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juniejunes · 2 years

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so...hi!

hello :) so first of all, i'm mad because in the middle of writing this letter to you, the website was lagging and it DELETED my previous draft (DUCK THIS SHEET) so lemme just...cut the introduction short because this DUCKING website made me DUCKING angry 🦆 let's get to the point cuz my patience is running frickin low right now

soooo...hi, namjoon! :)

you can call me June, same as your name, but with an "e". so, June with an e. i don't even know if you're reading this, but if you are, thank you. i don't want to turn myself into a fool thinking you notice me, but if you're reading this, i think i can die peacefully at this very moment, right now.

to be honest, writing this makes me feel so...exposed. it's so different from spamming your instagram dm. it feels more formal, and intimate in a way, and i feel...a little embarrassed, i guess. i get to express my feelings and thoughts more openly, and i do feel like you are attentively listening to me rambling, no matter how long it takes. it makes me feel appreciated, because i love it when there're someone who listen to me without any questions and arguments happen in between. it's great when they just listen and understand, though it sounds a little bit selfish of me to do that to them haha :)

anyways, this letter is dedicated to you and my little adventure in s.korea last october. it's a bit long, but i'll try to convey everything without making a part 2 so...bear with me lol

my first stop was busan. and i guess i'm in love with this city.

i cannot recall anything that i don't like about this city. if i ever to make a comparison, busan is like the youngest child in the family that everyone adores. busan welcomed me with the prettiest sceneries and most beautiful weather the moment i stepped foot in gimhae airport. it makes me jealous because, weather here in my city is so...weird, i even got seasonal allergy because of it. but busan, or s.korea in general, autumn is amazing, lovely and enjoyable.

everything here makes me feel...familiar somehow, or s.korea does, not just only busan. the people here are so nice and amiable, i even love busan "satoori", though many people say that it sounds heavy and agressive, i find it lovely and friendly. taxi drivers even recognized me and my friend were ARMYs and they tried to hold little conversations with us, despite my poor korean lol.

📍haeundae blue line park the sea cabin car experience was soooo worth it. i got to enjoy such breath-taking view of the ocean, also beautiful greeneries alongside the coastal line.

the sceneries were straight out of a movie. i've seen them so many times on pinterest, instagram...but never have i ever thought that one day i got to see them with my own bare eyes. they even look better in person i swear.

i guess i miss everything about s.korea, especially busan because maybe i won't have the chance to visit this lovely city again in a long time. i miss the haeundae beach, the way coastal wind blew my hair messy, and of course the highlight of october, or the year 2022 even, the BTS Yet To Come concert in busan.

i've got to say this, the concert experience was MIND-BLOWING. this was my first time going to a BTS concert ever, and i'm so glad i went. i got to feel the atmosphere, see the ARMY Bomb sea and the amazing performances. so DUCKING lit and eyes-popping. it's quite sad because now everything is just a memory, seeing you and BTS in real life, screaming your names on the top of my lungs and singing throughout the whole concert... this means so much to me because not only it was my first time but also, this happened in the year i turned 18. if i could go back in time and told my 14, 15 year-old self that i'd go to a BTS concert in 3 years, she'd call me crazy and a liar haha. but it really happened, and it truly amazed me because, so many things could happen in such a short period of time and most of the time, we'll never know what would happen next in the future. it almost feel like dream, a miracle. a dream come true. this concert is so meaningful, because it was BTS's last concert before you guys enlist. listening to all members' messages to ARMYs makes my heart warms. we believe in you and we hope you guys believe in us to, that we'll be here waiting for you to come back and continuing our journey for the next 7, 10, 20, 30... years. me personally, i won't ever stop being an ARMY, i promise.

credit to my friend for taking this beautiful picture! she was in the standing area while i was on the 3rd floor :)

and we ate ramyeon after getting back from the concert, while watching BTS's live haha

i guess from now on, whenever "busan" or "2022" is mentioned, i'll always be reminded of my first BTS concert experience. i can't wait to go to many upcoming concerts of BTS if i ever get another chance. see you again.

next and last stop is, seoul.

i have so many mixed feelings about seoul. because unlike busan, it was my second time visiting seoul, and the experience was very different from the first. my first was in 2018, when i was 14 and signed up for a package tour (the worst decision in my life ever tbh but it was the only choice back then). but the on the second, i feel like i was living a seoul-person, "seoul-saram"' life, though not quite, but close. i took buses and subway like everyone else does, going for the longest walk i ever took in my 18 years of existence (yes, i took nearly 20.000 steps a day when i was in s.korea, here at home i only take around 3.000 steps per day max) and got to experience the whole city by myself.

if busan feels familiar, seoul feels like a second home.

i really don't know why i feel like that, but seoul is like home to me, because for some reason i don't feel like an outsider in seoul. i may not speak korean fluently, may not fully understand korean culture, but somehow i feel seoul has a place for me. seoul welcomed me as a long-lost child coming back home, i guess.

it is making me confuse because i've never felt like this before. after coming back to my country, my city, i long for the day i "come back" to seoul, to s.korea again. not "go" or "visit". "come back". like in, "come back home". i know, it's...weird. how come i feel belong to a city so much, despite not being a part of it since birth?

maybe i like it because seoul has you.

your history, your origin, your story...almost everything of you is attached with seoul. to me, seoul is you, you are seoul. so i love seoul, means i love you. it sounds a bit crazy, but there's a saying that goes, "sometimes loving a place is not because of something but someone".

these are some photos i took (minus the one that has me in it, it was taken by my friend ><) during the days in seoul. the last picture was taken at the same place you went to, near the gwanghwamun square? (i don't remember exactly). i was so mad after seeing your instagram post though, nearly same pictures, taken at the same place at the same angle, yet i couldn't meet you. clearly destiny is playing with me and i don't like it >:(

the rest were taken at hanok bukchon village, i got to wear the prettiest purple hanbok ever! (both me and my friend decided to go for purple cuz it reminded us of BTS haha)

i also visited places that you went to before, like this bookstore which has a really nice retro, 80s vintage vibe to it, and also 운경고택.

and lastly, i took a look at the old neighborhood that BTS used to live in, nonhyeon-dong.

i've been an ARMY since 2015, clearly have been by your side for 7 years already. visiting this neighborhood makes me feel nostalgic for some reasons, even though i wasn't the one who actually going through all the hardships and all. but these places, the old company building, the old dormitory...again brings me back to the freshly-debuted BTS and your very first few years, and maybe even reminds me of the 화앙연화 era that i love so so much.

7 years with BTS has helped me grow a lot, as a person, emotionally, mentally. to be honest, if it wasn't because of BTS, i couldn't have stayed this long. you are my motivation to keep going, fighting and living. in some moments when life was just too much to bear, i thought of BTS and keep telling myself, "you have to stay, so one day you can attend BTS concert". now it has come true, but yes, for the best is yet to come, i'll have to overcome so many other things. yet i'll continue to remind myself that "once is not enough, i want to meet BTS again".

i'd say, and i meant it with all my heart, "i love you in every universe".

let's meet again, in 2025. a promise i'd never break. i hope we'll grow old together, BTS and ARMY.

november 6th, 2022.

Jun(e).

p/s: i want to attach my playlist~ some song recommendations i guess :) might not be your taste but i hope you can at least check some of them out:

let you break my heart again - laufey

seoul (prod. HONNE) - RM (i like this one the most)

love me that way - sabrina sterling (literally me if i couldn't marry you)

the only exception - paramore

berlin - yerin baek (this song is perfect for winter)

i also wanted to mention some taylor swift's song in her latest album but i guess you've already gone through them all lol, besides my favorites are midnight rain, anti-hero and lavender haze.

it took me 2 hours to write all of this so i hope you read until the very end. and if you are reading this sentence, i'd love to give you a super big applause and lots of love >3<

thank you, and good night/day!

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ptergwen · 3 years

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sensation

w/c: 4.6k

warnings: some swearing, suggestive tings, and a pretty bad ending

summary: it’s the last night of your world tour, and tom has the perfect way to celebrate

a/n: i know y’all have been waiting for this one! everyone really loved when worlds collide but i ran out of ideas for it lol sorry... anyways my solution was to turn it into a oneshot :D based off the au!! i’m honestly nervous about posting this cuz a lot of you asked for it and i don’t wanna disappoint but i tried my absolute hardest to make it special <3 please enjoy

“thank you so much! we love you!” you shout to the audience, laughing breathlessly when they shout back. one of your dancers pulls you into a side hug, you throwing your arm around his neck. “we’re so fucking lucky you chose us, that you came all the way here. i’ve seen some of you back at night one. wow.” your voice gets wobbly, thinking about how loyal your fans are.

the tour started in new york, and they’ve followed you here to london.

tonight is an emotional night for everyone. you’re about to wrap your last show before you continue again in the summer. touring the u.k. has been a dream, and you’re just as thrilled to travel the rest of the world after your break. it’s bittersweet because you’re going to miss the hell out of your crew and the millions of lovely faces you’ve sang to each week. but, you do get to spend your time off with a special someone.

he’s watching you from the sound booth, sending fond smiles and loud cheers your way. thanks to you, tom has been at every show you’ve played in england. he brought harry along this time because he’s also a fan and wanted to see you. well, tom is more than a fan at this point. you’d say he’s more of a boyfriend. you haven’t discussed labels just yet.

your dates have mainly been over facetime, since you live on opposite sides of the world with insane schedules. a heartthrob actor and international popstar is quite the combination. you’ve only seen each other in person a couple of times, the first being pretty recently.

zendaya brought tom along to hang out with you in los angeles. he happened to be there recording some lines for a movie. she saw your concert earlier that night and invited him to crash the dinner plans you’d made, resulting in the best surprise and most fun you’ve ever had. the other time you enjoyed each other’s company was one weekend in paris. that was... something.

besides those two miracles, everything between you and tom happens through a screen. you’ll down bottles of champagne or keep warm under blankets while talking about your days. it’s nice, having someone on the other end who listens and actually hears you. tom gets it. you both do.

finishing your tour in london is convenient because not only will you have tom to comfort you, but you get to stick around for a while. he’s invited you to stay at his place. you can’t wait to meet the other holland’s, his friends, and obviously tessa.

“fuck, i’m gonna cry. i’m already crying,” you announce to the crowd, though they can tell from the tears streaming down your face. more dancers huddle around you and turn your single hug into a group one. you’re laughing and sobbing and holding on tight to everyone. fans bawl their own eyes out, the fact that this is it starting to settle in. the onstage crew even gets choked up, seeing you like this.

tom pouts from where he’s watching. he wishes he could run up there and squeeze you tight, but he’ll have to save that for when you’re done.

“i love you all so much, literally every single one of you in this room,” you tell everyone for the nth time tonight, swiping a perfectly manicured finger under your eyes. “my lighting crew, sound crew, my band, my fearless fucking dancers-“ a hiccup cuts you off. people burst into fits of giggles, which is a much needed tension breaker. you adjust your headset so the mic doesn’t pick up any other bodily noises.

grinning, you rest your arm on a shorter dancer’s shoulder, then go on. “sorry, sorry. i just wanna say, like, three more thank you’s before i get out of here.” there’s a chorus of no’s and encouraging whistles at the mention of you leaving. you blink back more tears to delay the breakdown you’re going to have. “thank you to my friends who always show up for me.”

with a knowing smile, you glance over at tom. “and, thank you to my more than a friend.” he smiles back, both hands held over his heart. harry elbows him in congratulations. more screaming erupts from the crowd as they realize where you’re looking and who you’re looking at. this will be sure to spark some headlines. whatever, you’re used to trending on every possible social media platform by now.

“this is the big one,” you preface, taking in a breath while everyone quiets down again. “thank you to you guys. for trusting me, for caring about what i have to say in any way. i feel your love. i really do, and i hope you feel mine.” your fans yell that they love you back, dancers gently swaying you side to side, emotions on high. there’s one last song, and it’s over.

“this has been the sensation tour, and i’ve been your host. was i good?” you try to lighten the mood, earning a bunch of what sound like positive shrieks. the earpiece you have in makes it hard to tell. “y’all were even better.” exchanging looks with your dancers, you pull out of the hug so you can get to your mark for the finale. they follow your lead. music comes through the speakers.

“i’ll see you again soon, okay? i promise. here’s sensation,” you introduce the song, immediately bursting into more tears. it’s torture to say goodbye. thankfully, you have the most incredible fans on earth, so they sing along with you at the top of their lungs. that includes tom and harry, your ultimate stans.

when the show is over, you run right off stage and over to tom. he’s waiting on the side with actual heart eyes for you. you practically leap into his arms, a hand cradling the back of his head, both his arms draped low and tight around your body.

“you were so amazing up there! absolutely smashed it, darling,” tom breathes out. his face is smushed between your neck and mostly bare chest. “thanks, tom. seriously, thanks for being here tonight and every other.” you smile a tired smile and wind your other arm around his neck. he presses some light you’re welcome kisses to your skin. “mm, thanks for having me. how’s it feel to be done?”

you sigh, fingers running through his curls. “like the biggest relief, and also really sad.” you’re such a mess that you could cry again on the spot. tom senses it and lifts his head up to see if you’re alright. “super depressing,” you surprisingly reiterate without the waterworks. “i know the feeling. you’ll be back soon, though. you said it,” he murmurs, a grin on his lips as they brush against the corner of yours.

you’re about to kiss him properly, then one of your dancers comes up to you. you’d forgotten that there are still stage managers and security everywhere, too. you get completely lost in tom whenever you’re together.

“you killed, babe,” coco greets you, linking your arm in hers. tom takes the hint and lets go of you. he watches on with a smirk. “nah, you murdered,” you send the compliment back and bite your lower lip. “i dunno, i feel like someone murdered me!” there’s coco with her dramatics. she’s genuinely hilarious, your shared sense of humor playing a huge part in your friendship.

she brings your free hand to her heart. you gasp at how fast it’s going. “that shit is really beating, coco. are you, like, okay?” “probably not. it was the freestyle that got me.” coco went a lot harder than usual tonight, since it was her last big dance break for a while. she puffs air from her cheeks and nods to tom. “this your man?”

“yeah, you could say that. i’m tom,” he answers, holding out a hand for her. “coco.” she pulls it like you would in a handshake. you beam at them, one of your best friends and unofficial boyfriend finally meeting. “sounds promising. i approve,” coco mutters to you. bumping your hip into hers playfully, you take one of tom’s hands in both of yours.

“aw, we have your blessing or something? your permission?” you coo and get a push at your shoulder from coco in return. tom chuckles, his thumb running over the back of your hand. “no! i was gonna say you should bring him out back,” coco clarifies, like it was obvious. you’re not sure what she’s on about. “uh, what’s out back?” you question. “an axe?” tom teases.

coco gestures to the nearest exit. “we’re having a little goodbye party in the parking lot. fire pit, snacks. remember?” nope, you’d completely forgotten. the idea first sounded like the perfect way to end your night, so you agreed to go. that was before you were dripping sweat and mentally exhausted. now, all you want to do is unwind with tom and tom only.

the superstar life is one you’re happy to lead, just not at this exact moment.

“i do now.” you muster up your most apologetic smile for coco, tugging on tom’s hand. “i’m sorry, co. i think we’re gonna pass.” her jaw drops. you’re never one to skip these things. “aw, for real? it’s our last night!” tom threads his fingers through yours while you talk. “bro, we’ve been together for almost a whole year,” you laugh out, nuzzling your cheek into tom’s chest. “get sick of me.”

“never,” coco deadpans. she catches you gazing up at tom, relaxing as his arms hug your middle. she’s known you long enough to tell what’s a fling and what’s real love for you. this is something special, and she can’t get in the way of it. she’ll let you navigate this yourself. “ok, just for tonight. you’ll text me?” coco gives you a real smile, raising an eyebrow at tom. he gathers that’s a good thing. he’s in.

“mhm. maybe we can hang out tomorrow,” you agree and let your eyes flutter shut. all that’s keeping you up are tom’s strong arms. “tell everyone i love them.” “i think they know.” coco shakes her head lightheartedly. tom laughs at her. “be good,” she tells him and means it, rubbing your back on her way to the lot. that leaves you and tom alone at last.

custodians are cleaning up the arena, fans are piling out, and you’re clinging to tom while his steady heartbeat grounds you. this is the only after party you need.

“harry’s got the car when you’re ready,” tom mumbles, tucking a piece of damp hair behind your ear. you loop your arms around his torso with a hum. “i was kinda wondering where he went.” “yeah?” he gives you a small smile. “gotta ask what he thought... of the show.” yawns are creeping past your lips, tonight’s events catching up to you.

“i like feedback from the fans, or stans,” you elaborate in your sleepy state. tom uses his fingertips to tap your temple. “what about me? i’m your biggest.” “i’ll, um, follow up with you later.” your words are slurring. “right now, home.” warmth spreads throughout tom’s entire body, his house becoming yours for a bit. “your chariot awaits,” he affirms before helping you to your dressing room.

after collecting your things, you follow tom out to the car. harry is in the driver’s seat, and you two slip into the back. he exchanges a look with his brother through the mirror while you settle on his shoulder. you’re hugging his bicep, his lips pressing to the side of your head.

“thank you for driving,” you speak softly to harry. he starts to pull out of the spot with a nod. “no problem. get to say i was y/n y/l/n’s chauffeur.” tom clicks his tongue even though harry is joking. you snicker at his remark, joking back. “you want the job? better be a five star ride, then.” your banter brings yet another smile to tom’s face. his family is everything to him, so seeing you get along so well means the most.

“right, right. did you have a good time?” harry wonders, twisting to see behind him while he turns around. he also peeks at you snuggled up to tom before facing forward. “great, actually. did you?” you check, the grin clear in your voice. harry goes into full stan mode. “no shit! you were brilliant, y/n. god, every note was just like how you did it the studio.” he’s raving, which is much appreciated by you.

“good answer.” tom shoots his brother a wink. “‘s that what you wanted to hear?” he asks in reference to your conversation earlier. your response is a kiss to his shoulder. “yay. i’m happy you liked it, harry.” he buzzes with excitement, having his favorite artist care what he thinks.

not much is said for the rest of the drive. tom and harry make some hushed conversation about golfing this weekend while you struggle to stay awake. they’re obsessed with that damn sport. it’s honestly nice to see, that tom has something he likes to do when he isn’t shooting hollywood’s biggest movies. your free time will finally give you the chance to discover other hobbies.

you stumble out of the car upon arriving to the boys’ place, a backpack on your shoulders and tom’s hand held tight in yours. you’ve got only a few essentials with you for tonight. the rest is on the tour bus, so you’ll gather it after your hangout with coco. besides, everything you need at the moment is right here.

“home sweet home,” tom announces as harry unlocks the front door. his words bring a tired smile to your face. “finally,” you exhale, keeping your fingers laced with tom’s and following the two of them inside. “i could show you around a bit, give you the grand tour. or-“ tom stops talking, feeling your weight on him. harry huffs at how oblivious his brother is.

“mate, she’s falling over. save it,” he suggests and kicks the door shut lazily. you’re done in. you’ve been having to lean on tom since the show ended. “another time, then,” tom mumbles, securing his arm around your waist. “there is one thing i wanna see.” your voice is low, body curled into tom’s side. he raises an eyebrow. “and that is?” “your room.”

tom takes that in a suggestive way, like he does most things. “we’re getting right to it, are we?” he questions, harry gagging and you nudging his arm with your head. “not like that, dummy. ‘cuz i’m sleepy.” there’s a beat of silence. “ask me again in-“ “wow, look at the time!” harry interrupts so he doesn’t have to hear the details. he’s sure he’ll witness enough after it happens. “off to bed i go! goodnight.”

he rushes to get to his room, yelling out, “great show, y/n!” on the way. “thank you! night!” you call back, tom letting out a sigh. “div of the century,” he says under his breath. “must run in the family,” you playfully retort. that gets you a firm poke at your side. “where’s everyone else?” you glance up at him. there should be two other idiots and a lovely, furry lady running around.

“tuwaine’s gone to the pub, harrison’s filming late, and tess is at mum and dad’s,” tom fills you in, grabbing your arm and draping it around his middle. doing him one better, you hug him with both. you squint in confusion about the last part. “they watch her when i’m out,” tom answers your unspoken question. “ah,” you nod, then deflate ever so slightly. “i wanted to meet her, though. the other boys, too.”

tom smooths the pad of his thumb over your cheek. “you will, darling. it’s only for tonight.” he kisses the same spot reassuringly. “we’ve got loads of time.” “yeah, we do,” you agree, instantly cheering up and letting your head fall onto his chest. “now, where’s your room?” “just upstairs. you need some help getting in?” he’s only playing around, but you accept, tightening your arms around his neck.

“show me the way,” you beam at him. “happy to.” tom wiggles his eyebrows, you jumping up. your legs wrap around his waist, his arms holding you against him. with a satisfied hum, you squish your face into his insanely soft shirt. “what a diva,” tom sarcastically complains while taking you to the staircase. “doesn’t even say please. no manners from this one.”

“you try dancing in six inch heels for two hours,” you shoot back, patting the side of his neck. he moves one hand down to your thigh for a better grip. you’re nearing the top of the stairs. “think i’ll leave that to you,” he decides and squeezes your thigh. “look at me, carrying the whole music industry.” your face easily gets hot and your words turn to murmurs. “shut up. you should listen to other songs.”

you’re on the second floor now, tom going for the first door. he frowns at his rejected compliment. “no, i like yours. they’re my favorite.” “really?” your muffled laugh sounds from his chest. “what was the first thing i ever said to you?” he asks, a toothy grin on him even though you can’t see it. you recall the faithful night he slid into your dms while he carries you into his room.

he’d tripped over his words somehow, the fangirling fool. before that, he tweeted to the whole world that he wanted to see you in concert. it was a huge thing, and people were freaking out about it, even more so when your online interactions became routine. that’s nothing compared to where you are now.

you’re currently living with him and basically dating. possibly, in love. the base of it all really is your music.

“that you love me.” you pause for the ellipses. the corners of your lips turn up. “but, you really meant to say my work.” “both apply.” tom passes that off like it’s a side comment, carefully laying you down on his bed. you look up at him with a curious glint in your eyes. “what does that mean?” his cheeks flush, and he bites back the smile that’s growing. this was supposed to go... differently.

you sit up, breathing out a laugh at tom’s boyish behavior. he’s precious, truly. “you do love me?” those three words will change everything if he says yes. he takes both your hands in his and holds them between you two. you meet his doe eyes. “yeah, y/n/n. i do.” so, you were right. “i love you... and, that wasn’t how i planned on saying it.” signaling for him to elaborate, you tilt your head to the side.

tom sits down next to and faces you before continuing. “it was supposed to be romantic, right?” he rolls his eyes up to the ceiling, annoyed he ruined this. “candlelit dinner, flowers, that sort of thing. seems more fitting for the occasion.” you shift closer to him until your knees are touching. your face is lit up, voice dropped to almost a whisper.

“since when do we do things the way we’re supposed to?” you point out and set your hands on his shoulders. “we’ve gone straight from online dating to me moving in. that’s usually not how it works.” tom chuckles lowly. his own hands find their place on your hips. you’re so good with words. then again, you are a singer. “guess you could say we’re, um, spontaneous,” he agrees, fingers drawing circles on you.

you and tom have explored some of each other’s most intimate places, yet you’ve never shared a moment quite like this. it’s like meeting him for the first time again. he’s too tongue tied to spit out what he wants. you somehow know, anyway. what you cherish most about your relationship is that you two completely and totally understand one another, on every level.

“tom?” you speak quietly, butterflies filling up your body. “hm?” he hums back. this is one of those moments where it all just clicks. “i love you. i really, really love you.” you giggle out of the pure happiness that consumes you, tom joining in your laughter. “i love you, too.” he sounds like he’s said it a million times and he’ll say it a million more. he leans over so his forehead rests on yours. “really, really love you.”

your warm breath hits his face, eyes darting from his own to his lips. “i want you to be more than...” you trail off, unsure of how to phrase it. “more than... more than a friend?” tom pokes fun at what you said during the show. there’s less and less space between you with every second. “you mean, like, a boyfriend?”

“exactly. be my boyfriend,” you all but demand. you’re half asleep and desperate to be able to call him yours already. “bossy, bossy, bossy,” tom chastises, swiping his thumb across your bottom lip. how he goes from being shy and giddy to the cockiest person alive in minutes, you’ll never know. “please?” you throw in to sway him. your hand locks with his, slowly moving it off your face.

you run your tongue over your teeth. “at least kiss me.” “you don’t have to ask,” tom breathes, lips now ghosting over yours. “i was going to.” true to his words, he closes the microscopic gap between you, you pushing forward against him as you kiss back. your first kiss in love. his lips taste like the chapstick he always uses, and he moves them softly.

he places a hand on your knee, you opening your mouth so he can have access to it. instead, a yawn exits. tom pulls back with a breathy laugh. “you must be exhausted, yeah? let’s get you to bed.” he pecks your lips once more. “my girl needs her beauty rest.” that confirms your relationship. you scrunch your nose and grin wide. “and, she’s gonna get some with her boy.”

you’re reminded of how sweaty you are when you catch a whiff. “oof, wait. do you think i can take a shower first?” you grimace, fanning at the air for emphasis. tom uses the tip of his nose to nudge yours. “absolutely. need help in there, too?” he’s not asking in that way, only so nothing happens. the hospital wouldn’t be the most pleasant place to spend your break. plus, he doesn’t want to be without you too long.

“you know what? yeah.”

that’s how you end up intertwined under the hot water, letting it cascade down your back as tom hugs you close to him. you sigh in content and tangle your fingers in his fluffed over curls. you’ve learned that he’s super into having his hair played with. it’s endearing, how he instinctively leans into your touch, eyes closing as you tug on the roots.

he drops his head down to kiss your shoulder, dragging his lips to your collarbone in a way that tickles. they land on one of your breasts next. there isn’t anything sexual about it, only loving. just in case he gets too excited because it’s not uncommon he does, you gently put a finger to his lips. tom takes the hint and lets up. you continue combing through his wet hair while you step out of the water.

“do you ever sing in the shower?” he questions, drawing your naked body in closer to his. “sometimes, yeah. i honestly feel like i sound better there,” you admit and slide your hand down to the nape of his neck. tom’s tongue darts out to lick his lips. “not true. you sound beautiful everywhere, and don’t fight me on this one.” he smirks in satisfaction, you groaning at your loss.

“i really enjoy hearing your voice when it blares through an arena, though,” tom keeps buttering you up. you shake your head and settle both arms around his neck. “man, i just love you so much.” “i love you, sweetheart,” he murmurs back, you switching places so he can give his hair a final rinse. you watch him and his glowing body, admiring the sight.

“what a sensation you are,” you say mostly to yourself, which doesn’t stop him from hearing. “i see what you did there.” he eyes you while you do the same to him. your arms still around his neck pull him back to you. “tommy? do you sing in the shower?” you meant to ask him before, then he started throwing all those compliments at you.

tom scoffs, walking you back so you’re against the wall. “i don’t sing anywhere.” “what?” you gasp and put a hand on his chest. “you’re lying, you have to be. wasn’t billy elliot a musical?” he narrows his eyes at you as he tries to gage where you’re going with this. “that i did a decade ago, and way before puberty. couldn’t sing a word without cracking after that.”

your mouth is left hanging open in shock and disappointment. you bet he has a nice voice, and he’s downplaying it. “y/n,” tom begins, cupping your jaw with his palm. “since we’re living together now, there’s a lot you’re going the learn about me. good things, weird things.” he shrugs casually. “this is one of the weird things.”

“only because you make it weird! come on, let me hear you,” you request and wrap a leg around his waist. you’re giving him a hopeful smile. “god, no. you’ll hate it,” he almost laughs, a hand on your thigh. “i’m literally a singer. how could i hate something i love?” you refute, batting your lashes at him. “especially when someone i love is doing it.” “i love you, too. but, i’m not.” he’s quick to shut you down.

“drop a bar!” you try to coax him, which he already has a comeback for. “you first.” “i can’t. my throat is all scratchy from earlier,” you lie. tom presses his lips into a line, feigning pity. “aw, you know what’ll make you feel better? tea. i’ll go get you some.” he turns to shut the water off, so you grab his shoulders. “no, the steam is working. you can stay.”

“love,” tom addresses you in a warning tone that you can’t take seriously. he can’t either, a giggle escaping him. “my voice is shit. ask anyone, and they’ll tell you.” “i won’t believe them,” you hum, pushing back curls sticking to his forehead. “sounds like you just have stage fright. we can work on that, though.” “how?” he tightens his arm around your middle.

“i’ll bring you on for my next show. we’ll do a little duet.” you’re joking, though that would definitely be interesting to see unfold. “uh, never. what happened to you being tired?” tom cleverly deflects and digs his fingers into your side. you look down in defeat. “i forgot about that.” “yeah, yeah. no, seriously. we should really get to sleep, y/n/n.” he’s back to his sweet, attentive self. “‘s been a long night.”

giving in with a nod, you capture his lips in yet another kiss. tom never gets tired of them, and neither do you. you break it after a few seconds, lips lingering on his as they detach. “carry me?” you ask again, not caring how whiny you sound. tom presses a quick kiss to your forehead. “oh, you’re adorable. of course.”

well, you’ve found something to keep you occupied until the next leg of tour. you’re going to discover the many layers your intriguingly unusual boyfriend has.

#tom holland #tom holland fluff #tom holland x y/n #tom holland x you #tom holland x reader #tom holland au #tom holland smut #tom holland imagine #tom holland fic #tom holland fanfiction #tom holland x singer!reader #tom holland request #peter parker #peter parker fluff #peter parker smut #peter parker x reader

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bangtanger · 4 years

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CONTENT CREATOR YEAR IN REVIEW

was thinking for 84 hours where should i post it but as its my creator blog i m doing it here <3 i was tagged by @taemaknae @suhdays @ynki @honsool @jjeongukie @taeyungie @dearbangtansonyeondan @lifegoesmon @everythingoes @flipthatjacketjiminie @yoongi-bts @jiminslight @hopekidoki @cowboyjinbop @yoonqiful @jcngkooks @pjmsdior @hobeah @balenciaguks @jinvant @hobibestboy @vjimin @yoongikook AND THANK U SO MUCH FOR INCLUDING ME T_T ik maybe its not a big deal but its a big deal to me and im touched :(((((((((((( also gimme some time to check all ur posts 👉👈 also im in a mood to say that ive collected many pokemons here djfksfhsakjddld ok nvm

also sorry for a long post ik tmblr fvcks things up sometimes when there is keep reading so dont fight me plz <3

❀ first creation and most recent creation of 2020

ok this is the fist one (still very pleased with colouring here T_T the stage lighting was,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, well yeah as always lmao) and this is the most recent (TBH DKJSKDSDK I WISH MY MOST RECENT POST COULD BE A DIFFERENT ONE THE ONE I WANNA MAKE FOR A MONTH NOW THE ONE ID PUT A LOT MORE EFFORTS IN SO IM A LIL FRUSTRATED i literally just missed giffing but couldnt watch anything new so took an old vid i wanted to gif once I DIDNT EVEN USE MYCOLOURING PSD IT LITERALLY HAS ONLY COUPLE OF LAYERS uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :( but whatever,,, it just kinda doesnt show the difference -_-)

❀ a creation u r really proud of

well 👁👄👁 there r quite few,,, and the main reason is colouring most of these r comps and i a b s o l u t e l y sucked at comps and esp at making the colouring consistent there lol so lets begin lol 1 (u have no idea how muchi love this set) 2 (i fucking mastered it i wanted to remake it for two years and i finally did!! 60 fps smooth good moments iconic performance iconic hair colour his attitude bruh and ofc the fact that i could do sth with colouring,,,,,, and chose such an unusual colour scheme that i doubted jckdckfdk and it still worked out 🥺) 3 (lol i had this idea written down since 2018 as well and this year i could finally collect all moments i needed and oh boi yeah,,, AND COLOURING I COULD ALMOST yeah almost do sth decent with it there r still couple moments id changed but im pleased) 4 (im so happy whenevr i see this CUZ IT ALL WORKED OUT it was such an impulsive comp i literally only saw couple moments for past few years as well where i could see three of them in one frame and suddenly I WAS LIKE I FUCKING MUST POST THOSE MOMENTS SOMEHOW and im so proud of colouring it looks so well T_T) 5 (the colouring ofc im still :o that i could get rid of that shitty shit dkksjkj AND THE MOMENTS ITSELF?????? AND BLACK SWAN???????? EVERY PERFORMANCE???? HAIR?????? OUTFIT???????? EVRERYHTIGNM???????? HIS FUCKING STARE? FACE??? DONT MAKE ME CONTINUE AAAAAAAAAAA also if im not wrong this set in particular made me start my before/after posts 🥺) 6 (i jujst love everything about it e v e r yt h i n g also i could made ppl believe that jin fr has purple hair here when in reality its brown djhfdhskdf one of blending modes or adjustment layers worked this way lol) 7 (i wont even comment this tried a great tutorial with great beautiful resuls for the first time ever and it worked out so well and i like it so much and the whole yoongi here,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, also love me some borders that add cinematic feels to some gifs or just make them pretty in a dif way just like i did with prev post i mentioned imo lol) OK LAST ONE 8 (I USED A VIDEO OF STARS AND ADDED IT TO THE GIF FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER I FUCKED WITHMASKING FOR 3 HOURS GRRRRRRRR THIS IS SO HUGE FOR ME!!!!! i cant even explain whew IVE NEVER DID ANYTHING LIKE THIS BEFORE SO I WAS REALLY PROUD TOO even tho i fucked masking up on some layers lmao but lets not pay too much attention to it 👀)

❀ a creation that took u forever

ohhhhhhhh i think this one cuz the moments were long i couldnt decide what do i want to include + it ts file so u kno,,, the speed,,, of processing,, + somehow decided to put them all together + fucked with colouring + had to get rid of the logo and as we know japan likes a lot of big braight text around haha and draw hair in moments where logo made it look blurry + had to adjust the order and all that stuff but getting rid of logo was the longest part

❀ a creation from 2020 that received the most notes

whew this iconic one im still amazed tbh they looked soso incredible and im glad how everything turned out here <3 (could change some colouring on bg tho so it could look better and more hq :c)

❀ a creation u think deserved more notes

lol this one cuz i was so hyped to make it cuz their concert in saudi arabia is one of my fav things in the world and i waited for so long to have mood and energy to go throught it to find jk moments and i couldnt choose some for this comp for so long and just,,,,,, overall,,,, the way he looks here............................................................... its a special comp to me haha ill def gif more of it i have shit ton of clips left and also there r other members and i just want to sit and enjoy yhe whole thing to so may find more stuff to gif here lol

❀ a new fandom u joined an a creation u made for it

i didnt join anything heurheru

❀ a creation u made that breaks ur heart

OKAY LISTEN DSJAKDJHFDKJ THIS ONE IF U KNOW U KNOW AND IM SURE IT BREAKS ALMOST EVERY HEART tbh whenever i see soft smiles or soft interactions or anything like this im just :’( <3 even my serotonin boost tag does it to me cuz its too precious T_T

❀ a ‘simple’ creation that u really love

this one cuz everything about it ah and this one 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

❀ a creation that was inspired by someone else

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm idk maybe this one ? cuz i never did anything like this before and maybe i saw someones beautiful headers and decided to try one too ? i could do a lot better there is not enough depth but oh well,,, lol

❀ a favourite creatin created by someone else

oh its gonna be hard :) dear every conten creator i hope u dont mind if i wont go though the whole 2020 gif tag but choose form the most recent ones i loved? u know how much i appreciate ur content cuz i never stop screaming about it in tags but truly there r more content makers and i want u to know that i really love ur content :(

@syubb welllllllllllll i wont even comment this is iconique.....

@jinv T_T val i miss u but there should be bday comps with that BIG ASS IMAGE THAT HAS ITS PARTS ON EVERY SINGLE GIF I CANT EVEN EXPLAIN that icant even find dfjksfskj

@jung-koook i literally couldnt choose ehdskjdjksd but i decided this one cuz its sososososososososososososososososososososo well made every single detail here is chefs kiss

@kkulmoon i truly really cant get enough of ur colouring lately T_T

@minhope !!!!!!LITERALLY EVERY PANTONE COMP OR ESPECIALLY 7 YEARS WITH BTS PANTONE ONE IM AAAAAAAAAAAAA and lmao i think this is one of the most reposted things ive ever seen on internet T_T

@jjoon hng amy u know how i feel about ur content T_T decided this one cuz f l a w l e s s

@hopekidoki stuff like this makes my jaw lie in the floor dsjkdj

@flipthatjacketjiminie idk whats up but it makes me scream like a madman every time i see it.........

@lifegoesmon i cant even explain why i chose this one but everything here is so incredible !!!!!!!!1

@hobeah one of those good fucking bye ones.....

@taeyungie this made me feel so many things and a whole ass a w e so cool T_T

@jiminfilter i will never shut up about bts core jungkook one should also be here

@seoksjin THE COLOURS I SCREAM OH MY GOD O HMY OGD I JUST WENT TO CHECK OUT AND SAW THIS AND IMMEDIATELY DJKSJD DECIDED THIS IS CRAZY THE PASTELS THE PINNKS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA EVERYHTGIN but also those birthday posts ahhh T_T

@jinvant i wanna YELL but also u know how much i love ur quality and blacks T_T and gfxs too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

@yoongi-bts i love everything here with my whole heart!!!

@everythingoes SHOUWLD I EVEN EXPLAIN WHY

@hobibestboy THIS IS SO COOL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THE COLOUR SCHEME

@joenns I WONT EVEN EXPLAIN IM SO HURT HES SO THIS IS SO T____________________T

@jjeongukie idk i cant get enough of skin tone!!!!!!!!!!!!

@chaylani i really love the colouring and love these posts with highlights T_T

@eklipxe COLOURING AND EVERYTHIGN

@oncupid cant get enough of every colouring ive seen <3

@jiminslight THIS WHOLE GIF RIGHT HERE

@6dis-ease COZY AND PRECIOUS T_T

@ofkimtaehyung I LITERALLY HAVE NO WORDS ITS SO PRETTY

@taee it was really hard to choose too T_T decided to go with this cuz,, u kno

@yoonqiful CUZ THESE COLOURS DRIVE ME INSANE

OK THIS IS GETTING TOO LONG KDSFJSAKDL I WOULD ADD A LOT MORE CUZ THERE IS A LOT MORE TO ADD BUT IVE BEEN DOING THIS FOR THREE HOURS I BETTER CHILL

❀ some of your favourite content creators from this year

ok i may forgot someone + in no order in particular + literally every creator that i follow/whose content i reblog @taeguks @tearuntold @cyphertaehyungie @love4hobi @kimnamtaejin @taejoon @jimiyoong @namkook @taeyungie @jinvant @jinv @6dis-ease @jiminrolls @daechwitas @syubb @syuga @jjeongukie @cowboyjinbop @hope-film @minhope @hopekidoki @joonie @namgination @jung-koook @faerieth @kooksv @lifegoesyoon @yoonqiful @j-sope @chaylani @jiminfilter @jjoon @everythingoes @varietae @seoksjin @dearbangtansonyeondan @ofkimtaehyung @yoongi-bts @gaypeople @seokjinyoongis @agustdfeatrm @joenns @houseofarmanto @namjoon (will miss forever) @thebtsgenre @honsool @vjimin @seokjinite @jiminswn @taee @hobeah @lifegoesmon @taemaknae @gukgi @kkulmoon @flipthatjacketjiminie @jintae @jcngkooks @ynki @yoongikook @yoongiandthebiaswreckers @jiminslight @gwkie @oncupid @eternalbulletproof and many more <3

OK SO i wanna say a special thanks to every content creator ever and also i wanna say that im really glad to be a part of this community all of u r so cool and creative and make such beautiful things and many of u made me feel EMOTIONS with ur sets or not only sets ill be forever grateful that i discovered bts and for everything they do to me without even knowing ALSO THANK U FOR STILL BEING HERE ON TUMBRLDSDFKJ yeah this year was less active there were few issues many ppl went on twt but thank u for still being here also happy new year <3333333 i think i sounded deeper and more emotional when i was commenting ppls gifs :| but its almost 2 am so i hope u will understand dkfjkfsjk im happy there is this corner on the internet that feels cozy and so welcoming <3 i love u i wish u a better year ahead <3 ok for checking notifications purpose ill tag my blog lol @eternal-bangtan

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messiisgodibeliveinhim · 4 years

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Taeyong

I just wanted to rant about everything that happened. So here I am.

So initially I didn't want to watch the concert because of the obvious lack of Taeyong. But i did watch it (ill*gally) on Twitter Live Stream, to see who would cover for Taeyong and how.

Okay, first of all, is it just me or was there an actual lack of preparation and production for the concert??? Like, compare it to SuperM's Beyond Live. The VCRs, the camera direction, the stage, the AR effects... Everything looked so good and exciting. But for this one, they didn't even try. The production was lacking severely and the AR effects were barely used. Everything looked rushed as if they didnt actually plan it set by set. The VCRs were just all the footages from other videos clamped together. There was nothing new or cool about this Beyond Live, even with the increased price. Overall, it looked cheap. I think, the only saving grace of this online concert were the boys themselves.

Secondly, the boys who covered for Taeyong did a good job. Obviously, no one can come close to even performing and delivering like Taeyong but the boys did fine, considering that they had to practice his parts for only 2-3 weeks. And it's a daunting task to fill such huge shoes. The pressure that the boys felt, especially the newbies Shotaro and Sungchan, to try to fill that gap, must have been immense.

But of course, NShittyzens took this as an opportunity to sh*t on Taeyong, saying stupid things like 'XYZ ate Taeyong up', 'ABC made Taeyong's song his own', 'MNO killed Taeyong's part and I think he should've been part of the original line-up instead of Taeyong', 'I hope my bias gets to shine now', 'My faves really took this "opportunity" and showed the world' etc.... Like??? Are you really that dense or just spewing bs like this cuz y'all want attention??? The same thing happened when Taeyong missed the KBS mid-year festival and the other boys covered for him for Kick It.

If y'all truly believe that you're bias only shines when Taeyong is absent, then it shows how insecure you are about you're faves talents and abilities. If you truly think Taeyong's injury is an "opportunity" for your fave, then there is clearly something wrong with you. If you think you're fave ate Taeyong up in any manner, then it shows that you just hate Taeyong. If you think Taeyong is replaceable, then you're doing piss poor job of convincing yourself. Taeyong doesn't need NCT, but NCT needs Taeyong.

He is not just the leader, but also the main dancer, main rapper, sub vocalist, the center of the group and the face of the group. He has also contributed to the group with over 30 songs and has choreographed for some of NCT songs. He is NCT's idea bank, with the numerous times he has come up with something new and interesting for their concepts or choreography (For Example: The Jungle Gym for Neo City tour, the epic finger move and Mark stepping on Taeyong for the Kick It choreography, the chandelier scene in MAW, etc) . Many professionals have constantly praised Taeyong for his creativity and excellent inputs.

Taeyong was there from the very beginning of NCT and has carried the group on his back for 4 years now. And he has always remained kind and humble, even with all the misdirected hate that he faced for years. He always puts himself down and praises all the members, no matter what. He has juggled between groups, 5 comebacks and numerous concerts, this year alone. His schedule list looks like the Bank Statement of one whole year. The way the man has worked for the past 2 years is insane. And upon that, the burden of being the leader of a group with 23 members??? Can y'all even imagine the amount of weight on Taeyong's shoulders???

And yes, the injuries he has constantly sustained for over 4 years now. We have seen various footages of him having neck braces, holding his waist and limping. He has also talked about the continuous back pain or how he was sick for 3 days after shooting a MV. SM had known exactly the extent of his injuries and still overworked him to the bone. Now his waist disc injury has relapsed and we still dont have a statement on his health or time of recovery on ANY of the SM Official Accounts. Not one word. We had to find out through a platform that's barely used and most non-twitteratti NCTzens didn't know about this whole ordeal until after the concert began.

What boils my blood is that SM knew about the relapsed injury way before, gave the boys enough time to practice Taeyong's part, but announced the concert by advertising Taeyong all over it, last Monday. And they literally only made the announcement after the concert ticket cancelation period was over. F*cking money whores! F*ck SM!!!!

The worst part of it all are the NShittyzens. Most of you didn't care about the fact that SM not only neglected the leader's health but also scammed Taeyong's fans. When TyongFs began to get refunds for the concert, some of you accused them and started dictating what they should do with their own money, pulling sh*t like- 'Taeyong as a leader, wants his group to do well. Now he would be sad knowing that fans dont care about the group cuz y'all are getting your refunds'. Really? Cuz most y'all who said this watched the concert illegally, makes it even more funny to me. And its none of you're business, how anyone else spends their money. And if you think Taeyong cares about SM losing money, then you're just stupid. If it's anyone in the whole group who'd say 'F*ck Capitalism!', it's Taeyong. So STFU!

Also, when TyongFs started demanding an official statement from SM about Taeyong, some of y'all went- "You're just a fan. Y'all dont have any right to cross the boundaries of Idol-Fan relationship and ask for personal stuff. Other artist fans didn't get any official statement, so why should you?'. We didnt ask for his f*cking medical records. We just want a statement from SM's official accounts about his health and his time of recovery. That's it. SM has refused to acknowledge the injuries of other artists before, doesn't mean that this pattern has to continue. And as fans, we are entitled to know about the artist, cuz WE CARE...! Cuz a waist disc injury relapsing aint a small thing. The amount of pain that Taeyong is probably enduring right now.... We dont even know the extent of it. We dont know how long he needs to recover or even how long SM will give him to rest. We don't know anything and we are scared. So just wanting a statement about it, isnt 'crossing the boundaries' as you put it. So again, STFU!

Y'all don't care about Taeyong, fine. The least you can do is respect him and not discredit his hardwork. After everything he has done and continues to do for NCT, y'all keep going with the 'Taeyong is the villain' narrative. He isn't stealing your faves lines or screentime. He isn't pushing them back to 'shine more'. He isnt the bad person you think he is. Y'all rejoicing now that he is injured, happy that your faves got to take up Taeyong's part or just hateful saying your fave was better than Taeyong.... It just ain't it.

No other group leader gets the kinda hate Taeyong does, even though he does 5 times the work for the group than any other leader. Yes, Taeyong has multiple positions the group, all deserved. Yes, he is a very charismatic and an amazing performer on the stage, that lures new fans in. Not his fault that he grabs everyone's attention. Yes, he is very talented in so many aspects. But that doesn't mean you get tobblame you're faves mistreatment on him, cuz he himself is being mistreated by SM. So don't come at me with you're 'SM's golden boy' bs! I will taze your ass and watch supernanny as you crawl under the carpet!

Maybe you're right about how you're faves dont get to shine enough when they're on the same stage as Taeyong, cuz his charisma and aura is very magnetic, you can't help but watch him and him only. I thought only TyongFs have this kinda tunnel vision but apparently, all of you have it as well....

Here's the thing. You don't like it when Taeyong gets praised all the time, whether its his dance or rap or anything at all. Cuz you don't like Taeyong. So why are you even focused on him and TyongFs. If I don't like anything, i simply ignore it. So instead of focusing on Taeyong, focus on hyping up your fave (again, by not dragging Taeyong, not even subtly). It ain't hard, trust me.

At least have the human decency to not rejoice over the fact that he is injured. The sh*t i see online everyday, some of y'all have totally lost it.

And lastly, no one can eat up Taeyong. No one can do his part better than him. Hell, no one can even come close to doing what he does. So get that delusion outta your heads. Its embarrassing.

#Taeyong #Lee Taeyong #Bubu #NCT #NCT 127 #NCT 2020 #Beyond Live #RESONANCE #Kick It #Respect Taeyong #Get Well Soon Yongie #We Miss You🌹#Take As Long You Want #We'll Wait #Thank You Taeyong #F*CK SM #F*CK NshittyZens #F*CK Taeyong Antis

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mysticprofessoralienhumanoid · 4 years

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Maribat ideas I will probably never write

Now, before we start.

I realize that those may have already been made but I've never seen them and everything here came from my mind. But if you remember the titles, please tell me them or send a link to the stories, I'd love to read them.

This can be whatever ship you want Connorette, Daminette, Cassandra x Marinette, Brucinette... Any ship.

Here I'll refer to them just as the bats or one of the bats, or just choose a random one of them simply because I don't know the exact person that'd fit in the au with Marinette so I'm just leaving it up to you but... yeah.

[And yes, I know I said it could be Connor or Jon or anyone else, and I know they are not part of Batclan but for the lack of better word, just roll with it]

Yes, you can use any of them, but please tag me (i really want to read what you came up with) and include the link to my post so maybe someone else could use any other of these.

And if want to add anything or just brainstorm in the comments I'd love to do it with you, so don't be shy and say what you think (constructive critism only).

Maybe i will update this, but for now feel free to use any of these over 20 (i think at least) ideas I came with in these past 2 weeks cuz i was bored.

And before you start, I'm thinking of making mafia boss! Marinette AU, but i don't know what ship it should be... Suggestions? (Just not the love square please)

Hope you like it.

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Violinist Marinette. The Waynes got invited to a concert in which Mari played a solo. And they're all just enchanted with her talent.

Marinette a Badass Dancer. None of the bats is a dancer in this AU and I don't really have any direction where this would go, but i just had a scene where she kicks their asses even though she doesn't have much (or any) exprience in martial arts. Just her spinning and kicking one of them mid-spin in the face or... somewhere else...

So the scene is a Wayne Gala, right? Jagged Stone dares Marinette to sing a song on a stage (there’s live music band, i guess?). Everyone’s mesmerised by her voice and Jagged can be heard screaming “That’s my niece!” in the backround. I really want her to sing Creep , a cover by Scott Bradlee's Postmodern Jukebox ft. Haley Reinhart or Crazy in Love , also a cover made by Sofia Karlberg, though any other song is fine too

Bats and Marinette in a band. That's it. That's the whole AU.

One of the bats is sitting under a tree, all peacefully and relaxed, but then they look up to see a random girl with dark blue hair (??) just hanging upside down from a branch like an actual freaking bat. She gives them a heart attack.

Another Au with singing Marinette lol. In this one Marinette likes to sing in a park every other day and Damian comes here one day and hears her and is like “wow.”, and since then he comes there everyday in hopes of hearing her sing and getting her number. And maybe Luka or Adrien play while she sings, that’d be cool

Guys, Marinette and the Waynes being neighbours. No, but imagine. Them seeing some girl watering plants every week for a month or two and then not seeing her for a long period of time, and they're kinda worried, but then she's back and they're confused, because where the hell she'd been, the house looked like not used and just where the hell was she? Marinette seeing some... Weird things happening in the Wayne backyard. Balconies being in front of each other, so they're balcony neighbours too (the romance, the fluff, even the angst, guys). Marinette going to them with baked goods and introducing herself as their neighbour. Them going to hers and welcoming her with a basket of Alfred's cooking.

Jason has to participate in a dating show because he lost a bet and Mari's one of the participants too...

Duke needs a date to a wedding (i don't know whose, your choice) and Marinette's his best friend, so be my fake date to this wedding?

Marinette as Tim's daughter??

The greatest showman AU. (Sibling dickinette. On the trapeze-)

Forget rouges, superheroes and vigilantes. Underground dancers. Because it's what i need, y'all

So in this, WE is a dance company, and Marinette's maybe an intern in a fashion department. One day Dick's going to one of the practice rooms where's been scheduled a meeting with a designer for his costume for the next show. Instead he's met with a girl he sees for the first time, practically flying on the dance floor. Just as he's about to reveal himself the rest comes and it turns out this is the fashion designer and it seems as no one knows she's an amazing dancer too

Teachers AU + Rivals AU = utter chaos. Them teaching the same subject and competing for their class' loves and/or arguing whose close is better. [Bonus points if everyone's thinking they hate each others guts, but they're secretly dating]

Fencers AU - on the same team on different teams, your choice. (And this honestly suits with Kagami too. I'm up for kagami x bat/marinette)

Damian in the park with Mar'i, but he's having trouble, because this kid has so much energy. How?? Just when he thinks he can take a breath, he notices Mar'i has wandered off and is talking to a young woman, so he rushes there and try to apologize, but she says it's no problem at all. Suddenly this gorgeous girl offers him her help. It looks like Mar'i has taken liking to her and he's so tired, so he agrees and for the rest day watches two Mari's play together and falls in love with the older one. Plotwist: this was plan all along. Mar'i is the ultimate wingwoman.

All the Wayne siblings decided to go to one of those haunted houses for a halloween and there's this petite girl who tagged along their group somehow. They didn't expect to see this tiny girl punching the worker dressed as a monster and knocking the daylight out of him. But it was so worth getting kicked out.

Marinette's a ghost and these four men came to her house and apparently they're doing a ghost investigation?? I mean, she was getting a bit lonely and bored, maybe it's time to "gain some friends" (read: scare the living out of them).

Pretty much the above but with bat/s as ghost/s and Marinette as the paranormal investigator with her team (i honestly want one of them to be Kagami, i don't know why). In both you need to decide who's a skeptic and who believes. It's fun, the ghost is trying to scare them off, but they're stubborn.

Sibling dickinette where Marinette calls her older brother everytime she wants to get out of a date and so he pretends to "arrest" her. (And then maybe dick decides to play a matchmaker and sets her up with one of his adoptive siblings)

Marinette as a lawyer. Her going against LexCorps who framed Wayne Enterprises for something. Or maybe Bruce was accused of murder (that he obviously did not commit) and now she has to prove his innocence. I just really want to read about badass lawyer Marinette, guys

Merlin AU. Is there any AUs with Marinette being Merlin and saving Arthur's ass (I honestly think it should be Chloe, no joke)?

Mominette where she adopts Cassandra. I just imagined them going to ballet lessons together and cooking and now I'm soft.

Marinette got dared by her friends to set a trap for the passerby that involved eggs, toy train and glitter and to then to pretend they're her ex and they cheated in her, and Jason had the misfortune to be that passerby. (Yes, this is probably crack lol)

Tim can rap. Marinette can rap. What could go wrong?? (Yes, this is probably crack too)

There's this girl they see every year when to go on trick-or-treating and she always has the most amazing or scariest costumes. But Damian will not go without a fight and so every year they compete over who has the better costume. This year they just so conveniently dressed up as the famous Halloween couple.

Jon is 17 now and it seems as no one is interested in him. He jokingly tells Damian he supects theres a ghost that's in love with him and they keep away any potential lovers from him. He doesn't know how much he's right. Marinette though, is freaking out.

Marinette decided to take a part-time job at a local pool as a life guard. There's a sudden increase in people coming to said pool but also a dramatic increase in people pretending to drown. Conner is one of them.

Marinette plays a therapist to all of the batfam. The amount of the ridiculous problems she had to listen to... She could write a book and she would make millions out of it, she swears.

"Some say "revenge is a dish best served cold.", then i read "revenge is sweet", so i came to conclusion revenge is ice cream." Huh, so that'd explain the sudden disappearance of ice cream in whole Gotham Jason had been hearing about for the past week from Bruce. The question is, what that petite bluenette is planning to do and who is going to be a victim of her ice cream revenge?

Tim had been in coma for a month after the drug bust, and he has just woken up. The first thing he does? He picks up the argument he and Marinette had been having before he's been put into a coma.

The couple at the place Jason had been at, started making out loudly, so he started making loud noises while eating his ice cream. They stopped. And he got this cute barista's phone number when she was walking past him.

Marinette's at the spa when she overhears two guys betting who can eat more slices of cucumber (that were supposed to be put on their eyelids) and she decided to participate. Safe to say they were all banned from all the spas in Gotham

Can i please get Jason/Duke/anyone making up a bedtime story for Marinette after she woke up from a nasty nightmare? I need it

Every morning and night Marinette pretends to be asleep just so she can feel Damian pull her closer, kiss her temple and whisper how much he loves her

Roy listening to Jason complaining about each first encounter of her girlfriend with his siblings and Bruce. Each is more ridiculous than the one before. He listens to it, after he and Marinette had gone through their own weird af first meeting.

Dick was so busy laughing at the bluenette who'd just walked into a post, he ran into the same post minute later. She asked him out... After she finished laughing and telling him karma's a bitch

Dick likes to think he's the reason Jason and Marinette got married. To his last days he will brag about how at his and Kori's wedding Marinette caught the bouquet, tripped and Jay caught her.

Jason asked Marinette on a date to one of the restaurant the WE owned. Then as a test, he told her he couldn't pay for all the expensive dishes they ordered. She took his hand and they ran out of the building. He's convinced he's going to marry her.

#maribat #marinette x batfam #marinette deserves better #ml salt #daminette #timinette #timari #dickinette #jasonette #conner kent x marinette dupain cheng #marijon #brucinette

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NEW CHAPTER

y’all will like this one cuz it’s Rayaari

but it’s a new chapter to the Raya and her brother series thing i created (idfk)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/31347410/chapters/78188126

The tour bus shook as it hit rocks on the road. The people inside jumped at the feeling but kept doing their own thing. Raya and her band had just finished their recent concert in Tail and were heading to Spine.

But recently, they’ve had a new addition.

Namaari.

Their last drummer quit after he and his wife had their child and he felt like he needed to be there for them so he put notice to his resign not too long ago. So, they searched for a new one. And they found Namaari.

She was playing with a different band when they met her, and around that time, they were already getting famous, and Namaari was a fan. But she met them through Raya.

Raya was the lead singer for their band; Raya and the dragon gems. She and Namaari’s band were performing at the same club when they met. Namaari was walking down a hallway when she crashed into someone, sending them to the floor along with her.

“Oh my gosh I’m so sorry-” she stopped talking when she realized who she bumped into. Raya, the lead singer. Raya looked at her confused as she tried to get up but Namaari was quick to grab her hand and help her up.

“Raya, wow, I am so sorry, I-I wasn’t looking where I was going and-” a giggle interrupted her as Raya put a hand over her mouth covering her laugh. “You’re good, you’re good. I wasn’t looking where I was going either” she reassured as she brushed off some dirt from her red jacket.

Namaari smiled before introducing herself. “Oh! Uh, I’m Namaari. I’m a drummer for my band; The Bad Girls” she gestured to the other lead singer and a few girls that were sitting in a booth having drinks.

Raya’s brows rose. “Oh! Yeah, I’ve heard some of your songs. You’re a good drummer by the way” she complimented. Namaari shyly put a piece of her hair behind her ear. “O-oh, thank you. And you’re Raya, right?” She asked.

Raya nodded. “Yeah! I’m the lead singer for The Dragon Gems.” She informed as she gestured to her band that was sitting in another booth near Namaari’s band. “Wow. I-I really admire you guys, I’ve been listening to you for a while and I really admire your voice and everything” Namaari explained.

Raya smiled. “Thank you! That means a lot” then, a girl with blue hair came up to Raya. “Hey, we’re on after that band over there, so Quan’s suggesting that we get ready” she explained before glancing at Namaari. “Oh, who’s this?” She asked.

“This is Namaari, she’s the drummer for The Bad Girls” Raya informed. Sisu nodded in understanding. “Great to meet you Namaari, but my girl Raya and I gotta get ready to perform” she said before dragging the singer away. Namaari only watched in awe as they did.

She just met Raya! A singer that she’s admired for a while and someone who had a beautiful voice. She watched until Raya disappeared back stage.

Some time passed and Namaari sat on the drums as her and her band performed. She loved being on stage, sure she wasn’t the lead singer, but she was okay with just being the drummer, seeing that she was able to do her own kind of vibe in the back as the lead singer Atitaya sang.

She was also her backup singer as well. A microphone was stood by her so she could lean over and sing when she needed to. After they finished, the crowd rang in cheers and praises as they walked off the stage.

As she did, she noticed Raya talking to a boy who looked like her brother. They were laughing at something he said when she noticed the drummer. She said something to her brother before walking towards Namaari.

“That was amazing!” She complimented. Namaari felt her heart soar at the words. “Thank you!” She spoke. A large man then came up to Raya and handed her the microphone as the hosts voice boomed in the club. “I gotta go, but maybe we can catch up” Raya suggested as her band went on stage.

Namaari nodded. “Of course. I’ll see you after” she said as Raya ran up the steps to get on stage.

And when they performed, Namaari watched in complete awe as she performed. The way she moved with the music, how her voice captivated everyone in the room, and her beauty really showed.

Soon, their performance ended and people’s cheers erupted in the room, probably a little more for them than their band. As the singer walked off stage, Namaari quickly went to her.

“You sounded amazing” she said. Raya blushed. “Thank you. You did amazing,” she responded smiling. Soon, the night went with them talking together. They had a few drinks and laughed and got to know each other. Soon, they swapped numbers as they departed for the night.

Over time, they texted and called. Everyday, Raya woke up to a good morning text from the drummer.

“Hey, that drummer girl you’re talking to, do you still have her number?” Quan asked one day as they stopped to get something to eat. “I think so, why?” She asked.

“Well, we need a drummer and I wanted to see if she was interested” he explained. Raya thought for a moment before shrugging. “Okay. I’ll give you her number in a bit” *

Over time, Namaari invited both Raya and her brother to one of her band rehearsals in Fang. As they watched, Raya and her brother traded comments. “She’s good” he said to his younger sister. She nodded.

“She is.”

When they finished, Namaari walked down and towards the siblings. “Hey! So how did you like it?” She asked. “It was incredible, I loved it” Quan responded as Raya nodded. “You did amazing” she said.

“But” Quan began. “I did some here, specifically for your performance” he revealed. Namaari looked at him surprised. “Wait, really?” She asked. He nodded. “And I liked what I heard. How about this; how do you feel about playing with The Dragon Gems” he offered. Namaari’s eyes lit up in shock as Raya shot her a hopeful smile.

However, the moment lasted only for a moment when she glanced over at her band. “I have to think about it. I would love to join, but Atitaya’s already freaking out because a girl already left the group” she explained.

Raya had a disappointed look on her face as her stoic brother nodded. “I see. Well, you have Raya’s number, so if you’re still interested, give us a call” he said before walking away, taking his sister with him who waved at the drummer as she was dragged away.

“Do it!” Atitaya exclaimed. Namaari looked at the lead singer in shock. “What?” She asked. She had told Atitaya about Raya and her brother coming to see their rehearsals and that they offered her a spot in the band. Instead of getting upset about it, she encouraged her.

“Namaari, this is Raya. The most loved singer in Kumandra right now. The fact that she noticed you, is amazing” she explained. “So, if she were to ask you to join, would you?” Namaari asked. Atitaya laughed. “I would’ve been gone a long time ago. Now, go! Call them. Go get them. Plus, it’s Raya, she’s hot. You’re lucky” she winked before leaving the room and leaving a blushing Namaari.

So, she did. She called and took the offer and soon, she became the drummer for Raya and the dragon gems.

But over time, things changed. She and Raya spent all their time together, of course, Sisu would join them on their hang outs and it was friendly. Until one night.

They were in a hotel room when Raya went over to Namaari’s room like she always did to hang out. But Namaari noticed Raya’s eyes. She never noticed how they sparkled when she talked about the songs she wrote, and other things she was passionate about.

Then, their eyes met. When they did, she found herself leaning in and locked lips with the singer. She pulled away apologizing before the singer grabbed her shirt and brought her in for another kiss.

When they pulled apart, they were red. “Uhm...Is this okay?” Namaari asked. Raya laughed. “You’re so shy. It's fine. But uh, yeah I kinda like you” she admitted. “Yeah, I can see that”

So, they saw each other behind everyone’s back. When they finished a performance, they met up backstage to be together. When no one was looking, they shared a few kisses. Soon, they were dating.

Ugh, how she loved that word. She was dating Raya. The Raya. The girl that was currently loved in Kumandra for her beauty and her beautiful voice. She had her in her arms and she felt blessed by Sisudatu herself.

However, Quan was Raya’s older brother. He was also very protective. When your little sister is famous, some fans-especially the male ones- all have their eyes on her. Some have tried to touch her inappropriately, some have and since then, he’s done whatever he could to protect her from them.

But he noticed something off with their new drummer. He didn’t mind that she and Raya hung out, if anything, he liked that she was a little intimidating so if anyone tried to mess with his sister, someone was there for defend her.

But it was the way they looked at each other. He didn’t like it. He didn’t like how they shared a loving look before they parted ways, or how Raya always made sure to turn around and lock eyes with her when she performed.

At first, he assumed it was just how they were. Maybe they were really close which caused them to be really touchy with each other seeing that Raya and Sisu were touchy seeing that they’ve been friends since they were younger.

But then one day, before they went up to perform, he spotted the singer and drummer talking. But before he could dismiss it as them just being friends, he saw Raya’s hand caress Namaari’s cheek who then gave it a kiss on her palm.

As Raya walked away, Namaari’s eyes locked with Quan’s and her face paled. She quickly turned and left to hide from her girlfriend’s brother's wrath.

She informed Raya. “It’s fine. I’ll just make an excuse. I’ll say that we’re just close” she reassured. Soon, Sisu learned about them when Raya opened up to her about it. Sisu was excited and promised to keep it a secret from her brother and was their number 1 supporter.

But then, things went downhill. Back to where we started, everyone was on the bus as Tong drove. Quan was reading a book when he noticed Raya go up to Namaari who handed her something. Raya quietly squealed before hugging the taller girl.

That’s it.

He stood up before slamming the book loudly. It startled both girls as they turned to him. “Okay. That’s it” he scolded. Raya felt her blood run cold as she scooted herself closer to the drummer.

“What are you talking about?” She asked. Quan scoffed. “Don’t play dumb with me, Raya. I know about you and Namaari. The stolen glances, being together all the time, and don’t think I didn’t forget that hand kissing thing!” He said angrily. Raya glanced at Namaari.

“This is over. You and her” he said. Namaari sent a glare his way. “You can’t tell us what to do, Quan. I love Raya, and she loves me” she said as she stepped forward. Quan glared daggers at the drummer and if looks could kill, she would’ve been brutally killed.

“Namaari stop. Quan you too. Why do you care so much?” She demanded. “Because I know people like her Raya. They get what they want. They manipulate, and when they get what they want, they throw you away” he explained, not taking his gaze off Namaari.

“Why, because I’m from Fang? Is that it?”

“I wouldn’t be surprised”

“Quan stop!”

Raya yelled. “No, Raya this isn’t happening. I’m not letting you ruin your career for some binturi. It’s over.” He finished but then the drummer spoke up. “I love Raya”

He looked at her in shock. The girl had a determined look painted on her features. “I love Raya, and she loves me too. And we want to get married” she said slowly. Raya felt her heart melt at the others words when Quan’s voice startled her.

“Of course, you love her. She’s young, beautiful and rich”

“It’s not about money Quan!” Raya exclaimed. “I love her, and that’s it!” The singer practically screamed. The room went quiet. Namaari looked at the singer with a loving gaze.

“What did you say?” Quan asked angrily. Raya swallowed the lump in her throat before continuing. “I love her. And she loves me too.” She said with a shaky voice.

Quan let out a humorless laugh that sent a shiver down everyone’s spine. “That’s it!” He exclaimed, startling them. “Namaari, I brought you into my band to help it, not destroy it. So, because of this, you’re fired. You can ride back to Fang, but that’s it, it’s over” he explained.

Raya felt her heart drop in her stomach and her world fall apart around her. Namaari glared. “That’s fine. I’ll make my own way” she growled out as the bus stopped. She then pushed past him and walked out the bus.

“NO, YOU CAN’T DO THIS!” Raya screamed as she tried to run after Namaari but Quan went in front of her and held her back as she tried to run after her. “Enough!” He yelled as he pushed her onto the seat. “If you follow that woman, I will disband the group, No more Raya and the dragon gems. Nothing.” He threatened before walking away.

Sisu ran her hands through Raya’s hair as she cried into her lap. She was sitting on the singer's bed as Raya laid down so her head was in Sisu’s lap as she cried. “It’s okay Raya,” she tried reassuring but even she knew that it wasn’t. She took Raya’s side on this one.

She knew what her and Namaari had was something special. The way they looked at each other and the way Namaari talked about her like she was the most amazing thing she’s ever discovered.

Raya did the same. She knew what they had was real. Yeah, Raya’s had past boyfriends and girlfriends, but they were never serious. This one, was the most serious. And she knew when Namaari said she wanted to marry Raya, she meant it.

“W-what am I gonna do?” Raya asked through tears. Namaari was gone. Once they got to Fang, Quan was quick to help get her things together to get her off the bus, no matter his sister’s pleas.

Sisu thought for a moment. “Maybe you can try to call her?”

“Quan deleted her number off my phone. I don’t remember” she said as she wiped tears from her eyes. Sisu sighed. She was stuck. She didn’t know what to do, and she didn’t want to see her best friend in such a state.

Things sucked for her. Days, weeks passed and she was miserable. She had no energy to perform, or record songs. Quan tried talking to her which ended either with them in a screaming match or just Raya giving him the cold shoulder.

She wasn’t herself. Her usual happy and bubbly personality turned into a quiet, isolated version that Sisu and the others didn’t know. She was more bitter, snapped at everyone.

They all knew it was because of Namaari. She was always there when she needed her, and now she’s gone.

However, one night after Raya got out of the shower, her phone rang and an unknown number was calling her. She hesitantly answered the phone.

“Hello?” She answered.

“Raya, it’s me” said girl’s heart jumped with joy at the sound of the others voice. “Namaari?” She asked, tears of joy filling her eyes. The other girl laughed on the other line. “It’s me dep la. Come outside, I’m by the red car” she instructed.

Raya quickly got her clothes on before running out the motel room and running to the parking lot where she saw Namaari standing next to the red car.

“Nami!” She exclaimed as she ran into the woman’s arms. Namaari’s face lit up as she gathered the other in her arms. “I’m here, I’m here” she whispered into the girl’s wet hair.

Tears of happiness streamed down the girls face as she looked up and captured the drummer's lips in hers. Their kiss ended quickly as they held each other tightly. “Let’s get some food yeah?” Namaari asked as the smaller girl nodded.

They got into the car and drove.

The night was spent with them just holding each other, knowing that their relationship would be looked down on, not just by Quan but by society in general. “I have to go back” Raya murmured sadly as she laid in Namaari’s chest.

“Hmph. I don’t want you to go” Namaari whispered into her hair. Raya grasped her hand. “I don’t either. But my brother will lose it” she responded as she nuzzled into the girl's chest.

She didn’t want to go, but she had to.

So, they kept seeing each other. Every weekend, Raya would secretly message Namaari her location and they would meet up in secret. Sometimes to just talk, cuddle and share a few kisses.

But finally, Raya had it. She couldn’t do it anymore. The secrets, the lying, everything. She just wanted to be with Namaari and not let anyone stop her. She called Namaari that night and begged her to get her.

Namaari picked up the singer who sat in the passenger seat of her car. “I can’t do this” she said through tears. Namaari felt her heart break. “Like, you want to break up?” She asked.

Raya shook her head. “No. Never. I’m just tired of lying. I want to be with you. I don’t want anyone holding me back. I just want you!” She exclaimed. Namaari felt her heart melt at her words and leaned in to kiss the singer.

“I’m gonna go to the store” Raya said as she fixed her black hoodie. Quan was sitting on the couch on his phone. “Okay, be safe” he said as his sister walked out the house.

However, she wasn’t going to the store. As she drove, she heard her phone ring and looked to see Sisu’s name pop up on the screen. She glanced at it before ignoring the call and keeping her eyes on the road as her heart was beating loudly in her chest.

She drove into a parking lot and found a parking spot nearby and stepped out the black car before looking to see Namaari standing by the entrance. “Ready?” She asked as Raya walked towards her.

Raya nodded eagerly as they walked into the court house.

“Where is she?”

“I don’t know”

“She’s been gone for 3 hours”

“I’m sure she got into some traffic or something”

“Really? For 3 hours?” Quan deadpanned. It’s been 3 hours since Raya had left to go to the store as she claimed. Yeah, she would stay out a while, but something was nagging at him, telling him that something wasn’t right.

Sisu on the other hand, also had no idea, but she did know some things. Raya had opened up to her and revealed that she was seeing Namaari behind her brother’s back and of course, Sisu wanted to support her and kept her secret.

“Maybe she met up with someone? Like a friend or something” Boun said, Raya’s younger brother, as he grabbed a snack from the cabinet before walking to the living room.

Sisu’s eyes widened as she realized where she could’ve gone. “B-but I’m sure she’s fine. She’s probably just shopping and spending all her money. You know how she gets when she shops” Sisu excused as she stood up and went to her room.

Another hour passed, and Quan accepted the fact that Raya probably did lose track of time and decided to go into his room and decided to look over some things. He turned the radio on to find one of their songs playing when the radio hosts voice filled the room.

“We’ve got something more romantic coming your way. It turns out, Raya, the princess of pop has gotten married! She and her drummer were spotted leaving the court house today as newlyweds. Let’s congratulate the Princess and her new wife!”

Quan’s stomach dropped. Raya got married? Behind his back? She married Namaari? So many questions ran through his mind as the pencil that was in his hand fell onto the ground as he stared at the wall in front of him in shock.

“Ba, are you mad?” Raya asked through the phone as she sat on a motel bed, Namaari sitting next to her with a worried expression on her face. News about their marriage spread so fast throughout Kumandra.

“No, of course not dewdrop. Although I’m not too happy that you got married at a young age, I’m sure you thought about it.” Benja spoke through the phone. Raya sighed.

“I am. It’s a little crazy right now. I think I’m gonna stay away from Quan tonight. Give him some time to cool off” she explained. “Leave your brother. I’ll deal with him. He needs to know that you’re growing up and you’re going to want to make grown up decisions and I’m here to support you” a smile stretched onto the singers face.

“Now, let me talk to my daughter-in-law" Raya giggled before handing her the phone. “Ba wants to talk to you” she said. Namaari’s face paled and Raya laughed at the sight as the girl shakily grasped the phone.

“Uh, hello?”

“Hello Namaari. How are you?”

“I’m fine. You?”

“I’m doing well, thank you. So, I have a few questions”

Namaari gulped. “Okay” she said.

“Do you love my daughter?”

Namaari was taken aback by the question but proceeded to answer. “Of course. I’ve loved your daughter for a long time. I’ve been in relationships with different people, but she’s different. She’s,” she let out a soft chuckle. “She’s amazing. She gets me, and she loves me for me, and doesn’t judge me for my mistakes or for the wrong decisions I’ve made in the past. If anything, she’s helped me become a better woman and she’s helped me through my darkest times. I love her more than anything” she finished explaining.

She glanced over at her now wife who had tears in her eyes and a smile painted on her lips.

“That’s all I needed to hear. Welcome to the family Namaari, and don’t let Quan intimidate you, he’s just a drama king. I’ll talk to you both later”

“Thank you, sir” Namaari said with a smile. Benja chuckled. “Just call me Benja. I’ll see you two soon.”

Namaari hung up the phone before handing it back to Raya and letting out a relieved sigh. Raya crawled towards her and laid her head on her chest. “How are we gonna tell my brother?” Raya asked quietly.

Namaari ran her hands through her hair. “We’ll figure it out”

3 days later, Namaari and Raya drove to her house where Quan was still. Namaari glanced over at her. “You’ll be okay?” She asked. Raya nodded. “Yeah. Stay here. I’ll call you when things are good” she instructed before getting out the car and walking to the entrance.

Raya unlocked the door to see Sisu on her computer and Boun drawing in his book when they looked up. “Raya!” Boun exclaimed as he went to hug the girls' legs. Raya chuckled before leaning down to hug him.

“Hey you guys” she greeted as Sisu brought her into a tight hug. “So, it’s true?” Sisu asked. Raya nodded. “Yup. We got married” she confirmed. Boun’s eyes widened. “Wow, you got married?” He asked.

Raya chuckled. “Yeah. And no, I didn’t wear a white dress or anything, but we went to court and boom.” She explained. She then paused. “Where’s Quan?” She asked. Sisu gestured to the hall. “He’s in his room. He’s been quiet since he found out” she explained.

Raya winced before nodding and began to walk to the room.

Quan was reading something on his laptop when he heard a knock on his door. He glanced over to see Raya slowly opening the door. Relief washed over him. “Quan, I know you’re mad-” she found herself in an embrace.

“You’re okay” he whispered as he hugged her tight. Raya wrapped her arms around the taller as she nodded. “I’m okay.” She confirmed. Quan sighed through his nose.

“I’m sorry” he said. Raya glanced at him in surprise. “I’m sorry, for putting you through so much Raya, I just...I know you’re 19 and an adult and you can make your own decisions and date who you want to date, but I can’t help but still see 12-year-old you. The one who always beats me at everything, and is small and needs her older brother. But I know that you’re an adult and just hearing over the radio that you got married, just shocked me. I-I never thought I’d see the day you would get married” he said as tears formed in his eyes.

Raya listened with her own tears beginning to flow.

“I don’t know how to let you go” he admitted. Raya quickly threw her arms around him and held onto him tight, as if she were to let go, he would disappear. He hugged her tighter. “I love you” he said.

She sniffed. “I love you too, you binturi” she responded. He chuckled before pulling away and wiping his tears. “Well, now that’s settled. Where’s my sister-in-law?” He asked. Raya smiled.

“Namaari!” Raya called. Said girl was still in the car and looked up to see the singer standing on the porch. She got out the car and followed her inside.

When she got in, she saw Quan, Sisu, and Boun. Sisu and Boun quickly enveloped her into a hug. “Welcome to the family!” Sisu squealed as Boun hugged her waist. Namaari laughed at their reactions before looking over to see the one person she’s been fearing this entire time. She gulped as she shrunk under his strict gaze.

“Quan” she greeted. “Namaari. How’s it going?” He asked. She nodded. “G-good. I’m uh, fine.” She answered. He slowly walked over. “Look, I promise to take care of Raya” she started.

“She can take care of herself” he said. Raya shot him a small glare. He then smirked. “You know, never thought you would stand up to me, Namaari. I know I've been a douche and when that night when you said that you loved Raya, I knew you meant it. I just want her to be happy, and if being with you makes her happy, then so be it” he said before opening his arms.

Namaari smiled before they hugged. Raya watched a large smile on her face.

A few months passed and Raya found herself in a dressing room wearing a white long gown, that had a sweetheart neckline and was strapless. Little silver dots adorned the dress as it trailed all the way to the back and dragged on the floor.

Her makeup was done and her hair was completely down and curled. Her vail was fixed on her head as she examined herself in the mirror.

Because she didn’t have an actual wedding, Benja thought it would be good idea to let her have one. It wasn’t a big thing, if anything, it was a small thing she held in her own home. A knock came on the door.

“Come in” she responded. The door opened and Quan stepped in. When he saw her in the dress, his heart stopped. She looked so beautiful. “You look amazing” he said. Raya smiled. “Thanks. I try” she joked as he closed the door.

Quan chuckled. “How do you feel?” He asked. She shrugged. “I’m a little nervous. Even though I’m technically already married” she said shrugging. “Hmph. Don’t be. You’ll be fine” he reassured as he walked over to her.

She then noticed his eyes. “Are you crying?” She asked. Quan wiped his eye. “Uh, no. No, I am not. You’re just bad at dusting” he lied. Raya laughed before hugging her brother.

It’s been a few months and her and Namaari found their dream home, adopting a dog and a cat while at it. They decided to hold the ceremony in their home seeing that it was big enough.

Quan has finally warmed up to his new sister-in-law, although he sometimes likes to tease her by sending her playful glares when she hugs or kisses his sister, making her panic and quickly straighten her posture.

“It’s just surreal, you know? My baby sister is getting married”

“Ugh, I’m not a baby Quan!” She exclaimed as he laughed. “Okay, sure” he joked as she playfully punched his arm. “But I am happy for you, Raya and I just hope you’re happy. And, if she hurts you in any way, I’m here” he said making Raya roll her eyes.

“Thanks” she chuckled. A knock on the door made them look over to see Benja. “Ready dewdrop?” He asked. She nodded before hooking her arm with her brother and following their father.

When they got to the backyard, Raya hooked her arms with both her ba and brother as they walked her down the aisle. The guests they invited stood up as they watched her practically float down the aisle.

Namaari, who wore a white suit-seeing that she refused to wear a dress-watched in awe as her wife walked down the aisle. They made eye contact before Raya got to the so called alter and her brother and father let her go.

As they said their vows, Namaari thanked the Gods for letting her have this moment and she thanked them for making her so clumsy that she literally and figuratively crashed into her wife at the performance.

“You may kiss the bride”

Namaari quickly dipped her down for a kiss as cheers erupted. Quan watched with a small smile. Maybe it was meant to be after all. And he only hoped that his sister was happy.

#Raya #Namaari #Rayaari #ratld #Quan is cool once u get to know him

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jungshook69 · 4 years

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Comforting him

DISCLAIMER: This doesn’t represent the members’ actions or the army’s actions in any manner it’s pure fiction. This is an original work, do not copy.

WORD COUNT: 2.3K

PAIRING/S: Taehyung X female reader

GENRE: Idol x Staff au ; Best friends au

WARNINGS: None

SUMMARY: Being an idol brings an overwhelming pressure on one’s shoulders. And that pressure is heightened when there’s an audience in front of you and you’re in a very vulnerable emotional state. Taehyung needs your help. He needs your comfort. And that’s exactly what you give him.

A/N: This is not necessarily my first fanfiction, but it is the first one I’m ever gonna post on Tumblr! Well hope you guys like it and it does well:) Also I’m sorry in advance if there’s any spelling errors:(

Hi, my name is Min Y/N. I’ve been working as an editorial assistant under Big Hit for a group known as BTS for the last 5 years, ever since BTS had their debut.

I was sitting in my hotel room on my desk eyes fixed on my laptop screen as I watched some of the boys on their own Vlives. Yes this became a part of my job for the last 2 years. I was responsible for watching their Vlives and making sure nothing went wrong. By wrong I meant there were incidents when fans asked questions that were too personal or idols lost their cool on Vlive but Bang PD-nim trusts the boys and I was just assigned to do this as a precaution.

Today only Taehyung, Yoongi oppa and Jin oppa were doing Vlives. Jin oppa wrapped up pretty quickly with his EatJin Vlive segment and signed off. Now the only ones left were Yoongi oppa and Taehyung. Yoongi was bopping along to his own lyrics while Taehyung was just sitting and staring at the camera.

Even though it was just me watching his Vlive, I could almost feel his eyes bore through the screen staring straight into my soul. I suddenly saw Yoongi oppa’s screen go black. I didn’t hear him say anything it just stopped. I texted him asking him if he wanted any help with setting it back up but he said that he didn’t have any problem he actually ended it by saying goodbye and everything. Maybe I didn’t hear him because I was busy staring at Taehyung.

And yes I texted him. I know they don’t really text too many people and very rarely females, but me and Jungkook’s makeup artist Park Min-Young, were the only females from the staff that the boys were closest to and most comfortable with. Personally I am the closest to the ’95 liners Jimin and Taehyung, not just because of the same age but we just get along the best.

Soon I shifted my gaze back onto the only Vlive left, Taehyung. He was leaning over and reading the comments. He remained still for a long time with a blank look on his face.

Soon curiosity got the best of me and I wondered what he was reading and began reading the comments too.

Comments:

@army1: Oh my god your guys 3rd muster performance was amazing!!! I was there Taehyung oppa!!

@army2: Aww I’m broke I couldn’t go T-T

@army3: Taehyung oppa are you okay?

@army4: What happened?

@army5: Didn’t you hear Taehyung cried during the concert?

@army6: Oh my god I cried too T-T

@army7: wHaT?! send me a link aSaP!! T-T

@army8: The concert was just yesterday it’s not up yet!!

I was going through the comments when I heard Taehyung speak up. He looked up at the screen with a serious face. I knew exactly what was gonna happen. He was gonna tell everyone the same thing he told people on the day of the concert. About his grandma.

I was surprised at how calm he was because everyone knew how sensitive he was when it came to his grandmother. He kept a straight face and told everyone about his grandmother. I suddenly heard his breath hitch and looked at him concerned. I knew that face. He wanted to cry but he was holding himself back. I watched as he suddenly picked up his phone and began doing something on there. As soon as he kept his phone back down my phone lit up with a little ‘ding’. I opened it and saw what he had written.

I was surprised he texted me and not Jimin. Without overthinking it too much I quickly put on my hoodie and my white sneakers and put my phone in my pocket and stepped out of my hotel room.

I was on the 2nd floor and got into the elevator to ride to the 4th floor. I reached his door and stopped in front of it. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. I heard a bit of shuffling on the inside and about 5 seconds later the door opened and my eyes met with his.

“Come in…” he said.

“Yeah…”

I said as I proceeded to take of my shoes.

*A/N: don’t come at me with the whole stinky feet thing y’all where I live its normal to be barefoot in the house*

“Soooo….” I started.

“Here take a seat”.

I sat down on his bed and he pulled up his chair in front of me.

“I want you to know that you can tell me anything okay. Whatever you feel whatever’s been on your mind just pour it out don’t hold anything back. I’m listening okay?” I said trying to comfort him.

With that he burst into tears in front of me.

“Heyy heyy its okay just let it all out its okay” I said softly.

“You must be thinking I’m such a baby right?” he said sniffling.

“No no no no who said showing emotions is being a baby?”

“T-t-thanks.”

I raised my hand to touch his arm to comfort him. As I touched his arm he looked up at me. I thought he felt uncomfortable so I quickly jerked my hand away from his arm.

“I’m sorry.”

“No no no just—“

With that he engulfed me in a warm embrace. And its not like we haven’t hugged before. We have plenty of times. But this was different. He seemed more vulnerable now. He buried his face in my neck and sobbed onto my hoodie. I could feel his tears soak my hoodie but I didn’t mind it at all. My hand instinctively flew up to his back and started rubbing it.

After a while of enjoying each other’s comfortable silence and warm embrace I felt him stir under me. He pulled away desperately trying to wipe away his tears. I pulled my hoodie over my palm and grabbed his face with one hand. Using the other hand I wiped away his tears slowly. We looked into each other’s eyes for a few seconds till I broke the eye contact.

Smiling I said to him, “Are you okay?”

“Y-yeah…”

“Ok good. Lemme get u a bottle of water.”

I stood up and walked over to his side table and picked up his water bottle. I walked over to the bed and sat back down. I handed him the water bottle and he took a sip as I waited for him to finish.

“Don’t look at me I’m a total mess right now.” He said.

“Personally I think you guys look better without makeup.”

He stared at me and the corner of his mouth lifted a tiny bit.

“Yaaahhh there’s that smile.” I said.

“Thank you so much Y/N.”

“Anytime Tae Tae.”

I giggled. I checked my phone. It showed the time 11.00pm. I didn’t realize I had been here for an hour.

“Well are you sure your feeling okay?”

“Yeah much better” he said smiling.

“Ok cool. Its not like I wanna escape or anything but it’s 11 so maybe I should let you sleep and I should be heading back to my room.” I blurt out. Truth being I wanted to stay with him. But I didn’t want to seem too clingy.

“Oh yeah right.” He said with a disappointed look on his face.

I grabbed my phone from beside me and put it in my pocket.

“I’m sorry I soaked your hoodie.” He said.

“Heyy don’t worry about it.”

“Ummm Y/N?”

“Yeah?”

“If you don’t mind me asking how’s your life going? I mean I feel like all we’ve been talking about is me…”

“Yaahh I’m…” I sighed. “…fine.”

“What’s wrong? Is it about the guy your crushing on?” he asked his tone slightly off.

Yes I told Taehyung and Jimin that I’m crushing on a guy but I refused to reveal his name. Well if I would reveal his name to anyone all hell would break loose.

*A/N: I think you know what I mean ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)*

“N-no… I mean m-maybe” I said stuttering, scared to accidently reveal the truth.

“Tell me what’s wrong?” he pressed further.

“Don’t you have to sleep or something?”

“No talk to me.”

“Well I haven’t told him that I like him.”

“Why not?”

“I can’t!”

“Why not?”

“Because—because I just can’t. Let’s just say it’s forbidden or it’s against the rules or something.”

“You’re still not gonna tell me his name huh?”

How can I tell you that the man I’m in love with is you.

“You’re still not gonna tell me his name huh?” he pouted.

“Nope.” I said popping the ‘p’.

“Are you afraid?”

“Yeah, that he won’t like me back, cuz I’m me and he’s…” I sighed. “It won’t work out.”

“What do you mean you’re you? You’re literally one of the smartest and prettiest girls I know. Your kind, forgiving, humble and caring towards everyone around you.” He said practically ranting.

“Aaaaww thank you Tae but correction I’m not pretty… look at me c’mon?!”

“I am looking.” He says in a deep voice.

He stares into my eyes and his hands reached out to my face as he took of my glasses.

“I think you have beautiful eyes it’s a pity I can’t see them well because of your glasses”

“Yaahh that was Jimin’s line!!” I smile.

“But I meant it.”

He said putting on my glasses.

“Oh god it’s so blurry”

He said pinching the bridge of his nose and rubbing his eyes. His gaze didn’t falter once from my eyes. I looked down at my lap trying to avoid his gaze. I could feel my cheeks heating up. I froze when I felt a finger gently lifting my chin up.

And there he was the man that I couldn’t have, the man that I was too afraid to confess too, about to steal my first kiss. He stared at my lips while licking his own. He slowly leaned forward and I closed my eyes waiting for the impact. And then I felt it.

Soft plump warm lips gently brushing against mine. He pulled away to see my reaction and I sat right there with my eyes closed and lips still puckered waiting for his warmth to come back again. He clearly saw me wanting more and leaned in again. This time his hand went to the back of my neck as he pulled me closer to deepen the kiss. He got up from his chair and leaned over me. He began to push me back gently as I felt my back touch the bed and felt him hovering over me. We remained in that position for like barely 10 seconds until the loud doorbell rang.

Me being me, I panicked at the loud sound of the bell and and jerked my head up to sit up and accidently banged my head with Taehyung’s who was hovering over me. I immediately apologized and touched his forehead.

“I’m okay, are you?” he says brushing my forehead.

“I’m fine”

He begins chuckling as he made his way to the door.

“Wait! What if someone sees me here at this time?” I freak out.

“It’s probably just one of the guys relax.”

He opened the door to reveal Jimin look up from his phone.

“Taehyung-ah I saw your Vlive and I cam— oh hi Y/N what’re you doing here so late?

“Taehyung texted me to come over so I did.”

“Oh Taehyung-ah are you okay? Cuz I saw the Vlive…”

“Yeah I’m fine now thanks to Y/N.”

He said biting his lip and smirking at me.

I blushed looking away.

“Anyways it’s pretty late. I just came to check up on you and now that I know you’re okay I’m gonna have to get going. I have practice early tomorrow morning with hobi hyung. I’ll leave you two alone now! Byee!!” he spoke in a blur and left immediately.

As soon as Jimin left I got up from the bed and checked the time, it read 11.20pm.

“I should really get going Taehyung.” I said looking down at my feet unable to meet his gaze.

I started walking towards the door. Suddenly a hand flew from beside me and pushed the door close. I turned around to see Taehyung looking down at me, trapping me between the door and him.

“So your still not gonna tell me his name?” he said, his voice extremely gruff.

“W-who?”

“Aaaww look who’s all flustered.”

“I-I’m… n-not…”

“You know exactly who I’m talking about.”

“Well whoever he is, I think you should tell him that you love him no matter what the rules are. He deserves to know. And if he says anything to hurt you I swear to god I’m going to break his spine in half!”

I think he was trying to be threatening but I found it rather cute. I giggled. Oh Taehyung-ah if only you knew…

“You really think I should tell him?’

“No, be mine…” He mumbled.

“What?” Did I hear him right?

“Y-yes.”

“Ok then I will.”

“Great.” He sighed.

He moved away from me and started walking away towards his bed.

“I love you Taehyung.”

He stopped in his tracks and turned around slowly his gaze fixed on me. I looked down at my feet feeling the heat crawl up to my cheeks. I jerked my head up in shock when I heard what he said next.

“I love you too Y/N.”

With that he walked towards me grabbing my face with his hands as he smashed his lips onto mine as we stood there against his door, not wanting to escape each other’s warm embrace. That’s when I knew that something called true love does exist.

*A/N: I hope you guys liked it:) Smile for me:)*

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totaldramafan-lauri · 3 years

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Eurovision 2021 final thoughts

Well.....it’s over.

It feels great, but also kinda weird to be done with it. I mean, it took an extra year to get here! But I’d say it was worth the wait....

Holy CRAP this year was good. Oh my god, this was SO much fun to watch! The presentation, voting, and especially the songs were unbelievably strong! It made me so happy that my bad luck in the semifinals didn’t even let me down all that much, so that’s a good sign. XD

I haven’t shared this before, cuz I didn’t wanna be a downer, but.....there was a part of me that was worried. Even after listening to and loving the majority of the entries, I was still worried that, when the show started, there’d be some kind of big tell that....this wasn’t a “normal” Eurovision. Something that would bring my enjoyment of the show down to a level where....I-I’d only be able to say “at least it took place, but it wasn’t as strong as usual”. That small, pessimistic part of me that was so hurt by last year that it’d become cynical, and scared of getting hopes up.....but I hid it. I love this contest so much that....bringing down the mood for my fellow fans wouldn’t be cool at all.

And thankfully.....I came out of this with a big smile on my face like normal. I enjoyed this year just as much as previous years! In terms of the songs alone, I’d seriously call this one of my favorite years, probably just behind 2016 (my favorite year). The fact that I don’t just agree with the winner, but I LOVE the winner, was definitely the icing on the cake! But the presentation was also outstanding! It really feels like everything was put into this contest to make it as enjoyable as possible with the limitations they were given. The interval acts were great, especially getting to see so many of the winners again! The rooftop concerts in the final were a lot of fun. But, as good as everything in the final was.....When the first semifinal started, and I saw that there was a crowd, coupled with the song that Duncan sang, I legit thought I was gonna cry. That’s definitely gonna stick with me in the future when I think of the most memorable moments of watching Eurovision. I could seriously go on and on about how much I enjoyed watching this....so I will!

Oh god the voting. OH GOD THE VOTING. Tense as always, and I loved it! No clear favorite, the juries making decisions the televoters didn’t agree with, a plethora of different countries getting twelves, and an ending that proved my predictions wrong in the best way possible. It was the BEST way to end the contest, and a very good example of why I’m really loving having the jury vote and televote separated....cuz you never know what’ll happen until the very! Last! Moment!

Seriously, that moment of Finland’s televoting result making them in the lead for a brief period was AWESOME. And then it was Ukraine, and then it was Italy, and I was thinking “oh god slow down, my poor heart-” And yeah, there were SO many great songs and great performances that it really did feel like a close race!

Even rewatching it was exhilarating! Rewatching it also made me appreciate things that I didn’t before (due to being, well....too caught up in the moment). Like, the wide range of music genres in the top five! I hope this inspires more diversity in future years! I mean, you got Italy bringing us rock (which, by the way, never dies), you got France bringing us a classic waltz, you got Switzerland bringing us a powerful modern ballad, you got Iceland bringing us disco, and you got Ukraine bringing us.....well, a friend of mine called it “folktronica”, and yeah, I don’t think there’s a word that describes them better. XD

Not only that, but there’s one more interesting thing about this top five! Can you guess what it is?

......

......Yeah, only one of them’s in English! Imagine that, entries that DON’T have to be in English to become big hits! Seriously, I’m American and even I know that having understandable lyrics is really more of a nice bonus in Eurovision. What’s most important is having a song that sounds good. And if a song sounds best in another language, you don’t have to translate it for the contest! (Especially if it results in obvious ESL that loses the song’s original meaning, but that thankfully hasn’t happened often) Don’t be afraid to send songs in your native language! I hope people learn from this...

(But then again, this has happened before.....In 2007, the winning song wasn’t in English, runner-up was in multiple languages and third place was also not in English, so....I’m probably putting too much emphasis on this, s-sorry >.<)

But enough about the top five, let’s look at the full results:

I’ll say it again.....this is my favorite winner since “Heroes”. I love the Italian entry, and I’m very happy that they proved me wrong. I didn’t think they could do it. Not only is it a rock song, which isn’t to everyone’s tastes....but it’s from Italy, who seemed to be cursed to never win even while sending fan-favorites year after year. Two second places (oneofwhichwasunserved*cough*2011*cough*butIdigress), one third place that also won the televote that year, and one very, very robbed sixth place. I thought this was gonna be another one of those cases where Italy get screwed somehow by other, more popular songs. But I still absolutely loved the song and rooted for it anyway, and......lo and behold, here we are. A rock song won Eurovision. A rock song in Italian. And it’s awesome, and I couldn’t be happier! To be specific, they were my fourth favorite in the final, but they were my favorite of the possible winners, so it still feels like the best case scenario! Woo!

Having the runner-up also from the Big Five is kinda surreal, since save for Italy they’re usually all underrated due to not having to pass through a semifinal (with exceptions like Germany 2018 and Spain 2012 and 2014). That’s a cool way of looking at this, since.....I’m sorry, but I never got the hype behind France’s song.....It was well-performed, but.....I just find it kinda boring, save for the ending. I-I feel bad that I couldn’t make myself love it, cuz I wanted to, but I just....couldn’t. I guess it’s a case of me being too stupid to get it, pffffff. But I don’t dislike it, so I’m fine with it being the runner-up.

Switzerland won the jury vote and achieved their highest placement since.....*looks it up*....1993, geez.....AKA, their highest placement since I started watching. XD This is FAR from my favorite entry of theirs, but I still like it fine and I’m happy to see Switzerland do well. It was a powerful song. And, unlike other jury-pleasers like the Austrian entry in 2018 and the Macedonian entry in 2019, they actually got a triple-digit score from the televote! They were loved all around! The same goes for France, so....that makes the most obvious “jury bait”, uh....Portugal, I guess. XD

Iceland came fourth, and.....can I just say how bad I feel for those guys? From having a potential win snatched from under them by last year’s cancellation, to one of them getting Covid the day before their semifinal, making them the only act that couldn’t perform live, it felt like Iceland couldn’t catch a break. But thankfully, due to their very strong rehearsals, they were able to rise above it and come fourth PURELY based on the strength of their song. Heck YEAH, what a beautiful ending to this story. They weren’t one of my personal favorites, but it was still a very cute song, and it DESERVES its placing just so much.

Ukraine’s song was one that only got better and better for me over time, and it was also the favorite song of a friend of mine, so seeing them in the top five makes me happy too! That’s a FUN song, and it’s near universally loved, so I wasn’t too surprised. I did guess that it had a chance at pulling off the win, but the competition was too strong. In a weaker year, they probably would’ve done it.

I’m really happy to say this next one: Finland came sixth! WOOOOOO! Their first top ten result since Lordi’s win and awwwww MAN do they deserve it. Such an awesome, intense song! It was my favorite song in the final, and I wasn’t alone! They brought the roof off the place, and for good dang reason! Seeing Finland do so well after being so underrated for so long.....it makes me very happy to see that happen. Especially with a song as amazing as “Dark Side”. It’s now a permanent part of my playlist, and I love it. <3 Empire of the freaks, all drinks on ME!

(I stand by the fact that Finland should just keep sending rock songs to Eurovision. They’re clearly very good at making those)

Now, Malta coming seventh.....hmmm....I have some problems with this? I mean, pre-contest favorites not doing as well as predicted HAS happened before (oh, hello 2017), but that doesn’t mean I’m not a little surprised? I really do think they deserved to do a bit better.....I thought that was a top five-worthy song and performance.....I’m happy with the top five we got, but I didn’t think Iceland and Ukraine would place over Malta! Destiny had one of the best voices of the show! If I had to guess, it was because they performed so early? Or maybe people just overhyped the heck out of it and it got old. I dunno. Seventh is still good for Malta. So yeah, it’s not bad, just a bit surprising.

Lithuania in eighth, I pretty much called. I knew that was a top ten song. Still couldn’t beat LT United’s record though, pfffffff.....Guess Lithuania have to try even harder to do that. XD Russia was another one I knew would be in the top ten. Their song had a very strong message that sticks with you. Lithuania and Russia may not have been favorites of mine, but I can’t complain with their results at all.

And finally, rounding out the top ten is my second-favorite, Greece, tied with Bulgaria! I’m more than happy with this result for Greece - I would’ve liked to see them do a BIT better, but a top ten finish is a top ten finish, and the competition was really strong. Their entry was still fantastic! A powerful song I can’t get enough of AND the best staging of the year. You can’t say Greece didn’t try their hardest!

As for Bulgaria....not complaining. It was a fan-favorite for a while, but for me, it was a song that I loved the lyrics to, but not much else. I did think it’d do a bit better purely because of how relatable the lyrics were, but with this competition? This was the best they were gonna get. XD A slow song in a sea of high energy-performances. Makes it stand out, but not necessarily be what people wanna hear.

The same is true for Portugal, who had the other slower song. THIS was the “jury bait”. XD Seeing how many points the jury gave them compared to the televote....wasn’t all that surprising. It’s not a bad song at all. It’s actually pretty good. And twelfth is a good result for Portugal. I think they can be happy with that. “Jury bait” isn’t a bad thing at all, cuz I’ve liked plenty of songs that’ve had similar results (I’ve even loved a couple of them)

Moldova were a surprise for me. I honestly expected them to place toward the bottom. Their entry was fun, sure, but I didn’t think it....stood out all that much? I feel like it was missing something staging-wise. Moldova’s entries usually have really creative staging, so yeah, maybe I just felt a bit let down. But the song’s good. It just....was a party song in a sea of them. XD

Now Sweden, on the other hand.....I’m actually not surprised THAT much. Yeah, I did at first predict that it’d finish in the top ten, cuz....well, it’s Sweden, and the song was good and seemed to be popular. But after the first semifinal, reading comments and posts from fans really made me realize just how many people....don’t like “Voices”? It’s been called generic a lot, and.....well, I don’t agree. I think it’s a very good song. But I’m just one person and yeah, seeing the popular opinion of it just drop like that made me change my mind on calling it a top ten song. XD Not gonna act like seeing Sweden on the right side of the board (even at the top of it) isn’t still a bit weird, though....

Serbia, I thought would do better. I thought they’d be higher than Moldova at least. That was a big crowd-pleaser and a great hype song. I didn’t think it’d be a front-runner or anything, but I did think it’d be on the left side of the board. I can’t even say that it being in Serbian held it back, cuz this year proves that non-English songs can and will be fan-favorites. So.....I dunno what happened there.

After Serbia are two other party songs, Cyprus and Israel. I have nothing really to say about Israel. I thought they’d do about this well. And Cyprus, I’m kinda bummed didn’t do better, since it was a GREAT performance - it was enough to win me over, when it was a very hit-and-miss song for me before the contest - but going first when already there were a lot of party songs to compete with probably did them in. Oh, and the people who think parts of the song are annoying, like......I did for a while.....ahem. >__>

Then we come to Norway.....who were my third-favorite. At first, I was kinda....OK, very surprised at how they did, especially when it came to the juries. But after learning that they were only five points away from not qualifying for the final.....I’m just happy they were there. I’m happy I got to hear that song in the final. It’s obviously not to everyone’s tastes, so I shouldn’t have expected it to do well. I was just a bit hopeful. As it is, I love the song, and it’s currently one of my go-to songs to sing to myself. XD (Also, TIX is an icon)

Belgium getting only three points from the televote was painful, since I did like their entry a lot......but I can’t act like I didn’t at least kinda see it coming. Even though I liked them, I was still surprised they even made it to the final. XD With such strong competition, a band just standing there and singing a downbeat song? Yeah, this was as good as they were gonna do. Still a very cool song, but standing out was always gonna be an issue for them. They also performed really early on, so that probably didn’t help.

Azerbaijan....oh Azerbaijan.....how did they do you like that. Seriously, down in twentieth? What are they doing in twentieth!? They were one of the best of the upbeat songs! They stood out! I’d put them above Cyprus and Israel easily! I don’t understand that.....I do understand Albania though. They were pretty much doomed. Barely qualified for the final, and then stuck in second position. Ouch. Kinda unfortunate, since I actually like Albania’s song a bit more now after hearing it live....

I really, really, REALLY wanted San Marino to do better. I was HOPING they’d do better. They were clearly trying really hard this year. The little country that could, pffff....And if you ask me, “Adrenalina” is probably the most solid song they’ve ever sent (I say this as someone who loves “Spirit Of The Night”, for the record), so I thought it deserved to give them their best result ever. But....nah. It did worse than “Say Na Na Na” because....I dunno.....Serhat funny? That’s all I got....seriously, it’s unfortunate. The dream should’ve done better than the meme. XD

And we finally come to the flops.....the four countries that got nul from the televote, all automatic qualifiers. Seriously, why did FOUR countries get nul? At least three were saved by the juries, but if you ask me, it was still unfair.....

The Netherlands are the one I easily have the hardest time understanding. Germany, while I found their song funny, I can easily see why people would find it annoying (I DID think the televote would like them MORE than the juries though?), and I was not expecting them to do well, because it didn’t seem like they were trying to do well. They were just having fun. Spain, well.....a good singer does not a good entry make. It’s the Eurovision SONG Contest, not Singer Contest. If the song fails to stand out, you’re doomed. I was impressed by their performance, but it’s still just a ballad. It’s sad when you know the story behind it, though....And with the UK, it was a party song in a sea of party songs. It had TOUGH competition.

But....the Netherlands? Why the CRAP didn’t they get points from the televote? While not one of my absolute favorites, that was a darn good song and a great live performance. What happened? I don’t understand! There was nothing else that sounded like that! It was unique and sounded great, wh- my brain hurts....

On the UK getting nul overall though, I do have some complaints. Sure, it failed to stand out, but to score nothing? A bit unfair, isn’t it? I mean, there was nothing wrong with the song or the performance at all! It was the most fun song the UK have sent in years! I liked hearing a fun song from them! And c’mon, they’ve sent a lot worse before and still got points. “Still In Love With You” got points. That was debatably a joke song. “Love Will Set You Free” got points. That was a boring ballad. Heck, even flipping “That Sounds Good To Me” - it came last, but it at least got SOME points! And that song was CRAP.

Now, thankfully, I didn’t love this song nearly as much as I loved “Bigger Than Us”, so I’m not super salty about it or anything. I’m not gonna rant about the UK coming last again. I’m just.....a bit baffled by the nul. Geez, UK, who did you piss off? Eh, it’s not the end of the world or anything.....and I’ve been through good songs getting nul before (....”Black Smoke”....forever confused TT__TT)

It does make me a bit....hesitant....to track down the BBC commentary for this show. I usually love watching it that way, and it’s my preferred way to rewatch Eurovisions. And usually, Graham is a really good sport about the UK’s poor results (even when coming in last like 2010), but....how’d he handle a nul? XD I hope he didn’t overly praise the song....

So......yeah, that’s about it! I’ve missed rambling about Eurovision, and now.....it’s over! It was a good year, and I had a great time. It truly was a ride. Here’s hoping next year in Italy will be just as fun.

Until next year!

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Cinderella Story

Joey Batey x Reader

Genre: fluff

Words: 1300

Request: Hello!! Are requests still open? This might sound a cheesy AU!plot. If so, can I request a Oneshot/imagine with Joey Batey + Fem! Reader, where Joey is touring with his rock band, and he meets the reader who basically dreams of becoming a musician. Not just for the fame or attention, but to be known for her music, her personality, her kindness, and her heart. They slowly fall in love with each other, with her running away before she can tell him her name, leaving a red converse sneaker behind.

Your grandmother was the one to always encourage and compliment you, no matter what you were doing, drawing, dancing or singing. She always had kind words towards you.

And when you found your real passion, she became your number one supporter and fan.

You tried to make a living out of your hobby, but singing in a bar was quite different than what you really wanted to do. You wanted people to know you for your music, for who you really were and for your heart. You didn’t want to become a singer for the attention or the money.

To be able to realize just what kind of music you’d like to be known for, you went to many concerts, the latest one was a folk-rock band called, The Amazing Devil.

You honestly really enjoyed their performance and music. You even had the chance to talk with the lead singer of the group, Joey Batey. At the time of your conversation, you didn’t know it was him, you only later realized. He did look familiar back then, but you didn’t want to assume things, so you figured that he is only a fan of the band as you talked. You didn’t even realize the time. It was so easy talking to him, he had such passion when he talked about music, it really intrigued you. It was so nice to have someone who you shared the same interests with.

So much time passed. You only realized it when a friend of Joey came over and wanted to talk to him. As he left, you looked at your watch and saw the time. You thought that he might not come back, so you left. After you got home, you realized two things, one he was probably the most handsome man you have ever seen and two, you forgot to tell him your name. Oh well.

But you weren’t as disappointed as Joey was. When his friend was done talking to him, he basically rushed back to the woman he had such a long conversation with, but she was nowhere to be found. He felt such sadness. He really started to develop a crush on the girl. And he forgot to ask her name. Silently he cursed to himself. And as he mindlessly walked around the place, he noticed something. It was a shoe. He thought that it must be something she left accidentally behind. And like the gentleman he was, he wanted to return it to its rightful owner.

That night, as he brought the shoe back to his place, he thought about how he could possibly find the beautiful woman he talked with and what he should say. Well, first he really needed to get her name and phone number, that’s for sure, and the rest… only time will tell.

If he finds her.

***

About a week passed by. Joey continued with his tour, keeping the red shoe with him in hopes of finding the girl.

He was shy to tell about it to his friends, thinking that they might find it creepy.

Joey didn’t even know it, but that night, after his last tour concert, he will meet her again.

***

You were walking in town, going from stop to another, you really needed to buy that one type of ice cream, and you couldn’t find it anywhere. So you kept on walking around, disappointed.

But the ice cream wasn’t the only thing on your mind.

Your encounter with the handsome and charming Joey was the other thing running around in your head. You wanted to see him again, and this time, not only talk about music. You wanted to look into his shiny eyes again. You had to admit, you developed a slight crush on him. Even if you knew that it was pointless and that you will never see him.

You let out a long sigh and pulled your phone out since you just got a message from your friend. As you went ahead and put your phone back into your pocket you managed to walk into someone. You almost fell, but at the last minute, you managed to catch your balance.

“S-Sorry.” you said.

“Don’t worry, I wasn’t looking where I was going.” that accent. You heard it before. As he finished brushing the dirt off of his jeans, he looked up and your eyes locked.

“It’s you!” he said. You were happy that he recognized you. “I finally found you! Sorry, that sounded like I tried to stalk you or something.” his awkward yet adorable laugh made you smile.

“It’s nice to see you too. What are you doing here?” you asked kindly.

“We just finished our last concert, and the adrenaline is still in me, so I’m walking it off. What about you?” You almost forgot that he was a singer. You found out about it when you looked up the band and found his name. You were a bit surprised, to say the least when you found out that you had been talking to a singer and not only a fan. But singers are normal people too, so you didn’t really make a big deal out of it.

“I’m looking for ice cream. I remember buying a certain brand around here somewhere, but I cannot remember where or what the brand was.”

“Oh, I see. By the way, I have your shoe. I found it when I went back looking for you after the concert.” you were a bit confused by that.

“Shoe?”

“Yes, your red converse. It was right where we were chatting when I went back. You disappeared but the shoe was there.” you didn’t know how to break it to him.

“Um. I-I… it’s not mine.” as you said that you heard the whole world shatter in him. As he got filled with embarrassment.

“Oh…”

“Y-you kept someone random girl’s shoe… because you thought it was mine?” you couldn’t hold it. you started laughing and as you did, you saw Joey’s face getting red.

“I thought it would be a nice gesture! You know, like Cinderella.”

“So, you wanted me to be our Cinderella?” you stop laughing but you still had a huge smile as you placed your hands-on your hips.

“Kinda.”

“I really hope you are flirting with me, ‘cuz if not, my next suggestion will get really awkward.” he finally smiled. And what a magnificent, breath-taking smile it was.

“I am. Or at least I’m trying to.”

“Good. Then, would you mind going somewhere for a drink?” now it was your time to smile at him. You were happy that you were able to meet with him once again.

“Sure, let’s go.” he held his hand out to you and you took it, hand in hand you walked to the nearest bar. All you could think about was how lucky you were to meet him once again and all Joey could think about is that he needed to throw that shoe away.

Maybe you weren’t his Cinderella, but your fairy tale just started.

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Hi! I meant to reply sooner but I guess I've been distracted so I apologize. Also I'm sorry if I can't remember everything. Oh that's cool..and it seemed like a fun trip. I saw some of your posts about seeing Holly Humberstone in concert and going to the aquarium. I hope you still ended up having a good time even though the airline or travel sucked. I've only been on one plane a long time ago so I can't relate. But I am also going out of town this weekend but we are driving. Also if you're still sick, I hope you're feeling better. My sister is starting to feel sick too actually.

I keep up with the show through gifs mostly and know the basics. I've watched a few clips too. I've also heard the show is a lot better than the books. What do you think? What is your favorite season so far? Does it match up with your favorite book? I think the most popular is season two with Kate and Anthony and that's the one I'm most familiar with too. I don't know much about Jonathan Bailey but I heard him sing the last five years before so I know he can sing pretty good so I'm excited to see him as Fiyero.

Haha I love Shameless but I wouldn't really compare it to The Bear besides the attitude of his and other characters I guess. It's about a tough Chicago family and they deal with crazy situations. Unfortunately I never even finished the show and I don't remember why. It definitely got weaker in the last few seasons. I still love it but think it would be a hard show to recommend based on what you like lol but I'm excited for the Bear.

Billie's album has grown on me a lot more now with more listens. I'm glad you liked it. I feel it was a good mix of her other albums if you never listened to her before. My favorites are Skinny, Lunch, Birds of a Feather, L'amour de ma Vie and Blue. At first, I wasn't impressed and the transitions or production threw me off. I think two songs were actually pretty similar to Taylor actually. The obvious one was L'amour de ma vie which I knew even reading the title translates to love of my life. It's similar or almost the opposite cuz in this song she's saying she said it but Taylor says the other person says it about her. I just found that interesting that it was the same concept basically being told in a different way. I feel similarly about gonnagetyouback and Get Him Back by Olivia and I guess Peter vs Wendy. How they're not really similar songs at all despite having the same kind of idea. The other one was that the end of the Greatest in the bridge reminded me of her song Happier than Ever but also the bridge of Smallest Man who Ever Lived. But I don't think Billie is similar to Taylor at all compared to the other two..I think she is more like Lana. I just found it to be an interesting coincidence though but that's all. I need some more time with Zayn's album but my favorite is called Stardust. Overall I like that all of the 1D boys have different styles and music and same for all of the popular albums from this year.

The new twenty one pilots album is amazing and I love it so much. It's like a blend of all of their styles which is really awesome. I liked it right away but my sister was expecting a bit more since they said it would have a lot of lore and it was the end of a story they've been telling for the past few albums. They also had a Livestream and music videos for each song which they talked about so it felt like an event and was really fun. I definitely recommend the album but don't feel bad if you don't get to it. I also feel behind on some albums since I've spent lots of time listening to this album and Taylor's, but they will both definitely be my albums of the year lol. I am already starting to connect some songs with past Taylor songs too. I think if I had to pick a Taylor album to compare it to, maybe Midnights? But there has also been some theories about a double album too and if the story is truly over which also lines up perfectly with Taylor lol. But we are also waiting on one more mv to drop that can wrap up the story so idk. Anyway my favorite songs are Next Semester, Navigating, Midwest Indigo, Vignette, Snapback, Oldies Station and Paladin Strait.

Omg how did you only just now watch the sisterhood of the traveling pants movie? I love the movie and thought it was a good adaptation of the book. I did read the whole series too which I love. Did you also watch the second movie too? They also said a while ago that number 3 is still in the works and I love that they're still close too. I think just based on what I've read so far, Funny Story will be in the middle maybe and I understand some criticisms. The plot itself seems more tropes compared to her other books but it's also a mix of her other books to me. So far, I think I like Beach Read or Book Lovers the best. It is interesting when I read articles about which ones are the best and the rankings are always different, which is good cuz there is something for everyone and people connect with different things. I will definitely try to finish along with Carley's too hopefully now that it's summer time.

I can't believe the Tony's are almost here. I spent part of my weekend watching more performances and it's hard to say what will win best musical. They're all pretty different in a good way. I've also tried to read more reviews and what people thought but I'm still bad at predicting lol. I watched one Stereophonic performance and I think people seem to like it a lot so you're probably right about it winning. It makes sense if it's about musicians that it would only be about an album worth of songs though. I think my favorite is the Outsiders still, but I'm probably biased cuz of the book and I have read pretty mixed reviews. I will send the rest in a part 2!

you're totally fine, friend! <33 hope you've been well!! i did have a good trip regardless of the travel day from hell. i hope you're having a fun time out of town!! did you know that i have never been in a car longer than like three hours (basically how long it would take me to drive down to portland or vancouver)? i am still sickly :( me and my victorian child immune system just does not want to kick this cold away unfortunately.

my favorite season is season two! and it matches with my favorite book (anthony's)! i think my ranking of the siblings are: anthony → francesca → hyacinth → eloise → gregory → colin → benedict → daphne & in terms of books, it's anthony → francesca → colin → hyacinth → eloise → gregory → benedict → daphne. the new season is coming so soon and i'm very excited! i saw some kanthony related spoilers on twitter, and am stoked. i loveee jonathan bailey! he's phenomenal in the last five years, and was also so lovely in company and american psycho! i'd love to see him do more theatre.

i really really like billie's new album! a couple of the songs on there have made it onto my june playlist (lunch, birds of a feather, wildflower, and skinny)! i've also been listening to maggie rogers' newest album quite a bit, as well as please please please by sabrina carpenter, isabel by isabel pless and close to you by gracie abrams. and of course, charli xcx's newest album, brat — i've been listening to b2b, von dutch, 360, club classics and talk talk a lot.

there's a lot of quintessential movies that my friends grew up watching that i totally missed out on! sisterhood of the traveling pants was one of them, and i'm really glad i got to watch it with a friend who loved it — made the experience so much more special! i haven't gotten around to watching the second movie yet; scheduling movie nights with my friend is difficult (we have opposite work schedules) but i think we will watch it together eventually! and then the third one, when it comes out!

beach read and book lovers are my favorites! i'm very curious to see what emily henry writes next! i've been reading very little — just a lot of classics lately (finished the phantom of the opera, still making my way through gatsby & started the hunchback of the notre dame), and i started s./ship of theseus last night but i'll be taking my time with it! it's quite overwhelming!

tony awards next weekend!!! eeeee! i'm so excited! i'm really rooting for the outsiders (partially out of spite, partially because it's what i predicted). i wish stereophonic got to perform! i think it's silly they wouldn't let them! see you in a bit for part two <333

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Sleep Tight For Me...I’m Gone

Lately I’ve been writing these Better Days Are A Toenail Away™️ posts in Microsoft Word, selecting all and changing the font to Garamond, which is so readable and beautiful, and posting the Word docs, paragraphs by paragraph, inside these Tumblr drafts. It makes things look nice, to my old fashioned sensibilities, but fixing errors is a time-consuming and needlessly convoluted four-step process.

First, I have to copy, then delete the paragraph containing the error. Then I open the doc. and paste the error-ridden paragraph back into Word. After I find and fix the error, I need to save it and copy and paste it back into the post. It's time-consuming because I’m not just copying a paragraph. As you can see from more recent post, what I copied looked more like a photograph of the paragraph, not the words themselves written in Tumblr’s default font Arial. For an example of this, see below. I like the way it looks like old newspaper clippings. I posted an article about how my fent dealer John Smith kept getting robbed, and had resorted to putting a machete in front of his front door as a way of preventing this, a lever of sorts, which is plainly visible in the video I posted,

So today I’ve given up on trying to make my posts look like books or zines, and have given into the Tumblr font, which is about as pretty as a horse with his snout shot off.

There are two much longer posts I’m working on right now, one about Nirvana and one about Soundgarden, respectively, and how both bands were very unlike their public perception, but those posts are taking a lot of work so I’m putting them on the backburner because today is some dumbass corporation’s day where it tries to synthesize mental health and profit and the end result is as baldly capitalist and clumsy as you would expect.

I’m not gonna name the company, or repeat their stupid fucking slogan. As far as I can tell (which isn't very far), talking about my trauma has never made me feel better. And in fact it has sometimes made me feel worse, because in telling you what hurts and scares me, I’ve given a part of myself away that I can’t get back. When you’re like me, and you’ve lost everything multiple times, sometimes the only form of power you have is how you choose, or do not choose, to tell your story. And in a world where everybody wants to tell “their truth,” silence is power.

You don’t get to know me, sorry. I’m not gonna hand you my life, both my bad and good experiences, and conclude: “Welp, that’s why I’m so fucked up. Case closed.”

Honestly, I used to be a little confused, or miffed that my former partner (who is an amazing person btw, in every respect) almost never spoke about some of the traumatic things she’d experienced in her past. I took it as a sign that she either didn’t trust me, or she didn’t think I would be a sympathetic listener, or the mere fact of my gender precluded her from sharing because I couldn’t truly understand what it was she had gone through. It’s not like I ever asked her to talk about it, but I did say, once or twice, “hey if you ever wanna talk about that stuff, I’m around.” She never took me up on it, and I let it go.

But as I watched her, and saw her life unfold, over the years we spent together, I began to realize I wasn’t exactly in any position to be telling her how to live her life or how to be mentally healthy. After all, she has found success in a number of avenues, both creative and occupational, and I’ve found neither. I'm not saying the fact that she didn't talk much about her trauma is the reason for her success. I'm saying that she's forged a better path through life than I have, and maybe I should take a cue from that.

She never told me what to do, per se. It was more like living by example. But because I’m pretty dense, and a severe addict, our time together actually sorta reminds me now of that Cornell lyric from his first record: She’s going to change the world. But she can’t change me.

I have certainly found that talking about how shitty my life is only makes me feel more shitty, not free, or unburdened, or better. If you wanna talk about your problems, and you find it helpful, more power to you. Just don’t wait for a corporation to tell you it’s okay to not be okay.

When Chris Cornell died I was so shocked. Of all the grunge icons he seemed the most stable, and he'd survived the rise and fall of two major label rock bands. If anyone had survived the media machine that chewed up and spat out Staley, Cobain, and to a lesser extent Andrew Wood and Shannon Hoon, it was Cornell. He would be the last guy to support hashtag activism like #StarbucksMyLifeSucks. Chris Cornell actually loved to fuck with the best laid plans of corporate rats. Molson once had a few promotional concerts in Tuktoyaktuk, Northwest Territories, called Molson Canadian Rocks Arctic, with both Hole and Soundgarden playing to a crowd of flown-in grunge fans and bemused locals. But the whole anti-corporate thing grunge was known for actually came through when Courtney Love told the crowd she “use[d] Molson Canadian to douche.” Lol. Here’s a photo of Love arriving in Tuktoyatuk.

Cornell told the same people “so we’re here because of some beer company? Labatt’s?” Both artists’ jabs are funny. Cornell’s was a bit more subtle, but that’s what Cornell was like.

So today’s post is about Chris Cornell’s suicide, more specifically the media’s reaction to it. For whatever reason, when Cornell died, every single news outlet, from CNN to Fox to CBC, posted “Black Hole Sun,” as if it’s the only song he ever fucking wrote, or – and this is far worse – the only song he wrote that’s worth hearing. The problem with this is more than twofold or threefold. It's fucking hydraheaded.

Not only is “Black Hole Sun” a mediocre piece of music, it’s a complete misrepresentation of Soundgarden’s sound.

Now, I’m a huge fan of the A.V. Club series HateSong, in which public figures gleefully talk shit about the one song they hate more than any other song in the world. The Max Bemis (Say Anything) one where he talks about Nirvana’s “Rape Me” as a terrible rewrite of “Smells Like Teen Spirit” is terrific, but comedian Anthony Jeselnik’s HateSong takes “Black Hole Sun” apart, and I love it. I think the best line is: I think the more I hear it, the worse it gets. AVC: After the song became a huge hit, Chris Cornell said that he’d written it in about 15 minutes. AJ: I totally believe that. I don’t believe that Soundgarden likes that song. Like, I remember Eminem once said that he knew his song “My Name Is” was going to be a huge hit because the first time he heard it he was annoyed. It’s something about an annoying song that just grabs onto people. But I don’t think that anyone likes “Black Hole Sun.” I’ve never heard of anyone who likes it. I don’t understand why it gets played so much. It’s become a summer jam, and it’s not a summer song at all. Jeselnik is right that Soundgarden didn’t think much of the song. Guitarist Kim Thayil wasn’t kidding when he disparagingly called it the “Dream On” of their live show. And Cornell himself, known for a meticulous approach to his songwriting, had admitted that with “Black Hole Sun”was “probably the closest to me just playing with words for words’ sake, of anything I’ve written. I guess it worked for a lot of people who heard it, but I have no idea how you'd begin to take that one literally.” I mean it’s obvious from the opening lines that Cornell is just playing with words and how they sound: in my eyes/indisposed/in disguises no one knows What songs would have been more appropriate for Cornell’s untimely death? Glad you asked! Cuz there’s like…fucking at least ten that would have been better. I’m not tryna be one of those “the deep album cuts are better maaaaaan,” but with Soundgarden, it happens to be true. With some bands, the single are their best work. With other bands, the singles are the hors d’oeuvres for the entrees. So what deep cuts would have celebrated Cornell’s death a bit better? Well, to begin with, Superunknown’s strange and stately closer “Like Suicide” would have worked, for obvious reasons.

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“Tighter and Tighter,” a song that is actually about the moment of death and what it might feel like, is one of my all-time fav Soundgarden songs. Not only is it a creepy and prescient prediction of what Cornell’s death by hanging himself may have felt like, it’s opening line is a good description of the personification of death: Shadow face/Blowing smoke and talking wind

Another sample lyric: “A sucking holy wind will take me from this bed tonight/and bloody wits another hits me and I have to say goodbye/sleep tight for me, I’m gone/and I hope it’s a sweet ride/here for me tonight/cuz I’m feel I’m going/feel I’m slowing down.”

The morning after Cornell’s death hit the news my buddy and bandmate James told me that en route to work his phone, which was playing music randomly through his car speakers, landed on “Tighter and Tighter” and he had to pull over because he was tearing up.

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“Fell On Black Days” is another song about depression and mortality. Cornell had the following to say about the song: “Fell on Black Days” was like this ongoing fear I’ve had for years ... It's a feeling that everyone gets. You're happy with your life, everything’s going well, things are exciting—when all of a sudden you realize you’re unhappy in the extreme, to the point of being really, really scared. There's no particular event you can pin the feeling down to, it's just that you realize one day that everything in your life is fucked!

Now, if that’s not a cogent and even-tempered explanation of suicidal thoughts, what is? Why else would Cornell have admitted to being “really really scared” by his depression unless he knew what that depression could ultimately leasd to? Here’s some lyrics to “Fell on Black Days.” Dig the high literary use of “whomsoever” and “whatsoever.” Whatsoever I’ve feared has come to life Whatsoever I fought off became my life Just when every day seemed to greet me with a smile sunspots have faded and now I’m doing time cuz I fell on black days

Whomsoever I’ve cured I’ve sickened now Whomsoever I’ve cradled...I put you down I’m a searchlight soul they say but I can’t see it in the night I’m only faking when I get it right I sure don’t mind a change but I fell on black days how would I know that this could be my fate?

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Eagle-eared listeners might think this version different from the album version. They are right. The rendition in the video was recorded live off the floor @ Bad Animals, the Seattle studio owned by Heart, where Soundgarden would record Down on the Upside.

“Boot Camp” is a scary meditation about loss of agency that for years was tied with Zeppelin’s “I'm Gonna Crawl” for Creepiest Song to Cap a Discography, until Soundgarden reunited and released King Animal.

“Taree” is about ghost light, influencing events after dying and features Cornell’s most exhausted, convincing “yeah” @ 2:57.

“Applebite” is a Matt Cameron-penned ponderous clunker about Adam’s original expulsion from Eden. Doomy and death-laden.

“Let Me Drown” is a song about letting someone die.

“The Day I Tried To Live” is frequently cited as Soundgarden’s finest achievement, its odd time signature somehow sounds straight, thanks to Matt Cameron’s brilliant time keeping.

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“4th of July” is a song about a post apocalyptic urban landscape, where the speaker isn’t sure whether he is seeing fireworks or bombs.

“Limo Wreck” is a cool death song and has an eerie 9-11 prediction. “Building the towers belongs to the sky/when the whole thing comes crashing down don’t ask me why.”

ANY of the above songs would have been better than that fucking asinine dirge-like major key fuckaround that has somehow not just become Soundgarden's signature song...but their ONLY song.

Does nobody remember Johnny Cash covering “Rusty Cage?”

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“Outshined?”

“Burden In My Hand?”

“Blow Up The Outside World?”

Did none of these other songs get stuck in the electric head? (The electric head is Rob Zombie’s term for the technologically advanced culture we have found ourselves enmeshed in, or imprisoned by. It was the subtitle for White Zombie’s 1995 hit album Astro-Creep 2000: Songs of Love, Destruction, and other Synthetic Delusions of the Electric Head.)

For my money (which ain’t much honey), the song that best fits both Cornell’s artistic integrity and the sad circumstances of his suicide is “Tighter and Tighter.” I once wrote a whole article on the way artists use “yeah” as a placeholder or as a way to convey emotion when words themselves aren’t adequate. Dig that tired, world-weary exhausted “yeah” at 5:35 of “Tighter & Tighter.”

Or the creepy line going into the first chorus: remember this...remember everything’s just black or burning sun. Not that I agree with such a bleak worldview. It’s a writer’s line. And Randy Bachman has said, “when you’re a writer, you’d step over your own mother.” That’s the Cornell I want to remember. Not that he would step over his own mother. By all accounts he was a committed family man. I mean, I want to remember the Cornell who created strange atmospheric sonic worlds, who explored the dark side that sadly, eventually won out. His otherworldly beautiful music is what I choose to remember about Chris Cornell, not his estate tastelessly exploiting “Black Hole Sun” by using a line from the song to title a posthumous Cornell album of covers No One Sings Like You Anymore. Sigh.

First Cornell’s widow said this was “Chris’s last album.” Okay. What about the Soundgarden songs he recorded vocals for before he died? Kim Thayil was pretty diplomatic about it when asked recently. Cornell did record vocal tracks for the follow up to King Animal.

Kim Thayil: “Given our love for Chris, I do not see us reconfiguring without him.”

But he makes it clear in this interview that Cornell’s widow Vicky has those tracks and won’t release them to the band. Maybe because she blames the band for Chris dying that night? She’s not wrong to believe that they would have known, and seen, what kind of shape Cornell was in, at least at the venue, maybe not later at the hotel.

Kim Thayil: “It’s entirely possible that a new Soundgarden album will be released. Certainly. All it would need is to take the audio files that are available. I tighten up the guitars. Ben does the bass. We get the producers we want to make it sound like a Soundgarden record.”

Interviewer: “Is there an obstacle stopping that?”

Kim Thayil: “There shouldn’t be. There really isn’t. Other than the fact that we don’t have those files.”

Interviewer: “They’re not under your auspices?”

Kim Thayil: “Right. It would be ridiculous if [the record wasn’t made]. But these are difficult things. Partnerships and...property.”

You’re just gonna keep those wav files? And why title his covers album Volume 1 if it’s his “last album?”

Oh right. $$$

No one does sing like Cornell, but is “Black Hole Sun” really the best thing he ever did? The best song he ever sang? Should an album of covers be the last thing he gives to the world?

The only honest answer is no.

Sleep tight Chris. You’re gone.

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benhardyisdaddy · 6 years

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What A Time - Part 7

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(hello welcome to pt 7 sorry it took forever im on vacation w my niece so ive been so busy BUT i had free time today cuz im home alone and sick so im just writing a whole bunch i hope u all like it (Y/B/M = your birth month) and ily BYEEE)

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You were confused. What the hell had just happened? It’s all you could think about. Max had left not long after the random people had left. Random? Were they random? They all looked too familiar, yet they were strangers. You close your eyes and lean your head against your pillow. It was the next day and that blonde haired man has officially overtaken your mind. You exhale as a soft knock at your door breaks you out of your thoughts in the early morning. Your head looks up fast as your heart beats loudly, hoping the blonde man would walk in. But he doesn’t. In walks your doctor as he smiles and slowly enters the room. He holds a chart in his hand and walks towards you, his eyes never leaving yours. He looks almost nervous, which makes you nervous. You attempt to sit up more straight as he stops in front of you. He clears his throat, continuing to smile.

“Hi, y/n,” he starts quietly. “I just want to go over some more stuff with you. Is that okay?” he asks, looking down at his chart quickly.

You nod your head and watch as he eyes the piece of paper and then looks back up to you.

“Alright, perfect. So, can you tell me when your birthday is again?” he asks.

You think for a moment and squint your eyes in the process. You open your mouth to speak, then close it. Then you open it once more.

“Y/B/M?” you ask staring at him, hoping it’s correct.

The doctor looks down at your chart and his eyes open slightly as a smile spreads across his face.

“Excellent! Y/B/M it is. Do you know by chance what day and year you were born?” he asks once more.

You shut your eyes in thought, but nothing comes to you. For some reason, Y/B/M screamed at you, but the day and year were still a mystery. You shake your head no and embarrassingly stare down at your hands. The doctor quickly shakes his head and smiles at you.

“Hey, that’s okay. It’ll come back.” he says, before continuing. “That’s why I’m here, Y/n.” he says.

You look up to him and shake your head slightly, not understanding. He slowly sits himself on the side of your bed and reaches into his front pocket. He pulls out a tiny flashlight and switches it on and off.

“I’m just gonna check your pupils and make sure they’re dilating properly, okay?” he asks, scooting closer.

“Okay.” you say back, slowly leaning forward. The doctor puts up a finger and places it beside the flashlight.

“Alright, now stare at my finger, not the light.”

You look over and don’t move a muscle. He takes the flashlight and shines it in your left eye. It feels bright and uncomfortable, but you don’t budge. He then shines it in your right eye, watches for a moment, then clicks off the flashlight. He shoves it back in his pocket and scoots away. You blink a few times adjusting your eyes and look to him. He’s writing something on his clipboard.

“So your eyes aren’t dilating like they should. It’s nothing to worry about, it’s normal when someone has a concussion of your sorts.You went through something very traumatic and your body is trying to cope with it. Just like it’s trying to cope with the memories of the accident.” he says slowly, watching you.

Once again, you didn’t understand.

“The memories?” you ask.

The doctor sits up and clears his throat once more.

“Concussions have a lot to do with swelling on the brain which, y/n, you have. It messes with memory. Head trauma is very serious, and although concussions cause memory loss, your body has the ability to block away any bad memory for you. And anything surrounding that bad memory. Look at it like your mind is guarding you from bad things and the wreck being that bad thing.”

You stare at him and it slowly starts making sense. Not knowing your birthday, not knowing those people in the room. You close your eyes and exhale.

“Are you saying I have memory loss?” you ask quietly.

The doctor watches as your eyes stay closed. He frowns and tenses his jaw. Sometimes he disliked this job very much.

“Yes.” he whispers. “You have memory loss. Not remembering your birthday was a very early and clear sign of it. And-”

“And those people in my room? The blonde haired man. I knew him. I knew all of them, didn't I?” you ask, almost feeling sick to your stomach.

The doctor just stares at you, not knowing what to say. He’s about to speak when suddenly there’s another knock at your door. Both of your heads turn to stare at it. He looks back to you and half smiles as he stands up and walks towards the door. When he opens it, you hear another person’s voice as they whisper. The doctor moves out of the way and in walks in the blonde man. He’s dressed very nice and has a box in one arm and a bouquet of sunflowers and roses in the other. He looks to you and smiles. You watch as his cheeks turn slightly pink. What’s he doing here?! You suddenly feel very self conscious. You bring your hand to your head and gently fix your hair.

“Hi.” he whispers, staring at you almost in amazement.

You stare back and quickly smile, eyes darting away. The doctor walks up to you, noticing your heart monitor speeding up.

“Y/n,” he says. “This is Roger. He was the man here yesterday. He just wants to talk to you. If you need anything, just press the call button and we’ll be here. And you,” he says turning to look at Roger, his eyes squinted. “If you do anything stupid, no more visitation.”

Roger nods fast as the doctor walks out of the room, shutting the door. Roger looks behind him and grabs a chair and slides it over to your side of the bed. He slowly sits down and lifts up the flowers.

“These are, uh. These are for you.” he says. You smile and reach your good arm out to grab them. You gently lift them to your nose and smell.

“Thank you. They’re beautiful.” you say, looking down at them.

“They’re your favorite.” he says, watching you closely. You turn your head to look at him. His blue eyes gleam as they stare into yours.

“The doctor told me everything.” he says. “About the concussion. About the memory loss. You don’t remember me. Us.” he says, referring to everyone else that was here. “We were dating for about six years, but you don’t remember that and that’s okay. But I brought some pictures for you to look at. Maybe so you don’t think I’m lying-” he says, quickly looking down and swallowing hard. “And maybe they’ll help. You know, to remember.”

You watch as he nervously stammers. You catch yourself half smirking as he fidgets with the large box on his lap. He opens it up and pulls out a few pictures.

“Oh see this one,” he starts. “This is when the two of us went to Paris. You wanted to see the Eiffel Tower so bad, so I took you.”

He hands you the photo and sure enough, it’s the two of you bundled up with your arms wrapped around each other. You both had the biggest smiles on your face. It was as if you were staring at someone else's life. You were in the picture, but you weren’t. You smile down at it and look back up. Roger hands you another photo.

“And this is with Mary and Freddie. The three of you were doing karaoke at Fred’s house. You love karaoke.”

You look at the picture and you and the blonde girl Mary had your legs wrapped around the man’s legs, as you hung onto him, laughing. You loved karaoke? Okay, that’s something new. You have terrible stage fright, this can’t be possible.

“You use to hate karaoke.” says Roger, almost as if he read your mind. You look to him quickly as he stares at the photo in your hand. “You got so scared singing in front of others, but for some reason when I was with you, it was as if you owned the room. That fear was gone.”

He looks up to you and you smile. Roger quickly pulls out another photo and hands it to you.

“This is one is probably my favorite.”

You look down and you’re in a band tee that says Queen as Roger’s arm is wrapped around you. He’s looking at the camera smiling as you’re staring up at him, with the most adoration look on your face. You looked so in love. You can tell why this was his favorite. You suddenly feel tears sting in your eyes. You weren’t sure why you were going to start crying, but something about this photo almost made you...sad?

“And this one,” he says handing you one more. “Is when you were at our concert with Mary. You were absolutely shit faced.” he says as he laughs, which causes you to laugh. He looks up to you almost shocked and smiles.

You look down at the photo and see yourself in another Queen tee shirt, beer in your hand. There’s people surrounding you and a stage behind you with people on it. Your arms are in the air and your eyes are squeezed close and your mouth is open wide, as if you were yelling. Your cheeks were rosy, indicating that you were, in fact, shit faced. You smile at the photo and then look back to Roger fast. You squint your eyes.

“’Our’ band?” you ask.

He stares at you for a moment and tenses his jaw.

“Yeah. The four of us guys have a band called Queen. We tour everywhere, which is why I have so many of these pictures. You went almost everywhere with us.”

You look back at the photo and notice the Queen shirt again. You focus even harder at the stage and suddenly spot the blonde man behind the drums and the guy named Freddie with the microphone to his mouth.

“You play drums.” you finally say.

Roger sits up straight and smiles.

“Yeah, I do. I’ve tried teaching you how to play. I actually have a photo of it,” he says as he takes out a bunch of photos.

He’s about to drop them all when you suddenly reach out and take a handful. Roger looks up and goes to stop you from looking, but it’s too late. You look down and the first photo you see is of yourself. You’re in nothing but black panties and a light fur coat, that’s barely covering your chest. Your eyes open wide at the sight of you looking at the camera seductively. You quickly look to another one and this time the fur coat is slipped off your shoulders and your breasts are slightly exposed. You gasp and look at one more. This time your eyes open wide. It’s a far away shot with you lying on your back. The fur coat is barely on as an arm is bent down towards you, a hand grabbing your neck. Your legs are spread apart as a man is shown being inside of you as you bite your lip. You flip the photo over quickly and look away, your cheeks heated. Your heart is racing as Roger quickly gathers the photos together.

“I’m so sorry.” he whispers. “You weren’t supposed to see those yet. I swear they were taken with your permission. I’m so sorry.” he says again as he places them back in the box. Just then, your heart rate monitor goes off and in comes a nurse and your doctor. He looks between you two as the nurse rushes to you.

“Alright, that’s enough for today. She needs rest.” he says, looking to Roger. He quickly nods and stands up fast. He looks back to you and nervously stares.

“I really am sorry.” he says. “Could I see you again tomorrow?” he asks, waiting anxiously for your answer. You think for a moment and lightly smile, looking away from him.

“Yes.” is all you say. He smiles back even wider and nods his head.

“Alright, see you tomorrow, y/n.” And with that, he’s gone.

The nurse checks your wiring and stitches and gives everyone the OK. You were fine, just flustered. Those pictures were genuine and authentic, no photo shop about them. That was you and that was him and you were together. You suddenly think about Max and lay your head back. This was so confusing. You remember Max perfectly, but not this guy? You want to remember him so badly.

Or do you?

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surveys-at-your-service · 5 years

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Survey #234

“don’t take care of me - be scared of me.”

Does it bother you when people beg? I mean, it depends on the consistency, intensity, and the subject. Do you ever eat cookie dough raw? I have, but salmonella will punish me some day. Are you one of those people who are always cold? I am the exact opposite. When was the last time you rode a rollercoaster? Pf, never. Don't want to. Do you like hot dogs? I hate the fact that I love them lol. Do you have any weird rings? I wouldn't consider any "weird," no. Have any bad addictions? Ugh, caffeine. Are you anything like your siblings? I am very, very different from my two immediate sisters. Ma says I'm extremely similar to Katie, my half-sister, though it's odd because we don't seem to agree on very much? I don't even think she likes me. When was the last time you shaved your legs? Literally not since like... February. It's not like anybody but family sees my legs anyway. It's just stupid societal expectations for a woman, and I've never been prone to obeying those to begin with. Do you like long bike rides? I used to LOVE riding my bike when I lived in the woods/by an almost-dead road, but I haven't that in... god, years. I don't even have that bike anymore. My knees would never, EVER survive riding one right now. Do you know someone who is blind? My sister is in one eye, but I can't remember which. Do you have a YouTube account? how else would I like every Mark video in existence and I wish I was kidding?????????????? How many cell phones have you had? No clue. Not many. Maybe like, four or so. When was the last time something bothered you? Yesterday 'cuz I was getting weird fuckin phone calls. Do you ever try free samples at the store? Sure, if they seem like something I'd like. Can you speak French or Spanish? No. What school year do you think will be/was the saddest? 8th. Anxiety and depression were getting bad, puberty was A Thing, confused about life in general and why all this sadness and fear was happening to me. Do you like boys with long hair? I mean this depends on the person, but in general, yes. I think I prefer it over shorter, in most cases. Have you ever had plum juice? No, but that sounds decent. If I can even remember what a plum tastes like... I loved them as a kid, haven't had one in like, years. Have you ever passed out? Once, almost twice not long after the first time. Was today someones birthday that you know? No. Have you drank any water today? A little bit. When was the last time you had a crowd at your house? Holy shit. Probably not since we MOVED here in '17. Are you worried about anything right now? When aren't I at least a bit worried about something, really. Are you keeping anything from your best friends right now? No. Do you currently have any mosquito bites? Not currently. A- blood, hell yeah man. Do you have Twitter? Yes. Literally to like. um. one somebody's stuff. If you found out you were pregnant, who would you tell? God FUCKING forbid. Obviously my family. Sara. If it was from consensual sex, I'd tell friends eventually. If it was, uh, any other way, probably not EVEN some family because there are some that would probably never speak to me again if I got an abortion. Is your driveway stone or pavement? Stone. Have you ever caught something on fire? Yeah. Y'know, s'mores, sparklers, wood when making a bonfire or something. Regular stuff. How many people have you kissed in a car? One or two. Idr if Sara and I ever have. Do you and your best friend have an inside joke? "buzzfeed" Do you have a gym membership? Not anymore. How long was your last shower? Not even ten minutes. Get clean and get out. What is your favorite color fingernail polish? I think red tends to be the prettiest. If you had to get a tattoo, what would it be of? Man, don't ask me this. I have a billion ideas. If I had the money for it though, I'd probably finally get this (Denialism) as a tat on my left upper arm next. It's like, my favorite drawing ever, and I've already gotten the artist's permission. What is the best fast food place, in your opinion? Sonic has had my heart lately. What is your favorite eye color in the opposite sex? I just generally like vibrant and/or light blue eyes, but I really don't care about someone's eye color. What is your mom’s maiden name? Yeah, let's share that on the Internet. Would you rather receive balloons or flowers for valentine’s day? Flowers. Balloons are nothing but waste and wind up as litter anyway. Do you follow the crowd when it comes to trends or do your own thing? Do my own thing. Trends 'n shit don't matter to me; I don't care how "cool" or "uncool" something is. I like what I like. What is your worst bad habit? Assuming the worst of absolutely everything within .01 seconds. Do you believe in happily ever after? No. Things aren't always gonna be happy, sorry. What is your average phone bill? I don't know, Dad pays it. Which is better: chapstick or lip gloss? Chapstick. Have you ever been proposed to? No. Do you take certain medicine on a daily basis? A decent number. Have you ever seen two people together and you got sick to your stomach? I remember seeing a picture of Jason and his girlfriend after me once after they got together and I. Don't know how to describe that feeling. I think I felt more murderous than anything. Do you prefer laptops or desktop computers? Laptops for portability's sake. Have you ever had a really bad haircut? Looking back, the haircut I had before this one wasn't great. Only at some angles did it look good. I mean I don't regret it though, it's how I realized I think I'd like short hair. Did you ever order any clothes from the Alloy catalog? Never heard of them. What brand, color, and type is your favorite eyeliner? I love black eyeliner, but I don't have any favorite brands. I hate liquid, though. My hands aren't steady enough for that, and it's just messy. What’s your favorite type of yogurt? Meh, not a big fan. Idk. Do you have any overdue library books right now? No. Do you have a piggy bank? No. Do you remember your locker combinations from high school? Nope. Do you own plaid pants? No. Have you ever had to wear a school uniform? Yeah, through all of middle school. What was your high school’s mascot? A firebird. Who were your best friends in high school? I had various ones. Excluding The Ex, there was Hannia, Alon, Megan, Maria, Girt... There was a few. Have you ever been to Chicago? Once, with Sara and her dad. At night. And the lights and cars and shops and towers and everything was too much for my rural ass. I'm not a city person, but because it was SO different and just incredible in scope and all, I still thought it was absolutely beautiful and so exciting. Would you rather sleep on the top bunk or bottom bunk? Bottom. When my sister and I were little and shared a room though, I almost always had the top bunk. As I got older though, that inverted. Have you ever had a secret admirer that left you notes? I THINK Aaron did once, but I can't remember for sure. Are you close with your cousins? No. Are you close to any aunts or uncles? Not especially, but only because, like my cousins, I pretty much never see them. Are you close to your grandparents? All but one is dead, and that one is dying. Barely knew any, save for my remaining grandmother, and we've never gotten along well/agreed on much, but I mean, I still care for her. I also pretty much never saw her. Who betrayed your trust? Plenty of people. Who was your first best friend (apart from a sibling)? Brianna. What was your favorite thing to do at sleepovers when you were younger? I don't know. Probably play make-believe or go swimming. What kind of popcorn is your favorite? Normal with butter and salt. Does your town have a big fountain in it? The next town over does. What is your town known for? "You mean Tennessee?" Don't think that's too much of a giveaway. What’s one way in which you’re still a child? I am very dependent on Mom. What’s one way in which you’re old? My knees are at least 107. Do you know what you want to do for your next birthday? gooooooood take me to get a tatTOOOOOOO What would be the best surprise you could receive right now? Mom buying tickets to the Ozzy concert next year alksdjfalwe. I've been losing my fucking mind since the new single came out and album was announced. Do you usually forgive when someone hurts your or try to get revenge? I'm not a vengeful person at all, really. I tend to forgive. Were there any subjects in school that were really easy for you? English has always been a breeze, and usually science. Did you ever skip a grade or get held back a grade? No. Do you think you look better with dyed hair or natural hair? Just about anyone looks better with dyed hair to me. I just like colorful, interesting hair. Has your hair color changed since you were a toddler? Yes. I was born dirty blonde. Do you own an American flag shirt? No. Do you own a British flag shirt? No. Do you have a seashell collection? No. We used to have a box of them, though. Do you have a rock collection? No. What is your favorite thing to do in the pool? Just chill. Casually swim around aimlessly. Cacti or seashells? Hmmmm. I think seashells, but that's tough. Dreamcatcher or wind chimes? MAN, this depends on the design. Have you ever taken a picture at the perfect moment? The only one I have that I consider the absolute *perfect* moment was at Ashley's gender reveal when she and her husband found out the baby is a girl. Her face especially is priceless. What color was your first car? N/A Was your first car used or new? N/A What was the last thing you said in complete caps? HAHAHA I sent Sara a fucking CURSED picture of Pennywise as a good morning text. Do you enjoy playing board games? Not really. Are you good at playing Hide and Go Seek? I guess I was as a kid. I'm sure I wouldn't be now. Elephants can't really hide. :^) Do you live in an apartment or a house? A house. Is there a music artist that never ceases to amaze you? As far as truly *amaze* goes, probably Amy Lee. Her voice is just fucking incredible. What is your favorite term of endearment? Probably "love." Or "dear." I dunno. Do you like Twizzlers? NO. They're gross as hell. Do you sneak in candy/soda when you go to the movies? Yeup. Fuck those prices. What was the last song you had on repeat? I adore Ozzy's new "Under The Graveyard" beyond words and so have been binging it like mad since yesterday lmao. Where are your favorite pair of jeans from? I don't have jeans. Do you tap your foot when you listen to music? No. If I respond to it in any voluntary way, I'll most likely be tapping my hand with the beat. Will you get your hair cut anytime soon? I need to, yeah. I hate when my hair starts getting long enough to curl a tad upwards in the back. Are you uncoordinated? VERY. Have you ever listened to Jane’s Addiction? I know and enjoy "Jane Says" and "Been Caught Stealing." What’s the worst thing you’ve ever experienced? Heartbreak. What’s the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen? I dunno, there's a lot. Do you write “Dear Diary” when you write in your diary? I don't have a diary. I don't think I ever did. What is your escape from your problems? Music, playing WoW, stuff like that. Just give me a distraction. Do you watch YouTube videos a lot? Literally every day throughout the day. It's at least background noise. Do you have an embarrassing period story? No, thankfully. Would your life be at risk if someone knew everything about you? No. Is your life at risk? I mean, more than like by disease, some psycho, an accident, shit like that, no? Do you feel safe in your hometown? No. Never did. I miss our house and the childhood memories, but that place was dangerous. Where do you dream of moving to? The mountains of NC. What fascinates you more: outer space or the bottom of the ocean? Space. Have you ever seen a UFO? I guess by the definition of "unidentified flying object," yes, but I think it was some sort of natural phenomenon with a star, not an alien. Maybe. Does anyone encourage you to go after your dreams? Yeah. :') What is the stupidest thing anyone’s ever said to you? "i'Ll AlWaYs LoVe YoU, bRiTtAnY!" What’s the most amount of weight you’ve gained from a medication? LET'S. FUCKING. NOT. Do you name inanimate objects? No. What do you think the constellations mean? "Nothing? Just humanity reaching to ascribe some type of meaningfulness to the world around them." <<<< This, I like this. Did you like the venue your senior prom was held at? I mean it was at the local college's gym. Nothing special. Which spelling do you like best: Hayley, Hailey, or Haley? Hm, I think "Hailey." Which name is better: Hailey, Bailey, Kailey, or Shailey? Ummmmm I think "Kailey." Are you mad at someone? I'm always going to be mad to a degree. Do you feel like your life was stolen from you? I guess in a way by mental illness? Do you have a professional camera? Yeah. What would you change about your hair? Ugh, I want to COLOR it. I really want silver hair atm. When was the last time you changed your hairstyle? Last year. Do you like rose gold? I love it. What’s your favorite color gummy bear? I don't... care? Oh wait, maybe green. Those normally have an apple kinda feel, right? Or do they all thaste the same? What is the sexiest part of the opposite sex’s body? I like s h o u l d e r b l a d e s. Have you ever made up/sang a song for someone you cared about? Only ever poems. Ever had a song sang about/for you? I mean, I've had like songs /dedicated/ to me, but never actually made for me specifically. What is your middle name? Marie. Like every other white girl known to man. What do you smell like? My house, I guess? Ever hurt yourself playing Wii? I don't believe so. Do you have freckles? Not on my face, but random ones on the rest of my body, yeah. Can you do the alphabet in sign language? No. Do you like your feet? I seriously hate feet. That includes mine. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever had in your mouth? uhhhhhhhhh Has anyone ever threatened you with a knife? No. (If you’re a girl) Has anyone ever called you "shorty" instead of "girl"? Ugh no, thank Christ. Have you ever sent an embarrassing moment of yours into a mag to be printed? No. What IS your most embarrassing moment? I've told it before but now I don't remember it??? What’s the last thing to make you scream? Like a small, quick one, I think a loud noise scared me. I've been extremely sensitive to those lately and idk why??? Do your parents knock before coming in, or just barge on in? My door's never really closed, but when it is, Mom doesn't. Dad does. Do you think you’re more cute or sexy? BOY neither. Do you own any mini skirts? Bitch I wish I could wear mini skirts but I would blind people with my body rn. Do you draw little hearts and stuff with eyeliner next to your eyes? Nah. What’s the most expensive thing you’ve ever lost? Good question, idk. Has your mom ever lied to you? Yeah. Do you have a deep voice? It's definitely deep for a girl, but it's not like, manly. When’s the last time someone made breakfast for you? I guess the last time I was out for breakfast? Idr. When someone knocks on the door, who do you think it is? A mailman/woman. No one else comes here unexpectedly. Has anyone ever licked your foot? UM NO Do you play games with boys/girls, like "hard to get"? I never did and never will. I'm definitely not easy, but I don't play games. Oh wait, unless we're already a serious couple and I'm sexually being a tease. Hobby. When’s the last time someone told you they were in love with you? Some time back. Is there a Sonic where you live? mmmmmmmmmMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM- Do you smile with your teeth? Usually. What do you like on your pizza? Pepperoni, jalapenos, sausage... stuff like that. I'm WEAK for meat lovers pizza sobs heavily in wanna-be vegetarian Do you know anyone who lives in Newfoundland? No. How ‘bout Alberta? No. Anyone in Canada at all? Yeah, a friend's ex. She's cool. If you could trade houses with a friend, who would it be? I wouldn't damn anyone with this house, lol. I mean it's not bad, it just has its issues. Are you a good person to come to for advice? It depends on the subject we're talkin' here. Do you sleep naked? No. I'd feel so vulnerable. Favorite place you've been: Through the NC mountains. Which of your Facebook friends lives closest to you? UHHHHHHHHH how do I not know this?? When was the last time you cried? Idr, actually. Who took your profile pic? Where? What’s your favorite season? Autumn. What was the last book you read? The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood. Fucking read it. Are you a good influence? This also depends on the area of focus. Does pineapple belong on pizza? NO. Sweet and savory do noooot mix in my world.

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