#she made him nervous at first and he still doesnt really understand her but he understands caring about junichiro

[thepartyishere]

Atsushi and Junichiro are each others emotional support people and they're always lowkey cuddling. Maybe they're not even romantic, just both incredibly touchy and bonded through trauma at the agency and being the same age.

[starkwlkr]

Hiiii! So I do not know if you are making requests but if you are doing can do: Charles x Reader where she is a medical student and will do an internship in formula one, Charles does not like her much until he gets hurt and have to take care of her which makes the two approach

kiss with a fist | charles leclerc

warnings: needles and blood mentions and charles being an asshole <3

Y/n was nervous. She was starting her new internship with none other than F1. She watched a couple of races, but she wasn’t a die hard fan. But she wasn’t here to watch men drive in circles, she was here to work.

When she first arrived to the paddock, she was already making enemies. She didn’t mean to, but a certain Ferrari driver had woken up on the wrong side of the bed that morning. Y/n bumped into Charles, nearly dropping his hot coffee on himself.

“I’m sorry! The photographer was backing up and I-”

“Do you not watch where you’re going? There’s all this space around you.” Charles groaned as he dropped his coffee into a trash can. “What? You want an autograph?”

Y/n rolled her eyes. “Not everyone wants your autograph. And I said I was sorry. By the way, I’m more of a Red Bull fan.” She really didn’t know anything about Red Bull to be honest. You could have someone explain every single detail of f1 and she still wouldn’t understand. All she knew was that Red Bull probably had more haters than supporters.

She quickly left Charles and walked to her boss’ office where she was supposed to meet him. Y/n was already wishing the day was over so she could go back home and bury herself in her blankets after her interaction with Charles, but she had a long day ahead of her.

“Charles Leclerc crashes into the barrier!”

Y/n watched from a monitor as Charles’ Ferrari crashed. The replay kept on going, sort of a reminder to the Ferrari fans that this season wasn’t going their way. Charles stumbled out of his car, almost tripping over his feet.

“He’s okay, right?” Y/n asked her boss. Sure, he was an asshole to her that morning, but she would never wish for someone to get injured.

“Yeah, I got confirmation that Leclerc is fine. Have you met him yet?”

“Sort of. Had to leave before I could even get an autograph.” She said sarcastically, but her boss didn’t pick it up.

“I’m sure you’ll get one.”

Yeah, no.

After the race, Y/n was going through the piles of paperwork she was told to do. She was writing down on her clipboard when she heard a knock on the door. She figured it was her boss or someone else other than Charles Leclerc.

“Yes?” She looked up to see the driver. “Oh. Finally brought me an autograph?” She went back to writing in her clipboard.

“No, someone made me realize that not everyone wants my autograph. I was just wondering if you have time to check if I’m dying.” He said casually.

Y/n dropped her pen and looked at him, wondering if he was serious or not. “Check if you’re dying?”

“Yeah, I crashed today. My head is hurting, I think I might pass out. I’m not dying, right?” Charles explained.

“Fine, I’ll check. Sit down.” Y/n pointed to the examination table next to the desk she was currently using. Charles followed her instructions and sat on the examination table.

“Are you going to give me a shot? Because I hate needles. And sometimes I get weirded out if I see my own blood.” Charles admitted.

“Why would I give you a shot when your head is hurting? I can if you want me to.” Y/n said, standing In front of Charles.

“Nope, I am good.”

“Great. So just let me check if you’re dying real quick.”

Before Y/n could even do anything, Charles spoke up. “My head actually doesnt hurt at all. I lied, I wanted to come here to apologize for this morning.”

“Did your mom find out and made you come apologize?”

“No, my mother doesn’t know but if she did she would pull my ear and tell me to treat women with respect. And I do treat women with respect, but I’ve been having a bad…” Charles sighed and looked down.

“Day?” Y/n guessed.

“Season actually. Point is, I shouldn’t have been mean to you and I’m sorry and i understand if you don’t accept my apology. If I were you, I wouldn’t.” Charles nodded and got off the examination table. Before he could leave, Y/n called his name making him turn around to face her.

“You forgot your lollipop. I have this thing where I give my patients a lollipop no matter what age they are so here,” Y/n handed Charles a red lollipop. “You’re still an asshole, just the sweet kind.”

“Was that intentional? The sweet comment then you giving me a lollipop?” He chuckled as he took the candy.

“Just take the damn lollipop, Leclerc, or I will give you a shot.”

[yourtouchismidas]

How does Gigi feel about the ruins song when she’s a bit older?

i think gigi goes through cycles with the song. like when she is very little she asks for them to put it on because of how big of a deal you guys made it sound to her, saying "this is about you!" every time it came on so she asks for the me song.

then when she is a bit older and can understand it a bit more she asks more about the story and how you guys met and you sit down and tell her the story at bedtime (a clean version obviously about how fate kept mummy and daddy apart but then she brought them back together)

when she is a teenager, and knows the real story, she starts to get a bit embarrassed about it. especially because the boys are still playing it and matty still reminds the crowd its about you and his little girl so all her school friends know about it and play it in class sometimes to pick on her.

then when she grows up again and realises what everyone else thinks really doesnt matter, she starts listening to it privately in moments she needs her dad but he cant be there, on the way to an exam, when he is on tour, when she is nervous about going on a first date. she listens to it in her halls the night she moves to uni, head phones in, crying in the dark. she loves having the song. because when she listens to it, she feels how loved she is, no matter the circumstance, no matter the problem, no matter the distance. she listens to her own heartbeat in her chest and on the recording. she knows she is alive and she is alive because of you and him. and she was so loved. even when she was just a heartbeat and a song.

[doyouevenshipbr0]

incoming hot take/rant about natsu and his romantic pairings and his understanding of love

gonna say something thats gonna get me in trouble

natsu has more objectively romantic moments (and i would even dare to say romantic chemistry) with lisanna than lucy.

now, with that being said, i like n*lu more than i like n*li (i do still like n*li tho. dont know why pol hate it sm. its cute!). but like. on a romantic level, natsu has veryyyyy little moments w lucy. he has way more emotional, powerful, and deep moments with lucy. but they’re not romantic.

but as its been shown especially in 100 yq, natsu doesnt really have a grasp on romantic love. he doesn’t get flustered or blush around lucy (for the most part), he doesn’t understand that lucy clearly has romantic feelings for him, and i think the most obvious piece of evidence of this is in 100 yq when that lady (please forgive me i rly have a hard time keeping up w all the villains) cast that spell that made snow dolls out of “the woman held closest in ur heart” or whatever. for gray, just juvia appeared. for natsu, literally every girl in ft appeared.

i just feel like even in the very small moments natsu and lisanna have, and as insignificant as they are in recent ft, natsu always seems a little nervous/shy. at least in old ft. now, its also very obvious that these moments of awkward natsu who may or may not have a crush on lisanna are waaaaaay less frequent now. but in the very beginning of ft when we first learn ab lisanna was literally the most romantic interaction ive seen natsu have with anyone. and i would argue this is the most romantic interaction his character has EVER had. in the whole series.

now, im not an idiot. i know nalu will be end game. as they should be!!! they have arguably the strongest bond of literally anyone in the whole show. u cannot deny their insane compatibility and how they just make sense! i also know that natsu loves lucy more than ANYONE (ok maybe other than happy. theyre prob tied). but i think natsu doesn’t differentiate this from romantic love. YET.

i think something will definitely go down where natsu has this huge revelation that he not only loves lucy but is IN love with her.

but for right now, the most romantic interest natsu has expressed with another person is lisanna. im standing by that.

there should also be something said for the fact i feel like mashima dumbed natsu down over the years???? like in the beginning he was playful, optimistic, brash, and fun loving. i think he is still all of these things but mashima has steadily made natsu less and less understanding of social queues and more socially unaware. idk if that makes sense.

^but i feel like if u asked ep 1 natsu the difference between love and romantic love, he would be able to tell u. now, i dont think he understands the difference. i do think this will change, but for rn thats how i see it.

anyways blah blah blah. to end this senseless rant, lisanna should have stayed dead. bringing her back to life was one of the DUMBEST things ft ever did. not even bc i like n*lu better than n*li. but bc the significance that lisanna had for natsu and what she meant for his character completelyyyyy went away. his childhood gf came back from the dead and he literally could not give less of a fuck about her now lmao. its so bizarre.

ok dont hate me byeeeeee

[natyune-writes]

Question for "fey courts"

What was the first "red flag" Amina noticed about Nikolai?

Also also, Katarina is such an interesting character to me, are there any tidbits about her that you haven't shared yet?

Do Nikolai and Katarina ever play with Amina's son? Do they have any weird stories to tell about the trouble he gets in?

If you have anything else about Nikolai and Katarina and their dynamic, I would love to hear it.

hello! thank you for the ask! apologies for the long wait, i am a grad student first and foremost so my activity is all over the place, haha. i have had this one in my drafts for a while now 😬

what was the first red flag amina noticed about nikolai?

nik is one of those characters that gives off so many conflicting signals. on one hand, he seems to genuinely care about protecting his people and trying to help his sister with her illness. he's also very gentle with nuri and a very well educated and careful person. he's very methodical in his approach in life and so he's clearly not explicitly a bad person. however, whenever he started talking about pixies, amina became distinctly uncomfortable.

in the unseelie court, pixies are seen as evil spirits hellbent on destroying the blessed tree. nik, having been assigned the task of protecting the blessed tree with his enchantments, grew to despise how tricky the pixies were and didn't mind openly expressing his distaste for the pixies.

however, amina is from the seelie court and hadn't grown up with that ideology. pixies were neutral beings in the seelie court. she didnt understand how he could have such a hateful view of such a broad group of creatures. i think that was the first red flag amina pinpointed about nik.

any interesting tidbits about katarina?

katarina's left eye used to be the same color as her right. however, due to being unable to use her magic, her iris darkened into an inky black. it's an indication of just how much magic is eating away at her body. she can still see out of that eye - it doesnt affect her vision - but it does make her stand out.

do nik and kat ever play with amina's son?

yes, they do! amina spends a lot of time with kat and inevitably kat ends up having to watch over nuri on occasion.

nuri is a very nervous kiddo, so it takes a while for him to warm up. once he does, kat ends up handing him books. nuri was hyperlexic and really enjoyed the books, especially since she picked things for him that amina mentioned he was interested in.

nik and nuri had a bit more difficulty communicating. nuri is nonverbal and communicates in sign, and nik is blind. there was definitely incompatibility in their communication methods. it takes nuri and nik a while to figure out how to understand each other, but once they do they get along really well. nik is good with nuri, and nuri likes to listen to nik talk. nik actually becomes one of the people nuri goes to for comfort, since nik made an effort to make sure his presence is reassuring.

any funny stories fron nuri and kat/nik interacting?

the first time kat ever held nuri, she was terrified of him and held him a really such an awkward position while amina tried to convince kat that nuri didnt bite (this did not help kat feel any less anxious about holding a small human)

any other thoughts about nik and kat's dynamic?

yes! i love sibling dynamics. especially funny ones like katara and sokkah from atla. kat and nik definitely grew up as very chaotic siblings.

a few things that come to mind: nik, despite being blind, frequently used to tell kat that she was ugly, which used to upset her unreasonably. kat, on the other hand, used to passive aggressively move nik's belongings around so that he had to waste time looking for them whenever she was mad at him. nik and kat did get along really well as kids and their arguments that led to these behaviors tended to be petty. i think this sums up their siblings dynamic pretty well lmao

thanks for the ask! i always love having an excuse to infodump about my ocs hehe

[bwoahtastic]

A starter drabble for this verse because why not, I love this family in whatever au they are in this week;

"Hey NICU neighbour," Daniel smiled at the unknown alpha, who he'd seen by the bedside of the incubator next to his own pup's every day, but only briefly, meaning they never got to speak. "Your little pup is next to mine I think, in room 2 right?"

The Alpha took a minute to respond, continuing to make himself a cup of coffee in the little parent lounge and kitchen. He looked pale, exhausted, with dark circles under his eyes Daniel recognised; the first days were tough, he'd looked the same for sure. Eventually the Alpha gave a little nod, replaying in a very small voice, "yeah, my little Lando's there."

"That's a cool name, unusual,' Daniel commented, continuing with his usual bubbly self as he tried to reassure the Alpha. "What made you chose that?"

"His mum is Belgian," the Alpha continued quietly, before frowning and sighing deeply. "Was Belgian," he corrected himself, and Daniel noticed the way he swallowed back tears at the correction. "She um, she died the day after Lando was born."

Daniel released a soft coo at that without thinking, his instincts wanting to wrap the sad Alpha in a hug, though he resisted. "Sorry man that uh... that's really rough," Daniel said, feeling lame that that was all he could think to say. "I'm uh, I'm on my own too so I kinda get it. If you ever wanna talk at all I'll uh, I'll be next door to you."

The Alpha nodded quietly, watching as Daniel refilled his water bottled and grabbed an apple from the fridge before turning to go back to his pup. "Does it get easier? Watching them be so small ?" He finally asked just before Daniel got to the door.

"Kinda," Daniel paused, trying to find the right words. "You worry all the time but I guess it's less scary after a week or so, you start understanding everything a bit more, get used to the wires."

"Has your pup been here a while then?"

"Mia's three weeks old tomorrow," Daniel smiled, pulling his phone out to find a picture of her when she was even smaller than now, a tiny little dot of a human on the day she was born. "But she's very very early, and tiny so..." Daniel's smile faltered as he showed the Alpha the picture, reality of his pup's future always making him nervous. "She's got a long way to go."

"Wow," the Alpha murmured at the photo. "And I thought Lando was the smallest pup I'd ever seen. She's adorable though."

"Thanks, I should probably get back to her, she's uh, she's not having a good day today," Daniel said with a sad smile. "But if you need anything, like I said, we're NICU neighbours so you can come find me next door... I'm Daniel."

"I'm Michael," the Alpha eventually replied with a soft smile. "I hope Mia's feeling better soon."

'Yeah, me too,' Daniel thought to himself as he left, swallowing back his own tears now and hoping their wasn't another doctor waiting for him at Mia's bedside for yet another discussion on her future.

NOOO PLSSS THE PAINNNNNNN

Daniel trying to be supportive and cheerful to help Michael even though Mia is not doing well at all???

Them talking about their pups and Michael murmuring he lost his Mate and Dan wanting to purr just AHHH

I love Daniel just wanting to help the Alpha, probably because he doesnt feel like he has only grip on his own life right now with Mia still not doing well even after three weeks...

PLEASE THIS VERSE IS SO PAINFUL BUT AT LEAST THEY WILL HAVE EACH OTEHR

Although things will first only get worse ith Mia passing....

[larabiatasstuff]

First of all,were besties now.I was thinking about something similar recently,and when I read your questiom I was beyond excited to write something.Kk3 Terry and his girlfriend having dinner at his house.Theyre talking about their day and stuff. "Babe can I ask you something?" Terry asks "Of course honey, whats up?" "Were dating for almost four month now, dont you think that its time for me to meet your daughter?" shed be shocked for a moment "Are you sure you want that?I mean maybe its too early or maybe..." Terry wou,d take her hand in his and look her in the eyes ."Babe if theres a problem , tell me." shed take a deep breath "It´s just...my daughter is special." "Which means?"He asks still holding eye contact,"Shes deaf Terry.She can just communicate in sign language and my former boyfriends were really mean to her .I just dont want her to get hurt again." Terry would stand up from his seat going over to her taking both of her hands. "First of all, who the fuck is mean to a five year old girl? But seriously babe,Id love to meet her,and I can learn sign language its not a big problem. Maybe you can teach me the basics, how I introduce myself and stuff." Shed have tears in her eyes by now,seeing Terry so excited and willing to learn something just to talk to her little girl would warm her heart. So shed teach him the basics and when the day comes Terry is nervous and excited at the same time. He also bought her a cute brown teddybear with a red bow on its head.When theyre standing on her front door shed look at him "Last chance to leave." Hed shake his head give her a soft kiss and say "Everything is going to be fine , youll see."So she opens the door and goes straight into the living room where her little angel is sitting and drawing. Shed press the light switch a few times and her daughter looks up to her and smiles. When she sees Terry shed tilt her head looking at him with her big blue eyes. "Hi my name is Terry, nice to meet you. hed sign and give her the teddybear. The little girl would smile at him hugging the plushie and signing something back but shes too fast for him to understand. "Babe can you translate please?" his girlfriend laughs. "She said her name is Lily, shes five and she loves her present." shed turn to her daughter and sign "Honey Terry just learned sign language, he doesnt understand everything but he tries." Suddenly the little girl walks out of the room and after a few minutes shes back with a book under her arm.Shed take Terrys hand guiding him to the sofa and showing him her sign language book. She smiles at him and signs something. "She said thats the book she learned sign language with. She wants to teach you." He similes at her and nods.It would be adorable to see them together, her, daughter showing him pictures in the book and him trying to make the right gestures. Both of them are laughing and having fun.

Old man Terry is waiting for his girlfriend to arrive at his home when his phone rings. "Hey sweetheart is erverything okay?" He asks a little bit concerned "Yeah Im fine it´S just may babysitter called in sick Im sorry honey." "Thats not a problem, how about I come over? I mean were dating for a few month now and Id love to meet your daughter." shed be silent for a second "Are you sure? I mean its not that easy Terry, theres something I havent told you about her." "Sweetheart listen, whatever it is Im totally fine with that. Please, Id really like to meet her." she sighs "Okay, but dont say I didnt warn you." Theyd hang up and hed drive to her house. His girlfriend lets him in and behind her legs stands a little girl with blonde curls and big blue eyes. Terry would crouch down to her level and smile "Hey little princess.Whats your name?" "Terry my daughter is deaf and my exes made fun of her so..." She couldnt finish her sentence cause Terry turns his attention to the little girl again and signs. "Hey my name is Terry, whats your name?"his girlfriend would look at him eyes wide and mouth open. "Terry I didnt know you can do sign language." He chuckles "I had a business partner a few years ago who was deaf so I decided to learn it." Hed look at the little girl again whos now standing directly before him."Hi my name is Lily and Im five years old. I like your hair can I touch it please?" Terry laughs "Thats a beautiful name for a beautiful little lady. Thank you for the compliment of course you can touch my hair, come here."He would pick her up and let her touch his ponytail which makes her giggle. They would be joking and laughing and his grilfriend is watching them with tears in her eyes.

[emotionalteaspoon22]

I was awake yesterday morning at 6:30 thinking about Taylor Swift and Joe Alwyn.

Can we just..... accept and understand the fact that just because something deteriorated, that doesn't mean it was never good?!!?! I hate seeing people say "joever", and "I'm seeing glimpses of pre-2016 Taylor".

First of all.... pre-2016 Taylor was going through some really difficult things and wasnt in a great place. She has been so open about that. And in 2016, she and Joe found something in each other that made everything better and they were what each other needed. As far as we know, based on her songs. Maybe Joe wasn't MAKING her hide herself away. Clearly she needed to take a step back. Are we disregarding all the lyrics in Call It What You Want??? Maybe Taylor needed someone to kinda shelter and heal with, and maybe Joe needed that too.

And times change and people change. People still thought Taylor was a joke when she released Lover. And covid kept everyone isolated. So yeah not much of a change from their own isolation right before Reputation. But then Taylor releases folklore and evermore and she keeps writing and she needs to get herself back out there. And Joe's career isn't going the way he wants it maybe. And seeing her go beyond their bubble makes him nervous. And I'm not saying he was justified in trying to hold her back (if that's what was even happening), but maybe he was starting to pull away from her. And she was trying to hold on to their relationship and it just wasn't working. Because they aren't on the same page anymore. Maisie Peters said in There It Goes: "The way I loved you, I will not be embarrassed of that, just should've known when to quit." And "The love we had was covered in snow, I had to let it go. The love we had was eating me whole, I had to send it home." JUST BECAUSE SOMETBING DOESNT LAST DOESNT MEAN IT WAS NEVER GOOD.

And guess what? We don't freaking know Taylor. Maybe SHE had more fault in all of it than we know. What I think is that it was probably a little bit of both of them. I'm sure it wasn't all Joe and his own issues.

Everyone shows the good parts. Why do you want to air out all the bad things your partner is doing while you're with them? My husband and I don't fight much at all, but I'm pregnant, have bad anxiety, and we're moving and we're stressed and we got into an argument on Sunday. But we calmed down and talked it out and we're fine. Everyone is human and sometimes we just lose sight of the bigger picture and let little things bother us. It's when you don't address those little things and let them become big things that it gets harder to fix. And maybe that's what happened with Joe and Taylor. Maybe it's Joe's fault, maybe it's Taylor's fault, it's probably both of their faults. OR..... it's no one's fault. Maybe they were meant to be there for each other for those years to help each other through those times in their lives. And when their time was up, it was just up.

So can we PLEASE stop acting like Joe Alwyn is all of a sudden the devil when we literally have no idea what went on in their personal lives. And can we please stop treating a clearly healing and healthy time in Taylor's life like it doesnt matter now and must have been miserable just because that relationship ended. It's very annoying.

[smokeclan-oc]

Houndgaze - long furred black tom with grey undercoat

Family: Shadepool (mother, deceased) Sharpclaw (brother), Wolfmoon (brother) Gender / Sexuality: tom / bisexual Personality: very serious, doesnt get jokes at first, defensive Backstory: Oldest of Shadepools one and only litter, she fell sick in the last quarter moon of her pregnancy, and was weak when having her three kits.  She died shortly after giving each one of them names, leaving them with no kin to care for them. Of course young queen Darkbramble nursed the kits, but Houndgaze never accepted her as a parent. He was very protective over his siblings, often trying to join their training as an apprentice to keep an eye on them. Even then, he was a strong skilled young tom, so the mentors didnt mind if he joined instead of doing other things with his mentor.  Now as a warrior, he’s still fiercely protective of his only kin in camp. Houndgaze protects the warrior code with the same ferocity. Often intimidating to other clan cats, his own clan knows that he means well, and he’s a good warrior. Always willing to step up, and go above and beyond. To another clan cat, he could def give off Hawkfrost vibes. Ideal Partner: the super soft sweet warrior that he can also protect, best friend of a sibling, maybe another strong warrior who he can just let go and hang out with Position | Clan: Warrior | Smokeclan

Sharpclaw - long furred grey and black tom

Family: Shadepool (mother, deceased), Houndgaze (brother), Wolfmoon (brother) Gender / Sexuality: tom / questioning Personality: little bit of a loud mouth, cant keep comments to himself,  snarky but hes usually talking shit about things other cats are already thinking, excitable Backstory: Middle kit of the litter, Sharpclaw didnt struggle with his hunting or fighting skills as an apprentice, like his older brother he picked it up quite easily. What he did get in trouble for was talking back to his mentor, and not really learning from punishments. Being sent to care for the elders only made him bond with the elite elder warriors.  Now as a warrior, Sharpclaw is known for speaking his mind at all times. Honest to his core, Sharpclaw doesn’t understand the need to lie. He’s always happy to tack on to a hunting party or patrol, Sharpclaw is always ready to go. Ideal Partner: the sweetheart cat who thinks hes endearing, the big strong warrior who backs Sharpclaw and is the only reason he hasn’tt gotten bitchslapped Position | Clan: Warrior | Smokeclan

Wolfmoon - long furred grey tom with black fur on back

Family: Shadepool (mother, deceased), Houndgaze (brother), Sharpclaw (brother) Gender / Sexuality: Tom / demisexual Personality: seems lost in thought a lot, questions himself a lot even though he knows what hes doing, looking for validation Backstory: Youngest of his litter, Wolfmoon was the only one who was sick when he was a kit. He spent a lot of time with the medicine cat apprentice Moondance, and when the medicine cat died, then apprentice Wolfpaw spent even more time with the now medicine cat Moondance. After being made a warrior, a vision came to the clan, telling them Wolftail was to train in the medicine cat den. Transitioning departments, Wolftail was happy as a clan with the petty Moondance. Many thought the she-cat faked the sign so she could have her mate in her den. When Moondance’s life was taken by a fox, Wolftail was horrified to be in the medicine cat den alone. He went to the crystal caves the next full moon, with the other medicine cats, and it was on his return he introduced himself to Smokeclan as their medicine cat Wolfmoon.  Now feeling alone, despite having both his siblings within paws reach, Wolfmoon throws himself into his work. Maybe a bit of a helicopter medicine cat, checking up on any cough or limp, Wolfmoon just wants to do a good job to earn his place in Starclan with his lost love.  Ideal Partner: the warrior who had a crush on him when he was a warrior, a nervous queen about having kits without a father leaning on him for support and hes happy to have the distraction Position | Clan: Medicine Cat | Smokeclan

[donotlookatmyface]

09 / 13 - 9 : 46 p.m.

i got my appendix removed last month. and i think i have a thing for my friend. ive slept with her before, in the time i was with bunny and he begged for a “sexy threesome” so i got drunk one day and just did it. i dont remember very much of it since it was years ago, it was before we both moved into the apartment but anyways, it was an okay experience. shes beautiful, and is always so nice to me. but when i have memories of her, us being together i felt wanted, i felt like i was the center of attention. but that was years ago, it happened once and its tainted with the pervert of my ex. 

after the break up, i set up an online profile, this was months after the break up and i was told by my ex that i should sleep with others other than him. so i did, and i found a couple. the same day i texted them i went over and had sex. when i first got there she let me shower and let me borrow a tshirt and shorts since i had just gotten off of work. i thought that was so polite of her, we had a conversation before anything, they smoked some weed, i didnt want to smoke since it triggers my hypomania. but it was a while, i was with a girl for the second time but this time i was sober. i wasnt really interested in the guy but she was nice. she was soft and i wanted to make her feel good. she was nervous because at the time i was about 85 - 90 pounds, besides that it was just something that happened. thinking back to these two instances i just felt lost. nothing i did was worth it, it didnt make me any more happier or less lonely. 

bat is pretty, she is high maintenance but so am i. that doesnt mean that she doesnt deserve someone good, even when we had our issues when we lived together for a very short month, she would clean the house when i was away, since i work 11 hrs a day, leave early in the morning, come back at night. she would do dishes or clean the restroom, she would even do the floors. and she would seek validation. 

anyways i just texted her about just feeling nervous talking to her and thinking about her, of course she told me that shes talking to someone else so shes not seeking a relationship with me but she is interested in having a fling. i told her i understand and that im interested in the fling too, but i do feel just awkward about it since its been about a year since ive had sex. 

its weird. im scared to be taken advantage of again, im scared of being in a relationship, ive forgotten what sex feels like, i crave attention, i want to go out and party, i want to drink, i want to do impulsive things, i think about having sex all the time, i want to clean my room but instead i rot in my bed or just play games all day and night, i get no sleep, i dont wash my hair, i let the water bottles accumulate by desk, my stimming is getting worse and i feel lonely. 

i wonder if i’ll be okay in a year from now, if i’ll find someone. if i’ll still be single, if i’ll be happier. 

i think i just have appearance issues. i cant seem to embrace my gender, ive stopped taking care of my skin and everything i wear seems like a costume no matter what i wear. theres not one day i dont get reminded of my weight gain, i weigh 117 now, and i am glad about it, everyone is. but i hate that once i wear something not baggy someone says “ oh youve gained weight” which i know they mean it in a “good for you” but it feels just awkward. one of my friends also made a very common comment/joke from high school to me and i let it get to me, but i just ignored it. 

i feel alone, i feel lost.

all i do is work and stay home. i do go out with friends, but thats just sometimes. like maybe once a month, since most of them are busy with school. which my friends want me to go back to, they tell me to get a couple classes in the collage that theyre going to and i want to i just dont know what i would do or study. i was thinking maybe business or marketing. i do want to want to take animation if i could again, since i dropped out for a DUMB ASS reason. also i need to keep drawing instead of playing splatoon or valorant haha. 

i dont think im depressed, just lost and with out purpose. ive tried to get back into homestuck but goddamn, its so damn long. but thats what made me happy, so maybe i just need something else to obsess over. in a healthy, normal way. 

i also want to write songs but once i start recording i remember how much i hate my voice, i mean i do like it its just weird 

[kubrik-was-a-c-nt]

Back to back movie night, since I dont have a job right now and youtube is getting stale.

Today is Texas Chainsaw Massacre 2022. I have low expectations, especially since Choptop isnt in this.

I actually stopped and replayed the beginning on a lower speed to get a look at the crime scene photos. The autopsy photos dont make sense it they're just of the original 4 from the first movie. Theres one autopsy form that showed a stab wound to the face and nobody got stabbed from what I remember. It was either Chainsaw, mallet, or meat hook. It might be from a body they found on the property, though.

No, you dont saw shit like that when the guy is clearly within earshot! You quietly wait until you're in the car on the road and then you talk shit. You dont talk shit about a guy with a gun to his face! Especially in Texas.

Oh geeze, I feel like this movie is going to have a social message about yuppies and gentrification and gun violence that's going to have all the subtlety of a giant man wearing a human skin mask. I dont like city folk vs country folk conflict, it's just dumb.

So these assholes bought a whole ghost town and are trying to turn it into some hip artsy food truck paradise? I'm on the cops side, get the fuck out.

I cant stand the sight of the Dixie flag anymore. It's been 150 years, you lost the war, get over it. If the flag itself has meaning, put it in a frame in your house.

Holy shit that went to hell in and handbasket real quick. And Leatherface just walks outside like it's no issue? It's so weird to see maskless Leatherface around normal people and have the people not be screaming in terror.

Just because your mother figure died doesnt mean the police have to die too! I mean ACAB but these guys were doing what they are actually paid to do. It's not their fault she was on deaths door.

It's weird to go from Halloween Kills to this where both villains are so fucking strong they can just fuck someone up with one hand. Now these cops are very unrealistic, he was being assaulted and he didnt IMMEDIATELY put a bullet in the attackers head? Far too tame to be a real cop.

Oh shit and now you just killed that blond lady for no reason too.

Jesus, look at all these yuppies buying up this ghost town to turn it into yuppie paradise. It's not going to be sustainable if people need to drive hours to buy your food truck food. Do you really expect rich people to drive all the way to your dead town to buy some art and food made in a truck?

Oh wow, this is actually a nice scene. Lilah actually talking to Richter instead of talking shit. Being nice. Richter showing sympathy for her experience and understanding for why shes afraid of guns.

Wow, that's the smartest thing anyone in any of these movies has done. Something weird happen when you arrive? Gtfo.

Okay, I guess Lilah is still pretty young, around 18, but I feel like her sister is being super protective. Like, super duper protective. As far as I've seen theres no reason why Lilah has to live with her.

Oh thank god the blonde lady lived... and now shes watching Leatherface take the old lady's face. Yes, yes, stay quiet, play dead. Play dead, be quiet, dont move until hes gone.

HE ISNT GONE YET. IF HE THINKS YOURE DEAD THEN HE'LL LEAVE YOU ALONE. WAIT AT LEAST A FEW MORE-

See? He wasnt gone. And now you're dead. And he might take your face.

Richter... okay I cant be too mad at him, these asshole yuppies just pull up and call the police on this sick old lady and she dies on the way to the hospital. It's a dick move to take their keys but at least hes doing it for a decent reason. I wouldnt want them to leave either if a local I knew suddenly died after they kicked her out of her house. They should have waited for social workers or someone more gentle than the police to coax her out of the building peacefully.

Sadly I had it spoiled for me that Sally Hardesty plays a role in this movie. I'm really nervous how they play it out.

I highly doubt this lady managed to pay off her debts since she lived in a decrepit orphanage and was super sick. But it would be completely fucked if she had paid them.

Oh shit she did have the deed.

Okay, the police should have taken the time to listen to her ownership claims and let her get the deed. I would have had it on hand if I was told before that I was being kicked out and I only just recently fixed it, but I cant give a sick old lady a break.

Oh wow, I didnt even pick up chekhov's giant knife. And that's a great shot with the swinging door.

Wow, someone who actually tries to run and hide effectively. And doesn't get caught!

Awww, I'm sorry Leatherface. Since grandpa and Drayton are probably long gone it must he hard to lose the last person you had.

Wow, Dante still has some life in him! Hes much sturdier than the people in Halloween Kills. I guess the filmmakers understand that bleeding out can take time depending on the wound

And Richter still showing to be the most sane character, by trying to help Dante and warning the yuppies to stay safe on the bus. They might be assholes but they dont deserve to die.

Omg the mirror! Warning him with the mirror! Brilliant! I mean it didnt save him but he managed to put up a good fight. And hes returning the keys so she can escape!

Richter #1 character in this movie. RIP.

Oh hey, did Nubbins give you some lessons on making dead body art, Leatherface?

You should have told the truth, yuppie lady. I mean, she may still have gone after her sister but at least she would know what shes up against.

Oh wow, I would recommend taking her shoes off to make less sound, but Melody is doing well- aw, she almost got away there. Oh shes still going! Wow, it's so suspenseful when a character is doing everything right and they're still close to death.

The chainsaw through the floor reminds me of an upside down shark fin. And ewww, out of all the pipes he had to cut, it had to be a septic one.

It's a yuppie buffet!

Yeah, 'try it and you're canceled bro' is a death worthy line. You think a man wearing a skin mask and holding a chainsaw covered in blood cares?

Also, emergency exit, back of the bus. I would think everyone would think of that. Or try and climb the chairs past him while hes busy mulching someone else. And I mean run to the door, not to the window! The door is open! Step over the drivers head and run!

Holy shit, Melody, quick thinking with the corkscrew! You might be a bitch yuppie but at least you have some sense.

Sally... Sally... dont do this to them. You remember what I was like to be them. Let them run and wait for Leatherface to come out.

SHOOT

SHOOT HIM

SHOOT HIM!!!

Melody is smarter than you and you survived 3 vs 1 against the Sawyers

You see sense now, Sally. Hopefully they drive off and survive this mess.

You should have had more guns, or a gun that could hold more bullets. Oh, hes blocking her from cocking it, that's why she cant shoot it

No, dont pull out the pole, that will make her bleed out. Or maybe remove it to she has a quick death.

At least she apologized.

I think this is the smartest Leatherface we've seen. I dont think hes ever set a trap like this before.

Oh hey, child jason jumpscare.

MELODY WITH THAT WEAPON STEAL

GO MELODY GO

I would tell then to double tap, but they're out of bullets and they shouldnt get in that water. At least they stayed to make sure that he didnt get back up.

Oh no, I don't like the shot of the sunroof opening. Leatherface is gonna-

GRAB MELODY THROUGH THE PASSENGER DOOR AND CUT HER HEAD CLEAN OFF

You know, fuck autopilot, you should have floored it and gotten out of there quick.

Oh hey, the Sawyer family farm! Nice to see you.

[natsfirecat]

RESQUEST OPEN okay

so about supercorp I was thinking that Lena is a single mother who has reader as her daughter

Lena meets kara and they have been dating for a while, so Lena thinks it's time to introduce her girlfriend to her daughter.

R is not happy and doesnt accept it very well, the reason may be because her mother's other partners were never very kind to R. So she ignores Kara.

Then it may happen that R overhears a conversation between her mother and kara where Kara says that she feels bad bc R does not accept her and that maybe they should take time or I don't know, things like that

So i hope u can do this, if not it's okay💕 I love your writing btw ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

Different

pairing: mom!Lena Luthor x daughter!reader, Kara Danvers x Lena Luthor

word count: 1k

warnings: none, lmk if i need to add any!

A/N: my first supercorp fic so true anyway i hope you enjoy anon! :D

You had always been protective of your mother. After all, for most of your life it was just the two of you. You loved your mother, and you loved being her daughter.

You were happy with her.

So when she told you she was dating again, you definitely had some concerns.

You definitely didn't trust easily. You remembered the day your mother told you she had started dating a man named James.

"Y/N," she said prompting you to finally leave your room. You peered around the door, seeing your mother standing next to a man you didn't recognize.

"Hi," you said, walking out.

He held his hand out for you to shake it, which you did hesitantly.

"Don't hurt my mom," you warned him.

"Okay, kid," he said dismissively.

Your mother narrowed her eyes at you as her cheeks flushed red, but you simply shrugged in response. If he couldn't handle you and your protective nature, then he shouldn't be dating Lena Luthor.

Unfortunately, he didn't take your warning very seriously.

You remembered how heartbroken your mother was when they broke up. You told her that she deserved better than someone like him.

It eventually became a pattern for her. She would find someone she liked, they would hurt her, she would be heartbroken for a few months, then someone else would break her heart.

Quite honestly, you were sick of it. You didn't understand why your mother needed to be with someone.

Eventually, you thought she might have sworn off dating, which you were rather grateful for. If it was just the two of you, that was perfectly fine with you.

Unfortunately, it only lasted about a year.

She was almost nervous to tell you, but eventually she did.

"Y/N... I've started dating again,"

"What? Why?"

"There's something different about her,"

"Her?"

"Yes, I'm dating a woman."

"It doesn't matter if you like girls, that's fine, but... just because she's not a man doesn't mean she can't hurt you,"

"I think she deserves a chance, so I'm giving her one. I'd appreciate it if you'd give her a chance too,"

So now, it was time to meet your mother's girlfriend.

"Y/N, this is Kara. Kara, this is my daughter, Y/N,"

You saw her bright smile, and tried to force one in return.

"I'm so glad I finally got to meet you," she said, still smiling. "Your mom says you're a really big movie fan, and I am too! My absolute favorite is Wizard of Oz, but I'd love to have any movie marathon with you!"

You opened your mouth to reply, but nothing came out. You shifted your gaze between Kara and your mother.

Kara then put her arm around your mom, still smiling at you.

"I need to go," you said suddenly, walking away from them without another word.

-

A week later, you were getting ready to have a movie night with your mother. You were in the living room with the remote in your hand, already looking through movies.

When you heard the doorbell ring, you got up to answer it.

Standing there, much to your dismay, was Kara Danvers.

She had her usual bright smile on her face, then tilted her head to the side as she opened her arms. She made it clear she wanted to hug you, but only if you were okay with it.

You weren't, so you just gave an awkward, forced smile and backed away.

She said nothing, but made her way over to your mother who easily welcomed her into her arms.

"Kara's gonna be joining us for movie night," your mom said.

Your heart dropped as you saw Kara set her bags down.

"I'm gonna go up to my room," you said quietly. And without another word, you did just that.

-

Over the next few weeks, a new pattern began. Kara would come over, and suddenly your mood would drop and you would try to get as far away from her as possible.

She was currently over for dinner, and you had just started making your way up to your room.

Before you closed the door, you heard your mother say your name, so you decided to listen in.

"I can tell she doesn't like me, Lena,"

"Just give her time, I'm sure she'll come around soon,"

"I don't think so... she just really doesn't like me,"

"I'm sure that's not true!"

"Why does she always leave the second I arrive? Why does she scowl when I show any sort of affection for you?"

"I..." your mother wasn't sure what to say.

"Look, your daughter's happiness should be your main focus. I think it's best for her that we break up, or at least take some time apart."

"I suppose you're right,"

You could hear the hurt in her voice as your heart dropped. Your mother did seem really happy with Kara. Your guilt doubled when you heard a sniffle.

Before you knew it, you were running back towards the living room.

"Wait! Don't go!" You yelled, holding your arms out.

They were both staring at you with questioning looks, causing your heart to pound.

"You guys shouldn't have to break up because of me,"

"You heard?" Your mother asked.

"Yeah... and I'm sorry," you said, taking a deep breath in. "Mom, I just want you to be happy. I haven't been much of a fan of this because of your past partners, but it's not fair to judge Kara because of them. I can tell she makes you happy, and she's a good person,"

You then shifted your gaze to your mother's girlfriend.

"Kara, I'm sorry. I took things too far with my protectiveness of my mom, and now you're both hurt. But please don't break up with her because of that!"

They both looked at each other, then you.

"Are you sure, Y/N/N?" Your mom asked you.

"Yeah," you said, giving a real, genuine smile. "I'm sure."

Without another word, you went back to the living room to search through the movie DVDs. Luckily, it didn't take too long to find Wizard of Oz.

Grinning at them, especially Kara, you held it up high.

"Movie night?"

[mywritingonlyfans]

i like the idea of thomas for the dad/christmas fic 🥺

heeey!!! thanks for comment on it again!!! once again, i'm sorry for not writing that one with the person 'we' mentioned first😅 hope u like it!

-> dad!thomas raggi x reader

prompt: in which, dad!thomas is bit late for xmas to see his little girl! bonus. he teaching his little girl how to play the guitar!

warnings: none, just the good stuff today!! oh, we actually talk more about the 'finals' holiday than xmas itself on here so i hope it doesnt be too awkward for people who don't celebrate it.

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You closed the fairytale book, putting it in its place on the shelf, and then tidied the blanket to cover Alice better. One of her arms was on her new guitar, which Santa Claus had left for her at Thomas's mother’s house; and by Santa you meant Thomas. She was so happy at the moment that you couldn't wait to show him the video. 

 Despise this, the smile on her face hadn't lasted long, you didn't know if everyone could see that she looked sad or if it was something maternal that warned you about it. She was asleep, and even though you could tell she was heartbroken, her long eyelashes rested under the freckles of her chubby face; appearing to be all agitated - she had not cried, but you knew she had held back her tears while you put her to sleep. You didn't blame her, you missed him, too. 

 You hugged your torso, wanting to stay there with her, you didn't feel like going to sleep knowing that he wasn’t home for Christmas. When you looked at her again, with her sad little face, you suddenly felt bad for not thinking about letting her sleep with you; since she liked it when you let her stay in Thomas’s side of the bed when he wasn’t around.

“I love you, angel,” you whispered, brushing her hair away from her face and placing a kiss on the prominent freckles on her nose. She mumbled something you couldn't understand, and smiling silly at your girl, you took her purrs as your cue to make your way to the kicthen.

You hummed one of Thomas’s band songs to yourself after you checked that there was no messages or new call on it. He promised he would at least contact you, and as long as you are together he never was one to broke his promises; so what you could do was wait. 

 It was the first Christmas after you had Alice that he hadn't been able to come back home on time. And as much as you told him that you understood and that everything would be fine, which was true, you couldn't deny how much you missed him.

You kept the leftovers Alice had begged her grandmother to give her on the frigde, remembering how she had planned on eating it with Thomas when he got home. Glad pleased, you could imagine how happy he’d be that she thought about doing it for him. Just when your mind was ready to get lost in a scenario where Thomas would be home for the Holidays, the vibrations of your phone interrupted you.

“Hey, babe. Merry Christmas!” You said excitedly. It was him, he wouln’t forget of you. It was late at night and you had no idea what time it was for him, but still he called. 

“Merry Christmas, babe,” He said in a slurred, almost inaudible voice. He looked a bit sapped and busy.

“It's not a good time, right? I can call you later if you can’t speak right now or are feeling too tired,”

“Nah, it’s fine,” He assured, a bit breathless, getting clearer over the phone. “How was your day? How’s Alice? God, I missed you,”

“It was good,” you sighed, thinking about being cheeky and adding that it would have been better with him, yet you were afraid that it might make him feel worse. “Alice is fine too. She loved the guitar, you will love to see it. I filmed everything, she didn’t stop jumping with it in her arms, telling your parents how it was just like the one his dad have. She misses you so much, Thommy, and I think she’s learning how to deal with it.”

“She’s learning...” he repeated. “I wish she didn't need to learn to deal with me being away from her,”

“Don’t say that, I made a bad choice of words, you know she loves you and she loves even more the way you love her extra when you’re back. She understands, Thomas,”

“She’s 5 years old, Y/N,”

You let the silence fill the chasm between you. You felt how sad he was, he had been away for a long time because of the turns before, still he always managed to return for the special dates - just as he had promised when Alice was born - but this time, well, this time it wasn’t possible.

“I’m sorry,” he murmured and you visualized in your head his eyebrows furrowing as his hand ran agonizingly through his hair, just as he always do when he‘s feeling in low spirits. “You’re right. I should be focusing on the good things, soon I’ll be home, I’m gonna teach her to play the guitar, show her all my love and be the best dad in the world,”

You laughed at his abrupt change in mood mixed with a hint of himself. “I know you will, babe,”

“I’m gonna be the best boyfriend too,” he would give continuity to his words when a loud noise of something falling stopped him abruptly.

“What was it?” You asked. You made it clear that you were suspicious, and by his nervous laugh he knew that. After all, what would he say about the noise that seemed to have come from the room next to where you were? “Oh my god, Thomas, that can’t be you.”

He didn't even need to answer, the sound of your steps going on his way was enough for him to know that you knew he was there, making him curse himself for being so clumsy. And just like in a flash, you were in his arms. He dropped his bag on the floor, giving you al of his attention as he squeezed your shape to his body.

“You’re here,” you bured your face on his chest, letting the feeling of comfort fill your nostrils, and then soul. “You’re really here.” You added in a breathless sigh.

Relief taking over his body as you snuggled into his frame, he grinned, “I promised that I would try my best to be with you all the special dates, didn't I?” He asked, holding your face so he could look at you properly. “Are you crying?”

You nodded at his soft voice. “I’m sorry,”

He laughed, a nasal sound that you missed so much. “It’s ok, 5 months is a long time,” He said, tracing kisses across your face. “I promise I’m gonna love you extra now.”

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It was already possible to see the sun rissing outside, yet you refused to close your eyes and lose any moment with Thomas.

You rested your head on the pillow, waiting for him and thinking of how lucky you were that he managed to catch a last minute flight to spend the New Year at home. He was scheduled to return only after the first day of the year, somehow things would have worked out better than expected and he managed to get back sooner.

“She looks like an angel sleeping so calmly.” He spoke, lying beside you under the covers.

“I thought you were going to wake her up, she'll go crazy when she sees you.”

“I know,” He smiled, proud of himself. He knew she was the definition of daddy’s little girl. “I will wait until she wakes up. I'm dying to fill her with kisses and hugs.”

Still with his charming teeth and cute dimples on display, he pulled you to his chest, trying to wrap you in the blanket next to him. “She loves you. She doesn't care about the time you spend away, as long as you come back to her.” You nuzzled into his neck, squeezing him tighter as you said that. It was likely that this would happen more often, letting Thomas blame himself for that wouldn’t do him any good.

He bobbed, kissing your forehead, enlacing you with the same intensity. “I know, babe,”

“How was turn?” You asked, looking at him, making sure that he was fine. He was thoughtful, but it wasn’t the end of the world.

He told you about his gigs around the globe and you were happy feeling his body soften on your arms. His voice almost lulled you to sleep, but you were sure you would never tire of hearing him talk about what he loves. You showed him the video of Alice receiving the guitar, seeing his eyes fill with water after she said that she‘d be just like her father made your chest almost explode with love. In the best possible way, of course.

“You can sleep if you want, babe.”

“No, I want to spend more time with you.”

“I’m here, I am not intending to go anywhere.” He patted your hair, rubbing his nose through your hairline, and the last thing you remembered was feeling his lips on your temple.

When you opened your eyes again, he was no longer there. You rubbed your eyes tight, trying to adjust to the light, wondering if there was any possibility that it might have been a dream, but then a sweet chuckle brought you back to reality.

Alice was standing in front of you, with the guitar resting awkwardly on her shoulders. Her eyes went from you to Thomas, as if asking him if everything was all right. You smirked lightly at her features that looked the same as Thomas's.

She started playing something, which looked incredibly bad, Thomas wrinkled his nose in an attempt not to laugh so as not to discourage her. He should have spent a lot of time helping her, and she looked like she was trying. Her lips was between her teeth as she concentrated to play her less than a minute of song was so cute that as much as you didn't understand a thing, you couldn’t help but feel proud of her.

“It’s Vent'anni,” Thomas mouthed, waving his hand in a way that would get your attention but not hers. “It’s Vent'anni.”

“Oh my god!” You opened your arms for her as she finished playing, watching you with her excited eyes. “It’s Vent'anni.”

She grinned from ear to ear, handing Thomas the guitar, and then jumping into your arms.

“Did you like this?” She asked happily, making ‘this’ sound like ‘dis’. “It’s not perfect but I’ll get better, right dad?”

“Yes, better than Damiano trying to play It!" Thomas confirmed, stroking her back as he approached you. “Good mornin’, love.” he kissed the top of your head.

“I love you,” you kissed his cheek, wishing he could feel how much you love him. “And I love you too, little one,” you mumbled, pinching Alice’s nose, which eyes was stuck on the two of you.

She laughed, her gaze still on you and Thomas. She looked like a completely different person from the night before.

“Dad said you look cute when you're tired.”

You knew that you looked tired, the day before wasn’t the best and you had barely slept. You bit the inside of your cheek, looking at Thomas who had a silly smile playing on his lips and felt your cheeks get hotter. The reason you still felt that way when he complimented you was a mystery, you liked it anyway.

“You are a gossip little thing,” Thomas joked, poking at her sides.

“No, I’m not.” She laughed, trying to run away from him flawlessly, letting him hug her as she recovered her breath.

“I love you too, both of you,” she pointed a finger at both of you. Thomas's smile was priceless, you could live in there forever. “but can we play more guitar now, please?”

You agreed and Thomas got up to sit upright, putting her between his legs. He looked at you, his face still radiant, you could easily imagine him talking about you with Alice - just like you did talk about him with her as well. He positioned her tiny hands on the guitar, guiding then with his own fingers. His gentle, patient voice teaching her things that both knew she would soon forget and he would have to repeat it all over again - and you knew Thomas would do it without a problem - was lovely to watch. Her head was resting on his chest and whenever she hit a note and heard Thomas praising her, she would turn to you and say "see mom, I did it.” And you swear that you couldn't be happier to have found the meaning of the word home in two of your favorite people in the world.

[ablackfangirlwrites]

Heres one of the angsty scenarios one of you lovely anons suggesting to me!

Warning: death meantion

Fatherhood was something that always made keigo nervous

From the moment you first told him the two of you were having a child

He wasn't sure if he was ready

But knowing that you were going to be with him the raising said child he was sure things would be okay

That was until the unimaginable happened

The doctor simply said there was complications

But the end result was your daughters birth and you death

Keigo was devastated

All the hopes, dreams and your plans down the drain

The love of his life was gone

But he still had a part of you

That was your daughter

She looked so much like you taking your features

And hes reminded of you everytime he sees her

It's clear he doesnt know what hes doing, but that doesnt mean keigo doesnt try

He struggles alot at the beginning

And because of the way he lives his life he didnt have anyone else to depend on

But keigo is resourceful and hes determined for his daughter to have a great life

He becomes a dotting father

His babygirl being the most important person in his life

He does whatever he can to take care of her, and she honestly spoiled

When shes younger he tells her everything about you

Telling her just how much alike the two of you are

You'll never see him that far away from her it's so bad he sometimes takes her to work with him cause he hates the idea if leaving her with a babysitter

Hes more attached to her then she is to him

When shes older shes a nice blend of both you and keigo looks wise

Having his quirk but your looks

But her attitude is all you

He loves her so much, even though her rebellious stage when he behaves more like him and it drives him crazy

He loves her for the both of you

And he tells her that everyday

And your daughter knows keigo has always tried his best

It's when shes in her teens that she truly understands how much your absence has affected her dad

"Tell me more about mom?" She asked

Keigo laughs as the two of them sit at your grave, "I've told you everything kiddo."

"Yeah, but tell me why'd you fall in love with her?"

Keigo smiles sadly at the question, "ha, the real question was why'd she fell for me?"

He trailed off, "yYur mom...y/n she was just perfect. Everything I've never been. She was a total badass...she was loving...she didnt take any shit from anyone...especially me...and she always saw the best in everyone... y/n was something else...she was perfect."

Your daughter watched keigo as he started to cry thinking about you

Never really healing from his lost

"I think she'd say you did a good job."

"Hmm?"

C/n smiled, "mom would say good job keigo with raising me." She moved to hug him, "I'm sure of it."

Her words moved him to tears and he hugged his daughter back, "You think so?"

She nodded, "I know so."

[kumacyy]

Hello how are you me im doing good can i request a one shot where nanami and fem!reader are at a mall (and can the reader be chubby?) and the reader look at a girl that is thinner than her and nanami notices this and her takes the reader home and has gental sex with her and prasies her and tells her she is beautiful and she doesnt need to change?

You're Perfect

Hey!! It's good to hear that you're alright sorry it took so long I had a writer's block so I hope you don't mind me going silent for a while anyways I hope you like it.

《Warnings》: 18+, gentle sex, praising, and body worship

Wc:

Unedited

Nanami Kento x Chubby! Reader

You were walking with your very handsome daddy boyfriend in the mall bonding with each other since we sure as hell all know that Nanami needs a break. Especially when a certain man child is nearby. But enough of that you and him were walking around the mall doing some window shopping and occasionally buying clothes.

Whilst you were walking around you noticed a HUGE crowd of people some were screaming some were taking their phones out but they're mostly pushing each other running to your direction. 'Probably someone famous' you thought and unfortunately for you; you got dragged by the crowd no matter how much you held on to nanami your grip just slipped and ofc this caused you and nanami to panic.

And getting dragged caused you to meet the lady that the people has been going crazy on... it was Kitagawa, Megumi (from say I love you) out of all the models that you have seen she was the one you loathed the most (sry I still hold grudges '^') I mean with just a single look at her pictures in the magazine you immediately knew she was fake. Well maybe loathed is too much but you still hated her so at first interaction with her you grimaced on the inside knowing it would offend her if you did it openly.

"Oh! I'm very sorry I just got dragged in the crowd" you apologized.

"No, no it's fine I understand it wasn't your fault anyways" she responded.

"Anyways sorry again bye!" You said trying to leave immediately while respectfully giving a wave.

"Farewell!" She said while waving her hand in response.

And with that you dissapeared in the crowd trying your best to navigate through it and of course because you're a clumsy hoe person you tripped and fell well almost fell luckily for you your sugar dadae boyfriend was there to catch you and with that you were thankful. Once both you finally left the crowd you were back to window shopping but with you more spaced out.

I mean could you blame yourself you just met a model a slim model to be more precise. The more you think about her the more insecure you become and nanami having to always be busy does not help at all. I mean what if he was just using his job as an excuse to mingle with women. No. I doubt it, he wouldn't would he? I mean he's a handsome and muscular man he can easily attract women and the fact that he settled with someone like you a fat girl is just weird.

And with more thoughts going through your head the more you get insecure which results with you unconsciously scowled at the thought which did not go unnoticed to your boyfriend. He knows you're thinking ill of yourself your expression alone made him think you're insecure which means he also knows that you were doubting his loyalty which hurt him not gonna lie. But that wouldn't stop him from loving you nonetheless.

He's for sure has to comfort you at home in a way so that you wouldn't think ill of yourself nor doubt his loyalty. It's a win win situation he gets to comfort you and you get to know how much he loves you plus he's been missing you for a while now.

And with that after hours of window shopping it was finally evening. While going home the atmosphere in the car was very tense and awkward for you but to nanami he's just thinking of ways to make sure you know he's loyal. Once you guys want home he immediately locked the front door and placed your things on the ground and went to grab your wrist. Not too hard to hurt you just enough so that you won't break free and dragged you to your shared bedroom.

Of course you didn't expect this after you went home you just expected it to be awkward so you were definitely confused.

"Nanami?" You questioned

"..." he didn't respond he just kept dragging you to the bedroom.

And once you finally reached the bedroom he immediately locked the bedroom door and pinned you against it. And started kissing you in a gentle way that you found very comforting and kissed back. Seconds later you guys released being out of breath he started giving you butterfly kisses.

"I love you so much." He mumbled in a husky voice it was low but still audible enough for you to hear.

And hearing what he said made you skip a beat and blush so out of embarrassment you hid your face on his chest which also made you hear his heart beat. It was beating very fast as if he was nervous to make the wrong move. While you were deep in thought he carried you to the bed and made you sit on it.

With a plop you snapped out of your thoughts and looked at nanami confused and with that he started to take your clothes off in a very gentle way like he's handling a very fragile object. After your clothes has been removed completely leaving you in your underwear and out of instinct you immediately covered your body with your arms. Which he had predicted and held your arms instantly uncovering it and started kissing your body that you were insecure about.

"Chu~ I love you" he said while kissing your cheeks.

"Chu~ I love this" he said again but instead of kissing your cheek he kissed your nose.

"Chu~ and this-" he said kissing each and every stretch marks on your body.

"Chu~ and this-" he continued and kissing your stomach and thighs.

"Chu~ and this of course" he said kissing your curves (hips, waist, bobs and a$s)

"Chu~ and this as well" he said kissing you body hair (armpit hair, leg hair, arm hair, and the hair underneath your belly button)

(A/n please keep in mind I'm not saying you guys have these insecurities it's just there because I think those are some of the things that most people have insecurities on (I researched about it) and also mines we all have insecurities all we have to do is to accept them.)

And with that it made your insecurities and doubts get washed away solely because you saw and heard how sincere he really is on about how much he loves you. He then pulled away and took his clothes off hastily and eagerly and after he took his clothes he is now in front of you buck naked. And with him standing it gave you a clear view of his huge cock which made you Yelp and cover your eyes immediately and made him chuckle at how cute you were being.

And he took your underwear of and carried you and placed you on his lap making you straddle him and entered in your womanhood which made your breath hitch and moan for having to be stretched after months of not doing it. And since he's a very patient man he waited for you to adjust which wasn't long. Since it was specifically made to take his cock in.

"N-ngh. yo-u.. can m-move." You stuttered having a hard time speaking because of the pleasure you were receiving.

And with that he started to gently move you and with you also helping by moving up and down. Then the room was know filled with skin slapping, and moans and groans of pleasure.

"A-ahh~"

"Ugh~"

And after going at it for hours you guys finally are close to your end which you both know.

"I-I'm close.." he said

"I-I'm c-close too.." you said

And with that you finally released together which made you scream in ecstasy and him groan loudly and with that he finally pulled out and placed you on the bed in which you were still in a dazed state and went to put his boxers on and went out the bedroom to get towels and water bottles then came back with fresh underwear for you.

And went to clean you up and gave you water which you thanked him for and then layed beside you and pulling you into his embrace.

"I love you so much" he said kissing your forehead

"I love you too" you said snuggling closer to his chest and slowly drift to sleep.

After seeing you asleep made him smile lovingly ant your sleeping face and mumbled to himself then started drifting to sleep as well.

"You're Perfect..."

Hey guys I hope you like it and thanks so much for reading.

[darlington-v]

I know different interpretations of a work are generally enriching and cool... but c!dream villan interpretations is like how to tell me you only watch Tommy without saying you only watch tommy.... which would be fine but its not a great place to be making statements about the whole nature of the dsmp lol

Wild speculation, but sometimes I wonder if like, because the dsmp didn't really start as a narrative, and a lot of fans don't nessecarily enter it expecting a narrative, but then there is one and the fandom is really discourse heavy and everyone is sort of excpeted to have an opinion while maybe not expecting to form one from the begining or not having a ton of experience with narrative in a way that would "expect" them to have an opinion or not take things at face value??, I don't know if I explained that well at all... and I don't really even think thats right nessecarily... but like wow sometimes some of the takes about power and government and villany...

Honestly, it makes sense!!!

I think something interesting is like.... looking at how animatics have shaped the like tone and culture of the fandom essentially. Like, an interesting fact that I didn't really fully grasp until SUPER recently is like...

c!Wilbur out the gate admits he is manipulating c!Tommy. Like his first youtube video on the Dream SMP he admits his goal is to manipulate c!Tommy and people like c!Tommy into helping him achieve a potion ("drug") empire to monopolize on potions because there were a lot of people on the server who like to min-max, which is to put all of your effort into this one specific skill essentially. so like... i know minecraft doesnt have a skill tree but if it did, it would be putting all your points into that one specific branch of a skill tree. So he wanted to exploit the labor of all the TommyInnits to.... maintain a Potion Empire.

THIS IS A LONG POST BC I GOT CARRIED AWAY SO BUCKLE UP

And I don't think a lot of the fandom who joined later on knows this. I certainly didn't until like a week or so ago? Like... I knew c!Wilbur had been manipulative from the start because I'm a mod of (shameless self promo incoming) @dsmpanalysis and we have a lot of different POVs in that mod team and discord and we talk about it really frequently. I joined the fandom as someone who was really big on L'manburg ESPECIALLY crimeboys, and have turned into.... *gestures vaguely to my blog*

And ngl I owe a lot of it to @1-michibiki-1 in terms of c!Dream "Apologism" but all of the mods there have expanded my thoughts and views on the storylines of this narrative.

My application consisted of like largely essays about like... how I think Dream was the villain but he was meant to be the villain because you don't get any insight into his character WHICH.... IS A FAIR ASSUMPTION AT FIRST GLANCE. People are easily villainized when you cannot get a glimpse into their thought process. It's easy to dwindle someone down into this flat character and starting out I knew Dream didn't stream the SMP on purpose.

And I personally came to the conclusion of "Oh! So Dream is supposed to be the villain." However as the story continued and I learned more about what Dream went through I began to realize that... it's more than likely a form of a red herring. My opinions on this were immediately solidified when I watched Ranboo's 2 MIL stream because both Ranboo AND Dream agree on enjoying red herrings.

There have been MANY times were Dream has said that c!Dream is a complex character and he's not a wholly evil guy and there have been times where the narrative has honestly just proved that.

Anyways, what's important though was that... I learned most of this from other people who were more focused on c!Dream rather than myself. Eventually I shifted from c!Tommy to c!Ranboo and c!Techno after c!Tommy betrayed c!Techno and I began to realize.... everything I learned before hopping in wasn't exactly what it seemed.

Part of this is because I'm older, I heavily identify with c!Techno's sense of loyalty and philosophies on government, but I especially identify with the anguish c!Techno voiced in... a lot of lore but especially the lore around Doomsday.

I'm not 16 anymore. I don't always feel wronged by adults, or older people in my case, whenever they absolutely have done something wrong by me, but I do feel wronged by my close friends. I also felt like c!Tommy's sense of loyalty didn't line up with mine after what felt like him constantly flip-flopping and refusing to understand c!Techno's morals on government didn't line up with his.

In short, it was easier to identify with Tommy in these animatics versus in the actual stream content because c!Tommy is played by a 16 year old. I'm not a teenager and my line of thinking doesn't entirely line up with people that age anymore. It's harder to place myself in the same shoes of someone's OC who is played closer to their actual age, because I'm not that age.

Regardless, I was still on the c!Dream is a villain train. I wasn't ever like... c!Dream is repulsive I hate him, but I was like omg hot villain lad go brrr.

Even when the first like... mellohi, panic room, Ranboo lore stream popped up I thought "Oh! c!Ranboo corruption arc?"

And I was excited because I really wanted this shy, nervous character to turn into villain buddies with his good pal c!Dream. I'm a total sucker for villains and corruption arcs and all that good shit.

SO I STARTED GETTING REALLY INTERESTED IN ENDERSMILE. I'VE BEEN ON ENDERSMILE SQUAD OUT THE GATE. NOT THE SAME WAY I AM NOW, BUT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED THEM TO TEAM UP.

So... upon not really keeping up with c!Dream and being relatively??? indifferent? I don't think I started arguments on c!Dream back then, but I might have. But I remember like... starting to participate more whenever c!Dream came up and looking more into Dream's character BUT ESPECIALLY TALKING WITH OUR SERVER'S C!DREAM SPECIALIST MICHI ABOUT DREAM A LOT MORE.

And because Michi has been a watcher since day one and was a DTeam fan rather than a SBI fan, she was able to provide me with more information on how the server worked pre-Tommy but especially pre-Wilbur.

Now, you could definitely argue well Michi probably has clear bias but it made sense to me when I looked back on how the storyline had been constructed and was going along, and everyone in the server talks a lot about our own biases and how we want people to maybe not lean so hard on them. Michi would also provide like anecdotes on what had happened and I'm sure links were probably provided at one point but the point was I felt like Michi had no reason to lie or manipulate how the story was told and if she did, eventually someone would have pointed it out because... Group of like... right now it's around 20 or more analysts but I don't remember how many at the time there were. POINT BEING, WE'VE ALL GOT POINTS TO PROVE AND IN MY EXPERIENCE NOT MANY OF US HAVE BEEN SHY TO PROVE THEM.

So if anyone ever had any differing opinions they would be talked about and we literally had and still have discussions.

REGARDLESS.... I DIDN'T FACT CHECK IN DEPTH BECAUSE I THOUGHT PEER REVIEW WAS ENOUGH WHEN YOU HAVE LIKE HOURS UPON HOURS OF STREAMS TO WATCH.

Anyways. Eventually I started paying closer attention and looking more into c!Dream lore but only recently have I started to triple check before speaking about c!Wilbur lore because I know everyone has biases and while I did trust everyone's thoughts and analysis in the discord, whenever I make essays I typically like it to be largely air tight and if theres a mistake, I want it to be because I forgot not because I just trusted what was said. Plus, I wanted to get down to the specifics of how Wilbur had always started with manipulation on the mind.

SO I WATCHED HIS FIRST VIDEO ON THE DREAM SMP.

AND WHAT I WAS NOT BY ANY MEANS EXPECTING WAS WILBUR TO SAY WORD FOR WORD, VERBATIM,

"SO WHY DON'T I START AN INDUSTRY WHERE I USE THE TOMMYINNITS OF THE WORLD TO WORK FOR ME, TO CREATE THINGS THAT THE MIN-MAXERS OF THE WORLD WILL WANT."

Like... this is in no way an attempt to like hardcore villainize c!Wilbur like everyone does Dream, it's just more so to like REALLY outline how far off a lot of fandom interpretation of c!Wilbur is....

Because of SBI focused animatics.

Now, when I joined I watched A LOT of animatics that really highlighted like... Wilbur being this self-loathing JD-esque, "I destroyed it because I had to because the world was against me because no one loved us, Tommy" type of character. At least... that's what it came across as.

And it definitely highlighted the fact that Tommy was a victim, which he is. He is undoubtedly a victim and no not even any dream apologist can change my mind otherwise. Tommy, despite being an instigator sometimes, didn't deserve the abuse he received.

But these animatics never shown the fact that c!Wilbur started L'manburg as a shady ploy to exploit people like c!Tommy and vilify c!Dream so he could have power.

And that was easy because Dream and Tommy had wars before. They had spars and pranks and here's the plan to take back my disks and here's the plan to out smart the thieving little child etc etc.

And all of the animatics I watched never mentioned this. Neither did the recaps though. The recaps gave the events flat out, there didn't sound like there was bias, and honestly I don't really know if there was rather than like... a lack of nuance. And it's hard to provide a recap with that much nuance in a short period of time for a youtube video, to be perfectly fair.

However, this creates a perfect formula for entirely rewriting the history of a server. c!Wilbur quite literally fucking succeeded TO A META LEVEL. He slandered and ran smear campaigns against Dream and like he even does that with Sapnap in the beginning. But what's crazy is that it transferred over into the meta! Most of this fandom understands Wilbur as a victim of mental illness, and yeah maybe? He definitely wasn't mentally well by the end of pogtopia, but he never started out with honorable intentions. L'manburg was never a victim, only its citizens. The TommyInnits of the world.

I just think it's like... such an interesting case study. Because this is like... an opinion like shared by at least half of the fandom, but the vilifying of c!Dream is shared by MOST of the fandom I would argue. Which is like even more crazy for me because that was c!Wilbur's goal!!!

LIKE I GO INSANE WHEN I THINK OF THIS BECAUSE HIS REACH IS JUST TOO POWERFUL. HE'S NOT EVEN ENTIRELY REAL, JUST A MANIPULATIVE PERSONA OF SOME BRITISH GUY.

And I mean... maybe people who have watched Wilbur's video on the SMP still maintain this idea that Wilbur wasn't always the bad guy, but honestly... I wouldn't be surprised if their introduction was still an animatic. Like bias is hard to check and I'm not going to lie I could have sworn I watched both Wilbur's AND Tommy's video on the SMP in the beginning and yet I STILL was a ride or die for tragic yet on some level still honorable Wilbur and a resilient Tommy.

Like... upon watching Wilbur's first video... possibly again I was surprised because I thought I did watch it like right before I even started watching the streams and yet I was still so invested in c!Wilbur as this tortured anti-hero.

It took 6 months of... not being in an echo chamber, full of multiple different people of different ages, different stream POVS, and people who joined the fandom at different points in time.

IDK IF THIS WAS EVEN ENTIRELY RELEVANT IT JUST FELT TANGENTIALLY RELEVANT AND THIS WAS SOMETHING I'VE BEEN THINKING ABOUT FOR A HOT MINUTE AFTER LIKE WATCHING WILBUR'S FIRST VIDEO AGAIN.

TLDR;

SBI CENTRIC ANIMATICS HAD A LASTING AFFECT ON THIS FANDOM AS IT'S HARD TO GO BACK AND ACTUALLY CHECK THE NARRATIVE FOR SOLID FACTS FOR YOUR OWN INTERPRETATION BASED ON THE FACT THAT THIS NARRATIVE SPANS OVER HUNDREDS OF HOURS WORTH OF TWITCH STREAMS.