#phase of giving you up

[labyrinth-lavie]

Giving Up

You didn’t come now my hope is over Things may be unclear as fog But like the blue sky, this emotion sparks when hit by the rays of the sun Keeping an eye from afar Like those stars that stared with a hopeful glance Talking to you but you never answer But you my star and star don’t talk instead they shine even lighter when loved and stared You’re my right among wrongs I would accept a slap from sin Cause I don’t see you as my mistake Though even the world stands between us I would reach you ‘till I got you in my arms But… You keep on walking from those thorny paths Step by step it tears me apart I could see you too close but when I extended my hand to you You suddenly space afar I’m always chasing after your back Yet you’re chasing another’s back I ran miles and crossed doubts But like wind it’s unseen It’s all gone, I mean I have to make this done Too heavy that I can’t walk after you I can no longer make myself believe with my false hope You are into another star. And I can’t love that star, I hate those that don’t give so much shine. It can’t light up my dark world

02-2021

[lazylittledragon]

ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:

i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???

[averlym]

"We are pleased to inform you that you have been awarded the Phaethon Prize...."

[bixels]

What did/do you like about Pharah?

Uh, gameplay-wise, I really love characters in shooters who rely on three-dimensional movement techs. Chaining together hover and jump to stay in the air for as long as possible and keep momentum is so satisfying, and picking enemies off from the sky made me feel like a bird of prey. I was a good Pharah main.

Story-wise, there unfortunately isn't much to canonically go off because Pharah is so underutilized and neglected. Her personality's pretty boilerplate "heroic hero" (she's literally inspired by Captain America).

But it's the crumbs/bits and pieces that I really latched onto. Pharah's a confirmed lesbian; her short story with Baptiste implies she harbors a crush on Mercy (fucking thank you.). She's biracial Egyptian/First Nations. She has major mommy issues, having grown up both admiring and resenting Ana. She's the bridge between Old Overwatch, inspired by the idealized heroes who surrounded her childhood, and New Overwatch. She's one of the only inter-generational characters in the cast; someone whose experiences span the gap, which is why I seriously believe Pharah would make a great main character.

There isn't much to go off of, though; she's a very uncomplicated character (she's a soldier for a private military corporation, lol.). But that just means she's a blank slate character, so I've seen fanfic writers run wild and create some really interesting takes on her. My favorite interpretation of her's a dense, herbo gym-bro type (a lot of her liens are about work outs, exercising, and playing sports) who's easily excitable under her seemingly self-serious, armored visage. We see how she tends to gloat and hype herself up when she's on a streak too, so Pharah definitely has a competitive and boastful side under her more professional and militant performance.

Now Mercy? Mercy is a real complex character.

[airship-full-of-dragons]

Itty bitty assets from the odyssey are the same as from the dig! They're used for various buttons, as you can see from the bigger, screen-full grabs.

^ effort banner. active -> resting phase.

^ overlay over the banner effort

they overlaid like this:

and the text background:

[furiousgoldfish]

The rationalization of 'I had it worse' doesn't make sense.  If something bad happened to you, are you now allowed to do a version of that bad thing to someone else, and you're right to do it? In that case anyone in the world who's been trough something bad, would have the ultimate right to inflict that same, or similar thing to anyone else living on earth, yet they don't. Because they understand it's illegal and there would be consequences.

Instead, they do it to people in their family, their friends, their children, people who can't fight back, people who can't inflict consequences on them. Again, if something horrible happened to you, why would you wish a version of that on your family? If something traumatized you, why would you need it to traumatize your loved ones? If anything your focus should be on protecting the ones you love from ever being touched by it.

'I had it worse' told to someone you've just hurt, means that instead of this person being allowed to call you out, to get angry at you, to protest, to speak out their pain and their feelings about it, they now have to cease all that, in order to feel sorry for you. While they're being hurt by you, they're required to give you empathy, to think about how you were feeling however long ago when you were hurt.

But if that's what you wanted, you could have sat them down and said 'hey this thing happened to me a while ago, here's how it felt', that would have had the same effect! It would communicate your past pain and have them empathize, but this is not the goal you want. You're not seeking empathy, you're not seeking for someone to 'understand how you felt back then', you want to see them in pain. You want to see them hurt and then you want them to never be allowed to call it out, to protest or speak their mind. You want them hurt, and you want them silent. You like that more. You specifically picked out a person who wouldn't be able to fight back, and would instead get trapped in feeling bad for you, because most people in your life would not tolerate this, they would do it back to you instantly. You picked someone powerless to hurt and then shut them down by forcing them to feel bad for you instead.

You didn't do it because 'you had it worse'. You did it because you enjoy hurting them. You did it for your own sadistic desires. There was never any need to do it to anyone, except you wanted to, and found a way to get away with it. You wanted more people on earth to suffer and you made sure it happened by your hand.

[jamiethebeeart]

Lineart by me! (extra info for colorists in og tags) I couldn't resist a dappled light variant on this. @green-with-envy-phandom-event

fun fact: this lineart originally had the actual lunch/picnic table ridges and then i realized that was too much, especially without access to the layers of lineart (personally, I would color the lineart for the table and then the support bars would be colored and the layer moved underneath the table top. I decided not to put colorists in a position to try to color it with one layer of lineart, but I did get quite far before making that decision)

[degenerateshinji]

got a bit of a friendgroup going

some physical descriptions down below that i based my designs on (since Virgo and Nemo don't have canon designs)

[mars-ipan]

some postgame doodles for pride month

[sciderman]

got into an argument with my friend about the movie cause they liked it and i. didn't. i feel cursed and im mostly just annoyed that so many of my problems with it are so easily fixable. but alas. there is no space for character arcs or growth. the MCU demands more cameos

i joked with a friend that if they just added a scene at the end of the movie were sam jackson shows up to actually offer wade an avengers membership proper and wade told sam jackson to fuck off then the entire movie would have been a success for me

[kokoasci]

every time i post i am reminded that some of my irls follow me on twt/instagram (not here afaik. thank goodness) sorry guys for being way too invested in a manga based on dead authors. i may be cringe but i am free

[esamastation]

They say that first step of recovery is admitting there is a problem. So.

There is a chance, a small, really, an insignificant chance, probably not even worthy of mentioning, that I. Might. Have some type of grain related allergy. Maybe.

Probably not. The indigestion, exhaustion, bloating and vicious repeating cycle of recovery after dropping certain foods and the relapse after said recovery when said foods inevitably return to diet is probably just a coincidence. Right. Right? 🥺

[ejunkiet]

[haleynwriter]

me trying work this Friday and thinking about how, despite everything she saw in the OZ, being isolated and alone for a year, Avar still considers the fight against the Drengir the worst times of her life. I'm thinking about how the Great Progenitor lured Avar specifically for her telepathic/empathic skills, how Avar has been invaded and violated by the Drengir multiple times and has survived and that it's the worst time of her life.

[age-of-moonknight]

“The Once and Future Knight,” Phases of the Moon Knight (Vol. 1/2024), #1.

Writer: Erica Schultz; Penciler: Manuel García; Inker: Sean Parsons; Colorist: Ceci de la Cruz; Letterer: Cory Petit

[genshin-silliness]

The fact that Tighnari canonically went through lengths to get in contact with Emilie like a weird little stalker (affectionately) lives in my brain rent free