#just finished the episode im never going to recover

[unluckyprime]

u guys hear that? the sound of everyone adding Grease music to their oakworthy playlists? THE SOUND OF GAY PEOPLE GOING SORT OF REAL?

[starjunkyard]

"Im not even sure anymore if we get to choose who our friends are" There is a part of me that resents you for making me a worse person than i want to be but i am inexplicably uncontrollably drawn to you. You make me a worse person which is the last thing i want yet i want you in every way. If i could leave i would. Maybe i can but i dont want to. I have fun with you. You challenge me and you captivate me and you push me and pull and run circles around me and it makes me feel like a younger man. For the price of being a worse person i get to feel truly, wholly alive. You are the blood that runs through my veins; vital, inseparable. I was reborn when i met you and you are the womb that haunts me. You are the one person on planet earth who knows me. I wish i could leave, move on and be the man im supposed to be but my heart is tied to yours in a gordian knot. There is a part of my soul that rests in yours, magnetic. For as long as i love you i cannot be better than i am. But maybe thats something i can learn to live with. Gregory House-- I think you're worth it.

[welcometogrouchland]

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[becauseplot]

finished ep 10 of osnf (long post under the cut oh lord)

crying sobbing kicking over chairs screaming CELLBIT IS AN EVIL EVIL MAN WHY WOULD HE DO THAT. FOR WHAT REASON. POR CUAL RAZÓN. LO ODIO. <-said with the utmost adoration and respect of a writer but the fury of a fan who just had to endure all of that my hearttttt 0(-(

god fuck i have thoughts and feelings regarding episode 10 of osnf. obviously. i don't even know how to start.

okay. first of all the way that he was able to orchestrate the like 57839 different POVs of the nightmare happening at the same time was actually pretty smooth, all things considered. being able to forcibly mute/deafen the others is a good thing to be able to do yesyes.

second, im losing my mind over how he hides the fact that "it's all a dream" WITHIN the "it's all a dream" trope by having the creatures be manifestations of dreams/guilt in "reality" themselves. idk if i'm making any sense, but like, you get it, right? like, it's the fact that we thought we had already discovered the dream-based deceit in the segment because of what the "Hotelier" told Joui at the start of it, but it turns out that THAT was a red-herring of sorts for the TRUE dream-based deceit, that EVERYTHING was a dream, not just the creatures. god there are fucking layers to this im foaming at the mouth that's soooo good.

i guess that's what makes the "it's all a dream"-style trope present here feel less cliche. because, you know, it is a trope, and it's not really a trope that i'm fond of, but because there's actually more going on, it feels less cheap. what certainly helps is that the fact that it's roleplay, so the reactions from the characters are so much more raw, and there are some irl stakes (character dead = out of the series = can't play anymore). that definitely keeps you on the edge of your seat.

edit: something i forgot to mention—what i dislike abt the “it’s all a dream” trope the most is that it is very easily something that can be so, so cheap. all angst, no stakes or consequences, no lasting impact on the plot on the characters. however, not only is there a “physical” impact via several characters losing SHITLOADS of sanity (something not easily recovered) but we get to see a little more into the psyche of the characters. which i suppose is often the point of the “it’s all a dream” segments, but this dream—one with a lot of references to past major character death and itself contains major character death—rings especially true for the themes of the series: the world they live in is dangerous, and the work they do is lethal. people have and will die. and they do and will feel guilty, reguardless if they are at fault. it’s not a horrifying death dream just for the sake of being a death dream, it feels grounded in their reality, and i love that.

third, man he did not hold back. when Arthur was being beaten to a pulp by not!Brúlio, i was actually in shock, i was screaming. plus, i think the fact that Cellbit rolled a 001 when not!Brúlio attacked actually helped to hide the fact that this was a dream. it made it look like it was bad luck rather than the segment was designed to kill the characters (well, at least until he revealed that the damage was 1d4+1d6, but i'll get to that later).

gosh the narration of how not!Brúlio killed Arthur. holy shit. i don't. i don't even have words, that is DEVASTATING. that is probably one of the worst ways for a person to go. i know it's a dream but if i were Arthur i would be emotionally fucked up beyond belief. beaten to a bloody pulp by the father who once loved you so much, screaming at you for abandoning him and that it's your fault he died a horrible death. and then he drops your body on the ground like you're nothing but a pile of useless meat. god. damn.

and then Liz. ohhhh Liz. i just. i was devastated. her whole struggle with Alex, the man she treated so horribly. yes it's true the real Alex never would have said these things to you, but how do you know he wasn't thinking it? that he didn't want to? that what not!Alex says doesn't hold some truth? christttt. and of course the way she dies: in complete agony. and did she forgive herself? because, unlike with not!Brúlio, the creature turned into that weird wispy black thing just as she died, and i would assume that means she forgave herself (if those rules even apply considering this was all a result of the parasite's deceit (holy hell my brain is melting i am the man with the hand on the conspiracy board)).

fourth: the 1d4+1d6 thing! when he read that out, i was stunned. that is a LOT of damage considering all of the characters have ~10 HP. with an extreme roll, that's basically an insta-kill, or it's easily a two-hit-kill. i thought Arthur was unlucky, but when Liz also went down, i was---well, devastated, at first, because that's Liz, she's my absolute favorite and i love her, but i started going through all five stages of grief at once, and at some point i arrived at "no that can't be right" because Cellbit is a good writer. and to deliberately construct a scenario where it would be VERY hard for a character to survive while still in the middle of the story? yeah. and yknow the fact that there's still 6 other episodes fhdsjk. (then again the series continues regardless if a character dies and i haven't looked at other episodes' thumbnails or anything like that for this exact reason. so. i was going in as blind as i could reasonably be.)

in any case, realizing and connecting all of this and then hearing the "Hotelier" start yelling at Joui right after Liz died explicitly blaming him for it sealed it for me: this is a trick of some sort. this is a dream sequence of some sort. these aren't real deaths. (a smaller part of me was still scared that they were real because i know that Cellbit does not shy away from killing off his players' characters, if op and opq are anything to go by. but i digress.)

and then the characters turned to black goo. and i just about threw my computer. rip Luba who got absolutely targeted by the GM lmfao.

anyway uhhh that's about it regarding the dream sequence! loving luzidius!joui and how he just keeps switching back and forth. ((and it further supports my little side-theory that the mysterious blond woman last seen with Team Kelvin was a luzidious we win these.)) i was surprised to see Liz thinking it was so cool when she's been so suspicious of everything in Santo Berco since she got here, but i think she could definitely be using it as a distraction from what she just went through, and honestly she's just happy to see Joui is okay. (the way she gave on up words and just hugged him, the way she held his face in her hands, the way she dragged him down the hall to show Thiago and Thiago was just telling her to fuck off (/aff) because he was getting dressed, my heartttt i love these three, mentor-mentee dynamics my fucking beloved)

also new outfits! sweet! istg the new outfits are so Cellbit's way of apologizing for putting his friends through that. "hey sorry i killed your character in the most emotionally devastating way possible it will happen again wOAH LOOK AT THESE NEW CLOTHES AREN'T THEY SO COOL YOU SHOULD TRY THEM ON!!!"

i've been having mixed feelings about the sudden setting/genre change since the group arrived in Santo Berco. i really, really loved the urban horror-fantasy vibe that they had going on in op and the first 8 eps of osnf, but evidently, this is good as well. the genre is most definitely still horror yippee. i definitely miss the urban-modern setting, but i think i can get adjusted to this. (i'm just,,, not the biggest fan of the auto-heal crystals im sorry i had to say it they feel too op i know their use is limited to visiting the doctor but knowing they exist lowers the in-world stakes for me im sorry---)

anyway, ep 10! you beautiful monster! i have been typing for an hour! i need to go eat food! k bye!

[halogalopaghost]

dude im watching the 2003 show for the first time and i just watched SAINW and DAMN like I am in shambles 👍like I knew it was gonna be rough but like JEEZE like i cant get over how they killed off mikey leo raph like damn or how raph reahced for leo as he was dying even though they weren’t talking for so many years like 😭😭😭😭😭 I WILL NEVER EMOTIONALLY RECOVER FROM THIS and like what happened to the Donnie in that universe like he would’nt just leave them so did he just die or something ??? RAAAAAAA and like i tried talking to my sister about this episode and she didn’t really care so now im yelling about it to you bc like DAMN poor Donnie and leo looked so scarred and Mikey missing and arm and raph missing an eye like they went through it‼️‼️‼️ that episode was crazy like so much happened in it I need to sit in silence for an hour and process

Oh my condolences skgbskfns 💀 yeah SAINW is a life changing experience and I'm NOT kidding, you're never going to stop thinking about it!!

As for what happened to Donnie, there's nothing ever established in canon...but Peter Laird had some ideas.

Once you've finished your hour of silence, I have some fic recs for you,

Peripheral Visions by slipstream

An absolutely haunting fic that follows Raph and the universe struggling to reconcile how Don managed to change their future. I think about it constantly.

As It Never Will Be (mine)

Don decompressing and attempting to process what he witnessed during SAINW

Loose Ends by T33LA

A sort of follow up to the above story, Donnie's paranoia about the future crops up in some unusual—and potentially harmful—ways

Enjoy your suffering!

[noxiatoxia]

@pumpkinmetaphor HII ur asks are off and tumblr DMs are a nightmare to navigate so I will respond here to spare poor poor op

soo I have quite a bit written out actually, but idk if it'll ever come to be ...? I think I actually made a post abt it a bit back. It's just one of those many many things I write in my downtime for fun that will prob never get finished. Anyways the concept revolves around werewolves because I love stories of protags having some deep secret they cannot reveal for fear of rejection or worse. In the story, Kaoru has been infected with lycanthropy after being attacked badly by a werewolf. He lies about this encounter to everyone, doctors and his brother included, as he genuinely believes he must have saw wrong. He was attacked at night when he couldn't see well, the animal seeming to be a wolf...but there aren't any wild wolves in Japan. So Kaoru believes it must have been something else. (side note idk how the disease spreads as of yet. Think either saliva in the bloodstream like rabies or it's a thing of if you get killed by a werewolf you come back as one not knowing you technically died...)

Soso Kaoru beings acting strange after this event. After weeks recovering physically, coming back home, his personality shifts unknowingly to himself. He becomes a lot more restless at night, much more snappy and rude, generally kinda acting like his brother more lol. He just seems to be losing his temper easier and being more aggressive and physical, even with Hikaru, who he also becomes more snappy with. Obviously he doesn't understand why he's acting like this, neither does anybody in the club.

Then the big thing happens...full moon baybeeee. Up to this point Kaoru would feel more awake/elevated heartbeat when looking at the moon, but when the full moon comes around, he feels fucking crazy. Like manic and uncontrollable and he starts to freak out a bit. However he sticks it out because the club is hosting a prom event like episode 2, so it's like, whatever, go home and sleep later.

Until he makes the mistake of forgetting to keep himself busy, which leads to him compulsively staring at the moon, and then he finds he can't look away, and well.

And the transformation thing sort of has him black out. In my head, I imagine the werewolves look like regular wolves, just a tad bigger with bigger paws that may be more human-like. Definitely makes him lose all cognitive ability, and by the time he snaps back to normal, he doesn't know where he is, his clothes are tattered, he's in so much pain, and there's blood, and he's like whaaat the fuck happened here...

He's able to hide these facts, not wanting anyone to know how he found himself when he woke up bc that shit cannot be good. quickly through talk he finds that morning that haruhi got hurt last night, so of course hikaru (who is doubly worried about his brother who disappeared for a chunk of the night) urges that the two of them along with the rest of the host club check up on haruhi (who is at home trying to tell them "im fine guys gooddd")

but like, ofc its the club so they knock the door down lmfao. and tho haruhi plays it cool, she is obviously a little shaken about whatever happened. she has some bandages but nothing awful.

turns out, as she explains, an animal attacked her last night (cue tamaki wailing) and she scared it off by blindly slashing a pocket knife at it ("WHY ARE YOU CARRYING SUCH A DANGEROUS WEAPON AROUND!?!? IF YOU NEED BODY GAURDS KYOYA CAN DO SOMETHING IM SURE-" "i use it to open packages senpai.")

kyoya of course takes the idea of a wild, vicious animal on school grounds very seriously, and so inquires on the appearance of the animal. haruhi pauses but admits it looked like a wolf. of course kyoya tells her that can't be right, it must have been a stray dog, but haruhi insists it did NOT look like a dog.

anyways, the club are in uproar about this, arguing back and forth about this wolf-not-wolf that nearly killed haruhi, and kaoru is silently watching from the back as a terrifying realization dawns on him. he remembered waking up with there being blood. namely, blood on his hands and under his nails, and a nasty cut he got on his cheek which he assumed he acquired by tripping and hitting something sharp. But if he pairs that with what haruhi says, it seems INSANE, but also...it would make sense. everything to this point would make sense.

and it terrifies him. it terrifies him more that hikaru swears up and down that he's going to "kill that filthy mutt" that hurt haruhi, and it terrifies him that kyoya says he's going to bring this up with school staff about increasing security. he wonders if he told them that it wasnt just a wolf, it was HIM, that if they would be merciful, or if they would still hate him. if hikaru would want him dead still. and the fact is, he HURT someone. his friend. this is his fault and he cant even blame his friends if they wanted to go as far as kill him if they found out, now that he is literally a monster that can kill people.

this, finally, is where the carriage thing comes in (took long enough!) the story functions as an elaborate ass metaphor, where kaoru's lycanthropy is a physical metaphor for his anxieties about the person who he's supposed to be, the harm he thinks he's causing other people, the harm he's causing his brother. he's running around, trying to find a cure while keeping everyone in the dark, praying no one finds out before he can fix this and fix himself. and if he cant, his only option is likely a grim one, but he CANT let anyone know, it's too risky, he has to do this by himself. his self-destroying obsession with keeping everyone safe and doing the right thing for his friends causes him to push them away from fear of hurting them or getting hurt himself. there's that part of him that's convinced he won't be able to solve this.

it basically drives him to his lowest point mentally and physically. he avoids all his friends so he can't hurt them with his uncontrollable temper or possible transformation, he's doing tons of shady shit in an effort to cure himself. he goes to nekozawa bc if anybody knows how to solve this fuckery its nekozawa and nekozawa treats him like a little lab experiment lmao bc of course he is enraptured by kaoru's newfound form and the physical changes it has made to his body (sharper canines, faster-growing hair, possibly an inch taller, newfound silver allergy). but of course as news of the wolf attack on campus spreads so do rumors, some "crazy" rumors about werewolves being real, of course rumors that are mocked by most of the kids as being nonsense scary stories, but this does NOT help kaoru's paranoia...

as for how this story ends WELL it's unfinished so you can guess (i have no ending.) i do want some part of hikaru obviously finding out at the worst possible moment, probably a very unfortunate circumstance where kaoru is unable to escape transformation on a full moon and hikaru is there. and he probably begs and pleads for hikaru to leave him alone but of course his brother won't do that, and obviously he is fucking stunned to see his brother turn into ?? a wolf. like erm *marvel voice that just happened..... and since kaoru has no control in this form, he tries to attack and even kill hikaru. hikaru would obviously not fight back, bc he doesn't want to hurt kaoru. that and he is stunned silent.

there are other elements of the story i want. for example, if i ever finish this thing, i do have ideas of ayanokoji being involved somehow. probably a witness to kaoru's odd behavior/actual transformation and thusly being able to use this against him cuz Fuck Da Host Club. or even try to kill him herself bc he's a fucking wolf dude idk. i also had this scene in my head with arai being involved bc the night kaoru attacks his brother he wakes up far as fuck away from tokyo with no memory except knowing A) hikaru was there and B) there is blood all over him he can only think of the worst possibilities so he kinda wanders in an unfamiliar back road in a fugue state until some lady almost accidentally hits him with a car and is like. who is this child covered in wounds and blood......and very sane thing to do she is like. hey do u need like. a lift. you look like ur gonna die. you have like 3 stab wounds. and kaoru is like. floor it chief. anyways turns out it's arai's mother ! woah. which is funny because after helping Kaoru and hanging out with him she admits she's like, "oh i helped you cuz you remind me of my son. you seem about his age" and kaoru is like oh ha ha that's nice of you....and then fuckin arai shows up a few hours later and kaoru is like "ohhhhhhhhhhh............................uhoh."

to which since kaoru doesnt have his phone on him arai offers to phone haruhi for him since he has her number and of course 5 minutes later the host club is at their location in a fucking helicopter or some shit bc ZOMG KAORUUU WE WERE SO WORRIED ABOUT YOUUUUU WHERE DID U GOOOO (hikaru withholding information)

it's an incredibly "fan fiction-y" story i admit. but that's the fun of it. it could get soooo dramatic too. cuz like yeah duhh hikaru wouldn't want to kill kaoru ofc not but OTHER people ? there's a guy who is a werewolf. umm. can't see that going over well. and the general attitude kaoru would hold and the way he attempts to figure everything out on his own. the day he and hikaru reunite after hikaru finds out the truth could go so many ways, from silence to yelling to crying to awkward laughing to kaoru just blankly asking what hikaru plans to do with him now, like he's a prisoner accepting his execution. sorry i am a fan of introducing trauma between the toxic codependent twins. and like the other members of the club? i can see people like tamaki being quick to try and help kaoru (despite what he did to haruhi) and haruhi being like "this may as well happen welcome to Ouran Fucking Highschool" but people like Mori or Kyoya may be more hesitant, pointing out kaoru, while not malicious, genuinely CANNOT control himself in his canine state and has shown multiple times that can and WILL kill people, including his friends, and that can't be ignored or brushed off. maybe they put a muzzle on him idfk. either way, it's also a great metaphor for stigma bc once his friends start finding out, they are obviously treating him differently. Even (or especially) hikaru. he's being treated like a different person now. it makes him feel more inhuman than ever. they only see this awful monster he can become now, he feels, and honestly, maybe they're right. it's not all of who he is, but it's a part of him, a part of him that has hurt two people he loves most, and so he can't help but judge himself based off that too.

well ermmmm yes! that is my funny funny story that i have like 6k written down in a word document of that i may or may not finish who fuckin knowwws

[lume-nescence]

Giyu Meeting Y/n Kamado

an: i forgot to add this portion to the kamado sibling post im so ashamed oh my ahfiakcjps— so i’ll just call this part two that i hope will compensate. sorry to the friend who asked for him because i don’t know how to write giyu but i’ll see what i can do because this is in headcanon form so i have some sort of an advantage. plus i finished the manga but that was like four months ago auuuuuggghhh and i needed to skim through the end episode 1, just to get a fresh reminder. and i got carried away again okay enough of my rambling

genre: headcanons, scenarios, crack

cw: follows episode 1, blood, sword, axe, stab mention, not proofread

part 1

it’ll obviously be how episode 1 goes. but the three differences are: 1 you and tanjiro went out to sell coal, 2 nezuko didn’t get stabbed, and 3 tanjiro told you to go get help while he deals with giyu

but you, being the stubborn one, wanted to stay and help nezuko

and giyu finds this odd

like this person he’s holding is a demon? and you two still want to save her?

nezuko’s a demon now. no longer human. and yet, you both are determined to find a cure to bring her back to a human.

man he’s stumped

like woah! you want to stay put to attempt to save nezuko from his clutches???

despite him having a sword almost drawing blood from nezuko’s neck???

and you’re willing to do anything to find a cure???

that just means you have balls. same with tanjiro, because too wants to save his sister

giyu finds this bunch interesting to him

he ponders a bit, until he saw you walk up to him with tanjiro screaming at you in the background to come back

when you stopped in your footsteps you looked up at him

“you have some cool eyes”

he doesn’t know what to say

bro’s got a face that outclasses the surprised pikachu face

you really talked about his eyes?? of all things?? did you forget the situation that’s happening????? it kinda caught him off guard??????

that’s when you moved out of the way when you heard a war cry. tanjiro running up to giyu with his hands behind his back

giyu snapped out of it knowing what’s going on and slammed your brother’s head with the base of his sword which knocked him out

when you were shocked you were ABSOLUTELY livid. same with nezuko, she’s trying to get out of giyu’s grasp

and from your impulses you followed your intuition and kicked this man where the sun doesn’t shine

(i choked in a laugh after writing that sentence)

he made a small yelp and buckled his knees letting go of nezuko and his sword, squeezing his eyes shut

he’s probably going to get taunted even more when he gets back to headquarters

and you acted like that was nothing and dusted imaginary dust off of you

wow

i literally forgot to add the part where the axe comes in and just barely missed him how could i miss that

so anyways when that happened mans was even more shocked

nezuko rushes to you both and puts a protective arm, shielding her siblings

giyu, slowly recovering, opened his eyes noticing the sight in front of him

nezuko growls at him, protecting her siblings from him

and you gave him the stink eye

go you!

giyu was even more intrigued that a demon, nezuko, is protecting humans without having any desire to attack them

for they are her siblings <3

nezuko charges at him, attempting to kill him to protect her siblings while you stay with tanjiro

giyu immediately picked up his sword and parried the attack but he has a monologue moment

he remembers you and tanjiro telling him that nezuko will never eat a human. and he remembered the people he’d came across before told him the same thing but were eaten despite them being siblings. he knows nezuko must be hungry but she hasn’t eaten anybody, she chooses to protect her siblings instead

and finally that’s when giyu realized you all are built different

“these three.. maybe they’re different from the others.”

so you’re just going to ignore the fact that you got kicked in the

he sheathes his sword to knock nezuko out with a good old fashioned karate chop

before you do or say anything you get it as well

time to nap temporarily

after that occurrence, he’s decided. he’ll have you and tanjiro see urokodaki

he thinks you all have the potential. no, he knows.

[murdrdocs]

just saw ur watching twd and… yeah good luck with that. best and worst show ever (after teen wolf). i watched a few seasons with my sister when i was little, forgot about it, then binged it all last december and… had to pause after some decisions !!! were made. for some reason (when i catch the people in that writing room—). and then i went on another binge and finished it like two months ago. and like. i still haven’t recovered. at all.

like it’s so good. and then it gets so bad. and then it’s soo good again. and then… i guess the writers gave up and said if you’re still here after all these seasons you’ll take what we give you and you won’t complain about it because if you do, we’re taking andrew lincoln from you. and then we just sort of… let them do whatever they wanted. and yeah, we booed, but what can you do when you’ve committed a stupid amount of hours to watching all your faves die. at a certain point, you just have to stick it out to see how it concludes. the ending was not worth it. but also??? i cant even complain because i sat myself down for endless hours and watched it all anyway even though i knew i’d never be satisfied with how they resolved the show. like, there are so many video essays on how terrible the last few episodes are. and i knew that and i did it anyway. so.

i feel like you’re going to like negan. he’s such an evil gross man and you’re going to love him, i think. i hate him, but he’s so hot in that stupid leather jacket that sometimes i kind of… just forget my hatred for him. just a little bit. just for a while. then he speaks and i want to do awful things to him.

ALSO deaton (from teen wolf) is in it!!! he appears kind of late but oh he’s such a peach in it. i love him.

i am so sorry for rambling but twd has been one of my hyperfixations lately and NOBODY talks about it anymore ever since it crashed and burned. but like. it’s my baby. i love it. i also kind of hate it. but like. we’re locked in for life now.

im ngl i keep saying im gonna watch and then i get too scared bc on one hand i wanna feel like this abt a show but on the other hand i wanna protect my peace

but like ,,, just one season cant hurt ??? right ?? RIGHT??

either way i need to ogle at rick in a long form edits aren't doing it for me anymore. and dont apologize for rambling this was a good warning for me and im gonna come back to this after i start watching fr (in the morning i need joy at night)

the only thing ik abt negan is when hes like "wheres rick ??? dontttt careeeeee ... where's rick" (hes so real) (i think thats negan)

[sugdenlovesdingle]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

thanks for tagging me @im-overstimulated-and-im-sad

I love wasting time with these things when I'm supposed to be writing 😉

How many works do you have on AO3? In total 262, for tarlos 24 (and counting)

What's your total AO3 word count? 642,739 (holy shit)

What fandoms do your write for? at the moment just 911 lone star/tarlos, but I'm kind of looking into RWRB/firstprince, and depending on a certain mister R. Hawley, I might get pulled back into emmerdale/robron

What are your top five fics by kudos? I'll stick to tarlos for this or else it'll just be 5 robron fics Austin TX first responders week - TK and Carlos have to give a talk about their jobs at a school for Austin's first responders week. Filling in the blanks - a post episode/missing moment of Owen finding out what happened to Carlos in 4x04 See you later - Marjan going to say goodbye to a still recovering Carlos before she leaves in 4x05 - kind of a missing moment It started with a concussion - a meet ugly with Carlos literally running into TK while chasing a suspect Love and Lou - The Lou fic! Vet!Carlos AU meet cute with a little help from Lou I and II

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Not as often as I should. I never know what to say other than "Thank you" and i just end up reading the comments 50 times over (and i save the emails from AO3) and I'm like I LOVE YOU PERSON LEAVING A COMMENT ON MY SILLY LITTLE STORY YOU MADE MY DAY - but only in my head because i don't want to seem too weird. Idk - I overthink things.

What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? I don't do angsty endings. Though PS I love you is a little bittersweet I guess. TK getting a letter from Gwyn on his wedding day.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? All of them! I need a happy ending - always. But I suppose it was 'earned' the most in California where they both Go Through It before they get their happy ending.

Do you get hate on fics? I haven't on tarlos fics but I did get a hater on one of my anti chas robron fics once. I just deleted the comment.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Not really. I've tried... but it's just not for me.

Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? Not really. Unless you count the tiny blink and you miss it RWRB reference in Swing swing.

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not as far as I know.

Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope but I've translated fics from German to English for a friend yeeeeeaaaars ago - for Luke/Noah from As The World Turns

Have you ever co-written a fic before? I have, several. For Luke/Noah from ATWT way back in the day. it was an Experience™

What's your all time favourite ship? I can't pick just one!

What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Undercover Carlos - I really want to finish it but I'm so bad at multi chapter fics. I'm bad at planning and I lose motivation and everyone else loses interest. I'm going to try get back to it when I'm done with my flufftober fics (so somewhere next summer or so 🙃)

What are your writing strengths? Dialogue for sure. and cutesy oneshots.

What are your writing weaknesses? Describing stuff. Translating the "picture" I have in my head to words on 'paper' is The Worst. Also planning and plotting a story - I tend to make stuff up as I go (which is why I suck at long multichapter fics)

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? Don't do it unless you speak the language or know someone who does who can check it for you. Google translate is NOT your friend. A few words here and there (like the Spanish terms of endearment in tarlos fics) is fine, you can't really go wrong with that, but for more than that you need someone who actually speaks the language.

First fandom you wrote for? Luke and Noah - As The World Turns

Favourite fic you've written? For Tarlos I had a lot of fun with my Lou fic that I mentioned earlier and The perfect costume has done some interesting things to my insta algorithm, and The power of a muddy dog was fun because I like soft!TK with Buttercup. But all of my fics have *something* that makes them *special* to me.

If you've read all this... I'm impressed lol

tagging: @noxsoulmate @carlos-in-glasses @cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut @lightningboltreader @bonheur-cafe @sanjuwrites and and an open tag for whoever feels like doing this because I never know who to tag!

[angelwolf985]

finished watching supernatural s1-15 in 3 months! here are my opinions on the finale!

(warning: probably unintelligible, and very ranty) (+ obvious spoiler warning)

episode 18 was fuckin emaculate. genuinly. it was amazing. the one thing i didnt like about it was how it jumped about, same with 19.( i dont blame them for it tho, it makes sense with the story, i just didnt really love it.) 19 was good for the most part and served as a decent ending but was missing castiel and eileen (mention + presence) which sucked but what can you expect yk,,

episode 20. i have. so many issues with episode 20. WHY DID THEY EVEN????? LIKE TWO MENTIONS OF CAS, NO MENTION OF EILEEN, DEAN FUCKING DIEING, SAMS WIG, ???HEAVEN BEING LACKLUSTER???? it was so. just disappointing. cuz it could've been great. the end part of 20 was the only good part (jared and jensen signing off of the show). the show should've ended on 19 tbh. thats how im seeing it anyway. in my mind thats where it ended, but like, with cas and eileen back.

what i really disliked:

deans death. im pretty sure everyone hated that. and the whole like thing of him dying was really,, sorta,, weird? like; why did it go on so long?? did it happen bc he doesnt have god given plot armor anymore or was it just cuz?did jack see it? how did he feel about it? did he care or did he be all omniscient because he became god?? how did he survive that long? logistically? there was a fucking rusty rebar thing IN HIS SPINE (or like RIGHT NEXT TO IT??). WOULD THAT NOT?? PARALYZE?? OR WORSE???. and, im sorry, but i hated the forehead touch. it felt weird man. i get that they were close but,, not that close? even when they were more unhealthily codependent they wouldn't have done that. i think so anyway. i dunno. also. DEAN HAS SHOWN MULTIPLE TIMES AND IM SURE THE WRITERS WERE OVERTLY AWARE THAT DEAN DID NOT WANT TO DIE ON THE JOB. HE WANTED TO RETIRE WITH SAM AND CAS. ALWAYS WANTED THAT. he often said shit like "we're gonna die on the job, draw the short stick, thats just how it is, how its gonna end for us." (mixing quotes from the top of my head so, not exact) which he clearly thought would happen because pessimism but he NEVER wanted that. for HIMSELF or SAM. dean dying in this episode IS A CRITICAL DISSERVICE TO HIS CHARACTER.

sams mystery wife and (non mystery) child. BLURRY FACE WIFE. WHY IS SHE. WHY. also- how did he recover (seemingly) so quickly? i mean- if he really believed dean was gone FOREVER. when death hasnt meant forever in forever, how would he be so okay? idk. also, idk why, but sam having a kid seems very bizzare. could just be me. also. where tf is eileen. is she the blurry face wife? why would they do that if yes? (could be a load or reasons, either way they couldve like, said it was eileen, if it was supposed to,, idk,,,)

one or two mentions of castiel. did the writers just forget his CHARACTER IMPORTANCE?!?!? HES SO IMPORTANT TO THE STORY??? HE GRIPPED DEAN TIGHT AND RAISED HIM FROM PERDITION. HE LOVED DEAN. DEAN (INARGUABLY) LOVED HIM BACK. he (castiel) deserved SO. much better. my friend who has watched spn since she was a baby AGREES WITH ME. i GRRR I GRR I GRRR!!!! cas not being in this episode is such an aggravating disservice to his character. he deserved more. the fans deserved more.

alright im done ranting now. may add more on later. im gonna go rewatch the show and read fix it fics.

[thedoodlersdomain]

So, i’m only now just watching ep 26 because I lost motivation to listen for a but BUT IM BACK AND HOLY SHIT. So here’s some live reactions to it:

Bit the inside or my lip while eating from laughing at the mental image of Link trying to do a pull up on the shower curtain and just tanking it

Normal is either gonna rock the style at 24 or it’s gonna look absolutely horrific-

THE BOOING FOR SCARY’S INTRO

I gotta hear the Butthole Ricochet album

Real organ dice would be fucking dope as hell

Ngl I genuinely wanna sign up for organ donation just to get those dice

SELL AN ORGAN FOR THE DICE (honestly i would)

Literally just finished ep 25 before starting this and i’m still in shock about what happened.

The mental image of Willy getting the shit beat out of him is so nice.

I DIDNT EVEN THINK ABOUT HERMIE NO MY BOY

You get a mech suit, you get a mech suit, EVERYONE GETS A MECH SUIT. (Except for May)

oh shit may has magic hell yeah

God if I was frozen in place for two months I genuinely would never recover my fucking body would just stop i would never recover from that pain

gotta shake your head yes and nod it no

grant ;-;-;-;-; someone please get the li-wilson boys therapy

father-son bonding: panic attack pacing

Well now I relate to Taylor more because the feeling of having your braces tightened enough to make you lisp is too real for me that shit hurts so much

Taylor getting his life lessons from anime is literally me as a kid

ANIME ISNT REAL THIS REMINDS ME SO MUCH OF UNDYNE AND ALPHYS IN UNDERTALE

Link now canonically has selective mutism in my mind and no one can convince me otherwise

Does Scary even know where the anchors are though because I thought it was only Normal that knew?

“Anyone can walk back from the darkness.” Ayo Will how can you just say these things and not expect me to be IN PAIN

WAIT TERRY NO OH MY GOD I DIDNT EVEN THINK ABOUT HIM KNOWING ABOUT HOLY SHIT

Fucking goof dimension-

THE FART PORTAL

Lark is a mood as always

Sparrow ;-;-;

oh damn Normal-

NOT THE PROBABLY

Aaaaaand end of podcast lmao

Taylor is so fucking extra and I love it so much

ROLL FOR OBNOXIOUSNESS

RUN BITCH RUN

oh shit initiative time

Taylor has 1000% been dreaming of having a break down like that

ethnicity-

Give the white guy the nat 20

FUCKING ICE CLIMBERS IM WHEEZING

LARK ‘THE IMPORTANT ONE’ GARCIA OAK

OOOO ITEM LETS GO

oh shit OH SHIT Y E S

psychologically devastation: the best attack type

Lark has zoomies now

o u c h

LINK AHHHHHHHH

the li-wilson boys need therapy ;-;

oh damn

OH DAMN NO GRANT NO WHY

from nat 1 to nat 20 big up Taylor

OF COURSE HES GONNA NARUTO RUN

yup totally planned difficult terrain

Taylor & Hermie have the best dynamic (still gives me whiplash to know he’s taylor’s uncle)

All hail the whale

MAGIC USER SPARROW

fucking soy boy-

ah yes a kids movie where adults kidnap children

NOT THE EXTRA SOUND EFFECTS

irl dm murder too test the accuracy of an attack is the real dnd life

rip terry ;-;-;-;-;

THE FUCKING CONTENT WARNING

D O M I N O E S

no take backsies

THE PARABLE OF THE ITSY BITSY SPIDER

“anythings a parable if you take the wrong message from it” honestly Anthony do be speaking truth

i’m now evaluating the mental image I had of the whale because for some reason I really have been picturing just like a tiny pokémon sized whale in like a little cuboid fish tank and it’s taken this long for me to be like “oh wait. they said a whale and meant an actual whole ass whale. what the fuck-“

the whale of conflict creation

THE NINJA ROCKS HOLY FUXK (might start caring around ninja rocks in case i ever need to break a whale out of a tank to escape parents trying to stop me from stealing an amplifier with magic)

this entire plan was nearly all for nothing-

i need this episode animated in like a proper tom & jerry style cartoon episode

NATTY 20 HOLY SHIT

this is such a dumb episode i love it

Hermie really said ride or die

Rip the whale

HERMIE NOOOO ;-;-;-;-;

GRIPPY SOCKS

OH SHIT SCARY AND WILLY ARE GOING BIG BROTHER MODE

insight into the mind of taylor swift

BB banana skin marbles gag

ayo is Lark gonna drown-

hermie and taylor drown everyone challenge

LARK’S UNCONSCIOUS IN THE WATER HE’S GONNA DROWN

this episode is so dumb i’m wheezing

GLENN COMING IN FOR THE CLUTCH YES

sparrow please save your brother-

GRANT GOT KNOCKED UP I- what in the DC Joker

LINK JUST HIT PUBERTY WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HIS VOICE FUXKING DROPPED WHAT THE FUCK

i love hermie so much ;-;

THE NO-BETRAYERS CLUB i need merch

link ;-;

oh god what’s gonna happen

somethings gonna happen

JUST TWO CASUAL PEOPLE

OH SHIT WILLY NO

O H M Y. G O D.

TAYLOR

[oksullen]

I SAW U ON MY NOTIFS OMG ITS BEEN SO LONG HOW ARE YOU??

I don’t know why I just saw this omg!! I’ve been good :) I’ve been working a lot and busy with classes and just everything else life has to offer 😂

Willow is almost 2 years old now!! and she’s gotten so big and she’s been much more well behaved too!!

I’ve been on and off Tumblr and usually just go on to read some stuff on my favorite fandoms which surprisingly there isn’t a lot of the things im looking for!! I’ve really taking a liking to My Hero Academia but specifically 3 characters- Best Jeanist, Edgeshot, and Stain which there is like NO new content on them!! I haven’t finished the anime yet since im more of a manga reader than an anime watcher 😔

but more on Best Jeanist- I have become addicted to his character 😭 I’ve rebranded some of my usernames to him and I have a collection of merchandise of him on my shelf!! It started as a joke but it’s not a joke anymore!! same with Stain and Edgeshot, but most of my money has gone to Best Jeanist. I’m so sad there’s not much content on him, I say I’ll just write my own but that isn’t true- LOL but that’s ok, I can just use my free time to think of silly little scenarios of him in my head!!

Here’s a picture of my current anime collection, it’s slightly outdated but you get the idea:

Not pictured is a couple One Piece things since I’ve really started to like One Piece again and a couple plushies including a plushie of Shinsuke Kita from Haikyuu because he will always be my favorite (and Tsukishima too!! remember when my user was kaleshima!!)

I’ve always been taking a liking to making an OC and just my oc overall!! She’s mainly a MHA oc with a freaky blood/guts/gore manipulation power (it’s kind dark but I think it’s cool) and omg she’s taken up so much of my time and brain space, I feel like I’ve done more in depth creation of her than of myself 😂 I’ve also been buying a lot of art commissions of her!! I’ll attach a few images below, but I like talking about her so much that if I end up coming back here I might do some writing for her since I’d love someone or some place to talk about her :) all credits to the locket artists, I don’t think any of them have Tumblr though-: (the first image is her with Best Jeanist and the last is her with Stain!!)

I also have gotten into JJK but im still new to it, only watching the first couple episodes and reading the leaks 😭 which is a GREAT way to start omg

Also, don’t you love it when old hyper fixations come back??!??! yeah, that’s me right now with Mortal Kombat!! I’ve been a fan for almost 10 years now and the new game is so good!! and the characters omg… they made them so good 😍 thankfully Tumblr has a lot on them!!

but other than some things coming and going there hasn’t been a lot of new stuff in my life but compared to last year my mood and health has been so much better which is a win in my eyes, plus im starting to like a new guy which is good because I got my heart absolutely shattered little over a year ago and I swear I thought I was never going to recover, but recovery is possible and I give myself a lot of credit for the things I’ve done despite life seemingly staying the same.

I hope to move out of my parents house soon and continue my education further and my social life and all that but ik that won’t happen until a few years which seems like forever but seeing how 2023 has gone by so fast, I have a feeling it’s going to come quicker than it seems

I always say I want to come back to writing on this app and honestly I am in need of a new hobby because yeah listening to music is great but it doesn’t get you far!! which by the way, also a hyper fixation, bands and music and all that- I am really big into Nirvana right now and plan on dressing up as the lead singer Kurt Cobain for Halloween- which is funny I am dressing up because for the first time I have no plans for Halloween!! I’ll probably just bake some goodies and watch scary movies. How is Halloween celebrated where you are, if at all? American culture is so funny- and it’s funny because America doesn’t have much culture, it’s just one big melting pot which makes it unique

Speaking of music, my favorite artists are probably Nirvana (which is a band) and so is Radiohead, Weezer, The Smiths, Ghost, and Korn (which are rock/metal bands, I really recommend them if you’re into that!!) but I also really like Melanie Martinez, Lana Del Rey, Mitski, Alex G, and a couple other solo artists (fun fact, I went to many concerts over the summer including Melanie and Weezer- they were so good!!) what kind of music do you listen to? any you recommend?!

Half way typing this too, I thought of the idea of coming back to Tumblr to write not just drabbles on my current hyper fixations but maybe some life advice and psychology stuff, I have a way with words and advice and all that even though I am considered “to young to know all this” but I see it as both good and bad having an old soul at a young age- and not to say I am a little child either, but I haven’t even been on this earth for 20 years yet, soon enough though

That all being said, I feel like a huge chapter of my life is coming to a wrap up soon and I am excited to start the new one!! I’ve been on this app forever even though I technically shouldn’t have had Tumblr as a pre-teen but hey, we all start somewhere!!

How have you been? Anything new and exciting? Or maybe something you’ve learned? I’ve been trying to learn new hobbies and I’ve started to really dig into what I want to do as a career since I have to really decided soon (I am doing community college right now which is a free 2-3 year schooling opportunity to earn credits before you go off and study a minor or major- not sure if you have that where you live and if you do it’s still probably different)

Anyways I want to study business and business management since I have taken a liking to running/leading an organization/group and coming up with marketing ideas for various groups I spend my time in- including theatre!! I have a local theatre group I work in backstage and I am the stage manager this year which is great since I want to going into management

It’s “late” where I am- actually it’s just 9:30 but I go to bed early especially when I have things to do the next day 😔 I’ll probably just use the excuse I am tired to run to Starbucks and spend my money like I always do. I really have become addicted to Starbucks and it’s only going to worsen as “Capitalism Christmas” comes next

Holidays are so silly to me too, I don’t really enjoy them because they’ve always seemed to cheesy and not like they “advertise” but I hope to make the best of it this year, even if it just ends up being me working that day and then coming home to my dog. What Holidays do you enjoy? Any certain traditions or events you’re looking forward to?

I’ve written down most of my thoughts and this has been the most I’ve written in ages!! Maybe I should answer more asks from now on to get myself into the writing kick!! 😂

I hope you’ve been well and I hope we can talk more soon!! I totally just remembered we have each other on discord too!! I changed my user to @bestkaleist (Best Jeanist reference) so if you’re confused as to who that is, it’s me!!

wishing you all the well!! 🥬

[cogentsummoner]

9 People You'd Like To Know More

I was tagged by @ankhsapphic

Last song: Flow from FFXIV, the orchestral version specifically!

Currently watching:

- Kamen Rider Ex-Aid: it was my best friend's first kamen rider, and since they're the one that got me into the series, i really wanted to watch it with them. we're on episode 10 rn and having a blast

- Kamen Rider Kuuga: i've heard nothing but good things abt it so im giving it a shot! im only on like, episode four tho

About to start:

- prax and i are gonna be watching gotchard together as it airs so there's that!

- i've heard ooo and w are really good so i'll probably be wanting to watch them next. also kiva looks fun...

- do podcasts/dnd shows count? im going to count them. i need to catch up on mentopolis from dimension 20, and by catch up on, i mean...i need to start watching it. i also really need to get working on setting up my little mp3 player with naddpod episodes so i can listen to them at work

Just Finished:

- Kamen Rider Den-o!!! i will never emotionally recover from that. good fucking lord. i'm genuinely so happy it was my first kamen rider series and that i got to watch it with my best friend

Currently Reading:

- well, I just finished the novelization for Transformers: Dark of the Moon, and I'm about to start Gideon the Ninth since i've heard nothing but glowing praise for the series

Current Obsession:

- Kamen Rider, D&D, and maybe FFXIV now that i'm probably gonna be playing it regularly again when the Mogtome event hits.

I'm tagging @darkxyzdragon, @praxvidence, @jellijeans, @verraisemacro, @faterunes, @knightmareframe, @riegantabby, @kingofthenorth, @originiumdust

[richardsphere]

Leverage Log: The Van Gogh Job

Well i read the name of the episode and my dutch bones cringe in advance at the butchering of Vincents' name that i just know is imminent. (yes i know that the soft G does not occur in American English, or regular English. Doesnt mean that hearing Ven-Go doesnt hurt my soul)

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So guy has a Van Gogh painting Hidden somewhere (Spoiler: Its probably in the Wurlitzer) Team Leverage tries to find it. Bit weird that this episode starts with him sending Hardison and Parker ahead. (in that he's sending them to be a combination bodyguard and trust-getters, those are Hitter and Grifter roles.)

That would work with my theory re:Nate getting his affairs in order. But im also getting my first direct evidence against it. Nate explicitly telling Elliot not to learn about technology "that will never happen". Because, if he were wanting to get the 3 to cover eachother properly... He'd want Elliot to learn Hacker stuff.

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Elliot shows up pretending to be a gas inspector, only to run into a Mold Inspector... Honestly i dont know if the "someone else is using an inspector guise" thing is as funny as the idea of Elliot literally running into an actual health inspector would be.

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Oh a Parker and Hardison self-insert imagination sequence? Delightfull.

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Oh Elliot, just the thin moment of hope on his face that maybe, somehow this paper scroll in the ladies hands is gonna be the actual Van Gogh they are looking for. Lovely little moment. Its apreciated.

--- Sherrif Nate! --- Even in a WWII flashback, Elliot cant stop de-ammunitioning guns. --- Look im gonna say it, yes the segregation era star-crossed romance is effective. Its also not something i havent seen before. And I also think im too much of a mayo-man to say I can analyse it in a meaningfull degree, so im gonna just say its a nice story and good enough to disctract me from the name-butchering and move on to the obvious.

Its obviously in the Wurlitzer, they'll donate the thing, tell the news the art was in the Wurlitzer which means that now the Rollerrink has historic significance as "the place where the priceless Van Gogh Self-portrait was recovered after it was lost in the war", Rink gets monument status and is thus legally protected and the Van Gogh ends in a museum.

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Oh our Client is betraying us... What a shock. (no legitmately, he's enough of a Little Grey Man type that i actually forgot he existed. Good play on the writers casting someone so forgettable... and once more that's a legitimate compliment to the actor, its just hard to make it sound like one.)

Elliot's little "clink" and smile when he's finished unconcious-ing the goons is delightfull. Like this is a guy who thinks "if only every object i bludgeon with made music". Thats the face of a guy who is about to buy one of those rain-tubes for percussive purposes.

lovely little moment of Nate humanising the episodes traitor-client with the "thats why you loved it" bit. He's pitifull, not evil.

Bedside denouement, romantic yadayada about Dorothy's Loyalties.

And of course the final lesson "dont waste time". (im gonna be honest, its a bit "magical black guy" to have the guys entire purpose in the story be to tell the white character to get her act together romantically... But then again I'm too eggshell-skinned to really comment in depth myself, but it feels unfair not to at least mention that we've got a black character whose only narrative purpose is literally to espouse wisdom on the white character. But also the story needs a wrap up, every story about historic wrongdoings needs a "dont let your generation repeat histories mistakes"-message and having the lesson be given to emotionally struggling Parker makes more narrative sense then giving it to Hardison, the guy who's got a pretty good deal on his own feelings...)

In final summary, lovely episode. Too historically and racially charged for someone as cloud-coloured as myself to really say much more about without getting torn apart for "stealing minority voices" so im Shutting Up Now.

[sanstropfremir]

swf is over. they actually performed in front of a live audience which i thought was interesting (from what it seems, its the eliminated crews x friends and families of the participating crews; but nevertheless, i think the camerawork was so much better this time.) there were two rounds - (1) an artist collaborated w each crew and produced a song for them; and (2) solo crew performances.

opening stage: all crews

first round:

1. coca n butter x cl, 2. holybang x simon d x gray, 3. la chica x chungha, and 4. hook x sunmi

second round:

1. coca n butter , 2. hook*, 3. la chica, and 4. holybang

*english lyrics for hook's song: I thought I dozed off for just a moment but I’m already old and I thought you’d always be a young child but you’ve already grown up in my heart, I want you to be happier so I’m looking for the words to tell you that… Study! … no that’s too basic Be sincere! … I can’t do that either Love! … no that’s too difficult Live your life! Will you forgive me for not being a better mother? Can you promise me that you’ll be a better mom than me?

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final winner: holybang.

final ranking: 1. holybang, 2. hook, 3. la chica, 4. coca n butter, 5. ygx, 6. prowdmon, 7. want, and 8. wayb.

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thinking about it, i dont think the crews had sufficient time to actually prepare well-thought out performances. if its structured like how all mnet competition shows are (which i believe are relatively the same), i think the crews had like 3-4 days max to prepare? i know for smtm, rappers shared that they stayed awake for like 18 hours to prepare for each round and for kingdom, idols shared that they really had only two-three days of practice. and because each dance crew has to come up with their own choreo, i think its similar to the rappers where they pulled all-nighters (unlike the idols who had a whole creative team to manage and pull it off). but take this with a grain of salt - just my assumption. after swf, the leaders from each crew are going to be on variety shows so maybe they'll provide more context.

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re. first round, i thought it was unnecessary for the singers to be present? esp with how they just stood off to the side. cl was the only one who entered center stage for a bit but overall, i think all the stages were a bit awkward?

second round, i actually liked hook's stage. similar to prowdmon's previous stage where they performed to spoken poetry. this was, in my opinion, their best choreo the whole show.

i don't really have that much thoughts or opinions other than what was said before. the finale wasn't entirely that exciting for me.

oh i'm glad they finally got to perform in front of an audience, even if it is just friends and family. sometimes those are the best audiences, actually. it does make a slightly weird descalation of scale though, i'm not gonna lie. like those first performances were so unnecessarily large but the finale had to be necessarily small because of space restrictions. i don't know if it was a good television choice, but it was probably the only choice mnet made that favoured the dancers to some degree.

it is probably likely that they didn't have much time to choreograph and prep, which is irritating and mnet must know at this point that it doesn't create good performances. if they were only gonna give them less than a week to prep then they should have at the very least hired some costume techs and a creative director for each of the crews (or one for the show in general) so that they would actually have time to work things out properly.

i like that they had a first round with the singers, but also yea it was absolutely unnecessary for them to actually be there. it definitely made the stages awkward because they were (for some reason) still wanting to film the singers, even though the dancers were supposedly the focus. and even though there was an attempt to work cl into the performance more, i still think that anything more than that gets stilted and a bit weird because then you're verging on just....choreographing for an idol. i'm assuming they were not judged for the first round? if they were that's a bit...hmm. it would make more sense for those stages to be more like special stages or entertainment filler, rather than like, an actual challenge round.

honestly when i saw that the winner was holybang i was like '...huh?' because that's definitely not what i would have predicted, but after watching the performances from the final round i can absolutely see that. they kind of sat in the middle of the pack for most of the competition, but this last choreo is easily their best and the best of the whole episode. it's a different musical choice, the costumes are great, and it uses a lot of isolation in unusual ways, which make it stand out.

i agree i think that this is hook's best choreo, and i love that they used ksl. i'm a big fan of incorporating sign language into performances (bsl interpreted shows are standard practice here) and i've seen a few that are fully intergrated and there's a lot of untapped potential there. i do wish it looked less visually similar to prowdmon's routine but with the amount of same-looking hiphop routines we've seen, i'm not too pressed about it.

i wish i had more to say about coca n butter and lachica's choreos but that reaction shot of monica where she's totally flat faced basically sums it up. i think it's mostly a personal taste thing at this point, since i don't think i've liked a single coca n butter performance and lachica has been mostly too on the nose for me. there's nothing especially wrong with either of these routines, they're just not that compelling to watch. i have the same observations for the singer collab stages; they're just nothing that eye catching about them. holybang did reprise theirs on mcountdown so i got a chance to watch fully stationary stabilized footage and i still wasn't that impressed. i am glad they finally managed to fix (sort of) the camerawork though, even if it took until the goddamn finale.

[seeyoumondaydevi]

top 5 daxton moments ;)

you asked for it bae

I-  now why would you put me thru this (T.T)

Anyways... apologizing in advance for the gif quality 

   5. Paxton hitting Devi with his jeep. + “As your boyfriend” This was just so... *SWOONS* The way he's all like OMG ARE YOU OKAY DID YOU HIT YOUR HEAD SHOULD I TAKE YOU TO THE HOSPITAL and she's all like omg you came to the dance for me and Paxton's like What- yeah obviously duh now lets go back to being worried about you.

4. Daxton in 1x04 Ganesh Pooja:

WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN. If you don’t know know im also a Tamil girl just like Devi and I’m 18 rn and four to five years back(12-14) I would be so embarrassed to wear anything traditional (past that stage btw lol) Plus every guy I've even been around just tease you SO MUCH for what you wear. So Devi being paranoid about running into her school kids during Ganesh Pooja was so relatable. Especially the "Some people think im not Indian enough and some think I'm TOO Indian". Anyways.. I remember watching the scene for the first time...  when Devi was kicking the lockers and Paxton shows up I literally fell of my chair because I was SO SURE he was gonna make fun of her and I sat through the whole scene covering my eyes with my hands cause bro I was so ready to go off on the guy if he made fun. I literally shrunk in size hoping he won’t like make fun of her or she won’t say something embarrassing but then he like asks her why is she so frustrated that she’s kicking LOCKERS and then asks her ABOUT her culture and festival... seems interested... listens to her.. calms her down AND COMPLIMENTS HER?? Honestly its one of the most underrated daxton moments. 

3. “I thought we were....” 2x03

This scene just.... the angst>>>>>>  “You must think I’m such an idiot... I liked you... I- I thought we were... doesn’t matter”

Dude but like get your ass back here and finish the sentence. 

2. HEAT WAVES - 2X09 Do I even have to elaborate this? like I don’t even know what to say-  Like bro they mentioned there is a storm coming several times in that episode and this mf decides to go climb onto a roof of a girl... who’s mom HATES you. She called you an idiot who ruins girls futures by knocking them up and getting them pregnant... and you like 6 episodes back got YEETED by a speeding car and JUST recovered. So you climb the roof in POURING RAIN  then you go and text her AFTER you get there still standing in a storm like heyyy watchu doin?? you want company?? *with no emojis* (no emojis.. what a monster right?) js cause there were tons of people attacking him for the dumbest reason ever 

Then he knocks and gets in and kisses her LIKE %&”£^%”& the thought of the scene just makes me blush so much that my mom thinks im dating someone and she’s so ready to murder me lol. AND WHEN HE LEAVES. THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HER. HIS VOICE. GOOD. LORD. I WOULD SELL MY ORGANS FOR THEM.

Why didn’t they give us the daxton call?! Lets also talk about how his shirt went from dripping wet to dry.. thats how long they made out for.. 1. Daxton in 1x08  I can’t separate the moments in this episode.  From the start, Devi thanking Paxton for helping her out with the sex rumor even tho he was mad at her... 

asking him if they could be friends again... and then at school Paxton complimenting her AGAIN.

 Paxton helping Devi out of the pool, giving Devi his sweats (hey she never gave them back) 

THE CAR RIDE HOME with Fire For You playing in the background and all those glances please

... it gives me heart palpitations (still mad they blurred out Paxtons smile in the last one)

Paxton asks her if shes okay and she’s yk opening up and the way this parallels with 2x08 where Paxton is opening up and Devi is listening- 

so yeah she opens up to him about how she thought everyone in her life is done with her and Paxton just kisses her like I’m not done with you no hi wyd 

 his THUMB??? SIR?? 

Devi’s whole “Thanks for the ride and the kiss, I mean the kiss- I mean the clothes..” and Paxton just :

and he leaves saying “See you Monday Devi” :) he literally had no intention of avoiding her until her mom called him an Idiot who sleeps around and gets girls pregnant to ruin their futures 

I miss them hi