#plus misha and even jensen by now seem on board

[blanketforcas]

perhaps my most realistic take perhaps my most delusional one but i think no destiel in the revival would be too hard to sell to anyone at this point and none of the actors would look forward to having to explain that to the fans, therefore destiel will happen

[sortasirius]

What the Fuck Happened to the SPN Finale?

Okay so here it is, my Charlie Kelly style manifesto.

Before I get into it, I recognize that I will look like this to many of you, and that’s okay, I understand:

Secondly, your personal Takes about the writers don’t interest me, I don’t need to hear them. This, as I’ll explain, is going to remain a writer positive blog, and that’s the end of it.

Third, and most importantly: some of what I’m going to talk about is fact, and some is highly educated speculation. I will notate what is speculation, just so there’s no confusion or hot takes in my inbox that I’m a conspiracy theorist or stirring shit up for no reason.

A list of what I’ll be discussing

The episode in regards to the rest of the season

The episode issues: length, editing

Scene placement and speculation of scenes cut

The scrubbing of Jack, Cas, Eileen

Network involvement and general timeline of when things were cut

Misha: theories on where he was, official company line, why we can’t expect to hear anything directly

The silence of the cast post episode (in Misha’s case, mid episode) and what this might mean

Jensen speaking with Kripke about the ending: why it doesn’t mean what you might think (also why kripke remained positive on the ending)

Walker, and why this episode had a major shift

Why the network would do this or get involved

Why the writers of the show simply aren’t the bad guys here, and what I “want” out of this post, since I know it’ll get asked

This is very long and under a cut, but I hope you’ll give it a read.

The Episode In Regards to the Rest of the Season

So, I’ve discussed this already here, but it’s the most obvious thing to me, and that’s the way this episode simply doesn’t fit with the rest of the season.

These people in this room have, truly, been nothing but consistent when it comes to their arcs, especially this season, and the marked dropoff in quality for the finale episode is just too sus to discount to me.  Dabb’s whole focus has been character-based.  In his seasons, we’ve moved far away from MOTW and bro-codependency, the found family taking it’s place.  Does it really sit right to anyone that that was all thrown away in literally the last episode of the entire show?

This is speculation on my part, but as a writer myself, there is no way I would be happy or willing to stamp my name on something that I didn’t think would, at the very least, wrap up the season+ character arcs that I and my team had been crafting.

And before anyone comes in here saying, “well GOT did that!”  Bruh.  The writing was on the wall for GOT long before the final episode.  You could tell that the showrunners just wanted to be done (not only from the plot, but from the fact that they lobbied for a shorter season).  Miss me with that, it doesn’t apply here.  Andrew has, besides Singer and J2, been with the show longer than anyone.  He cares, he is meticulous and detailed, and this ending feels worse than anything Bucklemming has ever written, let alone Dabb.

Additionally, I’ve seen a lot of people say that Dabb was never behind Destiel, that it was all Bobo and Meredith and no one else.  That is reductive to the point of insult of the work Dabb has done to get this greenlit.  This man did not write the s13 Dean grief arc to be slandered like this.  That being said, YES, Bobo and Meredith were the leads on the DeanCas arc this season, but ANDREW IS THE SHOWRUNNER, TO GET EVEN THE CONFESSION APPROVED BY THE NETWORK HE WOULD HAVE TO HAVE THEIR BACKS.  AND HE DID.

Finale Issues

So, now that we’ve gotten the fact that this episode doesn’t hit on any of the major themes the show was barrelling towards all season, let’s discuss the fact that the episode is just...weird.

Not only is it shorter than any other episode (I think with the intro and the credits/crew thing at the end, it was around 38 mins), but it was also...idk, 90% filler?

One of the lovely humans in the POLOL server did the legwork here, and broke it down:

This is weird, y’all.  Most series finales are LONGER than normal (Lost, SOA, Longmire are the ones I can think of off the top of my head), and for the final episode to be this?  I saw more than one person point out that we only really needed 19 episodes, what was the point of 20?  AND THAT’S EXACTLY IT?  WHAT WAS THE POINT OF THIS FINAL EPISODE IF THIS WAS ALL WE WERE SUPPOSED TO GET?

It simply doesn’t make any sense, the first half of the episode was rushed, a final monster hunt gone wrong, but in the second half?  Nothing really happened?  Sam lived his entire life and Dean just drove around.  It doesn’t make sense to have all the emotional arcs left unaddressed in an episode that definitely needed some kind of spark.

Here’s the speculation I have: the episode seemingly went through a lot of changes between the initial inception of the final season and when we actually got it, but I think it would have been passable (as in, we wouldn’t be sitting here asking each other why each arc feels incomplete) until the editing room got ahold of it.  The only think that makes this episode make sense is network fuckery.  Truly, that is the only thing.  It explains the weird, cuts, the rushed pacing of the first half followed by nothing in the second half, the double montages of “Wayward Son” back to back, and Dean just...driving around for the last half of the episode.

Scene Placement and Speculation of Scenes Cut

Before I get into this section, the info of the shots in the episode I have come from a source that @occamshipper​ got a week or so before the finale.  She’s talked about this here.

So here’s what Min was given:

1-5: 1 INT MEN OF LETTERS – DEAN’S ROOM Dean is greeted by Miracle

6-10: 6 INT MEN OF LETTERS – HALLWAY/SAM’S ROOM Sam has his routine

D1 1 11-15: 15 EXT FARM HOUSE Establishing

N1 1/8 16-20: 19 Dad’s journal, marker, drawing of masked man in journal.

21-25: 23 INT IMPALA – PMP Driver picks the music

N2 1 3/8 1,2 26-30: 28pt2 INT BARN: A face from the past

28pt3 Sam and Dean say goodbye

28pt4 Shot early for technical reasons, presumably the overhead shot

N2 31-45: 41 INT MEN OF LETTERS – SAM’S ROOM Sam’s alarm goes off D4 1/8 1 46-60: 56 INT N7glasses for Sam, laptop.

So...it all fits right?  It all tracks with the actual episode, where it lands, etc.  The issue is between shots 29-40 which were apparently “too big to spoil.”  Uh.  Where are they?  And where’s 28 pt4?

After Dean dies, the next scene is Sam burning him, then shot 31, the shot of his alarm going off.

So.  Where are those 11ish shots?

PLUS we have the boards, which are scenes we KNOW were actually shot:

As well as scenes for 20 that were shot in 19.

It’s just...weird, it’s weird and again hits on the fact that the episode is so short and like 80% montage.

The Scrubbing of Jack, Cas, and Eileen

So now we have to reckon with the fact that Eileen was last mentioned by Sam after she got snapped by Chuck, Jack’s last mention is that he’s off being God somewhere, and Cas’ last mention is a ~knowing look~ between Dean and Bobby.

I’m sorry, make it make sense:

????????  That’s the end if it?  They don’t need to be discussed after this???  It’s just simply not something a writer would do, they would not introduce these characters, these arcs, without thinking there’s going to be some kind of follow through here.

So not only were three major characters (including two leads and both of the original characters’ love interests) completely wiped from the finale episode, it was as though Sam and Dean never even needed them, which just...ain’t it.

So why Eileen and Jack too?  Why not just take Cas out of it if they were afraid of the gay?  Because, ultimately, the episode went back to Kripke’s original story: just the bros, they only need each other and no one else.  They don’t want anyone else, they don’t need anyone else.  Easier to go back to something they knew was successful than trust the writers and their audience and take a big leap.

Alex even said he shot for 20 with “some of the guys” here.  What happened to that footage?

The complete 180 of it all still shocks me, I still cannot believe that we were essentially at the finish line, and the network just stopped short, and decided to go run another race, at the expense of the arc of this fifteen year legacy show.

Network Involvement and When Things Were Cut

Okay, now into the juicy stuff.

So I’ve pretty well established that network fuckery is clear, but how much did they get involved, what was the original intent?

Well again, we may never actually know what Andrew’s original script was, but I think, at the least, it would involve Dean speaking his truth to Cas and Sam living a life with Eileen.

Now, it seems today, that Misha said that Jimmy Novak was supposed to be in the finale in one iteration of the script, and while initially my brain was like “that truly makes no sense and he’s either straight up lying or telling a half truth,” I think what may be happening is Misha talking about as much as he can right now.

So Jimmy right.  Weird as fuck.  Why would he been in the Roadhouse and not Cas?  My current thought (this is about as reachy as I’ll get) is that Jimmy had no lines, could he have been in the Roadhouse as a red herring, like it said “Jimmy” in the script but it was just Cas in human clothes, a way to get around the network saying Cas couldn’t be in the final scene.  Also, you’ll notice that Misha didn’t say that Cas wasn’t supposed to be in the ep at all, just Jimmy in the last scene.

All this to say, there have clearly been multiple versions of the script, getting lighter and lighter with Cas and Eileen as the network pulled further and further back.  Remember, Dabb has to get things approved before they get shot, and if the network kept asking and asking and asking to cut Cas and Eileen, he had to find a way to work around it.  Granted, I still think that if we had been able to get a Dabb script that wasn’t torn to shreds in editing, it wouldn’t be so bad.  It may not be what a lot of us wanted (Dean speaking his truth to Cas and a reciprocation), but doing everything he could to give it to us in subtext or visual clues.

Plus, in all honesty, my man can’t keep his story straight anyway.  He said twice in his panel that the Empty and offscreen Heaven ending weren’t his original ending either.

In addition, remember that Jensen did ADR post episode 18, AND said in a meet and greet last weekend that Dean’s reaction to Cas’ confession was “cut down.” (Source here).  Many of us clowns got excited when we first heard about ADR, because we thought it would be upping the ante on Dean’s reaction, but I remember being a little sus when it was just crying.  My speculation on that is that they cut out Dean actually SAYING something, @winchestersingerautorepair​ spoke about that here.

The biggest sins were, in my opinion, committed during editing, where the network got too gun shy and sliced the episode until it was nothing but a heartless bro-fest of a finale, not mentioning anything about the other major characters that we all love, and letting the boys just suffer in separation until Sam died and finally joined Dean in Heaven.  The editing came by cutting all the major emotional beats between anyone other than Dean and Sam, leaving the skeleton of the story intact, just shorter and less...poignant than it was ever supposed to be.

Misha

We know Misha was in Vancouver, we know he quarantined, but we also know he wasn’t in the final scene, when he spoke about being in the last moment of the show months ago.  We were not crazy, he was there, he quarantined, and, in all likelihood (speculation but fitting with the timeline), he actually may have shot something (not much, but something).

I have sources here, here, here, and here showing where Misha was at that time.

Remember, the man was completely open about coming back until they finished shooting (look at this thread).  The switch happened, just like everything else, halfway through them shooting.

Please also remember Jake Abel posting his “Where’s Misha” video here.  Jake isn’t malicious, he isn’t being nasty here.  Misha was there, and everyone that’s trying to convince people he’s wasn’t just...isn’t telling the truth about it.

This is one of the things that makes me really mad, because they’re literally attempting to gaslight people into thinking, “oh we were totally wrong he was never supposed to be there” WHEN HE WAS THERE, WE KNOW HE WAS THERE.

So we’ve already heard from several people (Meghan Fitzmartin, Jay, a PA on the set of 19 (WHO WAS NOT WORKING FOR 20), Misha himself) that this was all down to Covid restrictions.  Ultimately, as this post says, we’ve heard FIVE versions of where Misha was.  None of it makes sense, but the Covid protocol seems to be the company line that others are repeating.

You may ask: why?  Why lie to all of us when we have questions?  Why, in Jay’s case, say that we’re all spreading false lies to stir up trouble, when we just have questions and things that do not make sense.  Simply?  Warner Brothers is absolutely massive.  These people have their careers to protect and are likely all under NDAs.  They want to work for WB again and don’t want to burn bridges, including Misha.  It sucks, but that’s why it’s unlikely that we’ll hear someone come out and say, “yeah we’re lying to you.”

Silence of the Cast Post Episode

So this is...probably the worst part of all this, at least in my opinion.

The guys had all been pretty excited about the end of the show (especially Jared, but Jensen’s panel last week was Jensen as happy and jokey and positive as I’ve ever seen him.  He was so excited about episode 18, about what it meant for Dean and for Cas, and I just cannot buy that he would have been that excited unless he thought there was something more in the episode.

Misha live-tweeted the episode, and was watching it with his kids.  It’s well known that Misha and the kids don’t watch the show because it’s too scary, and let’s ask ourselves, why would he have them watch an episode that he’s barely even mentioned in?

He also stopped live-tweeting at a very specific point in the episode (Dean’s death) and has not mentioned Supernatural since then. 

None of them, not Jared, Jensen, Misha, or even Alex, said anything about the episode for nearly 36 hours, when Jensen posted a salty photo on instagram.  It’s just...not what you’d expect for the end of a 15 year show, when the cast and crew are so close to the fans, so close to each other. 

My theory?  They didn’t know.  They thought Misha was, at least, going to be in the episode in some way, and when he wasn’t, they decided not to say anything.

You really think that Jensen “Heller” Ackles would have been so excited about the end of the show last week if he thought Cas wasn’t going to be in it at all?  Nah son, doesn’t make any sense.

Even today, in Jared and Misha’s panels, they seemed sad and...more than a little careful, both saying that there were things they couldn’t say, both talking around things that we all have questions on.

Jensen Speaking with Kripke

So this is where a lot of people are getting fodder to take shots at the writers, saying that Jensen hated it from the beginning, but I don’t think so.  I actually think I know what Jensen went to him about, and it wasn’t the lack of Cas or the weird pacing or the montages (which I don’t think were there when Jensen got the script); I think it was the manner of Dean’s death.

I know a lot of people were upset about that, upset with how...normal it was, coming off an episode where they literally beat God.  I actually didn’t mind it, I thought it was an interesting thematic take to be like: you can be a hero all your life, but sometimes shit happens, and you just die.

But imagine how hard that was for Jensen to read.  He would run to Kripke for that, because for him, Dean dying by being impaled by a piece of rebar had to be tough to swallow.

So, why didn’t Kripke say that?  Why didn’t he say, “oh well he had a problem with Dean’s death, none of that other stuff was in the script.”

Guys.  Why would he get involved?  He’s not going to burn bridges any more than anyone else is.  He said the ending was good because it’s the easy thing to do, it’s simple, will cause him no problems in his career, and he can just ignore the people trying to engage with him on it.

Walker

Something else to talk about is the major shift this episode had from the rest of the season: the shift from Dean to Sam.  I am NOT saying that Sam isn’t important, he definitely, absolutely is, but it was DEAN who really needed to wrap up his arc, Sam just needed to move on, get married to Eileen, become the leader he was always meant to.  So what changed?  What was with the shirtless scene, the Austin number and random case there, most of the episode being heavily Sam focused, going through his entire life in a montage?

Anyone else notice the 375 Walker promos, or Jared’s little spiel about Walker and how he hoped SPN fans would “come along for the ride.”

It’s...kinda obvious?  CW wanted to appeal to who they think the key demographic of SPN and Walker is: rural areas in the South.  It would explain a lot, why so much editing, why so Sam focused, the Austin number, the number of Walker promos, all of it.

I’m not saying this is fact, I don’t know that it is, but it is a little suspicious that even in Jared’s panel today, he talked A LOT about Walker and how he hopes SPN fans will watch it.

Why Would the Network Get Involved?

Simply put: $$$

If they think Walker can be the new SPN, and that those crazy SPN fans liked it originally, it’s a lot safer to go with the “original intent” of the show than do something risky (like making one of your two original leads queer).

And?  They don’t care.  They don’t care that the episode didn’t make sense, they don’t care that all the emotional arcs were left hanging, they don’t care by (potentially) smashing together two of Dean’s monologues (one to Sam, one to Cas) that it came of as...gross. ( @curioussubjects​ wrote a beautiful post showing how part of that death speech was likely meant for Dean here).  They don’t care, they never have, they just want to make their money and move on from the too-loud fandom that fought for representation too hard for too long.

It can’t help but feel insidious, which, honestly, it might be, but it really all comes down to the next cash cow, which, they think, is Walker, even at the cost of the fifteen year legacy show.

The Writers and What I Want

So here it is, all this weird, sus shit laid out on the line.  And you know what?  To me, there is no way to blame the writers, because they didn’t want this.

I don’t think Dabb and Bobo would have gone ahead with the confession in 18 without thinking that there would be some closure to that arc, they wouldn’t have done that not only to the fans, but for the sake of their own story as well: no writer wants to start something that they can’t finish. (And this applies to both Cas and Eileen).

Here’s a basic rundown of what I think happened: they had a clear arc from 18-20, ending in reciprocation at some level from Dean, Sam marrying Eileen, Hunter Sam as the new Bobby, Dean in heaven with Cas and big roadhouse reunion at the end. Covid prevented a good amount of that. Network had to stare at big gay 18 for six months, got cold feet. Thought about Walker, target audience and alienation of the rural areas if it went full gay. Misha quarantined and likely shot something (not much), he was then cut by execs and went home. They likely added in lines referencing Eileen and Cas to make it clear but more subtextual. They wrap, editing gets it and hacks it to pieces, so we get a shorter episode that’s mostly montages and jarringly bro-centric with nothing else. Arcs are left hanging. Dabb gets episode but it’s too late, there’s nothing he can do. Actors aren’t told so they can continue to do positive PR for the ending, they all found out at the same time we did: hence almost complete silence about the finale.

And you know what?  They warned us.  I talked about it here, but they’ve been telling us all season that Chuck wasn’t the writer, he’s the network.  I don’t think, still, that they thought it would be cut up like this, into something so unsalvageable that it’s been panned by almost everyone, even people who didn’t care much about Dean and Cas.

Finally, a masterpiece can be ruined by editing, and while I’m not sure even the script they ended up shooting on was a masterpiece (due to the network meddling already), but to me it’s blatantly obvious that it’s no one but the network that caused this, that took away closure for Dean, Cas, and even Sam.

So what do I want?  Nothing really, there’s nothing we can do, but I wrote this mostly to show people that the writers are not your enemy.   In fact, to the people trashing them?  You’re doing exactly what the CW wants you to: blame the obvious targets, blame Misha, blame Jensen and Jared, blame Dabb.  Scream and yell at them on Twitter and about how the show is ruined because of them.  The network keeps their engagement levels high, they don’t get as targeted for their behavior, and just keep moving along.

Just, please, think about who did this,  Mourn the show, be angry, but not at the people who fought tooth and nail for this for literal years, not the people who wanted it more than we did, not the people who cannot say anything because of their careers and the NDAs they’re bound by.

Someone is going to spill eventually, but until then, we just have to wait, and continue to be loud.

[queen-of-deans-booty]

Nothing Like Family to Always Be There For You

Characters: Misha Collins x Niece!Reader, Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki

Word Count: 1,875

Warnings: mentions of false pregnancy, food posioning, mainly fluff

request by @whizzer1320​: Hey could I request a one shot if possible? Where your a Misha Collins niece and you visit him while he is at convention. Meet some of the cast, but while you are there you he thinks you are pregnant because he or some other cast member finds you throwing up, plus you are slightly bloated etc etc. Starts to act differently around reader, reader notices and asks Misha, he says he knows reader got a bun in the oven, reader laughs and says got mild case of food poisoning. Fluffly ending tar love.

Summary: You visit your uncle Misha on set as a surprise, but it’s not the only surprise he thinks he’s gonna get.

Beta: she wants to remain anonymous

Squares Filled: autumn for @spngenrebingo​ // pregnancy for @spnfluffbingo​

Author’s Note: If you have any requests, please send them in!

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Ever since you were little, your dad told you stories of his strange and unique brother who just loved to act. He landed the role of a lifetime when he got cast as Castiel in Supernatural. They both hold very high standards of each other, so when Uncle Misha called his brother screaming that he got the part, everyone celebrated. You never got the pleasure of meeting the cast members of the show, but you vowed that when you got old enough, you’d go visit him.

Luckily for you, when you turned eighteen, your uncle’s show was still going on. It took a lot of convincing on your mom’s part to let you go by yourself as your dad was already on board. You lived halfway across the country from Vancouver, but you had no trouble getting on a plane and flying there. No, the hard part was finding a ride to the set. Your visit is supposed to be a surprise for everyone, but you knew you’d never make it on your own.

Much to your displeasure, you had to call Jensen to come and help you. He promised to keep it a secret, but he wouldn’t be able to come until the following morning. So, he hooked you up with a hotel room and told you to “go crazy”. Your mother always told you not to take things for granted, so as much as you wanted the delicious room service, you took your own money and went out like every other person.

That was the worst mistake of your entire life.

The place you got food was a sushi food truck on the street. If the look of it didn’t set off alarm bells, then the presentation of the food should have. However, you didn’t have a lot of money and hoped and prayed that this was safe to eat.

It. Was. Not.

Despite the churning in your stomach, you still wanted to make your uncle’s surprise something he’d never forget. You didn’t want to spend it with your head in the toilet. Your only other option is to push down the sickening feeling and move on with your life. Jensen made it easier by distracting you with questions of your home and school life, what you’re going to do for college or where you’re going to work if you’re not into college, and everything else in between. You answered honestly and hoped he didn’t detect that anything is wrong.

When you get to the set, you’re distracted at how amazing everything looks. You’ve never been on a TV set before, so this is uncharted territory. Jensen took you to the main building where your uncle and Jared are filming right now. The director knows Jensen is out to get you, which is why he opted to film for the other two big actors. As soon as you enter the building, you can hear your uncle yell out, followed by a crash. Your amazing uncle is kicking some guy’s ass with a mixture of stage fighting.

As soon as the director calls “cut” you clap loudly for his performance.

“Y/N! What are you doing here? Your parents know you’re here, right?” Misha says and hurries over to you while the crew gets ready for the next set.

“No, I ran away in hopes you’d take me in,” you say with a deadpan voice.

“I tell you, you did not learn that sarcasm from me or your dad. Come here,” he grins and brings you into a tight hug.

Your stomach does not agree with his actions, and you pull away before you have the urge to throw up.

“Are you okay?”

“Yeah, I’m fine. Your hugs are like death grips,” you chuckle.

“I’m just so excited to see my favorite niece!”

“I’m your only niece,” you say.

“Misha! We’re ready for you!” the director calls out.

“I want you to watch this. I want you to know what you think,” he says and leaves back to the new set.

It’s time for Jensen to star in this scene, so he left way before your uncle got to you. All three men are standing on their markers, getting ready for the big scene. You’re standing next to the snack counter, and you don’t register that fact until you smell beef. You look over to the table just as someone put down fresh pigs in blankets. Your face goes green, and you haul ass to the nearest trash can before you make a mess all over the floor.

Misha is doing his scene without any distractions until he hears you throw up. He pauses mid-sentence just as you come up for air. If you’re sick, then why did you come all this way just to see him? He doesn’t know when you got in, but he knew his brother wouldn’t allow you to leave if you are throwing up.

“Sorry! Let’s go again!” he apologizes and gets back into character.

He’ll have to ask you about this when he’s done.

When Misha got done with his scenes for the day, he makes finding you his first priority. Jensen gets out of the Impala before jogging over to Misha.

“Hey, I was thinking that we can go over our lines for tomorrow. I figured we get a head start so we can wrap up early.”

“I’m sorry, I have to find my niece. I saw her throwing up earlier. She might be in my trailer. If she’s sick, then why did she come here in the first place? Sasha wouldn’t have let her leave if she was throwing up.”

“Maybe it’s a stomach bug,” Jensen shrugs.

“Yeah, maybe. I’ll catch you later.”

Misha exits the set building and heads straight for his trailer. He didn’t know if you’re sleeping or studying, so he makes sure to be quiet when he enters. The trailer is quiet—too quiet for his liking. He slides back the door to see an empty bed. The sheets are tangled as if you were laying in it, but he can’t seem to find you anywhere. He’s about to call out your name when he hears someone coughing, then vomiting. He rushes over to the bathroom and swings the door open. You’re sitting on the floor with your head in the toilet. You really shouldn’t have eaten sushi from a sketchy food truck.

“Shit, Y/N, are you okay?” he asks.

He bends down to gather your hair in a makeshift ponytail to keep it out of your way.

“I’m okay. Really,” you nod and groan.

You look bloated, you’re throwing up, and it seems like you can’t hold down anything you eat. Either you’re sick, or you’re pregnant. Is that why you wanted to visit your uncle? It might be easier to tell him you’re pregnant instead of your dad? Are you running away? A load of thoughts rushes through Misha’s head, but he keeps his concerns to himself. He doesn’t want to rush you into anything, so he’s going to make sure you’re comfortable enough to tell him what’s been going on.

He hopes you’re not pregnant because you’re barely 18. You still have the world to see and things to do. If you absolutely want a child at this age, then he’s not going to stop you, but he hopes it’s all a misunderstanding.

The more the days pass, the more Misha is convinced that you’re pregnant. You only throw up in the morning, your appetite has changed, you’re tired all the time, and there are very monitor things that have Misha convinced you are with child. He wants to bring it up to you, but there is a reason you haven’t told him yet. Are you scared? Nervous? Ashamed? He won’t ever judge you, which is why he’s giving you all the time and space he needs. He hasn’t talked to his brother about this yet because he knows Sasha would have said something if you were.

You’re feeling a little better, but your stomach is still in knots. Sleep did help, but now that you’re up and about, it’s starting to hurt again. Your uncle has a lot of scenes to do today, so you’re going to watch and help out when needed. He has a break this weekend, and you want to spend as much time as possible with him before going back home. It’s amazing how the set can create something you’ve only seen on TV. The magic they put into this show just dazzles you. Seeing your uncle dressed up as Castiel makes you so proud.

As him, Alex, and Jared are acting, they realize they forgot a certain prop. The director called cuts and asked for the prop, only for you to realize it was right next to you. It’s a little bit on the heavier side, but you can manage to bring it to them. However, as soon as Misha saw this, he rushed over to take it from your hands.

“I got it,” he smiles.

“Oh, okay,” you frown and let him take it back to set.

Ever since you woke up this morning, your uncle has been treating you with extra care. Whenever you were carrying something heavy, he’d offer to carry it for you. When you needed water or something light to eat, he’d get up and get it even if he was busy. It’s like he didn’t want you to do anything. It’s as if he thought you’d break at the slightest pressure. You’re very suspicious, and if this keeps going on, you’re going to have to talk to him about it.

After the scene is done, you offer to help bring the prop away from set, but your uncle declines.

“No, you rest. I can do this,” he suggests.

“What are you doing? Why are you treating me like I’ll break?” you ask. He exchanges a glance with Jensen and Jared, who knew what Misha thought. They both knew Misha thought you were pregnant, but they weren’t going to say anything until Misha does. “What is going on?”

“I know,” your uncle finally says.

“Know what?”

“About you.”

“What about me?”

“Look, you don’t have to hide anymore. I understand you’re scared, and if you’re not ready to tell your parents, then I understand. Just know I’ll always be here for you.”

“Yeah, us too,” Jared chimes in as Jensen gives you a sweet smile.

“Uncle Misha, what are you talking about?”

“You’re pregnant, right?”

“What the hell? Where did you hear that?!” you exclaim in shock.

“Wait, you’re… not pregnant…?” he asks slowly.

“No! Where did you get that idea?”

“You’re throwing up every morning, you look bloated, and you’re visibly tired.”

“I had sushi from a food truck the night before I got here. I have food poisoning, that’s it,” you start to laugh.

“Now I feel like an idiot,” Misha chuckles, hiding away in embarrassment.

“No, don’t say that. Look, I’m not pregnant, and nowhere near the thought of it. But I know that I can always come to you. You’re my favorite uncle,” you grin and give him a loving hug.

“I’m your only uncle.”

“But you’re the best one a girl could have.”

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[ain-t-bovvered]

SEASON 14 FINALE

bunch of tired and caffeinated Europeans ( plus a sleepy American) scream together, and then die and try to get on with their day ( lol AS IF)

Hello and welcome:

@purpleskiesandcherrypies  (Nat)

@dean-winchesters-bacon  (Kat)  

@waywardbaby  (Zee)

@ain-t-bovvered  (Giulia)

     * MASTERLIST of season 14 commentary *

CRY WITH US

Giulia: JOHN

Kat: THE FEELS OFF THE BAT

Giulia: OH THERE IT IS

Zee: Carry on.

Zee: Perfect

Giulia: DONT Y CRY NO MOOORE *air drumming*

Zee: Michael pigeon

Kat: AAAAAAHHHHHHHH

Giulia: *headbanging*

Nat: You and Michael trapped for eternity wink wink

Giulia: But I flew too hiiiigh

Giulia: I CAN T

Zee: I am Winchester

Giulia: literal chills and also didn’t need to see those fingers again

Nat: ya right

Kat: If I have to see that thing with Nick’s fingers again....

Zee: They’re mocking us

Ok but Jack is fucking scaaaaaary here alright. I don’t like being afraid of my son.

Giulia: Those glowy eyes tho

Nat: ok but that shot is good

Giulia: I HAVE [1] FEAR

Dean *in Jensen JiB10 voice *: we’ve done fucked up

Kat: JACK BABY NO

J: You LIED!

Giulia: OH FUCK

Zee: Jack stop

Nat: FUCKING TANTRUM MAN

Giulia: GREAT OFF TO A GREAT START well at least he didn’t kill them all already. He definitely could have

AAAAAND he flew away.

Nat: Ya, I think I have to leave I have an appointment to shoot myself

Zee: Stay coward

Kat: SIT YOUR ASS DOWN

Giulia: Nat !hold the door for me

Kat: DON’T MAKE ME GET THE ROPE

Zee: I’ll tie you both. Shut up

C: You should never have tried to lock him away.

Giulia: YES TELL HIM CAS

D: You know what? You're right. I never wanted to put him in that damn box. I wanted him dead.

Giulia: NO DEAN

Nat: Dean, you don't mean it babe

Giulia: NO

D: He's dangerous, Cass, and you knew it! You've known it for a long time! But that's okay. You know why? Because me and Sam, we've killed just about everything, there is. And this -- Jack -- oh, we'll find a way. Because he's just another monster.

Zee: Dads fighting

C: You don't mean that.

D: The hell I don't.

Giulia: THE TENSION *licking lips*

#PRAYFORSAM

                          #PRAYFORME

SOUL BOMB

Giulia: NO BAD IDEA

Nat: YOU SHUSH YOUR MOUTH

Giulia: i mean good idea BUT BAD

S: Okay.

D: Sam, I know this isn't easy, okay? He -- I know how much he meant to you. He meant a lot to me. He was family.

Nat: I wanna cry, Sammy, let me hold ya

Giulia: we are gonna do the ugly thing

Zee: Sam’s face gonna stay like that forever

Giulia: Of course it’s not the first time

Kat: If I’ve said it once I’ll say it again. Jared’s acting is A+ this season

Giulia: This doesn’t look good

Kat: Oh jack

Zee: Oh hello

Kat: No babe

Nat: My god but Jack needs to be contained. Someone should show him the waaaaaaay

Giulia: SNORTS i read that in Jared’s dumb voice

Nat: I WROTE THAT IN JARED'S DUMB VOICE SO

S: She thinks it's dangerous and insane.

well she right

*Sam aggressively getting out the car*

Zee: Nerds

S: Takes one to know one.

Giulia: WE VE BEEN KNEW. DEAN’S A NERD

D: Okay. All right, yeah. But I'm nothing like these, uh, you know, gaggle of Zuckerbergs.

Kat: The cutest little nerd

Sammy...my smart baby

Nat: Yeah, but I'm not...uh..

Dean with his charming smile on

D: Hi. I'm Dean Winchester, and I'm looking for the devil's son.

Giulia: AHAHAH

Zee: What?

Giulia: oooh

Nat: OH NO

Giulia: Right

Nat: He can't lie

Nat: BUAHAHHAHAHA AWKWARD BEAN Oh my god

Giulia: Oh wow Jack should have done that at the starts of the season

D: I meant [Clears throat] I'm Dean Winchester, and I'm looking for the devil's son. This badge is fake.

Giulia: AHAHAHAHAHA WHAT

Kat: D Y I N G

S: Well, it's like you said. [Chuckles] It's Celine Dion. I mean Celine Dion. It's Celi-- [ Stammers ] Dean, every time I try and say "Elvis,"  it comes out --

Zee: Sad horrible truth

Nat: Imagine that happening

Giulia: Das me

Kat: The I hate everyone guy is me

Nat: I HATE EVERYONE.  I feel that dude

Giulia: Meaning this

Nat: OH MY GOD DIG AT TRUMP.  I AM LIVING

Giulia: That thing needs to happen tho

Kat: Dying over the Trump part

Giulia: Trump soul deal CONFIRMED

Misha wrote this part

Giulia: BECAUSE Y ALL LIED TO HIM

Nat: Also why are they both so pretty

Zee: Stapler queen

Giulia: I AM THE [CENSORED]

Zee: What is Cas doing ??!!!

Giulia: oh the cage

Nat: I'm just like...crying in my coffee now

Giulia: GASPS

Zee: Chuck!!!!

I love Rob with all my heart.

Nat: Ya, now you show up huh

Zee: About fucking time

Kat: 🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐

C be like......heLLo fAtHEr

Giulia: No jack

Nat: Ah babe no why you go to your grandma

C: God

G: .....EH

C: Chuck

.G: There you go.

Giulia: Hi chuck bb

C: How are You here?

G: You called me?

Giulia: OH SHUT UP NOW U ANSWER

Nat: Jack's a problem. YA THINK

Zee: He’s a problem. Ya think?

Giulia: Ooooh that’s bad

Cass is like .... *protective father activated*

Nat: Oh no, don't tell him

Zee: Puppy eyed jack

Zee: Bad eyed jack

D: When people can't lie, the Internet gets real quiet.

Dean Winchester ep. 14x20

D: yeah, guess your life isn't so perfect after all, EightPackMommy.

S: What?

D: Yeah, she's got this blog. Yeah, you know what? Your kids aren't that cute. And that gluten-free popover looks like crap because there's no gluten in it. [ Chuckling ] You know what I mean?  I'll stop talking.

Kat: Dean’s an insta stalker lol

Giulia: AHAHAH

Zee: Jesus

Nat: My god Dean, stop talking

Zee: Three yoghurts. Seems legit

Nat: I just wanna be loved.  I feel that too

Giulia: That crying lady. Das me

Kat: I change my answer, that’s me lol

G: You see, this is why people need to lie. Keeps the peace, you know

C: Seems like an odd stance for...you.

G: I'm a writer. Lying's kind of what we do.

Cass, having none of it : SAM!? DEAN?!

Giulia: I WANNA SEE DEAN INTERNET CHRONOLOGY

Nat: What's a dad bod

Nat: how to remember what i did last night

Kat: Porn

Giulia: what’s Bi

Nat: hot chicks in kansas

Nat: hot men in kansas

Nat: hot pie in kansas

Giulia: hot in kansas

*God casually walking in*

Dean : adwbrgoidqifhowhdiahf whet

G: HEY GUYS

Sam: adhouehfwoihegwpirhgjsadjaijd

G: I know what you're thinking - it's been awhile, and I still look pretty good.

S: No, that's -- that's not what we were thinking.

Giulia: YAS DEAN! 

a sec later 

….OH

Nat: NO NOT THE GUITAR

Kat: I bet Jensen has fun doing that

Giulia: damn Chuck chill

Dean mentally: I REGRET EVERYTHING, BUT ALSO NOT

G: So.....how’s things?

Sam, Cass, and Dean: MAJOR BITCHFACE

Kat: Ugh Chuck SHUT UP

Giulia: WE ALL HAVE QUESTION BITCH. CHUCK U FUCK

G: I built the sandbox -- you play in it.

Zee: How bad do they want to sucker punch him?

G: You want to go up against -- what was it? -- the "British Men of Letters"? Okay. Little weak, but okay.

Giulia: Little weak but ok

Nat: I totally read suck and punch him

Giulia: Chuuuck my fucking god

Zee: And the other apocalypse

Giulia: Oh that’s when he steps in

Kat: Jensen’s fucking model face

Zee: Accurate

Nat: The world kinda went insane... ya think?

Giulia: WHAT

Kat: Queen is a lizard I knew it

Zee: Baffled moose

Nat: "I'm god Sam"

Giulia: I M TIRED OF PEOPLE SNAPPING FINGERS

Nat: So he could actually fix jack too  If he wants to

Giulia: i wanna punch god

Kat: I’m having such a hard time rn. I need to leave ( giulia: this bitch already knew just fyi)

Nat: Dean stop pouting, you are distracting me

G: Not really....but you can

Dean is like....what the fuck ?

Zee: Dean needs to shut his face

Giulia&Zee: What The fuck

Kat: Pretty gun

Giulia: GOD U NERD

Zee&Nat: Equalizer

Nat: The hammer what

Giulia: TIME

Zee&Kat: Hammurabi

S: So you've had this the whole time and -- and we're just now getting it?

Giulia: sam asking the right questions

G: I just made that sucker.

S: So you don't even know if it works.

G: If I say it'll work, it'll work.

Kat: Eye for an eye ( edit notes 24th May....you fucker, I just now noticed)

Nat: Hey, can I punch god? Am I allowed to punch god?

Giulia: Oh i don’t like it

Nat: It doesn't use bullets

Sam is so done

Giulia: I really don t like it. Let me guess, Someone has to die

Nat: Dean, shut your fucking face

Listen...Cas should have understood that ok?

Kat: I swear they made them dumber

G: Uh, whatever happens to the person you're aiming at also happens to you.

Giulia: ...there it is

Kat: Eye for a fucking eye

Nat: NO

Nat: I MEAN OF COURSE DEAN WANTS TO DO IT

C: I don't understand why we're talking about killing Jack.Y-You can fix him.You can -- You can restore his soul.That's why I called you.

Giulia: CAS ASKING THE RIGHT QUESTIONS

S: You're God.

Nat: I MEAN WHY ARE WE EVEN WATCHING

G: I mean, after what he did?

ooooh Chuck you bitch , don’t use mama Winchester come on , that’s low

Kat: Fuck you Chuck

Giulia: why is everything that complicated.

Giulia: CASS BABE

Nat: DON'T INTERRUPT YOUR BOYFRIEND. DEAN SHUT UP

Zee: Cas is beyond pissed

C: And Billie said the only way to defeat Michael was to lock you in a box

Giulia: DEAN NO. oooh cass is pissed

D: Now, I know you don't like it, and I don't really care. 'Cause you just heard it from God Himself that this is the only thing that can kill Jack,

Zee: Grounds for divorce

D: so either get on board or walk away.

Cas walks away.

me: YOU ARE DOING AMAZING SWEETIE

Kat: The fucking smirk

Giulia: What’s that face Chuck tho?

Nat: No, I mean, do we really have another death as a cliff hanger

Kat: 🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐🤐

Zee: Of fucking course

Giulia: I FUCKING KNOW  i mean must mean something

Kat: I could spoil but I won’t

Kat: BRO TALK

S: This is where you tell me you're gonna pull the trigger?

Giulia: Thanks dean we knew

D: Yeah, it is.

Nat: Sam, did you think that Dean wouldn't do it? I mean, come on you were in the last 14 seasons too

D: He killed our mom.

Giulia: OH BOO HOO

Giulia: dean come on

Zee: Rational Sam

S: But, Dean, we haven't even tried to save him.

D: He actually blamed Mom for what happened.

S: He doesn't have a soul.

Giulia: Thank u sam

S: I'm the one who brought him back, and I brought him back because he's family.And then he came back, and he burned his soul off to save us 

--you and me.And now what? You.. Now you -- you want my permission? [ Stammers ] You want me to say I'm cool with losing him and losing you all at once? 'Cause I can't do that. I won't say that, 'cause I... No. I've already lost too much.

Giulia: HE DID THAT. SAM...BABY, I’M SO PROUD OF YOU.

Nat: Hey, why do we let ourselves get hurt all the time when we actually know that Dean's going to wanna go through with it

Giulia: why does it feel like Dean is a fucking train going straight and not looking at anything else? Because we know it’s wrong, and we know dean knows it ‘s wrong

We know that dean knows that he knows it's wrong but he won't accept that he knows that it's wrong

Zee: Have you been watching this show bb?

Nat: No, I think I've never watched it

Giulia: What’s a supernatural?

Cas angry af

Giulia: not gonna lie, got a little sweaty there

Giulia: Look at cas hugging his boi with no hesitations

Kat: Ugh back to Chuck

Zee: Is that really chuck tho?

Giulia: U know? Got a feeling too

Nat: Ya, I think it's not Chuck, honestly

Nat: It's all kinda wrong

Giulia: Feels that way

Kat: Ugh I wanna scream at y’all

Nat: It's probably the empty. i don't know

Kat: I am actually screaming at y’all, just not typing it out

Nat: or an evil version of god

Nat: Chuck wouldn't sacrifice Jack and a Winchester

Giulia: Chuck god damn it ( later note: LITERALLY)

Nat: Anyway, anything to keep Sam safe, right?

G: One's in reverse. In one, there's no yellow. One -- One of them's just all squirrels.

Giulia: But I wanna see all their versions tho

S: So, Michael said that you create these worlds and you just toss them away like failed versions of some book.

G: And you believe him?

S: Was he lying? Is that what you're doing to us?

G: you and your brother, of all the Sams and Deans in all the multiverse, you're my favorite. You're just so interesting.

Sam is like .....that’s creepy

J: I used to hate myself for it. But I don't feel that way anymore.

Giulia: Can I hug my son ??????

J: I don't feel anything.

Giulia: LET ME HUG HIM

Nat: Aw bb didn't kill his grandma

Giulia: Thank god he didn’t kill her. Oh wow

Zee: One type of Winchester pain is not enough for you ?

Kat: All this Sammy-ness

S:  Do you watch us? When you're not here, are -- are you... watching us?

G: I mean, you're my favorite show.

Giulia&Zee: I MEAN SAME

S: Why, when the chips are down, when the world is -- is failing, why does it always

Zee&Giulia: You’re my guys

Giulia: Ooh Sam I love sam this season ok

Zee: Scared god

Kat: So damn good

Nat: I WANNA PUNCH CHUCK SO BAD LET ME PUNCH CHUCK

Giulia: This

Zee: Get in line

Kat: YOU JUST FUCKING WAIT

Giulia: I’m coming with u

Kat: EVERYONE BEHIND ME OKAY . NOT HELPING KAT I GET FIRST CRACK I’M NOT TRYING TO

Giulia: Please give Jack his soul back sobs

J: All I ever wanted was to be good.

Giulia: OH NO

C: We just need time to fix this. We need to go somewhere safe, somewhere where no one can find us.

CATCH ME SOBBING BECASUE CASTIEL LOVES THIS BOY SO MUCH

Zee: Misha ffs. Shut your face

[ an angry Dean appears]

Zee: Oh perfect

Nat: Ya, sure boyfriend has a tracker on yo phone cas

D: Cass, step aside.

Giulia: I DON T LIKE THIS. hate this HATE THIS

Cas putting himself in front of the most powerful being. LOL SOBS

Zee: Detest

C: RUN

Giulia: HATED THAT TOO

Nat: WTF

Giulia: dean no

Nat: DEAN

Giulia: Oooh he so doesn't t wanna do that. HATE THIIIIS

Nat: not like that

Giulia: my heart I can t breathe

Nat: That back tho. SHUT UP NAT

Giulia: Those thighs tho. SHUT UP GIULIA

WHAT IS THIS STRESSFUL MUSIC

Nat: SAMMY

Giulia: HELP  LET ME BREATHE

Nat: MY GOD

Kat: RUN SAMMY RUN

Giulia: NO HALPP I CAN T

J: I understand.

D: *Eye twitch*

Nat: DEAN YOU HEAR HIM YOU JUST STOP

Giulia: MY HEART IS POUNDING

Zee: Mine stopped

*wild God appears*

Giulia: SHUT UP JACK

Oooooh Dean is so conflicted

Kat: CHUCK SHUT YOUR FACE

S: You're enjoying this.

Giulia: SHOOT CHUCK

G: shhh

Kat: HIS FAVE SHOW

Nat: Chuck's enjoying this

Giulia: MY GOOOOD

Nat: fucking hell

Giulia: SHOOT CHUCK

Nat: OH MY GOD I FORGOT HOW TO BREATHE

Kat: THE TEARS IN DEANS EYES

Nat: BREATHE NAT BREATHE

Giulia: WHAT IS BREATH

Question....What the fuck is Castiel doing anyway???? WHERE HE AT?

Nat: I THINK I STOPPED BREATHING

Kat: BREATHE BABE

Giulia: OH THANK GOD

Nat: OMG I'M CRYING

Oh there , Cas is back

Giulia: OH CHUCK

Kat: GET READY TO SCREAM

G: No! Pick it up

Zee: Wtf?

Giulia: no NO WHAT

Nat: WHAT

Giulia: OH COME ON

Nat: WHAT?

Giulia: OOOF COURSEEE

Nat: CHUCK

Kat: CHUCK IS THE FUCKING WORST OKAY

Giulia: THE BOOKS

Nat: NO YOU FUCKING PRICK

Giulia: snorts CHUCK WTF

D: The hell, Chuck?

G: This isn't how the story is supposed to end. Lookit, the -- the -- the gathering storm, the gun, the -- the father killing his own son.This is Abraham and Isaac. This is epic!

Nat: NO OFFENSE? OH HE SAID THE WRONG THING NOW

Zee: Can’t process

G: So pick up the gun. Pick it up...pull the trigger...and I'll bring her back.Your mom.

Giulia: CHUCK NO U BITCH

Nat: WHAT

Zee: WHAT?

D: No. My mom was my hero. And I miss her, and I will miss her every second of my life, but she would not want this.

Giulia: OH THANK U DEAN

Kat: DEANS BETTER THAN THAT YALL

Nat: HEY, SOMEONE FUCKING SHOOT CHUCK OR I'LL DO IT

Zee: CHUCK IS SUCH A BITCH

D: And it's not like you even really care.

Giulia: YES DEAN

Giulia: This is really biblical tho

Nat: It's like the Truman show

S: Just sitting back and watching us suffer so we can do this over and over and over again -- fighting, losing people we love? When does it end? Tell me.

Giulia: YAS SAM

Giulia: Yas you go

D: 'Cause this --this isn't just a story.It's our lives! So God or no God,you go to hell.

Nat: TELL HIM BB

Oh hey....God chuckling never looked scarier

Giulia: NO

Kat: AND THERE'S THE SCREAMS

Giulia: NOOOO

Nat: NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Giulia: WHAT THE FUCJ

Nat: WHAT

Giulia: GEOWNDNSKCJA FHSISNDBSKAL JACK

Nat: SHIT

Giulia: N

Kat: SAMMY BABY NO

Giulia: NO SAM

Nat: OSHGOIEWAHGOIEHGPOIEWHGLIRHGLFDNLKDNGLKSNGLDSNGLKDSNSD

Kat: ALSO YES

Nat: DSLNFLISAGLDSNGLISANGLSNGLSNGLDS

Giulia: OH THANK

G: Story's over. Welcome to The End

Kat: HERE IT COMES

Giulia: NO

Zee: WHAT?

Kat: PEOVOWOGOGOAOFGOOAVKELKskv

Nat: YOU DONT FUCKING DARE

Kat: FINALLY YALL BITCHES GONNA SEE

Nat: NLDSKNSLKDNFLSNFLSDFSIEJIESJFLSKFD

Giulia: SINCE WHEN CHUCK IS SUCH A DICK

Nat: LSNGLISNLKDSNLKSANFELIEWFSKNFLKDSNGLKDSNF

Giulia: JACK

Nat:SDLHOIDSHOEWHRLWNVLKDSNVLKDSANGLSIDHOIHGODSHFSLNHFLDS

Giulia: JAAACK I CAN T

Zee: What the fuck is going on??

Nat: I CAN NOT ENGLISH

Giulia: CAS’ FACE.....I CAN’T STAND IT

C: He's a writer. Writers lie.

Kat: WRITERS LIE

Giulia: HATE THAT

Nat: WRITERS LIE

Giulia: NO

Nat: WHAT NO

Giulia: PLEASE

Nat: JACK

Kat: JUST WAIT FOR THIS SHOT

Nat: NOOOOOOO

Giulia: MY BABY

Zee: This hurts

Kat: THROUGH THE DAMN EYE

CRY WITH SOME SOUNDTRACK

Giulia: WHAT THE FUCK

Nat: FUCK NO

Nat: WHAT IS FUCKING WRONG

Giulia: THIS SONG

Nat: WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH SPN

Giulia: WHY IN THE EMPTY

Kat: THE MUSIC ID FUCKIG PERFECT

Giulia: NO

Zee: Can they stop with the song?

Nat: HE'S IN THE EMPTYYYYYYY

Giulia: THAT IS CREEPY

Kat: BILLIE

B: We should talk

Giulia: WHAT

Kat: WAIT WAIT WAIT

Nat: OH

Giulia: IM SORRY WHAT

Nat: She doens't want Jack to stay ded

Kat: WPOGLWOVOAOFKWKSKFLEOVOEKVKWLOGOGKSKC

Nat: I like Billie

Giulia: THE FUCK IS THIS

Zee: What?

Nat: what happens . Souls from Hell

Giulia: GOD WAS NEVER ON YOUR SIDE

Kat: JUST YOU SEE

Giulia: IS THAT THE ONE FROM THE FORST EP

Kat: WOMAN IN WHITE

Nat: It starts all over again

Giulia: FUCK

Kat: THE CLOWN

Giulia: NO GACY

Kat: BLOODY MARY

Nat: ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

Giulia: OH FFS

Giulia: JFC

Giulia: JESUS

Giulia: FUCKING

Giulia: CHRIST

Kat: EVERYTHING THEY EVER KILLED IS BACK

Nat: EVERYTHING'S JUST A GAME FOR CHUCK AND I HATE HIM

Giulia: CHUCK U FUCKING ASSHOLE

Kat: SEE I TOLD YALL CHUCK IS THE WORST

Giulia: WELL THIS IS FUCKING CREEPY MY GOD

Kat: THEY DONE MADE GOD THE ULTIMATE BADDIE FOR THE LAST SEASON

Giulia: IRON. Grab all the fucking IRON

Nat: But to kill them all again they would need more than one more seasons tho

Nat: I MEAN...

Giulia: LOVE IT

Kat: Nah they just going to have to do something epic

Giulia: GOD WAS NEVER ON YOUR SIDE

Zee: Appropriate

Nat: they can shove epic in their ass

I

STAN

TFW

Kat: PERFECTION

                      [ after credits comments]

Giulia: WHAT WAS THAAAAAT

Giulia: OOOH GUYS

Zee: Thanks Satan

Nat: YA ......SO

Kat: See not so much crying as just being mad af

Nat: WELL

Giulia: APOCALYPSE WORLD 2k19. IS THERE GOING TO BE APOCALYPSE AGAIN BECAUSE IM HERE FOR IT

Kat: WE DON’T KNOW

Nat: Alright me has to work I DON'T KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO WITH MY FEELINGS THO

Giulia: GOOD LUCK

Kat: NNNNOOOO SCREAM WITH US

Giulia: DON T STEAL YOGURTS

Kat: OR STAPLERS

Zee: How can y’all still write ??

Nat: I'M THE KWEEN OF STAPLERS

Zee: This was all kinds of fucked up

Kat: Because I’ve been processing for hours

Nat: Good luck with your day babes

Giulia: Ya know imma make that gif with little dean heads and the caption: [CENSORED]

Kat: Can you put my head on hers lol

Giulia: No imma put [CENSORED]

Giulia: That song is gonna be on repeat till next season tho

Kat: But but

Giulia: Because it’s the fucking truth

Zee: Salty this early?

Giulia: And honestly ...that chuck was weird tho I didn’t like him

Zee: Agree

Giulia: That’s why I thought he was not OUR chuck. I’m not that mad at Dean anyway. He did good. Baby….you did good.

Kat: He’s finally showing his true nature

Giulia: But Sam and Cas have my ass ok. Good fucking morning writers. This season I mean. Yeah we all know D. E. A. N. But this season they wrote Sam and Cas in a real emotional way and i can t. Like not just supports to dean character but their own. Loved it

Zee: Who has the rest of you ?

Giulia: Myself. I’m my own woman

Zee: Perfect.

Giulia: And I must say, i did actually liked this end

Kat: I do too More than I thought I would

Giulia: And boy do I want apocalypse world back

Giulia: Also this thing about that chuck. Just reinforce my idea that Cas is going to choose to be human.

Zee: What're six months?

Kat: Makes me wonder how long they knew 15 was gonna be the last

Giulia: Before season 14 , pretty sure. Or at least at the start. Like...they played too much on the letting go and be grateful for the time we had shit

Kat: I think so too

Zee: Imma leave too. Spending the day in the city

Giulia: Same, Spending the day crying

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Thank you all for staying with us during this painful season.

See you in season 15, which will be even more painful, but he-heey we are used to it ....right?

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The

Excuse the finger error on the heading.  Not important anyway. 

Doll face sent this wonderful observation that I didn't even realize.

''In response to your thing about Castiel - I feel ya. You can argue and debate till you’re blue in the face but it won’t make a difference. The stans only hear what they wanna hear. S1,2,3 remain my favourite seasons of the show and probably 3 of the most successful seasons overall. It was the brothers against the world. All this repetitive angel BS wasn’t a factor. It was dark and twisty and the SL was consistent. It didn’t need Castiel to be what it was and never has done.''

I agree with this but it reminds me of something Jared said in the earlier panels.  He said, although he was humble enough to take any job.  He wanted to do something that was not campy.  She is right.  The tone and texture of SPN was gritty and real.  There was feeling of ''This has happened somewhere.  We just don't know about it''.  I am also forgiving of the fourth and fifth season because those stories were congruent with the previous seasons.  The story was still focused on the brothers.  They were the front and center of the story.  And the big bad story was intertwined with their story.  It was not like the stories that came after season 5, that had nothing to do with them. 

Plus, despite the inclusion of humor in the story, there was no moment that made you scrunch your forehead and go ''what the???''.  The humor, on many occasions, made sense.  That is why, once upon a time, people were crazy about the shifter.  Every time this creature appeared on screen, something  interesting happened.  From St. Louis to the Monster Movie episode, to Changing Channels.  Even if it was funny, that was fine, because the shifter was a buffer.  You could blame the meagre amount of silliness on him and the silliness was not insulting to a viewer.  Other than the oversensitive stans, most people thoroughly enjoyed the episodes.

Then the Gamble era ended, and even the humor got pathetic.  Dean's humor, especially, has gotten ludicrous over the years.  Dean is a lot of funny things, but he is clumsy and stupid.  Eating pie messily, getting out of the wrestling ring clumsily , it was all too much.  Jensen, himself, said that Scooby Dooby Doo line he had to say was mortifying.  I remember watching that scene with the dumb ascot [whhyyy???] and cringing.  Remember when Dean was the gritty bad boy with a good heart?  Yeah, well he died after Scoobynatural.  This joke that we have on the scene now, isn't that Dean.  This one doesn't use holy water and silver to test a person.  He uses baked goods.  Dean Winchester is now a silly cartoon. 

Even his British attire for Michael makes no sense.  Although the choice was Jensen's because he is a fan of Peaky Blinders, if I was in charge of wardrobe, I would have said no.  I would have given him a black turtleneck, black jeans, and a long, glossy, ankle length black leather jacket that made from a leather that allowed the jacket to be manipulated by a gust of wind.  That fucking stupid hat, I tell you.  The point is everyone is too busy playing and none were taking their jobs seriously.  So they didn't correct Jensen and why should they if he is doing all the thinking for them. 

Sam's character was completely butchered in S8.  Sam's fans must have been gritting their teeth throughout that season because of the character assassination.  I did a full post only on that.  Sam went from flawed to downright selfish and mean in that season and I hypothesized that someone in the writers room, just hated him.  I stand by that hypothesis until something more substantial comes along.  Though they stopped giving him any story.  After S8, everything that happened, seemed to center around Dean with Sam picking up the pieces.  Unfortunately for whoever hates Jared, they cant switch off Jensen and Jared's chemistry.  And that's a good thing because at least kept the show watchable. 

The gritty left with the inclusion of the bunker.  I understand why they used the bunker storyline.  New sets each week were probably expensive.  One fixed set almost every week, has a lesser dent on the budget.  But it was the bunker that made the whole show start to appear campy.  I remember Angel had a similar looking set and that was a campy show.  I miss the dingy motel rooms, creepy cemetery, the salvage yard and everything else that made Supernatural old school American.  The BMOLs with their accent, and the dystopian AU world were nothing like the picture that Sam and Dean helped paint many years ago.  When Dean was blasted into the future, where Samifer made an appearance, it was only for one day, not the whole season. 

I didn't have an issue with the Castiel that Kripke had written, even though the first three seasons were indeed real and gritty and not campy at all.  I just saw him as a guest character like Rufus, Bobby, Hendrickson, Ellen etc.  I didn't think there was anything special about the character.  And I would have tolerated him if the actor playing him didn't get to big for his britches.   However, that character and the caricature he was replaced with, are two distinct characters.  First of all, Misha unfortunately bled into the character.  I have never known a more inadequate man. 

So the masculinity and quiet wisdom that the character was supposed to exude was replaced by a colossal wimp who cant fight anyone properly and who has no ancient knowledge to share with the leads.  Cas only appeared on screen randomly and left randomly.  There was no guarantee of him appearing to help the boys because ''he didn't serve them''.  And that was fine.  Now he doesn't leave their side, just hanging around like a skin tag.  The character was kept on board way past his expiry date.  Keeping him on board meant that the angel storyline had to be lengthened just to accommodate him.  Now this useless, pointless character is going to be in the last ever episode.  I can feel it.  It was be a sad end but at least, it will be over.  They wont be able to butcher Sam and Dean's characters anymore. 

[torn-and-frayed]

With All My Heart - Part 13

Word Count: 3196

Pairing: Jensen x Reader

Warnings: Self loathing, Horrible terrible no good very bad smut 

A/N: Thanks to @percywinchester27 @impalaimagining and @sis-tafics for reading this over for me. 

A/N #2: This is the reason I don’t write smut, right here, in all its glory, you’ve been warned. 

Feedback and Constructive Criticism Always Appreciated

With All My Heart Masterlist

“How is she, really? No bullshit?” Gavin questioned Emma. You’d been driving for awhile and had stopped for a few breaks for you to get out and stretch your legs. Gavin and Emma both thought you were asleep in the backseat when truthfully you were hovering in the space between awake and asleep.

 “She’s…coping.” Emma finally answered, hesitating, trying to find the right words. “The whole heart infection and then replacing the valve, it took a lot out of her. For awhile I was afraid she was spiraling, but Jensen – Gavin he really pulled her out. He kept her head above water.”

 “What do you mean?” Gavin glanced at Emma quickly, putting his eyes straight back on the road, but he was clearly intrigued by what she meant.

 “Well, not only did he keep her out of the hospital by paying for all the medical equipment at his house so she could get all the antibiotics at home –“

 “He did that?” Gavin interrupted. “Like they were barely even together then and he just did that?”

 “Yeah.” Emma nodded. “It was never a question. But beyond that stuff, every time she started feeling down he brought her back up. He’d take her out to do something; he’d bring people to her. He just did every single thing he could do to make her not feel like an invalid. Gav, he’d give her the world. She wouldn’t even have to ask. Plus, Jared and Gen are great too. She didn’t just get Jensen she got an entire family.”

 Gavin gripped the wheel firmly in one hand, tensing his fist and letting it go, letting out a deep sigh. “What?” Emma asked. “What could possibly bother you about that?”

 “Nothing.” Gavin said, hesitating and clenching his jaw. “I just…I should’ve been here for her and I wasn’t.” Gavin hesitated again, Emma’s silence telling him he needed to keep going, to explain himself. “I’m not in love with her if that’s what you’re thinking. It’s not like that. I didn’t come here to fight with Jensen over her. I just – I promised her once I’d always be there for her and then I joined the Marines and I fucked that up. She needed me and I wasn’t here. How many guys walked all over her because I wasn’t here? She could’ve died and I wasn’t here.”

 “I don’t blame you.” You murmured sleepily from the back seat. “It was your job. It’s not like you didn’t wanna be here. You can’t just drop everything for me, Gavin.”

 “You weren’t supposed to hear that.” Gavin sighed. “Thought you were asleep.”

 “She’s right, though.” Emma said, reaching out and grabbing her brother’s free hand. “I know you think protecting us is your job but we’re big girls and we make our own decisions.”

 “I chose to date all those shitty men because I didn’t think I deserved better. That’s not on you. It’s not your job to fix me. And my heart? You couldn’t have fixed that. Nobody could’ve. Jensen being there was just the right place, right time.” Gavin nodded his understanding, swallowing thickly and going silent for a time, staring at the open road. You really wished in that moment you had the ability to read thoughts, not knowing what he was thinking was killing you.

 “Get some rest, Pipsqueak.” Gavin said, giving you a quick glance in the rearview mirror. “We should be there by morning.”

 The next morning when you arrived at the hotel, Jared met you immediately in the parking garage, trying to keep you hidden. You could barely help yourself, throwing yourself directly into his chest and burying your face in his shirt as soon as you saw him. “I missed you.”

 “Missed you too, gorgeous.” Jared laughed, hugging you so tight you could barely breathe. “Not as much as Jensen though, he’s driving me crazy. I’m so glad you’re here. You look so much healthier.” Jared’s eyes made their way toward Gavin who cleared his throat behind you.

 “Oh, shit, I’m sorry.” You abruptly pulled away, turning and pulling Jared toward Gavin. “Jared this is Gavin, Emma’s brother. Gavin, this is Jared.”

 Jared extended his hand and Gavin took it right away with a smile, something you were grateful for. A part of you was afraid they wouldn’t get along but they seemed to be just fine, and if he got along with Jared chances of him liking Jensen were far higher. “Thank you.” Gavin said unexpectedly. “For you know, giving her a job when her fuckstick of an old boss fired her for being sick. And being so understanding of everything and being there for her as a brother when I couldn’t be. You seem like a good guy.”

 “Y/N’s family now.” Jared pulled you in to a side hug, kissing the top of your head. “Whatever she needs, she gets.”

 “Told you.” Emma smirked, leaning against Gavin’s SUV. “Are we gonna take this stuff inside to an actual room or are we gonna stay in the parking garage forever?”

 “I might’ve managed to snag Emma and Gavin a 2 room suite.” Jared shrugged, holding out the keys. “Y/N/N you can shove your stuff in there for now but I don’t think you’ll be sleeping there tonight.”

 “No.” You laughed and shook your head. “God I hope not.” Jared moved away from you and started to help Gavin with the bags, easily draping some over his shoulders and pulling your rolling suitcase behind him. “Jared, I can help. At least give me the little one before you throw your back out.”

 “No.” Jared scoffed. “They’re not heavy, I got em. Just shut up and walk with me. We gotta talk about how this surprise is gonna go.”

 “Ok, so how is it gonna go?” Jared held the door for everyone, letting you all inside. Emma and Gavin walked ahead of you, having their own sibling conversation while Jared and you trailed behind, planning exactly how to surprise Jensen. “What am I supposed to do?”

 “Well, later today we’re filming this like, interview game thing.” Jared explained. “It’s out on a boat kinda nearby. I was thinking you could do it then unless you wanna wait until the party tonight.”

 “No!” You interjected, perhaps a little bit too enthusiastically. “I can’t wait that long. I need to see him.” Jared laughed at you, raising his eyebrows and shaking his head.

 “You really miss him, huh? God you might be worse than him. You’re pretty much all he talks about.” Jared sighed. “I’ve never seen him so damn love struck. It’s disgusting, really. What have you done to him?”

 You punched Jared hard in the shoulder, making him recoil from you with a loud grunt. “You’re so mean!”

 “You love me.”

 “Maybe.” You sighed in defeat, catching up to Emma and Gavin at the elevator. “I’ll never admit to it.”

 Once you got to the hotel room you quickly showered and changed clothes, practically skipping back into the living area where Emma and Gavin had ordered food. “Awesome, I’m starving.” You took a seat and dug into the waffles and fruit, moaning at the taste and shoving more in your mouth like you hadn’t eaten in days. Gavin and Emma both glared at you in a mixture of annoyance and humor and you shrugged your shoulders, swallowing your food. “What? I’ve been forced to eat heart healthy and this is fucking delicious. I’m allowed to love my food.”

 “You can love it without making obscene sex noises with it.” Emma deadpanned, staring at you. “Save that for Jensen.” You launched a strawberry at her, hitting her dead center in the forehead. “Hey!”

 “Fucking children.” Gavin chuckled with his mouth full.

 “Well, this has been great but I gotta get going.” You quickly cleaned up the mess you had made and grabbed your bag, making your way toward the door when Gavin jumped up.

 “Wait, wait, wait. I’m driving you. I wanna meet him.” Gavin protested. “You’re not driving yourself.”

 “You’re right. I’m not.” You rested your hands on Gavin’s biceps, speaking to him slowly and carefully. “Jared got the network to send a driver. You need to sleep you drove for almost a day. Emma’s staying to make sure you actually get some rest. You’ll get to meet him later.”

 “No, Y/N, I’m fine.” Gavin argued. “I wanna meet him.”

 “You, Gavin Bailey, are exhausted.” You shoved him toward the bedroom, pushing him and walking him back toward the bed. “You, Gavin Bailey, are going to get some sleep.”

 “Alright, bossy.” Gavin sighed and finally gave in, sitting down on the bed and kicking off his boots. “I’ll take a nap for you, but I want you to tell me you got to where you’re going without an issue. Send me a text, I’ll hear it.”

 “You’ll be asleep, genius.” You sassed back.

 “I’ll hear it. Light sleeper.” Gavin said softly. “I kinda had to be��over there.” You saw his eyes glaze over for a split second before touching his shoulder, calling him back.

 “She’ll send you a text.” Emma stepped in; apparently knowing full well her brother needed rest and wasn’t going to get it without being forced. “Now let her go.”

 You kissed Gavin’s cheek and bounded for the door, a newfound pep in your step. “I’ll be back later! With Jensen! Get some sleep, both of you!”

 Your nervous energy built up in the car on the way to the boat Jensen was and now that you were there, in the same space as him, so close but yet so far, you felt like you might implode. You could hear him laughing, you could smell his soap and cologne, but he had no idea you were anywhere other than where you’d told him you were.

 Misha, Jared, and Jensen were seated in front of a camera, playing a quiz game about how well they knew each other. They had white boards and the questions just lent themselves to jokes. You were trying not to laugh at them, knowing Jensen would hear you and recognize your laugh right away. Jared kept casting small glances your way, knowing exactly where you were but unable to see you.

 “Who would survive a zombie apocalypse?” Jensen read the next question and held his white board close to his chest, thinking to himself.

 Jared and Misha used the question to make fun of each other, you expected nothing less. Jensen picked Jeffrey Dean Morgan then immediately pulled his white board back and shook his head. “Can I change my answer?” Jensen asked and began furiously erasing and rewriting, turning the board back around. “I choose Y/N.” He giggled. “She’ll kill me when she sees this but part of her heart is bionic now so I don’t think she can become a zombie.”

 Jared threw his head back and cackled along with Misha. “You’re right. She’s totally gonna kill you.” Jared laughed. “You’re lucky she can take a joke.”

 “Is it really a joke if he’s right, though? I’m zombie proof.” You walked out from the shadows, making your presence known. Jensen’s head whipped around and he shot out of his chair, running forward and grabbing you gently around the waist.

 “What are you –“ You didn’t let him finish, too eager to see him, to feel him. You grabbed around his neck, pulling him down and slamming your lips against his, grabbing fistfuls of his hair, not giving a damn who was watching.

 “We should probably end the live stream there.” Misha laughed. “Before this becomes pornographic.”

 Jensen broke the kiss long before you were ready and you chased his lips forward, eliciting a giggle from him. “How did you get here? You’re not allowed to fly yet.”

 “Gavin and Emma drove for like a day and a half.” Your smile was so big it was practically lighting up the room and Jensen’s was just as big. His hands moved up your back, pulling you into his chest. “Jared set us up at the hotel. Got me a driver here.”

 “You knew?” Jensen spun around, glaring at Jared. “And you managed not to say anything?”

 “I told Misha.” Jared shrugged.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      

“You’re both assholes.” Jensen said and you laughed, cuddling closer to him.

 “Be nice, Jens.” You admonished, slapping his chest. “They helped get me here, they didn’t have to, ya know.”

 “Yeah, yeah. Whatever.” He grumbled, nuzzling his nose in your hair. “Best surprise ever. How are you? Do you need anything?”

 You nodded your head yes and yanked on his cream colored jacket, pulling him back down to you and crashing your lips to his, practically growling when they connected. You couldn’t have pulled yourself any closer to him if you tried, but damn if you didn’t try. His warmth, his touch, his smell, you needed him. You didn’t realize just how much until you were standing there in his arms again.

 “Get a room.” Jared and Misha complained in unison. “A hotel room not this one.” Misha added.

 “They’re right. We should go back to my room.” Jensen said against your lips.

 “Don’t you have photo shoots and big time celebrity stuff to do?” You questioned, making him laugh and squeeze you tighter.

 “I have time before I have to do all the big time celebrity stuff.” He murmured. You squealed in surprise when he swept you completely off your feet, carrying you toward the dock.

 The two of you barely made it back into the hotel room and slammed the door shut before clothes started flying in every direction. The giggle that escaped your lips was almost embarrassing as the two of you clumsily kissed and yanked at each other’s clothes, bumping into furniture and walls on your way into the bedroom where you fell naked into the king size bed with Jensen hovering over you, staring down at you with nothing but love.

 “Beautiful.” Jensen murmured, trailing kisses down your neck.

 “No.” You mumbled, moving your hands to cover your scar, suddenly acutely aware of it and self-conscious. In your haste to get to Jensen, you’d forgotten about it entirely but now you didn’t want him to see your deformed body.

 “Don’t.” Jensen grabbed your hands easily in one of his, sitting back and pulling them away from your chest. He pinned them above your head and brought his lips down to your scar, kissing a path down it setting your skin ablaze. “This is beautiful.” He mumbled, each word punctuated by another kiss. Your back arched up into him as you watched him, not seeing a shred of dishonesty on his face. You believed him. He found you beautiful, despite the hideous purple, jagged scar on your chest.

 “Need you.” You whined, forcing your hands free and grabbing his hair, yanking him back to your face, kissing him deeply. You wrapped your legs around his waist, feeling his length bump your entrance and bucked your hips against him. “Please.”

 “Are you sure?” Jensen rested his forehead against yours, placing a gentle kiss against your lips. “We haven’t…I mean not since…are you sure you’re healed enough?”

 “We can go slow.” You nodded. “But I’m fine. I just…Jensen I need you.”

 That was all Jensen needed to hear. You bit your lip, moaning as he slowly pushed into you, stretching you slowly until he finally bottomed out. “Fuck.” Jensen groaned.

 He stayed still, his weight comfortable on top of you, staring at your face, searching for any sign of discomfort from you. “You can move.” You breathed, cupping his face in one hand, running your thumb along his cheekbone.

 He moved torturously slow, his cock dragging against you igniting a fire within you. Your hips matched his, lazily, thrust for thrust. He was still gazing down on your face, looking at you longingly. No man had ever looked at you the way Jensen did, and that act alone was enough to almost make you come undone.

 Jensen’s hand was suddenly in your hair, pulling your head back to expose your neck, while he nipped and sucked his way down. His other hand found its way to your breast, kneading it in his strong hand. You clenched your eyes shut, wrapping your arms around his back and digging your nails into his shoulder blades, panting and gasping his name, your heart pounding against your chest.

 “I’m gonna –“

 “I know.” Jensen coaxed, running his fingers through your hair to calm you. He wanted to do more, to completely ravage you, but he didn’t want to overwhelm or hurt you. “Come for me, sweetheart.”

 The fire inside you erupted with Jensen’s name on your lips and you clenched around him as he came inside you, peppering kisses over every inch of skin he could find. This wasn’t about just sex. This was a new stage in your relationship. Yes, you’d both said “I love you” and meant it before, but this was new, different, with much deeper meaning.

 He started to roll of you and you pulled him back, wanting his weight on top of you, loving the added security it brought. His forehead came to rest against yours as you both caught your breath and he nuzzled his nose against yours, kissing you quickly and gently. You tried to stop the tears from building in your eyes, but you couldn’t, and one escaped despite your best efforts. “Are you alright?” His eyes showed nothing but genuine love and concern, just like always. “I didn’t hurt you did I?”

 “No, no.” You shook your head. “God, no. I just – I love you so much and you are so much more than I deserve.” You murmured, reaching your hand up to trace the contours of his face.

 “You deserve everything.” Jensen smiled, kissing the tears away and rolling to his side, bringing you with him, never breaking apart. “I’m the one who got lucky. I got you. Someone who didn’t care about me being a celebrity and just wanted me for me. Do you know how hard that is to find?” You shook your head, your eyes starting to flutter shut as you cuddled into Jensen’s neck, inhaling his scent that you’d missed so much.

 “I need you to stop thinkin’ you don’t deserve me, Y/N. Because you do.” Jensen said lowly, rubbing circles on your bare back. “I’ll remind you all day every day if I have to.” Jensen shifted, resting his head on your chest. “You’re going to the photo shoot with me in a few hours, right? And the after party?”

 “Wouldn’t miss it.” You slurred, letting sleep overtake you. Jensen kissed your scar again and reached for the alarm clock on the bedside table; setting it so you wouldn’t be late for the magazine’s photo shoot. He didn’t dare get out of bed and risk waking you to find his phone which was somewhere in his pants, strewn around the hotel room.

 Once the alarm was set he positioned his ear back over your heart, letting the steady rhythm of your heart slowing down as you drifted more deeply asleep lull him to sleep. 

With All My Heart - Part 14 (coming soonish) 

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[writing-in-the-impala]

Hey Darling: Part 6

Pairing: Rob Benedict x Reader Misha Collins x reader

Series Summary: You’re new to conventions but it’s okay because you meet some pretty amazing people, including Rob Benedict.

Warnings: Angst

Word Count: 1733

A/N: A short filler chapter but I’m posting it because I’ve had a lot of ideas and well I’m currently writing part 12 so yeah I’m far ahead so might as well get these parts out fast.

Part 5 | Hey Darling Masterlist

  You woke up on Sunday with a headache from the alcohol and crying, you felt miserable all night so you cried most of the night and got very little sleep. the first thing you did was order coffee in hopes when room service comes with your coffee you can get woken up a bit ready for the last day of the con. You decided to check your phone as you waited for room service and noticed you had texts from Rich who was in the room next to Rob's.

Rich: are you okay? I heard the shouting what happened Y/N?

Rich: I know it seemed like I want information from you but I don't I just heard you trying to defend yourself but Rob told you to leave I just want to make sure you're okay

Rich: Good Morning how you doing after last night?

You decided you should reply to Rich.

You: Well I don't know if you heard or Rob told you but he accused me of cheating and broke up with me , it's all my fault I did something dumb and  I'm single I guess oh and Rob said he never wanted to go out with me after I told him I loved him so not the best night I guess but I'm fine, just kind of bummed out because I genuinely love Rob and I royally fucked it up :/

Rich: what did you do? maybe I should talk to him for you

You: No Rich, just please don't get involved.

At the con you successfully avoided Rob until lunch time, probably thanks to him trying to avoid you too, people could see something was up and Misha tried to get you to talk but you just asked him to leave you alone so he did. After lunch it was your panel and if course Rob and Rich were introducing you.

"And now please welcome to the stage  the wonderful, the magnificent Y/N L/N!" Rich shouted and the band began to play.

"Thank you Rich." You said with wide, fake, smile. They left the stage you avoided any eye contact with Rob.  Half way through the panel you got a question you didn't want to get.

"So I asked Rob this yesterday..." She started and you began thinking oh no but instead offered a gentle smile. "And his answer was quite special but what is one thing you love about him? Because you guys seem like amazing friends." The girl said.

"I'd love to know his answer but my answer is I love that Rob is forgiving, like if I fuck up because I'm stupid and drunk he'd understand." You said with a smile yes it was a spiteful answer but you were mad at him and more at yourself.

"Aw, his answer was that you're just special, you even work with disabled kids in your spare time  which just makes you amazing and that we should all love you."

"Cute." You said rolling your eyes involuntarily. 

The panel lasted with a few questions about the cast and then of course someone had to bring up Rob again.

"I know you're sick of us asking every con but supposedly people saw you holding hands with Rob and I was wondering are you guys together yet?" That was it you couldn't take it anymore.

"You know I'll answer honestly, no, and we won't be. Sorry everyone but you're never going to see me date Rob because we aren't even good friends anymore he told me it was all a act and he was faking it, don't believe everything you see kids, some people just fake it.." You said anger erupting, you felt like you're about to cry. "And I don't want to sound rude but please I beg of you stop bringing up Rob I'm sick of talking about him." You said feeling like you we're stabbed in the chest, at least now you were sure that you love him. You took one more question before Rich and Rob appeared on stage. When you saw Rich you were thankful it was over. "Oh thank god." You said under your breath but the mic caught it and so did Rob. "That's my qui to leave thank you and have a nice rest of the convention." You said with a fake smile before turning around and sprinting off stage, you didn't notice it but Rob's eyes were fixed on you he watched you run off stage and wished he could follow you and hug you and say everything is okay but he was hurting, he heard what you said on stage about him and it pissed him off because you were the one who ruined everything for him.

You ran to the greenroom which luckily was empty you sat down at the table and began to cry uncomfortably. Misha, Rob and Rich walked in at the same time and they all saw you making their conversation die down suddenly. "Y/N, sweetie? Are you okay?" Misha said sitting down next to you and putting a hand on your back rubbing it in circles as Rob watched the interaction anger in his eyes.

"No, can you stop fucking getting near me, I hate you." You chocked out through the tears standing up and leaving Misha followed you towards the door.

"Y/N." He said softly but you ignored him. "Y/N." He said sternly, he didn't shout but it was loud enough to startle you and make you stop.

"Look you've been acting weird and now you hate me while all I try to do is comfort you? Please tell me why you're acting like this." He didn't shout but he was mad.

"Can we not have this conversation in front of everyone?" You said quietly.

"We're having this conversation because all of a sudden you hate me you hate /Rob/? Rob? Honestly Y/N what's up with that one minute you say tell me you're in love with him the next you two aren't speaking? Are you two even still dating?"   Misha said and you shut you're eyes trying to make yourself stop crying.

"Uh... I can answer that, we're not, we're done." Rob said answered from the couch.

"Why?" Misha questioned.

"Why do you think Misha?" You said causing Misha to realise why and you walked out the room even though you weren't meant to without your handler. When you finally complete everything you had to that day you went back to the hotel and to your room. You successfully avoided everyone and the best part was that you were the only one flying to Vancouver as Misha was flying to see his wife and family. When you got to Vancouver you decided you're moving out from Misha's apartment so you just took your stuff and went to the set and decided you're gonna live in your small trailer until you finish filming, next week.

The week  of filming was excruciating. The hours were long and all you wanted to do was to go to LA, home, lie down in bed and cry. Honestly all it took was just a sad thought and you were in tears, Jared and Jensen were amazing to you, Misha told them about the fight and they agreed to be quite about it, and they didn't tease you at all they actually tried to comfort you and invited you round a lot but you kept refusing until the last night. "Come on Y/N it's your last day up here with us on set please join us for drinks in my trailer." Jared said and you agreed. You had a nice night, some drinks got you speaking and it was nice to finally explain to someone everything that happened and how shitty you've been feeling over the last week. "You know I've always been the most fucking careful human, I've always been just a ball of pure anxiety, I mean even going to order something at Starbucks I practice the order fifty times in my head but Rob made me calm and fearless, I felt safe and then I had to screw it up by getting drunk and sleeping with Misha." You said for the thousandth time, you were beating yourself up for it you wanted nothing more than to call Rob and apologies but you knew you can't, he wouldn't forgive you.

When you got back to LA it was Thursday and you realised you had some of Rob's stuff lying around your house from the times he casually left stuff at yours, you boxed it all up and decided you have to call Rob.

"Hello?" He answered making you happy to hear his voice.

"Hi, I know probably the last thing you want to do is see me but I have some of your stuff at my house that you left and I was thinking when would you like to pick it up?" You asked careful not to say anything to anger him.

"Oh what stuff?" Rob asked.

"Um, I've got your jacket, your iPhone charger um, one of your t-shirts, a shirt, uh, oh and the book you gave me to read."

"Oh okay, um I'm about to go on the plane for tomorrow's con,  so maybe after the con I'll pick that up? Minus the book I told you I've read it, and it's a good book, you should read it." He said with small gaps for thinking  between sentences.

"Okay yeah and I've read it, it's amazing." You explained.

"Oh? Really? It's like over a thousand pages." Rob said surprised.

"Yeah I know." You giggled. "I'm a book nerd, I read fast plus I hate planes it's relaxing to read on them you know go into a fictional world forget real life, I like that." You said you felt so happy you and Rob were talking as if nothing happened maybe he was starting to forgive you.

"Yeah I like that about books too, anyway I need to go my flight is boarding, I'll speak to you soon."

"Bye Rob." You said slightly saddened.

"Bye." He said ending the call. You spent the rest of the day just thinking, why was Rob so nice now, did he forgive you? Was he just pretending? Did he miss you like you missed him? Or was it simply because he didn't want to make a scene?

Part 7

More Rob

Rob lovers:  @waywardswain @supernatural-everyday @winchestergirl-13 @perksofbeingafangirl26 @natasha-cole @girl-next-door-writes @itsfunnierin-enochian

[iwantthedean]

The Charade

Part Twelve

Summary: Two journalists strike a bargain with Misha Collins and Jensen Ackles to get the article they need, and end up getting more than they bargained for. Pairings: Misha x OFC, Jensen x OFC Word Count: 1722 Warnings: Language ... I think that’s it? A/N: Heading into the home stretch with this! Collab with the amazing Ashley aka @d-s-winchester!

Masterlist

Thanksgiving was quickly approaching, but everyone had their own plans for the holiday. Most of the cast and crew would be going home to their families, while Boden and Adeline would be going back home to meet with Kelly regarding the final draft of their Supernatural article. It was disappointing not to be spending the holiday together, but with any luck, the couples would be able to spend their first Christmas in each other’s company.

Before everyone went their separate ways, Bo and Addy hosted a Thanksgiving dinner at their apartment. It was the usual foursome, plus Jared. He was a ton of fun, and everyone was happy to have him on board with the relationships.

“You girls out did yourselves!” Jared exclaimed when he saw all the food they had prepared. “I wasn't expecting an entire Thanksgiving spread.”

Misha smiled proudly. “What can we say, our girls can cook.”

“Yes they can,” Jensen echoed, kissing Boden on the cheek.

“I should have come around sooner,” Jared teased.

The girls made sure everyone had their drink of choice, then they all sat down to the meal together. Before picking up his fork and helping himself to some of the delicious food, Jared stood and raised his glass.

“I just wanna say that I'm very grateful to be here. We’re friends, and I let something stupid come between us. Bo and Addy, I see now that you girls are here for the right reasons. I'll keep this short, but just know, I've got your backs. So … here’s to friends, old and new.”

Everyone raised their glasses in unison and echoed Jared’s sentiments. After that, it was quiet for a bit while everyone got down to eating.

“What do you ladies have planned for the break?” Jared asked.

The girls exchanged a nervous look before Boden answered. “We are heading to meet with our editor for the final copy of the article.”

Addy nodded, and took a sip of her wine. “We’ll see what she thinks. We kept all of the personal stuff out, which I think we would have done even if we hadn't started actually dating Jensen and Misha, but Kelly was looking for something juicy.”

“We got the article in the first place,” Boden sighed, “you’d think that would be enough.”

“Yeah, but you know Kelly,” Addy commented.

Jensen frowned. “Hope I'm not being insensitive, but maybe after this you girls should consider looking for a new job.”

Addy shrugged. “We’ve talked about it before, but writing for Exclusive is a big deal. Plus, our article is in the front page more often than not - way more. We can't really pass up the opportunity.”

“But, we have been discussing some other options.” Boden shrugged, too. “We’ll get through this article, and go from there.”

“Enough work talk!” Misha declared. “Tonight’s for fun. It’s the first time the five of us have been able to hang out, let’s live it up. I've got enough alcohol to even intoxicate the Samsquatch over there!”

That was enough to get the whole group laughing. They finished off dinner and kept the drinks flowing. No one was going anywhere by the time they all passed out in the wee hours of the morning; Misha in Addy’s bed, Jensen in Bo’s, and Jared curled up on the couch.

 The day before Thanksgiving Boden and Adeline were once again walking into Kelly’s office. The article was finished and she wanted to go over some of the parts before sending it to print. They hadn’t included any of the personal information in the article and both girls were mentally preparing themselves for the backlash they would receive from their boss for that. The personal stuff was the kind of content Exclusive prided themselves on and if Kelly didn’t have enough of what she was looking for there was no doubt that the article would probably get scrapped.

“Good afternoon, ladies!” Kelly smiled as they walked into her office, “I just want to say that you have put together one hell of an article. It’s exactly what our readers are looking for! I will say, though, that the lack of personal information here is a little bit jarring. It’s what we’re known for and this article is well...lacking.”

“We understand that,” Adeline said, “but now that Boden and I are in relationships with Misha and Jensen we wanted to keep the private things….private. Just because we don’t want our personal lives in the spotlight. We were hoping you would understand that.”

Kelly seemed to consider the two girls for a few moments before giving a curt nod.

“Very well. I don’t want my two best writers feeling uncomfortable. The personal stuff will stay on the cutting room floor, then.”

Boden and Adeline thanked her profusely and she gave them a tight lipped smile before dismissing them from her office. As they headed back out to the elevator they were none the wiser to the edits that Kelly was making to their piece. The magazine would be hitting stands the following week and with the office being closed the next few days due to the holiday the changes needed to be made and they needed to be made fast.

As much as the girls enjoyed being home for Thanksgiving they were looking forward to being back in Vancouver with Jensen and Misha. The short hiatus was a little longer for the two men than it was for the women and that gave them a few days to spend some quality time together before they would be seeing their boyfriends again.

When Misha and Jensen arrived back at their apartment after the hiatus they were anxious to see Adeline and Boden again. They’d been in constant communication but it wasn’t the same as being around them. Once he was unpacked Misha went to get the mail and as he sorted through it he found the latest issue of Exclusive. He smiled to himself when he saw the title of the article on the cover with Adeline and Boden’s names underneath. He was silently thanking Charlotte for not changing her address on the subscription because now both he and Jensen had a chance to read the article before they met up with the girls for dinner.

He flipped through the pages, looking for the article, as he shut the door behind him. When he finally found the article he settled himself on the couch and started reading. By the time he’d finished he wasn’t entirely sure what he was feeling. He was both hurt and confused when he called Jensen into the room. He handed the magazine, already opened up to the article, over to Jensen.

“Oh, it’s finished! How was it?”

“Just read it.”

Jensen could hear the betrayal in his friend’s voice and was immediately concerned about what the article could have said. As he sat and read though, he completely understood why Misha looked as upset as he did. All of the personal things they’d shared with Adeline and Boden were right there in black and white. The things that they’d promised wouldn’t be appearing were right there in front of him, printed in a magazine that was available worldwide. As if that wasn’t bad enough it was pointed out multiple times throughout the article that both Adeline and Boden had only been with them as a means to get the article -- that even calling off the arrangement had been a ruse.

“I don’t believe this,” Jensen said dropping the magazine on the table.

“Yeah, me either.”

“No, I mean I don’t believe it. There’s no way that’s true. We know how it all started we were part of it, but the other stuff. There’s no way. That’s a lie.”

“I don’t know,” Misha sighed, “it makes sense because of how this all started.”

“Why do you have so little faith in them?” Jensen asked and Misha shrugged, “Let’s just give them a chance to explain themselves at dinner tonight and take it from there.”

Misha agreed that would be a good idea and they went on with their day, both a little on edge.

By the time Adeline and Boden reached Misha and Jensen’s apartment they were giddy with excitement. It had been less than a week but they missed their boyfriends terribly and were excited to finally be spending time with them again. Their excitement changed to apprehension when Jensen opened the door looking slightly annoyed.

“Everything ok?” Boden asked when she went to kiss him and he turned away.

“Not really, no.”

“Whats going on?” Adeline asked, noticing that Misha hadn’t moved from where he was sitting on the couch.

Misha didn’t say a word. He just picked up the magazine from the coffee table and handed it to her. Confused, Adeline opened it up to their article. Boden stood next to her friend, reading over her shoulder. When they reached the end of the article both girls were at a loss for words.

“We didn’t write this,” Adeline said, dumbfounded, “well, we wrote most of it but the personal stuff...this isn’t a ruse. What the fuck?”

“You sure about that?” Misha asked.

“Of course!” Boden protested, “We wouldn’t do that to you. We had no idea those things were added.”

“It had to be Kelly.” Addy pointed out and Boden nodded.

Boden skimmed the article again, nervously biting her lip. The look on her face had Jensen doubting everything he’d said to Misha earlier.

“Are you positive? Cause you’re looking a little guilty, Bo.” Jensen said, crossing his arms over his chest.

“I want to believe you guys, I really do, but I’m sorry I don’t,” Misha sighed, “the whole thing makes us look like a pair of idiots. Our credibility is shot.”

“Misha --”

“I’m sorry, Addy, but this -- me and you -- is done. It’s probably best that you leave.”

Misha stood from the couch then and walked out to the balcony, not bothering to look back. Adeline’s eyes filled with tears, unable to comprehend what just happened.

“You should probably go too, Bo. If I can’t fully trust you on this it’s probably best that we end things too.”

Jensen turned his back on them then, heading into his bedroom, leaving the two heartbroken girls standing alone in the living room.

[howmanytuesdaysdidyouhave]

|T h e O n e| Part 1

Overall Summary: Finally, they actually plan on having a female character join the supernatural cast. A long term female is something they haven’t really experienced before.  But here you are, down to earth and prepared.

Chapter Summary: Finally, your agent calls you back! You got the gig! You did it. Finally after a week of waiting you can break into your happy dance and call your parents. You finally were on the official cast member list. Now, just to meet the guys you have heard tons of hype about. Off to Vancouver you go!

Warnings; None in this Chapter?

Word Count : 1583

~ Master List ~

“Y/n? Y/n??” You were in shock. The role you had been trying to get for the last two months. Countless flights to Vancouver and back to your home  in Florida finally made up for something. “How does that sound?” Your agent was on the other line and patiently waiting. She was your best friend, biggest fan, and greatest supporter.

“Sorry…uhm repeat what you just said?” You wanted to make sure you heard her clearly.

“How does being the main female role on CW’s Supernatural sound? “ She said excitedly. You would’ve jumped out of your window if it wouldn’t have killed you.

You were that excited.

“Yes! Yes!!! Yes!!!” You jumped around your small apartment. You could hear your best friend laughing from the other side.

“Alright, alright. Settle down now.” She paused and calmed herself down. “I’ll send you an e-mail with details on Monday. I’d start packing a few things. They are getting ready to film the new season which is when you’ll be introduced. All I know is it’s gonna be in the second episode, but I thought it would be helpful to get to know the cast and crew, and sort out how the move before filming.”

You had agreed. You both exchanged good byes. Sleep did not come easy over the weekend. You mainly spent your time packing, making arrangements for when you were away. Asked a friend to water your cacti and other plants.  

Monday came and there was still no e-mail from your agent. You figured they had changed their minds about casting you. You weren’t that big. Played a few small roles in a few TV shows. The only thing you were really known for was your role in Grey’s Anatomy. Still, you weren’t too well known. Ding you practically jumped over your couch to grab your laptop. The ding, meant an e-mail had come through.

 Hey y/n/n,

Sorry I got this out so late, preparing for the little one has been a lot harder on me than expected. I talked to Robert, he agrees with you meeting the cast before you shoot for the first time with them. So I booked a flight for Wednesday, you ready?

I booked a room for you at the Fairmount Hotel, just give the front desk your name. They’ll have your room, a rental car, and a pool pass ready for you. I booked it for about a month, all expenses paid. Please do not go wild with the food. Kidding!  I added the script as an attachment. Be sure to read through and memorize as

You’ll meet the crew and cast on Thursday and watch them film on Friday and throughout the weekend.

Have Fun! We are so proud of you!!

-          Angela

It was happening, this was happening. You were freaking out.

                                                ___________

Wednesday came, and you barely had time to comprehend this was all happening. Saying your goodbyes and boarding the plane was all a blur and you couldn’t see much into the future either. Everything was moving so fast.  You couldn’t even stay seated in your seat for more than thirty minutes. You probably had annoyed both passenger and staff. “Ma’am, you have to stay seated.” You must’ve heard that twenty times.  The only reason you sat down still, was because the plane was landing.

“Oh honey, just breathe.” The old woman beside you reassured you.

Yeah, grandma. Just “breathe” do you know the stress I am under?? The stress and excitement is not good for my anxiety and the turbulence this plane has been through was not helping grandma.

                                                       ________

You strolled into the Fairmount hotel.  You practically gasped the air out of the lobby. It was gorgeous. Your inner child wanted to drop the suitcase and jump around, dance with the guest to a song you just created.

But no, you stayed still, calmed yourself, and walked up to the counter. “Uhm, Y/n/l/n” You gently tapped your bitten nails on the marble gently.  Your mind went instantly into a haze. What would meeting the cast be like? Do they support new comers? New casts? Would the whole supernatural family support you?

“Ma’am..? Room 45.” The young man handed you a key card, and gave you a gentle smile.  You pulled your head out of your thoughts and thanked him before heading to the elevators.   You swiped your card and stepped inside. The typical-cliché elevator rang into your ears. “Hold the door!” A man yelled from the lobby, involuntarily you placed your foot before the elevator door, stopping it from closing any further. The man entered the elevator, pulling his hat off his head. Leaving it slightly messed.

“Thanks, by the way. ” He finally broke the silence. He held his hat nervously. You swore you tried to reply – but your mouth was dry and your voice was silent. You weren’t that great with strangers. The elevator seemed to go up slower and slower, and slower. “You aren’t gonna scream, are you?” He tried to joke lightly. It caused a small giggle to escape and a shake from your head.

“No…I promise” You finally looked up to him and smiled. “Sorry, I’ve just had a long day…and the next few days are gonna be long-“ Holy shit, this was Jensen Ackles – himself. In the flesh, the hair, the freckles, everything. This was the man you would be working with in just forty-eight hours. “I uhm..” Saved by the bell – literally. The elevator dinged and you practically jumped out before either of you could say anything.  

“Whew.” You sighed and kicked your sneakers off, and plopped on the bed. You didn’t even bother to remove the hair tie from your hair or any of your clothes. You had a long day, you embarrassed yourself in front of your soon-to-be co-star.                          

                                             ______________ 

“Hey, you must be y/n?” Robert greeted you with a handshake and a smile. You replied with a soft smile and a nod.

“Yeah, that’s me.” You took a deep breath. Listening carefully to the boss, your boss.

He walked you around the whole place. You went through the land of trailers, the beauty room, the lights department, met the camera crew. Everything was so surreal. “And, it’s lunch time now, a perfect time to meet the co-stars. Unfortunately I have a few things to do so I can’t join y’all right now. “ He patted your back “Welcome to the family kiddo” He smiled and left. Leaving you starving, and the smell of barbecue didn’t help. You followed your nose and you were rewarded with a table laid out with barbecued chicken, salad, steaks, and beans. Along with various pops in a cooler.

You chose your choice of food, and you weren’t shy about it. You loved food, and there was no doubt about it. “Hey, I’m Jared. “ A tall man grabbed a water from the cooler just after you had grabbed your drink. You jumped slightly. The man was surely a moose and he scared you. “Sorry…I didn’t mean to startle you” He chuckled and began to introduce himself.

“I’m y/n…sorry. I scare easy” You laughed and joined him at a picnic table. Talking about various things, such as family, roles, some of the house rules and other things. You were soon joined by Misha, who you had worked with before, and then the man from the elevator. Panic Mode Activated. You were instantly embarrassed by absolutely nothing. You hadn’t done anything – except maybe jump out of their like you were traumatized.

After a while, you felt suddenly at home. You didn’t feel the need to eat slower than them or take a sip of your drink in between bites. You felt, like you could eat like you would if you were alone – okay maybe a little bit slower and a lot less messy.

You watched as they worked in joy, they were certainly happy to be here. All of them. I mean of course towards the end Jensen did get a bit moody. But overall, everyone worked well with one another.

By the time to director called cuts for the final time, outside was dark and cool.  You couldn’t believe that tomorrow you would be doing the exact same magic you had just experienced. You didn’t have a trailer yet, so you gathered the little bit you had brought with you and exchanged good byes with some of the crew you saw on the way out.

“Hey! Y/n! Wait up!” You heard the voice of Mr. Ackles call from behind you from a distance. You smiled to yourself. You stopped in your tracks and spun on your heels, turning to face him. “So... elevator girl…” He trailed off, blushing himself. “I’d like to catch a drink with you sometime…You know get to know who the newest cast member and stuff?”

“And stuff?” You raised your eyebrow. Silently you were praying he wasn’t like the boys at home, but on the other hand you didn’t really have time to focus on a relationship right now. Plus, if you started seeing a boy and your mother didn’t know? Boy, would she blow her stacks.

“Like, meeting, and getting to know you...” He babbled, rubbed the back of his head. “I didn’t mean any disrespect, I Swear. My mom raised me better than that.”

You started to walk away and smirked to yourself. “Pick me up at 7 Saturday Night?” You turned around and waited for him to give a subtle nod.

[castiels-angel2-blog]

Thank You...Part 29

I went to get into the drivers side and Jensen stops me. “ What?” I asked him a little confused. “ Let me drive please.” He gave me some puppy dog eyes. Damnit, He already knows how to get me. I sighed and handed him the keys. He smiled at me. I just rolled my eyes. I got into the passenger side. We pulled out of the drive and headed down the road. We drove in silence for a bit. “ Okay what is the longest way to get there?” he asked. “ Umm.... Take this left coming up.” I pointed to the road. “ How are we going to make this work?” He asked out of the blue. I wasn’t fully sure what he was talking about. “ What do you mean? Like you guys go do your thing then come back when you have down time?” He looked over at me briefly. “ No, I mean us, all of us.” I took a deep breath and slowly let it out. “ Jensen, I saw that look Misha gave you in bed earlier. That man bared his soul to you just then. He didn’t even have to say the words. I also saw the way you looked back. You love him don’t you?” Just then he shut down just like Dean would have. He answer me back. He went all stoned face on me. It was like he was afraid of admitting his feelings.

 “ Allie where do you fit into all of this” He questioned me. “ Honestly, I’ve been wondering the same thing. I mean you will always be his one. I know he cares for me. But with your guys schedule. Plus you guys stay up there a lot when filming. I’m down here, so I don’t get to spend much time with him. You get all of his time while on the Job. So I can see how it all happened for you. But I don’t get to spend that much time when you all are here. I mean hell, when it’s all three of us its a mess. Its all so emotional. You and I fight, then make up. He’s left out of a lot. When he does get involved its either to be between us or we are all fuckin.” I looked ot the window. I wondered what he was thinking. I wished I could have gotten into his brain.

  I know there is something in there he’s not telling me. But I didn’t want to push it. “ If you take this right it will put us on a gravel road that will take us on the outside of town.” I watched him. He seemed to be in deep thought. There has been alot of things happen in the short amount of time for us all. I guess we all have just pushed away the complications of this type of  relationship we all have gotten ourselves into.  He turn down the gravel road, I turned on the radio thinking this would help with this awkwardness. I flipped through stations and I turned to my favorite one. I smiled real big when I heard the sang playing.

I’ve been meaning to tell you

I’ve got this feeling that won’t subside

I look at you and I fantasize your mine tonight.

now I got you in my sights, with these hungry eyes.

I looked out the window and stared out into the country side. I felt Jensen reach over and place his hand on my knee. He gave it a light squeeze. I looked over at him and he was looking straight ahead. “ Jen, I hope we can figure this out. I don’t want this to end. I care for you two a lot. I’ve just never been in a relationship like this before. I mean is this even a relationship?” I questioned. “ Wheres the road to go back to town? Its been at least 40 mins now since we left the house.” Jensen asked me.

When we finally made it to the donut shop. I went to get out of the car but Jensen stopped me. “ Hey how would you feel on coming with us to Vancouver? We would like for you to go with us.” I didn’t answer him and got out of the car. As I walked to the front door, I glanced back at him. He sat there not looking at me. I went inside and walked up to the counter. “ What can I get for you?” The women behind the counter asked. I looked at the menu board. “ Can I get a dozen glazed please?” she rang it up,” That will be $7.50.” she told me. I gave her Mishas credit card “ Damn those are some cheap donuts.” I heard from behind me. I turned to see Jensen standing there. The women behind the counter hadn’t noticed him yet. I just turned back around like I didn’t see him.  She went to hand me back the card and froze. Her eyes grew wide and I told her thank you. She didn’t even notice me anymore. A guy came from the back carrying my order. He wasn’t paying attention to his star struck coworker. “Here’s your order ma’am.” he handed me the box. I turned to walk away when I heard the guy say, “ Hey man I know you. Your Dean from Supernatural. Cool show.”  I got back to the car and saw that he took the keys with him. So I had to wait for him to finish doing what he was doing, since the doors were locked also. About 15 minutes later he finally came out with a smirk on his face. “ Really?” I said and shook my head. “ What? I had to pee and I couldn’t wait till we got back home.” He said back.

We finally pulled back up to the house and I just sat there. “ Allie you didn’t answer me back there. Are you going to come with us?” He asked hopeful. “No..” I whispered. Jensen licked his lips and clenched his jaw. “ Okay..” He got out of the car and slammed the door. I jumped at the sound, he stormed into the house. I grabbed the box and got out of the car and slowly walked to the front door. I opened the door and Jensen had started packing their stuff. Misha looked at me. “ Whats going on?” He asked me. “ I don’t want to go with you to Vancouver. So now he’s pissed at me for not wanting to go.” Misha looked at me and cocked his head. “ You don’t want to go?” he asked. I sighed “ No I don’t,” I stated. Misha closed his eyes. “ Why wont you go? We come down here every damn time to see you.” Jensen yelled from the bedroom. I hurried to the bedroom. “ I don’t force you to come here Jensen, you make that choice not me!” I yelled back at him. “ Well don’t worry I won’t be coming back!  You can’t even image what risk we take for you. Traveling back and forth eventually people will notice.  Dmirti you can keep coming back  here to her, but  I’m done!” Jensen yelled at us. “ Jensen just stop, do you think that this is going to help anything? Well its not! She’s right, we make this choice everytime.”  Misha tried to reason with him. “ So now your going to take her side? Thats just great, I’m done with all of this.” Jensen pushed past us and headed back to the living room. “ Misha I want him out of my house. I’m sorry but I need you to go with him.” I started to tear up by this time. “ Listen here, I have helped you. I tried to show you a good time. I have done a lot for you and this is how you treat me. You never even gave me a thank you.” He looked me dead in the eyes. “ Oh I see that’s what this was. I have been one of your projects for Charity. You get your shit, take him, and get the fuck out of my house now.” I screamed at him.

[go-diane-winchester]

New question:  Why do I dislike Misha and his fans?

@super-who-loser asked the following question:

Hey, I’m not trying to come across as rude or anything I’m just wondering why you dislike Misha so much? I know Jared and Jensen have been there since the beginning and yes, there have been times where his character has been pretty useless but I don’t hate him and you’re being really mean to some Destiel shippers and like I know that it’s obviously never going to happen and Cockles is a big no no for me but I am confused about why you really don’t like him? I’m honestly just curious

Thank you for the question.  Let me point out before hand, that my irritation towards Misha has nothing to do with a ship.  I used to read destiel slash.  I used to like Cockles AU.  I don't ship wincest.  I ship AUs.  Its my favorite slash subgenre.  So no, this is not a ship argument.  Ship whatever you want, but mind your manners.  There are many things that I don't like about Misha.  However I am choosing to answer only from a SPN perspective because that is the primary way that we know him. 

MISHA AND SLASH FICTION

You may not realize this but Supernatural has been on the air for so long that it, plus its fan base, has experienced and initiated a few changes and trends.  In the space of fourteen years, filming became digitalized.  Social media, which was a fledgling thing back then, is the norm now [I have a disdain towards social media].  To put it into perspective, the child actors that played Asher, the Antichrist kid [I forget his name] and Little Lillith from the early seasons are likely in their 20s now.  Trends in entertainment changed.  Hollywood seems poised to implode upon itself, geographically, with major entertainers moving house to outlets like Netflix.  Netflix, not bound by geography, is likely to become the next Hollywood.  Slash, too, has undergone change.  And as far as SPN is concerned, that change has not been organic.  It has been by design and at the hands on Misha Collins. 

When Castiel came on board, there were already two prevalent pairings in Supernatural:  Wincest and Bobby/John.  There were other pairings.  But these were the most prevalent.   So Supernatural had slash fans already.  These fans were already aware of what slash fiction was, and they were a self-monitoring group.  They realized that the actors were aware of slash and didn't want it to be the focal point of their con appearances, because they didn't want the fans to think they were hinting at anything.  The fans understood and ever since, they have respected the actor's wishes.  When some fans liked Dean's interaction with Cas, they started shipping destiel. 

Destiel's old fans were just like all the other shippers.  They were treating destiel the way it should be treated.  Like a fantasy.  They did artwork and literature about it and kept it to themselves, as they should.  Misha never knew what slash fiction was, until he looked on Tumblr and found Destiel.  In his words, he used destiel to ''keep this gig for longer''.  He kept talking about destiel even though he was instructed not to, and pulling the LGBT into it, to make it look like destiel was about gay rights and queer art, when it isn't.  There are various kinds of destiel written by different people, from different perspectives, for different reasons.  That is true for all pairings everywhere.  By making destiel about the LGBT and waving the ''no shipping question'' rule in convention panels, he did two things. 

He turned destiel into a vehicle for LGBT activism.  Instead of being a pastime, now destiel is used to fight for LGBT representation, even though, many of the LGBT people within my own circle despise him for it.  Most of the people fighting for LGBT representation are actually quite homophobic and insulting in their thinking and logic.  And they are not even LGBT.  They are just a bunch of straight girls for whom, their fantasy has become a drug, and they wont stop until destiel becomes canon. 

He turned Jensen into the bad guy.  Misha spoke openly about slash.  Jensen chose not to.  He didn't want any part of it, and this is true about all the pairings he is a part of, not just destiel.  Because of his choice, Misha fans make negative comparisons between him and Misha, even saying that Jensen is a homophobe/biphobe because he doesn't want to talk about destiel or make it canon.  They ranted about it on social media and mass media picked up on it.  The University Of Sydney has an academic paper, under Celebrity Studies, dedicated to Jensen's supposed homophobia.  The destiel shippers are literally Jensen's reputation. 

Misha should have left slash alone.  Any fan of his will know that he overindulges the slash fans.  And the one thing that I noticed about slash fans, is that you don't give them excessive attention, or they will go completely crazy.  It doesn't matter what they slash.

Harry Styles and Liam Tomlinson learned that the hard way, because the Larry fans destroyed their friendships when they over-emphasized the fan servicing.  They did the fan servicing because Modest Management told them to, they  ended up hating their fans for what the fans became.  They have since severed ties with Modest.  Even on a day when one of them was mourning the loss of a parent, the fans who pushing the other guy so they could have a ship moment.  These two boys were very young when they entered the band.  Harry was 15 years old.  They had youthful ignorance to blame for making the decision to blindly follow the manager's instruction.  Misha cannot make any of those excuses. 

Misha got into the show at age 35.  He was already a grown man.  He was not a pivotal part of the show and therefore the only notes he was getting, was for his acting.  He wasn't being coached by anyone as to how he should engage his fans.  He was too small a fry for that.  In fact, no one was sure how long he would last on the show.  So these notes were only acting, including one telling him not to adlib his lines.  Whatever transpired between him and the destiel fans, happened because he orchestrated it. 

MISHA AND SUPERNATURAL

When Cas came on board, he was fun new character.  By the end of season 5, he had run his course on the show.  The show didn't need his character because [and as a writer I understand this] the presence of Castiel hampered the progress of the story.  Sera Gamble dealt with that frustration during her tenure as showrunner.  Cas was an angel.  If he was an ally to the boys, the boys should have a more powerful nemesis.  After all, they have an angel buddy to help them.  Unfortunately, they couldn't keep coming up with more and more powerful bad guys and negative elements, especially on a show where the biggest bad guy, the devil itself, and the worst case scenario [the apocalypse] has already been dealt with.  

During 6 and 7, they had Soulless Sam, Sam's wall, the leviathans, Metatron, the demons, Crowley, Dick Roman and even the Alphas, if I am not mistaken.  So many bad guys and bad situations, because the good guys had a powerful angel.  They could make him lose his power, so he wont be such a powerful ally.  And they did exactly that.  But Misha has very few skills to show off.  Imagine if Osric was Cas.  Even without power, he would still be able to taekwondo the stuffing out of bad guys.  He wouldn't be useless.  Cas, without his grace, didn't help the story along.  He didn't bring something extra to the story.  He was pointless.  So they made him a bad guy and for the first time in a long time, Cas was pivotal to the story.    

Eventually, she got fed up of shoehorning him into the script and just did away with the character.  But, rumor has it that Singer brought him back.  And he was welcome by the worst Q score measurement ever.  That would tell you that he was not appreciated as an actor by everyone, just his shipping and cult fans.  Since then, Cas has done nothing important in the script until recently where he made a deal for Jack.  Other than that, he has been an add on, and that is Misha's fault.  Every time Jensen and Misha did a scene, Misha would overemphasize the destiel aspect, either via social media or during his panels.  And eventually Jensen got fed up and cut the scenes short.  Basically, Misha shot himself in the foot.  The DeanCas fan service made for annoying television for people who didn't want to deal with shippy nonsense while they were watching their favorite show. 

If they didn't add anything shipping related, the hellers screamed.  If they did, the hellers screamed canon and queer baiting.  Misha's interference did that.  All he had to do was stop talking, and he couldn't do that, because his fan base will lose interest in him.  In order to keep that one group of militants, Misha isolated all other fans and potential fans. 

MISHA AND THE DESTIEL FANS

Misha's fan have sent Jensen various death threats, the receipts of which are on my blog.  A few days back, a heller was setting Jensen's picture on fire because Misha tweeted a lie that there will be a turning point for Dean and Cas in the upcoming episode.  So even though Misha was the guilty party, this psycho is punishing Jensen.  These fans have also discussed kidnapping Jared's children.  When they bully Jensen and Jared, they tag Misha in many of the tweets.  Misha randomly does Q and A sessions based on his tweets, but he has never seen a single threat and bullying remark??.....in ten years??.....really??  Nah, I am not buying that.  Frankly, I think the man just doesn't care.  Acknowledging them will mean he will have to stop them which means he will eventually have to stop peddling destiel which means he will not have an audience which means SPN will kick him right out.  The funny thing is, I think he is wrong.  He might actually have more fans if he didn't alienate them with his special brand of shippy vulgarity.  I could fill a page with all the receipts of the death threats.  And Jensen doesn't deserve that. 

I also call out destiel shippers on Tumblr so that everyone else can block the problematic ones.  Have you noticed how many names there are for the destiel pairing?  DeanCas, CasDean, DeanxCastiel and recently I discovered Dastiel.  Have you ever wondered why?  It is because they don't want you to block them.  If you filter destiel, they will use another name.  Why is that?  That is not a ship.  That's a cult.  They want to indoctrinate.  They tag destiel in other fandom names.  They are trying to create more fans for a ship.  That is why I call out specific people.  Especially the ones that tag AKF in their destiel garbage.  I have no issues with the good shippers.  I have done posts about them.  The bad ones might do something criminal one day, which is why they bother me. 

This answer, only just scratches the surface.  I am not telling you everything.  I am not telling you about Jared, Robert Berens, Kim, Briana, Travis, Sera Gamble, Ben Edlund, Ty Olsson etc.  I am just telling you the brief basics.  I hope this answers your question.  Have a nice day.  Apologies for the inevitable typos.

[go-diane-winchester]

Why being a Sam/Jared!stan or a Dean/Jensen!stan is the stupidest status to hold and why these fans generally annoy me.

Our boys are beautiful.  They have flaws sure.  But they are human and, in my humble opinion, they are some of the best people in Hollywood.  Morally, they are better than other human beings who work in that sleazy town.  I really respect that. 

Jared should be a guide to other actors, on how to treat your fans.  Other actors should treat Jared's footage, with his fans, as a set work on how to behave when encountering people that love you.  I had a crush of Viggo Mortensen, but the one thing about him, that I didn't approve of, was that he didn't want to be approached in, say, a coffee shop because he was being disturbed.  Don't take a job that makes people care for you and then get irritated because people care for you.  I still admire Viggo but I will never approach him because he doesn't like that.  I dont think I will ever get to meet Jared because I am from South Africa.  But if I ever did, I will be brave enough to at least wave to him or blow him a kiss.  I know he wont ignore me because he doesn't do that with his fans.  Jared Padalecki makes you fall in love with him.  The best thing about Sam Winchester, is that Sam is played by this awesome creature. 

I was abused thrice in my life.  Twice as a child and once as a grown up.  Nobody helped me.  That is why I have a soft spot for Jensen.  He protects vulnerable people.  Weak people and people with illnesses [like Jared] seek him out for companionship, support and protection.  Being sick and broke is horrible.  But Jared has been employed for 14 years because he had a friend who wouldn't let him quit and who never complained about his illness.  I wish I had a Jensen when I was working, who would be patient with me too.  He has kept women safe from predators in the past.  He talks about the production assistants and the reason why I admire that, is because production assistant are the lowest on a set hierarchy.  They do menial work.  And Jensen leaves the big wigs of CW and Supernatural and compliments these small fries. 

Both boys are flawed.  Obviously.  I mean, their human beings, after all.  I bet the person reading this is full of flaws.  I am full of flaws.  Nobody is perfect.  Nobody has a good life either.  J2 deal with their own hurdles.  So do we.  But when there is an unnecessary, easy to avoid hurdle, that is when I get livid.  Years ago, when Supernatural was born, the only ''war'' that raged in SPN fandom was between Samgirls and Deangirls over which guy is better.  Why?  May I ask, what is wrong with you?  When I first came across these ignorant fools I thought:

Why does loving one guy mean you automatically have to hate the other one? 

And why is it that if your fave is written in a way that you don't approve of, for the sake of furthering the story, it automatically means that the writers are favoring the other one. 

Seasons where bad things have happened to Sam [and Dean equally or by extension] have generally done well.  Look at seasons 1 to 6.  When Sam is the inflicted one and Dean is reacting, we get a Hurt/Comfort scenario that we don't even have to write about, because it is all there on the screen, laid out for us.  Those were enjoyable seasons.  But the stans were never satisfied. 

Samstans:  Why are they demonizing and torturing poor Sam??!?!?!

Deanstans:  Jensen should leave this show because they give all the story arcs to Jared. 

Why is it that the general audience liked seasons with Sam in peril better?  First reason was because the focus was on the brothers.  Second reason, which nobody seems to understand, is that Dean is one of the unique jewels of Supernatural.  Supernatural's dust bowl Americana and texture is closely linked to Dean.  The dearly departed leather jacket, the rock music, the 67 Chevy Impala all are part of the Supernatural landscape and all belong to Dean.  His character, because Jensen has comedic prowess, adds snark and sass to Supernatural.  Sam's seriousness is offset by Dean's sassiness.  The added spice to Supernatural is Dean's character.  Having him reacting, adds texture and emotion to the overall Supernatural story.  Seeing Sam in danger freaks us out.  And seeing Dean go into rescue mode calms us down because ''don't worry, he'll save Sam''.  Meanwhile:

Samstans:  Why do they have to wussify Sam to make Dean look good?

Deanstans:  So is Dean totally pointless until Sam is in trouble? Give him his own story, for goodness sake.  

Season 7 was the first season where the brothers were starting to take a minor back seat to other characters, but Sam was getting sick with hallucinations and Dean was going into protective big brother mode, and that was because Ross-Lemming and her agenda came on board and had not been promoted yet, to a position of power.  In Season 8, the promotion happened.  Suddenly Dean and Sam are separated.  They are at loggerheads.  Their reconciliation was meh! but suddenly we started to lose Dean to demonDean, MarkofCain Dean, BesottedwithAmara Dean, and now MichaelDean.  In other words, we are losing our unique jewel of Supernatural: The Dean Winchester who added texture to the landscape of Supernatural.  Plus, the focus is not just on Dean and then Sam dealing with it.  No, we have Cas, luci, Jack, the icky sheriff girls, Mary and Fake Bobby, the AU people and everyone else ''dealing with it'', unlike season three where Dean was going to hell but was still quintessentially Dean and a freaking out Sam who didn't want to lose his brother.  We didn't lose the hurt/comfort scenario and we didn't lose the jewel.  Because Dean was still Dean, just in peril. 

Instead of sleepy towns, and sharing a room at a motel somewhere, we now have the insufferable bunker with separate lives.  The Old Supernatural is dead and gone and will probably never return.  And that is because you created the unnecessary division.  And when rogues entered fandom, carrying destiel banners, they realized nobody was really listening to them so they started carrying other banners like ''WaywardSisters'', ''GenIsMyQueen, ''DanIsMyQueen'' and ''Dean Winchester''.  They were pretending to be DeanStans.  They worked tirelessly and created the division while stupid stans were fighting over nothing in fandom.  Sure, the hellers ruined fandom.  But both stans helped. 

I am a bibro, because I am not petty enough to fight over which guy is more awesome and who is getting more lines of dialogue.  I observe, without prejudice, what seasons work and why they did.  I like both Js equally.  I get irritated with Dean sometimes.  I get irritated with Sam sometimes.  Sometimes Jensen annoys me.  Sometimes Jared annoys me.  Does that mean I hate them?  NO.  It just means they did something I didn't like.  Am I going to flip out over it?  No, I will just hope it never happens again and more on.  Especially when stans act like the J's mothers.  Stop trying to rescue the boys, from an opinion. 

I remember a fan saying once, in a YouTube comment section, that she hated how Jensen chews gum during his panels.  Not the best reason to hate someone.  Maybe the chewing was really annoying for some people to watch.  Maybe she was looking for a fault.  Maybe she was trolling.  Another time a fan said that she didn't like how Jared always says ''without further ado''.  All of the above I mentioned previously apply here too.  Both observations seem petty.  The respective stans flew into actions:

Excuse me, are you perfect?

Do you have a problem with his breathing too?

Why are you being so petty?

There, there.  I am sorry his existence irks you.

Here is what will happen because of this outburst, instead of scrolling by and ignoring the offender.  The offender might have been making an observation and not genuinely hating the guy.  She will now.  She will hate him and his fans.  You are hurting his reputation.  Others reading the exchange will become disillusioned, because ''that section of the fandom is so problematic''.  They will lose respect in the actor and his fans.  One stupid comment and instead of ignoring it, you have a meltdown.  Meanwhile, there is only gushing going on, on a Misha video.  Despite the fact that Misha has such a negative personality, his fans stand by him and gang up collectively on anyone who might ''hurt'' Misha.  So they are barricaded in their little fandom.  Yes, they are toxic.  But at least they have unity.  Shame on you lot.  The bibros are trying to keep this fandom together and keep Misha and his hellers at bay.  And here you are, making matters worse, because you dont know how to behave, treat each other with respect and treat the other J and his character with tolerance.  Shame on you. 

[iwantthedean]

2017. Thank Chuck You’re Here.

Okay, so technically I’m a day late, but according to the US calendar, today is New Year’s Day (Observed) so ... yeah. It’s fine. Below the cut of this post, you will find some exciting stuff: updates from my goals last year, new goals and updates for this year, and my follow forever list! 

I love each and every one of you. I hope your year has already started well, and that 2017 is nothing short of amazing for you. 

While I only set a few goals last year, they definitely kept me going and gave me, at the very least, a gentle guideline of how I wanted to run things for 2016. I’ve decided to do the same for 2017. Maybe every year? We’ll see in 365 days I suppose! 

Follower Count. 2016 Goal: 1000 // 2017 Goal: 5000 I was beyond elated to reach my follower goal in (I believe) April of 2016. To go from 55 to 1000 in six months ... wow. Just wow. I know some people reach that much faster, but for me and the content on my blog, hell yes I was excited. As of this posting, I am 57 followers away from 3K. Yes, 2057 followers seems like a lot for one year, but I’m optimistic. As long as I can keep sharing the thing I love to do with the people who love to read it, I’m good! 

Two-Prompt Tuesday. 2016: Became a Thing. 2017: It’s a Different Thing.  I’m happy to say that Two-Prompt Tuesday was a thing for thirty-some weeks, and it has now evolved into Two-Prompt One-Shots. Tuesdays don’t always work out -- actually, there are some weeks when it doesn’t work out at all. Making it Two-Prompt One Shots allows for the vote between two prompts to happen any time, any day. I have two on my to-do list right now, and I’m hoping to do an actual voting round before mid-January. 

Original Fiction Side-Blog. 2016: Started It. 2017: Hoping to Do Better.  If you didn’t already know, I do have a side-blog with some original fiction posted. You can find it here. Unfortunately, there is not as much posted as I would like, as fanfiction more or less took over my life last year, but I would like to change that up in 2017. I want to finish Beyond the Broken, and get close to finishing Heart & Home. I’m also setting a goal for myself to be more active on my multi-fandom side blog, which you can find here. 

More Sam and Castiel. 2016: Eh. Better. 2017: Even Better.  I did add Sam and Castiel to my master list in 2016, and even some Jared and Misha here and there. In 2017, as many of you know, I have a fifteen-part Sam series planned, and it will be the first series I post for the year. I’ve had a Castiel x OFC series in mind for a couple years, and I would like to re-visit that idea. I’ve also had requests for Benny and Gadreel ... Benny I think I could definitely get on board with doing more writing for, Gadreel ... I can try! Ha, we’ll see how that goes. 

Tagging! 2016: Started the List, Re-Organized It, Made Its Own Blog. 2017: Still Its Own Blog.  It took some figuring out in 2016 as my tag list grew -- which I am very grateful for -- and in the interest of the aesthetics of posts, I finally created @iwantthedeanupdates for my tag list. If you haven’t seen it before, I create a post with just my tag list applicable to what I’m posting and the link to the newly posted fic. I occasionally queue things, which means tagging in the original post, but that just has to happen sometimes. I’ll continue to use that side blog for tagging, and as always, if you’d like to be added or removed or moved around on my tag list, you just have to let me know. 

New For 2017: Convention Stuff, Buy Me A Coffee, Reading. 

I am planning to attend MinnCon again this year! I couldn’t be more excited. Unfortunately Beth won’t be able to attend, but I’m so grateful that our friend Ashley (she’s on Tumblr as @apurdyfulmind) who we met at the convention last year is going and will be my con buddy this year! I look forward to seeing any of you who are attending; I will be there all three days of the convention, plus Thursday evening. I’ve got some things in mind for my blog during the convention, but I’ve not worked out the details yet. 

Buy Me A Coffee. I’ve seen that little button popping up on various blogs, and after speaking with Ashley (yes, there are two Ashley’s ... I’m talking about the Ashley I always talk about now, which is why I’m not tagging her) I’ve decided to add the button to my blog as well. Anything that is donated to the blog through Buy Me A Coffee will be used for convention fund purposes. I’ve seen GoFundMe’s and whatnot for conventions, and this is just my little way of having a few extra dollars for MinnCon 2017. Please only give as you see fit and in no way should anyone feel obligated to give. 

Reading. I want to do 100x better about reading other stories this year! I got way behind on tags, and that busy time I usually find myself in the middle of is getting ready to start up again, but when I have a few extra minutes, I’ll go back through my tags and see what I can catch up on. Please feel free to tag me if you’d like, and if it’s something you really want me to see, give me 24 hours before you ask if I have seen it, send it to me, or tag me again. 

Whew! Thank goodness for the cut, or I would have been taking up dashes for DAYS. Thank you to anyone and everyone who actually got through this whole post, and who cares enough to be updated on what I’ve got going on and planned for goals and such this year. I’m off to work on some writing, but before I do, here’s my follow forever list. No special markings for mutuals or anything, just blogs I love. Chances are I will miss someone -- that’s my scatterbrain, nothing on any of you. Happy 2017 Lovelies! 

@abaddonwithyall @akfsupportgroup @aprofoundbondwithdean @apurdyfulmind @ashleymalfoy @atc74 @avasmommy224 @blacktithe7 @bovaria @bringmesomepie56 @buckysmetallicstump @busybee612 @but-deans-back-tho @charliebradbury1104 @chelsea072498 @crazililwabbit @d-s-winchester @dancingalone21 @daydreamingintheimpala @deanscolette @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog @death2thevirgin @dragonkitty @driverpicksthemuusic @duherica @ellen-reincarnated1967 @fandommaniacx @growningupgeek @ilostmyshoe-79 @illisea @iamawesomejazzy96 @impalaimagining @impalapossible @iwillprobablybechangingthislater @iwriteshortstuff @jensen-jarpad @jerkbitchidjitassbutt @jotink78 @jpadjackles @katnharper @kittenofdoomage @leatherwhiskeycoffeeplaid @letsgetoutalive @lipstickandwhiskey @mamapeterson @manawhaat @mrs-squirrel-chester @mrsjohnsmith @mrswhozeewhatsis @mysteriouslyme81 @oriona75 @salvachester @sammit-janet @sinceriouslyamellpadalecki @skinwalkerconfessions @supernatural-jackles @supernaturalfreewill @the-mrs-deanwinchester @thing-you-do-with-that-thing @thinkwritexpress @tiffanycaruso @torn-and-frayed @vilemalapert @whispersandwhiskerburn @why-do-you-want-my-user-name @winchestersnco