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#& besides i dont want 2 make work friends bc what if i fuck it up and now my job sucks and id probably quit 2 get away from it
be-good-to-bugs · 5 months
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AAAAH forever stress is going to kill me one day
#the bin#i hate knowing why i feel so bad and not being able to do anything about it#im scared that ill never ever feel better. its been so long since i felt ok. im worried that ill make friends and still feel horrible all#the time and it wont matter. i cant keep doing this. im so tired of being all alone. im so tired of the constant inescapable dread#im going to figure something out. in a month ill be moved and i can start figuring everything out then#i hate not being able to focus on anything besides how bad i feel. i cant enjoy anything. theres so many shows i wanna watch but i cant#because im so distracted by this. theres so much manga i wanna read and i cant.#literally the ONLY thing that has been able to make me temporarily forget this for any amount of time is dungeon meshi#its so fucking good and it sparks so much joy that it does help but not enough. i get sad again really fast.#well. im trying really hard to manage my stress. i did the math on how much i should be getting. i know that i will have rent at least.#there are 2 weeks that i dont know what my hours will be but assuming i get 13 hours at least then i should have an ok amount for#moving. its possible theyll be worse and its possible theyll be better. im really hoping theyre better. my hours have been SO BAD recently#i dont know why. i know im not bad at my job or anything. i sont think my manager dislikes me either. he does this whenever someone#hasnt been feeling well and hell do it for a couple weeks and i think its him trying to be considerate but i have bills to pay man#technically there is a shift i could pickup but the store has a drive thru so im nervous to bc idk how that works and if im asked to do that#then ill have no idea so ive been avoiding taking any shifts like that#hopefully enough will pop up in the coming weeks and i can get some more hours. i know i can cover moving vehicle cost but idk how much#gas is gonna be so im suuuuper worried abt that. hhhh. hopefully my sister and her boyfriend can get me back the $300 they owe too#honestly idk how they werent able to afford rent but immediately after they were able to afford a 40 hour roadtrip and yimw off work#whatever. it doenst matter.#i wish i could deal with the other stuff messing me up rn but i cant fix the loneliness thing without not being alone and i cant fix that#it doesnt matter how much i tell myself ill make friends eventually or if i believe it or not. i feel bad because ive gone way too long#not hanging out with anyone and my brain cant handle it.#im gonna see if maybe i can play a game with my sister soon. or maybe i couod play smth with my younger sister even#i pkayed roblox with her for a little while. maybe she would want to again. i miss her :(
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doodlboy · 1 year
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Need 2 work on getting that therapist
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hearts401 · 10 months
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I honestly hate how the fandom treats Michael as a hero and I'm seeing posts about it so I feel a liiiittle better talkign about it
my moots are holding back, i can tell. but hes my favorite so im not. and im a little pissed writing this bc. bc i relate to cc a lot. and seeing ppl mischaracterize not only my favorite character but also someone who reminds me of people who fucking suck drives me INSANE.
so psa, im pissed as fuck and i love michael afton.
First off, he killed Evan. That's obvious. Not only was that literall 100% his fault (NOT WILLIAMS IT PISSES ME OFF WHEN PPL MAKE THAT ALL ABOUT WILLIAM SHUT THE FUVCK UP
he was a bully. yeah he was a kid. yeah he was messing with him. Have you considered he was literally. abusive to his brother. i know the fnaf fandom is scared of using that word to describe him but its fucking true. he was abusive. as fuck. that was awful what he did he wasnt just a bully he harassed him and literally locked him in his room. he was fucking horrible.
and yeah, he didnt mean for that to happen, but not only was that stupid as fuck, i hate any interpritation of "he wanted to be like his dad" "his friends coerced him" PLAY FNAF 4. PLAY FNAF 4. FUCKING PLAY FNAF 4 LOOK AT HIS DIALOGUE AND WHAT HE DOES
HE LITERALLY. EGGED IT ON. IT WAS HIS FUCKING IDEA. WHAT PART OF THAT GAVE "he was coerced" THUSHFUDFUDSIOFDUSOFDSIOS
im trying to be normal
Yeah he probably felt like shit after. yeah it probably was some sort of motivator behind his actions. but lets think. lets think.
fnaf 1 and 2 take place before SL, no? So. if thats true. why didnt he burn those down? to "free the souls?" because it was never about the children.
he burned down the fnaf 3 location to get rid of william. it was ALWAYS abotu william. sure he set the kids free but i reeeeaaallyy dont think that was his intention. it was always about william.
in sister location, did he go there out of the kindness of his heart? no he went there because william asked him too. it was ALWAYS about william. and yeah he probably wanted to help liz, he probably really wanted to help her, but based on his actions, was this really for her? or was it for closure
thats something about michael that i put in shitty brother. closure. he didnt actually want to reconcile with his family, he wanted closure on the guilt he felt. is that 100% wrong? no. its normal to want closure, especially after something like that. but also that should not be his goal
did he apologize? yes. he said sorry. he felt bad, sure. but when you kill someone tehy dont come back. evan deserves to never forgive him ever because that was dumb as fuck and HORRIBLE. IT WAS HORRIBLE. ABUSIVE. ILL SAY IT AGAIN
MICHAEL AFTON ABUSED HIS LITTLE BROTHER FOR NO FUCKING REASON.
yeah. abused. say it with me. A-B-U-S-E-D
not just bullied, not just harassed, ABUSED.
ik we're all scared to say it here but its fucking true. say it with ur chest.
this always came back to william. do i thinkk michael is unfeeling and doesnt care about his siblings at all? NO! I think his siblings drove a lot of his actions. but in the end i dont think he always acted with their best interest at heart. or the mci kids'
and the whole "he wanted to be like his dad" i dont fucking care actually. no seriously sit down beside me and tell me that wanting to be like his dad is an excuse for abusing his brother. seriously come closer i wont bite.
tell me how you think that AS A TEENAGER, 100% AWARE OF HIS ACTIONS, that wanting to be like his dad justifies abusing his little brother. his little brother. who as far as we know, never lashed out, never fought back, never did anything to him. tell me how he fucking deserved that
"Michael was just a kid!" so was Evan. So was Elizabeth. So was Cassidy and Charlie and all the kids who died.
tell me how much michael did that didnt revolve around closure and his father. like i get it, he had priorities, but can we please stop acting like he's some angel working for the greater good of everyone.
it feelslike how ppl treat fucking henry. NO HES NOT A GOOD PERSON PLEASE
MICHAEL IS SELFISH HE'S MESSY HE'S STUPID. HE MAKES BAD CHOICES IN FAVOR OF HIMSELF HE PRIORITIZES REVENGE OVER THE GREATER GOOD HE HURTS PEOPLE AND IT MAKES HIM SO MUHC MORE INTERESTING
oh and also in case anybody wants to pull dittophobia out and tell me how mike went thru that trauma
so did evan. and instead of bonding over that trauma, michael harassed him. ABUSED HIM. wording is important. im sorry for repeating myself so much, but nobody ever tells it how it is. it was abuse.
edit: People seem upset by my wording and honestly? fair. i couldve worded this a lot better but i was tired and irritated and one thing i will clarify
i dont care if u dont see adult michael the way i do. i see him as a selfish obsessive guy whos intent is to fix his family, but plenty of people see it differently and thats okay! /gen
but im not taking back anythign i said about teen michael. because i think to do that is unfair to his character and frankly bullshit. i think its bullshit. and i dont care if you disagree. he was a terrible brother and thats that
but adult mike is free real estate idk idrc abt him as much as teen mike.
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THE SECRET TO PLAYING IS USUALLY LIKE LEARNING THE SONG TO ITS BPM BC THATS WHAT I DO!! like ok so for harder songs like venom, maniac [second verse], venom [verse 2], and BOXER OMG BOXER IS SO HARD…but yk like it’s all based on how much rap and how fast it is in normal. Just literally make sure you press the beat, not too hard bc i have just bought another phone and im so delicate with it. but uhmmmmm like hard mode is where i struggle i literally sweat bc of it!!! Also when trying to get a lineup, buy card packs (DONT SPEND ACTUAL MONEY BC I HAVENT SPENT A DIME AND I HAVE A TOPLINE LINEUP) if you do attendance for two weeks you’ll have some good line up. i just play for like an hour. ALSO upgrade and power up for higher scores. For certain modes there’s an amount of misses you can have at a time [ Easy- 20-27, Normal- 30, Hard -40 but you have to space them out] I SWEAR I STUDY THIS STUFF WHEN I SHOULD BE DOING BETTER IN MY JOB BC I WORK AS A FUCKING OFFICE MANAGER FOR A REALTOR AND I FELL ASLEEP ON THE JOB LIKE A WEEK AGO but besides that, if you have friends on superstar then you have that benefit to be gifted stuff, LMK IF ANYONE WANTS SOME CARDS ON SUPERSTAR I EVEN HAVE JYP SO…😳😳FEEL FREE TO ASK FOR ANY BAND UNDER JYP
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Can I request alysssa from teotfw and it’s literally just the reader as James instead!! But the reader is ever so slightly more normal - literally go crazy I just thought that would be a cool idea!!
Two Girls and a Car (Alyssa Foley X Reader)
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Summary: You and Alyssa, two rebellious loners, find each other at school and decide to date. Her being sick of her new family and you tired of your boring life, you decide to steal your dad’s car and skip town.
A/N: teotfw but make it sapphic>>> couple things, 1: this is based off the first episode (im using a script teehee) where reader is james with less murderous tendencies. 2: idk how good this is gonna be bc i usually write in second person, but bc of the show being told in first person perspectives, this is written in first person but only from reader’s pov. 3: if you couldn’t tell from my derry girl fics (or any other non-american media i write), im american so i dont really know english lingo or anything that well. 4: this could be a two parter?? Or maybe a series??? Lmk what yall think
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I’m Y/n.
I’m seventeen.
And I’m pretty sure there’s something wrong with me. Like, really wrong.
When I was eight, I realized I didn’t have a sense of humor. At first, I thought that my dad was just the worst at jokes. And he is, probably. But nothing’s really amusing to me, and I don’t know why.
I’ve always wanted to punch my dad in the face. That seems like a problem, considering he’s my dad and all. But if you met him, you’d probably agree. Even if he looks all cheery and nice, he’s a bit of a prick.
When I was nine, my dad bought a deep-fat fryer he had seen on an American shopping channel. One day, I put my hand in it. I wanted to make myself feel something.
It worked, but only for a moment. Now I have a fucked up hand, all for a moment of feeling something.
I was in the cafeteria when I first met her. Alyssa. She was the new girl, and after shouting at her friends and smashing something on the ground, she made her way over to me. She stood right in front of me, staring me down.
“Hey.” I hear after taking off my headphones.
“Hey.”
“I’ve seen you skating.” I didn’t know how to respond. We stared at each other for a moment before she spoke again. “You’re pretty shit.”
“Fuck off.”
Alyssa was interesting, to say the least. After school, she found me again, sitting on a bench outside.
“Are you waiting for me?” She asked. I wasn’t; I just didn’t want to go home yet. But instead, I nodded, and she sat on the bench beside me.
The next thing I knew, we were making out. I didn’t really mind it. Alyssa was a bit of an aggressive kisser, but I had never really kissed anyone before, so I didn’t feel like complaining. 
I wonder if I could fall in love with Alyssa. Maybe not. But I could pretend.
She grabbed my hand and placed it on her boob, but then she pulled away.
“What happened to your hand?” Alyssa asked, gesturing to my fucked up hand that was on her tit. 
“Shut up.” I didn’t want to talk about it, and luckily, she didn’t feel like pressing. So I just switched hands, letting the messed up one grip at her sweater as we continued snogging. It was an okay way to pass the time, better than sitting at home. 
Eventually, we had to leave. So we just started walking. I don’t think either of us knew where we were going, so we just wandered down the middle of a vacant street. I would’ve ridden my skateboard, but apparently I was shit at it.
“I haven’t got a phone,” Alyssa said suddenly. 
“Okay.”
“I smashed it.” So that must’ve been what she’d thrown in the cafeteria today.
“Okay.” I could feel her look at me.
“Like, on purpose.” Did she want me to think she was crazy? Maybe she was, but I don’t think I had any room to judge her.
“Okay.” 
“So you can’t call me.” This time, she turned to me slightly as she spoke, like she was trying to invoke a reaction in me.
“That’s fine.” She seemed surprised that I had finally given a different response. “I don’t have a phone either.”
“Really?” Alyssa asked, turning to me again.
“Yeah. I hate them.” I didn’t see the point of them. Just like I didn’t see the point in this conversation. What did people in love talk about? “Wanna go on a date?”
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She said yes. So I took her to a diner, one that was cheap but still looked nice and had decent food. But it didn’t last long. Alyssa had ordered a few things, and the waitress made a comment about how hungry she was. They both giggled, but Alyssa’s was more insincere.
“And an extra fucking spoon.” Alyssa finished off, setting the menu down. The waitress looked horrified.
“Excuse me?”
“For her,” Alyssa said, gesturing to me. I guess it was nice of her to think about me, but I didn’t feel like eating a banana split.
The waitress scoffed, closing her notepad.
“Sorry. You can’t use language like that. Otherwise, I’m gonna have to ask you and your friend to leave.”
“She’s my girlfriend.” Alyssa corrected.
“Fine, I’ll have to ask you and your girlfriend to leave.”
“Okay.” Her tone was mocking, and the waitress gave her a look. Alyssa sighed, seeming more sincere. “Okay, I’m sorry. Sorry.” The waitress seemed pleased, but that’s when it really went to shit. “I will have… a great big banana shit with extra fucking cherries all on top of it.”
“Right, yeah, that’s it. Marvin!” The waitress called back to the kitchen, where the only other person in this diner was. 
“Oh yeah!” Alyssa raised her voice, staring the woman down. “Go get Marvin! See if Marvin can make a banana split for me, you fucking cunt!” Then she grabbed her things and stormed out of the diner, slamming the door behind her. 
It was clear that Alyssa had a short fuse.
“Sorry about her,” I said. The waitress and I stared at each other for a minute before I grabbed my board and left. Alyssa was stomping down the street, so I used my skateboard to catch up. She had her usual deadpan expression when I got to her. “...You okay?”
“Shut up.” I didn’t feel like arguing. “God, I think we live in the most boring town on the planet.”
“Probably.”
“Everyone’s so fucking square.” She said with a huff. Then she looked at me. “Are you boring too?”
Probably.
“No.” 
We walked for a bit before Alyssa spoke again.
“Can we go to your house?”
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I said yes. When we got to my place, Alyssa said my house was weird and had too many windows. I didn’t really notice until she brought it up. 
Alyssa likes to touch and grab things. I guess looking at it wasn’t enough for her, but it was starting to get on my nerves a bit.
“Is this your mum?” She asked, holding up a picture.
“Yeah.” I didn’t have to look at the photo to know it was her. I didn’t like looking at pictures of my mum anymore. “She lives in Japan.” She doesn’t.
“Cool.” Alyssa stared at the picture for a moment. “You look like her.”
I felt stiff after that. Alyssa didn’t seem to notice, and if she did, she didn’t care enough to mention it.
Then the front door opened, and I felt even stiffer.
“Fuck.” I muttered. This day was shit. Before Alyssa could ask what was wrong, my dad’s voice bellowed from the hallway.
“The hunter has returned!”
When he saw Alyssa, he insisted on us sitting down for a cup of tea so we could all chat. I couldn’t remember the last time I sat down and had a chat with my dad, but I definitely didn’t want to start now. Dad sat at the head of the table while Alyssa and I sat across from each other.
“Well, this is nice!” My dad said. I could feel the idiotic smile radiating off of him.
“What is?” Alyssa asked. 
“This. You two.” Dad gestured to the two of us. I drank my tea so I wouldn’t have to say anything. He let out a laugh. “What a relief! You know, I always thought there was something wrong with her.” This was a good reminder of why I didn’t talk to my dad. “I thought probably she’d never like anyone, or would even… Well, you know. Which is fine, obviously. But, here you are.”
“Maybe she doesn’t,” Alyssa suggested. She was a very blunt and confrontational person. Maybe it was a good thing we met. “Maybe she’s asexual. Maybe I’m just bi-curious.” Alyssa leaned back in her chair and took a sip of her tea. “We’re dealing with a really broad spectrum these days.”
We fell into an awkward silence after that. The only sounds made were drinking and the occasional sniffle. Eventually, my cup was empty, but I wasn’t about to stick around for another.
“Let’s go to my room,” I said abruptly, standing up. Alyssa was hot on my heels, clearly also wanting to get away. Dad said goodbye to us, but neither of us answered.
When we got to my room down the hall, I shut the door and opened the window. I climbed through it to sit on the roof, and Alyssa sat beside me. We stared out of the neighborhood and the setting sun for a while.
“Your dad’s a prick.”
“I know.” I sighed, laying down and crossing my arms and ankles. I felt like I could be honest with her, like she wouldn’t judge me for whatever I said. “Sometimes, I feel like punching him in the face.”
“You should definitely do that.” She responded, lying down with me.
If you looked past the slight brashness, Alyssa was sort of… Sweet.
“Have you ever eaten a pussy before?”
Sort of.
“A couple.” It was a lie, but she didn’t have to know that.
“I want you to eat mine.”
“Now?” I lifted my head and looked around the roof that we were lying on. “Here?”
“Tomorrow.” She rolled her eyes, but there seemed to be a hint of amusement on her face. “And not on your roof. I’ll be here at eleven.”
Alyssa got up and crawled back through the window. I would’ve walked her out, but I didn’t want to get up. Or see my dad again. 
But when I sat up again, she was down below on the pavement, walking away.
“Alyssa!” I called out. She turned around, squinting up to look at me. “See you tomorrow.”
“See you tomorrow, Y/n.”
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I was ready at ten. I needed time to prepare. I figured the best place to give Alyssa head would be my bedroom, but I had to be ready for anything. For all I knew, she’d lay herself down on the table where we had tea yesterday. She seemed like she’d do that, to get back at my dad or something.
When it turned eleven, I sat on the couch and waited. I quickly grew restless, and I didn’t know why. I took out my pocket knife, fiddling with it to pass the time. My dad had gotten it for me when I was about twelve. Said it was a good tool to have on you, that you’d never know when you’d need it. I didn’t exactly use it for intended purposes. Mainly carving up shit in the house when I was bored or pissed. Either my dad didn’t notice or just didn’t want to say anything about it.
When twelve came around, I started to think Alyssa might not be coming. That I did all that waiting for nothing.
But then, at half past one, someone started pounding on the door.
“Y/n!” It was Alyssa.
As I walked to the door, I put the knife back in my pocket. I wondered what had taken Alyssa so long. But when I opened the door, I didn’t even get a chance to ask. She walked past me into the house, tossing her jacket on the floor.
As she stomped off to the living room, she started to take off her shirt. I quickly shut the door and followed after her. I found Alyssa sitting on the couch, head leaning all the way back and eyes closed. She must’ve been deep in thought.
“Come here.” She said, sitting up properly. I did as told, looking at her from the corner of my eye as I sat next to her.
“Did you still wanna…” I trailed off, clearing my throat as I gestured between us. “You know.”
“I dunno.” Alyssa sighed. That made me a bit relieved because I don’t know if I was in the mood to eat pussy now. “Let’s get out of here.”
“What?”
“I’m serious.” I don’t know if I’ve ever seen Alyssa not be serious. “Let’s leave this shithole town. Now. You hate it, I hate it. Our parents are dickheads. You’ve got a car.”
“It’s my dad’s.” But all the other reasons were very convincing. 
“Who’s a dickhead.” That was fair. “Look, I’m going whether you come with me or not. Are you in?”
I didn’t have to think about my answer. I hated everything about this place. I hated my dad, hated school. I was even starting to hate how many windows our house had. 
And I think I liked Alyssa, or at the very least tolerated her.
“Sure.”
Alyssa put her top and jacket back on, and I grabbed my shoes. Dad would be coming back any minute with groceries, so all we had to do was wait for him to pull into the driveway.
I heard the car pull in, and Alyssa followed me out the door. My dad was walking towards us, a huge stupid grin on his face as he saw us. 
Before I could even give it a second thought, I swung my fist at him. I punched him in the cheek, and he was quickly on the floor. I snatched the keys that flew out of his hand off of the ground, and soon, Alyssa and I were speeding out of my driveway.
“Are you scared?” She asked, a big smile on her face. It didn’t look as stupid on her as it usually did on anyone else. 
“I dunno. Maybe a little. ” I answer. “But my hand hurts a little.” My knuckles were throbbing. I had never punched someone before. “Are you? Scared?”
“No.”
I didn’t know where we were going, or if we’d ever come back. But I punched my dad in the face and stole his car. That felt like a good place to start.
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1moreoffkeyanthem · 8 months
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Wow what else is new I’m thinking about the a OrangeJuiceVerse again and Not Writing the completely unrelated story I’m working on ANYWAY!!!
OJV Stan is the ACTUAL sweetest boy on the planet and I WANNA TALK ABOUT HIS SOBRIETY!!!
Tw for alcoholism so it’s below the cut
I know I’m annoying abt ojv Stan’s sobriety, but it’s really, really important to me. I may have started the OrangeJuiceVerse because I saw this art of basketball Kyle and mascot Stan, but Broken Bottles From Apartment 2 is what actually solidified that au as an ongoing thing, and Stan’s sobriety is a cornerstone of that story.
As referenced in the aforementioned story, Stan stopped drinking at 25, and why? Because one day, a week or so after Kyle’s birthday, Stan had been off work and had been pulling from his secret bottle all day, and Kyle’s blood sugar hit a low. So Stan went to make him a KMBS (introduced here) BUT he was way drunker than he thought he was, and forgot how many ice cubes go in, and it hit him that if he was forgetting things like that, the drinking was a real problem.
Y’all it was SO bad Stan literally collapsed on the floor crying and Kyle’s like “dude dude WHAT what the fuck is it” meanwhile his dexcom is beeping and he fully forgot to eat at lunch bc work was busy so he’s also not doing well Stan is like “KY I DONT REMEMBER” they’re on the floor beside the fridge and Kyle is yanking it open and they’re sharing a bottle of Gatorade and Stan finally just spills EVERYTHING about how scared he is of his drinking habits, how like “yeah I know I’ll have a couple beers at night but it’s MORE than that” and Kyle is mentally REELING bc he didn’t think it was this bad, Stan is sobbing, Kyle is trying not to, Moose is curling his tiny cat body on Stan’s lap, they are all LITERALLY on the kitchen floor it’s the most heartbreaking scene you’ve ever witnessed.
And that night, Stan swears off alcohol. He dumps his vodka down the sink. He calls out of work and rides out the withdrawals over the next few days. A very freaked out Kyle is also calling out of his job to take care of him and he’s fucking terrified the whole time. But when Stan’s on the other side of the physical part? The self loathing tries to take him.
Kyle is fucking BEGGING him to go see one of his therapist friends, but Stan won’t do that, so Kyle’s like “okay it’s either that or we’re going to AA” and Stan picks AA bc even though he hates the idea of it (he went with his dad once when he was 9 and Randy Jackass Marsh got a dui) it feel less daunting than therapy.
And Stan winds up LOVING AA. Everyone at the local chapter is super chill. Ky goes with him the first few times, someone brought their dog, and this old man came up to him at the end, and they talked long after everyone had left Ye Olde Meetin Hall. Stan found his people in this group, despite being one of the youngest there, and that community is really important in his life. When he found out a few of them did an annual camping trip, that’s what really sold him on the whole thing.
So OrangeJuiceVerse Tweek comes into the picture abt 2 years after Stan stops drinking, and THAT was the thing that made me write BBFA2. Stan is THE support group king in the later OJV, and he just wants to help everyone, he’s Tweek’s sponsor, when they hit meetings it’s so kickass fuck I love them. The old geezers at the group are so fucking funny too, Tweek was terrified but stan told them they gotta chill out before he brought twerk.
Moose regularly comes to meetings and is a huge hit, they do a Birthday Night potluck every month (stan gets made fun of for not eating meat), and there’s not a single actually judgemental person there. Like Stan and Tweek are both in long term relationships with other men, and they’re in assfucknowhere Colorado, but the ONE homophobic asshole got put in his place REAL fast by everyone else there. When Tweek showed some people a pic of his husband the middle aged lady beside him at the table was like DAMN SWEETIE that’s one handsome man! Lmfao I gotta write a snippet of the ojverse aa group.
Stan and his sponsor RULE the group!!! They both have this charismatic energy and the old guy (his name is mark) is actually so cool, Stan may have been skeptical abt aa at first, but later down the line he’s showing up super early to hang with Mark and he’s greeting newcomers
Dude I’m crying abt Support Group King Staniel again
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aresonist · 2 years
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i loove the hotguy mask design,, do u have any lore like about the bad things that happened to him in his past?
this au is generally just my little scar angst pile and is just really messy cause its made via me listening to emo tiktok audios and walking in a circle and was made like 2 days ago and i havent like explored it good good and its probably not good story wise but like i said so far its my scar angst pile and i dont imagine myself actually working on this other than random thoughts durning the day BUT! miserable things that have maybe happened to scar in that au!:
-his bestest friend (cub) went missing at some point! reappeared as a villain and is basically an empty vessel for vexes and vey much not in control of himself and also tries to get him to accept vexes! leaves him very miserable everytime they see eachother
-i imagine like heroes generally dont know eachothers identities unless they tell eachother its like a trust thing, by a thing government might know. But the way scar found out mumbos identity was bc mumbo got really fucking hurt durning a mission they were on together and has this couple days coma and scar just refused to leave his side, he ofc felt bad about it but cmon its his friend!!! when mumbo woke up he offered to show him his face too but mumbo refused
-when mumbo left the whole hero gig scar was DEVASTATED, he gave him a big big hug and cried a little and they also made a deal that scar wont go out of his way to look for him for safety reasons or whatever (and also the fact that mumbo didnt want him to find out that hes gonna be joining their villain kind of friend)
-he works at a cafe to give him something normal to do when hes off duty, since he doesnt really have many non hero work friends and even if he did that friendship would be a hard time bc of the whole hero thing so working there when he has the time is his little escape and also a place where he meets grian! a very loyal customer who very quickly becomes one of his best friends even if they dont hang out much besides grians coming to the cafe. so imagine his suprise when his good pal grian brings in his other good pal mumbo and he has to act normal and not like he missed the man, its a very minor thing but HE MISSED THE MAN!!!
-when he finds out mumbo quit to become a villain he is quite distraught but hes deffo more distraught when he gets some crystal/bomb/whatever magic thing blown up in his face while trying to take it away from his kind of friend villain, and he technically dies? but vexes do keep following him in an attempt to join them and not very surprisingly saving his life is a pretty good offer when hes not really concious, now in this moment i am not sure whenever they villains just leave him after checking to make sure hes still alive and clicking an emergency button on his communicator or he, now under hre control of the vex attacks them or hes dead when they check all of those seem fun in one way or another
anyway theres a bit more?? but as you can see its all tangled in my head and most content was generated from me hearing music and going what if scar bad things happen
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sherlock. what is it's gender. what is their deal. speak your trutg
oh dear with the state of my blog its now hard to tell when people walk up to me and say sherlock if they mean dgs sherlock the og or any of the several others ive started talking about. we need to like. color code them. anyway im gonna talk about dgs sherlock bc hes the one im most likely to have proper thoughts on and then probably also do one for mostly just. like. the general concept actually thinking about it i do have many thoughts on Non-DGS Sherlock i dont know why i allowed myself to think i didnt . i just get caught up in the bimbo dad but i like the entire folder hes stored in
dgs first tho <333333
Sexuality Headcanon: gay. Just gay
Gender Headcanon: If i had to make 1 decision. genderfluid <3 Sherlock Holmes (DGS) can fit so much gender in her !!!!!!!!!
A ship I have with said character: *looks at my blog* *looks at my pinned post* um i think you guys know . already. the only one i have . do i need to say it
A BROTP I have with said character: i mean. Iris. they r best friends for real ! they r like the most important people to each other ! they r this guy and their 10 year old daughter who packs peanut butter jelly sandwiches for them !!!
A NOTP I have with said character: im gonna be petty and say vanlock. i blocked the tag bc i got tired of seeing it. actually even moreso i like physically recoil when i see ppl shipping him with ryuu, it fucking. completely baffles me. like. nothing wrong with that. people who ship them aren’t weird in That sense. but theyre weird as in I can’t understand what compels you to do this . i dont like vanlock but i can Understand why people do i just got extra sick of it bc its semi common. i cant understand why people ship sherlock and ryuu. like youve misread the vibe badly. this is not it. oh dear god this just got 5 times as long as all the other sections of this fucking ask meme. power of being slightly annoyed sorry
A random headcanon: UHHHHHHHHHH OH MY GOD . I KNOW i have headcanons abou t this bitch he swarms around in my mind all the time. I am imagining Random Exploits of the DGS Cast on a daily basis where did the fucking Concepts and Ideas go. ill return to this once ive done everything else and see if i havent thought of anything fun by then. ive thought about it some more and my most recent thought on him has been like. she knows some russian and japanese right? actually a fucking lot of russian to be able to read entire newspaper articles but thats besides the point i just think that sherlock knowing several different languages is neat but, Like. its pure chance if she ever manages to learn enough to be able to …. use it. once every several months sherlock will get really really excited about a new foreign language and put in like 2 weeks of work before forgetting about it completely. he has the vocabulary of a very young toddler in half a dozen different languages and is remembering those vocabularies by sheer luck
General Opinion over said character: Im normal iam normal normal im normal and regular . im normal and im normal about him and i dont intend to put him under a microscope or anything. i am not putting him in a little plastic box and shaking him to find out what happens . *extends my hand ibuprofen style* who wants to speculate about dgs in hyperspecific ways with me. hello my like 3 dgs followers do you have thoughts on sherlock holmes. tell them to me. lets all be normal. Anyway uh hes funny
IVE GOTTEN THAT BITCH OUT OF THE WAY LETS TALK ABOUT …… im not even sure. The General Concept of Sherlock Holmes on a Wide Scale, which, like, ultimately probably just boils down to: acd holmes. time to get philosophical with it. thats not the right word.
Sexuality Headcanon: sherlock is either gay or aroace or some more specific combination of all previous terms. Hey does that… even count as headcanon? Ultimately my stance is “whatever as long as sherlock holmes is not interested in women” and it is stated very clearly explicitly and repeatedly in canon that sherlock holmes is not interested in women so . like.
Gender Headcanon: You know what’s funny is expressing disdain for women is an effective way to distance yourself from femininity in general, for instance, to assert masculinity as a trans man, or as a negative reaction to being a trans woman. So. Like.
A ship I have with said character: at first i was like “its just kind of an objective fact that sherlock and watson are gay but i dont have emotional investment in it” but that was a fucking lie
A BROTP I have with said character: SHERLOCK HOLMES DOES NOT HAVE FRIENDS. I DONT FUCKING KNOW, TOBY THE DOG?
A NOTP I have with said character: The next time an adaptation tries to make him and irene adler straight together im going to thr authors house and shooting them point blank. shut up shut up shut up shut up. they would NOT
A random headcanon: man i dont even fucking know. he probably eats food off the floor and i mean this genuinely
General Opinion over said character: Sherlock Holmes is the ultimate Little Freak. Like 80% of the joy of any sherlock holmes media is “Watch this Freak Behave Oddly”. Some people think he would be hard to get along with personally i think we would make very good friends and i would love to hang out with the Freak.
Man. I hope this post isn’t actually as long and hard to look at as it looks in the mobile post editor. Unfortunately it probably is
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megismorallysunny · 1 year
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25/09/23
i might upload 2 today bc i have a lot, not from today just in general, so much so that i wrote it down. i had science first, turns out the school wanted every teacher for their first class to show their classes the new one way system because they felt it was clogged up. its really fucking stupid and we were supposed to follow it as soon as we left first class.. spoiler alert no one did, absolutely no one, i didnt see any teachers not following but no students are. I feel like using that system its only a matter of time before a 1st year gets hit by a car, your supposed to go outside to get to some classes that would have only been a few metres away now, and the way you go sometimes has cars on it, i seen one going pretty fast just a minute after class started.
i had irish after science and turns out that irish hw i was doing wasnt even the hw, and i had already done the hw a week ago, omg i just cant but it was a-ok. after that was maths, everyone was in for once so there wasnt enough seats for everyone, hopefully 4k4 and his other friend 5k5 dont steal my seat, i worked my ass off for that. a student who came 2 weeks ago, nickname -bluebird, is just annoying, its not that shes done anything wrong its that shes a complete loner, wont talk to anyone, not like ive tried but more in the sense, you wont hear even a squeak. in business she doesnt take down notes, in maths she doesnt do questions (not that i can say much) and in french she doesnt even know ça va and wont do her french hw. so yeah plain infuriating. i did my english hw wrong after i spent an hour carefully constructing only a third of my answer for an hour last night. my friends went to the shop but i didnt bc i wanted to stay in the cspe classroom and eat my lunch and maybe also read trollhunter fanfics, hard enough to find good ones involving a very cute and fluffy relationship between jim and walter. anyways we had to have a fake election in cspe, to try out ballot box voting, in first year for student council i tied with another girl for top votes. guess how many i got this time? yeah thats right a solid one, thinking about it makes me sad, does no one like me anymore??? but i laughed at the time even tho every1 looked back at me, it felt really dehumanising, the only way i deal with bad situations is by laughing and joking, and that situation made me feel a little shit.
made me also feel real great when aprciot turned back at me and said i put you 5, its like he constantly tries to talk to me and be my friend and when i ignore him he gets mad, its not great that i was standing beside granite today and apricot started pushing granite and while he did that his hand touched my tit. great. made me feel just great, it wasnt on purpose he wouldnt even try.. well he did say consent didnt matter today if it was me. he was obvi joking but considering he tried to sa someone before and this day a year ago, "mango" his friend and apples friend sent diorite a voice message saying apricot said he was gonna do a thing to her. idk im sorry i feel uncomfortable typing out the word rape. but yeah thats what he said apparently. doesnt make it better he could walk to her house and he knows where that is. but unfortunately it is what it is no matter how cruel it can be.
anyways, after cspe i fucking raced through the classroom to get to another because it had a door to the outside which was closer to the door to the other outside door to get to or religion classroom, we had a proper sound sub, she was rly nice and i thought she was a bitch because of her hairstyle but she really wasnt, AND I GOT MY FAVOURITE SEAT!!!! mission acomplished, my friend was happy bc i always run to get good seats and i actually did unlike last time where some people were unfortunately quicker.
idk if i mentioned this but i learned about shifting maybe early 2021 and it didnt really go anywhere, id tell you where i have planned out for me to go but it would be embarassing, i have one for the embarassing one and one for a library, filled with extensive knowledge and characters from shows i watch. anyways my body felt like it was floating last night, just like my first shifting attempt nearly 2 years ago now, i nearly did it but i chickened out, opened my eyes and couldnt ever do it again or get those symptoms. when i woke up at 4 in the morning i was half stuck in a dream, and was trying to do my tasks to meet my goal, i dont even remember what my tasks or goal was.
i skimmed the entirety of sex education, it was my first time watching it, it was pretty good, i really liked ruby she was definitely my favourite i also really loved roman but cmon ruby, she was so good also aimee. i redownloaded farmville2 so its time to relive my farmer life whoop whoop. ill do another blog post later. anyways goodbye have a good morning, good day and good night
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pinkpicket · 2 years
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What will life be like this summer?
As u can tell by the pictures, none of us are mentally stable 🥰 so yay hopefully this summer wont suck so if u wanna know choose, I guess?
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Pile 1
Ok soooo summer will start off very good with lots of strength and just motivation in general as it progresses it gets even better ( u got the lovers sooo 👀) i see a relationship or situationship blooming it's like going out and meeting new people. It's all fun and games until it's not. U see u probably have commitment issues and this won't just disappear and get resolved over summer so u kinda will fuck up this relationship. It's like u wanting or deciding to leave for some reason but also not even being committed EVEN to that ( like breaking up and making up every other week) not to scare u but i get jules and rue vibes from euphoria from this reading and I actually see u as jules. Another thing i see is not having money like being broke and shit which if u r a teen that make sense so dont worry, that doesnt seem to be the main focus here rather the main focus is partying, lots of laugh, messing around and fucking up.
Pile 2
Broke.
Lmaooooo okay wait i swear this is not it. So beside financially struggling I actually see u having lots of fun like partying( if ur an introvert maybe just hanging out with with ur close friend(s)) and shit. I don't actually see u having any plans or even if u do have plans u won't actually work on them lmaoo which is totally okay, u know it's summer it's not meant to be strict, ur just meant to do whatever u feel like. Buttt noww this is a big but bc shit kinda gets complicated u see u will be lied to ( this can even be u deceiving urself) almost like there's no clarity like something is holding u back from seeing the truth, now whatever this is ( whether it's someone else or urself that wrongs u ) u wont get justice for it. They'll get away with it. *** i have a reading on "what to do about the situation at hand" or something like that, go through my acc see if u can find it and save it up for future reference when u encounter that said situation i talked about bc that will actually have ur answer***
Pile 3
Not to be pessimistic but this is the most negative pile until now. Soo if u dont wanna read just leave it.
Ok so onto the real shit, u seem to have a choice to make, to be exact it's between two things that u will very much not be able to balance both together, and that's the exact reason why u must choose. But i must warn u, keep ur expectations as low as possible bc i can see u thinking u have the clarity to choose the right option but i dont see a right option here. It's like choosing between two things when u want both of them. There's no winner here. So go with whatever u want to but don't expect much.
Pile 4
This is the messy pile lol. A lot seems to be going on first of two people will offer u something ( i see it as relationships). Guy number 1 is young and boyish, it's like someone not exactly playful but he's very cheesy like he dont seem to be ur type whatsoever and he genuinely seems to have good intentions. Guy number 2 on the other hands i dont really good vibes like he seems sneaky and shit ( i see a toxic cancer now if u know anything about cancer guys u would know what im talking about).
Now how exactly will u respond to each of them? Well for number 1 lmaoo u aint gonna really like him like u seem very closed off toward him so nah this one is a no from u. While for the 2nd guy ya that wont work too, u know why? I see a lot of reasons for one he seems like a cheater and u can tell, he's also manipulative and u see that too, rude af, malicious so let's just say he's not the best person. So u be getting love offers and u will probably refuse them all and honestly good for u bc one is boring as hell the other is just toxic.
Ps. Im referring to the "love interests" as guys bc I literally see them as guys
So follow me so we cry together this summer 😍😍 yay 😝
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venicebixch · 3 years
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In-Between part 8 (final part)
angsty. enjoy!
My eyes flutter open to the light shining in through my window. I had about 3 seconds of peace before my mind went straight to Vinnie. I sit up, reaching for my phone.
No texts.
I sigh, getting a little more concerned. I anxiously check all my socials and see nothing would explain his tweet last night. I decide to text him again but don’t want to pry.
Y/n
good morning. are we still hanging out today?
I send the text and wait. 2 hours go by before I finally get a response.
Vinnie
i don’t think so. i had some shit come up. i’m sorry.
My chest burns reading his text. Why wouldn’t he respond to me last night? Even if something came up, why would be purposefully ignore me then cancel on me today with no other explanation except that?
Y/n
can you at least tell me if you’re okay?
Vinnie
i’m good
I get a little frustrated and my fingers start typing before I can stop them.
Y/n
why didn’t you respond last night? i was worried about you
Vinnie
i appreciate the concern but i just don’t wanna talk about it
Y/n
can you at least tell me what’s happening so i’m in the loop. did i do something?
Another hour goes by before he responds.
Vinnie
no you didn’t do anything. i honestly don’t want to right now. i’m trying to figure shit out
Y/n
what shit?
Vinnie
bruh drop it. please just stop, i’ll talk about it when i want to
“Why is he being a dick?” I say out loud to myself, shaking my head.
Y/n
why are you like this
I hesitate to send the message but my frustration gets the better of me.
Vinnie
like whatttt
Y/n
don’t act like you don’t know
Vinnie
i really dont
Y/n
you’re kinda being an asshole
Vinnie
lol. okay.
Y/n
you’re always so back and forth with me. yesterday you’re kissing me and having food fights and today you’re acting cold and distant and won’t even tell me what’s happening
Vinnie
idk. we already talked about this.
Y/n
what so i’m supposed to sit back and let you toy with my emotions and act bipolar toward me just bc you’re trying to “figure shit out”
Vinnie
you knew what this was when we started fucking around. don’t like it? don’t fuck with me. sorry.
“God, you’re a jerk Vinnie!” I yell at my phone as tears start to fill my eyes. I slam my phone down on the bed next to me and stand up, pacing back and forth again. I rub my hand across my head. “Why the fuck do I do this to myself? Why the fuck does he do this to me?”
“I don’t understand why he would act like that,” Emily says, taking a sip of her coffee.
I sigh and run my hands through my hair. “I don’t know either. It’s been a week since I’ve talked to him.”
“Have you reached out?” She asks.
“Yeah, three times. Nothing. I keep checking social media to see what the hell could be going on. And I asked Jett but he won’t talk to me, which is frustrating.”
“That’s just weird to me.”
“Right? Like what the hell is going on… And you know what? I hope the whole friend group doesn’t start acting weird toward me if stuff doesn’t work out with me and Vinnie. It’s not just him that I’m friends with, it’s everyone. But I know they’ll pick him over me,” I look down, fidgeting with the ring on my finger.
“If they do that, they’re not even worth tripping over,” she says.
“Yeah but besides you I literally have no other friends. And you’re moving away…” I say, my voice cracking at the last part of my sentence trying to keep myself from crying.
“You know I’ll always be around to talk to you, and I’ll visit you every chance I get,” she reaches her hand across the table, palm up.
I grab it and smile, nodding my head as tears overflow on to my cheek. I quickly wipe them away then go back to fidgeting with my ring. “I know. I’m just gonna miss you. I know it’s what’s best for you, though.”
“Maybe you should just go to his house and talk to him in person?”
I shake my head no. “I can’t do that, that’ll make me look crazy.”
“Y/n, you’re not crazy for expressing valid emotions. I think you’re still stuck in that mindset you had with Cory.”
I sigh, knowing she’s right. Cory is my ex and he was just awful, constantly gaslighting me and manipulating me. Always making me feel crazy. “I know I am. I still get so anxious whenever something goes wrong with a guy, which is ridiculous because it’s been over 2 years since I broke up with him.”
“That type of relationship takes a toll on you. Just… I don’t know. Try not to dwell on things too much, okay? Whatever happens, you’re going to be just fine,” she smiles. “I love you.”
“I love you too, Em.”
It’s been a few days since my conversation with Emily. I’ve been avoiding too much social media because it’s not good for my mental health lately but I decided to take a few minutes before bed to scroll through tiktok to try and get my mind off of everything before I turn in for the night. I’ve felt a little better today but still feel like an anxious mess.
Suddenly a text pops across my screen making my heart skip a beat.
Emily
have you been on ig?
My heart starts racing.
Y/n
no why??
I immediately hop over and see nothing posted from Vinnie. Then I search up Kyla to see if it has to do with her.
I flick through her story until I reach the last picture. 12 hours ago. Her and Vinnie laying in bed together, lights off. Her head on his chest. He looks like he’s asleep.
I feel an overwhelming sense of anger, my adrenaline coursing through me like I took a shot of it straight to the heart. I start crying and sit up, staring at the picture in disbelief.
“Really?” I say out loud to myself. “REALLY? Fucking ridiculous. Fucking asshole. Ghost me for fucking DAYS then pop up with this?”
Emily
have you talked to vinnie?
I immediately call her, not wanting to text.
“Hello?” She answers.
“Emily I’m gonna lose my shit,” I say, standing up, pacing back and forth.
“Just try to calm down. He hasn’t said anything to you?”
“No! He hasn’t acknowledged me in 10 fucking days! Went from fucking me in the ass literally to fucking me in the ass metaphorically in less than 2 weeks with no explanation!”
She giggles on the other side of the phone. I said that being serious but can’t help but laugh with her briefly through my tears before I crouch on the ground with my hand over my face, letting the real hurt take over.
“I fucking hate myself, Em.”
“Please don’t say that. If he doesn’t see your worth, that’s his own fucking problem. You’re incredible and if he’s picking her stupid ass over you, he’s literally fucking stupid. I’m so sorry he’s done this.”
“I did this. It’s my fault for letting my guard down. He’s right, I knew what this was the whole time. Not his fault I fell in love with him.”
“No, he fucking knows how you feel about him and continued to play with your emotions to make his sorry ass feel better about getting cheated on.”
I take a moment to gather myself then stand back up, getting lightheaded for a second. I sit back down on the bed and sigh. “I don’t know what to do.”
“Go to his house and punch him. Write him a ‘fuck you’ letter and post it on your insta story for the world to see. Fuck one of his friends.”
I start giggling. “You’re giving me too many good ideas,” I sniffle.
“Seriously. Go crazy, act like a bitch. You’ve held it together a hell of a lot better than I would have. I’d be putting sugar in the gas tank of his precious little car right now if it was me. If it’s over, it’s over. May as well end it with a bang. Don’t just lay down and take it.”
“I can’t,” I murmur, wiping the tears from my face.
“I know… listen, I fucking hate to do this but I’m at work right now and we’re busy so I have to go. I’ll talk to you later when I get off or first thing tomorrow morning. Please just try to keep your head up. I know it’s easier said than done but please. I love you so much. Keep me posted.”
“Okay, I understand. I love you too.”
I hang up and sit there for a minute thinking about what I should do. I decide to text him again, not expecting any response.
Y/n
i saw Kyla’s story. seriously?
To my surprise he texts back immediately.
Vinnie
what story?
I furrow my brows, confused. Surely he knows what the hell I’m talking about. Unless it’s an old picture? I feel a small glimmer of hope at that possibility but why would she post an old picture?
Y/n
the one where you’re sleeping together?
A few minutes go by before he responds again.
Vinnie
i didn’t know she posted that, i haven’t been online much the last few days.
“I didn’t know she posted that,” I say in a mocking tone.
Y/n
okay? i guess i just don’t understand what’s happening
Vinnie
i’ve been meaning to talk to you i just didn’t have time yet
My stomach turns again, afraid to ask what he wanted to talk about.
Y/n
about what
Vinnie
me and kyla are back together as of last night
i’m sorry
i really hope you understand
My jaw drops as I read his messages with numbness, trying to process what this means. For him. For me. I’ve spent time preparing myself for this possibility but a large part of me has been in denial up until this very second, never believing he would actually go back to her.
Not only have I lost the guy I love, I’ve lost one of my best friends. Someone I found sanctuary in. We can’t be in each other’s lives anymore if they’re dating after all we’ve done. Which also means I’ve likely lost my entire friend group. If I can’t be around him, I can’t be around them.
The numbness quickly shifts to nausea and panic. Tears start rolling down my cheeks in waves. He’s actually picking her over me.
The panic shifts to anger and I find myself fighting the urge to drive to his house and make a scene in front of everyone and tell him how stupid he is. Tell him much I loved him before and how much I hate him now. I want to sabotage their relationship and make it known to the world what he’s done to me and what she’s done to him. Neither of them deserve happiness, right?
“Fuuuuck,” I groan out through my tears. I swear to god I’d rather be shot in the fucking chest than deal with the emotional pain this has brought me.
I pick my phone up again and start to type out one last text to him.
Y/n
i fucking hate you
My finger lingers over the send button but I sigh and delete it, starting over.
Y/n
fuck you
I delete that too.
Y/n
cant wait to hear about your heart getting broken by the bitch for a second time and watch all your pitiful sad ass tiktoks and tweets that come with it you fucking loser
I delete it again and start laughing through my tears, feeling hysterical at this point.
Y/n
hope you get what you deserve ❤️
I finally send it, breathing out a sigh of relief before another wave of sadness washes over me as I see that he reads it. Images of our last kiss and our last hug flicker through my mind - already missing him and feeling consumed by my longing for him that goes so deep I can feel it in my bones. My heart feels like it’s ripping to shreds with every beat, sending me into a deeper mess of emotions.
The dots that show he’s typing pop up. I panic and immediately go and block his number before he can respond. Then I go and block him on everything else.
I don’t want to hear anything he has to say. If he wants to go back to the bitch after what she did, he deserves whatever hell she brings him in the future.
I hope she cheats again. I hope he lays in bed at night and cries so hard his head hurts and his throat feels like it’s on fire. I hope he feels empty, desperate, and scared. I hope he finds himself thinking of me, hating himself for his decision to choose her. I hope he feels used. I hope she makes him feel all the terrible things he’s made me feel. And I hope more than anything that he knows he fucking deserves every bit of it the next time he’s at his absolute lowest.
I toss my phone across the bed and turn over, curling into a ball knowing I won’t be leaving this spot for days, maybe weeks. I close my eyes and give in to the darkest part of my mind, finally sinking into the void I’ve been fighting so hard to stay out of. A place comparable to hell, where I’m alone and hate myself and hate the world. Where I feel nothing but anxiety, anger, and resentment for everyone and everything. I don’t want to live anymore.
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goblincave666 · 3 years
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3rd post in the span of probably 30 minutes but i cannot stress how narratively good it wouldve been to have a puppy pack spinoff with liam as the protagonist.
the show constantly grapples with the question of “what the fuck are we gonna do when scott leaves” and then never answers it.
liam seems to struggle with self confidence issues. i mean the i can be the alpha scene is funny but it definitely illustrates it. the kid depends on scott a lot & relied on him throughout the entire show, so the fact that he was thrown into the idea that he had to be the alpha after scott’s departure would add a lot of pressure for him. like a fuckton. liam would have to learn how to lead a pack of hormonal teenagers, and although scott was good at it, liam might struggle a LOT with that.
speaking of which: the group of hormonal teenagers doesn’t actually get along that well!!
mason visibly dislikes theo and i can’t imagine corey would be totally okay with the guy as he was treated pretty rough by him, if hayden came back (which i really wish she did because the show did her dirty development wise) then there’d also sorta be awkward breakup tension and she’d also hate theo and stuff. corey also doesn’t interact much with anyone besides mason & seems to only get along with liam for mason’s sake, so there’s also that. it would just be a whole disaster.
also more mason development. please for the love of god. he definitely had/still has nightmares and guilt about the beast situation & the conflict between him (the success, everything theo wanted to be,) and theo (the guy who basically tore mason’s pack apart). would be so fucking good you have no idea. he also seems to use figuring shit out as kind of compensation for everything horribly fucked up that happens to him and his friends. i want him to have like the empathetic character arc where he learns to take care of himself for 5 seconds instead of anybody else bc mason deserves that
also we need to find out what else corey is. like what is he. ghost rider??? ghost by itself??? fae??????something???? one of the great mysteries of the universe
& also thiam stuff obviously and theo learning how to be a person again and all that. there could be so much conflict around it it’d be so good. plus like i said in an earlier post: theo catching up on all the childhood/pop culture stuff he missed when he was doing devious diabolical things.
like imagine theo being slowly forgiven but still not being able to forgive himself. pain.
OR imagine liam finding out more about theo’s fucked up past, therefore knowing more details about why theo did everything he did, and then having to explain why theo should be forgiven without giving those details to everyone else, so it’d be really conflicting & you’d understand where everyone else was coming from by not forgiving theo but really wish they knew the whole story!!!
also also theo & corey work at deaton’s. this is canon. they end up getting past shit bc theo needs money and corey quit one of his because it was too stressful.
i honestly also think we shouldve had a puppy pack spinoff instead of 6b because i dont like the way 6b ended things & also it was bad (besides the thiam scenes) but thats a post for another day. so in this case hayden would still be there & brett would still be alive!! the good ending. i may make a part 2 of why i think 6b doesnt work great narratively (or alternatively, narratively worse than the others since none of em really work narratively)
basically tldr jeff davis struck gold & then decided he would grab a couple rocks and leave the mine for the day
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mythiccheroacademia · 4 years
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Delivery HCs with 1-A’s Big Three
A/N: Maybe I’m a bit biased because I want to be a pediatrician when I’m older, but I think children are the true gems of the world. I’ve seen a few deliveries in my life, and it’s a moment that not even magic can explain. I can only imagine what it’s like for the parents--to see the baby you’d start a war for if need be. So, here’s my attempt to translate that special love within a headcanon. 
Enjoy and continue to stay safe honey bunnies
Also, remember to thank a (good) mother for being literal superheroes once in awhile. Delivering is no joke!
Warnings: all the wonderful things that come with pushing a baby out of a 3-4in hole
All characters are aged 18+
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Midoryia Izuku:
when you and your husband got to the hospital, the nurses were suprised to find you laughing and your husband muttering 
they soon came to find out he was reciting how to books about delivery
word-for-word
the buff, muscley, #1 hero who scared villains into a crime rate of 2% was wiggling his knees in fear every time you had a contraction
he was running around, calling his friends and family about how he was going to combust
asked you every five minutes if you were ready to push 
“izu, honey, i don’t think it works like that”
“true....but are you ready?”
it was funny
but it stopped being funny after 14 hours of labor, when the contractions got really bad
now you were just snapping at izuku to quiet down otherwise you’d united states smash his face in
him: 😧
the nurses: 👀
he knows you’re in pain but damn 
it’s a relief when you get the epidural 
after that, it was a relatively smooth birth 
it still hurt like hell, but your husband is holding your hand, giving you encouraging kisses
one final push and the baby is out
immediately, the little boy is screaming his head off making his presence known
you let your head fall back with a relieved sigh as your body works to get the placenta out
whiles you do tiny pushes, izuku is in a love-struck daze as he stares at your son
it’s like he has tunnel vision
suddenly, nothing in his life was ever more important than this tiny little human who couldn’t weigh more than his left hand
the nurses hand you your son and you laugh through your happy tears
“it looks like i’ve got two cry-babies to deal with now” you lovingly smile
izuku is on his knees, sobbing, kissing your forehead and rubbing his finger against his child’s cheek
he’s so thankful
he’s so very thankful, he doesn’t even know how to comprehend it
you’re the best hero in his eyes
“he’s so beautiful” he repeats, like a broken record
there’s nothing he wouldn’t do for you or his son
he silently makes an oath to do everything in his power to see his family smile with security every day
izuku feels like he finally knows what being #1 truly is
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Bakugo Katsuki:
pregnancy wasn’t easy for you 
having twins wasn’t rare, but it made the process riskier
giving birth is still quite dangerous, like women are superheroes bruh
due to forseen complications, you were scheduled for a c-section 
unfortunately, you’re blood pressure sky-rocketed and you had to deliver your babies two weeks early
on the way to the hospital, your contractions were tearing you apart
during each shake and scream you gave, katsuki would hold your shoulder and let you dig your nails into his arms
he took it without complaint
it was like you were a different person when a contraction hit
you never complained about the pain, but he could tell you wanted it to end with how your head would fall like dead weight
never admits to the few tears that slipped past his cheeks
he never wanted to see you like this again 
when you make it to the hospital, they wheel you into the surgery room and he follows after
is relieved to see that you can no longer feel the contractions
in fact, even with all the IVs in you, you seem a lot better--more alert
he makes his way over to you 
“sorry for the car ride. i think i drooled. i probably looked gross. still do” you joke
he speaks in the softest voice you’ve ever heard, kiss your dry lips
“no baby, you look beauitful” 
and he means it
you do. you’re the most beautiful woman he knows
you feel a lot of pressure as they take the babies out, but once they do, the sounds of your children make you tear up
bakugo is frozen as he watches his babies, one boy one girl, get cleaned up
there’s a softness in the air as the nurses lay the boy on your chest and the girl in katsuki’s arms
your heart explodes with so much love that the heart monitor does a little jump that makes everyone laugh
but katsuki makes a pained expression before lowering himself so that his forehead rests beside your ear
he can’t tell what he’s feeling bc he’s felt love before but this was different
this was so overwhelming that it sent his knees buckling
you use your free hand to smooth down his hair as he cries 
“thank you” is all he’s able to say until the tears are gone
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Todoroki Shouto:
when shouto looks back on one of the happiest days of his life, all he feels is shame and embarrassment 
he was just doing everything wrong that day
no thoughts, head empty
of course you had to go into labor the day he decided to take a tiny job 30 fucking minutes away from the hospital 
he made it to you in 20, he broke several laws to do it
when he gets to the hosptial, he can barely talk 
the nurses had to call you to make sure this crazy man was actually the father of your child
misses the baby floor twice
walks into the wrong room three times bc he forgot how to read
when he finally makes it to your room, he’s fed up with himself 
“what took you so long? the front desk called me, like, ten minutes ago”
“i don’t wanna talk about it”
“are you having an attitude with me right now? when i’m about to deliver your child?”
shouto: ☹️
shutting up was the smartest thing he did that day
when the 15th hour of labor hit and you were gripping your husband, screaming and rocking on your knees for any type of relief, todoroki was nearly begging you to take the drugs 
“sweetheart, please consider the epidural”
“no, shouto. i’m doing this without one”
“why do you want to suffer when technology and modern medicine--”
“todoroki shouto, you give me one more lesson about modern medicine and i’ll rip your quirk right out of you”
“i dont think that’s--”
the nurse finally chimes in: “sir, i mean this in the nicest way possible. shut up”
after 24 grueling hours, you’re pushing
it’s taking everything within shouto not to pass out from the blood, the screaming, and how tight you’re squeezing his hand 
the baby is out and crying her little head off
you’re happy it’s all over and shouto should be too
but he’s going over the past 48hrs and letting it confirm how he’s just not set up to be a father 
he’s almost grateful that you would hold her first bc he doesnt want to screw up more than he already has, but you have a different idea
understanding the emotions and self-doubt reflected on his face, you say 
“shouto, i want you to hold her first”
he’s shocked and starts his stuttering, but the nurse is already on it
“you heard mama, open your arms big guy”
once the nurse helps him find a good hold, todoroki doesnt even notice the tears falling down his cheeks
“look at you,” you sniff. “you’re a natural”
his eyes are wide with child-like wonder and he manages to give you a trembling smile 
“you think so?” you nod and he’s smiling so big, you wanna take a picture. “she’s so beautiful, just like her mother”
he leans down to kiss you 
wonders what he did in his past life to deserve the love he was given the chance to feel today
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tonesplash · 3 years
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edward cullen supermarket au
@kyn-lyn54-blog asked: Can I request working with edward cullen in a grocery store/supermarket and starting off as competitive frenemies and forming a relationship (idk like carlisle makes them get a job or something to "be more human like") emmett or any of the others can work there too for some wing man/women support when the feelings surfaces whatever you feel really
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a/n: idk how i feel about this but its been in my drafts for like, a year and this is part 1!! part 2 is not written in bullet points lol but it will be out eventually. the header is supposed to be funny pls dont bully me
*new york summer starts playing*
this takes place when the Cullens decide to switch it up and split up for a while
maybe Alice foresaw something good happening if they did (probably you xoxo)
or like you said Carlisle is like Y'ALL ARE SO OUT OF TOUCH GET A FUCKING JOB
I mean I’d do the same if I was working my ass off wrist-deep in someone every day so my asshole friends could go to school in Gucci and come home just to fuck in the woods
anyways
Edward and Emmett are rooming in the city
and work part-time at insert generic grocery store
Emmett is a backroom/warehouse person
and Edward is a stocker
you are a cashier
your manager didn't want to pay extra for a real trainer, so they got you
you immediately get a little crush on him bc hello? a hot man who is mean and under your command?
you let the line build up on purpose just to call him up to the front and watch him work
he'll have the most intense glare on you while he checks everything out without looking down
which is just as hot as it is scary
for the longest time, he thought you were just messing with him because the way you think is so foreign to him
your inner monologue is so made up of random inside jokes and colloquialisms he isn’t really sure what you’re thinking half of the time
(think abstruseness by dilatory on ao3, a great read btw)
Emmett thinks it's hilarious how flustered you make him and you two frequently tag team him
After a few weeks of working together, you start to sniff them out
i mean they arent very slick would it kill you to eat something on shift guys
You thought you were being subtle
but pretty soon Edward gets sick of you acting like you’re James fucking Bond and invites you over after work
your coworkers tell you it's a date, but you still think he's going to try to sell you or something
your nosiness, however, outweighs your common sense
you ultimately agree because he’s sexy, and you're a hoe
Edward at this point is just beside himself
he would like to pursue you romantically
but it’s really hard for him to do that when you have somehow come to the completely wrong conclusion and he has no idea where the hell to go from here
so he decides to come clean ;)
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kashimos-hajime · 4 years
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sawdust and plastic | g.t.
summary: you learn two things from your first real fight with goro. 1) he apologizes through cooking. 2) he hates it when they argue.
WARNINGS: spoilers for the gimme danger main job, swearing, slight angst, theye just communicating pairing: goro takemura x fem!street-kid!v word count: 2.2k
a/n: written with a fem!street-kid v who used to be a corpo kid. also dont yell at me but i rearranged v's apartment so the couch goes on all 3 sides bc comfortable :^) crossposted on ao3! enjoy :) 
part of the tales of a two-bit thief series
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Sitting down on the couch, you kick up your feet for the first time in what you feel like has been ages. From Jackson Plains to reconnaissance on the Arasaka warehouse, you haven’t eaten shit besides the yakitori Takemura had ordered at that booth which already felt like ages ago. It’d been good—better than the trash you’ve eaten as a kid so you don’t really get picky—but you can’t help but recall the disgust on Takemura’s face when he had taken a single bite.
“Sawdust and plastic.”
You snort, running hands over your face and tilting your head back. Stupid fucking Japanese man with an endearing sense of dry-humour and… zero tolerance for your cheeky smiles. 
Then he had to go ahead and bring up Jack.
His words, cold, callous, echo in your skull like a goddamn radio and you squeeze your eyes tight, raking your hands down your face and melting into the couch. No matter how much you wanna stop it, you can’t help hearing it over and over and over.
Grabbing the remote, you’re about to switch on a channel in hopes you catch something that cna take your mind off everything when there’s a knock on your door.
For a moment, you truly debate telling them to fuck off but then, there is a pause.
“V.”
Eyes widening, your body goes rigid at the sound of his voice.
“V, let me in before I look anymore foolish.”
In the back of your head, you tempt the idea of just leaving him out there, pretending like you’ve fallen asleep, but then you get up anyway against your better judgement. You drag your feet over the floor, picking up old takeout boxes you haven’t had time to clean up and tossing clothes into a hamper to make your apartment look more like an organized mess than the dumpster fire you know Takemura will scold you for.
When you reach the door, you let him in without a word and you note the bags he holds on, hoisting them over to your living room counter.
“What’s this?” you question wearily. “Goro, I’m not hungry.”
“I realized I must apologize for my harsh words.” Beginning to pull out the groceries, you walk over and peer inside the bag, frowning. All the stuff inside is cheap synth shit, nothing you haven’t eaten before, but you’re still confused as to what’s going on since you don’t exactly have a kitchen in your place, but then out of one of the thicker bags, Takemura pulls out a big box.
“For saying them?”
“Yes." He sets the box down before continuing with groceries. “Earlier, I told you if I had time and resources, I would cook onigiri.”
“With cod, or grilled salmon. Or umeboshi plums, because they were Saburo’s favourite,” you finish and he sends you a look that could’ve been a smile if his lips had curved more and his eyes meant it. “I remember.” Helping him with the big box, you cut it open and find a rice cooker within. Eyeing the contraption with an arched eyebrow, you can’t help but ask: “Where’d you find this stuff?”
“It was difficult. I had to lower my standards.” 
“Lowering standards,” you echo dryly, unable to help your empty smile. “Yeah. We do that a lot in grand ole NC.” He doesn’t seem amused by you even trying to help as you sit down on the couch, twist to watch him work. “Are you sure you don’t want me to help?”
“I am cooking to apologize. It would not be honourable for you to help me,” he replies shortly and you nod to yourself, turning back around to watch the news. Nothing about a break-in with the floats, nothing at all indicating… anything.
For some reason, it makes you uneasy. The last time you snuck into an Arasaka building, everything went to shit and it made its mark. The lack of visible ripples makes you feel like nothing’s happened at all. Like it’s all been a fever dream, and you and Takemura didn’t sit on that roof for hours, watching the cat, just… talking.
Jesus, you need to get laid.
“Still don’t know why you bother cooking,” you say. Takemura noticeably stiffens and even though you don’t see it, you can almost feel the way he manipulates the air he stands in. He has that power—pure corpo power—and you clench your jaw. “Why waste time on someone so lazy as me?”
“V—"
“Nah, my bad. Arrogant. Hell, you probably see all the takeout around here and think I’m taking some easy route to food.” The bitterness is enough to puncture holes in steel as you stare blankly at the screen. “After all, I dirty my hands for money,” you quote. Your chest tightens as you hear his voice echo in yours, the way he had said it so coldly. Stomach turning, you shake your head. “Not in the name of some fucking principles.”
There’s a silence on his end and you close your eyes, swallowing through the bruising in your throat, a telltale sign you’re holding back tears. Just the mention of Jackie makes you want to spiral and you take a deep breath, trying not to react.
For the first time, you think Johnny might be right.
“Damn right, I am,” a voice says and you open your eyes, gaze fluttering to the side to see Johnny lounging against your couch. You turn around to see Takemura’s moved to the bathroom, probably to clean rice… however the fuck you make onigiri. You don’t know. You’re too tired to care about food, or feelings, or anything. “Never can trust a corpo. They all want one thing.”
“I don’t need to remind you that I was a corpo kid, do I?”
“Not anymore. It’s about principles.” Johnny’s tone is wry and you scowl at him. “What? If there’s one thing you might be able to relate to is that you both have ‘em. His might be wrong as shit, but…”
“Yeah, whatever.” 
“Oh, don’t tell me you’re gonna forgive him. This guy’s got you wrong, V. You don’t waste time on people like that.”
“I don’t have time to stay angry with him,” you argue. “The fact is, I’m dying and he’s gonna be the only one who can save me.” Johnny sits up straight, leaning on his knees and you sigh, shaking your head. Resting your arm along the back of the couch, you fit your hand to your face, pinching the bridge of your nose. “Fuck.”
“Stop. Don’t do it, V. It’s not worth it,” Johnny warns, standing up and you wrench your gaze up as you shift your feet on the floor and lean forward, burying your face in your hands. “I can feel everything you are feeling, and if I have to deal with your indecisive debates on whether or not it’s worth it to become attached to this corp piece of shit, I’ll kill myself.”
“You’re already dead, Johnny.”
“Let me live a little.” He stands and edges around you as if he were real and you rest your chin in your palms, watching as his holographic imagine crosses you before glitching back into view again across the table. He sits down. “The truth is, you’re gonna have a hell of a problem.”
“I know.”
“So, stop.” Johnny says it like it’s so easy and you chew on your cheek as the faucet turns off and you turn around to see Takemura begin to leave your bathroom. His pale eyes catch yours and you turn around only to see your brain tumour’s gone and left you alone. It’s eerily quiet in your head and you stand, clearing your throat.
Takemura slips the clean rice into the rice cooker before closing it and you cross your arms below your breasts, squeezing yourself tightly. You feel bare in your clothes despite wearing your scuffed jacket. He regards you warily, and then he sighs, gesturing to the couch—a silent ask.
 You nod, stepping back and letting him take where you were sitting earlier. You retreat across from him, where Johnny was sitting and he glances around your apartment. You wonder if he’s judging even more of you, but then he looks into his hands, swallowing visibly. 
“V—"
“You’re not the only one with principles. Just because I kill for money don't mean I'd do anything for it,” you begin coldly, leaning back and studying him. “And nothing about my life has been easy. When I said you did what you had to do to keep food on the table, that wasn’t me judging you. That was me getting it, alright, Goro?” His eyes meet yours and you arch an eyebrow, scoffing. “Not my problem if you don’t believe me. Yeah, I oppose corps, because they ruined my life, and so many other people’s lives no one can count 'em, but that doesn't mean you're any better than me. You don’t get to make assumptions about me. You never get to make assumptions about Jackie.That is all I have to say.”
He nods, accepting your harsh tone and you bite your tongue, trying not to burn down the bridge anymore than you need to as you prop a foot up against the table. Takemura doesn't say anything for a hot moment and you think you've wasted your time. Your knee jiggles. He doesn't even look at you.
Then: “I must again say that we are both still grieving. We ache to lash out. That is why I said what I said, and why, I presume, you say what you say.” He steeples his fingers and regards you with those eyes, gorgeous in their own right. “I understand what I said was callous. You have been nothing but understanding to my own loss.”
“No shit.”
“And I understand Mr. Welles was your friend.”
“He was like my brother,” you correct icily. “He’s been there for me since the beginning, I—I can’t forgive you saying something like that about him so easily, Goro.”
He dips his head. “I understand. It is why I cook for you. It is how I best express myself." The corner of his mouth tugs up faintly in a mirthless facsimile of a smile before he exhales sharply through his nose, looking at you again. "I confess I have not had time recently to cook, but I will do my best.” Johnny’s link comes to life at the mention and your own stomach squirms silently. “We are in this together, V. I do not wish for you to be angry at me.”
“Don’t do it, V. Don’t take it.”
“Fuck off, Johnny. I’m starving.” Aloud, you say: “I’ll be angry for a while. Just… let me sleep on it and we'll see from there.” He nods and you let your arms fall to your sides as you sit up. “It’s been a long few days, so I just… I just want to not think about anything for a while, you know?”
“I understand.”
He says that a lot, you notice. 
“Thank you for apologizing, at least,” you continue grudgingly. “Thanks.” You stand and gesture vaguely around the place. “Make yourself at home. I’m… I’m going to shower and scrub this grime off.” Dried blood, sweat, dirt, et cetera. He nods and stands as well, returning to the tiny cooking station he’s made for himself. You head to your closet, managing to pick out a clean shirt that’s a bit big and a jacket you ripped off a 6th Street goon a few weeks back. You just picked it up from the cleaners.
Heading for the bathroom, you set your crap on the toilet cover before poking your head out. Spotting Takemura sitting in front of the table, carefully sharpening a knife, you wait until he’s noticed you staring and he prompts you silently to ask.
“How’d you even know where I live, anyway?” 
He turns his gaze back on the blade.
“Ms. Olszewski marked it in my map, should the need arise.”
“This was a need?” you ask, curiously sardonic. Takemura doesn’t smile back and again, you get that impression he either doesn’t know how or he doesn’t do it often enough to remember. For some reason, that makes you sad. "Could've left it well enough alone. You know that."
“Oh, come on, V,” Johnny murmurs in your ear. “Don’t wax poetics on this guy.”
You ignore him.
“I do not enjoy the thought of a rift between you and I,” admits Takemura. He sets down the knife and sighs, eyes flitting to you briefly. Your hand wraps around the doorframe and you press your lips into a faint frown. "I... I have grown used to you."
You nod despite the words punching into your chest. “I don’t like it when we fight either.” At least, that you don’t have to fight twice to figure out. Your expression eases and your shoulders drop. “I’ll just hop in. Help yourself to whatever you can find. Really.” He accepts your offer with another nod and you close the door. It locks and you press your back against the metal, tipping your head back.
“For the love of—“
“Shut it, Johnny. Just… just give me a second.”
And on one of the rare occassions that he listens to you, Silverhand says nothing about how your heart doesn’t feel like wrought iron anymore.
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bobzora · 2 years
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GUESS WHO BEAT PEE3 TODAY (fes, the journey at least)
(lengthy) final thoughts:
ryoji is kind of. um. "that was my name for a while. i didnt mind it." hes kind of trans. is the thing. also bro 100% drew the shortest stick in this game lmao
obviously ryo/mina isnt quite the same as some of the other insane peesona gay people (2,5. 4 is gay but not rlly insane) bc like. in that form at least we only know him for like...two months?or so? but. u know what. they r t4t and both (kind of) dead. good for them.?
jumpscared by "the arcana is the means by which all is revealed." ive been seeing that shit in like. youtube comments since the day i was born. insane
nyx was like. pathetically easy. to the point where i felt kinda bad about it lol. at least its funny. this is what happens when u have level 99 protag + black viper lucifer (+ messiah for salvation for ailment healing. i could just use me patra gems but its more stylish this way). nobody ever got below half health and most phases (minus last bc of the halved non-almighty damage + gown) were a 1/2/3 hit kill. guys who overlevel because they just love the velvet room so so much (and im prolly not gonna do ng+, especially with portable port on its way (femc!). so trying to experience most that i can)
i did cheese the reaper a while back. used thunder reign strat. was actually harder bc new moon rebalance nerfed the shock rate so its not 100% lol. but took advantage of its ai to get it stuck in a break skill loop (akihiko dekunda sweep) the money was nice, and i spent soooo much time in monad levelling personas. wont be able to do liz fight bc not doing ng+. (slightly related: ive played pee5 so many times and ive never actually tried the twins/lvnza/jose fights. vanilla 1 time, royal 1 time, royal again for a friends playthrough but its not ng+, ng+ for 100% royal but only up to exams...royal for another friend's playthru. lol)
yuka/mitsu is real. to me. theyre even the colors of the lesbian flag
i maxed most social links besides magician (bc hes annoying. surt wouldve been nice tho), mitsuru (got up to like 8 then ran out of time), fuuka (trapped at rank 1. dont like her enough, not enough time. sorry. i played with english voices u know how it is), yuko (accidentally reversed her), justice (i know. who would have thought. started her wayyy too late.), keisuke (hes soooo cute like. i wanna look like that tbh. but fortune isnt useful enough and i ran out of time)
speaking of social links i literally hate how they work in this game so so so so much. i dont want to date all these girls! let me hang out with other girls please... this is the biggest example of romance making all these games so much worse. like. what the hell. (aigis is like. the only good female social link (that i finished) (maybe bc she isnt very much a girl))
another mechanic i hate: NOT BEING ABLE TO PICK INHERITED SKILLS. is every ps2 era megaten game like this? i love love love 'sona/demon fusion but it is so much harder to make stupid crazy builds when u have to reroll over and over again. literally just a timewaster. what could have been...i cant believe my lucifer is still weak to ice. WHO USES PEESONAS WITH WEAKNESSES. IN THIS DAY AND AGE????
the extremely strange continuity with 1&2 is fucked up to like. nickelodean sitcom cinematic universe levels. u know.
im still fixated on 5.i make that very obvious. and i do like 5's overall story better (royal being a very big portion of that). but GOD i love love love the theming of this game.
those strega guys r definitely fucking. i literally do not care about them but thats kind of just a fact.
the concept of artificial personas (that kill you) (that u have to take meds for which eventually kill you) REALLYYYY fucks me up what a BANGER CONCEPT. JESUS! JESUS. gg kirijo group.
chidori...(wretched)
akinari... (very wretched)
i dont think i have a favorite. tbh. like i like mitsuru because i like women and shes hot but character wise shes not actually super my type. i like ken because hes the most fucked up ten year old in the world (justice bias). aigis is crazycrazy theres stuff to be said abt her (characters who give metatron bias). yukari is a mean girl and i like that about her (lovers bias). ryoji doesnt have that much screentime for obv reasons but thematically hes cool (guys who beg u to kill them bias). i like the protag a lot (protag bias). yeah
OBVIOUSLY i knew we were gonna die. and when. and where. and how. but :( head in aigis's lap, brushing away her robo-tears... didnt cry but wow this game.
joshua peefee christ figure moment
kimi no kioku is the best 'sona song. period. nyx (avatar)&nyx (nyx) songs go hard too. but man!!!! kimi no kioku!! LOVE how its kind of a motif in so many other parts of the soundtrack, especially near the end...a unifying melody, an overarching theme.
forever from now ill prolly watch the movies just so i can make an amv. this game needs an amv. and unlike pee5 the animovies should cover most of what id want to say in one!
after the answer, ill finally be able to finish eternalpun. im so sorry ive neglected you guys, my friends...my pee2s....
kimi wo i will never leave you <3
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