#just a little burnt out lately
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i haven't talked a lot about it but yees i saw the anime ep and it was so so so so unbeleivably good i watched the sub and the dub and then i rewatched it with a friend and it's been on my mind constantly.... i started re reading the manga last night too :3 i love you dungeon meshi !!!!!!!!! im soo unbeleivably excited!! its been all ive talked about with my friends lately even if its one sided really i just cant stop thinking about it !
#im just not like....hyperfixed on it like i used to be? like not making 6 posts a day level. blame my ocs </3 they are my number 1#also i feel embarassed that i never made any cool or impressive fanart IDK ITS SILLY. but i will. im trying to get better at drawing <:3#just a little burnt out lately
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I won Wordle on the FIRST WORD!! Same word I start with every single time just happened to be today's word! This feels way cooler than it should! Rejoice with me!
#was gonna go to bed because up too late#'oh i'll just do the wordle quick'#only to get the joyous shock of the quickest possible game#september is fantastic so far guys#it's too bad that i gave daily updates about august instead of september#because the end of august was so burnt out and boring#and every day of september so far has been filled with awesome stuff#like this!#tiny little thing no reason for it to happen but it did and it just adds to the collection of joy
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yahoooo! sillay
#fanart#sleep deprived podcast#aztrosist#apandah#mikasacus#YAAAHHHHH#i have been a little burnt out lately this was rly fun to draw and line hehe#hoping this gets me back in the drawin game#don’t think like toooo too hard abt the crossover like this was just a redraw but sdpified#it’s pretty silly though#this does mean jschlatt is akechi… if u rly think about it
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you've heard of: aroacespec "is this person flirting with me" confusion, now get ready for: Does this person think I'm flirting with them (and also are they flirting "back" with me) because I accidentally bumped into them a lot?
#new jersey girl seems to really like me that makes me happy#nobody's been attracted to me before#but it'll make me sad if she asks me out#because even though I LOVE her i think i'd have to say no just because i really imagine myself#with a boyfriend far more than a girlfriend lately and i don't want to put her into a relationship that might end up feeling like#misgendering...#aro#ace#aroace#aroacespec#aromantic#arospec#greyromantic#greyro#I said this#we've been walking all over campus together and she's um. not a very considerate walker i keep#almost getting pushed off the path so that's whyh i keep bumping into her lol#but also she seems to like standing/sitting near me?#and i said 'i think my face is a little...' because i was thinking it felt like it got too much sun#and she was like 'i think your face is a little too-- wait what did u say?'#and i said i didn't even use an adjective but said burnt/red was what i should have siad#and she just said 'i think your face is a little'#like is that an oblique compliment??#okay the funniest part is yesterday she said some random girl came up to her and said she looked pretty and she wasn't sure if it was#flirting or just a compliment so she doesn't even know what flirting is either lol#also she calls me Data now bc i told her about hwo my uncle said my parents consult me like picard consults data lol#tbh maybe i gave her the wrong signals by moisturizing when she was in my room last night?#(kept sticking my hand under my clothes. my roommate brought her in right after i showered)#i asked my roommated if that was weird and she thought it was fine but she might not be the best metric
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i missed him 💚🤍
#ts4#the sims 4#sims 4#ts4 screenshots#ts4 gameplay#ts4 portrait#simblr#holocene.png#hlcn: story extras#hlcn: grant#he's so cute i wanna rip his head off (affectionately)#but literally i haven't opened up any saves with him in it since last month#sir i missed you i promise </3#btw i am going to get back to posting his story again#i just got burnt out and kind of stuck figuring out how to transition between scenes and a little downtrodden bc#life has been mega difficult lately and i honestly could not commit time to something so time consuming that doesn't get a lot of attention#but i want to start back because i'm at a really exciting part of the story :(#also i will say i think my story save might be at least a little corrupt because it crashes like crazy now lmfao rip#so i might have to restart the save itself
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I chucked these in the queue today and heaven only knows if they'll survive the journey, but regardless I'm really happy with the work I did on them so please behold: the full res (2000x2000) versions
(I intend these to be a straight-to-AH release, so I'll only ping for them when they hopefully return to me, but in the meantime if you wanna ask to be pinged or reserve a copy, just let me know)
These were my first ever skins made in Krita and oh the lack of a good starry brush is Hurting
#flight rising skins#flight rising#my skins#my art#the tanning rack#im just. really really happy with how these look#im really hoping they make it through the queue alright but we shall see. its always a shaky thing#and last time i tried to do a straight-to-ah thing i burnt out on skinmaking from it#and shortly afterwards on fr as a whole#so uhh. fingers crossed that doesnt happen again i guess?#i really wanna get the purple version out to put it on Peilu. i made it for them first and foremost#their names are rather grim but i promise the implication isnt a dead dragon walking#Peilu is just. intrinsically linked with grief and closure for me#(the names are 'too little too late' and 'honoured memory')
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Stealing this image from twitter and bringing it over here, because holy shit, some of the clowns I have been seeing talk about the game lately.
#Novice Network is a toxic waste pit right now#filled to the brim with returners who think they’re hot shit talking about ‘If Square really thought a cutscene was important they would hav#e put voice acting in it’ and other shit like that#‘I just skip all non voiced because the voiced cutscenes recap all that boring shit anyway”’#no they don’t???#Is THIS what a new Expac brings out?#because it’s genuinely dreadful#do you even enjoy the game at that point? Complain about fetch quests complain about the dialogue complain about the writing quality#why not just go play a game you like???#It’s getting to the point where I just have my chat log closed most of the time#not leaving NN because it WAS really nice during the post-Endwalker patch cycle#when mostly only people who actually liked the game (????) were still playing.#but the amount of toxic attitude returners I’ve seen in there lately is disheartening.#I hope it’ll come back down in the following weeks#once they’ve burnt through Dawntrail and decided the game doesn’t have anything for them#and they’ve sufficiently wasted their time#instead of just… taking it slow and taking in the world and the sights and the story……..#I’ve heard that Dawntrail is basically ARR 2. Which. big if true.#Because we could use that.#A return to form#with the new systems and developments in the game#bringing the story back down a little bit and reining it in#I am VERY excited to get there some day.#but I know that these people I’m bitching and moaning about aren’t thrilled#(honestly that just makes me like it more)#Anyway#point is#if you’re playing a game why the hell aren’t you engaging with said game?#What’s the point of skipping to the end as fast as possible only to get annoyed when there’s no more content?#This is exactly the problem that I’ve heard ex-WoW players complain about with regards to their player base
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day 88: boop changsheng's snoot
#genshin impact#genshin razor#baizhu#genshin baizhu#accounts not dead i swear!! just a little burnt out in general lately#i'd like to do back to true daily eventually but i'm just taking it easy for now#anyway good luck on your pulls guys!! very excited to finally get baizhu and k/veh hehe
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✨️Magenta✨️
#I've been really sad lately#its logical I've had a lot happen and a lot going on#and I've been mostly bedridden the past week cause of fibro flares#my brain can see the logic of why my body feels burnt out and why i feel anxious#but i also have this profound sense of loneliness that's been weighing on my chest#I feel the need to isolate and get away from people because it feels like it doesn't matter how much i try to blend in someone#will catch onto me being an “alien” or not quite fitting their mold or having a difference of opinion and i get bullied or ostracized#out of participating with folks or doing activities#and i get so overwhelmed by people and their literal energy/vibes that it feels as though I'm caught in a sneaker wave and being pulled#from shore and this is compounded on top of that feeling of being surrounded by people like tons of them who may even enjoy your company#but still feel very much isolated and alone the whole time#it could be winter triggering trauma responses in me due to childhood abuse related to the holidays#and then there's me trying to brainstorm how i can make money with my creativity when i have little to no help with anyone#and no one will give me a chance to bounce ideas and get a third persons opinion#its felt like this since i can remember: people value that i listen and reflect all the while show compassion#and then when i really need it myself and attempt to reach out i get the door shut in my face#it feels like the only people that have truly listened to me are therapists lmao and it hurts cause its like i gotta pay someone#just to listen to me go off on this idea i have for a side hustle a creative pursuit something i love#and i can't really share that with anyone irl because I'm supposed to be everyones therapist#and its shitty i dont get paid for it if thats the case lol#i feel like tumblr is the only spot I really have where i can share a lot of myself and make things that make others and myself happy#i don't know what id do without it#magenta is my safe word for venting#thanks for coming to my tedtalk as i write into the void#getting shit off my chest at 4am#i aint gettin no sleep cause of yall yall not gon get no sleep cause of meeee
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I always get WAYY too entertained by those dumb videos on like instagram where people will make makeup palettes based on characters or objects by color picking, so I thought I'd try doing it myself.
Here's a Link one I made, might make more later, making fake makeup palettes is very fun and therapeutic.
Here's some templates I made for this, hearts, circles and diamonds
#Link The Twink#my art#??#I don't think this counts as much as my art#since It is mostly just me making circles and coloring a little#i've been feeling a bit burnt out lately so this was kind of fun#If I Was good at names I think I'd give each of the colors on this palette a name#if anyone does use these templates please tag me I love seeing these#also if this many colors overwhelming you can cut off the side and just do the 9 with 4 picked colors in each corner#I just added some more for additional colors#so like for me on the side I did his hair highlight and glow for a fun sparkle palette
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i just want school to be over already. im so burnt out from everything. i worked full time over spring break and have a speech due the first day back and i couldnt even enjoy the break bc ive just been stressed about it the whole time. then 2 papers due next month and finals coming up. juggling school, work, and family/friends feels impossible. like, you just cant give 100% to all while still giving 100% to yourself and it takes its toll after awhile.
#second semester senioritis is no joke </3#i already have all the credits i need to graduate but my speech class is the one important one#like im taking it now so i wont have to take it in Real College#and missing a speech would = failing#and i already got a 75 on one of them which still pisses me off#bc i didnt realize that the video didnt attach bc my father almost DIED and was in the hospital so i wasnt checking canvas for a few days#the only reason she even took it was bc youtube had the timestamp of when it was posted#still took late points off but whatever#anyways sorry to get so real and personal on the silly little mermaid blog but i just need to get it out and im also procrastinating writin#this speech lol#and i think i lowkey have a phone addiction??#soo#i really need to get my shit together#but theres no time!!!#god and im so tired all the time bc i get home late for working then wake up early for school :(#im like a sim whose fun meter is red#cleo-serotonin lore#vent#i just have 0 motivation#anxiety fuels me#oh and this burnt out feeling is really concerning me for when i get to Real College#bc if im already feeling this way now;; how am i gonna feel when the classes are even harder and i have to take more of them?#if i had a passion or even knew what i wanted to study it wouldnt be an issue#but alas#mermaid isnt a major
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everyone's out here with such cool, well thought out bg3 ocs and i'm just sat here like no thoughts, head empty
#txt#like idk maybe i'm just not that enamoured with olympia#she's very much your typical neutral good character and i guess i'm finding it a little ......... boring?#but i don't know what to add to her character/backstory because my creative juices are So burnt out lately#rip
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Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by
#bc like. i'm getting by just fine. i don't have anything to be reasonably worried about#but also when i was a kid my father would break down my mother's paycheck and basically explain how broke we were#and that May Have Affected Me Somewhat#as well as just. the way you consistently see the advice to just save! don't get takeout! necessities! and i'm not intent on living like#a monk nor am i intent on being on that grindset for financial gain#it's like i don't intrinsically care but i have so many messages given to me about how i need to care a lot and it puts me in a weird spot#i am simultaneously standing still and moving at mach speeds#i mean right now i just need a safety net while in between jobs; after that i need to save up to move out of state bc the uh#political situation and upcoming presidential election don't seem very sustainable for someone like me anymore#they weren't to begin with but i don't wanna stick around to see how bad it's gonna get#but it's like. okay and then what? save for what? going back to school i guess? idk#i feel like i keep asking myself what i'm trying to accomplish and keep trying to force myself to have answers#here and now when i have to be okay with taking things one step at a time instead of having everything here and now#it's simultaneously fine and terrible and i am holding two conflicting yet equal truths#i feel i may have a clearer head once i leave my current job. i'm trying to look but nothing feels appealing given how#burnt out i already feel. i dread going back into my workplace and i fear it's showing to the patients and i don't want that#i want a month off to rediscover who i am as a person outside of getting yelled at in retail and then pick something back up#could be feasible. genuinely could be. i need to sort out the health insurance aspect but. that's lowkey the plan?#to construct a financial safety net and then slam on the breaks for a while; see if i can strike up a deal with the staff about me#coming in for specific tasks bc we already know i'm quick and efficient with the inventory so i do have a little leverage#you know what. this is getting some of it off my chest and i'm starting to feel confident again lmao#i won't be doing weekends starting either next week or the week after so that's a start! i just think i want everything done right now#bc i'm afraid i won't have the chance again but i will. i definitely will#i just need to let myself get to that point; it's just the immense drain from the register work and the Everything that comes with retail#also having to accept that it's okay to leave this; there's not something wrong with me like. ''not being able to handle it'' or w/e#no mindfulness or detachment could've saved me; it was shit and i'm hitting the bricks and that's all there is to it#i've been thinking a lot about it all lately bc it's what's most prominent in my life rn of course#idk. pondering. introspecting. as i am wont to do#anyways if you've read all this you're a real mvp and i am kissing you on the hand#shai speaks
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I don't have time for people who don't have time for me
I don't have time for people who don't have time for me
I don't have time for people who don't have time for me
#yes yes i know adult life leaves little room for spending time with people who you care about & even if we have time we're burnt out#but my whole adult life has been white-knuckled clinging to relationships or people that barely if ever send that energy back#as soon as theyre onto the next person that will entertain them. as soon as theyve found something to fill the time that i usually take up#as soon as theyve gotten all they wanted from me emotionally. as soon as its inconvient to see me. almost as soon as theyre bored#then suddenly its me waiting for a text. waiting for a day to hang out. hearing over and over again that yet another thing is more importan#than me. and i get it. life happens. schools important. work is important. rest is important. but at the point im at in my life#im looking for people who actually make an effort not just give months and months of excuses as to why they suddenly cant hang out#im a pushover. im easy-going. im a very understanding person. i get it bc theres also very few days per week that im free to socialize#but i cant keep letting myself act subservient to everyone else in my life. i always put my friends & potential friends so high on pedestal#i treat them & their time as precious. now i refuse to let someone do anything but the same for me. my time/energy/love is just as precious#i dont deserve only a text when you need something from me or just to act as a treat to tide me over until the next transgression#and i certainly am NOT going to be the person that you can stand-up and then expect to still answer your text. not anymore.#in prioritizing my mental health lately ive realized that this pattern HAS TO STOP. i cant allow myself to continue the same harmful cycles#i deserve better. i need better. i WANT BETTER#emma vents#vent tag#healing tag
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in all seriousness i 90% sure im going to quit my job tomorrow and for a while i will have just enough money to live on and will have to spruce up my resume and job hunt and stress but MY GOD i need to do something else because this is making me suicidal
#like actively suicidal. wanting to die in a way i have not since highschool. literally woke up and thought 'i dont want to be here anymore'#and then couldnt make myself get out of bed until like 10 minutes before i had to leave the house for job 2#i know its unprofessional but i pretty much...quiet quit i guess. i worked from home for like a month straight without telling my boss#and she called yesterday wondering about it and the whole time the only thing i could think of was 'you didnt even know for a MONTH#thats how little people communicate around here#the office culture is toxic. the people are self absorbed and shut me out. ive gone through like 6 big life events and no one knows because#no one in that office cares enough to ask. and even if i volunteer the most i get is a 'wow that wild look at this tiktok yeah anyway'#im so burnt out. i have 1 day of rest and i dont get to do that at all. so no like im not going to get up get dressed sit in traffic park#on the street because a year later they still havent given me a clicker for the parking lot and sit in the back of a warehouse for hours#talking to no one. ive literally gone days without talking to anyone there. its so lonely.#theres only so many audiobooks and podcasts and albums you can listen to before you think 'i would be ok getting hit by a truck tomorrow'#im going to hate these next few months but i just need time#and the lord works in mysterious ways because my other boss just started talking about hiring for mon/tues which are the days i work bad jo#so i would at least get those hours until i find something else stable. im going to try very hard not to be mean about it but im like...#hey girl this place sucks ass and you know it. im not negotiating#but thanks for that raise 9 months late#im giving you three weeks for find a replacement and i dont care if you fire me in that time#il work from home or panera or starbucks or library but im not stepping in that office again unless its for my minifridge and heater
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lately i feel like my neurodivergence is cranked up a few levels in a way that's negatively impacting my ability to interact with others and like. go through life unbothered. idk why this is happening but i feel like this
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