#roll out of bed and just go
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i'm hella tired, working on something I can't share (yet). so here's a fact you didn't ask for: I draw almost everyone bald. Sometimes they're fully rendered, and I like to hide sparkles under hair layers. If I skip the bald phase I will suffer and no longer understand how hair works.
Every have the urge to completely shave your head? Just do it ✨ But be careful - once you've tasted true freedom, you may never go back.
#mtas oc#mtas#my time at sandrock#clip studio paint#fanart#bald head#yeah i shave my head IRL#i'm not a poseur#i have a full head of hair i want to laser off but i am bound to my clippers#roll out of bed and just go#save so much money on hair products#please moisturize and use sunscreen though#one of the best things is feeling unfettered breeze#you have no idea how the wind feels until you're bald#i really wish i could sleep
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Sometimes at work it's not my place to tell people the things I want to say, and I find I often go home at the end of the rougher days to stand blankly in my shower and tell myself over and over what I wish I could pass on.
This accomplishes very little, and mostly just gives me a tension headache, but through it all I think I've narrowed myself down to a few solid things I'd like to tell people the most.
You can't change people. Not permanently, not for anythig. You can support them, encourage them, love them, give them tools and opportunities and resources, but you can't make them change. They can change themselves if they want to, but they have to want to, and they have to want it for themselves, because they're the only one that's certain to be with them forever.
For better or worse, you make your own choices, and blaming bad choices on others doesn't only work to absolve you of responsibility- it also robs you of control. Because if you say you only did something because I did something, then you arent only shifting blame- you're admitting that you cannot control yourself, that you cannot truly make choices for yourself, that other people can control you- and as long as you truly beleive that, you'll keep facing the same problems over and over. You'll keep letting others dictate your choices, because you'll beleive that they can, and you'll never be free.
White knights on horseback are from fairytales. Nobody can help you if ou're not willing to help yourself. To try, to put the dirty work in, to belive you're worth that effort- Act as though nobody is coming to save you. From a struggle, from pain, from bad relationships, from yourself. And when you do save yourself, because you will, because failure here isn't an option if you want to survive, you'll never find another dragon that can keep you prisoner.
Don't say anything to anyone that you wouldn't want them remembering forever.
Doing the right thing in bad circumstances is hard. It's the hardest thing. But if you make the choice to do that hard thing anyways, despite your fear, you'll go on the rest of your like knowing that you're the sort of person who did something.
The present only seems the hardest because the past I over and the future hasn't happened.
There's so much joy ahead of you, the kind you can't possibly understand until you see it yourself.
The responsibility of consequences is often disguised as the power of permission. "I won't do this if you help me", "I'll work on my anger if you do this for me", "I promised you I'd quit, but can I have just one?". The unspoken question is, "Can it be your fault if this goes badly?"
You cant make someone love you the way you need to be loved. Someone can love you very much and still be bad for you, even if you love them very much in return. Two people can love each other very, very much, and try their very best, and still be wrong for each other.
Sometimes being near to someone changes you, even in good ways, and the people you become don't fit together as well as the people you were.
Caring takes work. Even if it's real. Especially if it's real. And the most important gestures aren't the grand, poetic, songs-and-flowers-and-tears moments; they're getting out of bed even though you don't want to. Paying attention to things you don't enjoy. Scrubbing pans, or opening a window, saying "thank-you", or helping carry groceries into the house. The small things fill the big things- without the small, boring, mediocre things, big things feel hollow.
Thrre is honour and dignity in humble work.
If you are a cruel and spiteful person, then you will find every place you visit to be full of the same cruel, spiteful people. This is not because the world is as cruel as you, but because everywhere you are, you will be disliked. This is the curse that comes with being persistently cruel and spiteful.
If you are a kind and ppsitive person, you will repeatedly encounter kind and positive people, because as they grow familiar with you, they will be happier to have you near. This is the reward of being a kind and positive person.
When splitting paths with loved ones, briefly or forever, aim for your last words to always be "I love you".
#I'm still so young and ignorant#but I wish someone had told ME these things before I had to learn them#And now when shit goes south and everything is over and calm again the same things just roll though my head#Over and over and over#It's like everyone I meet has the same 3 problems and its ruining their lives#I just want to take everyone I meet by the shoulders and shake them#I KNOW why this is happening to you#Do you realize you can be better?#Do you realize you can do it?#Aren't you terrified of wasting your life like this?#*I* want to be happier#*I* used to be so much worse than I am#And I don't have it all figured out#But if we all decide to help ourselves then it'll be that much easier to help each other#Right?#It's so hard to lift dead weight#You need to kick against the waves with me#You need to WANT to float#Do you understand#Ugh it's 6am#This has been your overdramatic midnight ramble#Imma grill me a cheese and go back to bed#Blaurfhgh
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Kuroshitsuji AU where the Phantomhive massacre never happened; Ciel did grow up to be a priest in the Phantomhive territory just as his twin brother wanted, and he kept having to exorcise demons from the body of a man named Sebastian.
Sebastian is a very attractive man—and a very successful toy store owner too; just like Ciel’s childhood dream, isn’t that such a coincidence? He’s very kind to Ciel—probably out of gratefulness for helping him—and Ciel quickly finds himself falling in love and sharing a special connection with the man, it’s just a shame that Sebastian seems to keep getting possessed by demons way too often than people normally do, doesn’t he? It’s like he just gets repossessed by demons as an excuse to keep seeing the little priest.
#sebastian staging a fake possession every week so he can keep seeing ciel#had to dramatically roll up his eyes until it’s all white and throw up black goo before collapsing to the floor; such pain and hardwork#and of course he has to pretend to be weak for a while so ciel must put him in bed and worry over him by his bedside for just a bit#and then it’s ‘I’m so thankful of you for helping me Father Phantomhive please allow me to bring you dinner as thanks’#it’s probably also a ‘coincidence’ that sebastian keeps getting possessed at just the right timing to invite ciel to dinner the next day#sebastian having a toy store; and he keeps bringing ciel toy samples and telling him how the business is going#ciel having fun discussing with him how to increase sales and solve problems in the store#ciel falling in love and starting to think how good it must be like to quit his job and just run the store with sebastian#yes the toy store is BAIT#poor ciel gets conned into fake exorcisms every week just so sebastian can keep having his weekend dinner dates#when ciel finds out; oh sebastian you are so DEAD#feel free to decide how long sebastian must grovel until ciel forgives him#kuroshitsuji#black butler#sebastian michaelis#ciel phantomhive#sebaciel#kuroshitsuji AU idea but i don’t know how to write fics so the reader must make it all up in their own heads; thank you very much
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i fear i’m falling victim to the sakuatsu brainrot again.
#they’re just SJCOXUDUEIEOWPQM BDJCHSAHGSHRGSGAGR#i’m literally going insane. i was rolling around in bed literally giggling out loud and thrashing while reading a skts fanfic that i have#ALREADY READ. MULTIPLE TIMES. IT GETS ME EVERY TIME IM UNWELL#EVERY SONG IS ABOUT THEM AGAIN GODDDDDD OH MY GOD IM GOING TO CHEW THEM UP AND TEAR THEM TO SHREDS AND MAKE THEM PLAY HOUSE LIKE THEYRE MY#BARBIE DOLLS I AM LOSING IT#sakuatsu#reymbles
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Stay at home dad and artist on commission Keefe
#kotlc#keeper of the lost cities#keefe sencen#sokeefe#he watches him and sophie's 5 year old little boy and 11 year old girl (she's currently applying for Foxfire) while sophie works#he does his own art pieces along with commissions at home#and the little boy can teleport so he's constantly dropping in on sophie and fitz at their job#(it's related to them being cognates or something idk)#and keefe has a panic attack because he looked away for one second to add a detail to his sketch and now his kid's gone#their kid drops into sophie's arms (or right outside the door of the building she works at)#and sophie gives him an eye roll and a disappointed look for freaking his father out and interrupting her#(he has absolutely appeared when she was in a super important meeting)#this is all based on the assumption that elves don't have some kind of basic schooling before foxfire or other schools like it#when he appears back at their residence (their leapmaster floor has an open roof for teleportation)#keefe is standing there frantically ready to catch him#and their girl (im shit with names) is standing there giving him a look like “I thought you weren't scared of anything”#and he's just caught the kid and is trying to rock him to sleep cause teleporting is tiring for a 5 year old#but he humors her while walking down the hall to his bedroom#“who said i wasn't?” “i do” “why?”#“nobody who actually beat an ogre would be scared of their child teleporting away”#“you'd be surprised”#(she doesn't beleive he actually fought dimitar and thinks it's an elaborate inside joke between sophie him and queen ro)#so they keep going back and forth with him being vague about the details because while he did beat dimitar#he is absolutely exaggerating all the details#“keefe you can't tell our kids you punched dimitar and he immediately surrendered” “please” “no”#and then they get to his room on the second floor and he shushes her so he can place the sleeping boy in his bed#i have so many thoughts about future sokeefe actually
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Can I complain on this website?
I want to complain.
#:(#ouchie#I just threw my back out by sneezing too hard#I can't even roll over in bed#like#wth#I have to go to the bathroom but I can't get up#I burnt lunch too
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hey psst! what if bitb but its a dvd cover/poster sorta thing?
also methinks that all the other jrwi campaigns are just different shows/movies in the PD universe :D
#rolan turned out like shit imo but whateverr#its 3am i need to go to bed lmaoo#my art#jrwi bitb#jrwi rand#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi podcast#jrwi#timothy rand#just roll with it#rolan deep#kian stone#jrwi kian#jrwi rolan#jrwiblr#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi pd#jrwi vyncent#vyncent sol#bitb#tw blood
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but have any of us considered the jacemond au that could save us all?


#nerdy loner aemond with his equally nerdy but well known social butterfly boyfriend jace#everyone kinda sits and wonders how their relationship even works#aemond’s impulsive and temperamental with insults for days#while jace is charming and sweet unless provoked into being otherwise#they bicker as a form of foreplay#and share stolen kisses in the library#but the most fun happens in the dorm rooms during their study dates#bouns points if jace’s roommate comes back to aemond all tuckered out in jace’s bed while jace is just sitting at his computer desk#in aemond’s sweats and his ‘this is how i roll’ t-shirt and causally going ‘hey’#like he didn’t ride that man to sleep#jacemond#jaemond#aemond x jacaerys#aemond targaryen#jacaerys velaryon#modern au
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there really is something about growing up with a mom who (almost) never wore makeup and becoming an adult who (almost) never wears makeup that causes all of your ocs to be barefaced
#if i have an oc and have not specified that they wear makeup you MUST assume that they do not on a daily basis (may for special occasions)#ella wears makeup ('natural' but also a red lip girl). alina wears light makeup daily. mmmmmmm that's it for the daily makeup crew#everyone else is special occasions (if that - you won't get andy or syd in makeup ever) i think#(almost) all of these women are just rolling out of bed and going places. as they should
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I adore urge X Shadowheart so much. They’re both amnesiacs, start evil but work their way through, both have very emotional and stressful shit going on, and their own gods be damned they see the good in one another. They are going to save each other.
#they share each others bed rolls sometimes#what more do you want#:)#shadowheart x durge#Urgeheart#durge x shadowheart#shadowUrge?#shadowheart hallowleaf#bg3#baldur’s gate 3#shadowheart#I need to come up with an OTP for Kane and shads#mmmmm#soon it will be spring?#have faith or pandemonium??#these suck#come on I can make something good#I’m just going through their playlist rn#while sweet dreams rest you?#I won’t need to wait for my share of sorrow?#you’re the key to my peace of mind?#sometimes me fall in the dark?#we look better in the dark?#I love thee act not so surprised?#I can hear you say my name?#I’m always walking as somebody else?#I would find a way?#orchids and lotuses?#man these really suck#I’ll figure it out eventually
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#when you relax a little too hard and babe has to literally pull you out of bed :')#i woke up at 4. used the bathroom. took another oxy and went back to bed#rolled onto my belly to relax my back + leg muscles after lying on my side for hours straight#fell asleep immediately (this never happens). woke up at 6 and couldn't move/roll because all my back muscles were stiff and painful#babe was getting ready for his first morning shift in two weeks. asked him to quickly pull me out of bed before he left#so now i'm walking around the house. trying to loosen up my back#i'm sooo tired haha. going back to bed in a minute but i'm just gonna lie on my side on the edge of the bed#anyway. note to self to not relax too hard when you're recovering from back surgery 😂
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david pastrňák in his iihf headshot for some reason

#idk why i made this#just…can’t stop thinking about that photo#she just woke up#like she rolled out of bed and let the cameras go to work#like why did he look like that#hockey fuckery#iihf worlds 2025
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see but no amount of sleep will ever be enough HAVE I NOT LEARNED?
#i want to sleep a week straight and i can't i can't i can't#me: “ah my ONE DAY OFF TOMORROW” my appointment: *beating me over the head with a crowbar*#i always go “oh i love being busy it keeps me motivated yes my three year plan to get out of the us”#then i actually throw myself into it and my mental health becomes deeply affected#best believe when i get home after work tonight i will be hit with a bout of insomnia#which is fine i have college applications to work on (i should have graduated already but SOMEONE had a mental break and couldn't handle#being a psych major anymore it's fine i am fine my happiness is fleeting and why did i get a second job i'm going to stab someone)#i just want to sleep without consequences but nooooooo i roll out of bed and curse that i cracked my eyes open#everyone pray for me i am in peak survival mode rn my only motivation is getting the hell out of here and never looking back#rambles#personal#this becomes another slew of issues i have changed my major three times i finally found something i like and it doesn't feel like enough
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The neighbours are listening to music so loud I can hear it clearly while wearing earplugs with my windows all shut. It’s almost 1am. Should I kill them
#and the ads on whatever radio station it is are even louder than the music#aaaand my neighbourhood is not safe enough that I want to be walking up to someone’s house and telling them they’re too loud#I don’t know these neighbours but it’s the same ones that fucking smoke all day on weekends#so I can’t have fresh air in my own bedroom bc if the windows are open my room floods with cigarette smoke#the inconsiderate assholes..#I feel like a grumpy old man complaining abt this but im so tired i just want to sleep and they’ve kept me up for hours now#I get extra sensitive to noise when im tired and if a noise is annoying me I cannot relax and sleep#I struggle enough to sleep already without this going on. I was on a roll this week with going to bed early and now it’s kinda ruined#I was going to sleep at like 11pm for a hot minute there and now im 2 hours off the mark#can’t wait to move out and hopefully live somewhere that isn’t near neighbours. I hate this place
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okay, so this is very common, and i wanna complain about it
i hate when you're told to do something supposedly easy, and the disorder or disability you have that makes it not easy is ignored
#ableism#like yeah cool “just go to sleep earlier” well the going part works but the sleep part doesnt#“just stand up. why do you always have to sit? i know you can stand up” roll around on the floor for 2 hours. i know you can. oh it makes y#excessively uncomfortable and isn't worth it? and despite being able to force yourself into it that has bad health consequences?#well fucking imagine how i feel#“just get out of bed already” FUCKING GUESS WHAT IM TRYING TO DO and your judgement only makes it more difficult#also included is stimming. also coping mechanisms
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#ok blessings!#I had a very good day actually I was just feeling cranky earlier because pain and talking to relatives. writing to remind my future self.#so!#had a 6 hr shift at work (busy but good for morale because the patients were all nice to me)#came home ate leftover curry and naan for lunch changed out of my scrubs and immediately left for town#(speaking of scrubs..I got new scrubs! they're a gorgeous dark berry color and so comfy and so many big pockets!)#hung out with one of my good friends. we laughed a lot and ran around by the river.#and went to a bookstore and then got tea!#and then in the little rock and roll shop#we ran into a girl I knew in middle school and we got to catch up! sometimes seeing old friends is awkward but this was chill.#and she said I should come back and chat next week! very fun.#also I did so much walking between work and the trail that my legs are sore which is DELIGHTFUL. I haven't worked out in an age.#yapped with my dad for an hour about music! I'm slowly but surely going to get him to like dnd via the sound design of worlds beyond number#now sitting down to answer some asks and then maybe watch some tv and go to bed.#I am so overjoyed and thankful that spring is in the air! even when we get another cold snap we'll just Know it's so so close!!#does marvels for my mood!!#praising God for the best week I've had in a while.#and also that most of my friends seem to be also doing better#this winter was just a Lot and I think we're all relieved and thankful to be looking forward to spring.#blessings#diary
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