#like a solid 4 things are stopping me from doing the Seriously Bad thing

[chipchopclipclop]

i just started rewatching soul eater for the first time since i was 15 and Stein is so much more interesting to me than he was then... what are ur soul eater thoughts chip if youre willing to share

i did not experience soul eater as a wee youth, the first time i watched (and then read it) was 4 years ago (give or take) so i do not have the beautifully tinged nostalgia for the series others might. i say this only bc it colours my thoughts of the series pretty well lmao.

the anime is alot better than the manga just by virture of bones' animation being incredible but also its like 40% less painfully fucking horny (though still is its shounen) and the way some of that plot goes in the second half is so fucking bad in the manga (though not all, but god). It's not like the anime gets rid of everything like that stupid ass argument black star has with maka still makes me want to murder him but ultimately i like the anime and its writing more. i think my minds canon is just a meld of parts i like from both lol.

ohkubo is also just on my top ten list of mangaka i need to actually kill like hes a solid #3 on the needs to die list. his designs and art improvement were fun to watch and i do love halloween world and his toony stuff, undeniably bangs, but you can really tell by the end where his transformation into horny moe artist came from. sometimes i see people shocked by this and soul eater not's existence and i have to think did we read the same fucking manga...??

sorry i needed to get my bitching out before talking about stein. i love stein. so many things wrong with him. he is 70% of the reason i got around to watching it and 95% of the reason i kept reading it. i think how expressive he is is alot of his charm, like he does alot of moe body language you might not expect of his type of chara.

hes #crazy and #madscientist and #edgy and #insaneasylum but also very silly and whimsical... kind of emblematic of the world of soul eater at large actually, this is also alot of the other characters appeal in this universe too (DEATH THE KID).

he's obsessive, hes empathetic, hes also sadistic, hes got a screw in his head, megane, fun with kids, perfect man. hes also got both an equal capacity for getting worse and better in him which can be fun to think about in either direction, and you've got characters that do influence him either way for that in the series. im also kind of remembering clicking the screw in his head is to help somewhat deal with his mental state actually, king of the disability aid...(?)

you can treat his character very seriously or lightheartedly, i think the writing in both versions maintains that balance well. It also makes everyone else who actually sticks around him somewhat deranged too (the fact he did surgery on spirit at school but spirit still interacts like pretty normally at work with him after meeting again. lmfao. THEY WENT DRINKING TOO) the fact he still calls spirit senpai also is so funny. its like 40% a dig at him but also 60% genuine. i hate gay people btw.

i like the thought that he was more stoic when he was younger but as he got older stopped trying to hide his eccentricities as much, and became more expressive lol. younger stein to me is a guy screaming in his head 247 but looking like 😐 while spirit stares at him trying to decipher what his eyelid twitching today means.

[lokavisi]

So about two nights ago, I had a really solid conversation with Loki. A friend got some cues from him through their pendulum, we were both very confused, and then my wife (who barely gives a shit about the Guy lol) interprets this message so pristinely. It was like getting slapped upside the head when she gave her explanation. So I started free writing to continue the conversation more directly with Loki. There were a few big points made in this conversation.

First, he expressed frustration that, in spite of working with him for 4 years now, I still don't seem to "get" him. Like I keep coming to him to vent about some bullshit that's winding me up, he offers a suggestion to help me unwind, and then I brush it off or forget or just straight up ignore it. So he was like, "I've been telling you the same shit for 4 years now... It feels like you're just fundamentally ignoring all the parts of me that make me, ME." So...naturally I felt really fucking stupid and shitty.

Then he very lovingly affirmed that "this isn't me being facetious or angry or trying to put you down. I'm frustrated and irritated, yes, but surely you do realize by now that I fucking love you and you're stuck with me." This meant a lot to me more so than it might for others because my ADHD comes with mad rejection sensitivity dysphoria. Any time anyone says something that indicates some level of upset at me, my brain catastrophizes and breaks down because "clearly" it means they hate me. (This is basically never the case.) This leads me to the primary nugget of wisdom that came from this conversation.

I realized this whole time (once my wife interpreted the initial message) I was hearing him more clearly than I had in a long time. It was nearly as if a physical person sat next to me speaking. As the conversation was wrapping up, I made a note of this and asked, "Why do I feel l hear you clearest when you're frustrated with me?" We've had plenty of similar conversations, and when I look back at past moments when I simply couldn't deny the messages were coming from outside myself, he usually had some level of frustration with me. But to answer my question, he said:

"Because that's all you wanna hear. That's all you think you deserve. Even when you seek love or comfort and I provide, you don't always fully receive it. I try to be funny to cheer you up and you won't have it, just calling me stupid. You are terrible at receiving input that doesn't put you down or reinforce any negative thoughts you believe about yourself. So stop it. Seriously. Fucking stop believing bad shit about yourself."

He went on to talk about the rune readings I did for a bunch you on here (thanks again for the practice❤️), and how I should be pumping myself up from all the positive feedback I got from it. And we exchanged some jokes and "I love you"'s before calling it a night.

As per usual, I share my story in a giant block of text to remind everyone of what Loki reminded me: to not just take in the messaging that supports a negative view of yourself. Allow yourself to believe that you are the gods' gift to humanity. (I just heard him say, "Seriously. I do it all the time. It works wonders for your self-esteem." 😂❤️) Maybe that verbage doesn't have the greatest connotations, but the point is to think more highly of yourself. Believe in the power and confidence that you possess. Even if it doesn't feel like you have either of these things, fake it til you make it - until you realize they've been here this whole time.

I'm on this struggle bus, too, y'all. We're gonna find ourselves together. Hail Loki ❤️

[invidioso-dogma]

👏🏻 Warhammer Fantasy Roleplay.👏🏻

Those 4 Liber books. Which ones you may ask.

These ones.

Now that we are all in the same page.

✨️Let's talk about them.✨️

Not good enough to be collected.

Not bad enough to be forgotten.

And not forget them we shall.

The tall and short of the story:

They are expansion packs to the main tabletop rpg game. And you guessed correctly it add daemons etc etc.

That etc etc is.

Liber Ecstatica : Slaanesh and horny on main cults.

Liber Infectus : Nurgle and dirty plagues.

Liber Mutatis : Tzeentch and birdy mutations.

Liber Carnagia : Khorne and angy serial killers. (No the spelling error was on purpose. Cause our boy real angy)

+ an adventure on theme with the above.

A solid 3/ 10.

Unless you are a writer and need basic descriptions of daemons and fluff then its a decent 3.5/ 10.

Now.

Now that we dealt with that.

Its time.

For the tall and longer.

And in depth analysis and my personal ice cold takes and my thesis of - this would have been lit if we played the villains pov.

I could be talking about the latest books, hell I could be talking about dnd. But no me and you we are here and we are stuck and for the next 5 minutes I am the captain and I will take you on an adventure.

🐙Liber Mutatis - feat Dj BoBo and the Mutants are Alive🐙

Nothing gets me more going than referances that weren't funny even in 2007.

What the book adds to gameplay?

Mutations. From bird beaks to tentacle limbs in case you decide to multipraise Slaanesh on the side.

Because you aren't just a chicken worshipper, you are a wizard and what best way to show it that gaining an additional 30 eyeballs for all those books you want to read.

This book is your one stop to fond some very basic mutations to add to a game.

And when I say basic. I mean basic, don't expect great stuff. But I guess this might have been part of the plan...

What's the included adventure like?

You team goes in a town to find why all those apprentices have been taking such a long unauthorized day off.

Well they were kidnapped by a cult with a ringleader being a shop keeper with a Lord of Change tranformed as a parrot named Bobo that births pink eggs.

Then they feed those pink eggs to create mutant bird people.

Your job is to stop it. Not the most original ideal... but what would it be if you played the adventure from the cultists pov?

Dj Bobo and his gang of squidmen

You heard the adventure of the heroes. But how would it be if you were the bad guy?

🐙 One player would pretend to be the shopkeeper with his pet parrot that births oversized pink eggs and you have to smuggle them and hide the fact from the people who came to stop you in the city.

🐙 The second will be the immortal nun with only her face intact in the soup house cooking for the poor and using the eggs to create mutant by trying to convince the people that those pink eggs are totally edible what do you mean eggs are not pink. Maybe you are seeing things...

🐙 The third one is squidward at the gates. Basically a war veteran that lost his legs. But jokes on them. The big bird man gave you tentacles and you will be wizzing throught the sewers like a getski.

🐙 The fourth will be the person kidnapping those student wizard kids, bagging them up and send them to the ritual site alongside your grizzled unshaven gang of pain assistants.

🐙 Finally someone can even take the role of the bird. Blasting eggs before the time of the summoning happens when they will be blasting magic and turning the whole city into a lethal rave.

🪲Liber Infectus- Grandaddy Nurgle's Black Death Clown Parade🪲

If only I was joking... stick around and find out more...

What the book adds to gameplay?

A wide selection of how you and your players can seriously get down with the sickness.

Besides that all the basic nasty descriptions about the warps most unwashed denizens. Basic. But we all start from somewhere, like how a rash develops into a mouth and eats the person living next door.

What's the included adventure like?

Evil doctor spreads a plague you are there to stop it etc etc. You can see where this goes from the words "initial symptom development".

Those sick clowns I mentioned

On the final part of the adventure a clown parade, with music and performers and everything. Pops in town and is ready to kick pc ass.

And the only thing I got to say is.

Why can't I play their pov.

The idea of five sick honk honk clowns in a cart playing music and spreading the literal word on nurgle with a mutant strapped on the back. Sounds like a wild adventure.

It sounds a lot more enjoyable than sitting around asking people "so when did the first symptom begin and how are you feeling?"

Give me the clowns. With their dancing plague and their bouncing nurglings on a wacky adventure to evade the law.

Fast and furiously popping knees and bursting shins.

⚘️Liber Carnagia- Renaming Khorne into Gandhi ⚘️

Again. Wait and I will explain this as well.

What the book adds to gameplay?

Nothing. Of value. Is it obvious that this one was my least favorite?

Whats the included adventure like?

Theres a magical angy spear and your job is to be beaten down and not kill anyone. Just sit with your thumb-tacks up your ass and do nothing.

That's what the adventure is.

In the book of Khorne what you are asked to do is not fight anyone.

The irony is so deep, I screamed that's deep bro and a lovecraftian horror responded from the chasm "I know".

Putting the K of Killer back into Khorne

A murder hobo adventure. That's it. It's a lot better than going to a besieged nun house and sitting on the grass asking those raiders to pretty please let go of the hostages.

Chaos, mayhem. If I was the dm I'd put everyone in a nonr stop 4 hour rollercoaster of blood, guts, bullets and norwegian death metal music playing in the background before they all die gloriously into a massive raid burning imperial churches.

Then go to hell, become daemons and be yeeted back into the mortal world to kick even more ass.

🪷Liber Ecstatica- And the Dick Measuring Olympics 🪷

The title will again make sense soon I swear.

What the book adds to gameplay?

Cults, anything you need to know about a basic degenerate cult. From poison chuggers to vape huffers and even vegetable shovers.

This is your one stop to make a bare bones cult for your games.

What's the included adventure like?

A girl is being chased after many eligible bachelors of the city.

And your job is to stop them from doing so.

How did this adventure start?

A rich old dude didn't like that an "average" in his eyes poor, low noble had admirers. So obviously its witchcraft.

The reason is as sound as an airplane made of shredded cheese. And the book is weidly mean about it.

Like the girl is fine. But everyone is like "she is not a busty noble that cries gold so obviously theres foul play, also have I told you that she is average".

Oh the crimes against humanity. If the adventure began and the noble was like "yeah my son flayed himself while screaming her name" then sure. I'd be calling foul play.

Busting a Nut not Busting a Move

The same but instead of having 10 men fighting over a decent, everyday girl its Danny Devito art critic and the whole team tries to complete the ritual and avoiding the witch hunters from burning their "beauty".

We are already dealing with a daemon that has magically roofied the local men in order to be freed from a magical mirror. We might as well make it into a comedy skit.

This is a game about the ultimate degenerates, extreme is the only word we must know. And you know what would be even better.

All of the players are grade A spandex bdsm supermodels and have to promote gollum as a drop dead nuke level bombshell.

[devildomwriter]

🪷:

I haven't TOUCHED nb! in a while (left after playing through lesson 13 I think) the last scene i remember playing were mc was in coma while brothers confessed and yea I left after that

Recently I see some uproar about lesson 37 💀 I am so curious but sooo lazy to play through it myself. Will you be so kind to spoil the entire nb! lore for me? Lmaoo

Seriously though I see spoilers of Lucifer RAGING and I have no idea 🤌

Wow that’s a lot to go through haha I’ll try and give a brief summary

Michael saves MC from their comma and the boys and MC are reunited and they are accepting of MC being a human

Diavolo decides he must send Mc back to the human world but before he can he is forced to undergo trials to prove his right as the king because the House of Lords is angry with him

Afterwards Henry goes missing and the brothers search for him. Shortly after it’s announced Raphael will be coming and they are all on edge.

When Raphael arrives he tells everyone they will be allowed back to the Celestial Realm and their father has pardoned their crimes and warns if they don’t accept they will “intervene”

The brothers individually decide they cannot leave Satan behind because he is their brother but Lucifer wants them to go back and he alone with stay with Satan because his actions are what caused his brothers to fall. In the end they all reject their pardon and stay with Satan where a ball is thrown by Diavolo to officially announce them as the seven rulers of hell.

The end credits scene reveals that Raphael was actually Michael in disguise coming to check on his brothers

Season Two

At the beginning of the season the brothers are working with Diavolo, Barbatos, and Mephistopheles for a more solid set of rules and classes at RAD and participate in mock classes

As that happens the brothers begin succumbing to their sins one by one

First Mammon succumbs to greed and his Little D. (which are revealed to be a reflection of themselves) is the key to saving him by delving into Mammon’s psyche. They then form a pact.

Next this happens to Asmo who becomes strong enough to enslave all his brothers until Solomon and MC use his Little D. to stop him. They then form a pact.

Next Satan meets Little D. no 4 and is embarrassed by his behavior and sinks into a coma but since he was born with his sin he doesn’t succumb to it but Little D. is needed to save him from within his mind where it’s revealed the first things his brothers ever gave him are his greatest treasures. They then form a pact.

Next Beelzebub grows much hungrier but doesn’t succumb and instead grows weaker. It’s thought that Beelzebub is becoming weak because he is the least demon-like of his brothers. Little D faces against Beelzebub in an eating competition and Beelzebub proves himself the avatar of gluttony.

Belphegor won’t let MC form a pact with Beel as he isn’t sure they can be trusted so MC undergoes the angel’s trial where they cannot tell a lie or the bracelet will break and they will not forge a pact with Beel. MC ends up telling Solomon his cooking is bad which devastates him but tells a lie to cover for Luke and it’s revealed the trial isn’t not to lie but to know the weight of a lie.

Leviathan overhears MC talking with Solomon about how they need pacts to get back to their world. Leviathan becomes upset and hides away in his room. He succumbs to envy and his powers rage out of control and flood the Devildom. Eventually MC is able to get through to him and Leviathan saves them.

Belphegor doesn’t want MC to leave and won’t accept the news so he uses his powers to keep his brothers too slothful to do anything and traps MC in the attic so they can’t leave but MC uses his Little D and breaks him out of his own psyche.

In the attic everyone reunites and agree to help MC return home so Belphegor, Beelzebub, and Leviathan makes pacts with MC. Everyone believes Lucifer will hop of board but he states he doesn’t want to, a sentence that makes Diavolo laugh.

Lucifer begins suggesting MC get used to life in the Devildom as they won’t be able to return home.

The brothers discuss how odd this is when MC wins a trip for two on a Devildom train owned by a noble. Lucifer invites himself as the second guest and during the trip is hinted his pride is at play and they may need his Little D. Before this can happen, Diavolo sends Mephistopheles after Lucifer and MC to make sure they are safe since a noble who hates Lucifer and his brothers owns the train.

Mephistopheles intrudes on their vacation and he and Lucifer butt heads often. The train is then hijacked and it’s pinned on MC, Mephistopheles, and Lucifer. Mephistopheles and MC are freed but Lucifer is sent to the lowest layer of the underworld, Cocytus, for punishment.

The brothers reveal the underworld is technically Celestial Realm territory so it’s weird that Lucifer is being punished for a crime committed in the Devildom in Celestial Realm territory. The brothers and Luke and Simeon venture to Cocytus to save Lucifer but the brothers are each restrained on different levels of cocytus for their crimes.

They reach Lucifer who is surprised to see MC and horrified to learn his brothers came along since the final layer of Cocytus is where you are punished for crimes against their father. As he’s yelling demanding to know where his brothers are is when Raphael is forced to read Lucifer his crimes and that he and his brothers are trapped in Cocytus and will be punished forevermore for their crimes in the Celestial War.

Lucifer is saddened for Raphael and enraged his brothers are suffering and in his rage he breaks free of his chains.

Meanwhile Diavolo is more furious than Barbatos has ever seen and is meeting with the House of the Lords to uncover what they plotted to get Lucifer arrested by the Celestial Realm.

That’s where we currently are in the game.

[johanna-swann]

Having seen the Daredevil Born Again trailer I gotta say: I don't think my previous worries will be proven right.

I was mostly worried that they'd miss the tone and make the reboot too Disney. After we saw Fisk in Hawkeye dressed like that and after they first re-introduced Matt in She-Hulk of all shows I was seriously worried the reboot would suck. There were rumors about writers being fired and rehired, there wasn't much info about returning supporting characters, then there's the "Born Again" title.

In general the new show seems to have a very serious, dark and violent tone matching the previous Netflix seasons really well, but as far as I understand the Born Again run was what season 3 of the Netflix show was based on, yes? And then they also use it as source material for the reboot / season 4? Still interested in how that will play out. But yeah, in general the vibes are on point.

Plotwise, Matt seems to have stopped his vigilante activities again which one could call repetitive, but I think it makes sense. He quit being Daredevil after Elektra died and the Nelson and Murdock firm broke up due to his and Foggy's conflict about vigilantism. In Defenders he briefly came back because the enemy he fought in season 2, the Hand, had resurfaced and he thought he might be able to save Elektra. Then in season 3 he only reclaimed the Daredevil identity because Fisk was back. Both times he had specific reasons to come back, he didn't just feel like putting the mask back on again. He knows it's dangerous and that often enough the people he cares about suffer the consequences.

Now I personally got the impression that the ongoing corruption within NYPD, the FBI and the Justice system in general paired with the success of putting Fisk away a second time provided the perfect set-up for Matt to go back to being Daredevil for non-specific, principled reasons and with his friends' blessing too.

The new trailer tells us that then something happened. "A line was crossed." and Matt as a result hung up the mantle again. (I assume Matt's moonlighting got someone killed. He's a vigilante with a no kill rule, this is definitely something that would shake him up.) But now Fisk is back and he is Mayor. So once again we've got the same conflict, opponents and basic prerequisite: Matt vs Fisk, Fisk thinking he's actually helping the city and with the power of the system behind him, Matt fighting a corrupt system and therefore having to work outside the law. Not new, but it's a solid concept, I'm down.

(On a side note: D'Onofrio is so good, I have so so much respect for his acting skills. His portrayal of Fisk gives me the chills every time. Charlie Cox gets so much praise and it's deserved, but holy fuck. Vincent D'Onofrio everyone. One round of applause please.)

What I am worried about right no has more to do with personal preference than what I've seen from the reboot itself so far.

It's not a big secret that I did not like Karen in the Netflix series very much. She was fine in season 1, but after that they started writing her in a very hypocritical way. She starts somehow stanning the Punisher and shortly later is super upset about Matt being Daredevil. She constantly runs head first into danger, pulling other people into her mess and then blames Matt for doing the exact same thing. She accuses Matt and Foggy of keeping secrets, dangerous secrets that affect her as well, but doesn't tell them she killed Fisk's right hand man. So yeah, not a fan of that.

At the end of season 3 though the trio (Matt, Foggy and Karen) seem to be on the same page and the Matt/Karen romance could end up as a "been there, done that, it's over" thing. If the writers handle Karen better this season and these three stay platonic besties - it could be good, but I am worried especially with the theory flying around that Foggy might be dead. Without him to balance out Karen's and Matt's reckless stunts this could turn out really bad.

The other thing is that I low-key hated how much space the Punisher took up in season 2. The Punisher storyline was very much the focus of that season while Matt the protagonist and titular character was off doing something else. It's fine that they used Daredevil as a Punisher backdoor pilot, but if he is already getting his own show - why make him the main character of a different show for an entire season? This also ties into the writing around Karen in season 2 and the Defenders. I did not have fun with the Punisher storyline at all. I much would've preferred if they had given Elektra, Stick, the Hand and that entire plot more room since that was also very relevant to the Defenders crossover while the Punisher didn't need to be so closely connected to the rest of the Netflix Marvel universe.

So him being back doesn't thrill me. I hope he's just a minor character they whipped out to create a buzz in the fandom and he won't "steal" the spotlight again. There's a long, long list of other characters I would've loved to see again instead. There's Claire, the other Defenders (especially Jessica Jones), Marcy, Elektra (if Matt can survive Midland Circle collapsing ontop of him so can she), Foggy's frenemy Brett, etc. And now that Daredevil is officially in the MCU this opens up a plethora of new possibilities too.

So. I think objectively speaking the show is looking pretty solid right now, but I'm not sure it'll hit my personal sweet spot.

[neomedievalist]

its jan 20th but that doesnt mean i cant still do a games i beat overview for 2024 still. here we go, games I beat sorted by date I beat them last year

1/17: Umineko Answers Arcs

yeah so i was stalling on episode 8 for a long time and i had finally finished it in january last year. i dont think this even needs me to say anything. fucking incredible visual novel

2/29: ULTRAKILL

not technically a "beat" but i finished all of the content thats out then (aside from. the second secret boss i havent beat yet). looooooove ultrakill love this i think everyone should play it even if they dont like shooters you just have to have a requisite level of adhd that not everyone has. it has brought me so much joy. cannot wait for more content to come out

4/27: Celeste

this shit has been on my backlog for so long. it was so satisfying to finally finish it. really solid 2d platformer really enjoyed it and liked the story. im not usually a 2d platformer person i prefer 3d but it is rly tight and satisfying. admittedly i dont understand why people think it was like, life changingly good, but i can see how itwould emotionally resonate w someone and its overall a very good game

4/29: Shin megami tensei V

My eternal agony. I fuuucking hate this gaaaaame oh my goddddd the ending was so bad. i already made a seperate post complaining about it so i wont bother you but seriously the fact that the end is unchanged in vengeance is so crazy. I have 0 desire to play vengeance. The foundations have some potential but its just like. holy fuck the story is so nothing. Gameplay was fun though! although i enjoyed the tsukuyomi fight more than lucifer.

6/8: Peggle Dinners

this counts. Everyone get dinnerspilled. Its peak.

8/15: Kirby Triple Deluxe

Lowkey one of those games i just picked up on my 3ds every once in a while and then it was like wait i beat it? huh? okay then. Its a good kirby game i dont really care abt the kirby formula or anything again not rly a 2d platfrmer person but its probably good. I liked gambling for keychains

8/22: Devil May Cry 4

another one of those games that has been on the backlog for fucking ever. I do not like the missions in this game very much there was a lot of screaming in agony. but i like dante and i like nero. it had some great moments. honestly the most important thing this game did was allow me to finally start 5. I also like the catholic beast mode theme that was really fun.

9/1: Super Mario 64

Finished a 120 star run on coop so i'm counting it. had never actually beat the game before so honestly really momentous occasion. Still holds up especially if you play the pc port LMFAO. We've moved on to star road now which now that I think about I should have put on my 2025 bingo

10/13: Heaven Will Be Mine

Good ass game. I finished we know the devil late in 2023 but it took me a long time to get thru hwbm bc i wanted to give it the full attention it deserved. Really confusing as shit but really rewarding once you start learning what all the terms mean, i really love theorizing and thinking abt the implications of the worldbuilding. pluto was a real sleeper hit character for me i think at this point she might be my favourite which is crazy considering how i didnt care abt her at first. realllyyy good game.

12/27: Balatro

Yeah i got it for my birthday. cleared my first run a few days after. its a good video game just like i knew it would be. never stop gambling.

12/31: Hypnospace Outlaw

the new year's special! i'm so glad i finally finished it. it definitely is a game that people probably spend a few hours in to gawk at and then never play again. it was so rewarding to really give it my time and full focus even if it took me a long time to finish it. still thinking abt it. its real good folks. its real good.

heres to more videogames this year<3

[llorom4nn1c]

♡ My indirect opinions on different bands! ♡

I've seen people do this kind of thing on sites like Quora where they'll say their opinions on something and you have to guess what person they're talking about, so I thought I'd try it.

🎀 Band #1:

Best pop punk band ever. Not only do they have one of the best vocalists in the genre, but their music is so timeless. I've listened to my favourite song of theirs hundreds of times over the years and I still get excited every time it comes on. There's a reason why their music is still so critically acclaimed to this day.

🎀 Band #2:

I'm sorry but this band has some of the most delusional fans ever. You guys really interpret everything as a sign that they're recording music together. I know most of it is jokes but just because the bassist posts a photo of his bass, that doesn't mean the band is recording together. He could literally just be playing for fun. I mean I'm dying for new music from them too, but come on.

🎀 Band #3:

This is a soloist, but I still wanted to include her. This person's second album is her best one and is way underappreciated. One of her most popular songs is from this album, but I think there are songs on that album that are far better. The opening track is especially great and I wish she had more songs that were that heavy. I love her pop punk stuff, but I still wish she made more post-grunge albums.

🎀 Band #4:

I really wish this band got more attention. I feel like people used to talk about them a lot during like 2012-2014, but now they've been kind of forgotten. It's really a shame because I love their music. It makes me really sad that a lot of the female-fronted emo and scene bands besides Paramore have been almost forgotten.

🎀 Band #5:

I think this band is an example of a side project that's better than the band that it's derivative of. Their vocalist's original band is also good and I have a few songs from them that I really like, but with this band, I just think their music is a lot more enjoyable. Their first album is probably my favourite dance rock album and I'm really glad that they've reunited.

🎀 Band #6:

I wish other songs by this band were as popular as their biggest one. I understand why it's their biggest, because it is very good, but their other songs are great too and they're still making good stuff to this day.

🎀 Band #7:

I honestly think this person's music is really good and really didn't deserve all of the hate it got when it was released. Everyone said that she was ripping off Avril Lavigne, and while there are definite similarities between their music, I think her music is pretty solid. Her first album is especially good. All of the songs are really catchy and I would love to see more music from her.

🎀 Band #8:

This band is so over hated. People hate on their vocalist for things that he did when he was a teenager, which I always thought made no sense. A lot of people also seem to hate this band because their most recent albums have been generic pop albums, which also doesn't make sense to me. There are people doing way worse stuff, plus you could also just listen to something else. Like the way people talk about their music makes it sound like they're being forced to listen to it, when they're not.

🎀 Band #9:

I think I like this band more as people than actual musicians. I do like their music, but I don't think it's anything that special and I can kind of seen why some people call it generic. Their lead singer is one of the most genuine people I've seen in rock and I loved watching the band's Bryan Stars interviews when I was a new fan. I don't agree with people who say their music is bad (their first album is way over hated btw), but I can see why some people might not like their music that much.

🎀 Band #10:

I seriously do not understand how people listen to this band. I know a lot of people stopped listening to them after the allegations, but their lyrics are still so gross and icky. And the fact that there are people who still listen to this band and post stuff about their lead singer like 'They don't make guys like him anymore' is so gross because most of their lyrical content is about literal grooming and paedophilia. Also, there are most definitely still guys like him out there, the only difference is they aren't hiding behind a scene boy façade.

That's it, byeeeee!! ˚｡⋆୨୧˚♡

[selfhelpforstudents]

i love your page!! Happy Birthday ❤️❤️ How did you get over your shyness?

How I Conquered Shyness (And How You Can Too)

Hey, thank you so much for the birthday love! ❤️❤️ It means a lot! So, you’re curious about how I got over my shyness? Honestly, it’s been a journey, and it didn’t happen overnight. But I’m happy to share what worked for me in case it helps you out too!

1. Accepting That It’s Okay to Be Shy

The first step for me was accepting that being shy isn’t a bad thing. It’s just part of who I was at the time, and there’s no shame in that. Once I stopped beating myself up for being shy, it became easier to work on stepping out of my comfort zone. Acceptance was a big game-changer—it helped me start seeing shyness as something I could manage, rather than something holding me back.

2. Taking Small Steps

I didn’t suddenly start doing things that scared the heck out of me. I started small—like making eye contact with people, saying “hi” to strangers, or speaking up a bit more in class. These little steps helped me build confidence gradually. The more I did them, the less intimidating they became. It was all about proving to myself that I could do it.

3. Focusing on My Strengths

Instead of dwelling on what I found hard, I started focusing on what I was good at. I found that when I leaned into my strengths, whether it was in academics, hobbies, or other activities, it naturally boosted my confidence. When you feel good about what you’re doing, it’s easier to carry that confidence into other areas of your life.

4. Finding My People

Having a solid support system was huge for me. I found that surrounding myself with people who understood and accepted me made a big difference. Whether it was friends, family, or even online communities, having that sense of belonging helped me feel more comfortable being myself. It also gave me more opportunities to practice socializing in a safe space.

5. Challenging Negative Thoughts

Shyness often comes with a lot of self-doubt and negative self-talk. I worked hard on challenging those thoughts whenever they popped up. Instead of thinking, “Everyone’s going to judge me,” I’d remind myself that most people are too focused on their own lives to worry about what I’m doing. Changing my mindset helped me push through the fear of judgment.

6. Practicing Self-Compassion

I learned to be kind to myself when I didn’t push as hard as I wanted to. Not every social interaction is going to be perfect, and that’s okay. I started treating myself with the same kindness and understanding that I would offer a friend. This helped me bounce back from awkward moments without letting them define me.

7. Putting Myself in New Situations

After I got comfortable with the small steps, I started pushing myself into new and unfamiliar situations. It could be something like joining a new club, attending a social event, or taking on a leadership role in a group project. Each new experience was scary at first, but it helped me grow and showed me that I was capable of more than I thought.

8. Learning to Laugh at Myself

One of the best things I did was learn to laugh at myself. I stopped taking every little mistake or awkward moment so seriously. If I stumbled over my words or said something weird, I’d just laugh it off. This helped me stop fearing social interactions so much, because I knew I didn’t have to be perfect.

9. Keeping the Big Picture in Mind

Finally, I kept reminding myself why I wanted to overcome my shyness in the first place. Whether it was to make new friends, succeed in my career, or just feel more confident in my own skin, having that big-picture goal motivated me to keep pushing forward. It’s still something I work on, but I’ve come a long way, and so can you.

So, that’s my story. Remember, everyone’s journey is different, so what worked for me might need some tweaking to work for you. But the key is to start small, be kind to yourself, and keep pushing forward. You’ve got this! And thank you again for the birthday wishes—it made my day! 😊

[shads-shipposts]

Little snippet from Ch 4: Run and Gun of Anachronism that I'm particularly fond of.

Far too often I find myself making Tom a little too harmless/passive (I blame Mackenzie Crook, he portrayed that man like a puppy so so much [this is not a complaint]). As a result, I went back into many scenes and tweaked it to give... a little reminder that Tom isn't harmless. He isn't passive.

He's Allan Thompson's right-hand man who has done and seen things that would give a normal man nightmares, and he can be a very dangerous or even deadly opponent if you end up on the wrong side of Allan.

---------------------------------------------------------------------

Tom stepped into my field of view, slowly. “Hey, kid. Just drop the gun, yeah?” he tried, a hand reaching out. “Ya can’t hurt us. Not wit’ that.”

“Don’t mistake my inaction for inability,” I growled, not taking my eyes off Allan. “I know my way around a gun.”

“Ain’t that. Ya don’t wanna pull that trigger, trust me.”

Neil and Hobbs were cautiously approaching now too, staying back at a gesture from Allan. The first mate didn’t take his eyes from me, however. 

They were way too calm considering I had a loaded gun. Or…

My eyes widened. 

Did I?

Grabbing the slide, I aimed away from Allan, who just watched calmly, and I looked inside to find an empty chamber. Ejecting the clip, I found it to also be empty. 

They weren’t scared of the gun because there was no reason to be scared of it. It was useless, unless I threw it at one of them. That wouldn’t do any good. 

“You gotta be shittin’ me!” I whined, dropping the gun after reinserting the clip. 

Allan reached out with his foot and slid the gun behind him, where Ollie picked it up. “Tough luck, kid.” 

“Shut up,” I grumbled. 

“Be best if ya just came with us,” Tom said, stepping forward only to stop when I shifted into a fighting stance and brought my guard up. 

“Er, ain’t a good idea,” Neil said, shaking his head. “Can’t win a boxin’ match wit’ Tom, Shortie. He’s the second best on the ship, and he fights dirty.” 

I caught that from the attack from behind earlier. 

“A, I’m taller than him,” I grumbled, gesturing at Hobbs and earning a venomous glare. “So I don’t know what this whole Shortie deal is about. B, I know I can’t beat him.” I looked between the men, heart pounding against my ribs. “But I sure as hell can make you wish you left me alone.” 

Dismay crossed Tom’s face, but there was an element of challenge there too. And element of warning. “It don’t ‘ave to be like this. Won’t hurt ya if ya just cooperate.”

I took a deep breath, letting it out slowly as I prepared to go down fighting. “We both know it does have to be like this. Unless you let me walk outta here.” I smiled humorlessly. “And that clearly ain’t happenin’.”

Something told me he would take it relatively easy on me, but even a light yet solid hit to the diaphragm from Tom would take me down. If I was bad at grappling, boxing was even worse. 

And we already established I wouldn’t be able to hurt him. 

“Seriously, kid,” Tom said again, his tone growing dark. “Ya don’t wanna do this. This ain't playtime.”

“Got that right, but I gotta, Tom.” 

He sighed, bringing his own fists up. “Sorry ‘bout this,” he muttered, taking a step forward. “But ya asked for it. I’ll make it quick.”

I readied myself. “Right back at ya, mate.”

His eyes narrowed, but I did catch a hint of a smile. 

At least I have his respect before he punches my lights out. 

“We won’t ask again, kid,” Allan warned as the men all took a step toward me. “This has gone on long enough.” There was no smile on his face and no amused tolerance in his voice with his next command as the other sailors stepped into the alleyway with us. “Stand down.”

I shook my head. “No. Y’all square up.”

[tic-toc-clock77]

How I feel looking at my mutuals TicciWork post ideas that come from them and their partners while I haven't had a partner in a year and everything has come from just my mind

lil rant below

cw: attempted suicide, abuse, hitting, cutting, etc

When I was 9, I got into my first ever relationship, this was with a girl two years older than me a grade 7 and I loved her, I romanticized every second of her red flags and later abuse because I wanted to be like the protagonists I'd see on TV. She got depressed, badly and took it out on me when I tried to help. She made me feel like a bad person because I didn't want her to kill herself. I dreaded each and every night that one morning she would just be gone. She led me to isolate and lash out at my family and led me to ignoring or snuffing off friends, she was an awful influence. She told me she'd kill herself if I ever told anyone what was going on, I watched her get worse each day.

Gradually, we quit talking about anything fun or happy and she was so miserable inside and out but I was still romanticizing her abusive patterns. I once had a friend who was being abused, I gave her advice and when she came to me in the following weeks to tell me she was better, the 7th grader began running away from me, calling me names and saying I was going to replace her when all she had been doing was replacing me. She would talk all day about how much better her other friends were or how much I was annoying or gross looking. I stayed fucking put, didn't tell a soul, never argued or disagreed with her.

I had this one day that my real friends wanted to spend time with me and while we sat outside she came up to me, I went to hug her and she started choking me, she choked me for 4 solid seconds before letting go and being chased and screamed at by my friends but I stayed put, I didn't tell a soul, never ran away. When my friends told a teacher, she told me to apologize to her and I did with genuine feeling and she half assed that sorry so hard.

Eventually, she got paranoid worse than ever before and tried to kill me by pouring bleach into my water which thankfully she never did because she got caught. I told my friends that day they said "[insert abusers name] is going to kill you! we have to tell someone." and I told them it was fine and I'd talk it out with her but they knew better. I called my dad and reality hit me, I couldnt stop crying on that call so I had to pass it to the teacher we were telling.

3 years passed and I was still fucking miserable about her, i thought it was my fault for just existing and that I was better off letting her kill me because at least she could've finally been happy for something. I texted her and the cycle continued into another year but we were only online because her parents hated me.

That ended badly. There was a lot but I talked enough abt her

moving on to my ex BOYFRIEND!!??? (omg spider's not a total lesbian? I was shocked too) so, last year him and I dated and it was great but to great for my mental state and issues to keep up with so I self sabotaged by pretending I cheated on him to run away from normalcy I wasn't prepped for and I regret that super bad now, i had a lot of growing to do.

We started talking again a bit ago and I told him I lied about the cheating thing and he forgave me, telling me he had a history of cheating on his partners that he stopped after meeting the girlfriend just before me. After talking again for days, his girlfriend he was with when we started talking again, dumped him for personal reasons and we began talking more seriously again. I'm afraid of getting attached still but I dont want to ruin it if it happens again.

[thescrapbookingscientist]

Bimonthly Media Roundup

- Jojo's Bizarre Adventure (Anime) - As a celebration of multiple successful years of our weekly anime nights, my friends and I have decided to rewatch the anime that started it all, JJBA (or at least the first few parts). I'm actually surprised on how much insane stuff I forgot from Parts 1 and 2 given it's really the later parts that start to get truly out there but I guess it's Jojo's bizarre adventure for a reason, even part 1 is a pretty different experience than a normal anime. Admittedly I drifted in and out of Part 1 when Dio wasn't on screen, but Part 2 is carried by having the charismatic and lovable Joseph Joestar as it's protagonist, so that' been a blast. In general it's nice to watch something that has fun and doesn't take itself too seriously sometimes.

- The Umbrella Academy (TV) - Wow okay well I'd heard that this season was bad but man that sure was rotten huh? While I thought Season 3 was weaker than the previous two, it did still have it's moments, namely some fun bonding time between the siblings, Umbrella's famous musical numbers, some neat set-pieces, and a nice little wedding to close out the season. This season had none of that, and even in the first episode it was obvious that the charm had been completely sapped away. A lot of the criticism I've seen points towards the notably awful moments of the season, like Five cheating with Lila, the powers being inconsistent and lame, the overly contrived marigold stuff, and the everyone dies ending, which I agree are all bad, but I'm more disappointed by the lack of any good moments rather than the outrageously bad ones. The whole season was just so bland and depressing, the characters were all miserable caricatures of themselves, the comedy was gross/awkward/ and wholly unfunny, the only memorable musical moment was an annoying as hell one, and everything going on in the plot was contrived nonsense that didn't fit at all with the previously established canon. Obviously ending your show themed around adults dealing with the aftermath of child abuse with "actually it is your fault that your loved ones are suffering and actually your abusive father had kind of a good reason for what he did and the only way to fix things is for all of you to erase yourselves from existence completely as there's no other way to break the cycle" is thematically the worst thing you could possible do, though the anatomy of the season has drained me of any will to be mad at the ending so much as just apathetic towards it. It's pretty sad to see it go out like this, while TUA was never a top 10 favorite of mine I did have fun with it, it sucks that the last 4th of the show was bad enough to taint the product ass a whole. Though to be honest, I can't remember the last live action show I watched that didn't end in some flavor of disappointment, maybe stopping in the 2nd season is just the way to watch TV now.

- Cowboy Bebop (Anime) - Continuing our journey into the top rated anime of all time, my sister and I have now blown through Cowboy Bebop. While I would still say it's a little overrated, it's prestige at least partially the result of nostalgia and lack of variety at the time, unlike Steins;Gate I do think it at least deserves to be remembered fondly, it really is a solidly good show, and great in many aspects. The Show's standout trait is certainly it's style - the art, aesthetic, and world of Cowboy Bebop is beautiful and unique with detailed lived in backgrounds of it's various grungy Sci-fi cities, lovingly detailed spacecrafts, post-apocalyptic environments, and thoughtfully designed background/side characters that help the world feel grounded and charming. The 4 leads are also all solid, with great designs, interesting backstories, and enough variance from their standard character types to be interesting on their own. I do wish they had more instances of working/hanging out together, as while they do definitely all have a notable dynamic with each-other they spend the majority of the show by themselves, either on individual adventures, flashbacks, or even just hanging out alone on the Bebop. While they are interesting on their own, most of the comedy, charm, and emotionally hard hitting moments of media come from intro-personal relationships, so the show does suffer a bit by not having those be as strong as they could be, particularly near the end. That being said I do miss the episodic story telling of the show that's missing in most modern media, while not every episode is a hit most of them are pretty entertaining, and it's nice to see so many different stories play out in this environment. Faye's backstory in particular is pretty strong, as is slowly gets unraveled and has you going "oh yeah, this would definitely happen in a future created by humans", and while her outfit confounds me I do quite like her 90's anime woman femme-fatale design, it's nice to see adult characters that look like adults in animation. Spike's is less interesting to me as while I like the character fine enough (His fighting style being a standout) I don't think the show does anything interesting enough with his ex-con backstory to separate it from the multitude of other media with neigh identical plots, and it leads directly into the rather lackluster ending of an otherwise solid show. I think that's a controversial take on my end, so I'd like to clarify that it's not the tragedy of the ending that bothers me, it's the pointlessness of it. No it doesn't remotely compare to something as bad as TUA Season 4, wherin the pointlessness comes from the writers incompetence, but I just don't jive with the philosophies being presented. I'm more of a "There is no intrinsic meaning to existence so live as freely and cringely as you can as there will always be new opportunities for connections and joy" girlie rather than a "Your past may haunt you but you can give your life purpose by confronting it even at the cost of your future" girlie, you know? It would be fine if the pointlessness was intentional or the tragedy was a reflection of the inherent evils of capitalism or the human soul or whatever, but as it is it's just kind of a bummer. Oh well, honestly it's only a small portion of an otherwise great show. I'd be remiss not to mention the soundtrack before ending this, which is also quite charming with it's heavy western influence. I'd say charming is my main takeaway from the show overall, there's a lot of attention to detail in the character animations, setting, and writing that make for a very pleasant watching experience, I'd reccomend it as a whole.

- Jujutsu Kaisen (Anime) - Yup.

- Malevolent (Podcast) - Been on and off with this as my work has gotten a little hectic and I don't always have time to pay attention to a story heavy podcast, but overall Season 3 has been fun. I'll save my thoughts for later but its nice that we are getting some relevant secondary characters and John and Arthur admitting they care about eachother as a baseline is progress.

- Persona 5 (Video Game) - Thinking of maybe going back and finishing this as I've seen some fun fan material and remembered how much I like the games cast, style, and play-style. Too bad the anime is notoriously bad or I'd put it on as background chill time.

- Trash of the Count's Family (Webcomic) - Caught up with the newer chapters after taking a couple months hiatus. I am enjoying it,though I don't know if this is the fault of the adaptation or what but the pacing feels way too fast lately. It's cool that the cast gets to travel to exotic fantasy locations and meet odd new people but when they spend less than a chapter with each one it really feels like a missed opportunity. The underground perma-night Elf Death city seems so fun, can we please explore it a little - especially since they apparently got to spend a whole week there that we weren't allowed to see? I like Cale, and I want to like this huge found family he keeps collecting, but rarely do any of the characters get any real focus outside of how they'll be a future asset to Cale. Let them participate more in the story please, give them a chance to be more than a loose collection of character traits.

- Cult of the Lamb (Video Game) - This has been a fun time, I've blown through the base game and had a great time growing my cult and unlocking all the fun new things my little cultists can do, like the tailor, breeding, and alehouse. The graphics are very cute and the absurdity of some of the requests and situations make it fun to play and talk about, so huge props there. I've slowed down since reaching the post game, though there's still plenty of content left there for me to get into. Overall I'd recommend the game, it's cute, fun, and has a good bit of lore that's fun to discover. That being said, I will say that the dungeon crawling aspect of the gameplay can get a little tedious after awhile due to lack of any real variety, as the different fleeces and weapons don't really change the play-style up significantly enough to feel distinct each run in the way Hades or Persona games tend to. This isn't a huge problem for a shorter game, as I can't say there's no fun in fighting, but the switch version of the game can get pretty glitchy and will occasionally crash your progress, making going back to do a run pretty frustrating. It's still worth your time, but it may be better to go for the PC version.

- Genshin Impact (Video Game) - Yup.

Listening To: Good Luck Babe, Red Wine Supernova, My Kink is Karma, Casual, and HOT TO GO! by Chappell Roan, Harpy Hare by Yaelokre, The Main Character by Will Wood, Dial Drunk by Noah Kahan, Save a Horse, Ride a Cowgirl by Chloe Breez and Annapantsu, Too Sweet, Lunch, Bitter, and Stick Season covers by Reinaeiry, Tounges and Teeth and Metaphor by The Crane Wives, Espresso, Taste, and Please Please Please by Sabrina Carpenter, Like a Prayer by Madonna.

[sunflowerfesta]

2x2 – Grown-Up Situation 4

Writer: Akira Featured characters: Hinata, Yuuta

✩ ☽ ✩

Yuuta: ...And so the people who hold Anzu-san in contempt want to have her replaced with YamadaP, right?

Hinata: Ah, you mean the rumours about bringing a renown producer from a private agency into ES and making them the new head of the P Association.

Yeah, they're trying to transfer Anzu-san's current workload and authority to YamadaP.

Yuuta: Eh, I guess we'll move away from the main topic for a bit. I bet it could turn around the P Association's current reputation as a total joke; YamadaP's talents are undeniable.

Unlike others who're all talk and no action, he was able to make 2wink properly shine.

Hinata: Wording, Yuuta-kun, wording... Why'd you turn out to be such a bad kid?

Yuuta: I've always been like this, though? Are you sure it wasn't everyone else who got the wrong idea?

I realised that asking people to understand me would be impossible if I just kept my mouth shut, so I stopped holding back on expressing my true feelings.

And if I end up hated for it? Fine by me. I'll take it over slowly getting minced to death.

Hinata: ......

Yuuta: Well, whatever. I still don't understand – what does the P Association's frankly embarrassing infighting have to do with us?

We'd rather not get dragged into things, you see~. Can't we just kick back and watch those idiots try to destroy each other?

Hinata: Again with your wording, Yuuta-kun...

Like Anzu-san said, squabbling like this is pointless, so they've decided to settle it with a showdown.

Specifically between Anzu-san and YamadaP.

Yuuta: Being an adult sounds sooo fun.

Hinata: Well, I think it's better — healthier, rather — than endlessly getting dragged in their infighting and violence.

Yuuta: Whatever. So you decided to go with 2wink for the producer showdown?

Hinata: Which means we'll be like the balls for your ball game.

Looks like we're the only ones both you and YamadaP have produced before—

Yuuta: Since YamadaP is an outsider and he doesn't have connections with any other ES idols.

Hinata: I see, so we were just the most convenient option~. Well, if we're basing this on how long we've known each producer, doesn't that mean you have a slight advantage, Anzu-san?

Yuuta: But keep in mind that YamadaP has put an overwhelming amount of time into his trade. His level of experience, combined with his numerous achievements, makes him unparalleled.

Hinata: When you put it like that, I guess it would explain why you think we'd be the best "balls" to mess around with.

I'm gonna sound like Yuuta-kun saying this, but adults sure do as they please without a care in the world.

Yuuta: As usual, not a ounce of consideration went into our free will.

Hinata: Yup, yup. Sooo what's in it for us?

Yuuta: I see, I see... Wait, seriously?

Huh... We'll be given our own namesake program that airs weekly during the coveted prime time.

Hinata: Is this the "big job offer" Vice Prez was talking about?

Within the program, called "2×2", Anzu-san and YamadaP will take turns producing episodes.

Yuuta: Are they competing for ratings or something?

Hinata: Let's see here... Looks like it's regular cour length, aka twelve episodes, meaning they get six episodes each.

Their ratings across all six episodes will be compared, and whoever has the highest number overall wins.

Yuuta: Ahaha! Sounds just like a game.

What the hell are these supposed "all work, no play" people thinking?

Hinata: It's pretty easy to understand, so I've got no qualms. Also, the first and last episodes will be given to Anzu-san and YamadaP separately to keep things fair since they tend to get the highest ratings.

Yuuta: Geez, this whole thing is rock solid... But everything falls apart if we refuse, so is it really?

Though they'll just find replacements... Realistically, they probably have an arsenal of other idols at their disposal who can do the job just as well.

Hinata: Hmm~... While I don't think we really deserve to get such a big offer, it's not like we really have the option to refuse...

Regardless, I'm all for it. It sounds like fun, and I don't see any downsides for 2wink if we do take it.

So you don't have to keep grovelling, Anzu-san.

Yuuta: Being exploited for the sake of others isn't anything new to us.

If you're gonna apologise for troubling us, all I can tell you is, "If you really did feel sorry, you wouldn't have done it in the first place."

Hinata: Your wording today is so concerning... But what he said, pretty much.

We'll help out as best as we can, so please don't make that face— okay, Anzu-san?

We owe a lot to both you and YamadaP, so while we're not exactly troubled by it, we can't just pick sides.

Yuuta: That may be another reason we're being chosen. If it were any other ES idol – especially the ones from Yumenosaki, they may want to tip the scales in Anzu-san's favour.

But we wouldn't feel right doing that, so it guarantees a fairer fight.

Hinata: Yup. That's why we'll give it our all as professionals, even if not cooperating to help you win'll be pretty hard.

You're also in quite the pickle, huh... Well, just do your best.

It's your job as a "producer", after all.

That way, we can hold our heads high and do everything in our power as idols, too.

✩ ☽ ✩

← prev || chapter list || next →

[imtheworst-imsorry]

AN UPDATE: we just heard today (like literally at 4:15 or smth) that the residential i wanted to go to has a bed available for me on the 8th, so a week from monday. This is good bc i was getting seriously anxious that insurance might try to cut me before a spot opened up and then i would probably have to go somewhere i didn’t like as much, which would suck, but now my team can tell the insurance company we have a date for when i’m going on tuesday which is my next insurance review and hopefully they’ll give me until a few days before then so there’s as smooth a transition as possible. It’s also a nice coincidence that one of the girls i made friends with here is also going there, she got discharged today and she’s going there monday, so it’ll be nice to have a friend there already, we didn’t decide to go there because of each other, it just worked out that it’s where we both felt was the best program for each of us, and then we talked about it and found out we were both going there lol. One big thing to figure out is the logistics of getting there bc it’s on the other side of the country, i’m not gonna say where bc privacy but it’s on the west coast and i’m on the east coast, so it’s like a 6-6.5 hour flight i think, but i’ll figure it out with my parents and stuff. In other news, i tried a new medication for a week, my doctor was hoping it could help with my depression and also break up some of the more persistent ed thoughts, but i started having side effects on the lowest dose that isn’t really even high enough to be helping my mood so i decided to stop taking it bc it’s not worth it. My tremor was getting worse and i was having random muscle twitches and my occasional neck tics were getting more frequent, and this is from just a week on a dose low enough that i wasn’t getting any benefit from it, if i’d been on a dose that was really helping me mentally and i was having super mild side effects i’d have considered staying on it but it’s not worth it with everything going on, but at least i gave it a solid try, especially since i was SUPER anxious about some of the more severe side effects, but i figured the best place to be if you’re trying a new medication that has possible bad side effects is in a hospital, and thankfully nothing really bad happened, just annoying, and i’m seriously hoping they go away once i’m no longer taking it. I also tried something with peanuts in it today, which aren’t like a Fear food but i don’t like them and therefore haven’t eaten anything with peanuts for literal years and the last time i did have something with peanuts i got an upset stomach, so i was worried about that, but that was at lunch and i’m still ok, i still Do Not like peanuts but i was brave about it and tried it anyway, really mostly only bc they ran out of the caramel almond sea salt kind bars bc everyone really likes them and i did Not want the almond coconut one bc i Hate coconut so i tried the dark chocolate nuts and sea salt and it was fine, i guess i’d rather have that than coconut but i still don’t like peanuts. But the point being that i was brave and tried something i was apprehensive about, so good for me ig. I really hate when they run out of things and have to substitute stuff, both bc i usually don’t like the substitution as much (or at all) and bc i do not like change especially change about food, i like knowing what i have coming and i don’t like doing menu planning but i like getting to decide what i get instead of just having whatever my dietician picked, which is what happened for the first week and change i was here and was extremely anxiety inducing.

I’ll keep updating here occasionally, especially if something big happens and once i go to res, since that’ll definitely be a big change

[sksninja]

Ha! You speak as if a years-ago response does not delight me ♡ And looking at your tags?

Yes. Yes I can tell you understand.

So while I am both still-here and still-normal lets take a look at that lovely superimposed map you shared!

Lining up my route best I could, jog/climbing from Horon Lagoon to that spot southeast of Tarry Town took me 9.5 hrs (most of that time was spent staunchly ignoring various stal-lizalfos chasing me) so I'd say your time estimate was spot on! Hell yeah!

Next you mentioned Malanya Spring (assuming BotW location) to Castle Town. So I hopped on good ol' Epona (thnx amiibo) and galloped my way through, killing only those things that were a danger (5 guardians plus a surprise Yiga) and which took a solid 14hrs in-game.

Of course you mentioned horses wouldn't normally trot long distances, and you know what? You're right. So once we made it safely to the central square, we rested up and set out bright and early at 7AM back towards the horse spring at a HORSE WALKING SPEED (aka that thing I said was too slow to count last time). And you know what? Even at a walk, nonstop travel is pretty harsh. So each night at 10PM we stopped and ate and rested till 5AM the following morning (as represented by the pink marks on the above map).

1st night was spent in a little forested spot north of Whistling Hill.

The 2nd just outside the outpost ruins near the Plateau.

3rd night was just past the Bridge of Hylia.

And the 4th and last night was a little before Horse God Bridge, and we made it back to Malanya at 9AM the following morning.

That makes it 4 days and 2 hrs. Amazing. I gotta say, there's something about walking a horse through Hyrule Field when your mini-map looks like-

That really keeps you engaged you know?

We also got a blood moon that 1st night so let's just say it's a good thing I'm decent at slow-paced horseback archery, and have over 400 ice arrows (killed 2 moblins, 2 chuchu, 7 bokos, 3 lizalfos, 1 octorok and 4 stal-bokos [when stopping for the night]).

I'll also note I came across 6 other Hylians (not including Highland Stable).

I'll also share that I DID seriously consider booting up Twilight Princess and do some horse-walking there to compare Ordon to Caslte Town time passage, but ultimately decided I was sick of staring at horse-butt and moved on.

Which got me thinking. There's one travel method I didn't touch at all last time. MOTERCYCLE DIVINE BEAST MASTERCYCLE ZERO.

Let's take that bad boy as far across the map as we can (Gerudo Desert gate to Robbie's Lab).

Which took 14.5 hrs in-game. Good. Shit.

We refueled 4 times, fell off 1 bridge, and hit 1 boko, 1 crab, and 5 birds.

Though I should compare that to the different horse speeds I did last time. What was that? Dueling Peaks to Hateno? Yea.

That took 2.5 hrs. Meaning the motorbike Master Cycle Zero IS in fact faster than a 4-star horse (at which that distance took 3 hrs).

Fun stuff. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to get back to hunting down Voice Memories in the Zelda Notes app (that'll be a different post). Only 96 left to go!

Having an absolute normal one while waiting for TotK

So for some goddess-forsaken reason while running around in BotW, I had the thought over how much in game time it would take to get from one area of the map to the other.

I mean, it’s a pretty big map yea? How long would it take Link to get around if teleporting wasn’t an option?

Keep reading

[piilokarsastus]

You wanna find out some personal shit?

1. Any scars? Nothing cool. I do have a little dent on my forehead from the time my friend accidentally drew blood on me with a toy sword when we were like 12 but that’s about it. But yesterday, I accidentally caused myself a 7 cm long (and luckily very shallow) cut on my forearm so we’ll see what happens with that.

2. Self harmed? I’ve done things that probably count as self harm but I’ve never cut myself (on purpose...) or anything like that.

3. Crush? Not at the moment, although there’s a person who could definitely change that if we saw each other a bit more often.

4. Kissed anyone? It’s been like 2,5 years but yeah.

5. Coke or Pepsi? I don’t like to breathe in carbon dioxide, much less drink it.

6. Someone you hate? Conservatives. What exactly is it that you’re trying to conserve? Society has always been in constant change and there’s little you or anyone can do to stop it. Seriously, didn’t you learn anything from the Congress of Vienna?

7. Best Friends? I’ve had several but I’m currently in a phase where I’m not that close to anyone.

8. Have you ever done alcohol or drugs? No. I’ve tasted alcohol plenty of times but I don’t think it counts as “doing” it if I don’t get drunk.

9. What’s your dream job? Teaching music theory somewhere in higher education (you know, with motivated adult students who don’t have to be disciplined)

10. Ever been in love? Yes

11. Last time you cried? Last proper cry was probably in January but my eyes have been known to get watery whenever I see a tiktok about someone’s cat passing away.

12. Favorite color? There are so many good colours out there but I’m gonna say ultramarine blue.

13. Height? 170 cm

14. Birthday? September 6

15. Eye color? [shrug emoji]

16. Hair color? a very deep brown

17. What do you love? classical music. nature. cats. food.

18. Obsession? classical music. nature. cats. food.

19. If you had one wish, what would it be? That no human was capable of any sort of violence towards other humans. I think that would pretty much solve every problem we have as a society.

20. Do you love someone? romantically, no

21. Kiss or hug? why not both?

22. Nicknames people call you? none at the moment

23. Favorite song? Ravel’s “Asie” does give me the chills every time

24. Favorite band? The Netherlands Bach Society

25. Worst thing that has ever happened to you? finding out my crush chose someone else over me is up there but I’m so very over it now

26. Best thing that has ever happened to you? idk

27. Something you would change about yourself? nothing much, just like my entire face and body #justnonbinarythings

28. Ever dated someone? yes. it’s been five years... but yes.

29. Worst mistake? Hard to say. Me choosing to get to know aforementioned crush did lead to a very weird and not always easy 2022 but I guess it lead to some growth as well.

30. Watch the movie or read the book? If we’re talking adaptations, the original is always better.

31. Ever had a heartbreak? yup.

32. Favorite show? Better Call Saul

33. Best day of your life? there have been many great days in my life but just based on concentration of emotions felt in a singular day, none have felt quite as great as high school graduation day on June 2nd 2018.

34. Any talents? I’m great at making music and a pretty solid writer. I also have a fantastic memory.

35. Do you wish you could ever start over? Start over what, my life in general? There are experiences I’d like to relive and things I wish I experienced but never did, but I’m reasonably happy with how things have turned out. I have often wondered what my life would be like if I were a different person altogether but that’s kind of the point of “self”, if I was any different I’d be someone else.

36. Any bad habits? indulging like every single craving i get. god giving me access to wolt was a mistake of drastic consequenses

37. Ever had a near death experience? no

38. Someone I can tell anything to? my mum 

39. Ever lost a loved one? no

40. Do you believe in love? yes. it sure is a thing that exists.

41. Someone you hate/Dislike? wasn’t there a question like this already?

42. Are you okay? honestly, yes? more so than in a long time.

43. Relationship status? single, and for the first time in 5 years it doesn’t seem to be bothering me that much.

[cartmankisser]

Hello, hope you're having a wonderful day today!

I was wondering if you could do HC with Kyle Broflovski (or the main 4 boys, whichever you would like to write) on how he would act when their s/o got their wisdom teeth removed? Like the drugs their doctor gave them were still doing their thing and they just start talking about random stuff? Maybe unknowingly starts giving compliments?

Sorry if this is a long request! Feel free to remove it if it makes you uncomfortable in any type of way :)

i added stan and cartman! hope that's cool ^^

-- kyle was so concerned for you when you were coming out of surgery. like he's shaking and stuttering and he keeps asking you questions??? like if you're okay or if he can do anything help. he's talking too fast for you to understand anything he's saying, but you didn't care. you were just happy to see him!! and you were sure to tell him that

"oh my god kyeal... you look tho perfegt right neow..."

he could barely understand you from all the gauze in your mouth, but once it clicked in his head about what you were saying, he turned bright red. he was pretty annoyed at you for embarrassing him in front of the nurses

-- stan, similarly to kyle, was pretty concerned when you woke up. although he wasn't nearly as overbearing,,, he felt so bad that he had to try so hard not to laugh at you!!! he felt bad that he couldn't understand anything you were saying, but the way you were drooling and spitting everywhere was a bit funny

"stan.... don't laff at me... it hurths..."

i'm sorry he laughed so hard at that.. it's too hard to take you seriously when you're talking like a toddler who's learning to speak. he'd have to take a solid break from trying to help you just because he couldn't stop laughing at you and the way your cheeks were all puffed up from the gauze

-- cartman wouldn't even try to hide his laughter. he would keep giggling about how you looked like a fish with your puffy cheeks and swollen lips. he's not even trying to be mean he just... he can't take it.

you probably wouldn't even get a word in over his ugly cackling.. he doesn't know how emotional the anesthesia makes you until you're bawling and calling yourself an ugly fish

yeah now he really can't stop laughing