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irene-dimension · 6 months

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#all great options!!#they have so many good series #and the variety!#personally i think id have to go with are you scared #i just love it #i listen to it to fall asleep #which would probably seem odd #but you watcherinas get it #puppet history may be a close second #im very curious to know everyone’s thoughts #also sorry if i missed any ive gotten 6 hours of sleep on the past two days 🩷#watcher #watcher entertainment #bfu #ryan bergara #Shane madej #ghoul boys #YouTube

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varpusvaras · 1 year

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Bail: *reading something for the Senate at his desk*

Fox: *comes slogging in*

Bail: Oh, hello love

Fox, faceplanting onto the couch: Helourhhghhhhdjdhfjgfh

Bail: Rough day at work?

Fox: Uhhhggghhgg, I don't even know where to start. First we get one suspect in and then the Jedi want to come and interrogate her, and then we get the Jedi murdering the suspect on tape, and then of course she is Skywalker's Padawan, and he comes in after Tarkin has been there-

Bail: *reaching for the comlink to ask Padmé if she has heard anything more*

Fox: - and he starts demanding to be let in because 'that's his Padawan' and he doesn't stop when I tell him that Tarkin said no, and then he gets mad and starts to threaten me if I'm not letting him in-

Bail: *eye twitching* what

Fox: - who does the think he is, who does he think I am? I cannot just jump from one order to another, if I did what he told me to then Tarkin would get mad and I would get hurt anyway, and now three of my troopers are dead and my head hurts and I want to slam it to a wall or something-

Bail: No, no, don't do that. I'm going to get you some water and painkillers, do you want a hug?

Fox: UughhhfhhfhhfhhhhHHHHHH yes

Bail: Of course, I'll just send this message

Bail: Padmé, I'll let you know that Anakin is not invited to our Garden Parties anymore until he stops being a Karen and starts respecting people who do unpaid labor. I'll sic Breha on him if he doesn't

Bail: Alright, c'mere

#Bail to Padmé: is this your man #id remember if Anakin and Padmé are having their relationship break at this point but she still takes him back so the point stands #I also firmly believe that Bail is the last person you want to make mad and if he gets mad you should be very scared #also if you go to the comments on the clip of that scene there are fucking i n s a n e ones there #one dude started to write his own fic to justify why he thinks fox sucks and some other comment called it 'fox derangement'#Imma start using that from now on #anyway Anakin has now been banned from Alderaan until he stops being a dick to retail workers #star wars #the cloner wars #commander fox #bail organa #bail/breha/fox

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scabbardsystem · 28 days

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okay alright alrght alright

#guys im really tired. we're so tired. we really gotta sleep soon.#We can't. We have emails to send. We. We have to call the help desk. And a zoom call.#you dont sound enthusiastic about it #I'm. Not but it has to be done.#hate to burst your bubblle but we're absolutely not doing so hot. as in weve nearly fallen asleep threetimes whiile typing this ok thats 4.#the body is damn nearcollapsing. i think youre kicking up the fear rsponse. jesus thats 5.#but they're not going to respond if we wake up at midnight. please wake up we have to we have to. deadsprint. Deadsprint.#haugghhHHH OKAY YEAH YUP I GOT IT. WAKE UP!! AS MUCH AS I WANNA GET THE HELL OUTTA DODGE I GUESS WE GOTTA DO THIS!!#AWAKE! AWAKE!!!! [BANGS MY STUPID POTS AND PANS TOGETHER]#Okay. Thank you. Maestro?#Mmn alright. 1) Send a new email. We didn't contact the correct person and we have to compose a new one.#Technically not necessary if we 2) schedule a advisory session or join the help zoom room. But we need the registration code.#3) Phone call. Contact the IT department so we can get a school ID because as it stands we are still not even allowed in the school.#optional 4) Work on the project and 5) Try to maintain our leaderboard position in our rhythm game.#No time to be tired. No time to be scared. I know I know. But this has to be done or it'll only get worse. I'll do it I'll take care of it.#But I need you all to cooperate with me please.#🌐#Maestro please do the rest later.#[three of swords]

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prestonmonterey · 7 months

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i hope my friends never get the feeling that they need to have something important to say to be able to talk to me

#marble musings #its just like #an awful feeling #had someone i knew who kinda just like ignored my attempts to make conversation bc im like. not good at talking to people #and i was really sad bc i just wanted to like. enjoy her company #and ive been told by a couple people that they thought i was kinda intimidating???#which is so funny to me bc im like SO scared to talk to people #anyway yeah you dont have to like #say something important or anything #if you dont want to #i mean im like actual shit at small talk but ill still try my best if you just say like 'hi' and wanna start a conversation #(ugh unless youre the kind of person who shuts down small talk questions i cannot deal with that.#there was someone i talked to who i was like asking questions to bc i wanted to like keep the conversation going bc i like. think thats wha #they wanted #but id say like 'hows school' or 'whats a fun fact about yourself' and theyd just give like one word answers which is alright but if you #wanna hold a proper conversation that doesnt really work #and when they answered the questions they didnt throw it back to me like 'how bout you' or something #theyd just. sit there #and i was like #damn ok should i like ask another question?#but i felt like they were trying to hint to me that they didnt wanna talk so i stopped talking #and they were fucking like 'awkwarrrd'#like DO YOU WANT ME TO TALK OR NOT)#ok sorry that was a really long tangent #i prommy im always happy to talk unless youre like a super rare exception (like 2 people ever)#in which case i will try to make it clear im not in the mood to talk or youre like making me uncomfortable or something #ok thats it #have a nice day #:)

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beautifel · 11 months

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seems like my heart does nothing but break lately

#oh my god dont read the tags. it breaks for everyone :( but on a more personal level #for my gf whos sinking deeper into something n i cant even help bc im a wreck myself but i am so so scared to lose her #still havent even been able to book a psych appointment n i rlly dont know where to go with all these ..em*tions #Guys i rlly dont understand one thing. how come one random freak whos in ur life at some point can derail a whole person like eons later #jeopardise their whole future just by crossing some lines for funz i really dont understand this #not fair not fair at all this is evil #and becasue u got unlucky someone wanted to be disgusting u have to carry the consequences #i rly still cant even say it i still cant even write it #i dont even know how . irl the only perosn i told in some capacity #is dealing with her own trauma and i hate that jsut being understanding is not enoughlike #Wow Lmao Its just Funny How it Shapes You. & U Can Never bury it forever becuz it will always catch up to you😂😂😂😂😂😂#AND THE PAST CAN NEVER BE ERASED 😃😃😁😁😂😂😂🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫🔪🔪#at least my gf has been taking steps to deal with it for.3 yrs and i just never even #LOL i feel like such a coward but the sh*me and the g**lt associated with the Thing..r so overwhelming i cant even admit it #what would i even do at the psych appointment like straight up what am i gonna say Lol #hai iam here to process something i dont actually remember probably becasue i was a child but imnot sure. n id rather #kms than tell u how i know 😂. So thats also why my heart breaks. for that little girl who was a ball of shame i guess and no matter #how much i cognitively.like rationally know its not my fault the ball of shame n guilt is still there #n it swallows me every time i vaguely start 2 think about acknowledging the Th*ng #or whatever. And thats just my end of the deal but my gf has it worse genuinely bc she remembers everything n still has to see the freak #n it went on for yrs n her family doesnt know n heres the worst thing hes a beloved family member a sweet boy with struggles of his own #well i hope he walks into traffic for doing what he did to her

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depresseddepot · 1 year

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trying to determine which parts of my relationship with sex are asexuality, which are trauma, and which are autism is like trying to have a conversation with three people talking loudly and all at once

#just to be clear: asexuality as a result of trauma or neurodivergency is still asexuality. full stop no debate.#anyway because i love oversharing on tumblr dot com: feeling very sex repulsed on this day #i was joking with some guy about fighting each other (specifically said ''you ever fight a girl over 200 lbs? id break your ribs'')#and like three different people said something like ''well that would probably turn him on''#and. listen. i get it. that was a joke response to my joke threat #but what i felt in that moment and still feel now requires nothing short of academic study to understand #first of all: how dare they make me feel embarrassed in a social setting when i was doing so well.#secondly: why the fuck would me making a threat make them instantly think of sex #thirdly: how fucked up is my body image that i hear that and immediately think they're all out of their minds #i like fat women. i am personally attracted to fat women. not (usually) sexually but i do think they are very nice to look at #so why is it so hard for me to accept that someone else could find me attractive as well !#i think about being in a situation where a relationship and/or sex is a real possibility and i flinch like its going to hurt me #but why???? where is this aversion coming from !!!!! i am a hopeless romantic i daydream about romance all the time #so whats the deal here. is it subconscious bc of my asexuality and i associate romance with sex?#is it because of my autism where i associate romance with touch and am afraid i am too unempathetic to have a chance?#or (most likely) is it just because im so fucking scared of trusting someone that even the thought makes me nauseous #did this all crop up from a throwaway sex joke? yes #but people don't make sex jokes to me. people don't even pretend to allude to me being cute #this same group of people said a few weeks ago ''at least you're pretty''#which. is not the case!!!!!!! people do not say those things to me because they don't want to even slightly entertain that idea !!!!!!!#and i am extremely tired of having my life upended because of this #i have always been treated like i was ugly and teased about it and i FINALLY have managed to be okay with not being attractive #and now that im okay with it: NOW is when the pretty jokes start. im fucking angry about it actually #i can't be both. i cannot think of myself in terms that abstract. i am one or the other #and this leads me to believe that people think i COULD be pretty. but the catalyst is that i am fat and therefore cannot be attractive #which just makes me more angry!!!!!!!!!!!#how can i be completely indifferent to sex and attraction without seeming juvenile. i don't care so so much #but every time that sort of thing happens i feel like im 13 again and the hot jock is talking to me #i need to be put down. something's wrong with this one (me)#i realize i can't stop people from making sex or appearance jokes but god i wish i fucking could

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dollgutted · 2 months

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so my tumblr front page has a lot of ghostface stuff for obvious reasons, he's obviously a big fave of mine and i follow a lot of ghostie lovin' accounts, as well as following the ghostface tag. typical stuff. but i. every time i see live action ghostface i cannot fucking help but think of that poor fucking scare actor who was dressed as ghostface at the haunt i went to last year.

important details: i am a 4'9 man and despite being a horror lover and connoisseur, i do not handle irl horror very well. that is to say, i'm chicken shit. i'm a fucking baby. i cry and hide behind my friends at haunts. i love going! don't get me wrong! i love going so much because i love being scared but also my fear reaction isn't to fight, flee, or freeze, it's to fawn n cry, baby, that's how i do it. but it's always like "wow that was fun!" after the haunt, yanno? it's scary but it's not real so it's not traumatizing or anything, it's just like, "haha man i am weak let's go again next year", whatever yanno. those details out of the way, if you know ANYTHING about haunts, you know seasoned scare actors are usually pretty good at telling who the scaredy cat is, and a lot of times, that's the easy target. some will go for the one they can tell is already fuckin tweaking lmao. and boy, is it not hard to tell with me.

so let me set the scene: it's 11PM, dark as shit, i'm dressed like a fucken slut bc i always gotta dress up for haunts, if i'm gonna cry i wanna look hot doin' it yanno. got my bunny hat on, for emotional support (doesn't everyone have a hat w/ bunny ears for emotional support?). i'm clinging to my friends shirt while they're dragging me through this corn maze. i hear something crunch behind us and instinctively cling tighter. i know something is about to happen and i'm NOT going to like whatever it is. i'm anticipating a loud noise. a scream. someone to jump out.

LO AND FUCKING BEHOLD, who other than ghostface is suddenly fucking beside me. ME. this haunt isn't super strict about invasion of personal fucking space, it's not officially no touch but most of them won't really touch you. this guy, though, oh no. he says nothing, that'd be out of character of course, but i am staring. wide eyed. just looking up at him. my friends feel me pause. they turn back. THEY START LAUGHING. THEY ARE ANTICIPATING.

i am truly frozen, i am just looking at this man when he moves to press his (obviously fake) knife into my throat, tilting my chin up a little bit with it. i cannot fucking. i cannot function. i GIGGLE. i am a grown man and i giggle like a schoolgirl who's crush just picked up their dropped pencil for them. I GIGGLED. this man tenses, he did NOT expect that reaction. my friends are fucking cackling. this scare actor has been thrown for a loop. he once more says nothing, removes the knife, stares down at me for a solid thirty seconds, and then WALKS AWAY.

GHOSTFACE SCARE ACTOR IF YOURE OUT THERE I AM SO SORRY. I DID NOT MEAN TO MAKE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE I SINCERELY DID NOT BUT I LOVE GHOSTFACE PLS UNDERSTAND YOU MADE A DREAM COME TRUE THAT NIGHT AND I STILL THINK ABOUT IT A YEAR LATER I WOULD APOLOGIZE IF I COULD BUT I WILL NEVER GO BACK TO THAT HAUNT EVER AGAIN OUT OF EMBARRASSMENT.

#this isnt even the most embarrassing interaction ive had at a haunt either #i have a TALENT for embarrassing myself at haunts #now that i think about it every haunt ive ever gone to #ive had smth either embarrassing or unfortunate happen #youd think id stop going #but its sm fun lmao #ghostface #scream #haunt #scare actor #pls if ur out there i am deeply sorry sir #but also never talk to me again i literally cannot handle the shame #i cannot fucking believe i giggled i am so fucking sorry you were trying to scare me bro and like i #wrong person?#i am so sorry #i wrecked your vibe #i did not mean to #hopefully you scared some other folks that night #ill die in my hole of shame lmao

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nomairuins · 3 months

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i literally likw felt sick hust now bc i thought abt gay people and ive just realized as i was about to hit post that this sounds homophobic. it was pure envy unfortunately

#i need to have a gay moment or im going to die in real life. guys its so hard #mfw i never leave the house and im extremely closed off and distant from people and i never talk to anybody and im a shutin: When will i #meet my love.#ITS NOT GONNA HAPPENNN MY LOVE WILL NOT MATERIALIZE INSIDE MY STUPID GARAGE. PUNCHES THE WALL #also you may think connor youre not closed off you literally yap constantly about every single thought in your head. Yes. but thats to you #guys as a whole so it doesnt count #one on one conversations im so scared im like acat hiding under a bed. genuinely shaking crying #BUT I DONT NOT LIKE ONE ON ONE CONVERSATIONS I MISS THEM BADLY. i used to talk to online friends Everyday. and ugh. obvioisly.#i just like. idk. i wanna make friends but i feel like im so bad at being a person that its wah too much work to befriend me #i dont mean that selfdeprecatingly i mean like. i need the other person to make the first moves always which sucks bc thats a bad thing to #expect of someone but if i ever made the first moves i. well i just couldnt my brain would shut down its a whole thing. connor doesnt speak #unless spoken to etc. and again ik i yap on here #but thats bc this is like my diary. dms or discord or whatever Is a conversation.......sigh #but ya. and with time i think id warm up and be able to initiate congersation and reciprocate properly but thats a long time to make someone #wait. bc i also when ppl do reach out i like. im like . like w my old coworkers we were i think friends but i was like Im the only one who #thinks that they dont actually like Me so whenever they talked id be like Theyre just doing tjis to be nice or out of pity #which is a rude thought to have abt someone inknow but its like. idk .. im nonsensical #but it takes me a while to like. actually understand somebody is trying to be friends bc im obtuse as fuck #and im like Well theyre saying hello to me and amiling whenever rhey see me just to be nice or possibly bc they hate me <- stupid guy on 🌎

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makedamnsvre · 1 year

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you don't have to read this is for screaming in the void

#trying to explain that i'm struggling without saying the big most important part of why i am struggling is .#like oh i'm struggling because uh . the issues. what are the issues? well . they are issues that i refuse to elaborate on #so it doesn't help anybody. but like how am i supposed to explain to my mom that the reason i've become so severely depressed is because #i'm suicidal. like oh btw ^-^ i hate the life you gave me and brought me into so bad that i want to die. but it's no big deal so don't worr #about it.#which like that wouldn't be how i meant it at all but of course that's also implied or something #which just makes me think of other things like that if things weren't so bad id be able to get help but help is inaccessible.#ughhhh i just hate this it's so agonizing. like cant things be a little less bad. i'm not having fun being like this and people are #reasonably irritated with me because only based on what i'm willing to tell just. isn't the full story at all and would obviously just.#not make sense because i'm leaving out major parts of what's happening and why.#and tbh i'm constantly going back and forth between like. coming out as suicidal. mainly because like. well. it kinda worrying me.#because for like months now i've almost daily been fighting off suicidal thoughts and often even having suicidal meltdowns #yesterday i was standing near a ceiling fan and was like hmm wouldnt it be nice if one of the blades came off and stabbed me through #the back of my skull and killed me. but then i thought no that would be too traumatizing for my family #as if me dying at all wouldn't be. which i also thought of. idk just thinking about the idea of #i want to live but not like this. because yeah. my mom said that she thinks reading bad news is why and it's like well . of course it is #but should i just stay completely unaware of what's happening in the world. but also bad news is just unavoidable #but yeah it is why i'm depressed. climate change racism homophobia transphobia covid wars economy etc like #these are things that i can't just. ignore? and am i seriously the crazy person for being upset about these things?#well she does think i'm crazy for still being scared of the dangerous virus that is currently the third leading cause of death in the us #like last night she was like ' it's good to be cautious but you're going over board' i'm friends with people who could die from covid.#'over board' i care about them and other people and i don't want them to die. i don't want to be permanently disabled by a virus with #a 20% chance every time i catch it to permanently damage my immune system and give me long covid. <- according to cdc #but whatever. i do genuinely want mental help. i think i need s different medication or a diagnosis bc uhmmm . i am unwell #but that's expensive.#i have an appointment with a doctor today for a med check because i don't think my ssri is working . obviously #as i am as you can tell absolutely overcome with severe and debilitating anxiety and depression. lolzors #whatever. except not because ouuuughhhgh <-unimaginable suffering #mypost

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nomaishuttle · 11 months

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ALSO sry im so talkative today idk whats gotten IN to me but anyways. its sooo crazy 2 me that ppl have other birthdays that arent the sake day as my birthday like obviously i know ppl do but its crazy to me. bc january 13th is like My birthday ykwim. like its such a good day to have a birthday on so beautiful 1/13/2005 gods specialest girl was born ykwim.

#also the cafe is plsying so much lana del rey im rly scared guys. ive never listened to ldr outside of nightcore when i was 11 #but ya i loooove having a january birthday bc it makes it so easy to figure out how old i was during an event. bc its like. ok unless the #event happened in the first 12 days of the year i can just subtract 5 from the year it happened and thats how old i was. ykwim. like 2007 i #was 2 rhe entire year basicslly 2012 i was 7 the entire year its awesome #whereas if i had a september birthday. Like some people (my sibling). itd be a wholee production like ok was it before or after the end of #september. which is isnt rly that difficult but i have trouble remembering what specific month a thing happened in #but i can remember seasons. which again like ig isnt the difficult bc if it happened in wjnter etc. spring etc. summer etc. but if it #happened in fall id probably be confused..#basically january is the best month of the year and the most beautiful girls are born then #a fun fact is i wasnt born on friday the 13th. i was born on a thursday #BUT my 1st birthday was friday and so was myyy 16th i think. idr. but yeah sometimes its on a friday which is cool :]#and another fun fact is it was a sunny day but (according to my dad) there was a random lightning strike like. right when i was born. so #basically i think im rly rly quite special. joke. i think that lightning strike was god saying Lord well hold on. why would god he saying #lord. thats kinda funny. thats like if i went Connor i am going to put this guy in situations. which tbf i do refer to myself in 3rd person #mentally On occasion. but anyways. sry i distracted mysekf and forgot what i was gonna say. its tly funny to imagine god just being like #Lord almighty.#speaking of idk if you guys know this abt me but i say lord almighty and jesus christ and good lord etc so much. and i didnt always i like #started saying them a year or so ago and now i cant stop. i wasnt even raised religious im not religious in the slightest . but my first #reaction to things now is Lord almighty... like girl you do not even know him.#anyways thats all. sry

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audiovisualrecall · 4 months

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Love how I can ruin something so easily

#actually id say love how depression can do so but i dont have to behave irritably just bc my brain feels unmoored and unhappy for no good #reason. i dont have to make it everyone elses problem #i wasnt trying to! but i cant communicate hey i feel like x and thats making me feel y and i dont know what to do about it #i just.. why dont they ask 'Why?' when i get like that. i want them to notice that I'm acting uncharacteristically and say something so that #i can go oh yeah thats dumb and idk why sorry yeah #but theyre reacting like its not obvious when i pointed out that this happens and that i want them to ask me 'why'#yeah is it fair to expect that if them? no. but idk what else to do abt it bc i am incapable of makingany other decision #im ANGRY #I'm disappointed i didnt get to be here for the yard sale and help them #I'm frustrated i had to be at work even though i was superfluous there today #I'm disappointed and frustrated that they dont want to try a yard sale again another week #like maybe a warmer and nicer weekend and puttinf more signs up will result in more traffic to the yard sale!#theyre giving up on it and i wanted to do a yard sale and didnt get to bc i had to be at work instead and now i wont gwt to again bc they #dont want to plan another yard sale bc theyre exhausted by it #i missed out and i wanted to do a yard sale so bad and didnt get to be here for it!#I'm frustrated that qe wont do another yard sale #and I'm unhappy that they didnf trust that i could clean up and brinf stuff inside at least like theyre tired so why are they doinf the work #let me help! i want to feel like i helped! I'm useless i dont do anything! but i was fold i cant do it on my own and wouldnt know where they #wanred to put stuff #like yeah i cant move the tables on my own into the shed. fine. but the boxes of stuff??? she could have come and directed me instead!#so like. fine i wont help. and then i got up and came to fuckinf help anyway even tjo apparently i wouldnt have done it right on my own #and shes like that attitude wasn't helpful like neither was what you said!#i know I'm not smart or helpful and just an annoying tag-alonf overgrown child but i wanted to do something #if it was my oldest sister insisting she could do it they wouldnt have protested!#whatever I'm stupid and reactive and i could have said like that makes me feel like u think i cant help and that feels shitty #whatever #I'm just. i hate existing its too frustrating and complicated and i havw no choice in the matter and i want to just curl up in bed and do #nothing and go nowhere and not talk to anyone and not do my medication bc i wont have insurance if i dont go to work bc i wont have the job #which means i can never do that bc unfortunately the result of not taking my medication scares me more than i hate having to be a person #i hate being a person but being sick is infinitely worse so

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713-4th-ward-g · 8 months

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#idk i kind of find it fucked up that my dad thinks it was a bad idea to tell me about his life insurance plan #he told my mom “ you think it was a good idea telling him ? you know people kill people for it”#almost if not is insinuating that i would do something like that #idk to me it speaks volumes on how he views me as a person to think i would even think of such a thing #it bothers me to think he would think id do that i definitely dont get along with the dude but i wouldn't do that 😂#like you really think that low of me 😂 bruh that shit is sad to me #i absolutely hated him when i was growing up; literally had everyone walking on eggshells #you literally quite literally couldn't say anything to him or he would get aggressively mad #literally so mad that his screams alone would make my ears ring and hed throw stuff around in his little shed #i would be so scared as a kid helping him with a car maintenance or anything around the house cause any inconvenience #would have the man screaming at me when I've done nothing but try and help and cuss me out for the thing he fucked up something #for years i couldn't hang out with my classmates outside of school near my house without him cussing at me and screaming at me to go home #if he saw me with them at the abandoned next door neighbors house he would literally scream at me and cuss at me to get in the fucking house #and would grab my arm and push me inside; i was just in middle school at the time and ive already been through so much mental abusive #i would get blaimed for anything he did wrong when i would try to help him fix something around the house and it wasnt my fault #screaming and cussing at me calling me fucking stupid in Spanish i hated him so much his excuses are work had him so stressed out #like if that excuses him for taking his stress out on my sister and i; its absolute bullshit the man he is now is just a toned down version #thats why when he did it again not long ago it triggered me so much it brought back so many horrible memories i didnt want to remember #he didnt even apologize to me he just told my mom he was embarrassed and didnt know what got over him like that's an excuse to scream #and cuss at everyone who had nothing to do with him fucking up the wall he had no reason of cutting and cutting a pipe in the process #he was cussing at me saying i dont want to be critique 🤣 like dawg all i was only giving him options to fix the problem #he took that as critiquing and he fucking exploded cussing and screaming in Spanish i was sure we were about to fight again #it wouldn't be the first time ive fought him before when i was a teenager cause he would scream at my mom and grandma #and i would stand up for them and just for that he would throw hands with a 13 year old me a 15 year old me a 16 17 amd 18 year old me #he was a horrible person and i hate it when people tell me he was a good person there that he was a good father cause he provided for my mom #like if thay excuses the abuse he put my sister and i through like fuck that dude he had not right hitting my sister in the face #and mentally abusing us its absolute bullshit and i still have not gotten over my childhood #literally the worst time of my life was my whole childhood for every good time i had there were 10 times more negative shit that happened #so i find it funny that he'd think i would kill him 🤣 for his insurance money i dont want his stupid money #he really thinks that low of me and it's quite sad honestly

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everony · 8 months

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One of the things I think about sometimes is that time I told my nepotism manager, in much nicer terms, to fuck around and find out if he wants to make me mad again. Then went above his head and tattled on him to his wife, the owner, and his cousin, the other owner, telling them exactly what I told him and that it wasn't an empty threat.

He backed off and pretty much leaves me alone bow lmao

#straight up told the dude that im autistic not stupid #and if he wants to stop me from doing the main part of my job #but then get mad at me for doing the other major part of my job #then its going to be his problem if he wants to make me mad again #tbh i also told him that if he pulls that shit again then im just not going to listen to him and he can suck it up #this fucker is also aware that im literally LEGALLY DISABLED because of my processing issues but acts like im not #i think he also forgot about telling me to my face that his 4y/o son would be better at the job that ive done for 8 years #until i mentioned it #because he got real quiet real quick #like yeah #i have a shit memory #but im also the type of person to remember tiny insignificant details #and being called stupid by the man who has to constantly ask you how to do shit really leaves an impression on someone #auDHD #also im the type of person who doesnt like to get angry #id much rather just laugh it off and hope the asshole has the day they deserve #but thats because im very non confrontational #and im aware of my temper that burns like thermite #ill be seemingly fine until suddenly the spark catches and my anger burns so fiercely that it scares me #i get described at work as bubbly and easy going #but in those moments youd never be able to see that as truth #but within moments the rage is gone and only apathy for the fucker who pissed me off remains #and apathy is far more unsettling than sudden rage #because now im not masking #i dont have the energy left to mask for the sake of someone who isnt worth a second of my time #and the unfortunate part of being autistic is that i know i make nerotypicals uncomfortable when i dont mask

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godisaknife · 1 year

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just had to kill a bug cause it was in my room and they're such a psychotic trigger to me that i literally passed the fuck out for a hot minute

#thinking about how i like my roommate but how much of a dick she is about this topic #she's super grossed out by bugs and spiders but has me kill them even though i once #had a full on psychotic breakdown in front of her because of a spider but she didnt give a shit did she #jesus you really must be a dick #like im not scared of animals but idk if i was scared of birds and she was too but i knew it was a psychological trigger for her #id take care of it because im a decent person #she watched me have the psychotic breakdown and then waited for me to recover so that i could go kill the spider #how about you do it for fucking once

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ghostfacd · 10 months

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IN A WORLD FULL OF BOYS, HE’S A GENTLEMAN ! | TOM BLYTH

PAIRING. tom blyth x fem!actress!reader

SUMMARY. despite being in a world filled of childish boys, your boyfriend was definitely a gentleman, always putting you before him

AUTHORS NOTE. the third installment because we love tom blyth and yn avocot. I recommend reading part 1 and 2 for more context!

tomblyth “babe, do you think we’re together in every universe?” is that even a question?

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ynuser stoppp i didn’t know youd actually take the question seriously

user1 get you a man like tom blyth bc oh my god

user2 idk what yn did to manifest him but i need her ways

user3 ugh idk what he’s doing with her lol he could do so much better

➥ user4 well someone had to say it..

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You didn’t understand how some people on the internet can be so . . . mean. Although there have been countless of fans cheering you and Tom on, it didn’t make it any less hurtful that there were still a ton who weren’t scared to be open about how much your boyfriend could do better.

It’s ironic; you think. They’re claiming they’re looking out for Tom, yet totally disregarding him and his girlfriend as human beings? Those weren’t real fans.

The reason for them hating you so much? Just for simply being with Tom. Everybody wanted him, that was your crime.

Everytime you got lost in your thoughts about this topic, Tom knew. Boyfriend instincts, he called them, but really, he was just a caring and observant person.

You tried not to break down over it, you really did, but a girl could only go on for so long before it all bursts out. Luckily, Tom pulls you right in, telling you to let it all out.

Although the world was filled with childish and hurtful beings, Tom Blyth was still who he was, a gentleman, attending to your every needs.

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tomblyth really dgaf if you like my girlfriend or not cause i do and that’s all that matters

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user5 im cryinf the polaroid he has of her

user6 YES REAL MEN STAND UP FOR THEIR GFS

user7 ALL THE PICS HE HAS OF HER 🥹🥹

tomblythswife oh to be yn avocot and be loved by tom blyth

rachelzegler tell ‘em 🙊

user8 she doesn’t even comment on the posts he makes abt her, so self centered lol

➥ ynuser I’m right next to him rn?? cant say the same thing about you “lol”

➥ user9 OH SHE ATE YOU UP @/user8

tomblyth_daily here are some clips of tom talking about his relationship in his new interview! GET YOU A MAN THATS LIKE TOM BLYTH 🗣️🗣️🗣️

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user10 the way he’s so passionate when talking about her and being a good boyfriend, God I hate being single

user11 “they’re not even that cute” STFU AND GO WATCH THIS INTERVIEW CAUSE ??

user12 tom blyth said put aside your nonchalant attitudes, im looking at YOU MEN 🫵🫵

ilovetomblyth he’s so boyfriend it actually hurts

user13 yn must’ve saved a continent in her past life to be dating tom blyth omg

ynuser girls, before you have a meltdown over a boy: think of what balleona laurent would do. kiss and manipulate coriolanus!

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tomblyth you kiss and manipulate me too

➥ ynuser you’re gonna get me CANCELLED

user14 literal unbothered icon i love her

user15 if i were her id post a tiktok with that audio “he chose me he don’t want you”

iloveyn SHES SO FUNNY

lionsgate us when behind the scenes photo of balleona 😻

➥ user16 lmao stop who’s the admin of lionsgate

user17 balleona is such a bad person but oh is she hot

tomblyth she was like a shot of espresso

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ynuser i love u more than words can describe blyth

user18 ok who’s cutting onions

user19 GIRLS, GUYS, THEY THEMS, STOP SETTLING FOR BARE MINIMUM WHEN TOM BLYTH LITERALLY CALLED HIS GF A SHOT OF ESPRESSO, GIVES HER FLOWERS EVERYDAY, AND TALKS ABT HER ALL THE TIME IN HIS INTERVIEWS

➥ user20 YELL IT HARDER SISTER 👐👐👐

user21 this is so dark academica im inlove with u guys

user22 parentssss

rachelzegler my favorites