#like... ive got a lot of merch and books

[lunar-wandering]

i seriously need to move out cause my room isn't big enough to hold all of my stuff anymore and it's genuinely causing problems

[satoriberry]

niko ikki crushing on you!! :>

❥ summary: headcanons with a pining niko [requested by anon]

❥ pairing: niko ikki x gn!reader

❥ watch out for: nothing!! just cute stuff with some crack + reader is oblivious asf btw not proofread

- let me preface by saying that i love this guy so much

- ok lets start

- you're a student at his school and you just happen to catch his attention

- maybe it was your charm, maybe it was the kindness that you treated everyone with unconditionally, but whatever it was, it pulled on his heart strings and made him a sucker for you

- you're just so perfect and beautiful and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA <- representation of his thoughts about you

- everytime you walk past him, he just feels the urge to turn around and pull you into his arms but he can't because no.

- that's not how real life works

- even if you're not in the same class as him, he'd still try to find where you're hanging out in the school so he can sit far away and.....observe you.

- he does that a lot. his afro allows him to hide his eyes so you wouldn't tell whether he was staring at your or not

- doesnt have the courage to talk to you directly, but whenever he can, he tries to join conversations with mutual friend groups. he gets to hear your voice more closely :)

- he's an avid anime watcher (canon) and what he watches is influenced by his current life status

- so when he falls for you, you bet your ass he's watching all them cheesy shoujo anime where the male love interest is a suave, cool hottie so he can project onto him

- but at the same time, he feels so cringe because he thinks you'd definitely see him as some kind of weird loser with no social life

- tries to understand you by piecing together stuff his friends and classmates say about you, like favourite colour, food, celebrity, movie etc

- buys merch of your favourite band in hopes that it'll catch your attention and you'll walk up to him to talk :(

- he's bad at dropping signals and thinks that the most subtle gestures will attract you. they don't. you're too fucking dumb.

- his friends tease him for that a lot

- "bro, doodling their favourite character on your notebook will not make them notice you" "shut the fuck up, you don't know shit."

- seriously, he's so romantically inexperienced and doesn't know how to go about it

- during a particularly windy day, his bangs flew up and revealed his eyes when you were sitting on the rooftop (him alone and you with your friends). he ran off from embarrassment but left behind the book he was reading

- later that day, you walked up to him to return his book and while doing that, you slipped a complement about his eyes and how they were cute

- he screamed into his pillow when he got back home.

- but!!!! he can now talk to you!!

- buys your preferred candy by "accident" and gives it to you because "he pressed the wrong button on the vending machine"

- loves the little smile you wear when enjoying it ♡

- started to give you little acknowledgement nods when crossing each other in hallways. his brain melts when you nod back with a grin

- he daydreams about you a lot and even does that dreamy sigh thing with his cheek against his palm

- he....

- he has a manifestation journal and sporadically writes affirmations with your name in them...

- anyways.

- wants to invite you to soccer practice so you can watch him pull off sick tricks but doesnt know howwww >:/

- asks his friends to say good stuff about him so you can think he's cool

- "yeah niko regularly helps at a cat shelter", "he tutors my brother every sunday", "ive seen him adopt strays"

- at some point they started to say some ridiculous things so he had to force them to stop 💀💀

- watches your mannerisms closely and subconsciously copies them

- the way you open your drinks, tap your feet against the floor to make sure your shoes fit right, pop your neck in specific directions

- when he realizes what he's doing, he buries his face in his hands and lets out a high pitched scream with his face turning into a dark shade of pink

- gets really mushy when thinking about you, writes your name in hearts a lot

- turns into a mess when you're cheerfully talking to him about something you like

- once caught you napping in the library and took it upon himself to sit next to you and make sure nothing bad happens

- by the way that's a lie because nothing that bad could've happened and he wanted to gaze at your calm sleeping figure

- literally squealed as he watched you softly adjust your head on your arms

- so. we can conclude by saying that niko is really awkward when it comes to you and he has some pretty unorthodox methods of expressing his feelings, but he never loses hope that, maybe one day, you'll see him in the same light (he's a dumbass that can't see you already do)

[gkt-tummyaches]

hobbie hcs

i cant remember what ive already said and what i havent, but there might be a few repeats; just hobbie hcs dump cus i need a break from concept designing </333

blossom

periodic table bucket list. she's slowly trying to get her hands on most elements on the periodic table, just to have bragging rights. yes she is going to find a way to safely store poisonous and radioactive elements, thank you.

pottery ! she hates it. she's awful at it. she's determined to get really good at it and attends the classes only because she hates them.

fencing. maybe the only hobby she actually enjoys.

buttercup

kickboxing as an anger management sport. keeps it solo, doesn't do it competitively.

cooking. likes experimenting with bigger and bolder projects, and likes indirectly caring for people through it.

origami. started as a patience practice + now mindlessly makes figures when she's bored.

bubbles

acting, technically ? she likes to audition for roles in up-coming productions in high school, and then out in townsville's local theater club. isn't sure she actually likes it, but she's successful.

coloring books. really liked it as a kid but lacks the inspiration as she gets older, coloring books are a nice and therapeutic without the pressure.

fashion design. she is awful at it. like god awful. high fashion experimentation meets whatever garbage she pulled out of the dumpster. but she likes doing it, so…

boomer

BEETLE FIGHTING. enough said.

gimmicks. juggling, yo-yo tricks, little card tricks and 'magic', etc. goofy little things to use as an ice breaker.

learning fictional languages. started with impersonations; his damnation was a wookie impression, that led into a downward spiral. so far he's got down simlish (the sims) and dovahzul (skyrim).

brick

none. he's boring as hell.

(soap making business.)

(candle-making, also.)

butch

taking the piss out of b-rated horror movies with friends. genuinely writes up reviews about them and posts them anonymously.

writes in a diary, secretly. all kinds of stuff in it; ranges from actual accounts of his month, or snippets of poetry or plot ideas. doesn't do it everyday.

bass guitar, one of the few instruments he still regularly plays.

brute

body disposal idk

debt collecting

knife collection. also knife commission. makes her own knives.

brat

streaming/blogging, etc. part of her side-job but also just something to enjoy doing; started up small and as a joke with friends, and eventually amassed a following.

robot fighting rings. has yet to lose a round, loves the challenge it gives her to work on her building skills. robotics is still a newer interest.

drawing ! makes a lot of her own schematics and concept designs, got into it for her own merch and online personas too. refuses to go directly into making commissions, however.

berserk

skateboarding, roller-skating, etc. she fucking SUCKS at it. no improvement in sight. tries to impress people/give them tips, only for them to end up picking it up better than she does. has broken both her ankles and skateboards many times.

scrapbooking ! in an absolutely not creepy obsessive way whatsoever. it's not like she ,,, collects locks of hair, or anything.

furby collection. likes upcycling them into those weird long snakes.

[kitty-the-wizard]

Twilight Brain Dump✮⋆˙

i literally love twilight so much. it is my greatest special interest and one that has impacted my life the most. other special interests ive had have also shaped my life but fixating on twilight lead me in to a different part of my life that had some positivity to it, some depth, some cool lore, etc. when i first got in to twilight i was definitely team edward, i guess because bella and edward seemed “better” together and it was just a cool original plot. but, now that im a few years deep in to my special interest, im 110% team jacob. and, with changing teams, ive changed my favorite movie to new moon because hes more in that one and greatly in bellas life. i enjoy the original twilight movie a lot because jacob does make appearances earlier and throughout the movie unlike the book (which im still in the process of reading) where he doesnt until pretty late. i only recently started reading twilight because i was scared that it was going to alter my perception, idea, and extreme interest in twilight. but, it has actually made it greater! im pleasantly surprised and relieved. i have the mass market twilight book and it is SO adorable- i literally almost cried when i got it in the mail! my dear boyfriend bought it for me <3 im kinda assuming that every neurodivergent person goes through this with special interests, but i go through waves and phases within each other - if that makes sense lmao xD like, sometimes ill be way in to one part of twilight, or not so in to the details but in to the movies, or detached from the movies and book but love merch, etc. it’s fascinating when looking at it from afar but scary when you feel like you are falling away. ive never actually fallen away, only “evolved” with my special interest in it. this evolving and growing interest makes me wanna be in the twilightverse so bad ;-; i want to live in this world!!!! i also really want to see bella just be with jacob OMG dont get me wrong, i love edward and his plot line/his family’s plot line - but HEAR ME OUT!!!! bella and jacob look so natural and cool as a couple, plus they have family friend relationship lore, bella moving back lore, getting back to knowing each other lore!!!! maybe wattpad has fanfic?? probably XD

i highkey wish i wasnt a CHILD when twilight came out. i should’ve been 16 LMAO i shouldve been able to cry at hot topic and scream at the movie screen XD

[thetwilightroadtonightfall]

my personal good things of 2022 list

Made some banger art this year!! I took a bunch of skillshare classes to learn digital art better and I think it’s paid off. I remember wanting so badly to make digital art in the past but not having the resources and being intimidated by it. And look at me now, babey!

I’ve been having a great time watching JJBA with my girlfriend; it’s been insane and so much better than if I had watched it on my own

Tried a handful of new recipes! My homemade Irish soda bread was my fave but I enjoyed the other ones too

Absolutely loved continuing online yoga sessions from 2021 in the first few months of the year. I actually really missed it when it ended. I plan to get into doing more yoga next year

Went on a lot of solo adventures in the downtown core of my city, which felt very refreshing and just fun to do every once in a while

Made my first budget sheet 🥴 Just Adulting Things

ADORED Turning Red like seriously, that movie was like a love letter to me

Made my website and linktr.ee hell yeaaahhh. I was putting it off for a long time

Uploaded art to Redbubble and INPRNT!!

Finished reading soooo many amazing books this year, which was awesome. I love reading but reading constantly in school drained me last year, so I’m glad I got into a comfortable groove this year. Best book I read this year was Eat Up! by Ruby Tandoh, which was totally up my alley and very informative and wonderful to go through

KINGDOM HEARTS IV????? MISSING LINK??????

EPHEMERA HAS A BIG FAMILY (SOURCE: ME)

Got some of my work featured in different publications :^))

Volunteered at a food bank, which was really awesome. I got to work with lots of kind people and talk to the people who were just so grateful to be able to get free groceries for their families

Year of Spy x Family lol, it’s just such a feel-good anime to watch

[trigger warning for life-threatening surgery; hospital setting] June was a hard month, physically and emotionally. My dad had 3 heart surgeries, and thank goodness he’s much better now as a result of them. But I almost lost him. It’s something that continues to weigh heavy on me. The long commutes to visit him and stay with him in the hospital every day took a toll on my mom and I too, but there was no doubt in my mind that I wanted to be there for him every step of the way. And I was.

Had a reunion with my high school band mates. We had so much fun chatting and drinking after a performance for our old band teacher’s retirement party

got hooked as shit on Legends Arceus, what a lovely game. It was everything I hoped for and more in a pokemon game and it was SO fun to play

Watched Amphibia omggg…it was so funny and heartfelt, and something I love going back to to just sit and relax to

Had an absolute banger of a day at Anime North with my friend. I got such a good merch haul

Dark Road gave me psychic damage but it was awesome. Completely changed my outlook on Xehanort and now I find myself wanting more of him

Helped my friend buy furniture from IKEA for her new apartment. It was a pain to get all of it up to the 10th floor but fulfilling in its own way 💅 Just Adult Things

Saw a bunch of cute ducks at the park!!!! It literally can’t get better than this 🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆

Finally started publishing A Light That Never Goes Out. I’ve been having a great time writing it and filling in some sections I had written already in the past

Had my make-up graduation in person (as opposed to online) which was nice :)

Overall, a great year. I had a lot of struggles and days where I could’ve done more, but I also tried a lot of new things, helped a lot of people, and made lots of good memories. Fingers crossed that 2023 brings more of that positivity!!

[p-antalons]

updated thoughts on NHL teams this holiday season WITH EXPLANATIONS under <3 (update i started this on christmas eve after work. it is now almost new years)

rangers: geographically makes sense. my friends entire family likes them and the first hockey player i ever heard of was panarin (i wrote about him in an ap lang essay once) they are so babygirl to me even if they are a literal mess sometimes <3333 my favs include fox, kreider, and miller who are all so cool. kreider is personal to me for a variety of reasons and i root for his success everyday. fox is simply just!! i adore him and miller is the best and i can’t wait to see how he gets better over time. bonus to panarin for being my first and always looking cool in the videos the rangers twitter posts

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canes: their vibes are good, they’re young and competitive, fun to watch and their social media presence is really well done <3 favs are kochetkov and skjei (bonus to aho for being my birthday twin) ive liked kochetkov since the second round last year even though his team did lose against mine so!! im happy to see him have such a large role on the canes this year

sabres: literally the sabres just look like they’re having a good time and that all the players love each other which is genuinely so fun to see, their merch is cute (my school’s chorus teacher wore a sabres ugly christmas sweater a few days ago) and i dig the blue and yellow. if i wasn’t a rangers fan this is probably the team i would’ve chosen to root for. unfortunately buffalo as a place was meh (even if it was really high on the list of places i strongly considered going to college) <33 my favs are skinner (MY FAV 30 YEAR OLD MAN) and power who is young and cool ig

senators: the vibes just seem good yk they are young and a mess what more could you want. i thought they’d be doing a lot better than they really are doing this year which sucks but whatever. i know nothing about them but i just feel like rooting for them they have that feel that makes you want them to succeed <3 favs are whatever dynamic is happening with tim and brady it is COMICAL in ottawa and they are literally just so funny to me

devils: that streak was very satisfying, i was wishing only the best for them. technically as a rangers fan the devils are like a metropolitan area rival but i literally do not care? they’re the type of team i root to succeed except for when some other team i like is against them so <333 basic but the fav has got to be jack hughes all of those brothers are FREAKS

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stars: i like robertson a lot. oettinger is growing on me too and i dig green as a color so the stars are okay in my book

red wings: i got sent about four trade requests for moritz seider. the way he hits people is hilarious to me and i like his wild hair. also dylan larkin is cool. his cheeks are very rosy. their logo is charming and classic

canadiens: nick suzuki you are a delight and i care for you deeply (FIRST ASIAN CAPTAIN IN HABS HISTORY!!!!) the rookies are super entertaining too i like xhejab’s whole narrative

maple leafs: mitch marner. look at him is he not the most endearing player ever. i do not care about the rest of the team but the tavares narrative is intensely funny to me and i applaud him for leaving long island. i can actually name multiple players on this team which im proud of myself for

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wild: this is mostly because their logo is pretty and i adore their vibes in regards to like kaprizov and reaves in christmas fits. ill say my fav is matt boldy bc he looks like he has a frog in his mouth and bc i don’t really know anyone on the team well enough to pick a fav

flyers: the vibes are so bad to where they’re literally good. it doesn’t make sense at all but that’s how it is. i like the jokes about their coach. fav is tk because he is always on something insane and it is so funny to go on twitter and see what shenanigans he started

penguins: they are so basic but i think everyone has thoughts on the penguins. like first off i know nothing about pittsburgh besides the fact that the penguins exist and that they’re having a great time. i don’t have a specific fav but geno is very funny in interviews so ill say him

avalanche: kept up with them after the rangers got out in the conference finals last year and they were very endearing. the vibes after they won were through the roof and this is probably one of the only teams where i can name the majority of the roster. favs include makar (he was my og avs fav during the cup run) and newy (he’s just … i want to hold him in my pocket)

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coyotes: i really don’t think i have to explain this? it’s literally where careers go to die, they have no arena at the moment, and everyone makes fun of them constantly. i feel immense amounts of pity for them but it’s always funny when some team that everyone thinks is much better loses to the coyotes. they keep the league on their toes. i can’t pick a fav bc i literally can’t name a single player. logan cooley is a prospect for them tho whose name i do know

ducks: every time they aren’t #32 in the league i consider it a miracle. they’re in such dire straits im not even sure what’s happening. on one hand, i admire the attempt at getting bedard but also like. cmon guys put a pep in your step. fav is going to be trevor zegras bc he’s always getting into something and i admire the NHL trying to advertise him as the face of the sport over mcdavid (he is the only player i know besides gibson so??)

canucks: they are literally so pathetic im not even sure where to get started. that losing streak at the beginning of the season? they are like a sad sopping wet cat. they look so defeated but i admire petey single-handedly dragging them to survival. their news is 90% trade rumors on who is getting sent away. fav will be quinn hughes bc i am basic and he is just Like that but also petey because he’s a delight and blond

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kings: my brother said “ive heard you mention them like once” which probably shows how much i care about them. i can name one player and it’s kopitar. also like quinton byfield but he’s a prospect. i could care less about them and their color scheme is lame

sharks: i love the sharks logo and their jerseys and their color scheme. unfortunately i don’t care about them as all and the only player i can name is couture and that’s bc he’s the captain and i did a sporcle on NHL captains once

predators: no i don’t know anything about them nor do i want to. i don’t like yellow as a color and roman josi and cody glass are the only players on their roster i know. i don’t even know much about nashville as a city

golden knights: look i really don’t know much about them. yeah mark stone is the captain and yeah i have eichel on my fantasy team but everything i hear about vegas is filled with loathing. i do wish eichel a happy revenge arc but other than that they can flop for all i care

capitals: i think as a team their vibes are good but i just do not care. this is one of the few teams in this tier where i can name more than three players which is a miracle. ive been seeing a lot of videos of dylan strome with his daughter which is adorable and i hope he signs long term in washington. cheers to ovechkin and whatever he’s doing i guess?

lightning: they’re like too good. like everyone gets it you’ve won two cups since 2020 but i just don’t really care? there’s no fun pathetic underdog arc for them. some guy at my school has a bunch of merch for them which makes no sense to me geographically but that’s whatever. stamkos is like the only player from the team that i can name but he’s cool and that video of his son with the zamboni is adorable

jets: i have multiple jets players on my fantasy team and i still can’t remember their names. winnipeg isn’t real to me and i refuse to believe it actually exists. i realize that they’re not even doing bad this year but narratively they’re kind of lame. their logo is meh to me but i love most of their jerseys

blues: i do not care about missouri as a state and know nothing about it. i can’t even believe they have a hockey team. still not a fan of yellow but i think the music note logo is cute. i know robert thomas and whatever that goalie who’s getting roasted on twitter every week. that is the extent of my knowledge and care for them. they won a cup in recent history so.

blue jackets: they’re just kind of sad at the moment because i feel like their entire roster is on IR? i feel like at the moment im writing this they’re probably like #31 in the league so lots of pity but also i just don’t care about them. their logo is pretty tho! i can name four players (werenski, johnson, laine, and gaudreau) so im counting that as a win! i have johnson on my fantasy team so i hope they keep him on the first line forever (update: not thrilled with them putting on a firework show when one of their goalies literally died because of a firework incident that proceeded to traumatize their other current goalie)

panthers: sorry to the panthers but i really don’t care about them? their logo is lame but their reverse retro jerseys are cool so they have that going for them. i know matthew tkachuk plays for them and there was a whole dramatic trade this summer but that’s it!

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bruins: this one is actually petty i just don’t like them which doesn’t bode well with my future lol. like as far as it goes, they’re a good team and have respectable locker room culture so i should like them more than i do but i just don’t like them. their logo is boring. sorry bruins but i do like mcavoy and root for his success often

flames: i think the battle of alberta is lame. wishing only the best for kadri though who is the only flames player i know!

oilers: i think the battle of alberta is lame (part two) yeah yeah connor mcdavid who is very good but has not expressed an emotion to the media since he was 18 which probably says something about sports culture and i feel bad but also like. edmonton? really? (update after watching the ruff ruff relay, mcdavid’s dog is cute and i like that the oilers did this) tyson barrie is also cool he’s my birthday twin and i wish only the best for him

islanders: my apush teacher in 11th grade was an islanders fan. he wasn’t a great teacher and as a person was questionable, including an implication of calling girls sluts, questionable responses when asked about the lgbtq community, and thinking he was considerably more liberal than he came off as. he microaggressed me as a show of anti racism; i didn’t feel the anti racism energy, in fact i felt very uncomfortable bc it was his response to finding out i did research on racial stereotypes for about the last six months (research that literally ended up with me in multiple newspapers because it was pretty decent). did get a 5 on the exam and 100 in the class but he left a lasting impression of what team i immediately crossed off my list when deciding what hockey team to cheer for. i love the look of their aqua orange color scheme (not the blue orange that is lame) and the fisherman jerseys are super cool. would not be this low in the ranking if i didn’t have that apush teacher, who i always avoid in the halls. if he didn’t exist i might’ve been an islanders fan instead. shoutout to mat barzal whose jersey i see constantly. other players i know are lee, cizikas, and sorokin

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blackhawks: do i need to explain this. i get literal psychic brain damage every time someone says kane to the rangers. literally psychic brain damage. if kane ever goes to the rangers im cutting my losses and becoming a sabres fan

[bloodsbane]

ive been thinking about my ~resolutions~ wrt my art for 2023, and i think the main thing is i want to re-learn how to let myself sink into a picture and do stuff just for fun

mainly, i want to develop the patience it takes to put a lot of work into something that i know won't be perfect, because being too scared to start holds me back. in particular i want to make more detailed pictures. not in terms of realism, but like... STUFF. draw more objects, more small details, flavor, personality. i want to try drawing more interior settings, get used to furniture and walls and ceilings and everyday objects. learn to fill in spaces in ways that convey a lot of personality and/or story

i also wanna make more comics!! but newspaper myself when it comes to longer-form projects. excluding MOIRA, which i hope to pick back up again this year, i am going to try limiting myself to short story comics that are only a handful of pages. my problem is that i like slow development of concepts and dialogue-heavy stuff. i want to train myself to be better at just having fun with a simple concept that i can play around with in like, 2-3 pages max. it's going to be tough, but im hoping this will help make me even more proficient in drawing comics and sand down some of the rough edges i feel grating on me still

i also want to make more merch! ever since getting a book specifically for the stickers i collect, i've gotten even more into stickers and want to make more of them. i hope to re-open my etsy store this year, though i may also try to FINALLY do what it takes to set up my own website. i think that would be a good Main Goal for this year - a site to make a porfolio out of, even if i'm not personally interested in securing, like, Professional Art Jobs... I did do some work as a colorist for someone else's comic and I think I'd love the chance to do something like that again? maybe!

a site would also be good for setting up a way to buy merch from me more directly, though there are some perks that come with doing things through etsy... no pay cuts would be pretty sexy though, especially because something as small as stickers or A5 prints are really easy to package on my own. i'll have to look into it and see.

OH AND THE LAST THING IS THAT I WANNA MAKE ZINES! little ones that I can send to friends, and then less-little ones that I can put for sale digitally and physically, maybe for limited runs. gotta research that a bit but i've already got a couple of fun ideas and I'm super excited to find the time to work on stuff like that.

so... here's to hoping, i guess, for a productive year. im hoping my move and major restructure of my life/schedule, and not living with family anymore, is going to give me the space to be more myself irl in ways that will benefit my energy levels and creativity... so here's to hoping i guess!

[goshawk]

tagged by THE. @castielsupernatural

rules: answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to get to know better.

name: jess cinderwingcas

star sign: capricorn

height: 5′5’’

time: 11:30pm ET

birthday: january 8th

favorite bands/artists: ajr, conan gray, olivia rodrigo

last movie: everything everywhere all at once

last show: soup ear gnat rail

when did i create this blog: early december 2020. decided to finally stop lurking on my previous blog which was things i was no longer interested in 

what i post: well i did try to run a spn sideblog at first and keep this nice and pretty. and then i got bored and said fuck it and spent a few days reblogging from that and meeting post limit because i wanted everything here

last thing i googled: if there were goshawk/accipiter specific training techniques in falconry

other blogs: they exist but they are for me <3 storage of links/videos and fics i want to come back to

do i get asks?: not rly. falcon anon tho my beloved <3 hope they’re doing well.

following: 280

average hours of sleep: fuck. its been <5 recently. probably around 7 on the weekends though

instruments: used to know how to play the piano and viola but i can’t read sheet music for shit now. learned part of the americana theme at 2am during finals last winter to procrastinate though

what im wearing: soft fleece shorts and a shirt i got from a hackathon. i coded 0 lines that night but poached all the merch

dream job: realistically? domestic policy advisor/subject matter expert/professor. but if we throw that out, i’d love to be a professional falconer.

dream trip: northern norway. i want to go backpacking at 3am in the summer and go ice climbing in crevasses and see the birdlife up there

nationality: usa

favorite songs: oh this is a constantly rotating list. i return a lot to ajr songs and the other side of paradise by glass animals. some nights by fun. gets me really nostalgia happy-sad. 

last book ive read: know my name by chanel miller. that woman is a powerhouse and i don’t know how she does it

top 3 fictional universes i’d like to live in: alagaësia from the inheritance cycle and the guardians of ga’hoole universe. can’t think of another bc i read mostly realistic fiction after i was done with my fantasy kick. uhhh one where i developed my art skills more and felt comfortable sketching birds on the margins of my papers

@thenightwemetnatural @allegedlyopposed @goatiel @jasminecas @birbs-in-space @citruscas

[briefcasejuice]

For the top 5 asks: accessories you like to wear (bags, jewelry etc) merch items you bought because of fandom life favorite snacks gifts you've ever received songs you've been loving lately toys or games from your childhood

accessories:

my mom and i are really into pandora bracelets but i like really simple jewelry so ive got three of these:

my school bag is probably my favourite thing ever:

i also have pierced ears and like once a year ill wear some gold knobs

i also really want to learn to skate and i have friends who do & are really into skate culture so i have a horrid habit of wearing a shoelace as a belt

these kinds of clips:

merch:

i genuinely dont own a lot of merch because for a majority of my teenage life my main concern was posting about/buying things related to stuff i like and then being super embarrassed about it in a few months so:

i only really own book series

and one (1) lego batman shirt

and a hoodie for a streamer (not my proudest moment ill admit)

favourite snacks:

homemade garlic bread aka regular toasted bread with garlic butter

honey on toast!

my mom's fried plantains

doritos!

brownies!

gifts:

i really hate celebrating my birthday so i dont get physical gifts for the occasion; it's more like going out to dinner or hanging out with friends at the beach (etc etc) so i dont get gifts very often.

my dad got me my dream car last year!

some jeans i got in 2019

songs!

there r so many more but ive chosen from my top 40 from last month:

soft fuzzy man by lemon demon has been my favourite song since oct '21

cmnd/ctrl by deftones

in love with useless (the timeless geometry in the tradition of passing) by a sunny day in glasgow

our goal to realise by amusement parks on fire

sleight of hand by wild nothing

toys/games:

i was such an active kid growing up so most of the games i liked were just straight up sports & growing up as an (essentially) trans kids is having ur mom buy me dolls only for me to play with them for like a week then attempt to bring my bicycle into the house to ride it there 😭

swimming!

ballet

chess? i remember really liking it

football (soccer)

cricket

tysm for this ask this was so much fun!!

[seangelfish]

its like really hard to explain the whole british not british thing it genuinely depends on who you ask over here 😭😭

omg… maybe one day the anon will disappear and i can send the pictures 🙏🙏 one day….. BUT ALSO YEAH I GUESS FOR LIKE SAFETY REASONS AND STUFF IS WHY THE CANT

ive always thought about using buyee but ive just never actually tried it AHHHH SINCE YOU 🤨🫵 ARE A SEASONED PROFESSIONAL TELL ME… is it good ? cause i know the packages get sent to the warehouse and then sent out from there but im still just so hesitant on using it since i dont know a lot about it 😭😭 AHHH BUT I DID LOOK AT THE 2WINK AND KNIGHTS MERCH AND ITS SURPRISINGLY CHEAP… i knew 2wink would be cause theres not a lot of fans compared to other units but knights really surprised me since its so popular ???

its so cute that you took english lit for a levels oh my god 😭😭 i loved my english teacher we were doing like creative writing and she said i could write really good books for like teens AHHHH love her forever 🫶🫶🫶🫶

YEAH THE PARALIVE SONGS OUUHHHHH AUGHHH i heard them a long while ago and thats what got me into it in the first place but i just never really interacted with the fandom much AHHHH… but now,, NOW I MIGHT 🫵🫵🫵🤭🤭

HAVE A GREAT DAY !!!

-ainon ᡣ𐭩

That’s so weird. I have a feeling you’re like from Scotland or Wales now idk 😭

Yes!! I love using Buyee! There’s a lot of benefits, but that’s like with other proxies too. I’m just really used to this one. But yes, you’re right, it gets sent to the warehouse and they package all your items up and then send to you! Also, if you’re a new member, you get free shipping for 2,000 yen off!

Ikr when I saw Knights prices, I was kinda shocked 😭 but some Ritsu merch is so expensive compared to Leo merch. If you ever need help though, you can message me 😋

That’s so sweet!! I also have good experiences with my English teacher too 🥹 He graded my (personal) horror story and gave me full marks HAHA I miss GCSE English 😭

Ngl, I haven’t interacted too much with the fandom 😭 but that’s only bc I’m kinda a wuss. Enstarries are just so much easier to befriend LMAO but yes, you should properly get into it!! <3

Have a good evening, ainon!! 💖

[minmos]

But saying you can't read a book you like and talk about it or write fanfiction because others might buy merch because of this, isn't this a bit far fetched? Naturally no one should buy merch, but writing fanfics doesn't force anyone to buy merch.

But anyway, don't worry, I know you don't really want to talk about this, so this is the last thing I'm writing to you.

yea ill give you that. ive still got a lot to think on but i guess the concern that im trying to kind of work through re: how i feel is that there's still massive hype around hp in spite of how publicly awful the IP owner is. like there has to be enough fans spending money to turn a profit if theyre going to keep churning out a new movie every few years & putting merch up in every other store.. im pretty unsettled by the sheer amount of people who just like. Dont care just because they have nostalgia for the books. tbh it feels like a waste to try to discern who the "good" and the "bad" fans are when all of them are contributing to the same continued climate of hype & support of the series (& thus of its creator)

anyways that's just kind of where i'm at, thx for hearing me out at least o7

[deeeelightfuldee]

List 10 of your favorite girl names.

Violet, Eleanor, Faye, Ophelia, Holland (holly), Vera, Ivy, Naomi, Lorelai, Jane, Yvette (evie)

List 10 of your favorite boy names.

Theodore, Max, Jack, Matthew, Smith, Hugh, Burke, Beau, Crosby, Murphy,

List 10 girl names (or up to 10) that you don’t really care for.

I probably wouldnt name my daughter: beth, susan, kathy, crystal, sarah, jessica, aurora, mck-anything, lily, peyton

List up to 10 boy names that you don’t really care for.

I probably wouldnt name my son: paul, steve, frank, richard, bill, alexander, patrick, philip, douglas, jimmy

How old were you when you found out Santa wasn’t real?

My siblings made that pretty early.

List one past regret.

Not asking more questions when red flags occurred.

Do you own Converse, and if so, what color?

I do not

What color was your senior prom dress?

Like a fushia pink

Are you colorblind?

Nope.

Name the people you know who are colorblind.

jase

What’s one pet peeve of yours?

People asking me to get involved with something that has nothing to do with me, simply because they dont want to deal with the other person.

Would you ever consider a career in writing?

Ummmm, perhaps

What was the first thing you wanted to be when you grew up?

A missionary

What was your first favorite color?

Blue and orange

What is your favorite color now?

Pink and blue and white

Do you know a lot of people with the same middle name as you?

No. im sure people do, but i dont know more than i thiiiiiiink 1

Have you ever purchased a youtuber’s merch?

Nope.

Last thing you bought online? Did you like it?

A book. I havent read it yet but i assume ill like it.

Could you date someone who didn’t drive (and didn’t show an interest in ever getting their license, either)?

I could, but it would definitely not be an attractive quality to me. My weakness is a man driving me around in a truck.

How would you react if your artwork became famous?

Id be probably super uncomfortable

Would you get your nipples pierced?

Hmmm… probably not but ive never given it much thought

How many people know your birthday?

A handful of people. I think a lotttttttttttt of people forgot lately.

Has anyone ever tried to ruin a relationship you were in?

Yeppppppp. There were honestly only a couple relationships ive been in that the man was ABSOLUTELY in control of his feelings for me and did not allow anyone else to interfere with that. Gah that is the most … insanely attractive thing. Actually, the person that comes to mind that fiercely protected his relationship with me, had every reason to have it split apart by others. He refused. Man it was like.. My heart swelled at that.

Have you ever watched a whole hour long infomercial?

yes

What is your favorite kind of meat to put on your sandwich?

chicken

Which one of your exes do you feel like you have the most chemistry with?

Hmmm. john & K i was very much in love with. Chemistry was very strong. In person, physical chemistry? C. omg i would be constantly reminding myself “stop staring. Stop ogling him”

How do you feel about people who make Facebook profiles for their pets?

I think it is.. Odd. but it doesnt bother me.

Have you ever personally known a pair of conjoined twins?

Personally, no.

Is there something in particular you like to look at photos of? What is it?

I like to go back to pics of myself when i was feeling hot. I also like to look at pictures of people that i love/am romantically interested in

Chewy chocolate-chip cookies: like or dislike?

All for it.

Do you think your grandmother is/was beautiful?

absolutely.

When was the last time you got all dolled up?

Aug 16

Do you have a criminal record?

Nope.

Last person you took a nap with?

Other than myself.. Dutch? Maybe Z

Does seeing your mother cry automatically make you feel sad as well?

yes

Do you think someone likes the same person you like?

Lol. its going to take a long, long, long time before ill be able to *naturally* refrain from instantaneously believing there are other women in any picture of any man i am romantically involved with. That fact really bothers me, i used to be a bit more trusting.

Do you want your life to stay the way it is right now forever?

no

Are you medicated?

Nope

Do you shape/fill in your eyebrows?

Definitely. My natural brows are white blonde.

Have you ever stolen/borrowed clothes from an ex?

Stolen? No. i have a sweatshirt or two from jase, tho we just were romantic and umm.. Well we were romantic lets just leave it at that. I have clothes from Josh. I have a button up from John. I have i believe two shirts now from K. so the stuff ive got, ive been given.

Do you think you’ve already met your soulmate?

I really thought so, but i sure hope now that that isnt the case.

Do you get the feeling something good will happen in your life soon?

Im sure it will. I am always hopeful of that.

Do you enjoy romantic movies, even when they’re cliche?

definitely.

Have you been to McDonald’s in the past month?

Yep. we get our ice from there lol

Have you ever slept over at your best friend’s house?

who

How often do you go bowling?

Its been ages. I love bowling

Last time you were in an apartment?

Couple months.

Have you ever seen a live seahorse?

yes

Would you like to have your own yacht?

Honestly, no.

Winnie the Pooh or Tigger?

both.

What’s the unhealthiest thing you’ve eaten today?

Hmmm cereal

Has a stranger ever offered to buy you a drink?

yes

What is something you’d be happy to receive as a gift, that doesn’t cost a lot?

Daisies, handwritten letter,

What kind of music does your significant other/crush like to listen to?

pass

Who did you have your first kiss with? Do you remember what colour his/her eyes were?

Jase. blue.

Are there any themes from TV shows that you like to sing along to?

Gg obviously

Do you eat dessert after dinner?

Pretty much never.

Have you ever had too much to drink and felt embarrassed about your behavior the next day?

Lol. nah i own the behavior. OCCASIONALLY ill send texts or make calls that are umm.. Difficult to explain later.

When you go out drinking, what do you prefer to drink?

Depends if im trying to forget something/someone or not

What was the last animal that you saw?

Charley. He got up when i went down for water

What was the last thing that you said to one of your siblings?

“Do you still want your AAA membership”

What is the most expensive thing that you’ve purchased that you paid for:

Oxygen, medical appointments/imaging

What is your favorite messaging program?

I either use snap chat or text the most frequently.

Do you eat fast food more than 5 times a week?

no

Have you ever almost drowned?

yes

Have you ever learned something shocking about someone through Facebook?

Yessssssssss ugh.

Do you remember the first conversation you ever had with the person you currently have feelings for?

Yeah I do

Do you dread certain days of the week? If yes, what day/s and why?

Ummm no, not really.

If you eat oatmeal, do you have it plain or do you have certain toppings that you like to add to it?

I add toppings usually.

Choose one - Butterfinger, Milky Way, Snickers:

butterfinger

Do you use Mozilla Firefox?

I used to, im on a chromebook now.

Who is your favorite person to hug?

It has been so long since ive had a really, really, really good hug. C used to give me the most incredible ones. Honestly might go see him just to get one.

Have you ever had to have a mug shot?

No. well, a fake one for a youth group event.

What was the last thing you carried to your room?

water

When was the last time you had a late night phone call?

Like a week ago.

Do you know anyone who works at McDonald�s?

Not on a normal employee level but i do know two people who work for corporate mcds

What are your plans for next weekend?

Well.. some of the plans im willing to announce: town shred event, airport, antiques, cleaning, a go-out-bar-hopping night.

Do you know anyone who plays heaps of sports?

yes

Have you ever been suspended from school?

no

When was the last time you had chocolate?

yesterday

Have you ever been to a sports game?

yes

If so, what sport did you see?

Football, water polo, soccer, softball, baseball, basketball, volleyball, swimming, tennis

Have you used a sewing machine before?

absolutely.

When was the last time you had a snow day?

In college probably….. 3 years ago or so

Have you ever gotten in trouble for using a phone in class?

no.

Where do your cousins live?

I dont know about some of them. I know a couple used to be in colorado. Some are in florida. One is in chicagoland area.

Have you met any of your second cousins?

yes

Do you like the All-American Rejects?

Yep yep

Is your computer slow or fast?

Oh its plenty speedy. Its just constantly restarting.

What colour shirt are you wearing?

A gray tight ribbed tank.

Have you ever faked sick to get out of something?

no

Have you ever been ice skating?

I have. I just have to be careful cus my bones are weak and that is a recipe for disaster haha

Who do you sit near in math?

Not in math

Have you ever had Werther�s Original butterscotch toffee?

Of course. I have some downstairs currently.

When was the last time you wore a skirt?

A week ago

Have you seen all the Shrek movies?

I have not. I didnt like them.

Have you ever fainted?

Yes from heat exhaustion. Oh also when i was severely burned as a child.

What did you have for breakfast?

I skipped breakfast.

When was the last time you went on vacation?

It feels like a really long time.

Do you have any pets other than dogs or cats?

Nope. two kittys.

What colour is your bed sheet?

It is pink flowers.

What was the last thing you cooked?

Hard boiled eggs

Do you know anyone with the surname Matheson?

Not to my knowledge

Are you the type of person who gets injuries often?

No, not really. When i was younger i broke bones all the time. But no, not lately. Thats a large reason that im working out so consistently is that i want my body to rely on newly strengthened muscle groups that had previously been so weakened from illness.

What does your soap smell like?

coconut

Have you ever finished a whole video game?

Yes, absolutely.

Are your siblings allergic to anything?

No, theyre all good to go.

What time is it?

3:52am

Do you own a purple hoodie or sweatshirt?

Uhhhhhm i dont think so

Has your house ever had a pest infestation?

No. we occasionally get a mouse or two being that we are directly next to a forest preserve. But benny addresses that problem immediately.

Do you have any bad habits?

Of course.

Can you speak French?

No. i cannot.

Which one of your friends has great music taste?

em

What can you smell right now?

Not much of anything. I blew out my candle hours ago. I cant quite smell my room freshener with 5 fans going currently.

What was the last movie you watched?

Christmas at the plaza

What will you do after this?

Probably see if I can go to sleep.

[little-fairy-forest]

okay hi this only my second time making an ask so i hope it’s okay, but i noticed in one post you mentioned ireland and i got really happy since it’s been impossible for me to find fanfics and stuff with an irish s/o especially for bnha ...

so if it’s not a lot of trouble could you do bakugou, todoroki and midoriya with an irish s/o

i just feel like bakugou would love the curssing and creative comebacks and stuff

i don’t wanna sounds like i’m asking for a lot but if it makes sense like could u mention things like the way we talk and the accent (for me it’s kilkenny so south west and i live in the country)

for some reason i cant think of anything else but you can add what you want aswell since i’m guessing you are also from ireland (WHICH IM SO HAPPY ABOUT FIRST IRISH PERSON IVE SEEN THAT MAKES AMAZING FICS MWAH <3 love u

- anon c 💗

Oh my goodness my first anon-

🍀 Hello!

I've also had trouble finding stories that mention foreign readers and not from a specific place since its normally said e.g. America so I'm more then happy to make more Irish!reader content :)

Boys with an Irish! s/o

Bakugou, Midoriya, Todoroki, fluff

Bakugou

When he heard you speak for the first time he knew you were Irish, the accent is very well known

He liked how you casually slipped in a few curse words no matter who you were talking to

When you first joined U.A you greeting everyone normally and then you started to talk to everyone as if you known them for years, calling them "girly, babes, hun,pal" etc...

He didn't like how you gave Deku a big hug when you seen him after the weekend and gave him a very quick kiss on the cheek. Yeah, that's not happening

He asked you out and then from then on you were his little "clover" or "weird voice" or even "leprechaun" if your short

He was very concerned when you started to call Mina "my gal" he wasn't happy either poor thing didn't know that's what girls call there besties

"Why the fuck did you call racoon eyes 'my gal' or even fucking worse 'hun'?"

Yeah you had to explain that Irish people love everyone and treat them like there family even if you only met them twice.

He was amazed that you never mentioned Ireland had snack called "spice bag" or "chicken fillet roll" yeah go make it for him now please

Learned Irish to communicate with you, definitely wasn't using this incase he had to meet your family back home one day "babe we don't speak Irish every day" "tch doesn't matter it's an easy language anyway"

Has made some mental notes to take you on certain mountainous routes such as the Cliffs of Moher and Steps to heaven

All in all you two are literally joint at the hip and he is never letting you go :)

He tried to flirt once and oh god "babe your like my pot of gold at the end of the rainbow" "suki' your too big to be a leprechaun" "are you calling me fat?!"

Midoriya

When he heard you were from Ireland, he instantly looked up Irish Heroes to start a conversation with you at lunch

He loved the way you said certain words with your accent such as "water" or "three"

He was very flustered when you called him "Izuku" rather then Deku or Midoriya, he later found out that you seen him as a good friend from day one and you didn't mean to seem rude :)

Listens to you talk about Irish culture and he goes out if his way to include your culture in the dorms so you feel comfortable e.g. Having Irish tea (lions or Barry's I won't judge)

He asked you out in irish, but unfortunately he wasnt very good at the pronunciation but it was the thought that counts xo

You call him "gruaig glas" (green hair) he has no idea what that means but he thinks it's something sincere- He calls you "angel voice" and "pet"

He really wants you to bring back Irish hero merch back from when you visit home, and of course you do complete with an Irish heros book over the years and a matching notebook :)

He asks All Might if he has ever been to Ireland and if he has ever met any heros

Loves the look of the 'claddagh ring' and he buys you one for your anniversary x

Really like the wacky woolies merch, has a mug and a teddy :) (so cute-)

Asks his mom to make you Irish soda bread, and yes it was amazing!

His way of flirting was a cute attempt "You should kiss me like the Blarney stone because...em...oh no I forgo-" "because it gives you the gift of the gob?" "Eh y-yeah.."

Todoroki

Thought you were an angel with your accent, seriously he could be lulled to sleep

He didn't know how to get close to you since Japanese and Irish culture are very different

He decided to ask if you have tried many Japanese foods here yet and you said no, cue this slick mf asking you out on a date ;)

He is stuck by your side like a little lamb <3 your new nickname given by the class are little bow peep and their little lamb :,)

He loved the sound of the harp, he played it to help him sleep

It takes him a while to understand the slang you might say "your friends new bird? What kind?" "Oh! Sorry shouto my friends new 'bird' is his girlfriend" "his girlfriend? But she isnt an animal, unless her quirk-" "sho baby its slang"

He loves listening to Myths and Legends stories from Irish mythology, his favourite would be 'Oisín and Tír na nóg"

Tried Sheppard's pie, he liked it but soba still has a place in his heart

Fuyumi loved talking about anything to do with Ireland with you since she never really got to travel with taking care of her siblings and schoolwork

Endeavor, wasn't the happiest that shouto wasn't dating a Japanese girl (honestly endeavor just seems racist-) so it took him a while to get use to you...

Rei loved you! Seriously she loved the clovers you brought her. She loved hearing about your life back at home <3

Shouto really loves you for who you are and not where your from, this man is a simple man really :) just once you can make cold soba ;)

Thank you anon c 💗

Please sent me requests it helps me know what exactly people want me to write rather then just writing something no one will read :)

[cometcrystal]

types of scooby doo fans

the purest, most genuine kind. usually fans that are older in age; they usually watched the original shows when they were still airing. they just think scooby is wonderful and don’t really have any fandom opinions. more often than not, they have large merch collections. literally the sweetest people you will ever meet

people who haven’t watched anything beyond the james gunn movies, zombie island/the witch’s ghost, and/or sdmi. if they’ve seen all three, they think they’re an expert and an authority on the franchise. (probably refuses to give be cool scooby doo a fair chance)

cishet fraphnes that are the most boring people you will ever meet

LGBT fraphnes that are the funniest people you will ever meet

vaphnes that are the chillest people you will ever meet

vaphnes that are the most annoying people you will ever meet (favorite hobby is making fred a far righter and picking out unfitting moments to focus in favor of acknowledging any actual chemistry between the characters in stuff like daphne and velma 2018 and the book series of the same name)

shaphnes and frelmas that are laid back and make their little youtube videos of shaphne and frelma screencaps set to music

shaphnes and frelmas who think that being shaphnes and frelmas magically gives them a personality

shelmas (derogatory)

people who definitely put the friendship aspect of the franchise aside and see scooby doo as an eternal double date narrative plus a dog tagging along (either with fraphne and shelma, or vaphne and fraggy)

bi velma truthers who only got angry about defending bi velma/supporting that hc at ALL when velma was confirmed to be a lesbian

scrappy doo stans. every single one of them is just incredibly genuine and kind. you are all my comrades and i trust you all with my life. scrappy doo nation rise

fans who keep trying to fit all the canons into the smallest amount of timelines as possible (usually just one) and who get pissed when something new breaks continuity with something from 20 years ago

the rare fan that has a favorite character that is NOT a part of the core gang. you are all so strong

people who will literally complain all day about kate micucci existing

fans who mostly stick to the older shows, almost never out of a dislike for the newer shows, but just because the older ones are their favorite

sdmi stans whose main focus (or only focus) is on that specific scooby iteration. comes in two flavors: “refuses to concede that any other version of scooby is better than sdmi (or is good at ALL) OR that it has any flaws” and “likes this particular scooby a lot but doesn’t act like it’s the scooby bible”

get a clue stans. there’s like 2 of them but ive seen them out there. keep fighting the good fight

simple plan

Scooby Doo Mistakes

[theropoda]

hi hi im really tired so i haven't answered your ask yet BUT 1, 8, 9, 11 and 12 for you + WHAT ARE YOUR IMPERA THOUGHTS MY DUDE!!!!!!!!

EH no worries, take your time!!!

under a read more bc i can never make these ask games short. i love rambling for 1 million paragraphs :)

1: You have a chance to interview Tobias Forge. What 3 questions would you ask him? ahhh man three questions is not enough, i need go crack this man's head like an egg and see all the stuff that spills out and study it under a microscope... but..

i suppose id ask him 1) what it's like to go on stage and get to pretend to be someone else, is it freeing? he's always struck me as a little aloof in interviews and generally in public so i wanna know if putting his actions and performance behind a character and costume makes him feel like he can do whatever he wants more, or if its a little restricting almost?

2) he's mentioned in interviews he'd draw a lot as a kid and im really curious as to what so id love to ask him about it. i want to see baby forge doodles :)

3) id want to ask him about what potential he thinks he has for the ghost universe. he's talked about a movie multiple times but i wanna ask what other mediums the storyline could fit into... a comic book, maybe??? a rhythm game even??

4) Favorite dinosa

8: Have you discovered anything new thanks to ghost, e. g. a band, or song, or film? many things but none of significance? like i haven't really gotten into any of the stuff ive found out through them Lol

9: Name three songs you would like Ghost to cover. other than judas by lady gaga idk 😭 i suppose people have covers they'd like to hear cause they hear a song and they can imagine int their head how it'd be like if ghost covered it, or bc they think the music is similar but iiii can't. like idk what would fit or be good. i suppose they could do maybe an early genesis song like the knife though? my head would also explode if they covered an early oingo boingo song... maybe islands or who do you want to be today. or insects... i NEED to hear tobias sing that now... best song lyrics EVER

11: Favorite Ghost meme. i cannot Possibly choose.. so many are incredibly funny

12: Favorite piece of Ghost merch you own or would like to own. I OWN NONE 💔💔💔💔💔 IM TRYING TO FIX THAT THOUGH, id fucking LOVE to have the coloring book!!! i love coloring books and itd make a good replacement for the last one i had, which swiftly leads us to.... The Problem... i have, Unfortunately Yet Fittingly, overly religious and superstitious parents who i don't think would ever let me have ghost merch bc of their satanic nature T_T in fact, said old coloring book was a "dark art" one with a bunch of skeletons and zombies on it but my dad took it away from me bc he said it was dangerous and was exacerbating my mental illnesses Lol <3 if i ever got the ghost coloring book id probably have to hide it in a goddamn fucking safe lmao

as for impera...ive been trying not to listen to impera TOO much cause i dont want myself to get sick of it (ive honestly gotten sick of cmls hearing it in all their promotional material all the time) so im a little slowly re listening to it... there's definitely favorites like twenties and darkness at the heart of my love, but i think this is gonna be one of those albums where im like... it's good, it's solid, i can recognize the artistry and mastery put into it and why some people consider it one of their best but im gonna settle for Yeah its okay. i like it, sounds good, pretty cool, but i don't LOVE it like i love, say, meliora or infestissumam. it doesn't quite have that impact... on me..

[tema-makes-art-sometimes]

Just saw your vent post and I think diving into your self indulgent stuff might help. For me personally, when working on original stuff, that's when I'll think about things like appealing to others/marketability/etc, but when it comes to fandom stuff, the only audience I care to pander to is Me, Myself, and I. Other people sometimes end up liking it, mostly it just goes ignored, maybe a like by a mutual if they see it. I prefer it this way, since worrying about appealing to more people when writing fanfic makes it feel too much like Writing I Do For Work, and I even never use betas for that same reason, it makes it feel too much like Work Writing, when fandom is Fun Writing.

I'm not sure what you do outside of fandom, but you have so much creativity, I've kinda assumed you've either been doing creative work or are studying to go into it--I can see you in a character design shop tbh, I can see Pin being a villain people would just eat up and love or love to hate.

If you're in a creative field, I feel like it's just good practice to go into Work Creative Space and Fandom Creative Space with different intents, if anything for the sake of mental health, as I've been in a very similar place, where silence on my fandom work would make me rethink what I'm doing, make me want to retcon WIPs, thinking "Maybe if I change this to that or this ship to that ship or change this character to be closer to fanon, more people will want to read/will comment/whatever".

You sound like you already very well know this isn't a healthy mindset, so I'm not going to go into that. I'll just say dive into that self indulgence, whether or not you're doing original creative work in the background as a job/part of study. You have great stuff, but audiences can get burned out just like creatives do. Sometimes it's because they're also creatives. Sometimes it's just burn out from seeing so much art/writing/media ALL THE TIME.

Something a professor told me was that if you got to go to an art museum, and you tried to really appreciate each piece, you'd end up exhausted before finishing even one section of the museum. This can lead to the 'mindless scrolling' a lot of the time. Fandom is becoming a large part of a lot of people's lives, but for most people, it's secondary or even tertiary media, and they're already putting a lot of energy into enjoying and appreciating the media they're in fandoms for. (Yes, there are some people who 'set fire to canon' and are in the center area of a fandom, but most people are closer to the sides, occasionally popping in from time to time but not setting up tents, if that makes sense.) So many of those people just don't have the energy to really get involved with a lot of media produced my fan creators, especially if they follow a lot of them and can only comment or otherwise get involved with a few posts/creators at a time. This can be what often leads to some 'visiting' the same 3-4 creators more often than they may go to another creator.

Setting up a place and waiting for more people to filter in can feel exhausting all by itself, especially when you're trying to create more to fill more of that space and hopefully entice more people to pop in and see what's going on.

When you focus on self indulgence for a while, you're not always looking at the door, since you usually don't expect people to walk in (at least, I never expect it), so when people actually do come in and tap you on the shoulder to see what you're working on and if they can see, it can really help offer that extra boost you need.

I really don't think you're doing anything wrong. A lot of artists who don't do what those "How to get more followers" tips still find an audience, sometimes due to the niche, sometimes starting out niche but expanding as more ideas get tossed in. Some artists who by the book, seem to do everything right, don't get nearly as much. There's really not a right or wrong way to create or share your creations. There are just a /lot/ of creators, so a lot of times, it boils down to how people find your door.

These are all really good points so I am going to share. Honestly a lot of my GerCanMano stuff is pure self indulgence but you're honestly right I think I'm probably gonna focus on some self indulgent shinanigans for a bit, and stop worrying as much about getting things out on time and making it perfect

but I do wanna point out this cause it hit me;

I'm not sure what you do outside of fandom, but you have so much creativity, I've kinda assumed you've either been doing creative work or are studying to go into it--I can see you in a character design shop tbh, I can see Pin being a villain people would just eat up and love or love to hate.

I was in school, but I never declared my major so I had to stop temporarily because I honestly don't know what major to be. There's so many things I like to do, but I don't know if I want to make a career out of them if that makes sense.

Like art, I love art and video games, I'd love to do things like animation or graphic design or be my own indie developer, but I worry if thinking about a game like a business slash whats making me money will ruin the creative process. It wont be making things for the joy of making things, it would be for my job because I had to, and idk- that just isn't as fun. Im worried about that mentality sinking in. I like them but idk if I wanna have to take them full on seriously as a career.

I'm trying to get a minimum wage job right now but its hard to find a job right now in the US job climate, especially with the fact that I have to find job willing to cater to a disability I have currently offrecord because my doctor wouldnt listen to me. Which is even harder because Ive had to walk away from jobs before because they wouldnt give me accomedations without doctors recommendation.

I am planning to set up a Etsy shop right now actually. I need to get a printer, but otherwise hopefully soon I will have a store up with stickers and preorders for keychains. One day I plan to get a button press and make my own buttons. I have hetalia merch planned, as well as my ocs. I'd love and have designs for all sorts of stuff, custom tshirt designs- like subtle hetalia fan stuff like pockets on the chest witht he character "sticking out" with familiar hetalia patterns. I have miraculous ladybug stuff planned. My friend gave me the idea of aster's heart as a friendship necklace and I love it, I could imagine all sorts of needle and thread themed pin merch I have a lot of ideas its just designing and making them and seeing if people would buy them.

I dont quite know what you mean by character design shop if thats something different or not, but yes.

Ill save a ramble about pin for a seperate post this ask is long and so is my response so Ill stop