#passing the cis test

[passing-the-cis-test]

Introduction!

Hi everyone! I'd like go make a few well known points on this blog, such as its purpose, what it includes/will eventually, rules, and a little bit about myself.

Origins/About the Admin

The admin uses he/him pronouns and will use the online alias of Red.

This account was born from a conversation between a good friend of mine and I. I, a trans boy, have had to do so much digging and so much research, discreet things that transphobic parents won't approve of, and dove through so many loopholes that made my journey through gender dsyphoria and discovering my identity so much easier but so much harder at the same time.

I thought that if I used all that I had gathered and put it all on one platform, specifically focusing on that one thing alone, it would give other people out there what I didn't have. A bit of ease through what is already such a tough journey.

JUST TO CLARIFY!!:

This blog is safe for all umbrellas of queer or straight origin.

This blog is safe for everyone.

This blog is NOT trying to "convert" people. The "transgender agenda" that transphobes seem to stamp all of us with is nothing more than wanting to be ourselves and feel comfortable as who we are.

If you are uncomfortable with this? Please, feel free to leave. I never asked for transphobes here and I certainly don't want them to stay.

This blog WILL be providing tips and tricks for all the handsome young boys and demiboys, beautiful little ladies and demiladies, gorgeous genderfluids, incredible enbies, and all of you wonderful somewhere-in-betweens!

Just what are these tips and tricks?

Tips and tricks will include how to pass as what society deems feminine or masculine.

I do not judge if you know you are a boy and want to be feminine, I do not judge if you know you are a girl and want to be masculine.

This is not meant to enforce society's ideals of the gender separated stereotypes, but rather showing you what those are and helping you present when in an unsafe space or an unaccepting space.

But what about asks and messages?

Please do not be afraid to shoot me a message through my inbox! Anonymous messages are completely acceptable and I am fully willing to answer any questions I can.

Don't be afraid to ask overly specific questions either! It could be an advice box if you need it :)

No transphobic or homophobic asks will be tolerated. You will be blocked, reported, and never seen on my blog again. This goes for transphobic jokes, memes, news articles, claims, scientific reports, etc.

THIS IS NOT A VENTING BOX!! I'm sorry in advance to my loves who are struggling with their lives right now but in order to help you if you submit an ask in the ask box, I must answer publicly. If you need to vent, don't be afraid to send me a message. :) I am here for you all and will listen to you all.

The admin of this blog does cope with ADHD (attention deficient hyperactive disorder ie. brain zoomies zoomz and cannot focus well, gets off task easily) and autism (ie. help me with social cues please I do not understand neurotypical people) so if you could use any of these codes at the beginning of a message I would greatly appreciate it!

(vent) - you would like to vent [ this is a rather general one ]

(help) - you would like advice with something included in your message

(word vomit) - you would like to rant about something in a negative way, like you had a bad day and need to get it off your chest

(rant) - you would like to talk to someone about something good or positive that may have happened :) THESE CAN BE SUBMITTED VIA ASKS IF YOU'D LIKE TO! this kind of ask will be included under the tag #trans positivity and will be made public to spread some hope and joy :)

What will this blog include other than just advice?

This blog will include all sorts of things, pertaining specifically to transgender people, regardless of transition status 🙏❤

This is a source of information, an outlet, and a friend to go to if you need a little boost.

Remember that I love you all, and you are all good people. No matter what others may say to you.

(P.S. please don't be afraid to repost screenshots on pinterest or other websites, I want this to reach as many people as it can 🙏🙏 this blog is only meant to help)

[budd-ie]

Actually what I love most about hualian is that by the time of "if you don't know what to live for then live for me" they had already had many meetings and moments together, and while that one moment may have solidified his resolve and his purpose, it may have never actually come to that point had xie lian not caught him from the wall, had he not saved him from qi rong, had he not told qi rong off and punished him, had he not stood up for him every time someone spoke against him, had he not held him so warmly, had he not talked to him so gently, had not reassured him so genuinely, had he not protected him time and time again, yknow? Ever since they met they kept meeting by chance and it might have even felt like Xie Lian was looking out for him specifically, even if it was just a coincidence and he would have done it for anyone else. Hong-er is crazy enough to do whatever he wants on a whim, but this wasn't like a split second decision Xie Lian was already like a lifeline to him at this point, and he took his chance and asked his question to a statue in a shrine he may have never cared about had they never met. He may not have really expected an answer and was just asking with a last desperate hope to find any reason to keep going on, but he got an answer from that one and only person in the world who he would ever trust. That trust was built stronger every single time they met and it all led up to that point. If hong-er had asked that question without the pretext of their previous meetings, would he still devote his life? Maybe, but it's not easy to say yes definitely. If it had been anyone else, would they also devote their life? That's also entirely possible, but it wasn't anybody else. It's three parts fate and seven parts courage, and again, Hong-er is crazy enough to do whatever he wants on a whim, so he chose life with the rest of his courage. In short, when we say their story is so specific to them, I really do believe that it could quite literally only happen to them specifically and no one else given their situation. If Xie Lian didn't have such a strong sense of justice and love of all people, if hong-er wasn't so desperate, reactive, or strong-willed, if either of them weren't just so damn stubborn, I honestly think none of these events could play out the same way and/or be as impactful on them. It really couldn't have been just any crown prince and any beggar kid, it could really have only been them.

[perilegs]

it's funny that now that i don't really have much about my body to be dysphoric about my brain makes up psychological dysphoria and it's so dumb

[felowtravler]

Here's my hot (though probably unoriginal?) take.

The Bechdel test is overrated. While it's a GREAT tool for identifying women's represtantion, it's binary, and frankly, humans don't always pass it. Yes, it was incredible for the 90s when it was popularized (the 90s, right?). It's an important piece of critical history. However, it is not the end all be all of criticism.

Even with binary people, there needs to be representation about men between men, just as there needs to be representation about women between women. I think it's great if something passes the test. However, I don't think critique of media should begin and end with the Bechdel test. It's ONE way to analyze a text.

If you flip the test and evaluate it based on "do 2 men have a convo not involving a woman?" that can tell you a lot.

If it fails the Bechdel test, does it fail the opposite? Is it that there aren't purely woman-centered conversations becuase it's sexist, or is it balanced between the "Two Primary Genders" (as is common in film, at least. Enbies are valid and deserve rep too!)

Is it sexist and unbalanced, or is it a story about a grandfather and grandson because it's based on the writer's experience? Or from her imagination? Or becuase they just liked the story and wanted to write about that kind of relationship dynamic?

Is it a text that's sexist, or is it centering other identities like class, race, and/or nationality? Intersectionality is important, so ideally films and books and everything else should involve women (and enbies) in those categories and beyond, but films should also be allowed to feature queer relationships and familial ties and friendships without awkwardly fitting in One Scene to technically Pass. Idk, I haven't thought tons about it, but I'm not a big fan of it being used as the The One Reason to hate media.

[transhuman-priestess]

When i say that anti trans laws will affect cis people too, I’m not saying “we’re all in this equally.

I’m saying it because cis people will never care for us on our own.

It’s not some hippie dippy kumbaya bullshit, it’s strategic and necessary. Sorry it doesn’t pass your purity test!

[genderqueerdykes]

im not sorry the truth of the transmasculine experience is ugly. i'm not sorry that we have to frequently discuss sexual and physical violence and abuse. i'm not sorry that we have to discuss violent physical abuse and death. i'm not sorry that we have to discuss homelessness, mental illness, addiction, disabilities, and other challenges in life.

we struggle. we do not instantly gain male privilege the second we come out. even if we pass. when someone knows we're trans we're treated like a woman no matter what. we can sometimes get lucky and pass with strangers but eventually people around us find out because people tell each other without our consent.

we face all kinds of abuse due to the fact that people feel entitlement to our bodies, regardless of what our AGAB is. they feel entitled to our faces, our hair, our entire appearance. they focus on the face that we're ruining something "pretty". they threaten corrective sexual violence to remind us that we're "just women". it happens constantly. this is not an isolated incident and virtually nobody wants people to talk about it when it comes to transmasculine people.

trans men often get injured for one reason or another. usually because someone wants to make them "prove" they're a man, to "toughen them up" or to "prove to them that they're a woman". sometimes this results in sexual assault. other times it results in physical assault. and sometimes people just kill trans men. all because they hate that a "woman" can transition into a man.

it's an ugly part of our reality but it needs to be discussed because otherwise people use the lack of that conversation as ammunition to say transmascs don't struggle.

transmasculine people struggle to stay housed. transmasculine people get kicked out of their living situations very often for many reasons. it's hard for transmascs to get jobs because often times people want either a man or a woman for a specific position and fuss over what they think the transmasc's gender is. misgendering is a huge issue at work. going stealth at work can be painful. being in the closet at work can be painful

transmascs are often disabled and struggle to get care due to people not taking AFAB patients' pain and symptoms seriously. this is a huge issue with any kind of AFAB person or any woman. all woman and AFAB people struggle with having their symptoms taken seriously when seeking serious medical attention to the point of possibly being undiagnosed for life, thus being unable to get on disability. trans women face this just as much as AFAB cis women, it's a huge issue in the medical industry

transmasculine people struggle to say on their hormones (or access them at all). testosterone is a controlled substance in many countries which means that you need a prior authorization to get the medication and need to consistently see a provider to get blood tests and check ups. it can be difficult to do so if you are low income and sometimes certain pharmacists will intentionally find ways to withhold hormones due to their own prejudices

transmasculine people struggle to get pregnancy support and care. it is very difficult for transmasculine people to figure out how to navigate their pregnancy, either due to their HRT provider not knowing much about pregnancy, or having a gynecologist who's not familiar with transmasculine health.

transmascs get denied from spaces made for men constantly. even if they pass, if word gets around that they're trans they can easily be kicked out of a space. transmasculine lesbians are often removed from lesbian, transmasc and/or non binary spaces. transmasc butches are often ostracized from all communities their identities correlate to. trans men and transmasc enbies are seen as a threat to women.

there is ugliness in every pocket of the queer community when it comes to how cisheteronormative society treats us. we all face disgusting treatment that needs to be addressed. it's important to consider how this system affects everyone underneath it. we need to talk about the positive things, it's good to help those are questioning, but we also must discuss what struggles we face in order to humanize ourselves and show that we people, too. none of us have it easy.

[so-i-did-this-thing]

feel free to not answer this if this is too personal, but one of the things that i've been worried about going on T has been receiving adequate medical care from all my providers as i continue to transition. obviously every place and provider is different, but have you seen any broad difficulties with getting proper care?

I have run into "trans broken leg" syndrome many times-- where a doctor is eager to blame my HRT for something unrelated. So, I've cultivated a strong personality to push back here and shop around if it comes to it. It's really important to learn how to advocate for yourself.

I have actually made one of my endos cry because he was being a dick and I called him out on it. When I had kidney stones, I stopped going to an internalist who tried to get me to stop T with no real reason why other than vague hand-waving. I stopped going to a GP who suggested HRT was the reason for my congenital arrthymia. And my anesthesiologist for my top surgery yelled at a nurse for trying to force me to take a pregnancy test at the 11th hour, instead of taking my word for it.

Comparatively, when I was read as a cis woman, I had a whole host of health issues dismissed because it was just "anxiety'. Honestly, it's been a lateral move.

Currently, I have an ideal situation where my GP is a trans woman who works in a trans healthcare clinic, and she has a good referral network when I need speciality care, like a colonoscopy.

Since going to clinics that provide both gender affirming care AND general wellness, my quality of care has skyrocketed.

That said, my ER and urgent care experiences have mostly been uneventful (sometimes I do not disclose, like when I fucked up my rotator cuff), but I am also very aware I am white and cis male passing and both absolutely impact the quality of my medical care.

[queenie435]

THE WORLD'S FIRST ELECTRIC ROLLER COASTER

Granville T. Woods (April 23, 1856 – January 30, 1910) introduced the “Figure Eight,” the world's first electric roller coaster, in 1892 at Coney Island Amusement Park in New York. Woods patented the invention in 1893, and in 1901, he sold it to General Electric.

Woods was an American inventor who held more than 50 patents in the United States. He was the first African American mechanical and electrical engineer after the Civil War. Self-taught, he concentrated most of his work on trains and streetcars.

In 1884, Woods received his first patent, for a steam boiler furnace, and in 1885, Woods patented an apparatus that was a combination of a telephone and a telegraph. The device, which he called "telegraphony", would allow a telegraph station to send voice and telegraph messages through Morse code over a single wire. He sold the rights to this device to the American Bell Telephone Company.

In 1887, he patented the Synchronous Multiplex Railway Telegraph, which allowed communications between train stations from moving trains by creating a magnetic field around a coiled wire under the train. Woods caught smallpox prior to patenting the technology, and Lucius Phelps patented it in 1884. In 1887, Woods used notes, sketches, and a working model of the invention to secure the patent. The invention was so successful that Woods began the Woods Electric Company in Cincinnati, Ohio, to market and sell his patents. However, the company quickly became devoted to invention creation until it was dissolved in 1893.

Woods often had difficulties in enjoying his success as other inventors made claims to his devices. Thomas Edison later filed a claim to the ownership of this patent, stating that he had first created a similar telegraph and that he was entitled to the patent for the device. Woods was twice successful in defending himself, proving that there were no other devices upon which he could have depended or relied upon to make his device. After Thomas Edison's second defeat, he decided to offer Granville Woods a position with the Edison Company, but Woods declined.

In 1888, Woods manufactured a system of overhead electric conducting lines for railroads modeled after the system pioneered by Charles van Depoele, a famed inventor who had by then installed his electric railway system in thirteen United States cities.

Following the Great Blizzard of 1888, New York City Mayor Hugh J. Grant declared that all wires, many of which powered the above-ground rail system, had to be removed and buried, emphasizing the need for an underground system. Woods's patent built upon previous third rail systems, which were used for light rails, and increased the power for use on underground trains. His system relied on wire brushes to make connections with metallic terminal heads without exposing wires by installing electrical contactor rails. Once the train car had passed over, the wires were no longer live, reducing the risk of injury. It was successfully tested in February 1892 in Coney Island on the Figure Eight Roller Coaster.

In 1896, Woods created a system for controlling electrical lights in theaters, known as the "safety dimmer", which was economical, safe, and efficient, saving 40% of electricity use.

Woods is also sometimes credited with the invention of the air brake for trains in 1904; however, George Westinghouse patented the air brake almost 40 years prior, making Woods's contribution an improvement to the invention.

Woods died of a cerebral hemorrhage at Harlem Hospital in New York City on January 30, 1910, having sold a number of his devices to such companies as Westinghouse, General Electric, and American Engineering. Until 1975, his resting place was an unmarked grave, but historian M.A. Harris helped raise funds, persuading several of the corporations that used Woods's inventions to donate money to purchase a headstone. It was erected at St. Michael's Cemetery in Elmhurst, Queens.

LEGACY

▪Baltimore City Community College established the Granville T. Woods scholarship in memory of the inventor.

▪In 2004, the New York City Transit Authority organized an exhibition on Woods that utilized bus and train depots and an issue of four million MetroCards commemorating the inventor's achievements in pioneering the third rail.

▪In 2006, Woods was inducted into the National Inventors Hall of Fame.

▪In April 2008, the corner of Stillwell and Mermaid Avenues in Coney Island was named Granville T. Woods Way.

[on-leatheredwings]

Baby-trapping you say? 👀

baby trapping i say!!!

maybe i should say its specifically stealthing [picks nose]? he doesnt really care to 'trap' you because he literally just believes you're endgame

sneak peek bc god im tired of writing:

tw: weird ideals about fertile (cis) women, intent to stealth, implied/tangential somnophilia (???) and other yandere-typical behavior

18+ only, Damian Wayne is 21

He does want to be with you above anything, and if children were out of the question due to natural causes… sure, he would learn to get over it. His brothers are all adopted and are as legitimate heirs to his father as he. But as it stands, Damian needs an heir someday and he knows your body can provide that. 

A part of him, a part that’s been planted in him since his childhood, quietly admits that he simply wants his children to be blood. He was taught that he was the result of two genetically perfect individuals – Bruce Wayne the Batman and Talia al Ghul, Daughter of the Demon’s Head. 

So why shouldn’t his child be the genetic amalgamation of you and him? The thought of impregnating you sounds… good. Ideal. Natural, even. Call him a romantic.

Back from class, you decided to read on his living room recliner while he drew in his study. He indeed sketched, as he did everyday, but he also wanted to check if today was the day he thought it was. Damian opens the drawer of his wooden desk, papers neatly filed. He picks up a sleek black folder.

When opened, inside is a calendar for the year, with no notes or writing. The days are simply blank or highlighted in either red or green.

His eyes skirt down to the current day of the calendar, and Damian's pleased to see it is indeed among a week that's painted in green. You've ovulated, and the six days afterward are an ideal window. 

You've said in passing that your cycle is pleasantly regular and Damian's past investigations have proved this to be true. He doesn’t ask anymore. He snorts, remembering how last time you looked at him incredulously and asked if he was a Republican, since he was “all up in your womb.” 

However, you do keep menstrual products in your bag when he’s predicted it. You also spend quite some time at his place, so he does note when there’s pad wrappers in his bathroom trash bin.

Last year, the day he knew you were the one, his One, he brewed you a tea before bed. Its sedative contents ensured you wouldn't wake. So, Damian pulled off your pants, and collected a sample from you as you slept. Of course, he did so with sterile, sexless precision –  Damian wasn’t a pervert or deviant. He sniffs. He’s better than that. Even if his hands did linger.

Test results proved you were healthy and fertile. He remembers being proud. As expected, you were perfect in all things.

[qweerhet]

we really, desperately need language to discuss the specific material experiences, and ensuing marginalization, that come from your body visibly differentiating from the sex binary, and are not described by intersex language.

currently, discussions of exorsexism like to point out that "nonbinary" is not a label that meaningfully conveys any information about material experiences, that there is no core "nonbinary transition." this is a line of reasoning that i will accept at its bare bones; it's frequently deployed in the most bad faith contexts i have ever had the misfortune to see, but on its face, the bare facts are true. there are, in fact, plenty of nonbinary people whose medical experiences are indistinguishable from binary trans people's, and whose medical experiences are indistinguishable from cis perisex people's. this is true at higher rates than it is for any other trans demographic, given what a broad coalition "nonbinary" covers. i accept the conclusion that "one's physical traits are not connected to being nonbinary whatsoever, any large-scale patterns are mild correlation at best."

regardless of that, however, there is a specific marginalization that does affect nonbinary trans people at higher rates than cis perisex people or binary trans people when it does occur, and that is the marginalization of bodies that are visibly in violation of the sex binary. this marginalization overlaps quite a lot with intersexism--in fact, an unspoken driving factor in binary transitions is frequently not only to "pass as cis," but specifically to "pass as perisex." however, being intersex is a particular life experience & should not be conflated with otherwise violating the sex binary--the marginalization described here is in solidarity with intersex experiences and overlaps heavily with how intersexism manifests materially, but is not described by that language itself.

to define "violating the sex binary": your body does not align with perisex, cisgender, binary constructs of male and female bodies. someone with breasts and a beard falls under this. someone with testes and a uterus falls under this. someone with breasts, a dropped voice, and testosterone-dominant fat and body hair distribution falls under this. someone with a flat chest, a dropped voice, and estrogen-dominant fat and body hair distribution falls under this. there are many thousands of ways to violate the sex binary.

additionally, visibly violating the sex binary as a "transitional" stage in one's binary transition does involve undergoing this marginalization. this marginalization affects cisgender people whose bodies do not align with the sex binary. it also affects people who actively attempt to hide their sex variations, to varying degrees. binary trans people also experience this marginalization, and are welcome to discuss it and feel out language for it, with the understanding that the experience of someone moving intentionally away from experiencing it is fundamentally not the same as the experience of someone who will always experience it and does not have the options to "hide" or "pass," or the experience of someone who actively wants that body. care should be taken to remember that a large number of people who experience this marginalization are actively pursuing the bodies that are subject to it, not as transitional states, but as fully realized bodies in and of themselves.

this is not a post where i am coining language--that is really not my area of expertise. this is a post where i'm hoping to open up discussion, because the transfeminist sphere on this website has a pretty broad effect on trans language and discourse overall, and the things spoken about and coined here often ripple out into the wider world.

[macgyvermedical]

As a trans guy I'm really worried about maintaining access to T. I live in a safe state but I know how quickly things can change in a matter of months to years, so.. I'm worried. That being said, what do you know of DIY HRT? I know that cis guys sometimes use T and I doubt they always go through their doctor, so I'm curious how that works.

I don't want to have to do this, but I figured I should at least know the gist of it should I ever need to or if someone I know is in the same situation.

P.S thank you for being here for everyone who has questions. It means a lot 🩵

As a fellow trans guy, I feel you. Note that while the following looks like advice, it is for educational purposes only, and you are using this information at your own risk.

The following is listed from least to most illegal:

Probably your absolute best bet (especially if you pass) is to get a doctor that can prescribe T for male hypogonadism (low T). Now, this is probably not going to be an in-person doctor for two reasons. One is that they will probably do a testicular exam, which will give things away. Second, most electronic medical records link up these days, so any doctor treating you will be able to pull your medical records and find out you're trans.

One possible way around this is telehealth, which has boomed since the pandemic. Try googling "male hypogonadism telehealth" to check around for options. This will probably need to be paid out of pocket under a fake name if you want to ensure your account isn't linked. Make sure you know the symptoms of male hypogonadism, or come up with a story about how you're already diagnosed because you had mumps as a kid or something. Note that if they ask for a blood test, which they probably will, and you're not already out of T, skip your dose and take the test a few days later, so you test low. The nice thing about this is it gets you a diagnosis that can only be gotten if you're AMAB, so it lends credibility to your situation.

The next option is to stockpile some T while you still have access to it. Because T is controlled, the most T you can have in your possession is a 6-month prescription (otherwise you risk a 4th degree felony). However, if the prescription is written for 1-ml vials and your dose is 0.5ml/week and the prescription says to "discard vial after 1 dose" you can technically have up to a year (because in theory, you're throwing away 0.5ml of T each time you inject- but you could also, in theory, keep it and use it as long as you were careful to clean the top with alcohol before you puncture it). Keep in mind that even if you happen to get more T than a year's worth, it's only good for about 3 years before it starts losing potency or may become contaminated.

The (far) next option is to find someone in the bodybuilding community and start asking around. Making it clear that you know how to do injections will get you to people who have T that they don't want to self-inject but may trade you (or at least sell to you) for doing their injections. This is your best bet for finding illegal T. Note that T is a (pretty dang) controlled substance. You and everyone involved in getting T to you is at significant legal risk (that 4th degree felony again).

Unfortunately even looking in the dark recesses of reddit I was not able to find a safe "recipe" for testosterone. Most of what is suggested is to buy T powder from overseas and compound it yourself into a cream. This is very very illegal and could be very dangerous if you don't do it correctly. I'm not going to talk about it here because I don't understand it enough. Also it's really freaking illegal.

Note: If you haven't yet had a hysterectomy, I suggest you do everything in your power to keep a functioning ovary. That way if you do lose access to T, you won't lose bone density. If you have already gotten your ovaries removed, talk to a doctor about low-dose hormones to maintain bone density.

[postoctobrist]

Are you ever planning to pass your driving test? I was driving through english towns blasting Gravity Weapon the other day but I'm cis so it doesn't have the same energy.

yeah I need to get back on that but my driving instructor like died or something? not related to my driving

[genderqueerdykes]

hi! sorry if this is rude, I'm unsure, but I'm nonbinary and being intersex would be trans goals. (But that's really not an option with transition.)

I was curious if that thought is intersexist? Is it intersexist to want to be intersex? But then again, if it is, would that follow the same logic as "trans women are sexist"??

I'm so confused, because I searched 'transintersex' and it was just radqueer stuff, but maybe because of how I typed it in? Maybe there's not a term for intersex being gender goals other than the radqueer ones?

I'm so confused, but please tell me if I should just banish this thought or something!!

this is extremely offensive and intersexist, but i'm going to lay it down as gently as i can for you because i don't think you mean to be hurtful, but i can tell that you are very unaware that this is not okay and that you are misunderstanding what being intersex is. so let me try to help

please do not say that being intersex is "gender goals". intersex is a physical condition. it has nothing to do with gender.

intersex does not have a "look". every single intersex person looks differently. there is no one way to look or be intersex. like, not every intersex person looks like they have an intersex variation on the outside. many people pass for cis perisex people every day. intersex does not mean that you look "gender neutral" or "androgynous," so i would say that this is not a good way to look at what intersex means.

please do not identify as "transintersex," you cannot transition into being intersex. this goes to everyone, not just you.

"transintersex" is an extremely intersexist label that completely misunderstands what being intersex is. intersex variations are genetic and you are born with them. again, being intersex does not have a specific "look". every intersex person looks different, even if they have the same variations and conditions. "intersex" should NEVER be conflated with androgyny or "non binary" outward appearances. there are intersex women who pass as cis who have internal testes that don't affect their outward appearance. there are intersex men with vaginas that don't affect their outward temperance.

it sounds like what you want to look like is androgynous, not intersex. you want to look like a non binary person. that's what you're saying, and that's what you mean. non binary is its own thing and you're more than welcome to say you want to look non binary, but saying you "want to look intersex" is extremely offensive. you have your own term right there, please use it. non binary is literally right there. being non binary is not offensive to intersex people.

your gender goals are non binary people. not intersex people.

also, just so you know, this does NOT come across as a compliment to intersex people at all. it is very insulting to a lot of us. we are not non binary. please just stick with identifying as non binary, it's right there, it suits what you want. you don't need to adopt another label to express that you want to look non binary. non binary and intersex do not mean the same thing and should never, ever be conflated.

intersex is not a gender. you can't transition into it. you also can't physically transition into being intersex. that's physically impossible.

i hope that helps. thanks for asking, take care.

[false-anachronism]

literally so awesome how u can literally just be transgender. like there is no magic test u have to pass and there is no requirement for some kind of mental condition or a specific body image u have to have about urself or anything. there r no prior requirements. if u want 2 be trans u can literally just be transgender it is that simple you can identify however you want!!!!! i didn't know i was trans because i felt bad about myself i knew i was trans because i found the label bigender like 10-ish years ago and started using it privately and using different pronouns online and felt the most euphoria i had ever felt in my 13 year old life!!! u can literally do whatever u want forever and there is nothing stopping u if u want to identify as anything other than cis u can literally just Do That!!!! and now i'm on t!! god bless!!!!!

[angelicsatin]

Amelia Evans | Invincible OC Bio

art credit to @5hiizuarts

Name: Amelia Janise Evans Nicknames: Lia, Amy, Ames Height: 5’2  Race: White Age: 45-46 (at death) Birthday: November 26 Zodiac: Sagittarius  Gender: Cis-Woman Sexuality: Bisexual Blood Type: A Status: Alive (Season 1 Episode 1-7) – Deceased (Remainder of Series) Occupation: GDA Scientist & Technician  Affiliation: The Global Defense Agency  Romantic Interest(s): Cecil Stedman (if you're reading this, know I am non-sharing !!) MBTI: INTP  Enneagram: 6w5

Important Information

A scientist working for the GDA on Project Janus, a top-secret weapon/tool that allows the GDA to recreate their greatest minds should they be lost by reuploading their consciousness to a backup system and emulating them via hologram technology and AI communication systems taught by the memories input by the deceased before the time of death. 

Closest with Cecil overall, which, of course, leads to untimely death. 

While working on Project Janus, she believed it did not work when she initially uploaded her consciousness as a test run. Trying to activate it reared no results until months later when she’d die at the hands of Omni-man or Nolan Grayson. 

During the altercation with Omni-man following Donald’s death, when Cecil was teleporting in to try and buy some time, Amelia grabbed onto his arm in an attempt to stop him – afraid he wouldn’t come back. Instead, however, during one of the many times Nolan lunged at Cecil, she’d throw herself to push him out of the way, ending up nothing but gore. (Episode of death is S01E07)

Once the dust settled after the massacre in Chicago, Cecil would return to Amelia’s office to look over her belongings. Only to see a blinking green light on that new device she’d poured herself into over the last few years. Pressing the button revealed a hologram of Amelia’s face and shoulders. Project Janus was a success. And here she was to prove it. 

From this point on, Cecil keeps the device on him. It is used as a sort of AI assistant like Cortana or Siri, although it has much more weight behind it, considering the unspoken feelings between the two. Feelings he’d never be able to tell the ‘real’ her again. 

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Fun Facts 

The GDA had employed her for the last 20 years before her death.

Once Cecil became director of the GDA and Amelia was still just a technician, she began to model her work ethic after the man. Sometimes being referred to as his shadow. 

She and Cecil were ‘partners’ or ‘lovers’ for lack of a better term, and due to the two of them never establishing a relationship in any official context before her passing. 

When she learned about how Donald and other GDA agents had been brought back with robotic exoskeletons, she quickly decided she wouldn’t want that in the unfortunate time of her passing. Instead, she poured herself into researching and beginning Project Janus to continue to be useful even after her death without losing her sense of herself like Donald did at times. 

She spent her entire adult life devoting herself to work until she began seeing Cecil. Even their ‘relationship’ originated from the workplace and her admiration for him. 

The hologram version of Amelia that Cecil carries around and uses as an assistant is not truly her. It only contains her memories up to 6 months before her death because that was when she uploaded the backup of her consciousness in the testing stage – meaning, she does not remember the moments leading up to her death or that she sacrificed herself for Cecil until he tells ‘her.’ 

Cecil knew she loved him, and she died not knowing he returned her feelings. 

Before she and Cecil began to see one another outside of work, Amelia was known for working late and falling asleep at her desk. 

She only really stopped because Cecil began to check in on her around the end of their days and escort her to his home.  

While it was obvious to most other GDA employees that she and Cecil were close, only Donald ever actually found out about their romantic entanglement. 

After her death, Cecil keeps a framed photo of Amelia in his office beside the framed picture of Donald. 

Cecil tries to move on and act as though her death was just another one of many in this line of work, like it didn’t bother him more than usual – but it does, pushing him further instead.  

Positive Traits: intelligent, private, analytical, calm, responsible, introverted, loyal, mature, disciplined, supportive, organized, persistent, wise Negative Traits: antisocial, callous, stubborn, know-it-all, obsessive, perfectionist, pessimistic, workaholic, pretentious, withdrawn 

Likes 

Cecil Stedman (duh)

Comfortable Silence

Cola & Energy Drinks

Sunrise

Medium Rare Steak

Routine 

Keeping People Safe

Red Wine

Sarcastic & Sardonic Humor

Working Late

Science (Technology & Physics)

Stationary

Finding Answers to Unanswered Questions

Theatre & Musicals

Simplicity 

Karaoke, surprisingly 

Cute Coffee Mugs

Dislikes 

Failure 

Confrontation 

Going Home Before Her Work is Completed

Being Disrespected

Discussing Feelings

Public Events 

Schedules Not Being Followed

Extravagent Things (clothes, makeup, etc)

Talking During Movies

Being Interrupted or Talked Over

Beetles 

Working Early 

Being Late

The Color Orange

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OC Tag Game

I was tagged by @ndostairlyrium ✨Thank you so much<3 and consider yourself tagged back (only if you want to ofc)

I'm also tagging: @alienturnip, @wizardhecker and @auphelia

I'm using this chance to properly introduce a "newer" character and NPC from the dnd campaign I run. His design is still a work in progress, but I felt like talking about him anyways<3

Name: Caspian Amari

Alias: "New Olamn's Siren", "Professor Amari", "the manwhore" (affectionately by my dnd group)

Gender: Cis male

Sexual Orientation: Pansexual, demiromantic

Age: Early 30s

Spoken language: Common, Sylvan, Elven and Alzhedo

Occupation: Teacher at the New Olamn Bard College of Waterdeep (History and Written Verse)

Favorite...

Color: Seagreen and gold

Entertainment: Enjoys attending concerts, parties, etc. (preferably with company or with company afterwards)

Pastime: Reading, preparing for class, testing out his students' compositions at home (since he's not allowed to sing on campus), the occasional hook up

Food: Eats like a bird, but really enjoys sweets. Mandolato, Chebakia and Baklava are all favorites. The more sugary the better. Fresh and dried fruits are also welcome though

Drink: Mint tea or avocado juice

Have they...

Passed University: He has the DnD equivalent of a PhD in classical music studies

Had Sex: Yes

Had Sex in Public: Not recently, but still yes

Gotten Tattoos: No

Gotten Piercings: Yes, though he'd probably have to get them redone by now.

Gotten Scarred: Nothing major. Up to the events of the campaign, he's lived a pretty safe life

Had a Broken Heart: Yes

Been in Love: Yes, but he ended up doubting whether those feelings were returned authentically

Are they...

A Cuddler: Not really

Scared Easily: I wouldn't call him brave, but he can keep his calm rather well. If he's nervous, it at least won't show under most circumstances. He'll absolutely be as dramatic as needed though if he feels like his current partner enjoys being a bit protective.

The events at the gala were probably the first time he's felt genuinely terrified

Jealous Easily: He rarely sticks around long enough to develop feelings, so it hasn't been a problem

Trustworthy: There are some lingering fey characteristics at play here and while he probably can, Caspian doesn't generally lie. He's not always the most straightforward, but he doesn't try to obfuscate his intentions. What you see is what you get

Family

Parents/Siblings: Caspian is an only child. His father is an elven architect that gets to largely work on passion projects thanks to his wife's steep income.

Caspian's mother is a famous diva and actual siren. As a rule, the venues that host her are required to install seatbelts.

Caspian and her's relationship is a bit strained since she had rather specific ideas for his future.

Children: Not something he's planning to have.

Pets: The most talkative and needy oriental longhair. His name is Adagio.

His family home also kept peacocks in the garden, although they were there more as something ornamental than something to be loved