#my skills are like so unrelated to anything useful lol

[us-the-voices-and-more-voices-2]

me: why don’t I remember some things

also me: OH YEAH L TAKES OVER FOR LIKE 87% of EVERYTHING

[gatheringbones]

If I'm 23 and have never been in a sexual or romantic relationship, is there a point in trying? I feel like I missed the boat on developing the skills necessary to make either of those things work, and it'd be selfish of me to expect others to hold themselves back so I can unlearn all of my emotional and sexual issues with them. Part of me feels like it's possible to unlearn all of that by myself, but another part feels like it's like any other two-person activity and no amount of solo practice can really prepare you for actually engaging with another person. And honestly, it just hurts that I'm this old and this far behind, that there's this whole side of the world that I haven't experienced, these whole new facets of people's inner worlds and intimacies that I haven't been exposed to. I feel like I have only a very surface-level relationships with even my platonic friends because I don't actually understand or relate to anything going on in their romantic or sexual lives. Like I'm an overgrown child. It doesn't help that I'm very isolated by the material conditions of my life and I can't see those changing anytime soon. I dunno. I realize that I'm just demonstrating all of the negative traits you were talking about and that I'd just be using a partner as a tool for my own masturbatory self-aggrandizement (i.e. caring more about wanting to float around in a sea of my own feelings instead of forming an actual connection to another human being.) It just sucks to admit the truth that I have to become a whole person before I can stop being alone and that it'll probably take me like years before that happens and then I'll be a thirty year-old virgin in a world of people looking for someone to settle down with that I'm going to have to ask to be the equivalent of a high-school fling. I'm sorry for ranting in your inbox, I guess if anything it's a good indication that your post struck a nerve in the insecure do-nothing fandom lol

I realized partway through reading this that what you are reacting to in such horror is in many ways the story of my life and I found it very funny. when I reached the part about the terrifying fate of being a 30 year old virgin I laughed so hard I scared the dog.

I met c when I was twenty nine. my life was unrelenting isolation and horror. I’d kissed all of three people. I didn’t stop being a quote unquote virgin until six months into our relationship. I spent most of my twenties doing exactly what you described: floating through the motions of dating using other human beings to play out preconceived ideas about myself that only left me bored and bewildered. Everyone I met was doing the exact same. We treated each other abysmally; like objects.

then I kept looking and kept throwing out my net and c showed up (because she was looking and throwing out her net). your question made me so exuberant with joy I upset the senior citizen chaweenie mix she adopted five years before she ever met me.

everything will turn out all right.

[isadelusions]

Captain Curly Headcanons!! from Mouthwashing

| modern au | fem reader | married :)

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Married headcanons

His Love language

•Act of service

-Since I’m sure that he is a busy man,when he has time to be with you,he will literally try to help with anything if he can.

-I can see him as a workaholic but if your not feeling well, he would try to get off his job early to take care of you or maybe even try to cook a healthy meal for you (well uh.. his cooking skills are hm..). After all, your his wife;)

-When he’s brushing his teeth and noticed you left some unrelated bathroom items on the sink? He will place them back where you would usually put it. He sees your one dirty place next to the sink which you planned to wash after using the restroom? He immediately gets that plate clean.

- He’s a sweet gentleman

•Physical touch

- When it’s just the two of you finally having time for each other, he definitely gets all over you.

- Watching a movie together, ur legs stacking onto his, getting close and comfy, his arm around your waist while you lean in close to him.

- Probably gets bored of the movie and starts to caress your fingers with his free hand, gently giving you a small massage for ur finger which wore that beautiful ring since marriage.

- Would totally place a hand on your thigh while the other on the steering wheel. You lectured him about it,how it isn’t safe and he would retreat back to his original position but does the same action again after a few minutes.

- Would hug you from the back and rest his chin on your head or shoulder.

- Pls give this man his cuddles and kisses.

Nicknames for you

- It’s just natural for him to call you hunny or hun. For exp: ‘You good there,hun?’

- He would call you my love too,like greeting you a ‘Good morning my love’ or ‘I’ve got something to tell you, love’

Random scenarios lol

- At a restaurant, if curly received his meal but it wasn’t the right order, he would just tell himself to suck it up and eats the meal or he either doesn’t care and still eats it. He feels like it’s troublesome for the employees to take back the meal.

-But if he was supposed to be served his favourite meal, you can tell by the expressions on his face, his lips curled in slightly looking a bit sad. Before he prepares to consume the food, you took the plate of meal away from him and asked the waiter politely to receive the right one.

- Curly would try to stop you but in the end he’s hesitant too. After all, he’s served with the right warm meal and appreciates your gesture.

- He would randomly thank you about it after having a few bites and repeats again. Trying to show how much he appreciates you.

-Dad jokes. He loves to tell you random dad jokes just to see that annoyed expression from you. It doesn’t really annoy you but some are just not funny. You secretly do like it tho because he’s curly after all.

-Night owl or Morning Bird? He can be both honestly,really depends on the event. If he’s up early,he would go for a jog, stops by pretty bushes of flowers and would take pictures just to send them to you. So sometimes you would be awake by his notifications, by different kinds of flowers.

Stays up late due to work or a rare chance which is to binge watch movies with you,even though it just always ends up into cuddles and a long comforting talks which the both of you love.

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Hope you guys enjoyed it! Don’t be shy to send a request or some ideas. My requests are open! (Still new to writing ffs and looking forward to improve!!) I think I might make some oneshots according to some of the hcs here,byeee:0

oneshots > Comforting Porridge

[sophie-frm-mars]

I just wanna gush about DBT for a second

DBT saved my life so I'm gonna spend a moment telling everyone how helpful it can be because I know there are a lot of people with BPD out there who need to hear it.

so cluster B personality disorders are characterised by, among other things "unrelenting crisis" - this is the combination of the feeling that every small problem you encounter is just yet more insurmountable bullshit and the reality that you have a lot of bad shit going on in your life, some of caused by the wider world beyond your control and inevitably some of it self-inflicted. The problem is, to someone who is constantly activated and feels life as this kind of non stop catastrophe, it's really hard to practice skills learned in therapy to do anything about it AND it feels impossible to judge what is an appropriate thing to spend your energy on, where to even begin tackling your problems.

The group component of DBT is explicitly justified in the therapists' manual as tackling this, which I think is genius. A borderline patient will bring new problems to their therapist every week and not focusing on them will trigger feelings of abandonment but the patient will definitely have forgotten all about this problem and moved onto a new one by next session or the one after so you have two therapies, one talk therapy one-on-one and the other a group setting like a class where you learn the DBT skills, and then in the group setting no patient feels like they're being especially ignored by the therapist because they're all there to learn the skills as peers. I just think that's really clever

The bit that really whips though is the skills around Accumulating positive experiences and Building mastery. Okay so your life feels like shit, right? Like one shit thing after another? Your therapy is to have a nice time and get better at something in a way that makes you proud. There's a whole acronym for the skills you need to use to keep yourself well, ABC PLEASE, but C and PLEASE are all essentially preventative skills to stop you having an actively bad time or worsening your mental health, and A and B (Accumulate positive experiences, Build mastery) are the ones where you're proactively creating your life worth living and I love it so much.

Accumulating Positive Experiences really does just mean having a nice time in an intentional way. It can literally be watching TV, it can be whatever you want, but you approach it thinking about what will make good experiences that will actively make you feel like you are leading a life worth living. My girlfriend and I went to the planetarium and took edibles last month and it owns so hard that according to DBT that's therapy

Building Mastery is all about helping you get a sense of momentum and direction by improving at something, ideally something that isn't also what you do for work. I know "get a hobby" seems like such basic advice for helping someone out of a rough time but like I've been bouldering since early last year and seeing myself get better at it has been impossibly good for me.

I've been getting into cooking this year as one of my Building mastery practices, at first just regularish like "how can I feed myself in a way that feels like I'm showing myself care at all" like finally learning how to make some of the comfort foods I had in childhood like beef stew, or trying out new things on my very basic salmon, potatoes and broccolli, like teriyaki glaze on broccolli or making hasselback potatoes. Then after a while it became a thing where I felt confident enough to actually thing about a little project and do it like around when my gf and I started officially dating I made her roast lamb and dauphinoise potatoes (nothing photographs well, sorry in advance lol), or we started rewatching Twin Peaks and I really wanted cherry pie so I made my own, which I had never done before!

and at the same time as improving at that stuff I felt like I was good enough at it that cooking for other people was a way I could show them care, which was something I had always wanted but never put in the time to making a reality.

In The Endings Machine: Technology & Teleology I talked about how cooking vegan food in groups is more effective in several ways that going vegan yourself and afterwards my sister (who helped with recording) said to me and a friend "I've been thinking about this ever since filming, we should do this!" and we've been holding a rotating vegan group meal at other's places fortnightly since then, and it's been really good! (This idea btw was partly inspired by my time on the ZAD where communal living leads to group cooking on a rotation, mostly vegan) For the first one I made a spicy mushroom pasta, then I had to bring the dessert to one and I made a vegan chocolate tart with coconut milk instead of dairy making a coconut chocolate filling and it was SOOO good

Last week the vegan meal was at mine again and it fell on halloween so we invited more people and arranged a little spooky movie screening and I made SOOO much food and it was all fucking fantastic. My gf and I made dhal makhani, aubergine rice, parathas, vegan raita and onion bhajis and served them with some mango chutney and some oven-cook samosas that were just from big tesco. I'm so fucking proud of myself, I've never cooked this much before and it went so well! I guess what I really want to get across is how looking at this from the DBT perspective I gotta get across how good this shit is for your mental health and how absurdly well it dovetails with building community.

There are all sorts of other ways Accumulating positive experiences and Building mastery help, because DBT is a very holistic approach to helping people get better - like if you know what things you like doing and you plan them to be available to you, you know that you're going to be happy with your own company, which means if you're having a shit time around someone else you're happy saying "I would be having a better time being alone right now" and just leaving. That makes it easier to live up to your self-respect goals, which are a big part of the DBT interpersonal effectiveness skills, as well as helping to tackle every cluster B girlie's deep seated fear of abandonment.

I could go on an on, but the salient thing right now is that there are a lot of people struggling with stuff I relate to as someone who has had my shit rocked by Borderline Personality Disorder for years and years, and I know that the biggest feeling at core is like "what is this all for? what is the thing that we are all trying to do in the space we are chaotically scrabbling to try to clear all the time?" and this is the answer: you want to accumulate positive experiences and build mastery, and when you get to doing it you have such a profoundly more grounded sense of being in the world, of what it is that's worth being here for and what stands in the way of life just being like that for everyone and a more meaningful drive to try and make it be that way for everyone.

I also wanna go on and on about how Interpersonal Effectiveness makes everyone better at organising too, but I think the Life Worth Living is the better sales pitch for DBT. idk in short a close friend pitched it to me a little while ago that all leftists should learn DBT and it would make the revolution way easier and the more I live of my life worth living the more I agree.

[inkie-does-whump]

Hi! I’ve been thinking about your lab au and was wondering, what are the lifer’s specialties and what are they advertised as? Like, you mentioned Etho specializing in coding and Scott being advertised as a personal assistant, so I’m curious about the others! Just whoever you have things for already is fine! Oh, and how do the watchers decide how to advertise as what? Hope you have a lovely day and remember to stay hydrated!

I've been keeping this ask on the back burner for a while now, and every time I check my asks I see it and remember to drink water lol

When it comes to what jobs the subjects are rented for, the Watchers have suggestions but it's ultimately up to the renter.

Sometimes the Watchers will ban subjects from certain types of work due to... Hazards. For example, Joel is not allowed to do any type of public service work due to his tendency to bite literally anyone he can get his teeth on. Instead those jobs will get filled by someone else, Pearl, Scott and Martyn all work well in that field.

Renters can sort their purchase by subject or by the work they're best suited for. You know you like Lizzie? Easy peasy, just click and click and she'll be at your door in a day! Or do you know you need someone to do a job, but don't care who exactly? Sort by their work and you'll have a whole list of subjects that can help you!

Technology problem? Here's information on Mumbo, Etho, Impulse, Tango and Doc! Take your pick!

Need someone to do manual labor? We've got a list of subjects for that too!

Additionally, their website automatically sorts itself by location. Since there are several locations, renters probably want to order from the lab closest to them. And if they want a specific subject that's not near them, they'll be shuttled to the closest lab before being sent from there to the renter.

Why is it that Scott is in nearly EVERY smp? Well, he just has lots of fans all over :3

When the Watchers get a new renter, they will be categorized by skill. Of course the Watchers already know tons about them from their background checking before the kidnapping, but they also let new subjects have unlimited access to the Practice Room to see what they naturally gravitate to.

Hmm, seems like Cleo likes art? Let's make sure she's suggested for architecture, and painting murals, and sculpting.

Tango is immediately drawn to the trinkets and wires? IT work! Engineering! Welding!

You might think the Watchers would want to avoid putting subjects with work they enjoy, but they actually do it on purpose. They force the subjects to associate the things they enjoy with work. Unrelenting work.

For example

Lizzie is used to unwinding via painting. She's been pushed to her limits all day, she just needs a moment to herself. Something to get her mind off all the demands.

But her paintbrushes have been in her hands all day. She's covered in colors. The thought of painting anything else today makes her sick.

So she just goes to her room, and lays in bed, and stews in her exhaustion and anxiety.

The Watchers eat it up.

Rarely, like in Gem's case, subjects will be captured for a very specific purpose without regard for their skills or enjoyment.

Gem was taken just for her body. Her whole purpose tied up in lace and corsets. She's here to look nice and be agreeable and be punished if she doesn't comply.

Her biology degree doesn't matter. Her scientific studies will be abandoned.

She doesn't need any knowledge in her pretty little head actually. She doesn't need to be able to do anything with her hands.

She just needs to smile and nod. To do just what she's told.

To answer your original question, here's a quick rundown of the popular jobs and who it suggested for them:

Technology: Etho, Impulse, Tango, Mumbo

The arts: Cleo, Bdubs, Scar, Lizzie

Manual labor: Impulse, Cleo, Skizz, Jimmy, Joel

Public service: Pearl, Scott, Martyn,

Escort: Gem, Lizzie, Scott

Pet/childcare: Cleo, Scar, Jimmy

Home assistant: Skizz, Scott, Jimmy

Grian doesn't get rented anymore, and Ren is only ever rented for one very specific reason

[theamityelf]

Hi! Before I ask anything, I just wanted to tell you that I love your writing! I binged all your DR fics + went through (all) your masterlists hehe. I really like the way you write the characters, their relationships etc. I've been in a writing slump for so long that reading your blog made me want to open my laptop again.

If you don't mind, on your last post. Can you elaborate on Despair Shuichi 👀👀 In my head, instead of the anxious, pragmatic guy that he is– He's just a despair gremlin 😭😭 Like causing chaos through spreading misinformation and stuff. (plus I wonder how Makoto reacts to that cute, shy kouhai he remembered now being all bold now)

(Thanks so much!! It's always super reassuring to get compliments like that, lol.)

Okay, so you're already correct that his area would be misinformation, at least at first. (Incidentally, that is also true for Kyoko in the Despair's Throbbing Heart universe.) Towards the beginning of the despairening, Shuichi's role was to expose a strategic combination of real secrets and fake ones. So like, a high-profile murder happens, and Shuichi solves it without even being asked, revealing that the murderer was also very high-profile (ideally a politician). He nudges private scandals into the public eye. Private projects. And based on the legitimacy he gains from doing those things, he can suddenly say pretty much whatever divisive lies he wants, and people will believe him en masse before anyone with the mind to question it even gets a hand on the ball.

(Since this AU takes place after the V3 class have been Class 79, this suggests something must have gone down between Shuichi and Kyoko. After all, my Class 79 arrangement has him as Ultimate Detective's Assistant, and the Ultimate Detective's Assistant works with the Ultimate Detective, at least in theory. One assumes Class 78 is despair in this AU, since the initial ask about the V3 cast as despair was a follow-up to a Both Classes Despair AU post, so maybe Despair Kyoko and Despair Shuichi were confusing the masses by being at odds. They've both gained legitimacy by being frequently right, but then suddenly they start disagreeing. Very publicly and loudly. Sometimes Shuichi is lying and Kyoko isn't, sometimes it's the opposite, sometimes they're both lying, and sometimes they're both telling the truth in different ways. It makes people want to take a side, but picking either one will mean being misled most of the time.)

This role for them is only useful before the world powers collapse. Once everyone is kind of languishing in rubble anyway, there's no real point to spreading misinformation, or at least not as carefully as they were doing it. Flyers and wall graffiti are the main medium for lies at that point, and that's kind of not their area.

At that point, they're both more like spies, using their investigative skills to gain intel on resistance efforts.

Personality-wise, he's kind of the inverse of Despair Kokichi, in that Despair Kokichi presents as really high-energy in front of people and then is actually really somber and dull in private. Despair Shuichi does everything to come across as mopey and ignorable, but when by himself or among people who know him personally (his classmates, or Makoto), he reveals himself to be having a lot of fun.

For some length of time, he definitely toured with Kaede while she played music for people, because being her unassuming tagalong gave him access to large gatherings, where he could sneak around and overhear secrets and just generally notice things about people. Kaede plays one of her post-apocalypse concerts, and Shuichi slips away into the crowd and then returns to her afterward like, "There's a group of 'rebuilders' working out of the sewers. They've been storing up weapons down there, planning take the territory back from Owada in a few months."

"Sounds flammable," Kaede muses, and Shuichi grins.

"Definitely flammable."

(Unrelated, but Kaede loves piano so much, she definitely has to play wrong notes in order to get despair out of it. Like, if she played a song correctly and to completion, it would fill her with hope, so she has to make sure to play discordant notes periodically throughout, to remind herself that the idiots she's playing for don't notice or care, because nothing means anything.)

The relationship between Despair 79th Class and Despair 78th Class is more fond than the kind of frenemy relationship between the 78th and 77th, so Kaede and Sayaka might have done concerts together a few times. Assuming Makoto was with Sayaka during some or all of those times, he and Shuichi spent some time together, backstage.

"You look great," Shuichi says, his perceptive gaze sweeping over Makoto from head to toe and back. He still uses the bill of his cap to try to hide his looking, but he's not doing it now. "Looks like Maizono is...keeping you in comfort."

Makoto pulls self-consciously at the clothes Sayaka got for him. They're kind of gaudy and expensive, compared to what he's used to. "Uh, yeah. She is."

"Good," Shuichi laughs. "If she weren't, I'd ask Kaede to choke her out with her piano wire."

Makoto is unable to hide how his stomach drops, how his eyes widen. He heard, through other people, that their kouhais changed just like his classmates, just like their senpais, but...this is his first time meeting Shuichi after the biggest, most horrible, most tragic event. His first time hearing him make light of something so violent and laugh about it, with a carefree smile as if everything that happened, everything he's done, were nothing to him.

"Oh, s-sorry," Shuichi stammers, still smiling but now visibly nervous. "I forgot, you're still...so innocent."

A chill creeps up Makoto's spine, and he can't meet Shuichi's eyes anymore. It's not disgust; it's just so disheartening. He needs a minute to adjust. "I wouldn't call it innocence," he replies. "I just don't think any of this is right. Do you?"

Shuichi sidles closer. "Sometimes it takes an extreme calamity to give the world a chance to recover. Think about what would have happened if we'd allowed things to continue the way they were. All of the secret projects Kirigiri and I unearthed. Even thinking as small as Hope's Peak, they were never going to stop at just one Kamukura! They would have done it to as many people as they could get away with. We found a list, you know. A list of potential candidates, ones they were considering to be their second Kamukura..."

"I don't...know whether you're lying," Makoto says.

Shuichi lets out a laugh. A genuine one, and slightly grim. "I guess you don't. You weren't with us when we found it."

"The harm we do to people now isn't better than the harm they were doing to people then. Even if the school and the...the ones in power...The fact that they were hurting people doesn't mean we get to destroy everything. We're just hurting more of the same people who were getting hurt before!"

"Why do you always say 'we'?" Shuichi asks, tilting his head.

"If the point is to help people, then we should be helping them."

"I didn't mean to make you mad."

...Makoto sighs, at the sight of Shuichi's pouting face, his cap partially hiding his eyes. He places a hand on Shuichi's arm. "I know you're better than this. I know you. That's why..."

Shuichi lifts his head, but his eyes aren't meeting Makoto's eyes. They're on his neck instead. His fingers gingerly trail over the marks left by the collar Sayaka sometimes makes him wear (whether it's bruising or just a tan line). And he smiles. "You don't have to try so hard to hide that, you know. I-I think it's cute."

The concert starts, and Makoto slips away to give food and whatever else he can to those stranded out on the streets. And he does his best not to notice Shuichi tailing him the whole time.

(next post)

[valentin1k]

☉ and for ϟ in landslide when vale clocks that it's the candle that's giving casey a headache and casey realises vale changed his cologne for casey!! SO sweet because it's such an understated moment, vale without any fuss or show doing something kind for casey... in general i'm a sucker for vale being very observant around casey, a skill that can be used for both good and for evil, so it really hits the sweet spot for me :) also because vale doesn't really think twice about it, it's not a big deal for him, but it CLEARLY is for casey. a+ characterisation

☉ what do you do when you get stuck writing?

ok lol so when i'm actually writing seriously and making myself lock in, i give it 1-2 days and i go read something else altogether, related to what i'm writing or often completely unrelated, and within those 1-2 days i just end up coming back to it on my own with fresh ideas. with fic which i am much more lenient about because it's a hobby, i do just abandon it for weeks at a time and then circle back when i have the time and energy... if i get stuck specifically with characterisation then i just power through because i know i'll get it eventually

ϟ tell me what moment/scene in [fic] made you sicko in the window.jpg to read and i’ll tell you which scene made me feel that way to write

i'm SO happy that the cologne bit works for everyone who's read that fic and commented on it because threw it in essentially as placeholder dialogue that i was going to cut later because i needed the scene to progress so i could figure out the shape of the fic. and then almost immediately i realised i should ABSOLUTELY keep it. i only came up with it because perfumes and colognes are migraine triggers for me so when i have to reach quickly for "thing that could make someone's head hurt" i always think scents. my favourite part of writing casey/vale is the imbalance in the things they think of as important and exactly like you say, it's not a big deal for vale, but it is for casey! that exact mismatch can be kind of bad for them also lol but in this instance it's pretty sweet :) wow this was not supposed to be a commentary lol, to actually ANSWER THE QUESTION, scene that made me feel sicko in the window:

Nominally, both Casey and Valentino are retired. Right now, Casey feels starkly how different their lives actually are; Casey has no one to text, no plans to reschedule. His calendar is, in fact, clear for the next whole week, time set aside to recover from the trip to Spain. Casey remembers actually feeling younger than Valentino. Unable, suddenly, to stand the sight of Valentino at all, he escapes to the bathroom. Avoiding eye contact with the mirror, he splashes cold water on his face, hoping it will help with the headache. Conversely, it only grows worse, pressure building.

i did write half of this fic actively stuck in bed because of fatigue and feeling a little bitter about it lol which i absolutely projected onto casey and which i stand by! i think he would feel really weird about it! and, also, trying to run away from his headache and accidentally in the process making it worse... this wasn't actively supposed to be an allegory for anything but i think it's also a very casey thing to happen lol

[vikcacao]

Uhh I'm gonna leave this ask here at an unholy hour because... I can.

To be honest I've been avoiding leaving any asks in your inbox because I feel like a stalker.... but I just want to say I love your work, writing and art wise. Every time I try to draw digitaly I want to put myself down like a dying dog. Very envious on your skills. Also just in general love the gay fish thing you got going on and I'm obviously super hyped for the god AU. Like I would yap more but I don't know if you want to sit through me running my mouth off about my stupid uncle nephew head canons about sukuna and Yuji and my stupid aus for like... hours. Or me asking you ten billion questions about THR. (I feel the need to see 10000000 diagrams and read through a whole bible of straight science textbooks worth of info. Stupid autism)

Also unrelated, but there is something crawling VERY LOUDLY in my room and I have no idea what it is. I'm scared. Anyways yap is over, I'm going to lay down now.

-Dakota.

i dont think youre a stalker lmao, i love answering asks so id pretty much never turn them down.

but thank you !!! i never expected people to seriously like my stuff, so its really nice to be told that you do !!!

the leap from traditional to digital is actually kinda easy in my experience. lots of the skills and techniques i learned while drawing traditionally are used when i draw digitally, the hardest part is learning and getting comfortable with the program you choose. my first digital program was IBIS Paint X, and i sometimes still use it lmao

i do like listening to you and youre sibling talk abour yalls aus, im just very quiet when i do lol. you can talk to me about pretty much anything and its guaranteed at the very least I'll make it known i read it. anything either about your aus or mine I'll talk about with ya

[rellbot]

unrelated to anything but i found a recording of when i was playing league with my friends three years ago. and i got so sad because 1. i miss playing with a full team everyday, my best friend and me are the only ones left (and we can't play everyday anymore bc university) 2. i miss how league used to be, i'm pretty sure everyone else hated it 3 years ago though lol 3. that was three years ago :(( hoooow

the recording is one full game (where i'm fucking INTING on akshan bot, i can't believe i used to carry games with skill like that and now i can't do it) and it ends in champ select of the next game where i picked SION SUPPORT for some unholy reason?? i'm gonna check if i have that game buried somewhere on my pc in a couple of days cause i wanna know how it went (intfest most likely)

[livmadart]

This is unrelated but the empath Hakuba post is helping cook up ideas for the mixing of my playthrough of Master Detective Archives: Raincode and my interest in Detective Conan! Basically within the game there are Master Detectives that have supernatural powers that help with investigation and I've been thinking about what kind of powers the detectives of Detective Conan would have!

To maybe help with this separate power au, here are some of the powers that Master Detectives in Raincode have!

Post-Cognition: The ability to look into the past. It's specifically used to see the crime scene as it was when it was first discovered with exception of seeing anything living. There are various in-lore reasons for the limitations that I won't go into here

Audio Aptitude: When the user concentrates they can hear just about any noise such as footsteps, breathing, and heartbeats.

Disguise: The user can make a perfect disquise of anyone. This does however put a big strain on their body so it can't last long

Coalescence: The user can share abilities with others as long as the other person allows it and is holding their hand. This is a 2 way street!

And that's all the powers I can think that sound cool. I haven't finished the game so there is probably some cooler power I don't know about yet lol. Anyways hopefully this can grease some gears for this power au thing!

Hi! I’ve never heard of this game but it sounds fun! And you know I am all for slightly supernatural dcmk AUs 😎

I think out of the powers you mentioned, they would fit the Gosho boys as follows:

Shinichi would get Post-Cognition, since he’s already so skilled at evaluating the crime scenes and working backwards—it would really help him out on investigations

Hakuba would get Audio Aptitude. I think that that power would be helpful catching thieves and it matches well with his fondness for timekeeping—he could always hear the tick of his watch

Kaito gets Disguise. Need I say more?

I would give Coalescence to Heiji. He’s so hands-on and I think he could get really creative with a power like this!

Thank you for your ask!

[play-rough]

So, I know you have a post on the ADA members' classifications, but have you ever thought about what the members of the PM's classifications are?

-🐈‍⬛ anon

A lot of them I hadn’t thought of so i reserve the right to change these later lol

Mori- neutral

Just a guy. I think there’s a level of ignorance there too because he’s a neutral. Littles being looked down upon (especially younger ones) is an older point of view, i imagine it was opinions the old boss had that have been instilled into Mori because I’m a sucker for generational trauma (i imagine the old boss would just casually be like “hm littles are disappointing aren’t they, not very useful” and he would think that was an appropriate dinner conversation)

Hirotsu- neutral

Neutral and also from that era where Littles tend to be looked down upon, however as an Old Man who still gets involved in physical fights i think he has learned to not judge anyone based off of anything other than skills

Akutagawa- Torn between alpha/little depending on what’s going on with atsushi, learning towards alpha especially if gin is little

Gin- little age 8-12

A bit of a late bloomer, she thought she was neutral for all her younger years, presented around 17? I don’t have the bsd timeline memorized but i think she would have presented after Dazai defected. Idk if that works out lmao skfkksksks i dont know her canon age off the top of my head so maybe she’s 45 idk idk. She usually regresses to a preteen age and enjoys mystery novels and ‘scary’ things like goosebumps. She has a stuffed tarantula named Legs

Tachihara- alpha

Loves helping out gin bc they’re best friends, she loves telling him what’s going on in her mystery novels and sometimes he reads them to her. The plot usually goes over his head but Gin is excited and that’s all he cares about. Horrified the first time he saw her spider.

Kajii- neutral, but there were rumors that he was little because he smelled so heavily of sweet citrus, turned out to be unrelated

Oda- alpha

There is an alternate universe where he’s Dazai’s caregiver instead of chuuya

Ango- neutral

Historically everyone in his family has been neutral

Higuchi- alpha (will sometimes babysit Gin with akutagawa, she’s a handful)

Verlaine- alpha

Not doing all the flags 😭

Q- unclassified, suspected neutral. Classifications usually present around puberty (anywhere from 11-17 depending on the person, sometimes you classify really early, sometimes late. Average is around 14)

Hopefully didn’t forget anyone lol

[darthkvznblogs]

Sir, if you don't mind, could you please answer a few questions: 1) What are the differences between the Greek tinanes and those from the boiling islands. 2) How do the demigods see Zagreues from Hades and how did Percy Jackson get along and how do they get along? 3) Asterion from Hades met Percy Jackson and if he did, how do they get along? 4) How did Nico and Hazel get along with Zagreus? 5) How powerful was he? bill chiper from gravity falls has comparison with the gods, the diamonds and the celestials 6) there is some entity higher than the celestials such as the living court or entity

I don't mind, but please don't send me repeated questions! Feel free to use this format with multiple questions or ask them individually, but don't ask them twice (or more), it just clogs up my inbox xD

Sometimes I answer asks as soon as I get them (typically simple answers and a slow work day lol), but I usually take at least a day or two to get to most questions (and sometimes a lot more, sorry to the peeps at the bottom of my inbox, I'll get to them eventually, I promise!)

Anyway...

1 - They're completely unrelated, aside from being divine creatures of incredible power (though BI Titans have to grow into, haha). I guess you could say the Titans are actually immortal and bound to Earth like the Olympian and many other deities, whereas the BI Titans didn't really have those limitations (and in fact, dimensional travel is literally in their blood)

2 - Zagreus is a pretty obscure deity, even for demigods. Their instruction generally focuses more on keeping them alive, teaching them how to fight, defend themselves, and wield their divine power - learning about mythical figures beyond the most relevant ones is something only a few demigods care to do (like Annabeth, for example). Zag has no demigod children, and he literally can't leave the Underworld aside from very specific circumstances, so any non-Hades demigods who've met him did so after death (and have probably fought him as part of his jaunts through Elysium). Sorry to say, but Percy has never met him (nor do I think he knows about him at all haha)

3 - He also has not met Asterius. I figure if he did, he'd immediately assume it's the monster that "killed" his mom back when he was first introduced to his Greek heritage, and Asterius wouldn't care to dissuade him from a fight. I'm sure Percy would chill out (somewhat) once he figures out the difference, but I doubt he'd make much of an effort to get along with him.

4 - It's kind of awkward. Zag may be almost nothing like Hades (aside from brief flashes of temper in battle and rather lacking social skills when things get serious), so he's a lot more agreeable, but they also have very little in common with him. Hazel doesn't relish the fight or exude the same confidence as he does, Nico lacks the optimistic outlook and easygoing personality, and even though Zag understands it's not their fault, he's not exactly cool with Hades having demigod kids. They've gotten along decently well, the few times they've met, but you can tell there's some tension there.

5 - I would put Bill Cipher quite a ways above a god in terms of raw power, sure, but he does have a very glaring Achilles' heel, which was obviously exploited by the elder Pines twins and ultimately killed him.

6 - Again, I hasten to point out that Kverse!Celestials don't work the same way as Marvel!Celestials. A Celestial is the ultimate life form in the entire setting - it is naturally omnipotent, omniscient, absolutely impossible to kill or even harm. They may choose to take any form, and exert their power in any way they choose - and often choose to limit themselves in some way to make their unending, beginningless existences a bit more interesting, but they can easily unburden themselves if they so choose. There is no entity above them - anything that might look that way is just a Celestial that's taken another form, and that the other Celestials allow to act in that way for whatever reason.

[lenteur]

random thoughts about tell me that you love me, episode eight

(the rest is under the cut because i'm worried about your eyes having to read ALL OF THAT and this post might contain spoilers)

I have a love hate relationship with the scenery in kdramas because I want to live there but I can't 💔

The more I learn about jin woo, the more I feel for him. He had to adapt to the school because no one knew sign language. It's unfair and I wish the school offered him some help but alas, he grew up in an area where not a lot of things could be done to help him.

It's cute how jo han wants to make things right with mo eun after his reaction to the dating news. Proves that he's a great friend (even though he wishes he was more to her)

The four leaf clover thing is cute beyond words. It's incredible how the only people jin woo gave them to are his best friend and his lover 💖

Where can I hire a jung mo dam to cook all my dishes? If anyone knows please hit me up ;)

Jo han not wanting mo eun to come to his house is so me. I am torn and too awkward to say anything lol

This drama is filled with nosy people. First mo dam seeing his sister with jin woo, then mo eun eavesdropping on ji yu and now jin woo's student catching his teacher with his girlfriend. Girl, I would have fit right in. I know it's bad but sometimes I can't help being nosy like that lol

The aquarium scene is so beautiful, there are hearts in my eyes 😍

Jin woo slowly but surely involving mo eun in his daily life, that's character development. It's so sweet to see him open up little by little to her.

It's sad to see sometimes the only option for bullied kids is to let out all their anger and frustration at once by using violence. We don't know much about tae ho (I think that's his name?) and if he tried telling people (teachers or other adults) about the other kids bullying him but it feels like there's no escape for him. And resorting to violence was his last option because he can't take it anymore. And the bully has the nerve to say "The one who's hit sleeps better at night".

It's heartbreaking to see the kid trying to end it all by using a brick against his bully. Shows how much violence he went through. What's even more heartbreaking is him being able to raise his voice at other people but being almost defenseless when it comes to his bully. The mental toll and control a bully has over their victim is unimaginable. Tae ho raised his voice at jin woo because the latter didn't help him the other time, not knowing jin woo is deaf. But it shows how desperate victims are. They're searching for a helping hand, no matter who it is because the weight of it all is too much for one person. I wish the bullying would stop and the bully to be punished accordingly. They want to scream and ask for help but most of the time, it's either of two things: the victim can't because they know there will be repercussions or their cry for help falls on deaf ears (pun unintended).

On a completely unrelated note, seeing and hearing people write on paper is so relaxing to me. I could fall asleep to it.

Take this from someone who never wears makeup but I find it funny when in a drama, they show someone putting on makeup because it seems like there is no difference. I don't know how to explain it but it looks like there's no product on the palette/conceler/blush things and it's just for show. I shouldn't have written about this because the lack of skills and vocabulary is obvious 💔

Mo eun and jin woo are facing the first obstacles in their blooming relationship. Jin woo because he can sense mo eun's family and friends are a bit iffy about him. Mo eun because she fears she won't be able to communicate as fluently as seo kyung can with jin woo. I hope they face all hurdles together and find a solution together.

I'm happy that mo eun and jin woo are friends with so hee and her husband (what's wrong with me today? I can't remember anyone's name) so they can see that despite it all, love triumphs and they live a happy life together

I like that she reassures him she's feeling comfortable in their relationship.

Ji yu is such a great friend, defending her friend and letting the parents know her boyfriend is a good person. Thank you for being the best of friend ji yu.

THE KISS!!! don't mind me i'm going crazy haha

It was a cute episode. I liked it.

For those reasons, I'm giving it a 9/10

[ddddd-pixels]

Did another tier list on Zan Evolution Butouden, since I'm more familiar with the game now, and a few new characters have been added since my last one:

(Also I based this one more off my personal ability as the characters, rather than competitive viability. This is because I know nothing about competitive viability and was talking complete nonsense in my last list.)

Explanations/unrelated ramblings below:

S Tier – My Mains (and just good characters)

Fran and Sinkage are both bosses (and the final two at that), so it's not a surprise that they're tough. I've actually figured out some TODs as Fran against the lower health characters (i.e. Fanhua, Ranmaru and Fran herself), and while Sinkage's Rise Cutter loops no longer work as well, the addition of an elbow drop output from it makes it still a very deadly move.

Ahh, Ciara, my true main... How I love spending two meters to take an enemy's entire healthbar just because they dared to jump in my presence. Her chain grabs are just really satisfying, too, and unlike anything I've seen in any other characters I've had. (and not a full-circle motion in sight!)

A Tier – The ones I'm comfortable with

A few of these characters (Zanryu, Renmia and Jacob) are shoto-like, and therefore quite easy to learn and get good as. They're all still pretty interesting to play in their own ways: Zanryu's got enough extra tools to distance his playstyle from the typical shoto, making him more of an aerial dominator (his Air Nova Strike especially, makes his air play very hard to challenge), and Renmia's moveset is like a fusion of a shoto and Terry Bogard, making her more familiar to play, and a good beginner character.

I feel like, if I gave him more time, Casben could be in S Tier. A lot of his kit feels very powerful (in earlier builds I remember his jumping knee being able to loop into itself very easily), and both of his supers are very good (his handspring is always a very tricky cross-up when the CPU does it, but a complete whiff when I try -_-). The only thing holding him back is that I play more as everyone else, lol.

Taka is in a weird spot, where I feel like he as a character isn't that strong, but my skill can kind of make up for it? I don't know, I've had a tendency to accidentally main low tiers in other games (the first character I picked up in Sm4sh was Little Mac, and I also mained Ganondorf), and with his smaller moveset and limited combo potential, Taka feels like this to me. But I'm actually pretty competent as Taka – he's one of the few characters I can chain both supers into without an OTG, and I win most fights where I play as him.

B Tier – ...I'm okay, I guess.

I know I used to main Fanhua, but the more I play as her, the worse I get, it feels... I think my main struggle are that her Elbow Reach isn't a special move anymore, and that her rekkas don't combo (or I just can't get the timing for them :P).

Ranmaru is a character I wish I was better as, because her moveset seems so cool, but all of her inputs are half-circles, and I play on keyboard half of the time (and I'm inconsistent with half-circles even on controller). She even influenced Uta a bit (Hissatsu Shinobi Cho was very much based on Ranmaru's Elbow Dive – before I played Ranmaru, Uta was going to have "Zan'eichu", which was basically just Andy's Zan'eiken).

C Tier – Yeah... I'm losing this one

wendy I'm so sorry I love your design so much I just can't play charge characters pls don't hate me...

Leo's pretty neat, I guess; his moveset is like a Joe Higashi/Sagat fusion, with an added TC and rekka. I just never really played either of those characters much, so I don't know what to do with him.

D Tier – I have no idea what to do with these people

I've not played as any of these characters much (except for Warsnite), so I'm not at all familiar with their movesets... I tried to fight Zanryu (the person, not the character) as Feng Yun once and got folded in half immediately. I've never even attempted Spike, Antbyte or Ninewave.

I honestly can't believe I used to main Warsnite... His airdash is cool, but he's otherwise the complete opposite of what I usually go for in a character – he's got the smallest moveset in the game (which is okay, I just like having more options), and is the slowest, heaviest character. I've seen him do, like, one cool combo, and even then; it was the CPU doing it on me, and it spent one meter for damage I can outmatch with Fanhua for zero.

[neurotheascars]

Re: the post about bullying people on misspellings and reading comprehension and such.

no real, I’m the person people talk about when they say dyslexia

(I have all the other ones too, dysgraphia, dyscalclia, dyspraxia too)

And so my reading comprehension and also spelling is kinda trash, not in a bad faith way but in a “I genuinely completely missed like a whole paragraph” way.

which just sucks, I’m still extremely new to the whole “writing” thing.

genuinely if you saw something from a couple years ago vs now you’d be flabbergasted at how much we’ve improved.

but I always thought it was extremely rude to bully and or be mean about people who don’t understand or read things right or write things right.

you just genuinely do not know who they are and why they do it, whenever I try to correct someone I say it kindly and give constructive feedback.

Like genuinely it’s not hard to be kind, some people are still learning, sometimes it’s someone’s second language, sometimes they use speech to text and text to speech.

it’s just such a deeply ingrained belief that anyone who misspells or misspeaks or misunderstands is dumb or stupid.

I can’t even count on my fingers how many times I’ve misheard, worded something trash, or misunderstood or misinterpreted something.

but that’s just how I am and I can’t change it, but I can change my reaction and outcome and make friendships even after fucking up.

it’s just a sad feeling that even if you have the best intentions you still fail horribly, subtext and tone are hard to parse through, so much meaning and context gets a bit screwy when you write it down.

and sometimes life is filled with mistakes and failures and there’s nothing wrong with that, I can’t know everything and I probably never will.

I love the quote

“a jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one.”

because yeah, I’ll never be a master at English or talking or anything.

but I can be a jack of all trades, I can try to learn and be better.

more skills even though I’m not a master at any, helps so much.

We beat ourselves up and others for things we can’t control rather than lift ourselves and others up.

that’s just my thoughts on it, I just didn’t want to add it on the main post it’s pretty unrelated to the original lol.

-pop

You are so very nice to write all this pop. Sorry I take a bit to respond. The system has been super busy.

The "trouble" that I mentioned in the tags that I got into was when I said I unfollowed someone for being rude about reading comprehension and had a complete stranger come out of nowhere and correct me like I was talking about them when I wasn't and then when I said I wasn't and was frustrated that people apparently do this enough to assume unrelated call outs about it are vagues about them, they acted like I was "rude" and like...

I'm an alter that has slammed doors hard enough to crack walls. I've said such utterly fucked things. I am trying my hardest, my best, to be nice when I'm upset. I have come so far and it hurts. I use all my energy when I do it. Tumblr is almost like a kind of language thinking therapy for me. It's a good place to practice being as polite as I can, because it's safer to fail online as opposed to IRL, where backspace and walk away are not options.

To try as hard as I did and still be called rude is... Ugh. It's just awful. Especially when it was an otherwise cool blog that said that about me. They even said on their blog separately if another alter apologized on my behalf that they'd be friends with them and just avoid me.

And that's actually trauma for me! That kind of thing seriously destabilizes my system. I've had people literally abuse my system by manipulating us like that and talking about me, calling me an asshole like I can't hear. But I get that that's just a mistake too.

It's all mistakes!

I think the world would be a better place if more mistakes were seen as harmless.

Also I vibe with the jack of all trades bit. We definitely as a system feel that.

[blood-mocha-latte]

unrelated and i totally get if you're not interested in asking questions about your career but how did you become a paramedic? how long was your training? I'm hoping to get EMT certification and maybe up it to paramedic eventually, but idk how much that will really interfere with my current career path.

hi love! don’t worry about career asks, i’m totally fine with whatever anyone wants to talk about (i have Chatty Bitch Disease)

and i’m afraid i misspoke because i’m a huge idiot that doesn’t know how to use words, lol! i’m emt registered and was going to become a paramedic, but ended up going to medical school instead and becoming an emergency medicine (em) doctor, working in an er lol. BUT i’ll still outline most of what i did, just in case. i also included things that my sister-in-law did, since she actually is a paramedic, lmao.

under the cut since this is kind of niche <3

becoming a paramedic:

- got high school diploma/ged (she took classes focused in anatomy and physiology, which isn’t required but can help to get you a foothold in what you want to do. i did this as well and highly recommend it)

- doing emt-basic certification training - for both of us, this took about half a year :) it was mainly just going into things like:

how to take vital signs and offering basic life support (i.e. administering oxygen, doing cpr)

other skills like controlling bleeding, taking care of burns, splinting bones, dealing with spinal injuries, and administering limited medication sets

- getting in-field experience! my sister-in-law did this but i didn’t, which i kind of really regret. even though it’s not required, getting more hands-on experience with emt stuff before applying for a program can help you get ahead and feel less lost :)

- complete a paramedic program - this takes about 1-2 years, typically (it took me about 14 months, and my sister-in-law 12, but we went through different programs). training mostly just looks like:

cardiology, dealing with physical trauma, administering meds, airway procedures, etc

field clinical rotations and ambulance runs are also a part of this, which are pretty fun

- getting certified/licensed (this is what my sister-in-law did, i went the opposite route and ended up getting an md, lol)

all states have differences, but you’ll have to take the nremt, which gains you certification as a paramedic. depending on where you live, there are other state requirements as well that would add on to what you would need to do to receive your license.

okay, that’s about it! some of this may be iffy, since this was a while ago and i don’t know where you are in this process/where you live/some of this is by word of mouth, but i hope this is somewhat helpful!

one thing i WILL say about going into anything healthcare is make sure you have the mental toughness for it. medicine isn’t for everyone, and emergency response/intensive care can be incredibly difficult to go through and maintain parts of who you are. i know people who haven’t been able to do it, and myself have troubles with c-ptsd because of it. hours can be rough (for the majority of this year i worked for 24 hours straight with 48 off, this is what a lot of my paramedic buddies do as well) and it can get in the way of life (i had to cut my honeymoon short by 8 days because the hospital needed extra hands).

i don’t mean to scare anyone off, because i love my job and can’t imagine doing anything else, but it can be a difficult field, so make sure you have a strong support system and know what you’re in for :)

thanks for asking! i hope this is both somewhat coherent and what you were asking, lol <3