#lostlibrariangirl

[xpc-web-dev]

No, you are not alone. I also start things, give up, procrastinate, live the future and not the present and complain about my life not moving forward while I spend time looking at other people's lives.

Hello everyone, how are you?

I hope well.

I was thinking of giving up this tumblr and just as I started everything from scratch to study programming (github, linkedin, notion and I even created another google account) start a new tumblr.

I even commented briefly a few weeks ago with @lostlibrariangirl who supported me to just continue on this one and see my evolution. And today I was thinking that this could be cool not only for me, but for other dropouts, who are frustrated that they think they'll never get to where they want to go and et cetera.

If you've been following me since the beginning of this year, you've already seen that I never completed any course and I assume that I gave up on the most difficult parts, besides the constant anxiety of getting a job in technology and thinking that I would never get it and that made me procrastinate, suffer and not live the present studying.

I gave up on one of the scholarships I got and now I'm catching up on the delay (it's until the 7/30th)

Nowadays my mental health has improved a lot, thanks to my elders.

And also thanks to them I understood that I was going around in circles, being lazy, not trying 100%, being stubborn in a stupid way (for me stubbornness is a quality, if you know how to use it) and spending too much time on other people's lives and not mine.

Also, today it's easier for me not to feel so much anxiety because I no longer have the goal of getting a job registered as a dev this year, so I'm starting to learn from scratch EVERYTHING AGAIN only this time better and really trying hard.

In my case I wasn't doing my best, trying hard and that's why I fell so many times. I don't like the word failure/failure, as I learned from an older, mistake it's study/learning and not failure.

Now in May, for example, I started studying Linux from scratch (my system that I'm confused to understand), git and github. I was all this time without really understanding these 3 tools, just doing it without understanding / in a lazy way and that didn't give me confidence.

And I don't think we need to memorize it, but it's nice to understand and practice.

This print from above is me studying after writing and repeating to myself that I WILL ONLY START a new cycle after ending the old one.

And I hope to share this journey here.

I have a lot to study, whether in back-end or front-end, but I'm not in a hurry and that's why I'm progressing.

So if you're reading this far and you're going through the same thing I was, I wanted to give you some unsolicited advice.

Spend your energy, do physical exercises. Because anxiety can only be resolved with a psychiatrist, but exercises help.

Understand why you procastine, what is making you feel frustrated or afraid? Did you find out? How can you solve this?

If you don't finish something to start another and it HURTS you (if it doesn't hurt, that's fine), try to understand why you give up? Where is making you insecure / afraid? And after you understand this, strive to finish everything you start (I know it's hard, but we need this)

Get off social media for a bit. For me tumblr is what I spend the least time on, but it's very easy to lose hours on instagram and tiktok.

And guess what, that time we spend doesn't come back and unless you work with these networks that ALSO won't give you any money / jobs.

So, if possible, start to regulate your period in these environments. At first it's difficult because your brain is addicted, but after a while it works out and your version of the future (if you invest that time studying and working) will thank you.

I wish you all to be well and not sabotage yourself to achieve your goals.

[izicodes]

Coding Language Tag Game~!

Tagged by @a-fox-studies and @leaveblackkbrosalone - thanks guys ~

Rules: Talk about your most favourite and least favourite coding language, and tag more codeblrs to do the same!

Favourite Coding Langauges

My favourite language has to be either C# or Lua. C# and me are definitely a textbook example of enemies to lovers. I used to hate C# and would avoid learning it as much as I could. Why did I hate it? Can’t even remember but what I do remember is whenever someone mentioned to learn it, I would frown and go “no chance!”. That is until I started my apprenticeship and guess what language my workplace uses? Yep, C#. From hate to love, C# has to be my number one.

As for Lua, I recently learnt that language, not to the max as I’m still beginner-mid level. I love that it’s simple to learn, easy to programming in my opinion! So yeah, my two favourites!

Least Favourite Programming Language

I’ve seen everyone put down C++! So much hate, oh no! But for me, my experience with Rust was not a good one. I tried it out, very confused. Even trying to install Rust to my home computer nearly broke it?! Really put me off from learning it. Since there’s no real need for me to learn Rust as of right now, I’ll just continue to ignore it! Maybe in the far future I’ll try again!

I will be tagging: @code-es @the-pipistrelle @web-dev-with-bea @bunnydevs @snaildotexe @moai-statue @mockingcode @maiacodes @snailmail-codes @lostlibrariangirl @letsmegadestinyuniverse-blog @sivanistudies @boywholovescode @kagacodes @tiredcoding @12themes

[cyberstudious]

Nine people I'd like to know better

thanks for the tag @why-the-heck-not!

Last song: No Wonder I by LAKE

Favourite color: green 💚

Currently watching: nothing really? these days I don't watch much lol

Spicy/savory/sweet: sweet tooth lol

Relationship status: dating my partner :D

Current obsession: the locked tomb!!

I tag: @veetriestostudy @starlight-student @studyingwithmorgs @birdbrainstudies @docbrownstudies @getbreaded @lostlibrariangirl @memoirs-of-a-future-lawyer @wecandoit <3

[code-es]

Coding language tag game!

Thank you @vexacarnivorous and @xiacodes for tagging me 😺😺

Favorite language:

I guess technically it'd be JavaScript and HTML, but just the way of component-thinking in react and structuring of jsx (which is used in react) is so so so so SOOO good, i love it, there's nothing like it, unbeatable. Because my heart is with front end development, and i love how easy it makes it for me to combine my JavaScript with my HTML 🥰🥰 However: python gets an honorary mention for being my first language and introduction to programming

Least favorite:

This continues on the same path as before, but ejs is the absolute WOOORST thing I've ever had to code in. It's basically a predecessor to jsx and it's so ugly.

Like why do we need so many <% everywhere... And to make it even more complicated, there are different types of <% depending on what you're doing with your embedded js, like there's <%= and <%_ and it's too much for me, at least when knowing it could be made so much simpler in jsx.

Tagging: @web-dev-with-bea, @zoeythebee, @blockofcode, @lostlibrariangirl, @cyberhippieblog, @mockingcode, @undertheinterstate, @durhamstudies and whoever else wants to do this (:

[codemerything]

Growth

A couple days ago, I met @lostlibrariangirl on here, and for a long time as a developer or as someone on the internet, I felt seen and not casually but it felt really genuine and she is my Northstar to the Developer community on Tumblr as she recommended more pages that I should follow and since then been seeing helpful content and I have decided to log my progress as a Developer and a Creative on Tumblr so that someday I can be there for someone like she was for me.

My name's Emery,

22 y/o,

A frontend developer,

I love art, and an unapologetic fashion enthusiast

Currently learning Javascript using this (https://github.com/Asabeneh/30-Days-Of-JavaScript) and hopefully progress to ReactJS when in a couple months

Working on an eCommerce site with HTML and Tailwindcss( I will share that project when I am done).

To anyone seeing this, I am so happy to meet you, talk to you, answer your questions, and be asked any questions.

Do have a nice day!

[getbreaded]

Get to know you game

thanks so much for tagging me @zzzzzestforlife !!! (doing this instead of studying calculus haha, so you're saving me from endless derivatives)

🎶 moment's favorite — I've been listening to a lot of soundtracks/classical music for focus, so probably The Last Samurai soundtrack

😍 current obsession — Probably Polin tbh, I've spent more time than I should have stalking the tag and reading fanfic in the past weeks...

👠 style — Just casual comfort, soft/dark colors

💖 celebrity crush — Don't really have one, I think

🍱 favorite meal — Buttered toast with a latte, I'm a simple gal who loves breakfast, what can I say

🏡 dream living — Do you know The Holiday romcom? Iris' cottage is my dream for sure

🤓 hobbies — Lately just reading. I haven't had the time (made the time more likely) to crochet or do yoga sadly

tagging @starrystvdy @stargazerbibi @why-the-heck-not @whenmemoriesfrost @winryrockbellwannabe @studykac @lostlibrariangirl @studyingwithmorgs and anyone who wants to participate <3

[lostlibrariangirl]

67/365 - Monday - Mar 8th, 2021

91 days before my test

Hi everyone! It's been a long time since I posted something from my own. I was doing so much, working, studying, exercising, and then I had a sinusitis and my productivity feel down.

I am OK now, but I must admit that I was afraid of Covid-19 too.

Due to this, some of my habits suffered a lot, it was a sign for me to take it easy, including rest periods in my planner, I must align all the things I have to do in order to be physically capable to make my dreams come true, after all, we all need to be OK to enjoy our blessings when they come.

I hope you all are fine and safe! Have and amazing week <3

[myhoneststudyblr]

@lostlibrariangirl -> #lostlibrariangirl

i’ve added you!!!

the ultimate studyblr taglist

[thefuturelawyer]

Tag 9 People to Learn about Their Interests!

Thank you so much for the tag @study-van!!

MUSIC

Favourite genre?

To be honest it changes a lot, I listen to almost any genre

Favourite song?

I have been listening a lot to old Turkish pop lately and the most favourite has been Athena's Arsız Gönül

Most listened song recently?

Money Honey by Lady Gaga

Song currently stuck in your head?

Gülşen's Ne kavgam bitti ne sevdam

5 fave lyrics?

Çiçeklerim dökülür her mevsim Sonra yeniden açar Ümidimin boynu bükülür Sonra deniz bin defa taşar (my flowers pour out every season, then blossom again, my hope discourages, then the sea overflows 1000 times) Gülşen-Ne kavgam bitti ne sevdam

Bırak, tutma beni, Kaybetsem de üzülmem asla, Ne boş kaygıların, Korkma bana hiçbir şey olmaz (Let me go, Don't hold me, Even though i lose i won't feel sad, How empty are your worries, Don't worry nothing will happen to me) Athena-Ben böyleyim

Уезжаешь не спать. Уезжаешь и пусть. AMORE, море помнит все наизусть. Разучусь целовать и когда-то вернусь. Сказать, что море, море я остаюсь... (You're leaving to not to sleep. You're leaving, alright, it's okay. AMORE, the sea remembers everything by heart. I'm gonna forget how to kiss and someday I'll get back To tell the sea: sea, I am to stay..) Mari Kraymbreri-AMORE

A better way to make a wave, stop defendin' them, Kendrick Lamar-LOYALTY

Kurtarma beni pişmanlıktan, Belki hoşlanırım taşlanmaktan, Ömrüm yasaklarla paslandıkça, Gördüm beteri yok uslanmaktan (Don’t save me from regret, Maybe to be stoned is pleasure to me, While my life was rusting with restrictions, i saw that nothing could be worse than settling down) Nova Norda-Beteri Yok Uslanmaktan

Pick

radio or your own playlist | solo artists or bands | pop or indie | loud or silent volume I slow or fast songs | music video or lyrics video | speakers or headset | riding a bus in silence or while listening to music | driving in silence or with radio on

BOOKS

Favourite book series?

The Adventures of Miss Defne Kaman by Buket Uzuner

Comfort book?

F. S. Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

Favourite book?

It really depends on my mood, but currently A Tale of Two Cities by Dickson

Perfect book to read on a rainy day?

Anything by Stefan Zweig

Favourite character?

Crowley from the Good Omens

5 favourite quotes from your favourite book(s) that you know by heart?

“You see I usually find myself among strangers because I drift here and there trying to forget the sad things that happened to me.”― F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

“Büyük bir hürriyet, tabii büyük bir yalnızlıktır.”(A big freedom, of course, is a big loneliness)― Buket Uzuner, Kumral Ada Mavi Tuna (Mediterranean Waltz)

“Formerly person had only a body and a soul. Now also needs a passport as well for without it, will not be treated like a human being.”― Stefan Zweig, The World of Yesterday

“The future came and went in the mildly discouraging way that futures do.”― Neil Gaiman, Good Omens: The Nice and Accurate Prophecies of Agnes Nutter, Witch

“When you have to fight for an existence, fighting can become an existence.”― Sara Ahmed, Living a Feminist Life

Pick!

hardcover or paperback | buy or rent | standalone novels or book series | ebook or physical copy | reading at night or during the day | reading at home or in nature | listening to music while reading or reading in silence | reading in order or reading the ending first | reliable or unreliable narrator | realism or fantasy | one or multiple POVS | judging by the covers or by the summary | rereading or reading just once

TV AND MOVIES

Favourite tv/movie genre?

Criminals

Comfort movie?

Ölümlü Dünya

Movie you watch every year?

Ölümlü dünya

Favourite movie?

I really like Ölümlü Dünya but other than that The Plagues of Breslau is pretty great

Favourite tv show?

Criminal Minds, Masum, Black Earth Rising and Harlan Coben's Safe

Comfort tv show?

Modern Family and Şahsiyet

Most rewatched tv show?

I think either Modern Family or Ufak Tefek Cinayetler

5 fave characters?

Spencer Reid, Criminal Minds

Ellie Miller, Broadchurch

Gloria, Modern Family

Poe Dameron, Star Wars

Penelope Featherington, Bridgertons

Pick!

tv shows or movie | short seasons (8-13 episodes) or full seasons(22 episodes or more) | one episode a week or binging | one season or multiple seasons | one part or saga | half-hour or one-hour-long episodes | subtitles on or off | rewatching or watching just once | downloads or watches online

And I will be tagging @problematicprocrastinator, @mybasementstudentworld, @kimvibes, @lokilowkeysus, @notawriter, @intriquette-studies, @mymessystudyblr, @lostlibrariangirl, @astarcalledeye

[studystie]

If you receive this you make somebody happy. Go and send this to ten of your followers who make you happy or somebody you think needs cheering up. If you get back even better. 💞

Awww.. Here are my 10+ followers! (why not! I love y'all. I'm sorry for missing a lot of people 😞)

Anyways, loads of love💜 and support💖 for @studying-nando @musicalkeys @wornoutconversegirl @illumeenating @nakshatragranger @clabujo @ananyastudies @eynstudies @melisstudy @diaryofastemstudent @janelstudies @studypng @aster-study and to every one of you 💜

And.... special shout-out to my recent followers! @muji-boy @myoddlydrawndreams @btsandcoffee5 @lookforsunlight @littlewhitebookshelf @pluralanomaly @roamingstudi @skywnoceiling @lostlibrariangirl @souventdark @notations @scorpihoe-studying and @cherish-bujo 💜

[clabujo]

i was tagged by @studystie to do this picrew. it was super fun, thank you! i'm now tagging @salty-vanilla​, @quel-jardim​, @lostlibrariangirl​, @melodiadosol​, @studesaster​, @studyhardana​, @lalazyperfectionist​, @my-mediocre-studyblr and @diarystudies​. please, ignore this if you dislike being tagged 🌸

[izicodes]

Get To Know Me~!

Thank you very much @lostlibrariangirl (°◡°♡)

♡ Last Song: "End of Beginning" - Djo (the guy from Stranger Things)

♡ Favourite Colours: pink, brown, black, white

♡ Current Watching: Golden Kamuy Season 3

♡ Spicy/savoury/sweet: Sweet! Got my sweet tooth from my Dad

♡ Relationship Status: Single for faith ✝️

♡ Current Obsession: Designing and programming my fake fanfiction website, learning Russian, watching new anime shows, Bluesky

♡ I tag: Literally anyone!

[studvnoodle]

Rules: Tag 9 people who you want to know better/catch up with and then answer these questions

Thanks for the tag​ @phdead​ !! I hope you’re having a lovely day!

Three ships: narumitsu, catradora, and patrochilles 

Last song: nunu nana - Jessi

Last movie: A Whisker Away (i really liked their room decor)

Currently reading: This is How You Lose the Time War

Currently watching: Hannibal and Sepaktakraw videos

Currently consuming: noodles with shrimp

Food i’m currently craving: Korean BBQ or a poke bowl

I tag: @kelleyhime​ @raonaidstudies​ @lostlibrariangirl​ @captain-tiredrex @prehistoricstudying @darklivingroom and anyone who wants to do this!

(no pressure to do it! I just like your blog and I hope y’all have a lovely day!)

[pastelsandhazelnutcoffee]

Thank you so much to my first 11 followers!

(I actually wanted to do this post at 10 followers but in the evening it where 9 and in the morning 11)

I know 11 people might not sound much and maybe it isn't. But especially the first followers are always hard to find, to keep them at your blog, especially in such a big community like studyblr where it seems that some blogs get all the attention while some others just can't get themselves seen due to the tumblr algorythm.

Therefore, thank you so much to @kiaalonzo123, @edcbablogs, @brightvibess, @lalesnotes, @lostlibrariangirl, @maryammutalib, @earlymodernbibliophile, @nileplay, @by-euphoric-soul and @studyingwastaken for being my first followers!

[a-midds]

Tag game!

tagged by @kaldavstvo, thank you!!

Rules: tag 10 people you want to get to know better

relationship status: very very single

favourite colour: blue! although i am really starting to like green!

three favourite foods: brie, strawberry yogurt and plain glazed donuts

song stuck in my head: from eden by hozier. that’s just permanently up there.

last song i listened to: watching my phone by king princess

last thing i googled: i am painfully embarrassed to admit it, but... “mullet straight hair girl”

time: it is currently 20:58 for me

dream trip: ibiza. my and my 4 best friends go out clubbing for a week straight. i LOVE club music and dancing. i feel like a trip like that would make a whole lot of memories. there’s nothing better than sunbathing all day and dancing all night.

anything i really want: i guess, going off of @kaldavstvo’s answer, a small apartment with lots of windows in a historic town. people around me who i feel actually like me for me rather than just because i’m the person who is around. found family.

i tag: @elfin-dreams

@plague-o

@lostlibrariangirl

@herbivore-studies

@tess-is-stresssed

and anybody else who would like to do it! :)

[happyhemostudies]

Tag game!

tagged by @lostlibrariangirl thank you for the tag!

Rules: tag 10 people you want to get to know better

relationship status: single 

favourite colour: right now it’s like a teal blue sort of color!

three favourite foods: kebabs, bacon, and burrito bowls!

song stuck in my head: the stupid “miel pops” song from tiktok lolol

last song i listened to: naked by bickle

last thing i googled: area of a cylinder (needed it quickly to use in an *awful* equation for physics hw lol)

time: 9:09 pm (PST)

dream trip: going to a random country and exploring as much of it as I can in a month!

anything i really want: i really want to finish physics soon to start A&P. also want to start my job and research!

i tag: whoever comes across this post!