#relationshipocd

[relationshipgoals2024]

[norahsrants]

Relationship/Anxiety/OCD Rant

What's up buckaroos. I'm gonna be completely honest with y'all right now (the dust mites in the corner of my room watching me type this, I mean), I'm having some struggles within my relationship. Well, not exactly - it's more of me struggling with myself & my brain.

I'm diagnosed with anxiety and suspected (?) of OCD (it runs in my family, I maybe or maybe don't have it), and I'm a huge overthinker. I'm constantly thinking about the future and ESPECIALLY what's gonna happen in my relationship. When will we break up? Will we break up at all? What will cause the break up? Is he lying to me? Am I being paranoid?

Thoughts like this are perfectly natural & so, so many people have them on the daily, but a good thing to think about is, a huge majority of the time, something you're experiencing that's troubling you isn't forever. I won't give my specific age, but I'm in high school. I'm grateful to have a boyfriend who's as loving as mine is, however I'm being realistic and knowing that we most likely won't last. That doesn't mean I'm GIVING UP on the relationship, but I am setting a realistic expectation in my mind.

A lot of the time, I have to remind myself that things don't have to last. It's okay if things change - obviously it would upset me a lot if we broke up, but the world wouldn't end. When you set an unrealistic expectation for anything, you can stress yourself out so much more than is needed.

For example: you're a freshman in high school & you meet this awesome guy who asks you out. You say yes, you start dating, but you get super nervous about it. How will things end? Am I stuck in this? What does this mean? Sometimes, your brain automatically turns up the dial up to 100 (in this situation, marriage or parenthood) and sends you straight into panic mode.

Something that could also chime in are trauma responses, which relationship OCD/anxiety can be a result of, especially feeling trapped. If you experienced a relationship(s) of any kind that made you feel trapped and/or stuck where you are, committment can be a scary thing.

On the other hand of things, life in GENERAL isn't forever. We all die eventually (until they invent some immortality potion for rich people), so make sure you realize that things are YOUR decision. You don't have to stay in a relationship, even if it's not necessarily bad because your top priority should be you & your mental health. If a relationship is draining from how anxious it makes you, you don't have to force yourself to stay. Sometimes, it's okay to give up, move on, learn from it, run the fuck away.

It's your life. Focus in on the moment you're in right now and how you feel - not how they feel, you - and make sure you're okay. There are a ton of things around you that you have the control over and if they aren't positively impacting you, you don't have to force yourself to learn to enjoy it.

Listen to it's time to go by Taylor Swift & take a good nap (always sleep on a big decision, trust me).

If you made it, thank you so much for reading & I really hope this helped at all.

-Norah.

[kingdogg75]

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[bluexmoonxstar]

Anybody got advice?

I’m losing track of everything I have going on. I know I’m diagnosed with autism and schizoaffective disorder, but my current (soon to be ex) therapist is saying I don’t have full blown OCD but I clearly do. I have relationship ocd and I guess death ocd if that’s what it’s called. The OCD tends to exacerbate delusions and sometimes the hallucinations though I don’t get a lot of those on medication. Like my episodes tend to start with sudden worsening of OCD symptoms, usually related to being anxious about death. Death is a big obsession for me. I usually worry my heart will explode or something irrational, or get anxious in potentially dangerous situations (which is EVERYWHERE if you have an eye for it). Then it turns into a delusion that I’m dead already, or invincible, depending on which way my mood wants to swing to handle the anxiety. And with the relationship ocd, I’ve hurt my girlfriend so much that she has an unshakable mistrust of me now. We’re in therapy but I’m worried she won’t be able to move past it. We’ve broken up so many times because I sit there and wonder if she’s the right one, I question my own feelings, etc. And I’m reading that’s common with relationship OCD. Because once it subsides I realize how much I do love her and how right she is for me. 

This last time we broke up was BIG. I moved out and in with my parents. Small things just built up and I started questioning my love for her, compared it to a past relationship, and concluded I was wasting her time. I went off my medications. A month or so later I became really unstable. My moods would swing wildly from day to day. I started believing I was a god, that I was going to die, that I was invincible, that I was dead, and I was so suicidal that I ended up in the hospital after trying to hurt myself. This is about as much as I remember of my symptoms. She called me every day in the hospital and as I stablized on meds I felt my regret and felt like a cloud was lifted and I could see again. I could see her again. So I waited for weeks before saying anything. I didn’t want to do this again in fear that it would be regrettable. Again, OCD. She didn’t want me back at first, and I didn’t push her. But she came around to the idea and now we’re back together.

 I also wonder if i have ADHD. If I do, it’s mild and I don’t know if meds would even be necessary. They would probably help though. So I’m going to bring it up with my next therapist.

I feel like shit. These illnesses are ruining my life. I’m picking up the pieces now, but it’s like coming out after a tornado hits. Everything’s fucked up. And it’s my fault.

[toobusydreaming]

Relationship OCD - this is another post that's hard for me to post. I can easily talk about my harm ocd, but If I talk about this I'm afraid that my intrusive thoughts are true, so this might be good for me. It's about my relationship. I check constantly how I feel and do rituals to make myself feel in love, or I how think love should feel. On days when I feel very much in love I sometimes get intrusive thoughts that my feelings will vanish, that I will stop being in love so I can't enjoy spending time with my partner. I'll start checking mentally how I feel when I look in his eyes or when I kiss or touch him. I often cry and feel like I'm a bad partner because I have these thoughts but luckily my partner also has OCD and he helps me by comforting me and encourage me to keep doing my exposure. Just like with my harm ocd, I treat this with imaginary exposure. I have written down a scenario about my relationship falling apart and I read it over and over again for at least 15 min (it should be longer, but I have ADD). After my exposure I always feel relief in all of my anxiety. Hope you like my drawing and the daisy as a metaphor, I really couldn't describe rocd better than picking petals off a flower. Constantly going over how you feel every second is not healthy it only you makes you more confused #ocd #relationshipocd #rocd #harmocd #mentalillnes #procreate # watercolor #pickingflowerpetals #daisy #selfportrait #selfcare https://www.instagram.com/p/BsTc3kaFB46/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=v5mgyvc25gho

[itsjustmyocd-blog]

Guess what is the most requested topic in my inbox at the moment? ROCD. yup relationship OCD. Not cleaning, responsibility, or checking. I also get questions about how to navigate marriage while suffering from ANY type of mental illness. So I’m going to do something about it. • • FOR THE NEXT 24 HOURS ONLY: I am collecting questions, topic requests, and anything you may be struggling with to put together a blog post AND a podcast episode. I know how much of a killer ROCD can be and that it can literally end relationships and break up lives. So👏🏻let’s👏🏻take👏🏻it👏🏻down👏🏻 make sure to go to my stories to put in your requests or message me. All comments will be kept anonymous. If you have a success story that you want to share I would love to talk about it💎 • • • #rocd #relationshipocd #stopthestigmamentalillness #breakthestigma #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #recoveryquotes #relationshipsandocd #relationshipsandmentalhealth #mentalhwalthpodcast #mentalhealthblogger #mentalhealthcommunity (at Rexburg, Idaho) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrOgzn6HWVn/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1gr1rbxpk7190

[happyafricaorg]

[kingdogg75]

#kingdogg #doggsworld #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #ocd #mentalhealth #ocdawareness #anxiety #intrusivethoughts #mentalhealthawareness #ocdrecovery #erp #depression #mentalillness #ocdproblems #rocd #pureocd #pureo #cbt #mentalhealthmatters #panicdisorder #harmocd #hocd #exposureresponseprevention #relationshipocd #ocdhelp #recovery #therapy #bipolar #anxietydisorders #anxietydisorder #pocd #realOCD

[rocdiary-blog]

It’s hard to believe but somehow it is true!

I have realised that when I spoke with my therapist about very bizarre thing I experienced one year before my ROCD came around.

It was a golden autumn 🍂 and the UK was getting very rainy and dark. I was starting to be overloaded with academic work. I have changed my routine and had very little time for myself. I remember one evening when my friend told me about her relationship doubts and problems. How distanced she felt towards her boyfriend and how she loves to talk to her ex... I was sitting there with this strange feeling that somehow could relate to what she was going through. But I said nothing. I was too embarrassed to share with her that in my relationship something is off, too. I was getting those, weird thoughts “did I fell out of love?” for the next 2 or 3 weeks. They were more intense during a week when I had to work and they faded when I was enjoying my weekends with my boyfriend. I remember, I had this weird self-given deadline - “If you still feel like this in December then you have start worrying”. In December we were supposed to visit my family together so I was a bit concerned about how it will go with this strange, new feelings I was experiencing. But as I was getting more and more projects to finish, I completely forgot about those thoughts and they disappeared. And only once they were gone, I told my friends about it. The visit in December went great.

One year later, we were already engaged and during the peak time of my busy period of academic work I got those thoughts again! This time I started analysing them a bit more and getting very impatient. I told my friend straight away and she ensured me that it will pass as it did last year. Not long before this she broke up with her boyfriend... The time passed and I was trying to speed the process and get rid of this uncomfortable sensation and thoughts. Day by day they got darker and more intense. It was very very scary. ROCD came and stayed with me for good this time.

Why?! My therapist said “You acted on those thoughts, you gave the meaning!” She was right.I made my thoughts real by telling my friends about them, by trying to push them away!

[cbdinstead]

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Great post as always, be sure to give her a follow! Posted @withrepost • @life_without_anxiety Rituals that one can see are not the only kind of rituals performed by individuals with OCD. Mental rituals are performed internally and are not outwardly observable behaviors. Physically observable rituals include (but are not limited to) compulsive behaviors such as cleaning, ordering/arranging, checking, repeating, using barriers, avoidance, etc. Mental rituals include (but are not limited to) avoidance, neutralizing a “bad” thought with a “good” thought, distraction, ritualistic prayer, checking physical feelings/emotions/thoughts/urges/etc., counting, etc. Rituals, whether they are observable or not, keep us stuck in our OCD as they negatively reinforce the OC cycle to keep playing out (info-graphic of this cycle located in my saved stories). Rituals tell our brain that the upsetting intrusive thoughts are valid and meaningful which keeps the intrusions coming back, getting stronger, and bringing friends. It is so important to resist utilizing compulsions of all types. I believe in your ability to allow your thoughts to float in and out of your mind without performing safety behaviors. I believe in your ability to ride the wave of anxiety and live according to your values. I believe in YOU.💛 . . #ocd #ocdrecovery #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #intrusivethoughts #compulsion #pedophileocd #harmocd #scrupulosity #relationshipocd #contamination #pureocd #anxiety #doubt #fear #anxietydisorder #sexualorientationocd #perfectionism #uncertainty #mentalhealth #panic #exposureresponseprevention #ocdrecovery #mindfulness #exposuretherapy #cbt #recovery #yougotthis #psychology #selfcompassion #wecandohardthings

[areyoumadeofst0ne]

Relationship OCD is the most horrible illness in the world. Can't deal with it anymore.

[kingdogg75]

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[nancypancy99-blog]

I’m so tired of not being able to enjoy everything I have. I have so much and yet my mind has me convinced I have nothing. Nobody really cares, everyone’s just using me and I will never be good enough. I’m not good enough. I don’t deserve to be happy. When will I stop believing these fucking voices and when will I start trusting myself? 

[areyoumadeofst0ne]

Relationship OCD (ROCD)

Nothing hurts more than being tortured by your own thoughts, and being to scared to even think. I feel alone and I feel that nobody understands what I'm going through. I'm trapped in my own mind, where a voice is controlling me and there is no way out. I don't know what I did to deserve this. Nothing hurts more than not being able to determine whether you love someone, or whether you want to be with them because the voice is questioning your love constantly. Sometimes I feel like I have hit rock bottom, and I just don't know what to do. It isn't just bad thoughts, it's a physical feeling and I'm sick of crying until the point where I give myself excruciating migraines. I hate how nobody but my boyfriend takes how I feel seriously. The doctor diagnosed me with depression, and didn't listen to me when I told him I think I have a form of OCD, relationship OCD. I KNOW I have this. I question everything. I question whether I want to be with my boyfriend, whether I love him, whether he is the one. Who could not love him? He is perfect, he treats me so well, he is beautiful, he makes me laugh, he ticks all the boxes. He is all I could ever ask for. I am terrified that he is not the one. I knew 100% that he was my soulmate at the start of our relationship, there are no words to describe how complete and happy I felt. I felt as though I could do cartwheels up walls, I knew I had finally found the person I wanted to spend my life with, but never in a million years did I think I would be sitting here today feeling like this. This has been going on months now, I don't know how I've not took my own life by now. I've just been hopeful that I will break the cycle of my obsessive thoughts but every time I think I have, everything goes to shit again. I am so fucking sick of feeling this way. I am tired of asking myself "do you love him?" then answering "yes" then that torturous voice says "but do you really?" and I sit for ages questioning whether I love him or not, and whether we should break up. People say, "deep down, do you love him?" The answer is, I don't know, or no. My brain has convinced itself that I don't because of relationship OCD, it's just not that fucking simple. I am afraid of the future, in case he is not my soulmate. I am afraid that all I wished for at the start of the relationship gets thrown away in a matter of seconds. Every time a bad thought enters my head, telling me I don't love him, I say to myself "it's just OCD" but then that voice asks "what if its not OCD and these are your real thoughts?" That's when it really hurts. I repeat his name over and over in my head to remind me who he is to try to get a buzz of happiness, or a rush of love. I don't feel normal, I feel like a freak. I am trapped in a downward spiral and losing hope, I can't put on a brave face anymore.