#mostly for blog categorization

[funarisjournal]

Coincidentalposting happens again lol

Manami posted a little fashion Story about the outfit she wore for a special program that aired this Sunday evening (JST; Sun morning for US folks). Sometime around the time of that program, Emi was carefully posting promo things about Bullet Train Explosion, including the giant video ad going on at Shinjuku Station. Some fans of both ladies couldn't help but notice her own Stories were lining up to commercial breaks in the program Manami was on, heh.

But that's actually not what the coincidentalposting is about! It's actually....about their choice in outfits. Check out these all-black ensembles, both professional mode for Manami and casual mode for Emi.

[gem-is-bored]

I've already thought it'd be funny for Feldspar to be Granite's parent bc. something about rock structure I read on wikipedia. but now I've spontaneously decided that Slate is another bio parent of theirs

[axiomink]

finally changed my pfp. dear god

[overmorrowpine]

does anyone wanna hear my theory how toothless is an imprint and also how the shot limit you see in the first movie is kiiinda bullshit when you look at every other movie and show set in that universe

[arctic-hands]

Related to my tags on the Irish American reblog, how long have bastardized "Celtic" crosses been neo-Nazi symbols? I wasn't aware of this stupid use until I was an adult and my father was equally unaware until I learned about it, and in our Celtic (American) Pride we often used Celtic cross imagery in decor and accessories. Granted these usually did resemble actually woven/knotted crosses (which by no means meant they were authentic. At best a few came from local Celtic Pride fests–which as I said in those tags was plagued by Confederate and Nazi imagery), but most of them came from like JoAnn's or Michael's or Walmart whenever Saint Paddy's Day rolled around. That said, the woven pattern of a Celtic cross is a bitch to draw especially when you have yet to nurture or be nurtured in any art skills, so when my borderline-Gothic ass would doodle graveyards in my school notebooks I would often doodle simplified Celtic crosses as grave markers, which unfortunately just meant a simple cross with a simple circle in it, unfortunately reminiscent of the neo-Nazi symbol.

Me and my family were staunchly Indiana liberals (to be fair that wasn't that shocking in our democrat enclave city) and have only become more leftist as time goes on, so those who knew me well would know I didn't mean anything by it, but like I have to wonder/worry that those who didn't know me well (like most of my classmates. I was pretty lonely in high school) or people who would briefly visit my home or come across us while we were wearing Celtic pins that day or something came away with the wrong impression. I'm especially dismayed at the thought that the kids I knew to be actual neo-Nazis might thought I was one of them

For the record I left school in like twenty eleven and had been doodling graveyards for years and wearing Celtic imagery for even longer. I can't really find out when the "Celtic" cross became a dogwhistle

[howtofightwrite]

Was bounty hunting in the Old West as popular as the movies make it out to be? The actual history I've read suggests that that niche was mostly taken up either by private detectives from agencies like Pinkerton or by straight outlaws. Were movie-style bounty hunters mostly a myth?

Movie style bounty hunters were almost exclusively a myth. There were the odd exception here or there, but the concept of an old west bounty hunter didn't really exist until the 1950s.

The term, “bounty hunter,” is a little anachronistic as well. While there were people called bounty hunters in the 19th century, the term primarily referred to mercenaries. Specifically this was in the context of any signing or campaign completion bonuses that they would receive. That was the, “bounty.”

Using the modern term, most bounty hunters in the old west were actually local law enforcement officers, who relied on the cash payout bonuses from arrests. (And, in the case of these bounties, thinking of it as a pay bonus for law enforcement really is instructive.) In other cases, law enforcement officers would use a portion of those payouts to entice civilians to assist them in making potentially dangerous arrests.

Private detectives, including the Pinkertons, also sometimes tracked down outlaws, and as with law enforcement, the bonus pay was an enticement. Amusingly, Wells Fargo used to also operate bounty hunters specifically tracking outlaws who'd targeted their property. Though, other contemporary companies did the same. In this case, it's less of a “bounty hunter,” and more of a corporate enforcer, hunting down someone who'd crossed the company.

Another interesting thing to be aware of is that those wanted posters were not publicly distributed. There also wasn't a universal format, or source. Some were distributed by the Pinkertons (though, I'm not entirely clear on whether those were given to law enforcement or primarily kept for internal use, though at least some of their circulars did end up in the public record and have been preserved.) In a lot of cases, these were just a written description of the criminal, and a posted bonus (usually $100 or less.) I'm not completely sure how rare the posters were at the time, but very few have survived into the modern day. So, this was more of a resource for law enforcement, rather than something offered for public consumption. The image of a board of wanted posters presented for anyone wandering psychopath to peruse is a fantasy.

Freelancers, such as they were, seem to have been mostly working for private interests. These were often military veterans who would happily hunt down suspected criminals (such as cattle rustlers) and dispatch them. In general, that ends up looking a bit more like murder-for-hire, rather than what you'd think of as a modern bounty hunter, though it may inform some of the modern perspectives on the job. These are the ones you're probably seeing that get categorized as outlaws, and there is quite a bit of truth to that.

A sort of neat bit of trivia, the modern bounty hunter, (also, more commonly known as a bail bondsman, or bail bond agent), is a very old profession. However their history in the United States originated in San Francisco in 1898. The Old West came to an end in 1912 (generally), so there was a period of 14 years where modern bounty hunters existed in America, before the wild west was officially over. So, in that sense, there is some actual overlap, but it's not what most people think of when talking about a “wild west bounty hunter.” (And, on the subject of, “officially over,” it's worth remembering that the last range war in Wyoming took place in 1909.)

The image of the bounty hunter as a sort of freelance cop, who wanders around arresting outlaws, is a product of highly sanitized 1950s westerns.

-Starke

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[bitchslapblastoids]

This might make me a fake fan but what is the lore / significance of the orange heart?

orange heart my beloved!! when dan released WAD on youtube, phil retweeted it with a lovely message, and dan responded to phil's tweet with just a simple orange heart emoji:

THEN in case that wasn't enough of a dagger through the chest, dan screenshotted the interaction and posted it to his youtube community tab (????) with just the caption "gay" (it's still the most recent post on there lol) (also to quote @bassband: “The chaos of using the world’s worst social media function for their gayest moment yet” — so real)

everyone imploded, some people shouted hard launch. mostly i just think the heart tweet was such a painfully sweet, vulnerable move on dan's part. he is historically sardonic and blasé towards phil on his socials, he historically can't take a compliment, and he historically hedges any earnestness with lots and lots of words and overtalking. so to respond to phil's very earnest message with such an equally earnest, simple heart that can only be interpreted as a message of love, appreciation, gratitude.... idk, it felt really big and really loud, partly because it is so unlike him. they hadn't publicly sent a heart or anything so straightforwardly affectionate to one another since '09, really.

it still gets to me... their mutual undying support and straightforward love for one another captured in a simple, brave emoji. and then dan making sure everyone saw it. and yeah the 'gay' caption added a bit of the typical sarcasm/self-awareness we're more used to from him and softened the blow of it all a little, but mostly it was just like, oh. he categorically wants to make sure his whole following sees this exchange. okay.

when I made this blog, i knew immediately it was what I wanted to use for my icon, and I was just so relieved that no one else had claimed it. It makes me feel so warm and just feels perfect for the ethos of this blog. #notthatdeep i know I know but I feel a weird amount of like…. Humble gratitude for getting to have an association with it? And I’m weirdly picky about when I use the emoji myself because it feels…special. idk lol.

(There was also the weird subliminal messaging moment in one of Phil’s vids where the orange heart flashed for like a millisecond which did feel like some weird psychological warfare on his part)

[last-words-ofashootingstar]

Baby Senses

➾In Which: "...My Baby senses are tingling." aka Seonghwa has a freakishly supernatural sense when it comes to you.

❥Yandere Park Seonghwa x fem reader

Baby Series !

➯a/n: i'm so obsessed with this au im going to start going through all the drabbles i have of it and post them semi-categorized ( it's a loooooot kkkkk ) the last one is the longest and probably definitely my favorite <3

♡'･ᴗ･'♡genre: yandere, drabbles / shorts, mostly comfort

♫Baby Playlist♫

ಠ_ಠwarning/content: non-linear ( most drabbles can take place anywhere in the timeline, mostly later ), stockholm syndrome, controlling behavior, kissing in little space, casual intimacy ( sharing straws and food, cuddling, casual nudity ), panic attack + nightmare ( ptsd )

♡masterlist + navigation !♡

˗ˏˋbaby-yaaaˎˊ˗ @maplelilly05 @m00njinnie @tinyteezer ₊‧⁺stardust˖⋆ @sousydive @sunnysidesins @onyxmango @devilzliaison @ateezswonderland @queenofdumbfuckery @emilysecresy

18+ BLOG. MINORS THIS IS YOUR STOP.

"Hand it over," Seonghwa reaches his hand into the back seat without even looking.

You and Mingi both freeze. He's half way through handing you a gummy worm. "Hand what over?" He shoves the half empty bag of candy into his bag by his feet.

"The candy-" he turns around, "what is it?"

"Nothin', Mommy! We've just been-"

"Lean here," he curls his finger and stares at you pointedly, "gimme a kiss."

With a pout, you tug your seatbelt a bit and lean forward, pressing your lips against his. His tongue quickly finds its way inside your mouth, and you allow it; only sighing softly because you know you've been caught.

He makes it a little longer than it needs to be, making Mingi and San, who's behind the wheel, fidget a bit uncomfortably.

He pecks your lips softly before pulling back completely and letting you fall back into your seat with your hands in your lap and your head hung low. "Sorry, Mommy..."

"Hand them over, Mingi," he hums, laying out his hand and receiving the candy into his palm.

"Sorry, Hyung..."

"You both know better, especially you, Baby. Too much sweets is bad for you."

"M'sorry, Mommy. I know better."

"I know you do, sweetheart." He pats your head softly.

Seonghwa leans and takes another sip of his smoothie as he watches the TV, sat on the floor at the coffee table with you.

"H-" The second you take an inhale to speak, he holds the cup up for you.

"Ah?" He asks with a tilt of his head. He had a feeling you wanted to try his drink after you said it looked 'nummy'.

"Thanks, Mommy-ya," you lean forward and take a sip from his straw, "oooh, good~"

"You want to go half-and-half, Baby?"

"Yeahm, please." Always remembering your manners.

"Let me try yours," he smiles as you pick it up with both hands and hold the straw to his lips. "Oh, good~"

He likes his better, but he's willing to share with you; he always is — especially when you smile at him so sweetly.

You won't stop fidgeting. People are starting to notice that Seonghwa keeps looking off to the side.

When you start picking at your cuticles, he's had enough of it. He quickly says he'll be right back before muting the livestream and hurrying to you. "Hey, no picking," he says softly as he pulls your hands into his, "what's wrong, Baby?"

"...I want to snuggle, please?"

"Aww," he can't help but coo at your little pout, especially when you pair it with such affectionate words. "I'm almost done, little angel, I promise." He looks between you and the desk while he trails off. "Do you want to come sit by my legs? You can hug-"

"Yeah!" You basically roll yourself off of the mats in the corner and crawl over to his desk.

He settles back into the chair, petting your head softly while you hug his leg.

"Baby-ya," Hwa groans while stretching, catching you digging through his bag.

"Yes?" You stop quickly, not wanting him to think you were doing something bad. You're just getting restless, you're looking for the emergency pacifier he usually carries.

"In the little pocket on the front."

Sure enough, when you open it up, you find the baby pink pacifier in its little protective case. "How-"

"My Baby senses were tingling." He smiles, "don't worry, love bug. We're getting started soon."

"Mommyyyy," you whisper as you scoot closer to his side, "I'm cold."

"I told you it would be chilly, Baby," he bites back the urge to say 'told you so', because he knows you aren't defiant to make him mad. It's the only way you feel like you have any power — because it is. "When will you start listening to me, huh?" He smiles while rubbing your arm.

It's still quite a little while to go filming outside. You're both sitting on the ledge of a short brick wall while waiting for his next shoot.

"I dunno..."

"C'mere, baby-doll," he unzips his hoodie and holds it open, "come hug Mommy, I'll keep you warm."

"Thank you. I'll listen next time, promise." You jump down quickly and shuffle between his legs, hugging his torso and burying your face into his chest.

He wraps his legs around your back gently and folds his jacket closed around you, a big smile on his face as you cuddle into him.

He knew you were going to get cold. Silly Baby, haven't you learned that he knows what's best?

He'll enjoy your arms around him until his next shoot, and then he'll 'remember' that he brought your jacket just in case.

"It's all long again, though!" You pout, flinging yourself onto the bed dramatically. "Why do you gotta cut it?"

"I know, Baby, you like my hair when it's long but I can't keep it the same forever," he laughs quietly at your protest of him cutting his hair. You do love to play with it. You like to put little braids in it when you're nervous or bored. He would keep it long forever if he could.

You didn't even let him finish dressing you after he told you, just fell into bed in nothing but your pastel panties. He sets the pajamas back into the drawer and heads over in nothing but his boxers.

He'll never complain about feeling your skin against his.

"Ca-" You want to ask to play with it one more time. It's not as much fun when it's short.

"Mhm, scoot over, little one," he answers you before you even ask, crawling into the bed next to you. He takes it out of the small ponytail and cuddles into you, nuzzling into your naked chest softly.

"Thanks, Mommy," you hum as you drape a leg over his hip. Your fingers comb through his hair softly, and you watch the silky strands fall between them. "Will you grows it back out?"

"Of course." His arms wrap around you gently, his eyes closed peacefully and a contented moan in his throat. "Anything for you, Baby."

It's silent for a few long moments. "Which color are you thinking about, sweetpea?" He bets it's pink. You've been really into pink lately.

"Maybe... pink?"

"Somethings wrong..." Seonghwa pouts, leaning his chin on his hand.

"Nothings wrong, Hyung-"

San gets cut off by you screaming, Hwa immediately springing up off the couch. He blinks, a bit in shock, as the older member runs to you. He really does have sort of supernatural connection to you, doesn't he?

You're fighting with the blankets as you yell unintelligibly, tears streaming down your face. He knew he shouldn't have left you alone.

"It's okay, Baby," he speaks softly as he pulls the blanket away from you, "you were just having a bad dream."

He sits on the edge of the bed as you push yourself up, looking around with wild, tearful eyes. His hands twitch with the urge to hold you, but he keeps them to himself because for all he knows — he was the source of your nightmare.

"M-" You can't get a single word out, hyperventilating and clutching your stuffed raccoon to your chest. You can only look at him with wide eyes; begging him to help.

"Do you want me to hold you, angel? Is it okay to touch-" You throw yourself into his lap, hugging his arm tightly. He wraps the other around your back, leaning his head against yours softly. "Shhh, it's okay. I got you... I'm sorry I wasn't here when you woke up, I bet that was scary."

You can't respond, not aloud anyway, you just nod against his head and continue hiccuping and fighting for your breath.

"Hey, that's enough, sweet girl," he whispers just over your pained panting, pulling his arm out of your grasp gently. "You don't need to panic, nothing can hurt you," he tilts your head back slowly, opening up your airways.

You slump in his lap, taking in a deep breath. "There you go, precious," he sniffles as he rubs your trembling chin with his thumb. "Close your eyes, catch your breath, Mommy's got you."

He leans his forehead against your shoulder softly, waiting patiently for you to calm down with the help of his steady hand on your back.

When you eventually do, you move slowly; wiping your eyes with your sleeves. "Do you want to talk about it, Baby?" You shake your head. Quickly.

"Okay, you don't have to. Let me know what I can do for you."

"...Can you sing our song?" Your voice comes out crackled and dry.

"Of course," he rubs your back slowly again before lifting you off of his lap and back into bed. "Do you want your blankey?"

"Mh, please?"

He gets it from the back of his chair with lightning speed and drapes it over you. "Here we go, nice and safe and warm~" His heart flutters when you give him the tiniest smile.

You roll onto your side and let him pull you into his chest as he lays down. "Our song?"

"Mhm." You sniff as you curl up in his arms, slowly closing your eyes.

"Can I call you Baby? Can you be my friend? Can you be my lover up until the very end?" He traces on your arm softly as he sings. "Oh, don't you worry, I'll be right there whenever you want me... I need somebody who can love me at my worst."

His soft humming of the melody calms your racing heart, his body warm and grounding. So much so that you fall right back asleep as he continues the familiar song.

"And for you, girl, I swear I'd do the worst... If you stay forever, let me hold your hand; I can fill those places in your heart no else can."

[drdemonprince]

what do u think about romance abolition? i recently discovered that i dont think romance actually exists as in i think every relationship every person has with anyone is unique and different. the concept of romance is rooted in a lof of our opressive systems and aphobia is inherently tied to it. i think these labels of being in a "romantic" relationship endanger everyone due to a percieved wrong clearness of what their relationship boundaries and expectations are and it also devalues "platonic" (and a lot other) relationships.

i also recommend the aromantic manifesto blog on here to kind of get part of the concept im talking abt

this comes from the mind of an audhd aroace trans person, if thats of any relevance!

thank u for ur blog an your opinions ⭐

I am fairly receptive to the idea that romance as we currently conceive of it is a recent cultural invention that is pretty ahistorical, and that is used to further the isolation of individuals from community. but also, I don't think we are going to get anywhere as a social or political movement in denying the feelings that a majority of people have, myself very much among them.

Even if it is all born of cultural conditioning, the cat is kind of out of the bag, and a great deal of us experience a romantic drive, romantic longings, close attachments that are romantic that we experience as distinct from non-romantic attachments, and view romance as a meaningful fount of inspiration in our art, sexualities, and even spiritualities.

I am all for a move away from amatonormativity and the primacy of the monogamous, legally committed relationship, but I do think there is something emotionally real going on there for those of us who experience it. I used to care a lot more about straightforward rationality, and after that about justice, but now I care a great deal about the emotionally felt reality of things, and the realms of life that are not easily categorized or known. I can't explain why the idea of romance is important to me, only that it is, and I personally have no desire in doing away with it.

perhaps I feel some of the resistance to the idea of romance abolition that some instantly feel when they first hear of family abolition-- The idea makes them uncomfortable because of what it sounds like, which is a threat to something that they are very bonded to.

I think on an institutional level it would be very beneficial to not tie social benefits or legal status to a person's romantic relationships. but in terms of my personal life? I draw very firm boundaries between relationships that are romantic in nature and those that are not, that is a distinction that is very important to me and I often feel really trampled upon by people who believe that no one should see a designation between those things. in most of the world writ large that's a very small problem, but I mostly run with polyamorous queer people who tend to see many of their relationships is a big mishmash of affection and commitment and friendship and that can get real fucking messy real fast in addition to being beautiful or revolutionary or what have you.

I think ultimately I'm a little bit more interested in providing the social supports and physical infrastructure that would make it more possible for individuals to form community in whatever ways that means for them. I think a lot of beneficial social changes and liberation would flow from that, rather than moving to abolish romantic relationships first.

and I really do get uncomfortable when a certain subcategory of relationally radical polyamorous queer people try to push against other people's romantic or sexual boundaries in the name of liberation; I understand if that sounds like a totally ridiculous complaint to you, the way a person complaining about veganism being forced on them almost always sounds like a overreacting cry baby, but I've been in enough toxic fucking communities since I was an 18-year-old to feel like I'm owed this grievance, and kind of want to give voice to it because I have seen people be abused in the name of otherwise really understandable ideals like these.

I think it is okay for a person to draw distinctions between their types of relationships, and to want certain forms of attachment with only certain people... there has to be a way to square this with a desire for greater community ties and interreliance. I need there to be, or it would not be a ideology I could really find myself safely within to be honest.

All that uncomfortable hand ringing aside, as a member of the asexual community and a person who does not form connections in a typical way, I have so much respect and care for my aromantic comrades and I do recognize how supremely excluded from basically every social practice and institution in the world you are, and how difficult it is for anyone to make family or build community for themselves in a world that prioritizes exclusive romantic relationships over everything. and I do really believe that fighting against that is a worthy and necessary project. I am perhaps just ultimately a bit less enlightened in terms of what I personally need and aspire to.

[kittyit]

cfs/disability blog post -__-

finally acclimated enough to become bold enough to talk about it. after getting sepsis and then getting covid for the first time while in the ICU in late 2022, i have developed chronic fatigue syndrome. i don't like that diagnostic title but it is what it is until further discoveries of categorization and naming of specific mechanisms of its causes are made, and it's the most well known term.

there is something wrong in my body. i can tell. I hate the concept of it being "fatigue" - it's inability to recover from exertion. my favorite term is actually from 2015: systemic exertional intolerance disease (SEID). i have the dubious advantage in being able to articulate and understand clearly what's going on because I'm a person who has previously recovered from near-bedridden levels of weakness from a series of life circumstances and choices that left me barely able to stand and walk. once i was out of the circumstances that resulted in this, I recovered slowly but surely. the concept of self-rehab is simple: exercise to near exertion or exertion, eat nourishing foods that allow muscles to rebuild, rest if you're overtired or hurt. continue this cycle. enjoy how it feels to get stronger and the simple joy and fun of being exerted! this worked great for me. it was only getting better.

i was undaunted at recovery after sepsis/COVID because i'd done it before. then, when things were different, i just thought i needed to push through and keep going. this resulted in me acting extremely erratically and being incredibly unwell for a year. then i started taking seriously that something was wrong. and it is wrong, i just can't stress enough that something is wrong in my body.

this is how exercise (exertion) used to go: the exercise starts, there is a wonderful beginning feeling of ecstasy, excitement, followed by a middle feeling of being fully present, fully engaged with the physical activity, then an ending feeling of pleasant exertion (sometimes quite intense!), then the satisfaction of resting, eating, drinking. sore the next day if boundaries were pushed, not if they weren't.

this is how exertion goes now: the exercise starts. there IS a wonderful beginning feeling of excitement. i think one of the worst parts is how it always pretty much feels okay at the beginning, and because i am an optimist (possibly born this way, nothing has ever been able to really stop it), i think i might actually get away with it this time. consider this: a brief and brisk outing to a nice norcal town, maybe 30 minutes total of walking and standing, with rest interspersed, total 1.5 hour outing. the middle feeling of the exertion has changed. there is a sensation that something is wrong, something is off. it's incredibly difficult to not just push through this. but the end is definitely the worst. instead of a pleasant exertion, there is a sudden oncoming rush of emptiness, oncoming illness. where there used to be satisfaction there's just a sensation of doom. sometimes it feels like i'm falling, like literally falling through space while sitting still.

within 8-12 hours, there is a result of something going wrong in the body. some research suggests it's a mitochondrial problem. i don't know. i'm not science-y enough. but it's just fucking crazy. feeling like you do when you wake up and realize you got that flu after all, cognitive functioning sharply declines, shaky, can't focus, lose short-term memory, can't type well on my phone, loss of ability to emotionally regulate, a spike in aphasic issues. my "post exertional malaise" symptoms are mostly cognitive functioning based, i have to go pretty far before i start feeling it physically. which is incredibly frustrating in its own right, to feel the sensation of untapped power in my body. and when i take it too far, i can put myself into a spiral of being fucked up for weeks or months (when i REALLY fuck up and keep going. just finished one of these. months. really months)

it just sucks. i'm constantly trying new things, trying to treat it, trying to improve. i take resting really seriously now but i just can't accept i'll spend the rest of my life like this. there's a few camps in CFS subculture, people who say recovery isn't possible (and often tell anyone aiming for it they're just going to make themselves worse), people who insist recovery is possible (and do not make space for people who have tried everything and nothing worked), and many more ad infinitum.

i right now believe i'm on a slow but linear improvement timeline. a woman once told me her mother had issues like this after sepsis and she felt better 10 (!) years later. it's been 2.5 years for me and i can do more. but how much of "doing more" is just me sacrificing a lot of things in my life i used to be able to to do rest (more cooking, cleaning, etc.) it's humbling. my gf takes care of me in a way that is impossible to articulate my thankfulness for. like she saved me and is the reason i'm alive. she is devoted and caring to the extreme

i am really serious about disability politics and being ok with being disabled. and it feels like (as an ex-christian who will live with genuine serious religious trauma for the rest of my life) that god is always humbling me/punishing me. but this isn't a punishment from god. it's a medical problem. and there are going to be different approaches and medical solutions. and as long as i don't give up i will improve.

i just feel like i need to talk about this. i've been really ashamed because it's a really crazy catch-all diagnosis, and also i do not really engage with the sprawling massive community around it, because like most internet communities focused on mental/physical health issues, they are often hostile to a position of openness and curiousness and also a true desire for improvement in whatever ways are availble/good disability politics

i was definitely in the CFS skeptic group before developing it (which also feels like a punishment from god), and i feel more ashamed of that than almost anything else. not like i was a hater or arguing with anyone online about it, but i had my reservations. and now i understand that there is something fucking wrong in my body, this is not normal. the body is not doing what it's supposed to do. there is a breakdown in the natural order of things. so if you are a skeptic please know i get it. and i am here to tell you that something is happening lmao THIS is not. normal

so basically if you have CFS/long covid/post-viral whatever i believe you. and i hope you believe me too. talking to doctors about this has been the fucking worst and i am a pretty medically stigmatized person to begin with. i believe you. and i also do believe there's hope in many different directions. fucking KIDS are getting it now because of COVID. this administration fucked up a lot of research but other countries are trying. i think we'll have more understanding and approaches within a decade.

i just make meaning of things by writing about them and i'm really tired of guarding this like a secret i don't want anyone to know like so many other things in my life i've now successfully written about and worked through by forming narrative meaning. so this is a first stab at that and thank you for reading

[doberbutts]

Hey man, I really appreciate you sharing your perspective about being a man, being Black, and being told whether you're allowed to speak or not. It's interesting to me as a white transmasc to see how our experiences differ and I like learning and being aware of how others are treated, often unfairly, because of it, especially since I don't want to further that treatment. It is genuinely appreciated to hear about.

I think a lot of people get caught up in categorizing people into easy-to-digest groups, and while it's useful sometimes when discussing how certain demographics are treated or can treat others, it's also often used to stereotype individuals based on something they have no choice in being. And when it comes to intersecting identities, race, gender, etc, there's no way people actually think a Black man is treated as a man the way a white man is, let alone a trans man who can have his identity disregarded by any bigot when convenient.

I'm just surprised how many people wrongly took your posts to mean "men should always be allowed to speak about other people's experiences" and then promptly admit to speaking all over your experiences as a trans and Black person anyway. Of course there are times to listen instead, nobody said there wasn't. But sometimes listening involves being uncomfortable and it would do some people well to think about why it makes them uncomfortable before arguing against it.

I apprecaite the kind words!

Unfortunately white discomfort with black truth is a common enough phenomenon that I neither let it impact my writings nor do I give a shit if me speaking my truth has made a white person uncomfortable. Is it a hard pill to swallow that I'm taking white people to task for forgetting that I was raised as a black girl before beginning adulthood as a black man and I'm not willing to forgive them for the racism they showed to me then or even now? Good. Choke. Squirm. Because you're (they're) still going to hear what I have to say.

But it is quite interesting to me that this blog is mostly just about my experiences and people find ways to twist themselves into knots to be angry that I'm talking about something that happened directly to me.

I will not sit down and shut up because I have had enough people tell me to do that when I was a girl and because I'm black and I sure as shit am not going to tolerate it as an adult. Don't like it? Unfollow button's at the top, buhbye!

[creaturefeaster]

Hello, welcome to my blog. I am known as Wire or Chicken(stab), my pronouns are they/them, and I am in my late 20's. In this pinned post I will tell you everything I think you need to know about me and my blog!

[ IF YOU ARE LOOKING FOR MY 18+ BLOG, DM ME FOR ACCESS! ]

♦

I post mostly about my own original projects and characters, but sometimes I like to reblog photography and other cool art I come across. I share a lot of my art here as of late, but I do have an art blog that you can find here. You'll need to wipe the dust off of it.

I often struggle with tone, and abbreviated tone tags only make things more difficult for me. Please be clear with your intentions around me, and use non-abbreviated words when possible. Lol, omg, btw, etc., idk, and other such acronyms are okay, but asks with tone tags will be ignored and/or deleted.

I do not use any other social media like twitter, instagram, etc. Aside from picarto where I like to stream, and youtube, you will only find me here on tumblr. I use discord, but not regularly. If we connect, feel free to ask me for my discord handle ^_^.

I like to answer asks sent to me, but sometimes I get a lot and do not end up seeing all of them. I won't be upset if you send me multiple asks, but please do not over-spam me with the same questions/requests. Asks that do not respect my no-list (see bottom of this post) will be deleted, and repeat instances will be blocked. Thank you for respecting my boundaries.

This is not a dedicated NSFW blog, but I do touch into NSFW subjects from time to time. Posts of this nature will always be tagged accordingly with #peek if you dare. Please do not ask or search my blog for NSFW-related matters if you are under the age of 18.

I do not categorize most tags on my blog. I like to talk in my tags, but save for posts relating to specific projects of mine, most posts will not be tagged accordingly. My project tags are #brambleramble (Colorquest) and #tmmomr.

I bounce between my projects and interests a lot. If you are invested in my work, I promise you there will always be plenty of it; What I cannot promise is that projects will ever be done in a timely manner.

CURRENT INTERESTS: • My original characters • Birds / animals in general • Colorful collectables • Drawing & writing • Western movies • Weather • Strategy and management sim games • Guitar / piano • Math

NO-LIST (Please do not talk to me about): • South Park / HP • Hazbin / Helluva • Mental diagnosis • Politics • Points of argument / discourse • a) ^ This includes things like 'call outs' about other people

• b) ^ Similarly, you do not need to inform me about 'call outs' someone has made about me, either. I have a very minimal presence online and these all tend to be fake. Please exercise research, validity, and critical thinking before taking things at face value! ^.^

[syninplays]

So uhm... I did a thing...

✨Character Info Template✨

UPDATE 11.24.24: this template now has a page theme version! if you're not a fan of templates, you can get the code to use it as an interactive multimuse page >here<

Been meaning to do this a long time ago (and actually started it but never finished it, lol) as a way to share some more information about my ocs without needing to use a custom page theme, but mostly because I haven't found any page theme that looks exactly as I want and allows this much customization.

There are two versions and both are almost exactly the same; but the example shown in the left has an 'appearance' section which is small and has few quick facts regarding the oc's appearance; while the example on the right has a 'moodboard' section instead which allows you to add more info about your oc.

You can change every section/title to fit your needs like I did in the examples below; I personally removed some categories as well and got rid of some connections as this oc doesn't have that many close friends/partners to fill the original template. However, I also included an extra separated 'connections' section in the download in case you want to add more people and more information.

I recommend you stick to square-shaped pictures so it's easier to fit them to each section. Also if and when you edit the information or section titles, please select only one line at a time to replace it so you don't lose the text format. (Titles shouldn't change because that's a single format/font within the same text box, but should it change you can always hit ctrl+z hehe) When you're done, I strongly recommend you save this as a .png instead of .jpg so it's the best possible quality!

Last but not least, this is a .psd file. So you'll need either Photoshop (I did this with Photoshop Portable, but it supports newer versions of PS and it *should* support older versions too) or Photopea to open and edit this file.

Credits: Adobe Photoshop, Inter font, Golften Vintage font

>DOWNLOAD< (patreon but free :p)

(note: I'm posting this with my gaming blog because I think my fellow gamers might be interested in this, but please consider giving credits to me if you use this template by tagging @synindoodles instead of this blog)

More info on how to use and edit this template below the cut!

Layers:

>Each layer is properly named and categorized. The general layers such as the background, the icon shape and background shapes are under the groups.

>If you don't want to see/don't need one of the connections' pictures and information, I recommend you find which one it is (1, 2, 3, 4, 5 or 6) and click on the eye symbol next to the layer to hide it so that way if you ever need it, it won't be truly gone.

>To edit a text section, simply find the layer (such as General Information>Left Column) and double click on the 'T' symbol next to the layer. That way it will open edit mode and allow you to edit the text, just don't hit delete or enter while everything is selected or you'll erase it :p

>Main text sections aren't separated, they're blocks of text. I recommend you don't remove the amount (for example, if you downloaded the version with the 'appearance' section, which has 5 sections of information, don't remove the fifth line.) Either leave it empty or replace it with another data, otherwise it will look weird. The 'general information' section might look good even if you remove a few lines, just don't get rid of the whole block of text.

Pictures:

>To add a new picture, simply paste it over this document and move it using the Move Tool.

>To frame it (so it becomes a circle or fits over the shape you want), make sure the picture layer is over the layer you want, then while holding alt click between the two layers. [For example, if you want to add a new main oc picture: 1) paste the pic you want, 2) move it with the Move Tool so it's covering the big circle, 3) once you've fully covered the shape (if it isn't you can resize it by right clicking on it then on 'free transform', sometimes you might need to hold shift to proportionally resize it) make sure the newly pasted pic layer is over the layer named "picture goes here", 4) hold the alt key and hover your mouse cursor over the line between your pic layer and the circle layer until you see an arrow going down symbol, once you see it click it and tah dah! your picture should now have the same shape as the circle! - you can further move it if it doesn't fit the way you want with the Move Tool (;

Others:

>You can change every color, font and section to your liking, just don't change the general layout of the template.

>To hide/show the guides (those bright blue lines all over the document), click ctrl+,

>'Inter' is a free font and you can get it in the link above (linked with the credits), Golften Vintage is not, but you can get the demo version >here< (just scroll down and click the blue download button under license). I will not tell you how to install fonts as it might be different for everyone (for me it's C:/Windows/Fonts and I just drop the zipped files (except the .txt one) there), but google is your friend.

>I can't think of anything else that needs to be said here, but if you have any other question feel free to send me an ask or dm and I'll help you out!

>Last but not least, a like is appreciated if you plan to use this plus consider tagging @synindoodles if you use it <3

[no-one-nobody-pod]

The No One & Nobody Podcast

What is it?

Hello! My name is Rue, welcome to the blog for my podcast!

NO&N is my currently work in progress horror fiction podcast. It follows the main characters Karlie and Amy. Two urban explorers who run a YouTube channel and a podcast together.

Supernatural and strange occurrences start to happen at the abandoned sites they visit. The podcast follows them investigating and logging the various creatures they encounter.

I’m not sure when it will be out but I’m working hard on it right now and hopefully I’ll have a trailer soon 💪

What am I going to be posting here?

Mostly this blog is just going to be for fun to post updates and art from the project. But I will be making some posts meant to be from the point of view of Karlie and Amy posting online about their adventures.

Other stuff I don’t know how to categorize.

I’m trying to make short comics to go along side the podcast. I’ll probably end up posting some of that here before the podcast comes out and after.

I’m really excited though! I’ve never shared something I’ve worked on like this before. I don’t know how often I’ll share stuff since this blog is really just for fun to motivate me to work on it.

Thank you for reading 💜

[ausantana]

The Role of The “Weird Girl” in Movies

Written by: Au, also known as @ausantana on tumblr

click below to read more! ↓

Introduction 🪱

Nowadays, the trope of weird girls in movies has begun to become more visible, and as a society, we are beginning to increasingly normalize teenagers who identify themselves as "weird" or "awkward" and there is nothing wrong with both words unlike how they used to be used previously.

Types of weird girls ⭐️

There are various types of "weird girls", however they are usually categorized into 5 types (although in my opinion the complexity of each person goes far beyond each of these labels, and although we as teenagers try to fit into a specific type, we will always have characteristic features of each of these characteristics and personalities)

The goth

Known for their dark ways of dressing and acting, they mostly have alternative and gothic tastes.

Moodboard!

Characters: Lisa Frankenstein, Lydia Deetz, Nancy Downs & Morticia Addams

The Smartass

They are known above all for being sarcastic and having a great sense of humor, they tend to be the intelligent and smart ones.

Moodboard!

Characters: ‘Lady Bird’, Janis Ian, Robin Buckley & Kat Stradford

The Awkward

They are known either for not talking much or for talking too much, they are usually introverted for the most part and overthink all the time.

Moodboard!

Characters: Melinda Sordino, Carrie White, Juno Macguff & Nadine Franklin

The Basket Case

Normally, they tend to be girls who go through such a strong trauma that they express an unhealthy obsession through competitions, whether it be a frustrated dream or substance abuse. They are also called "the lost cause."

Moodboard!

Characters: Nina Sayers, Pearl, Daisy Rondone & Marla Singer

The Space Cadette

Those girls who are given the term "weird" for being daydreamers and being in their own world, are usually absent-minded.

Moodboard!

Characters: Luna Lovegood, Cassie Ainsworth, Cecilia Lisbon & Davina

Movies and Series with the weird girl representation on it 🎥

- Dinner in America (2020)

- Juno (2007)

- Lisa Frankenstein (2024)

- The Perks of Being a Wallflower (2012)

- Lady Bird (2017)

- The Edge of Seventeen (2016)

- Fleabag (2017)

- The Craft (1996)

- Beetlejuice (1988)

- The Virgin Suicides (1999)

- Little Woman (2019)

- Speak (2004)

- Girl, Interrupted (1999)

- The Diary of a Teenage Girl (2015)

- Garden State (2004)

Songs attributed to “weird girls” on social media at the moment 💿

- The Promise - When in Rome

- Teenage Girl - Cherry Glazer

- Watermelon - John + Jane Q. Public.

& more!

Video in representation → millionhawks on TikTok has perfectly represented the feeling of not fitting in anywhere, the typical attitudes of this trope such as awkwardness, overthinking and other things are also present in this video!

Which I absolutely love, as it also represents weirdness from a real point of view by adding characters from movies known to audiences familiar with this topic.

(Click on “video in representation” so you can watch the video!)

So this is my third post on this blog! I hope you liked the brief analysis I made about this plot, because I am another example of a weird girl.

I would like to encourage you to follow this blog if you want to see similar content, because even though I am not very well known on this platform, I would like to create a space full of people with the same tastes and interests as me, feel free to comment, give your opinion and ask questions in the comments of this post and any other!

I have a question for you readers! So feel free to reply: What kind of weird girl are you?

I myself am the composition of the 5 types, but above all, the awkward and the space cadette.

Xoxo, Au.

[gaymingartist]

Does this count as something I should put on this art blog

“Severe thunderstorm watch”? Yeah I’m watching the severe thunderstorm happen out my window right now