problem you say it to my face, im coming in tomorrow sick or not"

i felt threatened and scared because when he gets mad, he gets mad and testosterone fueled rage and i dont know if he would get physical

he also was like "am i supposed to be looking for another job!?"

i was so scared of his reaction i was thankfully able to call hr and have her walk me thru how to text this maniac back

i really dont want to work with him ESPECIALLY now

but somehow the company wont fire anyone so this behavior is still cool and no one has balls, i dont have balls and guess i have to continue workingand managing a manchild who is going to be set off at anything

i also have to somehow figure out how to get a meeting with him, me and HR without it sounding liek an interogation because he is so easily defensive

we were cool and i have even been to his house and met his wife and had beers with him and another manager and then it felt like in one instance it just got all washed away because he wanted to rant about trans people?????????

i am so confused!

i also have thrown up soooooooo much this past year from stress, jfc. im finally losing weight but from a very very bad reason and very very unhealthy way that is painful aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

still dont know whats gonna happen since this dude is planning on coming back tomorrow and i have an interview w someone we meant to replace him after he was MIA

[s0urt33th]

ooo work rants

I'm rewriting the office manual for fun bc Im bored and wasn't taught what I should be doing. (no I don't have permission to re-write it)

Things I hate about the handbook- it's long tho so it goes in text jail.

Listed in the responsibilities section, "Bring a positive attitude to work" shouldn't be the first thing listed. Especially when she ignores all the negative things that happen.

If you're so much as 5 min late you gotta tell EVERYONE you're 5 minutes late, even if you think you're going to be late you have to text the entire group chat you're going to be 5+ minutes late.

"Growth Mindset" and "Stereotype Threat" are both before actual procedures and take up more pages than the procedures. Instead of- idk- telling me what I should be doing and how. If someone rings the office phone I have 0 clue how to answer and how to transfer calls

the way the stereotype threat section is set up basically says to ignore aspects of yourself and others that're apart of minority groups to avoid stereotyping yourself.

Stressing out? Just think about Obama! If he became president, anyone can do anything. Thanks Obama :)

Oh- still stressing? Change your mindset! You're just thinking wrong.

you're STILL stressing? Push it off for another time and get what you need to get done right now. Then you won't choke under pressure.

Our commitment to a positive workplace climate: We will "demonstrate a commitment to diversity and multiculturalism" and to "take care of our well-being and exhibit team wellness" ah yes, I will demonstrate multiculturalism. Also- I told this person about sexual harrassment i'm facing outside of work and that i am struggling and the response was, "hmm thanks for sharing... anyways."

This is a quote: "If you work with more than one student, encourage your students to study together outside of your mentoring sessions.... Asian students, who studied in groups, formal and informal, and made little distinction between their academic and social lives, did better than White and African-American students." First and foremost- UNHEALTHY. I am Asian. I don't have distinctions. It's very very unhealthy t b h. Study groups and social times are both important but jfc. ALSO MODEL MINORITY MYTH WHO?! JFC

^^^^^^^^ This is the person that told me that I would be the first guy that they have hired because they have, "People of all different backgrounds." (I'm trans. HUH. Actually I wonder why the only man they have in the office is me- who ngl is v v feminine.) Then tells me after our first team-building day that they "Just so happen" to have only really hired Asians for their interns(the others don't work directly under this person or are in charge of specific programs). Anyways myself and my one other coworker are both asian and we're both her interns who basically act as assistants.

back to the "choking" from stress- the list includes(and I quote), "Think differently. Think about yourself in ways that highlight your aptitude for success. Instead of focusing on how your group might be negatively stereotypes, think of the tools you have to excel- you have done well in school in the past or you have a supporting network or peers and mentors" Okay I didn't actually read the negatively stereotypes part. djldfkjgflkgjdflkgjdflkgjfdlk what the fuck???

"Educate the worries. Reminding students that stereotypes are just stereotypes and nothing more can help prevent people from worrying about their ability when the pressure is on."

"Reinterpret your reactions. When under pressure, learn to interpret your bodily reactions in a positive way ("I am amped up for the test") rather than negative ("I am freaking out")." ah yes I will just say that my anxiety and panic attacks are actually just fun little excitement sparks of j o y.

The stereotype threat(Steele & Aronson, 1995) section. Instead of educating yourself about the students you work with, if they're a minority- just ignore that fact! Otherwise you'll make them fail. Set high standards and show them that you have also struggled in school- so that they can relate to you.

This was all in the first 5 pages of this handbook bro. What the fuck.

[fandom-panda]

Live Blog-ish of Critical Role C3 Ep 44

(time stamp of slightly after what im talking about) my thoughts/questions/reactions. just so its easier for you to read/know what im talking about :)

(14:43) OH MY GOD. I mean, i saw spoilers about this, but jfc i cant believe chetney suggested they pretend theyre having an orgy

(15:19) OH MY GOD. I HATE SAM'S FLASK SO MUCH

(28:04) oh no. god i hope they dont get caught. this is so stressful. i cant imagine how much more stress this would be as an actual player

(29:09) lol -2 on the athletics check

(31:35) oh god oh god oh god. im so nervous ack

(37:10) i miss ashton :,(

(40:17) YO 24 FOR DECEPTION CHECK. HELL YEA IMOGEN!! i still cant believe that its for convincing the air elemental of the orgy...

(41:56) NO NOT A NATURAL ONE

(48:13) NO NOT ANOTHER ONE

(1:13:59) oh my god Fearne the horse in this tiny chamber lol

(1:51:05) OH MY GOD FCG W THE BANISHMENT

(2:22:45) i absolutely love the way the artist of Bells Hells recap drew laudna's face. she looks sm like a friend and i love her <3

(2:37:08) omg that was so many failures. thank god for chetney's roll

(2:45:13) lol fcg casting spare the dying again

(2:54:12) ITS A PORN GARDENING BUISNESS ASFJGSDHKJKFAS

(2:57:42) smart move to cast fast friends on this guy, fcg. really hope bells hells are not gonna let this guy walk away from this

(2:59:15) i wonder if this guy/lower members of the Ruby Vanguard know about Predathos...

(3:06:11) just checked the timeline of events, and off topic, but omg, Tales of Exandria: The Bright Queen is 855 PD. which means that it happens after C3 starts...

(3:08:59) ohhhh i mean i knew this already, but the fact that Ludinus is the leader of the Ruby Vanguard makes me so angry... stinky bastard man (derogatory)

(3:19:10) oh my god i didnt even think of asking about Zephrah!!!

also kinda off topic, but i realized that because Tales of Exandria, The Bright Queen, we know that everything ends up fine! or at least should be! (unless they make it not canon) so we dont have to worry!

(3:27:21) so it is Ludinis Da'leth! man, i know this is all fiction, but i really care about the pcs

(3:35:56) OH MY GOD THATS AMAZING. RYN W THE "Oh yea, i think i know where you are" AND THEN IMMEDIATELY AFTER THERES A KNOCK ON THE DOOR. RYN IS SO COOL

(3:36:53) "anything else of value on you?" "you took it all" LOL.

also, i love ryn. especially because we know about how horrible the Ceberus Assembly is, and ryn is just... not. shes not bad. and i love that for her sm

(3:41:15) AHSGJFJDKALSHFK THE "what a fucking idiot" IS SO FUNNY

--

Wow! That was a great episode! Can't wait till monday (or whenever i get around to it) to watch the next episode!

[cherry-bomb-ships]

Whoo okay, today was stressful to say the least, but now I'm home and unwinding! I'm also gonna celebrate the 26th anniversary of the first Crash game by, what else, playing some Crash Bandicoot! :3

Oh, and speaking of which...

THESE BAD BOIS JUST GOT HERE AND I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THEM BOTH 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 They honestly look REALLY FUCKIN GOOD especially for being silly lil Skylander toys, and of course having an actual figure of Cortex got me like OOOOOOH GIRL 💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘💖💘 Its kind of funny how I've come full circle from playing the very first Skylanders and collecting tons of those figures, to here now almost ten years later buying these two Skylanders figures just for the specific characters 👉👈💖💖💖💖

[parasyte-brainrot]

yooooooo its been a whole year since i made this account

and the only account i havent abandoned within creation of it holy shit

[ateezgf]

it feels so whack that i have to text my sister explaining that if her gf is overwhelmed with school, i probably am too & i have to keep saying "i know i've technically been here for 5 months, but i just started getting this amount of workloads for 1" in order for her to cut me some slack

[traumawings]

damn i really do hate myself tbh

literally spent like, 5?? hours doing absolutely nothing, even tho i still have so much shit to do

and i'm so fucking annoyed with myself and i feel so,, irritated

and ofc my mom has to make comments about me being blunt again like wow thanks,, that's really making me feel better (not)

i feel so fucking close to relapsing, every single day  the urge to pick up that double edged razor again is getting bigger and bigger and idk if i want to resist any longer

but at the same time i'm like,, summer's coming up tho and i don't feel like having a whole fucking talk with my mom again about my self harm so guess i'll just have to suffer and do nothing about it

literally i can't wait till wednesday because then we'll get a lil break from school (well, legally that is, but mentally?? aha nope)

kinda wanna just,, not do anything and not hand in my remaining hw and at the same time i'm like no!! you need to pass this year!!

but i'll never be able to get everything done so aha fuck me gently with a chainsaw (kudos to you if you recognize that reference)

anyway i'm gonna try and do atleast something useful, although i'll inevitably fail anyway/feel like it's not enough/get distracted etc.