#right time: caleb

[themightyzwei]

@criticalstories sent from Caleb for Nott...

"Do you honestly think that now is the right time for this conversation?"

"Well, it's not like we're doing anything else..." Nott mused, looking at their surroundings. There's wasn't much to help out with freeing themselves from the iron chains and shackles they had found themselves in. Nott wondered if this was an Iron Shepard situation, but knew Caleb was probably thinking the same thing... But that wasn't what she really wanted to talk about.

She was fairly certain, if that's what this was... she wasn't going to make it out alive.

"All the same, Caleb, if I don't make it out of here alive... well, there's something important I need to tell you..."

[stealingpotatoes]

Is it possible to ask for another kanan and cal doodle? obsessed with how u draw their dynamic in the fix it au. crying over both of them having a friend who Gets it

it so is bc i will take ANY chance to draw these two

(commission info // tip jar!)

[pocketgalaxies]

cannot imagine being caleb widogast btw and having such a fixed view of yourself as this irredeemable monstrous man who wishes for nothing more than to atone for the unatonable while also questioning whether you even deserve to live long enough to do so and then befriending this girl who is notorious for never sparing anyone's feelings when she has something to say and has, since you've known her, intentionally rebuilt herself from the ground up into someone who is real and direct and honest even when it hurts, and for her to lean forward and look into your eyes and say, with a magnitude of brutal honesty that only she could muster, that it Wasn't Your Fault.

[xinyuehui]

Puppy eyes υ´• ﻌ •`υ

[itsohh]

EXCLUSIVE AFTERTASTE: CALEB'S METAL ARM

[humanjarvis]

more sylus vs caleb thoughts

random little musings i jotted down during my workday lol. just my personal ramblings and interpretations, not proofread

preface: i don't think that caleb has an approach to life that sylus can appreciate. and i think that no matter their similarities, their dislike for each other ultimately stems from the fundamentals, which are what lengths are they willing to go to—what boundaries that sylus respects above all is caleb willing to cross. they have been traumatized and persecuted in similar ways but developed clashing ideologies after the fact

appearance: caleb doesn’t worry too much about his appearance as long as you like it. he’ll let you pick out his clothes and dress him like a doll. he keeps himself fit and well-groomed, both for pilot reasons and because he thinks it’s the best shape for him to be in, but that’s about as much attention he spares his own looks. it’s not that he doesn’t care, but as someone with little self-worth, it’s just not in his nature to ~waste his energy thinking about it. if you’re happy, he’s happy. sylus isn’t vain, but he’s more concerned with how he looks and more interested in fashion. caleb will wear whatever uniform he has at that stage in life—aerospace academy, daa, fleet, etc.— with indifference, but i’d like to think that sylus sees clothes as a way to express himself after years of not having the freedom to and is meticulous about his wardrobe. 

spending: now that i think about it, sylus’s clothes and other expensive tastes may be 1) a way to compensate for the lack of access he had to those things as a persecuted youth and 2) just. a reflection of his willingness to spend money on himself. he can surround himself with the finer things without hesitation or issue, without questioning if he deserves it. i feel like caleb is more reluctant to do so, e.g., when mc sent him safety tips because his hair dryer was damaged to the point of being hazardous and he hadn’t bought a new one yet. he’ll lay money at mc’s feet, for sure, but the concept of spending it on himself just isn’t something that really occurs to him. it doesn’t cross his mind much, but when it does, he might even find it wasteful

decision-making: caleb is happy to make choices for you. sylus will leave it up to you, question if you really want his opinion, and subtly give you his preference when you say yes

working together?: they’re both ambitious and goal-oriented. sylus is used to working with people he doesn’t like, and caleb is unwilling to be seen as, and feel like, the lesser man. so i think they could overcome their differences and work together quite well potentially, if they shared a common interest 

how their dislike manifests: sylus’s dislike is more muted, mainly because he’s a more emotionally secure character. he doesn’t actively hate caleb without a specific reason, and he’s too self-assured to feel jealous, really. he wouldn’t trade his life or appearance for caleb’s, but it would be nice for mc to view him with the same outright trust and comfort she views caleb with. caleb actively dislikes sylus (though he may conceal it). he sees sylus as a threat to his relationship with mc (it’s less that he doesn’t trust her and more of his own thought that he doesn’t deserve her), but also to his capacity to provide for her and his duty to keep her safe. because even if he thinks himself undeserving, her satisfaction and wellbeing are still his to facilitate, just as he thinks they’ve always been. which is why i am interested in how he’d react to knowing that sylus was pulling strings and protecting her when they were both children. because imagine the person you think you’ve kept safe for years and your reason for existing is only alive because of another man’s care

thrill-seeking: someone mentioned that sylus and caleb are both thrill-seekers, and definitely yes. in my head though i make the distinction that sylus's approach is more typical in that does it for the actual adrenaline, e.g., when he backflips out of the plane in freefall gambit just for the hell of it. but caleb does it to feel alive—because otherwise he does not. in one of his texts from when the player doesn’t log in for 30 days, he says he was critically ambushed by a wanderer but ended up being glad about it because battle is the only he still feels alive in mc’s absence. 

detachment and experiencing pleasure: i personally think there is something…hollow about caleb. and i’m not saying he doesn’t have the right to be with all that’s happened to him, but there’s this numbness and detachment in the back of his mind (even before the chip, imo). there are certain things he just doesn’t care about, certain social courtesies he doesn’t entertain. he sees an old friend whose name he didn’t care to remember, he speaks a little too harshly to non-mc people, he’ll sabotage others with no remorse if he sees fit. i think sylus is just able to derive joy out of more things, which is impressive considering all that’s happened to him. like watching animals in the park/on tv, reveling in the nightlife of the n109 zone, playing games with luke and kieran—he gets genuine happiness/enjoyment from those non-mc things, while caleb’s pleasure from the same activities would be a bit…stilted? there’s just something missing.

self-worth and motivation: sylus values himself outside of mc, caleb doesn’t. going back to the 30 days text, i truly think that if mc were ever to leave, sylus would recover because he has the intrinsic motivation to. he has hobbies, he has passions, he has onychinus, and he finds those things personally rewarding. it’s nice to share them with mc, but he doesn’t do them because of her. but caleb’s motivation is more extrinsic—he does things primarily because of mc, to win her smiles and avoid her tears. he might have so little intrinsic motivation that the lines kind of blur and his extrinsic motivation becomes that. mc’s smiles become personally rewarding. her happiness and safety become his own because, going back to what i touched on in my white blood cell comparison, he finds it hard to have an identity outside of her. he questions why he needs to. he thinks about himself in relation to her. so without her presence, without an adequate amount of any kind of motivation, without any kind of self-worth, i don’t think he’d last

pity: this one is interesting. going back to the hollowness—the extent to which they can feel and enjoy non-mc things—i think that if sylus and caleb sat down and shared their life stories with one another—gladiating, experiments, explosions, persecution—sylus would pity caleb. be genuinely sorry that he’s lived such a sad life. but i’m not sure that caleb would do the same. i think he’s so jaded from his life never really being his own that he hears about sylus’s misfortunes and he’s just like yeah, that happens. doesn’t even blink. that’s just the way the world is for him. and combined with the resentment and jealousy he already feels toward him i think pity would just be salt in the wound lol, he’d hate it

class differences, ethics, and the origins of power: caleb resents sylus for the ease with which & the extent to which he can provide for mc. but i’m wondering if he’d also look down on the way sylus amassed his wealth & power: crime and killing and illegal dealings. obviously with caleb being installed as the fleet colonel his hands aren’t clean either, but that wasn’t exactly his decision. pre-fleet, caleb was working summer jobs in high school just so he could buy gifts for mc. he also went through a rigorous flight school and excelled in it—which was because of his own love for flying and desire to be a pilot, but also fed by his need to be able to fly mc to safety if something were to happen. so sylus and caleb both spent their lives preparing for potential threats to mc, both dedicated time to learning skills and building what wealth they could to eventually make her happy, but there’s that difference in how they went about it. i feel like, at least internally, caleb would kind of scorn and delegitimize sylus’s success—not because he actually cares about the ethics of it, he couldn’t care less about sylus breaking the law (he’ll do the same if necessary)—but because that success is being used to provide for and protect mc. pre-fleet caleb was trying to make an earnest living and do everything by the book so he could give mc a sense of normalcy, and then sylus just swoops in with his motorbike and blood money and thinks he has the right to do the same? he’s busting his ass every day, but one shady deal and sylus has already exceeded everything he’s worked to attain? he resents that. he is somewhat jealous. but he resents it

hm. they both dream of a world where they can live peacefully with mc. but sylus’s world would have more than 2 people in it

this is too long and has no direction so i will cut it here ❤️

[keii]

Caleb's interesting peekabook sweater lol

[veththeebrave]

if your only response to this is "I don't like to imagine Veth cheating!" you can go ahead and scroll past this poll it's not for you. and if you think imagining fictional characters cheating on each other is evil and I'm evil you can do us both a favor and block me. peace and love on the planet earth talk to me about veth rarepairs

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

i legitimately think the only scenario i would write for an omegaverse au is one where your childhood friend becomes an alpha and expects you to — naturally — become his omega (he’s loved you forever. taking care of you is as natural as breathing.) but you end up as a beta instead and he just has to deal with that

[rafayelsbelovedbride]

So originally I was sort of annoyed that Caleb talks so often about his and mc’s childhood whatevers, thinking it was maybe a manipulation tactic to ignore how shady he’s been since coming back but considering mc’s condition I started to wonder if maybe he keeps bringing up their past together as a surefire way to know she’s been safe since the last time meeting. Between now and the last time they’ve met she still remembers everything, so she hasn’t been harmed maybe that’s why he asks

YES but also this is how his myth ended.

The only thing preventing Toring chip from modifying Caleb's memories/feelings 100% is his childhood memories with MC. That's the memory Caleb put the black hole into. That's where the Toring chip's control vanishes. He needs to hold onto his past with MC to be able to hold onto his sense of self.

If the Toring chip reaches that area without getting sucked into a blackhole, the professor will have full control over him. Not only his memories, he will forget his feelings for MC.

And maybe MC is also a part of the key to that lock in his head. Maybe that's also a part of the reason she's going to be in danger even if people don't know she was the child that was experimented on.

Maybe, as long as she remembers, he can be reminded of his feelings for her even if he loses control. Maybe he needs someone to remind him who he is, just like how he reminded MC whenever she lost her memories when they were little.

Those memories are his anchor. That gravitational pull is where everything starts and where everything eventually ends.

[apple-lovey]

Mini rant-

At this point I just want Caleb’s event to be over…i love him so much but anytime the spotlight’s on him there’s always so much hate that comes along😭

Twitter is a hell hole for Caleb lovers. Ever since his event was announced its been nonstop complaining and arguments. ( ig i can kinda understand SOME of the complaints from people but like why couldn’t they complain before or at least when his event is ALMOST DONE. There’s nothing wrong with criticizing but at LEAST give us Caleb girls a breather. Its been nonstop on twitter since the event came out)

I know I shouldn’t let hate lessen my enjoyment of this event but it kinda has. 😔

I can’t wait till he’s event is done. I just want peace😭

[syluses]

bro sylus tries to take things all nice & slow and please & worship u.. but then u tell him u love him and he busts prematurely

[callmetippytumbles]

The moment in your Love and Deepspace hyperfixation brainrot when you thought that by being an Xavier girlie you had picked the safest, softest boi and not…THE LITERAL GENESIS OF ALL THE FUCKING PROBLEMS.

What do you mean that my light-haired soft boi caused the deep space rift, the increase in wanderers, The Chronorift Catastrophe and is THE reason why Earth becomes inhabitable and we have to run away to Philos?

This guy?

My sweet, innocent, sexually deviant baby boi? He did all of this?

Oh, forgot to mention…remember all of that stuff I mentioned earlier? Yeah. Did I not mention that it’s also a fucking time loop? Yeah. It’s a fucking timeloop. This mofo LITERALLY BROKE TIME.

[boxeom]

If I see one more mf that's like "why is Caleb always talking about the past, it's so annoying"- THAT IS ALL HE HAS‼️YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND HIM LIKE I DO‼️ THAT'S LIKE SAYING "oh man, why the hell is Xavier so weird about mc liking Lumiere lol that's so weird it's almost like he spent his entire life being seen as anything but himself and he wants the one person who truly sees him to know him as Xavier and nothing else-" HAVE THOUGHTS IN UR HEAD

[breadtteok]

surprised by 13 notifications in moments !!

also why is xavier picking a fight.... i can take u starboy

[camradacheri]

we need a card where caleb and mc do a duet and sing “as long as you’re mine” from wicked