i keep seeing so many wildly different takes on the tomshiv fight so i'm gonna throw in my two cents. prefacing by saying that i do really think there is little point in trying to count how many blows one of them struck against the other bc ultimately this was a relationship that was dishonest and mismatched from the get-go. similarly, it's relatively pointless to argue over which character in this show is "more awful" than the other bc they're all arseholes, so i guess the best way for everyone to make a distinction is to just go by your personal benchmark of annoyance. people have different thresholds for what they consider annoying behaviour and rate social transgressions via an individual hierarchy. so, for some people, shiv's cheating might be a bigger infraction than tom's betrayal and so on. but these different reactions ultimately reflect the commentator's sensibilities; they are not meant to be reflective of a universal, immutable truth.
that being said, i personally am leaning more towards tom's side of the argument. he has just spent an entire evening witnessing his wife demean him repeatedly (not a solitary incident or a joke gone wrong) to his guests in his own house and hearing about how he's going to get fired (news to him). he's sleep-deprived and is going to have a very busy and long day tomorrow since it's election day. so he tries to extricate himself from the situation and simply go to bed. i generally see tom as a slimy corporate suck-up but this was really a very composed, civilized reaction. he repeatedly tries to pacify shiv and disengages but she keeps needling him bc she is suddenly regretting her own schemes. she complains that she's betraying her family for this as if it wasn't her idea in the first place - no one was forcing her to go through with it at any point. her plot was so half-baked that it turns out she threw her husband under the bus in front of their guests for nothing, as "a tactical joke". i mean?? i feel like tom is in the right to point out her hypocrisy and extreme privilege here.
so far i think that most people would agree with what i've said, but the thing that i think sets this apart a little is that this is classic shiv behaviour. she repeatedly disregards tom's feelings and situation and minimizes his problems in favour of her own. so tom being upset by her agreeing with the firing rumour is immediately brushed aside because the REAL problem here is that shiv's plot is gonna fail and she's gonna lose against ken and rome. which isn't actually a real problem anyway because she's going to be rich AF no matter what.
i will diverge now from the generally-accepted takes and say that tom pretty much clocks shiv's behaviour but, while she does spell out some truths about him, part of what she says are delusions and projections. tom does impart some hard-hitting truths like calling her broken, not a good person to have children or incapable of love. these things are not false and they are also not insults. i really don't get why so many are saying he is insulting shiv. these are observations based on her own (repeated) behaviour.
whereas she doesn't really respond in kind, i feel. shiv is the one who throws insults at him, calling him a hick and insulting his entire family by labeling them striving and parochial. these are also crouched in classism and made all the more ridiculous by the fact that tom's mother is a well-respected lawyer so "parochial" is truly a delusional word to use in this context, which goes to show how extreme shiv's billionaire privilege is. in return, tom doesn't insult her family and actually chooses the reasonable reply of "that's not a fair characterisation". the part about tom's mother loving shiv more is, again, complete fabrication. so is the part about TOM being the reason she didn't speak to her father for the last six months of his life. shiv is well within her rights to be upset tom revealed her plans to logan, but even if he hadn't, logan would have still been massively pissed at her and her brothers and they STILL would have been estranged.
again, maybe this is just me, but calling someone broken is not an insult, while calling some pathetic is? shiv goes on to tell him that she never loved him and doesn't even like him and he never even "deserved" her, which are hard to label as anything other than cruel. even during this fight tom still tells her that he loves her? idk, man, tom has so many flaws and he is a social climber and he did become prissy bc she kept postponing having children but it feels like shiv spends the majority of this fight accusing tom of things that are not true and calling him mean names
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✨I get better at handling my disability every day✨
And that’s not because of doctors, or physical therapy, or yoga, or some fad diet, or essential oils, or whatever. It’s because I learn from everything I do, I do everything I can, I take breaks, and I do things that I value.
{this is not a guide. You can learn from it, but it not meant to be instructional! Still, there are useful insights that you might could incorporate, if you think on how they’d apply in your own life. But don’t take what I do and expect it to work perfectly for you. This can be a starting place, but it is not an end point.}
🔶 I learn from everything I do.
➕Every time I get hurt doing something, I treat it like a blessed piece of information. I now know more about my body and how to move it in less harmful ways.
➕Every time something goes wrong, I ask for advice from others with similar experiences, and I read every journal article about it that I can get my hands on.
➕Every time I do something that helps me feel better or brings me joy, I take note of it and experiment with it over time, till I find the most effective ways to utilize it in different scenarios.
🔷 I do everything I can while still working within my limits.
➕spending time cooking saves us money, but it’s also one of the most intensive activities i can do without tending to get very injured. Which means I’m moving my body, and also familiarizing I myself with how it works. This creates many opportunities for learning! And I get to have far more variable and nutritious meals, which helps honestly everything.
➕I cycle thru activities that use different types of spoons. For example, I might do a high intensity standing activity for a bit, and then switch to a medium intensity vocal activity, then a medium intensity hand & thinking activity, then a low intensity art activity.
This helps a lot. Overtime, I’ve had to realize that every thing I do causes injury and pain. And the more I utilize the same motions or joints at the same intensity (even at low intensity), the more injured I get. But I still have to, and *want to*, do things. So, I utilize my adhd urge to switch tasks frequently, and I’ve turned that into a protective measure! I still do hyper focus. But when I do, it’s less damaging because I’ve done so much harm reduction work outside of it!
➕when I do overextend myself, I learn from it.
♦️I take breaks.
But, importantly, my breaks are never just laying down and staring at the ceiling. That’s something I’m forced to do when I get too injured, and I don’t want to be tired of it when that happens.
So instead, I take other types of breaks. This isn’t a complete list by any means, but it gives a better idea of how I conceptualize breaks.
➡️sensory breaks — I do both low sensory and high sensory breaks.
~Low sensory breaks~ can be as simple as putting on noise canceling headphones, putting on a slideshow of black and white photos, and having low, even lighting in the room, and a squishmallow on my chest
~High sensory breaks~ can be listening to a grating song with a very active music video, while taking sharp and fast breaths a couple times a minute, and drinking alcohol or a warm drink, and letting my brain spin on something I have a lot of conflicting feelings about.
➡️artistic breaks — these are the types of breaks where I focus on creating things for my own enjoyment. I spend most of my time acting in service of others or for a higher purpose. This is taking a break from that to do something specifically for me.
~inaccessible art~ I spend much of my time very focused on making things accessible and shareable, so sometimes I make purposely inaccessible art that only I can understand. This lets me reaffirm my own personhood.
~poetry~ a lot of the most important work I do involves detailed and nuanced long form writing. Poetry allows me to push back on this by writing in a way that trusts the reader to interpret. The nuance is in the implications and the word play, not in 5 paragraph digressions.
~music~ as someone without much agency, I often feel the need to be heard. Playing music makes me feel unignorable and creative. It’s very hard on my joints, but it’s a release i can’t receive elsewhere.
➡️calm/silly breaks — I spend all of my life thinking everything through, weighing the ethics of every decision, thinking of ramifications, incorporating everything I learn into my world view, checking my ideas against each other. Sometimes I just wanna look at sheep, or pretend my squishmallow is a baby, or be incredibly silly all day.
🔳 I use my ability & energy on things that are in line with my values
➕when I do get injured, it often feels worthwhile. This is because I usually know the risks of injury pretty well. But more importantly, because I don’t spend my time on things that I don’t see as valuable unless I absolutely have to. Even with tasks I don’t enjoy, I do them because I know it’ll help me, or my household, or my community, or the world, or whatever. So if I get injured in service to that, I tend to view it as worthwhile.
➕i acknowledge that there is important work to be done that is grueling, slow, and not very rewarding. I know I have to do the work. But I make sure my life isn’t *just* that sort of work. There are some things I do that I know do a ton of good for very little energy. That allows me to keep going with the work that is more of a slow burn.
➕I don’t work for works sake. I don’t work ‘hard’ unless ‘hard’ is the only way to do the work. I work efficiently. And I don’t do work that others could do much easier unless I have to. I don’t value work, I work towards my values.
✨alrighty, that’s all for now! I might make a part 2 if this gets traction, but I don’t wanna burn myself out on something if I don’t know that people will read it✨
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