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meeeooooowowoowwoowwww mraaaoo mrrrp
thanks for meowing in my asks. I was gonna use this to talk about the discourse but after writing like 6 paragraphs I got too scared and decided to erase everything. Sorry…
#hello it is me princezam#I just wanted to talk about my identity more than anything but I think I’m too scared for even that haha#it did help me understand things better though so ultimately it was a success#Both situation wise and identity wise#also please don’t spread this post please! Thanks#Also also please don’t attack people on my behalf not that anyone’s doing that#I just feel like I need to say that#I’m an adult I can handle stuff people say yk that typa thing#I just don’t want to be like certain hateful communities ever like ever
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There are more things in the Parable than Stanley knows about. [Blank Scripts AU]
#hoh boy i was going to make a comic to introduce these monsters but#i couldnt help myself and made an animation instead#because i just think they're so neat and cool okay#listen i cant for the life of me just infofump about my AU and OCs#because i just think that making actual content about my lore and stuff will not only raise the chances of people being interested#but also it will also raise my motivation to actually produce more content other than the same old recycled front-facing-profile drawings#i need to get creative with my stuff or I'll also loose interest and I DONT want that#in order to be happy with what i have i cant just think about it and expect to be given something new NOOOO i need to MAKE it ughh#i cant believe in order to get more content out of my own au i would need to draw it and feed myself ugh ugh ugh unbelievable (kidding)#but also#i wanna make a little music video or animation again for youtube#its been a hot while since ive uploaded anything in there at all#maybe an animation reel will do for now?#i hope so :(#because ive been working on expanding the Black Scripts AU#and honestly i dont regret it#i had a lot of fun making up scenarios and comics for Stanley and the Narrator (Black)#but yeah!#apart from this little video#you wont be getting an explanation on what these things are supposed to be#and why theyre there#actually i was originally gonna make this into a full fledge animation with sound effect/music/frame-by-frame movement/etc.#but i got lazy HAHA#tsp blank scripts au#tsp au#the stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#tsp
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is he solemn from trauma and unflappable regardless of the situation, or does he just have >50 units of Botox in his face at any given time; a novel about Bruce Wayne.
#like maybe he is feeling things y'all#and it's not the training#or the trauma#or anything else#it's just the fact that moving his face requires concerted effort#so he never looks shocked#or upset#or sad#unless he REALLY wants to be#lol#botox#bruce wayne#batman#dc#batfamily#joking#JOKING#or am I#(I have 20 units in my eyebrows and cannot move them without trying)#it has helped me stay “calm” in so many situations haha#“wow you really handled that so calmly”#thanks it was the fact that I can't move my face
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Justify away (Patreon)
#Doodles#Clinical Trial#Angel Martinez#Lee Smith#I had far too much fun drawing that first one even if I do think it's OOC lol#I don't think he'd touch them that casually I just reallyyy wanted to draw it#Thus his apology afterwards lol#They're in a particularly delicate mindframe at that point! No way he'd touch them without their express permission#Though he sure does overstep in other ways huh - that's kind of his MO haha he won't lift a hand against their will but anything else?#Fair game#He's creepy! Convinced he means well and in some ways he does but agh#I like how I honestly can't settle on the way I feel about him haha - I just feel A Lot towards him!#I'd tell him to treat Angel well but I already know he'd literally die before he made any other move pft.... Oh Lee...#His self-justifications are probably the scariest part of him - the way he can turn so quick on a dime if he just convinces himself#''No actually I intended to do that from the start'' uh huh - guy who definitely had everything figured out from the very beginning#Sure Lee lol#Which isn't to say he's not intelligent! That's part of his problem really lol he can talk himself around with logical arguments#Doesn't mean he's right but once he's settled he's hard to unsettle haha#What he regrets and what he doesn't give such an insight into what he values as well#Murder? Just doing more good than harm - harm reduction even getting rid of someone without remorse#Better him than someone else and better Brandon than let him run loose#Neverminding him taking the role of judge-jury-executioner - and this is no defense of Brandon I do basically agree with them both#But that's still not Lee's choice#But the closet? Something he does regret - because that was selfishly motivated that was inward-aimed with outward consequences#Murder was to help Angel and anyone else in the line of fire - the closet was Lee's own pleasure above all else#Makes sense that he'd be more worried about one than the other and that order being a little skewed lol#Not something he could justify to himself and so it became a regret! Man - the fact that the Reject-Reject ending has him predict Angel :(#Wonder if it's something he could ever spin the positive on if given enough time - everything happens pretty fast thereafter#Impulsive guy.... But that is part of the Lot I feel towards him haha
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Kingdom Hearts Dream Drop Distance - Traverse Town
#kingdom hearts dream drop distance#khddd#traverse town#scenery#my gif#trying my hand at giffing the worlds of this game despite the lack of a first person view (something i'm very upset about)#so i have to obtain and edit these shots in a very awkward manner#all while constantly being shoved around by my dream eaters#i'm so serious when i say making this set was really really frustrating lol#i can't find a free roaming camera mod or anything else that would be helpful for me#but i'll keep at it because i love looking at still shots of video game environments#and being able to share it with other people who enjoy it too#ANYWAYS traverse town is so beautiful in this game they added so many gorgeous areas with pretty glowing lights#i like the wacky whimsical mail room too and how there's this entire secret workshop hidden beneath that weird mailbox haha#the world really does feel magical and dreamy especially with its updated music#just realized the stars in the first gif are moving which is strange
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emotional security is stored in the undramatic calm utterly certain and unbearably soft way alistair says 'my love?' when you switch to him once he's reached 'love' status
#gets me every time. the change from the giddy giggly responses early on in the romance to just like. that. help#it's so. *steady*. it feels like you could build anything on that and it'd hold up under the weight#alistair and garrus handshake meme that way#you can't just speak to me like that alistair you're making me think there could be hope in this world#that and the way zevran says 'my friend!' is all that's keeping me going right now haha#dragon age#dragon age origins#alistair theirin#also got the banter today where he calls wynne his second favorite mage when you're romancing him as a mage 😊#god bless wynne for trolling him too I love everyone in this stupid game so much fuck you I'm not crying
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im trying to sleep but i can’t
how’d you know that?
#gfh is parallel to this argue w the wall#even disregarding the theory abt tb being the clancy before ty and pretending ty giving him a mask isn’t meaningful#and pretending that ‘you can take it off when you’re ready’ ‘they won’t know it’s you’ don’t mean anything#the contract’s non lore meaning - to me - is abt the pressure and obligation tyler feels to keep making music to help us stay alive#when he’s struggling with his own battles. knowing that the loss will be far greater than himself but being exhausted#ANYWAY IM NOT GINNA GET CARRIED AWAY TGERE BUT WHAT IM GETTING AT#is that it ties back to the meaning of guns for hands and how he begged ppl to channel their pain into his music and how he made it for us#gkd it’s 2am i am NOT explaining this right#but like . yall know what gfh is abt. its not just ‘turn our guns to a fist’#it’s abt ‘i simply tell them they should shoot at this simply suggest my chest’#i don’t think we properly acknowledge the amount of pressure we have inadvertently put on this band but tyler especially#i cannot imagine how exhausting it would be to feel like you are partially responsible for the mental health of tens of thousands of people#i’ll probably come back to this in the morning and try articulate wtf i’m trying to say better but like#tldr i adore tyler and think there’s a LOT of pressure on him to channel his pain into his music to help us and fear he’s exhausted#i hope they have a nice break after the breach era and that he manages to get closure#idk i can’t words rn im fighting to keep my eyes open i just love him and worry and yeah#anyway whatever haha gfh tc parallels waow#art2 and craft2#cliqueart#twenty one pilots#tøp#torchbearer#breach#clancy#josh dun#clique art#the contract#also this was a relatively quick piece i did not try to render this ‘properly’ like i usually would w this brush/style apologies#however this was just meant to be a palate cleanser between dr pieces so i refused to work on it for longer than 2 hours#ALSO THE GUNSHOT MOTIF DUH I WAS THINKING ABT IT SO MUCH I ASSUMED ID SAID THAT
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I don't know if i have ever seen people so vehemently disliking something I really genuinely enjoyed and felt was really engaging and thought provoking as I have with the trunk.
#the trunk#there are so many posts in the tags of people shitting on this drama#and obviously there are plenty of people who liked it too#it's always weird when you feel this out of sync with a group of viewers#i also can't help but crack up at the fact that I'm constantly seeing stuff in bl tags about keeping anything negative out of them#those people would not survive in a kdrama tag haha#mdy
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born to devote my life to academia and higher education and also born to work with small children. not really being forced to do anything i don’t want to do it just sucks that i have to choose between them
#the real answer is that i do both like i have been doing for the past years#but that uh. doesn’t pay well. so. gotta find a way to live too.#i could be an elementary school teacher but i’d be miserable not doing anything academically engaging.#i could be a college professor but i’d be miserable not working with kids.#my shitty minimum wage job is never going to be a profession that pays well cause nobody cares about childcare workers#which is. insane. children’s lives in our hands.#but y’know. i work at an after-school program. people aren’t really hype on getting us better pay.#god i love that job so much though. lets you connect with the kids better i think because your job is Not to teach them academically…#my job is to teach them still i am still a teacher. but i am teaching them conflict resolution and emotional regulation#and helping them with their homework and holding them while they cry and letting them climb all over me when i shouldn’t haha#it is parenting lite. i think. thirty kids at a time.#and i kind of want to do it for the rest of my life…#crazy. crazy. crazy. anyway#valentine notes
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I really liked “I Saw The TV Glow” for a lot of reasons like the lighting and sound design and stuff
But I also really liked it because how similar I felt to it. Like you watch a show you love so much you want to Be In It and all you do is interact with That Show to the point where you start talking like it and you make everything you see like it because you don’t Know anything else
I really liked owens character because of how Stuck he is in his life. He says he doesn’t think about “that stuff” because it makes him feel gross so he doesnt. He takes a job at a place he doesn’t like and when it gets shut down he goes with the manager to the next place also doing a job he hates. When his parents die he lives in the same house he grew up in because he doesn’t want to leave. He had one friend and when she disappeared presumed dead he didn’t do anything but reminiscenced on his time with her and watching the show she helped him watch. You can also see how he starts taking care of himself less after his father died, in the last scenes of the movie he looks like he barely eats or drinks water, he doesn’t do anything but his job. “Years feel like seconds” because he isn’t doing anything of importance he lost everything that he looked forward too
He doesn’t talk above a normal speaking volume until he’s literally DYING and even after he apologizes still out of breath. He’s still dying then. No one responds to his apologies or responded to him when he was screaming
He gets a chance to leave and go with Maddie to The Pink Opaque and he gets scared, he gets a chance to leave with her when he was younger and he gets scared. He’s so unhappy with his life but he doesn’t want to change it because he doesn’t know what else to do
#yeah this movie totally didn’t resonate with me at all#haha#fuck#also he didn’t say anything or really try to wxplore not being a guy except that one time he wore a dress with Maddie. he didn’t even bring#it up with his parents but they made little comments that made him scared. so for the rest of his life he didn’t think about it he tried to#hide how he felt his entire life about everything because he didn’t Want to live his life. he was happy while watching The Pink Opaque so#everything else felt like he was waiting to get back to it#when he rewatched it years later it didn’t feel the same and that’s when he started falling apart. you could see his ribs when he was on th#ground in one of the last scenes his inhaler didn’t work he didn’t do anything to try and get help or get out of it#uhhhhh do I tag the movie#I think I will I liked writing this#I wanna talk about it more but idk How rn#i saw the tv glow#woo hoo!!#the feeling this movie gave is one that got me to start making dextrine and stuff. I don’t want to say too much and spoil it but it’s simil#similar ((:
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a lesson on good karma digimon survive week 2024 day 4: supporting characters
#digimon#gomamon#digimon survive#survive week#survive week 2024#rambling ahead. you don't have to read the tags beyond bc there's nothing that important tbh... you can just look at the art...#exhausted from being out and doing housework yesterday. then got a last-minute job with very urgent deadline today#finished everything but yeah basically i did anything but art so#irl do be like that aint it#anyway it's been a long time since i played survive and my memory isn't that good#but i always remember the part where we had to protect the gomamon#and later they showed us a path via the dam allowing the team to continue exploring#it reminded me of just how important it is to be nice and do good things whenever and wherever possible#and be mindful with the not-so-good things you do and say#be it good or bad. karma is real even if you don't know when it will get back at you#and you know in visual novel settings. whatever choice you make really determines what happens later on#yeah believe it or not i end up thinking stuff like that by helping a bunch of adorable seal mons...#mmm i'm officially behind now so i might as well take my time while also rest a bit haha ;;#this week has been fun with survive week tho fr. even though i came in unprepared (when will i change)#gotta keep surviving#png
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Headcanon #500:
Mind is afraid that when he distances himself from or above the others, that he will be too far gone to come back down. That when his paranoia gets the best of him, he'll shut everyone else out and then be completely alone with no way back to where he was before.
Heart is afraid that if Mind is right, with the idea that what he does isn't genuine, that he's being manipulative without realizing it. Then therefore being Whole without himself there is the better option. That he'd be thrown out because his ideas would then be "not worth it" or even "vile"
Soul is afraid that no matter what he does or how good things will be, they'll always eventually split up again or even end up worse. Even then he has no clue what he's supposed to do or be during everything, and so because of that he'll never be whole. Or worse that he'll never really "feel" whole.
#kiiiiiiiinda just saying what is a bit talked about in the album but eh#i like this#fun fact: i made this & saved it as a draft back when it was just barley over 100#finally being posted at 500#wanting to post my own at each hundred mark cos why not#i say that but there's only one more submission in the queue atm soooo#send me your headcanons now to make my own ideas for special occasions get it like special hahaha [please send more i only have so many]#[idk what to do after I run out help]#haha anyway#next are my old tags from when i first made this post#cj soul#cj mind#cj heart#chonny jash#wow did KJ just attempt to make an angst headcanon? never thought that would happen#anyways idk how much this makes sense but eh it works#if theres anything to get from this or how my ideas with them work#mind can be overly paranoid. heart can be too protective of himself. and those idea make them believe the other has it out for them#soul has no idea how to really deal with that let alone what he's supposed to be#or something along those lines#idk its 5am man idk what im talking about#i need to go to bed pfft#chonnys charming chaos compendium
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Experimentation (Patreon)
#Doodles#UT#Handplates#Sans#Papyrus#Continuing the theme of memories and what Gaster ruined for them haha#He doesn't even have to be here and he's making their lives harder! Par for the course#Lots of things have the potential to trigger their memories - a familiar smell or a food they recognize#But there were so many things they never experienced and sifting between them is very difficult!#Especially considering most of what they ''remember'' is actually just their Reaction to Something - like the smoke smell making them tense#Sans here getting a Reaction for sure tho - being questioned and experimented on does Not feel good#It's Papyrus doing it so that's one thing but even still - not having fun with this#Papyrus is so curious! He wants to know! He always seems to be a bit left out on finding things out haha#Sans being the more science-minded of the two probably has an impact there - ask your brother he'll help figure it out#Unless he really doesn't want to because it feels weird please stop (lol)#Still tho being asked to eat things as an experiment? ''oh hey bro maybe going to grillby's will remind me of something'' ''SANS'' lol#Papyrus didn't mean anything by continuing to ask questions he's just curious!#Sans goes to write down the results and then feels Even Worse so scribbles them out#''don't tell me what to do!'' directed nowhere in particular#Tries really hard to put it out of him mind A Lot#This remembering business sure is uncomfortable!#Look what you did Gaster you took a perfectly fun data-gathering session and turned it into something they'll need therapy for!
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Paul protec





Emma protec


Emma and paul protec


Paul no protec 😔

#idk why but that first image of him racing to charlotte makes me cackle#oh hey look i still have too much time on my hands#starkid#the guy who didn't like musicals#team starkid#tgwdlm#starkid productions#paul matthews#emma perkins#paulkins#jon matteson#lauren lopez#so we all know how paul refused to help bill with his daughter in the beginning but then goes with him to save her plays out#well you can kind of say he has similar arcs with charlotte and ted#because in the digital ticket you can see him overhearing charlottes conversation with her husband but doesn’t say anything#but when her husband is coming after her he gets in the middle of it#and ted wasnt invited to beanies essentially left behind but then paul goes back for him#im reading too much into it i know#im still sick i have nothing else to think about other than my misery haha
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Boothill doesn't pull his hair back very often. Dan Heng can count the times he's seen him do it on one hand. The man's right eye is gone completely but his left is a cybernetic, and it means Boothill can "see" whether his hair is in his face or not, so there's simply never much need for it.
So it surprises him when Boothill asks if he can put his hair up for him Xianzhou-style.
"Do you even own a hairpin?"
"Ya got chopsticks around here, don't ya?"
Which is how they end up awkwardly sat on the floor of the archives, Boothill sitting criss-cross and Dan Heng knelt behind him to make up for the differences in their height. Boothill doesn't say why he wants this done, but Dan Heng can guess: long life species are rarely allowed to leave the Xianzhou ships. It's not as rare as running into an actual, real-life Galaxy Ranger, but it's still pretty uncommon. Boothill is just trying to indulge his curiosity about little cultural things like this while he's able. Dan Heng can never say no to that kind of curiosity.
When his own hair was long, he never put it up. But there are memories, just little bits of things that nip at Dan Heng's ankles in the night when he's alone in the dark. And he remembers something like this, something similar. Dan Feng's hands with a hairpin, long hair grayed with age flowing in rivers between his fingers, quick and easy practiced motions revealing ears and nape and soot from the forge.
Boothill hands him a chopstick when he asks for it, because Dan Heng finds he needs both hands to keep his hair in place. He's not quick enough the first time, and the bun unravels, and the second attempt is better but it's messy and held so loosely that he goes at it for a third.
Boothill doesn't comment on it. Instead he just sits there and admires the picture of it that Dan Heng shows him on his phone, chatters a bit about what he knows of Xianzhou culture, how he'd met a Foxian woman not too long before Penacony with elaborate decorations done up in her hair and he'd wondered how anyone could even do that. A hairpin maybe would have been easier, but really the chopsticks probably fit him better, pretty little things like that don't suit me, anyhow.
Dan Heng catches like. Half of it. He's too busy staring at his hands.
Dan Feng had been good at doing other people's hair for them. He'd had a lot of practice. Dan Heng had seen it. But in the molting rebirth, his body had reset. The simple knowledge could be inherited. The experience could not.
That skill, that muscle memory, belongs to Dan Feng, and to Dan Feng only.
There is no mourning, no sense of loss with this realization, just relief. An extra confirmation of something he had already known.
But Dan Heng looks up at Boothill, who is running his curious fingers over the back of his own head, and he thinks about how there are some things he can have just for himself, too.
#honkai star rail#henghill#dan heng#boothill#hsr#hsr dan heng#hsr boothill#bootheng#this got posted late because it was not the henghill post I was originally going to make today oops#but the other one needs more consideration for characterization and culture#so this is what we're doing today instead haha#I don't think Dan Heng needs Boothill to reinforce the idea that he is not Dan Feng.#he already knows he isn't and the express crew has already helped quite a bit in that regard-#-for accepting him as he is now and not holding him to Dan Feng's standard#like I'm a huge yingyue believer but I've never really liked r3nheng or jingh3ng#I like Dan Heng getting to step away from anything related to Dan Feng and Boothill works really well for that ♡#(this is why other than henghill my only other ship for Dan Heng is dango trio haha)#these two give me the yaps so bad ARGH
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Hello! My shop is open! I sell prints, stickers, and comics! >>> danikacatchpole.com/shop <<< My shop has been closed for the past month while I revamp my website for the first time in 10 years, but please feel free to have a squiz if anything here interests you.
#danika doodles#I can't attend conventions anymore due to my health but I still have all my stock from 2019#please help me get it out of my house there's so much of it haha#All prices are in AUD and will be shipped from Australia so I cannot guarantee anything will arrive in time for the holidays btw
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