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miamicommune · 6 months

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#just wish anything felt right #anything at all.

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jamiethebeeart · 2 months

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I don't know where all these Spinaraki shippers came from in the last few months but hello hi welcome thanks for being here I love that y'all are here

#spinaraki #spinneraki #shuichi iguchi #shigaraki tomura #mha spinner #mha fanart #bnha spinner #🙈 i accidentally gave then sunset eyes but i dont have the heart to change it #(no seriously - the more of you that pop up the happier i get)#also!!!! theres been like 4 or 5 new spinaraki playlist on spotify since i last looked im BARKING im so excited to listen to them all #also apologies for my apparently just shy of 8 hours playlist on there but ive no regrets #if you ask i can defend each and every song that I've included there with references #honestly kind of wishing someone asks me to defend them #mha jbee #anyways 😭 this drawing makes me go “they were just kids” like agdhdkfkglglg 21 is so young #anyway i cant believe the manga this year (i assume thats why so many ppl started shipping them) its just so!!!!#people said we (shippers) were delusional and that shigaraki never felt anything special for spinner but wow! manga said we were right 😭#i mean!!!!!! they were friends 😭 they played together 😭 Shigaraki dedicated his last message to specifically spinner 😭

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brittie-frog · 1 year

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I'm so down bad for Maddox and Ashlyn that my three favourite scenes are:

3. The Redlyn breakup - the chillest break up, Red supporting Ashlyn going after Maddox and the most insane storyline of Red realising he's bi because he kisses Seb

2. Just the entirety of Maddox during opening night - having an existential breakdown over your love life that you break the sound controls and then just give up on your stage manager duties and disappear (probably to help quinn)

1. The confession - a scene I want on repeat: the explanations of how afraid they are of how much they like the other then the "should we just stay friends?" Before having such a love induced make out their just completely ignore Carlos being there. (Also Maddison giving up and telling Maddox to stop coming back to her when she clearly likes Ashlyn... my baby just needed that push)

I love all my queer children but these two are the wlw so I love them just slightly more.

#the hilarity of EJ seeing Maddox so focused on Ash that she forgot his question at the end of s3 that he immediately went and #CARVED THEIR NAMES INTO A TREE WITH HEART TO SHOW THEM WHEN THEY FINALLY GOT TOGETHER #i love them all #also i will not take arguments about the most crack storyline #Seb and Red kissing came out of no where and hit me like a metal chair #the french guy not actually being french and liking red felt right in my soul #granted i literally dont remember s2 and barely recognised him nevermind remember anything that happened between him and Ash #and jared(?) was just annoying #he showed up ruined madlyn first kiss admitted he liked carlos and then disappeared #its definitely a season i will rewatch at some point soon maybe as well as season 3 #hsmtmts #high school musical #madlyn #maddox x ashlyn #ashlyn caswell #hsmtmts season 4 #high school musical the musical the series #im sad its the end i wish i could have an entire season of just madlyn fluff #but im happy with two seasons of pinning and a brilliant confession

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sciderman · 8 months

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You said that if you dated Peter or Wade it would make you miserable. Which– Okay fair, Wade does have a history of purposely hurting the people he loves.

But what about Peter? Why do you think dating him would make you miserable?

because I’ll always know I had the option to climb a 6’8 cyborg and I passed that up for a sweaty little twunk that I perpetually have to remind to bathe (sorry peter)

#I don’t know. I don’t think peter is good boyfriend material. I think his insecurities would get exhausting.#Wade has bottomless patience. me… I don’t know. I don’t think I could. I’ve got my own stuff going on. I don’t want a Project.#peter is definitely a project. and he needs someone with shed loads of patience and perseverance.#me I just. I wanna have a good time. so. come to me my big beautiful time traveller. whisk me away.#take me to the beach. you can disappear after I don’t mind I’m not needy. just spend a beautiful romantic week with me.#sci speaks #I don’t really know what kind of person I’m compatible with really actually.#all my relationships have been. pretty short.#and I don’t think it’s any fault of my own really. and I don’t feel any loss over them at all. like at all. I wish I did. but I don’t.#a sci has so very thankfully never felt heartbreak.#but it makes me kind of question what kind of person I am when it comes to this sort of thing.#because I really don’t know.#I don’t know if I want commitment. I don’t even know if I want sex these days.#I … weirdly… am so devoid of yearning these days. like I feel content right now on my own. I don’t even feel lonely.#I used to yearn but I think I’ve moved past it. and I kind of just want to have a good time.#and that doesn’t even . involve a relationship or anything anymore. like I don’t think I want one actually. it feels like I’m Over it.#it’s kind of great because I’ve never felt so calm in a long time. all because I decided that I don’t. actually Need anything.#I don’t need anything more than what I have. and that’s brought me rest after So Long being restless.#but if a massive time traveller came and whisked me away on sexy adventures how could I say no

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silkjade-archived · 25 days

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i haven’t been here much recently, and i’m sorry i’ve only been negative on the off chance i’ve been online, but let me just say one last piece before the end of this month, so that maybe the next might be better….

#or maybe my time here ends w this month…i’m not sure i guess it all depends on how i feel but as of right now #everytime i think i'm fine i open tumblr and immediately am sad again the whole app has become my doomscroll at this point #i got a notification on a random talking post from a while ago and it felt like reading the words of a completely different person #lately i find it difficult to find any joy here at all when it always feels so lonely… a type of loneliness i’ve never experienced before #everyone always has ppl interacting w them who are interested in their stuff or are always sent things that are reminiscent of them....#i’m always praised for remembering stuff abt other ppl but i wonder if anyone remembers anything abt me #what is it about me that is so forgettable am i dull am i uninteresting did i not solidify myself enough do you guys just not like me lolz #but i don't want this to come across as guilt tripping or being ungrateful to what i do have because ik comparison is the death of joy but #it's still hard to watch when it's so in your face and it makes me think if ppl only talk to me because they feel obligated to #because anyone can say empty words.... i wish my perception of things didn't turn bitter i wish i hadn't become so jaded but #over and over i've felt irrelevant cast aside overshadowed and i cannot exist in a place where i feel like i'm a ghost in the corner #idk i've never felt like This before and i'm at least glad it's something i can walk away from by just....leaving...#sad that this used to be somewhere i can run away To but now it's become somewhere i want to run away From #i don't know...even if i get over whatever this is...things will never be the same for me... i just don't think i belong here #if only i had never made this blog then i would have saved myself a world of turmoil

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lyriumrain · 2 months

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Shout out to everyone who was alone when they came out of surgery

I was going to make this trans-specific, but as I was typing I realised this would suck no matter what you had done. So, to people who wanted someone to be there:

I'm sorry you were alone, or if no one could visit until days later when the scary moments had already passed. I'm sorry no one was there to celebrate you coming out the other side.

You made it, you're alive. I'm hugging you and leaving balloons and stuffed animals (that you may or may not want lol) by your bedside.

#skip talks #hearing funny or heart-warming stories about things people said to their loved ones immediately after surgery always hurt just a little bit #hearing about how someone waited up into the small hours for their person to come out/wake up #i wish could've been there for me #but due to a few factors it wasnt possible #i was happy! but also felt really alone and uncomfortable and i was in a shared ward so i couldnt even relax #😩😩#then came home to find mum had tried to 'help' by clearing out my room and rearranging things #i was NOT in the right headspace to receive that well or wirh grace #it made me anxious and ruined my return home #but of course i was the one who had to say sorry for not being grateful 😑#there are typos here but i cant do anything about em im using the app lmao

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spaciebabie · 6 months

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does any other demiromantic (or arosepc doesnt rlly matter) feel like. extremely awful when they experience romantic attraction or is that just me.

#spacie spoinks #bruh #like. while im experiencing it i wish so badly that i wasnt 😭#i feel disgusted. is this what romantic repulsion is???#cuz like ill be experiencing all the lovey dovey stuff yk #''ooohb i wanna kiss dem oooh what if we help hands'' romantic crap but its like. anxiety inducing #like it feels awful??? is this normally how it feels?? i dont like it.#it like. doesnt feel right or natural and im assuming its b/c i just like?? barely feel it ever?? and thats why???#strange as hell.#i recently felt romantic attraction 2 someone (it has been 2 or 3 years since i last felt it) and it came on really strong for like #a week and that was like the worst week of my life #i couldnt think abt anything else but them like it wasnt even like. fantasies or anything just like.#the concept of them. my brain would just be like ''hey remember this guy''#I LIKE COULDNT SLEEP #HOW DO YOU PPL ENJOY THIS????#me; clutching my head for ~a week: AUUUGH!! THE PERSON!!! THE PERSON!!!!!#im so serious this is how it feels w/springtrap. hes like a blight on my psyche #the feelings have faded mostly i think. i think im normal abt them again (thank god)#its so strange. i think a romantic relationship would be fun but then i start feeling the feelings and its. awful.#so horrid #also like. im considering that maybe the relationship i would like some day isnt romantic but a qpr #idk. ive never been in any kind of serious relationship (never wanted 2 and have never been approached for it)#sometjing 2 think abt i guess?#anybeans. i tire.#hope i never experience that again #ik that like in 2-3 years ill be like: ''man. idk what past spacie was talking abt. would be nice 2 feel romantic attraction again''#NO SPACIE IT WONT!!! REMEMBER!!!!!! REMEMBER WHAT YOU WENT THRU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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dayurno · 7 months

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my advice for anyone whos growing more and more frustrated with the state of aftg and fandom at large is that arguing is fun but you need to be happy. ok. you need to. its hard when bad faith takes are dropped to your doorstep but you need to be happy and enjoy yourself and have fun or there's no point in anything at all ever. ok. fandom is not real and nothing is worth more than your enjoyment. i love you please make sure to have fun and reach out to a friend today. for me

#this goes doubly for fans of color if i'm honest #i say this bc a lot of my mutuals either currently or in the past have been very upset about how the fandom acts #and ive Done My Rounds with that ok #ive survived great wars even. and they did not make me happy #yes i was right and yes i should have said it but ultimately there was no material harm to choosing to have fun instead #lifes hard as it is in the real world where real things happen why would you waste your precious fun time on fighting crusades #and trust me i understand deeply the wish to fight crusades. Ive Fought Them. it got me hate mail and #an overall loss of passion for something i held sincerely in my heart #theres nothing more worthy than your enjoyment im serious. none of this is real and the world is hard out there #you need to get a good thing while u can #i dont remember a single time where ive actually felt vindicated by arguing with people online about. anything really but even more so aftg #but i remember in perfect and fond detail every time the (now defunct) kandreil discord server came up with an au #or even just normal casual conversation #i remember asks i got years ago about kevin day hcs that i hardly even agree with now but still love #trust me you will Not remember these squabbles what you will remember is what you loved and if youre lucky thats a lot of memories #so have fun ok. for me #txt

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kohakhearts · 6 months

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theres a really. special kind of despair in the uncertainty brought about by moments of success and achievement. the inevitable “what now” of reaching your goals. and i kind of wish someone had warned me how hollow graduating university would feel, tbh

#taylor.txt #im miserable primarily for other reasons right now but i dont think i appreciated how much this just…wouldnt feel like anything #i think especially in my case as someone who so desperately needed ‘going away to college’ to get out of my childhood situation #and now for the past 5 years everything ive done has been for the purpose of getting my degree and finishing school #like im fine i guess i just kind of wish i could feel proud of myself or happy its over instead of like dreading the ceremony and feeling #like everything i have to do for grad is just one more thing i have to check off a list. getting my grad photos done felt nice but idk #it kind of feels like no one really cares which. idk why i would expect it to NOT feel that way. but yeah #tl;dr im around Kinda…need to finish stuff up but im over the really busy part of this all. kinda just coasting to the end here tbh #when this is over i’m gonna get to my request fics. prommy. wanted to do them over the long weekend but i was sick :(#anyway like to be clear im fine. people have been pointing out today i seem down and i think embarrassingly a collection of my students #noticed me crying on the bus today but thats life i guess you make do. im sad and thats ok. tbh

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floral-hex · 7 months

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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

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semiotomatics · 3 months

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what are the consequences of lying to a psychiatrist asking for a friend

#AKA what wld their reaction likely be if i told them i havent been taking my meds for the past month #and that ive felt better in that time than ive felt in the past 2 years #thats like. thats good right #thats a sign i *shldnt* be taking these meds right #like im not saying im anti-medication or smth #there are still things going on w me that i think meds cld help with #i just really truly believe i was put on the wrong ones at first #and rather than stop and go “okay maybe these ones arent working” we just started treating the side effects with OTHER meds #like #fuck #i KNEW they werent working from the moment i started taking them #and i TOLD my drs #but they were just like “give it more time” or “well lets add this one on and see how you feel”#im so curious now what this past year wldve been like if id never taken any meds #i genuinely think it wldve gone better #anyway. i think im just gonna be honest w him #im not a danger to myself or others rn #i dont think hed see it as a Red Flag or anything #im specifically trying to tell him how much *better* i feel off of them #god. wish me luck.

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theultracharmingladynoire · 3 months

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#I MEAN. I LIKE GIRLS. RIGHT. WHY DOES THIS FEEL SO WEIRD. I HAVE HAD ONE(1) CRUSH BEFORE AND THAT WAS A GUY.MAYBE BECAUSE OF THAT? BUT THEN #NOW WHENI THINK ABT IT WAS ONLY HOW HE LOOKED. ESPECIALLYY HIS EYES AND HE HAD VERY UHHH DRAWABLE FEATURES. DOES THAT EVEN MAKE SENSE #THINKING OF IT...I NEVER EVEN LIKE THOUGHT ABT CONFESSING OR DATING OR EVEN TALKING WITH HIM....I actively avoided even thinking about it #at that time i thought that was because in a way i was guilty of having those feelings for him considering we barely had interactedand it f #felt weirdly creepy thinking of osmeone that way without their knowledge(??)#now i still retain some of that sentiment but also...was i really romantically or sexually attracted to him at all?#when i see people and actors and characters online i do find them hot but irl...do I really want that sort of thing?#whenver i read stories of romance and close friendships too i aways want to have those in mmy life. but #like okay romance aside...even in friendships i.i just can't do them?#i like helping people and i o enjoy having casula conversations i like being nice to people too nut #but it. it feels sort of suffocating to be close to people emotionally?#i dnt know how to put it but there's always a limit after which it starts feeling weird. i want close strong bonds with people but ifeel so #uncomfortable when it starts happening.so many people around me love me in all different forms but o i really love them all back in the sam #intensity? I think I can only say that for my parents. my friends...i don't know.#do i really care about them asmuch as they care about me?#i do a lot of things...i say a lot of things that can only be said if i cared about the other person honestly and earnestly..#but. butto me it really feels like it isnt that deep #these ats of servic don't come from my heart nor my head #i just. do them because...i don't evenknow..that's just my response...i really dont think anything of it.#i don'tknw. this is all so stressful i wish icould just do whatever i ahve to do for a day interacting with peopel andleavingeverything beh #behind when icome home. but then it feelsso lonely but being around people also makes me feeluncomfortable when i try to establish bonds wi #them.#i don't knwo i wish i never gto close to them in first place.....life wouldve been so much easier

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dude-iloveu · 7 months

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#u knooooo aeron was just a one off character i made on a whim #how did we get here [head in hands] i wish he dies #i don't remember any of their designs and i did not refer anything just for the sake of it #tho i did remember that she (next to aeron) had the dying anime mom type hair so i had to change it later lol #i do not know what type of bat that is on the bottom right i just wing all their designs #sketchs #too late rn gotta sleep but drawing this felt nice i might just keep it

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hakunonon · 1 year

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fucked up that even though they all debuted in the same singularity, jing ke and spartacus each probably received more screentime, relevance, and character examination in lostbelt 3 than boudica has in her every appearance since septem combined.

#literally the last time i can remember boudica appearing as anything other than a two line cameo (usually in chaldea's kitchen)#is fucking dead heat summer race #one of these days fgo actually will release an alt for her #and in an interview they'll just casually mention that they had her designed and her voice lines recorded like 7 years ago #and they just never felt like the timing was right to debut her #and i'll fucking tear my mattress in half #also i'm not being a hater jing ke and spartacus deserved that rep they *earned* that rep #just wish boudica would see some of that love #hakunonon vs the gacha

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deanpinterester · 1 year

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REWATCHED NIMONA. SOLID 9/10

#uhhhh me #nimona #the only real issue i had with it was that i wish it ended with nim appearing in the bg unbeknownst to ballister #instead of on a joke #other than that: amazing showstopping #However comma. it was a mistake to watch it with my parents #it felt like running a very horrible marathon #allow me to vent for a bit: right at the beginning my dad was like 'why is the protagonist brown'#and 'is this movie about being gay 😑'#that was like a preliminary litmus test. like if they aren't alright with bal and ambrosius holding hands #then they're definitely not going to be okay with everything else #so the whole time i was like. holding my breath. prepping for the inevitable #luckily at the kiss they just gave unappreciative huffs instead of like. actually saying anything #they just said some off colour stuff that rly pissed me off and i Know it would be impossible to explain why they should be nicer than this #parents ily!! but pls get some better opinions #anyway. enough about all that. i think my parents are too used to normie disney movies

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akilice · 9 months

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Almost done with atla book 1 and I hate this northern air temple episode with a passion actually

#aang had every right to be upset #there's nothing wrong with seeking refuge in the temple but what's wrong is #destroying the culture that is all that's left from an entire nation wiped up by genocide #its the fact that guy didn't even attempt to preserve anything he just destroys things as he likes #and the way sokka and katara were insensetive to aang's pain especially sokka felt out of character when they were the ones who saw first h #hand his anguish over finding out the air nomads were wiped out #the kid in the wheelchair is cool though i like him and he was nice and respectful to aang #wish he was in a better episode #anyway #this was a long rant i just wanted to get it out of my system

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