#not all the wips have been published but they are:

[bridgertonbabe]

Signing off.

I never really thought I'd ever write a post like this and to be perfectly honest I feel a bit cringe for even making a thing out of this but I felt it necessary to address those of you who follow me and my writings.

In the last month I have been suffering severely from anxiety, waking up to what feels like a ball of dread clutching at my heart and being unable to shift it for the better part of the day. It's all come to a head as of late because I've reached a crossroads in my life where I've realised just how unhappy and unfulfilled I am. Truth to be told I really don't have any aspect in my life that I am happy with and for years I've dismissed myself and my own desires for the sake of others to the point where I have no self worth, no self confidence, and I just feel like a shell of a person. Realising that I can't go on like this, that I can't live the life I aspire to without sorting my mental health out, I've taken the first steps in getting counselling and in going to the doctors to be put on anti-depressants.

While I'm already starting to feel better, I've decided it's in my best interests to take some other steps going ahead; which is I'm logging off this account.

Don't get me wrong, this account has brought me fulfillment in the last two and a half years and I've had so much fun interacting with so many of you but as of late I've become very disengaged with Bridgerton. It's one of several of my hyperfixations which I have become anxious with in the last few weeks, in part because they are what I used to immerse myself in as a means to distract myself from a dissatisfying existence, but now I've decided to make a change in my life for the better, everything that I once used to bury my head in the sand has now essentially given me the ick. Bridgerton is just now one of several things that I feel the need to distance myself from in order to fully focus and concentrate on bettering my mental health as well as getting what I want out of life.

As much as I've taken pride in writing because of Bridgerton, my dream has always to one day publish a book of my own and I need to refocus my energies on writing my own original stories to have the chance of maybe being able to make that dream a reality. I would have so dearly loved to have been able to complete a whole host of WIPs (would have also loved to have been able to just focus on one story at a time but c'est la vie) and I can only apologise to anyone who's been hoping for an update from any of them.

You will still be able to read all of my works on AO3 (plus I've restored a couple I had previously hidden from view), and I won't be deleting this tumblr so all of my drabbles and various posts will still be here for you to browse and read at your leisure.

Though I'm stepping away from this account, I don't necessarily know if this will be forever. I might well end up in a better place mentally at some point and return with a healthier state of mind where I can enjoy Bridgerton again, and I would never rule out contributing writings again - however as it stands, I don't want to promise anything and taking care of my mental health is my main priority for now and the foreseeable future.

I also just wanted to take the opportunity to thank every single person who has ever liked, reblogged, and interacted with me since I joined. I had never previously shared any of my creative writing online and thought it would be nice if even a single person somewhere vaguely liked anything I had to share - but over the last two and a half years I've been given such a boost from the amount of people who have reached out and commented on any one of my silly writings. I don't think you'll ever understand just how much it has meant to me and the love and appreciation will stay with me forever.

That about does it, so thank you all for everything. I wish you all a lifetime of health and happiness.

Signing off,

Shinnie

xxx

[neurodiversebones]

so now that i finished that wip i can start a new one right . i definitely don't have FIVE fics in progress i can start a new one .

[desceros]

wip list

i decided that instead of having a list on my masterpost since this list has gotten so, so goddamned long it'd be easier to just have a linked post that i keep (relatively) up to date with ideas that are in my pile.

here's a list of my ideas. if one of them makes you particularly feral you can lmk. i can't promise i'll work on it right away since i write whatever makes me foam at the mouth the most at any given time, but it'll push things closer to the top of the pile!

updated: 6 may

these aren't in any particular order, but if they have asterisks** that means they're something i really wanna work on slash am working on. i’m using the following format:

pairing, anticipated rating (ref here), reader gender; description

question marks mean i’m still waffling about

rise

donnie, ?, ?; donnie bonds with draxum donnie, E, F!Reader; donnie has a hand kink now donnie, E, F!Reader; donnie likes fingering you donnie, E, F!Reader; donnie's dtf leo, ?, F!Reader; 5 times leo catches you doing something embarrassing leo, E, F!Reader; the pube fic leo, ?, ?; night blooming flowers on the roof mikey, E, F!Reader; having sex with mikey is vanilla... until it isn't leo, E, F!Reader; the penpal au donnie, E, F!Reader: philosophy major/biology major enemies to lovers donnie, E, F!Reader; SWEATPANTELLO leo, E, F!Reader; the amnesia fic donnie, E, F!Reader; the one where donnie fixes your shit **donnie, E, F!Reader; PAPATELLO leo, E, F!Reader; fake marriage fic donnie, E, F!Reader; sex pollen in the lab sequel donnie, E, F!Reader; wearing more clothes over time donnie, E, F!Reader; yoga instructor ?, E, F!Reader; the apocalypse fic **donnie, E, F!Reader; the other apocalypse fic leo, E, F!Reader; the other other apocalypse fic **leo, E, F!Reader; day job au raph, E, F!Reader; day job au mikey, E, F!Reader; day job au donnie, E, F!Reader; long-hair donnie

bayverse

leo, ?, ?; 5 times leo asks for advice on flirting leo, E, F!Reader; GFMP sequel leo, ?, ?; angry chinchilla-esque reader leo, E, F!Reader; leo texts the wrong number raph, E, F!Reader; photographer-chan leo, E, F!Reader; vern's PA donnie, E, F!Reader; you and april have trash taste in men raph, E, F!Reader; we make each other worse raph, E, F!Reader; hawk-coded character donnie, E, F!Reader; donnie's a virgin. you're here to help donnie, E, F!Reader; donnie wants a baby **raph, E, F!Reader; the cinderella fic

idw

donnie, ?, ?; a moment in the barn (volume 4) leo, ?, ?; city fall angst

undecided tmnt

leo, E, F!Reader; the leo bruise fic a la amaranthine donnie, E, F!Reader; devotion bordering on worship ?, ?, ?; the hand that wants to be held, needing a glove donnie, E, ?; brumation fic

[petiolata]

No kudos email today...that's the first time I've gone a day without getting a kudos in months...

A sign I should write/post more fic?

[encrucijada]

and again! i wanted to do one for evergreen lung because it's my one wip with more than 3 chapter titles lmao. if i make more of these look away

[ transcripts below! ]

Show Summary: Ezra Borja returns home after waking up in the local forest to find a significant amount of time has passed and everyone believed her to be dead.

Episode One - Creation Act: Ezra Borja wakes up in the local forest with no recollection of why or how, and she returns home to find she's been gone... a while.

Episode Two - Pressed Flowers: Ezra visits her best friend Raquel Hernández as step one on getting things back in order... but things aren't so simple.

Episode Three - Dead Heading: A look into the past and what Ezra's life was like before disappearing in the forest.

Episode Four - Nothing Beautiful: Ezra spends the day with her parents, trying to get a routine back.

Episode Five - Blink Twice: An old classmate hosts a Halloween party Ezra decides to attend to reconnect.

Playing Episode: [BIRD SONG], [EZRA] I'm not dead!

[desperatepleasures]

reading a lotta manga while I'm in a "can't fucking write" phase is kinda comforting tho like...it's ok I'm gathering nuts for winter 👍

[maibluemen]

🌵🍄 and 🔪!

writers’ truth or dare asks!

🌵: share the link to a playlist you love

big fan of @doomspiral ‘s gil playlist!

🍄: share a headcanon for one of your favourite ships or pairings

hmm modern day, gil definitely has a key to tolys’s house but almost never uses it, he pretty much always just breaks in sfdfd

🔪: what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

amusingly i don’t think this qualifies as weird by writer standards so much, but i am always interested in reading about drugs lol. it started the first time i read catch-22, there was a passing mention of ether and i didn’t know what it was…less interested in inhalants these days but i can tell you about pervitin. make of that what you will. (i mean i can also tell you about inhalants and how wrong hollywood gets them sfdfd but)

hypothermia is probably the most uhh environmentally-induced danger i’ve researched in depth. again idt it’s that weird, but i do know a fair amount about it lol

and i tend to get caught on looking up really mundane things like “when was whitewash invented” “what did the transit of [city] look like in [year]” “how many pieces of fabric would it take to construct this garment” etc (that last one can be surprisingly hard to find info on for modern—post industrialization—western fashion btw! but it can tell you a lot about the resources available at the time and such, and can testify to how old certain garments are eg hanfu, the body of which is traditionally only made with one piece of fabric—so there will only be one seam down one side of it—which indicates it’s pretty old. kimono likewise the main body is made with two pieces of fabric, and there is a seam down the center back which will usually be covered by the obi…etc…)

[spaghett-onaplate]

a celebratory post: i have just experienced the most fruitful writing 24 hours of my entire life. at 3:30am last night, i started a new fic, wrote maybe 3k in the hours before I slept? continued the next evening at 5pm, and since then the document has reached the grand total of... 12.5k words!! :D

[celestial-toys]

crawls out of my writing cave on all fours, disheveled and holding a twenty-four-thousand-word-long document between my teeth

[heartbrake-hotel]

I just want BDE to hold me; cradle me in his lap like a baby while he reads to me as I lay my head on his chest. Is that too much to ask for?

nonnie.. NONNIE.!! i wish you could hear the wistful sigh i let out reading this. i'm kicking my heels and twirling my hair about Big Daddy every chance i get 💌

just wanna curl up with him anywhere - in bed, on the couch, in the backseat of the car - wherever he is, wherever he's already comfortable, that's exactly where i wanna be.. 💓

[also i was just rambling i didn't mean for this to turn into any aCTUAL writing but.. uH 👉👈 yah sure whatever it's a blurb now ig]

wanna sneak up and slip into his lap while he's got that pretty nose of his buried in a book, disrupting his focus for only a second as he holds his book away to make room for you while you get comfy. his arms wrap securely around you once he's sure you're done moving, holding you tight, keeping your bodies flush as he reopens the paperback in his hand.

what follows is a kiss on the cheek and a murmur of sorry, didn't mean to bother you, just wanted to sit with you a little. go back to your book, and he hums a little absentmindedly in response as he keeps reading. you're pressed so close you can feel the rumble of it deep in his chest.

you busy yourself with nothing in particular, playing with the tuck in his shirt sleeve or the fringe on his jacket, occasionally running your fingers over some of your favorite parts of him: the plush swell of his belly or thighs, warm and strong underneath you; the soft slope of his shoulders, the curve of his neck, sometimes even reaching up to trace the ridge of his brow or the line of his nose. never for an extended period, just long enough for him to register and relish in the gentle touch. you wouldn't think he even noticed, too absorbed in his reading, except for how he squeezes your waist every time.

eventually, you sigh and wriggle in his arms, and he immediately drops them and clears his throat, faking that he's unaffected at the thought of you getting bored and leaving... but you're just sitting up a little higher in his lap to adjust your reach. you pout a little in discontent at the loss of his sturdy closeness so tight around you and pull his arms back where you want them. the barest hint of a smile on his face is given away only by the slight blush that colors his cheeks as he chides himself for bein' foolish, but it immediately widens to a cheshire grin as you begin running your fingers softly through his hair instead.

you don't know how much time passes like that, both of you content just to soak in the others' presence, before he speaks. wan' me to read out loud to ya, baby? his voice is quiet and sweet - not shy, per se, but like he's savoring the moment, like he worries you might get up anytime now and he wants to appreciate you here, snug and lovely in his arms, while he's still got it. you just nod in response, knowing he can feel it. he nods once, too, throat working as you watch his pillowy lips begin to form the words.

he thinks he's being surreptitious, but you're not so distracted that you don't notice how he flipped back to the very beginning of the book - a ploy to spend more time with you, but you don't mind one little bit. you hide your answering grin in his shoulder, sealed w a kiss pressed there, into the warmth of his body underneath the silky fabric of his shirt.

his voice is a little hoarse, at first, from slight disuse, but the longer he reads, the smoother it gets, the rich ebb and flow characteristic of his extensive vocal range becoming apparent. his cadence is lilting and musical in and of itself, so much so that you almost aren't listening to the words in favor of focusing on the sound.

the more he reads, the more comfortable you get, your fingers moving down to twirl in the fluffy curls at the nape of his neck as you rest your head on his shoulder. soon you find yourself sliding back down into his lap even further, to settle more firmly against the breadth of his chest. you can feel more so than hear the steady thump-thump of his heartbeat under your cheek. you've never felt so safe and loved as you do right here with him, and you know he knows it.

before long, lulled by that feeling, you find your blinks growing slower and your head growing heavier. you lost the plot of the book long ago, too distracted by his delicious closeness to keep track of the host of details, but now even the white noise of his voice is blurring in your ears as you drowse in his arms. not gonna fall asleep on me, are ya, little? he chuckles, his fond amusement audible. you grin a little but don't open your eyes, playfully slapping his shoulder as you settle more firmly against him. that, mr. presley, is for me to know and you to find out. now keep reading!

anythin' you say, honey.

[im-still-watching-anime]

reading my drafts like damn this is so good i should really finish it and post it as i am actively closing the window

[dangerous-advantage]

WIP files game

RULES: post the names of the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! tag as many people as you have WIPs

i got tagged in this a looong while back and i cannot remember by who so i apologize ): i was looking through my drafts and was Reminded

(something something "recoil") -- silly leoichi curse/chatfic thingie

origami ghost au

casey jr seratello future "drabble" (for atty)

casey jr post-movie oneshot (working title: casey jr's 10-step battle strategy to defeating "the big sad" [citations included])

event horizon // chernobyl still burns

uhhh ye olde midwestern gothic type deal? (with ninjas)

aaaand thats... all i can think of lmao

no pressure tags:

@noodlenoodlenoodlenoodle @ironinkpen @whatareyoudoingwithamaserati @crows-murder @nyaranyaranya @skyline-sunset-in-my-veins

[tennessoui]

Thanks for the tag, @tomicaleto! sorry for the delay in response!

Rules: post the names of all the files in your WIP folder  regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an  ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little  snippet of it or tell them something about it! And then tag as many  people as you have wips. I have deemed that this isn’t just for writing  either. Sketch titles? Comics? Dnd campaigns? If you have an unfinished  project, it counts!!

alright not gonna do all of them because there are a few surprises i’m not spoiling >:( (me at me: we will NOT spoil them) but here’s the WIPS I can share:

1. birds of a feather, fish of a fin (selkie au) 2. foolproof, foolhardy 3. if it bleeds, it leads (playmaker AU ao3) 4. untitled document (x7) (oops) 5. tightrope sequel 6. the big damn kiss (KUWSK) 7. toss overboard what is too heavy to carry 8. all my roads lead back to you  9. building a boat with no blueprints 10. shark cage diving (hot air balloonist anakin sequel) 11. untie all my knots, unmoor me from myself (tattooshop au au) 12. t&t 13. vowbreaker 14. KUWSK animal shelter 15. KUWSK Leia and Obi-Wan get lost 16. you bring the faith, i’ll bring the worship (hs reunion au sequel) 17. pretty bird and the no good very bad headache 18. TBNIH Chapter 10 19. spousal privilege 20. to swim in a sea made of stars

ok im stopping at 20 even though this isn’t all, I’m just losing self-respect like a badly built boat is taking on water

lemme tag a bunch of people but idk if you’ve already been tagged or what: @jedibongrip @kyberkenobi @buying-the-space-farm @artemisthehuntress @ragnarlothcat @leafchan15 @nixie-deangel @secretsolarsystem @lilredghost @tunglo @coldwaughtered @seafoam-oceans

+ anyone else who wants to count their wips like this !! :D

[retrogradedreaming]

Gasp! More OCs??? 👀 Is it ok to ask who they are? (No pressure if you'd rather not post about them, though!)

Yeah, totally! Sorry I left this to sit for a few days, I have been so busy and anytime I talk about OCs, it's like "omg, this requires thought and care!!!"

I won't go TOO deep into them because I'm paranoid about my work and the internet but I THINK the ones I've made since I was last here are:

Reece: Grumpy EMT with a ponytail, no chill

Luca: I keep blanking on what his job is actually called, but he does backstage stuff at concert venues and performances and stuff, dyes his hair a lot, has a lot of tattoos, very chill

They're both in Will and Jasper's world, and while I don't know if they'll feature in the main WIP, I like playing around with them in side stories

ALSO, this isn't about new OCs, but this story finally has a plot! I've had Will and Jasper for YEARS and have never found a good plot idea for them, but I'm really excited now to give them a story

[sesshy380]

Wordcount of the day: 920

So close to 1k, but brain needs rest. It's gonna be super tired after doing truck tomorrow.

I honestly don't mind doing truck. Don't have to worry about customer interaction outside of people asking questions when I start stocking. Even then, most people don't realize I work there because I don't have my apron and nametag on. I can just focus on the task at hand and not worry about trying to stock a cart while constantly checking to see if someone decided to come to the register just as I walk around the corner.