#rocd

[asaltysquid]

Just musings on my OCD and the idea of being ripped away from yourself by your brain.

All people with ocd have my love but a special shout out to my fellow queer ocd havers whose brain decided to be an obsessive fundamentalist Christian about it.

[sadieshavingsex]

I’m tired of healing I’m tired of waiting to heal I’m tired of researching what’s wrong with me I’m tired of feeling pathologized im tired of pathologizing myself im tired of not feeling safe im tired of overanalyzing everything im tired of not being able to make a decision im

[exclusivelyhomosexual]

Turns out, I had no idea how much I fear love until someone presented me with the real thing

[scrupulosity-et-al]

OCD can target anything and everything. you're not a "weirdo" or a "freak" for getting thoughts that relate to more uncommon themes. your thoughts don't make you a bad person just because you've never heard of someone else having that thought before.

nearly everyone with OCD will, at some point, have a thought that makes them go "nobody has ever thought this before". that's just a part of having OCD. it does not make your OCD any less real and it doesn't make you a bad person

[system-of-a-feather]

Its not easy to do but a really good way once you develop the skill with OCD is when you get a really uncomfortable gross intrusive thought or image that might result in a POCD, HOCD, or ROCD reaction, just do a double take at it, blink at tour brain and go "Aight thanks for the delightful and totally wanted, totally needed image ugh /s" andleave it at that. Give it little more creedance than a "ugh" like you saw a cursed post on tumblr and moooove on.

Its easier said than done but so helpful these days

[me-you-and-my-medication]

What's past is past. Time to move on.

How Do I Stop Carrying Everything That Has Ever Happened to Me?

It's Funny How You Forget The Things In Life That Make You Happy.

Real Event OCD / Pure OCD

-- . A person with Real Event OCD may excessively ruminate about what they did or did not do in the past, which causes them excessive guilt, shame, and anxiety. They may become fixated on the event and concerned about their character, morality, and goodness. As a response, a person typically engages in compulsions that involve spending extensive time playing the event repeatedly in their minds to answer questions, gain reassurance, and find validation for their actions.

[depravitywithen]

Relationship anxiety/OCD is kicking my absolute ass right now I can't breathe

[theresistanceneverquits]

Hi I was having a relationship ocd episode so I decided to project onto some characters to cope and ended up with this exchange that is lowkey rewriting my brain patterns:

“I don’t feel…deserving of love.”

“I’m sorry. But that’s not up to you, is it.”

“No, I guess not.”

[atomicstarcorpse]

you're gentle when you touch my stomach.

I wrote something about that before, didn't I? Like I'm a rabid dog, baring my stomach in scared, restrained submission. I won't lie and say it doesn't sometimes feel like that, given all of my fear and trauma. I'm a scared dog, after all.

There are other moments, however, that I neglected to mention. Or perhaps didn't know yet in the way that I know your tics and quirks now.

I, too, like a dog, sit at your knee, reverent, content to just bask in your presence. I lay in your lap and listen to your body My head on your stomach and your fingers in my hair.

That, too, likens me to a tamed mutt. The way your fingertips twist amongst my curls, gently scratching my scalp. I lose my train of thought far too often. I close my eyes. It isn't to avoid you anymore. It's to focus, or perhaps lose myself, or maybe something else. To feel only your touch.

I wouldn't say that I am tamed. I don't think that's possible for me.

I can say that I am loved. I am loved wholly and painfully and vulnerably. I am loved gently and I am loved hot and I am loved brutally. I am loved kindly. I am a wild dog, who is too tired and scared. But above all, I am a dog who is loved.

[taysworldsss]

rocd - things i have learnt (doesnt apply to abusive or disrespectful relationships)

love is a choice. it is a decision you make everyday. some days will be easer than others. you think people who have been together for 50 years love their partner every god damn day? no. that is exhausting. sometimes tolerating them through the days they are frustrating the fuck out of you, is enough. you will feel that love again. you do not need to break up.

sometimes you wont feel the sparks on that first date, or the second, or the 5th. look at the things you want in a partner, look at who they are, not the spark disney movies have taught us to feel so soon. the spark will come and if it never does, then you wont be so worried about this relationship.

appreciate the little things. if you are anything like me, you will look at the bigger picture and judge the relationship on that. focus on the hugs they give you every morning, focus on the way they touch your thigh during parallel play. focus on the little things.

sometimes you hate them because you hate yourself. sometimes everything they do bothers you because something you are going through is bothering you. it really can just be you.

i have learnt so many more things than this but thought id start light. let me know if you want more.

[asaltysquid]

I'm on Bumble for Exposure therapy with my ROCD but lately it has just been a fun way to meet some cool queer people! (I have a platonic bar date with a drag queen soon and I'm very excited)

That being said if I WAS looking seriously and let this be a PSA:

Girl/Boy I don't care how rocking your rack is and how well you can quote the office

If you golf that's an instant left swipe for me.

One of my top date ideas is in fact absolutely obliterating your local golf course.

[sadieshavingsex]

damn I didn’t realize just how many people are truly coming over from Reddit. Wanted to just say, over the past year or so Reddit has been invaluable to me in exploring my sexuality & mental health after leaving evangelicalism and getting into a long term relationship. I’m primarily a tumblr user but I’ve def felt the impact of not being able to check out Reddit threads about relationship ocd, exvangelical life, etc. over the past few days

So I know this is a super niche group but if you’re in the #exvangelical #religioustrauma #anxiousattachment #arcsexual #rocd #relationshipanxiety #ptsd (and many more things of that nature) crowd, you’re welcome to stop by, hang out, and chat on this blog!! I’ve been really happy finding a small community of likeminded people here who have showed me that I’m not alone in these difficulties! Just wanted to let you know that you don’t have to be either <3

[nephiliam]

I don't like talking about my ocd outloud aside from complaining but this is a comfort seeking question, though i know that it is an intrusive thought

Does anyone else with Relationship oriented ocd ever get anxiety over like, not talking to someone over a certain amount of time? Like you get the horrible feeling that if you dont talk to them that moment, you never will again?

Or if you are sporadic in talking with them, they'll stop responding eventually and fade away?

I always feel like i have to or else that relationship will end due to being forgotten by that person or losing interest in it against your own will.

[jellygirlw]

retroactive jealousy is comparing yourself to their ex. nitpicking all the details on why they are so much more attractive, and why he probably found her so hot. it’s imagining disgusting scenarios of them in your head and wanting to throw up. it’s your kind being taken up by their exs. it’s their ex being the only thing you think about. it’s wanting to ask questions and questions you don’t want to know the answer to

[cloudofocd]

"When stuck with ROCD it is important to remember- -Constantly venting to your partner usually puts a strain on the relationship. -Try and have compassion for your partners during the OCD struggle, it’s not easy understanding OCD when you don’t have it. -Partners are not obligated to understand OCD, they are human and will naturally get frustrated at times particularly if they are the center of compulsions."

-robert bray, ocdrecovery

[me-you-and-my-medication]

--- "PURE O" OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER.

Pure O, also known as purely obsessional OCD, is a form of OCD marked by intrusive, unwanted, and uncontrollable thoughts (or obsessions). While someone experiencing Pure O may not engage in obvious behaviors related to their intrusive thoughts, such as counting, arranging, or hand-washing, the disorder is instead accompanied by hidden mental rituals.