it's like. everything happens so much. it's all happening right now but at the same time nothing is happening whatsoever. it's a liminal space of an existence. it's slowly crushing me under the weight but when I look up there's nothing actually bearing down on me. there shouldn't be any weight. something is wrong but nothing has happened. I'm simultaneously overwhelmed and utterly bored. nothing is happening and maybe that's the everything that's happening. maybe the everything is the nothing. we aren't there yet but it's all so imminent. either everything is going to crash down or nothing is. I'm just waiting to figure out which.
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You know when you can physically feel your brain slipping into shipping hell, and it's an unstoppable process?
How do you call it when Brain starts to think and think about a certain ship, and you start to kinda like it but something blocks you, so your thoughts are spinning the wheels in this uncomfortable position and you go to look up fan material but nothing pushes you past that obstacle so you start to ponder about it and it's so so so tiring?
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Hmmmmmmmm quick question! What do you do when your executive dysfunction has reached such a critical state that you:
are actively ignoring things you desperately need to do
are ghosting your employers (even though you can make it all go away by doing the one thing you most need to do: send an email and QUIT)
have almost three dozen notifications that you can't even bring yourself to look at
completely unironically have done nothing but sleep and flip between two apps for days
are fucking up your professional/financial future even though you need to move out in a matter of months
✨and✨
are paralyzed by anxiety that keeps mounting to increasingly unsustainable heights
YET
you GENUINELY CANNOT figure out how to PHYSICALLY FORCE YOUR BODY to do the (extremely short, extremely important) list of things you keep telling yourself you're going to do
because at this point you can't even shower or change the clothes you've been wearing for days on end?
Asking for a friend. I'm the friend.
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Earlier I just wanted to quickly put away some nail polish that was standing around in the bathroom. Well anyway that was five hours ago and I just went through all my nail polishes and decluttered the ones that were so thick that even nail polish thinner wouldn't help, and the ones that I haven't used in years and don't actually like anymore 🙃
Everything hurts, there's empty (open) nail polish bottles on the floor because they need to dry out before I can throw them away, it absolutely stinks of nail polish and obviously I didn't even wear a mask because I hadn't planned on opening that many (or any) nail polish bottles.
All that just to get rid of like 20-25 bottles of nail polish 🙃 Yeah sure that was totally worth it and a great use of my time, right, yeah.
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