#literally was sent like a week ago

[roaringheat]

apex legends breakout trailer having one of my fave punk songs is such a win

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

I FKN LOVE LAUGHING STOCK‼️ THEY MAKE ME GENUINELY HAPPY AND READING THE TAGS MAKES ME A GIGGLY BITCH CUZ THESE IDIOTS ARE SO FLUFFY AND KINGS OF THE MEGA GAY LORDS 😭

YAYAYAYAYAYAY YOU'RE SO RIGHT!!! FLUFFY MEGA GAY KINGS!!! have a warm-up scribble of them co-selling beans <3

[muirneach]

GODDAMN i applied to university literally two days ago and my top school just accepted me. WOOHOO and also fuck that was fast huh

[derry-dyyke]

HELLO!!

I WAS @DERRY-DYKE + @GOTHHGAY BUT TUMBLR DELETED ALL MY ACCOUNTS FOR TALKING ABOUT THE G3N0CiD3 HAPPENING IN G4Z4.

that account was 11 years old im SO SAD BRO. the whole thing??? my middle/high school cringecore phases w self insert fanfics??? my edgy emo phase w ptv lyrics over b&w pictures of random shit???? my hundreds of followers?? im so sad.

say hi if u found me again. i miss all of my mutuals dearly and cant remember anyone's url for the life of me :')

Anyways, they suck balls for that. I've attached my linktree (which has lots of resources and ways to donate) to this post because despite what Tumblr says, I think g3n0cid3 is wrong 🤷‍♀️

I write, I roleplay, I have an ao3 account also called derrydyke. (I'll post my writing on here too sometimes, It'll be tagged #amanda's writing)

My name is Amanda, I'm a lesbian, I'm 24 years old and I'm obsessed with the stupid sad clown movie. Especially Richie. I am him. He is me. We're the same. Enjoy my brainrot.

I also feel the need to include this because I know the It & Stranger Things fandom overlaps sometimes but if you still support Noah Schnapp you're not welcome here 🫶

[mattodore]

can you describe matthias and theo night routines? and their sleep schedule

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Theo doesn’t get a lot of sleep since he’s either out partying into the long stretches of the night or up studying until the words begin to blur on the page. I’d say he normally falls asleep around 3AM-4AM and doesn’t wake back up until 7AM. Four-ish hours is pretty average for how much sleep he gets a night… maybe less at times if he’s more stressed than usual. I should add that he does sleep more when he’s staying over at Matthias’s or vice versa, but generally he tries his best not to let Matthias distract him from studying before bed… which only ever works out about a quarter of the time. Matthias can be... very persuasive.

In the case of Matthias, well… he’s a chronic insomniac whose insomnia is exacerbated by hallucinations and nightmares. Unsurprisingly, his sleep schedule is terribly inconsistent, but if he does sleep then I think he normally manages it sometime around noon and will stay asleep for about an hour or two. It’s actually very rare that he falls asleep during the night—especially after Theo begins to sleep over, as Matthias prefers to read and watch over him at that time instead. Theo has fits in his sleep (from nightmares that he never remembers…) and Matthias gently calms him so he doesn’t wake up.

The only time they fall asleep at around the same time is when they’ve been at it for a while and both need a break. Matthias doesn’t stay asleep for long, though… maybe an hour at most. He does sleep easier around Theo, but that’s mostly just when Theo is awake. I think Matthias finds a lot of comfort in knowing Theo is there watching over him. He went through a lot at the reformation school and there were many times within those years where sleep would be abruptly interrupted and then he’d be back on the killing floor, so to speak, so having someone there to watch over him… I think it really helps. Then, on the other hand, Theo sleeps pretty deeply after they’ve been having sex. There’s never a time he feels more cared for and adored than when Matthias is making love to him, so it's... a relaxing experience. It puts Theo's mind at ease and I think it’s probably when Theo feels the safest. So he'll sleep for a long while after, feeling cradled in Matthias's presence, his anxiety finally snuffed out.

As for their actual night routines… hm. They’re very different, especially before and after the start of Echthroi. 

Theo’s night routine stays pretty much the same throughout the story. He’s not one for self-care, like, at all. Because of that, he doesn’t necessarily have a routine… Theo’s honestly only really meticulous in his studies and everything else suffers for it. However, Theo physically cannot fall asleep unless he’s checked the locks on the windows and doors and closed all of the blinds and curtains. That’s the one routine of his he’s always sure to follow through on, even when he’s intoxicated or sleep deprived.

Otherwise, what else he does as part of his “routine” is up in the air. Sometimes he showers before bed, other times he showers after waking up. Sometimes he combs through his hair all nicely and other times he just impatiently rips his fingers through his hair and shrugs. Sometimes he forgets to brush his teeth, other times he forgets that he’s already brushed his teeth and ends up doing it again. He’s a bit of a mess. If he’s actually aware/awake enough to put himself to bed, then he’ll messily wipe any makeup off his face post-clubbing and/or he’ll shower post-hook up (if it’s the pre-Matthias part of Echthroi). If he’s tired from studying he’ll put all of his materials away and then flop down on his bed. If he has to see his parents in the morning then he’ll wind up in the bathroom for too long, brushing his teeth until his gums bleed. If we’re talking about Theo in the post-meeting Matthias part of the story then he might take a cold shower to try and get Matthias out of his head for a little bit, or he’ll find himself laying in bed staring warily at his phone. Hm… and in general Theo will hum lullabies to himself so he can fall asleep easier… it’s a childhood habit.

By nature of Matthias’s insomnia, Matthias doesn’t exactly find himself preparing for bed during the night like most people. He does, however, still run through his personal care routine at around 8pm. He showers, brushes, flosses, cleanses and hydrates, primps and preens, and then he’ll usually find himself entertaining guests or a partner for the night.

For Matthias pre-meeting Theo, he’s often not alone after dark as he has a string of men with whom he takes to his bed or a list of faceless people to call on whenever he wants to be surrounded by bodies and chatter. There are still quiet nights where he’s by himself or just with Imani, but they’re relatively few and far between. For Matthias post-meeting Theo… woof. He did sleep around here and there still, but I think he gave it up pretty early on… his mind was always swimming with thoughts of Theo and he couldn’t focus on nor did he find himself interested in the men he’d have under him. So after meeting Theo his usual night circuit changes and he often finds himself staying home and reading with some wine and the occasional glance at his phone, waiting for a response. Matthias does a lot of waiting when it comes to Theo.

If they're together at night (when they’re dating), then Matthias will usually make dinner for Theo. He likes feeding him (by hand, even, though Theo often protests). Normally Theo will have a few textbooks with him that he can study from while he waits for dinner and he always winds up going "give me a minute" when the food is finally done. They'll enjoy each other's company just fine at home or they'll go out for a drive or a walk. Theo often winds up getting roped into following along with Matthias's night routine and will poke fun at how fussy Matthias can be as Matthias does skincare beside him in the bathroom. Theo tries to get away with studying again later in the night, but Matthias likes to distract him as he’s personally offended whenever Theo whips out his textbooks past, like, 11PM. In general, they'll wind up having sex at some point, or multiple points, and then they'll shower together. After they towel off and Matthias dries Theo's hair, Matthias will most likely end up reading to Theo until Theo falls asleep. If Theo wakes up during the night, Matthias simply kisses him back to sleep.

[fandomestloser]

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[dankovskaya]

OH MY GODDDDD huge land back victory for the biggest and oldest sacred site in the area i could cry

[stabbyfoxandrew]

i tried to buy some shit off a facebook group and i think i've been scammed and i'm really pissed off TWT

[burninginthegymplplinko]

MAG 64 - Burial Rites

doodle 64/200; days left 31/110

just a small littol doodle of Donna Gwynne because i have too much workkk to dooo

also this episode was brutal and i dont- i dont wanna think about it and/or draw something more statement-y or else im gonna cry. poor guy.

[holocene-sims]

people you'd like to get to know better

i was tagged by @stargazer-sims @nectar-cellar & @simulation-machine - thank you so much!! 💗💗 not totally sure who all has and hasn't done this yet, so feel free to ignore! but i'll tag: @mangosimoothie @happy-lemon @windermeresimblr @minty-plumbob @igglemouse 💌

last song: accidentally in love by counting crows

favorite color: it's hard to pick tbh - either green, purple, or black!

currently watching: nothing but youtube videos that serve as my entertainment while i cook & eat dinner. the last videos i watched were (1) about the terrible state of dam infrastructure in america, and (2) a skyrim retrospective

last movie: oppenheimer! i saw it twice in theaters lmao - on release day with my parents and then on the VERY last day with a friend. and yes, of course i also saw barbie :)

currently reading: the odyssey & franz kafka's metamorphosis in the original german

sweet/spicy/savory: oh, spicy all the way! i prefer my food so spicy it could melt my face off

last thing i googled: "which mtDNA mutations cause leber's optic neuropathy?" (yes this is for a class sjdjskds)

current obsession: um,,,the cream soda dr. pepper

currently working on: surviving lmaooo. i was working on tag games, answering asks, catching up on simblr stuff & some story posts to add to the queue because it's ending soon-ish, but i've been derailed by constant chaos, assignments, and me getting a nasty respiratory virus this week

[ladiablesse]

that was thee biggest disappointment i’ve had in a minute :/ it’s okay though i guess it wasnt for me

[attor]

i think its hilarious that people think my barrier for making doctors appointments is anxiety when its literally just that i will call/try to access results/show up physically to the office over and over again for weeks with no progress bc everyone is doing their job wrong

[gatheryepens]

Okay so an artist I like will be eventually touring in my country but I didn’t sign up for access for tickets (I think?) so I’m unsure whether I can still buy tickets or not

[grapejuicegay]

Being haunted by a legacy

They want us to be aware of how memories of people can haunt and influence us. It’s why Mes exists. Mes is a ghost in the narrative, haunting only Akk. He serves as a legacy and a ghost and a memory all at once. He has never shown up in the current time and he never will because he doesn’t matter outside of his influence on Akk.

And he exists for a very important reason. To highlight how ghosts can haunt everything you do. Just like Dika, for both Ayan and Chadok.

Dika’s influence on Chadok goes the opposite direction - he is a reminder that Suppalo needs to be worth it. That if Suppalo’s rules and traditions are not worth it, he has given up everything for them.

Part of why I believed Suppalo was a cult was because of the use of terms like “faith”.

We know more about Dika than we do Mes, but for all we know he was haunted by what he had done too. For us, it doesn’t matter. Because outside of what he has left behind, he doesn’t matter. But for Chadok, it does matter. Because what he left behind is what haunts him.

‘Have faith in Suppalo’s rules’ is not just a reminder from him to Akk, it’s a reminder to himself (for all we know, it’s the same of Mes).

The only reason Dika matters outside of this is because someone else was left behind too. Ayan, who believes in the true meaning - in knowing the truth, in finding answers.

And Ayan is haunted by the truth he has found. The truth that his beliefs need to change

That his uncle is not the person he thought he was - that he was in love with Chadok, a person Ayan hates for so many reasons.

They’re all also haunted by the literal death of their legacies.

Thua killed Chadok’s legacy by exposing him as the originator of the curse. He can no longer uphold Suppalo, not the way he wants to, not when everyone knows this.

Akk is dealing with the death of his belief in Suppalo.

Ayan is not only haunted by the death of the image he had of Dika, but the fact that he can never be like him. He wanted to be like his uncle, so understanding, a comfort, but he knows where being like Dika leads.

They’re all haunted - by memories of people no longer here, by legacies they can’t live up to, by beliefs they have to let go of. Dika and Mes exist to highlight that.

[lexkent]

every single day at work I think of posts I wanna make about work when I get home (funny, stressful, crazy, nice thing that happened etc) and every single day I come home and don't even consider posting about work my mind is wiped

[montanabohemian]

so yesterday i had someone comment on a post i made on IG telling me how "offended" they were because i'd simply ended my post with the phrase "end the occupation and free palestine." so much of what they said was actually insane racist islamophobic bullshit and they managed to end their comment by calling all muslims terrorists and literally parroted the "they want to kill americans" fucking horseshit.

the person that made this comment was by someone i've literally known since grade school. i'm not close friends with them but i've gotten to know them over the years and never once thought they'd say anything like this. i actually thought it was a bot account for like a full minute.

i'm sadly not surprised at the rhetoric because that's where we are. we're right back to twenty years ago during the post 9/11 / war in iraq / war on terror fervor kicked off. i'm just. i had to fight this shit twenty years ago and here we are all over again, except this time with the added benefit of fucking social media.

if simply saying "free palestine" is so inflammatory for you, then that is your fucking problem to work through.