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mebiselfandi · 4 months
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POV you finally found that fullback friends clip
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kaminarikokyu · 1 month
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@whirling-fangs / here.
she had began to drift off to sleep. sure, the futon was a bit old and not as comfortable as the beds in the mansion, but zenitsu didn't seem to mind. golden eyes struggled to stay open, until she felt inosuke's hand brush past her face. her eyes sleepily gaze at his palm, sitting up a bit when she feels it in her hair. she reaches to gently grab his hand with hers, wrapping both her hands around his with a soft grip.
" i'm here, " she whispers. " i got you. "
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she shouldn't cry. she shouldn't cry. but the tears have begun and they haven't stopped. she shouldn't even cry, she's not the one stuck in a bed right now. but she worries. she can't help but worry.
all they have is each other.
" aoi say's you're g-gonna be just fine, " she sniffles. " you're gonna heal up and y-you and i are gonna be back to tussling. i promise. " she squeezes his hand tight. " i promise. "
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suntails · 2 years
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this is me literally every single time i sit down to draw my son
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stillfruit · 6 days
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i love not knowing if i'll ever be healthy again i love all of the time i've used to move my body become nothing i love spending my adulthood wasting away year after year for various reasons baby!
#i know i'm being dramatic and privileged etc etc right now but i hate living like this#i probably had covid in the beginning of august and since then my heart and lungs have just been fucked#so now i'm probably looking at at least 2 years of long covid and maybe permanent neurological damage#could i be lucky and get better in few more months? maybe. do i believe that will happen? no. optimistically maybe next summer id be better#my symptoms are not that bad considering what i know other people have suffered but at the same time that makes it feel not real#otherwise i'm pretty much fine except i feel like fainting alot after standing up or excerting myself and anything beyond walking#spikes my hr to 160 and right now even laying down my hr is around 80. this comes with the associated shortness of breath etc#what fucks me up about this is that my normal hr is low with my rhr being under 50bpm and i'm physically active#so basically i've went from regular running and half marathons being no issue to not being able to jog 1km at the slowest pace possible#without spiking my hr to zone 4#so now with the recovery time of this being however long if properly ever i'll have to basically start all over again with everything#i biked to the grocery store yesterday and that took me out for the rest of the day because my heart rate just didn't go down afterwards#outwards i look fine and i wouldn't be as affected if sports and moving wasn't a part of my life and relationships but it is#i've read studies about recovery times and a lot of them don't feel applicable because the test groups are either very different from me#based on the baseline health info such as activity levels or they're elite atheletes which i am not#some have given me hope that keeping my hr under like 130 by doing activities like walking until maybe someday things get better works#but who knows and even if it does this will be yet another thing that takes the littlest bits of muscle tissue i have on me away once again#because besides deconditioning muscle loss is yet another symptom. so i will be even weaker than i am right now#i don't know how much of what i'm experiencing in terms of mental effects is from anxiety over my physical health and how much is brainfog#but we'll see i'll just have to start walking a lot every day and keep up with simple and slow strenght training so i'll want to die less#i don't think my family will ever properly understand because almost all of them are athletes and the one who isn't never does any excercis#so either i just look like i'm weak but i was always weak so it's not a big deal or my experience isn't really that important#this is so so so pathetic both my reaction and the issue but it's difficult to not feel this way especially with the uncertainty#shit talking
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ereborne · 4 months
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Song of the Day: June 7
"STFU!" by Rina Sawayama
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thistransient · 1 year
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Going somewhere fast
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healingheartdogs · 1 year
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I love being in America where I have to decide if the pain of something clearly going wrong inside my body is urgent enough to risk getting COVID at an ER from sick people and doctors who are no longer masking and having to deal with a grossly inflated medical bill that I already know I can't pay because I have no insurance or income currently.
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sodrippy · 6 months
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sanji as luffys mirror and zoro as his counterweight....ok.....alright
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dude hannibal is like the exact wrong thing to be watching when i am getting sick bc my fuckin brain already feels weird and fucked up and normally i'd be like yeah this is cool but now i'm like i can't walk downstairs in the dark because hannibal lecter will be. at the fridge
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kalashtars · 1 year
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hyperfixations are all fun and games until it's 4 a.m. and you've been doing the same thing for 8 hours straight and you have to wake up in 5 hours for work.
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ghastbutlikegay · 2 years
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You know when you spend two weeks revisiting the same daydream world every night as you fall asleep (or sometimes when you’re doing something boring like making coffee or microwaving food) and you keep building on it with new scenes and new backstory and worldbuilding and you’re invested in the characters and their story arc but then the story arc comes to its conclusion and you haven’t managed to invent new conflict for them so now you’re stuck either scrambling to find conflict that feels unnatural or clinging to the few gaps you’ve yet to fill in and hope you discover new conflict hidden somewhere there
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brothersonahotelbed · 2 years
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showing this screenshot to anyone who says god doesnt have a sense of humor
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fuzzyunicorn · 12 days
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Lmao is god exposing the evils of voodoo? Dumb cunts if u do magick that requires blood & killing an animal or human, it’s certified black magick. Divine spirits will NEVER command u to make deals with them in blood. All this fuck shit going on in Ohio is god shoving in people’s faces magick is real, and black magick is most of the population’s preferred side of magick (good vs evil), & black magick is pure evil. Now w police body cam footage of black magick practitioners w literal cat hair & blood on their mouths is undeniable proof. Those who still make excuses this is all a conspiracy, lmao ur gonna wish more than anything u never said stupid shit like that. Lil Satanists is ur lil narrative getting blown the fuck up????? Oh lil Satanists god is lifting the veil & it’s my job to wrap that lifting veil around the lil Satanists windpipes & I’m doing such a good job :)
#so funny 2 me ur side is still hoping to convince me to join ur side lmao got news 4 the stupid cunts DRUMROLL PLEASE 🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁#oh me oh my me n my beloved soulmate r Memebers of the Old Guard :) both of our Creations predate god’s…….#we both witnessed his Birth & posses far more power than he does so there is no fuckin’ hope ur side will EVER convince or manipulate us 2#join ur cause that’s Doomed :) now is it FUCKIN’ CLEAR WHY U STUPID FUCKS CANT LAY A SINGLE FUCKIN’ HAND ON US????? NOW DO U C Y UR WEAK#SAUCE MAGICK DOESNT WORK ON US?????? oh but we planned for it to temporarily hurt us to give u sad sacks of shit confidence to up ur antes &#oh god almighty damn how u all upped n upped ur ante & upped it more & more oh ur so fuckin’ fucked :)#last secret I’ll tell for tonightypoo is god or the OG did not actually bestow the power to kill immortal souls to me I gifted it to him :)#HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA now is it clear just how fucked u all r???#now do u c y I keep telling u stupid fucks there is no hope? can u possibly fathom just how overwhelmingly powerful my soulmate & I are? ur#about to get fuckin’ decimated into fuckin’ nothing we came down from the 3rd universe & u don’t know what that means :) figure it out#since the lil Satanists know so much & r so smart :) & u keep poking the bears :)#yes my love this was the hardest part of my spiritual awakenings to accept this knowledge about ourselves I understand u🖤 need 2 process#this info it’s a fuckin’ mind fuck but it’s true u’ll🖤 receive ur🖤 proof my love#LIL SATANISTS STOP PRAYING TO GOD STOP ASKING DIVINE BEINGS FOR HELP U ALL R TO DIE & DIE SCREAMING THERE IS NO HOPE FOR ANY OF U#PRAY TO GOD ONE MORE FUCKIN’ TIME & U’LL REGRET IT! U FORFIETED HIS PROTECTION SO U ALL HAD BEST PRAY TO UR FUCKING WEAKING GOD SATAN & TO#UR IMPOSTER ALIEN GODS WHO HAVE ABANDONED U ALL#know deep in ur blackened hearts lil Satanists god will never protect u from me :)#oh did the lil Satanists just find out I’ve been masquerading as an Arch Angel when I’m actually a God & a God of the Old Guard :) my name#is Magrum & the translation of my name is Death From Above
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doodlboy · 1 year
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Need 2 work on getting that therapist
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maskedmenmakemeferal · 8 months
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Sweetcheeks
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If you told younger Simon that ten years from now that he would be laying in bed with his wife,he’d scoff and say you were crazy.
But he is.
You leave some sweet kisses down his bare back,fingers splaying over his tattooed and scared skin.
“Lovie,I gotta get up.” He sleepily murmured,even though he’d rather die then get out of bed right now.
“Shut up.” You sweetly say,hands wrapping around his midsection,softer from 2 years of retirement. (Dad bod!Simon has got me bricked up and I don’t even have the proper utensils)
He loved the feeling of early mornings with you,nowear to go or people to see. He also loves the feeling of your warm hands running up and down his body. But he felt like he needed to do something to be productive.
“Lovie,it’s 10,I have to go.”
“You’ve been going places for a long time while you were in the military. Let me hold you,sweet cheeks.”
He scowled a bit.
Sweetcheeks?
This 6’ man,feared by many,with hundreds of scars gets called Sweetcheeks?
“Don’t frown Si,you’ll get wrinkles.” You joke.
Fine,I guess he can stay another ten minutes…or an hour.
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rafesproperty · 2 months
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Rafe Cameron x Reader GF <3
Rafe with a girlfriend that loves to read. He doesn’t get it. Really. But he’d do anything to make his girl happy. ❤️‍🩹
Just Rafe being disgustingly sweet and spoiling reader…
I wanna make a part 2 where he finds out about annotating cuz that scenario is just hillarious to me 😭 lmk if you want it!
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“Hey, baby,” Rafe mumbled as he walked into the kitchen, it was early in the morning and his voice was still rough, his hair messy and his eyes barely open as he reached for your coffee and took a sip. You were staying at Tannyhill for a while because his dad was on some family trip with Sarah and Rose.
You chuckled and reached for your coffee, snatching it from his hand. “Morning.”
He started to make coffee for himself as well, you’d normally admire his back in the white shirt he was wearing, but you were almost finished with your book so you kept reading, eyes glued to the page. Rafe noticed and looked over his shoulder at you. “Wheezie’s still sleeping?” His eyes trailed down to the table, one singular book laying there but a bunch of mini colorful papers and pens laying around it. He raised an eyebrow when he noticed there was no notebook tho. Weird.
“Mhm,” you gave a quick nod, clearly more focused on the text in your book than on him. “Made you some waffles.” You added and kept reading the page quickly. Suddenly you let out a gasp.
“What?” Rafe quickly turned around, his flight fight or fight mode on immediately. Then he let out a frustrated groan when he realised why you gasped and he leaned against the table, flexing his arms (not happy that you didn’t even look), and sneaking a glance at the page.
“Oh, my fucking God. I need to know the rest.” You let out a tortured moan and looked up at him, suddenly realising you were not alone and that your very much judgy boyfriend was staring at you. You felt your cheeks flush. “Sorry, um… it just… was intense is all.” You closed the book shut, avoiding eye contact with him.
Rafe grinned. “You’re so weird.” He mumbled and ran a hand through your hair. “So, so weird it actually makes you cute as fuck.” He whispered as he leaned down to you, you closed your eyes and purred softly at his touch. He smirked, satisfied that he finally got your attention.
You chuckled at his comment, looking up at him. You knew Rafe didn’t get it. He was very much reality-oriented and you were sure you wouldn’t be able to force him to read a book if his life depended on it. Yours maybe… but you’d probably die anyway. Plus there was no way he’d ever find the time in his schedule to read something. He was either taking care of business or spent all his free time with you and you only, and intended to keep it that way.
He went back to making coffee and you pulled out your phone, looking up the next book in the series you were currently reading. The thing is it was still a fresh release and everyone loved this series so it was sold out everywhere, hard to get and if a store had it they put an insane price on it, knowing some people would buy it anyway.
“30 fucking dollars for a paperback? Fucking assholes.” You slammed your phone down and Rafe turned around, giving you a look of genuine confusion.
“What’s wrong?” He had no idea what a paperback means, or how much books even cost. Thirty dollars sounded normal to him… cheap even.
“What’s wrong? Baby 30 bucks would be insane even for a hardcover.”
“A what?”
“Doesn’t matter. It’s fucking ridiculous. They put a big price on it because they know people want it and some people will buy it but I-“
“I’ll get it for you.” Rafe stopped your rant and sat down next to you with his coffee and the waffles you made earlier.
“What? No, Rafey, no. It’s so fucking expensive.”
He genuinely grinned at your statement. “Baby, it’s 30 bucks.” He rested his hand on your knee, drawing little circles with his thumb, trying to ease your mood. He was still sleepy, normally you’d admire how pretty he looked with his hair all messy and eyes puffy.
“No. That’s not the point. It’s too much for a book. Baby a paperback is usually around 10 dollars.”
“So?”
You groaned. Oh how you wanted to rant to someone about how stupid it was, but of course Rafe didn’t understand. Where was Wheezie when you needed her?
Rafe grabbed your phone and checked the location of the bookstore. You both ate your waffles and chatted about some other things for a while. He eventually got up. “Get dressed, we’ll go get it.”
“Rafey it’s really okay-“
“Shut upppp,” it was his turn to groan in annoyance now and you chuckled at his expression. “Wanna make you happy baby, I don’t give a fuck if it costs a thousand. Get dressed.”
There was no arguing with Rafe once he made up his mind. You were on his bike within a few minutes, holding on to him as he parked in front of the bookstore. He grabbed your waist as he led you inside, holding you close to him — it was a thing he did whenever you went to public together.
You immediately knew where to look for the book you wanted, but your eyes lingered on some new releases on your way over to the fantasy isle anyway, remembering you wanted some of them.
Rafe followed closely behind, texting Barry back on his phone about something.
There were two girls standing next to the fantasy isle and you heard them rant about how overpriced this specific book is and how unfair it is. You really couldn’t agree more. You reached for it and sighed. “Oh God,” you mumbled to yourself when you saw the price. Not thirty, but thirty fucking two.
“Right?!” One of the girls looked at you, obviously also pissed off. “I mean, how greedy can they get.” She ranted.
“Yeah I threw a tantrum when I saw how much it is this morning.” You laughed and she laughed as well, the other girl adding in her own complaining and you were chatting about it for a while, talking about the events of the first book in the series. Rafe was behind you for a while but he got annoyed with Barrys shit over the phone so he found a chair to sit on and let you talk to the girls.
“Right, um, I’ll get going.” You eventually said to the girls when you noticed Rafe was now just scrolling on his phone. You didn’t really wanna keep him waiting.
“Wait you’re actually buying it?!”
“Um,” you let out a nervous laugh, “yeah, well, no… my um, boyfriend’s getting it for me.” You admitted, you didn’t want to brag but you also didn’t want to say you’re getting it and take the credit for something he’s paying for.
“Oh wow, lucky.” One of the girls smiled, sneaking a glance at him. You could tell just from the look in her eyes that she found Rafe scary. Most people did.
“I’m jealous,” the other whispered, whether about your boyfriend or the book was not clear. You smiled and said your goodbye, and went over to Rafe who was now on his feet, leaning against the wall.
He furrowed his eyebrows when he saw you only came back with that one book. “Did you fucking read the whole thing already?”
“What do you mean?” You grinned, ignoring his grumpiness.
“I thought you were picking shit. What were you doing?”
“Oh no, I was chatting with some girls. Sorry. They also had a lot to say about the pricing.” You smiled at him apologetically.
“Well yeah, but go pick more books.” He said annoyed. He didn’t really mind waiting for you but he didn’t understand why you only grabbed one.
“No, baby, this one’s already overpriced as fuck I don’t wanna-“
“For Gods sake Y/N, we’re already here. Get more. Wanna spoil you baby.” He brushed his finger against your cheek and put a strand of your hair behind your ear. You smiled at him and tried to hide your blush.
“Okay, alright. Can you—“
“Mhm,” he knew what you were asking immediately and grabbed the one you already had so you can go look at some more.
You were walking around the isles, checking out a bunch of books. You’d lie if you said you didn’t want almost every single one. As you were reading the back of some modern romance Rafe appeared behind you, he came closer to you and put one hand next to your head, leaning against you. You could feel his breath at the back of your neck and a shiver ran down your spine.
“Isn’t that just about sex?”
“Yeah,” you laughed, not noticing that the girls you were chatting to earlier were standing next to you and Rafe.
He seemed genuinely confused. “Why’d you read about it when we can do it?”
“Rafe,” you laughed again and turned around to face him, giving him a look, blushing when you noticed there were other people too.
“What? I’m serious. Bet I can make you feel better than some words on paper.” He brushed his hand against your back and you felt your whole body tense up… that is until you heard the girls next to you giggle.
“Shut the fuck up,” you mumbled, embarassment evident in your face. But Rafe just smirked, always eager to make you flustered.
“Besides,” you added, putting the book back, “you’d be surprised what a few words on paper can do to you.”
He gave you a susprised look, “Seriously?”
“Yeah where do you think I learned all my tricks?” You said jokingly and he grinned as well.
“Dunno, you were pretty innocent before I corrupted your pretty mind.” He mumbled next to your ear and nibbled at the skin of your exposed neck, softly kissing a mark. His mark.
Rafe smirked when he noticed the way your body reacted by leaning closer to him, and reached over you to grab the book you placed back. “So we’re buying it?”
“No.”
“Why not?” He raised an eyebrow. You were obviously intrigued by it, he thought.
“It doesn’t sound that interesting,” obvious lie, “’m gonna look for something else.”
“Get something else and this as well?”
“No, Rafey, books can get-“ but he just rolled his eyes and held it next to the first book you picked. Already made up his mind.
You knew he’d just get it no matter what you said. “Wait, it’s a sequel, can you—“ You looked up, not only was this store overpriced as fuck but they obviously also had zero respect for small people.
“Hm, here,” he leaned even closer, brushing his lips against your ear, trapping you a little, your back pressed against the bookshelf. “Which one?” He teased you with a smirk, his fingers brushing your hair aside to make the marks he left there the other day visible, his breath brushing over them.
Then he got the book you pointed at, leaving you shivering just a bit more. “Needing me so bad for everything…” he murmured happily.
Rafe figured quickly that you’d act all humble the whole time. You always picked up a book, read the back, smiled at it… and put it back. Every. Damn. Time. And after an hour of him waiting you had the audacity to come to him with only two books. He didn’t say anything, just got up, grabbed them from your hands and made his way to the cashier.
“Hey, princess, hold this for me.” He handed you the four books as he wanted to reach into his pocket for his wallet on the way. You took the books without questioning him, and he quickly grabbed most of the books he noticed you were checking earlier. He also grabbed the better ones, the ones that were more expensive… hardbacks? That’s what you called it, right? So quickly you didn’t even really get the chance to protest.
“Rafe-“
“Shut it,” he growled and this was the first time today he didn’t say that in a joking manner.
So you did.
“Everything alright, sir?” The cashier asked. Rafe gave her a quick nod and noticed they had some snacks — mostly chocolates — there. So he grabbed a few and added that to the pile of books.
He waited for the cashier to finish her job when you suddenly realised something.
“Rafe, wait.” You mumbled and ran off. He didn’t really understand but you came back with one more book a second later. He didn’t mind at all. Tho it didn’t really seem like your style, compared to all the other books… this one was colorful and seemed like some rom-com high school bullshit, but he didn’t question you.
“Your total’s $273, sir…”
You felt your body freeze. “Rafe you don’t-“
But he already pulled out his card without blinking an eye. “Told you to shut it.” He whispered and grabbed the bags with your books and threw his free arm around you, leading you out of the store.
He let out a sigh when you both exited the store and you were afraid for a second that it was because it really was too expensive.
“You’re impossible, you know that?”
Fuck.
“The worst sugar baby ever.” He added and gave you a relaxed smile.
Oh… that’s what he meant. You felt relief as you smiled at him as well, laughing at his nickname for you.
“Thank you, baby.” You mumbled and wrapped your arms around his waist as you both made your way to his bike.
“Mhm, anything for you. Anytime.” He kissed the top of your head and you felt butterflies in your stomach.
Wheezie was already up when you both returned to Tannyhill. She was excited to see all the books you got so you sat down on a couch with her and showed her everything, telling her about each one. Rafe didn’t really care… plus all the fantasy terms started to give him a headache so he minded his own business, dealing with something on his phone again, occasionally resting his hand on your thigh.
“Oh yeah, this one’s for you. I knew you wanted it.”
That caught his attention. He looked up from his phone and saw Wheezies eyes sparkle as she flipped through the book you picked for her. He felt his heart warm up. You really were thinking of his little sister too… He’s so going you wife you up one day. Probably soon.
He sneaked his arm around your waist and squeezed you gently, thanking you.
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