#self Cate

[lunalunalunalunalunaluna]

"i'm healing" - me after downloading 75 bootleg eurobeat songs

[francesderwent]

something that I think the “have fun and be yourself” discourse tends to miss is that it’s all very well saying do whatever you want and don’t worry about what people think because the people who judge you aren’t worth your time, but sometimes you choose to act normal because you have a task to do or you’re in a conversation that you care about, and having to stop in the middle for your interlocutor to say bewilderedly “but why did you do that in such a quirky way” would be wasting time and getting off topic. choosing to act normal to avoid that is not being inauthentic out of unhealthy fear of censure. it’s just prudence.

[boleynecklace]

everytime i think abt cate blanchett and joseph fiennes as elizabeth & robert dudley in elizabeth (1998)

[magic-glasses]

A fandom isn’t complete without corny memes like this so I had to 😭

[toomanyopinionss]

Scattered thoughts after watching the finale of GEN V

Spoilers Ahead

i forgot how ANGRY homelander makes me. like i haven’t seen that awful mf in my screen in a minute but the candle full of rage i hold for this man is clearly not snuffed out. mr. how to ruin everything in 45 seconds or less. fvck homelander

lord, and the RACISM of this whole thing just has me so fvcking heated, because of course the two pretty cis white kids are the heroes (even though one of them supposed to be dead according to public records, and the other ones boyfriend killed the mf principal) and not the top ranked kids in school, three of which are poc and queer (possibly all queer, emma gives off a vibe). like emma, marie, jordan, and andre are arguably 4 of the most decent students on this campus. the only thing marie has done is fucking exist, and the world has just delivered nothing but awfulness to her. gtfo of here, im so upset.

if the term “morally gray” was a universe it would be this one. cause fuck indira but fuucccckkkkk homelander.

if they don’t do right by andre, im going to be so pissed. the fact that this episode showcased the most of him we’ve seen as a character and it was still half-assed?? i want moreeee

bruh, i know in the battle between action/drama and romance, that the former has to take precedence in this type of story, but even emma and sam got a fucking conversation. are you so serious? limoreau didn’t have time for a 2 minute discussion about their relationship??? the writers could have added a couple more minutes to this 30 minute episode? it’s been CRICKETS y’all, and i demand reparations. i mean we’re not gonna see them again for another, what… 2 years??The jordan and marie moments are so cute, don’t get me wrong, but they are minuscule after episode 5. I be having to run to fan fiction just to satisfy my need for emotional closure. do better

CATE. now ms. gorl, we were rooting for you. and you went and made a mess of things. and quite frankly, trying to get to jordan destroyed my last string of patience for her ass, and it was already fraying the minute she messed with sam. i am officially un-identifying as a cate apologist. if we bein honest, marie should have gone for the other hand too.

bruh, lowkey loved sam’s arch this episode, i don’t know. his character intrigues me, and he’s been through so much stuff, i just wanna give him a hug. When he said “I hate myself.” i felt like crying. homelander needs to keep his greasy no good, bloody mf hands off of him, i swear

Ok this is getting lengthy

i love this show and it’s characters, for the record, in case that wasn’t clear lol

8.5/10

[brainrotdotorg]

i want to draw. soona and neha. on a date. n soona's got a nice button down on. and neha is in. a sundress. and they. are holding hands and perhaps enjoying ice cream. maybe they go to a boardwalk arcade and neha wins soona some spider rings with the tickets she got from skee ball. and then they listen to some music together at home

[sleepynegress]

On GEN V...

First, I have to say that though I watch The Boys, for me the skewering of power, and it being always corrupt/corruptable, especially when corporate was smudged a bit by all the white dudes being centered by the narrative and fandom, and certain expected patterns in that.

...i.e. Butcher and Soldier Boy and Homelander...ALL being stanned while all being terrible people. -Mother's Milk and Frenchie being side kicks (the Black man and the "foreigner") and the silent but deadly Asian girl... You get it. I hate that this is the case, but even when meant to subvert, this tends to happen.

So, it's interesting that they leaned in harder and made it MORE obvious this time, by literally blowing up the Golden White Guy (played by Swartzanegger's son, no less) at the end of the pilot episode and playing a Black woman's gaze as the entry point into this angle on the world. ...We saw how that went with Star Trek: Discovery. Those used to the Dursley 37 birthday presents treatment were and still are REAL mad. I hate to say it, especially given how unusually well this show is rendering the insecurities and challenges of this time for young adults, but some people we like are not gonna make it through this season... And it won't be pretty when they go (holds a halo of protection over Emma & Jordan).

...But Marie, a.k.a. the audience's gaze? is safe. That said, Marie is *also* written like the usually centered white dude, just like Micheal Burnham before her. Her arc is "the hero's journey." She stumbles, but ultimately she will measure up to the highest potential (one of, if not the most powerful hero) even she can't see yet... TW for this section... for self-harm/eating disorders etc... The powers being spot-on metaphors for the struggles and insecurities of young people is a nice writing choice. Marie's puberty/power advent literally killed her parents and alienated her sister. So, of course, she can't truly see the potential. There's ritualistic self-loathing in both her cutting and Emma's vomiting to use their powers and that is mostly imposter syndrome for both....Both of them are SO MUCH more powerful than they think, but are held back by parental baggage.

...Andre too, though instead of self-harm it's being lazy about his power development, to subconsciously detach his own personhood from his father trying to live through him.

Jordan Li is bigender but is most comfortable presenting "femme", which may also have to do with detaching from their parents' preferences in gender presentation for them. They want a super-powered son. But the only times Li presents that way is when they feel they absolutely *have to* or actively need to do something and only can, in that form. "Relaxed" or default Jordan is femme.

So, while I see people wishing Li would have been femme Li in that first kiss, it makes sense that they would shift, given the baggage and male presentation preference pressure they grew up with. They shifted back to "default" Li once they were relaxed...i.e. afterglow slumber... An interesting inferred detail is that Li was born presenting male. That is likely a big reason why their parents are that attached to a masc gender presentation.

Now Cate's arc, just like the Golden Boy Luke is actively subverting an element of expected whiteness. Her power is to compel people with touch. It's white women's tears as a superpower, which is IMO, the most clever power social metaphor in this franchise. Cate's moral compass is the strongest of the superheroes we've seen in the entire Boys universe so far. She's got those actual Karen powers, but she's the anti-Karen.

She avoids using her power non-consensually in ways that cause permanent harm and even consensually in ways that may help, and given her entry point (similar to Marie, but w/o closure), it makes sense. --This is all the more tragic if she's being used in the way I suspect...given her nightmare/flashback in those opening eps. to having been in "The Woods" (I think it's either she or whoever the puppet show person is in Sam's episodes, that is the reason for the blackouts). She's a Pusher, and much like Andy in Stephen King's Firestarter it takes a heavy toll on the brain...

She's probably not gonna make it through this season, yall. Anyway, all this to say... I am intrigued by this show. And fully invested in these characters. And I like it better than The Boys because it's leaning harder into alienating the elements it's satirizing... The Boys fans are still into the aspects of the show The Boys' narrative is skewering, but Gen V is saying much louder, this is not about you.

[father-lance]

[KISS ME]

[I’M FEELING SO MUCH BETTER]

[KISS ME]

[AND I CAN MAKE YOU STRONG]

[HIDE HIDE]

[I’LL FIND YOU SOON ENOUGH]

[YOUR BONES WILL HARDEN]

[AND YOUR SKIN WILL SLOUGH]

- Kiss Me (Kill Me) By JerryTerry

Ya’lll Wake Up MY SELF INSERT GOT FAUCKN MOOONSCORCHED‼️‼️‼️

[francesderwent]

and the reason it all annoys me so much is it seems like people genuinely distrust any revelation that is not from a licensed psychology professional! and YES you shouldn’t be listening to the idiots making up pop psychobabble on tiktok. but ALSO the world is a created reflection of the God who is Logos and so you’re going to find truth radiating out in all kinds of places!! the Truth is always trying to speak to you!!!! maybe stop and listen!!!!!!!!!!!

[kstardust]

I can't understand myself, in a minute I'm feeling like "Oh yeah! I want to do (or try) something artistic today" but at the second after it's like "But for what? What's the point? I'm not good at anything" "What if I mess it up?" "No, that's not gonna get good" and it gets worse when someone say any comment even if it wasn't something personal, but anyway my stupid sensitive ass takes it bad and makes it personal, oh but what I do? Insolate myself 'cause that's how I manage everything. Treating myself as a shitty useless thing just because I can't say if I'm sad, angry, frustrated or everything at all. Then, at the end of all I'm sitting in bad posture, looking at the wallpaper I made with my favs artists to try feel better, writing this and wishing I was different and worthy.

Also I need to get a diagnosis and stop thinking I have ADHD, Anxiety, Depression, Mommy Issues or I'm just an INFP-T weirdo.

Exhausted of all my dumb existence.

[magic-glasses]

Apple tv if you don’t give Leland Lafayette Shaw lll a happy ending I swear to god

[dk-thrive]

I feel like it’s a genuine quest that I’m on, which I don’t fully understand myself.

Cate Blanchett, from The Elusive Power of Cate Blanchett (NY Times Magazine, October 11, 2022)

[bewitcherella]

"All this energy spent thinking you are not beautiful enough, not good enough. It's a waste. You must take all this healing energy you have and make a salve for your own heart, no? Life is too short to be so hard on yourself."

-Sweep: Calling; Book 7 by Cate Tiernan

[spinderella-umbrella]

Ten fav songs

Of all time? Of today? Of yesterday? Im just gonna do the ones I can think of listing off as favourites.

Thanks for tagging, @wanderingdonut, though I feel like this is a form of torture.

Unforgiven II - Metallica Sick and tired, I stand alone Could you be there? ’Cause I’m the one that wait’s for you (This song’s lyrics are just. Brilliant honestly. Poetry.)

Carrion - Parkway Drive Dead eyes speak in volumes, but our lips refuse to move.

Fuck - Bring me the Horizon We’re young and in love, heart attacks waiting to happen.

Fairytale - Sara Bereilles Snow White is doing dishes again cause, what else can you do with seven itty-bitty men?

I don’t Believe you - Pink The passions there, so it’s gotta be right... Right?

Lady Grinning Soul - David Bowie She will be your living end.

3005 - Childish Gambino Girl why is you lyin’, girl why you Mufasa? (I could add Gambino’s entire discography tbh)

Particles (Piano version) - Nothing but Thieves Oh, doctor please, this don’t feel right Oh, can’t you give me something, to get me through the night.

Hi, its Me - Ashnikko Take his old t-shirt off and burn it.

Crying Lightning - Arctic Monkeys (obviously) The next time that I caught my own reflection it was on it’s way to meet you, thinking of excuses to postpone

Do it. Do the thing. (But actually only if you want to and feel like it haha) @nightshift-clocking-in @anemicc-royalty @thatsbitchcraft @stonedregulus @queerregulusablack @underburningstars @deadgayfurrywizardsinthe70s

[mickstart]

Seriously where do you guys get therapists who give you wise advice and talk to you about your problems and why your brain is doing This and That and confront your childhood Trauma mine have always asked how I felt This Week and then told me to take a shower which. yes that's good advice and I need to do that but I also really need to talk to someone about my father and all the things I'm afraid to do.

[spursthatjinglejanglejingle]

For my bday my family went out to a fancy restaurant and me and my siblings drew tbh creatures all over the paper tablecloth, i drank a strawberry tequila and didn't even get buzzed and my parents were disappointed