#love rewatching this episode!!! thank you for the request <3

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INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE ➤ Timestamp Roulette 1x03 Is My Very Nature That of the Devil 🧡 @idontwikeit 🧡

[wintfleur]

so stella is anemic, what if one of her brothers finds her passed out bc of it

౨ৎ passing out spells and a misinformed quinny

°. — pairings ( Estella Hughes oc! X brother! Quinn Hughes )

°. — details ( g; i honestly don’t know. w; Stella passing out, I think that’s all. wc; 1.6k )

˖ ་ 💭 roro’s notes ( thank you so much for requesting !!! So sorry that it took so long to get out, I’ve never written something like this before so I hope the passing out scene isn’t to cringe. I hope you guys enjoy it, please don’t be a silent reader !!! )

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Stella loved how peaceful early mornings were at her brother's lake house, especially when she had the house to herself. Luke was staying with some friends for the weekend, Jack was out doing God knows what, and Quinn decided to wake up early and go to a rink close by to do some laps. After making sure Stella was okay with being home alone, she was having a rough week, her energy was low, and she was basically napping and relaxing all week. 

Stella was curled up on the couch watching Gilmore girls and eating, well more like picking at some cherries when Quinn kissed her forehead and said he would be back soon. Shouting out a ‘i love you’ before he left. Stella mumbled back an i love you as her tired eyes were focused on the big tv, watching as dean and Rory argue for what felt like the 10th time this episode. 

She was currently rewatching the show with Luke, so she was stuck rewatching the earlier episodes since Luke was adamant of them watching it together. Stella yawned and brought the blanket she was cuddled up in up to her shoulders, she honestly wasn't sure whose blanket it was, it was already on the couch. 

Stella watched 3 more episodes of Gilmore girls before she started to get stir crazy and hot under the blanket. She pushed the blanket off her legs and sat up from laying down, she searched for the remote and paused the tv in the middle of the theme song. She blinked a few times and let out a heavy breath, starting to feel a little nauseous. Maybe it was the smell of cherries? She thought as she looked down at the bowl filled with cherries on the coffee table. 

Stella always got really nauseous whenever she was on her period, like now. She grabbed the bowl and got up from the couch, too quickly as she saw white spots in her vision. Stella ignored the nausea and the dizzy feeling she was used to and slowly walked out of the living room and into the kitchen to put the cherries in the fridge. 

She held onto the corner of the island counter after she put away the cherries, the dizzy feeling was much worse and the pounding in the back of her head became unbearable. Stella winced at the pounding in her head, closing her eyes and hoping that it would help. She felt that familiar fear of passing out, she slowly walked back into the living room, her legs and hands trembling. 

She grabbed onto the edge of the couch as she tried to lean against it, but she felt her knees become weak and her grip on the couch slip, her eyes roll back as she collapses on the living room floor with a thump. The last thing on her mind was that she was alone. 

Quinn hums along to the song playing on the radio channel Stella had put on the last time she was in the car with him, he wasn't sure what the song was, but he had heard Stella listen to it many times. His car would almost always turn into Stella's whenever they were together, her things in the backseat, her ChapStick or lip glosses in the cup holders. He wasn't complaining though, he missed it when he was away. 

He drove into the driveway and shut off his car, sliding his keys into his pocket and grabbing the cherry ChapStick in the cupholder that he remembered Stella complained to Cole about her losing it. He slid it into his pocket before getting out of the car and going to the trunk to grab his hockey bag. He gets his keys out his pocket and locks the car as he walks up to the front door and unlocks the door, a sigh of relief leaving his lips now that he's home. 

Quinn closes the door behind him and drops his hockey bag near the front door, tossing his keys on the island counter in the kitchen. He was confused when he didn't hear the sound of the tv, but then again maybe she went up to her room. “Stella, I'm home!” Quinn shouts out and he gets no answer, he knows she could be sleeping but he got a weird feeling in his chest that something was wrong. 

Quinn set the water bottle he pulled out of the fridge on the counter and made his way out of the kitchen and into the living room. Quinn's eyes drop to the floor of the living room and his eyes widen in fear and worry when he sees his sister's heart patterned socks peeking out from in front of the couch. Quinn quickly made his way around the crouch, and he dropped to his knees at Stella's side when he saw her unconscious on the ground. 

“Stella? Estella, can you hear me?” Quinn frantically spoke loudly, his tone filled with worry as he quickly but gently rolled Stella to lay on her back, one of his hands on the back of his littles sister's head as he tilted it back to clear her airways. His heart was almost beating out of his chest as he tried to remember all the steps of helping someone who's unconscious. 

He turned his body to reach and grab a pillow off the couch to put under Stella's legs but quickly turns back to his little sister when he hears the weak groan leaving her pale pink lips. Quinn brought his hands to cup stella’s face, gently forcing her to open her eyes as he rubbed his thumbs on her cheeks “Hey, hey stella can you hear me ⸺ c’mon open your eyes.” 

“Oww” Stella sleepily whined out as she gained full consciousness. She was confused, she had no idea what was going on or what happened. All she knew was that her head was killing her, and her ass was numb. Stella slowly fluttered her eyes open, a wince leaving her lips at the bright light of the living room. Stella blinked a few times trying to get used to the light, Stella's hand gripped onto the fur of the rug, and she tried to flatten her palm to lift herself up from the uncomfortable floor. 

“Not so fast, it's okay just lay back down” Quinn spoke softly as he grabbed a pillow from the couch and slipped it under her head so she could rest it comfortably. Quinn kept his eyes on his little sister, they were still filled with worry. Stella groans and rests her head on the pillow looking up at her brother as she whispers, “What happened?” 

“Looks like you passed out ⸺ when were you gonna tell me you could do that hmm?” Quinn jokes with a weak smile, knowing that Stella would panic the more she thought of it. Stella sniffles and tries to smile at her brother's attempt to make her feel better, she was starting to remember what had happened. She replied quietly “Thought I’d surprise ya” 

“Consider me surprised” Quinn sighed, he gently moved some of Stella's hair out of her face before he stood up. “Don't move okay, I'm going to get your iron pills and something for you to drink.” 

Stella weakly nodded and watched as her big brother rushed into the kitchen. Stella waited for a few moments before she tried again to sit up, this time she was much more successful. Stella groaned quietly as she slowly stood up and sat on the couch, pulling the blanket over her lap and closing her eyes. In through your nose, out through your mouth. Stella chanted in her head as she did her breathing exercise, hoping that it would help with the pounding in her head. 

“I told you not to move ⸺ they say you have to lay down for 10 minutes” Quinn groaned as he walked into the living room to see stella snuggled up on the couch, of course she didn't listen to him. ‘They’ being the internet. Quinn had scoured the internet for as much information he could get about Stella's anemia and what to do if she passed out when she was diagnosed. 

“They also say you shouldn't put a pillow under someone's head after they pass out” Stella says matter-of-factly as she looks up at her brother who was holding out a cold glass of orange juice, the other hand holding two iron pills. 

“What? ⸺ and you're just telling me this now?” Quinn gaped as Stella took the glass and pills into her hands. Stella rolled her eyes and swallowed the two pills with a big mouthful of orange juice. She looks up at her brother who was giving her an unimpressed look, he took her health and safety very seriously. Stella gave him an innocent smile and just simply shrugged “It was a really comfy pillow.” 

“Where are you going?” Stella questioned him as he shook his head in disbelief and turned around to walk out of the living room, his hands on his hips as he dramatically walked out. All of her brothers were so damn dramatic . . . but so was she. She hears Quinn shout his answer from the kitchen and the sound of him unzipping his bag for his phone “Going to call mom and tell her you haven't been taking your pills.” 

“They also say you shouldn't put me through any stress or yell at me” Stella shouted back with a playful smile, she took another sip from the glass while she picked up the remote and started looking for something new to watch. Already feeling much better. 

“Now you're just making shit up!” Quinn shouted back with a roll of his eyes, knowing that his little sister was just teasing him. Quinn paused his movement of searching up their moms contact when he heard the faint sound of her laughter, a smile coming across his lips when he heard her sassily shout a reply. 

“It's completely true and reasonable!” 

˖ ་ 💭 roro’s notes ( THIS. IS. SO. BAD. IM. GONNA. SCREAM. 😄 )

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[simp-ly-writes]

The Comment Section (pt.2)

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Pairing: Spencer Agnew x gn!Reader

─ · · SUMMARY: Commenters are starting to get more and more worked up the longer you and Spencer grow apart.

─ · · TAGS: gender-neutral pronouns, angst, attempt at comedy, more angst, light swearing, fluff, mutual pinning.

─ · · MASTERLIST | TAGLIST REQUEST | PART ONE | PART THREE | PART 3.5

─ · · A/N: thank you all seriously for the comments and support on the first part, hope you all enjoy this next one equally as much :)

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Super Smash Bros: Battle of the Chosen's

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username97 2 weeks ago Dear Diary, its day 14 and there are still no videos of Spencer and (name) together. username05 2 weeks ago Always love the Shayne and Spencer duo, but can they go back to their partners now? username39 6 days ago When's the next episode of Bored AF?? username22 6 days ago Okay, but why haven't I seen (name) in any gaming channel videos lately? I haven't watched in a while, can someone get me caught up? ▼ 12 replies ↳ username66 5 days ago So Spencer didn't exactly explain to (name) that FNAF was not the simulation-type game or party/table-top that they are used to playing but a horror-simulation. (name) got really scared and then super annoyed at him and they haven't been seen together in videos since then. ↳ username69 2 days ago They're overreacting, has to be doing this for views or attention. No other explanation. ↳ username66 1 day ago (edited) (name) is their own person with their own emotions and friendships. In the field they work it intermingles with life and the lives of so many others in ways that people like us will never get to experience correctly. They are entitled to their own feelings and if they think Spencer broke their trust somehow- they can act however they want however right or wrong that appears to others. ↳ username69 1 days ago Well maybe you both should just grow the eff up and shut the h*ll up. ↳ username01 1 day ago Maybe you should do the same username69? Can't even swear like a real fucking adult. username51 just now And so the Chosen Universe Lore expands... username81 just now first.

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Guess That Smosh Skit!

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⚲ Pinned by Creator SmoshGames ✓ 2 weeks ago Both new and old shows are coming soon, what are you hoping to see next? ▼ 765 replies ↳ username01 2 weeks ago Tell Spencer to buy (name) flowers, on theirs hands and knees begging, or write them a card- anything!!! ↳ username33 1 hour ago Spencer and (name) recreate famous ********** scenes. * [this comment has been censored for interfering with Youtube's Community Guidelines; for more information press HERE] ↳ username39 6 days ago BORED AF PLEASEEEEE. username20 1 hour ago Please, please, please bring Olivia back more, her small mutterings always have me rolling on the floor XD username24 3 hour ago I 100% forgot about the Every [Blank] Ever series! So good to see bits of it again! username55 2 weeks ago Anyone else keep rewatching old videos and fan-edits of (yourshipname)? I'm gonna keep acting like nothing ever happened like some other people...

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my favorite (name) and spencer moments :)

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⚲ Pinned by Creator (yourshipname)updates ✓ 2 weeks ago Thank you for all the support on this video recently! I wish it didn't have to come from this though... P-P username55 2 weeks ago Even before they both appeared on camera officially, there are so many background clips of them sitting together, sharing food and vacations in pictures, even pet-sitting?? Like c'mon, theres only so much a girl can take (╥﹏╥) username11 30 minutes ago This comment section is for our collective tears ಥ_ಥ username09 just now 19:45 My favorite clip ever of them, its so soft. Spencer with his eyes closed as (name) fixes their hair in the background of TNTL behind the screen. They're so effortless with one another... username03 1 week ago Lets make a thread! Post your favourite (yourshipname) moments underneath this comment! ▼ 173 replies ↳ username97 1 hour ago Spencer and (name) sharing a kickstart during DND sessions. Spencer and (name) sharing a kickstart during DND sessions. Spencer and (name) sharing a kickstart during DND sessions. Spencer and (name) sharing a kickstart during DND sessions. ↳ username66 2 days ago (name) being so excited over beating an Elden Ring Boss on stream that she runs and kisses Spencer on the cheek before brake dancing in the background while Spencer stares blankly at the camera, cheeks red and eyes wide. MWAHAHHAHA ↳ username04 just now Would have to be (name) dropping the burrito under the table and Spencer placing his hand above their head so they don't hurt themselves 𓏗ᵕ𓏗 ↳ username02 3 days ago 2022 Truck Simulator: Spencer, hand on their knee driving. It is my kryptonite. ↳ username15 1 hour ago (name) dancing with and twirling Spencer after Smosh the Sitcom. I want it as a GIF and framed. ↳ username11 4 days ago Has anyone mentioned their San Diego panel together? That whole hour is surreal, the head resting on shoulders, gripping one another in laughter, holding hands- speaking into the mic at the same time. OR HOW THEY WERE WALKING THE FLOOR TOGETHER IN MATCHING COSPLAY AFTER. ↳ username06 1 hour ago Darts and how they acted like one another. ↳ username32 30 minutes ago 27:49 Chosen Spencer pinning (name) to the wall during that interrogation bit changed my brain chemistry. ↳ username03 just now Wow, this is most responses I've ever received- thank you everyone!! ↳ username17 15 minutes ago 17:12 Them taking a power nap together at the same desk. username33 just now How have we entered a new era of how every "Where's Anthony?" is now a "Where's Spencer/(name)???"

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It's Awkward... (Who Meme'd It?)

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username08 1 hour ago That meme coming from Ian was wild! ▼ 199 replies ↳ username87 30 minutes ago 16:16 Dog in Burning House: "Spencer when (name) doesn't want to play games with him - "this is fine, I am fine"" XDDD ↳ username02 20 minutes ago I would have never expected Ian to make that meme out of the list. ↳ username44 5 minutes ago IKR!? Like up against Alex, Courtney, and Trevor? No wonder no one picked him for it. ↳ username87 just now But we all are forgetting the best clip after: 17:12 Spencer proceeded to slip off his chair and hide underneath the table while Amanda was screaming defence and pointing fingers at the crowd. Has to be in the top 50 moments of all time. ↳ username44 just now YES! I love how the whole cast was AFTER THEM. They live for their relationship just like us. <3 username24 3 hour ago The editing team needs to be spotlighted more, BC all their memes were straight fire!!! username08 1 week ago You know when Shayne is hosting that its gonna be a good video ▼ 8 replies ↳ username97 5 days ago Doesn't Shayne already host most of the videos? ↳ username08 5 days ago That was the point- all the videos are good...

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─ · · A/N: want a part 3 anyone? what do you want to see happen next?

[schrodinger-swriter]

Hi, thank you for your writing I love all of it!

Could you do platonic/friendship headcanons for Asmodeus/Fizzarolli with a lesbian reader who is a regular at their club?

If you don't write them just ignore this <3

Ozzie and Fizz being friends with the reader

First Helluva request! I recently rewatched the series, so I'm all caught up! Hooray! Since Ozzie and Fizz from as an item I'm going to allow this to be a duo post! Though they won't get their separate segments... mostly because I don't have many stand alone ideas for them... :C

I hope you enjoy Anon!

Obsessed with this gif. Actually obsessed with the animation in general, I have many thoughts about some of the designs but I cannot deny that the animation is amazing. I was totally mesmerized by Ozzie in his introduction episode, the body language and movement was just so fluid.

Gossip. Lots of gossip between you three. Not about you, no no you three get together and spill some juicy drama. Usually it's you and Fizzaroli talking but sometimes Asmodeus will put in his input if he's feeling particularly strong about something or who's being talked about. You likely caught on to Fizz's past with Blitz, at least before Asmodeus found out doesn't hate Blitz as much as he was inclined to believe. That's another thing you and Fizz talk about, he's still deeply hurt by it and it helps having people in his corner to hear him out. He loves Ozzie, of course he does. With all his heart, but sometimes the demon can be passionate..

Ozzie makes sure no one hits on you in the club, at least not by anyone you don't want. Creeps are unfortunately going to happen, no matter how used to it Asmodeus is, he's not going to sit back and have someone ruin the vibe of his place.

You get special perks at the club, as well as both of them trying to hook you up with someone you have the hots for. Imagine, having the literal sin of lust and the famous Fizz hyping you up. They put in a good word for you, or alternatively they help you get the nerve to approach whoever's caught your eye.

[eggtartz]

I would like to request a Nanami headcanons with his wife bawling her eyes out (I mean literally babbling nonsense and sobbing loudy💀) on a sad movie 'cause her hormones are a mess and him comforting her😭

(Im on my period and gosh am I emotional every day)

Thank you in advance and take ur time <3🙏🏻

a/n : i am omw!

you were on your period, comfortably cocooned in your blanket with a tub of ice cream and bawling to some random show you've watched

it's already the last episode and you couldn't find more and just started sobbed more

nanami in the meantime was at the door, taking off his shoes and walked in to his wife crying

he would be very bamboozeld

he looks your hair is a mess, face with tears stains and snot while being wrapped like a mummy

"darling? what's wrong?" he asks as he gently approaches you. you reached out and grabbed his hands, his big hands are sooo warm and comforting it just made you sob even more

he uses the other hand gently pat your head, stroking your hair. "now, now. i assume you're on your period?" he says as he glanced at the marked calendar

you solemnly nodded, as you babbled about the show you watched and how it ended, how good it was and babbled again about how your day went, how shitty it was

nanami smiled, caressing your cheek tenderly and with love

"that's okay, we can make some popcorn tonight and look for more shows like that." he says as he kissed your forehead

you didn't even let nanami shower, just straight up cuddled with him and rewatched the whole show because why not?!

he didn't mind though, he's a bit tired but his wife is just too cute, crying at the very first episode

he isn't even watching the show, he's just watching you

his hands slowly rubs your arm while you sob and it'll die down

occasionally, he'll pick you up and place you on his lap so he can give kisses to your face during commercials

you don't realize it but his hands are always on your stomach too, slowly massaging it as you groaned occasionally but you didn't realized. the show is too important too miss!

eventually turned the TV off because damn it, your husband's touch feels kinda good 😮‍💨

[maximoffcarter]

Cold.

Pairings: Casey Novak x reader.

Summary: Based on 9x19: Cold. The squad is involved in a mess made by Lake without any guidance of what really happened. Casey Novak had made sure to tell all of them that they would do it by the book; reader was willing to do anything as long as it was the right thing to do, but once she finds out her girlfriend is getting too carried away, she has to stop her.

A/n: This was requested by an anon, and lemme be honest with you here...I have rewatched SVU so many times, from season 2 to probably season 19 (mostly because I love rewatching from 2 to 9), but the truth is that I have seen this episode probably 2 times in my life, 3 if we count this time. The way I feel so frustrated that they decided to 'end' Casey's character this way, was so frustrating for me, I actually sobbed knowing Casey wouldn't be back the first time that I watched it. Of course, after that, Casey's farewell was not any better, and I'll forever be mad. So I thank the anon who asked for this request for giving me the chance to rewrite this and pretend as if Casey never actually left. There is some angst, some things I changed, but I do hope you guys enjoy this. Enjoy and leave your comments, reblogs, hearts, whatever you'd like, will be very much appreciated🫶🏻

*not my gif*

For the last five years that Casey Novak had been working in Sex Crimes, she learned that life was definitely not fair, and justice was not what they painted in Law School. She had tried her best to surpass the guilt whenever she lost a case, to move on and go on with the next case, she saw how the squad easily did it. Of course she knew it wasn’t easy, she knew that it also hurt them, and they probably carried it with them for a long time, maybe for their whole life. She had talked about many cases with them, some that they remembered from years ago, some that were never forgotten. She also learned that working with SVU, definitely changed her way of thinking; when she started working with them, she wanted to do everything by the book, because she had heard that sometimes the squad made things they were not supposed to do just to favor them, which of course part of her understood why they did what they did, but she needed to go by the book or the DA’s office would go for her head. She slowly grew up with them, which also meant that her work ethic changed entirely once she learned that sometimes, they didn’t have to go by the book; do it legally, but not exactly in order.

Casey learned that the squad always had each other’s back, and slowly, they started having hers, which made her believe that they had accepted her as part of their family. They had their ups and downs, Casey got on their nerves just as much as they got in hers, she learned to treat them, she learned to go at their same pace, she learned to be part of their squad, and truth to be told, she did not regret anything. Branch and Donnelly had warned her about how the squad worked, and that she had to look out for herself and not exactly them, but Cragen’s words always stuck with her; it was only them, they only had themselves, no one else, and she learned to embrace that. She learned so many things from them, things she’d always cherish, things that would always stay with her, things that still upset her but, they were her family, and she’d do anything for them.

Meeting y/n had been the best part of joining SVU, she was also a new recruit and both of them basically grew together in the job, bringing them together; what started as a friendship, became more as the time passed, and even if it was unexpected, they were more than happy to embrace it. They both learned from each other, and even if y/n was more on Casey’s side than the squads, sometimes y/n had her moments where she really needed to be on the squads side, just because she knew they tried their best. They supported their rights and wrongs, y/n joked that she’d always accept any wrong that Casey did, and she’d be by her side no matter what, and Casey believed the same, she had joked that she’d get y/n out of any possible problem, even if it meant getting herself in trouble; and y/n knew she meant that. Doing it for another person? Y/n would always protect her squad, always. Casey? She would, she loved them. But get as far as losing her job for them? Y/n didn’t think so. Right?

“Casey clearly said we cannot question him, Elliot. Are you really gonna go to the hospital and do exactly what she said we could not do?” Y/n asked as she followed Elliot and Olivia to their car.

“We need to know what we’re dealing with, y/l/n. We’re basically blind here, how are we supposed to help him if he’s not letting us?” Elliot turned to look at y/n as he opened the door of the car.

Y/n shrugged. “Elliot…” she sighed. “I know this is not looking good, we have no idea what really happened here. But we cannot just go and do what we’re not supposed to do. We need to stick to what Cragen and Casey said.”

“We’re just gonna check on him, y/n. Nothing more.” Olivia shrugged as she looked at y/n.

Y/n scoffed. “You don’t even believe that yourself, Liv.”

“If you wanna go by your girlfriend’s rules, we won’t blame you. But don’t try to stop us from doing our jobs.” Elliot said before he got in the car, followed by Olivia.

Y/n sighed as she watched them go. “You know them, and honestly, I don’t blame them.” Melinda said as she stood beside y/n.

Y/n turned her head to look at her. “I don’t like this at all. I know he has a reason for why he did this, but this is not looking any good. Right?”

Melinda sighed as she shook her head. “No, not at all.”

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“I take it that you knew Elliot and Olivia were going to the hospital to see Lake.” Casey looked up as y/n walked in her office, closing the door behind her.

Y/n sighed. “I promise that I tried to stop them. They’re stubborn.”

“Just like someone I know.” Casey grinned.

Y/n chuckled softly as she sat on a chair, sighing. “What are we gonna do, Case? Melinda ruled it a homicide.”

Casey shrugged. “Get as much evidence as we possibly can and hope for the best.” She looked at y/n with a serious look on her face. “We need to do this by the book, y/n. We cannot risk anything here.”

Y/n nodded. “I know.” She sighed as she stood up and walked to Casey, pushing her chair, and sitting on her lap, wrapping her arms around her neck. “Everything will be okay, and whatever you need, I’ll be here.”

Casey smiled as she wrapped her arms around y/n’s waist. “I know you will. You’re the only one who listens to me.”

“And they hate me for that.” Y/n chuckled softly.

“You’re just being a good girl.” Casey grinned as she leaned in to kiss her lips softly.

“I am.” Y/n said against her lips, kissing her again but the kiss was interrupted by her cellphone, groaning softly as she pulled it out. “Y/l/n.” She frowned and pulled away from Casey. “I’m on my way.” She hung up the call and looked at Casey. “He’s not at the hospital.”

Casey sighed. “Damnit, Lake.”

“I gotta go, I’ll call you if anything comes up.” Y/n kissed her lips one more time before standing up.

“Please do and be safe!” Casey sighed as she saw her girlfriend go. This was definitely going the wrong path.

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“I know what you want me to say, but the science doesn’t support it.” Melinda said as she stared back at Casey.

Casey stared back at Melinda, taking a deep breath. “When the defence gets these lab reports, they might have enough for reasonable doubt.” She stopped for a moment as she stared at Melinda. “Can you live with that?”

Melinda shook her head. “If I have to. Because I sure as hell won’t risk my reputation for a verdict we didn’t earn.”

Casey stared at Melinda for longer than she wanted to, she could tell the stare she was giving her as Melinda took a step back and her face relaxed; Casey was definitely upset, and she didn’t mean to be upset at what she was saying, but none of this was gonna help them win the case. She only thanked Melinda and left the office, walking as fast as she could to get out of the building and get some fresh air. She was frustrated that this was happening, the last thing she had expected was to have to deal with something like this with one of the detectives. She knew they could do dumb stuff, she had to get them out of trouble before, but something like this? Never in a million years did she expect that something like this would happen and that she’d have to solve it. Not only that, but actually thinking about risking her career for it. She decided to go back home as she thought going back to the office was no use, she’d only be frustrated to be there and she didn’t need any interruptions from the squad, so she took all the files home. She was making some notes when she heard the door closing.

“Hi baby.” Casey said softly as y/n walked to the living room, looking up to offer a smile but the look on her girlfriend’s face told her that something had happened. “What’s wrong?” Her smile fainted then, scared that something else had happened.

“Tell me why Melinda called me and told me to make sure you were not about to do something stupid.” Y/n crossed her arms as she stared at Casey, standing right in front of her.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Casey simply said.

“Don’t lie to me, Casey. I thought you said we had to do this by the book. You were the first one to say that we could not question Lake, and to have you updated on everything. And now Melinda tells me that you want to risk your job?” Y/n shook her head. “Please tell me she’s just tired and she read the room wrong.”

Casey sighed as she put aside her notepad, looking up at y/n. “If the defense gets this, they’ll have enough proof to let him walk free, and then we’re screwed. We won’t even have a chance to save Lake from this.”

“Casey, I hate to say it and be harsh about it, but he got himself into this fucking mess, he didn’t want our help until he saw he was really drowning. You need to do what you can, and that’s it.”

“If I can do more, trust me, I will, y/n. There’s still a chance.”

“A chance?! And what do you have to do to get this chance, Casey? Hide the evidence? Stop Melinda from testifying?”

“She’ll say what she told me and describe it as best as she can.”

Y/n stared at Casey and shook her head. “Please tell me the evidence was sent.” She stared at Casey with concern on her face. Casey looked down at her hands and sighed. “Fuck Casey…” y/n ran her hands through her hair, starting to pace around the room. “You said we’d go by the book!”

“If we let them have it, we won’t win this case!” Casey stood up from the couch then, feeling frustration wash over her body.

Y/n turned to look back at Casey. “And you think they won’t find out?! It’s Donna for fuck sakes, Casey! It’s fucking Petrovsky! You want to get in trouble?!”

“I’ll say the reports are not complete yet! I’ll send them, just not yet, not by tomorrow.”

Y/n scoffed. “What the hell is wrong with you, Casey?! You could lose your job for this!”

“Wouldn’t you do the same?! He’s part of your squad! Other times, I see you guys doing the impossible to be able to get the minimum of evidence, and now you guys are stopping yourselves and doing nothing!”

“Because you told us not to! For once, we’re listening, Casey! And you’re the one screwing around! If you do this, you’re risking your license, and you know it!” Y/n shook her head. “And don’t give me that crap that if this isn’t justice, you don’t wanna do this anymore, because we both know you wouldn’t want to lose your career over something like this.”

“I’m doing what I’m supposed to do. He needs to go to jail.” Casey walked to y/n, trying to stop her from pacing around the living room.

Y/n scoffed, standing right in front of her. “Are you doing this for justice or for Lake?” She raised her brows.

Casey frowned and shook her head. “What is that supposed to mean?”

“You’re gonna tell me that Lake didn’t want to go on a date with you before he found out you and I were dating. Oh, because I remind you that you didn’t say shit about it, and you just played along. Yeah, Fin told me about it.”

Casey scoffed. “Are you doing this because you’re jealous of him? Nothing happened and that was nothing, and you know that! This is not about him.”

“You said it, we’re not doing anything for him. You’re so worried for him, you’re willing to cover up for him and risk your job.”

“I’d do the same and more for you.”

“It’s not me who fucked up.” Y/n snapped, her eyes never leaving Casey’s. “I’m right here, doing exactly what you asked me to do. And I expect you to do the same, Casey.”

“Or what?” Casey snapped.

Y/n shook her head. “I seriously cannot believe you. You’re truly unbelievable. I am not gonna let you do this.” She walked out of the living room, not wanting to look at Casey anymore.

“Where are you going?!” Casey followed her, trying to ignore the range she felt.

“Ask Lake, since you’re teaming up with him now.” Y/n snapped before she walked out of the apartment and slammed the door closed.

Y/n would be lying if she said she didn’t feel a little jealous at the thought of Casey worrying too much about this case. She knew that Casey was mainly doing this to put that bastard behind bars, she was right, he deserved to go to jail, and he was the only person she could prosecute. If they didn’t win this, Lake would be in more trouble. And it’s not that she didn’t care about him, she did, but he had decided to drown himself until it was too late to ask for help. There was still a slight chance, but even then, there was nothing else they could do to help him. Y/n was angry that Casey was putting someone else before herself, she didn’t care it wasn’t for her, she knew Casey meant it when she said she’d do this and more for y/n, because y/n would do the same for Casey. But the thought of knowing that Casey was going to risk her career over this, made her angry and helpless. She didn’t know where she was going, it was still early, she could either go to the precinct to try to find anything else to help the case, or she could simply walk around to calm her anger. But before she could figure out where she was heading, she was walking inside a building and into the elevator. She kept fidgeting with the promise ring that Casey had given her, trying to control both her anxiety and her anger. As the doors opened, she walked through the hallway and for a moment stood by the door before knocking.

“Come on in.”

Y/n opened the door and took a deep breath. “Donnelly.”

Elizabeth looked at y/n and huffed a laugh. “C’mon, y/n. Drop the mannerisms. Anything I can help you with?”

Y/n sighed as she closed the door and smiled shyly. “I sure hope you can.”

Elizabeth stared at her for a moment before she took her glasses off, putting them on her desk and looking back at her. “What happened? Are you alright?”

“I am. This is about Casey.” Y/n said as she sat down.

“Is she okay? What happened?”

“She’s okay, for now. But I need you to take Casey off the Crane case.”

Elizabeth frowned. “Why would you want me to kick your girlfriend off this case? She’s your ADA. I don’t want to hear if you both had a fight over something stu-“

“She’s thinking about doing something stupid, Liz. And if I’m here, it’s not for you to tell on her, but to help me avoid it before it’s too late.” Y/n stared at her with a serious look.

“I need more than that, y/n.” Elizabeth raised her brow.

“She wants to hold the file that provides the evidence of the case, which is sort of more help to the defense than to us.” Y/n sighed as she shook her head. “I know she’ll hate me for telling you this, I…I might even lose her for this.” She huffed a chuckle. “But Liz…you need to take her off the case. I don’t want her losing her license and I know you don’t want this for her either. You can scold her, suspend her, whatever but please…don’t let her ruin her career. We both know this is not Casey.”

Elizabeth sighed as she shook her head. “Y/n…if she’s willing to do this-“

“She doesn’t know what she’s doing. I know me telling you this has the same risk if she does it anyway. But I want you to consider that I came here so you can stop it before this actually goes further. Please, Elizabeth. I know you don’t want Casey to ruin her career too. Please.” Y/n whispered softly as she felt tears in her eyes.

Elizabeth nodded as she sighed. “I’ll call Melinda and tell her to send me a copy, I’ll send the file myself and assign someone else to the case. I’ll call Casey to come to the office.”

Y/n tilted her head. “Will you report her?”

Elizabeth stared at her for a moment. She shook her head as she sighed. “No. But she will be punished for this. You too know that what she’s doing is not right.”

“And that’s why I came to you for help.”

“I know. I do wish you luck, though.” Elizabeth offered a faint smile.

Y/n sighed. “I think she already hates me. This will only be a bonus.”

Y/n talked to Elizabeth for a while until she decided she’d go back to the precinct to clear her mind for a bit, trying to talk to the rest of the squad, updating herself on where they were with the case. Two hours or so passed before Cragen broke the news that they had a new ADA for the case, and that whatever happened, they now had to inform her instead of Casey. Of course everyone stared at y/n, confused as to what was happening but y/n had no words, she had nothing to say about it, even if she wanted to tell them that it was her fault, that all of this would go to hell because of her, she just didn’t want them to find out yet, she had enough with arguing with Casey, and the last thing she needed was the squad yelling at her.

Eventually, she decided to go home, knowing that as much as she tried to keep herself busy, she couldn’t avoid Casey forever. She took her time to walk back home, missing one subway and then taking her time to walk back home. She took a deep breath once she was right in front of her door, getting her keys and opening the door slowly, noticing that most of the lights were off. She made sure to lock the door, and slowly walked through the apartment, until she noticed that the light for their bedroom was on, perfectly knowing that Casey was there. She took a deep breath before she walked inside the bedroom, finding Casey sitting at the edge of their bed, her arms crossed and her eyes staring at the floor. Y/n thought for a moment to go to the bathroom and give Casey a bit more time, but she was worried and scared of what had happened in Elizabeth’s office, so she decided to accept whatever was coming.

“Casey.” Y/n whispered softly.

“You went to Donnelly.” Casey simply said, her eyes still staring at the floor.

Y/n sighed softly. “I had to, Casey.”

“You didn’t have to do anything. I told you I’d deal with this.” Casey’s voice was low, she was not yelling, she was not going off on y/n -yet-, but y/n could definitely tell that she was filled with anger.

“I was not going to let you lose your job.”

“Even if it meant going to my boss and telling her what I was doing, knowing perfectly that the result could be the same.” Casey finally looked up at her, her eyes puffy and red.

Y/n’s heart sank as she stared at Casey. “Casey…I-I asked Elizabeth to not let you do this, so you didn’t lose your license. I didn’t-“

“She just suspended me. A month without payment.” Casey sighed. “And I’m off the case.”

Y/n almost sighed loudly in relief but knew that it could piss Casey even more. “I’m sorry, I-“

“No, you’re not.” Casey shook her head as she stood up, walking to y/n. “You’re not sorry. You decided to go to her to tell her what I was doing, and you thought you were doing this for me, but you were not. You didn’t want to deal with whatever happened next.”

“Casey, that’s not-“

“You were jealous that Lake was interested in me, that he tried everything to talk to me before he knew we were dating. You were not even thinking about putting that asshole behind bars, and now, he’s definitely not going to, he’ll walk free. And you know what, this won’t be on you, it’ll be on me.” Casey tried to hold back her tears as she stared at y/n the whole time, feeling both anger and frustration taking over her. “One way or another, there was the chance of me losing my license. If Elizabeth would’ve wanted to, I would’ve been called before the bar. Am I supposed to thank you?” She squinted her eyes.

“I did this for you, Casey. Even if it meant you hating me, I did this, so you didn’t lose your license and your job, because I know how much you love this job.”

“You’re right. I do love it more than I love you. I’d do anything for this job.” Casey snapped before she walked out of the room.

Y/n felt her body starting to shake as Casey’s words played over and over again in her mind. She knew Casey would be mad at her, but saying this to her? And the painful thing was that she actually believed that Casey meant it. Y/n sobbed as she sat on the edge of the bed, trying to hold back her tears but it was too late for that. Was Casey gonna leave her after this? What if Casey was right and she did this because she was clouded with jealousy? But no. All she wanted to do was prevent Casey from getting into a bigger problem. She wanted Casey to keep her job and her license, she knew it would be way worse if this was used again Casey in court, not only would Donna bring it up to the jury, but Petrovsky would make things worse, and then Elizabeth would’ve done something more than just suspending her. She did it for Casey. She was only looking out for her, and now Casey was mad. And y/n didn’t know if there would be a chance to fix this.

********************

Y/n had decided to stay at the precinct with the rest of the squad waiting to hear from the ADA how the trial was going. Y/n knew anyway what was going to happen already, and she felt guilty, not letting her squad know what had happened with Casey, what she had done, they were definitely going to blame her. And they had every right, Casey had a right to be mad too. She had not gone back to their apartment at night, getting a call from Elliot saying that Casey had stayed with him, and that they could talk back in the precinct, but she really didn’t want to talk about it. To anyone. Cragen finally came back with the news that the jury was back, and the bastard had walked free, there was nothing they could do, the ADA would try to do it again, but y/n knew that even if they did, there was not much of a chance for them to win. Everything was definitely going wrong, and this had been her fault. And she couldn’t even go to Casey because she was not talking to her, so she had to keep it all to herself. She decided to go lay down for a bit, tears rolling down her tears as soon as her head hit the pillow, quietly sobbing. She didn’t notice the door had opened and Olivia had walked in, she had noticed y/n’s attitude since they arrived early in the morning. She walked slowly to y/n and sat on the edge of the bed, her hand going to y/n’s back.

“Y/n…” Olivia whispered softly.

“I want to be alone.” Y/n cried out, drying her tears.

“Please. Talk to me.” Olivia said softly.

Y/n sat down on the bed, bringing her knees to her chest, and wrapping her arms, wanting to bury her face on them but looked up at Olivia. “I fucked up, Liv.”

Olivia tilted her head. “What do you mean?”

“They took Casey off the case because of me.” Y/n sobbed. “I went to Donnelly. Casey was going to keep the file, she was not going to let the defense have it. And I couldn’t let her do that.” She shook her head as she cried. “I couldn’t let her lose her job and her license. I know Donna and Petrovsky. She’s suspended for a month.”

Olivia sighed. “And she’s mad at you.”

“She said she loved the job more than she loved m-me.” Y/n sobbed as she let her head fall to her knees.

Olivia moved to sit beside y/n and wrapped her arms around y/n. “Y/n, sweetheart, you know that’s not true. I know she didn’t mean that.”

“After all these years…I never expected Casey to get mad at me. We both said we would do anything for each other, and now she’s mad at me for this. I only tried to protect her. I knew that her losing the job would hurt too much. I couldn’t bear the thought of her blaming herself for this.” Y/n huffed a chuckle. “And we lost the case. It was my fault.”

“There was no other way of doing this, y/n. And Casey knows it. She was blinded because she didn’t know what to do.” Olivia shrugged. “She also prevented us from doing something stupid. Because she knew we would try anything.”

“She thought I was jealous of Lake. And…she wasn’t entirely wrong. But I didn’t do any of this for him. I did this for her.” Y/n whispered softly as she looked at Olivia. “I’m gonna lose her, Liv.”

Olivia shook her head. “She knows this, y/n. She’s angry. She couldn’t do more, and we both know that’s hard for her. She would’ve done this and so much more for you, and we all know it.”

“I don’t think I’d have let her do this for me.”

Olivia smiled as she tilted her head. “We both know nothing would’ve stopped Casey.”

Y/n chuckled as she nodded. “Yeah.” She sniffled. “But now, I don’t think she wants to see me.”

“It’ll pass. Give it time.” Olivia smiled.

Elliot opened the door and stopped on his tracks for a moment, gaining the attention of both women. “Sorry, but uh…something happened.”

Y/n looked at Olivia for a moment and sighed heavily as they both stood up, following Elliot. Y/n wiped away her tears and tried to push back the pain she felt, she had shown weakness to Olivia, but she couldn’t show it to the others. Elliot didn’t say a word during the whole ride, but y/n knew something bad had happened with the way he was desperate to get to the place. And once there, she noticed the place full of cops and ambulances, feeling her heart sinking as they exited the car and walked to the scene, finding Crane’s body on the floor. She looked to her side and found cops cuffing Lake, he was avoiding their stares, a mix of anger and pride in his face. Y/n then looked to her other side to find Casey standing beside Fin, her heart sinking once again at the look on her face. They all watched how Lake was taken to the police car and that’s when he stared at them. Y/n understood why he did it, but she still wished he would’ve gone to them for help. They all stood there for a moment, not sure what they were supposed to do or if they were supposed to do anything at all. Y/n’s eyes landed on Casey again, noticing how Elliot was now dragging Casey out of the scene and telling her something, and for a slight moment, their eyes met, and y/n wanted nothing more than to run to her and hold her, but she knew she couldn’t. She turned back to look at Olivia, both staring at each other for  moment and then staring back at the scene.

********************

Y/n sighed as she closed the door behind her and dropped her keys on the small table beside the door, turning to lock the door and rested her head against it for a moment. She took a deep breath and made her way to her bedroom, debating if she was going to take a shower or she was just going to drop in bed and try to sleep. But as she looked up at the bedroom, she noticed the lights were on, frowning slightly as she walked inside, just to feel like she had deja vu as she saw Casey sitting at the edge of their bed. For a moment her eyes inspected the room, her heart beating fast as her eyes tried to find a suitcase and bags, but the room looked the same as she left it in the morning. Her eyes then went back to Casey’s who was already looking at her, she could see that her eyes were red and puffy just like the last time they had been in the same situation.

“Hi.” Casey whispered softly.

“Hey.” Y/n whispered back, not sure if she was supposed to walk to the bed or just stand where she was. “I uh…I didn’t expect you to be here.”

Casey nodded. “I know.” She nibbled on her lip as she looked down at her hands. “But I needed to talk to you.”

Y/n nodded softly. “Should I start or…”

“I’m sorry.” Casey sobbed, looking up at y/n, her eyes teary once again. “I…I didn’t mean to go off on you like that. I know why you did this, I know that you were only trying to protect me. And I was so mean to you.” She shook her head. “I shouldn’t have said a thing.”

“Casey…”

“I don’t know what I was thinking. I know what I was doing was wrong and I was still willing to do it. I had stressful cases, and I just didn’t want another bastard to walk free. But none of this was your fault and I took it out on you, when you just…you were trying to help, and I-“ Casey shook her head.

“I went behind your back, Casey.” Y/n said softly, feeling her own tears form in her eyes. “I should’ve stayed so we could’ve talked about it, and I could’ve helped you. But I was so blinded by anger, I didn’t know what else to do, and my best option was to go to Donnelly.” She shook her head as she took a shaky breath. “We could’ve gone together. I could’ve talked you through it, but I left.”

“You did what you thought was right. You saved me from getting censured and probably losing my license.”

“And I got you suspended for a month without pay. Donnelly must have gone off on you, and I just left you go through it alone.” Y/n sobbed as she looked down at her hands. “And I understand if you want this to end.”

Casey frowned. “What?”

“You said it. You…you love the job more than me. I went behind your back, I could’ve given you the same ending for going to Donnelly and I-“ she sobbed. “Casey, I’m sorry.” She brought her hands to her face as she sobbed.

Casey stood up and went to y/n, wrapping her arms around y/n, pulling her to the bed so they could sit down. Y/n wrapped her arms around Casey’s middle and buried her face on her neck, while Casey placed one of her hands on y/n’s head and kissed her head softly. “Baby, I am not leaving you. What I said…I didn’t mean it. I didn’t think about it. I was angry, I was stressed. And that’s not an excuse, but I truly didn’t mean it.”

“How could you not? I tried to help you and I could’ve done things worse anyway.” Y/n cried out.

Casey moved back enough to look down at y/n, placing her hand on y/n’s cheek to make her look up at her. “Y/n…the talk I had with Elizabeth would’ve been ten time worse if you wouldn’t have gone to her. Yes, she was upset at me…but I’m only suspended for a month. I could’ve been censured. And I didn’t because you stopped me from doing a big mistake.”

Y/n took a deep shaky breath as she looked at Casey. “You mean it?”           

“I do, my love. I shouldn’t have said that. Any of that. You were willing to help me and do everything to be here for me, and I pushed you away.” Casey smiled sadly. “I would’ve made a big mistake. But my biggest mistake was to push you away. I cannot lose you, y/n.” More tears rolled down her cheeks as she rested her forehead against y/n’s.

“I cannot lose you either, Casey. I can’t.” Y/n’s hand went to Casey’s cheek and smiled sadly. “We both let our anger take the best of us.” She huffed a chuckle.

“We did.” Casey grinned. “Let’s not let this happen again.”

Y/n nodded. “Ever.”

“Plus, we’re not allowed to breakup, remember?” Casey smirked. “You’re pretty much stuck with me. And now you’re stuck with me for a whole month.”

Y/n grinned as she chuckled. “I’ll ask for a month off so I deal with you.” She smirked. “If we’re mad…we take our time, but we don’t go to sleep mad. We talk about it.”

Casey nodded as she smiled. “Sounds like a deal to me. And you know I don’t normally take deals.”

“I’m the exception.” Y/n smiled.

“You are.” Casey smiled as she leaned down and kissed her lips softly, finally feeling some sort of relief as she had her lover back in her arms.

[tearsucry]

— °˖ ⊹ ꒰ 🌿 ꒱ tearing up old wounds ; addison montgomery (grey’s anatomy)

#.                   ( season 3 episode 14 ) you woke up after inhaling the neuro toxic from the colon cancer patient’s surgery, and addison was stupid enough to run in after the patient’s anesthesia was wearing off, ripping up bandages from old wounds

content warning;      suggestive content, afab reader, implied homewrecker! reader, age-gap (reader is in the same intern year as meredith), mention of surgeries, blood, intubation,

a/n.                                        I had this little idea while rewatching the show, I fell in love with addison all over again, ugh she is so hot- enjoy

everything was foggy, you still felt nauseous, you were still shivering even under the thick blanket, and the oxygen mask on your face felt more suffocating than the heavy feeling in your chest. blinking, moving your head around and trying to figure out where the heck you are.

“I thought you were on burk’s service today.” you heard an all too familiar voice coming from your side, faint, and sort of mumbled, but you knew who it was, you knew exactly who it was. you felt weak, struggled to move your hand up to your face to rub your eyes, to help yourself to see better.

“you went in there…” you croak, taking a shaky breath in as you spot her green eyes in the haze of your vision. you gulp again, trying to compensate for how dry your nose and mouth feel because of the oxygen mask. she is right in front of you, if you could just

you can tell by her blurry appearance and her messy red hair. she looks so tired and worn out, like every muscle in her body aches, just like yours does, and just like that realization makes you wonder if maybe you should have requested to stay on her service, maybe this whole thing wouldn't have happened with the two of you. “I did.” she whispers, her throat hoarse and scratchy.

“but i couldn't watch her suffer, fight against the intubation like that..."  her voice trails off, and her hand reaches out for you, as if she wants to touch your face, caress your cheek but can't bring herself to do it. "i couldn't let her feel so scared, miserable." she sits up and leans on the bed next to you, reaching out to tuck some strand of hair behind your ear. “what do you mean?” you ask, not understanding whatever she is hinting at. you'd know because you were in her position once after your surgery, the surgery you had to get after a psych patient went rogue, dressing up as another surgeon then going around, and stabbing people in the stomach.

but then you remember-

she was there when you were fighting against the intubation, you remember it clearly. the same green eyes were staring at you, frightened above the rim of the surgical mask. the same lips formed the words, "you will be okay," over and over again. you try hard not to cry as you recall the events, because even though you are happy, you're also afraid.

"can we... can you lay next to me?"  you finally manage to say, because you're starting to become restless from being trapped under this blanket, sitting still isn't really appealing anymore. "of course, i'm here darling." she smiles softly, and you could swear you're seeing her tears glisten in the dim light of the room.

addison shifts in her bed again, putting the green strap around her head then getting up to lay next to you on your bed. you catch doctor bailey rolling her eyes at the nurse's station before coming over and closing the curtain around the two of you.  your breathing has gotten steadier, your heart feels calmer, and you close your eyes slowly as you settle into her embrace, inhaling deeply the scent of her scrubs, smelling like a freshly sterilized operating room.

her heartbeat slows down to match the beat of your own and you sigh contently, relaxing in her arms. “thank you.” you whisper quietly. she kisses the top of your head. you don’t think there is anything she wouldn’t give to make sure you are alright. “no need to thank me, sweetheart.” she murmurs softly, wrapping her arm around you tighter. your fingers are laced together now, her thumb rubbing soothing circles on your skin.

[x-0ophelia0-x]

What if…. Ezra x fem reader, where at first during the “ghost crew” days Reader was best friends with Sabene, but also had a massive crush on her… then Ezra came along, she got a good look at this sassy Cutie with dreamy eyes~ 👀

And immediately clocked that he also probably had a crush on Sabene, reader went “NoPe! I am NOT loosing to this blue eyed babe!” 😤 (and completely missed that she’s also attracted to him..)

After awhile she realized she’s already fallen inlove with Ezra, and she’s known she no longer has a crush on her best friend Sabene for at least a year..in fact she and Sabene now have a more close Sisterly relationship… but it’s too late to say anything, because the day she finally realizes her true feelings is the day they lost Ezra.. and he left her a com recording confessing his feelings to reader.. but now she has no way to tell him that she feels the same.

She’s broken.. rarely speaks to anyone other then her family in the Ghost crew.. and even then it’s not much, and barely above a whisper, but she and Sabene never give up, practically obsessed with bringing Ezra back home.. Sabene to bring back her adopted brother, and reader to give Ezra a slap upside the head for having done such a dangerous stunt.. and then to tackle him in a kiss, till his whole face is as blue as his beautiful eyes.. just to make sure he knows how she feels..

And because they’re basically sisters, Sabene tells Ezra how reader has brutally rejected everyone who’s been interested in her since his absence.. no dick left un-kicked or face left un-punched if they tried to flirt with her past an obvious rejection..

You can’t imagine how much I love this. Like fr. I have school today and it’s nearly 3 AM-. It took some time though since I wanted to get the beginning as perfectly as I could, even rewatched the first episodes of Rebels for this one haha

anywayyy, I hope you like this! Turned out to be my longest ff I‘ve ever written-

a heartfelt confession.

pairings: Fem!Reader x Ezra Bridger

warnings: hurt to comfort

word count: 5,5K

summary: You had a massive crush on Sabine. One day, a guy named Ezra appeares in your life’s, joining the Ghost crew and also taking interest in Sabine. You wouldn’t loose to him though. There’s just something that you fail to notice, your newly developed feelings for him. When you finally realize them and much later even feel ready to confess to him, your paths get separated for what feels like forever. Chopper then shows you a hologram of him, confessing to you. You’re broken but you and Sabine eventually find him.

authors note: I already said some things above but I once again wanted to thank you for your request, had a lot of fun writing it!! Here’s another ff to our beloved blueberry’s collection!

enjoy <33

Time was something you just assumed that you’d always have. It made you numb to the things you already had, not appreciating them enough.

And it was too late for you when you finally realized it.

That time wasn’t always by your side.

-

„Where are we headed to today?“

You asked Hera as you and Sabine entered the room and sat down right behind her in the Ghost‘s cockpit. 

She typed in some coordinates in the system, ready to jump into hyperspace while chopper started ranting about something he disliked again. 

„We‘re going to Lothal. Visago sent us an message about some crates with weapons inside. We can’t let the empire have them.“

„Alright then“

Sabine said, fixing up her helmet while you watched her. 

You couldn’t help but feel the warmth starting to rise inside you again.

Since the day you joined the ghost crew you started to develop a crush for her. 

And the fact that you both shared the same cabin didn’t help.

„Ready to kick some bucketheads butts y/n?“

Sabine then asked, shifting her gaze to yours and you nodded, feeling excited about this mission. You didn‘t tell her about your crush on her, you didn’t have the guts and you didn’t even know if she’d be attracted to you anyway. 

„Readier then ever“

-

Let’s say that your mission didn’t really go as you all planned. Some blue haired idiot decided to interfere and you, Zeb and Kanan spent your already stressed out afternoon by chasing him since he stole some crates. 

Kanan however decided to help him and bring him on the Ghost when they where spotted by TIE-Pilots. 

When you opened the crates, revealing the weapons inside them, his eyes widened in shock 

„Do you know how much they’re worth on the black market??“

He asked with hints of excitement in his voice.

„Don’t get stupid ideas brat“

Zeb then said, shoving the boy to the side.

„Why is he here anyway?“

You could feel Zeb‘s disinterest in having the boy onboard. Not knowing the answer to his question too, you just shrugged. 

„Guess that Kanan saw something in him“

Sabine spoke up.

„He managed to steal the crate after all“

She added, leaning herself against the wall while she looked at your direction. Smirking because some random brat managed to trick you.

„hey! I didn’t expect some random guy to interfere, alright?“

„Of corse you didn’t“

Sabine teased, enjoying the reaction she got from you.

„Who are you guys anyway?“

The boy then asked, his gaze shifting from yours to Sabines and to Zeb‘s.

You kind of got distracted by his eyes. The blue was so vibrant, almost as if it wasn‘t from this galaxy. Your gazes stayed locked for a moment until Zeb spoke up. 

„We are the ghost crew“

He said, starting to make his way closer to the boy. When he was close enough, he tripped. The TIE fighters managed to land a hit on the Ghost, leading to Zeb falling down, landing on the boy. 

„Get.. up..! I can’t breathe!“

He whisper yelled, struggling to breathe.

„Hey, I‘m not that heavy under normal conditions“

Zeb said, standing up while the boy took a deep breath.

„I didn’t mean your weight.. I meant your smell“

He said, holding his nose shut while he shoved the air away from him. 

That seemed to pull a string in Zeb‘s temper.

„You don’t like the air quality here huh?“

He asked, looking down at the boy before him. 

„Let me bring you to your own room!“

Zeb then added, grabbing the boys leg and shoving him into a small container like metallic box.

„No.. no no!“

He was cut short when Zeb closed the door. 

„Stupid brat“

Sabine and you then started laughing. The fact that Zeb, a grown Lasat lost his temper to some boy‘s comment on his smell was hilarious to you.

„He really didn’t twice about telling you this“

Sabine said between her laughs.

„Straight to your face“

You added, needing to catch your breath since this was the funnies thing you ever saw after Chopper and Zeb‘s rivalry. 

„Let’s go, the fight is not over yet“

Sabine then said, gesturing you to follow her and you did.

Unbeknownst to you, the boy you all just met managed to escape from his ‚room‘ by opening the vent and using the small room to enter another part of the ship. 

He soon noticed that it was part of the defense system when he saw the big blasters. And this was the moment when he realized that he wasn’t on Lothal anymore.

„I‘m in.. space…“

He said in awe, looking up to the stars, a sight he didn’t expect to see in his life.

He was excited but it didn’t last long when he noticed the TIE Fighters flying towards them, shooting at them.

„and I‘m going to die!“

He kind of yelled, his excitement turning into fear.

It didn’t last long though, shortly after he heard another round of blaster followed by the sight of one TIE Fighter getting destroyed. 

„wow..“

He didn’t know them for long, in fact, he just met them after he stole from them, but they seemed to be strong. He was deep in his thoughts, not noticing you and Sabine entering the small room and dragging him away from the seat. 

Sabine then took off her helmet, staring down at him before she sat down, shooting at the remaining TIE fighters. The boy went speechless after seeing her, looking at her with wide eyes. You noticed that, not blaming him since you felt the same way. But he of corse couldn’t keep his mouth shut. 

„My name is Ezra, and what is yours..?“

He asked or better, tried to flirt.

You still stood behind him, trying your best not to laugh. 

But you failed. Seconds later Zeb entered the small room too, grabbing Ezra by his shoulders and turning him to his direction, looking straight into his eyes. 

„I‘m Zeb, you loath rat!“

Sabine and you once again started to laugh your asses off, the change in Ezra’s face was way too funny. He went from ‚hey babe, wanna watch the stars together‘ to ‚no! please don’t kill me‘ very fast.

But something with him worried you. He seemed to take a interest in Sabine too and you were sure that you wouldn’t loose to this blue eyed idiot.

There was another thing though.. his eyes… they somehow always seemed to find a way to impress you. You didn’t think too much into that at first, but you started to notice a new feeling building up inside you whenever he was close.

-

Some time passed since Ezra joined your crew. 

It was a struggle at first but you all soon grew close together. Ezra was sharing a cabin with Zeb, something you still found hilarious considering their first conversation being about Zeb’s smell. 

Ezra and you even became very close friends. The first thing you do after every mission now being to meet up at the small room where he firstly ever tried to flirt with Sabine, talking about how the mission went for each one.

„I even managed to steal a helmet! This guy‘s aim was so embarrassing“

He said, looking proudly at his ‚trophy‘ , his voice laced with an excitement you now couldn’t imagine to live without. 

But you couldn’t help but feel worried for him. Todays mission left scars behind, physical and emotional. 

„There was also this Inquisitor.. I really thought that I‘d die the moment his blade flew past my face“

His tone now was more serious compared to his excitement from before. 

„Kanan thought that I died..“

He looked down, recalling todays events. You noticed his struggle and you wanted to help him, but you didn’t really know how.

„Hey.. Ezra look at me“

You said, lifting your hand to Cup his cheek with the scars. Gently turning his head to you again, locking gazes with him. 

„It’s not your fault.. I‘m just happy that you‘re well. Safe and sound and most importantly, right here with us“

Something in his eyes then changed while hearing your words. They seemed to relax, be more at ease then the stressed ones from before. 

He leaned into your touch, letting your words sink in.

„Thank you..“

He then said, looking up to you again. You couldn’t help but notice the same feeling you felt for some time now. Whenever he was around you or you both shared your moments, talking about the missions, a strange feeling managed to make it‘s way up to you. 

„You don’t have to thank me you idiot“

You then chuckled, taking your hand away from his face and then opening your arms. 

„Does lil Ezra need a hug?“

A teasing tone made its way to your question, accompanied by a smirk.

„You’re just one week older“

He then said, crossing his arms.

„I know, you’re still younger then me though“

You said, chuckling again as you took a step closer.

„Now, do you want that hug or should I just give it to Zeb“

Ezra didn’t wait any longer and opened up his arms, letting you to take him into your embrace.

„You know.. it’s dangerous to hug that Lasat in your fragile age. His smell would’ve permanently destroy your nose“

It was his turn now to tease you.

„Hey! I‘m not that much older!“

You faked an hurt undertone, failing to hold your laugh back.

„You decided to call me lil Ezra, prepare to live with the consequences“

He said, shrugging while he also failed to hold his laugh back. 

Moments like these made you two grow closer and soon enough you didn’t even care anymore about him liking Sabine. 

You even started to notice that your crush on her wasn’t as intense as it was before you met Ezra. 

And if you weren’t completely delusional right now, you noticed that Ezra stopped his attempts of flirting with her.

You didn‘t understand it back then. How could you? Everything was so simple and you basically had everything you needed. But things never stay the way they are, this was the most important thing you learned throughout your life.

And there was something you failed to notice, the true meaning behind that mysterious new feeling you always had around him.

-

Some years passed by by now. 

You no longer had a crush on Sabine, that was something you knew for over a year now. Instead you realized the fact that you not only had a crush on Ezra, no, but you also fell in love with your blue eyed idiot. 

Your meetings with him after every mission became something like a routine, something you both couldn’t live without.

Even if you didn’t have missions on some days, you always managed to find some free time in order to spend it together. Exchanging stories, eating your rations together, sharing embarrassing moments of your lives and just spend time together.

His eyes became something you wanted to fight for. Something you knew that you needed. They resembled the peace you all fought for and they also made your heart skip a beat a few times whenever they looked at you. 

And the same goes for him. His crush on Sabine back then didn’t last long. 

He infact had a crush on you. From the moment you both continued to lock your gazes, whenever you two meet up to talk about your day, he realized that he developed feelings for you.

And when you offered him your comfort after his encounter with the Grand Inquisitor, he was sure of what he felt towards you.

His only problem was that he didn’t know how to confess his feelings to you. 

Ezra was scared that you didn’t like him back and that your friendship would be ruined by his confession. So he decided to stay silent, to continue talking to you, hiding his emotions while he deeply wished to find the courage he needed. 

Years later, just moments after Kanan died, he once again found himself in your embrace. Crying into your shoulder while he was at his lowest he ever found himself in since the Ghost crew took him in. 

You held him close, trying to give him some comfort while you struggled with it yourself. 

And as if this wasn’t enough for him, there was also something, a feeling of unease, telling him that something bad would happen. 

Visions of him loosing everyone he cared for. Visions of him loosing you.

So he did what he thought was the best. He called for chopper, brought him to his cabin while everyone was distracted by their tasks, recording himself, reassuring the crew that he was alright, just in case that something bad would really happen. 

And it did. 

You all were on Lothal. Planning to save the city from the empires clutches. It even worked out pretty well, but hey, everyone’s luck eventually runs out right? 

Ezra was now on the Chimaera, Thrawns flagship. Purrgils entered Lothals atmosphere, flying towards the Chimaera, holding the ship tight with their tentacles. 

Everything went by so fast. The last thing you remembered being Ezra standing right next to you, reassuring you that he’d be safe. 

„I have to tell you something.. when this is over“

„Me too..“

„Ezra.. please… please stay safe“

You couldn’t help but fail to hold back your tear any longer.

He noticed that, placing his hand to your cheek, swiping away the single tear that managed to escape.

„I will.. I promise“

He said, knowing that he wouldn’t see you again. 

His gaze being concentrated on you. Taking in every feature of your face, your body, your scent and especially your eyes. 

You did the same, something deep within you warning you that you’d regret it if you didn’t take in every detail of him. 

„Come back“

„I can’t promise that..“

„Then try it.. at least“

„I can’t promise that either..“

„.. I know“

When you two were ready, you helped Sabine distracting Hera and the others while Ezra made his way up to the vent. 

„One last time“

Was everything you heard from him before he jumped. 

And now?

„Ezra get away from there!“

You heard Hera yell at her comm link. Stressed since you all knew what the blue lights on the purrgils meant.

„I can’t.. I have to see this through“

Ezra told her, sounding scared himself.

„Ezra! I‘m begging you! Please!“

You cried out, not wanting to loose him. Not after everything you all went through. Not after you were finally ready to confess your feelings to him. 

The purrgils then started to take off. Which made you panic even more. 

„… remember, the force will be with you.. always“

And he was gone, just like that. 

„No!!!“

You screamed from the top of your lungs, falling down to your knees while your tears started to roam down your face freely. 

Sabine rushed to you side, pulling you close to her as you continued to cry.

„Chopper! I want you to calculate the Chimaeras course! We need to find him!“

Hera yelled, hoping that they’d find him in time, but Chopper didn’t really know how to help.

„What do you mean..“

She asked him after he gave her a series of beeps, sounding very concerned.

„What do you mean by telling me that it’s impossible..?“

She asked again, this time in disbelief. 

He then tried to explain that the purrgils course wasn’t something he could calculate since they didn’t travel with their systems. The space whales had their own, and this was the reason why Chopper and nobody else would ever be able to trace the Chimaeras course down. 

You all then met at the ghosts crews cockpit. Hera, Sabine, Zeb and you, after Chopper told you that he had to show you something.

It was a hologram of Ezra. Telling you that he knew that this day would come. 

How he felt that unease taking the upper hand from him, how he knew that he had to stop Thrawn, even if it meant to risk his own life too. 

Ezra told his goodbyes, he left a message for everyone, except for you. 

„wait.. it’s over..? already?“

You asked, your voice barely above a whisper. 

Sabine was confused too. He didn’t mention you in this hologram, why?

Chopper then again beeped something, this time to you. He used his small metallic ‚hands‘ to take yours and slowly walk with you towards your cabin, where you would be alone. 

„Chopper.. what do you want to tell me?“

You asked, defeated and still trying to process everything that happened today. 

Instead of beeping again he just put on another hologram, it was Ezra. 

„Hey y/n..“

He said, his voice causing you to again form tears at your eyes. 

„if you see this that’d mean that I really went on with that silly plan..“

He continued, holding his hand to his neck, seeming nervous about something.

„I hope that it worked.. that you’re safe from Thrawns threat and that I somehow survived what I am planning to do“

His gaze now shifted to you, his blue eyes still had the same effect on you that they always had.

„There’s another recording, one that is meant for everyone to see and I‘m sorry that I didn’t mention you there.. I just thought that you deserved your own recording.. and I didn’t want to put it on the same one I made for the others.. you know?“

Ezra now stopped talking, looking around, not knowing how to confess to you, knowing that he wouldn’t be able to confess to you in person. He then took a deep sigh. 

„I fell in love with you y/n“

He said, causing your heart to skip a beat. 

„I realized it for some time now.. you know… it started with a crush just before that thing with the Grand Inquisitor happened“

He trailed off, chuckling at his thoughts.

„Maker it’s already been this long..“

„However… I was scared of how you’d react.. didn’t really want to destroy our friendship.. loosing my best friend, risking you thinking that I was a creep or something. So I decided to stay silent.. not my best decision though“

You saw how he swiped away a tear that rolled down his face.

„I’ll regret it.. not confessing to you in person because you deserve it.

You showed me the light when I wasn’t able to see it, helped me through my lowest moments and I may be delusional.. but I think.. that you… maybe… feel the same?“

„You think?“

Was all you could say before you broke down, not wanting to hold your tears back any longer. 

„I really want to confess to you in person.. it’s kinda strange after all.. I‘m literally telling Chopper the words ‚I love you‘ right now… geeez I‘d really give everything to see your reaction.. to know if you actually liked me back“

„I don’t like you.. you idiot“

You managed to say in between your sobs.

„I love you“ 

Your voice shivered and you couldn’t help but cry even more.

„I want you to know that I will always think of you.. I‘ll make sure to never forget the warm sound of your voice.. your eyes and and the way how you look in general. 

I don’t know if we’ll ever see each other again.. I don’t even know if I’ll survive this plan.. but if I do… if you have any reason to believe that I‘m still alive.. please come and find me“

You then heard your muffled voice trough the hologram, calling out for him.

„Seems like you already found me“

He chuckled, walking closer to chopper, ready to end the recording. 

„I love you y/n. I always have and I always will.. may the force be with you..“

He looked down, starting to laugh at what he was about to say.

„lil Ezra out“

The recording now stopped. Showing you the option to replay it.

Chopper then beeped something again, it sounded like as if he was asking you if you were alright. You just sat there, crying, letting Ezra’s words sink in. 

He loved you for all this time and you didn’t notice. You still were too scared to confess and now you may never see him again. 

You’ll never have the chance of letting him know that you returned his feelings. That you loved him too. It was too late. 

He‘ll never know that he was loved.

„I love you too Ezra..“

You managed to whisper, each wort hurting like hell.

Realizing that you also started to develop your feelings for him around the same time as he did. You needed years to realize what that feeling was, was it was trying to tell you. 

„I fucking love you you idiot!“

You cried even harder. Chopper rushed to your side to give you as much comfort as he could. And you wrapped your arms around him. Crying against bis cold metal. Holding onto him as if he was the last thing that kept your sanity together. 

„I‘ll find you.. even if it’s the last thing that I’ll do“

-

Ten years passed and there was still no news about Ezra’s whereabouts or his well being. The Senators of the new republic already gave up their hopes of finding Ezra alive. Not wanting to waste more resources on this topic. 

The lack of support only deepened the worry that took control over you.

You weren’t the same person anymore. 

Nobody heard the sound of your laugh since Ezra disappeared. 

You didn’t talk anymore, not as much as you did and when you did, it’s sound was barely above a whisper. 

You were broken, broken beyond repair. 

Your best friend..  your lover, may be in danger or dead by now, and all you could do was to hide yourself in your cabin, hoping that he’d somehow return to you again.

You were still living in the ghost. The ghost crew was your only family, you had nowhere else to go. Everyone managed to somehow move on.

Zeb trained some newcomers, Hera got the highest rank and Sabine was Ahsokas Padawan, well part time at least. 

They stopped training and Sabine continued to search for Ezra, but without any luck. 

They were the only persons you ever talked to after everything that happened. 

Sabine grew to be basically your sister, listening to you whenever you needed someone to talk to. Helping you through your nightmares, holding you close when his loving vibrant blue eyes hunted you in your nightmares.

Dreaming of losing him everyday. 

You were a shell of your once so happy spirit. 

You showed her the recording where he confessed to you, told her that you felt the same. Cried whenever you told her that you loved him. How much you missed him every passing day.

He just entered your life a decade ago. Someone who managed to trick you, someone who managed to grow important to you.

Someone who managed to steal your heart.

That very someone who was scared of confessing to you, but still did because he knew that he wouldn’t come back. 

That very someone who disappeared long ago, leaving your heart shattered and broken.

„It hurts..!“

You whispered, losing control of your tears once again.

„I know… I know…“

Sabine Said, trying to sound as soft as possible.

„We’ll find him… I promise… you’ll see him again“

This is how most of your nights looked like, after waking up from another nightmare. 

Your life had become one. 

You couldn’t even go outside.

There was always some creep trying his luck on you.

„Hey little one.. you’re adorable..“

One of the many man said, stepping closer to you.

„Stay away“

You said, your voice once again just as loud as a whisper.

„Aw come on.. you seem to be pretty alone.. let me change this okay?“

He asked, placing his hand on your cheek.

The very one Ezra once held. 

This was too much for you. 

You raised your leg and kicked him straight into his dick, with all the force you could use in that moment. 

The man backed down, holding on onto his member, screaming out in pain.

„You bitch!“

He continued, his scream now catching Sabines attention. 

„Fuck off“

Was all you said before you left for the Ghost. Sabine was just fast enough to catch sight of the guy laying on the ground, holding his ‚best part‘ as tightly as he could do somehow lessen the pain. 

„Again?“

She asked you, a concerned tone in her voice.

„Yeah..“

You replied. 

It was just another idiot who tried out his luck with you. 

He wasn’t the first and he for sure wasn’t the last.

But it didn’t matter to you when Ahsoka showed up on Lothal. 

She had found a map that could lead you to Ezra’s location. 

The only problem was that she wasn’t able to open it, therefore she needed Sabines and your help. 

And for the first time in like forever they saw you to slightly smile again. 

Sabine then even managed to activate the map.

A lot happened after that.

You lost the map but managed to find it, only to have to make a very hard decision. 

Driven by your willpower to find your lover, your Ezra, you found yourself in a rather questionable agreement with Baylan Skoll. 

Sabine too. Everything she wanted was to find her ‚adopted‘ brother and bring him back. To reunite him with his family. She counted on her and she knew that this was their only opportunity. 

You both travelled as prisoners onboard of the „Eye of Sion“

Reached another galaxy and the planet where Ezra was stranded. 

The last few hours where crazy to say the least, but everything that mattered was what was going to happen now.

Your howlers found some crab creatures who had Sabines firebird on them. 

„Do you know Ezra Bridger?“

You asked. Noticing that you didn’t call him by his full name for years now. 

The creatures seemed to recognize his name and happily nodded. 

Gesturing for you two to follow them.

They brought you to their village. It seemed lovely and peaceful. 

So this is where Ezra was living for the past decade. 

Just when you and Sabine were left alone by the crab creature, your both heard someone chuckle from behind you. 

„I knew that I could count on you two“

He said and you immediately recognized who it was. 

Sabine and you both turned around, looking at him standing there, leaning himself against the wall of one of the small houses. 

He had grown into a man. His hair was longer now, his curls a stark contrast to the buzz cut he once had. 

He had grown a beard, grown some inches taller and he had a completely new outfit. 

But his eyes stayed the same. 

The vibrant blue hue they had, the hope and love they held were still there. 

His smile also didn’t change, it was the same heartwarming smile that made her fall in love with him in the first place, the same smile that kept her going through those unimaginable ten years. 

„Ezra..!“

You finally said, losing your fight against the tears as they streamed down freely, and the same went for him. 

„y/n..“

You looked at Sabine who was nodding to you that you should be the first to go to him, and so you did. 

You stepped closer to him, swiping away your tears as you took his new appearance in.

When you stood in front of him you didn’t exactly know what to do.

This was the moment you longed for for so many years now, so you decided to listen to your heart.

You raised your hand and slapped him, not too strong to actually hurt him but strong enough to be able to call it a slap.

He was surprised, not knowing how to act after this.

„This is because you had me worried sick after this stunt of yours“

Ezra’s eyes widened. 

„y/n I.. I‘m so-„

You then stopped him by pulling his face closer to yours with your other hand. Placing it on his cheek while you moved your other one around his torso. 

Your gazes locked for once again, before you closed your eyes, connecting your lips with his, sharing your first kiss with him. 

He was dumbfounded by your sudden action at first but he didn’t want to waste any second, deepening the kiss when he also placed his hand on your cheek while he rested his other to your lower back. 

You both stood there like this, deepening your kiss until you both had to pull apart to catch your breath. 

Your heart was beating stronger then ever, if it wasn’t for the ever growing excitement you felt, you’d believe that it was going to explode at any moment now. 

„wow..“

Was all that Ezra could say, not believing that he just shared his first kiss with the person he loved. 

„I love you too Ezra“

You then decided to break the silence, still holding him close.

You now felt at peace after those words left your mouth. 

After confessing your feelings to him, after all those years. 

„You saw the recording?“

He chuckled, looking down to you.

„Yeah I did..“

„So Chopper really kept it.. I thought he deleted it.. that droid made me record it way too many times“

Ezra said, laughing a little bit after remembering his old struggles with the said droid. 

„I missed you.. so much“

He then pulled you into a tight hug.

„I missed you too… and I love you… so so much..“ 

You both were interrupted by Sabine though. 

„If you continue your lovely reunion I might even cry, damnit!“

She said, causing you two to laugh at her statement.

„Come here“

Ezra then said, opening his arms to welcome her to your embrace, and she came. 

„I‘m so happy that you found me..“

He said.. looking at the both of you.

„I can’t wait to come home“

-

Some hours passed and you decided to walk around the village, trying to get to know the villagers a little bit better, since they were living with Ezra for so many years now.

Ezra and Sabine sat in front of his house like thing. 

„So…“

Ezra began, not knowing of how to ask this.

„Did y/n… move on?“

Sabine was taken aback by his question and Ezra didn’t fail to notice this. 

„I know that we didn’t confess before but.. did she fall in love with someone else while I was here…?“

His tone was sincere and it broke Sabine, knowing that it’s been a question he asked himself for a very long time here. Not knowing anything about your life after he left. 

She then chuckled, recalling the many guys attempts of flirting with you and how you coldbloodedly rejected them. 

„No she didn’t“

She began. You and Sabine grew to something like sisters. She knew everything that happened to you and you knew everything that happened to her. Sabine was more then excited to tell him about your actions.

„There were a lot of guys hitting at her you know.. trying to flirt with her, kiss her, some even tried to get under her panties“

Ezra’s gaze shifted into an concerned one, afraid about what she was going to say now. 

„y/n rejected them all. She left no dick unkicked and no face unpunched. They at some point stopped to hit at her because there was a rumor about her breaking their jaws, those assholes got scared and never dared to approach her again!“

He couldn’t believe his ears, you really stayed loyal to him even if you both never got the chance to confess to each other back then. 

A smile found it‘s way to his face, feeling kinda proud of you. 

„Did she really break their jaws?“

„She didn’t just break their jaws Ezra..“

Sabines gaze also turned into a proud one. 

„Some guys who took it too far won’t be able to ever have kids now“

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2K FOLLOWER CELEBRATION!

I'm so happy and so grateful to you all for being here, I want to celebrate reaching this milestone together! Because I'm in the middle of Kinktober and finishing up the That's What You Get series, I can't do a request challenge (but requests are open anyway, if you still wanted something). So here's an ask game for anything you're curious about! Send me an ask with a number and I'll answer it~!

ABOUT CRIMINAL MINDS

1. Favorite male character (non-Reid's only)

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8. What episode can you not finish?

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Doodle and WIP dump + a lil ty note to the community below

Hi everyone, thanks so much for your support on my dcmk art I posted a while back (barbie meme with Kid and Conan)!!

I've reblogged a lot of stuff from the community but I very rarely make original content, so it made me super happy to be able to contribute and that people liked it ^v^

Here is a doodle dump + some wips of dcmk art. I've been busy bc of uni and have hit a lil art block so I'm hoping posting this will inspire me/hold me accountable haha

(shh ignore Conan's hair in the sunflower one, I haven't fixed it yet XDD)

(some more info/insight into wips below the break)

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Some extra info:

The redraw of Lost Ship in the Sky (Conan convincing Kaito to disguise) and the dramatic Kid sketch is a very self indulgent au where I give Kaito Hips (please #GiveKaitoHips2023) and a mask to disguise himself. It's inspired by the mask Jii was wearing in the very first episode/chapter mixed with the Kid doodle. Also, I headcanon Kaito as genderfluid (in general).

The sunflower Kaishin one is inspired by Sunflowers of Inferno. I rewatched it then and immediately pumped out the wip haha. Sunflowers = Kaishin flower supremacy please. I love seeing content of it! Here, Kaito's trying to find the biggest sunflower for Conan, so Conan has like a Huge bundle of sunflowers already, and Kaito keeps pulling them out like his roses, nevermind the fact they dont even fit into his sleeves. He's just too good. Conan's going "Another one?" *sweatdrops*

The last one with Shinichi and Conan is inspired by Shinichi's birthday... um I started it on his birthday in fact LOL. And also the adorable chapter covers with Shinichi and Conan. They're soooo cute!! You can also take this as a sibling au too if you wish, or see it as Kaito pranking Conan. And shoutout to the sibling au fic writers!

As you can see from my bias, Kaito and Shinichi/Conan are my fav blorbos. On the other hand I should go draw some other characters for Variety, it'll be good for me haha.

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*bows* thanks for reading if you've reached this far of my rambles. I'll see if I can post some more doodles and wips in the future, and I'll see everyone around!! AND ALSO PLEASE FEEL FREE TO SEND ASKS AND REQUEST <3 <3 <3 I prob wont be able to draw for all of them but I would love getting them so much

[t4yce]

Hi Sophie <3

I hope all is well. This isn't a request, but I'd be remiss if I didn't mention how much I appreciate your work making GIFs.

With so many seasons airing concurrently, it's not easy to watch it all. I love that so many countries have the opportunity to show off their drag scenes, which kind of leads me to a question since I've been sticking to just a few of the franchises while letting the rest go.

Which seasons have you enjoyed the most over the last 6 months? Currently airing counts as well, of course. And what international queens do you wish people paid more attention to?

I hope you'll have a weekend as fabulous as you. Thank you for what you're doing for the community.

hey eli 💕 thank you for dropping by! i know, it's a lot to keep up with! i think i need to set start setting reminders for the episodes because i keep losing track of time and forgetting about them. i have some gaps in franchises from last year where i fully forgot to watch an episode 😅 (including the uk5 finale 🫣) out of curiosity, which franchises did you decide to keep up with?? as for my favourites from the last 6 months... belgique s2 is definitely up there-- i know it's not exactly well favoured in the wider fandom but i just feel like that franchise has a lot of heart?? overall i really enjoyed it; the cast were great, we had some amazing runways and an acting challenge that was actually well written! the judging is questionable but things always seemed to work out in the end so i'm not too mad about that! i really enjoyed canada season 4. they seemed to have found their footing with this season, it felt really fresh and fun. that being said it's kind of a blur to me now -- i'm gonna have to rewatch it sometime!

and i'm loving ukvstw2; i was so happy when i saw the cast reveal! i still can't quite believe we have marina and lgd in one season. i'm just really happy these queens are getting an international platform and gaining new fans!! it's so exciting watching people fall in love with your favs 💗 and gosh.. there are so many international queens i wish got more attention!!! i could write an essay and honestly i did, but it got way too long because i'm incapable of not rambling 😅 so i'm just gonna say one name, who i truly think is the most underrated of all franchises and that is chelseaboy! and thank you 💕💕 i did have a lovely weekend actually! i hope you're having a nice week ❣️

[okay-j-hannah]

Hii hannah! I'm bout three months late because i had exams going on, well, I still have exams going on but I decided to not procrastinate and just write this.

Thank you so so much for writing my tenth doctor and rory requests. you don't know how much it means that you took time out of your life to write my requests. when I first started watching Doctor who, barely a season in, i stumbled upon your blog and read your dying girl story, i didn't even know anything properly bout doctor's character or other companions but your fic though! it captured doctor's character so well! It was in May I read it and started watching the show and I now always connect that time with doctor who and you and your fics haha. 

 I got so obsessed that I made this dying girl reader universe in my head with headcanons and stuff and started associating songs to the reader and fic ; i know they are like kinda popular cliche songs but snowman by sia and never be the same by camila cabelo really reminds me of the amy and rorys wedding scene with reader and doctor dancing (was it real or I made that up in my head?) and memory of reader practising mind reading thing and seeing memories of Doctor and she's like who's this beautiful person in his memories and doctor is like that's you love <3 moonlight serenade, spring waltz, we'll meet again, moon river, across the universe are some other songs I associate with them,, you didn't even ask for playlist but here I'm sharing it just because lmao 

and then you wrote my ten request and added it dying girl universe, when I tell you actually started screaming from excitement when I saw it! I really wasn't expecting it, i was so so happy! And Idk why but I just feel so honoured that my request was added into the "official" dying girl universe masterlist! and the rory fic too, it was so sweet! you wrote it exactly as what I had in my mind when I sent you request, tysm for that! 

Ngl I always checked your page once in a while when you were on break because I just looked forward to your writing so much and in January, around my birthday, found out you were active again and posted my requests and gotta say, best birthday gift even if it technically wasn't lol. I wonder if you've finished twelve's episodes, you mentioned how it is hard to "let go" of a doctor and I completely agree,  I finishesed twelfth doctors episodes in December and God was it hard to say goodbye to him, I know I can rewatch but it won't be like first time :'( you know, the "i love my current doctor so much" feeling?

I've started thirteen but it doesn't feel the same, especially without murray gold's music and well, moffat and rtd. so glad that rtd is coming back for new seasons though!

Oh and have you read love is a choice fic on tumblr? it's a mostly eleven but also kinda thirteen x reader multiple parts series and tbh, one of the only fic that made me laugh and cry like dying girl series did. if you haven't i hope you check it out, it's a great read!

Kinda unrelated but can I just say ty to that person who sent you ask related to will turner, i recently watched one of the potc movie for the first time because i thought the will turner guy looked cute from the ask and now ive fallen down a rabbit hole lol I finished your will turner fics and now im searching up tumblr for more will turner x reader, it seems he's my new hyperfixation 😭 anyways ty again to that person and you ofc for the fics, and this is not a official request(it could be ig) but I hope you write second part to the merchant/pirate will fic!

And I've sent you two requests this time too, hope you'll like them enough to write it! I know I've said it lot in this single ask but Again thank you so much for everything and it's great to have you back on here and I hope you enjoyed your break, remember to take them again if you need to <333

My darling, my dearest, my love, you're making my heart so so happy!

I love that you took off with the Dying Girl universe because honestly that's what it became for me while I was writing it. It became so big I knew I could write so much about what happens in between the parts, and your request fit perfectly there.

Thank you for the playlist 😂 it does kind of bring the characters more to life when you associate them with things like songs. And you definitely didn't make up the wedding dancing scene, that happened in Part 6: The Lost Shoes!

I totally understand finding yourself fully immersed in a story, even if it is fanfiction. When that happens to me I just write and post it on here 😅 That's happened with the Dying Girl and the episodic series I started for the Eleventh Doctor and the Samwise Gamgee series and this Mandalorian one I'm starting.

My brain is hardwired to come up with these random tangents to canon stories, and they end up becoming these elaborate fanfictions.

I'm so glad you liked your requested fics! I had a lot of fun writing them. The Domestic fic was so fun to get back into the Dying Girl universe. I wouldn't mind writing more about their in between adventures. Happy belated birthday!

I have not finished twelves episodes - I'm still on his last season. Just like I wrote on our last conversation, I'm terrified of how sad I'll feel when he leaves because ten and eleven were real heartbreakers. I agree, I love him, and I'm so excited you requested something for him.

And I'm also so stoked for the new seasons with RTD and the 60th specials with ✨David Tennant✨ I'll have to finish twelve and thirteen before that comes out at the end of this year.

I haven't read "Love is a Choice" but I immediately looked it up and added it to my likes, so perhaps it'll be the fanfics I read when I try to sleep tonight lol

And I'm sorry... you hadn't seen any of the Pirates of the Caribbean!? I've been watching those movies since I was like seven! It's such a great fandom and Jack Sparrow is such a mood and Will Turner is such a dreamboat.

I'm almost honored that my blog prompted you to watch such an excellent franchise. I also hyperfixate on new characters and fandoms I love. I do have one request in my inbox for Will Turner and I've gotten multiple messages to write a part 2 for A Merchant Sailor, so perhaps when I finish this batch of requests I'll add it to the list.

So do expect more Will Turner fics to come 😘

I love that we have this little pen pal relationship where we just write each other letters 😂 It's honestly really good to hear from you, mysterious anon. I'm happy to have you as a reader and fandom friend.

Thank you for reaching out! I definitely love your requests! It'll just take me a while to get to all of them with my busy schedule, but I will write them in due course.

Have a lovely night and a good morning!

Prologue: The Dying Girl

Part 1: The Sun God

Part 2: The Tonic 

Part 3: The Ending Song

Domestic: The Doctor returns to spend a few ‘human’ days with you {Set during Part 3}

Part 4: The Dream 

Part 5: The Regeneration

Part 6: The Lost Shoes

Epilogue: The Vanishing Act

Finale: All Of Time And Space

A Merchant Sailor: Pretending to be a merchant, you befriend Will Turner as you keep your pirating a secret, until your brother forces you to reveal the truth

Blacksmith’s Hands: While visiting Tortuga, you find yourself injured and in the capable hands of a shy Will Turner

Lovey Dovey: Jack has never been overjoyed at the thought of you and your boyfriend - especially when you’re kissing on his ship

Sea Salt: On a mission to get you back, more might happen between you two than expected

[bobsburgersfan17]

HI! i loved the bot you made and the indifference that was shown ( the daryl prison bot ) :] i was wondering if you could make a bot where when carol and maggie get captured toward the end of season 6 basically like … reuniting with him after killing everyone in the place alongside maggie & carol it could be established relationship or just comfort .. thank you sm! :3 i think the exact episode is episode 13 of season 6 if you need a refresher

hii

thank u sm for the kind words. okay so i rewatched the episode (skipped through it) and tried to give decent backstory to it so this one is pretty lengthy. it is here

it doesn't explicitly say there's an established relationship but you can mention it in your chats if you want one.

this one is fluff like requested but if ur like me u can always fuck sum up and be a dramatic little bitch n make it angst🙏🙏. almost forgot to upload this because i always test my own bots before i publicize them, which was actually the reason the link didn't work last time because i forgot to take it off private. anyway enough yap

[mydearlybeloathed]

Hello again!

Just a quick thank you — absolutely loved the rebels fic! Dad!Kanan is one of my favourites 😭 and your writing is so good! I’ll have to send another request as soon as I think of an idea!

Looking forward to tbb one! <3

Ahh im glad you liked it! Dad!Kanan MUST be protected

Still working on tbb. Having to rewatch some episodes to make sure i get the characters right lol

[garbinge]

Hi hello good morning I’m obsessed w u still and I would to request your thoughts on the episode ‘fishes’ pls n Ty

Omg me? Little old ME???? Staaaahhpppp thank you. <3 <3

Okay FISHES. I think I'm going to put my thoughts below the cut for people avoiding spoilers and also because I think I have a lot.

Luckily, I rewatched this episode last night with my parter so it's fresh in ma brain.

Honestly, it was heartbreaking, and stressful and chaotic, and just a lot of emotions flying around. I think we really get to see WHY Carmy is how he is. With himself, with the restaurant, with his siblings, with Richie, with Claire!!!! I think we see why he loves the kitchen, and probably why he hates it. @drabbles-mc said this to me the other day, how it really gave us an understanding WHY Carmy didn't go to Mikey's funeral. Because this is what happens at Christmas time, imagine what a funeral where everyone is grieving and emotional and going through it, would look like. Cousin Michelle talked with him about essentially taking care of himself and avoiding these scenarios and I think Carmy took that advice, even though it wasn't going to be with her.

With Sugar, I just. My heart breaks. It was a great callout to why in S1 she was so upset that Carmy never asked her how she was. I think that Sugar asked it so much because, 1. She genuinely cared but 2. She wished someone would have asked her. All the things her mother said to her, and like again, this is ONE time. ONE night. Imagine growing up like this, imagine dealing with this day after day? Idk I just I feel like this really showed us why each person is the way they are.

And WITH THAT. I feel like that's why Richie loves this family so much. He doesn't really have anyone, we touched upon how his dad not being there and I think this found family moment is better for him than nothing at all. Seeing him and Tiffany together ... ugh MY HEART. I knew Richie had a sweet side in him since S1, I know he was rude and grouchy and all that but MY MANS WAS GRIEVING OKAY. He is trying. He is constantly trying. He cares about people and HIS people so deeply and I just... give this man a hug.

Mikey. Fucking. Berzatto. and also. Jon fucking Bernthal. and ALSO the fucking WRITING! The way I see the pain Mikey is feeling through his eyes his behavior, his hair even, the disheveledness. In S1, we see him clean shaven, and I'd have to think that was before this Christmas episode (who actually knows?) but you can see he is struggling. When Lee in the end said "you are nothing." I got this feeling, he didn't actually say it that many times. I think it just repeated and ricochetted off in his brain. The way the camera shot is just makes me think we're in Mikey's POV? Idk.

NOW that we got through the heavy stuff, I need to go through the moments that made me smile.

FAKS <3 I adore Neil Fak with everything in me. Him and his brother dancing to Dominic the Donkey???? GOODBYE I LOLED.

I wanna know what Francie Fak did. no. I NEED to know.

Stevie saying grace. the whole thing.

on that note, that FIRE CAST!!!!

TIFFANY!!! I loved seeing Richie and her so much.

THE BANANA STORY THAT WE GET FULL CIRCLED IN THE END BYE I CANT HANDLE THE CUTENESS. Richie LISTENS. and that is something I really tried to push in my fics, but having it confirmed in canon made me so happy, selfishly lol.

did I mention the fucking FAKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want homemade sprite made by Carmy.

PETE!!!!! I'm sorry but that man LOVES Sugar, he puts up with all that shit from this family because he loves her. And I just. My man. HE IS RIGHT THO like you can't show up empty handed but also, the 8th fish is prob not the best idea LOL

Donna. THis isn't fun. But I need to add it in here. I just, having a parent struggle mentally is really hard and I think we see how that's affected each Berzatto.

All the full circle moments. I LIVE for a full circle moment. So the banana, the tongues that tiffany and richie share that are the same that him and eva do, the cannolis, the seven fishes, our mother of victory, the list probably goes on!

This was one of my favorite episodes, Forks is my #1 fav cause you know I'm a Richie girlie, but this one just gave so much detail to the characters in such a uniquely captured way!

[wanderlust-in-my-soul]

Hi ~

For the Gif request meme can I ask for

#8 ~ Favorite couple and

#11 ~ Favorite episode

but from the same show?

Thanks in advance and hope your having a great weekend!

Hello my love 🥰 Thank you so much for this ask!

Well, you just asked for my favorite couple, it wasn't the talk of my favorite main couple 😅 Doesn't mean the decision was in any way easier to make! But...

I mean look at them 💙

Sun Bo Xiang and Lu Zhi Gang my beloved couple from History 3: Make Our Days Count.

They are sweet and honest and there is no artificial drama, just the normal drama life puts you through. And the fact, that those two just got married at the end of History 4 and have proven that their love was real and strong was so special.

They complement each other in the best way, can communicate with and listen to each other and lets face it, their chemistry was just perfect. In the end I watched History 3 for them and not the main couple and their story is one of my safe places and I love to rewatch it from time to time.

And my favorite episode was the last one (please don't hate me!). I know for a lot of people the last episode doesn't exists in this drama world, but it is just the perfect resolution for their journey.

They are doemstic partners for years at this point and are still happy together and master all the obstacles life threw infront of them together. And I love that so much! So the last episode is very present in my mind and I love it, just as much as those two love each other.

I hope you have a wonderful week!