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#literally so so tired of this. you guys aren't even listening to me. you guys don't care about me
stellacadente · 4 months
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and that's on top of pinning my distress and suffering and the awful time i'm going thru on the fact i'm on hrt
#why are cis people so obsessed with our transition when it has nothing to do with the situation#why does every therapist psychiatrist and other professional keep asking me if i've “fully” transitioned#if i see any huge side effects#if i find it hard to adjust to changes in my body (it's been 4 years btw)#and then when i try and tell them hrt is going well and i don't have any problem in that regard#they ignore me and keep saying it's hard to deal with your body changing even if you wanted it to and it's understandable to be struggling#literally so so tired of this. you guys aren't even listening to me. you guys don't care about me#you only care about your weird beliefs that hrt is harmful and you're so uncomfortable with my transness (always have been) that you don't#even want to help me for real you just want to have the satisfaction of saying see i was right see you're suffering bc of your “choice” to#be like this#well honestly i don't know who would ever choose to ask for help when you either pay lots of money or maybe get lucky or pay more money and#try again until you hit jackpot or just get no help just transphobia from public healthcare#i'm tired. i'm so tired. and i don't know how to stand up for myself. i'm sorry i wish i was one of those trans or fat people who fight lik#hell to get the respect they deserve but i'm just a scared traumatized mentally ill person who struggles to talk to people#so i just get stuck in these feelings of helplessness and no wonder i let myself reach my limit and would rather die instead
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keyotos · 1 year
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eyes on you
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summary: when do the hsr men have their eyes on you?
includes ⎯ dan heng, gepard, blade, sampo & jing yuan
tana's words ⎯ i am OBSESSED w the sound "all these girls look good but i got my eyes on you." so that's what inspired me to write this. this is sickenly sweet btw.
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dan heng
⎯ let’s be real this man always has his eyes on you. he is probably watching you to look out for you. but that’s just in a romantic sense.
⎯ dan heng is the observer type. he watches and he learns.
⎯ he watches you quite a lot. he always tries to brush it off as trying to make sure you don't break anything, but march & stelle know better. even you aren't that klutzy.
⎯ dan heng watches what you eat to find out what you enjoy. he watches how you react to certain things to see if you dislike them or not. in short, he observes (watches) you to find out how to be better for you. he wants to be the best version of himself, and that includes knowing what all your favorite things are.
⎯ he definitely logs all the information he knows about you in his little data base. it's like his notes app, but a notes app for nerds.
⎯ march & stelle insist he just ask you, but nooooooo, because that would seem like he doesn't know anything about you. in reality, he knows plenty.
⎯ you would think that, judging on how much he stares at you, he would know how to not get caught. WRONG. you've caught him on multiple occasions.
one time, when the world around you was surprisingly peaceful, you and dan heng went to go get food for march & stelle. after you ordered their food you guys sat down at a table (bc you all were meeting up) with their food. you eyed the food carefully before stealing a sip of stelle's drink.
⎯ "she won't mind!" she did. but that's okay.
when you took a sip out of stelle's drink, dan heng was watching you closely to see if you would enjoy it. if you enjoyed it, he'd get one for you the next time you guys come. while he's staring, he loses track of his original goal and begins noting other things. the crinkle of your eyes when you smile at the taste of the drink. the way your whole face lights up.
⎯ "take a picture, it'll last longer," you caught him and smiled. dan heng leaves his trance and begins to blush.
⎯ "that is such a ridiculous line," he shakes his head, trying to deflect the fact that he's been caught. he has his eyes on you one more time to see you smirking at him.
⎯ he now takes candid photos of you because of that line.
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gepard
⎯ due to his captain position, you guys never got to see each other often. any free time you had was treated with utmost importance and no time could be spared. gepard barely had any time to set any eyes on you.
⎯ when bronya became the supreme guardian and when the fragmentum dispelled, everything changed. gepard now had more free time, which meant he had more time with you. time that could be spent doing nothing but just admiring the way you look.
gepard hasn't seen you in weeks. with the final clearance of the fragmentum monsters, he was gifted a few weeks of clarity with you. when he got home, he immediately showered and tried his best to look good for you.
when he saw you for the first time, you literally took his breath away. it was as if you glowed; you were nearly as radiant as the bright sun that was shining down on your face. gepard's eyes and his attention were only on you.
⎯ you and the guy that was standing next to you.
⎯ WHO IS THIS MAN????? did you finally get tired of endless waiting? did you feel lonely? does he treat you well? is he nice? does he listen to all your rants? is he there to kiss you goodnight?
⎯ gepard's thoughts are interrupted when he hears your voice. he sees you running over to him and then you're pulling him.
you grab his arm, pulling him towards the new guy. gepard was initially worried about what was going to happen next, but all was forgotten when he felt your arm tangled around his once again; he immediately leaned into your warm touch. instead of looking at the new guy, his eyes follow you at all times. gepard's fond expression is seen by all except himself.
his absence from your grace allowed him to forget every small detail about you. the way your smile grew as you spoke about your relationship (gepard blushed). the way you got all excited when you were introducing people. the way your voice goes up an octave when you get excited.
every time you pull yourself closer to his body, gepard is on the verge of combustion. he’s been touch starved for so long, he couldn’t wait for until you guys went home. he just wanted to be in bed or on the couch with you, simply relaxing in sweet nothing.
for now though, gepard waited for the conversation to end.
⎯ when the conversation is over, you and gepard have a small conversation.
"sooo, were you listening to me or staring at me during that whole thing?" you smirked. when gepard's face blushed, you couldn't help but smile. "i wasn't cheating on you if that's what you were worried about," you pulled him closer using the collar of his shirt, "i missed you too, by the way," and pulled him in for a kiss.
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blade
⎯ blade doesn't consider himself to be the staring type. he's more, less talking (staring), more action (i'll let you guys interpret).
⎯ but how could he not stare at you when you look so peaceful. you're sleeping in his bed, wrapping in his blankets, and snoring without a care in the world.
⎯ had the snoring not been so loud, blade wouldn't have woken up to find such an endearing moment.
⎯ now, blade has been staring at your sleeping figure for longer than he would like to admit. he's been watching the rise and fall of your chest. listening to the snores getting quieter and then louder once more. he cannot tear his eyes off of your peaceful state.
blade brushes pieces of stray hair away from your face. he puts his hand over your sleeping figure, as if he was trying to protect you from the evils in the night. at this moment, however, there were no evils. just you and him in the moonlight. maybe it was the domesticity of the whole situation that made him continue his one-sided staring contest. with all the fighting and destruction going on in the universe right now, you are still next to him. you are here, and he is listening to you snore.
⎯ it's when you shuffle around the best, blade gets scared. he's scared he woke you up and ruined this domestic moment. his hand recoils away from your body.
⎯ when you turn, you are still asleep. it seems you were just readjusting yourself. readjusting yourself closer to him, that is. you went from back facing him to your front facing him.
⎯ blade watched your face as you slept. you looked so beautiful with the pale moonlight shining down on your face. normally, you complained that you couldn't sleep with the moon shining on your face, so that's why you slept with your back facing towards blade.
⎯ but tonight, blade has never gotten a chance to admire how the moonlight reflects on the shapes of your faces. your eyes, your lips, your nose.
⎯ it's when you put a hand on his knee, blade nearly jumps back. not out of fear (slightly out of fear), but because he thought he woke you up by breathing. he was confused.
you put your hand on his knee, in a sleeping daze. usually, at night, you are always physically touching your boyfriend somehow. but tonight, he is awake, watching you. your small act of physical touch was a beckoning for him to go to sleep and be with you.
⎯ blade grabbed your hand and slipped back under the covers with you. this time, after admiring one last glimpse of your sleeping face, he tugged you closer to him and you both fell asleep.
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sampo
⎯ there are many formidable fighters in boulder city. that's a fact. fighting is the way of many in the underworld. sampo has seen it first hand.
⎯ sampo had not, however, seen a fighter as formidable as you.
⎯ he stumbled upon one of dig's matches at the right time. there was a crowd leading out to the door; it peaked sampo's curiosity. he had intentions of selling items at first, which is why he was shuffling through the crowd to get into the center. but when he saw you in the ring, beating everyone in your path, his beginning intentions were forgotten.
⎯ his eyes were glued to you: he was obsessed with the way you moved, the way you glided across the ring, the way you confidently destroyed all your enemies. he found you entrancing, and he had to see you after the match.
⎯ you’re no underground idiot. you’re aware of sampo koski and his costly scams. when he comes up to you after your match, you were about to run away. still, something about his presence made you want to stay.
when you turned around, you were faced with sampo koski hovering over you. “can i help you?” you asked in a raised tone.
“yes,” sampo smiled. you were interested in where this conversation was going, and you were curious on why sampo chose you to be his next victim. “mind teaching me some moves?”
⎯ you expected a lot of things in this situation. scamming, coy flirtation, winks, etc. you did not expect this.
⎯ you almost stumble back in shock. why does he want to know self-defense tips?? who are the people he’s scamming??????
you’re silent for several beats before sampo begins again, “you’re the best fighter in the underground, honest. and,” he dragged on the word to drag out the conversation, “that means you can help me!”
⎯ if sampo was really being honest with himself, he could’ve asked any other person in the ring. anyone else would’ve shown him self-defense; they liked him. you probably did not (judging by your expression).
⎯ instead, he wanted you. he told himself it was because you were the best fighter in the ring and you were talented. but deep down, it’s because he couldn’t keep his eyes off your performance the entire time; he was encapsulated by you.
“flattery will get you nowhere,” you patted his shoulder and started to walk away; however, sampo’s hand lightly grabs onto your arm, urging you to stay. and for some reason, you don’t let go.
“cmon,” he smirked, and it was weirdly attractive, “what if i need a bodyguard?”
⎯ maybe it was the tone of his voice. maybe it was the way he looked at you. maybe it was the way he held onto you, but he didn’t hold on too tight. whatever it was that night, it convinced you to stay by his side for a long time.
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jing yuan
⎯ he can’t take his eyes off of you when he sees you in the courtyard playing chess with yanqing.
⎯ it's a sight for sore eyes, seeing you and yanqing together. the way you two got along so well made jing yuan's heart swell. seeing you two was like feeling the warm sun after a chilly day.
⎯ jing yuan has never expected you to stay for so long. his life has been full of troubles: intense training at a young age, the death of his master, taking on yanqing as his apprentice, and probably more to come. and yet, you've stayed by his side.
⎯ you are here. and you are alive and you are well. with a life full of loss, jing yuan is happy you are still here. he’s happy that you are smiling and laughing and you are doing mundane things such as playing chess.
⎯ it’s a simple activity. it’s calm and it’s peaceful and there’s no harm coming your way. life seems good for once, and jing yuan thinks he can get used to this as long as you were around him. he finds that peace comes along when you are around anyway.
“darn it! how did you see that?!” yanqing exclaimed, shocked by your recent move in chess. you simply smiled in retaliation, “dunno. face it kid, i am just that good.”
“hey! i was close to getting you though,” the boy reminded you. jing yuan was getting closer now to eavesdrop on your conversation. “key word being close,” you snickered.
⎯ who knew the way into jing yuan’s heart was banter and chess? the more he listened to your conversation, the more his heart swelled. the way you got along so easily with yanqing made him all warm and happy inside; it was such a domestic sight to see.
jing yuan approached your battle with yanqing and sat down next to you. like a moth to a light, you immediately leaned into his body, and jing yuan had to fight off the urge to pull you closer to him.
⎯ yanqing didn’t notice anything, as he was too focused on the chess game. he moved one of his pieces that were then followed by one of your chess pieces.
“you know i was the one who taught your master how to play chess?” you blurted out to yanqing as you followed his pieces around the board. jing yuan looked at you fondly, eyes never leaving your face.
“that’s why i’m so good,” you smirked, “and that’s also why i’m smart enough to do this,” you somehow managed to trap all of yanqing’s pieces, and one by one you started to take them all.
⎯ jing yuan had to hold in his laughter as he watched yanqing’s jaw drop to the floor as you give a low chuckle. jing yuan’s eyes went back to your face, and he thinks that this is nice. he could get used to this.
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um yk idk if this is good or not but hopefully u guys enjoy this lol
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adambja · 4 months
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✴️THE SUBCONSCIOUS MIND✴️
The Guide - the only post you will ever need to understand how your subconscious mind works!
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Let me break it to you! Time isn't real at all cuz think about it all these hours and numbers are made by humans!
But how?!
They just track how the earth moves around the sun and that's all
Yes without time there will be morning and night and still these hours aren't real
As in whole THE UNIVERSE!! TIME DOESN'T EXIST IF YOU AREN'T ON THE EARTH!
which GETS US TO THAT ONE POINT
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For ex.
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Again and again
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And imagine what... Right now
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Even the same thing with
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Affirmations:
Me and my subconscious mind are one.
My subconscious mind already accepts everything I say as true.
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smallestapplin · 1 month
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Do you think Overlord from transformers would be type of guy "I love kinda of woman who can beat the sh t out of me"
Ok ok soo i imagine cybertronian reader who was able to beat the sh t out of Overlord who's now in love with cybertronian reader.
What would her team aka the lost light would react to this 😂😂
This had me cackling. Also I apologize I know you said fem but I don't know how to make the gender important to the story (I'm gender blind I'm so sorry.)
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- you beating Overlord's aft was a miracle and a half. You utilized his pride and slowness against him, though struggling more than you'd like to admit, you managed to out pace him and put the large bot in his place.
- "I don't know what I did! I beat his aft and now he won't leave me alone! I even tell him off and that just seems to get him more interested!" Is what you cry to Rodimus about.
- "I'm gonna be real with you, I don't know how to help you with that. I mean, at least he's not going off the rails and starting fights?" It's all he's got. You know he's right, but it doesn't help you one bit, so yog end up groaning and slumping over in your seat. Roddy tries to pat your back and show you some cool earth thing he has, before Overlord finds you, and coos about how worried he was when you weren't in your habsuite, and glares at Rodimus.
- Overlord still tries to fight everyone, and by Primus Megatron gets it the worst, but he's happy all that's needed is for you to angrily yell Overlord's name and call him back like a dog. Megatron always breathes a sigh of relief when your enraged voice echoes through the room, calling for Overlord to "bring you aft over here right now, I swear to primus if I have to put down my report!-" and watch as the equally large bot instantly drops his fighting stance, rushing over to you, looking far too happy and pleased to be called by you (even if you aren't'.)
- You're tired, you just want to do you job and go about your day, not wake up from a statis to the large blue mech over you, holding a thing of energon for you and asking to spar.
- Ratchet and First Aid hear and see it the most, and believe Ratchet gives you high an audio processor full. You send Overlord to the med bay frequently, and he can't even scold the bot into being more careful cause he's not even listening! He has to deal with Overlord staring at you and not even hearing him.
- First Aid tries to help in that regard, explaining to you that this is getting out of servo, but Overlord nearly throws a medical berth at him for it, only stopping when you glare at him.
- "I fight him, he likes it, I ignore him, he likes that too! Nothing I do sends the massage home for him."
- Ultra Magnus wants to help, trust him he does! This is classified as harassment and he swore to always help his crew members....but....you are literally the only thing keeping Overlord docile, and First Aid and Rodimus have already reported that Overlord does try to swing at them for interfering.
It's safer for everyone to not, after all you seem to handle yourself just fine! You're a strong bot that can handle one of the strongest gladiators in history! He lets you vent as much as you need, but eventually has to tell you he can help once Overlord oversteps.
- Lucky you, you don't have to worry about that. Overlord is obsessed with beating you in battle, but also he loves fighting you, you carry yourself with such strength and confidence once against him, he's smitten. With your speed, to him, it makes your battles feel like a dance! Your movements and skill have him smitten, as does your attitude, your fire and sass have him weak in the knees.
- Prowl is somehow your only ride or die here, he's more worried about what Overlord could do but doesn't think before shouting at him to give you space or to frag off, the temperamental officer goes into protective mode when it comes to you.
- Overlord does not like Prowl because of this, but you cling to your friend in thanks.
- "It's every damn cycle, don't you have a hobby!? Frag I don'tknow, watch a movie, pick up blacksmithing, SOMETHING!" Prowl barely has time to dodge a swift punch, but he manages, and next thing you know there does the fourth table of the week, followed by more shouting, and you having to yell for Overlord to knock it off.
- Rung is definitely getting good use as a therapist, he's trying his best to give you coping skills to help ease your frustrations with your situation, and while they work, you just come back to tell him you came back to your habsuite to Overlord on your berth, and pulling you into his lap.
- "It's rude he didn't ask before doing so."
- "AND THEN HE ASKED TO SPARK BOND, CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT!?"
- "Oh my, he asked to spark bond-"
- Even just trying to have a professional conversation with you turns into a chore, not because of you, but because of the angry look guard dog standing behind you, glaring down at anyone speaking to you.
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ddollfface · 7 months
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𝐏𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲 𝐅𝐚𝐜𝐞, 𝐃𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐲 𝐌𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐡
𝗟𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗦𝗶𝗰𝗸!𝗔𝘁𝗵𝗹𝗲𝘁𝗲 𝘅 𝗳𝗲𝗺!𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿
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"Your clothes would look nice on my bedroom floor."
Trigger Warnings; not proofread, pretty sure reader is described as 'girlfriend' or 'girl' somewhere, yandere behavior, extremely toxic behavior, manipulation, rip if you know someone like this irl, abuse of systems, abuse of pretty privilege (can't relate lol), and, as usual, bad writing. If I missed anything, then please let me know ♡ Here 'ya go 💗!Nonny, the second part of your request!! I hope it's to your standards... I'm not proofreading anything I'm putting out rn. I'm way too tired. I hope everyone had a good President's weekend))
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Our boy is literally the definition of pretty privilege. He's got everything a girl would ever want, and he's the envy of all the guys on campus. He's sculpted like a Greek god, thanks to his Persian genetics and daily visits to the gym.
Everyone and anyone will listen to what LoveSick!Athlete's gotta say, and they'll do whatever he's asked, if he's saying it in a certain tone with a certain face. This is his manipulative personality coming into play. He understands that people will listen to him, for whatever reason, and he uses it to his advantage, scaring away any guys you may or may not find attractive.
Usually, it's pretty easy to do as they're just one of your classmates that you just find handsome, but you've never thought of talking to them, much less pursuing them. You're introverted personality (in this type of darling) makes it easy for him to keep you all to himself.
The two of you have been together for years, ever since you were little kids, and you trust everything he says, but not for superficial reasons like everyone else. You see him for who he is. You understand that he'd never do anything to hurt you; I'm just looking out for you, yeah? Just take my word for it, he's not worth your time.
In this case, with this darling, the two of you aren't dating, in your eyes at least. And LoveSick!Athlete has been pursuing you for quite some time, but he's patient. The two of you are practically attached at the hip, and that alone scares off any of your suitors, so even if you find someone (guy or chick) attractive, then they're gone before you can even say 'hello'.
Now, I've gone over how LoveSick!Athlete deals with his 'competitors', though he doesn't see them as this, in this post. This post is more geared toward how he deals with jealousy, but I drabble on the idea of putting down other men and making you see them in a bad light.
LoveSick!Athlete don't see these men, no matter how you see them, as a threat to your relationship, nor his ego. The two of you are far too out of reach for them to touch; they can't get to you, but it's different when it's his teammate. Especially since he never shuts up about them, so they know that he's pursuing you or you're in a relationship (depending on the time).
Overall, I think LoveSick!Athlete would treat the situation similarly with his teammate as he would with some random guy, but he'll have a bitter taste in his mouth whenever he sees said teammate now. It's possible that he'll be rougher with them on the ice, pushing them harder, elbowing them, and tripping them. Of course, no one will notice. After all, he's their star player, he'd never do anything to hurt his teammates, never.
He'll bad mouth them, behind their back of course, to his other teammates and you, can't forget about you. He'll go on and on about all the things they've done over the summer while school was out. How they're so aggressive toward girls, especially the ones that say 'no' to him. You wouldn't believe what Sonia told me, sweets. She said...
Once you get him talking, he won't stop. LoveSick!Athlete would never, ever, miss the opportunity to trash on of his rivals. If the guy seems persistent and tries to talk to you, god, let alone he touches you, he'll rain hellfire on the campus. He'll get some college girls to go report him to the campus office, saying that they were assaulted by him. LoveSick!Athlete might even plant some drugs into the guy's bag, causing him to lose his athletic scholarship.
And if the guy tries to tell on him, like a rat, then he'll just be brushed off as "desperate" and "attention-seeking." That he's trying to push the blame on someone else, 'cause there's no way LoveSick!Athlete would ever do something like that.
He's the team's sweetheart, after all.
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luvsturniolo · 10 months
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hey love :) idk if this makes sense at all but i think it'd be so cute if you wrote something about chris where the reader and him have been friends for only a year, but it's been a year of them obsessing over each other with out the other even knowing, and then maybe the reader is over at the triplets's house and she's really anxious cos she's worried chris doesn't feel the same way, and chris notices so he asks her what's wrong and she kinda like vents it all out while hugging him and he keeps running his hand through her hair and when she stops her rant of how much she loves him, he just kisses her as his response !!!!!!! like that's so chris :,)
ー ★ !! reciprocate
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pairing : chris x fem!reader
synopsis : after a year of being best friends , your feelings for chris have been changing. it’s not hard to recognize this feeling in your chest to be love. the only question in your mind is this : does he feels the same?
a/n : i jumped when i saw ur user like literally ilysm what ?? also i apologize for how long this took its literally been months
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you aren't the type to be insecure in your relationships. but something about chris made you feel like you weren't enough.
he's just so insanely perfect in your eyes that you can't fathom the fact that he'd ever like you back. so you've decided to bury your feelings for him — since you deemed them as unrealistic anyway.
it's been an entire year of teasing and flirting with a guy that probably only sees you as a friend. but you can't help it! chris always talks to you in a flirty manner, how are you expected to just ignore his antics and hide your feelings!?
today marks one year of you guys being friends.
it's only been twelve months, but you honestly feel like you've known him for an eternity — which might sound dramatic, but it's true. chris has this aroma to him that makes you feel so safe and secure. he listens to you when you speak ; he laughs with you when you're joking ; he gives you space if you need it. he's just so perfect at reading your emotions and understanding how you feel that it's a shock you haven't been friends for a decade.
"do you think matt could pick me up?" you ask chris over the phone, flopping backward so you're laying flat on your back. "i want to hang out at your house. mine is boring."
chris laughs at you, "don't you have a car? i'd gladly make him drive to you, but what's stopping you from already being over here?"
you think back on earlier today when you were pulled over by a cop. your depth perception may have been a bit off. and you may have accidently hit a pedestrian and gotten your license revoked for a few months.
"it's in the shop." you lie with an innocent smile. "getting new tires."
chris holds his phone close to his face, staring at you through the screen. after only a few seconds of analyzing your face, he decides that you're definitely not telling the truth.
"yeah, sure." he agrees sarcastically. "i totally believe that."
"you should!" you tell him. "because it's completely true!"
the sound of a door opening and closing is heard through the tiny speakers of your phone. chris's head snaps in the direction of someone entering his bedroom. his face suddenly falls with annoyance before he says, "what do you want nick?"
"just wanna talk to you," nick yawns, stretching himself out to lay on top of his brother. chris groans and shoves him off of his bed, but nick just laughs.
"oh my god! did you say nick's here!?" you exclaim, sitting up in your own bed and clutching your phone tightly in your hands with excitement. "tell nick to come here, i want to talk to him!"
chris looks down at you — well, his phone — and sighs before glancing back over at nick. he mutters something about you betraying him before shoving his screen in nick's face and pouting. "y/n wants to talk to you."
nick snatches the phone out of chris's hands and rushes out of his room, leaving the door open just to be annoying. then, nick runs into the bathroom an locks the door behind them. he holds the phone close to his face before whisper-shouting his next question. "why aren't you here yet!? i thought you said you were going to confess your feelings to chris today!"
"hey!" you defend yourself. "hear me out before yelling at me!"
"i'm listening..." he urges you to continue, putting his ear in the camera to give you a visual that he is in fact listening.
"i was planning to come over today, i swear! but i got my license revoked last night, so i don't have a car." you explain. "i was going to ask matt to pick me up, but then chris started asking questions about why i couldnt drive myself. then you barged in."
"why don't you just tell chris that you got it revoked?" nick says, sitting down on the closed seat of the toilet.
"because that's embarrassing." you say as though it's obvious. "i'll tell him tomorrow, but today needs to be perfect! i don't want him to be thinking about my patheticness while i confess."
nick shrugs, "i guess that makes sense."
"okay now go tell matt to come pick me up!" you order. "i'm sick of being at home. my cat won't play with me anymore because she's getting too old."
nick nods, flushing the toilet and running the sink even though he didn't use the bathroom — simply to put on a show for anyone who might have their ear pressed to teh door (cough chris cough). he then opens the door and comes face to face with chris standing in the hallway. he's leaning against the wall with his arms crossed over his chest.
"why'd you pretend to flush and shit?" chris asks him. "you literally have y/n on the phone. i know you didn't piss."
nick rolls his eyes before handing the phone back to his brother. you watch as they argue about something completely random and offtopic before chris walks back into his bedroom and plops back down on his bed.
"sorry he stole you like that." he apologizes as he reaches over to open his blind and let some sunlight pour in. "what'd you guys talk about?"
"my tires." you lie.
again, chris immediately knows that you're not being honest. despite being able to see right through you, he doesn't want to pry. so he just nods and changes the topic.
"is that a new shirt?" he asks with a laugh. "i’ve never seen it before."
you look down at what you’re wearing and immediately whip your head back up to glare at him. you’re wearing his shirt. “you let told me to take it!”
“i’m just kidding.” he says. “it looks way better on you, pretty girl.”
your face flushes red and you set your phone down so the camera is facing the ceiling. you hold your cheeks in your hands and stare at the blankets on your bed.
chris always does shit like this, and you don’t know how to feel. part of you loves it because of how it makes you get all giddy. but another part of you hates it because you struggle to read what it means. is he just joking, or does it mean something more?
“matt’s on his way!” you hear nick’s voice shout across the room. he seemingly poked his head through the crack of chris’s door.
“on his way where?” chris asks.
“oh, he’s just picking up y/n so she can come over and tell you something important.” nick says easily.
you rush to pick your phone back up so you can yell at him. “NICOLAS!” you shout.
the screen is still pointed at chris’s face, but you can hear nick’s giggle before he runs out of the room and shuts the door.
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half an hour later, you and matt arrive at the sturniolos’ house. you guys walk through the door with a big bag of mcdonald’s. you guys impulsively decided to get some food on the way home, and made sure to get chris and nick something as well.
“aww!” nick says, taking the bag out of your hand with a wide grin plastered across his face. “you got me food!?”
“share with chris.” matt tells him. “it’s not all for you.”
“yeah.” chris agrees, walking out of his room and chasing after nick to take the bag from him. “give me some, you greedy little shit!”
nick runs away from chris, taking the food with him as he locks himself in the bathroom and his laughs can be heard through the closed door.
chris groans, rolling his eyes before turning around and directing his attention toward the more important subject — you.
he pulls you into a hug, "i haven’t seen you in forever!"
you wrap your arms around him, hugging him back before speaking against his ear. “i know, it’s been ages.”
“it’s been half a day.” matt corrects you, pushing past his brother to walk into the kitchen and set his car keys onto the counter. “i’m going back to sleep. you guys are too fucking dramatic to handle.”
then, matt leaves the kitchen and walks down the hall to his bedroom. you hear the door close behind him, knowing you and chris are now officially alone together for the first time all day.
well, all day is pretty exaggerated seeing as you to have only been reunited for a few minutes. also, you guys have been on facetime since you woke up this morning.
“so!” chris says, pulling out of the hug. “what was nick talking about earlier. you need to tell me something important?”
your heart drops.
“oh, that can wait!” you say, trying to laugh it off. “let’s watch a movie or something. ooh! we could make, uh, pizza or cookies or some shit. that'd be fun right? you guys have pizza, don't you? well. never mind, everyone has pizza, haha." you walk into the kitchen and begin to dig through their freezer. "honestly, cookies would be more fun to make than some pizza. they taste better too. wait no, that's controversial. how about-"
your anxious ranting is cut off when chris places a hand on your shoulder. you stop digging through the freezer and turn around to face him with a frown.
"calm down, y/n." he tells you softly. he lets his hand drop from your shoulder and land on your hand. he grabs it and gently pulls you into the living room. he sits down on the couch with you, still holding your hand in his. "slow down a bit. we can talk about it at whatever pace you want."
"i'm gonna rant again." you warn him.
he chuckles, "that's fine by me. i love your ranting."
you suck in a deep breath before you begin. "i know we've only known each other for a year, but i really fucking like you. you're kind, attractive, and literally fucking perfect. you make me feel happy whenever i'm around you as if you're purposely trying to make me feel comfortable. and if you are, it's working by the way." you keep your eyes pinned to the couch cushion, not wanting to make eye contact with him. "i've been keeping my feelings to myself because i don't want to ruin what we have. but i realize now that even if i try to ignore my feelings, they're still going to explode eventually — and probably not in a healthy way. i don't want to hurt you by accidentally lashing out, so i decided it'd be best to tell you the truth."
you tear your eyes from thr cushion and raise them to face chris. he isn't answering you, but he definitely heard everything you said. his eyes are flicking across the room, processing all the shit you just dumped on him.
his silence stresses you out even more. what if you said the wrong thing? what if he hates you now? what if this ruins you guys's friendship before you can even try to form a romantic relationship? what if this is the lashing out you feared would happen? oh shit. you didn't even consider that.
"fuck," you mutter, "i'm sorry. i should go. this was a mistake. just forget everything i just said."
you begin to stand up, but chris grabs your hand before you can walk away. you turn and look at him but his eyes are already pinned to yours.
"how could i ever forget that?" he asks.
you don't answer.
"my dream girl just confessed that she likes me." he says before pulling on your hand, causing you to fall on top of him. he catches you and holds you in a hug. he runs a hand through your hair, caressing it gently. "i never even thought it would be fucking possible for you to ever like me back."
your eyes widen. "what? so you don't hate me?"
your feel his chest shake with a laugh. he then moves his hands to your shoulers before pushing you back to look at your face. without another word, chris presses your lips together.
the kiss is passionate, but unfortunately short-lived. within the few seconds it lasts, everything you struggled to tell him wth your rants was silently understood.
"i could never hate you." he whispers against your lips before connecting them back together.
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sweetheart-satoru · 2 years
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you wanted him, but you knew he could have so much better
author's note: omg guys i literally never write angst and i haven't written in soooo longggg, i got lazy in the end. i first wrote this october 8th 2022 and now im editing and adding more (and writing pt 2) on july 27th 2023 😭 😭 😭 
part two here !!
he's one of the prettiest people you have ever seen. it's not fair how he can't be yours. gojo satoru. the strongest jujutsu sorcerer. your best friend. you love him, but he doesn't love you like that. "y/n-chan!" he walks and waves towards you.
it hurts to know he isn't and most definitely won't be yours. you're weak, he's strong. he's beautiful, you're not. he's everything you want and needs. but you aren't what he needs. you know someone else can fulfill the job of being someone who he actually needs. not you. never you.
"hi. how was your weekend, were you busy? you didn't reply to my texts." he pouts. "hi." is all you say back to him, grabbing your books and closing your locker. how is he so energetic this early? he squinted his eyes in confusion before a couple of girls approached him. you don't bother trying to listen to whatever they say.
you've read all his texts, just purposely turning off the read receipts so he doesn't notice. you've gotten many texts such as;
satoru: hi (nickname)
satoru: we should go out and watch horror movies >:)
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satoru: helloooo?? it's been days :((
satoru: did you get your phone taken away??
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satoru: y/nnnn i saw you post your dog on ig
satoru: are you ignoring me?
satoru: are you mad??
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and lots more plus missed calls.
you stand right beside him as he talks to girls much prettier than you. most of them have the ugliest personality you have ever seen, but you know how your best friend goes for the prettier things.
you bite your lip and walk away to your next class. once he notices you're gone he calls out to you, "don't leave without me, y/n-chan!" god, even his voice is beautiful. how could you ever be friends with someone like him? why would he ever want to be friends with someone like you? you don't deserve him.
you don't say anything, you just hug your books closer to your chest and continue your way. "y/n-chan?" he asks, slowing down behind you, "hm?" you turn around.
"are you mad at me?" you shake your head, "no." you don't bother giving him any type of reaction. "yes, you are." you shake your head again, "i'm not." he frowns.
"liar." he pokes your cheek with his finger, "you haven't looked or talked to me since last thursday, it's wednesday." you push his finger away, "i'm not mad." he rolls his tongue into his cheek, grabbing your wrist. you turn to pull away but he gives you a look that reads, 'don't bother, i'm not letting go.'
"just tell me what is it. did i do something?"
"no."
"well, i clearly did something to make you not want to talk to me." you shrug, "i'm just tired." now it's his turn to shake his head, "no, it's me, isn't it? every time you see utahime, nanami, haibara, suguru, or ieiri you're happy but whenever i try and open my mouth around you, you just look the other way and ignore me. what's wrong?"
"i said it's nothing." you pull your wrist back, "let's just go to class." you two walk in silence as he tries to remember if he did something wrong.
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dreadsuitsamus · 1 year
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Dating Goku Headcanons | Goku x Reader |
author's note: i just love me some son goku!!!
pairing: goku x fem!reader
warnings: fluff, light nsfw mentions but nothing explicit
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when you met goku, you were just out grocery shopping like any other tuesday
he wasn't even actually shopping there, he was just mooching off all of the free sample tables
they asked him to leave just as you were checking out, and so you ended up striking conversation with him in the parking lot, as his physique didn't imply he was starving, yet he was eating like he was
and as you walk away to your car with your groceries, you wonder just how you got finessed into cooking dinner for him that night
ever since he got a taste of your cooking, Goku was absolutely hooked on you
the key to a Saiyan's heart truly is through his stomach
Goku isn't the most romantic guy, and he can be a little clueless at first, but he's a swift learner and soon figures out your cues
his hugs are warm and strong, and he's always happy to give them
a good listener, and sometimes actually gives very good advice
loves, loves, loves kissing
Goku has, on more than one occasion, gotten so excited to kiss you that he's cut you off mid-sentence with a big ole smoochy smooch
and by the time he's done, you never remember what you were talking about
he doesn't know if he prefers to give or receive kisses, as both are so amazing to him
also very much loves to have sex
Goku can go as often as you want; he will literally never tire out before you
unsurprisingly, he's a generous lover too
goku loves to nap just as much as he loves to train, so getting quality time can be a bit of a struggle if you aren't in the mood for a nap
he won't get mad if you wake him up so you can do something together, but it's ideal to have a big sandwich at the ready so he won't pout about being woken up
Goku will literally wear that same damn gi every day if you don't organize outfits for him, so you end up playing dress up a lot
he's a very stunning model, and nine times out of ten you end up tearing the clothes right back off of him
Goku is literally the perfect boyfriend for when you have a sudden urge to rearrange all of the furniture
he's more than happy to move everything for you, even sometimes offering his own ideas or desires for where certain things should go
he's also perfect for dusting the ceiling fans and corners, since he's not only tall, but can fly
he's also got the most adorable sneeze
is always happy to see you, whether it's been an hour or a day or a week
he's a bit like a golden retriever puppy, if you really think about it
his joy upon seeing your face is increased tenfold after a day spent in the hyperbolic time chamber, as it's been a whole year for him!
he'll scoop you into those even stronger arms, kissing you and nuzzling you and talking a thousand miles a minute about this, that and the third
you and Goku don't fight often, but it's not an impossibility
sometimes Goku's naïveté can be frustrating, mostly when it comes to his rigorous training schedule
you see him every day, but it doesn't always feel like you're getting much time with him since you have to do the majority of the house chores and work full time
Goku doesn't argue much, and will usually just let you get your frustrations out before responding
you don't see his war face often, as you're not a fighter and never do see the battlefield
but when he's genuinely upset at you, you're pretty sure he makes the same face as he would to his enemies
being on the side of Goku's cold shoulder or disappointment is the worst feeling you've ever known, and you find yourself incredibly lucky that it's not only rare, but fleeting when it does happen
Goku sees so much of the good in anything and he'd never let a small mistake hold him back from the happiness you make him feel
loves to tell you how much he loves you, and thanks you often for all that you do for him
Goku is honest to a fault, and will tell you if an outfit or color looks bad on you
and while he's always down for a fight, his demeanor is less happy-go-lucky and more i-will-fuck-you-up whenever you get hit on by another man
jealous Goku is not a nice man, but good lord he's the best lover you've ever had
Goku has practically turned your home into an animal rescue with how many stray kittens and injured birds he finds in need of help
after he brought home a whole litter of kittens and their feral mother and begged you to let them stay for a while with those damned puppy dog eyes, you decided that the ASPCA should put him in their advertisements
Being with Goku has made traveling immensely easier and you go on vacations more often than you typically would, thanks to instant transmission and his ability to fly being able to nix your travel costs to a near zero
sometimes he'll pull out the old nimbus cloud and take you for a ride, letting you get a good look at the stars and all of their constellations
Goku is beautiful in the moonlight, and the spark in his kisses while underneath it feels stronger than normal
you've never felt this much happiness before meeting Goku, and each day is somehow better than the last
Goku isn't perfect, but he's everything you need and more
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thefandomboysblog · 8 months
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You know what? I'm amazed how both Shane and Ryan aren't just one thing, in my mind. They're so unique it's hard putting them, in my mind, as this or that, X or Y, etc.
Shane? Yeah, I want to believe the demon theory. His calm nature and assertiveness in the face of a supposed paranormal danger? his "I just turn off my fear. yeah I don't do that with other emotions." comment? demon behavior. Also, somehow, he is to me, the personification of the color yellow. He is so bright, so soft in unexpected ways. The way he smiles, and his eyes get so happy? his genuine words of encourangement to Ryan? his wit? You kidding me? Ball of sunshine Shane Madej truther over here. Shane's literally a gentle giant. And so much more, of course.
Ryan? Yeah, he's a jock. That's it, he is really a jock even though I am sure he wasn't exactly the jocky type in high school. The way he could talk about sports for hours? His humor? A jock. Again, also, and somehow, he is in my humble opinion one of the best ghost hunters in the industry (apart from Shane). The way that in his fear he is brave? Ryan throws himself into all kinds of dangers which he believes 100% are there, weather it is or not, while he is known to be terrified of it? So fucking brave. A "I'm that guy" moment. At the very least a show of how commited or how much love he has for his craft. And so much more, again.
I know that's just people as I know that people are that: multifaceted. Even if I've seen it everywhere and I specifically search for that in the youtubers I watch they just do it differently, and it never fails to get me when they are genuine. Like, those little moments when their friendship of so many years just shows through the screen? People get tired in this fandom of saying they are so real with their friendship, they believe in friendships because of them, etc. When stuff like that happens? I believe it too! Because how could you not? It's there! It's everywhere in all their content!
So ever since I saw the Making Watcher video I've been a bit feral over it. Anyway just thinking about these two guys, having certain thoughts about it, appreciating them. They're neat, and I'm so glad I discovered them last summer.
Thank you for listening to my Ted Talk.
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beanghostprincess · 11 months
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zolu or frobin for the ship thing!!
YAY I THOUGHT NOBODY WOULD ASK ME ANYTHING NGL AUIBFJKASFDFBFASBFJK
zolu: they make me mentally, physically, and spiritually ill. they're one of my favorite ships if not my favorite ship of all one piece. actually heavily surprised they aren't more popular, but i'm glad opla is kind of changing that. anyway- i've been shipping them since day 1. zoro's devotion to luffy is something i will never get tired of. the fact that he does not believe in any god canonically but the way he follows luffy is so easy to compare to religious imagery makes me weak in the knees and wanting to curl up and cry. zoro is luffy's anchor and the one that guides him when he's lost, and luffy is the one that saved zoro from a life of loneliness and gave him the chance to follow a dream he would have never fulfilled if he had continued on his own. luffy is, kind of literally, his sun. and i'm not even talking about moon/sun dynamics. i don't even consider them to be that specific trope. luffy is literally his sun and god and best friend and boyfriend and captain and everything. if you ask zoro what is luffy for him? his everything. that silly rubber guy? his captain. his sun. his moon. his stars. his dream. also!!! people never talk about luffy's pov when it comes to zolu, and it makes me so so so mad!!!! because his perception of zoro is so beautiful. luffy trusts him with his whole soul and would leave the crew on his bare hands if he needed to. zoro's his first mate. that's a captain's heart, man. luffy might be the captain but he's emotional and irrational, and he listens to what zoro has to say. their silent communication makes me want to bang my head against the concrete floor. luffy relies on him and zoro lets his guard down when it comes to luffy. they're so in love, whether you see it romantically or platonically... i love that they're so clingy and silly and so so so powerful together. if something happened to the other their worlds would literally be completely ruined. their love literally goes beyond romantic and platonic. they're the perfect definition of queer platonic. honestly, i'm not fond of luffy in sexual situations but when it comes to zolu it's just so easy to picture them being so so intimate... i'm gonna cry writing this they're so dear to me.
frobin: i want them to adopt me so damn much. my parents. mom and dad. i usually hate it when people use family labels when it comes to found family, because the point of found family is that they're not a conventional family but they love each other even more deeply than a blood related one does. however, this is my exception because i really really really think they give married vibes and i want them as my parents. their dynamic is so good!! perhaps it's just the fact that their arcs are basically the same one and they're the main characters of water 7/enies lobby (along with our dear god usopp. shout out to my boyfriend out there!!) but their backstories and dynamic are sooooo satisfactory and angsty and domestic to watch (yes, all at the same time). robin's personality is gentle and sweet but also kind of dark and satiric, with a lot of pain behind from her past. franky, on the other hand, is a big, funny, eccentric and extremely adorable guy with an emotional touch and a lot of energy. at first it's just "big funny guy x sweet gentle girl" but in reality is "big funny guy that always takes care of everyone with a smile on his face and is extremely protective of the one he loves x sweet gentle girl that is learning how to enjoy life and will protect her new family at all costs". it's not just the angst and hurt/comfort of it all, though! i love the fact that she's satiric and dark and he's just- he's just fucking scared of her sometimes. and tbh if you're not scared of your hot, goth, intelligent wife, what's the point? you know that meme of will smith showing off his wife? that's literally them. robin does anything and he's there supporting her. franky does anything and she's there saying "that idiot right there is my husband *tiny giggle*". anyway, basically they're very gentle and domestic and i wish my parents loved me the way they would please please franky and robin kiss get married and then adopt me plea-
TL;TR: i love both ships a lot! 10/10 <3
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lyteofgod · 10 days
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So tired of the unnecessary Mayhem banter and also the obscene amount of fucking posers who are LITTERING all things Mayhem. Are they actually the best black metal band? Imo, no, there's way better out there. The reason they're the most popular is because they're the most legendary!! I don't think Euronymous's riffs are actually that good, and I don't think Dead's vocals are actually incredible and set the standard-- but I respect their legacy and I respect the people who are in that band and who have been in it (even Varg....... a little bit) because they are/were real human beings and their only relevance in life isn't that they played in some fucking band, they had/have personal lives and thoughts. Just because Pelle is smiling and looking silly in a lot of his photos doesn't undermine the fact he was terribly unwell, he's not your fucking tragic golden angel, he was some guy you probably wouldn't have liked if you knew him personally. Tears didn't trickle down when he wasn't feeling too great, he cut himself and killed small animals?! And Euronymous wasn't some fat, ugly, gay dickhead, he was well liked among his peers!! People just hate men who aren't conventionally attractive (it's literally just that he didn't wash his hair) -- "He took a picture of Dead after his suicide!" DO YOU EVEN PAY ATTENTION TO WHAT THIS BAND HAS BEEN TRYING TO TEACH FOR LIKE, THE PAST 30 YEARS!?!?! It's about guts, gore, hatred, and everything antiChrist!! of fucking course he took a picture of Dead, dead. It was also most likely an incredibly traumatic moment for him!? Dude went off the rails after Pelle died
And why does no one talk about Hellhammer?? He was there!!
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he's pretty :p And there's so many other guys who were/are in Mayhem, why is the focus always shone on Dead, Euronymous, and Count Dicksnack!!!?! Necrobutcher is sometimes mentioned... but only as a source of historical knowledge, even though he's a POS and incredibly biased ... because,, as I've stated before, these guys aren't characters in a play for you, they're everyday guys you maybe wouldn't even like... because they preach sin, death, and the devil...?
I've also seen some REALLY bizarre statements stemming from people who have a passion for shitting on Mayhem. Such as "Dead was self-centered" and the most insane take yet "Euronymous deserved it" FUCK OFF!!!!! He did NOT deserve death. I will defend Øystein Aarseth to my grave, I swear. I don't agree with, like any of his opinions and ideals, but I wholeheartedly believe he did not deserve to be murdered. Did he burn down churches? Yeah, and that's fucked up. Did he take a picture of his friend's corpse? Yeah, and that's fucked up. Did he deserve to be murdered? NOOOO!! Anyone who thinks he deserved to be murdered.... hear me now: I will fold you like laundry then shove you up my ass. You're actually fucking deranged to say that about a person.
Making fun of Mayhem everytime someone mentions it, even going out of your way to find someone talking about it... you will never be kvlt sorry :P you aren't cool you're just fat. "They're too popular" and you are listening to Darkthrone? Almost equally as popular? If not that you're listening to Bathory and Venom guaranteed
Also I am #1 Pelle Ohlin fan cause no one else who simultaneously really likes him also respects him as a person and as a deceased person. The crown is mine cause wtf?? All Mayhem fans on Pinterest should be banned
Finally, do I even like Mayhem that much? No, they're pretty mediocre. But they were the first band I was really invested in, so I will defend them and die on this hill.
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mulletmitsuya · 2 years
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Tokyo Revengers Groupchat
Warnings: swearing, suggestiveish,
Desc: a series of different dm's consisting of different pairs in tokrev more or less relating to the same event. also it's the last timeline where everything is jolly (ass description, my bad)
Draken + Mikey
Draken: man i'm so fucking tired of you
Draken: if you aren't here in the next 5 minutes i'm trashing your fucking bike
Mikey: no you won't lol
Mikey: you made it, you're not gonna hurt your precious creation are you?😙
Draken: ...
Draken: we won't name the baby after you
Mikey: you weren't going to anyway 😒
Draken: can't you just listen to me then???
Draken: YOU HAVE A RACE IN 10 MINUTES DICKWEED
Mikey: bro chill i was taking a piss
Draken: ITS BEEN 30 MINUTES
Draken: and YOU'RE LYING
Draken: YOU ARE FLIRTING WITH A MARRIED MAN
Draken: LEAVE MITCHY ALONE FOR CHRISTS SAKE
Mikey: no i'm literally in the bathroom
Draken: motherfucker i can see you 😐
Mikey: ok fine geez i'm coming down
Draken: i don't want you to be my client anymore
Mikey: you're married to my sister so you can't get rid of me
Mikey: brother in law😋
Inupi + Shin
Shin: yo Inupi! Mikey's gonna come over after the race and chill with me for a while
Shin: so you don't have to close up i'll take care of that
Inupi: i thought we were gonna hang out lol
Inupi: but ig you don't care about me
Shin: wha-
Shin: that's not true 😞✊
Shin: i mean, we work together so we always hang out😅
Shin: and i feel pretty weird drinking with you since i've known you since you were a kid😂
Inupi: i'm 30
Inupi: did you know that i also have sex sometimes
Inupi: i'm a grown adult Shinichiro
Shin: WOAH THERE BUDDY🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
Shin: 😆
Shin: i get that you're grown but idk you're just lil Inupi to me
Inupi: 😐
Shin: just hang out with me and Mikey okay?
Inupi: no
Shin: bro why?
Inupi: i don't like him, at all
Shin: Mikey??? what's there not to like?
Inupi: 😑
Shin: :(
Inupi: fine
Shin: :)
Shin: i'll ask him to invite a few friends so it's not awkward and maybe you can invite Koko?
Inupi: k
Shin: 😁
Inupi: ...
Inupi: 🙂
Koko + Kisaki
Kisaki: you need to stop gambling Kokonoi
Kisaki: evertime you lose, a strand of your hair turns grey
Kisaki: and well... you lose a lot
Koko: my hair is white because i dyed it that way
Koko: no other reason
Kisaki: ...sure
Koko: and i'm not that bad, i just need a little more practice is all🙂
Kisaki: you have lost millions of yen due to this practice
Kisaki: enough is enough😕
Kisaki: anyway, i need a drink and there's a new restaurant that opened up yesterday, will you be joining me?
Koko: i'm meeting up with my friend Seishu today so i'll have to pass
Kisaki: oh yes, your friend
Kisaki: the pretty boy, correct?
Koko: yes
Koko: i mean you could call him that, i wouldn't know
Kisaki: ...
Kisaki: are you guys...
Kisaki: nevermind
Koko: are we what?
Kisaki: you know...
Kisaki: gay
Kisaki: are guys gay together? as in homosexual. as in attracted to each other as men? together?
Kisaki: like a couple of sorts
Kisaki: i usually don't like gay people but i'll make an exception for you and still be your colleague and even your friend
Koko: ...
Koko: Seishu is my friend
Koko: 😐
Kisaki: your secret is safe with me
Koko: there is no secret
Kisaki: alright 😏
Kisaki: i regret sending that emoji, i apologize
Koko: what about you and the hand tattoo man?? hm? what about that? Hanma was it?
Kisaki: Hanma??
Kisaki: i've called the police on Hanma 4 times already, you know that😐
Koko: he makes breakfast in your kitchen fully nude
Kisaki: we were friends in our teenage years and then he confessed his love to me and made it weird
Koko: and here he is still in your life
Kisaki: arguing with him is futile, even with the police. what do you want me to do?
Koko: just remember that when you point at someone there are three fingers pointing back at you
Koko: i'm leaving😐
Kisaki: not very slay of you
Pah + Peh
Peh: wife angry again
Peh: not talking to me
Pah: haha bozo
Pah: try rubbing her feet
Peh: they smell bad
Pah: try rubbing her back
Pah: massage
Peh: won't let me touch her 😕
Pah: her loss 👎
Pah: show off your abs
Peh: been eating more lately she cooks good no more abs
Pah: lmao
Pah: cry
Peh: already doing that 😐
Pah: sorry
Pah: don't know what you want me to do
Peh: i'll figure it out
Pah: why is she mad?
Peh: we were watching E.T and she said she liked him and i told her that i would kill him with hammers brutally
Pah: fair reaction
Peh: women r so hard to understand
Pah: word
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hunterbunter3000 · 1 year
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Angry Sweetheart gives me the vibe of calling you a pet name when she’s mad. Like you know you f*cked when Sweetheart calls you Sweetie or something else 💀
Nah you're so right
She rarely gets like- ACTUALLY mad
She gets irritated or annoyed ofc but mad? Run. Fucking run. But before you run, apologize on your knees, clean your browser history and dig your grave. Cause you're not coming back ALIVE
She's a silent mad type when she's around people. Kinda like Ghost tbh (they're both so damn scary when they're mad)
You gotta watch her tone as well. If she goes up, tread lightly. If she goes down, stop talking and just agree with her.
Like she has arguments with alot of people, since her workplace is male dominated, alot of views aren't the same and that's perfectly fine with Sweetheart. But alot of them keep pushing it, so she can agree with them and be on the correct side- Sweetheart ain't having that. She had a two hour HEATED talk with a guy about something and she was tired.
Sweetheart, sighing and grabbing his collar: Listen. I could care less about this whole damn conversation, but you just kept fucking talking because you wanted a woman's attention. I gave you enough of it so now it's time to shut your fucking mouth.
Sweetheart: Okay, Sweetie?
(He gulps and nods quickly)
Sweetheart, grinning: Good boy.
And walks away. LIKE???
Omg she says 'hun' constantly, but says honey when she's mad
Like a rookie ate her cookies she got from home one time (she told him not to eat them, he did it anyway) and she caught him red handed, HAND IN THE COOKIE JAR
and everyone could feel the air change. It felt heavy. Dangerous.
She just stared at him for the longest, and then smiled. But it wasn't right. Ot felt too forced and... not human.
Sweetheart: Hello, Honey! What are you doing?
Rookie, scared shitless: uhm... eating some cookies?
And she just smiles.
Long story short, she stuffed the box down his throat and he had to go to the hospital. Don't worry Sweetheart threw him there. Literally. She threw him through a hospital window and said to unlodge the shit he stole out his throat before she shoves it up his ass.
Everyone-- and I mean EVERYONE-- now knows not to make Sweetheart mad. (Even though it's hot as shit, no one wants to die by her hands so they choose happy Sweetheart)
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he would spoil you, but he makes a point to giving you sweets and chocolates. at the end of most days, your pockets will be filled with them.
Ajax will totally just go up to you, whether you're with friends in the quad or alone in your dorm, he'll hold your hand and lead you places where he set up little dates.
he would hang fairy lights along tree branches, or he'd find sprinkle flowers around the blanket just to make you feel special.
he'd never pick off the petals, just in case you wanted the flowers.
that being said he always has a bouquet of flowers for you.
he's pretty new to the whole dating thing, so he goes to Xavier for advice and help a lot which usually leads to him saying the weirdest and odd things out of the blue that you find really funny
"hey, mama" Ajax called as he approached you. you looked at him strangely before you burst out lauging
"what the hell did you call me?" you asked amused
"I called you mama" he responded tentatively
"why? where did that come from?" you giggled
"Xavier said-"
"-Xavier's wrong, baby. don't listen to him, I prefer literally anything else" you smiled
likes dancing with you, whether it's when your out on a date in a field or in one of your dorms. he'll play music and pull you up to dance with him while you laugh.
he's still a bit shy, and sometimes you'll find him just staring at you with a lazy smile on his face.
he's not usually that shy around you, but when he is his responses with be short and sweet. sometimes he'll just nod or shake his head or just place a simple kiss on your face or shoulder.
if you wear flavoured Chapstick, he'll be obsessed, wanting to kiss you every opportunity he gets. and when he knows you're running out, he'll buy you more with the little money he has, and he'll pick the ones that he knows will taste good.
he won't pressure you to smoke with him, but if you want to he'll take care of you all the way, but he usually makes you stay away from it for your health.
when his snakes are hibernating he get's really lazy and tired and tends to sleep on you.
you always make sure you're with him during winter and colder days for him.
he'll sneak into your room just to cuddle with you and when he really feels like it, he'll sneak you into his room.
he always supports you unless it causes danger or harm, he's protective over your safety, but isn't over protective, just the good amount that it's sweet and loving.
he definitely said I love you first.
he didn't even mean to say it, but he meant it. he was most definitely ranting to you and it just slipped out.
he hates it when you fight with him, he can't bare it and just walks away from you to get some air just to escape the yelling and he doesn't want either of you saying something you don't mean out of anger.
^that being said he rarely picks fights with you, he's definitely too nervous to but when he does it's over something stupid like who the boy you were talking to in the quad or when he's high and can't think straight.
he's almost always the first to apologise, he shows up to your door with flowers and sweets and begs for you to forgive him and he can't stand being mad at each other
always has to talk to you at least 10 times a day or more and if he doesn't he's not happy and in a mood and just wants to talk to you.
sends you cute pictures of baby animals.
texts you 23/7 because he still needs sleep.
he's really cautious around you in case he stones you. always pulling his beanie down when you guys are hanging out even if his snakes aren't out.
it totally took him so long before he asked you out.
you guys were friends and he would treat you with flowers or sweets almost every day. you were oblivious and thought he was just being nice.
"hey, I uh- I got you these!" Ajax held out a bunch of pretty flowers
"aw, that's so sweet of you, thank you Ajax!" you grabbed them off of him, smelling the different types of blossoms.
"you're welcome, so hey, look I was wondering-" the poor Gorgon got cut off by one of your other friends that lead you away from your admirer.
he thought you weren't interested by him but he thought wrong, the next time he gave you a white rose and you kissed him on the cheek
"you're too cute, Jax!"
"would you wanna go out with me sometime?" it was a little outburst of frustration that built up from the how long he's wanted to ask, but he still spoke softly.
"like a date?" you furrowed your eyebrows
"exactly like a date, it would be a date" he nodded his head continuously
"yes, I've been hoping you would ask!" you beamed a him as you held his hand, gently caressing his palm with your thumb.
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zeesodacan · 10 months
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"I have no clue"
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Zee x Reader
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this one's kinda cringe to be honest, i wrote it for my old td account but oh well!! it's still kinda sweet
i remember this being a request, but i've completely lost the ask, since it was on my old blog
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fluff
word count: 1,575
proofread: yes but i'm tired so i might have skipped over something
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Ever since you got to the island, you'd been a confident and straight forward kind of gal. Whenever Ripper opened his mouth to say anything, you were able to combat his statement and shut him up for 5 minutes. Better than anyone else on the island could, at least.
Most of the other contestants enjoyed your attitude and your willingness to speak your mind. You helped lead your team to victory many times and worked hard.
There were moments when you 'lightly' berated a teammate for slacking off, but there was that one person that you just... let slip under your radar.
Zee.
You hadn't truly realized your feelings for the boy until Bowie said something about it. You two were walking in the forest alongside Emma, as you all had formed a little alliance due to hitting it off on the first day on the island.
"So," Bowie began. "Y/N. You and Zee?"
This caught you off guard, quickly looking over at Bowie. "Ex-Excuse me?" You felt your heartrate pick up and your face go red, your eyebrows furrowed trying to figure out what he meant. "Oh my god, it is true!" Bowie laughed, holding onto Emma. "You so totally like Zee."
"No, I don't!" You objected. Where did he get such a stupid idea from?
"You definitely do." Emma butted in, laughing alongside Bowie. "It's so obvious! You're harsh on everyone but Zee! Even though he's the easiest to be harsh on."
"I mean, just yesterday during the catapult challenge you literally cheered for the guy! We aren't even on the same team as him!" Bowie added on. "You do not do that to anyone else. There's some love goin' on and I'm gonna get to the bottom of it."
"No, you will not. And, if you do, so help me I will beat your ass tenfold." You threatened, staring straight into his eyes. "Ooh, feisty." Bowie snickered, waving you off. "Listen, girl, he totally likes you back. You just gotta, you know, push yourself out there! I know you can do that, at least."
You breathed in and sighed. Maybe… just maybe… Bowie was right.
"I'll... think more about it. Can we drop the subject? Thanks." You pinched the bridge of your nose in an attempt to release the tension building up in your face. “Alright." Bowie shrugged, sneaking a glance over at Emma and smiling.
A few more challenges passed and you'd slowly managed to grow closer with Zee, especially after the merge. It wasn't much, just a simple friendship. To say the others were shocked by this was an understatement. Someone as straightforward and determined as you, friends
with the chill, laid-back Zee? It was unheard of!
Today's challenge Chris said you all had to canoe across a river, walk through a field, climb a mountain, and ring a bell! Easy, right? Wrong. While the challenge had hardly started, you were already being plummeted with jumping salmon! Disgusting.
As the taste of salmon filled your mouth every time you were hit in the face, your canoe was being assaulted by said salmon even more. You hadn't even noticed you started sinking until you felt water on your ankles, causing you to look down and take notice of your canoe flooding.
You tried to keep a calm head, but there was no one in your alliance close by, so you slowly accepted your fate. You could try to swim to shore, but that would only end up in you drowning from the salmon and the extreme waves of the river.
You braced for impact with the water when the canoe flipped, and you desperately held onto what was floating as a last attempt.
Just as you were about to go under, you saw someone’s oar appear in front of you, signaling you to grab on. Immediately you grabbed it and watched as your canoe fell into the river, never to be seen again for hundreds of years...
You looked over to your savior and your eyes widened when you realized who it was. Zee! You smiled at him gratefully as you climbed onto his canoe, sighing.
"You looked like you were in trouble." Zee chuckled, looking over at you.
"Man, those stupid salmon destroyed my canoe. If it hadn't been for you I would have been fish food." You laughed along with him, the familiar feeling of fuzziness appearing in your stomach. “I can't thank you enough."
"Nah, it's nothing, man. Anything for a friend." He smiled at you. Friend. Right.
"Well... let's continue the challenge, alright?" You stated, looking towards the ever-looming fields Chris mentioned.
You both sat in an awkward silence before you made it to the field, noticing there were already a few other contestants ahead of you two. Not a moment later, the ground started shaking, and out poured water from the ground.
"It's a geyser! Sorry, geysers!" You exclaimed, looking all over at the small indentations with holes in the field. "How are we supposed to get through without being blown sky-high?"
"I have an idea,” Zee said nonchalantly before grabbing your wrist and running off into the field.
"Zee, what the hell are you doing?" You yelled, trying to be louder than the geysers exploding behind and in front of you.
"Trust me!" He yelled back. "Just gotta run fast so the water doesn't find you!"
You couldn't help but furrow your eyebrows in confusion. Why your heart chose this man, you had no idea.
After a few more seconds of blindly following Zee, you guys actually made it to the end of the field. You sighed in frustration, knowing this wasn't the end.
Emma had caught up to you two and exchanged glances at you both. She gave you a tiny wink and a grin, which you returned with a glare, before looking back at Zee.
"I gotta admit, Zee. You're way sneakier than I thought."
"I don't know what you mean?" Zee replied, clearly confused.
Emma just responded with a sarcastic "right" before being blown up by a geyser. Karma truly is real in the world.
You looked away for a couple seconds to take a look at the mountain and gaze at its beauty. Nature truly was magnificent when you tried to forget the fact that you were on an island for a few more weeks with a sadistic psychopath for a host.
And yet, you looked back to Zee stuck in a geyser, and you couldn't help but groan as he got flown into the air. At least he was enjoying himself, you thought.
After that, you two got separated for the rest of the challenge. Nothing truly eventful happened to you, other than some small bee stings that were mere minor inconveniences. You pretty much knew you weren't going to win after becoming so far behind with the little canoe incident.
In the end, Julia ended up winning, to your alliance's dismay. That girl really needed to be gone and put in her place. But alas, not today...
In the short time between the end of the challenge and nightfall, signaling the beginning of the elimination ceremony, you decided to talk to Zee.
"Hey, Zee." You caught up to him, apparently today he decided to take a stroll across the beach. He had his signature soda in hand, taking a few sips here and there.
"Oh, Y/N! What's up?" Zee's face brightened when he saw you, smiling.
“I... had something I need to talk to you about." You muttered, taking deep breaths. You fiddled with the hem of your shirt, closing your eyes for a moment. The worst he can say is no.
Suddenly overcome with a wave of confidence, you look him in the eyes and confess these feelings that have left you sick for the past weeks. 
"Zee, I've really been wanting to tell you that... I like you. Like, like like you. It's weird, I don't normally do relationships, y’know? But like, you're the only person that doesn't constantly frustrate me and that I don't have to put in their place like, ever." You took one big deep breath before finishing, "What I'm trying to say is, will you go out with me? Once the show is over?"
You looked back at Zee awaiting an answer, but he just looked at you absolutely dumbstruck. "Zee? Please say something..."
After you said that, a grin appeared on Zee's face, causing you to release some of the tension in your body. "Sure, I mean, yeah!" Zee nodded. "You're super cool and awesome. I'll be honest, I've kinda like you for a while. I didn't realize until Chase told me how obvious it was. Was it obvious?"
"If it was obvious, it wasn't to me. Probably to everyone else, though. I mean, Bowie and Emma figured it out before even myself." You laughed. "It's so weird, being able to just relax around a person. I like it."
"Me too." Zee smiled. "I'll be honest I... don't know much about relationships. Never been in one myself."
"Me neither..." You admitted. "But I suppose we could figure it out together." You smiled up at him, taking his hand in yours.
"Cool." Zee grinned, taking a sip of his soda.
"I've always wondered... What flavor is your soda?
“Like what kind?"
Zee pondered the question for a moment, staring at the can, before looking back at you.
"I have no clue."
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mrs-monaghan · 1 year
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Another entry. Firstly, Still With Me? Did JK release a new song that I didn’t know about? Secondly, I would rather speculate that a song is about someone then a hand gesture that a lot of people do.
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I saw them coming at us for paying attention to numbers and 11/08 even though that's way more real than whatever tf this is. Like... aren't they embarrassed????
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Anyway guys, I have an announcement to make.
Attention please!
Thank u ☺☺
Okay so I've been getting alot of frustrated asks mad at tkkrs and antis on twitter, right? Unfortunately I tend not to post them because I don't wanna bring too much negativity on this blog. Especially when some of those things are vile AF. Anyway, the point of this post is, My friends and I are in a Jikook discord and a few of us do this thing on twitter where we fight antis and shit especially when they come to Jikook spaces.
As we know recently a big Jikook account with 15k followers was attacked the other day for liking a post from an anti. But she had no idea that person was one. She just liked the post coz it was Jikook related. It's an easy mistake to make, really. She tried apologising and explaining she'd blocked the anti but these assholes didn't listen. They went though her profile and started commenting under all her regular, normal tweets that she was an anti and should be ashamed of herself or whatever. They were determined to give her no peace whatsoever.
When called out themselves, one account shamelessly said that they were antis and proud. That they didn't pretend that they don't hate Jimin. This really made me mad. It's not the first time they've been quite proud of the Jimin hate they partake in. Tkk accounts will gets thousand of likes on a post hating on Jimin and this ain't right. An anon sent in an ask venting about us being cowards and I agree. They attack Jikookers and these jkkrs end up deleting their Jikook posts. THIS SHIT AIN'T RIGHT!!! Its not.
They do this thing where they move in balk. My friends and I tried to back this account up. Encouraged her not to let them get to her. But it dont matter that 5 people are on your side if 30 people are telling you to kill yourself its just... /sigh/
This account is still running. But they had to unfollow everyone they follow and start from scratch. This ain't right guys. Its just not fair no matter how u look at it. I think we need to start giving tkkrs the same energy they give us.
Simply ignoring them is NOT working. We don't go to them, they come to us. I think its time Jikookers fought fire with fire. Which is why I'm making this post. A few of us had the idea to create a Jikook fighting discord.
If you are reading this and are tired of taking shit lying down. If you have wanted to fight these people but you were worried that you are just one person and won't make a difference. If you see the Jimin hate and wish there was something you could do about it, I come with an offer. Fuck tkkrs. Fuck antis. Fuck solos and fuck ot7 accounts that call out the vermin but then delete their tweets when they start to loose followers. Fuck all these people. Lets do something about this, ourselves.
Tkkrs are the ones causing chain reactions. If they didn't attack Jimin, Jimin solos wouldn't attack V and JK. (Yesterday I saw an art of JK with a dirty diaper and I just...🤮) If they shipped in peace and didn't attack Jimin literally all this shit wouldn't be happening.
I say we give them a taste of their own medicine. So if you see this post and you agree that enough is enough, then come join us here.
If you can't join then spread the word. Time to defend Kookmin and Koominers. Fuck this shit. The vermin have ran rampant for long enough. Photoshopping Jimin getting blown by band pd wasn't enough. Now they're editing him into porn. Guys, they've go10 too comfortable. Let's do something!
1) Create a separate twitter account before you join us. Safer not to use your main
2) ONLY Jikookers allowed in this discord. If you are not one of us we will know.
See you soon. I hope some of you consider. This shit has to stop. Kookminers assemble!!
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