Sooner I get my act together, get my eating back on track and get back to doing more exercise, the better. Tired of this lonely feeling in my chest! Everyone I know has that someone, that person that supports and loves them. That person who's there to give advice and hold your hand through the bad days. There to rejoice in the proudest moments and equally hold you at your weakest. I just miss having that connection with someone and I hope I can find it someday! It's corny but I just want to find the Pam to my Jim (yeah an Office USA reference) ha.
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Maybe you would be happier with someone new, or maybe it’s me who wants to be happier with a different you…
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i went through my old journals today.. they're from 2017.. to probably 2019.. i don't feel good.. i miss school.. it's like.. im dead.. that version of me is dead .. i didn't have a single friend back then but it doesn't bother me.. i lost my sense of solitude.. i don't know how to enjoy it anymore
please don't tell me to forgive my mom .. if i do right now.. i might kill myself.. because the anger is the fuel that keeps me going
i have two online friends.. one im not really sure about.. other one ? my platonic soulmate!!!! 🩵
ANAM CARA 💙
but i just feel i should get the fuck out of their lives .. because im fucked in the head.. that's a shame .. that's always a shame isn't it?
I wish I was truly alive ... I don't wanna die .. i still have ADRENALINE in my veins.. i wish i wasn't locked up.. i wish i wasn't homeschooled because it wasn't my fault.. i used to top classes..
I'm sorry for the rant but it's my profile right?! Sooo fuck it
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