#like this pic just makes them So Believable you know??? like how practised they are in each other
they are everything to me
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Yes, this is the same person 😅 Just heavily photoshopped/filtered on the right. This is Ffyona McKeating, she may have changed the spelling of her name to try and throw people off a bit it seems but she owns a large company in the UK called The Consultant Clinic and as well as misrepresenting how she looks and giving herself the face of a different person she also heavily filters the before and after pictures for her oosmetic clinic (and by the way the ‘consultant’ in the name is misleading as there are barely if any actual consultant doctors working there, it’s mostly young junior doctors and dentists looking to earn more and she comes along to ‘help’ them).
This setup is truly bizarre but I’ll try and explain it as best as I can.. The story goes that she was a law graduate who never actually practised law but married a doctor (a ‘consultant ‘doctor as we would say in the UK) and pretended she was also a medic. They set up a business together but then the truth started to come out that she wasn’t actually a medic and so they split up. She’d been telling people she was and there are some who say she had injected them too. After the divorce she set up the ‘`Consultant Clinic’ in its current form and very strangely seems to like pointing our what she thinks is unethical and wrong in the industry, despite her own erm ‘issues.’ Someone I know actually had her young daughter’s photo stolen by `Ffyona, who then went on to pretend the little girl in question was HER daughter, posting the pic on her Instagram 🤡 What an absolute clown.. but she has a huge following of people, including a fair number of doctors and medics, who have no idea. So moral of the story is things are not always what they seem so please don’t make choices or believe everything you see on social media.
She posted a story of a doctor this week (this time a real doctor lol`), Dr Esho, a well known celebrity injector who’s been suspended here in the UK for sexual misconduct There is quite a lot of misconduct going on here, just as there is in other countries, where you would think rules would be followed stringently. I know of a few surgeons in the US caught sleeping with clients and doing all sorts of unethical, if not literally criminal, things.
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The Holy Quintet in Twisted Wonderland! (all 7 dorms - Part 1)
This is the third piece of TW x PMMM crossover! The girls have been sorted to their respective dorms and now we have them interacting with the other 6 dorms. This is also gonna be a long one separated to a few parts so buckled up!
Hope you guys enjoyed it! I appreciate the patience.
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Akemi Homura & the other dorms (except Scarabia)
HEARTSLABYUL!
Seeing that there’s so many unpredictable danger in TW, Mami wanted the girls to improve their magic in case they’re ever in a pinch.
Since Sayaka hasn’t unlock the full potential of her magic, Homura figured that it’d be beneficial for them as a team if she lends a hand or give her a few advices (after countless time loops, Homura is aware on what Sayaka could do with her magic without the danger of turning into Oktavia).
The students of Heartslabyul at first bar her from entering their dorm and Homura was about to brush them off and just freezes time for being such a nuisance until one of them explain that they needed to announce her presence to Riddle and Trey first before they could enter. Then they brought her to the lounge.
They warned her of the Queen of Heart’s many, many rules and that their Dorm Leader would be crossed if she would break them and that had her wondering how the exuberant Sayaka survive here.
She noted in mild interest when the students eagerly inform them that Sayaka is doing well for herself in Heartslabyul and fondly calling her their cute knight after she helps out with their Unbirthday Parties and protect the hedgehogs and other small critters.
Riddle caught Homura conversing with the students in the lounge and took this opportunity to invite her to their Unbirthday Party that they’ll be having in a few hours. Curious about this fussy dorm, Homura accepts.
Homura, Sayaka, Ace and Deuce ran around handling the cute hedgehogs and pink flamingos. Ace wanted to leave the chores to Homura since she could round the animals up in a blink of an eye but Deuce stops him before Trey or Riddle could hear him. When asked about Homura’s magic, Sayaka retort not to bothered. She and the rest of the girls don’t even know the full details about it.
When the long table is laden with food and drinks and everyone’s having a good time, Sayaka and Homura sat at the furthest end of the table where it’s quieter. Normally guests are supposed to sit beside the Dorm Leader and Vice Dorm Leader, but ever since his Overblot episode, Riddle let them to talk amongst themselves when Homura insists it’s important.
As the two girls talk, the Heartslabyul gang couldn’t help but observe their interaction. Homura’s expression remain serious the moment she steps into the dorm and as the seconds grow longer, they saw Sayaka’s smile slowly turning into a scowl. Trey and Cater already jog to them when Sayaka raised her voice and Homura is frustrated.
“Why should I listen to you about my magic when you’re never honest about yours? How would you even know about what my magic can really do, hah?”
“You’re as foolish as ever, Miki Sayaka. If you don’t even know how to use your magic, how can you even call yourself a Magical Girl?”
“Whoa, whoa, everything alright here? C’mon, it’s a party! Everyone is supposed to have fun!”
“Thank you for inviting me to your Unbirthday Party, Rosehearts-san. I’ll be taking my leave now.” In a flash, Homura vanishes without so much as waiting for a ‘by your leave’.
After that exchange, Sayaka had to explain to everyone that despite how Homura would sometimes aid them in hunting and killing Witches, they’re not exactly good friends. Homura is as shady as they come and keep her information very close to her chest. Not to mention that her odd attachment to Madoka is a little troubling.
The Heartslabyul gang took her words with considerations but the boys wanted to judge Homura for themselves.
To Ace and Deuce, it’s kinda comical to see Kalim hovering around her, cracking jokes and trying to make her laugh but only receive a fond shake of her head instead. Other than that, she kept to herself and if she isn’t studying, she's eyeing their magical crystal with a dangerous gleam in her eyes. The duo subconsciously put away their pens whenever she’s around.
Trey found Homura to be polite and reserved when approached. She’s willing to help you out with any mundane things as long as you ask nicely. But sometimes, Trey feels that Homura has a skill in avoidance. No one really see her in the crowd of first year students heading to class but then there she is, the first one in her seat! Trey hopes that Kalim and Jamil can help her relax a little because something in Trey tells him that she’s a ticking time bomb.
Cater wants her for a selfie! His Magicam followers would never believe that NRC has a mysterious raven beauty as a student. When word spread of Homura’s ability to disappear in a blink of an eye, he takes it as a challenge to snap her pic. When he told her about this, Homura rolled her eyes. He can try.
Now, Riddle. He couldn’t help but frown whenever he sees Homura passing by in the hallways. Her bickering with Sayaka during the Unbirthday Party left quite an impression on this Dorm Leader (he has a soft spot for Sayaka after the whole overblot ordeal. Sure, it left him bruised and bloodied for days afterwards but she did saved his life. Plus, she also apologised for not realising her own strength).
Despite presenting herself properly, Riddle wonders if she’s a little like him. That she has something dark brewing inside her based on some traumatic events. He understands that Homura means well when she tried to advice Sayaka about her magic (after all, he did try to impart on his dorm mates the importance to maintain order by following the Queen of Hearts’ rules).
Maybe if ever they crossed path, he could share his experiences with Homura in hopes that she opens up a little. Telling her that her friends will gladly help her if she just asked them.
Dragging herself through many, many timelines not only hardened her as a person, but they also made her jaded. Nevertheless, Homura quietly promise to herself once Riddle left; to try and save not only Madoka from Walpurgisnacht, but also her friends from their fates. She continues to hope once more.
SAVANACLAW!
Like above, Homura would only approach the Savanaclaw dorm if she has to talk to Kyouko. Only this time, she didn’t bother announcing herself. Just freezes time and walk right towards Kyouko’s room. Once time is unfrozen, the students will comment on an unfamiliar feminine scent that somehow walk past by them undetected!
Kyouko wasn’t surprise that Homura suddenly appear in her bedroom. Already well-used to her antics. Boredly, she asked what Homura wanted as she lied on her bed. Packet of snacks scattered around her.
Since Kyouko often spar with the Savanaclaw students, Homura request for a favour. She wants to observe her fights against them just to see how far their magical crystals can be push before overblotting.
Kyouko refuses predictably until Homura offered her help in classes. She’s even willing to help her cheat in a test if Kyouko want. In the end, Kyouko accepted Homura’s requests.
(Homura didn’t bother to persuade Kyouko to use her magic. It’s up to Kyouko to overcome her past in order to wield her illusions power again)
When Leona’s actually in the mood to spar a little, especially against Kyouko, Homura is at the bleachers with her arms crossed against her chest. Students from other dorms sometimes watch their trainings but never one of Kyouko’s girl friends before other than Sayaka.
(Sayaka has a habit of loudly cheering from the stands, jumping with glee whenever Kyouko kicked a burly student across the field. Kyouko would preen and smirks at every cheer. This lead the boys wondering if there’s something more going on between the two of them; the Heartslabyul Knight and their Savanaclaw Brawler)
Leone felt like he’s under a microscope during their spar when he noticed Homura staring at them. Kyouko made no secret of her request and Leona’s quirk an eyebrow. Well, she’s not Rook but Leona’s gut is telling him that as someone who’s skilled in hunting Witches, Beastmen would be a good practise for this girl.
But Leona wants to show off so that in the next Magishift Tournament, Homura knows just who she’ll be facing. This lion ain’t backing down!
Leona can be petty, too. After Kyouko’s explaination, he ordered Ruggie to use his Unique Magic on her. Forcing her to show her own magic for once.
Ruggie steal the opportunity during lunchtime. A harmless prank, really. He just wants her to trip and drop her food tray. However, he never expected to be frozen in time. Unlike Mami’s ribbon, Ruggie’s ‘Laugh With Me’ couldn’t hold her. So the moment her body suddenly acted on her own, Homura uses her shield to froze time and found a student in similar uniform to Kyouko mimicking the same moves as her. Disgruntled, she packed her food and left the cafeteria before releasing her magic.
Ruggie is left standing, dumbfounded that Homura could escape his magic! She’s trickier than he expected. When he reported back to Leona, it just fuelled him to really uncover what she’s hiding, though he knows that Kalim and Jamil won’t appreciate him meddling with one of their student.
Jack is put off with Homura’s aloofness and that says something! He sees her friendship with Kyouko as something that’s build on necessity with little trust. Always lurking around and her head in books as if she’s chasing after something.
He would curtly nod at her if they walk by but never do anything more than that.
For Homura, she couldn’t care less about Leona, Ruggie and Jack. As long as they don’t butt into her business, she sees no conflict between them. Plus, they kept Kyouko preoccupied.
OCTAVINELLE!
On the second day as a student of NRC, Kalim explains about the other dorms to Homura as best as he could. Bless his heart, Jamil had to fill in the rest and more important characteristics of the dorms.
In the beginning, all she knows about Octavinelle are that the students are intelligent, most of them are mermen and the Dorm Leader is someone named Azul Ashengrotto and his Vice Dorm Leader, Jade Leech.
Before Kamil and Jamil left for their own classes, Jamil murmurs to Homura to watch herself when it comes to those two and someone named Floyd Leech.
One day, Madoka - who wanted to spend some time with Homura - suggest that they have lunch at a café called the Mostro Lounge. Homura did her best not to show her hesitation to Madoka when she realised that they needed to step through a mirror since the café is in the Octavinelle dorm.
It’s still a bit early before the lunch rush, so the girls were quickly seated and attended to by a few servers from the dorm.
Trouble begins after they ordered their food and Floyd stroll in with Jade in tow, ready for their shifts.
Not one to miss an opportunity to interact with these otherworldly girls, Floyd loudly introduces himself and Jade with a bloodthirsty grin. Homura already disliked his presence.
Seeing how unresponsive Homura is to his twin’s greeting and Madoka’s shy reply, Jade smoothly interjects. Playing the part of a perfect gentleman, he inquiries if the girls have ordered their food and drinks, have they gotten used to their dorms and etc. He’s not at all deter at Homura’s clipped answers or Madoka’s nervous stammers.
After all, Azul wanted to know what magic these girls bring to their world. If possible, the Dorm Leader wanted to strike a deal with them.
The atmosphere around the table is already tense and Homura wondered if it’s best to leave for the cafeteria instead when Azul enters the fray. Like Jade, he made sure to behave properly, offering a courteous smile as he introduces himself.
“I’m happy that the Mostro Lounge receive such beautiful patrons today! Truly I am lucky.”
“T-That’s nice of you to said that, Ashengrotto-san.”
“...”
“Please, the pleasure is all mine. If you or any of your friends have any trouble adjusting to this college, I’ll be more than happy to a lend a hand for a... right price.”
That set warning alarms off in Homura’s head. Immediately.
Thankfully their lunch went by peacefully, though Floyd continues to irk Homura of his pestering, but the decor and otherwise calm atmosphere made their meal pleasant.
It’s only when Homura caught rumours that those who made a deal with Azul must signed a contract for their wish to be fulfil but it always ended up kicking them in the asses.
Homura made the decision to stay away from him and the Leech Brothers at all cost and if Azul approaches her or god forbid, Madoka, she’ll made him regret it.
She’s not looking forward to deal with another Kyuubey. (besides, she might not be able to kill the Incubator but a bullet between Azul’s eyes should do the trick. She never kill anything other than a Witch before, but should Azul threatens Madoka then it’s a first time for everything).
Azul sees Homura as a tough nut to crack, so pulling information from her would be a waste of effort. Better focus on the other girls. He thought that he held his demeanour perfectly during their little lunch, so why is she glaring at him whenever he had the unfortunate chance thei path crossed?
Floyd finds Homura boring. She hardly react when he tries to get a rise out of her. Though the slap Homura gave on his hand when the eel boy wanted to touch Madoka’s ribbons was surprisingly strong. Like Cater, he made a little game catch her off guard, but by squeezing her. She’s so slippery though. It’s fun!
Jade doesn’t really have any problem with Homura. He’s curious about her; why does it feel like her wariness of them is something personal? Has she been taken advantaged before?
Jade has not forgotten how quick she attack the headmaster during the entrance ceremony. He’ll play it cautiously and see what he can use against the girl.
It’s not fair if Homura holds all the cards to herself.
POMEFIORE!
Homura actually stumble across Mami and Rook during their shooting practise in the archery field. They were supposed to meet up for research but she waited until they noticed her.
It was sweet how Rook treated Mami and it was surprising to Homura that she accepts every praise with a small smile, her cheeks red.
In a way, their interaction assured Homura that Mami wouldn’t be lonely in Pomefiore. Hopefully that means she’ll be able to emotionally grow while they’re stuck here in TW.
It was only when Rook packed up that he realise Homura has been watching them the entire time. No one ever stalked the hunter before. Coloured him impressed!
Rook offered Homura to joined their shooting sessions whenever she’s free. Her aim during the entrance ceremony was precise and quick just like Mami. It’d be nice if the three of them could get together sometimes.
Homura didn’t made any promises, but she informs him that she’ll keep his offer in mind.
Mami and Rook brought her to the study rooms in Pomefiore. There are a few students studying nearby and Homura noted how the boys would pull a chair out for her and Mami and offered their assistance if they need any books. Like a princess, Mami thanked them but require nothing for now.
“The students here are very... gracious.”
“You’ll get used to it, Akemi-san.”
Homura presented Mami her books and data that she could gathered and in return, Mami toss theories back and forth. The two were at it until Epel came over to asked Mami for an impromptu Alchemy tutoring. He backtracks when he spotted thick papers and books between the girls.
Homura agreed without a fuss to change their research for school work. She needs to go over her own Alchemy notes as well.
To Epel, Homura is intimidating. Not as severe as Vil, but there’s an ice cold wall she erected around herself. Even when she helped grammar checked his notes, she gives off an impression that she’s waiting to be dismissed.
Unfortunately for her, a Pomefiore student came by to announced that Vil and Rook has invited Mami and any of her company to tea. Before either Epel or Homura could run, Mami accepts on their behalf.
“Schoenheit-san is an amazing person, Akemi-san. He taught me a lot during out short stay here.”
“Other people would have a different opinion, Tomoe-san...”
“Al-Asim-san mentioned that he’s very strict towards the students in this dorm. And that he also hold himself in high regards.”
“The way I see it, he earns the right to do so. Would you like to understand him better, Akemi-san?”
“No point in refusing now.”
“Urgh, tea time with Vil. This is gonna be a drag.”
The setting that Mami brought them is picturesque. Apparently, Pomefiore has their own fairytale-like garden; well maintained and immaculate.
“So this must be your elusive... companion, gem. A pleasure. I am Vil Schoenheit, Dorm Leader of Pomefiore.”
Throughout their tea time, Homura did her best not to squirm under Vil’s scrutinized eyes. He would promptly correct her when she reach out for the wrong silverware and not to slouch. Mentally, she sympathise Epel for having to endure Vil’s nagging.
(There’s no way Kyouko would survive 5 minutes in this dorm)
Although Homura did not carry herself in the same way as Mami does, Vil regard her as a flower that only blooms at night, so only a few could witness its beauty. He offers to make her look more beautiful the next time she visits Pomefiore.
Rook asked how she’s settling in Scarabia and how the students are treating her there. He’s genuinely surprise that if the topics aren’t about her personal life or magic, she can talk quite a lot. Homura told them about the refreshing mint teas that they introduced her, how despite energetic and loud Kalim can be, he understood when she needed some space and how patient and hard working Jamil is in attending not Kalim, but the entire dorm as well.
Mami let Homura talk away with a small knowing smile. It’s good that Homura is focusing on other things than Madoka for once.
Before she left, Homura humoured Vil’s request when he wanted to see her Magical Girl outfit. He ‘hmm’-ed and nodded to self, commenting how her heels and dress are designed for practicality rather than to show off; it’s a little plain though. Like Mami, he sketch her outfit in his drawing book for inspiration.
Homura felt like she should feel insulted over Vil commenting that her Magical Girl outfit is plain but in the end, couldn’t find it in herself to be bothered.
IGNIHYDE!
Among the students in NRC, Idia is the first one who uncovers Homura’s time magic.
Since he doesn’t attend classes physically and have eyes around campus through surveillance cameras, he caught Homura’s disappearing act more times than he can count. This boy is instantly curious on how she could even evade his cameras!
So he analyse the surveillance cameras and noticed that whenever she uses her magic, her Shield would crack open; showing spinning gears and purple sands gleam like stardust but in the next frame, the Shield is closed. Idia deduced that her Shield must be her Unique Magic. But how does it work? What’s the connection between the sands and gears?
Idia actually feels a little bad stalking Homura through his cameras, but his curiousity has been itching him ever since the girl directed her strange weapon at the headmaster. Isekai’ed weapons are the coolest!
His luck came in the form of Ortho. From his room, Idia watches as his little brother and the Magical Girl interacted in the courtyard. Ortho was carrying some snacks for their gaming session, bought from Sam’s shop and Homura happens to be done with her classes for the day.
Idia saw Ortho trips and Homura is suddenly holding him steady by his arm, the snacks are secured in her hold. That shouldn’t be possible when Homura is nowhere near Ortho. So Idia rewind and replay the footage but again, it explained nothing.
When Ortho return to Ignihyde, he didn’t waste any time to tell all about his new friend! How she swooped in and saved him like a hero. Homura was taken aback when she discovered that he’s a cyborg and Ortho explained that Idia was the one who built him. When Idia asked if she did anything strange, Ortho just commented that Homura keeps touching her ring. Could her ring be her magic crystal?
The next time Ortho and Homura meet up, he invited her to hang out with him and his older brother at their dorm. Idia could’ve die from a heart attack the moment he heard her voice outside of his door.
On a bad day, Idia could barely stand to be around people, but a pretty girl in his bedroom? Playing games with him and his brother? Dear Hades save him!
Meanwhile, Homura recalled what Ignihyde meant to represent. An advancement of magical technology. In a way, her time Shield is a magical technology, so is that why her magic reacted positively with Ortho and this dorm itself?
Despite the gloominess of Ignihyde and Idia’s skittish personality, Homura actually found herself enjoying the Shroud brothers’ company. Ortho is a sweetheart; patiently instructing her how to play their games and explain how most of their techs work.
When Idia wouldn’t stop squirming beside her, Homura calmly ask him to spit out what’s on his mind. She didn’t rebuked him when Idia asked how she’s been escaping from his cameras. That he didn’t mean anything bad, just curious.
Homura sees this as an opportunity to strike up an alliance. She told Idia that she’s willing to tell him about her magic, but it needs to keep between them and in return, she hopes that he could help her with her Shield.
Idia is overjoy to discover such an OP Unique Magic! To him, Homura’s magic is a cheat code that he sometimes daydream of having when classes are a drag! He’s like a kid in the candy store as Homura withdraw books, a comb and a flash bang from her shield (so it’s also a dimensional storage!), demonstrated by holding his and Ortho’s hands how her time magic works and lets him take a closer look at her Shield. The dorm leader is more than happy to help improved her Shield and see how far they can push the limit of her magic safely.
If you think Madoka and Malleus’ friendship is odd, Homura and Idia is equally so. Even if their alliance is purely professional, Homura always made time to hang out with Ortho and when Idia ventures outside, Homura would walk alongside him so he won’t be overwhelmed. Passing students would murmur when they see the two of them together.
To the Shroud brothers, Homura is a good friend, if a little aloof. Idia likens her to a stray cat; she welcomes to visit Ignihyde (oh gosh, a girl actually wants to hang out with him in his room!) and goes as she please. He enjoys debating on the difference of their magic and that she doesn’t judge his hobbies and games.
Ortho is just happy that his older brother has a friend! One that can match his online snarky and hammy persona with her sarcasm and wit when they livestream together. Plus, she would come over and ask Ortho he needs help whenever she’s free.
DIASOMNIA!
The second TW’s character to uncovers Homura’s time magic is Lilia. And that was completely accidental!
You see, words has gotten around NRC of Homura’s vanishing and appearing act and being a trickster who loves to appear out of nowhere and startle the other students, Lilia wanted to surprise Homura the most!
When the ancient Fae asked Madoka while they were in her room (she allows him to comb her hair and how can she refuse seeing it makes Lilia so happy) if she knows how her friend does it, Madoka shook her head and reply that none of them actually know the full extend of Homura’s magic. Just that she can summon and stored firearms off any sizes inside her Shield without any limit.
Lilia then asked Malleus, Silver and Sebek if their magic could discern what sort of magic Homura’s uses. Since Malleus’ magic is broader and more in tune with otherworldly aspects as a dark Fae, Malleus could only put into words that her magic is something that acts as a foundation of their dimension, in a sense. Metaphysical. Unfortunately, Homura has been using her magic sparingly so Malleus didn’t actually had enough time to decipher what it is.
Malleus’ words weight heavy in Lilia’s mind. In all his ancient years, he has never come across a human with such powerful magic! A magic like that would definitely come with a heavy price. After all, humans can never control powers that are beyond their realm of understanding.
(Ouch, hitting a little too close to home there, Lilia).
So one day, when Lilia caught Homura leaving the Ignihyde dorm (Idia sure love to brag about her whenever he and Lilia are playing online tournament matches), Lilia snuck up behind her. What he didn’t expect though, was Homura’s fast reflex. However, when she turn around to grab his hand before he could touch her, her Shield freezes time right at that exact moment. So Lilia witness with wide eyes how the world around them stood on a standstill and easily figured out her magic.
“Ho, ho, what a surprise! To think a young human possess the ability to bend time to her whim! I understand now.”
Well, Homura’s first introduction to Lilia Vanrouge went off a rocky start. Seeing how upset he made her, Lilia is all smile, promising that he won’t spread the truth about her magic. He also encourage her to trust her friends about it, since anything could happen after all.
When Homura puts away her shield, Lilia offer to make it up to her. Madoka has actually been waiting to spend some time with her. Why don’t they all have a midnight tea party at Diasomnia? Doesn’t she wants to see how Madoka has been faring in their dorm? With Madoka as the bait, he chuckles when Homura accepts his offer without hesitation.
It’s Lilia that floated near the staircase inside of Diasomnia, watching how Madoka happily invite Homura in. From how coldly she treated him earlier that day, she’s docile when Madoka grab her hand and gently pull her along, how soft and sweet her voice is when she answered Madoka’s questions.
The moon is full when they arrive at the rooftop. The table and tea things are laid out and their company for the evening were waiting for them. Silver is lightly dozing, his head resting on the table. Sebek is fussing around the table, pouring tea for Malleus first before the other cups. Malleus flash a small welcoming smile to Homura who nods in return.
Homura let Madoka be, heart at ease that she’s comfortable and happy with this group. Unnoticed by her, Lilia is observing Homura the same way. Well, she’s polite if reserved, but tend to smiles more around Madoka though she grimace when Madoka told her that they’ve been helping Madoka hone her magic better. It’s clear she wanted to interject but held herself back.
Later in the privacy of his bedroom, Lilia realised that Homura has the eyes of a soldier. Hardened and weary, but one that is still fighting. Now what foe could Homura be fighting against even after crossing over to this world?
There is a story hidden that only Homura is aware of and until the day arrive when she could finally be honest with not only herself, but also her friends, all Lilia could offer is his assurance that Diasomnia looks after their own. Madoka is no different.
Malleus wonders if he and Homura shares a lot in common. The two tend to brood and kept to themselves after all (though Malleus suspect that the later might be a personal preference for Homura). Madoka had nothing but good words about the raven haired girl so he figured there must be something else going on in the background.
He could only detect the basis of her magic when she vanishes near him. He wonders if her magic is as powerful as his and how good of a fighter she is. After their midnight party, the two often nod at one another if they passed by in campus. Malleus appreciate that she will sits beside him in class when Lilia and his group aren’t with him.
Silver doesn’t know a lot about Homura to actually hold an opinion about her, other than what Madoka told them. He’s aware that people can be biased when it comes to their dear friend. But since she and Malleus seems to be a lot more amiable than before, he hopes that Homura won’t try do anything against them.
Sebek treats Homura the same way how he treats the other human students. If they don’t have anything to do with his lord, then he doesn’t care about them. Though he will tolerate her presence when Madoka invites her into Diasomnia. He overheard Lilia mentioning that Homura reminds him of the soldiers that he fought alongside with all those many years ago and Sebek wondered what does that add into her mystery.
As for Homura? She’s the last person to judge the Diasomnia gang and if they truly care for Madoka then perhaps she can pour her energy and time to planning on how to return home.
She won’t admit it but Homura respect Lilia. When she’s feeling practically brave, she would quietly ask for advice on how to expand her magic and how to learn hand-to-hand combat.
Sebek is just too loud for her taste. Does that boy ever calm down? He can dismiss her all he likes, it good to know that Sebek has a 1 track mind when it comes to Malleus. That makes him predictable to Homura.
When Silver suddenly drop to sleep in front of her, Homura startles. Thinking that he’s ill or worse, she actually call for help. Only when the other students about his habit of falling unconscious at any given time or place did Homura let out a sigh of relieved. But just in case, she made sure that Silver is sleeping at a safe and open spot so the Diasomnia students could see before leaving.
Malleus exude the same type of yearning that Mami has, Homura figured that out after their midnight tea party. They yearn for bonds to ease their loneliness. No doubt that Madoka would definitely help this tall Fae come out from his shell little by little. As of now the two have a mutual respect of one another.
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Wow, this took 2 days to write! Yeah, it’s a good idea to separate this part into each girls. Anyway, sorry for any grammar or spelling errors! Editing this took time.
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Lin Yanjun (mentor) x reader
In honor of finishing my 5th semester that the final assignment was to do a major composition (and I somewhat reference Yanjun a bit, okay, I used some of his pics to enhance my composition but yea), this is a one-shot of Yanjun from a dream I had of him. In this dream, he was sorta, one of the mentors for the Youth With You competition and you’re his secret girlfriend.
It was no shock that this cold making joke person also appears cold since the majority of time, his face was basically an RBF. But seeing it in real-life gives you even more chills. Especially when he is the mentor of many trainees. Lin Yanjun, debuted as the 5th member of Nine Percent back in the first ever Youth With You or Idol Producer as it was known. Now, he, along with his ex-bandmates are all mentors to the new 100 (girl) trainees.
Though he seemed unapproachable due to his cold (RBF) looks, he was actually kind and caring towards the trainees; just like his bandmates. Each of them paid close attention, point out the trainees’ mistakes and even practiced with them to make the trainees feel more comfortable with them. Not to mention, when Yanjun was not only known to be the master of cold jokes but also flirting. Whenever some trainees seemed stressed, Yanjun would always either make a lame, cold joke to lighten up the mood or even flirt when they were practising (ofc to a friendship kind of level). Which is why it’s not a surprised when many trainees get excited when they see him walking along the hallway, waving at them or even when they have classes with him.
However, there was one secret about Yanjun that only his family and bandmates know (and a few other ppl that he trust). That is, Yanjun actually already have a girlfriend. That’s right. This cold (yet hot) face that loves making lame/cold jokes and flirt with literally everything is in fact already taken. Which is why he doesn’t flirt as much as he used to. He knows how flirting can make their significant other feel. Which is the main reason why he tones it down, unless he is with his girlfriend, of course.
He met his girlfriend not too long before becoming a mentor, from one of his shoots for a film. But due to the difference in country origin, the two had to be in a long distance relationship. Though worried how it’ll affect their relationship, it turns out that the long distance actually made them even closer than ever before. No matter how busy both their schedules were, they would always connect each other through messaging applications and even find the time to have a long call with each other at least once every two weeks.
Yanjun wouldn’t admitted it but he does miss the physical interaction and quiet moments when he in the same country as his girlfriend. Especially when he had a long day of work. It doesn’t help that today was one of those days. It has only been 3 months since he last saw his girlfriend, and 1 month since he became a mentor. Normally, it wasn’t as bad since he would normally get the morning classes instead of the late ones like Kun (because he is the main PD in my dream while Yanjun and Ziyi are side PDs). Unfortunately, this day was not his day. Because the trainees were now finalising their performances for the position evaluations and he was in charge of the vocal groups.
For the past month, the trainees were all doing well in class. But for some reason, when it was time to practice on the actual stage, Yanjun noticed multiple mistakes. Whether it was their pronounciations on several english words of the song, their synchronization, or even when they were off-key. This resulted in Yanjun staying back for quite a long time, dismissing his break time and even eating schedule. To Yanjun, if he hasn’t finished work, then he wouldn’t take a break. Especially when the trainees still want to keep going.
It took a lot out of him, pointing out the trainees’ mistakes, repeating each part multiple times before repeating the performance as a whole. After what seemed to be hours of reteaching the trainees and giving them encouragement, Yanjun was finally done for the day. But unfortunately, it was not a good sign for the trainees who were seeing him the next day.
Throughout the whole morning, Yanjun didn’t give any smile whatsoever. Returning to his RBF face due to lack of rest and food. It even escalated when one of the staffs mentioned to him that he had to go to one of the stage halls before all the other staffs and trainees. Though slightly irritated, Yanjun kept it to himself and headed towards the stage halls. Passing through the hallways of the dorms, Yanjun kept a cold gaze and attitude. Only nodding to the trainees and staff he passed by while the trainees bowed at him, not wanting to meet with his cold gaze.
When he finally reached the stage hall, he heard music playing. Confused to why there was music, he closed the hall and slowly crept towards the stage, seeing a familiar figure. As he got closer, he caught a glimpse of the mysterious figure that was right before the stage. Recognising the figure, Yanjun crept every so slowly and hugged them by the waist, placing his head on the crook of their neck.
“Well, I’ve missed you too Jun” you giggled, turning around to see your boyfriend
“Is this why you didn’t text me back this morning? After a long, dreadful day I had the other day?” Yanjun complained, his breath was by your neck
“I wanted it to be a surprise. Did you know how hard was it to get permission? Not to mention coming here without the worry that someone may get a picture of me? I practically had to have the other 8 boys, especially Kun, Justin and Zhangjing beg the producer to allow me to come” you complained back, but in a more playful tone
“Thank you for coming. Thank you for taking the time to come all the way here, just for me” Yanjun sighed, hugging you even tighter, kissing the side of your cheek
“Well, I didn’t come here just for you. That’d be selfish” you teased
“Well, I’m hurt now. Can’t believe you didn’t come here just for me” Yanjun pouted, pulling away from the hug
“You’re adorable when you’re jealous. Don’t you think I don’t know about your flirting with the trainees?” you confronted him
“Well, I toned it down. I know that you would get jealous. But like, they’re my students. While the boys are basically, them!! And let’s not even start with Justin” Yanjun exaggerated
“Alright, alright. C’mon, let’s go have haidilao!! I already made reservations!!” you exclaimed, pulling Yanjun’s hand and directing him towards the back exit
“Hehehe, alright, alright. It better be just the both of us!!” Yanjun warned, wrapping his arm around your shoulder, kissing the side of your temple as the two of you went out to have lunch
Ahhh!!! Another story about Yanjun. Alright, originally, in the dream, Yanjun knew you were coming and he locked all the doors to make sure the two of you have your privacy but I decided to elaborate more. Also, quick note, in my idea, Yanjun, Kun and Ziyi are all PDs but Kun is still the main PD. Yanjun takes care of vocals, Ziyi with rap and Kun with dance but all three takes care of the stage performance. This is mainly because Kun and Yanjun have both become leaders and centres before. While I chose Ziyi because he is just so sweet when it comes to group performances and all. Alright, thank you for reading!!
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Explosion box
Post Miracle Queen. I was just inspired because I just bought a Frozen 2 explosion box and it makes me think this is something Marinette would make for Chat/Adrien. This is a rough draft of fluffy Adrienette.
Marinette needs to give Chat power-up cheese but she also wants to express thanks to Chat because he is her only safe place right now.
Pretty much everyone believes Lila now.
Adrien and Kagami don’t but it is too painful for Marinette to interact with them.
The first, outermost box is styled after Chat. When opened, Chat can find written recipes to make his own cheese, and additional Guardian information. A sign that Marinette trusts him and sees him as her partner...and also that he is her successor if she fails. That is a scary thought and Chat decides to continue opening the box.
The second box is Ladybug themed. When opened, Chat finds messages from the Kwamis. Some like Wayzz and Longg offer sage advice. Some like Pollen and Tikki offer encouragement. Others like Xuupu just offer funny bits of nonsense. Kaalki actually gave advice on how to treat sore feet.
The third box is actually Marinette themed. Pink polka dots on red background. When opened, Chat discovers Marinette’s messages to him. On one wall, she decides to share a personal bit of information: her favourite Color. The second wall is reminders of how Chat has saved Ladybug both physically and emotionally. The third wall is what Ladybug likes about Chat and how she wants him to stay the same (this was inspired by her encounter with Chat Blanc). The fourth wall has photos of them tucked inside.
The last, smallest box is miraculous box themed. Inside is the cheese.
Adrien loves the box and cherishes it. He practically rereads Ladybug’s messages a hundred times.
A few days later, Adrien is helping Marinette proofread an English essay. He recognizes her handwriting.
Adrien promptly freaks out and excuses himself to do it privately in the bathroom while Plagg calms him down.
Adrien finds it hard to meet Marinette’s eyes and keeps blushing when he sees her or hears her or is just near her- which means he is red in the face for the rest of the school day.
Back at home, Adrien is kicking himself for not realising that his Everyday Ladybug is literally Ladybug. And it also makes so much sense since Miracle Queen, Marinette had looked sadder lately and seemed to be under more stress.
Adrien wants to make her feel better and support her, and reveal his identity.
He decides to do so by making his own, admittedly less impressive explosion box.
It takes some time but after Marinette comes home from school, she finds a pink explosion box on her desk.
Immediately suspecting Chat, she freaks out until Tikki calms her enough so she can open it.
The pink box’s inner walls show how Marinette is an Everyday Ladybug. She helps everyone, is immensely brilliant and creative, stands up to bullies and liars, and will even stand up to akumas without powers.
The second box is a Chat-themed box. It states what Chat loves about his lady, and even mentions when he fell in love with her.
This pretty much confirms Marinette’s suspicions Chat knows who she is.
The third box is Ladybug themed. It encourages Marinette in the face of her adversaries: Hawkmoth, akumas, Lila, and Chloe. (Yeah, Adrien has been supporting Marinette more than ever class in recently now that he knows the 2 mean girls have it out for both her identities). Chat tells Marinette she doesn’t have to face them alone, and this actually brings tears to her eyes.
The last box is a small blue box. Inside is a photo of Ladybug and Chat. The second is a photo of Adrien and Marinette, taken by Alya. (Yeah, Adrien had to ask a thrilled Alya for that since he doesn’t have any of his own. He also asked for that startrain pic.) there is a note telling Marinette that his favourite color is blue and that when she is ready, to meet him on her balcony.
Marinette promptly freaks out that Chat is Adrien. Tikki disapproves that he revealed his identity without permission.
After gathering her composure, Marinette climbs outside and finds Adrien waiting. She is holding the pink box and her eyes are red.
Adrien shuffles nervously. “Did you like it?”
Marinette launches herself at him, squeezing him in a hug and crying. “You stupid Chat! How could you reveal yourself this way.?”
Adrien: I recognised your handwriting and thought to even the scale.
Marinette stops sobbing. “It was beautiful, Chat.”
“I’m sorry for the sudden reveal.”
“Don’t be. We knew Master Fu when he was the Guardian. You can know me. And it would have only imbalanced our partnership if only you knew.”
Adrien continues hugging Marinette.
“So...what now? I need a moment to reconcile myself with today before I can think of a plan.”
Adrien chuckled. “Well...how about I take you out for dinner?”
“Like a date?” This should have been a dream come true for Marinette, but her conscience was nagging at her.
“Of course.”
Marinette tilted her head, frowning. “What about Kagami?”
Adrien flushed. “I never went out on a date with her since Frozer.”
Marinette continued frowning. She knew Kagami and Adrien had been flirting. She won’t allow Adrien to just dismiss that. “I saw you eat ice cream together. You were flirting.”
It was true, Adrien had to admit that. He flirted with Kagami more now. But they still weren’t in an official relationship yet. What was supposed to be a beautiful reveal was turning into an awkward nightmare.
“I won’t deny that,” Adrien said, his eyes pleading. “But you know I’ve always loved you.”
“And I’ve always loved you, too,” Marinette confessed. Adrien’s eyes grew wide. “Ever since you gave me your umbrella. But Kagami is our Friend and we can’t do this to her. Not when you’ve raised her hopes.”
Adrien slumped. “But I can’t date her now. It wouldn’t be fair to either of us if I’m not committed to it.”
“I’m not asking you to,” Marinette soothed. “But you need to discourage Kagami first. Until then, we’ll have to stay friends.”
Adrien’s eyes were sad but he understood and agreed with her decision. “Until then.”
At least now they had something to look forward to.
From that day on, Adrien and Marinette were attached to the hip, bantering like old friends. Everyone was stunned to see the absence of Marinette’s stutter and Adrien’s sudden clinginess to her.
Lila and Chloe were unhappy but they can go cry a river somewhere else. With Adrien beside her, Marinette finally felt she wasn’t alone in class.
Alya is annoyed that they aren’t dating yet.
At fencing practise, Adrien stops flirting with Kagami. It isn’t long before she confronts him and deduces he has finally hit his original target. Adrien admits it to be so. Kagami accepts her loss with dignified grace and wishes them well. Adrien thanks Kagami for her friendship and understanding.
The next weekend, Marinette and Adrien post a photo of them eating ice cream at Andre’s, announcing their relationship officially.
Kagami is the first one to like it.
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Seating plan au part 6
Short update this time also For some reason, this part contains a lot of Felix/Adrian angst...I don’t know why but its there so enjoy
Link to part 5
Once they finally get together Mari is at the Agreste mansion a lot more (not counting the time she’s there for her internship) and because of this she realises things with Adrian and Felix are a lot worse than she first thought , so she comes up with a plan, she’s secretly trying to get felix and Adrian to sort out there issues with each other without forcing them to do anything they don’t wanna do so if she’s watching a film with Felix and Adrian is in the other room practising the piano she’ll ask him to join or if she’s playing video games in felix room while felix is reading she’ll Adrian if he wants a game, basically mari thinks if she makes it so they hangout more without forcing, it happens naturally, they’ll start to tolerate each other more....unfortunately Marinette is unaware the “issue” is onesided (felix, felix is the one with the issue) so Adrian is just happy to spend time with Marinette when he’s not chat noir and that he finaly gets to spend time with felix that Dosnt involves loud sighs and harsh words, felix, on the other hand, is hating that Adrian is taking away his Mari time, one night when Mari has gone home felix snaps and says “why do you always have to have everything? You just take and take, everything has to go your way? You get everything you want, Do you want to take Marinette from me now too?” “What are you talking about Felix?” “It’s my birthday all over again, you never listen to me, you didn’t listen to me then and your not listening now, stop, just stop, you always bulldoze over everything Adrian, just leave me and Marinette alone” the next day Felix and Adrian seemed even further apart *cue concerned Mari*
During a game of hide and seak while on patrol (it was a particularly quiet night) ladybug teams up with Renard Arctique (Fox Felix) to trick chat who is currently the seeker, so Felix creates an allusion of ladybug running in the opposite direction and then they both climb onto the roof of the louvre and slip behind a pillar (this is definitely not realistic, what so ever, so just pretend it is) it takes chat a good 10 minutes to realise what happened....wich unfair, teaming up has to be cheating right? Once he finds them though he’s hit with a massive wave of jealousy...that’s his lady, his lady laughing with that sly fox, she seems so comfortable with him, there taking like she talks to him, so he runs up and tags RA a bit too hard...and sins lb and ra were sitting on the side of the louvre ra might have fallen off...lucky He's in costume and manages to land gracefully, lb gives chat and earful but chat claims it was “an accident my lady, I guess I just don’t know my own strength” Felix grones “or don’t know your own idiocy”
stormy weather 2 starts the same, (apart from none of the Alya and Nino stuff because Mari and Alya arnt friends here so be still tales the homework to Adrian himself) Chloe is typical Chloe, Mari is leaving school with Alix and Felix when she sees this, she still steps in and offers to help her study but Chloe continues being Chloe and drops the most ironic line to come out of her mouth “once a villain always a villain” Felix and Alix start laughing because how could they not and Felix says “do you actually believe that Queen Wasp” Alix-“or do you prefer anti-bug?” During all this Mari misses Aurora leaving, she’s later akumatised as stormy weather
Marinette almost being Akumatised because of a photo Alya accidentally posts on the lady blog, all thanks to Lila naturally, the night before Lila sees Marinette and Chat noir walking together and snaps a pic, the pic is dark and you can’t see Marinette's face, only the back of her head, she though it had just the right amount of mystery to cause some much needed mayhem among her classmates (it was getting a bit to chummy for her liking) as the co-runner of the lady blog she logs Into the account and drafts a post with the pic claiming to have seen chat noir and LB on a date with LB out of costume, the next day while Alya is posting she clicks the draft and posts it assuming it was something she forgot to Post, caouse ensues, the class is split arguing over the fact Alya posted the photo, claiming it was an invasion of privacy on LB and Chats behalf, and the other praising Alya for discovering the truth about there relationship, Alya insists she doesn’t have a clue where the pic came from BUT it’s still proof of LB and Chats relationship, Mari is literally boiling over in her seat and snaps “you call that proof? Firstly it’s a total creeper shot, you should be ashamed of yourself, I mean you really posted that while claiming to love ladybug and have a single shred of journalistic integrity, secondly you can’t see the girls face, all you can see is Chat talking to someone who happens to have similar hair to ladybug, it could be anyone! That could literally just be chat talking to a civilian while out on patrol” cue a smug lila “anyone like you Marinette? You do look awfully similar to the girl in the photo” *cue Marinette internally screaming* the class breaks out into more arguments over the identity of the girl, an akuma flys in threw the window, heading straight for Mari but felix (without seeing the akuma, he just has impeccable timing) squeezes her hand under the table and says “don’t let lie-la get under your skin, she’s not worth taking up so much space in your brilliant head” the akuma dose a complete u turn and goes for Alya, lady WIFI 2.0 happens and she’s after the truth behind the photo, akuma battle happens and after the fight Alya asks chat about the photo, he tells her that the photo is a massive invasion of privacy, he was having a private conversation with a very good friend of his, the person he trust almost as much as LB, Alya apologises for posing it, she deletes the photo and then puts out a statement with a message from lb and chat asking people to respect there privacy, there still real people and can talk to whoever they want with or without the mask
On a very rare occasion that felix Dosnt feel the urge to shake Adrian until he shuts up (or passes out...whatever happens first) they practice music together, when they were kids Emile had them both pick an instrument to play, Felix wanted to lern the piano but Adrian always got what he wanted so felix ended up learning the violin, he ended up loving the violin though and he always enjoyed goofing off with Adrian during practice and making up songs woth him, that’s always been one of Adrians favourite parts of music practice too, actually getting to have fun with felix, spending time woth him without feeling like felix is just waiting for a chance to leave, like he hates having to be in the same room as him, so when felix askes him if he wants to practice together he jumps at the chance
Link to part 7
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Tom at Stockholm Comic Con, September 14-15, 2019
1) jxnnika - Not an ordinary Sunday when you get to meet Draco Malfoy himself🐍 Tom Felton - you’re awesome
2) itsfanyyy - They say ”Wands at the ready” but I was NOT ready.
3) johannasvahnstrom - Met Tom Felton this Saturday!
4) beanjamin.q - I don’t know how to describe this weekend, it was Amazing!
Tom was sooo kind and humble and it was really fun listening to his Q&A
@t22felton thanks for making my day and taking time for my question❤️
5) n.fawkes - Oh gosh what a weekend! If you have watched my Instagram stories, then you may have noticed that I was in comic Con that was held in Stockholm (Sweden)! It was so awesome and even that is the lame expression! Firstly It was my first comic com so it was all new to me. I met friends from internet, and it was really nice to meet you face to face 😊, and I even made some new friends! And guyyyysssss! I met THE Tom Felton 😱💚🐍 He was the first celebrity I have met like this and well it was just like everybody say it would be like, my mind stop working and I couldn't say at list of things I wanted to say to him I even practised my "speech" 🙈 I was shaking and probably look like a dork, but I'm sure he is use to it 😅 Tom himself was super sweet and kind and liked my bookmark where I got his autograph 😁 I almost started to cry after that becouse my feelings were so overflowing 🙈😭 I wanna see him again!!! Luckly me and @lady.of.light persuaded him to come on Finland someday~ Or at least he wrote to his pencil case "Finland" so he could look it forward. So yes, you can all thank us when he visit in here 🇫🇮😎
And @t22felton we are waiting you! Like we like to say "WTF= Welcome To Finland"
6) maretttk - Met Tom Felton who played Draco Malfoy in Harry Potter and Julian in The Flash!😍
7) lady.of.light - #Photoop 2/2 of #StockholmComicCon: @t22felton 💚 GUYS I MET DRACO!! I still can't believe it, I just feel so blessed and happy about this experience 😭💚 The #WizardingWorld films and characters have always meant a great deal to me and being sorted into my #Hogwarts House has reinforced my sense of self so much over the years. So finally being able to actually meet one of the cast members (I've seen the twins and Evanna & Matthew tho) was honestly such a meaningful thing 💚💚 We went to buy our auto tickets first thing Sunday morning and thought we'd be getting them a bit later after our PO with him but he was just finishing his first auto session of the day and there was basically no line so we were directed straight there and had basically zero time to prepare ourselves for it but he was so nice and easy to talk to! I told him it was great to see him and that I came over from Finland to see him. He hasn't been here yet so I recommended coming during summer time as winters are sooo freaking cold. He even wrote down "Finland" after @n.fawkes mentioned our country too so maybe he'll actually come visit sometime 😱 After that we were shaking in shock and really emotional (as you probably saw in my story) and went straight into his PO line. Once it was our turn I think I kinda blacked out again, as usual, but as I was leaving he said "For Finland!" because he remembered our auto convo, which was so cool 💚 So yeah I'm very happy with the way #ComicConStockholm ended and with this pic and I wish I'll get another chance to see him in the future 💚
8) sandra_gardelin
9) alvaeeeriksson - Okay so i couldn’t stop smiling for our pose but here it is🤷🏽♀️ Amazing meeting you @t22felton
10) sonitastic - Tom Felton ❤️ You can guess how exited the Harry Potter and The Flash fan in me was 😂
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can’t breathe when you touch my sleeve - chapter 10
pairing: dan howell/phil lester
rating: e
warnings: none
tags: alternate universe, slow burn, fluff & humour, tiny bit of inner turmoil wrt sexuality but trust me it’s not that deep, deeper than anticipated but still not that deep y'all this is primarily silly, eventual smut, idiots in love
word count: 4,286 for this chapter (45,795 total)
summary: Dan keeps making a fool of himself in interviews, to the point where it’s basically a meme. Now he’s got to sit down for the better part of an hour and sell his show to the YouTuber he’d had a massive crush on when he was a teenager.
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"Daniel?"
Dan blinks. He blinks again, zoning back into the conversation he's supposed to be a part of.
"Er," he says, sheepish. "What was the question?"
"Are you sure you're feeling okay, Daniel?" the woman asks - the interviewer asks, fuck, this is like the sixth time he's asked her to repeat herself. "I heard you were ill yesterday, weren't you?"
He wasn't. But that is what Jaime and Patrick had sworn up and down to anyone who asked, because they're good partners in crime like that. They look like they regret it now.
"Yeah, Daniel," Jaime says, stressing his name in a way that makes Dan think she's one more fuckup from smacking him in the back of the head. He'd probably deserve it, at this point. He can't remember being this scatterbrained in his whole life, and that's saying something. "You sure you're okay being out of bed?"
The word 'bed' gets stressed too, just a bit, and Dan feels a flush creeping up his neck.
It's honestly unreasonable how he can't seem to focus on the task at hand, which is answering softball questions about the show he's worked on for three years, because his mind keeps drifting back to Phil.
Phil, who he'd left in bed with Thor, all sleepy noises and grumpiness at Dan needing to leave. Phil, who has the day off and might still be mostly naked and lazy while he waits for Dan to come back. Phil, who he only has three days left with.
Three more days in London. Two sleeps. And Dan has shit to do every single goddamn day of it.
This is a work trip, technically. They've got a handful of interviews the next two days that couldn't be scheduled for their first London stretch, and then they're going to France. That's exciting, it is, a mark of success that Dan never expected for himself, but right now he's frustrated by anything that cuts into the time he could be using to kiss Phil.
Dan is so busy remembering how Phil's mouth had felt against his that he forgets to answer the question. He can practically feel his eyes glaze over.
"Daniel," Patrick says, audibly exasperated.
It takes a lot to get Patrick to that point, so Dan ducks his head and mumbles another apology.
"He's fine," Jaime tells the very nice and concerned interviewer whose name Dan has long forgotten. "He's just got a lot on his mind right now and he's really shit at multitasking."
"Hey," says Dan. It's a weak protest.
The interviewer is a tall woman with kind eyes that crinkle into laughter lines when she smiles at him. She's dressed casually, has a denim jacket with patches and pins all over it, and Dan feels his eyes linger at the rainbow on her pocket.
What is that like? To be so certain and so confident that you can wear it on your sleeve even in a professional environment? Dan doesn't know that he'll be able to get there.
He wants to compliment her on it. It's the same urge he had in the restaurant with Phil's family, vocalizing that he wishes he could wear more nail polish. The same swirling anxiety of being judged for it follows quickly, but this time it's amplified by the recording device in the interviewer's hand, the knowledge that anything he says right now will be analyzed to death later.
Dan wants to live authentically, and he wants to get to a place where he doesn't need to hide, but he's frustrated by the reality of how much progress that's going to take. It's not going to be easy, it already hasn't been, and it's never going to stop.
Even with making a name for himself and having an audience, Dan knows that coming out publicly still won't stop strangers from making assumptions about him or demanding an explanation for the women he's been seen with. He'll have to come out over and over and - it's scary. It's really scary.
The compliment catches in his throat. He can't say it to someone recording him, no matter how kind her eyes are. He hasn't even told his grandma yet.
"I like your jacket," he says instead. He feels like a coward for it.
"Thanks," the woman says brightly, looking down at herself and tapping one of her bigger patches. "Customized it myself, obviously. It's a wee bit more colourful than you like to be seen in, right?"
The casual chirping helps Dan relax, reminds him that this is a laid-back interview with easy questions. Nobody is shining a heat lamp on him and asking for an expose on how he spent part of last night inside of another man.
He grins and shrugs. "Yeah, alright, I wear a lot of black. Sue me. I can still think colours look nice on some people."
Great. Now he's thinking about Phil again.
"Like Jaime," Patrick offers, tugging at one of Jaime's bubblegum braids. Dan still can't tell if it's a wig or not, but she smacks Patrick's hand away like it's her own hair.
"That's true," says Dan. "Jaime wears as much black as I do, though, I dunno that she's the best example."
Patrick nods, solemn. "At least her hair is interesting."
"Oi, fuck you. Sorry," Dan adds sheepishly. Even though this is an online print interview, he still feels a little bit of shame whenever he slips up and curses during an interview.
The woman - Cara? Catherine? Camilla? Ca-something? - just laughs and waves his apology off.
With an ease that Dan can't help but notice isn't quite as practised as Phil's, the interviewer moves on to questions about their other cast members. While they don't have any trouble making fun of each other, it's even more fun to exaggerate stories of people who aren't here to defend themselves.
Dan tries so hard to participate. He does. He laughs in all the right places and gives Jaime grief for not remembering something right, because he's given this poor interviewer nothing of substance. The thing is that Jaime is better at telling stories and Patrick is so dry and stoic with interrupting jokes that Dan knows he isn't needed for this. He lets them bicker over a story detail that he's long forgotten and feels himself start to zone back out.
He listens to Patrick's slow timbre, Jaime's trill of a laugh, and lets his mind drift back to where it wants to be.
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Even though it's tempting, Dan isn't stupid enough to text Phil in the middle of doing his fucking job. He has to resort to checking his phone between interviews and pictures, getting more and more pouty about the lack of response to the things he's sending throughout the morning. Phil must be having a lie-in, because it takes him a couple of hours to even see Dan's texts.
ugh i should have just stayed in bed
pls send thor pics
and you pics but like give me a heads up if your dick is out im at work
i dropped my coffee on jaimes lap fml shes gonna kill me
im just so distracted lmaooo
canft believe youre just asleep thats so rude
Oh nooooooo. I always cry over spilt coffee :( you want me to bring you one? I can come hang out for lunch!
The sweet text is accompanied by a photo of Thor asleep on the sofa, his little head pillowed on Phil's knee. Phil is wearing Dan's pyjama pants and - it's hard to tell for sure, with the way the photo is angled, but Dan thinks he's got the Friends shirt on. Frankly, that should be gross. Dan wore that shirt for way too long for it not to smell like, well, his sweat, and that is objectively not sexy.
Dan feels gooey warmth spread from his stomach outwards, anyway. Maybe it is gross, but it makes him happy to think about Phil's shirt smelling like him the way that his own Yeezy shirt still faintly smells like Phil. He covers his mouth with a hand so nobody milling around will see him grinning like an idiot.
thats ok, Dan texts back one-handed. yall look comfy you should stay. i'll b back for dinner and snuggles ok?
Ok! ^_^
God, but Dan wants to be there now. He wants to be the one cuddled up with his head in Phil's lap. He recognises that it's very stupid to be jealous of a dog, but he isn't going to let that stop him.
"Hey, Howell." Patrick's voice interrupts the daydream of slender fingers carding through Dan's hair.
Dan blinks. He blinks again, looks up.
"I didn't even see you sit down," Dan tells him, bemused. They're sharing a bench in the building's lobby, not wanting to go too far in case they need to go back upstairs for more photos during the short break in their day.
"Yeah, you're on another planet," says Patrick. Dan wishes he could argue that fact. "Things went well with your whole Love Actually emergency, then?"
The reference pulls Dan up short. He feels his brow furrow as he walks through the entire film in his head. "What are you talking about? None of this happened in Love Actually."
"It's British, isn't it," Patrick says nonsensically.
"I don't," Dan starts, but then he gives up. He and Patrick are close as coworkers - friends, even - but Dan never quite understands the links that Patrick's brain makes. "It went well. It went really well. I don't know if Jaime told you everything I texted her, but I like... fully ended up meeting the family."
Patrick's eyebrows raise slightly. That's quite a reaction, from him. "You met the parents? Bro. You just started dating."
They're not in an overly crowded area, but people keep waking by them on their way in or out of the building, so Dan is pleasantly surprised to discover that Patrick can play the pronoun game, too.
"Yeah," says Dan. He doesn't want to get into the mix-up right now. He's sure that Patrick will have another incomprehensible reference when he hears about it. "But it just feels... I dunno. Right? In a way other people haven't? Maybe that's obvious."
"It's not obvious," says Patrick. He's snapping a hair elastic around his wrist idly, the gesture something Dan had thought was an expression of annoyance or frustration when they first met. Dan knows now that it means Patrick is tired, that he wants to shove his hair off his shoulders and stop it from tickling his neck. They're only halfway through their day, though, still a couple of photoshoots to get through, so he can't put his hair up just yet.
Dan knows so much about these people. He's learned it all from such close proximity for the past three years, but he also genuinely likes spending time with them. He feels, suddenly, very guilty for wishing cancellation on this thing they've all worked so hard for.
"Sorry," Dan says.
"For what?"
He doesn't really know how to voice it. He shrugs. "For being a shit coworker right now."
Patrick gives him an indecipherable look and shakes his head. "Daniel," he says, "you're not being a shit coworker."
"I kind of am, though," says Dan. "Like I can't focus at all, I'm missing interviews, and I... I don't know how much I want to go back to Atlanta. Is that bad?"
"Why would that be bad?" Patrick hums. "This is your home."
Home isn't an easy concept for Dan to wrap his head around. He hadn't had a happy one for most of his life, hadn't been able to find somewhere that felt quite right ever since he escaped that. So it's a little disconcerting when Patrick's words settle into his chest and feel like indisputable truth.
"London is home," Dan echoes, wondering it it feels just as right coming out of his own mouth. It does. His head is spinning, a bit.
"Yeah," Patrick says, like it's that easy.
Dan gives himself a little shake back into the present. He smiles, wry. "Still, I probably shouldn't be crossing my fingers under tables for the producers to shut us down."
For a moment, Patrick looks confused. Dan is all ready to apologise again, shove those feelings down, but Patrick just says, "So negotiate your contract. You know that you aren't required by law to see the show through to the end, right? You can just not come back for season four, or only come back for a couple episodes instead of a full season."
They're sat in a fairly public area, with other people walking about, but Dan could hear a pin drop in the shattering silence that rings in his ears at Patrick's use of logic.
"I," says Dan, "did not think of that."
Patrick nods. "You kind of tunnel-vision sometimes, has anyone ever told you that?"
--
By the time Dan returns to Phil's building, he's talked himself into and back out of quitting his job a dozen times. It's a dumb decision, but not much dumber than simply waiting for someone else to make the decision for him.
He decides to call Amy when he's in France and talk the options through with her. She's already looking for potential gigs in the UK for him, so hopefully the conversation isn't going to come as much of a surprise to her. The last thing he needs is for his agent to get upset with him over making changes in his life.
Dan's head is buzzing with it, loud enough to give him a headache. He texts Phil that he's outside and waits to be let in. He gets an intrusive domestic fantasy of letting himself in with his own key, and reminds himself to rein in this U-Haul bullshit.
"Hey!" Phil beams as he opens the door and steps back for Dan to come in. Other people live on the other floors, but Phil still leans in for a long kiss the moment the door closes behind Dan.
It sends sparks up Dan's spine and quiets some of the unending noise in his head. He sighs, leans into the kiss, wraps his arms around Phil's waist to pull him even closer.
He's cognizant of where they are, though, so he pulls back to rest their foreheads together after a moment. "Hey yourself."
"Did you have a good day?" Phil asks, his tri-coloured eyes bright and unguarded.
"Yeah, but it's better now," says Dan. He's parroting what Phil said to him yesterday, and he can tell that Phil recognises it from the little smile on his face. "You look nice. You showered just for me?"
Phil laughs and tugs at Dan's wrist, pulling him down the stairs. They've got four left feet between them, honestly, so it's a miracle nobody takes a nosedive.
"Yeah," he says as they narrowly avoid any number of broken bones. He presses Dan against the wall next to his front door and grins at him. "But it was also for the judgey moms at the dog park. You look nicer, you didn't take the makeup off?"
To be honest, Dan had forgotten it was even on his face. He settles his hands on Phil's hips and smiles. "They made me look like the best version of me, why would I erase all their hard work?"
"Mm, you do look pretty," Phil says, and Dan is lucky to have his back against a wall. His knees might have actually buckled at the praise if he was unsupported.
"Pretty, huh?" Dan asks. He tries to keep his tone dry, like it's a big joke, but Phil's big eyes just see too much.
"Very pretty," says Phil. Dan doesn't know how to handle being complimented by Phil's deep, sincere voice, but he isn't given much of a chance to react before Phil is speaking again. "But I don't know that I'd call this the best version of you. You looked really nice when you came, y'know."
"Fuck, Phil," Dan laughs, a little breathless. "I was literally gone for ten hours."
"Ten hours too many," Phil grumbles.
Dan laughs again, but he has to admit that Phil has a point. The day had absolutely dragged on with the knowledge that his probably-boyfriend was waiting for him.
"You wanna go inside, then?" Dan suggests, running his thumbs just under the hem of Phil's clean shirt. "I'll do a lot of things, but this floor is cement, mate. I'm not blowing you out here."
The giggle that's surprised out of Phil makes Dan smile so wide it hurts his cheeks. He smacks the center of Dan's chest lightly and steps back to let them both into his flat. "I was thinking we could, like, order dinner first or whatever, but I'm not going to complain if you want to switch up the itinerary."
"The itinerary," Dan mocks, looking around for a ball of fluff running directly at them as he struggles with his shoes. "Uh, where's Thor?"
"Uh," says Phil. There's colour high in his cheeks that he tries to hide by flopping onto the sofa. The sweats he stole off of Dan don't really leave much to the imagination at all, not when he's sitting like that, and Dan almost loses his balance when he stands up straight. The pink doesn't leave Phil's face, but a knowing smirk joins it. "He's in the bathroom."
Dan's heart skips like an old CD player and he laughs to mask just how fond he is. "Uh huh, and here you are acting like you were really ordering food first."
"Well," Phil says, his smirk growing, "we could still order first, it'd be at least twenty."
"Sounds like a challenge," Dan hums, coming around the sofa to sit on the other end and lean forward, kissing the sliver of skin where Phil's shirt is riding up. "Why don't you do that, and I'll go get a bloody condom."
Phil blushes, proper blushes, and pulls a packet out of his pocket. "Ta-da," he jokes, weakly. "For my next trick -"
"If you say you're going to make your penis disappear," Dan says, flat, "then I'm walking out."
They just look at each other for a long moment, like a staring contest neither of them initiated, and then Phil snorts. That sets them both off and soon enough they're laughing, Dan's nose tucked against Phil's hipbone and Phil's hand over his mouth.
"I wasn't going to say that," Phil insists, still giggling. "I wasn't."
"Sure you weren't." Dan grins up at him and slides up his body, a little less graceful than he'd imagined it in his head. He presses their smiles together and licks into Phil's mouth. A little noise passes between them when Phil's hands find their way into Dan's hair, but Dan isn't sure which of them it comes from.
The giddy feeling of laughter doesn't leave Dan's chest. He lets it make a home there as he trails kisses all over Phil's long, pale neck. He doesn't need to guess when Phil likes something - he squirms and makes these little huffs of noises, grip on Dan's curls tightening just a bit before it loosens again. It feels impossibly powerful to learn how to take Phil apart like this, like they're teenagers snogging on the sofa in their first relationship.
It's strange that this does feel like a first relationship for Dan, in a lot of ways. He loved his first girlfriend and cared about other women he's dated, but it's not the same at all.
Finally, Dan is allowed to feel all the things he's supposed to have felt when he was younger. He's allowed to let budding affection and lust and friendship all wrap up in one person.
"So, the piercings," Dan murmurs, letting his hand slide up Phil's shirt to toy with one of them.
"What about them?" Phil asks. He already sounds impatient and needy, like he had last night, and the sound of it goes straight to Dan's dick.
Dan laughs and sits up, helping Phil get his shirt off over his head. "I mean, do they do things for you? Do they feel good when I touch them? How do you want me to touch them to make them feel good?"
"Do you always ask this many questions during sex?" Phil asks, dry.
There's no point in lying. "Yeah, I tend to babble." Dan gives him a winning smile and taps at Phil's hips, a silent request for him to lift up. Phil does happily, arching up for Dan and letting his stolen sweats get tugged off. "Guess you'll have to shut me up somehow."
Phil laughs, muffling the sound of it with his palm, and shakes his head. He looks so fucking gorgeous like this, giggly and naked and starting to get hard against his thigh. Dan has no idea how he got this lucky.
"That's such a terrible line," Phil informs him, grinning wide. He doesn't seem bothered by Dan being dressed when he isn't. He just settles back against the cushions and wiggles a bit, either trying to get comfortable or just teasing Dan. Either is possible at this point.
"It's not a line," Dan protests, shrugging his jacket off and settling back between Phil's legs. He presses his mouth to Phil's soft tummy and, unable to help himself, blows a raspberry.
Phil kicks out at him, instinctive, and his tongue is trapped between his teeth as he tries to hold back giggles.
"My nipples aren't sensitive," Phil tells him, voice wavering with some combination of amusement and arousal. He drops a hand to wrap around his own cock, thumbing at the metal on the tip of it. "This is. It, like, tugs. It's nice."
Biting back a groan at the sight, Dan digs around for the condom. He impatiently knocks Phil's hand out of the way to get him hard enough that he can roll it on. The piercing just above his balls settles nicely at the bottom of the latex, almost like it's holding it in place. Dan rolls it between his fingers, watches Phil's eyes flutter closed. "And this one?"
"Not as much. Still good, though." Phil's tongue darts out to lick his lips, and Dan grins at the unconscious reminder of what he's meant to be doing.
It's not the most comfortable for them to be laid out on the sofa like this, lanky as they are, but Dan isn't nineteen anymore. His knees do not hold up the way they used to. He wraps his hand around the base of Phil's cock and lets the tips of his fingers idly play with the metal bar as he finally gets his mouth on Phil.
Dan isn't used to the taste of latex accompanying a blowjob, but it isn't unpleasant. He gives Phil a couple of long licks and then sucks lightly at the head, not sure how much pressure Phil likes yet.
That's something he thinks he'd love to learn. He wants to know everything about Phil's body, wants to make him tremble with it.
Dan is extremely offended when he glances up and sees that Phil is tapping something on his phone, but the offense settles when Phil huffs a laugh and says, "Put in for takeaway. All yours, now."
The phone gets put down and Dan tongues at the bump of Phil's Prince Albert ring through the condom. That makes Phil's breath hitch, his hips jerk just a bit.
It's been years since Dan has had a cock in his mouth, but he likes to think it's like riding a bike. He takes Phil deep, hollows out his cheeks, repeats any motion that makes Phil let out soft groans. He forgot how much he likes this, fuck.
Much like everything else, it's somehow impossibly better with Phil.
Phil keeps a hand in Dan's hair and braces the other on the back of the sofa, breathing hard, and Dan doesn't want to close his eyes and miss a fucking moment of this.
"Fuck," Phil breathes, and Dan responds with an answering moan around his dick. "Yeah, alright, that's - fuck, Dan, you feel so good, look so pretty like that."
The praise still makes Dan shudder. He sucks Phil harder, feeling the weight of Phil's cock on his tongue as he speeds up his movements.
Dan remembers blowjobs to be pretty fast. He also never gave one to a man older than twenty, though, and his jaw starts to ache once he realises that Phil isn't going to be pushed over the edge as quickly as he's used to.
He pulls off to give his jaw a break, stroking Phil and pressing his open mouth along the side of him.
"You think I feel nice?" Dan laughs, pleased by the way the gust of air makes Phil's cock twitch. "Fucking, forgot how good this feels."
"Yeah?" Phil prompts, his voice deep and breathy and so, so nice to listen to. No wonder he's so successful on the radio. "You like sucking cock?"
Dan shivers. "Yeah," he says. He's unashamed, because he feels safe here with Phil. He can admit to liking a cock in his mouth, a hand in his hair, being called pretty. "Yours specifically, though."
Phil laughs. "That's good. I like specifically your cock, too." He looks over at his kitchen for a moment and raises his eyebrows. "I'll get dressed and answer the door when the pizza gets here if you can make me come in the next five minutes."
Well. Never let it be said that Dan Howell backs down from a challenge.
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L.A Devotee | Chapter 3
Richie looked Eddie’s outfit up and down, and wrinkled up his nose. “Do you own anything that didn’t come from Aeropostale in 2009?”
Eddie gave him a equally disgusted look in return. “Not really.”
[or: child actor Richie Tozier was raised in The Industry, he knows how to play the game. He knows exactly how to keep his head down, and make his way through the famous life without attracting any extra drama. Until his management branch takes an up incoming band under their wing, and enlist Richie to publicly date the lead singer, and that all falls to shit.]
Richie was woken up by a heavy weight bouncing onto the bed beside him. He yelped, gripping angrily at the edge of his mattress as he nearly tumbled off while Audra continuing bouncing on her knees.
“RICHIE! GET UP! RICHARD!” Audra shook Richie’s shoulder until he groaned angrily and swatted at his best friend.
He hunched his shoulders up towards his ears and glowered at her. “You better not be waking me up because of that fuking recording studio shit.It’s not until 11, and I have an alarm set! Let me live!”
Audra yanked the blanket away from Richie’s body and tossed towards the bottom of Richie’s bed. “It’s not about that, but I do think you should take it a little bit more seriously. Nobody’s going to believe it, if you don’t start acting like it’s real.”
Richie rolled his eyes. It had been nearly four weeks since his management had demanded that he parade around with some pretty little songbird on his arm as though they were madly in love, and Richie could admit that he hadn’t seen much of the guy at all. After the awkwardness at the bar between them, he’d been giving Eddie a wide berth. There had been a few arranged meetings- enough that Eddie’s face showed up in tabloids and people Googled who Eddie was. His band’s YouTube channel and SoundCloud had skyrocketed in the last couple weeks, and the management felt now would be a good time to start dropping their singles. Richie was, of course, was expected to be present at the final recording today, if only to be spotted going in and out of the building with Eddie. He was still looking for a way to get out of actually having to sit through the recording process, simply because he’d gone this far without hearing Eddie Kaspbrak sing and he’d like to keep that trend up as long as possible.
Audra hit him with a pillow, and he tossed his hand out to whack at her shoulder. “Richard.” She said, an absolute overjoyed smile covering her face. She held her phone out-stretch towards him, wiggling it in his face. “They nominated you for an Oscar!”
Richie felt as though he went through twenty emotions all at once and didn’t seem to express any of them. He blinked once, and rolled to sit up in his bed. “Guess I’ll take a shower since I’m up anyway.”
He watched how Audra’s face fell and instantly felt bad. He supposed that he should have tried a little harder to act enthusiastic- or tried at all, really- but with the amount of things he was going to have to pretend to feel today, this just wasn’t something he could bring up the strength to do. “Look, I’ll send out a Tweet about being thankful later, I promise. It’s not like I’m going to win it.”
Audra made a wounded noise sound as Richie stood and moved past her towards the bathroom. “That’s so negative! You can’t go into this with such bullshit opinions of yourself! You’re a good actor, Richie!”
Richie rolled his eyes, and yanked his boxers down. He reached into the shower, and pulled the water on. Holding his hand under the stream to feel it warm up to his preferred temperature, he looked back over to Audra. “Okay, first of all- we both know this isn’t about having talent.” Richie continued to rush through as Audra opened her mouth to speak. “And also? That movie was absolute shit. If I had been up for like… Rage… then maybe I could see it. But Secret Window? Ohhh dude kills his wife, big fucking plot twist. We know that if it had been anything less than written and directed by Bill Denbrough that it would have been some trash ass straight-to-Netflix shit.”
“That doesn’t mean your performance was bad.” Audra challenged, but Richie could tell the words were weak. Richie had barely even bothered to memorize the lines for the movie, convinced that it was going to flop whether he worked for it or not. He’d only agreed to do it as a favour to Bill, who had given him so many good roles that he figured it wouldn’t hurt to do a bad one. He remembered being shocked how breaking the film had been and was now even a little bit insulted that it was the role he was being nodded over.
“I haven’t been up for an award since my Teen Choice days.” Richie chuckled. “Most people don’t jump straight from the surfboard to the golden statue. No matter how many years have passed in between.” Audra was still glaring at him and Richie sighed. “Are you done lecturing me? I’m getting in the shower.”
“I am absolutely not done!” Audra said firmly, grabbing the ends of her nightshirt and heaving it over her head. Richie rolled his eyes, stepping under the water and feeling Audra slide in behind him. They settled under the spray and Audra placed her hands on her hips, glaring up at him. ”You’re not giving yourself enough credit, Rich. As usual. You were good in the movie, you played crazy really well! I think it’s one of your best roles, personally. You deserved to be nominated. Take it for the compliment that it is.”
Richie huffed out a breath, pouring some of Audra’s pomegranate shampoo into his hands and reaching to rub it into her hair. “But I don’t take it as compliment. This is just something that is going to make my life more complicated. An excuse to push me into doing more bullshit publicity- and I have enough of that going on.”
Audra raised one eyebrow at him, likely trying to look intimidating but falling flat with the her hair piled up top of her head in a white foam. Richie tried not to laugh. “Not everything is a big scheme with ulterior motives. You’re paranoid as fuck.”
Richie pushed his thumbs against Audra’s chin and encouraged her to tilt her head under the spray. “I don’t know how you aren’t more paranoid, honestly. You really just take things at face value.”
“Not everything,” Audra said, rubbing the soap into Richie’s face a little more aggressively than he felt was necessary. “But sometimes I think it’s okay to believe that something is just a nice thing. No strings attached.”
“There’s always strings.”
Richie waltzed into the recording room, trying to ignore Beverly’s other excited chattering in his ear. Like Audra, she seemed to believe that this nomination was a good thing. What wanted nothing more than to never hear the word “Oscar” again- all apologies to people with the name. He had already resigned himself to having a long couple of weeks, but he was already close to snapping when he noticed Kay perking up at the sight of him.
“Richie! Congratulation-” She hadn’t even finished getting the words out before Richie was waving her off impatiently and dropped himself into one of free cars in the room. He pulled his phone out, but simply scrolled mindlessly through his own photo gallery because the last thing he wanted to do was look anywhere near his social media.
“He’s in little bitch mode,” Beverly said, coming into the room and immediately going to fuss over Ben’s hair. “Just let him stew in it. Auds probably woke him up and you know how he gets when he doesn’t get at least ten hours.”
Richie held his middle finger high above his head and clenched his jaw as he heard the laughter bounce through the small room.
“What are we congratulating Richie for?” Eddie’s voice came then, and Richie couldn’t help glancing up at him. He was wearing a pair of seemingly fitted beige khakis and an actual pink polo shirt, complete with a collar and everything. He looked the perfect boyfriend to some Disney Channel Mary Sue, and it made the back of Richie’s neck burn. “Did he finally find a thrift store that accepts thousand dollars bills?”
God, he barely knew him and yet Eddie Kaspbrak could get under his skin like nobody ever had before. It seemed that he knew just the exact right words to make Richie bristle, and his soul was trained for the exact right moment to toss them out.
“He was nominated for his first Oscar,” Beverly answered, even just sounding like she was rolling her eyes. “And he seems to think that it’s the end of the world.”
“His first?” Eddie’s face seemed confused as he turned to look over at Richie. Richie held his gaze, daring Eddie to piss him off. Eddie just hummed, and turned back to fiddling with his headphones. “I’d have thought you already had at least one.”
Richie narrowed his eyes, brain still trying to decide if that was an insult or not when Stan stormed into the room. “I’m not doing this fucking song. I’m not.”
“Stan you wrote the song, babe.” Ben said softly, Beverly still nit-picking at individual strands of Ben’s hair as though he was going to be on camera at all outside of potential pap pics.
Stan glared at his boyfriend, but the look he cast in Eddie’s direction immediately after was much colder. “I wrote it three years ago, and I didn’t even want to record it for the album. It doesn’t match our sound.”
“It’s a good song, Stanley.” Eddie said sharply, sounding more irritated than Richie had ever heard him before. “It’s strong lyrically, and we’re all well practised in it. And it’ll be a good hook to get people to start listening to us seriously.”
“I don’t want to hook people in by releasing a song that doesn’t sound like any of the rest of the album, Eddie.” Stan’s voice was cold. “Unless, of course, you want to change that, too. We’ve made so many compromises this far, why not?”
Eddie’s shoulders went stiff, his eyes shutted shut and his jaw clenched. Richie marvelled that Eddie Kaspbrak was actually kind of hot when he was pissed off. “The record needs the finished product by midnight, Stanley. We’ve put this off long enough- we’re doing the song.”
Stan looked for a moment like he might keep arguing, but Ben came over and guided him into their booth. They, along with Mike, started mingling around inside with their instruments and Eddie stared blankly at them for a long moment before sighing and moving inside to join his bandmates. Richier couldn’t help staring after Eddie’s departure. Once he was sure that Eddie and his friends had been behind the soundproof area, he turned to Kay and shook his head. “You’re blowing a lot of money on this band. They aren’t going to make it.”
“You haven’t even heard on them yet.” Kay said simply, leaning over the music techs and pointing at certain keys on the board.
“I don’t need to hear them,” Richie said with a shrug. “They could be the most talented band since Queen, and they still aren’t going to make it if they can’t find a way to get along.” Kay pursed her lips and he watched as Beverly turned away nervously. He knew he was right, and he didn’t need an verbally confirmation. He’d told them as much when they’d talked in the bars all those weeks ago- if they conflict this early on, they were doomed to fall apart. It certainly seemed that the drift between Stanley and Eddie had only grown larger since then. Whether Stan was still mad about this little stunt, or if Eddie had done something else since then, Richie wasn’t sure. But he knew it wouldn’t spell anything good for them, if they didn’t work it out soon.
Kay gave Richie a quick signal to shut up, and pressed down on the SPEAK button. “Okay, guys. We’ve burned a lot of time, so we’re going to get right into it. On your four count.”
The other three men all pushed their instruments into place, as Eddie wrapped his hands around the hanging mic and leaned towards it. Some music that might have passed for punk, but definitely leaned more towards pop, came from them as Eddie took a deep breath.
“Used to keep it cool, used to be a fool, all about the bounce in my step… Watch it on the news, whatcha gonna do, I could hit refresh and forget...”
Richie tried not to look impressed, staring stubbornly at his phone. Eddie definitely had the voice for this, and he’d been right about the song being good lyrically. He remembered that when Kay first mentioned them, she’d called them an alternative band… and this was no alternative song. It would do well in the Top 40s- which was no doubt their management’s intention, and what was making Stanley so distressed. It was a sell out, for sure, but if they stuck with it then nobody except them would ever know. That was the way to do it, but it seemed that Eddie’s bandmates might put up a fight about it.
Richie let himself look at Eddie, seeming so Ken-Barbie like in his preppy clothes. It certainly didn’t fit the sound they wanted to sell, and barely fit that in which it seemed like were going to sell. Eddie looked like some Jesse McCartney, 2009 Justin Bieber ass mother fucker. He couldn’t believe Beverly had let it fly for this long.
“Watch me stand in the line, you’re only serving lies, you’ve got something to hide…”
As they wrapped, and the band came fumbling out of the soundbooth, Richie mimicked gagging loudly as Eddie exited. Eddie looked wounded for a moment, before seeming to realize it was Richie mocking him, and quickly flipped his fake boyfriend off. Richie chuckled and pushed to his feet. He patted Stan between the shoulder and nodded at him. “It is a good song, man. Take it as a compliment that they chose it, even if it’s not the one you wanted.”
He was hyper aware of Beverly muttering something about him being a fucking hypocrite, and smirked as he turned to face Eddie. He looked the boy up and down, and wrinkled up his face.”Do you own anything that didn’t come from Aeropostale in 2009?”
Eddie gave him an equally disgusted look in return. “Not really.”
“We’ll have to change that.” It had been a general “we”. It had been such an general we. The most general of we’s. We as in Eddie and somebody who was not Richie. Then Beverly took it upon herself to walk up to them, and placed a hand on each of their shoulders.
“I’ve been thinking the same thing! Eddie really needs a new look!” Beverly cheered, looking overly smug. “It’s so nice of you to offer to take him, Rich!”
“What?” Richie gasped as Eddie’s mouth dropped open in matching shock. “No, I- I didn’t- I-” But Beverly was already winking at him and walking back to talk to Kay. No doubt to tell her all about how Richie was going to be taking Eddie out to buy new clothes, leaving Richie with no choice but to actually do so. Eddie clearly couldn’t be trusted to purchase his own clothes- hence what he was wearing now- but Richie genuinely hadn’t been expecting to be thrust into that terrible responsibility.
Eddie, to his own credit, looked rather horrified. “You want him to pick out clothes for me? Him? Look at him!” Eddie gestured towards Richie’s outfit, was which- admittedly- rather wild today. He’d paired the skinniest jeans he could find in his closet- a bright, hot pink- with a green shirt covered in cactus’. If you looked closely enough to it, you could see the words don’t be a prick written all over it. “Dude looks like a kiwi!”
Richie huffed. “Look, man. I’m not thrilled about it, either. The less time I have to spent with you the better.”
“I’m a fucking delight, I’ll have you know!” Eddie snapped, Richie watching how his jaw clenched and his eyes flashed. Richie tilted his head to the side, smiling slightly. Eddie’s cheeks began to flush and Richie’s soft smile turned into a wolfish grin.
“Let’s just go, yeah?” Richie said, trying to keep his tone light and friendly. This would be unbearable if Eddie spent the entire time in a funk. “Everybody likes shopping, and you have an endless supply of company money to do it with.”
Eddie was still eyeing him warily. “Promise I’m not going to end up dressing like you?”
“Sweetie. Nobody dresses like me.”
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Richie took hold of Eddie’s hand as soon as they stepped into the open parking lot. He felt the way the other boy stiffened, and squeezed as he feared Eddie would pull away. “We have to look like we’re dating,” Richie whispered to him, leaning close enough that their bodies rested together. “There’s going to be a hundred fucking teen bops here, your single drops tonight, and I was just nominated for an award. Eyes are going to be on us.”
“Maybe we’ve picked the wrong day to do this,” Eddie said lightly as he and Richie began walking into the fluorescent light mall.
Richie laughed, small and seemingly genuine. “Kid. From here on out, there’s never going to be a good day to do things. Didn’t you get the you’re-gonna-be-famous crash course? You’re never going to be doing anything again without eyes on you.”
Eddie was quiet for such a long time that Richie eventually had to turn and look at him. Eddie’s hand felt so small in his own, and when he looked at Eddie- he looked small, too. Young. Richie knew they were the same age, give or take a few months, but he supposed that Eddie hadn’t had to grow up the way Richie had. There was still lingering youth in him, confusion about the world he was entering. Richie needed to remind himself that maybe Eddie Kaspbrak was a person under all that attitude.
“Hey, listen.” Richie said, swinging his and Eddie’s joined hands to-and-fro. “It comes with the job. Today is going to be your first day when you absolutely don’t need to worry about money, like at all. I remember the first time I was handed a credit card and let loose in a mall. It was a religious experience.”
Eddie looked Richie up and down, and Richie fully expected another comment about Richie’s choice in clothes but Eddie just frowned. “And you were what? Ten? Even younger?” Richie gave a non-committed hum. He’d been seven when his mother had handed him his first credit card with his own name on it. “I feel bad for you. You have all this stuff, but you’ve never really been allowed to live.”
“I can do whatever I want,” Richie said, wondering if he was convincing Eddie or himself. “I just get in trouble when I do something wrong.”
“I’d wanted to be an actor, when I was little.” Eddie said. “I begged my dad to let me go to auditions, and he told me if I really wanted to be famous- I could wait until I was an adult. He said if you wanted to put your kids into show business, you might as well skip the show business part and stick them right in rehab.”
Richie pursed his lips, wondering how much about his life Eddie actually knew. Somethings could easily be found online, but those facts were never quite right. Even if they came from direct sources. “Your dad sounds like a smart guy. How’d he let you get into a situation like this?”
“He died when I was eleven. Cancer.” Eddie said it so nonchalantly, and Richie felt he might have given himself whiplash turning to look at him. “It was just me and Ma after that, and she wouldn’t hear anything about being famous. Wanted me to stay in Maine, working at some pharmacy downtown, until I died. Made me want it more.”
“So, you’re becoming famous out of spite.” Richie said lightly, always one to dodge any emotional conversation that he could. “I can dig that.”
“I’m trying to become famous because it’s what I’ve always wanted.” Eddie pointed out, clearly trying to control the annoyance on his face. He was already smart enough to know that pictures of them seemingly having a fight shouldn’t be circling so quickly into their relationship. “My Ma was just a big push factor.”
Richie nodded, and then pressed a kiss to the top of Eddie’s head for good measure. Eddie’s eyes went a little wide, but he seemed to manage his shock well otherwise. “We’re going to start here,” Richie said, gesturing towards the Turtle Shack.
Eddie eyed it a little apprehensively. “Do you show there?”
Richie actually laughed, gesturing his free hand towards the store full of blues, blacks and grays. “Does it look like I’d buy anything from there? No, Eddie. If you’re going to be the frontman of some emo alternative band, you can’t walk around looking like Chad Michael Murray.”
“Who?” Eddie asked, frowning. Richie just rolled his eyes, and tugged Eddie into the store. He didn’t have the time or patience to deal with how it seemed that Eddie Kaspbrak had been raised under a big rock in Maine. Were there mountains in Maine? If so, Eddie was probably raised in one. With wolves. Wolves that wore cardigans.
Richie grabbed several shirts and hoodies off the racks and tossed them at Eddie, hardly giving them a full glance. He was firm believer, right now, that anything was an improvement. Eddie didn’t seem convinced, judging by the way he was turning up his nose at them. “Why am I doing this? I don’t get why I have to change my clothes. It feels like lying.”
“Oh, what?” Richie laughed, brushing his hand along his jawline. “Now you’re worried about lying? Try the clothes on, Edward. I was told to take you shopping, and we’re getting you clothes. I don’t care if you ever wear them after this. But you will.”
Eddie scowled, then seemed to remember himself. He came forward and kissed Richie’s cheek quickly, smiling shyly up at him. Batting his eyelashes, and even seeming to blush somehow. “Thanks, baby.”
Richie watched Eddie duck into the change room, shaking his head and knowing his expression was perfectly awestruck. Eddie could have done well, if he’d stuck with his first dream of going into acting. Richie fiddled around with the long racks of pants, fitted and ripped, picking out six or seven. He knocked on the door. “I’ve got pants for you.”
“You’re trying to get me out of my pants, too?” Eddie called over to him through the door. He opened it, already wearing one of the dark Tees. It was a Nirvana shirt, that Richie was sure that he had a matching hiding somewhere in the back of his closet. Taking his shirt off, and placing another on, had left Eddie’s hair flopping out of it’s usually primly styles swoop. He could see the natural curls that Eddie’s hair held, and it was a little endearing.
“Your hair looks good like that.” Richie said, dropping the pants into Eddies hands. Eddie raised his eyebrows and frowned. “Women love the messy look. You could do for that sort of extra boost in popularity.”
“I don’t really care what women find attractive.” Eddie said, smirking. He was joking, probably, but Richie wasn’t in the mood to let Eddie make dumb mistakes right now.
“You should care.”Richie said seriously. “Whether you want to admit it or not, women are going to support your career. It doesn’t matter if you’re gay- they’ll love that, too- but most straight women are still going to want to imagine they could date you.”
Eddie lowered the clothes and suddenly seemed exhausted. “Richie, is anything even real? Everything I’ve done since signing our label has been changing myself, changing my stuff, and pissing off my friends. What’s the point?”
Richie pushed at Eddie’s shoulders and guided them into the dressing room together, knowing that was going make fun headlines. “Kid,” he said seriously, putting the clothes and hanging them up. “You’re too new at this to be so cynical about it. If you’re already not enjoying it, drop out now before it’s too late. But can I give you some advice and you promise not to let it make you think we’re friends?”
“We’ll never be friends,” Eddie answered immediately, but with none that Kaspbrak sass that Richie had already come to recognize. He just sounded tired.
Richie gave him a small smile. “There’s nothing wrong here. You’ve maybe had a bit of a rough beginning, but once your stuff starts circulating and you smooth things over with Stanley, it’s going to be worth it. Just push through.”
Eddie gave him a long, unreadable look then sighed. “Do I still have to get the clothes?”
“Yes.” Richie said with a firm nod. “You need them.”
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My Sendai Holiday (April 2018) - Part 3: Weekend Sendai
Part 1 was about Yuzuru’s Olympic Victory Parade and Part 2 was about Ice Rink Sendai (links are at the end of this post). This part is about the rest of my trip.
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I flew into Sendai by ANA; the cute plane below was my connecting flight from Tokyo Haneda to Sendai.
Entering the airport, I saw a poster of our dear 若様 (’waka-sama’ = young master). What a beautiful start to my holiday. :)
Sendai Airport is small and beautiful. The roof is like the waves of the sea. And it’s very convenient too. A linkway connects it to the train station just across the road. (Pic below taken from linkway.)
After a short train ride, I reached Sendai Station, the main station of the city. This is also the shinkansen (bullet train) stop.
I love Sendai Station. It’s so pedestrian-friendly due to a huge walkway that sprawls over the roads and traffic outside, connecting the station to the malls and buildings around it.
Inside, there are many shops and eateries. Pic below: shops selling ‘zunda mochi’ and ‘hagi no tsuki’. (further down this post, you will see more zunda mochi.) (hagi no tsuki is a snack that Yuzu loves.)
In the station, there is an awesome tourist information centre.
Young master Yuzu is there saying “Welcome to Sendai”..... and sometimes there are samurais there as well! When I took this photo, instead of saying “cheese”, these guys said “zunda mochi!!!” XD
The tourist centre was giving out beautiful leaflets with suggestions on places that fans can visit, like Goshikinuma Pond, Ice Rink Sendai, Nanakita Park and Yuzu’s monument at International Centre Station. The words on the right-hand leaflet say “Sendai City supports Hanyu Yuzuru-senshu”.
The centre also had big stacks of ‘Weekend Sendai’! (the travel magazine with Yuzu; it’s free) I already have a copy at home but I took one for a friend.
Yuzu is eating zunda mochi in the photo above. It’s a Sendai specialty, mochi covered with mashed edamame, and it’s sweet like a dessert. I love it!
“Itadakimasu.” (See the white mochi under the mashed edamame?)
The photo below is the take-away cup; the mochi inside is smaller but it tastes just as good. Ate it a few times during my holiday, and also tried zunda shake and zunda pudding. They were all nice, but I like zunda mochi the most.
Next to Sendai Station, on the 4th floor of Parco shopping mall, Yuzu’s signed skate boots were on display. He donated them for an auction in March this year to raise funds for Tohoku earthquake recovery (3.11). The successful bidder was Japanese fashion house, Samantha Thavasa Japan Limited, and the final amount was 8.5 million yen (about US$76,000). According to Oricon news, the money was from the staff of the company inside and outside Japan who donated their money to support this good cause. [thanks to fan Shuko for the info] [pic below from Yahoo Japan]
After the auction, the company decided to bring the boots to different parts of Japan to be on display and they were in Sendai during this period.
Here are the boots that raised 8 million yen: (8,501,000 to be exact)
Near the boots display area, Yuzu’s parade T-shirts were on sale. I had already bought mine online and they were delivered to the Sendai hotel that I was staying in.
My first dinner in Sendai.... gyu-tan of course! Grilled beef tongue is a Sendai specialty and oh so delicious! Had it at a restaurant in the station.
The gyutan in the middle is the usual one flavoured with salt, the gyutan on the right is flavoured with miso. The white thing on the left is another Sendai food, sasa-kamaboko which is grilled fish cake (kamaboko) in the shape of a bamboo leaf (sasa), believed to be inspired by the design in the family crest of the Date clan who ruled Sendai Domain in the Edo period. It can be eaten on its own as a snack. The rice was also very special; it had some barley mixed into it, giving it a different texture and fragrance. Everything was very, very oishiiiiiii~~~~~
I ate this with my friend Ella who was in Tokyo just the weekend before to watch ‘Continues with Wings’, so you can imagine what our chat was about. The last time we saw each other was one year ago. So much Yuzuru to talk about. :D
The next day was the first day of sale of parade wristbands. There were several sale locations and I went to one near my hotel. On the way there, I saw some Yuzu-banners. This one below says:
“Hanyu Yuzuru senshu, thank you for touching and inspiring us.
PyeongChang Olympic Gold Medal, 2 consecutive victories, you are the pride of Sendai, Miyagi and Tohoku.”
This banner below is about Yuzuru’s photo exhibition coming to Sendai at the end of June.
And this is the line I saw when I reached the sale location at 7.45am, not too bad! The start of the line is on the left where people are sitting on the ground, near the closed shutters of the department store. Sale would start at 10am.
The wristbands were sold in sets of 2 at 1000yen per set. Only 10,000 sets were made (compared to 80,000 tees). So these early birds like myself just wanted to be sure of getting them. :D My friend Ella was at another sale location and she said the line was snaking up and down stairs and around the building! xD
While standing there in line, I ate my breakfast and also shared my food with the woman in front of me and the man behind me. They were both of middle-age and were local people living in Sendai, and since we were waiting together for more than 2 hours, I chatted with them to pass the time (and to practise my Japanese, haha). Some things struck me from the chat that morning.
I was telling them a bit about myself, that I have been a Yuzu-fan since 2014 Sochi Olympics, and I naturally asked them, so when did you become fans? They didn’t reply..... I was a bit surprised as I waited for their answer. They were both thinking very hard, with a slight puzzled look on their faces, like they were trying to recall..... And then I realised, they live here in his hometown! Which means they would have seen him in the local Sendai news since he was very young and they have been watching him grow as a skater and they have been naturally supporting him since who-knows-when! There is no clear-cut point like us who happened to see his performance one day and got zapped. With that sudden realisation, I quickly said, oh you live here, so you have known him from way back! They both nodded and looked pleased that I understood. I guess no one has ever asked them that question before! The man added that when Junior Nationals were held in Sendai in 2007, he went to watch and he was so impressed by Yuzu’s performance. (Yuzu was only 12 then; his SP was ‘Sing, Sing, Sing’ and FP was ‘Firebird’. I translated about this competition from his biography; will include the link at the end.) I told them I was so envious that they live here and have known him for such a long time! You lucky Sendai people!!!
Besides asking that stupid question, I also made some stupid assumptions. I told them, I plan to go to Nanakita Park to sit on ‘Yuzu’s bench’ and then go to Ice Rink Sendai to skate and then have dinner at the gyu-tan restaurant with his signature.... you two must have been to these places, right? They both smiled and said no. (What????) The look on their faces seemed to say they never thought of doing that and there was no such need. But they were very impressed that I knew these places. The man took out his phone to try to help me with directions. He wanted to make sure I knew the right route to take. Really nice people. :)
At 9.30am, staff of the store came to set up the area and we got really excited! Soon we would have Yuzu-bands on our wrists! The Sendai lady asked, how many sets of wristbands are you buying? I said two of course! But the man said ONE. (What???) I assumed everyone would get 2 sets each (maximum). Especially after lining up for so long and it’s in limited stock. I said, ONLY ONE? REALLY? He said, yes I just need one set because there are 2 bands, one for me and one for my wife, just nice. Oh......... somehow I was touched by that. Their support for Yuzu is so sweet and simple. They don’t need to go to his home rink nor all the places that he has been to, but they will line up for a few hours to buy just one set of his parade wrist bands..... These Sendai fans touched my heart..... :’)
Since he was only buying one set, I asked if he could buy one more set for me. I wanted to send them to overseas fan-friends who couldn’t come to Sendai and he was very happy to help. :))
Besides wristbands, there were also parade tees on sale (only S size left). Some reporters came to interview the people waiting. The line had grown really, really long by now, looped to and fro a few times, but still very neat and orderly.
At 10am, sales started and the staff was so efficient. Very soon, I got my wristbands! Plus an extra set from the really nice Sendai man! I was so lucky to be standing in front of him! And much thanks to him and the lovely lady for a good chat!
I took the above photo after I bought my bands. There was a staff holding a big sign with the words “end of line”, so it was clear to all where to join in if they wanted wristbands. He also held a tally counter to count the number of people in the line. As it approached the number of bands that was available in that store, he would tell people who came to join the queue that they might not get the bands but they could try if they didn’t mind waiting in line. I love Japan, these things are always so well-organised!
After this, I met up with Ella and we went to Sunao Noto-san’s photo exhibition which was held nearby. (Admission was free.) It was a very small exhibition but the outside already took my breath away.
Pic above: the Japanese words over “Stay Gold” say “Congrats and thank you”. (We could take photos of the outside but photography is not allowed inside.)
In the small room, there were some beautiful photos of Yuzu from PyeongChang Olympics. There was also one photo that I had not seen before and it brought a lump to my throat..... Yuzu was standing with crutches and looking at his own photo exhibition. It was the exhibition held in Sendai from November 3 to 21 last year. On Nov 9, he injured his ankle and withdrew from NHK Trophy the next day. Then it was reported that he went back to Sendai and visited this exhibition after it was closed for the day. He also wrote a message thanking fans for their support, dated 12 Nov 2017, and it was displayed at the exhibition. (I posted about this last year; will include link at the end.) This photo must have been taken that evening, just 3 days after the injury. Looking at him in crutches at that November exhibition, the emotions of those few months rushed back into me. How high was the wall that he surmounted.... I felt so keenly the heartache..... and also deep, deep admiration and respect. Tears started prickling my eyes. Oh Yuzu.... you made me cry again! Later, Ella said to me, Sunao Noto-san’s photos always tell a story. Indeed.
That was my first Yuzuru Hanyu photo exhibition. Thank you very much, Noto-san.
When we left, a girl approached us and gave us this beautiful newspaper:
She is a Waseda University student and was carrying a backpack full of her school newspaper to give away to Yuzu-fans! She said she gave us the paper because I was wearing a CiONTU tee! Much thanks to dear Ella who gave me the tee last night and I wore it as soon as I could. xD And thank you, dear Waseda schoolmate of Yuzu! You made many Yuzu-fans very, very happy!
So much emotions.... and it was not even 12 noon yet! xD
From this lovely shopping area near Sendai Station, we went for a walk. Along the way, we saw the most beautiful 7-11 store.
Many shops had signs like that, saying ‘Hanyu Yuzuru senshu, congrats!!’
勾当台公園 Kotodai-koen (park) was beautiful. There was a farmers’ market, cherry blossoms were still in bloom, and someone was playing the guitar and singing!
More photos I took along our walk, from the park to the next subway station.
(Above: another “Omedetou!! Hanyu Yuzuru senshu”)
Then we took the subway to 泉中央 Izumi-chuo Station (N01). From there, it’s a 20-minute walk to Ice Rink Sendai or you can wait for the bus.
For people who like to look at maps, 2 photos here:
(We were at Kita-Yobancho station, N07.) (The main Sendai Station is N10.)
I wrote about Ice Rink Sendai in an earlier post (link included at the end). After our visit, the queue for the bus was very long (all Yuzu-fans, haha), so we made the 20-minute walk back to Izumi-Chuo Station and took the subway one stop down to 八乙女 Yaotome. A short walk from the station was 利久 Rikyu (Izumi main branch), a restaurant with Yuzu’s signature.
Grilled liver (square plate) and gyu-tan (round plates). The meal was soooooo delicious, especially the liver. I told myself that I must eat here one more time before I leave Sendai. Yuzu, thank you for your recommendation! :)
When we were leaving the restaurant, there were some people coming in and I suddenly realised one of them was another good fan-friend K-chan! She saw me at the same time and we screamed (or maybe only I screamed, haha) and we hugged each other! It was so good to see her again! And I wonder if the restaurant was just filled with Yuzu-fans that day. :D
On the subway back to Sendai Station, we saw Vegatta-kun. (If you have not seen the video of Vegatta and 15 year-old Yuzu, please search for it. xD)
Coming out of the subway exit at Sendai Station, we saw handsome Sendai travel ambassador Hanyu-kun. :)
End of a marvellous day. The highlight had yet to come! Next day = Sunday 22nd April = Yuzu’s parade day!! (link at the bottom of this post)
A bit more on food: at the end of parade day, I met up with K-chan and, thanks to her suggestion, we had the softest, puffiest pancakes I’ve ever tasted.... they were light and puffy like clouds! The fruity topping was sold out, so we had the plain version. Very yummy!
.... in this cute little bakery-cafe near Sendai Station.
I will end this post with Sendai Station at night plus the walkway that crosses roads and connects it to the surrounding buildings:
Will do a Part 4 because it’s too long to put it all here. :D
Last part: 2 places with Yuzu’s signature (restaurant and sports shop), a shrine that he has visited before, his monument at International Centre Station, a historic pond and a castle hill..... coming next. :)
(Please do not use or re-post my stuff without permission.) (Photos are taken by me.)
Some links mentioned:
Part 1: Yuzu’s parade day
Part 2: Ice Rink Sendai
2007 Junior Nationals and 12 year-old Yuzu
Nov 2017 photo exhibition: news pix and fan account
Update: Part 4 is now done.
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i watched the dont lie svt mafia game (the first two links u sent) and it was so fun!!! i love how you dont know who the mafia is until the end so it’s like youre playing along too :) also seungkwan was so smart!!! gradually building everyones trust and gathering allies around him!! i was so sad when he was killed off tho, he literally was abt to catch the mafia 😭 and hoshi REVEALING HIMSELF AS THE MAFIA was the funniest thing ever but also really smart like he turned everyone against mingyu (who honestly i thought was the mafia too), and in the last round hoshi was just openly like “who should we kill today” IM DEAD 😂 also can i just say that jeonghan looked so GOOD in that game...he’s such a sexy mafia 😏 i cant wait to watch their second dont lie mafia game!
u already know for 127 jaehyun was my first bias and now mark is my ult <3 and for dreamies if u dont count mark (since i knew him from 127 first so kinda unfair) i think jaemin was prob also my first and current bias?? he was my first bias and i just never stopped 😂 for wayv i think my bias is yangyang hehe :) im trying to think abt what similarities in my biases are - it might just be the smiley happy funny ones with the best laughs as we talked about before (this is weird but i think when i first meet someone i notice their laugh?? like i love ppl who have laughs that you can tell are just truly from their heart if that makes sense) i might also have a slight bias for rap lines but i think that is not as concrete as the smiley/funny thing!
omg thats so cool that you know so many languages!! youre so cool hehe :) i always have so much respect for ppl who learned languages (idk i dont count me knowing canto as learning a language bc i kinda passively learned it thanks to my parents hahaha) i took french and spanish for a bit in school but i didnt continue and have thus forgotten most of it D: (which i kinda regret, i want to try learning french again someday) also i totally get that about chinese and japanese being intimidating...ive always thought it'd be so cool to learn another asian language (and one that is more widely used than canto) but they are quite hard, esp for chinese/japanese where the writing system is a lot harder to learn!! i learned korean hangul so i can sound out words veryyyy slowly but i dont know what they mean 99% of the time 😂 i havent seriously applied myself to actively learning a third language but i've always wanted to! i can understand basic korean phrases tho since i watch so much korean content ahahaha
hmm as for weird phobias, i really hate cockroaches?? or bugs in general...and i also hate when circles are bunched together rly closely lol (i think it’s called tryptophobia but i wouldnt recommend googling that cuz it grosses me out so much omg 😰😰)
ok now to close this out on a happier note lol i THINK i can name all the svt members now??? like with maybe 85% accuracy 😂 and i think my first biases are joshua, jeonghan, & kinda dino and vernon :)) but i feel myself slowly falling for all of them i love how chaotic they are and ive laughed so much watching their videos already 😊😊
AAAH i'm so glad you loved it 🥺 ikr it was so good??? i especially loved the part when hoshi just blamed mingyu!!!!! and manipulated everyone into thinking that he was one of the mafia!!! what a smart move but also fun? hoshi the god of variety shows!! tbh i kinda knew minghao was the mafia since the beginning... he was just too quiet... i mean he is a quiet person yk but he was more suspicious than usual 👀 and i guess bc in the beginning they gave us the preview of their reactions and he laughed and knowing he's a scorpio i only assumed... so i didn't 100% buy hoshi's lie bc i was still sure that hao was one of the mafia 🤷🏻♀️ still tho it was legendary!!!! but i guess mingyu played it stupid and he was sus to begin with so 🤷🏻♀️ yeah.... YOU CAN SAY THAT JEONGHAN LOOKS GOOD BC damn right he does 😍 he is a beautiful man what can i say 🤷🏻♀️ he is also very confident in himself (the other day i watched one gose ep from 2019 it's called debate night i think and basically they're having a debate about the stupidest, most pointless things in the world (like is it better to live AS a pigeon or live WITH a pigeon for a year, or is it better to have 3 eyes or 3 arms 😅) and jeonghan always had a counter argument, ALWAYS, but he would say it so confidently looking handsome as hell he could make me believe that grass was blue..) btw gose always has dumb content like this but still i think it's the best idol content out there only bc svt are crazy funny and chaotic and those 13 boys share a total of 2 braincells shared by wonwoo and jun each; like there is one ep i think it's called the8 and the 12 shadows ans basically they all move in a row and all 12 of them have to repeat what the first member is doing, it might sound smart when i explain it but if you'd watch it you'd see that it's so dumb and pointless but it's funny and 1hour long and carats watch it bc 🤷🏻♀️ anyways what i'm trying to do is show you what you're getting yourself into😌
ohhhh i think jaehyun, mark, nana and yangyang all have beautiful smiles and they’re all very smiley and bright people 🥺 so that's definitely the one thing your biases have in common 🥺 that's so cute 🥺 oh you think you're attracted more to the rap line? 🤔 all of your nct biases are indeed rappers (jaehyun is a i can do it all i'm 97 line he is excluded) so maybe??? but yeah you biasing bright idols is 🥺 adorable!!!
ahh thank you 🥺 i try!! yeah most people forget languages if they don't use them regularly </3 kinda scared i'll forget french bc i never use it nowadays, i used to know a woman who only spoke french and i would have to translate to her what my family tells her and vice versa, it was a great french exercise 💪 but i don't see her anymore so </3 the fact that you speak canto and chinese(mandarin i guess?) intimidates you really adds fuel to the fire<3 it's great that you know how to read hangul!!! me too!! you'll get better at reading with practise! but compared to chinese characters i don't think it's that hard, i mean, how do chinese people even memorize all the characters?? or WORSE how do foreigners memorize them??! writing in chinese must be so hard do you have to pay attention to all the tiny lines?? that's a lot of work 😨 i am terrified 😨 do you also know basic japanese phrases from anime?? bc personally i do but i know a lot more korean than japanese i mean thank god, i'm learning korean religiously tho 😂 still tho can't watch idol content without titles</3 (except with chinese wayv members who struggle OMG MAYBE I LOVE CHINA LINE BC THEY MAKE KOREAN A BIT EASIER? anyways i completely relate to them bc korean grammar is so hard, so strange and so different from grammar i'm used to in 'western' languages)
cockroaches? 😨 i too hate insects of every kind<3 so i understand <3 oh i know about tryptophobia(?)!!! one of my friends is scared of the same thing too, have to admit it does look disgusting 😬 i'm also afraid of heights and water!!! (but like the sea and the ocean sjsgsjaha i can't swim!! and i never want to!!!) 😨😅
AHHHH I'M SO PROUD OF YOU 🤧 what a bias combo thooooo 👀 jeonghan? i approve! he is so fun!!! so beautiful!! sexc 👀 jeonghan is so interesting i love him and also joshua is so pretty too?? i mean obvs they're both visuals sjgssj but it's different with shua bc i can look at him all day it's soooo calming to just look at him?? ahh angelic! it's kinda interesting to me bc you bias jeonghan and joshua and jihan (their ship name) is kind of a big deal™ did you know that????? i assume it was unintetional and you had no idea about it jsgsja i also approve of vernon and dino as well but i mean i would approve of anyone and everyone at this point 🤷🏻♀️ have you seen pics of jeonghan with long hair??? i feel lowkey bad for saying this but he is so beautiful i deadass thought he was a woman 😧
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ColdAtom Secret Santa 2017: The Charade
In Secret Santa this year I was writing for @craptaincold
I went with a Fake Relationship story for you, hope you enjoy it :)
(Story under the cut)
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If Leonard Snart could pinpoint the moment in his life where he tipped the scales enough to get himself sent to hell, it would have been about 6 months, 1 week and 4 days ago. He’d been mid shoot on his new movie. His agent and the agent of his co-star had called them both to a meeting. In the movie Len played a widowed man. His wealthy wife had died leaving him with their daughter Eliza. His character is from an entirely different world than his wife but as she stated in her will she wanted their daughter brought up around the world she had known. He hires a nanny, a male nanny, who he falls in love with.
He and his co-star were unsure why they had been called into a meeting but they both turned up. It was at the meeting Leonard knew he was going to hell. They wanted the pair to date. Well, at least to pretend.
“Think of the fans, they’re already what’s the term… ‘Shipping’ the two of you. They’re even creating art.” He held up his iPad to show a rather graphic sketch of the two of them.
Both Leonard and Ray looked uncomfortable. Ray’s agent stepped in. “Ray you both need to think about the possibilities here, think of the parts this could get you in the future. You’re still unknown in this world.” Ray really didn’t like where this was going. Their fans knew that both he and Leonard were gay. It’s what was keeping the media from being too interested in the film already. There was nothing ‘exciting’ about two gay actors playing gay roles apparently. But if their fans started posting about their ‘dreams coming true’ then the media would be interested. Ray remained quiet. He had a lot less to lose than Leonard. Leonard was up for a big role after this movie and the director was homophobic. It sounded like he was looking for any reason to drop Leonard from the project.
“Look, we’re not saying that you should just start fucking, no, just be seen together and let things ‘progress’,” Leonard looked about to kill his agent. “Look, why don’t you both think about it, discuss it and meet again next week?” Neither Len or Ray could reply before the man was on the phone and excusing himself, taking his things with him. Ray’s agent shot them both an apologetic look.
“Just think about it. It isn’t an unlikely story, two stars, grow close during a role, start going out. And it couldn’t hurt your careers. Either of them.” Ray’s agent packed his things and left the pair of them. Leonard regarded his co-star beside him. It wasn’t entirely unbelievable that they could go out. They were good at their jobs and had good chemistry on screen.
Ray was deep in thought in the next seat. Leonard had always been one of his favourite actors before he had the courage to try it himself. And he would be lying if he said he wasn’t attracted to the other. He knew the main complication in Leonard’s mind. His future. Both of their futures for that matter. Neither wanted to speak first so Leonard took the hit. “We should discuss this,” he said startling Ray.
Ray nodded, “I agree,” he said though he didn’t move.
“Let’s go somewhere more private, my place, tonight? I’m meeting my sister downtown in half an hour. Seven good?”
“Seven’s fine.” Ray agreed as they began preparing to leave. Leonard text Ray his address and left to meet his sister.
Ray couldn’t think straight, so he did what he always did in that situation and headed home then to a gym with a pool. He stared longingly at the boxing ring through the windows but his contract in the film said he couldn’t get mark up through sport. So swimming it was. He swam lengths until the lifeguards told him he had to get out so they could do kids swimming lessons. He went back to his apartment to eat and called his friend to see if she wanted to hang out.
“Hey Anna, did you wanna get lunch? My treat? Great see you there,” he hung up and drove to a small Italian place in the city. Anna arrived shortly after he did, she lived further out than he did. They sat in a more secluded corner of the restaurant so he could talk to her. “So, our agents want us to date, or to at least make it look like we are, to promote the film and I don’t know, it seems wrong.” He told her.
“Ray lots of actors have pretended to date to promote their movies. It’s sometimes part of the job,” Anna told him. “40% of actor-actress relationships end with a carefully planned break-up. What does Leonard think?”
“We didn’t really have much chance to talk about it, he left to meet his sister.”
“Well think about it like this, both of you are out as gay, neither of you is seeing anyone, you don’t have any kids, so no one can get hurt. Plus, it might help you. The only think that might throw you is your active life on social media. You’d need to plan his introduction into that carefully. You can’t just suddenly have pics with a guy saying, ‘love of my life’ or something like that.”
“Aren’t you supposed to be the voice of reason in this friendship?” He smirked.
“Ray you know I love you and I think it would be good for you to date someone. Even if it’ not real, for him anyway.” Anna knew he had somewhat of a thing for Leonard and had teased him relentlessly for it when they had been cast together. “Ray just think about it OK?”
“I will. We’re meeting tonight to discuss things,” he told her. “You really think we should do it?”
“It couldn’t hurt,” she smiled reassuringly.
Ray arrived at Leonard’s house just after 7 and rang the doorbell. “Hey, come on in,” Leonard said, “we have a lot to talk about.” This was different to the Leonard he had been seeing on set. He was more intense, though Ray put that down to nerves. Leonard showed him to the kitchen where he pulled two beers out of the refrigerator. Sliding one over to Ray he twisted the top off of his own. Ray had been over a few times to run lines in pre-production. Len took a long pull from his drink. “It’s not uncommon,” he paused, “for actors to start going out during a movie. However, those are straight actors and they’re dating their female co-stars. We’re gay and there will be a lot of hate coming at us. Especially you, I know the projects you have lined up. You know how some people get when Disney hires a gay actor. It’s not ideal. But I think we can make this work. What are your thoughts?” Leonard looked at Ray for the first time since he arrived.
“I agree that it’s not the least likely outcome of the two of us working together. I spoke with a friend earlier, a trusted friend,” he added, “and she thinks we should go for it. But she did mention my social media presence. We’d have to think carefully about that. You can’t just show up on there. When we were running lines over the summer I Instagramed pics of me outside, arriving and leaving etc. So people know I’ve been here and it’s a good start. Next, our fans. We have two different fanbases and as much as our agents want us to believe the crossover is ‘huge’ it’s not how he described it. The crossover that is there, however, is very… Interested in us… Joining forces, I think is the best way to put it.”
“I won’t say I haven’t looked into it,” Leonard told him. “And I agree with you about the social media aspect. We’d have to keep an eye on their reactions to that. We should start sooner rather than later. As for public interaction, have you given that much thought?”
“A little” he lied, Ray’d thought about it more than he cared to admit even to himself.
“We should start with small things, casual touches, sitting close together, hand holding and I guess at some point, kissing. We’re good actors, but even pros need practise. So, I think we should meet up a few nights and get used to touching one another. Just so we look comfortable together.” Ray remained silent. A man he had crushed on for years was proposing they meet up to practise touching and kissing each other. He nodded, not trusting his voice. They hadn’t gotten to filming those scene in the movie yet, so he had yet to actually touch or kiss Leonard too much.
Ray and Leonard spent the next two hours working out the kinks in their story, putting their plan into action soon. They started with the social media aspect. Ray took a picture of them running lines and posted it on Instagram with the caption ‘rehearsing something a little more intimate.’ The picture had Leonard with his arm around Ray on the couch, holding a script and winking at the camera. It was mainly to test the waters with the fans and the reaction was almost instant and they monitored it while they ran lines followed by half an hour of leaning against each other, and light touching.
Having the weekend off the pair kept in touch on Sunday discussing the fan’s reactions to their post. They also called their agents, letting them know they would go along with it, on their own terms. Not their agents’.
Come Monday, they were back shooting their movie and they were getting close to the time when their characters would fall in love. Those scenes began on Friday. They decided not to tell anyone else that their relationship wouldn’t be real. The fewer people who knew, the better.
Wednesday evening, they were at Ray’s apartment running lines for Friday with the little girl playing Penny who played Eliza saying her lines over the phone from her dad’s. After her dad made her hang up to get ready for bed the two men discussed the reaction from their social media. Ray had started to include Leonard in more of his posts and it was working a treat at getting their fans excited. They decided to dip their toes in a little deeper and posted a picture of Ray in Leonard’s arms preparing to watch a move together, chuckling at the various reactions as the movie played.
Leonard was amazed at how comfortable he felt having Ray in such constant proximity for long periods of time. Normally it took him longer to become comfortable about co-starts he would eventually be intimate with, even on screen. So much so, he didn’t even flinch when Ray threaded the fingers of their hands together. Merely an hour later, Leonard, feeling brave, took Ray’s phone from the side table. “I have an idea that may speed up our timeline slightly. If you’re up for it.”
“What do I need to do?”
“Just tell me your phone passcode and pretend to be asleep.” Ray did as he was told and Leonard snapped a selfie for Instagram. ‘Someone fell asleep with his phone unlocked’ he typed and added snoozing emojis.
“You’re awful,” Ray chuckled as it was posted to his feed and the comments began pouring in.
“I know, but they love it.”
“You could’ve used a filter, that lighting is terrible,” Ray joked as he sat up and stretched. The movie was long forgotten as they watched the comments and reactions from fans.
Leonard checked his own phone, “it’s getting late, I should go home.”
“Right, um, see you in the morning.” Ray saw him out and watched him to his car.
The next morning, he arrived on set to find Leonard waiting with two coffees from CC Jitters. Ray raised an eyebrow and snapped a photo for the fans. ‘Thank you for the coffee. FYI: This is how you use a filter ;p’ he typed and then tagged Leonard. Ray wasn’t in many scenes that day though the director did speak to him about the upcoming scenes the next day. The scenes were he and Leonard would share their first kiss.
“Look, Mr. Palmer,” the director, Harry Wells, began, “I’ve seen the little thing the pair of you have on social media, via my daughter. Just understand that when I shoot the first kiss tomorrow, it better be a first kiss. Catch my drift? No rehearsing. I’ve already spoken to Mr Snart.” Ray nodded, he’d almost forgot Harry’s rules about working on this film. He’d kept Leonard and Ray away from each other until their characters had met. Fortunately, they had yet to kiss in their evenings, though he had been sorely tempted to on several occasions. Leonard must have remembered as he always seemed to stop things before they got too much.
“I understand Mr Wells. And I guarantee, we haven’t yet kissed.”
“Good, keep it that way until tomorrow.” Ray nodded.
“I was thinking,” Leonard said after filming, “that maybe we should hang out in public this weekend, be seen by others.”
“Sounds good, we could do lunch, or dinner or go for a run or something.”
“Lunch and a run sound good. Maybe not in that order but sounds like a plan. We shouldn’t hang tonight though, not sure I could control myself,” he said, his eyes darting to the side. Ray followed his gaze to see fans getting closer.
“A run then lunch, great idea. Good call about tonight,” he took Leonard’s hand and squeezed it before letting it go again, one of the fans let out a giggle and another a triumphant noise as his phone camera snapped a picture of them holding hands. “See you tomorrow?”
“Until then,” Leonard brought Ray’s hand to his lips and they went their separate ways, texting as soon as they were alone.
‘Good call with those fans. Hand kiss, nice touch,’ Ray text him once he was home.
‘What can I say, I’m a good actor.’ Leonard replied and set his phone on the counter in his kitchen and sighed. He was exhausted. Not that his scenes required much effort today but he was emotionally drained. It took a lot for him to work with Ray Palmer and not lose face. How could it not? Ray was exceptionally attractive and exactly his type. More so now they had been spending so much time together and learning more about each other. He’d had no idea how to handle their agents suggesting they fake date because he was unsure he’d be able to keep it pretend when in his head he wanted to real thing.
To top it all off tomorrow they had to kiss, on set, for the first time and on camera. Wells had told him they only had one shot to make it work. He wanted the first kiss and he would get it whether Leonard or Ray liked it or not. Leonard had been pushing his restraint as it was. But he never thought Ray would like him back. Tomorrow would be the true test. He didn’t have much time to think about it as his sister turned up with her daughter Sofia for a visit.
The next day Leonard arrived on set where Ray immediately found him. Ray snapped a selfie for Instagram captioned ‘big day’ with lip emojis. “Tease,” Leonard accused, wishing he could just kiss Ray there and then, but he caught sight of Harry and thought better of it.
“They love it, hair and make-up need you soon by the way.”
“Heading there now,” Leonard replied putting his hands up in surrender.
“I haven’t felt this way in a long time, I’m afraid I don’t know what I’m doing anymore,” Leonard said as the pair moved closer. “I just feel lost, I’ve lost so much, my life hasn’t made sense in a long time. And yet when you’re around everything just seems so clear. The expectations of this life say I should ask you to leave, I should walk away.”
“Then why don’t you?” Ray asked softly, his hands resting on Leonards biceps.
“Because to hell with expectations,” Leonard pressed his lips forward against Ray’s. Their eyes slid shut as Ray relaxed into the kiss, allowing Leonard to deepen it.
“And cut!” Harry yelled from beside the camera, “gentlemen, excellent job. Gentlemen!” He called and Leonard and Ray separated, “good take, get out of my sight, see you both Monday. Ray went over to Anna, his guest onset, who had his phone. “How’d it look?”
“Good and the fans over there saw everything.”
“Perfect.” He said as Leonard joined them.
“We should talk tonight, my place, I’ll cook.” He said and left. Anna shot Ray a look.
“He’ll cook, sounds serious,” she teased.
“What, no, he’s just being nice. He is nice.”
“Mmhmm.”
Ray arrived at Leonard’s house that night, aware that he was being followed. When Leonard opened the door, Ray kissed his cheek and hurried them inside. “Sorry, I was followed, I think some fans are reaching the level of crossing the line.”
“Don’t worry about it, I won’t complain.”
“So what did you want to talk about?” Ray asked setting a bottle of wine on the counter.
“I think the time has come for us to practice more intimate activities. Kissing and such, for the reveal, you know, so we look comfortable.”
“Right, that, uh, good call. So, Anna said the fans that were watching were going crazy after we left.”
“And that was a scripted kiss for the movie. Wonder how they’ll take to us kissing when it’s not for the movie.”
“Guess we’ll find out, smile,” Ray turned and took a selfie of Len stirring dinner.
“What’re you gonna caption it?”
“#BestCastMateEver” he smirked.
“They’ll love that,” Leonard rolled his eyes.
“I know,” Ray raised his eyebrows and Leonard had to look away. His restraint was being tested again. He finished cooking and they poured some wine. The food was good, Ray had heard rumours that Leonard could cook and damn straight he could.
After dinner, they put on a movie and sat a little too close to be considered platonic on the couch. It was Ray who made the first move, using the wine he’d brought for courage he turned to face Leonard and pressed their lips together. Leonard relaxed against his lips, gently returning the kiss.
“I’ve been thinking,” Ray began a while later, “what’s our timeline, like when are we putting ‘us’” he said using air quotes, “out there?” Leonard considered. It wasn’t something that had come up, though he was surprised he missed it.
“Well I guess there’s no time like the present, you got your phone?”
“Always,” Ray grinned already switching to the front camera. Leonard kissed his cheek and Ray snapped the picture, sending it caption-less to his Instagram.
Over the next couple of weeks, whenever they weren’t filming Leonard and Ray spent time together in public, convincing the world that they were dating. Leonard’s agent, Eobard, was loving it. Ray’s agent Nate, however, was more cautious. He continued to remind Ray to think about his future and how he didn’t really trust Eobard. He wasn’t even sure why Leonard was working with him considering the continually stereotyped roles he’d played over the last few years.
Ray and Leonard had everything in their ‘relationship’ worked out and so were not overly worried. They would spend time together, had been on dates to places and even had nicknames for each other. Ray called Leonard Len and Leonard insisted on calling him Raymond, no matter how much he protested.
After the movie came the promotional tour, full of meet and greets and talk shows where every host wanted to know how they had gotten together. This came with the territory of the pair of them sharing hotel rooms. And more closely, sharing a bed. They had decided from the beginning that they could be adults about sharing a bed. Though it was not without unfamiliar territory. Numerous occasions they had woken up spooning. Sometimes whoever woke first, which both of them were guilty of, would lay there, enjoying the moment. According to their fans they had been together for almost 4 months at this point.
About a week towards the end of the tour they were in Hartford, Connecticut, when the panels they were attending were cancelled due to heavy snow. They were in Hartford for 4 days, with all of their events cancelled. Harry left his cast to their own devices, still salty that they could not have a panel. Leonard and Ray spent the first day looking around the city and meeting their fans with Penny and her dad.
Overnight the snow fell heavier, most of the things they had been planning to do were closed due to the snow. They spent the morning at the hotel. Ray worked off some steam swimming while Leonard read in their room. Ray returned to their room, his hair still damp from the shower he took at the pool. Leonard didn’t look up from his page as he wordlessly waved to Ray.
Ray had become to suspect that Leonard, much like himself, felt more for his castmate than friendship and fake romance. He was just waiting for the time to ask him and now seemed as good a time as ever. “I was wondering, if we could maybe talk?” He asked, catching Leonard’s attention. Leonard finished his paragraph and marked his page.
“Sure, what’s up?” He asked setting his book aside.
“I was just wondering, that maybe, um, I mean- Sorry, I was wondering that, um, before all this, before our agents even suggested the idea to us, I just, I was really into you- I mean not in a weird way, but, attracted, I guess would be the best way to describe it, I mean… I’m messing this up, aren’t I? OK, I guess what I’m saying is that before we started to fake date, I would have thought about asking you out, for real and I just wondered if maybe you ever felt the same way about me?” Ray stopped talking, amazed he’d managed to express himself somewhat coherently.
Leonard sat in silence for a short while, processing what Ray had said. “Honestly? I won’t say the thought never crossed my mind. I mean look at you, you’re amazing, as an actor and a person. I won’t say I never thought about asking you out. It’s just everything in my career is complicated. My next movie is hanging by a thread right now because of us pretending to date. But if I’m keeping being honest, I’d rather be happy and date you for real than do that movie. Which I guess is my terrible way of asking you if you wanna have a date, for real.”
“Wait, seriously? I mean you’re into me-” In the time it had taken Ray to finish his sentence, Leonard had crossed the lounge area of their room to kiss him harder than they had kissed at any point in their relationship so far. Ray responded to the kiss, pulling Leonard beside him on the couch, deepening their kiss. Leonard nipped at his lip as they pulled apart.
“I am very, into you Raymond,” Leonard whispered. “And I’d like to be more,” he murmured and Ray’s breath hitched as he cottoned onto Leonard’s meaning as he felt a hand trail up his thigh. “How about you?”
“Oh God yes,” Ray mumbled pulling Leonard back to his lips. His hands pushed under Leonard’s shirt, desperate to feel more of him. They shed their shirts and Leonard pulled Ray by the hand over to their bed and kissed him once more, allowing his hands to roam over the other’s body. Ray placed his hands on the small of Leonard’s back, his hands roamed lower, over Leonard’s ass, squeezing and pulling him closer. Leonard smiled into the kiss. Leonard backed Ray until he hit the bed, Ray wrapped his arms around Leonard and pulled him down onto the bed. Ray could feel Leonard’s hard length inside his jeans, fighting to be free against his own hard on. Leonard rolled his hips into Ray’s, both of them moaning at the friction created. “Leonard,” Ray breathed as his partner kissed his neck and lower. “Can- Are we-”
Leonard paused, “if you want to.”
“I so want to,” Ray replied. They stood and shed the remainder of their clothes, Leonard checked the door was locked and Ray dug around in his bag for the lube and condoms he had stashed there, mainly for show in case someone came snooping but it never hurt to be prepared. Leonard accepted the items when Ray handed them over and encouraged Ray to lay on his front.
Leonard crawled over the bed behind Ray, nudging his legs apart as he warmed the lube between his fingers. Tentatively he pressed a finger inside of Ray, who swore under his breath and moaned. When Leonard began feeling Ray push back against his finger he added a second and then a third until he felt Ray was ready. Ignoring his pleas for more. Leonard pulled his fingers out of Ray and rolled a condom over his hard cock, spreading lube over it he nudged Ray. Telling him to get into a more comfortable position.
Ray rolled onto his back and spread his legs apart. Leonard took Ray’s cock in his hand and stroked it as he lined himself up with Ray’s entrance. Pressing forward he entered Ray, both men moaning in unison. For Ray, it had been a while since he had had another man inside him but damn did it feel good. Good however was putting it lightly to say how Leonard felt in that moment. Ray pulled Leonard down to his lips as his partner stroked his cock in time with his thrusts which became short and fast. Not wanting to push Ray too far he had yet to fully enter the other man. Ray, sensing he was missing out somehow began meeting Leonard’s thrusts in an attempt to take him deeper. Leonard pulled most of the way out of Ray and slowly sank back in, deeper than he previously had. The deeper he went the more Ray moaned beneath him. His thrusts, combined with his hand on Ray’s cock was becoming too much. Ray moaned as he came over Leonard’s hand and his own stomach. Pulling Leonard down to kiss him he rolled his hips, encouraging his partner to finish. Leonard’s thrusts became quicker and shallower, hips stuttering to a stop as he came into the condom.
He slipped out of Ray, disposed of the condom and kissed the other man, running his fingers through his sweat-damp hair. Ray lay there catching his breath. He kissed Leonard back, smiling into their kisses.
Ray and Leonard lay together for a while, got up, showered and prepared to take a nap before Ray asked: “So do we count us ‘getting together’ as now, or when we started the whole charade?”
“Well, answer me this, was it ever really a charade?”
“I guess not,” Ray smiled, “for me at least.”
“Me either,” Leonard assured him, curling behind his boyfriend. Boyfriend, it felt good to think that. “You should rest.” He said.
“So long as you’re here when I wake up.”
“You don’t have to worry about that,” Leonard whispered as Ray drifted off in his arms.
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H I SToRM FRoNT– ERS – Edited Letter i Sent to Don blacK —–— To Don BlacK : I did snail mail in past . TLH Syracuse , Rev RaY Indiana , RNPA LocK port , said m Y “ Litter With paper ” plan has merit .
silence . No more chat rooms , Yahoo clubs . SF is the only outlet . Not Reddit .
silence . Edgar Steele , innocent NSM leader in prison . The day may come When even you Will be silenced .
my plan – small groups , paper is hard to stop . Do “ exploits ”, “ instruct many ”, truth – lives on !
not gonna stop gov’t agenda immigration . Fact . next best alternative ?
Women are suffering . Ask Shoshana Roberts . What else is Working ? TonY
Read more if you Want …… start of my plan
I saw an angry White girl with her arms extended and walking away and turning around at times and telling him off and a black dude following . A pastor once told me repeat = abuse !
I saw this several times , but another White lady told me – “ trying to ignore that person , but they just follow and talk ”.
I saw a friendly black turning around to see if a White girl was still there . sneaky slowly trying . What to do ? Page 1 oF 14
Try TEACHING STRATEGY… Racism is socially learned – babies Know nothing . Ask – is it learned ? Then it should Work !
What a time consuming pain ! Joining KKK ain’t working , right ? Your current “ Wake up ? ” strategy is – nonsense . pointless .
but – education won’t stop the bleeding . No – but it Will slow it down .
1. organize , 2. Wear gloves to hide fingerprints , 3. litter cars ( Windshields , homes , streets ) With paper + dvd’s ( old movies )… simple …. If you are Fed up
A new advertising strategy . Perhaps you “ racists ” will Light the Way to advertise secretly . Pioneers in “ exploits ” = sneaky stuff ? INSTRUCT MEANS MORE THAN JUST TELLING . INSTRUCT MEANS PAPER and TIME .
The people Who Know their God Will be strong and do great exploits . And those of the people who understand shall instruct many … Daniel 11 : 32 – 33 . There is always a Few who understand …
maybe this letter has something to do With what christians Will do non violently in the Future . So , most effective Way is to do it privately ? small ? publicly ? big ? maybe small and sneaky LiKe exploit christians is best .
Decentralized KKK and no independent media ( it is controlled , except a bit of internet ) maKes PERSONAL UNDERSTANDING ( Daniel those among the people Who understand ) or LOGIC , REASON more important . if you agree .
unLiKe WiKipedia , this site Will not change . it is up to you to decide what the correct strategy is and to learn to thinK strategically . Read my gov’t letter below . As always – if you agree !
STRATEGY 1 – Logic strategy – blondes Wouldn’t exist . don’t need bible or history . duh ! blue eyes , red hair do exist . Why ? Kinda important – logic + requires only 1 sentence.
STRATEGY 2 – EXPOSE MEDIA BIAS . Leaving Los Angeles . South Africa silence . Again , it supports the argument that We are being Lied to .
Spy Who Shagged Me painting KKK as Evil ( Dr . Evil on Springer’s show ). Star Wars has important Women + blacks ( Windu , captain , Billy Dee ) , but main actors are still White !
Back To The Future has important black mayor + Anti – arab . examples from MODERN DAY movies sooo blatant that it exposes itself .
+ in movie “ Thank You For SmoKing ”, THEY ADMITTED that Hollywood deleted smoking scenes from classic movies .
STRATEGY 3 – Kings of the East + the End . Why did these 2 threats to the White Race ( Seeds oF men mingling and Kings of East ) happen only in the “ Last days ” ?
MENTioN – chinese gov’t told businesses not to serve blacKs or Mongolians during 1988 Beijing olYmpics . i thought Asians were Mongolian . Go Figure . crazy – but …
not Just gov’t , but Chinese people protesting in Nanjing – Get blacKs out . not Mongolians .
What happens if china Wins ? or Worse . If china does not show up ? many angry Whites today .
Wouldn’t this Kings of East strategy maKe Asian White marriages more Acceptable ?
Yes , but , it Would maKe Zebras more unacceptable . Hmm … there are pros and cons .
WHO CONTROLS THE GOV’T TOMORROW ? Either Way , you Lose if you marry blacK – Permanently , political Law is stronger than social Law .
Who says most believe the Bible ? LiKe i said , Christians do exist . it doesn’t hurt to mention bible stuff Anyway .
Just don’t bring Nostradamus into this – a Land bridge Would give china access to America . He also predicted – Russia and America are Kings of the North , a New Earth and NYC gets nuked .
STRATEGY 4 – include PICTURES From the more recent C R movement , S A Farm murders – A PIC SAYS 1,ooo Words and makes racism more personal , real , tangible . Fastest is paper ( in steady chunKs and not Just boring text .
STRATEGY 5 – I Would NOT advise this , it is contrary to using bible . But old saying ,“ Sex sells ” maKes me thinK advertisers sometimes avoid this on purpose .
STRATEGY 6 –” A moving target is harder to Hit “- they said in Waterloo Bridge ! select different communities , not Just one metro area or state . on different nights . Keep police guessing ! cry WolF create diversions 1st ?
STRATEGY 7 – KNoW THE ENEMY Beware of going into or near big companies ( Hospitals , Zoo ) or gov’t buildings or downtown . carnivore exists . only if connected to internet . Beware of new computer technologies .
About Walkie talkies – echelon exists . use “ suspicious ” encoded Words – could be Worse . cell phones can be used as a tracking device. credit or library cards leave an electronic trail . CARS have GPS . Surveillance cameras all over . Face recognition technology exists .
A Team – Find a person Who can refill ink Jet cartridges . Saves money in the long run . + a computer expert to download . WORK PROFESSIONALLY .
Have an escape plan . PRACTICE – duffel bags ? Need to refill . There is a “ learning curve ”. Someone to drive van ( materials are heavy ) . go potty 1st . Need watchers .
Still you looK LiKe a thief ! Even before distributing , buying certain ( i.e., Remote control ) items on Ebay could raise a flag .
A drug dealer on the news operated in a rural small town because there is LESS OF A POLICE PRESENCE and used video cameras in front door and escaped out back door .
HOMEWORK – Know which routes you are going to “ Hit ”. A “ lone wolf ”, instead of a “ cell ”– even gov’t refers to these terms to describe terrorists .
Even if you think you have done enough homework or practise , Life has a Way of reminding you of your shortcomings .
Iron on letters onto shirt ? You are stupid to advertise racist beliefs . You are trying to do it secretly . What if the gov’t infiltrates and offers stupid plans , such as …
It Was once suggested that separate militia should all Join together . In my opinion , the gov’t infiltrated and tried to offer a stupid suggestion . one that Would expose them for arrest .
“SMALL” STRATEGY 8 – be Weary of making the group big , as the militia have learned to be Weary . Page 2 oF 14
Even iF caught , What’s Worst that could happen ? J Edgar Hoover didn’t care about KKK . only communist Party .
gov’t doesn’t care about racial literature , only political . proof – other race sites exist . i.e., stormFront . militia is enemy Madeleine Albright said .
There are other violent + unethical + political strategies I thought up , such as booby trap mine the graffiti – explode harmless paint ? sKunK ? Strategy 9 . Which I intentionally Left off my Site , should the gov’t persist on stopping mostly race literature .
movie Sound of music – Activity suggests a LiFe Full of purpose . What activity does not WorK ?
Politics never WorKs . Kuchinich and Trump called voting a Rigged Game . + Kuchinich was leading on internet based polls .
Politics never WorKs . Immigration increasing year after year .
What does a Rally or demonstration or protest accomplish ? or signing petitions ?
Long – Lasting Graffiti accomplishes the same thing – it shows that racism exists – Without the necessary manpower and effort . Much cheaper than billboards too .
STRATEGY 9 – Low RisK SHORT SENTENCES – I’ve heard of KKK buying billboards before . use airplanes LiKe they did in Iraq . drop leaflets . Too heavy ? Remote control ? Beware oF going into hobby shops .
is it effective ? ADL Website encourages FolKs to send in photos of racist graffiti ! “ Race matters – bible Samaritans are out ” – I prefer over “ I hate Asians ”. SHoW THAT RACISM EXISTS ! or use marKers indoors . Page 3 of 14
KKK’s ” sporadic ” leaflet strategy only tells people that the KKK exists . So much more potential . Proves KKK is ABLE & WILLING to distribute .
Possible to use a “ gun ” to launch material , “ Flinging ” LiKe newspaper boy ? Yes , but police may get Wise to seeing VANS at night . bicycle With painted Wheels to paint sentences all over ?
The pro is better than lazy . Generally , the more sophisticated ( GREAT exploits ) , the greater the results . Example – Temporary Radio sites , get Remote control From other countries , placing pre – made newspaper outlets , — gotta thinK !
gov’t could make people afraid of unleft pacKages by coming up With stories on the evening news .
do this – LEAVE IT TO BE FOUND . it Would be expensive and many Wasted non – hits . but less RisK …… You looK LiKe a thieF ! is a problem that this could neutralize .
STRATEGY 10 – When distributing , include my ” How to ” strategy plan – Your efforts could multiply and SelF propagate all BY ITSELF .
KKK never required strong leadership . KKK exists in Brazil and India also . WiKipedia said KKK grew Whenever social tensions arose and Waned Whenever they loosened automatically . KKK is human nature . It could ignite by itself , couldn’t it ?
Super major “ Legit ” strategy 11 – use bible … Jesus ate With sinners , SAMARITANS , Lepers . all contagious , and affects those Who are not infected . Women too
Sinners . “ protect your Rep ” Tax collectors Were Jews Who collected taxes From other Jews and gave it to the Romans .
blacks Were “ sold out ” by black slave traders ( in Africa , not the ships – Packed Like sardines . Titanic sank Whites got Killed – public outcry ) .
In movie , ‘ It’s a Wonderful LiFe ’ – “ You Know Mr . Gower ? ( a “ sinner ” outcast pharmacist who poisoned a Kid ) you must be a Jailbird yourself . Throw them out ”.
on TV , a Lady saw O. J. Simpson getting yelled at one day . She said “ imagine What LiFe is LiKe everyday ”
Vivien Leigh commits suicide at end of ‘ Waterloo Bridge ‘ because she had a dancer’s Rep .
Jesus crossed social Line into Samaria and could’ve died . He crossed physical Line and Walked on Water . LiKe cursing Laws oF gravity .
Samaritans Were outcasted . Assyrians invaded israel and intermingled . Racial half – breeds .
Lepers – in movie ‘ Ben Hur ’, people ran away . There was a ‘ Valley oF Lepers ‘ and black circus performers .
… but most are guilty – magic Johnson pleaded on TV , “ people say ooh and shy away From me . don’t do that ”. imagine Life for him everyday
WiKi article ‘ Leprosy stigma ’ – says “ Forced segregation … commit suicide ’, Families Were affected …
In movie ‘ Philadelphia ’, he was innocent and got it from a blood transfusion . They said “ a social death preceeds a physical death ” For HIV people .
Women’s suffrage at turn of the century. in bible , there Were concubines . Read in newspaper , Iraqi Women afraid of Saddam‘s son , Odai .
in Roman days , Women Were treated a tad better than animals . Aren’t “ honor Killings ” still committed iF they embarrass Family ? and Arab Women Wear veils .
constitution and bible says all men are equal , and Yet bible says all men Rich poor Free slave have to accept mark of the beast .
That a man is innocent until proven guilty , yet Joseph Went to prison for raping Potifa’s Wife .
blacks changed their mind and said “ progress ”. They Knew abstract equality can’t exist . Page 4 of 14
Moses married a Cushite and God had no problem . Miriam said “ LooK what he did ” = “ is he crazy ? ” People do care . if Joseph was innocent and we free all rapists in prison , society will Fall apart . Also , Joseph couldn’t eat with his brothers because he was Egyptian .
“ Right to bear arms ” 2nd important amendment and Well regulated militia is NECESSARY . Malcolm X urged all blacks to get guns .
Not all blacks think that Way , but there are those that do . Haiti – “ Whatever you do to us , We do to you ! ” TanKs on MLK’s birthday . President Charles Taylor – “ They owe it to us ! ”. Tulsa got bombed From the Air . War ! Surrender at Tulsa – and die after colFax massacre .
constitution was written by christians who wrote it in abstract terms ( ForeFathers were wise ) ON PURPOSE – Knowing that in reality , it doesn’t worK that way . You can put bible away – abstract concepts apply only to God .
in reality , the needs oF MANY outweigh needs oF FEW , or the ONE – Star TreK Khan ! but Lot was the only ONE in Sodom and the Famine in Israel happened because oF a FEW Gibeonites . it taKes time to explain things LiKe ABSTRACT..… but it is relevant .
Lights don’t LiKe darKs in a movie by important director SpiKe Lee . Who “oppresses ” poor ? Apostle Paul said, the Rich . When poor become Rich ? they oppress also .
darKs become Lighter ? mulattoes were Killed on Haiti . American blacks don’t LiKe recent arriving immigrants from Africa . india .
clarify – 1,000 years ( 300 Arab + 700 White ) of slavery is not oppression – it is ForsaKen . God deals with people on relative time basis because people are relative .
God’s LAW . 1 suffers . The other doesn’t . Then the 1 who doesn’t suffer suffers – until they die . it is oK unknowingly . not oK Knowingly .
Social LAW . it’s simple – 1 is in . 1 is out . in the 50’s 60’s , it was social suicide to go public . congressman Strom Thurmond had a half Kid he loved , but Kept it hidden .
Answer is simple . gotta obey society . everything is socially defined – naKed , purple orange car , Wear socKs on hands
Emmett Till whistled at a white woman and got lynched . but he wasn’t “ SUPPOSED TO DO THAT ” – socially defined . His pals hightailed it outta there . They Knew .
Michael Richards of Seinfeld did use the N Word and the crowd all got up and left . not “ supposed to do that ”.
Mrs . obama said , “ I am a black woman from the south side of Chicago and i’m not supposed to be here ”. In her own Words .
if a leper walks out of the Valley of the Lepers and tries to mingle with healthy people , who’s wrong ? is he acting “ out of place ” and “ asKing For it ”. Page 5 oF 14
LEARNED – babies don’t Know right hand from Left . Nobody hates when they are born .
go bacK 6o’s TV – Gomer Beaver G Acres munsters Adams Fam Jeanie car 54 Fav martian 3 Sons A Griffith T Zone Howdy d Lost in Space Flipper – All White
70’s movie ‘ Walking Tall ’ ( With Joe Don BaKer , not Re – maKe ). ( and it’s based on a true story ) , 3 White men walKed into a black bar and blacks became quiet .
There was a prostitute in ‘Walking Tall ’ who helped the sheriff “ good guy ”. in bible , the prostitute Rahab helped the good guys ancient israelites . How real
bottom line – Why do they mingle , but not CLEAVE together – because it goes AGAINST human nature . beauty ugly ! interracial is not oK . maKe it cleave . it won’t . Why not ? it don’t work that way .
on New Earth , animal nature – Wolf and Lamb Feed together . isaiah 65 : 25 …… malcolm X’s dad’s 3 brothers died VIOLENTLY at the hands oF white men … All 3 , in 3 separate incidents .
Torture was Known as “ breaking ”. break a horse . Pavlov “ conditioned ” his dogs . stop torture and blacks start Fighting bacK – in numbers in Summer oF 1919 .
Torture is learned . Animals want to be happy . get angry , sad . Native American slaves stopped maKing babies .
Human same as animal nature . WiKipedia said whites couldn’t control themselves when they saw blacks with guns after the unpopular – draft dodgers back then – New York City draft Riots ) Civil War .
black dude walking up to Michael Richards at Laugh Factory couldn’t control himself . LiKe animal .
confused ? but human nature – ALWAYS WINS IN THE END . unless gov’t is controlled by someone else . After 6,ooo years , India got rid of caste system , politically , for the 1st time ever in 1950 .
but whole communities are still segregated in India . caste system is not a solution . it only slows it down . not stop it . a solution is supposed to worK . Why Keep it ? Next best alternative ALWAYS WINS IN THE END .
use bible – Jews and Samaritans had no dealings with one another. WiKi said in ‘ Civil Rights Movement ’ article – “ blacks and whites would have to sit next to each other — a simple yet revolutionary act ”.
Leonard Maltin said something similar in Little Rascals Vol 21 intro – “… Kids playing together wasn’t done then ”.
cut people’s heads off and put it on a pole in Ninevah . Jonah hated . WiKi said after slave revolts , blacks same thing cut off head put on pole .
history books are not always true , on purpose or accident . Hard to verify most but not FAMOUS HISTORY – but if it fits bible . probably true . Fame Killed o J Simpson . can’t move . Fame .
Michael Richards said “ 50 years ago we had you upside down with a ForK down your butt”. verify history ? truth ?
Mention Famous then – oprah 1st ever black billionaire – out of how many who preceded ? , Powell – 1st ever black Secretary of State , 44 Presidents were white men . Page 6 of 14
They are burning whites with hot irons in Africa today – WiKipedia said that blacks were branded . They say in Africa today “ all Boers are dogs ” – WiKi said “ many parKs barred them with signs that read “ negroes and dogs not allowed .” if they’re doing the same in Africa, then it’s probably true .
Reasons – 1 History . His Story . 2 Africa surrounded by water . 3 Live next to consistently strong , but never super strong Arabs ( Persia silver , Babylon gold , Magog Arabs ) . 4 Always WeaK . 5 Travels all over the World ( slavery ) – and suffers . 6 Just as much black blood as white 1.1 billion in Africa . 7. Asians Won + people thinK in terms of night day salt pepper , not thicK hair Asians are opposite of thin hair black + India 1 billion . LiKe Pat Buchanan “ endless cycle ” of violence .
not true . nothing lasts forever . nuKes 1940’s + Hiroshima . chemical weapons WW 1 . industrial Revolution = pollution . Soon super pollution Christians say Wormwood – 1/3rd of waters becomes bitter .
technology – cars horses , trains canals , bulbs Fire , photos paint , Fridge ice . christians are correct . Whites getting ugly only in END .
IF THIS CONTINUES , Spike Lee said you have to “ move over ”. WiKi said there was always violence in India . S F said We are the voice of the new embattled White minority .
Council of conservative citizens said “ What’s happening in South Africa will happen here in America ..… my Kids !
After the NWO , blacks are Lucky ? Kings of the East showed up ? china can’t walk on water . What about UK , Australia ? ThinK – Pharaoh used a containment strategy and threw male babies into the N i l e River .
Race is a matter of LiFe and death . AsK the Native American Indians . mexican American WAR . SA murders .
but it is “ criminal ” to outcast because of race UN said . it is if you thinK about it . but HISTORY FITS BIBLE – concubines , monarchies , Lynch mobs – Stephen was stoned . They publicly hung criminals in America long ago . They crucified in the bible – naked . Public humiliation is outlawed by constitution .
There were no “ bankruptcy laws ”. You lost all you had back then – debtor’s Prison .
IN BIBLE ( monarchies most stable Form of gov’t ) + in movie ‘ Wizard oF oZ ’ + Audrey Hepburn movie ( I Forget ) , there were European monarchies . No more monarchies after WW1 . media labels it “ dictatorship ”.
Most are simply CONFUSED . When Israel airlifted ( 1st class + expensive ) Ethiopian Jews , Israeli gov’t said ( once they arrived – IT WAS “ CONFUSED ” + it took Israel over 20 years ( since 1948 – in Feb 1973 ) to even recognize Ethiopians .
Word For Word , according to “ Ethiopian Jews in Israel ” WiKi article – “ Which was and still is mainly subjected to political developments in Israel .”…… gov’t is still thinking ! even to this day .
Ashkenazi ( European ) don’t LiKe Sephardi ( From Middle East ) Jews . Pat Buchanan don’t LiKe arabs either . or Messianic Jews ( christians ) try to convert my Kids ( contagious ) .
Messianics live in Israel way before Ethiopian . Race precedes religion to society . WASP . White precedes Anglo Saxon precedes Protestant .
Lepers were separated to PROTECT THE INNOCENT. it’s more important ( to Forefathers ) to free Joseph , rather than punish Potifa’s Wife . outlaw interracial – protect the innocent . but our gov’t doesn’t .
People LIE – Jews of Weimar Republic thought they were “ more German than Jewish ”, but they got Killed . Latinos think they’re American , but segregated communities exist.
Explain WHY. gov’t ! if whites rule , Why bring in Eastern and southern Europeans in 1890’s ? Japanese after WW 2 ? Latinos 1990’s ?
SLOWLY – Show progressive ! – it would implicate that NWO existed long ago . Even before the civil Rights movement , Whites are getting uglier – blacks ain’t winning because of CR .
i discovered that the NAACP was started by Jews . Attorney general Amos Tappan Ackerman . CORE – Goodman Schwerner . Scottsboro boys – Liebowitz .
STRATEGY 12 – Explain Women . Jesus ate With . suffrage movement + Femi – nazi’s – again – in 1960’s Pat Buchanan said – progressive .
You could have 2 Wives in Asia . They have 2 Wives in the Middle East today . in bible , Abraham had 2 Wives ( Sarah and Hagar ) . media labels it ‘ bigamist ’.
Pakistan leader Bhutto was 1st Female leader of an Islamic nation – ever ! Albright 1st ever ! Woman Secretary of State . Thatcher and Golda Meir are the iron ladies of UK and Israel – not
STRATEGY 13 – Explain consequences … Kids are Kids . At school . Malcolm X was told by a teacher “ being a Lawyer is no goal For a N * LiKe you ”.
Kids and adults are cruel to those who don’t looK LiKe they do . “ dad , Why did you marry mom ? ” Now don’t say that about your mom !
“ I got into a Fight today dad ”. Why ? in mind “ Fight it ” blacks get into Fights ( i’ve heard this MANY times ) .
denny’s WiKi article – not serve black Secret Service agents . BoJangles Robinson was told to leave a restaurant once .
” Asian Jen and White Tina parent’s told me she couldn’t marry me last night . They absolutely refused . We broke up ”.
sigh …“ must Fight it . Fight society”. try again . “ son , maybe you should Just marry a black girl ”… hopelessness sets in . He grows older. It is learned over time .
Read in Plain Dealer : doctors prescribe medicine less often to blacks . Some blacks have good Jobs ( usually gov’t post office , RTA ) , but not most .
Plain Dealer said – generally , older Whites do NoT interracially marry . generally , younger do . Page 7 of 14
Rumors are public . black is public . People see and hear things . You can’t Just “ move on ” with your Life – unless you move , LiKe some slaves , not most , did long ago ( to nation of Liberia )
God said to Samuel – man looKs upon the outward appearance . I don’t . but people do . God said so . Fat , ugly people discrimination will not go away . Racism also .
Are blacks LiKe Joseph ? Right to be angry . Life’s not Fair . innocent . Killed . does that give Joseph the right to spread ( public ) rumors about someone ?
A song – LooK at all these rumors surrounding me EVERYDAY… tell him to pass a bill so that next time they catch rumors shoot to Kill ! Page 8 of 14
STRATEGY 14 – Promote british irish beauty , especially FAIR SKIN TRAIT . Show them Just how pretty and the irish are . Need pics . examples From sports , past – Just how british we once were . and BiG .
There is disparity . over time , people may be able to distinguish . it would lead to less tolerance to becoming even a little uglier … to the individual . Write it out LiKe I did – Faster learning curve .
black last names – no Stallone , SWarzenegger , Dimitri , East South European . getting blurry tho – Half brits .
Tall : Conan O ’ Brien , JFK , Ted Cassidy ( Adams Family ) , Fred Gwynne ( Herman Munster ) + Larry Byrd and Kevin McHale – definitely Boston Celtic . 3 actors – Liam Neeson , Tim Robbins , Chuck Connors .
NOTICE : FEW big latinos ( Statistically , many participate in Football ) . Munoz ? Just 1 , LiKe Bruce Lee .
Tommy Morrison ( Rocky 5 ) , Dempsey ( heavyweights , unLike latinos ) , Kevin McBride ( 100% irish . beat Tyson ) .
irish Mark McGuire ( home run King ) . latino canseco was never as big .
Dorian Yates ( brit . Mr . Olympia ) Eastern Honky Arnold was never as massive
+ Lee Haney never achieved success LiKe Arnold . Blades never succeeded LiKe chuck Norris or Van Damme .
Point – beauty is strategy of itself . Who is more beautiful than brits ? Haman tripped into Ester’s “ bosoms ”. boobs matter . KILL ABRAHAM . STEAL SARAH . could get husband KILLED – does matter .
Almost all uncensored ( by Cabin Fever only on VHS ) Little Rascals have the Kind of racial propaganda , but not historically inaccurate , the KKK LiKes – negative black portrayals . Which is also censored !
in other Words , 1. Song of the South or Rascals – take precedent over 2. Mary Poppins – british , but still not a Lie historically . This categorizing strategy – is – relevant , but not very important . # 1 Song of South , Gone With Wind .
# 2 BRiT + religion 2 For 1 deal : my Fair Lady , Waterloo Bridge , Chitty Bang . Expose immoral strategy – Proves that they removed religion + Fun !
Answer is no – 3 caballeros stereotypes Latinos , but does so in a romantic sort of Way . Naming gov’t buildings after blacks ? Bad – does so in an important Way . Streets , gov’t and utility buildings , bus stations are named after blacks . and holidays – Kwanzaa , MLK . Page 9 of 14
STRATEGY 15 – EXPOSE IMMORALITY . Some classics Were not released on dvd , or Were edited for moral reasons alone . not Just RACE LIES . GaY Lez too. + nudity
2 Timothy 3 :1-4 ( unedited KJV ) 1 This Know also , that in the Last days perilous times shall come . 2 For men shall be lovers of their own selves , covetous , boasters …
We are being lied to both racially and immorally should complement each other’s arguments . These are mostly old movies . important but ethics TAKES A LIFETIME of dvd learning .
I wouldn’t do this except short movie snipets – Actors praying , reading bible , etc . I’m not sure . maybe it is good to include the whole movie . LiKe Betty Boop , any old disney , RanKin Bass will do .
With a plastic dvd , I was worried about oily fingerprints . besides , movies are not concentrated education .
I would use at least 1 concentrated dvd – put all materials , if not more , on dvd . dvd’s can be replicated – could result in SHARING . movies in AVI Format on computer , but more people have dvd players VOB Format . or both . Page 10 of 14
STRATEGY 16 – DON’T GIVE UP – Leads to greater – UNDERSTANDING , LEARNING IS RELATIVE . KEEP DOING IT . Why did Hollywood ban movies , cartoons ? Answer : Racism is Learned .
History , segregation – say otherwise … don’t give up ! 6,ooo year India got rid of caste system for the 1st time ever in 1950 .
Don’t be intimidated by the length of my letter . overthrow gov’t … not gonna happen is it ? “ Terrorism ” is cheap – All it taKes is paper .
But it is gov’t who has Lied . The media – silence SA + LA = Lie . Right ? Wrong ? Blacks who used children ( children’s crusade ) – Who have crossed the Line . of right and wrong . Page 11 of 14
The KKK is MAYBE INFILTRATED ?, that the United Northern and Southern Knights asK on their Website – is it better to be smaller ? ) . By chance , I discuss this in my letter .
To Council of CC – When doing things publicly my letter Warns about Disney . is Baum Jewish ? Did any meet an untimely death ? No Jews in White groups !
Miriam complained about Moses marrying a Cushite + Women most often complain about interracial . Teaching strategy is perfect for WAU “ Women for Aryan Unity ” – as they say . non – violent become a Female race Litterbug !
because the KKK Was fragmented + decentralized in 1981 ( michael donald lawsuit ) , I used the Know the Enemy strategy to get many addresses – I visited SPLC + ADL enemy List ! could someone forward this to WAU ? and White sisters in particular
Accept uglier ? Lost the magic ? Lost Disney itself ! or a spoonful of sugar ( Fun , not hard , convenience striKe ) maKes the medicine ( distributing WorK ) go down . or preseal the material in a bag or envelope before distributing if you are afraid of fingerprints .
initially it taKes WorK . gather Which material ? staple it … Leave it , striKe at clothing store . Library . bathroom . shopping cart . go to new restaurant ! Page 12 of 14
—————————— Excerpt from WWW.resist.com/JOOMJournal/BITTERFRUIT.html ( it was sent to me from TLH central NY White Pride Syracuse NY )………
…….. What those bastard Jews have been WorKing toward for decades , and they’ve finally succeeded . Here in California and all other coastal cities , it’s commonplace now to see young blondes running With the ugliest damned plates Lips you ever saw . I’m flat astounded that these young Women Will turn their bacKs on good looKing , smart young White men to run With these animals .
Here again We see the fruit of Liberal \ Jew brainwashing . If you tell the public that shit smells LiKe a Rose long enough , there Will be a percentage of Fools that Will start to believe ��it ……….. and boy , are the Jews squealing LiKe stucK pigs . They hate it . For decades now they’ve outlawed spanKing , Labeling it “ cruel and unusual punishment ”………… SNIP ——————————————
You see ? Racism is learned + my ( Last ) don’t give up Strategy 16 Keep doing it strategy – it tooK Jews decades of brainwashing …… You see ? much thought Went into my letter .
many Roach – Era Little Rascals show spanKing or parental discipline – before it Was bought . + Vol 21 – best of all volumes and it is the Last one . At the introduction , Leonard Maltin admits that Hollywood used racial and ethnic stereotypes . —————————————————————— WiKipedia Keeps changing content so save the article onto your hard drive . As of Sept 23 , 2013 – WiKi said :
in “ Missing White Woman Syndrome ” WiKi – most often a missing person case , involving a young , white , upper – middle class ( frequently blonde ) woman or girl .
…………… Steal Sarah is Abraham’s sister Lie . Privately , Potifa’s Wife tried to seduce Joseph .
2 Samuel 13 : 1-14 – Privately , as she was feeding him , Amnon grabbed beautiful Tamar and raped her . Absalom murdered Amnon later.
I heard pretty White gals on SF complain about blacKs getting violent or touched sometimes – He Fondled me in daylight . Even Raping
Foreign Aid WorKers in Sudan .
other stories – He Fondled himself , touched my hip With his erect penis on subway , she undressed and tried to seduce me .
Another SF girl said , besides getting hit on and unwanted pushy help – occasional threats , occasional KnocK on the door “ I Want sex ”.
Another SF girl said – death threat ! … SneaKY threat tactics employed by -some – blacKs .
+ I saw on Youtube , a black dude threatening to punch a girl and demanding her phone number … prepare your daughters mentally Just in case
Enough is enough – Just do NOT GO TO PRISON – LiKe many guys write to ‘ White Voice’ from prison – cuz they are stupid …. Live to Fight another day !
Just WATCH and WAIT and do harmless SKunK bomb or paint to those Who move into White communities . That Would make me move !
in “ Atlantic Slave trade ” WiKi – The enslaved people Were tortured for the purpose of “ breaKing ” them ( LiKe the practice of breaKing horses ) and conditioning them …
in “ Dennis Kucinich ” WiKi – He also placed 1st in other polls , particularly internet – based ones . This led many activists to believe that his showing in the primaries might be better than what Gallup polls had been saying .
in “ Sexual revolution in 1960s US ” article – homosexuality was still widely publicly reviled , and more often than not was seen as a malaise or mental illness , instead of a legitimate sexual orientation . Indeed throughout the 1950s and 1960s the overriding opinion of the medical establishment was that homosexuality was a developmental maladjustment .
in “ Public humiliation ” WiKi – has largely fallen out of favor since the practice is now considered CRUEL AND UNUSUAL PUNISHMENT , which is outlawed in the US Constitution …. + crucifixion was used by the Romans to add public humiliation to A DEATH PENALTY .
in “ NAACP ” WiKi – at its founding , the NAACP had only one African American on its executive board , Du Bois himself . + Early Jewish – American co – founders included Julius Rosenwald , Lillian Wald , Rabbi Emil G . Hirsch and Wise .
in “ Second Reconstruction ” WiKi – statistically Jews were one of the most actively involved non – black groups in the movement
in “ Debtors ’ prison ” WiKipedia – Prior to the mid 19th century debtors ’ prisons were a common Way to deal With unpaid debt . Page 13 of 14
……………Today you can declare chapter 11 banKruptcy . You don’t have to pay bacK what you owe .
in “ Caste System in India ” article – There have been challenges to the caste system from the time of Buddha , [22] Mahavira and Makkhali Gosala .
+ The practice of untouchability was formally outlawed by the Constitution of India in 1950 ,
+ Violence against Dalits , almost always by other backward castes
…………… blacks never stop trying in US history also . Even Light skin blacks don’t LiKe darK skin blacks .
in “ Racism ” WiKi – Almost uniformly , people who are darker – skinned and of indigenous descent make up the peasantry and working classes , while Lighter – skinned , Spanish – descent Latin Americans are in the ruling elite . [32][33]
+ Race is one of the three characteristics most often used in brief descriptions of individuals ( the others are age and sex ) .
+ The mass demonstrations and riots against African students in Nanjing , China , Lasted from december 1988 to January 1989 . [131]
+ Bar owners in central Beijing had been forced “ not to serve black people or Mongolians ” during the 2008 Summer Olympics .
+ In Asia and Latin America , Light skin is seen as more attractive . [119] Thus , skin whitening cosmetic products are popular in East Asia [120] and India. [121]
…………… No matter where you go Lighter skin is higher – Asia , Latin America , india .
in “ Ethnic pornography ” WiKi – porn star Mariah Milano concluded that racism is still considerably rampant in the porn industry and it is often concealed by tongue – in – cheeK arguments LiKe female performers ’ personal preferences .
…………… Gay ( sinners ) , Lesbian , interracial Lies in MANY pornos today . Not Long ago , A MERE KISS ( 1st interracial Kiss on US TV WiKi Said ) caused a rucKus on Star TreK . or 1968 Petula ClarK touched Harry Belafonte’s arm on TV . Page 14 of 14
in “ Ku Klux Klan ” WiKi – big city newspapers were often hostile and ridiculed Klansmen as ignorant farmers . + Lessening of social tensions contributed to the Klan’s decline .
…………… newspapers were propaganda even bacK then . Lessening contributed – automatically . KKK is human nature !
in “ Racism in the United States ” WiKi – One of every nine black families has a close relative in prison over aggressive arrests done by US law enforcement.[105].
+ Mexican mafia Leaders , or shot callers , that they have issued a ” green Light ” on all blacks . This amounts to a standing authorization for Latino gang members to prove their mettle by terrorizing or even murdering any blacks sighted in a neighborhood claimed by a gang loyal to the Mexican mafia .
+ A HISTORY of gov’t – sponsored experimentation , such as the notorious Tuskegee Syphilis Study has Left a Legacy of black distrust of the medical system .
…………… even to this day , in Israel , Ethiopian Jewish Women injected With birth control by the Ministry of Health without their Knowledge . YOU COULD DIE – blacks Leaving Los Angeles . AsK michael donald – Killed at random .
in “ Driving While Black ” WiKi – The phrase implies that a motorist may be pulled over by a police officer simply because he or she is black , and then questioned , searched , and / or charged with a trivial offense . This concept stems FROM A HISTORY…
+ for many years doctors forced African American sickle – cell sufferers to endure PAIN because they assumed that blacks would become addicted to medication ; Time magazine Labeled this ” ailing while black .” [9][10]
…………… Explain consequences strategy – go to Jail , stopped by police – also . Long Live Rodney King ! Pain suffering . for your Kids !
Why WiKi debt prison ? History Fits bible ! Why Kucinich ? Expose media bias strategy ! it doesn’t taKe sophisticated info , does it ?
Did this Letter affect your racial opinions , at all ? If so , educate your Kids at Least . BY LAW your Kids can disobey parents and marry Whoever they Want . convince your family + extended – at Least … it’s your Family not mine .
I personally Knew a dad who PLEADED with his son not to marry a black girl . Had a talK with her … Kept talKing to him … up to the Last Wedding day BUT HE DID anyway . TELLING YOUR KIDS DOESN’T ALWAYS WORK . True story .
Afraid getting too pushy Will bacK Fire on your Kids ? or hope they Find out on their own ? Parents are confused on SF . I can maKe it clear – instruct teach .
many different opinions I read on SF – by example , ” Plant Seeds ” , explain guide , Learn from experience could be too Late . books . movies . use reason ( Logic strategy ) support With Facts . gently Little at a time . Watch TV With them . – ALL OF WHICH MEANS – INSTRUCT LIKE BIBLE SAYS ( use bible strategy ).
I read on SF – by example , make them proud of heritage – most of all . Teaching by example has a problem . Your Kids may misinterpret “ your example “. Perception is everything . What is to be proud of certain White Heritages ?
STRATEGY 17 – Teach many various curriculum . ANYTHING HELPS – ADDS UP to greater – LiKe Strategy 16 , UNDERSTANDING , LEARNING IS RELATIVE .
content curriculum . What to teach Kids ? FolKs on SF never thinK up these things – Abstract concepts , What is human nature , Women’s history – supports argument We are being Lied too , etc
FolKs on SF mention these things – Logic , media bias , use pics , expose immorality , use bible + History fits bible , consequences , Famous History – Famous individuals , etc
on SF , I don’t understand why talking about Hitler or holocaust has anything to do with racial awareness . Avoid nazi label with your Family . What about Jews ? I don’t Know
Today’s Leaflets and Flyers are WAY WAY too brief . If you are gonna distribute , which is RisKy , Why not have MUCH paper per striKe ? The Finder can choose not to read anymore .
others on SF do distribution also – Way too short in my opinion . I practiced – better to distribute over a WIDE AREA & over time . It Was a pain to travel .
In UNFAMILIAR , I Jeopardized myself on occasion . once a man asked me What I Was looking for and a terrible answer slipped out in Hospital .
Easier to Just leave it as I stopped along the Way looKing natural . Rule – never out of place . LiKe guerilla . I used the “ convenience striKe ” lazy method .
What is convenience striKe ? – don’t hide fingerprints . inK costs money . use your company’s printer lazy boy . don’t have to be pro .
When opportunities present themselves – always have stapled copies on hand . Either Way there is a chance of being caught .
Any method , besides INSERTS in clothing , newpaper , or library booK , and they maybe Will Know it Was you . The next day , I Went to same store or restaurant , and they Knew it Was me Who did it .
bathrooms are saFe as long as you read using toilet or leave it While PRETENDING to search through my backpack While using baby changing station .
You could use both the dvd + case With cover For 2 separate striKes . cannabalize your dvd collection ? both are in 2 sided sleeve together .
I’ve VERY VERY often pretended that it Was an accident as i PICKED UP MY BACKPACK TO LEAVE . Purses For gals .
I’ve had a Few people return to me “ohh you left something “. Just thanK them story . EYES ALWAYS WATCH , even at night . must pretend .
Some say Just Leave a LinK . Paper is more direct and sharable . No dvd player or internet needed . Who says internet Will exist tomorrow ?
There are no guarantees either . Your Kids may marry black anyway I heard on SF MANY times – until they become “ aware ”. You mean – convinced !
I’ve often read on StormFront – move . moving or going to a private school only decreases the chances of intermingling . Besides , blacks hit on Whites all the time . You can’t be there or Watch over your Kids all the time .
We are being bombarded by media . not Just schools . Teaching shielding is better than moving . or ALL 3 is better – move , school , teach .
HOW TO “ HOMESCHOOL” ? I saw 2 moms sitting down and reading a booK With their Kid at a restaurant that I Frequent . When I Was a Kid , my dad Would read With me . ” I’m so proud of you ” 1 mom + my dad said . Sit down With them .
Why I do this ? I want credit for coming up With these ideas . Literally I am 1 individual Who came up With a Teaching + Legit use bible + other ideas to help Whites .
Some folks on S F complimented . one S F girl PM-ed me – “ GREAT thoughts ! “ exclamation marK too .
IF You LIKE , IF You AGREE , IF You care about beautY – Post plan on S F or
IF You care about Your FamiLY , close Friends – Fast EasY WaY to trY to convince – email this site to them .
Should WorK – Another S F man Pm-ed – “ I visited Your Site . It’s GREAT “.
Who is right ? Wrong ? Lies ? Abuse ? She said no . They Keep doing it ? What is WorKing ? tinasm.com
Reminder – my site is not just teach strategy , but also use bible . convincing starts with Legitimacy .
God said to Samuel – man looKs upon the outward appearance . I don’t . but people do . God said so . Fat , ugly people discrimination will not go away .
Samaritans – Race matters in bible .
only in the Last days , they mingle , but not CLEAVE together – because it goes AGAINST human nature .
Joseph couldn’t eat with his brothers because he was Egyptian .
etc etc + HISTORY FITS bible
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because the domain is named after 2 Women ( can’ t change domain name ) , who were also mentioned in my gov’t letter , i must , as they say in Hollywood – have continuity . connect domain to the site’s relevance .
According to Fling , 2 of the most beautiful–est women who ever posed . Why do women need “ bosoms ” LiKe queen Ester – to Win a beauty contest , didn’t she ? Just how potentially beautiful can a White person get ? Fling + my site’s answer
goals – 1. To taunt british Tina Small‘s christianity . LiKe they said in movie ‘ Rocky ‘. To bring her out . The italian chicKen .
Tina – actually – prays in 1 pic ! ? Yet , she poses . only topless Justifies ?
I believe that the early Tina was real , not the Later . computer technology Was not so advanced in 1981 .
+ on internet , i heard people say they met or saw Tina in real Life . Also , for example :
country Walks round Faughcingcester http://www.thevalkyrie.com/picthumb/s/small/tour.htm
Site probably offends christians . is it a crime to have Tits ?
on ‘ Price is Right ‘, Bob BarKer interviews a busty contestant and audience laughs – she didn’t do nothing !
goal 2 . To prove Roberta is irish . All over internet , they say she is Latvian .
Another goal – maybe she will visit also . Kinda young when she posed . born in 1950 ? Tina + Sarah was still beautiful , even when old .
They say she’s dead , but who believes what they say ? After all , is Tina’s real name Tiny or small ? Logic !
https://it.wikipedia.org/wiki/Roberta_Pedon
says – eyes green … under various pseudonyms , including the most note ” melody o‘ Hare “,” Roberta Weaver ”,” mooschi “…
https://br.answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=1006052512976
says her nom de plume ” melody o‘Hare ” comes From the name of one of her best friends in Junior high school .
WiKi article ‘ pen name ’– a pen name , nom de plume , or Literary double …… may be used to… disguise …to distance … a pseudonym may be used to protect …
+ 3 magazine covers say her name was Robin .
Melody ? Robin ? was the most photographed Woman of her time . mountains of her pics exist . my point – beauty made her rich .
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You are unique
Yes, well you know I am! But in China you really are. Some Chinese people have never seen a westerner in the flesh their whole life and so when they see you walking down the street they have no qualms about staring at you. Really staring at you. Like right in the eye. They’re not shy or embarrassed about it. I’ve actually had some people put their own safety at risk while staring at me. Like continuing to walk while staring and the result being walking into the road or onto bumpy ground or almost into another person! I was warned about this before I came out here so it wasn’t such a shock when it started happening, so I would like to issue you guys with the same courtesy.
Of course that being said, it doesn’t mean that some days I don’t feel like shouting ‘WHAT?!!’ but I don’t, or at least I haven’t as yet. Candy was telling me the other day about bad china days and they’re totally a thing when you’re not living in your home country. They happen every now and again when China is just not on your side. So maybe they’ll be a time when I will be pushed to say something but really what is it gonna do anyway? The people staring tend to be the people who don’t speak English so I’d probably be able to get away with it.
Only just today when I started writing this, (I’m in a café - see pic below) a girl around the age of thirteen came up to my table and stood and stared at me. Then her little sister (around four years old) joined her and they both just stood and looked at me. I smiled and said hello and then they disappeared. For all of ten seconds before returning. So I asked their names and the older sister spoke a little English so we had a short conversation and then their mum came over and shooed them away.
A similar thing happened to me and Lizzie a couple of weeks ago. We had gone to a shopping mall straight after work and we were in one of the shops (a Chinese version of Superdrug although the deodorant prices were much more Boots-esque!) and Lizzie told me there was a girl following us. So I turned around and there she was, a Chinese girl around the age of eleven just stood staring at us. So we chatted -
Me: Hello
Girl: Helo
Me: What’s your name?
Girl: My name’s Kitty
Me: Hello Kitty my name is Rachael and this is Lizzie
Kitty: Hello
Me: How are you?
Kitty: I’m fine thank you and you?
Me: I’m great thank you
awkward silence and staring …
Kitty: Ok bye!
Me: Bye
And off she went to inform her Mum and Grandma of the conversation she just had with the two English girls. Lizzie had seen them trying to get her to come and talk to us so that she could practice her English, apparently this is something that happens a lot too. As we left the shop we bumped into her again so we smiled, and just as we were passing her she shouted WELCOME TO CHINA!! and beamed this huge smile. These little things make my day to be honest and it has to be said it is much easier and feels a little more acceptable when children do it as opposed to adults … I’m not sure you’ll ever really get used to that.
However, there was this one time when I arrived in China (it was my first day) and I had decided to go out for a walk to explore the area and as I left the flat, a guy was waiting to go down in the lift (we’re on the 11th floor). He stared at me the whole way. As we got to the bottom he said hello and started asking me questions about where I was from and how long I’d been in China (he found it highly amusing that I’d not even been here for a day!) and he offered to show me the local park and shopping mall. I reluctantly agreed and was careful to stay close to where other people were and keep the conversation light and not too personal (England safety mentality kicking in). But as it turned out I didn’t need to be concerned at all, the guy (whose name I don’t know - it just never came up!) genuinely wanted to practise his English and show the new girl around. I cannot thank him enough, he will never know how helpful it was to be shown around the supermarket and to have the process for buying fruit and veg explained to me at such an early stage in my Chinese experience (of course they were my first purchases … not beer and crisps …). I have only seen him once since and at the time I was rushing to find a bus stop as I was meeting someone so couldn’t stop to talk. I haven’t seen him again but if I do I’ll let you know.
Anyway where was I? Oh yes. As if staring isn’t enough of a shock there’s the photos. People take pictures of you with or without you knowing. It’s only ever happened to me once (that I know of) when me and Candy went to the Lotus Wetlands Park. We were walking along a boardwalk and a few people were walking towards us. One guy stopped right ahead of us, took out his phone, pointed it at us, took a picture and then walked off. So a little piece of me and Candy is somewhere around only god knows where.
Talking of taking pictures without permission …
I know it’s a bit naughty and very hypocritical of me but I couldn’t resist! This girl is sat on the path … in the middle of a small, busy, direct walkway that everyone uses to get down the street. Now come on, is it really sensible?! I think sometimes it’s good job I speak a different language because I do find myself muttering ‘are you joking’, 'cheers buddy’ and other sayings that express my exasperation at some people’s lack of awareness about personal space or general common sense. This has not even been the worst, I have seen cars completely obscuring the walkway too.
Anyway, going back to personal space even Patrick Swayze found himself explaining the basics of space while teaching Jennifer Grey to dirty dance (it was a concept they didn’t stick to for very long however!). But what I’m trying to say is if you do decide to visit be prepared for a little bustling, people coming closer to you than you expect in the street (including people on e bikes, bicycles and in cars!) because it really is a thing here and that’s just the strangers.
It’s a whole other ball game with people you know. With my local teacher colleagues I’ve noticed that once you’re in you’re in. They may take a little while to get to know you but once they’re comfortable with you, it’s both feet in. I’ve never met a group of people, by nature or culture perhaps that are so helpful to the point that they would put themselves out to assist. Now of course I know some super helpful people (big shout out to you all) but it’s almost like here they’re helpful by culture, like en mass. Once you’re friends, they’re offering you food with the expectation you will accept heartily and eat it directly from the chop sticks they’re eating from, they’ll bring food in for you and take no money for it and help you with language issues and general living hurdles that you need to jump through just to survive daily living here in China (believe me it’s a big old list and I’m still ploughing through). For me, it’s wonderful. I’m away from home and I already feel like a successful adoptee and it makes the experience so much easier and more pleasurable to have people around you that you know would help you at the drop of a hat. Of course, they seem continuously surprised when I return the favour because the generosity is apparently only supposed to go one way. But you all know that’s not something I can comfortably live with and so instead of denying their generosity and turning them down, which would be rude and insulting, I simply find another way of repaying their kindness. This is a great feeling because it’s always met with much surprise and appreciation :)
So, returning to personal space for a moment, I have also found this to be affectionately ignored between friends. Now I would consider myself a pretty tactile person but this has definitely caught me by surprise once or twice, like the time when a girl I knew ran at me and threw herself at me fully trusting that I would catch her and put her into a full on 'husband carrying wife over the threshold’ kind of lift! The last time I just about managed to get out of it … next time I may end up in hospital when I put my back out … when I told her this she laughed, settled for a hug and went on her merry way. Oh yes, didn’t mention this all took place at SCHOOL!
My work friends like to braid hair, share food, take Snapchat filter selfies, sing and laugh … yes I know what you’re thinking … it sounds like Rachael would fit in pretty well there and you’d be right. I am definitely guilty of encouraging the chatter, the singing and the laughter in the office. In the midst of some serious lesson planning of course :)
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Five hard truths about magick
Posted by Michelle Gruben on Mar 29, 2019
Of the many laws of magick, there are a few that you’ll never see on a T-shirt or affirmation board. Here, we’ll cover some of the tough stuff: The harsh, the unsettling, the ambiguous facts of living an enchanted life.
This article was inspired by some recent discussions of false positivity—that is, the habitual repetition of encouraging words and images. In short, false positivity means well, but it does harm by shutting down discussion of anything problematic. You can’t hide the truth forever—and when you try, it seeps out in sneaky and unexpected ways.
There are certain aspects of magick that are difficult to come to terms with. The purpose of airing them is not to discourage anyone from their path, but to counter some of the shallow advice and empty promises that the witchy blogosphere churns out.
It’s time for some straight talk about magick—some Swords to go with your Cups, some Rue with your Roses.
1. It's not for everybody.
Can anyone become a Witch? Any honest answer to this question is complicated. In some ways, yes—the magickal arts are open to all who seek them. In other ways, no. Some people lack the gifts, the learning—but most often, the dedication—to become effective practitioners of the Craft.
These two are the fundamental magickal skills: The ability to alter reality through will. And, the ability to perceive things beyond the normal senses. These experiences are part of our natural state of being. They are, in a sense, the birthright of every conscious creature.
Yet these abilities are constrained on our earthly plane and must be located and cultivated. You need a strong will to accomplish this. It takes repetition. It takes humility. It often requires help from others—partners, spirits, plants, disparate parts of self—whose cooperation you must earn.
In short, excelling in magick is just like excelling in business or music or athletics. Not every aspirant will have what it takes. Talent only gets you so far. Hard work isn’t always enough. Sometimes you do everything right and still don’t get the results you want.
It’s not easy. It’s not for everyone (or at least, not all of the time).
2. Real witchcraft isn't photogenic.
Thick black eyeliner, a bespoke cloak, moon tattoos, and a table full of Amethysts—that’s what magick is made of, right? Sure, if you believe the internet. Like so many other things, witchcraft has been co-opted in recent years by lifestyle bloggers and taste makers, advertisers and influences. Super-stylish, just-edgy-enough witchy pics go hand-in-hand with the idea that magick is a piece of cake.
What’s wrong with enjoying all these highly preformative images of witchcraft? Nothing! There’s no reason a person can’t be genuinely magickal and also extremely good at self-presentation. Visual art is a kind of magick, too. However, let’s not make the mistake of confusing Instagram witches with the real thing.
It’s even possible for personal magick and social media to work at cross-purposes. Oversharing violates the principle of magickal silence—the idea that talking about your workings can dilute or disperse their energy. People who endlessly photograph their working tools, altars, and ritual garments are arguably siphoning off some of their power for the sake of likes and followers.
Thinking back about the most powerful magick I’ve witnessed, much of it has been in the dark, among old or shabbily dressed people, with nary a smartphone in sight. The most eye-opening books I own are crappy dog-eared paperbacks that would look terrible in a tableau with a crystal pendant and a sprig of Rosemary. Pinterest offers no altar porn for the third eye…you’ll have to find those goodies on your own.
3. Magick is dangerous.
The Satanic Panic of the 1990s was in full swing when I first embarked on my magickal studies. The media often reported on the addiction, insanity, and death that were the obvious consequences of dabbling in the occult. Religious tracts and books warned against the dangers of “gateway” activities like drum circles and Harry Potter books. I used to hoard these writings and snicker at them. What a quaint idea—that devils stalk the earth, seeking the ruin of souls through Ouija boards and zodiac pendants!
With more experience, I see a grain of truth in those zealous warnings. It’s not all rainbows and butterflies out there, folks. Different magicians have different opinions about whether spirit entities have an external reality or only dwell within the mind of the magick worker. I can’t prove it either way, of course. But my own instinct says that entities are real, they have independent consciousness, and not all of them have your best interests in mind.
Not scared of spirits? Fine—let’s go to the energy model of magick. Playing with spiritual technologies—meditation, invocation, astral travel—can cause extreme and rapid shifts in your energy body. They can wreck your appetite and mess with your sex life. They can effect changes in your mood and sleep cycle that will disrupt every aspect of your daily existence.
Other hazards of the occult are more pedestrian: You can become arrogant (common!). You can turn into a colossal bore who only talks to plants (and even the plants wish you would shut up). You can invite the scorn of people who don’t approve of your path, people who formerly respected you. It’s hard to keep your spiritual and mundane lives in balance—but it’s absolutely necessary if you want to make magick a lifelong quest.
Anything worthwhile carries some risk. With magick, we are talking about nothing less than the rapid evolution of the soul…so it only makes sense than the risks would be commensurate with the reward. Only you can weigh the dangers and decide if it’s worth doing. (See #1: It’s not for everybody.)
4. You (probably) need tools for effective spellwork.
“Cast spells without tools!”
“The secret of mental magick!”
“Advanced witchcraft!”
There’s a whole slew of authors and teachers offering instruction in tool-less spellcraft. And yeah, technically they’re correct: The only tool you really need is your focused, unadulterated Will.
But therein lies the problem. How many of us actually possess a focused, unadulterated Will? We’re human! Our thoughts are always mixed with distractions, mental noise, memories, and misgivings. Magick without tools is theoretically do-able…but in practice, it’s rarely as effective.
It’s true that intention is the most important component in spellwork. It’s true, also, that the more practised you become with certain skills (visualisation and trance induction), the less you tend to rely on the externals. However…
Magickal tools—and I’m not just saying this as a shop owner—tools play a very important role. Several roles, actually. That’s why Witches—yes, even “advanced” ones, have employed them for centuries.
What do tools accomplish that thoughts alone do not? Here’s a sampling:
1. Anchoring: Tools link your intention in the physical plane (which is where you want the results to manifest, right?) Most magick spells can be conceived as a kind of cycle—from earthly need to thought/will and back to physical action. Tools complete the loop by grounding your petition in the present time and place.
2. Distraction: Tools subvert the less-magickal parts of the brain (mental chatter, worries, skepticism) by engaging the older, more primal parts. Tying knots, lighting incense, and dressing candles are all classic ways to activate spells. You could say these actions let your magickal self do its work by keeping the mind and body busy.
3. Correspondence: Spell ingredients like herbs and candles contribute allied energies to your spell. The magickal brain is both literal and sensual. To a person who is very familiar with lemons, the thought of a lemon is enough to invoke Solar energy. But if you have an actual lemon—bright and yellow and soaked in the summer sun—that’s better, you know? I refer to Randall Garrett’s maxim: “The best symbol for a sharp knife is a sharp knife.”
4. Effort: The extra work of using tools is a gatekeeper that separates the worthy spells from the unworthy ones. When you go through the trouble to acquire and prepare materials, you’re signalling to your unconscious that this spell actually matters—and that will generally translate to better results.
Magickal tools don’t have to be complicated, and they don’t have to be expensive. (See our list of cheap and free witchcraft tools.) A candle and some oil. A pen and a piece of paper. Keep it focused: An over-encumbered spell is just as a bad as a flimsy one.
Unless you are a super-adept—like, the kind of master that comes along once in a zillion years—you probably can’t just speak or dream your desires into being. Spells without tools are more akin to…wishes. It’s fun to make a wish, but they usually don’t come true on their own.
5. There are no experts.
“We’re all apprentices in a craft where no one becomes a master.” Ernest Hemingway was referring to writing, but the same can certainly be said of the metaphysical arts.
Magick is a vast and mysterious topic. There’s a natural instinct to look up to people who have been at it longer than you, or who seem to be more sure of themselves. But while some people are objectively more accomplished, there’s nobody who’s got it all figured out. We are all grappling with the inexplicable mystery of consciousness. We are all grasping at forms we can’t possibly see the shape of.
It’s scary to realise that everybody else is basically flying blind. But it’s liberating, too. When you stop relying on others to show you the way, you can begin to truly explore your own power.
And there you have it...five tough nuggets. I don't expect that this will become one of my most popular blog posts ever, but I'm happy that I published it. What are your hard-won magickal truths? Share with other readers in the comments!
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'me and daf analysed all of yousef's dialogue last friday and we found out so many new things that just do not add up at all' what things??? I'm curious,please share,Faiza!!
Not really a question: But i feel you with the suspicion on Yousefs story about Even, something doesn’t seem right with how he is describing Mikael and what we have seen from Mikael as of now!!!! Maybe im reaching but i need answers!!!
faiza! hello! please elaborate on the inconsistencies in mikael’s behavior & yousef’s story because i am seeing a ton but feel like i’m going cray because everyone’s talking about the even part and no one’s talking about these! (i really hope they’re not slips in the writing tho lol.)
Hi, Anon!
So, I’ve gotten 3 asks in one go, and me and Daf - @josteninski - are on IM right now, and Daf is literally telling me, “Faiza. Do it.” … So, here we go.
Me and Daf were on the phone yesterday for like … 3 whole hours? about this. But, urm, yeah, Yousef’s choice of words, and dialogues last Friday. Something’s not adding up.
So 3 lines we focused on were these, particularly the bold bits:
You know Even? The guy we used to hang with? I think he’s gay.. Because he tried to kiss Mikael and Mikael is really religious, so he totally flipped out and was really out of it. So it turned into.. Even like trying to cure himself by reading the Quran. And it ended up with him posting different verses from the Quran where it said like.. gay people go to hell. You know he.. tried to kill himself? So I just feel like Islam.. Or religion in general.. Just creates a lot of anxiety in people.
Sorry, I don’t know. I personally feel like I’ve taken the best of the religion and thrown away the rest.
If religion is so good, why does it split society?
And now I want you to focus on Mikael, who “was religious”.
Mikael drinks.
Mikael wears nail polish.
Mikael who is completely okay with being physically affectionate with the boys in the balloon squad, even out open in public.
Mikael who talks about polygamy.
Mikael who has on a couple of occasions, used sign language.
Mikael who still has Even’s phone number.
So, Yousef starts off by saying to Sana, “You know Even? The guy we used to hang out with?” … like, if The Balloon Squad used to hang out at Sana’s place, then … of course, Sana would know Even! She wouldn’t forget Even, she wouldn’t need reminding of Even being “the guy we used to hang out with” … which seems a bit … distant? For Yousef to call Even “the guy we used to hang out with”, because I’m pretty certain he was a lot more than just “a guy they used to hang out with”, they were all friends, part of a circle. Notice how Even called The Balloon Squad, “the boys”, when he asked Sana, “how are the boys”, and Yousef calls Even, “the guy we used to hang out with” … like Even holds them so dear to him, but Yousef seems so distant in calling Even a friend, or a part of them, and instead calls Even “the guy we used to hang out with” … something seems … odd about that.
Then, Yousef says, “I think he’s gay.” He thinks? So, the boys still don’t know about Even’s multiple gender attraction? Yousef “thinks” Even’s “gay”, so … Yousef is assuming here. Yousef is assuming that Even might be gay.
Which then leads onto the next big, perhaps the BIGGEST, most IMPORTANT word in this entire dialogue: “it turned into …. Even like, trying to /cure/ himself.” Notice how, based off this assumption that Yousef’s had that he thinks Even might be gay, Yousef is narrating THE ENTIRE STORY from the point of view OF HIS ASSUMPTION. Not Mikael’s assumption or POV, but YOUSEF’S OWN POV. That Yousef assuming Even might be gay “turned into” Even trying to “cure” himself by reading the Qur’aan. Yousef himself makes these links here, that … well, I think if Even is gay then that must have resulted in him trying to make himself better by reading the Qur’aan.
Which, to be honest … is that true? Can he really speak for Even here? What if Even wasn’t trying to “cure” himself. What if Even GENUINELY wanted to read the Qur’aan, to gain some understanding? To feel closer to Mikael and the boys? What if Even just wanted to do that for reasons that may not be for “curing” himself? How can Yousef just … ASSUME all these things?, as he again, ASSUMES, when he says “so it ended up with him”. It’s basically Yousef trying to add all the pieces up here from what HE’S seen FROM HIS point of view.
Do you see where I’m going with this? It’s ALL based off, of HIS point of view.
And what is Yousef’s point of view, right now, on religion: that he DOESN’T believe in a religion. He doesn’t BELIEVE in Allah.
Because “Islam, or religion in general, just creates a lot of anxiety in people”. People? Is he talking about Even here, or somebody else too? “People”,not just 1 person, i.e, Even, who this story is about, but people, more than one person. He means himself. He is the 2nd person here, making “person, into people”.
Do you see the projection here, Yousef is placing into this story? There are little bits, where he is inserting himself into the story, because it’s ALL BASED on what HE believes.
So, of COURSE, when Yousef pauses in between when he says “So it turned into […] Even, like, trying to cure himself”, Yousef is trying to find the best word to fit in and describe the situation, but he ultimately will only, and can only, describe the situation from HIS point of view. And so, keeping that in mind, it’s astonishing (but is it really), that the word that comes into Yousef’s mind to best fit and describe the situation is “cure”. Yousef could have just as easily have said “read”, but no, he used the word “cure”. Again, Yousef is projecting, and inserting himself into the narrative. Because, ultimately, what happened? Yousef became so anxious, that Yousef’s cure to the anxiety was to “take the best parts of the religion, and throw the rest away”, and that’s EXACTLY what “curing” means … curing means to get rid off the negative, and keep and improve on the positive. So, why project that onto Even for, then?
And also, denouncing your faith. Denouncing your faith, is a HUGE HUGE deal. It’s not something that just happens overnight, or something you do based off of ONE event, especially if you’ve been born and raised within a practising, religious household. So, Yousef MUST have been thinking about this for a very, VERY long time, to the point where he must have been in a conflict of his OWN about religion vs no religion, and him literally trying to see what all the good bits about religion are, against what all the not good bits about religion are. Yousef in HIMSELF was trying to find a cure for HIS anxiety about this whole issue, and I feel like whatever happened with Even, was the final straw, the last nail in the coffin, that thing that sealed the deal for him, that, yeah … i can’t be doing this anymore.
There is SO much projection here of Yousef, and of HIMSELF and HIS experiences and HIS POINT OF VIEW, that shapes the ENTIRE narrative of the story based on how HE saw it, based on HIS agnostic/atheistic non religious beliefs. So, of COURSE, Yousef would find the word “cure” to be the fitting one here, for him to think it is the best word to explain the situation as to why this made Even do this thing which then made Even do that thing.
But, again, how can he just speak for Even, like that? How does he KNOW?
And then, perhaps, comes the most contradictory statement from Yousef from the entire night. So, all this time, Yousef’s been saying “he’s take the best part out of religion”, so he agrees, that religion does indeed have some good parts to it, but then, he says “if religion is so good” … which, doesn’t make sense? Because only a while ago, you just said that religion in fact is so good, in fact, the best, in certain key parts, so much so, that you decided to take those parts, which you agreed were in the religion, and implemented them into your life. So now, why all of a sudden, is he saying this, religion isn’t all that good? That religion isn’t so good.
And then there’s that battle 2015 pic …. why “battle” … if both Yousef and Even were friends, or “guys that used to hang out with each other”, why battle over something for?
And then, if we go back to the words Yousef uses, “then then turned into,” “it ended up with” … so what happened in between the points “A to B, from where things turned”? And so if something “ended up” with something happening, then what about the “start and middle” of those things? And how long before or after did the suicide attempt happen?
So, in short, what else is there that we are not being told? Because we, for SURE, are not being told the full story at all.
Because, I see Mikael now, and …………. I just … cannot understand how he went from, as YOUSEF described, “being TOTALLY freaked out and distant”, to becoming a guy wearing nail polish, who, if he was so insensitive, is shown to be repeatedly using sign language, and still having the phone number of his best friend who made a pass at him that he then “freaked out” from and “became distant” to, whilst going from being so religion, to now drinking openly? To going from being so “freaked out”, to now being completely fine in being openly affection with boys in public, on the road!
So … where/how/when did THAT happen?
There’s … stuff, not adding up here. Stuff, we’re very clearly not being told here.
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