#self improvement i guess

[g1-skywarp]

hi chat, ive been trying to """coming up with my own attempt at happiness"". basically the good news is i (try to) vent less. so dont be surprised if my blog is Extra dead.

[piosplayhouse]

[Qi Qingqi x Yu Ziyuan] What could have been

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[lookforsomeoneelse]

Safety Precautions (your half decent antivirus stops you from being summoned)

guys I think that sahsrau is all ill ever post anyway my brain juices are flowing very well (if you wanna consider this a defacto sequel to my last post, I guess you can, also I know jack about software and am just making assumptions)

It was finally time.

Everything had fallen into place.

There had been many trials and tribulations throughout its development- from testing to its implosion to pressure from everyone. There were so many resources that had been invested into the project- the life of a researcher, the sanity of those involved, billions of credits- But that didn’t compare to the reward that the universe itself would reap upon its activation. The Aeon of Guidance’s arrival was imminent- and it was only a matter of time until the rejoice of the cosmos.

Or so they thought.

The collider designed to bring you down and into their loving embraces, they discovered, had been faulty.

The desperation of your devotees had shown itself in the lack of time the researchers had spent into designing it, and so problems were bound to appear.

But now…

Maybe they won’t get that chance ever again.

After being tricked into downloading some sort of Trojan horse by some rando and having one of your accounts banned and wiped off of the respective platform, you had decided to install an antivirus in order to make sure that a situation like that wouldn’t happen again. You’re also an avid Star Rail player- which boils down to the fact that you’ve been there, done that, and have accomplished basically everything the game has to offer you. So imagine your absolute shock when you do your routine check on what your anti has fished up, and you see that Honkai: Star Rail has been flagged for malware. Holy s***. What to do now? You could write an email to Hoyoverse stating your obvious complaints, or you could post this for the community to see, or maybe…

You could just disregard it as an error.

What to do, what in the world to do?

(A/N: my brain hurts severely- I cranked this out in about 15 minutes. I’d like to ask you all what you would do in this situation.)

[youchangedmedestiel]

Leaving with memories from the future

Salty Dean 

Happy 15th anniversary 

Beautiful soul

Cosy Sunday morning

Healing guilt

Thanked as deserved

There is nothing stupid about you and me 

Need for comfort 

Inspiring Fanfiction

A gift to listen and keep

Never going to apologize for saving you

How to like Halloween and scary movies

Offering pie is the solution

Kissing you is like fireworks

Light touches

You did everything you could

My old man

Warm and soft skin

Love you babygirl

Just a small green ball

Too close to step back

A little knife to save you

Angelic bubble

You are perfect the way you are

Quit being cute! 

I can't resist you

Looking when you aren't

Dying sunset

How to make an angel of the Lord dance

Slutty boy

OCDean

Summer paradise

[akiiame-blog]

I'm sorry for the scare in my last post 🫂 I'm feeling a little better now, and I really appreciate everyone's comments and support. I always appreciate them..❤️

It'll take some time, but I really want to start improving myself asap. Never considered the possibility of me having depression until fairly recently. Seems kinda obvious looking back that I've had this feeling for a long time now.

[bobmckenzie]

💛 chilly walks home, warm kisses goodnight 🩵

[ali3nboyfriend]

tbh this isn’t so much a downside of being medicated but i’m not sure how else to describe it. but after being medicated for a few months it’s really a punch to the gut to have the realization that for all those years you could have been doing everything you wanted to do and more and this was the only thing holding you back. it’s hard not to feel like the time before becoming medicated was wasted somehow.

[lightbulb-warning]

i used to freehand comics all the time as a child and since the part i liked was the drawing part i would just draw panel after panel because i didn't want to stop drawing to think about icky icky words, plus the story TOTALLY still made perfect sense! to me! and noone else, but 'whoooo caaaaares omgggg its not like comics and sequantial art are a communicative meeediummmm lmaoooooo'. i spent my entire childhood telling myself stuff like "oh pfft I know this story by heart- ill SIMPLY remember the dialogue and write it later" ...and. I can't help but admire baby maiora's (call that a minora ba tm tsk) fucking audacity? hubris? confident wrongness? kid couldn't even remember to finish the comics in the first place? INCREDIBLE levels of unearned self assurance, wish that were me, genuinely- what an icon!!! anyway i think i have forever cursed myself

[shinesurge]

I love webcomics as a concept absolutely to pieces but genuinely I'm fascinated by how much this medium seems to be almost corrosive to us working in it. I'm probably just looking at it too close because it's what's in front of me but I wonder if we really do have more weird drama than other indie art scenes just because like, a lot of us are already mentally ill, then comics is such a punishing medium itself that the usual amount of social tension that comes from posting art online is cranked even higher. As someone with one of the Scary Social Disorders, basically everything about the way the social media spheres for webcomics operate is triggering to me and I'm positive the only thing that kept me from becoming an internet star for the day (Bad) at some point was that I chose to quit socializing in dedicated comic spaces and get therapy years ago instead of trying to stay in the thick of it lmao. Not everybody ends up having to make such a black and white decision so most people just keep hanging out in the pot until it boils.

[oh-shtars]

Would you want us to refer to AshaxSueño as Hopes and Dreams or Ashueño? Or is either okay?

I love both so I don’t really mind whatever you decide to call them.

Ashueño is short, flows very well and is kinda fun to say out loud while “Hopes and Dreams” is just the longer and fancier version ✨✨

Either way, they make me deathly ill- 💖💖

[lungfuls]

Maybe I'm projecting and being hopeful but I mentioned to M that I don't even get to shit by myself in peace lmao and I feel like something clicked for him. Bc I was like hey, at least you get private bathroom breaks at work (noncombative). And since then he's been a lot more acquiescent when I ask if I can nap and stuff

[artsandstoriesandstuff]

Ginger and Gingerbread or something, I don't know I didn't grow up with this show

[arsenicflame]

heartbreaking! the tags and summary sound like the best fic in the world but it also sounds like it completely demonises Ed :(

[stormboundscholar]

Day 2/10 of getting back on my feet

Swam 3 hours

Showered

Brushed my teeth

Read my book for a little bit

Took a power nap

Did German duolingo for 30 minutes.

Held myself back from eating too much kisir

And that was it for today!

Not very interesting or productive i know, but some days are just mediocre. I was a bit timed from swimming so i just slept a bit more than usual.

A bit anxious about the close future since some things aren't in my control and others are unknowns. Everything should work out all right though.

Have a good night everyone, and good luck with your endeavors.

[nebuladreamz]

Day 1 of the Improvement Hell Challenge: Self Portrait!

Timelapse and mini ramble under the cut

I'm gonna be so real I didn't know if I wanted to be goofy with my sona but decided fuck it we ball and just. Bullshitted a more human-look for it??? Thumbs up we're balling gamers I'm relatively happy with how this came out (not often I've been doing rim OR reflective lighting but it's all good I like to think)

To be even more real I ironically don't really. Like drawing myself?? Like the goofy doodles of my sona are goofy but being serious about it?? Hell nah <33

anyways timelapse thumbs up

[msws-art]