#pez dispenser debris

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Summary: An older Izuku is accidentally hit by a quirk that spits out a younger version of himself. This is a terrible state of affairs given the amount of secrets he is keeping - and his younger copy's loose lips.

Author: @polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup

Note from submitter: this author has like, one of the most entertaining writing styles I've ever come across. fantastically funny, horrendously heartbreaking, all-around incredibly done, and absolutely *criminally* underrated; I'm considering getting into their more recent fandoms just so I can read more of their works.

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

Just finished reading Pez Dispenser Debris (I don’t even go there but I am fueled by Wiki articles and a love for your storytelling) and first of all—amazing!!! 10/10, I think I need to watch this series now. 

Second, I  noticed that (while very much distinct) Yuuta & Izuku have a lot of similarities in the voice you gave them—maybe it’s the constant panic attacks or perhaps both of  them placing blame for everything squarely on their own shoulders, but ough it makes for the perfect blend of gut-punching angst. I’d love to hear any ramblings you currently have about either of them. I am currently obsessed with both of them now and am placing the blame on you <3

I’m gonna pretty heavily discuss some spoilers for my hero academia in this. I figured that was okay since you’d already read my fanfic and the wiki so the cat is out of the metaphorical bag. That being said, maybe wait to read this answer if you want to not be spoiled for more details in my hero.

Yuuta and Izuku absolutely have the most similar voices out of all of my narrators and it is 90% because they are both completely insane and in violent need of a Xanax and a nice soothing cup of chamomile tea. God I love them both so much. They should each be heavily medicated.

My hero academia is a pretty great watch through the Shie Hassaikai arc. The concept is entertaining, the characters are GREAT, and the world building is really cool.

Then the story sort of. Went to shit.

I tried for a while after that, but eventually had to stop watching. My friends and I have a group chat named “horikoshi just call us” because we got so despondent at the writing decisions after that arc.

Horikoshi. If you’re out there. If you’re reading this. Just call us. We just want to help.

That being said, my love for the characters maintains its death grip on me. I simply adore them. They’re delights.

Yuuta and Izuku, on their face, have a lot of similarities as protagonists. The aforementioned insanity and need of Xanax, of course, but the skeleton of the stories has a lot of common touchstones and themes, like:

Both characters have some kind of history with suicidal ideation or tendencies. In the second scene of JJK0, it’s established that Yuuta canonically tried to kill himself. In the first episode of BNHA, Izuku is told to kill himself by his bullies, in an act which appears to be common to izuku’s life, and the only reason Izuku comes up with to not do it is “then you’d get in trouble for telling me to do it.”

Both characters have severe self worth issues. Yuuta’s looking for a reason to be alive at the start of JJK0. He’s looking for a right to be alive. In a way, Izuku is too at the start of BNHA. At the open of action, he is told by everyone in his life that he is useless. His nickname is “Deku,” which uses some of the same kanji as “Dekunobo,” meaning blockhead. The most direct translation were given is that this is a way of calling him useless. He’s the powerless member of a society choked with superpower, and he’s been told his entire life that he can do nothing, that his dreams are pointless, and that he’s a burden who would be better off dead.

They’re both saddled with power they can’t fully control. Yuuta with Rika, and Izuku with One for All, a transferable power that’s too strong to be contained in his body.

They both have a close relationship with an impossibly strong mentor that they are implied to be the successor of. Yuuta with Gojo, as he’s second only to Gojo in the modern age, and Izuku with All Might (aka Toshinori Yaga), who he is more literally taking on the mantle of One for All from.

They both are chugging that Loving Their Friends Juice and have tried to kill grown men with their bare hands as a result

That all being said, they could not be more different characters and honestly aren’t all that similar.

I have this sort of lasting grievance with literary analysis when people take a list of common plot points or events and use them to make the argument that characters are similar or parallel one another. Like, that’s all facial. The real question is how do they substantively handle those events. How do their story arcs treat those things? How does their character react to them?

Yuuta and Izuku’s actual substantive characters don’t really react to those events in the same way at all. The analysis could go on all day in this respect, really, but the biggest difference is how their respective story arcs treat the cornerstone of their original conflicts.

Yuuta opens action with Rika as the cornerstone of his conflict. She’s who he wants to free, she’s who he’s chained to, and it’s her protection of him that makes him think he deserves to die. Izuku’s cornerstone, meanwhile, is his own Quirklessness. He desperately wants to be a hero, and everyone in his life tells him he can’t be because he is Quirkless. He’s useless because he’s Quirkless. He should kill himself because he’s Quirkless. He’s a burden and always will be because he’s Quirkless.

And while Yuuta’s arc reconciles him with his cornerstone, Izuku’s forgoes it entirely.

The story just. Forgets. That he’s Quirkless. They stop talking about it. It never comes up again. It doesn’t make any real big impact on his character or decisions. It’s one of my biggest axes to grind with how the story developed, and it’s actually one of the biggest reasons why I wrote pez dispenser debris.

Pez dispenser debris was actually inspired by this one piece of my hero academia art where Izuku is hugging his younger self. I don’t know if it was official art or fan art, and I have no idea where it is or where to find it because by god have I tried so I can find it and link it for credit/to boost it. I saw it literally years ago, thought “oh that’s cool,” wrote the original first scene of the fic (where Midoriya stops the bus and is hit by the Quirk), wasn’t feeling it, got distracted by other projects, went to law school, graduated law school, signed up to take the bar exam, and was suddenly electrified in the last fucking month of studying with this fugue state of feverish artistic inspiration. I have never written so easily or so compulsively in my life. I’d write for eight unbroken hours and it would be fucking magic every time. It was like an addiction. I was writhing with a need to create and had so much fucking anxiety about the test I was not studying for instead. The words could not be restrained.

Anyway I taught myself three subjects on the plane ride to the state I was taking it in and passed anyway so it’s fine we’re fine

The moral of the story is that this story has been cooking long enough for me to get two more diplomas than I had when I started it and I have no idea where to find that fucking piece of art that inspired it, but if I find it, I’ll reblog it so y’all can see it too.

The thing is, the narrative sort of forcibly excluding Izuku’s past as Quirkless would make total sense to me if it was used as something Izuku himself was doing.

Izuku necessarily had to hide the truth of his former Quirkless status at the start of action—he needed to keep the secret of One for All. Like, he could not let people find out that a Quirk was transferrable, but you know, just the most powerful one, and also he had it, please come torture it out of him.

But as the narrative goes on, that rationale becomes less important. He has people he can trust with it. And yeah, eventually One for All becomes more known, but the discussion is all about him being all might’s successor. Him being Quirkless and how that affected him and still affects him isn’t really discussed or treated as important. And Izuku doesn’t act like it’s important to him either. He never really thinks about it.

And I just hated that. Like. He spent almost his entire life as a member of society who was spit on. He’s had a Quirk for less than a year. How are his experiences with Quirklessness not important to how he interacts with the world?

The other point of contention I had was Mirio.

Mirio is this superstar of a senpai who takes Izuku under his wing. He has an extremely powerful quirk that’s only as effective as it is because he put in the work and learned how to handle it. He’s a perfect, eternally smiling paragon of heroism. He’s flagged early as the one out of everyone, including heroes with established careers, who is most likely to replace All Might.

He’s also the one who was supposed to get One for All.

His mentor had found him and trained him to be All Might’s successor. Before All Might could meet him, however, he found this feral raccoon child in a sewer and said “oh my god I can’t not offer him incomprehensible power within the first three hours of meeting him” and tripped face first into fatherhood.

During a rescue mission, Mirio loses his Quirk in a way that’s borderline irreversible. There’s no known cure, and the only possible one is dependent on a little girl learning how to control an extremely volatile and dangerous quirk and using it in a way she never has before.

So surely, they’re going to commit to that writing decision, right? He’s Quirkless. We’re bringing back having Quirkless characters. It’s going to be this sick as hell juxtaposition between Izuku and Mirio. We are at least going to force Izuku to reflect on his own times as Quirkless or have some kind of discussion about how Mirio is treated differently now that he is Quirkless.

But no. He gets his Quirk back by the next season. We don’t talk about it much. It’s more of a minor inconvenience than anything.

It’s almost as if the show accepted as an actual rule that you couldn’t be a hero without a Quirk. And then just. Forgot. Everything it had to do with its literal protagonist.

Anyway, I hated it.

In contrast, I fucking loved how yuuta’s storyline with Rika ends. That scene where Yuuta’s turning back to Rika, thanking her for loving him, telling him they can die together? I’m obsessed with it. I recently moved across the country and listened to that theme song on loop during the drive.

Yuuta and Rika’s love was unhealthy. They hurt each other. But it wasn’t malicious.

They just didn’t know how to love each other in a way that didn’t hurt.

They were in shit circumstances. But the love was there.

Yuuta felt guilty for Rika’s love for him and his for her almost the entire narrative. He thought he cursed her with his love. He wanted to kill himself because of how she hurt people out of love for him. It’s why I have moments in sea glass gardens where Yuuta talks about begging Rika to stop loving him—he didn’t know why love had to hurt so goddamn bad, and he’s sorry for that, he really is. He wishes he was better at it than he was.

At the end of JJK0, Yuuta truly is the last person who remembers Rika as she was and still loves her for who she is. He’s faced with Geto, who wants to use her as a weapon. Everyone treats her as a threat or a tool, except for Yuuta.

Like. Just that moment. Of loving someone so genuinely, and being the last one who does, and knowing that everyone else will just use them. I’m obsessed with it.

Yuuta reconciles with his love for Rika and her love for him, and they’re both finally freed. It’s this perfect moment of acceptance that I adore. He comes to terms with his past. It doesn’t hurt him so much anymore.

I wrote pez dispenser debris to sort of force Izuku to have that kind of reconciliation. As it is, he hasn’t reconciled with his own Quirklessness and how that affected him. I wanted to give him something he couldn’t physically escape and had to face.

[captainkirkk]

✩ WEEKLY FIC ROUND-UP ✩

All the fics I’ve read and really enjoyed in the past week-ish. Reminder: This list features any and all ratings and themes. Please look at tags and warnings on ao3 before reading.

BNHA

pez dispenser debris by thepolysyndetonaddictsupportgroup

Young Izuku nods. He’s still pale, with a careful blankness to his face, and his shoulders tremble slightly when he moves. In a small, sure voice, he says, “I’ve thought about what you told me, and what I’ve seen. And there’s only one explanation: I’m dead.”

“Ah,” says Mirio.

Izuku rubs his forehead with the heel of his hand. “We should probably just call Mr. Aizawa.”

---

There are versions of himself that Izuku wishes he could bury.

Marvel

the first step of kintsugi by thepolysyndetonaddictsupportgroup

Frank breaks into David’s house and shakes him awake. When the screaming finally stops, he tells him, “I need you to help me find Spider-Man."

DC (Batman)

Batman, go grab your Robin... Wait, wrong Robin! by IzzyMRDB

im just wanted to go trick-or-treating as Robin this year. He had been working so hard on his costume and it looked so authentic, he really just wanted it to be appreciated.

How did he end up being kidnapped by Batman?

AKA: A sleep-deprived and lightly concussed Bruce grabs the wrong Robin when heading home from Halloween Patrol.

Clone Wars

To Be Free Once More (That's Worth Fighting For) by Batsutousai

As a Jedi Shadow, Obi-Wan hadn't expected to have much to do with the clone troopers. Until, suddenly, he does.

Shadowhunters

Dona Nobis Pacem by lawsofchaos (+ podfic)

"When Alec kneels before you on that dais, Magnus,” Jace keeps going, “he’s telling every person present that it is your judgement, your respect, that he places before all others. In you placing that rune on his neck, Alec is publicly proclaiming that it’s your blessing and your judgement on him and on his reign as Head that gives him the right and the authority to uphold the Covenant.”

Magnus' throat is too tight to speak, but there’s a distinct shimmer visible in his suddenly unglamoured eyes.

[ao3feed-izuku-midoriya]

Pez Dispenser Debris

pez dispenser debris by thepolysyndetonaddictsupportgroup

Young Izuku nods. He's still pale, with a careful blankness to his face, and his shoulders tremble slightly when he moves. In a small, sure voice, he says, “I've thought about what you told me, and what I've seen. And there's only one explanation: I'm dead.”

“Ah,” says Mirio.

Izuku rubs his forehead with the heel of his hand. “We should probably just call Mr. Aizawa.” --- There are versions of himself that Izuku wishes he could bury.

Words: 12138, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia (Anime & Manga)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: Gen

Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Toogata Mirio, Todoroki Shouto, Iida Tenya, Uraraka Ochako, Shinsou Hitoshi, Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Midoriya Inko, Class 1-A, Bakugou Katsuki, Eri

Relationships: Midoriya Izuku & Toogata Mirio, Midoriya Izuku & Todoroki Shouto, Iida Tenya & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku & Uraraka Ochako, Midoriya Izuku & Shinsou Hitoshi, Midoriya Izuku & Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Inko & Midoriya Izuku

Additional Tags: De-Aging Quirk, Sort Of, that awkward moment when a quirk accident spits out an entirely distinct younger version of yourself, who absolutely refuses to believe that you're the same person, Izuku meets himself and both versions experience the cain instinct, Quirkless Discrimination, Quirkless Toogata Mirio, Toogata Mirio becomes the first quirkless hero and both versions of Izuku are his biggest fan, Quirk Accident, Future Fic, Not canon compliant past the Shie Hassaikai arc, Bullying, Midoriya Izuku Needs A Hug, Feral Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku is a Little Shit, Parental Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Parental Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead | Dadzawa, Shinsou Hitoshi Replaces Mineta Minoru, Hurt/Comfort

Read Here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/48316705

[theetwinkleboy]

this right here is why quirkless mirio is my white whale

on that note, my three favorite quirkless mirio fics:

pez dispenser debris: mirio is the first quirkless hero. he and izuku are opening an agency together. also izuku gets hit by a quirk that spawns a child version of him. unfinished but so, so worth it, a+, i read it once then immediately went back to chapter 1 and read it again and cried both times

i’m kinda scared of graduation (‘cause who am i when this is done): izuku and mirio in the hospital. mirio is acting chipper, and izuku calls his bluff

This Is All Temporary: When I tell you this fic made me cry three separate times in 15k words--it's incredible. a day in the life of mirio, whose life is on hold as he waits for his quirk to come back. amazing characterization, beautiful exploration of relationships, just. a wonderful fic

[ao3feed-tododeku]

Pez Dispenser Debris

pez dispenser debris by thepolysyndetonaddictsupportgroup

Young Izuku nods. He's still pale, with a careful blankness to his face, and his shoulders tremble slightly when he moves. In a small, sure voice, he says, “I've thought about what you told me, and what I've seen. And there's only one explanation: I'm dead.”

“Ah,” says Mirio.

Izuku rubs his forehead with the heel of his hand. “We should probably just call Mr. Aizawa.” --- There are versions of himself that Izuku wishes he could bury.

Words: 12138, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia (Anime & Manga)

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: Gen

Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Toogata Mirio, Todoroki Shouto, Iida Tenya, Uraraka Ochako, Shinsou Hitoshi, Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Midoriya Inko, Class 1-A, Bakugou Katsuki, Eri

Relationships: Midoriya Izuku & Toogata Mirio, Midoriya Izuku & Todoroki Shouto, Iida Tenya & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku & Uraraka Ochako, Midoriya Izuku & Shinsou Hitoshi, Midoriya Izuku & Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Inko & Midoriya Izuku

Additional Tags: De-Aging Quirk, Sort Of, that awkward moment when a quirk accident spits out an entirely distinct younger version of yourself, who absolutely refuses to believe that you're the same person, Izuku meets himself and both versions experience the cain instinct, Quirkless Discrimination, Quirkless Toogata Mirio, Toogata Mirio becomes the first quirkless hero and both versions of Izuku are his biggest fan, Quirk Accident, Future Fic, Not canon compliant past the Shie Hassaikai arc, Bullying, Midoriya Izuku Needs A Hug, Feral Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku is a Little Shit, Parental Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Parental Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead | Dadzawa, Shinsou Hitoshi Replaces Mineta Minoru, Hurt/Comfort

Read Here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/48316705

[silence-ion-om]

Thoughts on the Apocalypse

I am thinking of September 11th, 2001;

Home from school, finally, the longest day.

Sitting upright in my bed, just crying, 

eyes heavy with clouds of debris blooming across television screens,

iconic towers crumbling, 24/7 news coverage inundation,

listening to Blink 182’s Anthem Pt. 2 on repeat, 

Everything is fall’n to pieces

heart pulsing to the bassline beat;

Then my father finds me and takes me away

and tells me it will be okay. And somehow, I believe him;

the magic safety parents create for their children

out of nothing.

I am thinking of my love, 

feeding bullets into the hungry black mouth 

of the chamber like it’s a Pez dispenser, 

preparing me for the flinch of reality I am not accustomed to. 

He shows me how to hold it, a steady squeeze without recoil;

the gun feels heavy in my hand, but not wrong.

I am frightened by the power. 

I think about how hands can look when you wash them;

Like they are wringing or praying,

a violent yet soothing juxtaposition. 

 And I think of my mother (oh God, why must I always think of her;) 

Hands withered like paper flowers, folded and cold to the touch, 

something sinister and familiar.

I feel guilty for recoiling. 

How is it that the body remembers all this, 

how this sickness can be reminiscent of 

everything else disastrous that’s ever happened?

Oh, I know. 

I am a lopsided psychological cartographer. All day I draw maps of the brain:

This is your amygdala being hijacked by fear

This is your limbic system responding

This is your hippocampus storing these memories in the library of your veins, 

Translating it into so much more, a neural network of invisible ink etched incorrectly across the map of your skin, a story so convincing it’s information known in your bones, an elaborate lie of survival.

I wonder what it’s like to be this essential.

A son tries to visit his father in a nursing home. They talk through the open window, 

not technically breaking isolation. 

I think about the creative ways we find to connect, 

I think about my father now, how strange it must have been 

when his nursing home went on lockdown; 

how some days he complains this place is a prison of his own making, 

and other days it is the happiest distraction in a fractured world.

I want to find him and take him away and tell him it's going to be okay. 

I want to make magic the same kind of way he did for me--

out of nothing.

[aion-rsa]

How George Lucas Prevented Spaceballs Merchandising

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There’s a reason George Lucas wouldn’t let people play with Mel Brooks’ Spaceballs toys, and it’s not what you think.

In the Star Wars universe, the empire always strikes back, but sometimes preemptively. Princess Vespa scooters, Lone Starr Pez dispensers, Barf air bags, and Prince Valium chewables are just a few things the retail market never got the chance to see because Mel Brooks’ Spaceballs merchandise never got off the launchpad.

“Merchandising is where the real money from the movie is made,” the learned Yogurt explains in the 1987 science fiction comedy. “Spaceballs the T-shirt! Spaceballs the coloring book! Spaceballs the lunchbox! Spaceballs the breakfast cereal! Spaceballs the flame-thrower! (The kids really love that one.)”

Brooks may be a comic genius, but he missed out on the most lucrative aspect of filmmaking: the toys. Sure, he proved how to make more money from a flop than a hit in his film and play and film The Producers, but he didn’t raffle a single seat from The Twelve Chairs, and he bought them retail, but wouldn’t break up the set. Of all the genres Brooks has lampooned – horror, westerns, psychological thrillers – none produce more mockable and marketable nick-nacks than space opera. The idea to breach and pastiche new frontiers came to Brooks at his then-10-year-old son Max’s Star Wars–themed birthday party.

“I thought, science fiction,” Brooks writes in his book All About Me! My Remarkable Life In Show Business, via Literary Hub. “Now there’s a genre I haven’t wrecked yet.” 

The idea opened possibilities to skewer such beloved galactic debris as “Star Trek, Battlestar Galactica, and, reaching back for more fun, the unique and campy director Ed Wood’s Plan 9 from Outer Space. It was a genre rich with opportunities for devastating satire.”

The genre is also rich in the vast wealth of toys, gadgets, and collectibles. Rick Moranis, who parodied Star Wars’ villain Darth Vader in the role of Dark Helmet, “brilliantly improvised one of his most famous scenes in the movie, the one in which he gets caught playing with little action figure versions of Lone Starr, Princess Vespa, and himself,” Brooks said.

As perfect as this looks on screen, it never materialized on the loading docks for store shelves. “Even though in the movie itself we have Dark Helmet playing with action figures, we never sold any,” Brooks said.

In spite of the recurring gag which runs through Spaceballs, no actual merchandise was ever marketed. The movie was made for it, and the concept made it into the film, but no collectibles were ever used to promote the movie, sold at shops, or hawked at conventions. The decision came from on high.

“The same way I called Alfred Hitchcock to get his blessings on High Anxiety, I sent the Spaceballs script to Star Wars creator George Lucas,” Brooks wrote. “He said he had seen Blazing Saddles and Young Frankenstein and was a big fan. He enjoyed the script, and only had one real caveat for me: no action figures.”

Under First Amendment law, parody has greater license to borrow material when it comes to copyright infringement cases, but proprietary rights carry their own precedents. Brooks envisioned Spaceballs as an intergalactic version of Frank Capra’s 1934 classic It Happened One Night. He recognized Star Wars for its similar historical cinematic impact. As art, they were ripe for picking. As commerce, they had thorns because they needed protection, and Brooks took Lucas’ counsel respectfully.

“He explained that if I made toys of my Spaceballs characters they would look a lot like Star Wars action figures,” Brooks said. “And that would be a no-no for his lawyers and his studio’s business affairs department. So, he gave his blessing to make my funny satiric takeoff of Star Wars as long as I promised that we would not sell any action figures.”

Because he was in on the joke, Lucas signed a fair use agreement allowing Brooks to spoof Star Wars characters, as long as Brooks agreed he wouldn’t compete in the merchandising marketplace. 

“And that was one of the rules we didn’t break,” Brooks writes.

This implies the comedy director who co-created Get Smart with Buck Henry could break as many other rules as that show’s insidious KAOS espionage agency. The exchange with Lucas didn’t only instigate a series of self-referential jokes to the legal caveat itself in the film, it inspired larger comment on the inherent cynicism of the motion picture practice. 

While Brooks followed the standards of satiric practices, he freely toyed with the quantum physics of product placement. While he couldn’t lease a factory in the toasted-oats mecca of Battle Creek, MI., to box up “Spaceballs: The Breakfast Cereal,” he gleefully covered Dom DeLuise in “bubbling cheese and studded with slices of pepperoni” to better deliver his role as Pizza the Hut, and in 30 minutes or less.

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Merchandise or not, Spaceballs is a tremendously effective send-up of a perennial favorite, which has in some ways come to overshadow its subject matter.

“I’ve even gotten some letters from young fans that saw Spaceballs before they saw Star Wars,” Brooks wrote. “They would often ask me why Star Wars wasn’t so funny.” This alone justifies a “Spaceballs: The Breakfast Cereal” box-top collectible surprise like a Schwartz-powered ring Cracker Jacks prize.

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[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

absolutely love your fic pez dispenser debris it makes me feel so many things. You’re rendition of class 1-a is just fantastic, a whole horde of feral little alley cats

Anyways, was just curious why chose that title for the fic. Thanks for writing

I’m so glad you like it!

The titles of all my fics are just me bouncing along vibes until I find one I like and that I feel fits what I want for the fic.

Pez dispensers just really feel nostalgic of childhood to me. I feel like every kid has a period where they’re just enchanted with pez dispensers. But most don’t grow up to collect them. They’re often something we leave in childhood.

And that fit the feel of what I wanted. Young Izuku is someone Izuku wanted to fossilise in his own childhood. He’s just intensely a relic of who he was in his youth that he wants to leave behind.

But he can’t leave Young Izuku in childhood—that’s the entire issue. I wanted the feel of something that you just couldn’t get rid of. Like the detritus you find at the bottom of your purse. You keep cleaning out your purse, but there’s always some kind of grimy crushed mint down there whose residue you just can’t get rid of.

But I didn’t like the cadence of detritus or residue, so I used debris.

You know how the candy in pez dispensers are kind of chalky, pastel bricks? That’s the vibe I really liked. Izuku’s own relationship with his past is that he thinks of it as chalky, half crushed bricks of candy whose dust he just can’t fully clean out of his bag no matter how hard he tries. Young Izuku is pez dispenser debris.

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

🌟

I reblogged this ask game and then failed to finish the answers to any of the asks i got. whoopsie. better late than never.

Anyway let's try the director's commentary of the train king scene from pez dispenser debris.

I love the train king intro. it's so fun and goofy. it's just got some really fun humor to it in my mind. I had so much fun writing it.

it is a completely pointless scene.

It has no plot relevance. Train king is not the chekov's gun hanging bravely on the wall of that fic. It will have no overarching effect on the plot. So why the fuck is it there?

Well, because it was fun.

Pez dispenser debris has lived in my head for at least two or three years now. Not in the exact form it is now, but it's a very old and much-adored story of mine. I was incredibly fond of it. I tried to write it years ago, and got as far as the first scene, which was originally Izuku and Mirio walking along the street and running into the bus hijacking, which led to the rogue quirk.

It was a good starting point. It's where the action actually started. But it just didn't feel right to me.

So it sat in my drafts for a long time, collected dust, and I spun my wheels on other projects for a while. I went back to it, and tried again, and the new first scene was Izuku rushing in late for the meeting with the realtor. It still didn't feel right. it gave more development to Izuku and Mirio's relationship before we hit action, but something just wasn't right.

Train King was just a silly reason i made up for why he was late. The scene originally wasn't shown, only mentioned in a single sentence. And then I decided--fuck it, it would make for a fun scene. just do it for shits and giggles.

And I had fun writing it. Which means it's probably the only reason why i hit publish on pez dispenser debris to begin with instead of leaving it in my drafts. Because I was in a state of extreme burn out when i started writing that fic, and the train king scene led me to realize what that fic needed to be for me: just something fun and silly to write.

Technically speaking, pez dispenser debris is very sloppy. There's a huge amount of pointless asides and flashbacks that don't contribute to the plot in any way. the entirety of chapter four could be deleted and it would be the exact same fic if i just slightly edited the conversation between aizawa and izuku in chapter six. I legitmately wrote chapter four, said "wow, that was pointless," and hit publish

because I liked it anyway. Like, what the fuck is the point of the backflip treaty? Dabi's extremely reluctant semi-redemption? Absolutely nothing. I just had a good time writing it and thought other people would have a good time reading it.

it wasn't meant to be """"good"""" art. it was meant to be fun, and that's what it was. I had so much fun writing my silly little flashbacks and asides. All of my fics have those kinds of background stories and scenes that exist in their "universe," and most of them never make it into the fics because it wouldn't be plot relevant and it wouldn't make for """"good""" art. With pez dispenser debris, I wanted to just give myself permission to write something fun and silly with as many pointless scenes as i wanted. And train king started that.

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Just finished reading pez dispenser debris.

Firstly: crying, screaming, throwing up, ball’s to the wall insane. I am taking this fic between my teeth and shaking it furiously like a dog with its favorite toy. I am running circles in my enclosure just to bleed off some of the emotions this experience has given me.

Secondly: this fic is heart wrenching. All of the things I would’ve wished had been addressed in canon content of BNHA. How does Horikoshi throw away one of the biggest points that enraptures the audience into caring about Izuku? How does the narrative seemingly forget the entire reason he was so fervent in chasing his dream as a hero? I think this is one of the biggest gripes I have about the series, and it’s the one that’s only ever been remedied by amazing fic writers like you.

How do you face the part of yourself you’ve seemingly buried and forgotten? How do you come to terms with the fact that horrible things happened to you by no fault of your own? What’s the fallout of realizing that the people who should’ve cared and protected you might’ve also been hurting you all along?

Where do you even begin in this entire mess?

A part of me, despite the fantastical elements of the medium itself, feels so incredibly seen by this. It’s incredibly difficult, making amends with the part of yourself that was so deeply hurt in the past. It’s a part of life, i think, to learn to walk beside that part of you, to lay it to rest and acknowledge that it will always be there. Izuku, of course, has done none of this, and in this lies the crutch of the matter that’s the center of this fic. I’m happy I stumbled across this fic, even though I haven’t consumed BNHA content in years.

That being said, do you allow any works inspired by your own? I need to put down some of the emotional toll this fic has done to me on paper. Apologies for the ramble, i am just really passionate about this fic. Hope to see more of your work in the future!

I’m so so happy you like it! I wanted pez dispenser debris to be this horrible reconciliation with the part of you that was still hurt and mad about it, and I’m so glad that resonated.

And absolutely, go for it! I’m thrilled it made enough of an impact to make you want to make something too. I do usually ask that you stick in a note or link or something giving credit to the original fic, and if you’re comfortable with it, send me a link to anything you publish and I’d love to boost it here!

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I've been rereading pez dispenser debris and god Izuku is so much braver then me, if a past version of myself showed up and started sharing my deepest darkest secrets to anyone in earshot I would not be handling it well at all. Like forget having 12 simultaneous panic attacks, I would straight up jump to murder, confirming all of baby me's worst fears. Actual nightmare scenario. Izuku is a saint for real.

Young Izuku: you obviously killed me

Older Izuku: I deserve an award for NOT killing you

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sorry if this is out of the blue but i just wanna say pez dispenser debris has izuku down to a T. not even joking when i say its literally one of, if not the, best fanfic i'veread hands down and the characterization is so so so spot on. it needs to be studied in english classes or something.

(same goes for ur other fics tbh. How Do You Do That)

im mentally ill is how

ahhhhhh pez dispenser debris my beloved. Thank you sooo much for your kind words. I currently have a terrible case of writers block with all my fics, and it can be kinda demoralizing. These messages are really nice to get when the words just won’t. Work. You really made my day! Thank you!

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Chapters: 5/? Fandom: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia (Anime & Manga) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Midoriya Izuku & Toogata Mirio, Midoriya Izuku & Todoroki Shouto, Iida Tenya & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku & Uraraka Ochako, Midoriya Izuku & Shinsou Hitoshi, Midoriya Izuku & Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Inko & Midoriya Izuku Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Toogata Mirio, Todoroki Shouto, Iida Tenya, Uraraka Ochako, Shinsou Hitoshi, Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Midoriya Inko, Class 1-A (My Hero Academia), Bakugou Katsuki, Eri (My Hero Academia) Additional Tags: De-Aging Quirk (My Hero Academia), Sort Of, that awkward moment when a quirk accident spits out an entirely distinct younger version of yourself, who absolutely refuses to believe that you're the same person, Izuku meets himself and both versions experience the cain instinct, Quirkless Discrimination (My Hero Academia), Quirkless Toogata Mirio, Toogata Mirio becomes the first quirkless hero and both versions of Izuku are his biggest fan, Quirk Accident (My Hero Academia), Future Fic, Not canon compliant past the Shie Hassaikai arc, Bullying, Midoriya Izuku Needs A Hug, Feral Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku is a Little Shit, Parental Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Parental Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead | Dadzawa, Shinsou Hitoshi Replaces Mineta Minoru, Hurt/Comfort, Age Regression/De-Aging Summary:

Young Izuku tilts his head, thinks for a moment, turns, and looks Izuku dead in the eyes.

“There was a Quirk accident. I’m apparently supposed to be him from the past.”

He was such a little asshole as a kid.

Or: they finally make it to the dorms.

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Chapters: 2/? Fandom: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia (Anime & Manga) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Midoriya Izuku & Toogata Mirio, Midoriya Izuku & Todoroki Shouto, Iida Tenya & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku & Uraraka Ochako, Midoriya Izuku & Shinsou Hitoshi, Midoriya Izuku & Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead & Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Inko & Midoriya Izuku Characters: Midoriya Izuku, Toogata Mirio, Todoroki Shouto, Iida Tenya, Uraraka Ochako, Shinsou Hitoshi, Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Midoriya Inko, Class 1-A (My Hero Academia), Bakugou Katsuki, Eri (My Hero Academia) Additional Tags: De-Aging Quirk (My Hero Academia), Sort Of, that awkward moment when a quirk accident spits out an entirely distinct younger version of yourself, who absolutely refuses to believe that you're the same person, Izuku meets himself and both versions experience the cain instinct, Quirkless Discrimination (My Hero Academia), Quirkless Toogata Mirio, Toogata Mirio becomes the first quirkless hero and both versions of Izuku are his biggest fan, Quirk Accident (My Hero Academia), Future Fic, Not canon compliant past the Shie Hassaikai arc, Bullying, Midoriya Izuku Needs A Hug, Feral Midoriya Izuku, Midoriya Izuku is a Little Shit, Parental Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Parental Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead | Dadzawa, Shinsou Hitoshi Replaces Mineta Minoru, Hurt/Comfort Summary:

“In the next three seconds, I need to know if that’s Midoriya’s clone, younger brother, secret child I’m only just finding out about, actually him from the past, or a sentient Quirk manifestation of his past self whose presence here cannot change the past. Go.”

“The last one,” says Izuku.

At the same time, Young Izuku says, “None of the above.”

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permission to make fanart for pez dispenser?

Permission enthusiastically given