#my blabbering thoughts

[wardingshout]

apple season

[rodolfoparras]

You know what rattles this little pea brain of mine? Price on leave who’s gained weight, ass, stomach and thighs jiggling as you forcefully thrust into him, the back rolls when you got his ass up in the air head forced down to the floor while you bully your cock into his hole, the pudge of fat on his hips that you can’t help but grab at every time you go in for a kiss or that you can’t help but nip at when trailing kisses down to his dick, or the way his gut droops down to the fringe of curls that start at the base of his cock, dark hairs dusted all over his stomach and smeared in your cum since you’ve made it a habit to finish all over it every time you fuck, forcing him to wear clothes that no longer fit just to see him walking around with his pants unzipped and the way his shirt will ride up every time he stretches or lifts his arms but you assure him he has nothing to worry about since you’ll be getting him new clothes after ripping these olds ones up or cumming all over them while you fuck

[dragonhoardsfriends]

[tubbytarchia]

I just saw a few "beginner artist" animations and posts that had gained some traction and their comment sections actually made me pretty seethingly upset.

"Experienced" artists really just jump on "beginner" artists to tell them all the 2 to 5 to 50 things that they can do better. All under the guise of "I'm just tryna help" and coated with "you have potential!". Well I am also a fellow artist and that is so haughty and discouraging to me. Some artists need to get off their hyper realistic objectively superior anatomically correct high horses and give the goofy newbie ones some fucking room to breathe. Leave beginner artists alone, a tip or two is fine but they do not need 20 people correcting all their "mistakes" and giving tips and criticism where it was never asked for. I genuinely feel so bad for these beginning artists who put in effort to create something, and that's the foremost beauty of art, only to get jumped like prey by all these other artists who fail to appreciate the very core of what they claim to teach. If you do that, THEY DON'T NEED YOU to grow as artists, and that's assuming you even wanted to help and not just having a superiority complex

[moerusai]

I've said it before and I'll say it again, Man Suang is a movie to watch multiple times to unpack all the lies and twists and unreliable narratives, to appreciate the performances and choices that each actor makes to stay true to their character among such a big ensemble cast.

Even then, there are still nuances to catch with every rewatch (trust me, I'm on my fifth).

The lackluster English subtitle (partly due to the translator's negligence, but mostly due to the subtlety being lost in translation) certainly doesn't do the dialogues and the storyline justice.

So I think some of us, especially those from Western cultures, could do to sit down and contemplate a movie so rooted in a specific culture before sharing, frankly, insensible opinions on it.

[moralesmilesanhour]

Guys have u considered how the ethos behind both Miles and Margo's character designs play on the fact that they are constantly hiding their true selves - Miles with his big coats and oversized jackets (the art book notes that this is an intentional choice), and Margo by literally living in a digital world where she can be anyone she wants? No? Now you have!

[ollieartss]

jesus whenever I rewatch dark era or fifteen parts of the anime I get reminded at how painfully childish dazai is. his little expressions. playing video games. skipping on rocks. playing arcade games. picking locks like it’s a magic trick. the entire nickname of odasaku just screams little kid energy.

and then he’ll get stabbed and viscerally traumatized in the same episode and we have become so accustomed to the port mafia’s violence that we forget how BAD that is. he’s so sad holy fuck.

[sisterdivinium]

For the curious:

The VtM doctor superion AU manuscript is still waiting for revision. Patience! At least it has a title now.

Meanwhile, I've started work on the other longer doctor superion AU which I've dubbed the "teenagers AU" (it has a title too but I don't want to mention it just yet). That should take me a few months.

This means I get to reiterate how only drabbles will be posted (with their usual regularity) while these stories get done. I'm still here, of course, just a little bit quieter instead of seeking out forgotten WN posts people don't reblog anymore so I can reblog them myself -- then again, I do occasionally pop into Dreamwidth to talk about other things apart from WN and fictional nuns in general, so there's that too and you're welcome to come hang out :)

[mafesti]

CoD Thoughts #1

Making a new series so I don't have to keep the thoughts to myself 🌱 The game's been out for like 2 years now and I still can't get over it sooo

-- Our memories engraved

So I saw a picture of Ghost holding Soap's vest while saying "Wish me luck, Johnny." (Not a real scene in the game btw)

And I've been thinking, I wonder if he actually kept that vest like a good luck charm. So like before every start of mission, he'll say "Wish me luck, hope you watch over me, etc."

Or maybe he keeps it next to him, even when asleep so even though Soap's not with him, he can at least have a remembrance to show that Soap was really there, alive, and was once blabbering everything to him non-stop just so he could keep the conversation alive.

I also like to think that he enjoys those sleepless night with Johnny whenever a mission was bothering him, even though he won't openly admit it.

[tubbytarchia]

I know CC Jimmy goes along with the bullying etc bits all playfully and isn't actually hurt and that's cool!! But as far as C Jimmy goes that last SOS episode fucking broke me. I cant take this that was so SO dreadful to get through. I love you CC Jimmy but the way your character gets treated against his will hahahahahha god I will. I need to kill someone

[greypetrel]

Art Summary 2023

Now that it's 2024.

This year has been probably one of the most in terms of growth ever since I was in university and attended art school in the evenings. It's been a difficult year, and horribly unproductive for my original projects, BUT! New friends, new things and look, I can colour now in a way that doesn't make me scrunch my nose. These are few of my favourite works in terms of quality and in how much fun I had when doing them.

Plus nasty face reveal don't mind the "deer in frontlights" expression I'm not comfortable on that side of the camera, but I'm actually threee seagulls in a trenchcoat and they aren't that good at impersonating a human.

Thank you to everyone who's here, old and new, it's been a pleasure and I hope it's been nice having me around for you too. . <3

[pretentiouswreckingball]

hi loves xx

A little fyi, I won’t be as active as I used to because of two things 1) whenever I’m here I get in a very dangerous loop (hehe) and it’s not worth it and 2) I’ve been doing really good in therapy lately and for someone who has been hanging by a thread for years, this means a lot to me. I don’t want the time I spend here to be the detriment of that achievement because even though I’m really putting in the work, is still a very fragile state of mind.

So, as a compromise to myself, I’m turning off notifications and focusing more on other things I want to pursue. I’m not really going away or anything, I’ll keep my queue going and I’ll be here from time to time, I just won’t be as active as I used to, that’s all.

And you might ask yourself, couldn’t I just do that without doing a post about it? Surely. But then, what’s this place if not my personal void to shout at?

[keemitthefeog]

im so mad for riz right now from a story perspective. he is putting his health, his mind, his heart into everything right now, helping his friends, reassuring his mom, trying to find out more about the people SABOTAGING everything he has RISKED HIS LIFE FOR, DIED FOR, and he is the only one taking it seriously

he is a poor goblin kid who has had every card stacked against him and even when he is pulled down by his friends, he wants to help them back up, he needs to, because he loves them, but also because without them, its over for him. he wont get into college.

he is making connections with clubs he doesnt even know about, and yeah the beekeeping club has only one member, but fabian has literally made an enemy of that club in less than five minutes. riz NEEDS extracurriculars. he NEEDS every step up he can get, and his friends own self destructive tendencies or lack of social manners are catching riz in the shrapnel.

and that's good storytelling! thats tension, thats interesting!

but my heart breaks for riz. near the end of episode 6 he tells his friends multiple times that the ratgrinders are trying to get them kicked out of school!! he is investigating and keeping his head on a swivel and trying everything in his power to stay above water. and the fact that his best friends are making it hardest for him breaks my heart.

and i loved that at the end riz said to the bad kids, lets make all our effort worth more. the time, and blood, and spells, and growth we have thrown into saving the world have to be worth it. lets make kristens platform angle it so kids that risk their lives can have an easier go of it at school. and i do love that all the bad kids felt the same way. because they are all going through rough times, they are all confused, and stressed, and breaking up and breaking down. the bad kids are all really really sweet kids, with their hearts in the right place

but still my heart breaks for riz because he is the only bad kid taking the steps and searching for a way out. and im glad riz has the heart and the love for his friends to make the tunnel out big enough for all of them

[paint-music-with-me]

WAIT DID MEW PUT THE AUDIO ON THE SPEAKERS!?!?!

WHEN HE WAS ON THE PHONE IN THE BEDROOM, HE LOOKED DOWN AT THE SPEAKERS. AND THEN WHEN TOP TURNS HIS HEAD TO THE DOOR, IT WAS CUZ THE MUSIC WAS PLAYING-

MEW FUCKING DROPPED THE AUDIO AS LOUDLY AS POSSIBLE ON THE FUCKING SPEAKERS

HE BLANKETED THE FUCKING BEDROOM WITH THAT AUDIO

[manasurge]

lol working on vent art but I don't even know if I can get it done before i have to go to bed for work tomorrow -_- And tomorrow is arguably the worst day to work for me (canada day) bc something bad always happens and it feels like half of Toronto comes to our store location bc we're open while they all have the day off :) and on top of that I was given a long shift. I'm very bummed out rn.

[meirimerens]

bruh the creep i had to romantically reject three times (four if you count her "lovesick ramblings" [direct quote]) in the span of not even a year and who called me a "jerk" and "insecure" for not wanting to long-distance e-date her unwarranted-evadaniil-porn-sending ass followed me after a year of no contact on the instagram i don't update, haven't posted on in a year, don't share any followers/following with her on, & that i only mentioned on this blog Once over 2 years ago. on Valentine's Day Eve out of all days. what in the maidenless behavior is this.