#literally my fav art so far its insane

[ellearts]

Pink Liam vibes 💕

[gorillaxyz]

HI PIPPA 👋👋 qhats your favourite spiderman comic... 🎤 ORR your fav spidey storyline

HI DAVIE omg....

I TALKED SO MUCH TL:DR: my fav spider man comic on its own is unmasked by doc ock & my fav spidey storyline is spider man no more

my insane person ranting is under the cut THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ASK the spider man autism has never left it just remains dormant... but for how long...

well... from classic tasm I LOVE SPIDER MAN IS NO MORE SO MUCH. when there was a hobie version of the one of the covers in atsv i actually screamed out loud in the cinema (i screamed the whole time though that movie was insane for me)

ALSO... MY FAV SPIDER MAN MOVIE OF ALL TIEM SPIDER MAN 2............. spider man is no more comes up in it PETER IS SO GOOD IN THAT MOVIE i literally tear up whenever i think abt him i love you sam raimi spider man until i die. the bit where he has the worst day ever WITH HIS ADORABLE STUPID GLASSES ON i dont want to talk abt peter but hes so cute i love him i need to see him Sorry hes ruined rhe post hang on

AND THE TRAIN SCENE IS IN SPIDER MAN 2 AS WELL sorry i lobe spider man 2 so much i need to rewatch it

his fucking hor dog 😭

UMMMMMMMM i also looooooVEEEE LOVE LOVE LOVE??????? the ultimate spider man spin off comic....... the name escapes me rn but ill get it in a sec.. where all the villains spidey had fucked over at that point were in prison.... AND THEY ALL ESCAPE and otto is literlaly so cute in it for NOOOOO REASON WHAT WAS THE REASON. not really an arc or comic or whatever but i love whenever 😭😭 otto is in a piece of spidey media and he sucks up to like the prison guards or whatever and they get a bit more lenient with him l OR hes let out of prison early on good behaviour 🤧♥️ ITS SOOO CUUUTTEEEEE and its been part of his character since like. the second issue he was ever in it is SO beautiful to me

the comic series i was talking abt was ULTIMATE SIX i need to reread it i think abt the wasp saying otto has gingivitis ALL THE TIME for some reason 😭

i also love LIKE EVERY SINGLE......... SPIDER MAN REVEALED!?!?!?! story line........ especially when through INSANE REASONS peter gets away with it and people are like oh ^_^ silly peter could never be spider man HE IS.. thats his secret

^ my fav moment this happened is the first time... when hes super sick and he goes off to save betty(? i think... i dont think it was some random woman LOL) from doc ock AND THE COVER OF THE COMIC. im insane about it actually its one of my fav comic covers EVER OF ALL TIME let me get it

UNMASKED BY DOCTOR OCTOPUS!!!!!!! i love it so muchh the little "look whos back!!" arrow. i could scream. STEVE DITKOS ART EUUUUHHHHHHHH i love you classic spider man comics

also IVE SAID SO MUCH HELP ME. but... also... sniffle... the concept of superior spider man just scratxhes my brain so perfectly... i havent read it yet bc im insane and i wanr ro readEVERY SPIDER MAN APPEARANCE IN COMICS IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER like an insane person. but some day ill cave in. and i will read superior spider man. and i will either love ottos characterisation in it or ill hate it with a burning passion ♥️

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ASK... if you do read rhis far THANK YOU but if you dont its ok i udnerstand. im insane

[idealspawn]

i think its probably good that he is on his 2 week europe trip. we made plans for after his trip so i feel secure. he told me he trusts me. i trust him too. i was afraid i dont trust myself not to disconnect w my feelings but i think its fine now. i therapized myself out of it :d. i think we both need breathing room. i also need to get sober for a while, fuck. that has def messed me up. we met up one last time before he left too and he took pics of me w his film camera. he is convinced that im photogenic though im not.... he taught me how to use the camera too! we also visited a local church and listened to the organ music there. it was beautiful. ive been massively inhaling therapy videos on how to self-regulate and allow breathing room in a relationship. also how to maintain a distinct identity whilst being together with someone. it has helped me immensely. i also have actually returned back to my hobbies and read diff essays abt my personal interests like philosophy and religion and the art of translating literature. i rediscovered old video games i used to play w my sister, that is insanely healing. ive drawn a lot and listened to lots of new music and made new cool playlists. i watched some anime too! ive met up w my friends that i havent seen in such a long time and ive been such a great host. i invited my 8 girl friend group over and we made spring rolls together and mojitos and got high and played cool board and card games. it was so refreshing. i also invited my closest friend over and we went riding w bikes at night and climbed on the walls surrounding a manor near my home. not sure if legal but we also jumped in their backyard and ran around. it was so beautiful. we also did lots of other fun stuff. i saw poppies! my fav flower. also bats!!! the reflection of the moon on a river was so beautiful. it was so nice that my sister came over for a day too. i saw two of her friends briefly too and they were so nice to me! today ill be going out of my comfort zone a fuck ton too. my friend is hosting her bday party in her countryside home that is far away and i havent even figured out my transportation back. i will stay there for 3 days. loose ends like that used to freak me the fuck out but i think ill be fine. its an old house so it doesnt really allow me to follow all my insane rituals but i think i need to train myself to be okay w it. most ppl are sleeping in tents but i can be in the house bc i literally dont have a tent but that also probably would make me panic a bit too much. too many new things at once isnt good either i think. im actually doing fine. its nice. surprising that ive done things and im doing things and i havent died although most of my life ive literally feared i would. like not yet discussing why i shut down when the guy im seeing tried to be intimate and postponing it for after his trip.. i used to NEVER be able to do that. like i couldnt for the life of me sit w the uncomfortable emotion. like my entire life used to stop until i could regulate through the other person and vocalize it. but now ive just like. organized my brain. and self-soothed myself and i feel safe that he wont immediately leave me just bc of one difficult situation with an ambiguous meaning. and that the issue can be put on pause and when he returns we can talk about it.

[lunathequeerscientist]

when you get this ask you have to answer with 5 of ur fav songs and then send this ask to 10 of ur favourite followers :) (no pressure <3)

Ooooooooooh YES an opportunity to open THE ABSOLUTE FLOODGATES of my music preferences! Hmmmmhmhmm heheheheee *rubs hands together maliciously

Okay, so:

1.

AAEERREEEEREEEEEREEE YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I LOVE SHELTER (by Porter Robinson & Madeon)

(I’m so sorry I don’t know who this picture’s original artist is, I just found it on google, who ever it was, you are AMAZING ✨)

THE MUSIC VIDEO is just BY GOSH SO GOOD! It’s literally better than most movies I’ve watched. The story, the art, the colours… and the story! DID I MENTION THE STORY!!! AEIIIAJDJFNSNJ okay I won’t spoil it but I’ll have to literally bite my nails clean off gooo shoooo before I explodeeeee… oh… Oh… HERE IT COMES TAKE COV-

2.

Anyways, moving on

My next favourite… ooooh see this ones interesting because there are a bunch of songs here, it’s kind of like, you know when you have multiple favourites and you can’t really choose except I already have a favourite but that’s only because that favourite is relatively more favourite than my other favourites thanks to it’s possession of a feature or features that favourites it out of my other favourites… ish? Yeah? Yeah… ? *hopeful stare

Oki let me try again: i likey many song :D

This spot gets awarded tooooo.... a nightcore remix of Wake me up when September ends, uploaded by Syrex (unfortunately I cant seem to find the original video I usually listen to, the cover art on this is sliiiiightly too graphic for my liking (dw its not explicit or anything) but the original was perfect!)

This was one of my first nightcore songs, and something about it just felt so… magical 🌈 and 🌟mystical🌟… like a sort of window into another dimension? I still come back to it as my comfort song, kind of like a sonical blorbo…. A blorbo song? A slorbo? Yeeeaaah!

In a similar position but possibly not to the same extent are other nightcore remix songs like Drivers License (also uploaded by Syrex) and Fly me to the moon(also Syrex) and some others

3.

Now I do indeed enjoy a spot of classical music (mainly rather popular songs though) and what else do I say than frikin Tchaikovsky’s Piano Concerto No. 1.

Oh ajsjdbdk do I love Tchaikovsky! “Canons are not instruments!” Tchaikovsky: *slow evil grin* “Your gonna love this” *starts 1812 Overture -need I say more

✨Tchaikovsky brain rot Tchaikovsky brain rot Tchaikovsky brain rot Tchaikovsky brain rot Tchaikovsky brain rot Tchaikovsky brain rot Tchaikov✨

Okay I lied actually I do enjoy more than a spot of it, I listen to it classical music sometimes obsessively, all the way from grand masterpieces while looking through my homework as a cunning super villain surveys their chaos to frilly piano pieces. Oooh speaking of, Un Sospiro by Franz Liszt, that is by far one of my favourite piano pieces… maybe close to Piano Conerto no 1 in terms of favouriteness? Maybeeee?

4.

I do also love some pop and dancey and songs. I think One Last Time by Ariana Grande definitely sticks on this list and is one of my all time favourites. The music video is amazing too! There also others like Solo Dance by Martin Jensen, Style by Taylor Swift (oooh another of my favourite artists btw) Don’t lose my number by Phil Collins and Heaven (DJ Sammy and Yanou)

5.

I (mostly) love my YouTube recommendations, and most of the time its cute (and very VERY impressive) animatics galore, and some of the music I’ve heard on them just sticks with me and lives rent free in my head. The one on this list has to be Sincerely, Me (from this animatic). Now I don’t know much about the song out of the context of this animatic, however rumour has it that it is rather twisted (again, I have actually no idea where it’s from, I never followed it up) but it’s so insanely catchy I find myself head-playing it on repeat and listen to it to scratch that very specific itch… the animation is absolutely 🌟amazing🌟 too in that video, and I keep coming back! Also I’d like to show you Think U Know by Ikson, found in this animatic by none other than cudlil :P I love her channel, and all the music she uses!

So there you go! Now I know it may seem a bit like a genre rank, but I assure you it’s not. It’s not, it’s not not ntotntotntotn noooooo

It’s just that I sort of categorise songs by the way they make me feel, and most of the time the ones listed from 2-5 can be interchanged (meaning I like them all equally)

Oooh oooh! And ofcourse, Thank you so much for the ask! 🌈🌟

[bonesandthebees]

hello beeee :))) hope u r doing well today !!

Are u a sleep w socks on type of person or sleep w them off?

I used to only sleep with them off and thought ppl who slept w them on were Cursed Af like wtf let ur feet Breathe, but then there was this insanely cold winter and I put on my socks and it helped keep me warm So Well and i was like "oh" and then i got so used to sleeping with them on that i felt super exposed with them off ahfkfkf but now it's summer and it's too hot to keep them on so i have now learnt to sleep with them either way . So yeah DHFKGKL

I had a really nice day today!! I was very tired (did not get enough sleep last night whOops) but i went out to a local art store with my friends in a nearby town and its my fav store everrr. I ended up buying a couple of pins and a new piece to put on my wall !!!

I absolutely adore the artist of the art piece, i bought this from them the first time i went to the store

I cannot recall if ive showed u or not, but i have a pin collection on my (tubbo) jean jacket!!! I fricken love this jacket so much mannn, none of my family did but i saw the design on the back and went I Need It. And now it's literally my most worn piece of clothing 😭😭 but yeah i adore the pins on it sm and it's really made the jacket feel more of my own thing rather than just merch

Gosh it makes me so happy eueueueu

I also bought a bunch of patches but i have yet to put them on bc it intimdates me LMAODJFKFK

I will send a photo when i eventually do put them on tho FHGKGK

Hope ur having a good night so far :D

hi icy!! I'm doing alright today, definitely tired bc I had to drive down to SD and back to help my dad with something (which is roughly a 2 and a half hour drive each way) so that was just a Lot of driving for me

I'm a sleep with socks off type of person unless I'm in a really cold environment (like the time I slept on an air mattress in roxy's living room when there was a snowstorm going on outside and I was laying right in front of a sliding glass door—I had on thick socks, sweatpants, two shirt layers + a sweatshirt, and soooo many blankets my california ass was not built to deal with snow)

I have a very strange relationship with socks on my feet at night that bc I have a blood flow disorder that can manifest in any of my extremities but for me mostly manifests in my feet. and for some reason it always acts up more at night. so most of the time I literally can't wear socks on my feet at night or else it's very very uncomfortable bc it'll trigger a flareup. thankfully as long as i'm not somewhere where it's literally snowing outside, my blankets are usually enough to keep my feet warm

oh that sounds like such a lovely day!! all those art pieces are gorgeous and I love those pins you bought too!! also omg the pins you have on your jean jacket are so cool. I'm obsessed with the various foxes

(the tubbo jean jacket was genuinely so cool I never wear jean jackets but I seriously considered getting one anyway just bc of how cool the design was. ultimately I did not but damn I was tempted)

[m1ckeyb3rry]

Omg megumi and Yuta are my favs after Inumaki LMAO (I’m Lowk salty that we did not get ANY lore exploration of Inumaki but maybe it’s better that way so he stays alive atp)

No the hating mainstream things to be “unique” is so eugh honestly like just because somethings mainstream doesn’t mean it’s basic…but exactly I’ve definitely lost the spark with jjk I think it just got too confusing? And I was losing the essence of the story and idk I know geges said before that that they’ve wanted to end jjk earlier but something about the editor saying no…? I feel like sometimes the lack of motivation kinda peeks through with how the story was done….which I get because writers block/art block and just burn out in general is so real I just wish circumstances were different lmao…

Also yeah the “jjk has the best female characters” ideation…hmm..it’s def better than the blatantly sexualized ones but at this point it kinda feels like a bare minimum/low standard thing that they ARENT sexualized like in most shounen content that makes people say this (i agree like wtf happened with yuki we barely saw her honestly?? Don’t get me started on tsumiki i was expecting them to take a route where maybe she’d actually wake up and play a more conscious role but what the hell was that)

NO LITERALLY im all for analysis and leaving some things open ended but idk in jjk it was just excessive that it turned into confusion like…the constant guessing and insane analysis that needed to be done to clarify things or try to parse things together is not my favorite…agreed that the story should not have to rely on deep level analysis to be understood!

Yeah I’ve definitely lost my emotional ties with jjk its just like well I got this far i might as well see how it ends

LMAO WIGGLY that made me think of a worm on a string but I see what you mean! One track soccer mind doesn’t give much room to explore lolll but it was executed very well hehe

LMAOO it’s the pipeline of shitting on side characters to loving them but I can’t with his hair cut…also don’t think he’s ugly like I guess he’s objectively relatively good looking? But yeah I never fully saw the appeal (it’s funny because I know a good amount of people who prefer him to Rin when I’m the opposite lol) and the Gojo aura LOL

THE ACCURACY IS INSANE the way I would have never known if you didn’t mention it (I don’t think I would’ve even noticed if I wrote it) the fact checking goes crazy LMAO but I love it honestly the research def gives the story more depth and feel to it rather than just a one shot/story that kinda just floats in the void of the universe or something…gives it ties to reality and an actual grounding in the world! (This was worded so badly lmao)

It’s always Karasu….I think it’s partially also because some manga scenes of him are a little goofy because they give him that smile that almost cuts across his entire face to give him that kinda evil looking smirk….and the anime style kinda striking that awkward balance of maintaining those features but not putting enough detail to go full asshole def makes it a little goofy LOL (but in art they put more effort into like the S2 trailer/teaser visual he looks great with all the shading)

And LMAOO IKR!!! I always think back to that I’m like KURONA WAS 4??? Bro wasn’t even on the field in the u20 match so I was Lowk a bit shocked haha, iirc Kiyora was also 5?? Like the discrepancy makes me laugh ik people probably developed during the second selection but the drastic change always gets me

Your tag with the arrow has me feeling idk why I found that so funny LOL

Also SHSHS drowsy allergy medicine is the worst…I hope you weren’t having a severe reaction or anything and also that you feel better soon!!!

-Karasu anon

there’s def a lot of areas where there could be more lore (rika’s character page is so odd??) just because of how many characters there are i think!! but i do feel like the story is wrapping up so some things might just be left as questions. or not, who knows!!

yeah there’s def a cycle of like thing gets popular -> everyone loves it -> it becomes so over saturated that people start hating on it to be different -> it becomes overhated -> in a few years everyone realizes it wasn’t that bad. the biggest problem w the “hating as a trend” is that it takes away from legitimate criticisms of the work, as fans will lump it into general hating for no reason.

besides just analyses being so important for even basic comprehension of the plot, i’ve noticed a lot of the storyline is dependent on random interviews gege has done. like nobara’s death only being confirmed because of an interview years after it was written is RIDICULOUS to me (even though i already thought she was dead tbh but there was enough speculation in the fandom that it obviously wasn’t clear enough in-story). things like interviews and character pages should give you fun additional information that can help you expand on a character (oh rin likes horror games!! karasu is scared of the water!! etc etc) but it shouldn’t be the MAIN source of KEY info on a character. idk i think a lot of people love what jjk could be at this point and not necessarily what it is.

YESS i honestly was not super pleased by the female characters in jjk!! they are cool, and they COULD be well written, but they aren’t. i think in terms of its contemporaries, demon slayer does female characters better than jjk (again, not saying they’re perfect because they aren’t, but, say, shinobu is a stronger character to me than even maki).

jjk is a sunk cost fallacy for me HAHA i’ve been into it for over 2.5 years now so i have to see how it ends but i don’t really care atp what happens 😭 i’m like an unbiased outsider…idk it’s sad i wish i could’ve stayed invested but i only even know leaks are dropping because my social media blows up whenever they do.

OMG i also think rin is better looking than sae but i find sae easier to write for some reason?? idk why 😫 like sae is canonically only interested in soccer at least rin likes horror stuff but honestly between the two of them it feels easier to separate sae from soccer than rin?? if only marginally so hahaha. sae occasionally expresses regret at only knowing abt soccer so i feel like he’d be more willing to open himself to new experiences if sufficiently prodded whereas rin is SO invested in soccer (because soccer = his relationship w his brother) that he doesn’t even seem like he could have a proper friendship w someone let alone an actual relationship 😔

it really is always karasu…i do think manga can get away w exaggerating certain features (ex karasu’s smirk) that anime can’t so they have to figure out a way to balance it — maybe it’s the static nature of manga vs the motion of anime?? although karasu hasn’t been smirking much in pxg vs bm 😕 give my boy his swag otoya back!! HAHA but i also think he was such a background character in that one scene of season one that they just didn’t gaf abt him. he’s looked really good in all of the s2 promotional material so i have faith he will be done well!!

KURONA AND KIYORA MY RANDOM AHH KINGS 🙏🏻 they came outta nowhere but they’re slaying atm…ig the hundred goal thing only tested a very specific aspect of playing soccer?? like shooting without anyone on you which doesn’t really translate to an actual game 🤔 like in bllk vs u20 they needed defenders and midfielders who wouldn’t necessarily score but were integral to the game 👆🏻 plus they didn’t all go in at the same time so better players like tabieitaken and shidou were ranked lower than randoms like tokimitsu probably just because they entered later 🤷🏻‍♀️

it wasn’t that bad!! i just got like overwhelmingly sleepy because i haven’t taken any in forever so i just crashed instead of staying up longer like i usually so haha. but i’m hoping to get the one shot out soon!! it’s pretty dumb but more karasu content is more karasu content 🤩

[blueskittlesart]

unless you’ve already done it can we get a ranking / tier list of the zelda games you’ve played?

oh god this is going to be difficult. ok let’s go!! (note: i left out nes zelda, zelda II, and a link between worlds because i haven’t played enough of them yet to have formed strong opinions)

1. botw. oot almost beats it out but even i can recognize that oot cant REALLY compare to botw in terms of gameplay or story no matter how much i want it to in my mind. botw is just a new level of character development and storytelling for loz imo and the way it was implemented into the gameplay was so incredible i wish i could go back and experience it blind again

2. oot my beloved. incredible story incredible characters. the og. literally the baseline which i compare all other zelda games to bc it’s just. so strong all around. absolutely one of the games of all time everyone go play oot

3. skyward sword!! i know it gets bumped down on a lot of people’s lists because of the controls (and trust me, i know why. i played it on the wii) but the story was so compelling to me that it’s one of my top favs regardless!! i also really REALLY love the art direction in this game it was so good

4. a link to the past. classic!! i think it’s the strongest of the 2d zeldas i’ve played so far, and it still holds up on its own (though when compared to other games it’s pretty bare-bones) plus it gave us bunny link which. UGH i could go on and on about how obsessed i am with that plot point

5. majoras mask. i LOVE the story of this one and it makes me insane but the timer makes me so anxious that it’s functionally unplayable. which is 100% a me problem but that’s why it’s so low on the list

6. links awakening. i don’t. really have much to say about this one tbh. like it’s not BAD but it just wasn’t super memorable for me plus the final battle was so fucking difficult to beat it annoyed the shit out of me

7. twilight princess. i hate this game lol ❤️ don’t defend it in the comments either because i’m correct and i don’t care how you feel

[gar-trek]

i literally forgor to do my tng season 6 thoughts for so frackin long even though its a tradition 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱 curses curses curses.... well my memory is of course foggy but here we go!!!

jesus christ....... Deanna insane milf meltdown episode happened in season 6???!!! that feels like forever ago.... it took me a very long time to finish season 6, but i did in mid December ish. overall this season had some episodes that i found kinda boring, but also some that have been my favourite of ALL TIME!!! so like very solid if not one of the best season. So strange to watch a show funny hit its stride as late as season 6, but better that then to start to dip in quality. its actually pretty crazy to me that TNG has stayed SO GOOD despite its very long run time.

Episodes that were just whatever:

-Birthright was kinda like.... uh idk i felt like it did not need to be two parts. Also i dont think ALL the kligon children would have been that eager to leave their homes. like it seemed like they had a really nice life there down on their little planet even if it was technically a prison?? i can see some of them wanting to leave after finding out they could, but like, that was there whole life what else are they gonna do. idk it was just kinda a weird message

-Face of the enemy: Literally such a convoluted plot that made NO SENSE.... like them kidnapping troi to make their fucking insane plan work out... idk just seemed so unrealistic even for star trek where literally anything could happen. it felt like it should have been revealed as a dream or something

-tapestry: weird that picard had sex with like a 19-20 year old

-lessons: dont care about picard personal life. that felt like picard fanservice but ummmm... for whom ??? who wants to see that??

FAVVVV episodes:

-Schisms: did i like this one or did i just like seeing riker in his jammies one million times?

-Rascals: AKA the most camp episode of star trek ever aired and also a genius work of art. LITERALLY so good. taking overly serious picard and making him a silly little kid like... who though of that. also the child actors were all very charming and i thought they did a good job. never ever getting over the scene where picard throws a tantrum and riker has to pretend to be his dad. so funny

-fist full of datas: again, camp. work and data and troin cowboy outfits. enough said

Chain of command: that episode is iconic for a reason...... i mean just .... it was so fucked up...

Starship mine: i literally enjoyed every single second of this episode. like begining to end. and i liked how it was all pretty fast paced. i mean i guess there was a lot at stake there but at the same time it felt small scale enough to be super engaging. and like you know me im not a picard stan or anything but rouge picard was pretty epic i must say

frame of mind: riker insanity idk i cant even begin to explain it sorry girls. all time fav. literally

Second chances: i will be writing my dissertation on this one boys. right now, second chances is fav episode of ALL time. no cap.

YAYYYY!!!!!!!!! seriously rascals, star ship mine, frame of mind, and second chances are like, so far up there on my favs of all time list on god.... very good season and im already well welll welllllll into season 7, so that overview will probably come quite soon

[local-jester]

okay i started ironically calling this a hell site. but now im unironically saying it. i legit dont get the damn issue with yan marx.

yeah he kills like 2 people so magolor will love him. so? is it the murder? is that a problem?

are people just sensitive to have their fav protrayed as evil?! yet there are countless fanfics where a kirby charater is protrayed as a yandere. my yan marx isn't the only yandere marx. check wattpad theres a few. magolor too isn't safe from being a yandere in an au.

is that he offs himself so he wont hurt magolor? he literally offs himself to protect the one he loves from his insane mind driven by a horrible need for romance and affection.

he's literally protrayed as being so desparate for someone to love him he'll kill just do so. which yes is just my protrayal of the yandere type. he just wants to be loved and went too far and got carried away.

now at the current point in the au he's happy with someone, he s a smug lil kingly boi and he has his roses and his fingers to munch on.

is that he kills people and takes their fingers to eat?? i literally made that as a joke thing. it's not even fully canon to the au.

am i seriously a horrible person for an au???? literally? i dont fucking get whats so wrong with the au. do people just have no lives and choose to harass a literal child over a dumb little concept they came up with 4 months ago?

hell most of the au is just yan marx being a fucking love sick idiot. and now he doesn't wanna kill anymore unless it's for fingers. which isn't much considering the eating fingers thing was a joke.

go back to twitter for fucks sake or go get some sunlight and a damn life if you gotta harass a kid for something this fucking dumb.

oh and again for the millionth fucking time: A YANDERE IS A TROPE USED IN ANIME AND MANGA IM NOT THE ONLY FUCKING ONE. if its cause it's marx is it suddenly super fucking wrong?

this shits gonna give me a fucking panic attack. im gonna be offline for awhile and anyone who wants to be an ounce of nice to me tell the damn anon to fuck off and leave me alone or we cant be mutuals anymore. im prepared to lose followers and i'll probably leave this site for good i geuss..so i will no longer be a source of marxolor and cute art. go find others or something..

[fanmoose12]

I am not over it. I am SO not over IT. I read the SNK manga YEARS ago when it was only chapter 100 and one day I had the dumb idea to continue that shit. I am not PLEASED and Hanji's death UTTERLY WRECKED ME, someone who wasn't even a Hanji Stan!! reading the manga made me fall in love with her quiet determination, leadership skills, and sense of duty when before I was more of an Armin type of girl? She just. won me over. and her death was NOT OKAY. I CRIED while saying no no nO NOOO OH MY GOD -

and it TORE ME APART and she was the only person in my mind ever since and I couldn't read the manga in the same nonchalant way ever again. i'm sorry i promise im getting somewhere! it legit ruined my moods and made me so sad all the time IT WAS THAT BAD and i started hating eren with absolute passion. Idek where to start? How her death was pointless & nobody gave a fuck?? and Levi thought of FRICKING ERWIN instead of Hans & I wasnt even a Levihan shipper it doesnt make SENSE! He just LOST HANS

-- and all he can think about is FUCKING ERWIN. come on MAN, and she parented the 104th even REINER had more emotions than these mfers. Everyone is alive EXCEPT HER, like onyakapon and even yelena, minor characters, it just feels so UNFAIR, i'm not mad abt death, i breathe angst like it was chocolate it was just so pointless and meaningless and no one even grieves, especially Levi who was closest to her. there was just no room for her in the plot anymore and thats what makes me pissed -

- not bc it was her time, but bc she ran out of uses to the plot and like in GOT where the character is smarter than the author. not only that, she was made so powerless and pathetic and she felt so useless and she died like that. where's the justice? the character arc? right she was there Just to Save Levi :// it's like that quote from gone girl - "the world will know that [man] threw his beloved wife like garbage, and she floated past down all the other abused, unwanted, INCONVENIENT, women"

(sorry for the fem pronouns, i'm all abt anime hange here). and its not like she wasnt a fan favorite, she's top 3 of the last character poll. just bc shes not levi and eren and armin. and cmon. yams had to nerf and minus 100 out of her iq for the INSANE plan of fucking zeke and the yeagerists, can you BELIEVE she trusted and was OUTSMARTED by ZEKE, who legit massacred the survey corps, even though SHE HAD THE SAME LEVEL OF IQ?? but noooo, plot reasons!! shes not eRwIn, what you expect 🙃

im upset, not bc my fav character died but bc it was meaningless (if falco can fly, why tf didnt he do that in the first place) and hollow in logic and in emotion. maybe snk's lesson to us is life is unfair and we should suck it up. it wasn't well earned & yams wrote hanji in a corner, like (again) in GOT where no matter what daenerys chose she was wrong. sorry i dumped all this to you!! if you're still here, thank you for listening to my month long pent up emotions, im still really sad about it

- and idk how to let go? but your writings have definitely made me feel better, it just comforts me like Levi to a bottle of bleach. thank you for still writing!!! about an anime girl in a fictional world and still delivering more emotion than the original author. my heart definitely feels better these days, though it still aches bc she deserves so much better & didnt deserve whatever the fuck she was given, thank you for championing hanji zoe rights! im 99% sure she wont be revived -

but she lives on in your writings and other fanfiction authors and artworks and i'm just so grateful we have a community like this, honestly im just glad you're here :) keep doing what you do and i hope you're safe and warm & healthy!! also to every hanji stans out there one fucking day when we love a character the author wont rip our hearts and throw it to the garbage, im so so sorry for my long long ask but if i could request maybe eren apologizing to hanji inpaths or when she got captured or

or when she died or you choose!! i saw this art by @siroyuki 2015 in twitter where he's hugging her and shit, you should check it out it gave me feels!! i just want her to be loved and appreciated :((( again thank you so much if you made it this far! im sorry if you're annoyed or smthn HHAHAHA i promise this is the last! thank you for your service to humanity we stan 💪😩👌💕💞 

ah don’t you let canon frustrate you, it doesn’t matter anyway :D like you saud, we still have fics and fanarts

however, yeah, i do kinda feel you :/ like the way yams keeps glossing over hange's death is actually a bit weird? like i know they're at war and i know that they have no time for grieving etc but the kids were literally bawling their eyes when hange died but no mention of her sacrifice at all after that? like in 136, gabi said that they should stop the rumbling to repay azumabito's kindness and that's ummmmmmm.... a little bit weird. sure, gabi is a little girl with no connection to hange but reiner, jean and connie were there, when gabi said that and they saw hange’s sacrifice, so why not say something like “yeah, we can’t let commander hange’s sacrifice go to waste?” like come on. what did azumabito do? let falco transform on the board of her ship, so now she travels on a boat? i don't think that can compare to hange's acts though. she literally brought these mfs who were ready to jump at each other's throat together and then she sacrificed her own life to give them yet another chance at success. a sacrifice that was proved to be utterly meaningless in the very next chapter? why did falco learn about his ability to fly only after hange died? why didn't he discover it upon first transformation? :/

oh, and speaking of hange's character arc? like i get it, she was depressed, she struggled with her role as a commander (even though she did everything she could and she did a damn good job at it). and i guess that this plotline was kinda resolved when she heard that erwin approved of her actions? and that's cool, if what we've seen was actually an afterlife and not hange's hallucination. because if it was indeed a product of her mind then that's, um, kinda depressing bro. hange was so desperate for someone's approval that she dreamed about it while literally dying. i just don't understand why yams didn't include a scene where kids tell her how much they respect her and what an honor it was to serve under her command or SOMETHING. but as it is, hange died, thinking she was weak and useless and, um, yeah, certainly not the end you want for your favorite character :)

so yeah, hange's death was kinda meaningless and pointless - it didn't serve the plot whatsoever + it could have been very easily avoided 

[skittymon]

Finally finished Tales of Eternia!! 

And that makes 11th tales games finished and 15th overall played in some degree (Phantasia, Legendia, Innocence, and DotNW being the ones I havent finished yet).

Once I started again in December I decided that instead of liveblogging I’d make a review at the end instead.

So here we go! I will keep this spoiler free as possible!

I’m pretty scatterbrained but I’ll try to divide this into: combat, story, characters, and other game mechanics.

Combat: So obviously, the combat is above Phantasia and Destiny’s, being made after them. I honestly have grown fond of the 2d linear style format. There’s so many different boss fights in this game that can only work in a 2d field rather than 3d. 

On the flip side, that’s not always a good thing. I count bosses like the wild dog thing in Vesperia, and Fodra Queen of Graces to be among the hardest mandatory boss fights in tales. Welp, Eternia added one to the ranks. Rem (aka Aska the light spirit) is one of the most frustrating boss fights I’ve done. Apart from constantly slowing healing itself, on the field it brings a shiny ball with it. You cannot destoy the orb, it’s there all fight, and if you touch it it hurts you. And of course it blocks the way to Rem. There is a way past it, it moves up and down so you just have to wait until its up to move past. BUT GUESS WHAT THE AI DOESNT DO. So your party will probably either be dying or constantly in pain. AND REM CAN MOVE THE ORD ANYWHERE. Also you cant physically hit Rem while its casting a spell only far away skills. So if you ever play this game just cheese it and spam variations of Sonic Blade.

Of course, on the flip side it’s every easy for you to cheese boss fights and just back them up into a corner unable to move or do anything until they die, so it evens out.

The sprite animations for the artes are gorgeous. Reid moves so fluidly in his artes, he’s honestly my third favorite protag to play as behind Yuri and Ludger because of this. The caster animations are great as well, granted it can become cluttered and hard to see in when artes like blizzard and earth shaker are used. BUT GOD DAMN I CAN WATCH MEREDY USE METEOR ALL DAY IT LOOKS SO COOL.

Nitpicks about the combat system are, Life, the reviving spell Farah has, takes to long to charge, and for Meredy and Keele to use healing artes you have to mix and match who has what craymel (spirit). There might be a guide but I didnt look beyond reddit so Life was the only resurrection spell I had. 

Last nitpick comes from the Aurora Artes. Aurora Artes are skills only Reid can use, but in order to use them you have to have health below 15% and press circle, square, and x at the same time, so it’s very easy to mess up and die. Then to use more Aurora Artes you press the same buttons repeatedly, and after you use them Reid is left with 1 hp. AND the final boss has an automatic kill skill, you have to press the buttons at the right time to activate it and keep everyone alive, or you can cheese it like I did and have Farah hold a reverse doll to revive her after she dies. Did I also mention this skill happens in phase 2 of the fight when the bosses health is less than 20,000 after starting from 300,000? If you fuck up thats like 10mins of redoing.

But to end on a better note for this section, I love the way artes are learned. You have to use certain artes a number of times before you can unlock it (I THINK abyss and vesperia and many others are like this but this is the first time I found it rewarding). I grinded like hell to get the best artes for Reid AND YOU BET IT WAS WORTH IT. Omega Demon Chaos I love you,,,,

Story: Like countless other Tales titles, the conflict comes from two worlds being at odds with each other. However this game does something that none of the other games have done with this story beat. Language barriers! It’s super cool in the first couple of hours theyre just trying to figure out how to talk with Meredy. Of course by the end this point is nearly dropped entirely, everyone else just getting the special ear ring I spent 3 hours to get so the plot can move on.

Like most tales, theres a moment you thought the story would end but BOOM the twist. I wasn’t shocked by it, but that’s because I knew who the final antagonist of the game was prior to playing it, but still it was executed well. 

Something that makes this Tales stand out is how they deal with backstory. So the main fours backstory is vital to the story and their characters but they don’t show it till like 20 hours in. It’s like if Graces you start off in main arc and learn about the childhood arc 2/3 of the way through and went “ohhhh that’s why they were distant with each other.” And other stuff about it but I won’t spoil it.

Overall a good story, though I do feel like I’m missing things either from missing some side quests, or because of no skits.

Characters: The main ones to shine are the four main characters (Reid, Farah, Keele, and Meredy), everyone else literally is either one dungeon and/or optionable. Chat does still feel like a character being the owner of the Van Elita aka means of transportation for half the game. Max and Ras tho rip. ESPECIALLY MAX. Ya know how every tales there’s the mandatory Talk Before The Final Battle? Yea well they all get one except Max. You see him, but he doesnt talk, YET THEY CRAYMELS DO.

Another odd, yet charming, thing is that there’s no big moment of character development for anyone like Luke cutting his hair, Magilou keeping the portal open, or punch in the face like Alvin. They just. Slowly change. And its really weird cause for all of disc 1 Keele is basically an unbearable asshole and he just? Learns to be a better person from everything he sees? There’s no callout or moment of realization, he just slowly learns and it’s super refreshing. 

Reid is probably one of the most relatable protagonists up there with Jude. I’m sure most of you know the “he doesn’t want to do shit lol” persona he has BUT GOD WHY HE’S LIKE THAT BABY I LOVE YOU. Farah’s personality is also explained in the backstory, so for any of you crestoria players that Farah’s backstory is really different like how Emil’s is, but the sentiment of why she’s like that is the same and stem for a similar event.

Meredy’s also great. I thought I’d get annoyed of her and her “You bet!” but god when she says it the last time at the end of the game, I was pretty moved. I wish I knew more about her backstory but I’m pretty sure a certain section of her life info was left to skits and ya know we didn’t get those till Symphonia :)))

As antagonists go, besides the Craymels who are there to test you before you get their power, there’s just two. Main boss and their lackey. The lackey is eh. You see him once at the beginning of the game, then see him destroy a  city, then one last time where you kill him. You do get his backstory and stuff but eh I’m usually not fond of tales mini villains minus Chimerad, God Generals, and Artorius’s lackeys

The main antagonist tho, I really don’t wanna spoil it but it’s hard to talk about why I’m conflicted on it without spoiling. So it’s like Destiny’s final boss but written better in some part and worse in others. So at one point it’s super emotional and pretty powerful with the message eternia wants to send but at the same points its a jrpg where you gotta kill god cause he doesn’t think humans are worth it. 

Oh one more thing thats honestly hilarious, there’s literally SINGLE animated cutscene by Production I.G in this entire game minus the op. 

Other things: the amount of mini games in this game is insane, but the amount you have to do IN JUST THE SECOND DISC to continue the plot is more than any other tales game I can recall. Some of them are fun like the card game, others like the bomb one I want to throw in a fire. 

There’s also so much Destiny pandering in this game. There’s portraits of the characters, you can collect lens, I’m 95% sure the way a certain character is done is because they wanted another Leon, you can SUMMON THE SWORDIAN USERS ARE AS AN ACTUAL SUMMON. While all Phantasia gets is the cameo battle and the Eternal Sword. I mean I didn’t mind cause I’ve finished Destiny and it’s one of my fav tales games but damn it was pretty obvious. 

EXPLORATION IS SO FUN IN THIS GAME. Mainly near the end when you have free reigns. YOU CAN DIVE UNDERWAY AND EXPLORE THE BOTTOM OF THE SEA WHAT OTHER TALES GAME LETS YOU DO THAT??? 

In conclusion: A fun game! I don’t think it was worth 133 dollars tho consider my play file was 35 hours and thats with a good chuck of side quests and ex bosses. Probably in my top 5 combat systems of tales and final villains, but not in terms of story or characters. A really hope it gets remastered soon I’d love for more people to play it.

[clarawinnie]

Sorry to bother, but I was just wondering what kind of art is your art style inspired by? Your colors and shape selections are awesome!!

Hey thanks! I appreciate it!I’ve been sitting on this ask for a while bc I wanted to be through. Here’s a list of my fav comtemporary-ish illustrators (left to right)

Mary Blair- I love her colorful shapes and how chaotic/ balanced her townscapes/ landscapes are

Tim Biscup- his work also feels chaotic but balanced, It has a lot of energy and intensity.

Nacho Eterno- his work is so organized and consistent. I love those big chunky outlines.

Faustine D. R. Tarmasz- Her work is so tactile, and textured. It’s so different from my work.

Picasso- I like how he abstracts things almost to the point where you can’t recognize it. I love cubism in general.

Winston the Whale- His work feels somewhere between an icon and an illustration. It also has both an 80′s and 60′s vibe.

Bret Preston- Those shapes are amazing. Everything feels so balanced and calm.

Martin Ontiveros- Its so consistent! It feels balanced but so… wild! I bought my mom one of his T-shirts for christmas and she loves it.

Gunta Stölzl- I love the energy that her textile pieces give off! 

Ruth Marshall - By far my favorite textile artist! That pelt is a KNIT intarsia (multi-colored) piece. Her craftsmanship is incredible, I tried to learn knit intarsia but couldn’t. She has truly mastered a craft.

Antonio Ligabue - This dude was apparently extremely angry and bitter during his life and his screaming tigers show it.

I also love pictorial rugs. They’re like illustration but more decorative and ornate. Styles and subject matter vary by region (left to right)

Chinese pictorial tiger rug, vintage Iranian lion rug (I actually own this one- his name is Button), antique Tibetan tantric tiger rug, contemporary Tibetan tantric tiger rug, Turkish/ Anatolian lion rug, floral Romanian rug

And medieval art is a huge inspiration! There’s something so primal and satisfying about it. Some of the funny, crazy beasts we see in medieval art are thought to be creatures from the edges of the earth. Many were depictions of non-christian entities or based on descriptions of foreign animals. And heraldry, too! I don’t really care about the heralds themselves but I really like the symbology of it.

Peter Max, A Book Of Posters, 70′s vintage fabric, random image from my hard drive, 70′s vintage fabric, ants never sleep poster book, vintage tray

I LOOOVE 60′s/ 70′s art! I LOOOVE the colorful, obnoxious in-your-face floral patterns. I LOOOVE the mix of intricate details and bold shapes! I LOOOVE the weird, off-brand rainbow color palates!!!I LOOOVE 60′s/ 70′s psychedelic art! Did you know that 60′s/ 70′s psychedelic art was inspired by art nouveau? When you compare them, they’re really similar.

Some specific works that inspired me 

Panther, by Brecht Evens

This book is so friggin cool. It’s a pretty dark story but it’s SOOO energetic and complex. It’s so chaotic and uncanny. 

And there’s this insanely detailed fold out in the very back that you almost miss. By far, my fav book

OFF- Mortis Ghost (video game)

I played this a lot in high school and the intense world building really stuck with me. I like the scratchy lines mixed with the pixelated format. The otherworldly creatures and characters are so unusual and original…

I can’t exactly pinpoint HOW OFF ties in with my own style, I’ve just always really liked it.

I drew some really cringy OFF fan art in high school but can’t find it… If I find it I’ll edit it in. 

I like eclecticism in literally all forms- especially art. I try to tie  a lot of different styles and inspiration together.

Another motto I like is from this Justice song - 

“Printed in gold, because details make the girls sweat even more”

I’m probs gonna keep adding to this. Mostly for my own reference but I don’t mind if others read it.

Thx for reading :^)

[demonsofhunting]

All My Sins - Chapter 13

Pairing: priest!Cas x demon!Dean

Summary: Castiel and Dean are on the run. But where are they supposed to go? And Cas is hurt...

Warnings: angst, hurt/comfort, blood, fluff

Words: about 1400

A/N: Welcome to chapter 13! <3 This one just fits perfectly in the spooky season, doesn't it? It's one of my favs so far, I guess, it was so intense and fun to write. Our cute lil sinners finally get some rest...at least a little.

Catch up here ( Masterlist ) :D

I hope you'll like it! Enjoy! <3

Castiel's heart is beating fast as hell as they are running through the foggy streets of their town. There are sirens literally everywhere...well, that's what it feels like. It's horrible. Dean is holding the priest's hand, pulling him straight forward, even though Cas stumbles with almost every step he takes. His breaths are heavy, his chest burns. He can feel blood tripping down his clothes, making him feel dizzy. Don't you dare and pass out, Novak. We're fucked if you do that. Castiel clenches his jaw, trying his best to keep up with his love. Dean is pretty exhausted as well. Sweat is dripping down his forehead, and his facial expression is that what you could call 'restless'. It's getting darker and darker. The day is going to an end, and Cas has no idea how much time they already spent with...running and hiding. The fog is getting thicker and thicker. Wind blows from the direction they are heading for, as if it wants to stop them with its power. Cas shivers, the shreds of his clothes are not covering his chest pretty well, and it's getting freaking cold outside. After they run past another dark block of houses, the priest stops, leaning over while breathing, heavily. "Hey, what's going on? Cas? Are you alright?" Dean rasps, worried. He immediately runs to the other's side, ready to carry him if he needs to. Castiel smiles, weakly. "No...I...I just can't do this any longer, Dean. My...my chest fucking hurts. Everything...hurts..." he whispers, closing his eyes. I can't give up. I - "Cas? Hey, look at me!" Dean says, firmly, and the priest opens his eyes again, looking up, shaking. Dean's green eyes are filled with determination. "We're gonna make it, okay? I...I have an idea where we can go. But you need to hold on a little longer, alright? Just a few minutes, I promise," he tells the priest, stroking the other's cheek, "If they catch us, everything is lost. Please, Cas. Do it for me. Hold on." Castiel nods, shivering. Sure. I would do everything for him. "Awesome," Dean mutters, pulling Cas up again. Then they continue to run down the street.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It takes more than a few minutes for them to reach the place that Dean was heading for. Castiel breathes in, sharply. "Seriously?" he coughs, getting slower again. His gaze flows over the line of trees that marks the beginning of the forest. "What are we supposed to do out there? Die because of the cold?" he scoffs, feeling completely exhausted, "Dean. That's just...stupid." "Well, we can't go back. They are searching the whole town. We don't have a car or something like that. The only way is to go into the forest, and head for the next town," Dean shrugs, running a hand through his messy hair. "That's insane, Dean! We're gonna die!" Castiel blurts out, letting go of the young man's hand. "Better than having to deal with the fucking police. C'mon, honey. Don't be a baby!" Dean chuckles, but he sounds tired as hell. "No! I'm not gonna - " Cas begins, but gets interrupted by the loud noise of sirens howling in the distance. Damm it! He grabs Dean's hand, and runs right into the sea of trees.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It's dark in here. They run until they can't see the street anymore, then the priest just sits down on the ground that is covered with wet leaves. "That's it. I'm done," he cries out, burying his face in his hands. He accidentally touched his clothes, so he that he now smears blood on his face. But he doesn't care. Not anymore. "Dean...how are you doing this? This is horrible," he sobs, as the other sits down next to him, hugging him from behind. "I know, sweetheart. I know. Well, I don't have any other choice, do I?" he hums, softly. The darkness is covering them like a soft, heavy blanket. "I...I'm sorry," Cas mutters through his tears, "I love you, Dean." "Hey! Don't be sorry, okay? It's all my fault, Cas, not yours. I love you too. We're gonna make it, okay? Just...hang on." They sit there for a few minutes without saying a word, just comforting each other, quietly. Then Castiel breaks the silence, carefully. "How did you know that Meg was a demon?" he asks, "It almost looked like you knew each other pretty well." Dean swallows. "I wasn't completely honest to you, and I'm sorry about that. I just wanted to keep you safe. I...I know Meg since I made my deal. She was harassing me, playing with me after that, just randomly showing up to mock me. She enjoyed spending her time following me, and being happy about my desperation. I never though that she would follow me even into this town - your town. But she did. And after you told me about her using you in that sick kind of way...I...I wanted to kill her, Cas. But I didn't. I still didn't. And that makes me sick. To know that this whore is still alive, and that she tried to harm you..." He hesitates as if he has to control his anger, so that he doesn't explode, immediately. "It's fine. I was the one who let her use me like that," Cas says, weakly, "I gave her an opportunity, and she simply took it. I should have never talked to her. I'm glad that you followed me today, though." "Sure," Dean adds, "I just had an uneasy feeling. And I was right. It was worth the risk." Then they stay quiet for a few minutes again, until Dean asks straight ahead: "Can I take a look at your wounds, Cas?" The other winces, but nods, lightly: "Sure. Just...just tell me that it isn't as bad as it feels right now, okay? I feel like I'm constantly at the edge of passing out." The priest turns around while Dean pulls out his phone. The young man uses it as flashlight, and strokes back the shreds of Castiel's clothing, carefully. "Ow," the priest hisses, laying his head back in pain. "Sorry," Dean mutters, examining the wounds on the other's chest, closely. Cas can feel the young man's finger tips touching his skin, softly, sending thousands of shivers down his spine even though the pain is making him go crazy at the same time. Love and attraction. Such strange feelings. Castiel looks at Dean's face, carefully, searching for anything that gives something away. "And?" he asks, worried, "What...what did she do to me?" Sure, I could take a look myself, but I'm to damn afraid to do that right now. Dean makes a pout. "Well...doesn't look so bad," he says, but his eyes are saying something else. "You're a terrible liar. What's up?" The young man sighs: "Usually, I am a pretty good liar. But...this bitch carved some sick shit into your skin. Almost looks like old symbols or something like that." "Wait - what?!" Cas cries out, trying his best to take a look himself. The movement hurts, but what he sees on his chest in bloody lines makes his blood run cold. "Oh no. Oh nononononononono!" he stutters, looking at the symbols with disgust. "With our terrible luck, this must be some fucking voodoo stuff. I'm gonna die!" Cas cries out. I'm will rot form inside, I will - "Hey, hey! Take it easy. Maybe...maybe it's just some sick kind of art," Dean tries to comfort the priest, but this doesn't work at all.  I'm gonna fucking die... "You're not gonna die. Not on my watch. At least, it kinda stopped bleeding," Dean says, calmly, as if he just read the other's thoughts. He looks around, then his gaze meets Cas'. "I'm gonna patch you up," he determines. "With what? We don't have anything with us, we -" the priest, begins, but gets interrupted as he has to watch Dean taking his leather jacket of. "Dean, what are you - " "Shush," Dean mutters, letting his jacket fall to the ground with a frown. After he did that, he tugs a little on his shirt like he wants to test something. Then he takes it off, and begins to rip it into long shreds. Castiel stares at him with his mouth wide open. "Dean, please. I don't want you to freeze to death!" he tries to stop the other, but Dean has already ruined his piece of clothing. "And I'm not gonna let you die,"he says, firmly, "And now let me take care of you." And Cas does that, blushing a little.

( A/N: Next chapter on October 11, 2019 <3 )

That was chapter 13! Thank you so much for reading, and if you would like to leave a comment or reblog this shit, I will love you forever! <3

Tag lists are open! ( and under the cut this time XD )

[bentenharuki]

I generally don’t do these but...

I will do this because it’s a badge of honor and a thank you for @todayintokyo who gives me a daily vibe out of my second fav Country in the world (first one is my own, of course. My messy, chaotic, genius Italy).

So for everyone interested (I won’t tag people either... if you are among my 250+ readers, do it as freely as you like to share this unexpected hard time along others. Sharing makes us all feel less stranded I guess :)) 

1. Are you staying home from work/school? Yep. My University (Milano Bicocca) holds in-house lessons and curses and also exams and testing are/will be online. What I miss most are the lab works and the exchanges with foreign schools. I took one a few months ago in London and I was supposed to have another in May but... NOPE, of course.

2. If you’re staying home, who’s there with you? I am alone in my apartment. At first it was supposed to be shared rent with somebody else but then my parents just bought this out and lent it to me. I know. I am spoiled. But very grateful for what I have. I always try to give back the best I can because no one has merits in being born in a family instead of another. (pieces of second-rate philosophy in all my LONG answers courtesy of my mum and her influence on me. She’s a University Professor and her field is.. guess what.. ETHICS PHILOSOPHY)

3. Do you have pets to keep you company? Nope. Not allowed. But I like cats. Cats. CATS. They are elegant, refined, very clean, and they give you consideration and affection ONLY if they like you. I prefer to conquer somebody’s love instead than to have it by default. Then I am naturally a cat person instead of a dog’s. But I like all animals (I like snakes as well, so my range is pretty wide ;)), even though I don’t feel missing any in  house. Generally I would be out of home most of the day and no pet would be happy in staying that much alone. I miss my grandparents’ kitty tho :)

4. Who do you miss the most? Family. Friends. Meeting new people when out. And... (is it fine to say it?) Well... in these lockdown times I miss... human touch. (You get what kind). I was seeing a guy when this all started and my old boyf also came back into the picture somehow. All on hold. And I avoid to think how that makes me feel because even in case I’d figure it out, what comes if one can’t act on the awareness? Exactly. So I put it all in a LONG pause. But yeah... I miss contacts. A LOT.

5. When was the last time you left your home? I go out every Thursday to buy all my grocery stuff. I am very methodic. My supermarket is pretty near and it’s BIG and I get there right before it opens (well... one hour almost before it opens, so I can be among the firsts in line). I look like a ninja: very sporty and technically dressed (like for a running competition!) with clothes and shoes which are easy washable, tech mask (it is for cycling competition, with filters specifically medical: the mask is washable as well after you’ve used it, while the filter is obviously not), cotton fit gloves and over them medical gloves (I can’t wear directly medical gloves because my skin is very sensitive and I suffer from nickel allergia, which makes latex gloves a NO NO directly on skin), teck googles which cover also the side of my face (those are from cycling items too) and of course PODS in my ear because I can’t live without music :)

6. What was the last thing you bought? I bought online a few garden tools for my biggest balcony. I have ZERO skill with plants (and I am supposed to become a biologist... the nerve! LOL) but I am keen at making grow at least rosemery for my recipes. I have a little peach tree and it is all fine so far. I have hope I can do better and anyway I have time now ;)

7. Is quarantine driving you insane or are you finally relaxed? I try to keep my routine as it was before. I wake up and perform all my tasks exactly as I was doing before this all started. I am VERY organized and to lax on that would ruin me, so I carefully focus on what I can control the best I can. It feels strange to say it maybe but... this way my mood isn’t particularly affected by this heavy revolution in my (and everyone elses’s) life.

8. Are you a homebody? NOPE. I love people, I love my Milan and its being always full of people everywhere. I love living in my town a TON, I love meeting friends anywhere, go dancing, I love to live my University life in this beautiful and renewed part of Milan; I like being surrounded by my people and meeting new ones. So being stuck at home would seem insufferable for me. But I learnt from this (there’s always something to learn in any experience) that I can be surprisingly ok with staying home too. I came to know better my neighbors. I feel a sense of community with everyone living nearby and I have come to love my domesticity too. It was a surprise for me first ^.^

9. What movies have you watched recently? In Italy, Italia 1 channel has had the WONDERFUL idea to rebroadcast all Harry Potter saga every Monday and Thursday. Today and tomorrow there are the last two installments, so I can say that is what I looked out the most for as in movie things these past weeks (funny how I never particularly adored the books of HP, I mean, I liked them but... being a Tolkien’s devotee Rowlings’ literary efforts always seemed lackluster to me.. and still I have always liked the movies. It’s incoherent I know ;)). But I have Sky at home so I can watch whatever movie I like to whenever I want to. And that leads to VERY little watch actually. I am reading a ton though. I watch what passes on in the National channels actually, out of digital and cable and decide to watch it or not. For instance last Friday Rai 1 (main Italian Channel) broadcasted one of my fav movies from the past three years, GIFTED (with Chris Evans and Octavia Spencer) and I rewatched it with immense pleasure.

10. An event that you were looking forward to that got cancelled? OLYMPICS. I was supposed to be back in Japan with a a couple of friends and my bro for experience the Olympics (especially the volleyball tournaments) between July and August and that got (of course) cancelled. We plan to move it all to next year of course. But it hurts SO MUCH because it was easily what I was looking forward to BEST for all 2020. Hands down.

11. What’s the best and worst thing you’ve had to cancel? Look up. For the other question, I never plan things I don’t like (or at least I try my best not to) and I almost never find myself in the position of being happy for something I had going on which I had to pass due to circumstances. I am a very honest (sometimes to the point of bluntness, though with age I got trained in the fine art of diplomacy, which for me is declined especially in the “IGNORE WHAT IS NOT WORTHY degree) person and if there is something I don’t like I tend to not get involved with it in the first place.

12. Do you have any new hobbies? Eh... the longest list... I love so many things. Sport don’t count as hobbies to me because I treat them as part of my daily life constantly. So take them off. I like to write, to draw, to paint... I like reading, I like learning... I am a tech geek; I like gaming (but that I have to cut it or it would absorb me too much)... I like TRAVELING (that is cut off too of course nowadays), and many other things so I guess I don’t literally have SPACE for new hobbies. My many ones makes it impossible to fall for new things though lately I am becoming a better cook out of needs ;)

13. What are you out of? My lists are made as soon my things become “two items in from having 0″. This way I can’t run out of anything. Did I say already I am a HUGE control freak? THAT ;)

14. What music are you listening to? My itunes collections lists so far 12376 ALBUMS. Then I have the random songs. Latest one I bought (because I buy them all) is Achille Lauro’s latest 16 Marzo 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yb-9RESbeWA

I am also listening a lot to one of my bro’s fav bands Radiohead and as usual a lot to my beloved Imagine Dragons. My mum and dad are also telling me to listen to Bill Withers (who recently passed away) whole discography because he was amazing. I love many music genres. I love ALL which makes the spirit soar and rage and evolve and love and cry and hope.

15. What are you reading? So far in quarantine I read 5 books. I have now to start ORIGINS by Dan Brown. I pick the books I have left unread randomly and that was the pick this time (people gift me with books constantly because they know I am a bookworm when I have spare time).

16. What are you doing for self-care? Keep loving myself and life and the world exactly the way I used to before this all started.

17. Are you exercising? Yup. Tapis roulant, golf training, stepper (all in my house lucky me) and mat and weight training. I have a routine for which I have to train at least one hour a day. NO EXCEPTION. I miss swimming but I will do. I am also in recovery after January’s knee meniscus intervention so my schedules are also taking that into consideration.

18. How’s your toilet paper supply? I'm OK. :)

19. Have you made any changes to your hair during quarantine? Nope. I love to stylize my hair but I don’t have specific cuts. It grows long and then I play with them hairstyles: braids, buns, ponytails, partitions and the likes.. But I have bleached hair and I had to follow my hairdresser advice because I can’t allow ugly roots to take dominance of me ^.^ So I bought the necessary to self bleach them. No need to say as soon as I will be able to, Hairdressers and Massages and SPA will be my first destination ^.^ (beside visiting family and friends of course).

I am fairly sure I put lots of typos and mistakes in this but I have my online lesson just starting in 8 minutes and I can’t review this (I generally never do it anyway). So forgive me and have a beautiful day ;)

STAY SAFE OUT THERE!!! Hugs K.

[latin-dr-robotnik]

Quarantine survey

Oh, hey, thanks @beevean for tagging me! I guess it’s time to have some fun again :P

Where are you isolated?

That one country where we keep sharing a certain beverage even when the WHO advised against that---I mean, Argentina.

What are you currently reading or watching?

Just finished watching The Dragon Prince (it’s so amazing) and now I’m on the lookout for something new. My best friend has been telling me time and time again to watch Sherlock so she can finally have someone to gush about it together, so it might be time to check it out (but on the other hand, she simply does not listen to me every time I tell her to watch Castlevania or even The Last Airbender ffs, still love her tho.)

If you can go outside, what do you like to do during this time?

I mean, if I go out now I’ll most likely end up in jail. I’m pretty fine at home, if not feeling a little bit heavy-hearted because I miss roaming around shops with friends, something I used to do at least once a month, and last time being February when we went to see the Sonic Movie. I even had a dream where my shopping spree was literally cut off because of the quarantine and I found myself in the empty city center alone. My mind is getting pretty fucked rn.

Any fascinating concept you’re studying?

I’m currently “studying” The Dragon Prince’s approach to villains, and how it has been a pleasant ride thanks to its developments. During the first season, you may think “yeah I know this person is going to big the big baddie of the show”, but you don’t really have any solid proof of traditional villain material, it’s mostly morally gray stuff. As the show goes on however, you’ll start to see more and more shady stuff that will swing you back and forth between empathy and hate; but to be honest, even the “good guys” do shitty and questionable stuff in this show; so that’s why this show’s writing is so fascinating to study, even if I’m years late to the fandom and they’ve already figured this stuff out. 

If you meant studying “actual” things though, I guess I did go back to history recently, the last I studied was the Mesoamerican calendars of festivities before the Spanish conquest, crazy stuff but it ain’t TDP. (btw, colonial-era spanish documents are written in such a fucking messy way i mean beevean look away please)

What kind of acts of creativity/forms of art are you currently doing?

Does bulding virtual cities count as creativity? Because I’m spending hours upon hours playing Cities: Skylines, and I’m actually proud of what I’m building. I do have a lot of imagination for these types of sims, and I mean a lot (I noted my thought process when building one part in particular.) This time my vision revolves around placing everything manually, from basic buildings to every single little prop in the city.

Apart from that, I’m doing some writing stuff, and of course I kept on playing music on my Spanish guitar, working on nailing this song’s insanely funky riff.

A song that resonates with your state of mind at the moment?

I like to imagine that, in my past life, I used to love Disco and Funk so much I probably used to go to 70′s nightclubs all the time lmao.

This song has been my go-to since late February. But quarantine mood is rather complex, and I’m constantly swinging between that song and this slow jam :P

I guess it’s also current mood the fact that fucking country music from C:S of all things made me emotional. That’s a very weird first for me.

Favourite impulsive/’bad’ coping techniques?

Staying up until 7am because of Netflix or even this very post is fun and it makes me rather happy during the hard times, but it ain’t fucking good for my sleep schedule nor my body, I tell you that much.

Favourite healthy/’good’ coping techniques?

Am I actually doing something healthy this quarantine? I mean, I’m keeping the house clean and because I’m spending a lot more time cooking my own food I’m not eating as much shitty stuff as I would normally do. Actually, yeah, cooking my own stuff instead of relaying on all the unhealthy shit out there is my fav “good” thing to do.

This is the part where I would tag someone, but it’s already late, I’m tired and I can’t think about any names. So, if you’ve read this far consider yourself tagged, kiddo. Jokes aside, anyone that likes to try it go ahead and tag me, I’ll gladly read you and you might earn a special place in my heart <3

[moonlit-void-to-the-far-unknown]

‘Miss far fetched’ (MGG x Reader)

AN: so I am a shady petty bitch and I will say that proud, seeing an Insta ‘exposing’ matt and his current girl friend is just...to good not to write passive aggressively about. 

Tagging: @litandexciting @tortillachildalyssa @dontshootmespence  @bookofreid @reidbyers @reid-my-fortune

The ‘hate’, though you hardly let it get under your skin, started when you had first become friends with Matthew, you and him were working on a movie, him on screen you behind it as his PA, a job you really loved to be quiet honest, yeah you ran getting people coffee and lunch, but it was fun, getting to see the inner working of the movie making world.

It never bothered you when the random off comment came when you were seen with Matthew in your Insta pics. Often you and him chilling in PJ’s with cheap take out, comments of ‘See once a cheater always a cheater’ you often deleted them cause fuck that drama.

It hadn’t gotten real big and up in your shit until after Matthew and Joanie had broken up, too which you were a simple friend for him, an almost three year relationship is a tough thing to lose, but you had managed to help him, with much ice cream and cheesy halloween movies, many twitter and Insta videos of your amazing duets of ear bleeding status, he was a tall lanky skeleton, with moves of said description. But he had thanked you for the friendship.

When you had started dating it was halloween, not planned but a very convenient timing for people to use. A simple photo of hands and the internet trolls went insane. though you had never been happier, it was true that you had been a fan of Matthews before meeting him, his art was amazing, his directing skills and acting made you want to pick his brain. So of course they used it as some magic evidence.

Which is where you were now, sitting with your friend, reading the ‘evidence’ these people had.

“Okay so apparently according to them ‘If miss boring wasn’t a bad enough try hard, Miss far fetched, seems to think she matches Matthews personality…embarrassing’ the photo is literally me in black lipstick and my circle shades, oh no call the press I am just trying so hard to fit my boyfriends personality!” Snorting I flipped down the Insta accounts page “Oh my fav ‘yikes, he looks so unhappy! Like what happened to him? Miss far fetched is draining his life force’ so seems they haven’t seen the 13th season and have no actual idea what PTSD can do to a person…like holy shit” it was true in the photo Matthew was the picture of hollow eyes and scruff, but they seemed to miss it was during filming of the 13th season of CM where I had been stolen by Matthew and become his personal assistant, which I can say without one, me or other, my wonder boy would be dead from starvation…

Sighing I clicked my phone off, flopping down next to Ally “Why do people care so bad about me and king spook…like why is him with me and not Megan or Ali so horrid..like me doing make up or posting a photo in one of my wigs is just me copying apparently…like…” I paused sinking deeper down a thought running through my mind, Ally turned looking me over “What does the evil part of your brain want you to do? I know that look, thats the look that had me and Matthew running from security of the halloween city…whats up?” I smiled laughing slightly “So…what if we did like a live show..like Periscope or Insta live…like just casual shade at miss ‘gublerexposed’ like…hold on” with that I jumped up running to mine and Matthews room yanking out his sleep shirt and pants from the night prior, I wore them often enough for it to be a problem for this chick and others, but why not cast the shade flag high.

Coming out Ally laughed, The ‘king of spook’ shirt and pants I had made him for Christmas…to say we made Christmas just snowed in halloween was an understatement…I mean we had a black tree because of me, why not be darkly festive.

“What? Who says I don’t have a king of spook shirt? Have they been in my closet? nope..okay lets fucking cast the shade that would make trees quake” With a nod Ally started it up after a few quick tweets we had people typing and hearts flying on the side “wow…hey friend-o’s..so waiting for King spook to get back has gotten boring…so why not do one of these live show things you young kids do…man Matthew has like unplugged my like need of technology chord…its insane…” he truly had, the lack of needing my phone with me now was insane.

“Um so…I actually wanted to do this because…some people on here, the lovely Instagram..where I post my very boring life of being an assistant to my boyfriend…find the need in there soul..the true unwavering need, to like expose me and Matthew, like, god my favs are when I post photos of me in my wigs that I use for like cosplay or because wigs are so much fun, if I resemble any hair color of Matthews ex’s, I am just a copying slut…like they realize….that just because I suddenly have a wig thats long and black or brown…its a sign i’m just making sure that Matthew stays with me cause I look like Kat or Ali or Megan..which I have told Kat these cause her and Matthew are still friends, and she laughed cause this shit is ridiculous. Like for real…like the fact of me just trying a style trend that came from Japan and Korea believe the high blush like right under your eyes, yeah that was a trend in Korea and Japan..to make you look cute and slightly hungover, like…because Ali did it I am just a copying bitch”

Laughing I sighed shaking my head “Guys…guys…heres the thing…I am a grown ass lady, like I don’t ever wanna be famous…never, ever too much attention on me makes me panic…ask Matthew, I’m his PA, which means I am his personal assistant, I get him to meetings and schedule appointments, like, coffee and lunch so I know he’s eating is my job that I am paid for through his agency, not him.” Pausing I sighed looking at Ally “Should I bring up my favorite thing…” Seeing Ally nod I laughed “Okay so, during season 8..like god 7 years ago..almost 8 Matt was like on and off again with the girl who played Diane, or Maeves killer, like this account, shit you not was equating Matthew hanging out with the actress who plays Diane..as Reid cheating on Maeve…” pausing I looked at the phone lens gesturing “Like WHAT! What?!  I need them to see that Reid and Maeve and Diane are fake characters…not real…I mean besides me calling Matt dr in bed thats as close as Reid is to being real. Like good lord people…”

Sighing I just shook my head, moving topics to random things people were wondering, “Um will Matt be coming out with more halloween tattoo’s?” I looked at ally as she spoke “I hope…I really love his designs, main reason I have like 7 on me, um ya’ll have seen my ‘universe I love you’ one on my left wrist..and I have the ‘October for always’ on my ribs which ow..that hurt, um I have his three old heads on a wall on my ankle, and Jesus..um I have a self portrait of Spencer on my shoulder blade..and one he drew for me on my arm….where I used to cut, its of a bandaid and a little message..in..god cause I am the biggest fucking nerd, in DND style elvish is a message from him….um okay so we’ve been on for like god almost 2 hours and Mr. Spook just text that he’s almost home so..we gonna go, and remember guys…people who try anything to ‘expose’ you are just very lonely..very sad and lonely…alright madam spook and Ally the spoopy out”

Sighing I sat scrolling through my feeds, ally having left not too long ago, it made me smile to see support and love from people, agreeing that ‘exposing’ people required real evidence and not people scraping so far down that what they posted made zero sense.

Jumping slightly at the feeling of someone laying on me I yelped looking down to see the curly puff ball head of my boyfriend now curled on my stomach “Hey..long shoot day?” Running my fingers through his mane he sighed nodding “Real long, lots of reshooting, I felt like my eyeballs were gonna pop out of my head” I laughed sadly “Awe my King spook is all tired, damn Criminal minds for being a fan favorite award winning Public access show! Damn it all!” His laugh tickled my stomach slightly as he pressed his lips to it over my..his shirt.. “Want me to run a bath, I can do the hair wash scratchy thing you love when your a sick guppy,” looking up at me he smiled “Despite what people say…nice live show by the way, I have many attractive screen caps from it, despite people thinking I am just the biggest and worst person ever cause heaven forbid I fuck up and or break up with people…you are my madam spook and one day hopefully instead of spelling your last name wrong they’ll spell mine wrong….I love you okay?” nodding I lean down pressing my lips to his “Man You got that shaft end, like ‘gubler’? What the fuck did your ancestors do for a living, like…’yes you sir! The town gube! You are just a gubler you are!’ Like was it an insult? Or a profession?” Laughing he shrugged “Ya know if I had a time machine I would go back in time and ask but..man I left my time box on set..darn” laughing I shrugged sighing “So bath time?” His nod was all I needed, despite people being morons, this was all I cared about…