#auDHD

[borderline-culture-is]

BPD + Autism/ADHD culture is having an interest you’re extremely defensive and territorial about since that interest is the only thing defining you.

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[anarchywoofwoof]

adhd sucks. this is true. but when you develop some kind of meaningful routine, you occasionally find yourself feeling on top of the world simply because all of your bath towels are clean. neurotypical people usually have to do a hero dose of mushrooms or jump out of an airplane to feel that alive

[shesa-punkrocker]

"Vanessa isn't a lesbian" EXPLAIN WHY SHE WEARS THE FLANNEL SO XAMN WELL YHEN.

[hopelesslvr]

it's weird that now that i'm finally having my health issues addressed, i'm afraid. i think i've been so comfortable in my pain. it's weird. it's not that i don't want to get better, i do, but the idea that i'm being listened to and taken seriously is daunting. the idea that i might have actual diagnoses—actual names to my issues—is scary. it makes me feel like, now that i'm being listened to, i was faking it the whole time. like this has all been one big ploy and i'm going to get busted now. i don't know why i feel like this. who would i be faking? why would i be faking it to myself?

it's scary to actually start prioritizing my health after years of complete disregard from doctors and getting so used to being... sick that it's no longer a concern.

[sailing-ever-west]

graph of what being hungry is like with adhd

[thund3randrain]

when the autism is being an actual mental health problem instead of making me obsess over fictional characters again:

[etherealspacejelly]

me when the disability disables me: oh what the fuck? this sucks. what the hell man!

[estrogeneral-intelligence]

hey I'm sorry I stopped in the middle of that sentence my brain decided to flush its cache and I totally forgot what this conversation was

[beautyinthediss0nance]

[dailydivergent]

There’s no such thing as work-life balance for neurodivergent & chronically ill people.

This is because everything in my life requires work:

maintaining friendships

keeping up with my hygiene

managing bills

making money

remembering my basic needs

sleeping regularly

outputting creatively

All requires some aspect of work for me.

And when everything in your life requires work, your balance goes out the window.

If you're neurodivergent and overwhelmed — I see you.

If you're chronically ill and overwhelmed — I see you.

You're not dysfunctional.

You're not incapable.

You're doing your best.

[chaoticusnerdalis]

[anexperimentallife]

[the-toybox-sys]

reading the symptoms of autism as a now grown adult after being bullied for no explainable reason all your life

[spandexbutterfly4lyfe]

Real talk why does social interaction feel like you’re trying to get a good grade in being a person

[existennialmemes]

Hey. Hey you. The person aimlessly scrolling, stuck in an immobilized standoff with your brain

It's not your fault. You won't be stuck forever. I know you're trying. I know you hate it. It's ok.

And tell the Mean Voice in your head that it's not helping. It knows as well as you do that you would get up and Just Start the task if you could. You're not doing this on purpose.

Take a deep breath. Relax your jaw. I see you trying so hard to break out of it, but you can't force it. You'll get Unstuck eventually. All you can do in the interim is be kind to yourself.

[queerasflux]

man I wish people understood how much it sucks ass to be neurodivergent and trying to find the middle ground where people like/tolerate you. like, I'm either "boring" (trying to wait my turn in conversations, holding space for other people, taking a back seat to let others get some spotlight) or "too much" (too loud/talking too much, getting excited to share, trying to participate in group conversations/activities). No one really talks about how much of being neurodivergent is just sort of trying to make yourself palatable.

I feel like so much of my life has been spent trying to find this effortless sort of middle ground everyone else seems to automatically already know, and I'm always swinging too far one way or the other. I'm lucky to have neurodivergent friends who grok me, but goddamn I wish that I could just like, exist without the constant background script in my brain that's like "you're being too loud. You're not talking enough. you're being self-centered. you're being boring. you're wrong, you're wrong, you're wrong." I feel like I'm back in high school trying to make friends but stuck as the eternal "weird kid"

it's just... lonely and sucks bad.