#ppl are indifferent to me at best and thats it

[astro-gnome]

starting to think that im forever gonna be lonely and miserable

[choccy-milky]

bruh i need to vent about a rude comment i got on my recent chap and also about clora, cuz its something thats been on my mind for a while now. it has spoilers to my most recent chap tho so im putting it below

so in my most recent chap clora gets hit by the killing curse but thanks to seb sacrificing himself for her, it doesn’t work/she survives. and I got a rly rude comment about how that’s super cringe and that clora is a "shoe horning of every possible manifestation of Mary-Sueism I have ever seen." theyre dropping my fic after almost 500k words bc apparently THAT’S where they draw the line and that "just somehow pulling it out the bag and surviving a killing curse from the power of love. In simpler terms, it’s absolutely cringe worthy" and "forgive me if I rolled an eye at the yet again invincible nature of Clora Clemons-the-one-eighth-Veela-extraordinaire"

BUT LIKE LMAO TELL ME U DIDN’T READ/WATCH HARRY POTTER WITHOUT TELLING ME. that’s literally what happens to harry??but its only cringe when it happens to our "mary-sue" clora? like yeah sure love magic might be a bit cringe but IM LITERALLY JUST PULLING FROM THE SOURCE MATERIAL. of all the things to take issue with in my fic and interpretations, theyre taking issue with something that’s canon BAHAHA.

and since im on the topic of clora being mary sue can I just say I hate the misogyny/internalized misogyny that i've seen some people (NOT A LOT, THANKFULLY) treat her with. like i get it, im not pale and blonde and as conventionally pretty as clora is, but even if I was, is that a reason to hate me?? and does being beautiful and well-liked = mary sue? bc as far as I know, mary sue is a chara who is just naturally amazing at everything and doesnt need to try hard and theyre just inexplicably great for no reason (like mc in the base game BAHHAA) if anything the mary sue in MY fic is seb LMAO (but hes a boy so its ok). like clora has worked hard and studied magic all her life due to being a squib and wanting to make up for not being able to DO it. she isnt good at flying, seb is still better at her than duelling, shes really short sighted when it comes to doing/thinking whats best for others and can be a huge idiot.... and like. the only guys that have even shown interest in clora on a real scale have been seb and leander (and then lawley for blackmail purposes, and also bc he hates seb) so its not like literally everyone is falling over themselves for her?? like her interactions with the main cast of boys (ominis, garreth, amit) theyre all indifferent to her LMAO but still, the fact that shes pretty and guys here and there might look at her and go o shes cute! doesnt make her a mary sue SORRy thats just called being attractive idk its just annoying that ppl automatically see a nice kind beautiful female character without any VISIBLE flaws and go SHES TOO PERFECT!! MARY SUE!! WAH IM JEALOUS! and like I get it bc when I was younger I probs would have been annoyed by clora as well due to my own insecurities and internalized misogyny but hey, how about u just realize that’s ur own problem and your own jealousy, and not a real one HAHAH anyway ive since evolved bc I used to be a ‘not like other girls’ type girl back in highschool. trying to be super tomboy-y bc I thought being feminine was cringe and too basic but now ive embraced it and love girly things and dresses and charas like clora who are still strong and showcase their strengths and weaknesses in subtler ways, and I want to smooch her and make out with her. get behind me clora ill protect you🤺🤺🤺

[roykiller07]

idk if anyones done this yet but i translated the fine print on bills soul contract 👍👍👍 its under the break in case its considered spoilers

you are now twenty one grams lighter

this contract is legal and binding[] we reserve the right to use your likeness[] face[] voice and small town pluck in whatever nefarious manner is deemed necessary[] sans soul[] your soulmate will not recognize you and will walk right past you on a cold autumn day[] never making eye contact[] not even processing that you have eyes at all[] no amount of interaction will move them to a place where they can remember[] in feeling[] the thousands of lifetimes you have already spent together[] each time choosing whatever form would keep you closest like otters holding hands in a tumultuous river[] you were birds[] you were trees with roots entangled[] drinking in the sunlight together[] []wherever we go next[] whatever you choose[] i will always be right there with you[][] thats done[] buddy[] congratulations[] you have chosen bill instead[] mcdonalds reserves the right to put a giant yellow m on your torso and forehead and send you walking through a crowded times square while you scream []the fries[] the fries[] they don[]t degrade in nature[][][] it[]s an immortal food[][][] they will be in the landfills long past our deaths[][] good god[] the things s i[]ve seen[] me[] who am i[] oh i[]m bill[]s previous lawyer[] he put my soul into a quill pen so i can write his legal documents until the sun snuffs out like a candle in this sick universe[] i used to be so hot[] i was so fine[] now i[]m fine print[] speaking of which[] bill reserves the right to put your soul into an inanimate object[] a strange creature[] a concept[] a sentence[] a tasteful but rustic mason jar with wildflowers in it[] if at any point you wish to have visitation rights with your soul[] you will be swiftly denied[] unless you had a cool day planned for the both of you[] then bill might want to come along[] by signing this document you forfeit any rights to eating soul food[] it will turn to ash in your mouth[] a fitting punishment for a fool who squandered the only true gift life owes you[] bill reserves the right to dress your soul however he deems necessary[] especially if your soul was a nerd before acquisition[] soulmakeoverrr[] your soul may become fractured and placed into different objects[] this has no purpose and will not resurrect you if you die[] signee has forfeited all rights to any afterlife[] including but not limited to[] heaven[] hell[] purgatory[] big corner[]flow state[] the dream house[] the reincarnation processing center[] axolotl[]s tank and consequences hole[] signee can no longer board any soul train and is advised to discard all bellbottoms[] signee can no longer have a puppy as a best friend[] they can sense what is gone[] cats are indifferent[] signee can experience occasional demon possessions from horculus the red[] plabos the merciless[] morbus son of mortem[] plaga the oozing and other such common demons roaming earth searching for weakened[]empty vessels[]tips for ripping your soul out at home[] watching youtube commentary channels[] attending an extended family event with an open bar[] using generation ai and asserting that you are creative[] turning a blind eye to human suffering[] amassing more wealth than needed[] purchasing a blue checkmark

i didnt feel like interpreting the punctuation (which is all just rectangles on the og document). it is translated letter by letter so if it seems like i forgot a space or wrote a letter where there shouldnt be its because it was like that in the original. pls let me know if u think i achsually made a mistake !!!!!

ive been translating everything i can and ill post the rest if ppl want but i felt like everything else was small enough anyone could translate it, this one was just long enough a lot of ppl wouldnt wanna bother 😋

i believe the code to get this image is: NAITSUAF

[proxythe]

Kotone hcs perhaps? I love hearing how ppl interpret her!! ^_^

ok i know this is like the millionth time ive brought it up today but i will reiterate it again bc i love it so much… kotone being protective of her friends… it kills me so bad. i love, in general, the idea of all of sees being defensive of each other, but kotone (along with some others) is the most loud and obvious about it. i do think she’d respect yukari, for instance, who doesn’t like being doted on, but i feel as if her passion and love for her friends would be somewhat of a slight flaw as, if she was ever pissed off enough, she’d completely override that thought. 😭

i always picture she’s very outgoing and inclusive but shes not so sweet that shes practically a pushover for anyone who tries to walk over her. when talking about the twins hc (her and minato as twins), i love the approach that she’s basically his voice lmfao. like he doesn’t prefer to talk so much and kotone loves to talk so she communicates for both of them most of the time. i love minato not being much of a talker, so kotone is one of the few ppl he actually speaks to. kotone’s protectiveness would be at its peak when it comes to minato especially… thats her twin… she loves him…

& kotone anger issues is something so personal… its so very real… feel like she’s real good at self defense & very basic hand to hand (think like public school fights lmfao) bc of how often she jumps to violence. being orphaned so young i think she would learn to defend herself at least a little bit. she feels way too much as opposed to minato who is indifferent about everything. obviously they both become happier but u know what i mean…

something else i think about all the time is how silly she is … she loves teasing people … she loves fucking around … shes so silly … like she’s one of those people where u can’t even be mad at her if u wanted to bc she would always make u laugh. even when she’s not trying to be she’s just funny as hell LMFAO i seriously just love seeing her be so stupid with junpei (and sometimes yukari) … she deserves it…

speaking of junpei, kotone’s platonic relationship with him is something else that’s one of my favorite things about her route in general. like that’s her best friend for reals… 99% of kotone sightings should always include her bff junpei at her side. hes her emotional support Guy. and vice versa, i know this aint about him, but its so sweet to think about how safe and comfortable junpei and kotone feel together… guhh…

[ohgodimafraud]

hey, thank you so much for engaging with sickromancer’s totally weird responses to the “drama”/“discourse” about… uh… vulnerable chronically ill people daring to discuss traumatic experiences during a pandemic! I really liked their writing, but a while back they posted this, so… not shocking that they don’t actually know the difference between Hot Fantasy Contagion and Hot IRL Indifference

https://www.tumblr.com/sickromancer/748033970277580800/as-being-a-contagion-lover-who-is-a-germaphobe-irl?source=share

listen im not into cancel culture or whatever. i think i'd like to clarify my thoughts one more time tho.

if i disagree with something strongly enough ill say it. i think taking care to keep others and yourself safe is important and ik how serious it is now. covid can disable healthy people and with each reinfection that risk increases. thats not me fear mongering, thats ive read this and have had it 3 times and each time has been worse. it's a real gamble bc you dont know how your body will react to it. theres one client i have who is immunocompromised and every time i enter the home i wear a mask and they wear a mask and there are air filters on and genuinely it's the only place ive felt consistently safe in the past year outside of my own home.

we're all shaped by our own experiences and i sympathize w her situation like my family friends grew up with a parent with extreme untreated ocd and theyd be hours late to everything if like the toilet paper touched the wall wrong and theyd have their own special gym equipment and all of the kids turned out different. one of them became like an anti vax incel alt right guy. i had issues w my parents growing up that im working thru and like i def am more prone to anger than the average person. taking your trauma out on other ppl isn’t okay either though

if youre sharing food or drink w friends, both of u have consented and great. partner to partner = consent. not being worried about germs is a privilege though and not being able to understand that is whats like confusing to me esp after 2020. it's not that disabled people have an irrational fear of germs it's like...survival, genuinely. and even if people do have a legit phobia why are we shaming them

also to clarify, i am not disabled unless u count asthma/probable copd (but literally i can do all my tasks so i do not) and have had so much carelessness at work including a horrible absence policy and have loved ones who are disabled. live your best lives, i think if you're sick you should try not to get random people sick on purpose and thats really my main piece idc about consensual situations or any type of fantasy.

[hwaightme]

HELLO THE ONE NEW MESSAGE U WROTE IS SO FUCKING PERFECT OKAY U WROTE SO WELL ND THE WORDS U USEF MY GOD MY GOD THEY FEEL LIKE SOMEONE'S WENT THRU THIS ND WROTE IT OUT TO EASE THEIR PAIN

I LOVED how u portrayed situationship cuz I myself have seen sm ppl going into tht nd losing the spark that they caught the attention of the person who wasnt ready to commit to them nd kindle their spark nd pet it shine all the while cuz at the start it feels nice u feel giddy nd all be good feelingd u describe but slowly they start becoming busy nd making u feel worthless by not even telling u they were busy reappear in ur life as if ntg happened nd a person like me ( i am indifferent but thats another story cuz i cant bring myself to become the past me anymore )I can feel how indifference affects the other person but sometimes being indifferent hurts nd makes then feel even worse when u are being indifferent to protect urself from getting hurt all over again bit once again I really loved how u portrayed mc her inability to express anger cuz she is past that stage of showing anger nd is slowly accepting that she loves him nd its not her fault for falling for a person who is emotionally unavailable nd loved how she is slowly drifting away from the source of her pain nd making him have a taste what he made mc go thru I loved it it was the best

have a good day and take care of urself <3

Hello my love <3 Truly, thank you from the bottom of my heart for your kind words ;~; It means a lot to me that you felt that the phrases, the flow of the story and how the emotional landscape was set made you feel as though this was real, raw, expressive.

Indeed, situationships are one... fascinating thing because a lot of it is built around hope, and around the intrigue with novelty and the wish that those first sparks will turn into a beautiful eternal flame. However, that is often not the case, and as you say that wish, the ideas, the vision fade, and an indifference, be it from one person, the other or both, is a double-edged sword.

All we can hope for, is for healing, for clarity and for sunny days ahead <33

The biggest hugs to you and thank you so so so much for your love and support <3 Much love <3

[verytendou]

ever be like. u kno idk why everyones so mean to freshman :( and then interact with freshman and go 'oh'

[rainbow-burst]

I need to answer that p//an ask bc Its been there for awhile plus..i Have alot to say and some links to send the person..

[rouge-the-bat]

Hey I have been struggling lately and don’t really have anyone to talk to who would understand. I’m a nonbinary mspec lesbian and sometimes I have (sorry for the tmi) high sex drive but also I go through bouts of being sex repulsed is there something wrong with me or could I also be on the asexual spectrum? I don’t know much about the asexual community and as soon as I say I’m a mspec lesbian I get a lot of hate/harassment and stuff. I don’t know who else to turn to tbh.

hey sorry youve been struggling :Oo yea it sucks not having many ppl in the community to come to :( i may not have much energy to, but i like trying to help if i can! (also hey nonbinary mspec lesbian solidarity!)

first off, ill say that sex drive, sexual attraction, and being sex [favorable/indifferent/repulsed] are all separate categories, that can sometimes coincide or effect each other, but not always!

for example, i may be asexual and sex repulsed, but i still have a bit of a sex drive- which basically means my body will get into Moods sometimes unrelated to anyone (well, besides for a couple fictional characters, but no one irl) and i just have to take care of that to get it over with. my sex drive doesnt match up with my lack of sexual attraction and discomfort with the idea of engaging in sex. there can be any sort of mix and match of these three categories for people, and they can fluctuate too for some!

at the very base of it, asexual is specifically about lacking sexual attraction (or for the acespectrum- not experiencing it as often as others). which means some aces dont engage in sex but some do. some aces have no sex drive while others have high ones. it all varies by person! and in my experience the ace community does accept those that are allosexual (does have sexual attraction) but lack a sex drive or are sex repulsed, as a lot of aces tend to experience those too in varying degrees and are here to support those with different relationships with sex, whatever way it may be.

sex repulsion doesnt automatically mean theres something wrong- if its caused by something of a distressing nature then its potentially something to seek help for if thats what youd want, but otherwise its nothing alarming. my sex repulsion isnt sourced from anything, i just find the idea of partaking in sex to be deeply uncomfortable and gross to me. i dont like genitalia or bodily fluids or insertion or anything.

and sometimes each of these categories can be fluid for some, some will have a rare case of sexual attraction, or their sex drive can spike some days, or sometimes theyre sex indifferent and the next day theyre sex favorable or sex repulsed, or any other number of things.

theres a lot of terms out there that im not familiar with, but there could be something out there specifically about fluctuating sex repulsion under the ace umbrella. but whether there is or not, if you think during these times of sex repulsion that simply "ace" is a viable label to get your feelings across (like in a "well theres Something going on here with my relation to sex" way), even temporarily or on the occasion, then i say go for it!

i hope any of these helps at all! if you have more questions or anything just lmk and ill do my best to help :3!

[wri0thesley]

many many anons under the cut bc i didn’t want anyone to feel like i was ignoring them and i wanted to respond to u all! warning for small text too, it was so long i wanted to make it look smaller fgbnjkgkjn

Anonymous asked: NAT... you can write WHATEVER you want! It's your blog, and I hope that rude anons can learn to respect that. I used to be on your blog just for jjba content too, so when you started getting into jjk I was indifferent but eventually you dragged me into jjk so hard!! I already like bnha, so seeing you write for it only made me happier! I hope that you continue to write whatever make YOU happy:) ❤and yes, longer fics certainly doesnt mean it's better, quality over quantity

ahh i’m happy that you are here for all three!! i always feel so accomplished when someone is like ‘your constant screaming made me think about jjk <3′. all three of the fandoms are fairly popular and i tag everything v carefully so i hope people who do use the filtering find that useful!!! 

Anonymous asked: Goodness gracious. People really be out there thinking they're entitled to dictating what kind of content you should be making

i think part of it might be that i do take requests so people feel like they have like . . . a certain right to certain kinds of my content? i take requests mostly bc they keep me motivated, i like making content for ppl who cant find what they want bc i’ve Been There, but maybe people think i am a pushover? idk i am just trying to have a good time!!!

Anonymous asked: Hi. I only started following you a few days ago but please ignore that rude anon. People are so fucking entitled towards writers it's insane. I recently had someone throw a fit for "spoiling" something in my fanfic, even though the fic was about a manga-exclusive character, so what did they expect?? Overall I've really enjoyed your writing so random assholes coming to guilt you is just a shitty thing that happens. Keep going with what you wanna do.

ah gosh anon i’m sorry about that :(. i’m always super careful tagging spoilers and stuff but like, if someone clicks on a fic about say, naoya or the steel ball run boys and is mad that i spoil something they havent found out yet . . . yeah thats on them fgbnkjgfkjn

Anonymous asked: That...that anon had the nerve to say "we". The fuck?! No no no anon, YOU'RE the only one talking and you're just talking for yourself, don't you dare try and lump us other anons/followers up with you to make yourself look like you're right. We love you nat and we appreciate you. It's your blog, you're allowed to write about whoever and whatever. This brain dead anon just needs to either go read someone else if they're that salty or write their own stuff if they're that impatient.

gosh i WISH some of my mad anons would just write their own stuff honestly. idk if this anon thought they were talking for everybody but i guess they expected anons to agree with them and not be mad at them. i appreciate u anon ;_;

Anonymous asked: Just want to say that ily and you’re one of the best jojo fanfic writers in my opinion 💗 I don’t think you’re half assing jojo fics and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with you being multi fandom. A lot of jojo blogs have started posting about jjk so it’s not as if you’re the only one. I’m not sure why you get hate like this but I think it’s just because you’re one of the popular writers and that makes people bitter for whatever reason. Keep being you and posting about the things that make you happy 💕

honestly after so long writing for jojo - i’ve written well over 200 jojo reader insert fics - sometimes it feels like i’m retreading stuff, and that’s when i take a break bc i dont wanna half-ass stuff!!! i love all of my fellow jojo friends who are posting about jjk too, i appreciate them <3. 

Anonymous asked: Hey my dude, ur writing has really grown since the jojo days and its better and awesome seeing u become happier to branch off and write in different fandoms 🤌🤌 those stupid anons are just boring farts that couldnt be bothered making their own content 😤😤 is it possible to block them to ease ur mind?

hello anon!! i run a statcounter for IPs but it doesnt always work for ppl who access through the tumblr app, i don’t think; a lot of the anon hate i get i just use the ‘block’ option, but last night got to me because i’ve been getting that kind of writer a lot which is . . . a bad look for the jojo fandom who are, as a whole from the ones i’ve interacted with, lovely!!! <3

Anonymous asked: People often forget, the person behind art or writing, is just another regular fan. You deserve to be happy with what you create and we should be thankful you share your talent with us. You also have right to change your main interests, and it's very normal thing. Jojo is one of the MANY things that you write for and all you get from that is a like or share. Its not your job. It's your fun thing to do, in spare time. You haven't betrayed anybody. That person was just rude, selfish and bored.

i am just a person doing my best!!! anime fanfic is one of many interests i have and i already devote a lot of time to it honestly, i love when people tell me they’ve enjoyed something i made bc it makes it feel worthwhile but equally it gets to me a lot when people are rude because i am usually trying my hardest. 

Anonymous asked: Bro that jjba anon... the entitlement🤮 Fam, you write whatever you want to write😤 -Saturday

dfnjbkjnkgf i find most fic readers are NOT entitled at all and are just grateful but when they are . . . oof. 

Anonymous asked: It's funny how people throw "we got you popular" and they think you start apologize and cry. Your writing and passion made you gain few numbers on a follow counter, nothing more. I think I'm too old for stuff like this, we are nothing more, but +1 on a number scale. You ow us nothing, we ow you nothing. Popular... Funny word. You just write for fun of it, fake scenarios about someone's manga characters. It's not that deep. Have fun and don't listen to people like this. I knew it's not that easy, but they are really not that important as they think they are.

extremely fun fact for people who think ‘popularity’ is important to me: i would 100% rather have 10 people who regularly comment, reblog my fics with tags and interact with me than 100 people who read my fic and either leave a like or simply move on. i think this is true for the VAST MAJORITY of writers tbh. i’m glad that people think i am a ‘popular’ blog (i am not in the grand scheme of things, one of my ex-best friends used to run a kpop reader insert blog with like 30,000 followers) bc it gives me an ego boost lmao, but i really just want people to read and enjoy the stuff i write!!! 

Anonymous asked: I followed you a while ago for jojo and when my friends started getting into jjk i was like...eh sounds like work...but now that I see you writing for it I feel really motivated to get into it!!! I really enjoy your writing and I want to be able to read the new stuff too!

ah anon i really hope you like it!!! it’s only one season rn if u wanna watch the anime and there isn’t too much of the manga to catch up on either but it is a lot of fun and it’s nice to be in a fandom that’s like, excited about a new chapter and new plot developments every week!

Anonymous asked: Pls dont reply if u dont want to! <3 I'm not sure if this will be of any help to you or not but this is the kind of thing that often helps me and is the only way I know to try comfort others so I wanted to give it a go~

Now im not gonna say 'dont feel bad pls' bc I know that's not really useful but what I do think is useful is just discussing why that anon and many others feel the need to respond that way. As someone who follows a lot of writing blogs myself and have done for a long time, i've seen my handful of favourite writers come and go for different reasons, lose motivation for a while, gain motivation for a while, go from multi to single fandom, or single fandom to multi. Often times as a reader it can be upsetting when things change but it's also important as a reader to understand that some things aren't in anyone's control, I can't control what my favourite writers become a fan of or lose interest of, I can't control things in their personal lives that may motivate or demotivate them to write, but what I can do is support them as long as they're active, and if they move on to do things i'm no longer interested in or i'm the one that changed interests, rather than being upset that they're evolving to do other things or that they're not evolving with me, I think it's important that I still feel thankful for the works that I enjoyed while we were still on the same page and this is how I personally deal with those negative feelings. I think the anons that lash out at you probably just dont know what to do with themselves, maybe they got attached to your works while you were still only a jjba blog and now that you're evolving they're upset, while I understand how they feel, they're going the completely wrong way about it. I've learned to take these things and turn them into something positive for myself or at least something bittersweet that I can move on from but the anons that lash out at you for whatever reason probably haven't learned this yet. Maybe it's because i've moved on and changed interests a lot myself that I know how these things go for both writers and readers but those anons maybe haven't experienced this as much so they dont know what to do with themselves other than complain that you've changed and throw insults at you in an attempt to get you to revert back. None of this is because of the quality of your writing like they want you to believe, it's literally just because you've evolved and while some of your old followers might not like the new content for no reason other than it not being their cup of tea, it's definitely not regressed at all. You are pumping out a lot of content right now but every single thing i've read has just been better than the last. Things that really stand out to me is how well you get characterisation down to a T and all of your dialogue is just on point and from the pov of a reader I think those things seem the hardest to get right so I am such a huge fan of your stuff at the moment and I can tell you're really putting so much thought and care into each and every fic no matter how fast you're producing it, I think the fact that you're also proud of what you're writing at the moment really shines through as well and I just adore the passion that radiates from every completed request as well as in the responses for the subsequent thirsts resulting from these works that appear in your ask box later (I know i've sent quite a few by now~)

Just to be clear i'm not defending those anons in any way, while I can understand what they might be feeling/why they're reacting in the way they are I still believe it's just so immature to be hateful online point blank. Even during a time where I still got upset with writers if they started doing something else I still never targeted that negativity directly to the writer and sending rude or hateful comments whether on anon or not never something i'd stooped low enough to do even when I still had an immature way of thinking, however, I hope that it might make it a little easier to brush them off if we try and understand what they're really upset about, and that they're just putting the blame for their negative feelings onto the wrong thing rather than coming to terms with change themselves.

hello anon!! i appreciate the long message. i do feel bad for people who have no interest in what i’m currently producing and i get that they feel upset about it; i’ve watched a lot of fellow jojo writers move on completely or just stop posting, honestly. this kind of thing is why i was so intense about asking people if it would be better if i made a separate blog but the resounding answer seemed to be ‘i’m just vibing with whatever happens and i’ll block tags as needed’. 

i often return to works by my favourite reader-insert writers who no longer write for the fandoms i like (and i read stuff bc it sounds interesting or i trust the person who writes it), but change can be difficult and i guess at this point i’ve - whether u like me or not lmao - been a fixture in jojo reader-insert tumblr for a While so it’s probably kind of jarring. 

anyway i really appreciate you and the nice words! <3 

Anonymous asked: hi nat! I just wanted to pop in and say that regardless of what fandom you write for, the love and care you pour into your writing and into interacting with followers who care about your work as well is really obvious. you're doing this for FREE and people should appreciate what you've given us so far, since ultimately this blog should be for you, whatever that means to you at any point in time. it's ok to jump fandoms! the important thing is that you feel good about what you're producing and that it makes you happy. everyone else is just a bonus - but, seeing you on my dash certainly makes me happy : ) I hope you feel better soon!

thank you anon! i’m feeling much better and happier today. birthdays are very difficult for me (i did not think i’d be alive at eighteen, much less 25!) so this event is definitely kind of a way for me to concentrate on something else, and i’m a little bit extra sensitive atm. i appreciate you so much, thank you for the kind words!!! <3

Anonymous asked: Hello! I just wanted to say, write what YOU want and make YOUR writings as long as you'd like. 💖 To the anon who is like "We mAdE yOu FaMoUs dOnt HalF asS iT" stfu, let people do what they wanna do. If you think they half do it, write something better and longer you asshat.

this is an open invitiation to that anon to send me a link to their writing blog and i’ll hype them up i promise <3 

Anonymous asked: nat i'm so so sorry about that ask please know that your older followers don't share the same opinion :( sometimes people forget about the living, breathing person behind the screen smh. you are not a machine. you absolutely should not restrict yourself to posting about one fandom forever. yes, we're first pulled in by your amazing content, but we stay for your wonderful personality and work ethic. please just keep being you, taking up projects you feel comfy with! <333 bless u

ahh thank u anon! unfortunately i actually am a writing robot, i’m sorry u had to find out this way. my jojo chip has been removed, please send it back so i can continue to not half-ass my jojo work. fgnjkbgjkfn thank you so much angel!!! i appreciate you ;_;.

Anonymous asked: i don’t think it’s fair for other people to say shit about what you choose to write about because on tumblr and other writing platforms, writers are constantly developing how they write and the fandoms that they write for. it’s not fair for someone to criticize that “you don’t care about jjba blah blah blah” because you can enjoy new shows/manga. and like you said you’ve grown so much!! proud of you nat and im glad that ive been able to read your works (sincerely other nat)

i am STILL waiting for you to come and fight me other nat fgnjkbnf. it’s nice to be enjoying different things! i am constantly learning new things and reading new works and making new friends and improving and i think that’s important. i do care about jjba - a lot! but i can care about other things too! <3 

Anonymous asked: I may not be one of your oldest followers, but i've been here for almost 3 years. Yes, i started following u for ur jojo content, but let me tell u, ur newfound motivation and enthusiam for other fandoms was honestly contagiuos for me. And i say this as a person who finds very difficult to move from one interest to another. Jojo is great, but so are other fandoms. Please don't let some faceless scum rob u that motivation. This is ur blog and u r always free to write whatever u want.

honestly, i have been there! i am autistic and i have special interests and watching other people move on to stuff i’m not vibing with has made me sad in the past, but i want people to be happy more than anything and sometimes that means new things and change! <3 

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat! I saw that rude anon message & I just wanted to pop in & say that they're wrong. You're not betraying anyone & you should write whatever it is you want to write. I followed you for jojo & I'm not familiar with the other fandoms that you write for, but personally it makes me SO happy to see you enjoying new things! It's always good to find joy wherever you can, so keep writing what you're interested in. There a lot of ppl who want to see you happy and healthy <3

honestly the idea of it being a GRAND BETRAYAL is so funny, i am just writing anime fanfic here and thriving!!! tysm anon! <3

Anonymous asked: Those anons can piss off! They have no right to judge how long or how short your writing is. If they want longer content write it their damn selves. I think your writing has improved wonderfully and I originally followed for Jojo and I'm enjoying all the content period. I don't even watch jujutsu ( not my cup of tea personally) but I love seeing the creativity and the interactions. You write what makes you happy Nat and that's on that! You don't owe anybody anything! I know how hard writing is and when your consuming new content it's hard to make content for something else. That doesn't mean you don't like it any more your just doing something different for a while. Love you and your content and I'm enjoying the love your putting into your content whether long or short. ♥♥💕 Sending love your way!

honestly my idea of ‘short content’ is still over 1k words, i’m not good at reeling myself in! i guess it’s bc they see like, 1.5k jojo fic versus 5k jjk fic but it’s not that i didn’t enjoy the first fic, just that the point and the story came a lot quicker and so did the natural end! thank you anon, i appreciate you ;_; 

Anonymous asked: Hello! Just wanted to let your know that I think your writing is awesome, and that you should write for whoever and for whatever you want to! You dont have to stay loyal to one fandom or anything, and your followers shouldn't expect that from you! It's not like they are paying you to write, you are doing this for free, and because you enjoy it and it makes you happy! If they dont like your stuff, they dont have to follow you, they can go to other blogs that cater to their taste, and they definitely don't need to be sending you such hurtful comments, and they dont get to make you feel sad about your writing! Just because they followed you during your earlier stages of writing, doesn't mean you owe them some type of loyalty or compensation! You can write literally whatever you want as long as it makes you happy! That's what your hobby and your blog are for! I hope you know that alot of your followers love your work and think that you are an amazing writer and are down to support the work that makes you happiest! 💖💖

ahh thank you so much anon!!! i am always so bowled over by how many people are nice to me when something like this happens, i am sending you my love <3

Anonymous asked: don’t listen to them!! we love you as a writer no matter what you write, because you’re a good person and a talented writer!! you shouldn’t have to change what you write to please a bitter person, and if they only want jjba, they can go to another blog instead of bringing you down. you’re doing amazing and they should be thankful you grace us with your talents!!

to be totally honest, if i was half-assing or not vibing with content i was making i just. wouldn’t post it. like you’d be able to TELL when i was half-assing stuff just to get words out (source: i have re-read my own nanowrimo works). there are lots of great jjba blogs who could do with more followers n interaction!!! i hope they do find them and i hope they’re nice to them :(. 

Anonymous asked: Please don’t pay attention to that anon. People only have that confidence when they have anon turned on. Them looking through your blog despite feeling that way is peak fan behavior and speaks to how addicting your writing is. Naturally, you can’t please everyone and there will be people who are irrational and feel entitled to tell you what to do or what to write no matter what. Trust me when I say they’re a small minority and are more likely probably passing viewers rather than regulars. I check your blog about three or more times a day because I love reading not just your fics but also your takes, banter with other anons, or even random updates. Brainrot posts? LOVE TO SEE IT!!! Desk update? AMAZING!!! With that being said, don’t feel pressured to continue pushing out content for others. Write what makes you happy! You’ve been writing for JJBA for 4 years and it’s completely normal + healthy to get into new media. I’m not sure if it would mean much, but your love for JJK has gotten me excited to start it too!!

anon i really hope you enjoy it!!! sometimes these anons remember stuff i’ve posted and said better than i do tbh, i am living in their heads rent free i guess! 

Anonymous asked: I've been following you for a couple of years and honestly it would always be a joy to see when you posted. Your writing has improved and I'm very happy you're enjoying yourself ! I know it hurts hearing and seeing stuff like that but I'm happy you're here. I'm honestly blessed everytime you post. Your writing is phenomenal. I love reading it even if its characters that I dont care for. You capture their essences so well and weave an amazing tale within the prompts and whatnot. You're amazing nat!

wehh thank you so much!!! re: the improvement, i really don’t feel like it has and then i re-read something i wrote when i first started and i’m like oh my god maybe it has. did i really write about jotaro acting like that. 

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat. I recently became a follower of yours and I'm really saddened to see you get hate. You seem like a genuinely sweet person with amazing talent! I'm a writer myself and, unfortunately, get the same kind of comments. And when you get those comments, it doesn't leave you feeling motivated. People need to understand that people can and will, at times, grow out of fandoms. (1 Not just that but you're doing all of this for free. Again, I'm sorry you got such a comment. But please know that I'm proud of how far you've come. I'm proud that you're living a life that makes you happy. And no matter what fandom you may find yourself in next, I will always enjoy your writing. Take care of yourself. (2 end

HELLO NEW FOLLOWER I LOVE YOU (i get a lot more a day now than i used to and i feel guilty about not being able to look through so many blogs but i do try and follow back other writers for my fandoms!! ;_;). i’m sorry you get the same kind of comments! i’m always just happy to see people i like enjoying new things, even if i have no interest in it (hello to all of my mutuals who write for hunter x hunter and haikyuu, not interested but i’m sure you’re having a great time and i support you!!!). 

Anonymous asked: I'm sure you're getting a barrage of supportive messages now (at least I hope so) but I figured I'd add my voice, because I'm a longtime follower. Your writing is, and always has been, wonderful. I've been so happy to see you and Haz get to a place that works for you both. Idk if it's obvious for everyone, but you seem like you're emotionally in a pretty good place most of the time these days, and it makes me really happy to see that. I followed years ago for JJBA content, but I stayed because regardless of what content you put out, I find your wit delightful. And I'll stick around even if you move fandoms entirely, because whatever content or editorializing you produce is going to be worth reading, regardless of what it's for.

ahh, anon!! thank you for sticking around so long, sorry if you’re old enough to have been around the vore and jorts and spider rohan fiascos! <3 i am definitely a lot more stable than i have been and - barring the Pandemic Related Mental Health Issues - happier! i’m glad that it’s noticeable! <3

Anonymous asked: It actually makes me mad how entitled some people are. Nat, you're not a content creating machine and those who expect you to be are not worth wasting a thought on. Your love for something is not measured in word counts and for you to write every day without getting burned out in the slightest you really must have a burning passion and huge dedication to your craft. If others decide to send hate then allow me to send admiration because I can feel your love and hard work in each post you make!

i try and write every day bc it’s super good for my little ocd/autistic brain to have routines and distract itself, so i’m glad other people can enjoy them because that makes me motivated to carry on! like, i write for myself mostly bc the content i want i sometimes get find, but filling requests and writing for other people also leaves me with happy warm fuzzies too! i appreciate you!! <3 

Anonymous asked: If people only care about your writing for the jojo porn that’s on THEM, not you. Your writing was amazing when I followed about a year ago, and it’s only gotten better and will continue to get better! I think it really comes through when you enjoy what you’re writing and it adds a whole other layer of worth to it, because not only are you making free content but you LIKE that content and we can all gush about it together!!! More than just fans, I think you’ve created a community here and we don’t just stick around to read smut, I promise you that. -Reronon

i do miss having a discord community bc it was nice to talk to everyone in real time but it was hard work, i am glad that people feel like they can just come into my askbox and gush! i’m not very friendly in real life and people tend to think i am cold and stuck up so i work very hard to try and seem friendly and approachable online, which is much easier for me because i get to think and re-draft before i type! <3 

Anonymous asked: Hi Nat! I’m sure you’re getting a lot of messages like this right now but I just wanted to say for what it’s worth that, as a person who originally followed you for jjba content and hasn’t watched/read any of the other series you’re currently writing for, I’m honestly still along for the ride. This is your blog and you’re allowed to do what you want with it and put out what content you feel like writing. Sometimes??? People acquire new interests??????? Shocking! I know absolutely nothing about jjk or bnha but out of curiosity still read some of your posts about them and even though I might not Get It, I still enjoy them because I think you’re a very talented writer! Honestly, as long as you’re still writing, I’m still down to clown, and whenever you take breaks (which are important!) I’ll still be waiting for your return or supporting and respecting your decision to stay away longer. Don’t let the entitled assholes get you down. Utilize YOUR blog and YOUR space however YOU choose. Your talent and kindness speak for themselves. Love you!!! ❤️❤️❤️

anon i care about you and i am so appreciative of you and everyone for sending me such nice messages! i am running out of ways to say it but it’s true, it really does mean a lot to me ;_; <3

[tigerdrop]

what's your favorite fic you've written?

oh this is fun......of the ones ive posted to ao3, honestly my favorite is string theory. as shameful as it is to admit. and i am going to tell u why

this is the one that not very many people have read, and tbh i can see why. a fic where gordon freeman dreams about being an action figure with a pullstring is weird. its a niche subtype of an already-niche kink and the tag about “gordon freemans latent vore fetish” almost certainly turns people away. all that said: i still really think people should read it. this is the best benrey i have written in my fucking life and i am very proud of this one.

the moments i like the most with benrey are when he gets weird, creepy, and mean. him talking down to gordon and fucking with him and calling him shit like “dirty lil boy” in canon make me lose my mind. and this is the fic where i feel like i finally fuckin got it right. (at least, in my opinion. he is hot to me and that is what matters.) hes demeaning, hes smug, he vacillates between flat indifference and hunger for gordon (metaphorical! its metaphorical!) and i am very satisfied with the results. this is the fic i feel the least embarrassed to go back and reread despite the incredibly insane premise

speaking of which. the premise. its one that i am very surprised that ppl started picking up on and writing/drawing for other characters/ships. more power to you and all that, but the reason why the whole pullstring thing gets to me is the Metaphor, baby. gordon ‘hlvrai’ freeman is a strung-out jerk who feels like hes constantly being jerked around and treated like a plaything by benrey/the universe at large. so his being so small (relatively) and helpless and having a literal, actual pullstring is just a subconscious manifestation of how he feels hes treated in real life. but see, the thing that i maintain is that on the inside, gordon likes being jerked around. you dont just engage in a quasi-kink scene in a public bathroom with your best frenemy and get all nervous and giggly and bashful if you dont fucking like it when hes playing high school bully. and thats where the “catchphrase” thing comes in - gordons so fuckin repressed about this that he can only admit that he likes it when its literally being pulled out of him, when benreys actively doing it to him. this is a dude who is so wrapped up in the performance of “straightness” and “hating benrey” that the only way he can process just how badly he wants to be dominated and humiliated is through the weirdest dream hes ever had in his life.

anyway, thats a lot of words. tl;dr read string theory please even if it seems like its not gonna be your thing. im proud of it

(also, fun fact: this dream sequence was, and still is, canon to our hl2vrai fic. i promise you that eventually benrey is going to get big and gordon is going to have an immediate sexuality crisis. i just wrote string theory first b/c i have problems.)

[adellovesrowan]

RSA- you’re so right about Tonks and Tulip in a qpr! Also Cherry as a knight is so cute!! Mina would probably go as a medieval farmer so they could match. Werewolf boy’s name is Finn now. Also his friends keeping him company when he transforms 🥺 I’m considering having him be one of Cherry and Mina’s roommates.

OMGGG medieval farmer mina is super cute !! we LOVE finn the ww boy !! pleaseeee yes ofcourse his friends sit with him thru the painful transformation🥺 we love that a lot

RSA- I’m so glad you liked the gender headcanons for Tulip and Talbott. I pictured Tulip as a trans girl specifically and what about she/they Tulip? 👀 or Tulip with neo pronouns? She/they could work for the both of them. For Talbott, I thought of having their name be Thistle since it’s their favorite flower. Also I just know realized that both of them and Rowan have plant related names. You know what, every character with a plant name is queer now 😌. Wait ,how do you feel about trans Cherry?

TULIP W NEOPRONOUNS IS SO GOOD !! omgg thistle winger my beloved🥺🥺 HDHDHDH ur right plant named ppl are queer now thats just how it is😌 OHHH trans cherry is great actually ,, maybe she wouldnt be trans tho i can see her being pretty comfortable with her agab, but i do see her experimenting with pronouns !! i see a point where cherry tries out she / him pronouns

RSA- Students coming to Liz and JT for advice on their animals or when their animals are sick. Younger students bringing in their stuffed animals. Mina did that once when she was little. Speaking of Mina, her becoming a beekeeper in the future. What careers would Cherry be interested in? She seems like a very energetic person so it would probably be something where she could be active.

OH PLEASE liz and jt being the school vets bless. MINA UR SO CUTE !! we love to see her as a beekeeper. i honestly dunno what career cherry would have djdhkajd but i can see light in the culinary path for her bc she has a passion for baking. shes good in the kitchens. or maybe a quidditch player could work either ! shes also pretty ruthless in duelling but idk what to make of that

RSA- I’m thinking about Rowan and Adel during Rowan’s pregnancy decorating Cherry’s room together 🥺. Adel covered in different pastel paints like yellow and blue. Rowan putting in a bookcase full of books that she plans to read to Cherry. The books eventually passing on to younger students and their families.

SCREAMSSSS THAT IS SO CUTE HELLOOO pregnancy hcs always make me 🥺🥺😭😭 ughhhh i love the idea of adel preparing lots of things for the babys arrival bc she started out indifferent towards having children. in fact, she would rather not have any children. but rowan rly rly rly wanted to care for a child WITH adel so they talked it out and finally adel agrees ! and she actually got emotionally invested to the whole baby thing anyway HDJNDND

Hphm- hang on are you a libra as well? 👀? I don’t rlly care about star signs but I do think they’re fun. Speaking of which, Chiara absolutely believes in it. Her distracting injured students by telling them about their horoscopes (she memorizes them). Different topic but Rowan coaching quidditch!! I think I already talked about this before but just the thought of her becoming fully involved with it!! I wish nothing but the best for Rowan and his loved ones.

no im a gemini !! which i have decided cherry is as well ( decided her birthdays on june 7th ). OHHH UR RIGHT and thats so valid of chiara i lov her. QUIDDITCH COACH ROWAN !! they would be very fair !

RSA- are there any ideas for the au that you’d like to talk about more or think should be expanded upon?

hshskahdjhdndn sorry anon im jus not as creative as u😔😔 i am simply consuming whole what u give me LMAO

RSA- it’s established that the school doesn’t have houses but I’m wondering if there’s clubs like the ones that were put into hphm ( I’m playing the dragon club tlsq at the time of writing this so that’s why). Maybe that’s how they decide sports teams. One of my earlier ideas included the school having houses but the students could choose before realizing “oh wait, that’s just the clubs.” I wanted to include more about the sports teams before remembering that I have no knowledge of sports.

EHDHJAHSJEJ MOOD im not a sports person either. but yea i like the idea of there being clubs based on academics !! and NOT personalities🙄🙄

RSA- movie night at the school! Students gathering in each other’s dorms on the weekends. Ben, Tonks and Penny bringing over muggle films for them to watch (Tonks snuck in a horror movie once when it wasn’t Halloween). Wait, the school having a film club or a photography club. Adel and Rowan taking photos of each other 🥺. Badeea painting them a portrait for their wedding!! Just all of their friends showing up to the wedding bc they really do care for each other, all of them.

OMG MOVIE NIGHTS !! wouldnt it be rly funny if they watched a harry potter movie LMAOOOOO. OHH photography club !! omg thats so cute of them😭😭 they like what they see so they gotta make it last LMAOO. it would be an honor for badeea to paint them omfgg

RSA- I mentioned a film club at the school in an earlier ask, and the students in that club working together to make a movie 👀? Their first film was a documentary about the school. Cherry and Mina showed up in the backgrounds of a few of the films (Cherry waved at the camera once). Sometimes actors with longer hair will ask for help from Penny on how to braid it, specifically the younger ones. They also film special events at the school like the anniversary dance.

OHHH THATS SO FUN🥺 yessss penny hairstyling the youngins ,,, this makes me miss joining school activities and recording them LMAOO

[touyaz]

oh frick this is such a cool concept?? Congrats on your milestone bby!

Ok the matchup ! Either BNHA or JJK and I'll give you a pro/con type vibe list ok?

My best traits?

Generous- I will absolutely share my money/time with anyone. I love paying for the car behind me at starbucks, buying family and friends dinner, and lending a hand to help friends out for their projects. I love to spoil the people I love.

Compassionate- parallels with the generosity. I care very deeply about the people/things in my life particularly animals. I once left work early because I found a mouse still alive on a glue trap and spent two hours with oil and a paintbrush getting the lil babe loose.

Goofy- It's one of the biggest parts of me, I love having fun and will constantly be cracking jokes and generally being a living shitpost.

My worst traits?

Super sensitive - It's literally so bad. My partner breathes at me in the wrong tone and i'm either crying about it and shutting down or getting ready to fight about it for the next three days straight

Vindictive - goes super well with the sensitivity. that time I interpreted my partner breathing at me wrong? I'll bring it up in an argument three years from now. I struggle very much with letting things go.

Abysmal attention span- it's like two seconds long thanks to the crippling adhd. This ends up with me leaving messes around and losing things super often, since there are fifty projects I'm working on at once.

thank you <333 !

for you, i'm going to say anyone out of dabi, shigaraki, bakugou and megumi, if any of them are your faves im not sorry adksdhj they all hate your sensitivity bc it means they have to watch what they say/ keep their tone of voice in check, & thats just so much unnecessary effort. you either accept them and their bluntness or you leave. none of them sugarcoat their words for you bc they think that's stupid; you should hear it as it is + not let your emotions overwhelm you. they also hate the pettiness, like they have more impt things to do than argue again over some fight from weeks ago that they thought you'd gotten over. they think it's childish + get tired of it real quick. bakugou would argue back. megumi is quick to get the convo over with + move on/ leave. shiggy will ignore you/ leave. dabi is a menace + might purposely rile you up just because. bakugou + megumi especially hate your lack of an attention span. bakugou will help you keep in check but he gets annoyed easily if he has to keep doing it bc you're not listening to him, like he doesn't know how else to get the point across that you need to do certain things yourself, he cant do everything for you/ he can't keep cleaning up after you when he has his own things to do. megumi will also try his best, but he does get irritated when you lose smth + it ends up delaying him/ causing an even bigger inconvenience, especially if he had told you to do smth a certain way and you didn't listen to him. dabi + shiggy are indifferent to this, they dont rly care unless it impedes/ impacts them somehow. these two probably also hate how unnecessarily kind you are to everyone, both saying u should be more selfish/ only show that generosity to them bc the world is undeserving. think ur dumb for paying for other ppl's food when u could spend that on them :/

[ghostfruits]

hey can i ask a personal question for the members of ghostfruits; how do u guys personally deal with suicidal ideation and self harm? i notice that theres alot of mentions of death/depression/suicide/etc in your comics, and im a huge fan of you guys and im currently struggling with my own demons and thought I would ask. i hope this isnt too intrusive, feel free to ignore me.. - a suicidal, depressed fan.

i know we’re in public rn but i’m gonna just talk to u like a person, real quick. im going to talk to u like i would have if u were like in front of me

its like 2am and so im worried i might not be as lucid as i think. im sorry in advance if this is like, whole gibberish

im gonna speak for just myself, as the the person who is most often inserting specifically that kind of shit into our work, but definitely not like, the only person on this side like massively struggling with a similar variety of things

i dont know

a lot of people seem to be making work about problems they Used To have, and like ways they Used To feel, and like overcame, and then it becomes safe for them to make like, art about it. like the turmoil happens behind the scenes and then they like open up abt it publically after the fact via art. or at least like thats what im seeing happen, or like, ppl talk abt like "i made this bc it would have helped me figure my shit out sooner if someone had made s/t like this for me" and the like, probably dissappointing truth of it here is i'm bleeding in like real time. i dont have solutions to it. you and me are both in the immediate thick of the same kind of emotion. i didnt manage to puzzle it out. when i was 9 i started feeling like i wanted to kill myself and im 25 and ive wanted that, still, the entire time. i dont all the way know why its like that. sometimes i used to think it was like, a reaction to specific kinds of hardship or loss or dissatisfaction with my circumstances, but lately ive been worried that maybe good things or good times or good feelings are just like, distracting me from something that is my Actual desire, that being dead is the path im just like occassionally straying from. when i say that out loud i have a really easy time imagining a second person telling me that isnt a healthy thing to be saying or feeling, which usually means it isnt, but thats like, really how i am feeling, that is really where i am at with it. that probably means i dont have any business directing another persons like, outlook on it

so

while i cant tell you how to live with it, or cope with it, or manage it, bc im not doing any of those things, i can tell you really confidently that i dont think you should be dead, and you're being misdirected by either yourself or the world or like something else altogether into thinking thats the key that fits into whatevers in front of you. i know i dont know you, but i know like, a lot of people, and iv never felt like any of them should be dead. ive never met anybody who i thought itd be like fine if they died. theres people im hugely indifferent to, theres people i hate, there are people who have hurt me or others enormously and ive still never thought in earnest like "this persons best plan of attack i think is to kill themselves"not like anybody. not like anybody ever. iv said some fucking wild shit abt niggas but iv never said that, and i cant imagine ever saying it. or thinking it, or feeling it. i dont imagine youd be like an exception to that

thats easy to say, but, im not the person who has to live with it tho. thats easy to say to you but you still have to wake up tomorrow and live out whatever has got you so fucked up you're at like, a death point with it, and if youre coming here to ask abt it, youve probably exhausted a lot of other options already ill bet. and its like, probably wack as fuck to meet like another dead end here too. i dont know if youre still reading this even. i probably wouldnt be. iv had madd niggas hem and haw at me forever abt "temporary problems permanent solutions" and then just like shuffle me out of their office or living room or whatever and expect im not supposed to like pop myself on their doorstep. niggas acting like im fucking playing. like i got it out of my system bc we had one conversation and now im supposed to go eat lunch and be regular. idk. id be very mad at me, if i were you. i dont know if you are, but i wouldnt blame you for that. the reason i say all this is to articulate like;its possible that after hitting another roadblock here, youll feel like, "ok then fuck it" and like set your sights on just like, doing it. like bc i didnt have any jewels for u it would like reinforce it maybe. i would like u to consider this tho;

theres MADD niggas smarter than me. i was extremely useless to you just now. this is not like the pinnacle of help you're ever going to get. the answers you need for this exist even if youve already turned over a dozen rocks and theyve all been like, as useless, as this, tht has like absolutely no bearing on if the next rock will have useless shit under it. every single time u flip a coin it has the exact same chance of going one way or the other. this like did not have the medicine u need in it but the main thing i would want to stress to u is that it *does* exist and uve just had like a supremely shitty time finding it

somebodys got it. the only thing i can like confidently promise u is that somewhere, somebody, definitely knows the answer to this. u might be the person even. im not sure. /i/ def havent found it but like its in the mix somewhere. idk

i cant prove it to u but im positive ur not done yet, & you should stay

i didnt read back over any of this after i typed it, & so im gonna apologize again if it was just like, fullblown nonsense

[radio-charlie]

Does anyone want to play stardew valley =_= im lonely. but am also a bit particular so here are ppl i game best with, if u feel u are a good fit and are willing then lets give it a go

1. chill 2. ok with someone sounding kind of indifferent (its not that i dont care. im just tired lol) 3. considerate 4. comfortable enough w/ me to be honest, like if u really dont want the beets in this corner of the farm u are ok with telling me upfront

Ok thats it. Dm me if u wanna 

[beendressingforrevenge]

Lover Review!!!

IFTYE - looove the bop and beat and the indifference. The LAUGH. The shade-throwing voice. The little silences. The eeend "oh yeaaah". A song that will be amazing live for suuuuure. I can see her cute faces now.

Cruel Summer - vooooocals!! Unbreakable heaven!!! The synth. Glow of VENDING MACHINE?! Ooohoohwoooaaaah. Drunk in the back of car. DONT WANNA KEEP SECRETS JUST TO KEEP YOU?! GAAAAAAY. Amazing bridge yo.

The Man - badass beat. Badass lyrics. Conquests would make her a boss? IM ALSO SICK OF RUNNING AND HAVING PPL COMING AT ME AGAIN BABES. The "aaay". The way she sings "I'm" is so powerful???? Bitches... she said it.... she Called Them Out. Oooof. Echo-y end is perfect for the lead into The Archer.

ITHK - clicking, upbeat tempo, soft voice/speaking. Vocals are so expressive!! You can see her face when she was signing it. The "uh". Taylor saying she is an architect ... like she knows she's building the best bridges... follow sparks I'll drive - SPARKS FLY Y'ALL. Reference to Our Song as well 😭

MA&THBP - references to YBWM. LYRICS ARE SO PICTURESQUE. LUCKY YOU VIBES. Also got I Know Places vibes. So raw. STORM IS COMING. Also referencing Love Story, Style, White Horse, IDSB maaaaan. She went all out with the references!! Go! Fight! Win!

Paper Rings - moon is high. 90s vibes. Looove the similes. Last Kiss parallel! 1, 2, 3 lets go!!! MARRIAGE!!! REFERNECES!!! FRIENDS TO THIS!!! Dirty dreams eeeeh? SO MUCH BLUE REFERENCES. The lil sigh. THE BRIDGE HAS SPEAK NOW VIBEZ. Sparks fly type beat? BABY BOI. Kinda got a country twang? Loveeee it. The faaaade out. So reminiscent of her Old Music fml.

Cornelia Street - reveeerb is on honeys. Streetlights leading them hooome. Heartbreak time could never mend 💘💘. Parallels to Style agaaaain! Such smol details. This city screams your name.... and then theres the "I'm NYC" lyric to come .... BAREFOOT IN THE KITCHEN?! Like in All Too Well...except its a Lasting Relationship this time. Heartbeat sounds at the end!!

DBATC - echo-y by by by. The tinkling in the background thats Slightly Off - matching the lyrics so well. "If the story's over then why am I still writing pages?" THIS BRIDGE IS SENDING MEEEEE 😭😭.

London Boy - such a Typical British Boi looool. Enchanted parallel!! I love the references to British Culture and all the London street names. PARALLEL TO KOMH! If I see this in London I will FREAK

SYGB - the guitar riff is enough to make me sad man. "Desperate people find faith". Goosebumps during the chorus. "You'll get better soon.... cuz you have to".... :( her voice is so sad and soft. Kind of has Never Grow Up vibes?

False God - trumpeeet is back. Lu-huh-huh-hooove. "Golden when you touch me" - DWOHT!

Afterglow - more references to blue?! "Boxing with no gloves" ... sorry but kaylor?? "Went off like sirens" ... getaway caaar reference.

INTHAF - imagery is very vivid. A coming out song? Deffo a wlw song. Also kinda pointing at the media calling her potential relationships with Ladies "friendships". Reminiscent of Marys Song.

Daylight - the musical production is making me feel calm and loved and surrounded by happiness. The surge when she sings "daylight". Such a dreamy vibe. MORE REFERENCES TO GOLDEN. "ONCE BELIEVED LOVE WAS BURNING RED BUT IT'S GOLDEN"?!?!?!? The ending is perfection. It is everything. YOU ARE WHAT U LOVE.