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Just Friends Pt.2 - Hwang Hyunjin Imagine

Synopsis: You have to read Part 1 in order to understand this lolol. Part 1 is here! (On Kris's blog aka @hey-hey-chan :D)

Genre: Fluff, angst

Word Count: 3.4k

A/N: O o o o o I collaborated with @hey-hey-chan on this project for @straycuties' birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASTRELLA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY TODAY. GO GET DRUNK AND GO TO A STRIP CLUB YEET YEET YEET

Slamming the door shut behind me, I threw myself onto the bed and let out a scream of frustration into my pillows and bed sheets.

The nerve of that boy, Hwang Hyunjin. The only person who I thought that I could count on in this world had left me dry and hanging on a day that he knew was important for me. He left me for what? Some girl? Mind him, a girl who already has a boyfriend and clearly has no intention of dating him. Hyunjin can go find someone else to comfort him when he's in tears when he finally comes to his senses that she won’t date him. I'm obviously not important to him compared to other things; or should I say other girls.

It was a restless night as I kept tossing and turning in my bed. I was happy that I could finally feel myself being free of Hyunjin and all his dramatics, but at the same time, I had also cried so many times during the night. I didn't want to be done with Hyunjin, but at the same time, it's obvious where his priorities lay. And I was most definitely not one of them.

Waking up the next morning, I took one look in the mirror and let out a dejected sigh. The eye bags under my eyes had gotten darker and bigger because I had stayed up all night, my hair was a mess, and my face was puffy due to my multiple crying sessions.

Scratching the back of my neck, I walked towards the bathroom and attempted to make myself look presentable for the day. Now that I declared Hyunjin to be out of my life, I wouldn't need to get all dressed up for someone. As I got ready, I checked my phone for any notifications.

"Hey, what was that??" A text from Hyunjin from last night.

"Are you okay?" Another text from him.

"It's 1 AM and I know that you're awake because you never sleep. Why aren't you responding?"

"Are you ignoring me?"

"Alright it's now 2 AM and I can see your bedroom light is on. What's up?"

"I just got a notification. Are you rabbitting without me?"

The rest of my notifications consisted of updates from Instagram or Snapchat, or they were full of Hyunjin spamming my phone. It's not like I meant to ignore him last night, but that's exactly what I had intended to do. In the midst of one of my many crying sessions, I got fed up with his spamming and turned off my phone so that I could cry in peace.

I hated feeling like this. Sad, then mad, then relieved, then sad all over again. It was a never ending cycle of emotions, and I just wanted it all to go away. I just wanted Hyunjin to go away and to leave my thoughts forever. Unfortunately, I couldn't even do that, though when the boy who I wanted to never remember again lived right next door to me, and the fact that I had to see him every day.

"Y/N!" Hyunjin called from his house the second that I had stepped foot onto my front porch. Groaning, I turned around and slowly faced him.

"What?" I snapped unhappily.

"Whoa," Hyunjin said holding up two hands to put a distance between us. "What's with the tone?"

"There's no tone," I said coldly. The irony to the sentence, though. "Do you need something?"

Hyunjin tilted his head, confused and looked at me. "Did I do something wrong?"

I almost snorted at the way that he seemed so confused. It was ironic how he didn't know, when everything he had done was wrong in all ways possible. "I don't know, Hyunjin. I'm just not feeling it today. Maybe I'll just talk to you later, yeah?" I said letting out a long sigh. I was in no mood to fight, but I wasn’t in the mood to play nice either. It was better if I just walked away now.

"Um, yeah, okay. That's fine. I'll text you later then?" Hyunjin asked, but I had already turned around and walked in the other direction.

"Yeah sure," I mumbled, but he was already too far away to hear.

----

I was sitting in a booth of a cafe sipping on a strawberry smoothie. Every few seconds, I let out a small sigh as I stared out the window of the little shop. I would always come here with Hyunjin and it felt wrong to be here by myself.

I was nearing the end of my milkshake, when I heard someone come up to the table. Thinking that it was Hyunjin, I quickly looked over only to see that it was the waiter.

"Hey, can I get you a refill or something?" The boy asked shyly, wringing his hands in front of his body. He had a bashful smile on his face; one that made his dimples show, and one that would surely melt any girl's heart.

"Oh, uh, no that's alright," I peered down at his name tag. "Chan," I said finishing my sentence. "I'm almost done anyways.”

Chan nodded in response before looking back up at me and smiling once more. "You're usually here with that boy. What happened today? Decided to take a break from one another?" Chan joked, trying to lighten the mood.

"Yes, we actually did decide to give each other some air," I shrugged my shoulders, looking at my drink and swirling the straw around my cup.

"I'm so sorry, do you want to talk about it?" Chan asked sliding into the booth seat across from mine. Narrowing my eyes at his boldness, I quirked my head at him.

"Don't you have tables to wait or plates to clean?"

"Look around," Chan held a hand out to the cafe to prove his point. "There's no one else here. Just you and I. Now, tell me what happened."

The rest of the afternoon was spent with me rambling on and on about my problem regarding Hyunjin (although I left out the part about how I felt about him) and Chan listening intently. He never once interrupted me, or said anything. He simply listened, nodded, and added in his own opinions and advice in between pauses. It was nice to finally let out all that I had been holding in.

By the time that I was done talking with Chan, the sun was beginning to set, and closing time for the cafe was fast approaching.

"Hey, you want to get out of here?" Chan asked.

"Yeah, that would actually be really nice," I nodded. One of the sides of Chan's mouth quirked upwards in a lopsided smile that almost made me want to melt again.

"Where do you want to go?" Chan asked once he had finished up locking the cafe. Pondering for a bit, I stood still before turning back to face him.

"Have you ever gotten a tattoo before?" When the words left my lips, I almost felt too stunned to even comprehend it. A tattoo? Why would I say that?

Chan furrowed his eyebrows, surprised at my question. "No... But I guess that I've always wanted to get one."

I smiled cheekily at the boy and shrugged. “So, like, how would you feel about getting one?”

The boy raised a brow and stuck his hands in his pockets. “Are you sure?”

I nodded, feeling the adrenaline rush get to me. I had never spent this much time away from Hyunjin and I was feeling the independence surge to me, making me bolder than I was before.

“Positive.”

---

The next few days consisted of minimal conversations and texts between Hyunjin and I. We didn't talk much anymore, which I suppose was fine for the most part. It felt alright to distance myself away from Hyunjin a little bit. But word got around that I had gone out with Chan to get a tattoo, and it was clear in Hyunjin's texts that he wasn't happy with any of it.

I guess it wasn’t a good move to ask Hyunjin’s cousin to do my tattoo.

"You got a tattoo?! Without me?!?!?" Was the first text that I had gotten from Hyunjin in the morning.

"Who is this Chan guy??? Why am I hearing that you went out with him??" The second text that I received from him.

"Why aren't you replying? Why are you just reading my texts?" One of the texts that I skimmed over in his spamming.

"That's it, I'm coming over."

That text was not one that I had seen, as I had been too busy ignoring Hyunjin.

"Can you please stop seeing him?" Were the first words that came out of Hyunjin's mouth when I opened my front door only to see him standing in place of it.

"Seeing who?" I asked innocently, pretending not to know what Hyunjin was going on about.

"You know who! Chan! Stop seeing him!" Hyunjin said raising his voice to be near a shout.

"What's so bad about Chan?" I asked, placing my hands on my hips in a defensive position. I was deeply confused as to why he was so mad at me all of a sudden, it’s not like he liked me.

"Everything is bad about Chan! He's not right for you."

"Oh, that's rich coming from you," I snapped back at Hyunjin. I felt my heart drop at his rude comments about Chan. Even though I wasn’t romantically involved with Chan, he was the only one there for me to spill my feelings to. He had been the one who picked me up from a hard time and I wished Hyunjin would respect that.

"You know I'm right. Chan isn't good for you. He goes around playing with girls, and you're just one of them too!"

I glared at Hyunjin, and began to fume. "How dare you say such a thing to me? You don't even know, Chan! And do you not hear the words that are coming from your mouth? Do you not understand that, that is the same thing that I told you not too long ago about her?"

"Hey, she's a great girl!" Hyunjin exclaimed narrowing his eyes.

"Yeah, I beg to differ."

"What's so bad about her?"

"Everything. Everything about her is wrong. She plays with your heart even though she has a boyfriend!"

"But why are you so mad about me liking-"

"Ah," I said holding a finger up. "Do not speak that devil's name. You'll only worsen the situation."

"Okay, so then why are you so mad about me liking her?"

"Because I like you, you idiot!" The words bursted out of my mouth before I could process them. But by the time I had realized what I had said, the damage was already done.

"You...you what?" Hyunjin quietly asked, his mouth gaping.

Sighing, I looked past Hyunjin, not daring to look him in the eyes as I began to let out the confession that I had been holding in for such a long time. “All these years, I've comforted you when you were hurt. I stood back and watched you chase after someone, and I supported you in doing so. I did everything to help you because I am your best friend. But do you know how much that hurts? To watch someone you love, fall in love with someone else? Someone who doesn't even deserve your love? It freaking sucks, Hyunjin."

Hyunjin stood back in silence. All this time, he had been moping around and pining for someone else, when in reality, here you were pining for him.

"Y/N, I'm so sorry. I just-"

"Don't," I said cutting him off. "Just leave me alone." Slamming the door in Hyunjin's face, I turned around and leaned my back against the door. Pressing a hand against my face, I finally let out all of the sobs and emotions that I had been holding in.

----

It had been almost two weeks since I had last spoken to Hyunjin. Ever since our fight, it was if the both of us went out of our ways to avoid each other in any way possible. I would make sure that Hyunjin wasn't leaving his house the same time that I was. But it sometimes occurred that we would run into each other without thinking. When that happened, then Hyunjin would rush away in the opposite direction. It hurt to see him avoiding me like that, but it was better than seeing him and having to speak with him about whatever happened. Yet, every time I clicked on my phone, I expected to find a text or some sort of notification from Hyunjin. But as always, there was nothing. Just my lock screen that displayed the date and time.

Sighing, I turned off my phone and entered the record store shop that I usually went to when I was feeling down. And in the past few days, I had especially been feeling sad and heartbroken.

I was browsing through the newest selection of records that the store had just received, when I noticed something out of the corner of my eye. Or should I say someone.

Pretending not to have seen them, I continued to look flick through the record albums when I felt his presence come up from behind me.

“I’m sorry,” Hyunjin said coming up behind me and wrapping his arms around my waist.

“Are you now?”

“Yes, yes I am so very sorry. You’re right. I shouldn’t have been so blind. I just like, she-who shall-not-be-named, a lot, and I was hoping that she would give me a chance, somehow.”

I couldn’t help but smile a little when he said “she-who-shall-not-be-named.” After all this time, Hyunjin wouldn’t say her name around me.

“Yes, well, I am always right,” I said letting out a puff of air as I continued to look through the stacks of record labels. Hyunjin rested his head on top of my shoulder and it took everything in me not to freeze up.

I didn’t like skin ship that much, but something about the way that Hyunjin was just holding onto me felt right. I hated it, but at the same time, I just wanted to hold onto him and never let go. I was supposed to be mad at Hyunjin, but talking with him again just felt...right. The longest that we had ever gone without speaking with one another was just a day, and that was because Hyunjin had gone overnight camping. Maybe it was time to reconcile with him. No, I can’t be that weak.

“Yes, you are most definitely always right,” Hyunjin mumbled nodding his head against my shoulder. “What can I do to make you forgive me? Take you out for some ice cream? Pay for your shopping spree? Make you a lavish meal?” He gave me a sheepish smile, but I wasn’t up for it at the moment.

“Well, first of all, you’re too broke to take me shopping. Second of all, I don’t want you anywhere near a kitchen because you’ll most likely burn it down.” I spat.

I could feel Hyunjin’s laughter vibrate throughout my body, and when he stepped away to look at me with the biggest eye smile ever, I couldn’t help but smile back at him.

“I really am sorry, though, Y/N. I know that I keep saying this, but you’re right. I shouldn’t keep chasing after someone who already has a boyfriend, and already said that they have no interest in me.”

I nodded slowly as I listened Hyunjin’s apology.

“And I am most definitely sorry,” Hyunjin looked down and took my hand in his and holding onto it. “For not realizing that there was a beautiful girl right in front of me who was chasing after me all this time. I should have opened my eyes and seen that it was you all this time. There’s no one else in the world except for you.”

My mouth fell open a little bit as I took in Hyunjin’s confession. I didn’t want to assume anything and get my hopes up, but his next words confirmed all of my thoughts, hopes and dreams.

“I love you, Y/N,” Hyunjin said looking right at me.

At that moment, I felt my whole world stop. I could barely understand what was happening as the words were so foreign to me. All these years, I had pined over him restlessly and watched him get with other girls; I had never imagined the same situation for me. “And before you get angry or upset or in denial, let me explain. I know that I’ve been going out with girls and pining over this girl for a year now, yet I can spend weeks without hanging out with her in person. But that one night that you stopped texting me, I felt my whole world collapsing. And when we were not talking to each other, I felt so alone like I had no one.” I saw a tear drop fall to his cheek and I resisted the urge to wipe it.

“You’re just saying that because you’ve never been without me-”

“Hah, I knew you were going to say that. But it’s true, I’d never spent so much time without you and I realized that I can’t. Whenever I see something funny, I immediately want to send it to you, but I couldn’t. When I felt antsy in my house or saw a cool event online, I couldn’t hang out with you. I know this is going to sound cheesy, but it felt like a part of me was missing and I couldn’t function without you. And trust me y/n, no one has ever made me feel this way. I’ve never fallen apart so badly.”

Suddenly, he grabbed my hands and pulled them tightly to his chest. “This heart it only beats for you now, I promise. It’s yours to break or to use or to trash, I don’t care, but it’s yours and it’s always been yours.” I felt tears rush down my cheeks as his voice cracked on the last words.

I know that I said that I was done with Hyunjin, but in that moment, I didn’t care about anything else. I had spent too many years with this boy to just drop him all of a sudden, and no matter what, I would always love him; he is, and will forever be, my best friend.

Breathing a sigh of relief, I dropped Hyunjin’s hands, stood up on my tippy toes, and wrapped my arms around his neck.

“Dammit, Hyunjin, I love you too,” I breathed in his ear, smiling as I felt him wrap his arms around my waist to lift me off the ground and spin me around. Hyunjin’s own happy giggle was the only thing I heard in my ear as we rejoiced in the aisle of the record shop.

“How did you know that I would be here?” I asked Hyunjin once he had set me down on the floor again.

“This is the record shop. You always come here when you’re angry and need to look for some sad song to listen to,” Hyunjin shrugged scratching the back of his neck.

“I never told you that I come here every time I’m mad though,” I said raising an eyebrow at him.

“Yeah, well, every time you’re angry or mad, you always ask me to take you here,” Hyunjin smiled and rubbed his nose. “But I don’t think that you’re angry or mad anymore, so let’s go!” Hyunjin grabbed my hand and led us out of the store and onto the street. I rubbed my face to hide the tears and snot from other people. It would look terrible if I walked around looking like a snot-filled mess with a boy.

“Where are we going?” I asked rushing to keep up with his pace. The boy had long legs and I could only do so much to keep up.

“Hmm, let’s go get some ice cream.”

“Ice cream? I’m lactose intolerant though,” I stated frowning a little bit at the suggestion.

“Yeah, I know you are. But half of the world is lactose intolerant too, though. That won’t stop them from indulging in a banana split every once in a while.”

“You’re an idiot.” I rolled my eyes and shoved him slightly, my strength toppling him over.

“Hey, but I’m an idiot you love.”

“Don’t push it.”

“Ok.”

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